i hate not being in control. that's why i hate being angry. i'm no-one to get angry over little shit, but as soon as i'm in rage, i turn into the person i hate most. IT KINDA FEELS GOOD THO, but i rather hurt myself physically, than hurting anyone mentally. fuck me i relapsed and cut myself for the first time in nearly a year. why are sadness and anger the only emotions i'm able to really feel.. sorry for the rant