
I’ve been dealing with severe depression and anxiety for 4 years due to trauma and eating disorders. I’m only 17yo, but I see no purpose in life anymore. I feel like I’ve lost everything and I can’t do it anymore. Each day I wake up and I have to bear myself for the rest of it. I have to keep myself together because my peers are sick of my “drama”. I hate to show myself in public but I go to school everyday and cry between breaks because I’m not like these high school girls that I dreamed I would be when I was a kid. I have bad grades but i never do anything to get better. I have very bad hygiene, I don’t care about my body. In fact I don’t care about anything.

I have fallen back to eating disorders again. I mean I didn’t recovered or anything, I just didn’t care for a while. In my mind wether I eat or not I’ll still be this worthless piece of shit. But now I’m back to it. My mom has noticed my “relapse” and started yelling at me and calling me bad names. I’m sick of her, she always has the worse reactions . She then started to say “keep doing this and I’ll send you to an psych and you will be locked forever”. Now, I really want to be locked. No more pressure , no more anxiety, no more people, no more mirrors, no more me. 

Do you think I should talk to my therapist about this and do you think they will really send me to a mental hospital?