I'm constantly stuck between idealizing and devaluating everyone who's close to me. (e.g my boyfriend, my best friend,...) But there is one guy, I think he's my FP even though cuddling at a party and poppin xanax was the only thing we did together. I'm just idealising everything he does and I can't stop starring at him during class. I never devaluate him for doing/saying something and I think that's really weird. I fear being abandoned by him so much. Like he's just going to toilet during class and I instantly think "no don't go I love you"(wtf¿) 

DEA has a person they don't devaluate or a FP they barely know?
Well I think I'm my case it's this "you were nice to me one time, I'm going to love you now" thing yk