Just now ·
You know Ive been thinking about this for along time…Well, since Dan died16 months ago…Ive talked to people about itr and heard of a type of medical care that bacially is what Im following now.its called a a natural death.Its just not fighting death when it comes in whatever form. Not taking alot of meds and fight ing hard to live. Now I am still taking my diabetis meds which i suppose contrdics what i just said ..but Im not taking anytreatment for this…Actually there is a difference.. but my point is what im doing is not unheard of and not wrong. there is nothing in the Bible that says I MUst take all treatment possible.
In those 4 months after Dan coded…Ive looked back on it so many time wondering what could have been different to make it not quite so tramatic for us. At this point i have no answer. I feel Like it was a constant up and down of emotions. And constant fughting with his docors and medical personal. Because we wouldnt go No code…how many times they asked me if they could make him do not reseitate… I donnt know if my desition were always right…but I know theyu were what Dan wanted…so they were right. I can tell you the the stress of it all caused me to lose 6 inches of lenght in my hair! Its a stress reaction.
I believe Dan is waiting for me…I talk to both Dan and God about this and I know they will be waiting for me …I dont know how it works but I will be with them…and that will be great!
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