I've lost hundreds of dollars due to impulse spending, I've tried (key word: tried) getting my ears pierced in hs... only for one ear to scar up due to shitty genetics, and I've attached myself to Idk how many video game and TV show characters and have unconsciously imitated traits from them.

And when I take a step back from everything, to try and find some part of myself or some sliver of a personality... I realize (time and time again) that's there's nothing there.