I have been having bad anxiety that feels like I’m losing my mind. I know it’s probably due to recent life events combined with my mental health diagnosis (bipolar and ptsd) but I seriously feel like I’m going psychotic and it’s hard to talk myself down from it. I’m not having any actual hallucinations or delusions but my mind starts racing like crazy and I get a sense of impending doom like something horrible is about to happen. I wouldn’t call it paranoia because I don’t believe anything is after me or anything like that but it feels like I’ll be in some type of accident or something for example. It gets so bad that I either freeze or I’ll look for a way to leave wherever I’m at. I have ptsd from a lot of childhood abuse (physical, mental, emotional, sexual, etc) and neglect (being thrown out and locked out the house, not allowed to eat, only being allowed to shower for a few minutes and being threatened to have the water turned off if I take too long, etc) and I just got out a very toxic 4 year relationship a couple months ago. Last time I saw my ex he put me in a chokehold and he’s been very mentally and emotionally abusive. I have accidentally missed a couple doses of my lamotrigine and Zoloft due to working long crazy hours and having no set schedule so I know that’s not helping. And I have zero support and I’m completely alone so idk what to do in those moments. Feels like I’m gonna absolutely lose my mind and be alone forever and possibly die. I’m scared. Has anyone else ever experienced these feelings and have any advice? Sorry if this post is hard to read I’m a little anxious as I write this.