I've been in a stable relationship for 3 years. He's my rock and has helped me become more stable overall, become more personally accountable for my actions, and has helped start me down the path of acceptance towards the negative parts of myself. It's never been easy, but he challenges me and this relationship is probably the most rewarding relationship I've ever been in. 

I've been able to recognize that the more severe symptoms of my BPD cycle in and out. I will have weeks where I am relatively fine, and other moments where I feel like I'm in a death spiral. Throughout all of it, I never feel 100% comfortable with myself and nothing in my life ever truly feels solid and permanent.

I'm constantly feeling like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop, for my BF to leave me, for things to suddenly plummet into the abyss. On my good days, it's easier to ignore, but it's still present. And on the bad days, it's all I can think about. I have more good days than bad, but I'm tired of the persistent feeling that my world is going to drop out from underneath of me.

Maybe this is more anxiety related than BPD related, but I'm just wondering if anyone has any tips to help stop feeling this way?