I took a long break from Reddit and felt like I didn't need this sub for support anymore because I was going to do it on my own. I couldn't. I'm back again. I feel like I'm on the verse of a complete meltdown again. I've stopped sleeping, eating, and I can't focus on anything. I dropped a class, I opted out of teaching this semester (Grad school) and so I'm technically way less busy this semester than I've been the whole time I've been here. And I still want to drop another class. I feel like I'm watching a trainwreck in slow motion but unable to stop it.

How do I stop this? I don't want this to end with a huge fight with my husband or a suicide attempt or go in patient. 