I’m sick of it, I’ve been coping relatively well but I find that I’m overthinking social situations again, I’m feeling embarrassed over the smallest things again, i’m getting self deprecating again and always seeking reassurance so I’m not bringing down the vibe (but then I feel like I killed the vibe by asking- you know how it is)
I was really hoping I broke out of that routine, I’d been doing so well and getting help but I feel like I’m just taking 50 steps back and I’m just disappointed in myself and want to shut everyone out again so I can’t possibly say or do anything to set off my anxiety.