I am two days diagnosed with BPD after 15 years diagnosed and trying to manage a BD misdiagnosis.

My question is: Have you had to cut family off because of the way they treat you and your instability?

Three of my four siblings and I have cut each other off. Also my sister-in-law. My abusive narcissistic husband has stonewalled me and when we do hear from him he just blows up as expected so I'm coming to grips that it's over between us.

Today, actually maybe 1.5 hours ago I had to cut my narcissistic mother off too. She was uninterested in my new diagnosis. Went to Cracker Barrel instead of watching the video series on BD I sent and asked her to watch.

When she called I asked her if she watched them, she said she watched two (there are at least 9 videos in total). I asked which ones. She didn't remember. I asked if she remembered what they were about. She didn't. So I had to look them up to see which ones they were. She did watch the one about what causes it.

I asked what she thought. "I guess it's our fault." Gaslit!

I stayed calm but firm the entire time. My dad was even surprised at how well I did. Honestly I kinda was too.

So I'm talking to her and she randomly says, as she does every time I talk to her about my emotions: "There's an owl outside the window."

I calmly said "Mom, I don't care about the owl outside right now."

"Well, Milk_N_Wookies, you've been talking for 15 minutes. Well 17 minutes."

I'm like: "I've been waiting to have this conversation with you because I know your brother just died recently but I need to have this conversation with you."

She starts blaming me for something and I just told her I'm done and blocked her from contacting me. Then I went back and told her not to share the videos with my siblings or talk about me with them. I said she has never changed and never will and will not be beneficial to me progressing, and I cut her back off.

At this point I refuse to allow anyone who is not supportive or helpful in my recovery to have access to my emotions or to information about what's going on in my life. I am being selfish right now and protecting myself because I'm determined to not let this trauma ruin the rest of my life. 41 years is 41 too many. I'm so done.