If a black hole has the same mass as me, then why dont i suck everything at my center of mass? So, a black hole is very dense that you can get really close to its center of mass that it has a strong pull, well, if i have the mass of a black hole that has a really small event horizon, why doesnt my center of mass create an explosion from hawking radiation, or suck myself
Because you are somewhat larger than your Schwarzchild radius.
In order to turn into a black hole and start experiencing exciting things like Hawking radiation, you'd need to be compressed down into a ball about $10^{-25}$ meters in diameter, about one ten-billionth the size of a single proton.  At that size, you'd have a hard time sucking anything in: your gravity falls off quickly with distance, and even most subatomic particles will just bend their paths slightly as they pass you by.