It was so humiliating, at the end of the party when everybody was leaving (I was getting a ride with her family) she called me and handed the bouquet to me. It wasn’t in front of other people, but her now husband saw it, she said it’s good luck so I can finally find someone so we can go on double dates. I know she has good intentions, we’ve been friends for 4 years, I was her goddamn maid of honor, even her parents say I’m part of the family, I adore her and she’s great but this was humiliating to me. In these 4 years we’ve been friends she’s managed to find herself a husband, while I’ve had several mental breakdowns, got my first job and quit after 7 months because of my deteriorating mental health, tried to kill myself and failed at that too and had failed attempts at love. This hurts so much, I feel like such a failure, I can’t even kill myself right. I know she means well and she’s been an amazing friend all this time but that was so humiliating, I just wanted to start crying right there, but I managed to get home first. Honestly this ruined an otherwise good night.