This got long, sorry in advance for the vent.

It started very recently. I was doing just fine at the beginning of the year, I even did well on the first few tests. Then I misjudged the amount of time I needed on a 15 minute quiz, and failed. I decided to get my act together and study better.

So now I study well, and I know how to solve each and every question very quickly, but then when the test comes my mind starts screaming and I can't pick through the junk, my hands start shaking and I have to breathe to draw a line, and it looks just like I didn't study.

Today my teacher gave us a partner quiz, so a friend and I partnered up. We were supposed to do the questions together, but my mind went blank and I just couldn't answer the questions. My friend did all the questions and we probably got a 100, but I felt so bad.

I apologized profusely, and he said it was fine. I apologized a few more times, he said he didn't care because we got a 100 and even if we didn't it was his fault.

I still feel bad about it all. I'm trying to come up with explanations for what just happened, but I get the feeling that excuses are pointless and that the outcome is what matters, which is that I was dead weight. I don't know what to make of it, really.