you sound kind of like what is known as a chaser if youre serious about meeting a tgirl you will find that most look down on chasers because not only do transsexuals want to be regarded as women instead of chicks with dicks but most chasers are just looking for the fuck a tranny experience instead of an actual relationship im not saying this is your case of course sounds like you are looking for some type of relationship but they dont want to have their dicks sucked by a man or to fuck a man in the ass either if thats what youre looking for thats called porn they strive to be as close to actual women as possible and are looking for straight guys who love women just an fyi anyways not judging you native thai here btw with more than one ladyboy in our extended family