I know it’s bad to develop FPS. I feel like mines is leaving me. 

We’ve been talking the past few months. And maybe I’m jst being a big ass baby. Idk. The past day I’ve barely heard from him. And it hurts. 

He is NOT my bf. And so I have no real power here. And of course I would never wanna force him to talk to me. 

But it really does upset me that he’s been gone like this for a whole day. 

I’m trying to be reasonable. Maybe he’s jst tired. Maybe he wants some space. Maybe he’s going through things. And I want to be a understanding person towards him but all this distance makes me feel like he’s getting ready to abandon me. 

I feel so anxious and sad and hurt and I really wish it would stop. And I know it won’t until I hear from him and that’s what I hate about this the most. Because what if he dsnt come back???? 

This is always my fear. I’m trying to vent this all out in the hopes that it will curb my anxiety. 

Tbh I sent him msgs as well kinda telling him my feelings. I’m not sure if that’s ok but I feel so crappy /: 

I didn’t wanna split on him n say mean things. So I tried to jst b straight up with my emotions. Idk if he’ll think I’m crazy. Or needy. Or what. 

And a big ass part of me dsnt care. I’m tired of holding in all my hurt.