My only two friends just completely abandoned me and cut all contact with me. We all work together and I was not doing well at all and I said I was suicidal to them. They just told our bosses about it and didn’t come to work for three days. I had to stay away for two days after a welfare check because those at work who know what happened and my family were upset. This was two weeks ago now and I thought if I gave my friends time they would talk to me again but they are still shutting me out. I’ve tried to apologize and talk to them but they won’t respond. It’s really starting to mess with me now and I’m basically freaking out now. Anyone know what to do in this situation? I’m trying not to do anything irrational or confront them and make a scene but damn it hurts so much being abandoned by the two people who I need most right now. It’s also kind of complicated because I’m a guy and they are both women so it would look bad for me to react poorly. Before you ask we are platonic friends and they are both married to other guys so any romantic feelings I have toward them don’t matter. At this point I don’t know what to do about this. I thought that it would be okay in the end but I am really not okay with this. This is my worst fears coming true. I opened up to them and they left me like they told me they never would. I just feel so alone and scared of what’s going on and I really need some direction right now. On top of everything it was me admitting I was suicidal that caused all this and it wasn’t a lie or an exaggeration I truly am in a very bad place and I’m afraid that when I do try to move on then there will not be anything else stopping me from ending it all. The time I need a friend more than ever I’m completely alone like I was my whole life before I met these two. I may not have been completely coherent in this post but does any have any advise?