Think it's used to you in that  I don't know what , I don't tell Ron, well he knows how I felt cos I said course I'm , god he said, is that a performance, he said I haven't sat on your knee for ages, I said no I just feel like it , before we went out and er, I said well I don't think there's anything the matter do you, I said with him back there saying make sure Mr Hudson has the notes, and he said no, he said, he said he wouldn't leave it seven months he said