In the beginning of our relationship I wanted to spend every moment with him, and enjoyed our time immensely. 

However recently I feel very empty a lot of the time, in fact I recently went out with my boyfriend and felt extremely sad and cried the whole time. I’m always dissociating, and I cant even say I love you to him back.

I also have OCD, and it manifested in this case around my sexual orientation. I became obsessed with “what if i actually need to be with a woman, what if that’s why i cant be fulfilled in this relationship.” This thought gives me panic attacks and drives me to tears because i don’t want to leave my boyfriend, but what if all this lack of feeling is because of my sexual orientation.

I guess my question is: can BPD be the cause of empty and detached feelings in relationships? My boyfriend is compassionate and sweet, and I know despite this I really do love him. So why is it that i can’t FEEL that love?