I’ve been with my boyfriend for almost 8 years, 1.5 years has been long distance because my dad is sick so I moved to help. We visit each other every three weeks... and every three weeks I’m causing a problem that usually leads to talk of a break up. Lately it’s been something like this... he opens his snap chat or instagram and I get upset. I get upset because I thought our time was valuable being only a weekend every three weeks. Plus usually when he opens it there are pictures of females which also makes me uncomfortable. So I always annoyingly ask, “ask you talking to girls on there?” Which turns into why don’t you trust me, which turns into if there’s no trust there’s no relationship. Then he goes right to victim mode wondering why he’s always the bad guy and why I don’t trust him when it’s been a year since his last fuck up talking to females. And plus how many times have I cheated and he got over it. Yes I’ve cheated a ton. Then he left me there alone to cry in the bed. Wondering why we are even together anymore. Why do I have to ask such stupid questions and then make everything into a huge deal. All I wanted to get laid all weekend to be honest. Alas... how could that happen now after a fight like that. Men’s parts seem to work just fine after a fight, whereas it takes me a while to recover emotionally from the fight and so I’m not very interested in sex. I think this is common with females in general no? Our arousal is tied to our emotions. I guess I’ll have to find a stranger to fuck when he leaves. Jesus Christ this is bullshit.