Everything in my life never seems to go my way. I’d some myself up for something, look forward to something, and get excited about something but then it just turns out the complete opposite and disappointing. My depression is ruining the lives of the people I love most around me and is making them feel depressed. I just don’t know what to do. Nobody ever listens to anything I have to say and then gets mad at me later for not hearing me. I’m sick of everything and if everything in my life is just going to keep being a disappointment that‘s all my fault according to other people then what’s the point of living anymore honestly. I just can’t do it anymore. When I’d go to people I love and tell them they’d bombard me and tell me everything is my fault and I make them feel depressed like some depression virus. I hate everything. idk what to do anymore.