To make a long story short, I’ve got an insane amount of wealth coming my way that doesn’t even make sense to me (sold a business for a lot). I’m set to appear on the news and everything and I’ve also managed to secure a professor position at a university.

However, when I was 14 (10 years ago) I was in this group chat with a bunch of friends and I made a really racist joke. The problem is, this joke would not be acceptable at all today, and out of context it would make me look like a monster. And for some reason I’m thinking about the worst case scenarios. What if this joke is screenshotted with my name and plastered all over the internet, I get fired, and there’s no way I’ll ever get a job again because racism is tied to my name on Google. It’s my nightmare situation. 

It’s gotten so bad I’ve thought about just quitting everything. I regret the edgy jokes I made at 14. I wish I could take those jokes back. 

I really dont know how to handle this. I’ve never had mental health issues, but for some reason this just keeps being brought into my mind. I can’t stop thinking about it.