My story starts, as far as how I came to find this site and why, after my first deployment to Iraq. The amount of hate that I had inside me was indescribable. I've never been a hateful person, not once in my life, so to say that it was hard for me to deal with my newly blackened heart is an understatement. Upon my return I started to notice a lot of similarities between the people I had to deal with there and many different cultures here in America. This started my newfound interest in NSM, WN, ANYTHING really, that would allow me to express the hatred I had. I locked on to seemingly the fantastic ideas of Hitler, Hess, Goring, etc, etc.     Over the past few years I've been dealing with a lot of sh!t and am starting to figure things out. I've learned that there is no purpose for hate. It was destroying me, my family, and the relationships I once had with good friends of mine. It has done nothing for me but make my life worse. There were the issues of politics, Socialist ideas that had slipped into my mind while entranced in my fit of rage. I locked onto socialism purely based on its association with the Reich and images of unadulterated hate . Big problem with that... I'm a hard core libertarian and an anarcho-capitalist. I believe in the AMERICAN dream, which requires little to NO government intervention to work. I found myself.... well not myself.     I contemplated either deleting my account or just never returning to this site, simply to cut ties with the old me so to speak... But I have decided not to do that.    If there is one thing that this rocky road has taught me, its who I truly am and where I came from. I'm damn proud of my ancestry and ethnic background, and believe that EVERYONE should be. That is not to say that I feel that I am any better than else. I've learned that being proud of your race doesn't mean, for me at least, that I feel it is some how superior. There are ****ty people out there of all ethnicities, even my own. Case in point, some of the people that helped me on my transition were the very people I was associating my self with. No more than punk ass criminals that run around causing mayhem and selling drugs, the exact type of trash I was funneling my hate toward was standing by my side. People are people, and very few of them are GOOD people.     I've decided to stay active on the site, but to fallow my new found direction in life. I'll stay because of my link to this site based upon my ancestry, and hopefully find some people that feel the same way as I do. I've decided that maybe if I can tell my stories maybe others who are in the position I was can (if they wish) open their eyes before they destroy everything they love. Wanting to preserve your culture is not wrong, wanting to do so based solely on hate is.    I would not consider my self a WN. Nationalism, much like I said before about socialism, is just not for me. Nor do I think that anyone should run this country solely based upon ethnic background. I'm just an American who happens to be white, and damn proud of where he comes from.    Not sure of how this will be received by the community. If you feel as if you need to hate me, or view me as a race traitor, then by all means have fun doing so. If not and (at least some) of you feel the same... well maybe my choice to stay here was the right one.