I thought that over the years I had developed some special sort of confidence because I had finally learned to “toughen up” like my Dad always said. I used to be so scared of people’s opinions and thoughts and feelings lest they be negative towards me, and now I tell myself I don’t give a FUCK, everyone is stupid, bla bla bla. Is this a manifestation of BPD, or am I just a jaded bitch? I tend to be way more of a pushed away than a clingy type.