I’m not sure how to even start, I’ve had so much going on with me for the longest time due to childhood bs it’s like I don’t have the strength anymore to continue putting up with the aftermath of it. I’m keeping personal things away from everyone when they know something is happening but I don’t tell them directly or just make excuses which is bad yes but I don’t want to worry anyone or make them feel obligated to try and help me. I suppress most of my feelings, other times I can’t due to the anxiety/depression. I feel guilty, I push everyone who cares away and distance myself. I don’t mean to be that way, there’s people I care about and wanna talk to, spend time with but knowing how I am I don’t want to hurt their feelings when I stop replying back to their messages and answering calls when I feel drained all the time. So I just let them go completely or try to come back just to do it again. Def gonna be deleting this tomorrow so thanks if y’all end up reading this &lt;3