What summarises myself is I am in a hell hole of a town and I am seeking purpose in the chaos.I don't have a problem of understanding myself and others I have a problem with people understanding me.I am a lost INFJ at the moment and I want to see the light now but I just see the pit now.I beleive in no God because I take comfort in knowing are existence now isn't a test but I have a fear of not leaving the legacy I want when I die.Death shouldn't be feared.My emotions a blurred by my love for a male freind and the neglectful freinds and family around me.I am lost.