I'm a fervent defensor of science and it pains me to say that: but I don't think that many doctors know what they're doing when it comes to psychiatric issues.

Bipolar treatments suck. I think many here have noticed this. They let u get out of bed or prevent you from buying a Lamborghini selling your children for it so that's a huge plus.

But it feels like losing one part of one's self.

But I deeply think more can be done.

I've recently had a full blown manic episode that I managed to keep in check with a lot of support. For once I did not take drugs and cautiously enjoyed the ride, so to speak, actually making decisions that some sane people were even admirative of.

Now that I've weathered this incident, I've been dabbling in low dose 2-FDCK and it feels like a miracle. I am not trying to hole on it even though I love it, it just makes me feel myself and that's so pleasant. I have self confidence, I am able to think and speak freely, work, and my logic is not impaired. I'm no longer bored.

This is of course meaningless circumstancial évidence so far really but I think there should be something to explore around bipolar and ketamine therapy.