Last week, around Wednesday, I started to feel a little off and waaaaay more depressed and on edge than usual. I realized I had missed my Monday and Tuesday dose of my medication (I've been kind of couch surfing/staying at my boyfriends place because I don't have a bed or a room at home [another long story]) because I usually take it at night and I hadn't stopped by my house that day. So, on Wednesday, I start taking my meds again, but I'm still feeling *off*.

Thursday passes, I cry over at my boyfriends place that night and he helps me out, and then Friday I go in to work. I'm just feeling awful. All these thoughts I haven't had in a long time start coming up. "I'm awful, no one loves me, everyone hates me, no one wants me here, I would just be better off dead." I'm literally sobbing in the back room by this point. I keep trying to go work the floor, but I have to keep running to the back to collect myself. 

My coworker, I'll call her Abby, comes and talks to me and says she will ask my boss if I can leave. I keep trying to work, running to the back periodically, and Abby eventually says "boss says you can't leave because she's training and we would be under on hours." Just *knowing* that I'm stuck, caged, at a place I can't leave just freaks me out even more. I lock myself in the bathroom and I keep trying to calm down but its not working. 

About 30 minutes later, Abby messages me and says "boss says you can leave." I collect myself, and I try to get back to work, but im still having to run to the back every 10 minutes or so. This entire time, in a small little store where only FOUR people work, my boss has ignored me. Hasn't said a word to me. Walked past me crying multiple times. 

By this time, I've been at work for around 4 or 5 hours and I can't take it anymore. My boss won't talk to me, she keeps walking away when I try to get her attention, so I decide to just leave. I clock out (by now Abby has left), tell the woman my boss is training that im leaving, and I leave. 

40 minutes later, my boss messages me asking if I'm coming back. I tell her that Abby said I could leave. She freaks out on me in text and gets mad. I ask her if I should come back and she just says "no." I'm still freaking out at this point, but by now I'm over at my best friends house and he's helping calm me down. I was halfway out the door and to my car when my boss first messaged me and he was like "you don't need to go back whatever she says," but I didn't want to lose my job. Whatever, the day passes, my panic and hysteria subside, and im able to calm down enough to play some cards with my friend. He does a really good job cheering me up and keeping me calm. 

The next day I go into work, I work with my boss, and she completely ignores me her entire shift. Doesn't say a word to me. I've calmed down mostly by now, I can feel that my meds are back in my system, but by now I'm seething. Shes acting cold towards me, won't talk to me when I try to get her attention, and goes out of her way even to avoid communicating with me. 

Honestly, im at a loss what to do. She is working at a different store this week, but she has still yet to talk to me about what happened. She called me Tuesday to get some paperwork and she was very pleasant, like she didn't just ignore me while I was having a breakdown, but im kind of just astounded. I can't believe that my *boss* would act so childish. I can't really report her, the district manager would tell her and she would immediately know it was me and should would go back to being rude and cold to me. I know she wants me to quit, and honestly, im half inclined to do so. 

TLDR: had a breakdown at work, boss ignored me, I left work, boss subsequently ignored me for a few days, and now she's acting like nothing happened.