I feel like such a baby. My college is about an hour away from home but I’m having an awful time dealing with the fact that I’m moving in the dorms on August 26th. I’m going to be a freshman and this is my first time living away from home. 

I feel so ill prepared. I have not packed anything or cleaned my room out, instead I’ve let myself become engulfed with anxiety. I feel like I’m abandoning my boyfriend, who is going to navy bootcamp in late October and I want to spend as much time as I can with him before then but this messes up everything. I’m so sad and afraid, I can’t stop crying and just about everyday I wake up having a panic attack. I’m not prepared to live on my own, nor am I prepared to deal with the lack of personal space and sanity.

I want to come home every weekend for a while, but I know that’s not exactly healthy. I need to live away from home, but I want to see my boyfriend and my family. I don’t know how to help myself, all my normal coping mechanisms haven’t been working. Ever since late July hit I’ve been in panic attack mode 24/7.