I'm currently avoiding the urge to end my life, but the thoughts and desires are becoming overwhelming. I don't think my meds are working, any advice on what meds I should look into? I've been on prozac,zoloft, remeron. Currently taking zoloft and remeron,  they arnt doing anything. I still get the urge to kill myself daily, thoughts of hurting myself still randomly pop in my head. I just can't get happy, there is no joy for me. I've tried running (to get runners high), art stuff, puzzles, TV shows and even forcing myself to go to places for no reason other than walking around.  I just can't get joy to last for more than a few minutes.  

I just don't know what to do. I can't tell my psychiatrist that I want to kms, I don't have insurance coverage for the phyc ward. 

I got my wisdom teeth out 2 weeks-ish ago, got Tylenol3s, those helped so much. Made me feel so good. Any chance I could get those from my psychiatrist?