I've had gender dysphoria as a child and throughout my adolescent years even into my early adulthood. Within recent times, my desire to transition (MTF) would come in waves, where I would really feel as though I'm trans and start dressing up and all that. Then, the feelings leave and I feel confused or as if it never happened. Yet, I've always felt that way since I'm a child, and somehow when I want to take it more seriously, the feelings just disappear. 

It becomes hard because then I can't tell if it's a BPD identity issue or really gender dysphoria. Does anyone else go through this or something similar?