my so-called mother just message me and told me that she needs time and she can't deal with me by herself or she's going to end up in the hospital. I want to die because all the videos about dealing with BPD individuals are are true no offense to anyone else I'm talking about myself. I can't live like this I don't want to be this person I don't want to be alone cuz I am now she don't want to talk to me for a full week when it started because I asked her if she believes me in the message that I received said hell no you got issues and that broke my heart but she said she didn't say it. I have lied and lied and lied and lied and lied about how bad this s*** was in the first time I'm f****** honest about it she doesn't want to talk to me. I have no one else I don't want to live like this I want to die so badly so f****** badly pro I don't think that's wrong. I'm just going to hurt people clearly. I wish I was brave enough to do that s*** I'm going to find a way cuz I'm tired I can't keep hurting people I'm sick of this disorder