I want to kill myself, but I can’t, I can’t leave my freinds and family here. I can’t hurt them. But if I don’t kill myself im stuck here living this shitty life. I started therapy and meds about 3 months ago and nothings helped. I got blackmailed out of 800 dollars and might have my nudes leaked to my family members. I’ve lost every shred of dignity and self respect for myself. I now just act out of irrational impulse and emotion. Idk who I am anymore, I can’t look at myself in the mirror or think about myself without feeling disgust for the piece of shit I have become. I am nothing. I’ve given up on myself and my goals. Nothing is worth it. I don’t want to find happiness becasue Ik I’ll just find a lower low then I’m at now, that’s how it always goes. Life is full of ups and downs and I’ll bounce back, but I’ll just sink right back to where I am now, so why try. I want to end it all but I can’t. I’m stuck here.