I'm moving into a 4-6 week long intensive therapy program. I'll live there and get therapy all day everyday 5 days a week. It'll be mostly DBT and art therapy, and I'll see a psychiatrist too. I'm soooo scared. 

Like, I'm excited. I feel like I'm finally ready to heal and my friend is having a great time there right now. But moving away from home for a month is scary. 

I'm also kind of afraid they'll think I'm doing too well. I've held down a part time job since my suicide attempt 6 weeks ago and take one class. Free of self harm and alcohol for that 6 weeks. But I still have 6 diagnoses, take 6 medications, and have had electroconvulsive therapy 70+ times.... It's been 6 weeks of good vs 7 years of pain. And my definition of living my best life is pretty subpar compared to the general population (working 17 hours a week and taking an easy course = no energy for hobbies or a social life.) 

I move there Tuesday morning, it's Saturday now. The anxiety is ramping up. Just needed to share.