I’ve (20F) had depression ever since I was 14 and have always tried to deal with it in a healthy way like eating healthy, exercising or talking to someone. But today I just broke down in tears and I feel so hopeless and tired. I guess what triggered it was that I just got rejected from another job today (and I’ve been applying for two years to try and find work that will pay me a livable wage.) I realized how much my family doesn’t even like me besides my nieces. I also had to break up with my ex recently because he wouldn’t respect my physical boundaries. My “friends” just started to use me because I’m the only one with a car. Asking, borderline trying to manipulate, me into driving them places. I’m so tired. 

For the past two years I’ve tried to keep my head up and keep trying my best. But it seems like no matter how hard I try, things just keep crumbling around me or I keep failing. Sometimes I just wonder why I’m trying to hard.