Every now and then I think back to the last time I felt like I belonged to a friend circle. Years and years ago. I cut someone out,  but they remained friends with my friends, obviously. It got so uncomfortable that I just ended up ghosting everyone. It's as if once one thing goes bad, the whole pot is spoiled. It's not a healthy mindset, I don't believe. I hated having to 'share' the people I still liked. I started to get angry at them, too, but it wasn't their fault. Not entirely. I felt how I felt, but maybe I could've fixed it. I don't know. I miss them all. But I have refused to reach out to them again. I almost don't want to know how their lives are going without me. Out of fear. Does that make me awful? It might-