JEFF PEARLMAN : So Brian , I just read a really fascinating 2005 ESPN.com piece about your decision not to use steroids while with the Mets -- .
How it was n't an easy one to make .
JEFF PEARLMAN : So Brian , I just read a really fascinating 2005 ESPN.com piece about your decision not to use steroids while with the Mets -- and how it was n't an easy one to make .