You wanna know what set it off yesterday and today? One of my brother's friends coming over. I found out at 7PM yesterday and have been in a state of panic since, feeling sick and panic like always when my anxiety starts.

I think it might have something to do with a toxic relationship I had a while ago, which is thankfully over now. But ever since then I get terrible anxiety attacks whenever anything possibly relating to it comes up. Like if I talk to a girl my age, my toxic ex was a girl about my age. The correspondence can be that fucking loose to set me off that I want to just die.