This is a repost . I’m just reaching out to anyone i can . I don’t even wanna explain . I’ve been dealing with depression since i was a teen and at the moment , i’m just at the highest risk of suicide and i don’t know if i can control myself anymore . We’ve been married for some few days . I don’t wanna freak her out . At least not right now . She has never seen me suicidal like this . No one ever had . But i just need someone to stop me . I have no friends to ask help , and not even a family member close . I kept staying close to my wife tonight as much as i could but she’s sleeping now and i just don’t know what to do . I need help