I'm Anna, grey-A pansexual, bigender, atheist. Two years ago I was diagnosed with schizoid personality disorder and major depression. I have something similar to panic attacks whenever I'm in crowded places (by "crowded places" I mean places with more than four persons), and this condition has forced me to abandon school and withdraw from almost all sorts of social interaction. I usually pretend the medication is helping me just to avoid having to talk to my psychologist. Therapy sessions are extremely uncomfortable. I know I'm not going to get anywhere and I won't ever be "normal", but I can't say I dislike myself. In fact, I think SPD helped me to know myself and be comfortable with what I really am. I can even say I'm happy when alone, but whenever I'm not, all those depressing feelings rush back. I'm cynical and unpleasant to be around, however, I can be a really nice person if you and I aren't in the same room.
ShadoWolf