I’ve tapered back up to a good dosage of lamictal finally after a mess up at the pharmacy a couple weeks ago. I think it definitely helped me dodge the mania bullet, at least for the most part. Unfortunately I haven’t slept much the last 3 nights (maybe 2-3 hours total per night at most) because while I try to sleep I can’t stop thinking about horrible things. Loved ones dying in terrible ways, friends who have passed away, past trauma, etc.. I just can’t get it to stop and I’ve started to dread the night because I know I have to go through this for hours. This is usually something I’ve only experienced during my most extreme manic episodes, but I don’t really feel manic or hypo manic right now. Has anyone experienced this, and if so did you find anything that helped you? Please share, my body is so tired.