Ive always thought i had bipolar, but everyone Ive brought it up to says its normal to have mood swings/not be happy all the time but it feels like more than that.

Most of the time Im just depressed but i remember having manic episodes more when i was in middle and high school, my parents would scold me (for being too wild)and ask if i was on drugs. I would pull all-nighters, i bought several pets i had no business owning, i would drive crazy, go on 10 mile runs, cut my own hair in the middle of the night, get into physical fights, and then crash and regret everything. Ive also lost many friends by starting fights or ignoring out of depression and ive struggled with SH since 7th grade. 

Im now 25 and just got off of Lexapro because it caused a manic episode, i asked my physiatrist about mood stabilizers but she said shes “not convinced” i need them and prescribed me anxiety meds that arent helping at all. And now im sad and confused. 

So i guess im asking…am i being dramatic by thinking i might have bipolar? I feel almost embarrassed to bring it up with my doctor again because they’ll probably say its normal or not enough evidence.

Sorry this is so long!