DAE give up before trying? I love writing, music, art, etc but I constantly feel like a failure or ashamed and worthless and like I should never try or how dare have I even thought I could be an artist or anything at all. Before I write a page or anything I just feel worthless and like the whole thing is useless. Same for anything in my life. Like in the past ppl told me I was trash and I internalized it. And now I feel guilty and ashamed for even beginning to try. 

For anyone who does art here, how do you overcome this? How do you overcome the self defeat and paranoia and self-doubt and lack of self? How do you just do things? I feel constantly worthless when I see how much success or “good” art is tied to being connected or rich or white or something and I just give up immediately