It's a daily struggle. Every time I see a homeless person (especially who appears to experience servere mental illness) my brain automatically goes "That's gonna be you." 

I constantly fear that my mental health is gonna just plummet and my life as I know it will soon be over. I'll lose everyone, I'll lose everything, I'll lose all sanity and sense of reality. The fact that I'm jobless and have incredibly low self esteem isn't helping me get away from these thoughts either.