My FP/partner left to go visit his family in Canada for a few days. And I immediately went into a spiral. I promised him I would stay safe until he got home (we live together) but I’m now realizing that I SH in other ways besides c*tting
-sitting in the dark
-turning down the thermostat bc I don’t deserve heat
-triggering myself to the point of tears because I deserve it
-eating meat (I have Crohn’s disease)
-spending money 
-restricting/binging food 

I didn’t realize I did these or that it was bad. 
Does anyone else do this kind of thing?