I really want to know how someone with BPD and a terminal illness or life shortening disease would cope? 

I’m 99.9% sure I’m dying from stress caused illness. Gut feeling is on 100%. and it’s made everything worse. I’ve been cutting and bingeing more than ever. 

How the fuck does anyone cope with their health going downhill after their mental health did years and years ago? How do you guys stay afloat? I’m drowning so deep and this time I don’t feel there’s a way back up. My family hates me, my BPD is untreated, I’m a mess and I’m stuck in victim mode hating myself. I cannot fucking do this anymore.