Hi, im new to this community, so bear with me..

The past two months have been extremely stressful for me, I believe in some sort of codependent debacle and as such I've been exhibiting behaviors reminiscent of BPD. The thing is, I've never exhibited any of these behaviors before. I've basically abandoned (unique) hobbies I use to attend to daily, now rarely leaving my bedroom, and my tolerance of trivial social quirks I wouldn't have even noticed before has plummeted dramatically. 

Two months ago when this stuff began the supposed codependent teased me for something and I took it harshly (but did not retort or complain), I went down from 1.5 to 1 mg on my antipsychotic (risperidone, which I take for OCD/ASD) over the course of two weeks, and got into a huge fight with my mother which was extremely intense. My codependent behaviors (looking for validation from the codependent/ abandonment issues) were probably catalyzed by these factors but I don't know how - before I even took medicine at all I didn't exhibit anything like this. I'm derealized/possibly psychotic somewhat often now, which, like all my other behaviors was never the case before. My bedroom sometimes feels unreal/ warped. I was pretty socially anxious the half year or so before I went up from 1 to 1.5mg of risperidone in December 2018, but I did not care for social quirks in anywhere near the proportions I care for them now, especially in this context. I go to sleep long after the sun rises now, if I do fall asleep at all (my sleep medicine often doesn't work) and my cognition is chipping away. I was able to let things go in the emotional sense somewhat normally before but now i cant for some reason. Maybe I'm not coherent enough, but regardless, it doesn't really happen unless i get validation now. I'm sorry if this is incoherent or disorganized, I'm just looking for some perspective. 

My friends assure me I'm still very nice but honestly I don't know anymore. I don't know what I've turned into

My current medications:

risperidone 1mg (for OCD/ASD)
cymbalta 120mg (MDD)
Paxil 37.5mg (MDD, anxiety, sleep)
Trazodone (Sleep)