Clozapine
borderline personality disorde
"I took this medicine for 6 years as a teenager for "bipolar" (which we found out was a misdiagnosis).
This medication made me miserable.  I felt like I had died and somehow was still walking the Earth.  For the first couple of years I became extremely paranoid, which I had never had a problem with before taking the medicine. The depression was still there.  As the dose was gradually decreased, I felt a bit better but still had that feeling of dread.
You eat everything.  You sleep all the time.  You don't care about anything.
Coming off of the medicine is almost as bad as being on it!  I had severe headaches and nausea, and I lost 10 pounds almost instantly.
Clozapine has its place, but you should think hard before taking it."