I get this, awareness-like feeling, that during my daily life I'm just pretending to feel things.

Unless it's a burst of extreme emotion (rage, surprise, happiness, shock) it just seems to me that my brain generates this knock off feelings just to get by.

It's like a "they know that we know that they know" kinda thing. Am I a robot? Or maybe I Feel like I'm a robot? Maybe emotions are just not my thing or that's just how I want things to be. 

Don't even know if this is just a DAE or a venting post, so sorry for rambling.