DAE have trust issues that regularly gives you thoughts like thinking people might be laughing behind your back, lying about little unnecessary things but also big lies like future plans that never happen? 

I have a pretty good idea where my issues come from so I try to avoid situations that can trigger the worst reaction. I just hate myself for needing so much reassurance/proof because of how how dmg’ed my trust in the world and people is. 
I would be completely shattered if the doubts I have turn out to be true because it took me years to get here. I can’t just ask people “are you laughing behind my back?” But what can I do?