This has been going on for months now.  I’m blocked on everything social media wise but occasionally unblocked on messenger.

I knew her for years, 2 years I was her FP I suppose you could call it that.  Out of the blue one day she said thinking about me was upsetting her...she immediately found someone else to confide in at the same level of trust I had with her.  We continued to talk occasionally but it was very different with some passive aggression.

This idiot she put all this trust in...I know she felt crappy about how she pushed me away suddenly but she I suppose had his approval that I deserved it because she saw me as a horrible person and him being insecure and jealous quickly pushed the narrative.

There was a slight confrontation that took place between him and I on her Birthday in June...anyways I tried to be nice to him while he kept being a douchebag(she even nudged him to get him to back off a bit).  He kept acting like a prick so I basically told him if he had something to say to me we could go talk about it outside but he declined and just bitched and complained with snide remarks.

Anyways after that day took place, according to her BFF he demanded she tell her family everything about me she told him and she caved and did so.  So now most of her family except those who know better hate me.

They broke up a couple months after this took place...he is probably the second longest term FP she has had being 8 months to my 2 years along with the years of friendship that took place prior.  During their relationship he would get upset about her talking to me because apparently I was a POS.

Anyways, I don’t care about any of that shit, never did.   I promised her a long time ago that no matter what I’d always be there when she needed me...I knew what I was promising and I knew that no one else understood the importance of keeping a promise to her even if she pushes me away that to give her space but be there regardless.

However since there breakup she has been unblocking me on messenger and reblocking me.  I know after what she told her family that they’d be alarmed about why she would talk to me...maybe she is afraid I’m mad at her too I don’t know.

I know that everyone is different and we can’t read minds of others.  But have any of you ever pushed someone away and created a barrier between you and them by everyone else that knows you and them?  Have you ever unblocked them hoping they’d reach out first?

I suppose I’m hesitant to reach out and her get upset telling her family I harassed her or something.  Though I feel if she wasn’t wanting to talk she would just leave it be blocked.  I know that at night when she is alone she internalizes so much and has trouble sleeping which when I was her FP, I’d stay on the phone with her until she would fall asleep and stay on the line a while making sure she stayed asleep and that seemed to help her focus better the next day.

I’m not a neurotypical either, I have SPD so I try my best to understand others feelings by how they act so I’m sorry if I said anything insensitive but I’m just stumped here, my main concern is that she is okay and not feeling self destructive without anyone to listen or understand her.