So basically, I have BPD and struggle in relationships. One of the hardest things for me to do is trust. I cannot physically being myself to trust another human due to experiences in my childhood.

So, how do I know if someone genuinely loves/cares for me? I don’t take words as proof. I usually look for actions. But how do I know if someone is just using me or not? Sometimes I get the urge to “test” them or prove their loyalty. I know it’s wrong but it’s all I can think of.