"Alas, mother, I fear I am mad," replied the girl, "for I do intend to accept Aunt Susan's bounty.  I will wear her pretty dresses, and all the other things she happens to send me, and I will take her money and do my best, my very best, to get the Scholarship; but all the same, mother, I shall do it meanly, I know I shall do it meanly.  It would be better for me to give up the Scholarship and go as a poor girl to Stoneley Hall.  Mother, there is such a thing as lowering yourself in your own eyes, and I feel bad, bad about this."