I enjoy a challenge and long for the thrill of excitement and risk. I love people, viewing everyone and everything as part of an often extraordinary, interconnected whole. I see patterns and connections in everything. I am naturally inclined toward forming relationships with people and animals. Intense emotional experiences vital to a life of substance and I seek harmonious relationships with others and within myself. 
Some might say that I am a human guinea pig because I love to experiment on myself and with life. I am a risk taker and extremely bold! When I want something in life, I go for it. I am never afraid of taking the plunge, especially if theres risk involved. I dont shy away from speaking my mind in some way. Everything I do is carefully and critically calculated in my mind beforehand. It is almost as if, I am rehearsing a script with different endings in my head and Ill try each one to see what works. I live life as it should be lived: with total enthusiasm and challenge what I fear most. 
I am unpredictably spontaneous, charismatic with a great deal of amusingly unconventional attributes. I do gain the favor of the more straitlaced individuals because in spite of my nonconformity, I am warm, affectionate, outgoing, fun, and genuinely like people. I enjoy telling stories, especially funny stories about my family and friends. If you want the world to know something, just tell me. Perfection is an illusion that I dont buy into. Close enough is often all right with me, which may unnerve more precise thinking types. I become closer to perfection each day but even I know that absolute truth or absolute perfection does not exist because we are in a constant state of change for better or for worse- till death do we part. 
I make a good first impression. I am mature and playful, these two sides to my personality are constantly dueling it out. Part of me likes all of the finer things in life, while part of me is just like a big kid. No matter what side I choose, I am always adventurous and dramatic. I take life by the horns. I am up for fun of all kinds, and its hard for me to say no to a good time. I tend to go until I drop. I am outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. I truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, I am the first to say, lets go! 
My attention span can be short often being easily intrigued and distracted by new friends and acquaintances, forgetting about the older ones for long stretches at a time. Everyone doesnt have to believe that I am wonderful and fascinating person. Humility? I dont have much to be humble about! And I might as well promote myself, because no one else will. I believe that I am a pretty special person and I let everyone know about it. As long as it is true, I will let my colors shine. I am learning not to pretend to be confident within areas that I am insecure. That is a death trap. Be proud about being who you are, sure its alright to fake it till you make it, but be honest with yourself when things dont work out. 
I am conscientiousness; generally good at balancing work and play, when I need to buckle down, I can usually get tasks done. But Ive been known to goof off when I know I can get away with it. Overall my life is relatively smooth, I remain cool and collected, but sometimes I do panic; there are a few rides on the emotional roller coaster that I would like to eliminate. My self-interest overrules and others come later when I am not able to function with my A game. To Be True to Thy Own Self is the most important task I intend to successfully master. I want to know exactly who I am and exactly who God is. How can we have a relationship if we dont even know each other. This is a mind blowing mystery to me. There are far too many riddles to solve and not enough clues. Each time I think I figure it out, I am quickly starting back from Go again with no $200 dollars. I want out. I want to escape this trap I am caught in.
asadch Narcissist
ABILENE, TX