Hello everyone. 



I hope you are enjoying Xmas! This is my first time posting here and I would love some advices.



Following an unplanned, ectopic pregnancy I have developed Illness Anxiety Disorder. It was a very traumatic experience: moved to a new country without knowing the language, was told for several years that conceiving would be difficult due to POCS and BAM. It just happened.. very dramatic experience. 



Back to my illness disorder: it's different issues from time to time. The latest is my moles. I have several of them on my body (who does not?) and for some reason I am convinced that something is wrong.. Before the surgery I did not really care about them, never really look at them closely, I was just very chill and never thought about them twice. I have small moles, bigger ones (the bigger is about the size of my pinky finger's nail), some are light brown, others darker - no weird colors just darker brown -, some are round, others have funky shapes. Moles. I have been watching them closely for about 7 months now and I know for a fact that none of them has changed since that time (yay). 



A few months ago I tried to make an appointment to see a dermatologist but I was a wreck and just could not go. A few days ago I decided to just go and have a full body screening so I can move on but since then my anxiety is at its worst :( I have always a voice in my head "what if???" and it's very hard for me to control it! 



Now the questions: I have my appointment on January 10th.. any advice on how to manage my anxiety until then ?? I have some over-the-counter herbal pills, chamomile tea. 



Thanks for reading
With Love.