Out of a sudden today, I suddenly had the fear that I could be capable of hurting my parents or my boyfriend when he visits on Monday.
I already cancelled his visit twice because I was so anxious about him visiting (we are nevermets and in an LDR)
So then we booked everything new and now all of a sudden my brain has this intrusive thoughts about stabbing my parents or my boyfriend?
I talked to my parents and my boyfriend about that and they all say it’s just a new thing my brain makes up to cancel on him again.
I already had intrusive thoughts a few years ago but not that bad.
I‘m scared I’m going to fall asleep wake up in the middle of the night being a complete different person and act on it?
I could never ever hurt somebody I’m also not thinking about that I want to do it I am just scared that a switch will turn in my brain and then I’m able to do that. I am already seeing in my mind news articles about me.
Like wtf is wrong with me??? 
I am genuinely scared.
My Dad has cancer and he told a neighbor today that he is still here and in my mind I was like not if I k*ll everybody.
Please help me???
Do I have psychosis? My friends, boyfriend and family are all telling me that it’s nothing to worry about and it’s just my brain again trying to sabotage things.
Idk what to do…
I also thought of him maybe hurting me but then my thoughts were overpowered by me being able to do something like that…