Have lingering anxiety constantly and random bouts of like intense and horrific dread throughout the day. 

Being anxious has left me genuinely incapable of moving forward in life, very far behind and not where I should be and I can’t imagine having the courage to get there. 

Too anxious to even go to a therapist, I feel like I just can’t function and whenever I feel that terrible feeling which is more often than not I want nothing more than just relief whatever means necessary. 

I feel pathetic and embarrassed for being like this, I look lazy and unmotivated and I don’t see how it could get better