So I've been dealing with anxiety pretty much my whole life but it's gotten really bad since high school after I took up an isolative lifestyle for almost a decade now and after getting hurt in a few relationships. I've been refusing the idea of taking meds this whole time because of the damage it can do to my organs but I learned recently that in Chinese medicine, fear and anxiety do a number on your kidneys because that's the organ it's linked to, which may explain why I've been seeing some blood in my stool for the past year or so. Not a lot but more than I should be. So it looks like I'm damaging my organs even without meds anyways. I truly can't win. :(