I run an ebay store and I'm supposed to start a Poshmark. I have collected hundreds of books, VHS, Laserdiscs, comics, records you name it. And i also invested a lot in vintage clothing and handbags. I have so much though and so little sales that i feel like a complete failure. I have boxes and boxes i have to post and it's so overwhelming i just sit down and cry. I don't have anyone to talk to, and no goals or beliefs that I'll do well. I'm trying but it's all so much and i know i could do it but my brain won't stop. Nothing is good enough. "Nothing is fast enough, it's not worth the effort, etc etc". Is all i hear myself saying. 

Poshmark scares me because i dont know the site. i dont have dust bags for the purses and bags, i dont know how to clean them, or photograph them. And i know i need to sell all my things but I'm so anxious i haven't started.. Im gonna try to make it through at least 10 books today. Im already anout to cry thinking about it.

What happened to me? I used to be able to take on the world.. now i have no one, no money, no real home and nothing going for me. So its like why try. Its like stepping into a bear trap under water, yea i can struggle and try to make noise but no one will notice or hear, and ill just drown in agony.