(Trigger warning) 

I work way too much on top of being in school full time. My apartment is overpriced and shitty and my roommates are terrible and too busy to clean or do anything. I’m in constant distress all day. 

And then on top of that when I go into work and customer after customer is just a fucking asshole. Don’t say hello, don’t know what they want, inconsiderate of my time or the fact that I have 8 people in line all asking for things. It’s mind numbing. 

Inside is like a tornado (I’m good at hiding the constant shitstorm of emotion after years of practice) and outside I just look dead inside. The emotion bottles up then when I go on break I cut myself and dissociate, then come back and do it again. If even one person acts nice I immediately see them as some sort of angel in disguise and I try to hold back my tears. 

I’m not diagnosed and it’s difficult for me to afford a therapist right now but the rollercoaster is getting pretty damn difficult to ride.