An automatic thought I just had after compulsive eating ice cream to oblivion. I don't have many compulsions in my life anymore. 3 years sober, I don't fuck strangers anymore which means I don't fuck, and my tiktok videos aren't getting me the dopemine hits they used to. There's not enough ice cream. There's also too much of it. As I write this I'm in pain from eating so much. Damn, I want to cry. When my friends are distant, I don't get drunk or high, not interested in sex, and Breaking Bad marathons are played out, what do you do other than eat? Really asking.