I had a girlfriend who helped me with my anxiety and panic attacks. Whenever I had one of my episodes I'd talk to her. She broke up with me a month ago and I've been having the episodes daily. In the beginning I still talked to her and texted whenever I would get them. But now texting her became anxiety inducing in and of itself. I dont wanna think about her or how much I loved her. I dont wanna think about how I basically wasted 2 years of my life being in love with a person who was so heartless in the end.

I was left alone for the most part. Except for this one friend I knew for 11 years. I opened up about my anxiety and panic attacks. Kept talking to him whenever I had one. But then I noticed that he'd always give one liner responses like "damn", "thats awful ".. so I decided to not bother him anymore. I deleted his number. Not gonna text him anymore.

I resorted to this one last friend of mine who gave me the best advice ever. He told me that I need to cut off that chick out of my life. Expect to be anxious and depressed. Live through it and no matter what happens never contact her even if you were dying. He basically told me to man up and soldier through it. I liked that advice. So thats what I'm doing now. I'm anxious as hell sitting here at work with teary eyes thinking about my ex and about how toxic my workplace is. But I'm not contacting anyone. I'm not talking to anyone about it. I'm doing this alone. Except of course for posting on reddit which helps me immensely!