I’m sitting in bed just bawling my eyes out. My fiancé just doesn’t care about me, I think? I try hearing about his day bc I like hearing every single detail but he just ignores me. He never asks about mine. Tomorrow is my birthday and I was trying to talk about what I wanted to do for it and he ignore my message. I know birthdays are stupid but normally I’m excited. But this year I feel so numb because I don’t feel like he wants to be with me sometimes. I don’t know how I feel. I just feel defeated I’m trying my best to pretend to be happy but I’m just so sad. But it’s I guess whatever tomorrow is just an ordinary day. It’s the first year I’ve ever not requested off from work too so I guess that’s just one thing to look forward to. ): who cares. I should finish the cry and sleep before I have to work anyways.