text: why am i compelled to write because the world i create in the writing compensates for what the real world does not give me by writing i put order in the world give it a handle so i can grasp it i write because life does not appease my appetites and anger to become more intimate with myself and you to discover myself to preserve myself to make myself to achieve self autonomy to dispell the myths that i am a mad prophet or a poor suffering soul to convince myself that i am worthy and that what i have to say is not a pile of shit finally i write because i m scared of writing but i m more scared of not writing