okay this is a constant feeling that i have. when hanging out with my family and friends or really anyone i always feel they actually don’t like me. i feel their resentment and annoyance with me, wishing i was someone else, anything they say is insincere. maybe they could be with me out of obligation, boredom, convenience, etc. i even feel this way with my parents, although they love me, deep down they do not like me. i am a burden, this constant feeling would be a burden. if i were to say this to anyone they would immediately be obligated to reassure me, proving that this feeling and myself have just added to the annoyances and inconveniences in that persons life. i feel this way with most people. i feel that i am mostly alone, and no one would prefer to take the time to get to know me, although they would try to appear so to me. i feel like this, like everyone’s efforts are constantly forced and and they have no pull towards me. is this real? how could i possibly tell if, like i said, i pushed someone then they will feel the need to reassure me? will i ever get to know?