hi if you want to balance out the friends opinion on gay relationships maybe check out tom daley on youtube he has some wholesome vlogs with his husband lance black there is a lot teasing and bickering but you can see the love and they are awesome humans in general seeing them beeing so comfortable and confident with who they are helped me accept my own sexuality as a bi woman maybe it can show you the happier side of things too either way good luck and take all the time you need to figure things out