(This is just for back story so let’s not get political). So I was on insta and someone said that we basically do have free health care in the us bc s/o can’t deny you service in the ER if you don’t have money. Idk if that’s true but that got me thinking that a lot of ppl don’t just need the er we also need therapy. Now that the back story is over.

So I’m still going through my child hood ig and so much has already happened, and things proceed to happen. A lot of traumatic memories are unlocking and I’m afraid that this trauma is going to bite me in the butt when I get older. I’m so oblivious/numb to things that when it happens now, it totally flies over my head. Like how I got outed to my head of the family that I was trying to convert to islam, and how my sibling gaslights me. There are more but that’s all I feel like sharing. 

Only if my family were more understanding and opening about things that happen in the world and to people in general it’d be much easier. I actually don’t really think they don’t know about it, I think they just chose to avoid it bc it’s “awkward” to talk about, or it’s “not something the (insert last name)’s go through”.

Now I’m asking again please don’t think too much about my first paragraph if you are reading this, it was just to support my rant. And if you are reading this, thank you:)