Slept for about two hours, woke up with my mind racing again. Couldn't eat dinner due to stomach pain from anxiety. Just want to quit work and start somewhere new again but it's not possible and will probably end up with the same issues. 

I just wish I could restart everyday and fix every mistake  of what I say and do. Can't keep living this way but I don't see how I can change the cycle. I feel like I bring everyone around me down. Why am I like this? I just want to turn my brain off.