I'm new to Reddit as a whole, so bare with me please, I'm still figuring it out. I don't tend to post much on any platform because I'm scared of rejection. Anyways, I start Behavioral Therapy tomorrow and I have a lot of emotions running through my head. I am 20 years old, my mom has told me she's seen these behaviors in me since childhood, I resent her for not getting me any sort of help earlier (She's a behavioral therapist to make things worse.) She will give me a hard time about the whole thing, I probably won't tell her much about any of this, which is kind of hard as we are extremely codependent on each other it makes life miserable at some points. My boyfriend has never understood any of my emotional issues, I hope that through therapy I can relay information in a less intense way. I know my behaviors have made most of my relationships as hectic as they are, but then again, I never know if things are as bad as I think they are with people. I have so much anger, it just comes out in strange places. I'm glad, I'm finally getting help, and I'm glad that I am finally posting! :)