i make bad decisions on impulse (a lot). i’ll be in a group chat and say something like “i’ve never been with so many terrible people in my life that make me feel like shit” and they all attack me and i end up going through an episode and feel terrible. i’m not sure if this is because of my bpd or because i’m just a bad person in general? i ALWAYS say terrible things on impulse and then feel like shit afterwards because i feel like a horrible person. 

not sure how to fix this because i actually lose control of my body.