Sometimes I withhold sharing my problems with my doctor despite experiencing emotional pain. I remember that I am relatively blessed in so many ways. I was reminded by a therapist one time that I should feel lucky to live in Canada, have access to education, have a job and a free health system. It makes me feel ungrateful which is something I never intend to. My life is so much than 10 years ago but I still have the PTSD side effects of long term childhood trauma and abuse which hasn't been resolved yet though it doesn't have an immediate impact on my day to day life so I overwhelmingly feel I'm supposed to be positive, not complain and be grateful.