I don't know what happened to me, I was ok for the lasts years, and now I am even finishing my university degree which is very hard (electrical engineering) and I should be happy about it, but I am not, somehow I am obsessed, extremely obsessed about every single mistake I made since I was 6 years old. I think about it ALL the time, even when I am talking with someone, I am getting crazy, and drinking too much at the moment as well, I think I will go to some hospital and stay there for a few weeks, I was supposed to find a job soon, but I can't even start to write an application.