I don’t know depression, I could be or I’m just experiencing some new phase. But everybody thinks I’m all happy because when I’m near people I like to act all stupid and happy but when I’m at home I feel like know one cares abt me and I’m all alone. People only talk to me when they need something every girl that I text leaves me on read and ghosts me after a month or 2 of talking. Everybody says I’m their friend but will always bail on me. But when I bring out my real emotions when there’s people around everybody’s always like “why are u sad? Aren’t u always happy” and they think I’m joking and say that I’m faking my sadness. What they don’t realize is that I’m taking my happiness. It’s been so long since I’ve been happy but I’m just tryna get power through and maybe someday I’ll get to experience what I had in my childhood.