And to be frank , I knew that I just could n't live with that knowledge .
Even if I never told a soul and pretended I did the race , I would always know that I came so close to the starting line and chickened out .
To be frank , I knew that I just could n't live with that knowledge .
Even if I never told a soul and pretended I did the race , I would always know that I came so close to the starting line and chickened out .