I (24f) asked the guy (online) I like to be friends, because he can’t/doesn’t want to be in a relationship (and has some personal stuff going on) and my anxiety got triggered a lot. He switched a lot between moods. On one side he was sweet etc. and when he was feeling down, he was short in answers. He always responded with that we aren’t together, but I saw that it hurt him that I was hurt. I couldn’t give him what he needed, and he couldn’t give me what I needed. So, I made the really hard decision to be just friends with him. He seemed completely fine with that, and he had promised me a couple of times that I won’t lose him. He was my best friend and he said he needed a bit of space, but that we still can be friends. This was almost 2 weeks ago, and I haven’t heard a word from him. Last week I sent him a message and asked that if he wanted more space and that I would wait till he writes again. He responded to that with that he needs space for a while and that he hopes that we can call soonish. I want to move on, but it feels like I can’t because of my anxiety. Every time, I feel like I lost him and that he will never come back and that it is my own fault. I want to get better, but I don’t know how. All my friends have their own stuff going on and with some of them I see that they get annoyed at me for “still” being sad. My family doesn’t know about it, because they would judge me. I thought I did the right thing, but atm I feel like the biggest loser.