This is my first time posting here, and I hope it's okay. I've never been diagnosed with anxiety, but I'm pretty sure there is something that keeps triggering me. 
I used to be a big extrovert before the pandemic, but now I have anxiety that keeps me from meeting new people, and I suck at online dating or anything related.
I feel like the pandemic shifted something in me, and I've finally come to terms with it. 
A few days ago, one of my friends called me and asked me to meet up with him and a few of his friends from college. I've already met most of them at least once before but after his call, I started feeling light-headed and short of breath. I was genuinely freaking out about it and didn't know what to do. 
I ended up canceling the plan by giving him a pretty stupid excuse. It was sad because he wanted me to meet his girlfriend who was with him that day. 

This is not the first time I've had this issue. 
Sometimes I feel like all the issues I'm worried about in life are just sitting on my shoulder and make it impossible for me to breathe. 

I know it is very common to feel like this, but I hate the fact that I've changed so much. I'm worried I'll forget how to talk to people and socialize. I wanna push myself and tackle this like every other issue in my life, but now it feels impossible.