Whenever  I don't feel like I don't get everything I want from a friendship I explode and cut them off completely. I have a "blocked" list on instagram like 20 ppl long. I wish I could have my wits about me when I am in my fight-or-flight mode but sometimes I just start shaking and can't control my desire to completely shut someone out of my life and act like a maniac. It happened again recently. It usually happens with friends I shouldn't have been hanging out with anyway, and ones that I don't feel very safe around. But I want people to have better opinions of me other than that crazy girl that nit-picked a fight and blocked me on instagram.