I find it so hard to deal with things sometimes. It feels like i’m in a constant loop of things. I hate the way I look and I hate the way I feel everyday, apart of me wants to do better to be the best version of myself and pick myself out of the hole i dug myself into but i cant. it’s the same routine, i get anxious about who i wanna be and plan everything out that i wanna do to become the best version of myself, but then i don’t do anything about it. i soak in my own self pity and just sit on my phone all day because i have no motivation to do anything about it. it disgusts me and i’m so tired of living like this but i literally don’t know how to just fix things.