Since was 16 I dropped put of highschool and basically just lived on the internet up till now. I listen to music and see ppl living life and being genuine with each other, they  have friends and know how to socialize and chase their dreams while avoiding the pitfalls of depression. I've never had that I don't think I ever will. I'm doomed to experience life alone. Everything I do and say is filtered through my depression it's like there's 2 people living in my body.