This morning I woke up and realized that nobody actually cares about me. It’s all empty love and promises. Nobody ever reaches out to talk to me, ha four with me, or even check if I’m okay. I can’t take it anymore. Everyone in my life is a liar when it comes to me. In response I deleted my Snapchat and instagram accounts completely. I don’t want to talk to abyobe. I do t want friends. I don’t want anything. 

I know that I’m for sure going to kill my self one day. I’m 18 and already have strong plans to do so. I can’t imagine what it will be like in the adult world. There are so many more things to worry about and kill myself over. And it would be so much easier. I might do it while I’m staying at school so my parents don’t have to find my body. I really can’t do this anymore. I know I’m going to do it. It’s unavoidable. 

I feel like I’m seriously not supposed to be here. That I was a mistake in this world. I do t belong. If I die I won’t have to worry about anything. It’s only a matter of tine.