I have work in an hour, I’ve been crying all morning panicking. I hate leaving the safety of my home, and I only work 3 days a week. My boyfriend tells me it’s okay if I need to stay home but it makes me feel so guilty because I already make so much less than him and I hate that a lot of the bills has to fall on his shoulders. 

He says a lot of things like, “don’t focus on other people or what they say, you’ll be home before you know it” so on and so forth, I know he’s just looking out for me but it’s hard for him to understand. Everything is easier said than done when it comes to bipolar, and most of the time it’s suffocating. There’s like a permanent passenger in my head that’s always fighting with my logical side, and always ends up winning. 

Do I stay home? Do I go to work? I have no idea what to do