I’ve searched my mind so many times in the last few days
to find whatever it is that I did to be whited out, erased,
terminated from the picture.
The search results came back null.
Even when I did boolean, it rendered my time and efforts useless.
I’m still trying to understand how it all got to this point,
and why everything feels so disjointed.
All I want is a reason—
A real reason.
Aren’t I good enough for that?
Aren’t I deserving at the very least of that?
Maybe you acted in haste,
but the actions still remain unchanged.
At least respect me enough to tell me what I did
that was so wrong—
So I can properly move on,
So I can learn,
So I won’t repeat what made me obsolete
in a world I was led to believe I belonged in.
But as as we know now—we were both wrong.
For the sake of closure—could you just fill me in?