Or maybe I already lost it. I’ve been back and forth 100 times today and it’s only 1pm. I want to run away, hurt myself, cut contact with everyone in my life. I want to stay in bed and never leave, sleep this all away. My thoughts make no sense and they don’t feel like they’re coming from me. I’m worried I’m losing my grip on reality, I’m in a deep dark hole and I don’t see any way out.