I've been struggling with this a lot lately because my new therapist called out that I often justify my actions with symptoms of BPD even when it's not really the case. She says I'm really well educated about the diagnosis, but that I focus on it too much instead of focusing on myself outside of it.

But the thing is that being diagnosed early this year really helped me to feel validated, because before that I was just diagnosed with depression and it didn't really fit anymore. So I'm kind of affraid of letting go of this because it's just such a big part of who I am and it would feel like I've been faking or something like that. 

Also, it's difficult for me in general to understand my feelings / my identity so I've always tried to hold on to some labels and was kinda obsessed with personality tests a few years ago because of this. So then when I learned about BPD everything clicked and I felt like I belonged somewhere.

However, I do understand that it's unhealthy to hold on to a diagnosis so much if you want to get better. But that's kinda the point too, I've been feeling like shit for so long that I'm almost scared to get better. 

Idk, DAE relate or have any tips?

**TL;DR:** Felt validated with my diagnosis, but my therapist says I justify / explain everything with it. 