I'm in a long-distance relationship w my bf for 1 year and 3 months, in the first few months, our relationship has been hell. we fought every SINGLE day, not knowing why. Until he sent me a letter and I feel like "he's real" and my trust in him grows. But there are moments that definitely hurt me the most and that made me almost walk away from him.

I'm starting therapy and I also have an anxious attachment which makes it even harder. I felt guilty every time i complained to him, even though i manage to word it better as i practice it over time. I truly wonder how he felt about me saying sorry almost every time i said something mean or things didn't align. i feel disappointed in myself as i feel like i needed him all the time and doesn't give me enough freedom. i want to be a better person but it's so much work to do and i am willing to do it slowly but it is REALLY painful. 

I know I flagged this as venting, but is there anyone here have a successful relationship with someone with borderline?