Ok. So, I really have no idea if my mom is actually bad or not. Like, I feel like she’s in the wrong a lot (but of course I am too sometimes). Let’s start early on, she did hit me as a kid, mainly whipping me with a belt and slapping me. But, it didn’t hurt me much and I know people have had it much worse. Plus, I actually feel it might have helped me be more obedient. I don’t know, I just wanted to mention that as a detail. Next, she sort of drove me to attempt suicide. I was going through an EXTREMELY hard time in my junior year of high school. I was already suicidal basically without any help from her. But, after another really bad day, she picked me up from school and just immediately began yelling at me because of some stupid math homework I didn’t do. I will concede that I was basically not doing my schoolwork at the time, but this was the stupidest thing to get mad at. I wasn’t in danger of failing math, and my teacher literally gave me a B on a test when I should have gotten a 0. He really wasn’t the type to fail someone. I tried explaining I had a terrible day, and that it wasn’t such a big deal, but she just yelled at me that I never do what I’m supposed to do and that  if I keep this up, I’ll never amount to anything. So, by the time we made it home, I decided I wanted to die and was willing to take action. Next, she always tries to force God on me. I understand she just wants to give me comfort, but she will not stop bringing up religion. We’ll be talking about something, and she always needs to bring up God. I have tried telling her that it doesn’t help but she just never quits. Next, she makes fun of me when we’re with other relatives and has a bad habit of telling relatives things that I don’t want to be known. She says I’m ungrateful because of all the stuff she does for me. But, I don’t know. I know that a tactic by manipulative parents is to say that, but at the same time, you can’t deny there are ungrateful children in the world. Like, my mom always provides for me materially. Sometimes she buys me nice things and what not. But, I would prefer it if she were way nicer but never bought me anything. I know a LOT of people have had it way worse than me in regards to their parents. I’m sure a lot of people on this sub may disregard me entirely when others are being sexually abused and heavily beaten by their parents. Anyway, I really don’t know who is in the wrong. If my mom is bad, I don’t think it’s intentional, but as the saying goes, the road to hell is paved with good intentions. And I tell her to change, but she never does. Anyway, I just want y’all’s input. Am I just a spoiled brat? Is my mom sort of abusive? Oh also, more context, my mom has been through a lot too since she lost my father when I was very young. I thought I’d add that too.