It’s so hard for me to hide my depression. My best friend was my only friend in my class and we cut it off last month. I’ve been alone since then and I’m so lonely. I hung out alone and couldn’t find other people because her friends were my friends and I’m not speaking to them anymore. We’re even in the same club :/
Everybody views me as a loner and as her ex best friend now.
We had a school trip and it was pretty bad because I was very lonely and I had a small talk with a classmate and she asked me and I’m having fun and I lied and said yes, and she said “not just the trip, I mean are you having fun with friends too?” . And I hated it when she asked that because I know she was curious about me and that’s why she asked but she had no intention of talking to me. Also this other girl always asks me if I’m okay and maybe I looked really anxious or sad… but she always looks worried but I know she’s being caring but I know she wouldn’t want to be friends with me. People don’t approach me but when I try to join others I feel like I’m disturbing others and they aren’t interested in getting to know me.
I just want friends…