I hate this stupid fucking illness. At this point, it's one thing when I'm dealing with the crap myself. I'm used to being scared, frustrated, and in pain. But it hits different when I see kids going through the same stuff I've experienced.

In no just universe should a kid, not even ten years old, have to cry to their mom because their arms won't stop bleeding and the mom can't do anything to stop it. In no just universe should a teen have to watch people die or stumble across corpses on their way to school. There is no justice when children are beaten, assaulted, tortured, or raped by assailants which are invisible and intangible towards other people. It isn't even a matter of human cruelty. It's a simple cosmic joke, and these kids are the victims of it.

We, as adults, are supposed to have all the answers when kids come up to us asking for help, but sometimes all we can do is send children back out into the woods to fight the wolves on their own. Schizophrenia is a battle we can't fight for anyone else, and it hurts so badly. In some ways, I wish I was the only one to ever have this damned disease, because it'd be one less evil preying on every else. It wouldn't be so bad to be alone if solidarity meant  more crying, more pain, more wasted years of innocent lives. 

To everyone out there, take care of yourselves. You all deserve a better universe than what we have.