Sunday, July 08, 2007
I've had a rough 2 weeks and wanted to turn to food. Ok, so I did a couple of times but I didn't do as bad as I expected.
I was forced to give up a few pets yesterday and it was pretty emotional. I also had my car repoed not long ago and didn't have a babysitter most of last week. Talk about a depressing week.
So, here I am stuck in the house feeling pretty much like a loser. I have ice cream and chocolate, my two fav. comfort foods. On the 4th I caved and had a few smores but overall I didn't binge.
What did I do? I asked myself am I really hungry? What would eating solve? I answered no to the first question a few times and nada for the second. Besides, I realized that walking my dog while listening to music did far more than eating food. I lost a couple of pounds this past week and walking just made me feel better. It didn't solve the issues I had pop up BUT it helped with my health goals. Instead of gaining 5 pounds I lost. Instead of being self destructive I was self constructive. I was doing something good instead of sabotaging myself and making matters worse.
Feeling depressed will end. I know this. I also know that I can fight the urge to eat when I'm not truly hungry. Knowing both is seeing a light at the end of the tunnel and a better me getting there.