I love when I start talking to someone and it’s all butterflies. but the second they don’t respond for a few hours or are online and not responding to me or I feel like their response is just SLIGHTLY different than usual, they’re not using enough emojis etc... I doubt every single fucking thing. I doubt they even like me. I doubt they will continue to try talking to me. I start to believe that they are only leading me on and talking to me to pass the time.. or maybe they just talk to me to get sex in the future. I had a HUGE breakdown the other day thinking these menacing fucking thoughts replaying over and over and over. I hate feeling this way, I hate being so clingy and I hate how I cannot talk about it to anyone ESPECIALLY the person of interest bc then I seem like a crazy bitch. 
This person I’m talking to has easily turned into my FP and it’s only been a few weeks... they honestly turned into my FP at the very start of talking. I’m so tired of getting so easily attached only to fear abandonment or being taken advantage of. I find myself doing my FP (in general) lots of favors or paying for things just to get them to hopefully stay... obviously that doesn’t usually work out in the end but I can’t stop myself. I just want to fucking be loved.