i have done acid a few times and i think it has changed me in unimaginable ways. I feel like this is going to sound stupid but i’ve been able to pick up on people’s energy SO much more than before i tripped and it’s been such a gift. it’s like, even if bpd is telling me to be upset at what someone did or said, a part of me can sense the energy behind that person and their actions—and since most of the time it’s just the bpd, the voice in my head tells me “It’s okay. they weren’t trying to hurt you.”

a lot of the time it’s still hard as fuck to be able to separate myself and the disorder like that but even if I’m not able to do it in the moment of anger, i always reflect on what happened and i try to remember the energy/vibe i got from the person or situation so that i can slowly figure out whether i was right to be mad or whether it was bpd. it’s improved my relationship with my friends and also with my family, the latter of which i never thought could be possible. 

obviously lsd isn’t the sole reason why i’ve made progress, but i feel like the experiences opened me up to new ways of thinking, and once i trained my mind to think that way without being on it is when i started to see so much change in myself.