It feels like the whole world is closing in and you don’t know why… until you realize… it’s you.  Your brain is doing this to itself. Your holding your phone too tight. Unclench! How did we get back here again?
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Long post ahead….. 
Blurb/vent
Today I met a man and his dog, ‘Leia’. I did not intend on it. I even slowed my steps to attempt to avoid passing them on my morning walk. I reached for my phone to google how to interact (a reflex i stifled). Looking down I neglected to notice they had paused. I saw right away his pup was a ‘jumper’ I saw no poop I pet “Leia”. As I pass he speaks, I speak, they speak again. Names and pleasantries etc 
I walk way and literally feel my entire being seething and clenching I want to cry. I’m just glad I think I’m able for spurts to appear ‘normal’. Still here I am on alert, and this dog walker seems to be meeting someone who arrived in the neighborhood by vehicle. Meanwhile I’m breaking into a sweat and contemplating the whereabouts of my medications. When you have anxiety how do you tell if your being wary or just going through the motions of the disorder?