It allows him to gain resolve needed to commit suicide to be with his mother again .
He learns things that he did n't know about her situation , including his father 's violent past that led to the divorce that he blamed his mother for .
It allows him to gain resolve needed to commit suicide to be with his mother again .
He learns things that he did n't know about her situation , including his father 's violent past that led to the divorce that he blamed his mother for .