Since the pandemic my social anxiety has been worse than ever before, and I’m very mentally unstable atm – I can barely leave my house or socialise with my loved ones. 
I’m in my third year of Uni, and for part of my course I must do a project and during a state of mania in which I was extremely impulsive, I signed myself up for one about teaching, where you go into a secondary school and teach a lesson. I really don’t know why I did this to myself, especially as I get particularly bad anxiety around kids, am triggered by a school environment and am anxious about the public speaking aspect too. I have cried every day and had many panic attacks about it since I started the project, and the lesson I have to teach isn’t even for another 2 weeks. I am finding it extremely torturous, every night I am unable to sleep because I am so anxious about it, my physical health is deteriorating from my stress levels (headaches every day and I have been ill three times in the last 2 months – my doc said it’s stress). I’ve been waiting for counselling at my Uni and I have finally been given a date for my first session which isn’t until the end of November, after the dreaded lesson. I am really concerned that this is too much too soon, and I don’t have any support to help me get through it. I take beta-blockers (propranolol) but have found they don’t help too much. But I also don’t want to just not do it, if that is even possible, because of the guilt I’ll feel as well as feeling as if I’ve failed. I really don’t know what to do, I am absolutely miserable, and I can feel my mental state getting worse and worse. I know if I do the lesson it’ll all be fine, but the build up to it is seriously messing with my life and I’m just not sure I’m ready to take such a big step, I can’t even talk to more than three of my friends at once at the moment!