I've (F19) known my girlfriend (F22) for 1,5 years and been in a romantic relationship (long distance) for about 7 months. I love her to death and I can't even imagine my life without her. However, she has some mental problems that I don't know how to handle. When we first met she wasn't really open about how bad her problems were, to me it seemed like they were under control and the suicide attempts were 100% in the pasts. But still, just 5 months after meeting she wanted to commit suicide and even wrote a note to me. She told me about this just the other day, and it bothers me that I didn't notice it back then and I fear that she might do the same again. 

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She has depression, terribly low confidence/self esteem, an eating disorder that basically runs in her family and self harms. She also has (according to me) kinda abusive parents and was raped this year by a co-worker. She has attempted suicide several times, the first time was when she was only 9 years old. 

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In other words: She has a lot of " mental baggage". She is already in therapy but I'm sure she needs more help, she has definitely become more depressed the past 3 months and her ED has worsened the past 2.  I keep pushing her to get more help and to really try to change things, and sometimes she says that she wants to and will try but the next day she will just say that she's fine and wanna try to get better on her own.  

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I'm feeling so desperate, both for her and for me. I want her to get better and I'm really worried about her, and at the same time I'm feeling like it's my responsibility to always be there for her and keep her alive. Sometimes, the thought of killing myself comes to my mind. Because I feel like nothing can help her, that I can't keep worrying like this but also can't stand losing her. Everything feels so hopeless. 

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I'm so desperate and she needs more help, but I'm even afraid she can't be saved. She has been struggling for her WHOLE life (suicide attempt at 9 years old) and her parents (she lives with them) are controlling and kinda abusive. Her mother calls her fat despite her eating disorder and she constantly gets told that she's a burden and that she can't do anything right. She will never be able to recover in that environment, but right now she can't exactly move out (econimical problems + she wouldn't even eat) and everything seems so hopeless. 

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God, I would actually like to make this post 5 times longer because I have so much to say about this situation, but I know it'll be too long and messy. 

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I'm scared, tired and I just want her (and mine, if I'm allowed to care about myself) pain to end. Considering her circumstances, can she even get better and live a normal happy life? What should she/I do?? 

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Sorry for a long and really messy text, I hope it's understandable. The main point is:

**TL;DR:**  My 22 year old long distance girlfriend (who lives with her parents) is depressed, self harms, has an eating disorder and some more problems. She has been mentally unstable since she was little and attempted suicide for the first time at 9 years old. She lives in a pretty abusive home and doesn't know how to end her suffering. I'm so afraid she'll kill herself and I want to help her. But can she even get better or is it too late? And if she can, how?