So anxious about a mammogram!

Hey! I’ve been suffering from health anxiety for 5 months. I’ve been over fixating in my breast and feel like my left breast has an area that’s more lumpy and thick than my right breast in the upper left quadrant near the armpit. And sometimes it hurts, after ovulation/before period. I have a fibroadenoma in my right breast since I was 20 (currently 36). I had a contrast enhanced abdominal ct scan 5 months ago (for other issues)that showed both of my breast including my fibroadenoma and everything else looked fine (I know ct scan are not diagnostic for breast issues). Anyways, my PCP did a breast exam and told me it was normal tissue of the breast and that my breast are not twins. I also always carry my kid o this side only. But since I cannot let it go I decided to just get a mammogram and ultrasound. They just called me and set the appointment for Thursday and now my anxiety is trough the roof. 

I’m on the onboarding process of a new job after 4 years out of the workforce due to Staying at home with kids/ pandemic. It really took a toll on my mental health and I’m so eager to go back, but my anxiety is taking my mind to the worst places. 

Any word of encouragement would be appreciated. I know that only scans can say for sure what I have or don’t have. I just don’t want to be so anxious.