Sitting in my apartment just thinking about my best friends I lost when I was 16 and I lost both my best friends also losing another at 13, and it drove me to depression to where I quit school and I’ve been working ever since I been 16 sometimes I sit and contemplate why am I doing this? Why do I stay in this rat race. I feel like I’m letting both my friends down who died because I know they would cherish their life more than I ever could. I just wish that I can hang with them again, I even dreamed of one of them before like we were still friends and nothing changed. I dearly miss you guys and sometimes I think of suicide just to see y’all or atleast be one with y’all again where you guys are. Sometimes I sit and wonder how would they think of me as a person they say once you die your all knowing. I have a few skeletons in my closet and I hope they haven’t abandoned me because of that. Oh how I dearly miss you guys 20 years old and not a day goes by I don’t think of you guys 💔 if I could I’d trade my life to give you guys yours back but I’ll make sure that I don’t disappoint and I’ll make sure that you guys are proud of me. I haven’t had the best life growing up which already lead me to depression and losing close friends really hurts. I just hope you guys are watching me and making sure I’m safe tears are building as I type this oh how I love you guys LLA LLCJ I just wish that we can get the comfort and fullness from people but it’s a world where people have their own problems and stories but I love this world and I’ll make sure to cherish it before I die peace and one love to all especially the ones who grew up in poverty and homelessness at a young age while also losing people that meant so much to you because it’s hard to make friends especially trustworthy ones I miss you guys so much you don’t understand