I don’t even know what to say or how to articulate what I feel all I know is this life is unbearable and I hate the agony I’m constantly in - it is too much and I’m not sure how to get through it anymore. I don’t know how to talk to my friends about it.  No one understands it. I have the most loving mum in the world but I can’t explain it to her. The pain feels like stabbing in my heart and I would do anything for it to stop. I don’t want to live like this. I’m so tired