my life has been nothing but a bunch of horrible events all strung together. my birthday is in a few days and i remember writing in my diary on my birthday last year that i wish i would die before i turn 18 and now its here and im still alive and i hate it so much. my family makes me feel like trash all the time and all my friends moved away this past summer and i cry myself to sleep most nights just wishing i could start a new life. my dad is standing in my doorway watching me as i write this because he likes to make me uncomfortable on purpose. i want to die so bad. i stopped cutting a few months ago but i constantly want to start again but i know its wrong but i have absolutely nothing else. i hate my life so much. i want this to end i don't want to feel better at this point. i just want a new life