I hate hate hate how cut throat so to speak I can be with people. Boyfriends, friends, family anyone I will just cut them off. I love them completely and entirely but something in my head just shuts them off and then that's it. What the fuuuuuuuck hahaha to be fair though I'd love for them to turn around when I did this and be like wtf are you doing but they don't and that's why I'm left with friends that are on the periphery of friendship or why I'm needy with issues. Stupid as fuck man.