So today I had a mental breakdown and fell  into a depressive state because a boy I met on tinder started ignoring me the reason why it was so difficult was because his boy adored the very ground that I walked on and he made me feel like I was the most important person in the world I’m pretty sure he love bombed me although I only knew him for a short period of time I kept trying to tell myself that everything he was saying was bullshit and I shouldn’t believe any of it but eventually his words got to me he started to text me less and less and he claimed it because he was busy and  other things and even towards the end of our time together he told me he still wanted to see me I’m very careful about meeting people over the Internet and I told him if we talk three more times I would go on a date with him in public he said it was a deal and I waited six days and he never called me I tried my absolute best to keep my composure and to not fall into a spiraled state like I always do I didn’t want him to have that type of power over me but the more I thought about it the more depressed I became my friend told me if I wanted to talk to him so bad that I should just text him and see what happened I texted him and he never responded I was left on delivered for a day and longer it was driving me crazy i could see every time he was active on Snapchat and I could see the longer I was on delivered for he even changed his profile picture on tinder while I was on delivered for an entire day and I couldn’t figure out what I had done so wrong to him for him to ignore me I kept telling myself he didn’t owe me anything but it just hurts so bad I went ahead and unadded him and unfollowed him off of everything and removed him off of my tinder it was difficult because I don’t know what I even expected of him but I was just so sad that he left me I cried all day and I felt worthless and even had depressive and suicidal thoughts over somebody I had only been talking to for a couple of weeks as things like this that make me feel like I’m so weak