I have a lot of stressors occurring right now that I can't control, but I believe I was already sabotaging myself before I was so stressed. I don't have the greatest time management, and I'm aware of it, but I still show up late to things that I should not show up late to. 

For example, I am regularly about 10 minutes late to work. I don't get in trouble for it. But I don't think it's okay. I still keep doing it. 

Why am I doing this? Am I trying to sabotage myself? Am I trying to get in trouble? I sometimes tell myself I can't control a lot of things, but I can control if I'm on time. 

I am getting treatment for my anxiety. I have a therapist and I increased my anti anxiety meds. I'm still having trouble understanding this. Please let me know if you have any ideas. Thank you.