[Letter]

Hello!
My name is Jakub Clanet, I'm 18 years old from Poland and I have a huge problem.
I'm more than sure that I am a psychopat and I don't want to be this way because I know that these kind of people only exploit other human beings for their kindness and are the scum of the world.
I do feel like scum, I feel really bad about myself, because I know that I treat the only people that I have badly and I can see that I'm hurting them but there is a part of my brain that just does not care and it is beginning to overwhelm me.
Since I finished the school it got really bad.
I used to work a job, that I got trough my mom and I was a bad employee and people were complaining but the boss kept me there because of my Mom.
No matter what I did I always had an excuse for and why it wasn't me, I never took responsibility for anything, but he had enough and I got fired.
That was in March, since than I'm basically a parasite in my mom's house, that complains if she opens the door, and thinks that I should get everything just because I'm alive, I do reconize this things, I just realized or I'm starting to realize how much pain I brought to people.
I never had a plan for my future, the last few years I told everybody that I will be dead by the time I reach 27 and would laugh about it but now I realized that I'm actually killing myself and the people around me.
I see how bad it is my room is a mess and somehow I still can't get out of the bad and do something about it but instead I would get my mom to give me some cash and smoke weed in my room all night long, than sleep the whole day, and nothing else.
I feel like at this rate I'm actually going to kill myself in the next few years or at least land on the streets with nothing left.
I don't know what to do, where to even start, because I'm so fundamentaly broken and I ask for any help if there is, if anything that can be done.
Sincerely, 
Jakub Clanet