I used to be so passionate and motivated in life, but in less than a year, I turned into a depressed, hollow, abandoned and apathetic shell. I don't know what I want in life, the few friends I had left ghosted me, I lost interest in my hobbies, and I lie awake at night thinking of how much of a fucking mess I turned out to be. 

I'm scared. I'm worried that this is all that's waiting for me. I might never find another friend, I might never feel passionate about anything, I might never love someone the same way again. 

I thought I was getting better, but the thoughts keep coming back stronger each time. Scrolling Reddit is my only distraction from this reality, but I don't know how much more of this I can take.