Idk what’s worse. I’m not optimistic and I’m not trying to see the “good” in anyone or anything. I’m over being naive and stupid. Things don’t just work out. Shit is shit. 

I’ve gone from having stupidly unrealistic borderline fantasy shit expectations to expecting absolutely nothing. Because at least now I’m not continuously dealing with being disappointed by my own expectations as well as others. People are severely disappointing and overrated. As are friends and other relationships that guarantee nothing but having your time and efforts wasted.