high school student here gay but not out family would be cool with it if i were out so i understand what you mean you tell yourself why not just be honest but you also think its not everybodys business to know and you think about what theyre gona ask you like what type of gay stuff u wan na do im gon na come out after high school theres a few friends that know me from when i was trying way too hard to not be gay it would be too weird but i totally get why you wouldnt good luck