I've been lurking, hesitant to post because of the diagnosis-taboo but feeling strongly that I am borderline for a while now.

Well, now I am diagnosed officially this morning by a psychiatrist so now I am officially reaching out to this community.

This is truly overwhelming. However, I feel that now instead of experiencing a myriad of confusing problems and turmoil in my life I now have a single idea that can help me connect them all and understand them. One illness instead of thirty different problems. I don't have to try and confront all my failures and weaknesses at once. Rather, I have to try to understand and cope with one thing: being borderline. In a way, it feels good, and simple, and relieving. Nevertheless, still a little overwhelming.

Also, for the longest time, I have felt like my emotional experiences were similar to what the majority of people experience. Thus I always lived with this strange pressure to 'not feel so much', as it were, because it seemed like my feelings were just above and beyond what everyone else experienced. They felt socially inappropriate. Now I know the reality of this—that my emotions are above and beyond what most people experience. This knowledge is extremely liberating. I no longer have to feel such consternation when someone says, "No, you just have to let it go. Just let it go, man."

Anyway, just an official greeting post. Glad to find such a strong community here. Here beings my journey.