For context I have been diagnosed with ocd and depression and I was bullied to the point where I attempted suicide when I was 15. I’m a 17 year old in high school. I am extremely lonely and depressed. I sit alone at lunch during school while everyone around me has a group of friends or a boyfriend/girlfriend. Sometimes I tear up at lunch because I am jealous of people who I have friends. I try to make friends but I have trouble keeping in touch because I lack the energy to do so. Currently my best friend is my mom and that is extremely embarrassing for me. During the day, regardless of how much sleep I get, I am just exhausted, I don’t have the confidence and energy to ask to use the bathroom, often resulting in stomach pain until I get home. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to be lonely. I want to have a friend. I’ve tried everything to make friends and to talk to people but I just can’t. Im lost. I don’t know what to do. Im bored of everything. I’ve already been to two residential hospitals for mental health and I don’t want to go back. What do I do? Sorry for ranting I need to get it out of my system. I don’t want to exist anymore.