i'm having weird feeings. It's Like Manic and depression at the same time. 

my 1kg of sodium nitrite will be arrive in days.

Blade and bleeding method looks very un stable. 

I wish i had more freedom in this world. 

Capitalism won. My BPD won.

Maybe this will help BPD patient's recorded suicide rate go up and make people more aware of this terminal illness. 

May Peace and happiness will reach all of you kind humans and animals