How do you get over a favorite person? It's almost like a addiction but mine now hates me and is drained my wallet. I thought she loved me yet suddenly it all became about money. She guilt trips me because I hurt her when I was drinking. I tried to kill her boyfriend because I thought he was being abusive. I freaked the hell out and tired to slit his throat. I cut her. She won't even see me but wants more money after I gave her 250 the weekend of the ordeal. I pushed away my family. I loved her so much but she gave me panic attacks, made me feel like shit. I'm worried I'll go right back to being her dog. 