i think i like being called a girl because i always feel bad that i didnt get to be a girl growing up i dont know if i can say that i would trade my male upbringing for a female upbringing i dont know what that would entail or if that would be more harmful than beneficial but i do know that it makes me feel very dysphoric thinking about all the years that everybody treated me as a boy i mean they still do i havent had hrt yet but still