My first college is about to start this Monday which I am suppose to be focusing on but all I can think of is how my friends are going to abandon me forever because I blocked most of them impulsively. Although, I don't hate them personally. I just remembered something traumatic so I internalized it until I got mad. I really don't know what to do because I don't think they can understand my BPD splitting episodes. please help...I can't take it anymore. I always feel like this is the end. they are not going to take me back then I will be isolated for the rest of my life. any advice..?? tia 😔💛