Hi

I (22f) have recently broken up with someone toxic. We talked a lot after and I realize I’m toxic too. All I want is to be with him and be better but I already feel like I lost myself so much. I’ve exhausted the resources of my family and friends and I feel bad asking for help. I think I need some sort of program to deal with this. I already see a therapist and I’m starting a group therapy for codependency. I feel so anxious and terrible all the time all I want to feel betrer is my ex boyfriend and the hard relationship, but when I’m there thag doesn’t feel right either. How do I get out of being trapped like this? Is there some place I can go like a mental hospital so I can stop feeling this bad all the time and get things figured out?

Tl;dr: I’m feeling depressed and anxious and the only thing I want to make it feel better is my toxic ex boyfriend. I want him so much. What are some resources to getting around this?