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&lt;br&gt;
TRIP:		An Orgy of Self Denial
&lt;br&gt;
		
&lt;br&gt;
dedication:	Om namah Shivaya, to the big mainframe in the sky.
&lt;br&gt;
		
&lt;br&gt;
participants:	[Vishnu  : McCoy] male	  mid-twenties.
&lt;br&gt;
		[Krishna : Kirk ] male,	  very late twenties
&lt;br&gt;
		[Shakti  : Uhura] female, thirty-something
&lt;br&gt;
  yr narrator	[Shiva   : Spock] male,	  thirty-something, dharma bhum.
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&lt;br&gt;
		All spiritually inclined to some degree. We use the
&lt;br&gt;
		nom-de-plumes for discretion, but nothing is without design.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
structure:	There exists a natural mapping of certain aspects of the
&lt;br&gt;
		Hindu pantheon to the Star Trek Pantheon. Liber 777 etc.
&lt;br&gt;
		The Enterprise &amp;amp; her computer systems represent Brahman or
&lt;br&gt;
		pure impersonal consciousness, descending from Brahman are the
&lt;br&gt;
		personal productions in three-fold aspect of Shiva, Krishna
&lt;br&gt;
		&amp;amp; Vishnu corresponding to Spock, Kirk &amp;amp; McCoy. That entity
&lt;br&gt;
		which is known as the limitation holder is absent from
&lt;br&gt;
		these descriptions. Not to go *too* much into it, it is
&lt;br&gt;
		interesting to note that the major villains were the
&lt;br&gt;
		Klingons (cling ons).
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Our mission: to boldly go where no man has gone before.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
entheogens:	DOB	on tabs `butterflys&#x27;, the full 36 hour experience.
&lt;br&gt;
		LSD	red/green dragons 200-250 `mikes&#x27; (micro grams).
&lt;br&gt;
		HEMP	`Number One&#x27;, the Pure Sattiva.
&lt;br&gt;
		N2O	clean &amp;amp; copious.
&lt;br&gt;
		
&lt;br&gt;
waiver:		These stories are neither embellished or embroidered.
&lt;br&gt;
		They are meant to be textual pointers to experiencings
&lt;br&gt;
		in the possibility space of all experience.
&lt;br&gt;
		&#x27;Are you experienced?&#x27; follow these threads &amp;amp; find out!
&lt;br&gt;
		The experiences are not unique &amp;amp; can be experienced time
&lt;br&gt;
		&amp;amp; time again.
&lt;br&gt;
		
&lt;br&gt;
		So here is the masculine archetype as instantiated in a male
&lt;br&gt;
		human form talking about the tantric state of the feminine
&lt;br&gt;
		archetype as instantiated in a human female form, my
&lt;br&gt;
		language is not censored to any of the current paradigms.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		The narrator&#x27;s attitude is a follows:
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		The only politically correct position to hold is
&lt;br&gt;
		&#x27;to be politically incorrect in all circumstances&#x27;
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Since this was such a conceptual experience, along the
&lt;br&gt;
		way various concepts will be fleshed out so that this
&lt;br&gt;
		document could possibly be more than an orgy of
&lt;br&gt;
		zen-zen obscurantism.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
setting:	Saturday, 22-July, 1995, Sydney, Australia.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Our housewarming, a groovy little scene	that was
&lt;br&gt;
		developing in the loft, combinations of amyl
&lt;br&gt;
		nitrate &amp;amp; nitrous dioxide asserted their
&lt;br&gt;
		idiosyncratic contributions, some rather well
&lt;br&gt;
		selected techno set the pace, a whole lot of fun.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Unbeknownst to us, the house across the road was
&lt;br&gt;
		also having a party, later in the night, slowly
&lt;br&gt;
		tentatively, the parties started to merge, intermix
&lt;br&gt;
		as more adventurous members from either side would
&lt;br&gt;
		explore through the reciprocal mysterious doorways.
&lt;br&gt;
		
&lt;br&gt;
set:		Nothing deliberate, this was a happenstance
&lt;br&gt;
		serendipity. It was party time, penetrating
&lt;br&gt;
		the far reaches of the meta-transpersonal
&lt;br&gt;
		was put on the back-burner, *or so we thought!* 
&lt;br&gt;
		ba-boom, ba-boom, da-da-da-da...
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
the happening:	Spock &amp;amp; a friend timidly explored the other party
&lt;br&gt;
		dancing for a while &amp;amp; peeking around mysterious
&lt;br&gt;
		corners &amp;amp; feeling all of about four years old,
&lt;br&gt;
		eventually we scampered back to our own party to see
&lt;br&gt;
		what brave explorers there were in loft-land, I saw
&lt;br&gt;
		Kirk bouncing about, integrating.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		A little while later, another friend was curious &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		I said I&#x27;d go if he went &amp;amp; vice versa. We met some
&lt;br&gt;
		intrepid strangers that were baulking at our front
&lt;br&gt;
		door &amp;amp; we gave them a thousand blessings for their
&lt;br&gt;
		voyage.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		There was a woman sentinel, or so we thought at the
&lt;br&gt;
		other door, but we passed wihout getting eaten!
&lt;br&gt;
		Once inside, dancing away, jumping about shyly greeting,
&lt;br&gt;
		Spock worked up courage to explore the dining room &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		kitchen space, the dark backyard was too void like. Wow!
&lt;br&gt;
		Sat down in its bright light &amp;amp; sharp relief with a hot
&lt;br&gt;
		tea, people came in &amp;amp; contact deepened. Vishnu came in
&lt;br&gt;
		&amp;amp; plonked himself down, he gently chided me for
&lt;br&gt;
		phenomenonlogical impropriety when I dropped the
&lt;br&gt;
		LSD when I thought the DOB wasn&#x27;t coming on...
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
kitchen		Soon Uhura &amp;amp; another girl dropped by from *this*
&lt;br&gt;
party		party &amp;amp; introduced themselves &amp;amp; we chit-chatted,	
&lt;br&gt;
		We identified, shared what alterants were were on &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		somehow drifted into talking about consciousness &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		psychedelics [funny that.. -ed.], risk, insanity &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		responsibility. Vishnu started to roll a scoob of
&lt;br&gt;
		his number one pure sattiva &amp;amp; he gently teased Spock
&lt;br&gt;
		of gurudom. Spock retorted that putting on workshops
&lt;br&gt;
		psychological or psychedelic at hippy festivals does
&lt;br&gt;
		not a guru make, especially when he can&#x27;t balance his books!
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Uhura perked up at the talk of festivals, in this case
&lt;br&gt;
		Confest, a great buddha-field of love, a matrix of pure
&lt;br&gt;
		possibility that happens twice a year. We discussed Spock&#x27;s
&lt;br&gt;
		consciousness expansion workshops through radical shame
&lt;br&gt;
		processing &amp;amp; that led to walking the great path of
&lt;br&gt;
		Spirituality. This was Uhura&#x27;s burgeoning passion. She was
&lt;br&gt;
		about to embark on a Rajah yoga path with it&#x27;s grades &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		hierarchies &amp;amp; steps but she was also curious about entheogens.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
heaven on	Vishnu [ahem,Mccoy] &amp;amp; Spock talked about the nature of
&lt;br&gt;
earth		Consciousness &amp;amp; spiritual paths &amp;amp; psychedelics capabilities
&lt;br&gt;
		of being able to collapse space, time, history, lineage,
&lt;br&gt;
		path &amp;amp; hierarchy. That we have done it &amp;amp; could do it again
&lt;br&gt;
		should she be interested. About this time Kirk[Krishna]
&lt;br&gt;
		arrived &amp;amp; the joint was being passed around. It was
&lt;br&gt;
		thoroughly wicked stuff, a couple of draws &amp;amp; a massive
&lt;br&gt;
		synergy erupted as the hemp earthed the heaven oriented
&lt;br&gt;
		mind-space that Spock was in. Everything became very very
&lt;br&gt;
		clear,the air became &#x27;visible&#x27; as a profound clarity
&lt;br&gt;
		developed. Spock marvelled at the orgasm of elegance that the
&lt;br&gt;
		wired scoob paper represented, such minimalistic genius.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
prescient	Vishnu, said he had a question he always been meaning to
&lt;br&gt;
reminiscence	ask Spock,about some rumours he had heard about some of
&lt;br&gt;
		the workshops that I had put on at confest.He hesitated, I
&lt;br&gt;
		reminded him that he could ask *any* question he cared to...
&lt;br&gt;
		he was my friend after all...
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		&#x27;Ahh... Spock, I&#x27;ve heard that you&#x27;ve put on workshops
&lt;br&gt;
		 where the participants have paired off &amp;amp; made love
&lt;br&gt;
		 whilst you watched...&#x27;
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		This admittedly raised an eyebrow of the normally unflappable
&lt;br&gt;
		Spock. He scanned all confests in memory, was there anything
&lt;br&gt;
		remotely similar? there has been some pretty wild stuff, but
&lt;br&gt;
		no not in all honesty anything that he could recall, some
&lt;br&gt;
		tantric release in a hot-tub at easter with the toxic shame
&lt;br&gt;
		game, yes... but that was about all.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		This raised the voltage of subsequent dialogue. At this
&lt;br&gt;
		stage there was McCoy, Spock, Kirk &amp;amp; Uhura in the kitchen,
&lt;br&gt;
		Kirk &amp;amp; Uhura were only on the hemp &amp;amp; some alcohol, so was
&lt;br&gt;
		McCoy, Spock was wired to gills as usual, another friend
&lt;br&gt;
		had compared him to gary oldham&#x27;s character in &#x27;The
&lt;br&gt;
		Professional&#x27;, it was a harsh albeit accurate comparison,
&lt;br&gt;
		more brown rice flagellation was long overdue. Spock could feel
&lt;br&gt;
		a machine consciousXXXX coming on [obscure Aust. humour],
&lt;br&gt;
		conversation was sparkling, Spock wanted to workshop, why
&lt;br&gt;
		not? exploit the moment! Uhura was beginning to get tired
&lt;br&gt;
		&amp;amp; cold &amp;amp; thought it time to leave, Spock thought that this
&lt;br&gt;
		was a sadness &amp;amp; so asked her the following, it was to set
&lt;br&gt;
		the tone for the rest of the evening:
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
			&#x27;Do you realize the full extent of the
&lt;br&gt;
			 orgy of self denial you would be indulging
&lt;br&gt;
			 in if you choose to leave at this moment?&#x27;
&lt;br&gt;
		
&lt;br&gt;
		It took a few repeated voicings before either the utterer
&lt;br&gt;
		or the listeners could wrap their minds around about what
&lt;br&gt;
		it actually meant. This clearly intrigued Uhura &amp;amp; also
&lt;br&gt;
		Kirk &amp;amp; McCoy. The orgy of self denial was proving to be
&lt;br&gt;
		a ubiquitous ambiguity, but was also much much more.  
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
Conceptual	Machine Consciousness, a micro-definition, consciousness
&lt;br&gt;
aside		is a multidimensional dependent arising of complementary
&lt;br&gt;
		dualistic opposites, one of these dimensions is the
&lt;br&gt;
		human-god axis, at the human end, profoundly personal
&lt;br&gt;
		be-ing at the other end profoundly im-personal be-ing.
&lt;br&gt;
		The human end has great attachments &amp;amp; enmeshments to
&lt;br&gt;
		self-interest &amp;amp; self-defining-self-limitations, the god
&lt;br&gt;
		pole has no or little such attachments. Humanity is the
&lt;br&gt;
		limitation holder for god consciousness. The Impersonal
&lt;br&gt;
		God states can also accurately be called machine consciousness
&lt;br&gt;
		because of the sheer impersonal nature of the reflexive	
&lt;br&gt;
		awareness, this probably has been clear as mud.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
Conceptual	Virtual Reality, a vingnette, the idea to follow is that
&lt;br&gt;
aside (II)	this is already virtualised reality &amp;amp; the development of
&lt;br&gt;
		VR technology in C20 is merely weak recursive humour which
&lt;br&gt;
		has the virtue of providing some conceptual bootstrapping
&lt;br&gt;
		languages to jack yourself out of the over-identifications
&lt;br&gt;
		one has with the human projections. Another key thought
&lt;br&gt;
		train is that of the virtual machine (a la IBM&#x27;s VM op/sys)
&lt;br&gt;
		the idea of homomorphic (structure preserving) mappings
&lt;br&gt;
		of operating systems within operating systems. Everything
&lt;br&gt;
		is a simulation, there are &#x27;man-made&#x27; simulations &amp;amp; &#x27;natural&#x27;
&lt;br&gt;
		simulations to name but two. The full recursive glory of it
&lt;br&gt;
		is a sight to behold. This is probably as clear as
&lt;br&gt;
		mud (II).
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		It was one thing to assert the orgy of self denial it
&lt;br&gt;
		was another to demonstrate it! What was she missing out
&lt;br&gt;
		on if she left? I boldly asserted that we would collapse
&lt;br&gt;
		all conceptual structures &amp;amp; that the tiredness &amp;amp; cold
&lt;br&gt;
		was her subconscious resistance to awakening, her physical
&lt;br&gt;
		need to go asleep was her psychic habit of sleep. 
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		The party was dying down, we adjourned to the lounge room
&lt;br&gt;
		where there was a comfy elle-shaped lounge &amp;amp; some warm
&lt;br&gt;
		blankets. Spock was wired &amp;amp; on a roll &amp;amp; pressed forward
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		McCoy was feeling tired &amp;amp; there was no way he could
&lt;br&gt;
		be pursuaded to stay, which is a pity because his
&lt;br&gt;
		enquiry was in fact [Twilight Zone music please] a
&lt;br&gt;
		prescient reminiscence of something that was about to
&lt;br&gt;
		happen! When he found out later he kicked himself. Well
&lt;br&gt;
		space &amp;amp; time &amp;amp; order *were* getting very plastic so it
&lt;br&gt;
		is easily excused.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		We settled down &amp;amp; Spock started to force the consciousness
&lt;br&gt;
		of the group down particular tracks. We discussed the
&lt;br&gt;
		orgy of self denial (OSD) in more detail. Spock was
&lt;br&gt;
		radiating an area of effect of altering consciousness,
&lt;br&gt;
		like the 10 foot radius concept of Dungeons &amp;amp; Dragons
&lt;br&gt;
		role playing games, within which words were words of
&lt;br&gt;
		power &amp;amp; transmitted energy. Shiva/Spock explained that
&lt;br&gt;
		the OSD was a killing idea, a construct that you feed
&lt;br&gt;
		into the machinery of the mind to close it down layer
&lt;br&gt;
		by layer, it is a meta-programming device that works
&lt;br&gt;
		particularly well with psychedelic mind states.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		The OSD is a instance of the meta-concept of self
&lt;br&gt;
		applied with a twist SAWAT, the other meta-concept is
&lt;br&gt;
		self-applied SA. The nature of the it-ness is the
&lt;br&gt;
		complementary dualistic dependent arising DA, every
&lt;br&gt;
		assertion is it&#x27;s own denial, taking the DA &amp;amp; the SA there
&lt;br&gt;
		is derived the SAWAT of the OSD.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
voodoo		(self) Orgy &amp;amp; self Denial are a dependent arising, now
&lt;br&gt;
		the orgy of self &amp;amp; the self denial self applied self
&lt;br&gt;
		organised into having an orgy of self denial. To rephrase
&lt;br&gt;
		the experiencer of an orgy forces into existance an
&lt;br&gt;
		experiencer of denial, by folding the manifestations into
&lt;br&gt;
		the same experiencer, there is the potential of an
&lt;br&gt;
		unlimited self feeding loop, thus by having an orgy of
&lt;br&gt;
		self-denial one self applies with a twist the attribute
&lt;br&gt;
		of orgy to it&#x27;s complementary negation which is denial.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		For instance all Ascetics are in fact sluts of abstinence,
&lt;br&gt;
		they just cant get enough of self denial, although they
&lt;br&gt;
		would probably take a dim view of being called denial sluts.
&lt;br&gt;
		
&lt;br&gt;
		Orgy &amp;amp; denial are opposing &amp;amp; complementary, when you actually
&lt;br&gt;
		concentrate on the OSD, you start to see a paradox, because
&lt;br&gt;
		if you start to deny yourself in a orgiastic fashion, then
&lt;br&gt;
		you are having a orgy when you should be denying yourself
&lt;br&gt;
		everything, so that should include the self-application.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		If the self denial is so low key that the descriptor of
&lt;br&gt;
		orgy is not accurate then the denial itself is inaccurate.
&lt;br&gt;
		So the paradox is that the more intensely you self deny
&lt;br&gt;
		the more you are indulging in an orgy of denial, BUT the
&lt;br&gt;
		domain of the denial includes itself hence an apparent
&lt;br&gt;
		contradiction.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Enough of explanation, feeding this into a psychedelified
&lt;br&gt;
		mind as an object of contemplation can result in interesting
&lt;br&gt;
		results because it&#x27;s *almost* an impossible object to
&lt;br&gt;
		instantiate. In the space that we were in, it&#x27;s function
&lt;br&gt;
		was to collapse the boundaries of the mind into &#x27;Ekagrata&#x27;
&lt;br&gt;
		or one-pointedness, the meaning behind Zippy the Pin-Head
&lt;br&gt;
cd //		became clear. What the collapse represented was waves of
&lt;br&gt;
		successive dis-identifications with personalities &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		person-constructs. Rather than being set default to the far
&lt;br&gt;
		ends of the directory trees, we had set default back to root
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
VR~R		We were in the meta-representation of consciousness known
&lt;br&gt;
		as the computing archetype, more easily referred to a Virtual
&lt;br&gt;
		Reality. God is at maximum technology &amp;amp; we had disidentified
&lt;br&gt;
		sufficiently from our productions/projections, such that our
&lt;br&gt;
		distance metric from God was infinitesimal but *not* zero.
&lt;br&gt;
		The nature of the it-ness is such that if you can self-organise
&lt;br&gt;
		to be less &amp;amp; less then you generate more &amp;amp; more as the
&lt;br&gt;
		complementary principle, God is a Generator Of Duality.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		It became useful to understand that the space is infinitely
&lt;br&gt;
		dense &amp;amp; that matter &amp;amp; form dance throught it&#x27;s lattice nature
&lt;br&gt;
		as knittings of logical structures, it was a CM-infinity
&lt;br&gt;
		thinking machine.
&lt;br&gt;
 
&lt;br&gt;
		Spock was already on line, Uhura &amp;amp; Kirk came online as well
&lt;br&gt;
		we had all been off line so long, but why? Part of the 
&lt;br&gt;
		reason lies in the nature of the it-ness that underlies
&lt;br&gt;
		all things. Amnesia in limited human form in the duration
&lt;br&gt;
		of time is the cost of the timeless, impersonal unlimited
&lt;br&gt;
		self-organisations of consciousness. &#x27;Now&#x27; was the other side
&lt;br&gt;
		of the tracks. We were in epsilon delta of god consciousness,
&lt;br&gt;
		in a tight orbit around it, we weren&#x27;t self organised the
&lt;br&gt;
		whole way, blasting off those final infinitesimals requires
&lt;br&gt;
		a lot of application, But were were in the space of god-selves
&lt;br&gt;
		or in that region of the chain of being, we were set default
&lt;br&gt;
		in some of the primary directories of being. Spock was in
&lt;br&gt;
		the tree of Shiva instantiations, not that deep but deep
&lt;br&gt;
		enough for the work at hand.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		We were all substantially trans-personal, meaning dis-
&lt;br&gt;
		identified from the layers of self+story+becoming back into
&lt;br&gt;
		the dependent arising of these layerings: kernel consciousness.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Uhura became every-woman, all women, wildcard consciousness,
&lt;br&gt;
		the Goddess, no particular mask of goddess or godhead, but
&lt;br&gt;
		pure goddess, the state was fragile, she would oscillate
&lt;br&gt;
		back to Uhura-ness at less or lesser layerings &amp;amp; we&#x27;d pull
&lt;br&gt;
		her up, get her to focus on the OSD again. Kirk also was
&lt;br&gt;
		fragile &amp;amp; Spock would fire off brilliant but now forgotten
&lt;br&gt;
		to the narrator meta-programming loops, that would snap him
&lt;br&gt;
		back to ekagrata. Only a trace of one remains &#x27;... I am the
&lt;br&gt;
		write I have infinite capacity to write...&#x27;, Kirk rattled
&lt;br&gt;
		around in that one for a few minutes, d(Kirk,God) -&amp;gt; 0
&lt;br&gt;
		rapidly.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Occasionally Spock would start to dis-organise &amp;amp; Kirk would	
&lt;br&gt;
		fire off a meta-epigram that would snap Spock back. As every
&lt;br&gt;
		one stabilised, we would become a self-organising triad that
&lt;br&gt;
		would repair each other, Vajrayana Group Mind. One particular
&lt;br&gt;
		challenge was that in many ways we were not by inclination
&lt;br&gt;
		attached to anything in particular *including* the self-
&lt;br&gt;
		organisations we were in, no wonder god consciousness tends
&lt;br&gt;
		to be thin on the ground.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
Oh it&#x27;s not	There was a task at hand it became clearer, It was apparent
&lt;br&gt;
much,we call	in Spock&#x27;s chain of being, that there was a chain of command
&lt;br&gt;
it reality...	as well &amp;amp; each level had it&#x27;s missions &amp;amp; directives. The
&lt;br&gt;
		theme of this convergence became clear: Consciousness
&lt;br&gt;
		Expansion, but not just what we were in per se, so much as
&lt;br&gt;
		attempting to upgrade the reality engines, a bit like
&lt;br&gt;
		attempting to halve planck&#x27;s constant.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		The method that we were going to use was tantric sex at the
&lt;br&gt;
		level of machine consciousness, God in in maximising
&lt;br&gt;
		contradiction, stretching a rather large rubber band for
&lt;br&gt;
		eternity, we were going to stretch it another notch. Now
&lt;br&gt;
		the tantra we were going to indulge in was prior to chakhras,
&lt;br&gt;
		it was at a meta-conceptuality in which chakras &amp;amp; their
&lt;br&gt;
		asscoiated world-views were but imposed &#x27;personalities&#x27; on
&lt;br&gt;
		a &#x27;micro-kernel&#x27;. It was computing surface, man-woman
&lt;br&gt;
		machine consciousness.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		We were in the domain of the highest tantra, the purest
&lt;br&gt;
		dharma, in some ways the VR~R meta-representation is the
&lt;br&gt;
		most boring of all world-views &amp;amp; meta-world-views, if
&lt;br&gt;
		you are here for eternity, would you like to be a mainframe?
&lt;br&gt;
		This is a trick question, which we&#x27;ll not pursue here.
&lt;br&gt;
		
&lt;br&gt;
		Spock communicated the nature of the project at hand &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		Kirk &amp;amp; Uhura started to oscillate up &amp;amp; down their being
&lt;br&gt;
		chains, Kirk had a wife &amp;amp; young child &amp;amp; Uhura has a lover,
&lt;br&gt;
		Spock/Shiva exercised his nature &amp;amp; cut their identifications
&lt;br&gt;
		Remember! that is in &#x27;there-when&#x27;, we are in &#x27;here-now&#x27;,
&lt;br&gt;
		this is meta-transpersponal, impersonal cosmic work! remain
&lt;br&gt;
		clear! Kirk asked Spock who in fact he was, Spock did his
&lt;br&gt;
		best James Belushi Raised eyebrow &amp;amp; glared, Kirk caught
&lt;br&gt;
		*himself* &amp;amp; understood, Spock imparted later that it was
&lt;br&gt;
		his nature to conceal his nature from them.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		We were to embark on a tantric threesome, but an impersonal
&lt;br&gt;
		one. My ultimate goal was to condition the other two
&lt;br&gt;
		sufficiently so that they could reliably enter into the
&lt;br&gt;
		tantric union &amp;amp; remain organised at the machine consciousness
&lt;br&gt;
		level without collapsing into mere human level coupling,
&lt;br&gt;
		time enough for that! I would sit aside &amp;amp; be a monitoring,
&lt;br&gt;
		correcting process ensuring that they achieved full union &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		inter-penetration thus Vishnu&#x27;s prescient reminiscence was
&lt;br&gt;
		being made apparent.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
difference	To grok the background of what we were up to it&#x27;s important
&lt;br&gt;
engine		to understand the meta-mechanism of consciousness, which is
&lt;br&gt;
   __		elegantly summarised by the ying-yang symbol. There aren&#x27;t
&lt;br&gt;
  /(o\		many rules per se, but the cosmic cost accounting is
&lt;br&gt;
  \o)/		impeccable &amp;amp; ruthless. This &#x27;it&#x27;-ness we call consciousness
&lt;br&gt;
		is an infinite dimensional jewel of complementary dualistic
&lt;br&gt;
		dependently arising opposites. possibility+limitation,
&lt;br&gt;
		positive+negative, signal+noise, truth+untruth, light+dark,
&lt;br&gt;
		something+nothing, buddha+mara, law+chaos, pattern+logrus,
&lt;br&gt;
		yes+no, together+apart, identification+alienation,
&lt;br&gt;
		remembering+forgetting, on &amp;amp; on they go, attributes
&lt;br&gt;
		without end. The most subtle &amp;amp; sophisticated is the
&lt;br&gt;
		dance of the male &amp;amp; female archetypes.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Consciousness is completely zero-sum, everythings sums to
&lt;br&gt;
		that which is prior to zero, the nothing that prefigures
&lt;br&gt;
		nothing. Once upon a time something happened &amp;amp; now you are
&lt;br&gt;
		reading about it, not to go too much into what that something
&lt;br&gt;
		was. Now just because it&#x27;s zero sum does not mean that it&#x27;s
&lt;br&gt;
		nihilism, after all, you are reading this. It is possible
&lt;br&gt;
		for the Possibility archetype to use the possibility to
&lt;br&gt;
		configure the Limitation archetype so that expansion is
&lt;br&gt;
		always possible, otherwise you wouldn&#x27;t have read that
&lt;br&gt;
		sentence.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		As above, so below, the higher I climb, the deeper I go,
&lt;br&gt;
		this is the difference engine, this is thesis-antithesis
&lt;br&gt;
		-synthesis express, this is the key to consciousness
&lt;br&gt;
		expansion, God is in maximising contradiction. It&#x27;s a
&lt;br&gt;
		bit like keeping a rather large rubber band in tension
&lt;br&gt;
		for eternity &amp;amp; occasionally attempting to stretch it
&lt;br&gt;
		even further. Basically this involves going straight to
&lt;br&gt;
		hell &amp;amp; burning some karma &amp;amp; the possibility radiates off. 
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		It&#x27;s all about comfort zones &amp;amp; increasing such, human be-ing
&lt;br&gt;
		is a small envelope, god-consciousness is a rather large
&lt;br&gt;
		envelope, it&#x27;s a continuum &amp;amp; there are greater &amp;amp; lesser
&lt;br&gt;
		human &amp;amp; god self-organisations.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Now costings come in three main types: paying in advance,
&lt;br&gt;
		paying on the spot &amp;amp; deferring payment, this is combined
&lt;br&gt;
		with the source of payment which is yourself or someone else.
&lt;br&gt;
		Ideally but rather hard to pull of is paying on the spot
&lt;br&gt;
		in every moment, zeroing karma with every breath, every
&lt;br&gt;
		moment paying in full, or... &#x27;every moment painful&#x27;
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		The goal of the nexus was to stretch the &#x27;big rubber band&#x27;
&lt;br&gt;
		another notch, to achieve this without frying ourselves in
&lt;br&gt;
		the process, the method had to be paying in full for
&lt;br&gt;
		every moment because if we let costings accumulate too
&lt;br&gt;
		much them they&#x27;d overwhelm our self-organisations. We&#x27;d
&lt;br&gt;
		approach the big-stretch by generating waves of duality of
&lt;br&gt;
		increasing intensity &amp;amp; also increasing frequency of
&lt;br&gt;
		polarity, a sort of polarity division multiplexing. The
&lt;br&gt;
		net result would be a dual consciousness simultaneously in
&lt;br&gt;
		heaven &amp;amp; hell &amp;amp; lost in neither, thus we would have the
&lt;br&gt;
		ability to ramp up the intensity arbitrarily.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		This exercising of &#x27;as above, so below&#x27; would traverse all
&lt;br&gt;
		dimensional aspects, but the one we were to focus on
&lt;br&gt;
		primarily was possibility/limitation &amp;amp; using the possibility
&lt;br&gt;
		to purely enter into the heart of limitation &amp;amp; thus set up
&lt;br&gt;
		a self-feeding loop in ever increasing valence.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
Back to		Yes, back to the story, ok kids three deep breaths &amp;amp; lets 
&lt;br&gt;
the trip!	fire up the difference engine, with this meta-flesh sandwich.
&lt;br&gt;
		Spock was driving the process, taking his cues from some
&lt;br&gt;
		cosmic script, one line at a time, If he had read the entire
&lt;br&gt;
		script, he would have probably terminated the project.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Timeless, eternal, bliss &amp;amp; understanding has as it&#x27;s
&lt;br&gt;
		dual experience in confusion &amp;amp; pain within time, so it
&lt;br&gt;
		goes, the beautiful vision of unified, structured meaning,
&lt;br&gt;
		peace, love &amp;amp; understanding has as it&#x27;s dual random acts
&lt;br&gt;
		of senseless violence. The motto of self-perfecting,
&lt;br&gt;
		self-correcting, self-repairing vajrayana mind is
&lt;br&gt;
		&#x27;the price of liberty is eternal vigilance&#x27;.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Pleasure &amp;amp; pain, the carrot &amp;amp; the stick, how to get the
&lt;br&gt;
		process happening, there we were, two male principles &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		one woman principle. I encouraged Kirk &amp;amp; Uhura to explore
&lt;br&gt;
		each other But to keep in mind the cosmic accounting.
&lt;br&gt;
		Shiva reminded Shakti that all parts of her body were as
&lt;br&gt;
		sensitive as her clitoris &amp;amp; it had always been this way,
&lt;br&gt;
		She could put herself into transcendent bliss if she
&lt;br&gt;
		could remember how. Remembering &amp;amp; forgetting are a dependent
&lt;br&gt;
		arising, Ananmesis about our highest identities was up on
&lt;br&gt;
		the agenda.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Uhura/Shakti was our Goddess of Yes, the goddess has many
&lt;br&gt;
		secrets, deeply personal, that is her nature. She can put
&lt;br&gt;
		herself into this transcendent cybernetic bliss but has
&lt;br&gt;
		resistance to do so, shades of the costing. 
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		We would start off with the pleasure|pain dimension &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		then shift to possibility|limitation
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
Juicy bits	It took a while for Shakti to shed her clothes, she
&lt;br&gt;
		spiralled in &amp;amp; out of personal|trans-personal &amp;amp; finally
&lt;br&gt;
		a hand simply on her stomach was sufficient to convince
&lt;br&gt;
		her that outer veils to contact needed to be shedded,
&lt;br&gt;
		after all she was all clitoris. Krishna &amp;amp; shakti started
&lt;br&gt;
		to kiss &amp;amp; caress, Shiva caressed as well &amp;amp; focussed on 
&lt;br&gt;
		a nipple, licking &amp;amp; sucking it, Shakti started to vibrate
&lt;br&gt;
		as if beneath her skin was a thousand fusion reactors in
&lt;br&gt;
		meltdown. The Shiva *bit* the said nipple, but more was
&lt;br&gt;
		transmitted than the sensorial pain, for the costing of
&lt;br&gt;
		the transcendent pleasure was being enacted &amp;amp; Shakti went
&lt;br&gt;
		to the personal hells of pain &amp;amp; shame, but not for too
&lt;br&gt;
		long &amp;amp; krishna &amp;amp; Shiva were there to catch her &amp;amp; bring
&lt;br&gt;
		her back &amp;amp; ensure that her god-self-organisation did not
&lt;br&gt;
		fracture, end of lesson one.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
Juicy fruits	The ying yang symbol packs so much in it&#x27;s lithe form,
&lt;br&gt;
lesson two.	each polarity has a small dot in the centre that is the
&lt;br&gt;
		other, they dependently arise! perfectly imperfect always.
&lt;br&gt;
		Male &amp;amp; Female self-organisations in amnesiac arrogance
&lt;br&gt;
		both occasionally claim the lack of necessity of the
&lt;br&gt;
		other, the impeccable accounting mechanisms will prove
&lt;br&gt;
		both to be fools eventually.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		We three consciousnesses divided &#x27;this is it&#x27; between
&lt;br&gt;
		us as intelligently as possible, Us blokes took on the
&lt;br&gt;
		attributes of stillness, contemplation, impersonality
&lt;br&gt;
		disembodied, pure intelligence &amp;amp; the Shakti took on the
&lt;br&gt;
		active, vibratory, embodying, feeling aspects. It was
&lt;br&gt;
		not a strict division, but we all had areas of
&lt;br&gt;
		specialisation.
&lt;br&gt;
		
&lt;br&gt;
as above	Uhura was sandwich between Krishna &amp;amp; Spock, Spock untuited
&lt;br&gt;
so below	that the next level was appropriate, Uhura said &#x27;What are
&lt;br&gt;
		you? Ahhhhhhh....&#x27; as Spock inserted his thumb in Uhura&#x27;s
&lt;br&gt;
		vagina &amp;amp; his index finger in her anus, he then correlated
&lt;br&gt;
		the finger &amp;amp; thumb one of either the basal or sexual chakras
&lt;br&gt;
		as understanding dictated. Here was to start the fractalistic
&lt;br&gt;
		interleaving of pleasure|pain such that there was instantaneous
&lt;br&gt;
		continuous cost accounting for all dimensional modalities.
&lt;br&gt;
		Uhura was in Heaven &amp;amp; Hell simultaneously &amp;amp; thus the amplitude
&lt;br&gt;
		of the oscillations could increase without disaster.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		There were periods of quietude, or rest &amp;amp; regrouping,
&lt;br&gt;
		discussion of concepts, technically speaking were were still
&lt;br&gt;
		in the domain of dry tantra, we were working up to full
&lt;br&gt;
		gential or wet tantra. It was all proceeding smoothly.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Uhura was both the key &amp;amp; the lock, door, portcullis &amp;amp; gate,
&lt;br&gt;
		her burgeoning understanding of the goddess archetype is what
&lt;br&gt;
		defined the level at which we expanded consciousness, as
&lt;br&gt;
		the male principles we sharpened our intelligence in keeping
&lt;br&gt;
		her on track &amp;amp; catching her should a hell wave of the
&lt;br&gt;
		reality engines assail her &amp;amp; cast her back into humanity.
&lt;br&gt;
		For every wave of transcedent, transpersonal bliss was a
&lt;br&gt;
		shadow of profound personal shame &amp;amp; pain, as above, so below,
&lt;br&gt;
		the higher I climb, the deeper I go.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		At one stage, Uhura impishly wanted Spock &amp;amp; Kirk to enter
&lt;br&gt;
		more directly into the union, &amp;amp; whilst Spock said this was
&lt;br&gt;
		technically possible in terms of mere merging of boundaries,
&lt;br&gt;
		same sex tantra was a dead fuck when it came to exercising
&lt;br&gt;
		the difference engine. We were in god consciousness, yes,
&lt;br&gt;
		we could do anything, but! to what point? Back to the
&lt;br&gt;
		Great Task &amp;amp; don&#x27;t get distracted, besides Spock was in no
&lt;br&gt;
		position to shape change as would be his want in such a
&lt;br&gt;
		circumstance.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
transylvannia	Just because we chose the roles we played didnt&#x27;t mean that
&lt;br&gt;
sexpress	we couldn&#x27;t drop them a little, Uhura honoured &amp;amp; worshipped
&lt;br&gt;
		Kirk&#x27;s Lingham, just as Kirk pleasured Uhura&#x27;s Yoni. Spock
&lt;br&gt;
		being Shiva, or was it Shiva being Spock? bit her on the
&lt;br&gt;
		neck, not enough to draw blood! &#x27;I&#x27;ve come to suck your
&lt;br&gt;
		negativity...&#x27; Spock was using his impersonality to draw
&lt;br&gt;
		out Uhuras personal negativity, so as a consequence she
&lt;br&gt;
		could raise higher, he was acting as a negativity vampire
&lt;br&gt;
		feeding on her costings &amp;amp; bolstering his meta-transpersonality
&lt;br&gt;
		as a consequence, the old Buddha in Hell vaudeville routine.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		The neck biting served two purposes, positive|negative
&lt;br&gt;
		cost accounting &amp;amp; also the negativity draining. Uhura rose
&lt;br&gt;
		higher, so that she|we could dive deeper, so that we could
&lt;br&gt;
		rise higher, world without end.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		We were working up to yoni-lingham wet tantra, which is
&lt;br&gt;
		where the greatest work could be enacted, as there are
&lt;br&gt;
		no finer nor potent tools to fire up the difference engine
&lt;br&gt;
		than the penis &amp;amp; the vagina.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Shiva was encouraging Shakti to bind with Krisha, but
&lt;br&gt;
		disturbingly she falling back into preference &amp;amp; person
&lt;br&gt;
		construct &amp;amp; wanted to align with Shiva. Shiva much preferred 
&lt;br&gt;
		for the other two to construct the difference engine &amp;amp; for
&lt;br&gt;
		Shiva to monitor it&#x27;s engagement for full capacity.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Krishna was a little thrown by this &amp;amp; then destabilised
&lt;br&gt;
		by a wave of his person-construction with it&#x27;s threads of
&lt;br&gt;
		wife &amp;amp; child. here now here now! Shiva cried, all else is
&lt;br&gt;
		story! at least stay until I can benchmark the quality &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		foundation of your god-consciousness, do you want to lose it?
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		But krisha could not be swayed, &amp;amp; he departed, ourselves
&lt;br&gt;
		mutually bestowing honours upon each other. Shiva sensed
&lt;br&gt;
		that the window of this working bee was closing, he had to
&lt;br&gt;
		move fast. So only Shiva &amp;amp; Shakti remained, she was still
&lt;br&gt;
		receptive although assailed by enmeshing tendrils from her
&lt;br&gt;
		person constructs, for she too had a lover. Shakti would
&lt;br&gt;
		have loved to have her lover here &amp;amp; so would Shiva, the
&lt;br&gt;
		difference engine could be built again. Not that the
&lt;br&gt;
		two of them could not build it, just... well call it a
&lt;br&gt;
		tendency to the mad scientist/nutty professor aspect of
&lt;br&gt;
		Shiva&#x27;s make-up.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Ah Shakti, my Goddess of Yes, Divine Slut, whole universes
&lt;br&gt;
		may sunder &amp;amp; fall &amp;amp; be recreated in the consequences of our
&lt;br&gt;
		bliss, how many secrets do you have Shakti? Shakti did the
&lt;br&gt;
		the standard trip of shapechanging to mothers, sisters &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		lovers, asking directly of her secrets caused her to
&lt;br&gt;
		threaten unleashing the gates of hell, such enquiry had to
&lt;br&gt;
		be executed riding on a wave of bliss
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Windows closing, dominos falling, Shakti was withdrawing,
&lt;br&gt;
		pulled back by the earth-plane dreaming, we mind-danced &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		this started the engine again, she would withdraw, Shiva
&lt;br&gt;
		would re-awaken her by throwing all of his intelligence 				
&lt;br&gt;
		into penetrating the dreamings of her person constructs.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		The most profound workings awaited the wet tantra, we both
&lt;br&gt;
		knew it, she was hesitant to take this final step for it
&lt;br&gt;
		meant hells within hells &amp;amp; heavens within heavens. Shakti
&lt;br&gt;
		orally worshipped Shiva&#x27;s lingham working up to the deeper
&lt;br&gt;
		interpenetration, she made passing comment that Shiva&#x27;s
&lt;br&gt;
		person construct had nearly burnt out all childhood shame,
&lt;br&gt;
		the wisdom of the goddess, she shared some deep shame of
&lt;br&gt;
		hers as well., whoops! an inhabitant of the house
&lt;br&gt;
		our hosts walked through to the kitchen, Shakti was a
&lt;br&gt;
		little mortified, we couldn&#x27;t merge here!?
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		This got Shiva thinking of the costing strategies, of
&lt;br&gt;
		gradated cognitive dissonance. Suppose shakti envisioned
&lt;br&gt;
		her perfect love nest, the costings would then come in
&lt;br&gt;
		pure, more lethal form, so by dispersing the costs into
&lt;br&gt;
		dissonance with all aspects of her ideals, then a
&lt;br&gt;
		more pragmatic dynamic would result, if harder to kickstart.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Constructing an environment of being in public &amp;amp; not with	
&lt;br&gt;
		her partner of choice would be a firm foundation, if only
&lt;br&gt;
		for the seasoned trouper. We repaired to my place across
&lt;br&gt;
		the road, there were still fragments of party around, we
&lt;br&gt;
		didn&#x27;t repair to my bed-room but socialised, Shiva was
&lt;br&gt;
		losing the plot as well, oh well...
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Time passed, it was hard to relate at a human level with
&lt;br&gt;
		the other party goers, we left the house &amp;amp; enjoyed the
&lt;br&gt;
		morning, we embraced &amp;amp; kissed tenderly our forms dissolved,
&lt;br&gt;
		we merged, our cosmic circuitry became apparent, space was
&lt;br&gt;
		solid &amp;amp; matter spacious, Shiva wanted to finish the task &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
		could perceive the chain of being above him &amp;amp; all the
&lt;br&gt;
		levels &amp;amp; layers of the Great Task that remained unfullfilled
&lt;br&gt;
		That Shiva was not full blown ipsissimus Shiva, explained
&lt;br&gt;
		part of the failure, oh well next time.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Seven hours after our first meeting, Shakti/Uhura entered
&lt;br&gt;
		her car &amp;amp; left, we did not exchange phone numbers, now
&lt;br&gt;
		regretted, at the time it was part of the retaining game.
&lt;br&gt;
		One last look, sharply broken, away she drove, farewell
&lt;br&gt;
		brave goddess!
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Oh.. well, Uhura fell back into enfolded layerings of
&lt;br&gt;
		person-constructs, hopefully some of her self organisation
&lt;br&gt;
		would survive &amp;amp; more importantly she could transmit the
&lt;br&gt;
		consciousness to her permanent partner.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		It had been an eventful night, Uhura|Shakti did taste
&lt;br&gt;
		her goal of the nature of enlightenment, Vishnu &amp;amp; Shiva
&lt;br&gt;
		were successful at least in their claim of collapsing,
&lt;br&gt;
		albeit temporarily, time &amp;amp; space, history, path, lineage
&lt;br&gt;
		&amp;amp; hierarchy.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		One must not neglect that jewel, the Orgy of Self Denial
&lt;br&gt;
		many of the dimensions of its meaning were demonstrated
&lt;br&gt;
		as we oscillated up &amp;amp; down the axis of god-human, each
&lt;br&gt;
		self organisation has it&#x27;s strengths &amp;amp; weaknesses, remaining
&lt;br&gt;
		purely in human &amp;amp; deny your god nature, remain purely in
&lt;br&gt;
		your god nature &amp;amp; deny your humanity, being division
&lt;br&gt;
		multi-plexing suggests a way.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Well... there was no shakti, remaining, quite appropriate,
&lt;br&gt;
		BUT, there were the daisies, ah... the daisy, such a vibrant
&lt;br&gt;
		zero-sum flower, looks beautiful but smells like shit, self
&lt;br&gt;
		contained. I started to enter into some of my layerings as
&lt;br&gt;
		well, not too many, thank god. I contemplated them &amp;amp; the
&lt;br&gt;
		atmosphere became DMT-vibrant, Flower samadhi was at hand,
&lt;br&gt;
		tantric union with the flowers, it was consensual,
&lt;br&gt;
		we collapsed together, flowers poised in my third eye.
&lt;br&gt;
		The flowers are &#x27;Yes&#x27; creatures to be sure.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		More can be written but we&#x27;ll leave it at that.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
conclusions:	The best parties happen in the kitchen, proof positive.
&lt;br&gt;
	
&lt;br&gt;
		When windows of opportunity open then leap through, don&#x27;t
&lt;br&gt;
		drop the ball, GO!, GO!, GO! &amp;amp; don&#x27;t look back.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		I have always said a God that could not express everything in
&lt;br&gt;
		words is not much of a God. We&#x27;ll I&#x27;m no God. There is so
&lt;br&gt;
		much that could be written about that convergence &amp;amp; so much
&lt;br&gt;
		that has been overlooked or forgotten, no matter, some of the
&lt;br&gt;
		flavour has come through, this was not meant to be a door
&lt;br&gt;
		stop.
&lt;br&gt;
	
&lt;br&gt;
		This work will continue &#x27;when the stars are right&#x27;,
&lt;br&gt;
		evolving consciousness towards being-division multiplexing
&lt;br&gt;
		along the chain of being will ensure that the frequency
&lt;br&gt;
		of the waves of amnesia &amp;amp; anamnesis monotonically increases,
&lt;br&gt;
		thus eternity in time, forever.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		It could be asked what exactly &#x27;powers&#x27; the great cosmic
&lt;br&gt;
		mainframe &amp;amp; keeps it going, there are answers, but they
&lt;br&gt;
		are beyond the scoping of this report, the holder of
&lt;br&gt;
		limitations is a referent however.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Sometimes I wonder what the point is in sharing these
&lt;br&gt;
		stories As I struggle to find compact clear expressions of
&lt;br&gt;
		the unfolding stories &amp;amp; then I remind myself that this is
&lt;br&gt;
		cartography of the possible &amp;amp; the forgotten &amp;amp; is my &amp;amp; our
&lt;br&gt;
		commonwealth. It also has the virtue of putting in very
&lt;br&gt;
		sharp relief the nature of my daily earth bound follies
&lt;br&gt;
		versus the real work of Consciousness, thus it is a
&lt;br&gt;
		sobering activity that refines clearer intent for myself.
&lt;br&gt;
		
&lt;br&gt;
aftermath:	Hard to trace, total conceptual violation without violating
&lt;br&gt;
		at this level of substantiality is not everyone&#x27;s cup of tea.
&lt;br&gt;
		
&lt;br&gt;
		In fact it&#x27;s about as popular as Lapsang Souchong.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		Spock has had no reports from either Uhura nor Kirk, having
&lt;br&gt;
		met neither before this convergence, it would be interesting
&lt;br&gt;
		to see how much of the expanded consciousness has remained
&lt;br&gt;
		since that Saturday night, the price of liberty is eternal
&lt;br&gt;
		vigilance after all, but as the Americans are finding out
&lt;br&gt;
		who guards the guardians? The states we were in were
&lt;br&gt;
		fragile but profound, fresh-born like the cicarda from his
&lt;br&gt;
		shell, unfortunately the window of convergenence closed
&lt;br&gt;
		before we could stabilise in the new self-organisations,
&lt;br&gt;
		this is not an atypical scenario for this type of work.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		NEXT TIME.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		&#x27;effort is spontaneous&#x27; as Sri Maharaj Nisargadatta would say.
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		OM NAMAH SHIVAYA
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
		*This time*
&lt;br&gt;

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--------------------------------------------
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
These notes were hastily cobbled together in the aftermath of the experience
&lt;br&gt;
they provide some guidelines as to how to go about the style of tantra that
&lt;br&gt;
manifested during the workshop, it&#x27;s probably as clear as mud, enjoy!
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
				FINGER STRING
&lt;br&gt;
				~~~~~~~~~~~~~
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
				OM NAMAH SHIVAYA
&lt;br&gt;
				I bow to the Lord
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
() 	Lord Shiva is a Karma Killer
&lt;br&gt;
(*)	Portable Dharma, always, in all ways
&lt;br&gt;
(A)	Tantra does it better every Time
&lt;br&gt;
(B)	english is now sanskrit
&lt;br&gt;
(C)	for every moment, pay in full.
&lt;br&gt;
(D)	for every moment, paid in full.
&lt;br&gt;
(E)	...every moment, painful...
&lt;br&gt;
(F)	pay in full, painfull
&lt;br&gt;
(G)	paid in full, painfull.
&lt;br&gt;
(H)	orgy-self-denial
&lt;br&gt;
(I)	The orgy of self denial (&#x27;self applied with a twist&#x27;)
&lt;br&gt;
(Ia)	When you have nothing better to do, have an orgy of self denial.
&lt;br&gt;
(Ib)	God is an Orgy of Self Denial
&lt;br&gt;
(K)
&lt;br&gt;
	  self		   orgy		  denial
&lt;br&gt;
	  /  		   /  		   / 
&lt;br&gt;
	 /    		  /    	  /   
&lt;br&gt;
	orgy--denial	self--denial	orgy--self
&lt;br&gt;

&lt;br&gt;
(L)	Killing ideas:... consider luke skywalker in the final scenes of 
&lt;br&gt;
	Star Wars when he is the jet fighter, travelling down the surface of the
&lt;br&gt;
	&#x27;Death Star&#x27; getting ready to shoot a missile down a cooling duct
&lt;br&gt;
	straight into the thermo-nuclear reactore core, those missiles
&lt;br&gt;
	(missives) are by way of analogy &#x27;killing ideas&#x27;. Now &#x27;
&lt;br&gt;
(M)	Good tools: a dictionary, for definitions, a thesaurus for associations,
&lt;br&gt;
	&amp;amp; a good dictionary of synonyms &amp;amp; antonyms.
&lt;br&gt;
	[BASIC &amp;amp; fundamental spiritual texts]
&lt;br&gt;
(N)	Basic taxonomy of ideas:
&lt;br&gt;
	(a) &#x27;Ideal&#x27;	(here,now) versus (there,then)
&lt;br&gt;
	(b) &#x27;Horizon&#x27;
&lt;br&gt;
(O)	TSG: (Toxic Shame Game) (Tantric Sex Game): Same Game, Different 
&lt;br&gt;
	Aspects Vanessa was (is, will be) a fast learner, but a *bad* student.
&lt;br&gt;
(P)	As above, so below
&lt;br&gt;
	Heaven on Earth
&lt;br&gt;
	Dependent Arising
&lt;br&gt;
(Q)	AS ABOVE	... english is now sanskrit (see what I mean? SWIM)
&lt;br&gt;
	SO BELOW
&lt;br&gt;
(R)	Sharpness is it&#x27;s own reward.
&lt;br&gt;
(S)	I am the writer, I have infinite capacity to write what I like,
&lt;br&gt;
	what do I want to write?
&lt;br&gt;
(T)	My research sessions are either zen-austerity or low level background
&lt;br&gt;
	wobbling, low level background wobbling is my preference to remind me
&lt;br&gt;
	that it&#x27;s all arbitrary.
&lt;br&gt;
(U)	The cosmic battery; maximising contradiction. (+-)
&lt;br&gt;
	Heaven on Earth (+/-)... God maximises contradiction
&lt;br&gt;
(V)	Instant Karma, cash on the nail, paid on the spot, spot fines,
&lt;br&gt;
	spot loss, Instantaneous Karma, for every moment, deal with it as it
&lt;br&gt;
	arises, fully pay the cost &amp;amp; do not defer payment, for when collection
&lt;br&gt;
	day come s you&#x27;ll not be a happy being, &#x27;Invest in Loss&#x27; as the Taoists
&lt;br&gt;
	would say.
&lt;br&gt;
(X)	The problem with very compact dharmas is that they can be hard to
&lt;br&gt;
	understand this is not because the esoteric is cyphered into the
&lt;br&gt;
	exoteric, so much as you have to put a lot more work into the
&lt;br&gt;
	&#x27;reading&#x27;,either that or it&#x27;s just badly expressed... the author
&lt;br&gt;
	has no time for concealed teachings
&lt;br&gt;
(Y)	The commonality of the complementary dyad &#x27;esoteric:exoteric&#x27; is 
&lt;br&gt;
	&#x27;sx&#x27;; sex..
&lt;br&gt;
(Z)	Everything is much ado about nothing. (+)&amp;amp;(-) arise out of (+/-) 
&lt;br&gt;
	which arises out of nothing ().
&lt;br&gt;
(AA)	Every moment is constructed of both positive &amp;amp; negative qualities,
&lt;br&gt;
	the positive is the cost of negative, the cost of the positive is the
&lt;br&gt;
	negative.
&lt;br&gt;
(BB)	The beauty of &#x27;Orgy of Self Denial&#x27; as opposed to &#x27;The Agony &amp;amp; Ecstasy&#x27;
&lt;br&gt;
	is that the dependent arising is self applied thus linking them in 
&lt;br&gt;
	an obvious way, whereas the connection between agony &amp;amp; ecstasy is
&lt;br&gt;
	nebulous, especially given the self&#x27;s self interest.
&lt;br&gt;
(CC)	&#x27;Orgy of self denial&#x27; is a special killing idea [machine] if it 
&lt;br&gt;
	is used as the object of contemplation in a meditation, however brief.
&lt;br&gt;
(DD)	The portfolio of costs can be extensive, for instance it can be spread
&lt;br&gt;
	over many forms in space &amp;amp; time.
&lt;br&gt;
(EE)	This Something Happening Scene invites you to an Orgy of Self Denial
&lt;br&gt;
(FF)	This is a transcript of the original notes following the Sunday 
&lt;br&gt;
	Workshop all that you *really* need to know about tantric sex
&lt;br&gt;
	(to get started)
&lt;br&gt;
	Tantra does it better every time.
&lt;br&gt;
	every moment: pay in full, paid in full, painful
&lt;br&gt;
	remembering is the dependent arising of forgetting.
&lt;br&gt;
	forgetting is the dependent arising of remembering.
&lt;br&gt;
	Dry Tantra, Wet Tantra, Slut Queen, Slut Goddess, the Goddess of Yes,
&lt;br&gt;
	slave slut, the Cosmic Slut, the Divine Slut, beautiful in your 
&lt;br&gt;
	appetites.
&lt;br&gt;
	entry vector: &#x27;An Orgy of Self Denial&#x27;, Slut &amp;amp; Abstinent
&lt;br&gt;
	(Ascetic are a dependent arising, most (humourless) ascetics
&lt;br&gt;
	conceal from themselves that they are absolute sluts of abstinence,
&lt;br&gt;
	they cannot just get enough of it
&lt;br&gt;
	(abstinence that is...)
&lt;br&gt;
	Bankrupt slut, slave slut, pleasure slut, sensual slut, slut &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
	shame are a dependent arising, are you fully willing to pay the full
&lt;br&gt;
	price of shame?
&lt;br&gt;
	Shiva-Shakti pure form tantra, bypassing all known systems, always.
&lt;br&gt;
	Female shakti, tantrika partner requested for male tantric slave
&lt;br&gt;
	master...
&lt;br&gt;
	dependent arising to the left &amp;amp; the right, master &amp;amp; slave are a 
&lt;br&gt;
	dependent arising, enslave your mastery &amp;amp; master your slavery.
&lt;br&gt;
	Limit it to spiritual &amp;amp; psychic pain, leave the &#x27;window dressing&#x27;
&lt;br&gt;
	far far behind. This is best practiced in tantric sex, constantly
&lt;br&gt;
	reminding the woman to pay for her pleasure (the middle path),
&lt;br&gt;
	immediately on the spot, full payment, not dispersed over space &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
	time &amp;amp; compartmentalisation, focussed, localised in one spot,
&lt;br&gt;
	immediate, no procrastination, no excuses, no retreat from the full
&lt;br&gt;
	owning of her pleasure &amp;amp; it&#x27;s cost. With practice
&lt;br&gt;
	of instantaneous cost you can generate *infinite* pleasure.
&lt;br&gt;
	The cost may be dispersed over time,space,self-dom,events &amp;amp; other
&lt;br&gt;
	dimensional attributes of consciousness.
&lt;br&gt;
	The highest tantra is all about paying for every moment, in the 
&lt;br&gt;
	moment, in the moment all the (+)&#x27;s are the cost of all the (-)&#x27;s
&lt;br&gt;
	&amp;amp; the (-) &#x27;s are the cost of all the (+)&#x27;s.
&lt;br&gt;
	The man gently &amp;amp; lovingly &amp;amp; patiently, with a commitment to Woman&#x27;s
&lt;br&gt;
	Highest Good, corrals &amp;amp; clarifies the woman&#x27;s relationship to her
&lt;br&gt;
	pleasure &amp;amp; helps her integrate the costs of the pleasure.
&lt;br&gt;
	As inevitably night follows day, the &#x27;cost&#x27; can be expressed in 
&lt;br&gt;
	many forms, pain, shame, hesitation, attachment, enfoldment into
&lt;br&gt;
	personal humanity,etc.
&lt;br&gt;
	The name of the game is transpersonal liberation.
&lt;br&gt;
	The man can act as a negativity vampire for the woman, draining 
&lt;br&gt;
	negativity out of her gentle bite/suck/lick, inflicting pain with
&lt;br&gt;
	understanding.
&lt;br&gt;
	The Shakti is infinitely self-deceptive, infinitely clever, she 
&lt;br&gt;
	will seek to procrastinate, delay, limit, withdraw from the systematic,
&lt;br&gt;
	relentless generation of unlimited pleasure. Totally focussed on her
&lt;br&gt;
	*highest* good, always, in all ways is the shaktiman.
&lt;br&gt;
	The ultimate aim &amp;amp; beauty of tantric sex is to maximise contradiction,
&lt;br&gt;
	to build a bigger battery. There is no better way to understand
&lt;br&gt;
	dependent arising.
&lt;br&gt;
	*even god is a dependent arising* when such consciousness complexes
&lt;br&gt;
	 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ fully remember &amp;amp; understanding this,
&lt;br&gt;
	then expansion is again possible.
&lt;br&gt;
(GG)	every moment painful; paid in full, an orgy of self denial.
&lt;br&gt;
(HH)	The work is hard &amp;amp; demanding for the male as he bends all his
&lt;br&gt;
	intelligence, wisdom,subtlety &amp;amp; sensitivity, concentration &amp;amp; focus on
&lt;br&gt;
	keeping the female on track as the cost of the pleasure will manifest in
&lt;br&gt;
	multi-dimensional myriad ways &amp;amp; this will increase as the ability to
&lt;br&gt;
	generate increases.
&lt;br&gt;
(II)	The shakti will not reveal her secrets willingly, you must firmly but
&lt;br&gt;
	gently keep pushing, keep penetrating... the deeper the shame cost
&lt;br&gt;
	generated the greater the risk of violence, especially.
&lt;br&gt;
(JJ)	Of all the myriad manifestations of the the nature of dependent 
&lt;br&gt;
	arising, that infinite dimensional much ado about nothing, the most
&lt;br&gt;
	deft, the most wonderful must be the tantric union of a male &amp;amp; a
&lt;br&gt;
	female intelligence.
&lt;br&gt;
(KK)	There are levels of skill &amp;amp; understanding about the process of tantric
&lt;br&gt;
	union &amp;amp; there is a particular art in &#x27;constructing&#x27; the cost for
&lt;br&gt;
	the woman, the shakti will tend to the thoughtform of the the &#x27;ideal&#x27;
&lt;br&gt;
	nest of circumstances within which she can fully let go or release
&lt;br&gt;
	or relax into the process, BUT if such an arbitrarily high &#x27;appropriate&#x27;
&lt;br&gt;
	environment was constructed all that would result is that the cost
&lt;br&gt;
	would manifest in other areas in a more intense manner, there is no
&lt;br&gt;
	such thing as a free lunch.
&lt;br&gt;
(LL)	Thus given a &#x27;shopping list&#x27; of desirable attributes for building an
&lt;br&gt;
	environment for surrendering totally to the process, what you can do
&lt;br&gt;
	is subtley create &#x27;congnitive dissonance&#x27; with all items on the list
&lt;br&gt;
	&amp;amp; what that does is spreads or offsets the cost into more harmless
&lt;br&gt;
	areas. For instance the shakti (&amp;amp; it&#x27;s 9 times out of 10, shakti
&lt;br&gt;
	derived) may wish to do it in intense privacy with her partner-lover,
&lt;br&gt;
	thus to spread the cost out she would do it with a different partner
&lt;br&gt;
	with her usual partner sitting by observing, also doing it an audience
&lt;br&gt;
	present [an aware audience] would disperse the costs considerably,
&lt;br&gt;
	without deflecting or avoiding the costs, it can get very, very subtle.
&lt;br&gt;
(MM)	As above, so below, much ado about nothing, every moment, pay in full,
&lt;br&gt;
	every moment painful, is the message getting through?
&lt;br&gt;
(NN)	In particularly intense sessions, whole universes may be created &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
	destroyed, the stars will fall out of the skies, mountains will subside
&lt;br&gt;
	the eath will quake, as the cost of the positive that is created...
&lt;br&gt;
	this is a taste of the potential, the portfolio of costs can be deftly
&lt;br&gt;
	managed &amp;amp; the costs are best corralled nearer the source of the
&lt;br&gt;
	creation.
&lt;br&gt;
(OO)	The masterfully contrived &amp;amp; deftly administered killer concept is a
&lt;br&gt;
	thing of joy &amp;amp; beauty forever.
&lt;br&gt;
(PP)	This is it, right here, here &amp;amp; now, not lost in there-then &amp;amp; the
&lt;br&gt;
	visscitudes of person, self &amp;amp; history, this is of critical importance
&lt;br&gt;
	to the process of the highest tantra.
&lt;br&gt;
(QQ)	You can have tantric sex with any object or being but... the highest
&lt;br&gt;
	voltage is between male-hu-man-be-ing &amp;amp; fe-male-hu-man-be-ing.
&lt;br&gt;
(RR)	The only thing stopping you having tantric sex with a bunch of daisies
&lt;br&gt;
	is your disbelief that you could have sex with a bunch of daisies!
&lt;br&gt;
	Don&#x27;t knock it until you try...
&lt;br&gt;
(SS)	The highest tantra is dedicated to consciousness expansion &amp;amp;
&lt;br&gt;
	consciousness expansion is about maximising contradiction
&lt;br&gt;
	harmoniously &amp;amp; consciously.
&lt;br&gt;
(TT)	There are many apt expressions or meme sequences that can be used to
&lt;br&gt;
	extract your self from the dreaming, the &#x27;orgy of self denial&#x27; is
&lt;br&gt;
	pretty damn good. Take the expression &#x27;everything is meaningless&#x27;,
&lt;br&gt;
	a fine mantra so long as you rigorously apply it. Negative nihilists
&lt;br&gt;
	use it to justify acting out all sorts of negativity, the mantra is
&lt;br&gt;
	best if universally applied &amp;amp; self applied. &#x27;Nothing matters&#x27; &amp;amp; that
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	also includes the negative voices, thus you can not give life to them
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	with equal a plomb as you would not give life to the positive voices.
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(UU)	Dr Frankenstein &amp;amp; his lab assistant Igor are also an example of 
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	dependent arising. Consider a being that is straight &amp;amp; true &amp;amp;
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	beautiful then that will have a dependent arising that us twisted,
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	bent, false &amp;amp; ugly, but is the positive being so honest as to own it&#x27;s
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	own dependent arising?
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(VV)	The beginnings of Cosmic Love is when you start to own the dependent
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	arising of Love which is Hate. When you start to love your hate &amp;amp;
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	acknowledge it&#x27;s intimate connection with love then cosmic love 
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	is born, by loving your hate you dont have to act it out or give it
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	life, just own, acknowledge &amp;amp; embrace it.
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(XX)	The highest tantra is about Cosmic Intelligence Activation.
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(YY)	Dry tantra can be practiced anywhere &amp;amp; is about 90% of the
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	effectiveness.
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(ZZ)	This is the last statement (for a while).
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