#Vent 

My time in the sims community has been very difficult this year between the general feeling of being disliked, having my mental illness and ethnicity being publicly ridiculed and made a mockery of. I feel like people avoid me and my content like I still carry the plague and if I was a weaker minded individual I would've left a long time ago. 

That said, few things feel better than showing your sims to your friends and hearing them audibly gasp in awe... The moments when we can build on stream together and I tab into camera mode to check the lighting or ceiling fixtures and I hear soft "wows" from my friends. Hearing my friends tell me they appreciate the way I sculpt my Sims, the attention to detail, the way I never make the same face twice. 

That's what its about. That's what it's always been about. 

My content may seem very lack luster and it doesn't really get a lot of engagement but knowing my closest friends find beauty in my work means a lot to me and I'm grateful to this community for gifting me the chance to share my creations with such beautifully talented, kind and creative simmers. 

I really love my friends and I hope everyone gets to experience the genuine love and encouragement I've felt this year bc they give me strength and courage to stay within this community and exist in a space where I don't truly feel welcome with the hopes that truly I'll be able to make a name for myself here even if I remain small.
#Vent