I'm trying to be rational but my brain keeps telling me he doesn't want me and doesn't care. 

I've dressed up nice for my boyfriend, done my hair and makeup and thought I looked really good and was excited to surprise him. I told him to come over for the surprise and he said okay.

45 minutes ago he said he was leaving, he lives 2 minutes down the road and has been taking forever to reply. I've been sitting in my underwear for 45 mins waiting for him.

I know he doesn't know the surprise...but he said he was excited but is taking forever :( as I'm typing this I know I'm being petty. Being a self aware BPDer is the worst.