Hello everyone.
I'm a 18yo girl with bpd. The other day, my boyfriend of one year broke up with me and all I can think about since then is killing myself. I'm overwhelmed with pain and guilt and I don't think I can ever go back to being normal. The pain makes it unbearable to eat or sleep or do anything a normal person would do. I feel I don't deserve to live for being borderline since all I can is fuck up my relationships. I don't have any friends and I can't stand the transition from someone caring about you unconditionnally to being completely alone. I feel dead and I would like to know if any one of you has found healthy ways to cope with such harsh pain. Thanks.