i just moved into an on campus apartment 3 days ago. i have been constantly crying, shaking, and having panic attacks. i have not been able to eat as much as i need to (i had cheerios, applesauce, and chips and salsa yesterday because that was all i could stand). i took online classes last year and struggled at first, but i loved them because i was at home. i became an antisocial homebody during the pandemic since i’m immunocompromised. i do not have a therapist and i’m not on any anxiety medication. my college’s mental health resources are known to be somewhat unhelpful. so, i am extremely overwhelmed by being at college.

i have not left the apartment yet. my roommate is taking me around campus and i haven’t been able to stop crying and panicking about it. i really want to transfer to an online college, but i’m clearly worried about making the wrong decision. i just know that a broken lease, hit to my gpa, and potentially another year of college are worth it to save my mental health. i just can’t keep having panic attacks and issues with my digestive system (throwing up, other issues) just to tough it out and stay at school. when do i know it’s the right time to transfer?