Since I have realized I have BPD or at least C-PTSD (I am on the inward spectrum), I keep trying to notice my patterns and correct them but in the end I end up in a constant self-doubt and question myself all the time.

I took the strategy that I shouldn't care what people think about me and (except few close ones) but then I end up oversharing and start worrying if I haven't gone overboard (I used to be a person that bottled their feelings and lived in a constant word of what other people would think about me). I also learned to be maybe too honest and then I worry I might have hurt then.

What I am saying is while I don't necessarily care about other people's opinion anymore I still don't want to come out as a cruel because hurting other people makes me feel bad.