hi, i’m f(18) and on my third ssri escitalopram after sertraline and fluoxetine flipped for me. since fluoxetine i actually haven’t had problems with my anxiety which is quite amazing since i’m not even on it anymore and was off for a month and was good baring in my mind i struggled with anxiety for 5 years before that.
Depression for me seems to be unbeatable. I’m at a time where i’m supposed to be sending in uni applications and planning the future but i’ve never seen a future, quite frankly i never thought i’d even make it this far. I feel i’ve seen everything i need to see and there’s nothing worth living for. go to uni so i can do a normal job come home and do the same day on repeat for another 60 odd years? no thanks. what’s the point, why am i fighting so hard to live if i hate it. I should mention i jus upped my dose from 5mg escitalopram to 10 (i’m supposed to be working up to 20) and i normally feel like shit when changing doses but i’m honestly not sure if this will work and i’m scared because if medication doesn’t work there’s nothing left to me, and i’ve tried therapy for a long time. The point is does anyone actually come out of depression for longer than a couple months or that time between the next episode?