Hey y'all,

So as of today my therapist basically told me I match all the symptoms of which he pretty much assured me is BPD. So, for my whole life, what I thought was depression turned out to be this. My main question today is how can I keep a strong relationship with the girl I'm currently dating? I don't want this disorder to ruin what we have, and every time I think to tell her what's really going on, rather than just explaining my feelings to her, I get scared and just tell her my worries. She's the most loyal girl I've ever met yet for some reason deep deep down I have a voice telling me she's cheating on me or I'm not good enough for her(when cognitively, I know she never would). I just want this to all stop.

Side note: my last few LSD trips have been horrifying. Starting in December, I've had 2 trips. The first me and my three friends all freaked out leaving me feeling alone and unwanted on an LSD level of feeling. The second one was at my buddy's place and while everyone else was having a great time I basically sat in the corner and couldn't say a word. Hysterical laughter, thought my friends were out to get me, etc.

If anyone can lend a piece of advice as to where to go from here i'd be really appreciative. I just want to live my life happily with this girl and with my family, and right now I need to be focused on my own success, not this bullshit.