Hi. I'm drunk asf rn. I'm a 17 y/o boy. I've given up on life. Nothing makes me enjoy life. I've tried working out, working different jobs, studying, school, different hobbies, nothing and nothing makes me happy. I'm a stupid fuck that can't be good to anyone. A short ugly ass mother fucker that is useless in any aspect of life. My iq is below average because I'm too dumb to understand anything. I suck at everything. I just can't be something useful at anything. I can't fulfill anyone's desires. I was probably born as an accident too cuz my parents didn't use protection. I'm already an alcoholic at my age and don't know what to do. Fuck my family for caring about me. Living for others is so draining. Only if they didn't care I'd hang myself every fucking day. I can't afford to see a therapist. I'm starting to decide to kill my entire family so i can take myself out without having a fucking guilt.