like why the fuck am i doing this bitch's assignments, presentations, finals and attending her classes instead of her while she's out with her gf ffs 

HER GF IS EVEN MY CLOSE FRIEND HOW DID IT END UP LIKE THIS IDK I WAS DISSOCIATING THE WHOLE TIME  

ughh and thats not the worst thing ever i always explode and end up making her feel like she's the most horrible person ever i make her feel extremely guilty for dumb shit i really fucking hate me for this she deserves a better friend. 

i tried to cut her off so i won't hurt her anymore but oh well that went to shit


this is so difficult haha its been 4 years and we're graduating next semester but i'll he graduating for two lmao


man i love her so much i could fucking melt and die