I've always thought about swings as being between quadrant 1 and quadrant 4 with the "normal" axis as the x at 0. Quad 1 - manic. Quad 4 - depressed.

This episode is different. I'm definitely manic but the feeling/behavior is depressed. 

What if I've never been depressed? What if the meds just shift the symptoms of the mania? Like I'm all Quad 1 with the axis at 100?