ive been doing better lately like actually doing well and staying healthy and productive, but a couple days ago i got the urge to drink and buy a pack of cigs for the first time in awhile. now im spiraling and making horrible impulsive choices and then feeling guilty afterwards. this is my pattern but i didnt think it could get this bad again so quickly. im nearly out of my savings, im neglecting bills and chores, ive stopped exercising and im doing things i cant even admit to myself feeling like trash. ugh idk what im asking really but i need advice asap. i cant even talk to my bf about this.