This guy is like my best friend and he’s been super nice to me and I’m worried what my life will be like without him. 
I’ve only known this guy for a couple of months but we have a clear buddy chemistry and I haven’t had a friend in so long, I’m not sure I’m ready to lose this. 
We’ve had a lot of one on one time because we were in the same club. 
I can’t ask anyone’s advice on this in person because when I try they think I (a lesbian) am fucking this 40 year old man. 
I already lost a really good friend and favorite person 4 years ago and I still haven’t gotten over that person.  Am I just supposed to keep getting emotionally scarred by people I get attached to?