I no longer look forward to the weekends. I spend them feeling empty, lying on my bed and endlessly scrolling. I can't bring myself to do anything. I'm able to get up on the weekdays cus I don't want to miss work and get fired and become homeless. But on the weekends I can't bring myself to do anything even though there's so much I want to do. Plus at work I'm distracted from all the sad thoughts and suicidal ideation but on weekends I'm alone with them. I'm honestly considering getting a weekend job so I can work everyday and distract myself. At least then I'll make more money and my depression will actually have an advantage.