Hi friends, I think I'm severely depressed and anxious out of my mind and its come to a tipping point, where, its mostly what I think of and feel like I am trapped, (something traumatic happened to me and ever since I feel impure or like a fuck up \[I am a guy\] and hate myself? idk but I'm in a loop and so confused because I am a zero w/ emotional mastery and very naiive w/ ppl , but in terms of technical/nerdy/Tech (I am in tech) I am a hero. I've never struggled w/ learning (and I thank God / my parents and the village) anything (mentally or physically) and always excelled, but why Am i struggling so much w/ this!! I feel like I am at someone's mercy and am so afraid of women. I am married btw, young! but married. I am at a loss.. at least decipher me, Please :(