Hi, it’s late at night so im just gonna get straight to the point with my vent and see if someone out there can relate. Basically, my life fuckin sucks. Im a 24 year old male who feels like he’s wasted his opportunity to make something of himself along with the fact that I have absolutely no idea what I will be doing with my life in the future. I have no friends, no girlfriend, some people hate me, im overweight, my mental health is terrible, im addicted to cigarettes and I barely ever get out the house. Every day I do the same thing, sit on my sete looking at my phone because I lack the motivation to do anything. I know having little drive is one of the things that comes along with extreme OCD (which I have) but man I hate it I literally can’t bring myself to try and get in shape or go and make new friends because I’m too depressed. Pretty much all my ‘friends’ are no longer in contact with me, im speaking to a same girl I have been talking to for months and months but we are not together because she lives too far away but I’m too much of a pussy to actually tell her I might have to move on. People disrespect me all the time and think I’m weird even though I show them nothing but respect and love because that’s what Jesus tells me to do. I’m the fattest I’ve ever been and it makes me feel like shit, my OCD drives me insane every single day with the non stop lies it tries to tell me through intrusive thoughts, which led me in the past to get addicted to cigarettes which I feel hopeless when it comes to getting off them I can’t see myself never being a smoker even though I hate them. And the only times I get out the house is with my mom and/or dad because I still live with them whilst other people my age have their own place, their own car, and seem like they actually have a plan in life whilst im here watching each day go by feeling like im wasting my youth. I never pictured this would be my life at 24 years old when I was younger I thought I would be travelling the world whist speaking to beautiful women but the reality is I can only look at cities I would like to go to on Expedia whilst I fap to tits and ass on the internet because that’s the only type of female interaction I can get its like I can’t speak to them I get so anxious and just freeze up I mean I’m not a bad looking kid in all honesty but my personality isn’t a hit with the ladies at all it never has been they just like to laugh at me because of how awkward I am. I’m a Christian so I know I should love my enemies but some days I just feel like telling the world to go fuck themselves like I said I’m nothing but nice to everyone but it seems like they think they can walk all over me and it doesn’t feel good. Is there any one else out there who feels the same or am I just a loser by myself I don’t have any interests anymore, nothing I would like to pursue as a career anyway I wanted to be an athlete but around the time where I could of really dedicated myself to a sport was the same time my mental health was herendous I even went to mental hospital at one point so I could never find the motivation to work hard towards my goals because going through hell everyday was exhausting enough. I’m better with my OCD now don’t get me wrong but it’s still bad and I just wish I had my shit together because it seems like everyone else has. I just need some good advice because I’ve been stuck in this rut for years and I really don’t know how I’m going to get out of it. Sorry for the bad language I just needed to get this out there and off my chest because it’s been pent up for such a long time and I just can’t take it anymore I’m wasting my life so I’m not going to be quiet about it I feel like I’m too old to pursue what I really want to do but that’s a different post all together. Just please help me find the motivation so I can get off my ass and actually enjoy life. It’s really not like me to speak like this but I feel so down with how things are going I have to see if there’s anyone who can give me some motivation. Thank you for reading this and God bless