I habe never had any goals in my life. Everyone i know has a goal they want to reach in their life. I have no hobbys or interests. Is spend the hole day in my room and do nothing. I mess up everything do. In school and every other club i joined i was always the outsider. They call me a retard and ugly. I have no friends at all and my family tells me i have some screws lose. I am just very shy and akward in social stuff because i have always been alone.

I feel numb and i am just living from day to day

What keeps you going?