My (22F) FP(31M) is my ex. We dated from October 2020-October 2021. Since then we have kept in touch and have remained “friends” although we argue constantly and treat each other horribly but for some reason we can’t leave each other alone. It’s mostly me being absolutely obsessed and addicted to him still and me wanting to still be with him even though he has straight up told me over and over he doesn’t want me anymore. We just sleep together. I feel like a complete idiot for basically begging this man to be in my life. He could not seem less interested, I’m always texting first and asking to hang out, he gets so irritated and mad at me so easily now and doesn’t even put in the bare minimum for me anymore. We aren’t in a relationship anymore though so I understand. and now that I’m becoming more stable(thank you Lamictal🙏)  I’m realizing how ridiculous this is and how dumb and desperate I look. 


He has told me recently it wouldn’t matter if we never spoke again. That’s the thing that has been sticking with me and killing me. But im completely still obsessed with him. He used to be head over heels for me but clearly that has faded on his part but not mine. I realized it’s time to move on and stop all contact with him. But I can’t imagine not talking to him anymore. I don’t have anyone else literally. Im scared to be alone. I need to get over him, and I need to move on with my life. 

How do I emotionally detach myself from someone?? It’s killing me.