I was brought up in a very poor Asian family and grew up in a poor neighborhood. I was abused as a child mentally, physically, and emotionally by my father. Along with poor personal decisions growing up (substance abuse, hanging with wrong crowd, etc.), I have become unstable in the mind. I am clinically depressed, have ADHD, and mild bipolar disorder. It really is a daily struggle for me to stay optimistic about life. 
However, as of now, I am trying to change my life around by separating my past and preventing it from affecting the current and future self. I feel like I have grown a lot these past few years; I am more confident in myself, openly interact with others, and enjoy the fine things in life from time to time. I am proud of how much I had overcome. However, I still often experience depressive episodes that seem to put me at a standstill in this world. I don't let that stop me though, because I know from experience that many of the problems I come across can be dealt with. 
I'm currently a university student studying in a business/IT program, although it is more like a fall-back choice. Honestly, I am more passionate about becoming a musician - and I am endlessly searching for opportunities to grow as one and possibly make it a career. 
According to various online tests, my personality type is an INFP. Although I highly agree with it often, I sometimes I feel that I am more of an INTP or INFJ, mostly because these two personality types really relate to me in regards to how connected I feel with the world and the deep desire I have to understand how the world works. I have tried to understand the 8 cognitive functions but constantly struggle having to choose between being an INFP, INTP, or INFJ. So, just for the sake of it I have decided officially to call myself an INFP. 
What do I like? Well... I like music. I like movies.  I love philosophy. I love astronomy. I love cosmology. And in regards to those last three, I like to ask questions about them because I am curious. It's interesting how beliefs are formed to understand the world and it intrigues me so much how vast this universe is, yet, is built from things smaller than atoms. Generally, anything that revolves around knowledge of the world sends me into deep thought. BUT... I will fall in love with you if you could hold up a conversation with me on cosmology and astronomy.  
I'M ALSO CRAZY ABOUT ALIENS AND UFOs. There, I said it. I'm a nut job. I'm open to talking about it, but I don't explicitly do unless the conversation steers towards that topic. So don't worry, I'm not that socially awkward. :) 
I am not religious, but for some reason I can't help but feel there is a divine being out there. I am perceptive about coincidences and derive special meaning out of things; almost to the point where someone might call me superstitious if I tell them my experiences. I really appreciate the beauty of the world... although it feels so hostile to me more often than not - as if I don't belong in this world. It makes me feel alone sometimes, and being a romanticist who is idealistic makes it that much more so.  
I value close relationships, but I get too emotionally attached to those I'm attracted to romantically. I get jealous a lot and become extremely upset when my love is not reciprocated almost, or just as strongly as how I express it. As often as I try not to think so, I feel that my past is eating away at my confidence and self-esteem and people can sense that around me - that although I may be a good person by nature, I am just unstable and cannot be helped. And that's understandable. It's emotionally exhausting and unhealthy for both parties. I yearn for a beautiful intimate relationship, but I know it is unwise to do so in my current state, unless I am willing to take chances and grow. 
I am random and quirky. I often sing (horribly), but you won't ever get to hear me sing unless I'm 100% comfortable with you or you catch me off guard. I'm usually soft-spoken when I'm in a neutral mood, but I can quickly become loud and ambitious when happy/excited, or irritable and mean after a certain point (this is where my bipolar disorder comes into play). I am obsessed with the correct use of grammar. Sadly, spoken language is not my skill. Although I can speak relatively fine, I often lose my train of thought and end up not making any sense. There were times where that, along with social anxiety, have gotten me into embarrassing situations. But in all honesty, I'm fine with it because at the end of the day it is experience to help me grow.  
Ways in which ADHD affects me: Again, losing train of thought. I often get bombarded with random thoughts. Despite all this creativeness I seem to have, I initiate projects but never finish them. I do multiple projects at once and rarely get the quality in the results I want. I am forgetful - often placing things down or thinking about something one minute, then the next minute forget where it was or what it was about. An extreme yet real example: Walking into a room to grab something only to forget why I went in there in the first place (it's a bit funny sometimes lol). I'm taking medication for it though and it helps me a lot; and although it has a lot of negative impacts on my life, it really does help me to be quick on my feet as well as makes me very imaginative and creative. Without it, I don't think I would have been this curious about the world we live in. 
Random facts: I enjoy composing music (wouldn't say I'm that good though). I'm currently learning how to play the guitar. I have a thing for girls who tie their hair up and I squirm like a child when I see a girl acting cute. Weird and immature, I know.
Morfy Owner Of A Lonely Heart Stone Drum