So here's my story. For the past three years, I've been angry. Angry about current events, people I dislike, politics, meanness, etc. I mean, these things are okay to be mad about, but I did nothing but dwell. The anger would creep up on me and blast my brain with cortisol when all I wanted was to not think about these things. I could barely sleep at night from this rage. I knew it was super bad for my brain health to be so stressed out and foggy all the time, and that came into play when I couldn't retain info from books or videos.

I've been taking three mood stabilizers, lithium, lamictal, and olanzapine, which worked wonders for my mania (people can actually tolerate me and I don't fly off the handle anymore), but I was still full of anger. And I was getting suicidal thoughts, because I never thought I'd be free. Cut to me being so desperate, that I ask my doctor for antidepressants, even though I hear they can increase mania. She prescribed wellbutrin, and I've been taking it for about four weeks. For the past two days, I haven't felt any rage. I even looked at things that would make me angry, and still didn't care. I haven't gone one day without anger in god knows how long, but suddenly I feel better. I feel more energetic (but not hyper), and I even agreed to hang out with a friend this weekend instead of get anxiety and back out.

I don't know if it'll last, or it's just more mania. But it's peace, after three years. 

Just wanted to share.