I wasn’t overwhelmed this time but I just enjoy self harming. Don’t know how to describe this feeling, it’s like I guess being in ecstasy. 

But I don’t know why this time my blood is squirting, not immensely but still squirting. Startled me for a second there. And yes I got myself bandaged up, all good now. 

Life in general sucks and I can’t hit life so I harm myself.