I 've known during this entire training that I was n't as into it as I thought I 'd be .
I did n't listen , instead I half - assed my training and did n't take any joy in it so that 's that .
I 've known during this entire training that I was n't as into it as I thought I 'd be and I did n't listen , instead I half - assed my training and did n't take any joy in it so that 's that .