I love my boyfriend so much but i don’t know how to stay in relationships. i’ve always thought it was easy to get people to fall for me (not in a manipulative way). i think the other person has fun getting to know me and finding me interesting at first but i feel like when that runs out and what was fun at first becomes annoying and too much and i don’t blame them for that. i’m scared that’s what’s happening with my boyfriend right now. i genuinely think i am intolerable and i try to handle my disorder as best as i can but how the hell am i supposed to manage my own inner crisis while trying to keep my boyfriend from losing interest. is it actually even possible to stay in love with me for a long time? how the hell do you even teach yourself that you’re worthy of love? i don’t understand being loved for who you are i feel like i always have to keep something up even if it’s draining for me and i can’t figure out what to do to keep him interested. i don’t know how to just trust that he won’t fall out of love with me or how to not overthink this so much but everytime i’ve had these thoughts they end up being right and i can’t handle that again. is it just better for me to not date? or should i just try to talk to him about it? sorry for the rambling i feel like i’m gonna start spiraling