I’m crumbling. The waking life is so painful. I messed my visa application to Australia now I don’t think I can ever go back. I hate the country I’m from. I hate my life. I hate the clothes I wear. I finished my degree and my honours but I’m directionless. I’m back home now and everything is dark.The person I love will never be approved by my family and is back in Australia. Staying awake is so difficult. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’m 24 and I have absolutely no clue on what to do. I feel lonely. I’m scared. I just wish I was dead