I'm pretty sure I've been dissociating for a while now and everyday I'm left even more confused and feeling lost. 

I've realised today I can't really connect with anyone except for my FP. Even though I seem to care about people as in a whole (I'm an activist) I can't seem to emphasise with other people around me. 

I've moved to a different country to runaway from my past and haven't made many friends. I have one friend now that I can talk to and she considers me a close friend but I feel so distant.

I've basically shut down and pushed away everyone that seemed to care about me and consider me their good friend (from before I moved out). And I don't feel nothing at all for them now.

People seem so robotic and not... real??  Nothing seems to really matter. Although I wish I was normal and could have friends and have fun, I'd rather isolate myself 

Is this my BPD? Am I going insane? I don't know what to do, I feel so empty.
