I’ve notice for last year or so, whenever I have a depressive episode it starts off with me being sad low and hopeless, then becomes rage and hatred, I had anger issues as a child ( mainly because of abuse) but when I first started to have depression ( about 4 years ago) I was a lot more quiet and content, and whenever I had a depressive episode it was just sadness and hopelessness but I rarely ever got angry but now, every depressive episode is met with so much rage and hatred, to the point where I literally wanna murder someone or I wish that everyone would die, idk wtf is going on