everytime people talk about bpd they always talk about the excessive attachments and the emotional pain but,, right now im in one of those moods where i feel absolutely empty and hollow and nothing. not even a sad nothing just... nothing. a friend hung up on me right now and called me boring (as a joke) but,, i didnt take it personally? i genuinely laughed it off and right now i think i could get over anything that didnt concern my fp. im feeling this happiness that isn't actually happiness but isnt numbness and is overall illogical because outside my family is fighting again, my fp hasnt texted me back and my friends hung up on me... but i just cant seem to care its like im so tired of caring (ive been in an extreme emotional state for the past two days to rhe point where i was afraid of sleeping and being alone with my thoughts)
i guess one of my questions is, does anyone relate? the other one is,, am i faking?? i was in a very different zone when i thought i had bpd and now it feels like im climbing out of that and going "ok shows over" and just getting back to functioning like a normal human being.. except i also know this wont last and i'll be back to crying about everything?? can someone just pls help