and to be entirely honest, I’ve dealt with it a lot better than I would have in the past. It’s been 2 months. I crave his voice and I cry at night sometimes but I’ve gotten to the point where I recognize that neither of us were healthy for the other and it’s time for me to grow up and move on. 

I’m desperately hoping I don’t FP someone new any time soon. I’m working on myself and trying to learn how to be me without strong attachments. 

Today I sent him one last message saying I loved him and that I was gonna block him and move on. 

It felt good. To be able to do that without feeling like I was going to die.