I’m only 20 years old but i’m already pretty ready to give up on life. I have no dreams or aspirations, no motivation or drive to do anything with myself, and i don’t care about myself enough to take care of my health or try and do things that will enrich my life. All i do is work go home smoke play video games and repeat i’ll occasionally go out with friends or do other things but it seems like this is pretty much all life has to offer for someone like me who is just staying alive so that other people won’t be sad barely scraping by just working the rest of my life. I would kill myself right now if nobody were to be affected by my death but since people in my life love and care about me and want me to continue living this miserable fucking life i’ll never be able to actually be happy. I just want to die so i don’t have to worry about making a life for myself or raising a family or going to work every fucking day i can just give up and not have to deal with any of it but because of these selfish cunts who pretend to care about me i have to keep living under the promise that it’ll get better when it clearly hasn’t and never will