I have worlds that I spend most of my time daydreaming in. These worlds are all different and I am different in all of them. Most of them have me with my ideal version of life where I have a lot of friends, I travel, drive fancy cars, live in a mansion, go to parties/clubs, I have a hot gf, I am successful, I am rich and good looking. I basically dream the exact opposite of my life. I don’t really have much of a life. I have no friends, never dated, barely leave my house, work, still in school. Most of the time the people in my fake lives don’t even exist. 

I’ve been doing this since I was like 10 and mostly when I was alone. I’m now 22 and I feel ashamed about it. My life is so boring and I am so lonely that I daydream my days away. I feel like people would think I am a loser and weirdo if they knew this was how I spent my time. Worst part is that my life in my head is better than reality and it often makes me sad. I feel like shit when I actually think about the fact I was hours dreaming up fake lives just because my real one is depressing. 

I wish I could stop but I think I would go insane because when I’m daydreaming I am not thinking about the reality of my life. I am so afraid that I will continue to do this till I die. I don’t want to keep doing this as I get older. I honestly think I will die by suicide soon because I just don’t see my life changing despite all the effort I’ve made to improve myself the past 2 years.