This may be a bit long because I write too much. I’m referring to what happens as a “freak out” because it’s just how it feels to me. I get frustrated very easily, especially if I’m having a time when my bpd feels to be a bit stronger. For a 20 year old, I’m not too tech savvy like most people my age. I mean I can do the basic stuff, but I just don’t really get into more than that. So I’ve had a Mac for about a year, and there’s still some things I don’t know how to use on it, which has typically been fine since I mostly use it to use my streaming services, play sims, and for some of my college classes. So earlier I was in the middle of trying to find some new cc (custom content) for a new sim. Sims is kinda like an escape for me. Somehow Idek how I managed to get my computer stuck on caps, even though the caps lock wasn’t on. I couldn’t figure out how to get it off, even with googling and reading a shit ton of articles/ Apple support answers(which are useless). So I gave up and turned off my Mac and restarted it, I did this without thinking about how it was stuck in caps, so I wouldn’t be able to properly enter the password. So at that point I was VERY frustrated and I could feel it building in me like usual. My frustration was clouding what I was thinking, so again without thinking how the caps situation would effect what I do, I clicked reset Mac password. So then I’m stuck on this reset page with no way to get off. At this point I was flipping shit, I know for a dumb reason, but I guess that’s just the beauty of bpd😑. After about a 20 minute freak out, I sat down very calm, trying not to explode again and clicked the apple in the corner, and a few clicks later I fixed it. It’s stuff like this that makes me hate myself. Freaking out to the point I can’t even calm down enough to properly do something.. and realizing how simple a situation was until I got upset. It’s tiring. I just needed to vent to people who may be able to relate a little. If you kept reading thank you, I know it’s long. This is my first post on here 😂