My mind has blocked out the majority of my childhood but I’m told I was a happy energetic kid. I can’t remember a time when I wasn’t mirroring people and feeling empty though. I keep hearing that I should learn to love myself and I’ve tried but I am not sure what I’m supposed to love. Am I just supposed to love the traits I stole from other people or the little girl that everyone but me knows? I hate that I can’t remember who I am and I hate that I feel like I don’t exist. I can’t look in the mirror anymore because I don’t see myself, I just see everyone else. My hairstyle, clothing, makeup, everything is just a reflection of everyone else and I’m not even sure what I want.