Not gonna lie it really is, I live in Australia and my state is only stage 2 of the lockdown. Its good I can still go outside for a run and stuff but really my depression really kicked in after a week and a half. My job was at a loss when all the cafe workers got hit hard and the rest of the hospitality industry. Its been so tough not being able to do a normal routine. I thought that I would be strong in this and then my BPD began to hit, its now been almost 2 weeks since my self isolation and I have been living with my partner and he is a single dad, he has his kids over for the weekend and most of my trauma comes from my dads death. Hearing his daughter say dad cuddle that was the end of me I couldn't help but cry it was a massive trigger and now I feel like I am on the outside. The voices in my head have been very vocal last night saying I wasn't good enough, you're worthless or you're never gonna be apart of his life. I am thinking back and now I am questioning why are our inner voices so nasty to our souls. Honestly I haven't had the chance to talk to him about it, but it makes me wonder if I were to have my own children will this effect me too, I don't know if I am able to do this but I know I can't give up on life and myself.