Anybody here feels extremely anxious before a Manic/hypomanic episode? It's like my nerves are never calmed and I have all the energy and urge within me but it's bottled inside so I am feeling all the signs of an anxiety attack, palpitations, racing thoughts, clammy hands, racing heart and other uncomfortable feelings. 

I'm not even sad, I'm raging mad and I want to freaking die, like on the spot die. It feels like I have to die on that exact instant and it takes all my energy not to act on my thoughts, that makes me very, very, very tired but still can't sleep or chill. 

I've done all sorts of cleaning, watching and errands that I can do, but yeah. No relief.