Everything just has crashed down on me and I barely have the will to live. I went on leave from my job because of stress and I thought it would really help me figure out what to do next, but it made things worse. The therapist I starting seeing told me I was going to die from a heart attack if I don’t stop over reacting. I can’t imagine telling someone that who is in so much pain emotionally and having physical symptoms that are scared. Then my aunt who I was closest to passed away. Omgosh I can’t breathe at this point. I cry everyday and I don’t know what to do. First doctor told me it was just anxiety, I go see another doctor for second opinion and he tells me I have Lupus and might have cancer. I just can’t anymore. My thoughts are racing, I have only my dad for support (I come from a dysfunctional family that has caused so much pain through my life, that’s a whole other pain in itself, no friends) please, I don’t know what to do anymore.  My faith is shaken and I’m so weak.