I haven't had a flare in over a month. I just passed two states and back. I'm safely back in bed. I want to run away. while talking to my partner he mentioned that it seems like I don't have ties to anything. I cut my family off, I cut my close friends off last year but recently connected with them, and he is scared that I will cut him off and our future kids. 

I tell him I grew up with a "bags always packed mentality". I never get too comfortable where I can "unpack my bags". I'm always on the run. 

I just moved into my own place and I don't feel comfortable anymore. I want to move. The only reason I got this place was because I left the house I grew up in. Now I wonder if I will ever feel like I'm home???