im sorry youre struggling and feeling invalidated people can be so unsupportive and cruel my kid has many lgbtq friends who are feeling the way you are because of unsupportive people i can sit here and psychoanalyze you but id just be regurgitating what i learned here so ill just refer to you to this website urlurl my kids friends have done it and its helped themespecially the lgbtq community they suffer from more mental health issues than straight people