But in the end, it doesn’t even matter.”   



How deafening for my life to embody this song that I screamed my heart out to as a teenager. I always had this sickening feeling that not matter what I do, it would never be enough. I always felt I was doomed to fail.   

I feel like I’m awake in a nightmare. I don’t know what to do now. If he wasn’t in my life… I would just go. I’m dead tired of living this character