I started my medicine journey at 13. I'm the max I can be of Vyvanse, Latuda, and lamotrigine. I also take Xanax for panic attacks (as needed). Also on buspiron, adderall, and otc pills. 

We are in the process of getting me lower, but right now I'm still in school, have made the deans list every semester, and I'm working, so we don't want to change what is working for me right now. 

Most days I don't think about it too much and then I remember that these pills could be the very thing that kills me. I'm already having heart issues and I'm 21 (probably my stimulants Vyvanse and adderall). I know it's decades down the line but sometimes I wake up in a cold sweat and all I can think about is my own mortality and the things I'm doing to affect it. Obviously I enjoy my life with meds and my quality of life is significantly better than without. But it's been on my mind a lot lately. 

I also just made a post about not sharing pills and now I'm overthinking.