I was diagnosed with BPD around 1 year ago. My biggest problem is uncontrollable anger, I feel angry all the time and it consumes me. Sometimes it gets so bad that I completely lose control of myself and I don't remember what actually happened, my mind goes blank. Well yesterday I had one of these "episodes" which led to me having the cops at my door and I had to spend the night in the emergency psychiatric unit at my hospital before they released me. I'm currently unmediated due to pregnancy, I have an appointment on Thursday to see my psychiatrist to talk about medication again. Now I feel nothing but shame, I hate being like this. My depression is really bad again lately, I seem to express it by having angry outbursts at my other half and people close to me.
Does it ever get better? 