I feel like ugly worthless piece of shit that’s not even worthy of getting dick so I’ve been celibate for 2 years so my seductive skills are pretty off and honestly idk how to seduce a guy anymore I went over a guys house that I’ve been talking too and I thought we planned to have sex but once I got over there and got in my lingerie he freaked out and claimed I was trying too hard and me being BPD i thought I had to try harder to get him to want to fuck me so I sucked him off for a few minutes and even that didn’t make him eat me out or fuck me he literally said “ just cause you sucked my dick for a few minutes DOESNT mean I have to eat your pussy” and I started to cry I feel so ugly and unwanted I wasted my time and energy shaving my pussy I’m crying still this morning idk how a man can turn down sex.