For context, we were fwb, but he got a girlfriend even though I had asked multiple times for us to be official and each time he said he wasn’t looking for a relationship because he wasn’t over his last girlfriend yet. He said we could still be friends, but of course I fucked that up because I got angry at him for playing me. I’ve since apologized but now he will barely talk to me and when he does it’s awkward and short lived. 

I’m not coping well with the fact that he’s gone and there will never be an us. I hate the girl that came between us so much and I wish I could slap her upside the head for taking what was mine. I know that it’s only going to get worse as their dumb relationship continues on. 

I can deal with how we aren’t talking much anymore and how I have to tiptoe and *behave* around him. I can’t let him go either because he’s all I have and if he leaves then I’m alone with no one. I’ve fought too hard to keep him here for him to run away like this.

I just want him back and I just want the annoying girl who came between us to break up with him and leave.