I find it easier to talk about personal stuff with acquaintances. But with friends and people I actually care about it I can’t do it. Especially if it’s confrontational. Either I get shaky and my face will twitch and I can’t speak at all. Or I say it over and over in my head and try to work up the courage to blurt it out loud and never do. 

I know part of it is feeling like they won’t care/will hate me/I won’t be able to say everything I want/ I know it won’t change anything. 

It’s getting to the point where things have built up to where I can’t take it but also I’ve waited too long to talk about my problems and don’t know what to because I feel like I can’t ever talk about it.