Just going to set the record straight, I am not diagnosed with anything by any specialist doctor or psychiatrist, just wanted to know if this is normal, I apologize if this is not the right thread. But is it normal to feel fine during the day, then randomly in the middle of the night, I feel restless, then I started to fantasize about someone I find attractive, then I started going down a rabbit hole of thoughts, that made me feel extremely depressed and suicidal. I’ve been getting randomly depressed, and life has been weird. Recently tonight, I felt a weird phase of emotions. Within the hour I felt I guess “horny” then I felt depressed and suicidal and very lonely. Almost pathetic, because I am this way, then fine again. I try to not think about it,  but this doesn’t feel normal, to feel fine one minute then not and fine again. Like I’ve become used to feeling sad that it just goes away and sometimes comes back again. I don’t know if I am making any sense. Probably not.