Throughout my years in school, I never had a real friend. I talked to people of course but in school only. Flash forward to my adult years. I'm working and coming home. I have no friend. I did have one. A female friend, who I met through gaming, however, after a few years of friendship I did want more and she didn't want me. I should have stuck to what I had and not hurt the one friendship I did have by bringing in that baggage. So after confessing, that friendship was over. So now I'm back to square one. I have no one to enjoy my life with. And for awhile I thought I didn't need anyone. But I do. I do so much it's driving me fucking insane. My mental health has deteriorated so much. What do I fucking do.