I told my fp I had feelings for them today. I explained it would be better for us to break contact for both our sanities' sake. I realized I was repeating old patterns with him and I can't do that. I'm heartbroken but I know it's for the best. I'm devastated because it's another failure in my love life (I'm 28 and I've never been in a relationship), but I choose me this time. There's a part of me that wishes he comes running to me, trying to stop me from leaving, but I know it's not going to happen. I'm going to block him now and try to forget him and the way he made me feel when he told me I was beautiful, smart, amazing, kind, funny, hot, etc. 

How do I stay strong? What can I do to stop myself from going mad and ruining all of the progress that I made? How do I stop myself from reaching out to him?