   This cannot be everything that this life has to offer. It feels like my past lives bleed onto this one. I feel like a General of a past Army and all I want to do is fight. Fight for defense, fight for glory, fight because that is all human beings have done with their time on Earth. We are the most murderous and inhumane beings on Earth. Why are we even alive, why do we even exist? Why are we so surprised by murders and killings, when that is all we have done since the beginning of time? Can we we finally find freedom on this planet when we take human life more valuably and realize that ego and taking of life is not the answer. How can we stop killing? How can we stop choosing violence and realizing that peace is the only way to Heaven? We fight because even in Heaven there was a battle, hence where the Devil came from.

  I hope this planet can find it's peace again where it does not include human beings and it's equilibrium  can be achieved again. 1,000 years of peace probably does not include humans and if I die and am judged for my sins than so be it. It is hard as fuck to be a human being anyway, therefore I shall not judge another. If you read this than find peace within yourself, you cannot find it in this corrupt and disastrous world. Peace comes from acceptance and love. Love the sinner, for you are one, love the corrupt for you are corrupt, love the sacrilegious for you are sacrilegious and in the end all you have done is loved the hardest. Forgive those that betray you, forgive those that are evil, forgive those that make human life miserable because in the end, how are you so different from them? Not much. The greatest gift to a hypocrite is telling him he is being hypocritical. Shining the light upon himself that himself tryest everything to deny. Truth shines above all and the Devil hides from it, be braver than the Devil and accept the truth of who you are with your entire being.

You are depressed because of the injustice caused upon you and you are unsatisfied with the direction your life is headed, change it, you have anxiety because they have killed and burned at the stake those with different ideas and you suffer because being alive is a weight that we all will always have to carry it no matter how sociopathic you are.

Find the ways that makes others around you smile, and find ways to make sufferings less so. Life doesn't have to be so hard when we all try to make this place a little better. Bring art to this world, bring delicious food, bring delicious coffee and oh, don't forget the delicious cocktails. Anything to remove the dark clouds from this burdensome place.