I build up a staggering debt both on private and federal loans pursing a XXXX at an XXXX University school XXXX. Unfortunately many things happened in my life and I could not pursue XXXX resulting in the default of the loans with XXXX and XXXXl loan companies. I can not afford to pay on any of the loans with my part time XXXX as an XXXX. The loans are in default and they are suing me in both civil and supreme court in XXXX New York.