I don’t really have friends but I was supposed to hang out with an ex coworker over the weekend. We had planned a fun activity several weeks ago and I was really looking forward to it. I texted them today and it turns out they can’t hang out anymore and had I not texted them, they probably never would’ve even let me know before the day of our activity. 

Idk why I bother getting excited about things or people. Shit always goes wrong when I get excited. And I’m just left wondering what I need to do for people to actually want to be my friend and hang out with me. Feels like I’m just gonna grow old super alone and die alone.