

Hey my name is Taylor, I’m 23 and well I have been dealing with anxiety for the past few days. It gets to the point where I get nauseous and I have to tell myself I am okay or “fake till you make it” and say “I’m happy” to get over it. However I’m still dealing with it and just think maybe if I tell someone how I am feeling or what I am thinking maybe I’ll be fine. So to start off I work at a restaurant and I attend college. I’ve been keeping my mind quiet busy lately and even started to workout. That’s all that has really been on my mind. However, lately I’ve been crushing on a coworker (for the past almost month) and we’re both servers. I have this rule I’ll never date a coworker not even crush on one. Obviously I broke that rule and am in la la land when I see her. We talk and she’ll pick at me but in jokingly way and I’ll do the same. She has no clue I’m into her because I make sure to treat her the same as my other coworkers. Last week there was a meeting at work and we all showed up in our regular clothes and she told me she liked my shirt and the color looks good on me. I took it as a complement and said thank you. Fast forward 3 days later we were talking I can’t remember about what but she called me her friend. I was surprised she called me her friend considering we don’t hangout outside of work nor do we have each other phone numbers and on social media. I didn’t say anything and she walked off to attend to a customer. The next day we so happened to work together again and I was on my phone texting and that’s when she asked for my Instagram. I gave it to her and she left to go attend to a customer. In my head I was like that’s so random but okay and so later that day when I got home I checked her Instagram out and turns out she has a girlfriend. A little sad but I respect it and then the next day I see her and she mentioned her girlfriend and how she’s going to see her (mind you it’s the first time she’s talked about her gf to me). Anyways she’s been on my mind lately and I’m trying to get her out. I’m wondering could this be the reason I’ve been anxious lately?