It's been a pretty difficult year so far.  My wife passed away in April and I'm still pretty lost.  I never thought I'd end up a widow.  Have you ever been married?
No but I am engaged. Im sorry to hear about that are you getting treatment to help you treatments varies but it helps.
That's true, treatment and talking to people helps.  It's nice to know that people are out there who are compassionate enough to listen.  How long have you been engaged for?
for about a year now. I remember one time hearing the term for widowhood could be for either gender.
That's true.  I can see that being factual due to both genders being able to have lost someone.  It's pretty hard to go through.  I hope that you never have to experience the pain.
same but women generally outlive men so their is always that possibility 
That's true.  Interesting fact to hear but didn't work out that way in my case.  I hope that I am able to find another partner again soon.
Im sure you will, did your spouse own a business? you have rights to it if so and can even join guilds they might have been in.