As a result , upon learning Altair 's true identity , he initially kept this a secret from the others , unable to face his demons .
However , after learning that she committed suicide , he was left traumatized with self - loathing .
Upon learning Altair 's true identity , he initially kept this a secret from the others , unable to face his demons .
However , after learning that she committed suicide , he was left traumatized with self - loathing .