 

I’ve always struggled to make friends who actually take the initiative invite me out and who like me for who I am, but I finally reconnected with an old ‘friend’ from high school and made actual friends with him and his girlfriend. It is such a foreign and bizarre feeling to have these two people actually hit me up to see if I want to hang out and do something that sometimes I doubt if I actually deserve them in my life. They don’t ask anything of me and they don’t mind my quirks. 

Not only is this a huge milestone in my life, but to add on top of that milestone, I reluctantly brought my girlfriend to hang out with us. I have never ever introduced any of my previous girlfriends meet my friends, mainly because I never had a stable enough friendship with anyone to actually want to bring my partner around them. On top of this, I’ve also have always had such crippling anxiety of introducing my partner to my ‘circle of friends’ mainly because they’re all so different from what I’m like and I’ve always felt they’d judge me for who I hung out with because of how rough around the edges they are. 

I’m honestly so glad that I decided not to bail on dinner plans because we both had such a amazing time with said friends. There were barely any awkward silences, and just sitting back taking everything that was happening around me and watching us all have a great time was such a beautiful feeling that made me appreciate all the self-improvement I’ve been working on for the past 8 months.