Shesh.  Guys are such jerks.  Hey, it is easier to talk to friends if you have any close ones, otherwise you will tend to get a lot of bs from the jerks and pervs on this site.  We can talk if you want, but I can guarentee it will be easier with friends, people you know and trust.  I kind of get what you are going through.  So, like I said, the option is open if you want to talk.