are cannot forget bad memories, keep thinking bad memories and thought "i'll never be good enough", "i still can't move on with my past" considered PTSD too? idk. i can't stop thinking about my past and keep being depressed. whenever that bad memories pop up in my head i feel like i want to die. whenever something similar to that bad memories happening in front of me, i'll be scared and shivering. i feel like everything will remain the same and i will keep being like this even though i tried my best to endure all of this. whenever i thought "i will never be good enough" i will shut people out of my life, even with my beloved ones. i'll not contact with them bcs i feel like i'm not deserved anything. i hate this feelings. i'm scared i'll continued be like this.




PS: pls dont remind my bad english. i'm just scared rn