i’m generally a pretty happy person with high confidence. i have a lot to be happy about, i’m less than 2 months from being the first in my immediate family to graduate from a 4 year university. i’m moving away for a few months for a program i’ve been wanting to do for years. i’m embarking on a new journey and upon first glance it’s exciting. i’m the type of person to plan my life out 5 years in advance. i hate not knowing things and the unexpected, which is why death is my #1 fear. i don’t like to compare myself to other people, but once in a while i will and the smallest things will just make me get in a depressive state. i’m LGBTQ+ and fem presenting, and i’ve always considered myself independent. i hated the thought of needing to feel like i need to be in a relationship. but sometimes i wonder why aren’t i in one? is it the way i present myself? is it my personality? i’ve always garnered attraction but a lot of it is sexual. 

my parents are currently in the process of a divorce, and i would be fine with it if my parents weren’t using me as a venting source. i’m in school to become a therapist, and they use this to talk to me about their problems not realizing the impact it has on me. it’s so draining. i’ve become this person to give good advice and to talk to, and it’s genuinely taking so much from me. i’ve always valued myself on giving, but i’ve given so much it feels like there’s nothing left of me. i’m scared for the future and my only option is to just see it through.