Well everyone, I’m not sure what to say, but I’d like to not be alone on my last night alive. After a long time of trying, I’ve decided I can’t do it anymore. I don’t want to do it anymore. I want to be at peace. So tomorrow morning I’m going to drive out into the middle of nowhere, smoke a couple joints, and call it. And if anyone wants to help me feel less lonely in these last hours I’d appreciate it. I’m not crying out for help, in fact the decision to finally do it brings me a lot of peace knowing the pain will stop. I’m scared, sure. But more of the unknown. Hopefully I don’t go to hell.