DAE download/create profiles on dating apps just to feel.... anything? 

I didn’t notice up until recently that I would periodically download Tinder, or even Grindr even though I’ve never felt like I was gay or bisexual. I always thought I was just bored and needed something to do, little did I know it was to make myself feel good about myself. 

This disorder is such horse shit, it’s so utterly confusing and I find myself doubting if I even struggle with it, because I can’t validate myself what so ever.  

I always think to myself.. “It’s been a while since you’ve dated, you should be good now!” When I am very clearly, not fucking good at all.