i really don’t think it’s possible for me to make friends at this point. 

i’m a college sophomore and don’t really have anyone on campus i know or even am comfortable enough to hang out with. the thing about being a teen today is that you can get a sneak peak at people through social media, though. i see people in my classes living awesome lives on social media and some with similar interests to my own, but i just don’t have that energy. 

i don’t have it in me to open up. to formulate an introduction conversation, or put on my smiley face to acknowledge that i am enjoying the conversation. i feel like i’ve lost the ability to have energy in social situations, and god knows i’m not going to fake it.