yeah that resonate with me a lot i am years female living in absolute muslim country i am torn between the desire to live somewhere and do what i want and the love of my family i feel its very hard to live without them my family is good and not so religious they would allow me to live outside but the problem i also want them to be with me its just tough situation and also i wanted to have family of my new religionnot islam there is no choice but to leave this country good luck