"After all," she said to herself, as she ran wildly across the cheery orchard, "poor old Tommy and I will have our holidays together, for at the very best, even if father has not lost that money, I will have to stay here during the holidays.  Oh, father! oh, father! how am I to live without you?  Oh, father, dear, this is too cruel!  I know, I am certain you have lost the money, or you would not be going to India away from your own, own Kitty."