Hi. I am new to this group. So giving brief intro of what’s up, I have been at university for almost 5 years now and will graduate in Fall (I know it’s longer than usual, had gone through major change and last term was not good, failed a class, was supposed to graduate in spring). During this time my friend circle was small and I watched them grow and move on with being successful (some started after me) in their chosen majors and career. I was roommates with probably the most hardworking person I know and he graduated and now is almost done with his masters. He got engaged and now obviously moved out and all of us roommates are on separate path. 

Personally I am not the most social person but they were part of my life for almost 4 years. I didn’t mingle as much but now when everyone is moving on it feels weird and I am kinda sad. I know it was going to happen but it just feels real now and I am anxious about it that now I have to start over again. We all will stay in touch but it won’t be same. 

During these four years things happened where they have seen me go through ups and downs. Although everyone gave me space to cope with it, they were there when I needed to talk to someone. I don’t know if it’s just when things change and you don’t know what’s coming, that makes you feel anxious. I was cleaning my room and the house was empty, and it suddenly hit me that I am going to miss everyone and this place. They used to talk in evening in the living room or usual laughter atmosphere, hanging out. I rarely joined them and sometimes used to get annoyed when in my room (anti-social animal in me I guess).But today it’s quiet and I will be leaving this place tomorrow, and I am going to miss everything.

I don’t know if I am confusing roommate attachment with me feeling stuck at a place and everyone around me has moved on. I am not jealous of them as it make me happy as I have seen their growth since beginning but it just makes me sad that they may not be thinking too hard about moving on as I am as they were more or less family to me.

I know I will come off as a confused person and just wanted to hear some thoughts about this.