I'm a 24 yo girl. I recently got married to my husband. I've been feeling all sorts of ways lately and I'm not sure if it's just for attention or is actually something wrong with me.(my husband has anxiety disorder and psychosis and is on antidepressants and some other medication) 


I'm feeling tired but like tired from life. I don't wanna die, it's not that but it's like I wanna stop existing just for a sec. Like why is life so hard. So many things to do and stuff to think about, so many problems. Like I just don't wanna do all that. I can't find the will to wash the dishes at all. They stay in the sink for a month, and I don't wanna vacuum the floors and wipe the dust and all that. But before It was really important to me that the space around me is tidy. Also I do shower everyday and I wash and iron my clothes because I care how I look outside and on my job. So I don't know.. am I just lazy?? 
Anything can make me cry. Every little thing. It's almost like I can cry at command. Maybe I'm too emotional. 

But I just want to sleep all day. I had 3 exams to finish my masters but I just couldn't bring my self to even think about it cause it would stress me out so I didn't take them. I have to be constantly occupied, so my tik tok is on whatever I'm doing, or It's music or Instagram, but I don't need anything when I'm going to sleep.

Also I'm a really nervous, or maybe the better term is agitated, person. Anything could annoy me, but it's not like normal annoyance but It builds inside me so intensely that I must cry and hit something or someone (I usually hit my leg) to let it all out because there is no way for me to deal with it. It usually passes in a few minutes.

I don't wanna go anywhere, I just wanna be at home, but I do go out now that is summer cause friends from other towns that I don't usually see are coming. the point is that I don't Want to go out at all, I would prefer to just play video games (that's what I did all year, all day, everyday) And I do go to work every day. 

Also I'm an emotional eater, I eat a lot more then usual when Im stressed or sad (I'm not fat) but I wanna lose weight and whenever I would eat a whole meal and feel full I would feel guilt for eating it and like I have no self control (even tho it's food I get at my work for my lunch break which is a good portion for one person (in no way too big)).

So If anyone could just help me a bit to understand If Im just lazy or moody or do I actually need therapy. Thank you in advance!