Today I've been so scattered brain and hyper so I think I'm hypomanic but then maybe it's my ADHD but idk cause I'm not always like this but I don't really have the ego boosts or really any happiness hypomania usually brings. I just feel all over the place today. In conversations, by myself, doing whatever. And I hate that I never know anything. I question what I'm feeling and thinking all the time. And what makes it even harder to tell is I don't have typical episodes. The longest I've been hypomanic is 12 hours... It just comes  and goes and not always with depression. I'll be hypomanic for 6 hours on Tuesday and then Wednesday I could be hypomanic for 4 hours. Which makes me question if I even have bipolar because I don't experience the typical episodes other people do. But I do know I have it because of my first and only un-medicated episode during the summer. Nothing else could explain what I went through. But it just feels all fake. Everything.