My BPD really flares up when I'm touch starved. It is even worse it's it's been awhile since I cuddled.  


I get monthly massages to help with posture and such. Which become ungodly expensive $150-200 a session for a proper realignment massage. I've been thinking a cuddle party. Or maybe a hooker to cuddle. I have a poly partner who I see maybe once a month and like even then, I see her tomorrow but she isn't even spending the night.  So like I maybe see her from 9-2 and thats it