  
Two of my friends cancelled on me last minute this weekend, so I blocked all of them on all social media, deactivated my Facebook and Instagram, shut off my phone and now I'm booking a one-way ticket to Berlin.  
So fucking sick of never being anyone's first choice. Sick of my "friends", sick of everyone around me. I hate all of my friends, I hate everyone, I want to start over. I'm in so much pain right now it's almost physical, I hate myself and I hate everyone else, no one fucking cares about me.