but being called faggot when you arent gay doesnt hold the same impact as it does when you are every time people called me faggot growing up i would secretly die inside a bit because they were actually right it intensified my alienation my fear and my selfloathing because it was used specifically to devalue me even though you were bullied with the use of the word faggot it can never hold the same weight as it does for those of us who are actually gay