I was doing really good! Great actually! I was waking up at 8 am and hanging out with friends and family. Then something happened and I relapsed in SH. And then it was like something clicked. I stopped eating during the day and then only ate at night, staying up till 4 or 5 in the morning, EVERY morning. No matter how hard I tried to sleep. Sleeping in untill 14:30 this morning, and 12:00 to 14:00 every other morning. I'm light headed, tired, depressed, my anxiety is so bad I'm having multiple attacks a day. I'm getting more PTSD related flash backs. And in starting to deal with this stupid ED. The only thing I wanna do is go to work now and the place is so damn hot but I have to wear a hoodie so I'm not a walking trigger warning. I can't talk to my parents because... They hate me. Can anyone please help. I can't go to the doctor and put my family through that again, it's to expensive and we are teetering on a fine line, actually fuck the line. We're poor. Does anyone know what I should do??? Please...