this might be rlly long or not idrk its just a bunch of me ranting abt random shit

aight im in Highschool.  taking high level classes and im doing pretty well in them. as of late I've been getting others to send me hw or I just don't do it all. the work is easy its just that I can't get myself to do it. obv there's stress in my life and shit and I constantly am like "fuck I gotta get back on my shit or imma be fucked" but this isn't rlly what the post is abt. 

Im a pretty introverted person and im quiet but I have a lot of friends and shit somehow. im normally pretty chill so most people see me as pretty low energy and calm yk. but idk man I just feel so tired all the time and just really really low energy like lower than normal. Im quieter than usual and this is kinda weird but when I talk its kinda mumbly/slurred and my voice is kinda deep + masks and shit makes it hard for other people to here me so half the time when I talk someones like what'd u say instead of repeating it I just say nvm fuck it cuz its like does what im saying even matter. 

also about that mumbly slurred speech thing its not a speech impediment or something its just that idk why but I just feel so lethargic all the time. people have noticed and been like why r u talking like that and Im like bro I have no clue either. 

when im talking to people im dry as hell and I just wanna stay silent get through the day and go home. luckily I have good friends who kinda force me to talk but idk. everything just seems to be going so slow. 

 I just wanna fucking sleep all the time. most days I really Don't wanna wake up. its not that I wanna kill myself. Idk how to explain it I just wanna not wake up and have to go through going through the day. even on relaxing weekends my friends always hang out and lately I don't go that often just cuz I can't bring myself too. its not that I have something better to do at home. im either just on my bed or I get up and try to do something like play the guitar or listen to music but nothing is really that fun anymore. I haven't felt truly happy doing something in so long. there are funny moments where I laugh or smile but idk if im being picky but I haven't really enjoyed anything. 

the thing is I question myself about this shit a lot. people tell me "y u acting all depressed all the time". I don't really know am I actually depressed or is this just the results of me being tired + an introvert. maybe the reason I don't enjoy things is cuz im not doing the right things. maybe im just being a lazy little bitch that's why I don't do anything.

 I wish I could see in the minds of other people. just to see if there's anything different. like what they're thinking and if the thought im having of being done with everything is common between everyone. like I wanna look into the mind of a really happy person and see is the happiness they have comparable to mine. maybe im overreacting and the enjoyment I get is actually really similar to how much they get, they're just more vocal about it. 

I don't even know what im saying rn haha. pretty much im asking if im overreacting. Im sorry but I don't want any of that everyones struggles r different I get that I'm just asking Is this just me being a lil sad and just making it a big deal or is there something bigger