text: Well all become what we hate the most at times. Its the struggle against that person that makes us able to speak the truth. In time this will be one more scar, and youll look be to for strength, trust me when I say this for I was there, and now Im here and the pains there only in the memory. Everything passes in time and begins anew. Its the times when the bullshit starts again, that you hear His presence and warning sign and reminder that even the most bitter taste can heal.
  My whole entire life had to deal with heart issues
  Jumping out moving cars, trying to heal the scar tissue
  We all become what we hate the most at times
  The pain is still there but its only in the mind
  Underneath the black clouds, knowing nothing but hurt
  If you felt the verse then you were touched by the words
  I wonder everyday how old I want to live to be
  Or what Id give to see a vision, would could ?? to free
  Struggling against that person, that ?? isnt me
  Its a battle between what I show and the inner me
  Deep in concentration, soul contemplating
  My destiny, my energy, my memory fade
  Cuz in time you look back and realize
  You are best in essence to even be alive
  And all the truths kept in your brain are real
  And proof that even the most bitter of pains can heal
  She scares for my soul but they already heal
  Try to figure out where I lost control of the deal
  Its like scar tissue that I wish you saw
  Sarcasm mr. know-it-all
  I cant take no more man, the way raw
  Push me down in a hole, put me under the floor
  Its like Im fighting with myself but its bigger than that
  Like I love what I hate, man I figure its wack
  Speaking on life, destiny is holding the mic
  Its like its true what I said mothafucka I write
  I spent hours in my head, Im already dead
  I dont really feel remorseful, it was already said
  I need answers, cancers infecting the world
  If I live will I give what I got to the ??
  I blame God for this gift but Im saying my prayers
  Let me in when I ring and Im coming upstairs
  Im covered in scars, been picking at scabs relentless
  I send this to the stars, still waiting for God to end this
  Mend this in our hearts, the parts are barely working
  Not certain to where to start, I depart to find that person
  Who spent his time ?? rehearsing with skills bursting
  Immersed in staying ill, tryna build a perfect version
  Adverb and kill a sermon, burn vermin to the ??
  If the thrill was worth the yearning, earning props on top of burning
  Confirming I was turning this burning to a flash flood
  Fuel the room with hate as I escaped to what the mask was
  With vast drugs to bug shrug the burden, hide the hurting
  Working to stay alive but I died inside that person
  Somehow I survived to arrive inside a stranger
  But the scars are just my sides to reflect the tides of anger
  So now I hang a noose for when that ego boost is felt
  It helps the scars become the proof of how I used to be myself
  Theres a hundred ways I fucked up, a thousand things I done wrong
  A million ways to run amuck, its hard to sum it up in one song
  I admit Im guilty, my hands got filthy for the progress
  I knew it would make me strong if it didnt kill me in the process
  I had to start over and swallow every ounce of pride
  That ?? have scarred over, and the broken bones have calcified
  My dreams they try to kill em, and fill them with formaldehyde
  But they aint about to die, shadow of deathll never cloud my sky
  Its fate of dark when them poisonous darts hit you
  It rips through scar tissue from heart issues that God gives you
  But if yall live through the predicament the bitterness will disperse
  No longer to be plagued by the ignorance of this Earth
  I know that it hurts but its barely a limitation
  Its liberation from jail if you can prevail through tribulation
  I can stare at it blindly, just when I swear its behind me
  I finally become aware theres something there to remind me...sing