Name: Bryan Maspono Codename: BarayanPersonality type: INFJ (http://www.16personalities.com/infj-personality)Objectives: Live as my soul commands. Create a successful, indestructible, and self-sustainable egalitarian commune that leads the rest of the world.  Ethnicity: FilipinoWhat I love doing: Playing the piano, Writing music, playing tennis, looking into other people's souls, dreaming, sleeping, feeling warmth, watching anime, playing LoL, thinking (a lot more than doing), not thinking (and flowing), writing notes on my phone, talking, and a bit of walking (but I'll know I'll get there someday).Fields of study: my own philosophy, others' philosophy, truths behind truths, perfection, biochemistry, core truths behind everything, balance, love, independence, music, the world at large, politics, economy, energy, efficiency, economic slavery, advertisement (which I highly disagree with), egalitarianism, religion, psychology, true universal law, law based on theory, theory based on law, contributionalism, soul, mind, body, life, the past, present, and the future. TLDR; basically everything truly authentic and broad that has to deal with core truths. Logic: The core truths are what matters the most. If theory is what you follow, you are still lost. Try to find yourself by keep asking "why?" and you'll get there eventually. No matter how much you work on anything, if you do not love yourself, you will never be happy. Go ahead and own the world, have all the women, and save the planet from destruction. In the end you are unhappy. The universe runs on design and not by chance. Self-sustainability starts with love for yourself. Teach your kids that and they'll go far. I am not subservient to any person, idea, time, institution, government, my feelings, or my body. My soul is sovereign and my energy non-manipulative by any being or non-being.  Books I find interesting: How to Think like Leonardo Da Vinci, The Secret, and Mein Kampf. 
CURRENT UPDATE(11/7/2016): Wow. Just wow. I can't believe how much my life changed since then. The man you see up above is a coward, a un-courageous coward without the guts to see the world for what it truly is. After mustering up some courage devoid of comfort, I was able to confront someone I did wrong to and apologize. My goals right now is to live a courageous, whole-hearted, and honest lifestyle dismantling every dream I have in my mind no matter how much pain it takes so I can live in reality. Developing my own style, getting organized, and practicing gratitude (not the attitude) are things that are happening. I figured out that I am an INFP (not an INFJ) and that the delusions in my life are disappearing. I'm still very afraid of reality but I'm living everyday as stressful and courageously as possible to let reality beat me up in the arena (thanks Brene Brown). The world isn't as bad as it seems. Also, I can't believe at how full of shit I was back then and how I was searching comfort in that world of complete shit. I was a manipulative piece of shit who didn't practice an inch of real gratitude or courage. I manipulated my own words and thoughts in this subconscious, perfectionist practice that I had, to avoid confrontation (a place where I had to be courageous where stress becomes averse). In essence, I had the attitude of moral righteousness (and the comfort that displaced the anxiety) but not the practice. I had to admit my values and actions were wrong to move on. I'm now committed to honest exploration and never claiming things that I don't know or know to become a student forever. 
The book is outside myself. Forget "why" and "when," it's about "how" and "now". If the stress kills me, so be it. A comfortable life is a boring one. It's time for me to become my own fucking hero. Thank you all for supporting me. You guys have been a huge help. I wish I could thank you in person, because it's hard to give/feel a genuine thank-you over the internet. I hope the thought still counts. 
Every day should be a fight. If it's not, I'm living life wrong. I will cause conflict in life to be a part of other people's lives because I want to exist with them. It takes fucking courage to be happy I'll tell you that. It's not something you can internally change frequencies about even if you can because it's not genuine. If I were to write a book, it would be called "The Madness of Comfort: A Struggle for Courage in a Self-Entitled Box". 
I hope that somehow I can keep this mindset. It's very tough for my brain. Nevertheless, I can't thank you guys enough for accompanying me on my path to guide me out of my psychosis.
Hammonton, New Jersey, United States