Every other minute I bounce back and forth between "my boyfriend loves me" and "everything seems different he's going to leave me soon and I'm going to be so broken". I keep thinking about how killing myself would be the only way out of not knowing how another person feels, even when they tell me that nothing is wrong and everything is fine. I dont know if any of this is a side effect of abilify or one of the withdrawal symptoms but all this drug has done is worsen how I feel and make me think about suicide more, more anxious and more paranoid and afraid of everything. I'm terrified to try another drug to fix my mood changes because I do not want to feel like this and lose my relationship.