*thanks BPD community for sharing their stories* (finding this page has been a breakthrough for me, I sincerely thought I was alone) 
*immediately shames self for thanking others for struggling with mental health* 
*feels like the worst person alive* 
*disgusted with self*
*spontaneously combusts from such immediate emotional disregulation and catastrophic thinking* 

.....but seriously, thank you all for being brave enough to share your symptoms and thought processes while struggling with this illness. I feel a little less alone tonight and this is rare for me.