Hi , Im expatriate not living in my hometown.
 I live in others country for 5 years. I have some social anxiety and social phobia.

In the last 4 years I go through a lot of bad things and I feel that it started to pile up and I feel very bad these day and I feel like I'm dead inside. I feel also stressed because of new work so I did one mistake before a few days  , my gf cheat on me before 2 years, my previous work kill me from inside they treat me very bad and also I'm far away from my family since I'm not living with them.

Some bad things start coming into my mind (if you know what I mean)

Unfortunately there's no one I can speak with him ,

How I can get better

Please advise me 
Thank you