so for about two weeks i’ve been suffering from what i think is anxiety induced OCD. So one day i couldn’t get one little thing out of my mind about something i was watching on tv even though i know what the dude said. i went through extents to find it again just to be disappointed wondering why i did this. now every little thing i used to ignore from a tv on in the background to even a peice of trash on the road has been stealing my attention. i get urges to dumb stuff like go back to triple A auto insurance just to remember a guys name that helped my gf out. why the fuck would i ever care about something so minuscule? i also got scared and thought i had ED because i could get hard with my girlfriend while tripping from this anxiety but i really concentrated and was able to get that back. I feel really good about that like i’m making progress but i slipped up and drank a good amount today even though i said i would stop weed and alch for a few weeks (reg user of both for about 8 years now) i’m not looking for reassurance or anything because i feel like i’m in the right direction just like avoiding TV and ig and staying busy but it goes so frustrating not being able to watch something on youtube with my girl without rewinding pointlessly frequently. i just don’t get why i care so much to pay so much attention to such dumb stuff i would never care about. it’s like my mind can’t freely wonder anymore :(