recently got diagnosed with bp2 and gad... been in denial. I found an old journal today. I was about 15-16 years old (I'm 22 now) and the entries kinda show a pattern. It goes from super positive, excited, writing about 100 things I need to do for a few days to going silent and not writing for weeks. I'll include an example I found ... can you guys tell me if this looks slightly like hypomania? I'm still struggling with the diagnosis but definitely feel like these entries are a little odd

Feb 19

"I feel very content with myself. I completely cleaned out my room. I am organized and ready for new things Spring will bring. I am confident and happy for the upcoming months."

Feb 20

"I don't have time or money for yoga. But, I think I'll do my own yoga everyday. Either morning or night. Actually I think I'll do yoga in the morning and meditate at night. That's perfect. I may need more candles... I would also love some string lights for my room. And plants. I just want to add a few things. I love writing. I almost feel like a monk right now - sitting in my bed writing in candlelight with meditation music. Tonight I will have a lovely sleep filled with wonderful dreams."

Feb 21

"I love rain. Rain is very beautiful, especially at night. I really want to read. I want to read everything. I wish I could read a million novels at once. I want to read every book ever written."

Other random things I wrote throughout the journal:

"look at the change in my writing. I wonder what handwriting means? does it reflect mood?"

"I realized something about myself. I become utterly obsessed with something and want to learn everything I possibly can and then move onto the next one. I have so many interests that it can be overwhelming. I always feel like there’s a million things I want to do and learn.”

"I'm so bored of everyone and everything around me. I need a change. It's a cycle - I'm fine and then I'm not."

After the entries in Feb I didn't write until March 2. In that entry I don't say much other than that I'm stressed. sorry this is long hahaha those are just some excerpts I found and was wondering if it seems like an indicator of hypomania???? unsure