I've noticed this has been consistent for as long as I can remember, but I always feel things 100%, like I'm either super happy, energetic, etc. Or I'm super depressed, wanna die etc., sometimes I just feel absolutely nothing and I have no idea why. I don't understand why everything is so extreme, I can't just be in the middle. I also feel like I can't commit to relationships or even pursue them, I'll start liking someone and not be able to talk to them, and if they start showing interest I'll almost start feel resentment? Like angry even though I'm not really angry at them. ( I think this might be because of my PTSD ) For example, my first and only relationship I was in, I wanted to be with him but I also couldn't stand being around him. I've also noticed that I often get these weird random twinges of dread followed by a surreal feeling, like everything's too real, or off somehow. I've been diagnosed with Depression in the past, anxiety, and PTSD.