I know the symptoms of BPD, the (semi-well) researched causes of BPD and it’s effects on the brain. I’ve done some pretty intense research, as I’m sure a lot of people with the diagnosis have. It’s odd how you can be fully aware of how your intense thoughts and feelings developed and why they did, but still not be able to put an end to them. 

I will become depressed, and am fully aware that it is a mood swing and that my hyper-negative thoughts are intensely dramatized and that they could end within minutes. It doesn’t lessen the sense of hopelessness, even a bit. 

I will become manic, and be fully aware that it is a mood swing and my anger and paranoia are brought on by from irrational thoughts and that they will end shortly. It doesn’t lessen the intensity of the energy, even a bit.