I don't know what to do anymore, I've been obsessed with wanting to be a completely different person for fucking months and months. Whenever I envy someone I immediately try to pick up their characterizations and style, and feel depressed as hell because I don't know who I am, but I absolutely loathe myself and don't want to be any version of myself. I literally fantasize about living in the same place, having the same job and problems of the people I envy/admire. It's people I know in person and people I don't know. I spend hours researching people. It's driving me insane and it makes me feel empty knowing I'm stuck being...me.

Also sorry about the title, I must be exhausted..