About 5 years ago I was at my worst. Mentally I was the definition of bpd train wreck, physically I was down to 90lbs and felt like death, but on the outside I looked fine. Long story short, I was in and out of hospitals, jumping from one job to another, wracking up debt, and then I hit a wall. I shut off and ignored it all for a few months of sever depression. Went to therapy, got on meds, got a stable job, stable relationship, and I've had a really healthy and happy 2 years. 

Today I was hit with a court date for a credit card company I neglected. I'm just starting school over again and that's stressful enough. I'm also just starting a new(better job) next week. I have debt, more bills than I can possibly pay, I will not even be able to keep up paycheck to paycheck. I'm also cut from my parents health insurance next month as I'll be 26. 

I was feeling so great for so long, I was proud that I was excited and motivated to try school again. Now I feel myself crawling back into my hole and I can't let myself go there. I need to handle this. How do I stay positive while dealing with the irresponsible things I did in the past?