today has been complete **ASS.**

I just want to be able to relax but I can't do it I can't I can't I'm having an episode and I can't stop crying and punching myself on the face. Help me. I don't know what to do!!!!!! I hate my fucking life, I hate being so manipulative, I hate evERYTHING.

I took 1mg clonazepam and chased it with like quarter of a cup of Spritz so that's that but I'm so anxious and distressed!!!!!!!!! I can't THINK.