I don’t hear voices in my head belittling me or telling me what to do... I hear events replaying in my head from the past day like a past conversation or a song thats stuck on repeat.. I don’t have hallucinations.. I sometimes see smoke in the corner of my eye but brush it off as floaters.. my real problem is that I’m constantly delusional believing that I’m always about to die. Sometimes I think that everything is fake and its a simulation... or that I passed away and I’m experiencing an after life. Or that I’m on the cusp of death... 90% of my day is consumed by the fear that my heart is going to give out, but now its also plagued by the fact that I might be becoming schizophrenic. I’m afraid to die.. but I’m also afraid to lose control completely and enter a psychosis state.. I’m afraid of losing control and hurting strangers or my loved ones.  I need help.. I’m so tired.