I have borderline personality disorder and it sucks. Usually I'm pretty stable but I'm in a bit of a transition right now. My therapist is getting his own practice so I'm supposed to get a new therapist but it's taking them a bit to decide what to do with me. So I haven't been to therapy in a bit. I also got hurt at work on the first so I can barely work until I'm off light duty. My little sis got the virus so now I can't see her, my mom or my older brother since they all live together.
My life feels really wonky..
I need to start forcing myself out of bed in the morning but I get depressed and go back to sleep. When I finally do force myself up I have this moment of extreme happiness and I think I can take on the world. It will last for an hour. I'll clean, play with my dog, eat healthy, start to get ready then crash and become severely depressed.
I just can't wait for a better routine or even just to go back to therapy.
Right now I'm in a low. Guess I just need to power on for like an hour until my stupid brain decides to let me be neutral.