the past few days have not been the best psychosis-wise. i’m usually able to miss my seroquel by a few hours and have no problem, but the second it left my system i was put into a nightmare loop of hearing screaming and banging and seeing eyes and bugs on the walls. ive been visiting my girlfriend for the week and now have an awful, awful feeling (delusional, i must remind myself) that i will not see her again after this and that she will be dead before she can open her presents from me. she is in great health and is a safe person, but god this feeling of being right in a horrific situation has begun to start lingering again. i’m mostly here to vent cuz a lot of the stuff i’ve gotten from this community are skills that can be implemented now, i guess i just felt like bcuz i’ve been feeling better and not dealing with this delusion of my girlfriend dying anymore that it was gone for good, and that’s an awfully shitty thing to realize.