Seriously? I'm about to be 35 and have accomplished absolutely nothing in all of those years. I do the same thing ever day. No change. I have the same emotions and thoughts, without fail. 


A couple weeks ago I went through alcohol withdrawal which was the single worst experience of my life. And what am I doing right now? Sitting up here drinking. What else can I do? I don't even like to do the things that I once did.


Day after day after day after day. Meaningless repetition. Nothing changes. Everything will stay the same. No motivation to do anything. All I need is a split second of guts, and a couple pounds of pressure.



I've had it once, I'll have it again. Someday.