I (23F) literally went on a search to find the number that called my bf last night and the way I went in depth to find information was eye opening for me(in a sad way). And with my brain already thinking any slightest movement or thing he does is him cheating on me, I started splitting. And I never let my splitting get this bad before and honestly, that shit tired me out. Sometimes I feel like I don’t even need to be in a relationship cause my mind makes me think these things and go extreme lengths to find out what’s going on because of fear. I don’t want to be in a place where 10 years from now I’ll be wondering if he’s cheating. It’s EXHAUSTING.