I’m 21 and I’ve been struggling with anxiety since last March. 

At first I thought I was feeling like that because something was wrong with my body, but once the results came in I figured it was something else. Something that had to do with my inner self. 

I was angry. At myself, mostly. How could I become like this out of the blue? What changed in myself that made me like this? It was unfair, and it was something I was ashamed of.

Sure, people often have anxiety over common things. But not stuff like going out, sleeping, or just being afraid to have a good time and be sick in front of your friends or just people.

As I’m writing this, I’m also falling in love with the most amazing person I’ve ever met. I’ve been honest about my situation and I got a really good response, and also a lot of support.

But this didn’t stop myself to become depressed… I think of myself as someone not worthy of love because of my condition. I think my friends and my partner would be better off without me because I’m unable to do things most people do (had to cancel a concert, a plain ticket, countless nights out) and I’m frequently sad.

I’m in therapy and currently dealing with this. I had a minor depressive episode 2 years ago so I know how it feels to be depressed, and I’m feeling it again.

I just want to know it’ll be okay. I’m working really hard to get well, but I don’t know anybody that really gets of hard it can be sometimes