 Hi, i already asked this question here once but i deleted it because of some reasons of security. Now i want to take some more detailed answers because i feel that this situation is going worse and worse everyday.

Im 17 years old. 2 years ago, during the first years of high school (in the american term) i felt myself quiet depressed. Because i was so lonely and almost all my friends around me had girlfriends. I decided to do something about it and with my teenage IQ of -300 i made the worst mistake of my life. I've met a subculture on internet that called "Pickup Artistry".

After a year of reading documents and PDFs about this PUA nonsense, i was completely brainwashed and fell into this deep hole.

I started what they call "Daygame" for finding a partner. I approached around 70 t0 75 girls in the center of my city. I got rejected by each one of them, unfortunately it ruined my life. I gained as a reputation in my city (200,000 population). Now, in the school people are making fun of me and they are afraid to talk with me. I can't walk on the streets because people are always staring at me and they constantly whispering each other while looking at me.

It passed already a year and it goes worse and worse. Im planning to move another city after school but the country im living is so small and it's common to travel among cities. So i afraid i can see a person from my city again and they can spread rumors about me on my new adress.

I never intended to harm or disturb anybody, i was just ignorant and did all these shameful things because of my stupid desire. Now i accepted to live single until i'll die. But at least i want peace in my life, i want to live without this bad reputation.

If these things will follow me when i move to another city. I will commit suicide because it doesn't seem possible to move to another country.

What would you suggest to me? Should i commit suicide now or at least wait until i'll move somewhere? What should i do if this reputation follows me? Please help me, i want to die.