It's been coming and going in waves. Last night was more or less suicidal thoughts (I don't want to die, I'm just struggling with the anxiety), but tonight the physical aspects are bad.

My body is trembling. My appetite is shot. I did eat supper, but my stomach hurts. I've felt exhausted all day. Still sick, so I don't know if that's making my anxiety worse, or if my anxiety is dragging out my recovery.

I did get some sleep, but I'm having nightmares. First one, I was trying not to get flung off a high speed carousel. Second one, a bear chased my son and me, and my son was deeply scratched...woke up wondering if he needed a rabies shot, until I realized it was just a bad dream.

Not sure how I'll get through tonight...