There are so many thoughts in my head and emotions and i cant make sense of anything. This post was supposed to be about something completely different but i can't articulate what's in my head. There's too much. It's like in high school when you had to highlight important information in an article... I'm just like EVERYTHING IS IMPORTANT and couldn't do it at all. That's basically what's happening to me every time I try to talk with friends or family or even my fucking therapist and I just shut down and my brain shuts off and I say nothing. Lately I've been really struggling and know I need to reach out for support but I get so overwhelmed with all the thoughts and then I get scared that it might all start coming out if I open my mouth at once and then I'm panicking about being too much or saying too much or asking for too much or not making sense or being misunderstood or looking absolutely bat shit crazy. What even is appropriate in relationships to say? I have no fucking clue. Nothing makes sense to me. The supportive people I have in my life have even told me that I can vent to them/call them if I'm having a bad day and that they are there for me etc. but then my brain starts overanalyzing everything like... with what frequency are you offering to be there for me, with what intensity am I allowed to express my emotions to you, how much detail is appropriate to open up about? I DON'T KNOW.  

