Hey everyone! I am a 20F, 5’4  and I weigh about 100 lbs. I'm underweight and I'm trying to gain weight, but I'm having a lot of trouble with it. In addition to an anxiety disorder, I probably suffer from a compulsive disorder. I try to eat 1700 kcal every day and get enough exercise, but some days I just can't get out of bed and prepare food. I have a lot of trouble preparing food because I'm afraid of the gas stove and I don't have the energy for cooking in general. This is partly because I get light-headed when I stand for a long time. It also doesn't help that I'm barely hungry.

I wake up at 10:00 am and can't eat food until dinner. Then I start to get a little hungry, but sometimes I manage to ignore the feeling of hunger. I feel like I'm stuck in a vicious circle. Because I am little or hardly hungry, I eat few calories, which makes me tired. There are days when I only eat crackers. I just can't seem to swallow food. I chew my food for a very long time and the food sometimes stays in my cheek for up to an hour before I can finally  swallow it. My family makes comments about how skinny I am. I would like to gain weight, but I don't know how. I know that because of the stress and anxiety I have little appetite.  I am super afraid of getting sick because of my health anxiety. Most of the time I force myself to eat. Does anyone recognize this?