I have an appointment tomorrow. I haven't been to a doctor of any kind in at least 4 years. I'm terrified. I got diagnosed with ADHD, dysthymia, and general anxiety 4 years ago but I've had depression/suicidal thoughts since i was at least 9. I don't know anything else. I never talked to people cause my family is not like that and my parents still don't think i have any illnesses even with a diagnosis. I'm very high functioning and am not a person who talks openly bout myself ever. I have so many issues I've never told anyone about and i want to get help but I'm just horrified like genuine terror. I made a telepsychiatrist appointment this afternoon and have not stopped panicking about it since. Why am I panicking?? I have no clue. I'm fucking sobbing to talk to a woman who looks like she makes sugar cookies for fun. She looks so kind and all her reviews are amazing. I have been self medicating for years but i feel so out of control 😭


TLDR: I AM A BABY AND I NEED REASSURANCE/ DUMB STORIES OF Y'ALL PANICKING. thank y'all so much ahead of time