"Tanner and Blacksmith will laugh at me and think I am a coward.  Well, let them," I said to myself at last.  "It isn't cowardice not to wish to see such a horror as this.  I didn't feel cowardly when they were shooting at us down in the creek, and it would be far more cowardly to sit here against my will without speaking.  I will tell them I want to go."