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So recently i underwent a sleep study and found out i stop breathing about 20 times per hour. reading through some threads I found many folks with Depression and GAD that also had sleep apnea and after addressing the apnea they felt a lot better. I kinda wish i had the will power to motivate myself to post this during the day where it will see more traction, but the feels hit harder at night. 

I am about 3 weeks into my Cpap machine use, and I still haven't made it through the night with the machine. i take it off about 2-3 hours into sleeping because i still wake up a lot through the night and its very alarming to wake up to and try and settle to sleep with. I am hoping that this will resolve some of the memory, fogginess, and motivation issues I have. I have had bad sleep for about a decade now ,but i never thought to look at a sleep study as i always assumed the depression and anxiety lead to the poor sleep. i feel kind of directionless right now, or that i cant power through the night with the machine because its so overwhelming to wake up to. 

Have any of you been in a similar boat as myself? i am looking for a little encouragement. 

I have an appointment with a psychiatrist next week to look at prescribing, medication is something i have always put off because I was able to power through the anxiety at different points and get to really decent periods of well being, but i just dont have the tolerance and bravery i used to have to deal with it. If the sleep apnea is somehow at the root of what is going on then I want to resolve it and see where my baseline is before meditation. but does that make sense to do first? 

Recommendations, or stories are welcome. the route of medication still scares me. the idea of side effects, onboarding, coming off meds. it all scares me cause it feels like so many people cite bad times going on meds. its sorta like yelp where you only see the bad reviews and if you're feeling better you dont look to reddit or some place else to talk about it.