Anxiety at its peak I just wanna curl up cry and not ever ever move again. Anyway got a gas safety check I only realised was today because I've lost track of dates and I dunno i just wasn't mentally prepped for it. Guy knocks on door and I answer just planning on waving him in and then letting him do his work. He takes one look at me and then asks if I'm ill etc and I just assure him I'm tired and then he asks me to clear my sink (I now wanna die from embarrassment haven't got round to doing the washing up I keep forgetting about it) and then he says he also needs my cooker clearing (which I'll admit I didn't clean from last night either) and he starts telling me it needs cleaning because otherwise it can be flamable and i didn't even try to make an excuse it's just as it is and the only responses I could think of were fatalistic he also says my rings on the hob aren't placed properly (I knew that already they get knocked super easily) so I started to clean it while he was doing other stuff. He told me to try the gas hob but because I'd just cleaned that one it was too wet to ignite. He wandered off outside and then I dried the ring and started trying to reignite it. Anyway he comes back tells me I can't do that as he's checking something else and it'll affect it. I just abandon the cooker come in here and try not to cry my eyes out. He comes back and I'm pretty sure he was checking I wasn't doing anything stupid because he asked me to çome and do whatever that I know full well didn't need doing as part of the job. I told him I knew he probably thought the house was a mess went to make an excuse and I couldn't...I just told him he was right on it. Anyway he asked my name and last name (which is also NOT required for the check) and he left shortly afterwards. Queue my tears lol. Anyway I'll be lucky if he doesn't alert someone to me and now I'm stuck trying to clean an impossible house in case anyone turns up. I don't know why I'm bothering but whatever.