I realize I'm the issue. I know I'm just a burden and my emotions and needs do not matter. I read in groups people saying things such as "when I learned to let go in therapy things got better", ect. I don't know how to let go   . I don't know how to "relax" or not think about things. Im lonely because I'm worthless and no one wants me. I just am tired of being broken but terrified things are worse if I self check out. Im lonely. My life doesn't matter. I'm broken. I don't want to be broken anymore. 

I wish I mattered. I wish I had a family and friends.