hello reddit i am new here. i figure id try talkin here because i got no one else to talk to, at least about the anxiety that has been  over my head for quite a while.  

mainly my issues are that i am struggling to  find a job and in turn i am  becoming more and more worried about   providing and caring for my family.  i feel like i am inferior and just a dumbass who is looked down on by  interviewers and job places. i live in a rural town in the midwest and  have never had much money to speak of. i am blessed to have a girlfriend who supports me emotionally but there is alot i  cant tell her because it will break her heart.  i tried my damnedest to get a good career and support myself and her but nothings come to be.  im nearly 30 years old and i got next to nothing to show for it.  i had a  job interview at a  agency last week and the only job they said theyd offer me was a contingent job as a janitor paying between 9 bucks and 10 bucks an hour. they couldnt even guarantee full time hours neither. i quit my  other job in july because i had some health problems  and that pay was 14.25 an hour and even that i couldnt support ourselves off of.  i have practically burned thru all my savings and if i dont find something quick im gonna be in a real pickle.  short of begging for a better career i dont know what i can do.  i do not have the time or the money to go back to school, and i have a learning disability so even if i was to go i would not be able to learn a marketable skill like  computer programming or  IT fields,  shoot to be honest, i  only use my computer for emails for job interviews, beyond that i  wouldnt have a clue.  i had to quit my other job because i had severe knee and back problems as well as hypertension, and i cant go back to it because it was a seasonal type deal and i couldnt keep up the pace, so i wouldnt be able to be a plumber or an electrician or anything like that.  my girlfriend wants to go to work but she cant drive so id have to drive her and pick her up so  that would take a big chunk out of any workin hours id be able to get.  heck, pretty soon i am gonna have to sell my car just to afford to pay the bills for the next month.  

i dont know what point im tryin to make here, maybe just venting about my lot in life, but if you could  send some prayers my way, i'd truely be blessed.