I'm squandering my vacation hours laying around doing nothing. When it happens I don't clean or cook or brush my teeth I just sleep or maybe play video games if I walk out of my bed. Work isn't too frustrating or difficult but I just can't leave my apartment when I get like this. It's the same with school I haven't even looked at my assignments in months. It's just a research paper why am I avoiding it so hard?

I exercise 3 hours a week because it's supposed to help but it really just seems like a distraction from things I don't want to do. I only eat takeout or comfort food because I have no motivation to cook even if I bought groceries, even though I can't stand how obese I am.

I have a therapist, a psychiatrist, and now a dietician. Why can't I escape this cycle?