I’m not sure what I’m meant to do anymore, everyday I go to sleep feeling the same dread and I wake up the exact same way, in fact I struggle to even sleep to start off with, it feels like I’m moving in slow motion and I’m seeing everything through a black and grey filter, of course it’s not visual it’s just my way of describing it, I shower every other day maybe every 2 days, I just have no energy, I barely brush my teeth because I have no energy, I can’t tell if I’m constantly feeling complete sadness or I have nothing going on inside my head, I have a girlfriend who I dearly love who I have no interest in having sex with because once again I have no energy and I see no point in it because I can’t imagine experiencing any sort of pleasure, I’ve given up basically everything, I used to love playing guitar now I hardly ever touch it, I don’t know why I feel this way but I just have no will to live, it feels like I’m watching a time lapse of the days going by and I’m not feeling any emotions while this time lapse is happening. I’ve tried just about everything and Reddit probably isn’t the best place to go but I feel like I can’t talk to anyone. This isn’t a cry for help more so just me needing to talk about stuff knowing maybe at least 1 person will stop by and read it. I feel hopeless but at the same time I have a tiny bit of hope that I’ll get better.