My partner of 6 years just sent me a “final goodbye” message. We’ve been sort of broken up/breaking up the last year. But I’ve had hope. And I’ve been trying. And we just got closer again. But I’m not better enough yet. And she just sent me a final goodbye message. 

And all I have playing on my head in repeat is that I want to die now. I feel like I want to bleed in front of her and break myself to show I love her but I know that’s fucked up and I’m not coping. 


What do I do?