I pushed them all away because I believed they were toxic (maybe it was just me idk anymore). Now I lack the social skills necessary to make new friends because my anxiety and insecurity. I’m afraid people’s image of who I am doesn’t match up with who I really am so I can’t even try to build off of existing associations to turn them into friendships. 

I am now convinced my only hope at salvation is moving out of state and starting fresh. Maybe this will take off the pressure of having to balance people’s preconceived ideas of who I am and who really am/ I want to be. Note: I grew up w most of these people and don’t want to be the person I used to be and feel like they don’t accept me either way tbh and don’t treat me the same as other people. Feel like I’m looked down on.

Thoughts?