youre not allowed to use it because you associate the word nigga with black people were past the point of racism where someone can walk up to me a call me a nigger to my face and not face consequences that shit has long passed were in a more covert selfanalytic era of racism for the most part you and other people not being accepted using it at this day and time where you can hear it in the car on tv on the radio and on the internet at all times with friends is because even though people justify it as being a term used amongst friends to identify each other you yourself view it as a word that means black person hence your first comment