i ruined the best thing that has ever happened to me. this man was so caring and so kind and so understanding (he even understands what reparenting is!) until i ruined it by blowing up his phone 500+ times thinking he abandoned me. i showed my crazy and he understandably doesn’t want to deal me with anymore. i don’t want this to be the end, i want him to come back to me but i know he won’t. how can i move past this with so much regret and guilt in my heart?  everything hurts so much. we spent the past seven months together, every holiday, every weekend, met his son and his family but it still wasn’t enough for me. i need help. i need someone to tell me i can make it through this. i need someone to tell me that it gets better.