life just been shitting on me it's hard to even get out of bed to go to work to support people that dont even care  I feel this way most days i wanna kill myself but cant find the courage to  because I dont want to leave my kids behind my wife says she loves me but I know she doesnt I just break my back to support them by myself in debt never have money to do anything but pay Bill's food clothes gas never had help from family have no friends cause the ones I did have just use me when they wanted something or needed help I'm just mentally drained I keep thinking little get better but when does that happen because I've felt like this for a long time now and I cant do it anymore.......😥😥😥