I am so tired. SO tired. I have been dealing with anxiety for 2 decades and I'm beginning to think it will never end.

I can be fine for months and then BOOM, some thought or feeling triggers it and then it snowballs and it's so hard to get out of the anxiety loop.

I don't even have the energy to describe my anxiety but the basis of is it literally i'm anxious about anxiety and I fucking hate it.

Why do I have to be afraid of everything? Why can't I just accept things and live my life?