I’m in tears writing this. I’m the proud father of two boys, my newest being born on the 26th! As happy as I am I have spiraled down an impossible rollercoaster of scenarios that lead to my children being seriously negatively impacted.

My newest son was born with jaundice (extremely common and treatable) I didn’t eat for 2 days and obsessed over him developing brain damage from the treatment not working (it did)

My other son is less than 2 and I’ve obsessed over milestones to the point where if anything is off I assume he has developmental delays that can’t be treated with therapy. (I.e he jumps during playtime is because he has autism) 

My brain will not let me enjoy the most beautiful things in my life. My wife is very helpful and patient but I fear she can only hold on for so long. 

My obsessing and negative thinking has to have a serious impact on my family. 

Help me please :(