I just decided that I’m not hanging out with my friends tomorrow, even though I thought I would. Long story short, I worked out with a friend today, so I’m going to wake up feeling super sore. The plan was that me and some friends were going to go honking tomorrow. However, because of working out and feeling sore, I cannot make the hike, so I cancelled. They all thought I was going because of what I initially said, so yes, I did let them down in that regard.

I feel extremely guilty, because I’m the kind of guy who feels bad if I don’t please people. I want to make everyone happy, but I’m having such a hard time making time for everyone, and it’s mentally exhausting. I know that I shouldn’t feel bad for saying no, but I do. That’s just how I am, and I can’t help that. I don’t know. I feel like I need a mental break and take time off for myself. I just don’t want to miss out on the potential memories that could be made on this hike. 

My friends invited me to go hiking last week, but I was too busy with homework and had a ton of anxiety related to that, so I didn’t go. I didn’t feel too bad then, but cancelling on my friends for a second time in a row? I feel super bad. Maybe I should go. But then again, I need the mental and physical rest. I feel stuck.