Recently, I have been in the best spirits I've been in a for while because I'm finally learning how to cook and take care of myself. The slightly strange thing is that people I've have been interacting with in public have been pretty cold toward me lately. I sometimes get cold stares and I've started to hate certain "types of people" Out of anger and hatred I concluded that it was a case of "stupid suburbia syndrome" (nothing to do with race or sexuality) Its also strange that I'm not as hurt by this experience because my confidence is going up. I feel like change is coming.