Currently when I need to get an injection I load myself up on valium and stress out the whole day before hand.

Or I just avoid the shot altogether.

I can’t keep doing this. I am overdue on some important vaccines and bloodwork, and every time my doctor brings it up I panic and say I’ll do it next time. Or if it’s at an outside lab I just cannot get myself to go.

I feel childish and like an idiot ignoring these aspects of my health, but I truly do not know how to be comfortable with these things and accept them.

What do I do? How do I reframe this in my mind?