Hi all,

So at my school there's been a lot of scary in-fighting and back-stabbing. In short, one student is accusing another of sexual assault. All day they go on and on about these terrible things, and I am so disturbed. Must I live my childhood over and over again? Why does no one have mercy on me?

Increasingly I have been the target of these monsters. They accuse me of being "friends" with "the psycho" (probably because we both have mental illness). 

Last week I noticed an incredible coldness from one of my teachers. Basically she told the entire class about how I was never allowed to go outside as a kid... all new people, too. They didn't know me. The accusers have more likely than not been telling her about how ~~evil and ~~crazy I am, just like the supposed perp.

Since then, I've been playing up my "psychotic side." I've been diagnosed as schizotypal in the past. Specifically, I've taken to rambling, speaking softly, and grinning in a rigid sort of way. I don't make eye contact. I want to go unnoticed.

And today, voila, it works: no one spoke to me or really paid attention to me. I've protected myself (and tricked the dumb fuckers).

Has anyone else ever done this? Put on a show for one's own preservation? Protection? Played the innocent flower?

I am so disturbed by humans, lol.