So I'm stressed and scared because of the Corona virus, I'm isolated from my friends and my boyfriend, who I miss so dearly. I'm really struggling not getting to see him. 


I still work right now, and when I'm at work things are usually OK. I'm more on edge lately, but I have friends at work and can generally have a good time and keep my cool(well, usually lol).


But whenever I'm alone at home, everything just sets me off. Big things, little things, I can't stand it I'm in a perpetual fit of rage. And when I'm angry, I get urges to self harm. I've avoided it so far, but I'm getting dangerously close to justifying it. Nobody will see it anyway. 


I'm tired of being so angry and feeling destructive and violent. I want to hurt myself, break items, say hurtful things to others. 


I'm trying to distract myself, but I'm getting mad at video games, weed isn't helping much, and I don't know what else to do. Normally I'd invite my boyfriend over or go shopping, but with everything going on I can't see him and need to limit my spending.