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 As Hailey Glassman takes to the airwaves to tell her side of the ridiculous mess that has become Jon and Kate Gosselin’s lives, the former nanny and lover of Jon revealed another bombshell – that she is afraid of Jon having suicidal thoughts or tendencies if he and Hailey break up! Stephanie Santoro spoke exclusively to RadarOnline.com about her relationship with the father of eight and said she is afraid of what he might do to himself if he and the woman he has called the love of his life break up. 
 
 VIDEO: Tearful Hailey Glassman Continues To Open Up, John Responds 
 
 “He said he was going to kill himself,” Stephanie told RadarOnline.com. After Jon and Hailey broke up Stephanie said that he called her and revealed his dark and disturbing thoughts to her. He said “He was going to end it all the he couldn’t handle it anymore.” 
 
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 Hailey was tearful on The Insider as she said she believes Jon emotionally abuses her and she feels she has put “her entire life on hold” for Jon, and that she feels she can no longer deal with the constant whispering, pointing fingers and accusations of being a home wrecker from the public. 
 
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 Jon professed his love of Hailey to Stephanie Santoro, who told RadarOnline.com that the depressed father told her “All he wanted to do was be with Hailey,” but that the pressure of his life was getting to be too much for him. “He couldn’t handle it anymore, this was all too much for him,” Stephanie said about Jon. 
 
 VIDEO: Hailey Glassman Claims Jon Gosselin Emotionally Abuses Her 
 
 Stephanie said that she would hope that Jon is not at the same point of despair now, but that it is a fear of hers. Maybe Sunday’s meeting with Rabbie Schmuley will help Jon change his ways. Of course, maybe doing that in private would be better. 
 
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 "The Insider" has's first reaction to his girlfriend's tearful declaration that life dating him has been difficult and painful. 
 
 Jon opens up to "The Insider" about Hailey's confessions, saying: 
 
 "My girlfriend, Hailey Glassman, has paid a significant price to live under such a media microscope. I am grateful for her emotional support and I regret any pain that my actions have caused her as she has selflessly born the pressures I have endured under the media glare. I am committed to making things right with Hailey as well as Kate and especially my children. I ask you to please give me the opportunity to prove myself." 
 
 Jon's comment comes after an emotional Hailey told "The Insider" about her headline-grabbing relationship with the dad of eight -- including her struggles in the spotlight, being called a "homewrecker" for dating Jon after his split with his estranged wife Kate.
– Hailey Glassman's two-part Insider interview began last night, and she cried about putting "her entire life on hold" (including college) for Jon Gosselin. "I can't do this anymore, I can't take it," she said, adding that she's told Jon "If you really loved me, you would let me go," but he has begged her to stay. He's even threatened suicide if Glassman leaves him, ex-nanny Stephanie Santoro tells Radar. Jon, of course, responded to the Insider with a statement, thanking Hailey for her "emotional support" and asking the world at large for an "opportunity to prove myself." The best news of all comes from Star, with the seemingly inevitable revelation that this whole mess will be turned into a movie, courtesy of New Line Cinema. "Ideally they'd like Cameron Diaz for Kate and Johnny Depp for Jon," says a perhaps naively optimistic source.