I'm between the ages of 10-15yo. Ever since I was around 3yo, I've had 2 families. Since then my life has felt like a bumpy path downward. There are good times in my life but the bad and neutral times out weigh it. So far, I've had 1 brother run away only to live a worse life. Another brother recently reached adulthood and is probably already struggling. Whenever he is asked about college, he gives a what sounds like excuse. A lot of times when I feel I can finally trust someone, they ruin it, leading me to trust less and less people. I have a lack of interest because when I was still young and sensitive, anything I put interest in got made fun of. Also my step brother used to punch me a lot, making me very jumpy. I hate unfair things, which makes it worse when I share chores but am told to do them more a lot more than the other person (I know that's a bit childish, but I'm still pretty young). It doesn't help that instead of expressing anger, I just bottle it up. These kinds of things made it hard for me to feel emotions other than anger or just nothing at all.