I don't go out, I don't make plans. I don't play games with anyone, or talk or text on the phone. I spend every waking moment of my life alone. I missed out on all the best years of my life, they were instead living nightmares. Its been like this my entire life, anyone who I used to call a friend, have left me behind. I have no one. And I hate it. Its a sick twisted joke that the person who is effected by lonliness the most is doomed to always be alone. I'm sick of it, I'm sick of pretending to be okay, and I'm sick of people telling me it will get better. They don't understand how difficult it is to not just make friends but keep them.