on the one hand im sorry i think most people in the lgtb spectrum have had that overwhelming sensation of shit this is hard at multiple points it really can be difficult to leave normative societal rules however on the other side of things it might take some time but youre going to find a great pool of people to date and hang out with and just connect to and when it does itll be totally worth it we dont call ourselves a community for nothing till then though wishing you all the strength and some absolutely devastating ladies sometime soon