Hi, something is bothering me a lot. Why do I feel motivated to change my life when I smoke weed? 

I’ve smoked weed a little bit this month after coming home from work. I get high pretty easily because of my meds. The problem is that I get a boost of motivation to get my life together. 

I’ve been stuck in the loopholes of depression and ADHD lately and stopped taking care or myself. When I’m high I want to change that, I want to be happy and better. 

Why can’t I feel like this when I’m sober and able to do it? Anyone else went through this? 
Thanks