Man I used to be a social butterfly in middle school and elementary. Here I am about to graduate and I have no friends. 

I am too scared to talk to anyone. And when I do I come off as rude or even dumb. I always feel like I get weird looks whenever I try to participate with groups which many of my classes enforce. I have group projects weekly and even daily where I am either left out or forced into a group by a teacher thinking I’m just being a slacker. Man it’s a horrible feeling. It feels like every time I try to speak it comes out in squeaks and I have to raise my voice to be audible.

I can’t go a day in school without having a panic attack. And people have even said I seem like a school shooter with my behavior. Like what in the world do I do to not seem like that.

For background I am a guy, who’s around 5’11, 170 lbs, and no I am not a school shooter, I’d shoot myself before another person.