I have had anxiety for as long as I can remember. I started seeing a psychiatrist about 12 years ago and have tried seven or eight different meds. I've tried therapy. Nothing seems to work. My anxiety feels like it's getting worse day by day. 

Currently I am unmedicated. The next appointment that I was supposed to have in a few weeks was cancelled as my doctor is going to be out of the office. I have been having a hard time calling to reschedule, because of the anxiety, and also because I keep wondering if it's even worth still seeing her since it doesn't seem to be helping. 

I've been doing "exposure" for the last 10 years, working in retail (department manager), and it has only made the anxiety worse. As much as I hate it, my anxiety is also keeping me from searching for a new job. 

I wake up at least half a dozen times a night and can't get back to sleep. I've tried various OTC remedies and three different prescriptions and nothing has worked. Anxiety has me so amped up all day, and coupled with sleep deprivation, I have zero energy to get anything done when I get home. Most of the time I can't even think straight and feel like I'm walking around in a fog. 

All of this has made my depression worse as well. I'm 43 years old and can't even make a simple phone call or do the simplest of social tasks. It makes me feel like a failure. Honestly, the only thing keeping me around is my daughter. If it wasn't for her I don't think I could go on, but it still feels like I'm not doing enough.

I just don't know what to do any more or where to go from here.