The day after I lost him I thought I would get my life together and focus on myself because he adviced I should do that , I woke up early and had a really productive day , I told myself I would start studying hard , eat healthy, exercise and build a better life for myself , that it would help me forget him. I thought if I kept myself busy at all times I wouldnt think of him anymore but I still do and I am scared I will be stuck for years being unhappy because I lost him.  I feel a constant weight in my chest and I am always on the verge of crying when I think of him , I wish I had never met him or that I didnt love him so much , I wouldnt be in so much pain.