I am in a calorie deficit which makes my depression so much worse


I feel like depression will never go away , I feel like I want to cry and im holding it, my face feels heavhy of sadness ,

When people try to be friends and I respond dry, I dont share my life, well im depressed, did I tell em that I am depressed ? Hell no ? People think depression is just sadness, well ive been depressed for years, does my family know ? No? Im a really funny person ,how can a funny person be depressed, Il just be judged