I feel as if when you have gotten to a point of poor mental health and negative spaces, instead of getting better it is more common to grow comfortable with that idea. I have felt ever since i have accepted that fact i have become more at peace with my view on the world and myself, although it doesn’t make me happy it has given me an opportunity to not be anxious but live how i want. for a little while now i have thought, i can live however i want and if i fuck up then i can always kill myself. now that i have adapted to this mindset i have no gotten any happier or healthier but instead began to force myself into good habits. I feel most people try to hard to fight the depression head on when instead once u have accepted it you will find it easier to get on with your daily life