i've never met anyone who can understand what i mean when i say i'm lonely. i mean, i'm alone alone. i've hardly ever had close, genuine connections — the handful i have had were all romantic partners, in relationships that i royally fucked up, so i lost them each abruptly. my family is fucked and i barely speak to them.  i move to new cities frequently so i lose any ties i had (ties that were not very deep anyway but still). right now i do not have any friends irl. i occasionally talk to a not-very-close friend who lives across the country on the phone and that's literally it. this is how the vast majority of my life has been. does anyone else honestly, really get me when i type all this? 

coping strategies are welcome too but please don't be banal about it and suggest i try to make friends on bumble or something