I’m 17 years old and I live with my mom who I’ve had a troubled relationship with. She used to drink and hit me and then blame me for it and tell people I hit her so I’ve always had a small grudge. 
I overthink everything and the only thing I’m really good at is gaming so that’s what I do all day. I don’t like being in social situations anymore and I have severe anxiety everytime I leave the house but I don’t wanna tell anybody. I get yelled at by my mom and friends constantly because I play the game so much since it’s been my dream since I was a child. Nobody has ever really supported the idea but I continue to try and push through but my own friend is on my moms side. Today I got yelled at for not mowing the lawn because the mower wouldn’t start and then I got yelled at for not texting her about it. I’m just stuck in my head wondering if i really am the problem.