I can’t do this anymore. I cant pretend that Im ok. I feel like a waste of life. It’s Christmas time and I have a choice to spend the holidays alone or with my abusing family. My friends are busy with their families and my so called boyfriend is 500k away and will spend the holidays with his family and two kids. I don’t see tha point in living if I’m always alone. Im never a priority to anyone. I have a job and hobbies but I’m always doing them alone. It doesn’t matter what I do because I always end up alone. I’m feeling so low that I have started to see a therapist again but that won’t change the fact that I’m always alone in life. I’m feel like I’m always reaching out but no one will take my hand. Why I’m I never good enough?