I’m still in a state of shock right now, trying to process what I just went through. 

Things were going okay with someone I really care about, the first person that I let into my life after an extremely long time, since I was hung up on my ex for years. 

I fell in love with him, and he made me happy. I saw a future with him. 

And then, over the past week, he just started panicking about being in a relationship. 

There was nothing that triggered this. It just happened after we spent a great week together. 

And then he said he didn’t think it would work out between us. 

I am already feeling a lot of hurt, but a great deal of me is still in shock. 

I trusted this man with so much and never would have thought he would hurt me like this, and now he’s just…. gone.

I’m so depressed that I can’t even leave my couch. I’m unable to make it through a movie or an episode of a TV show. I can’t play games. I can’t do my job. I can’t even talk to my friends. 

This is the only place that I can really openly talk about this because I refuse to say this to anyone I know. I feel absolutely humiliated and heartbroken. 

And I’m scared because I really thought he was a good guy, and I was trying so hard. I never, ever would have predicted that he would do this to me. 

I’m really struggling right now, and I’m not going to do anything dumb. 

I just don’t know how to make it through this when I can barely even drink water because I am so hurt. I’m so tired of feeling hurt. 

I just want to feel wanted for once.