I've struggled with generalized anxiety on and off for years and part of my problem is the need I have for _constant_ mental stimulation/distraction.  I spend _so_ much time on my phone mindlessly browsing because I feel compelled to do so. I want to able to stop doing that, but just the thought of trying makes me so scared of the anxiety I anticipate feeling.

Part of it is just the addictive nature of technology itself, but I think part of it is also a fear of being alone with my thoughts and feelings.  Like, I know that I'll ultimately be happier and healthier if I stop wasting so much time keeping my mind constantly distracted with external things, causing me to procrastinate getting other stuff done.  

And yet, it feels like I'm stuck in a valley, where I can see the sun shining above the hilltop, and yet I can't seem to convince myself to climb up, because I'll know it'll be a hard and long and uncomfortable climb, and that, even if I succeed, I mail eventually fall back in.  

I had a therapist a good year ago who, when I told him that exact analogy, said "we change when the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of changing".  I thought that was rather insightful, but I also don't know what to do with it.  And I just discussed all this with my current therapist and she explained about the anxiety caused by thought of trying to change a bad habit is distinct from the habit itself, but again, I don't know what to _do_ with that.  

Like, why am I anxious about being anxious?  Why does my mind rebel against trying to make beneficial life changes?  And why, even when I manage to lessen the anxiety, do I then feel passive and unmotivated to make changes?  It's so frustrating sometimes.  

Anyone relate?  If so, any advice?