I constantly talk to guys, guys i don’t know, guys with girlfriends, guys way older. I love attention i crave it 24/7 i don’t understand why. Even in relationships i’m still leading on others in order to get attention and validation. I love my FP i just cant drop those people. I need to know i’m pretty and loved even though i love myself and think i’m so beautiful sometimes. I constantly feel like a god or the opposite like a monster like the grossest thing on earth. I’m so ashamed of what i do and feel so terrible but i can’t help but continue no matter what. Even if they’re my soulmate i’m still talking to others....