I never thought I would do a lot of shit mostly cutting but I ended up doing it and now it’s a habit more then coping bs, if I did something like that and sit around and think about how easy it would be to take a dam gun and leave a fucking end my shit why tf haven’t I done it it’s right there at almost any given moment I can take the gun and go somewhere else somewhere that may be “better then what I have” but I can’t fucking do it I would take the gun and run off and sit around until I head back or get caught. People always end up doing something they think they won’t do almost always will I end up doing something else fucking dumb?