Im 19. I made a vow to myself that I would do so to see if I might get better with time, but since nothing has changed and they have just become worse, I am unsure of how to proceed. Later evening, I'll hang myself. I've spoken about it verbally, in writing, with my family, in therapy, and in other settings. From what I could see, no one has actually made an effort to assist and doesn't care; instead, they are all blaming or ignoring. Pure and simple worn out I can't make myself look at myself and feel helpful because I'm so alone and simply exist as a living being for my own sake. My loneliness is overwhelming me and has no end. I believe there is nothing in this world that is suitable for Maybe it's not true, but it doesn't seem like I have anything planned for the future but an unhappy, lonely life right now. This time, I genuinely don't want to live; it would be better for me to pass away. 

I periodically observe everyone living their lives and being happy. I hate who I am and don't want to ever live again. Thank you to whoever reads this and leaves a remark for being a part of my life. I've had enough of being completely alone. When I do get the chance to speak to someone, I rarely manage to utter entire words.  Nor even trying to talk to a female. 

stuttering. the event I do try to talk to someone I’munsure of what to say, and anxious. When I have anything on my mind, I find it difficult to express it. Who on earth would have the patience to listen to me out? How on earth could I possibly talk to someone and keep a conversation going? I find it difficult to talk to them. I'm not worth anyone's attention, either.