This text, as stated  in the caption is about anxiety and emetophobia. Please dont read if you find these a sensitve or triggering topics.

The last five months have been a constant anxiety journey. in the first month it had started to evolve. It began small, nausea in the morning, before important events, when having to go out to stressful meetings etc . Regardless it was managable. In month 2 I noticed that it became more sever. It was becomming more frequent and the nausea was gnawing at me every single morning. A few weeks later it all became a little better though after taking medication and learning breathing techniques to calm down and I was able to live more stressless again for 3 weeks. Well up until I heared someone vomi. It completely threw me of. Suddenly I was anxiouse again to go to these events  but much more sever. The more I thought about it, the more things i couldnt do. What would happen if I was in public and felt nauseas, what if I couldnt get away in time? At this time I cant even go to the car wash because I feel trapped inside and I keep telling myself its about to happen, its about to happen and you cant get out, do you feel that, is starting. Truely even when describing it right now I cant really understand why its such a big deal, why I cant just get through it? but then the moment Im there Im constantly trying to refrain from a panick attack. 

Ive looked it up on google several times. I tried emetophobia pages, anxiety ones anything that seemed slightly relevant but nothing. My fear is holding me back from so many things and I just dont know what to do. 

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The reason Im writing this is one, to actually get my situation into words but also possibly find someone who is dealing with a smiliar condition. I cant find any other pages that relate so if even 1 other persen feels  a little more understood than that would be a win in my eyes. 

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So yeah this is my fear, going out feeling trapped and not being able to get out and then having the fear to thro up constaly reminding me that it could happen at any time.

Whatever you are currently dealing with I wish you all the best and hope you overcome this.