Not here to get anyone to diagnose me. I'm not trying to undermine the illness or come off as "haha I'm so quirky it's like I have BPD." I've been struggling with some issues for a long time, and while I'm working towards getting a therapist, I was wondering if DBT could still help someone not diagnosed and if there were resources online? 

I'd brought it up with a friend and they said they saw the resemblance, but besides that I've never talked about this before. Always felt too ashamed how I am inside. I'd say my symptoms aren't extreme enough to be diagnosable, but I've hurt a lot of people by being too emotionally draining and clingy. And then being an ass if someone never reciprocated the care I had for them. I'm rarely angry but when I am it's blinding and out of line. I've always felt this giant empty hole in need of validation and love that would be impossible for anyone to fill. The fear of loneliness runs my life it feels like. So scared of being alone, yet I already feel like I am no matter what happens. I go from feeling amazing about myself to.. you know.. in seconds. I've realized I haven't been fair to anyone around me but I don't know how to stop. All I want to be is a good person but I feel disgusting.

 Again, I am not looking for a diagnosis. I just tend to obsess over things and needed to get this out of my head to calm my brain. Either way, reading through this sub has helped me see myself a lot and recognize what I need to work on, so thank you.