I keep getting this feeling like i wanna break up with my boyfriend so i can have those new relationship feelings again. I got high with some friends on nye and we bonded and got really close and now i feel myself looking at her in a completely different way. 

I don’t want to leave my boyfriend for her but at the same time i miss the feelings of having new relationships and falling in love. I feel like i’m insatiable because i know i’d feel the same eventually if i got with someone else. I’m never happy with what i have and constantly seeking out the attention and emotional highs.