after yelling and cursing for three minutes, i suddenly realized i was in front of a wall and was embarrassed to be a victim of my own benderrage
"pronounced "benda-raj," benderrage is a state or emotion of extremely inexplicable anxiety, nervousness, rage or anger as a direct result from drinking non-stop for three or more days
"after yelling and cursing for three minutes, i suddenly realized i was in front of a wall and was embarrassed to be a victim of my own benderrage" What is the definition of "benderrage"?