So they were sorta worried about me, and wanted me in. But I wanted to stay home. So they gave me some Oksazepam, 3 doses a day. And im pretty strickt with my meds, so i wont fuck that up. 

Anyway it got worse, the voices and delusions were just skyhigh. I tried going for a cycling ride, but that did not help. So I stopped by a few pharmacies and got something to kill my liver. On the way between the pharmacies i heard Police sirens. And was sure that they now had registered the transactions and were waiting for me at home.

Got home, and thankfully noone was outside. Got out of my sweaty clothing, felt hungry. So made a bowl of oats and Milk, and put on music. And I saw this song i like there. NF - How Could You Leave Us. And played that. Iv got two children. 

Called my Sister and had her pick up what i had bought. So i suppose i dodged a bullet, im feeling really shitty. What I guess are delusions about my psychiatrist, healthcare system and th... yeah not writing more about that. Voices come and go with varied intensity.