First of allhttp://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20090212030237AANJ0h8I agree with the shush haters. Especially Filthy Victorian and My cats name is Mittens....DON'T do it around me! EVER!The girl's name Dana \d(a)-na\, also used as boy's name Dana, is pronounced DAY-nah. It is of Old English origin, and its meaning is "from Denmark". A surname also used as a variant of DanielI am an artist, I love my cats and my Fiance Yoda who besides my mom and dad, is the ONLY one who looks past my crying and sees ME, and My family though most of them don't even like me anymore.  My Grandma Hates me, You know that saying, if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all?  my anxiety is so bad, i can't talk to anyone without crying, and since things have always been extremely shitty, i never called her. Sorry Grandma, my life would disappoint you anyway Never finished college, hell because a stupid 2 credit car care class i didnt even get a diploma (even though I worked the credits in summer school, it still didn't pan out)  Its not like you are the only one I haven't  talked to. All my friends from The Table (Stan, Bonnie, Jason, Andy, Phil, Shauna and all my royal subjects!  I really miss you guys!, I just haven't had much good in my life, and got tired of bringing you all down every time i talked to you years ago. My few Salem/Modesto friends Leslie, Jess, Tasia, Rachelle and Ashlei (who also haven't talked to in years... i mean Really talked to more than the "hi, how are you? things are crappy"....... and then I never hear from you again . You wanna know a little more about what Ive been going through? read this........Social Anxiety Disorder:The Third LargestMental Health Care Problemin the WorldEveryone has heard of alcoholism and depression, the two top mental health care problems.  But number three on this list is social anxiety disorder, formerly called "social phobia".Very few people have heard of social anxiety disorder (the acronym of which should be the "true" SAD).How is social anxiety going to compete against all the other, but more unusual, mental health problems, such as schizophrenia, multiple personality disorder, Tourette's Syndrome, antisocial personality disorder, bipolar disorder, or even another anxiety disorder, such as obsessive-compulsive disorder?Social anxiety disorder, in comparison, is downright boring.  It has no "strange"  elements that are visible to others.  There are no "sexy" elements to it.  It is a disease of inhibition (shyness) and avoidance.  A person with social anxiety disorder typically shrinks into the background and is usually not heard. Can you see a movie-of-the-week about a very shy person who rarely leaves the house except to go to work (work? I can't even get through an INTERVIEW anymore without breaking down in tears, let alone land a job anymore), who has no friends, (yep) and is afraid of answering the door at times?  (at times? I've had my electricity and other things turned off because I was afraid to answer the door) This would be highly interesting drama, wouldn't it?This scenario partially explains the lack of understanding the general public has about social anxiety. The second problem is that people with social anxiety are afraid of making appointments with mental health care professionals.  (pffft...I haven't had health insurance pretty much since I turned 18, only going to the hospital or dentist if my face is swollen like a softball or when i have severe abdominal pain or something) once every several years. )Why?  It is hard to call and talk to another person, in the first place.  Then, if they are able to overcome this difficulty, the "professional" typically does not understand what the socially-anxious person is living with, prescribes a few relaxation techniques, some medication, and tells the person that they are really "OK".This scenario, which can happen time and time again, is highly debilitating for people with social anxiety.  It reinforces the fact that they have a horrible, life-restricting disorder that causes extreme anxiety in most social situations, AND NO ONE CAN EVEN UNDERSTAND IT, let alone help them."I must be the only one in the world who has this horrible disease."I am a freak.  I am just weird.  No one else in the world is going through what I'm going through."The feelings of helplessness and hopelessness that are experienced are intense; in fact, many professionals see this as "depression" and never get at what the person is depressed about (i.e., being socially anxious).Learn more while you're here.  This website is dedicated to the better understanding and treatment of social anxiety disorder (social phobia).c/o http://www.social-anxiety-network.com/third.htmlThere needs to more out there for people like me. If your friends or family stop calling, stop answering the door, stop WRITING to you, why don't you see how THEY are doing and don't judge them for not reaching out. (not to mention, its a two way street and you could have called me too. ) Yes Grandma, I am talking to you, though you probably will never see this anyway. THIS IS ME. Take it
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