' ' This is , I think , the first time I watched a performance and - this actually may be a bit revealing - .
It 's the first time I watched a performance and felt like I was n't protecting myself emotionally . ' '
' ' This is , I think , the first time I watched a performance and - this actually may be a bit revealing - but it 's the first time I watched a performance and felt like I was n't protecting myself emotionally . ' '