I lost all will to keep fighting, to keep living. I just want to give up. I'm so tired right now. Only reason I'm not killing myself is because my final thoughts will be flooding with pain, sadness, guilt and regret. Regret that by killing myself I'd be hurting those who truly love me. But I can't even take care of myself anymore. Maybe I'd just surrender myself at a psych ward and let them do what they want with me