I’ve been recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I had a psychotic episode/mental break back in April. Now I’m struggling to make it through the day each day.

I was prescribed risperidone originally, and that medication was absolutely horrible. I was shaking all over, and my thoughts and actions were incoherent.

I saw a different healthcare provider and was shifted onto Olanzapine/Zyprexa. I’m no longer shaking as much and my thoughts are much more coherent.

But now I’m struggling with depression and anxiety. I also feel the constant compulsion to be doing something, but I have literally nothing to do. TV shows and movies can’t keep my attention, games don’t bring me joy anymore and I can barely bring myself to play one for more than a few minutes, etc.

I’m not working a job right now for a variety of reasons, and I personally don’t know if I’d even be mentally capable of performing the required tasks for extended periods of time.

I don’t know what part of my symptoms are due to side effects of my medicine and what is due to my disorder.

I was just wondering if there is anyone experiencing similar symptoms and how they’re coping with them if so. I feel pretty miserable and I literally just try to pass time for the sake of passing time.

I do chores and errands until there’s nothing left to do, then I stare at my phone or flick through the same apps constantly, barely able to concentrate on them.

I feel like I seriously need help before I fall deeper into depression.

My list of symptoms include:

Difficulty focusing, inabiltiy to entertain myself, moderate to severe anxiety, little patience, little motivation, etc.

And to top it all off, I’ve had difficulty getting aroused or getting and maintaining an erection.

I don’t know what to do.