I came to the realization today that I don't really consciously like my FP. I'm always wanting them to talk to me or be with me or hang out with me, but the moment they do, I get irritated. But then they start to slip away and I want them back. I get weirdly angry when i see them with other people, to the point where I start demonizing the people they're with even if I haven't met them. My heart is filled with joy when my FP texts me, and I get so happy when they have a convo with me that I almost want to throw up. But if they talk to me for more than 5 mins, I don't want anything to do with them. I was thinking about their interests, their morals and values, their habits, etc and I just realized, I don't really like them. But I just can't let them go, and it's unhealthy because I don't want to make them feel like they HAVE to talk to me, they HAVE to hang out with me. I don't want to be like this anymore.