Are y’all ever extremely mean and say super hurtful and awful things when youre betrayed or hurt or triggered? Im slowly learning how to not do that but its hard and then once Im lucid I feel SO awful and cant cope with what I did and said after. Its horrible and like I have no control :( ive lost and hurt so many people ive loved and idk how to cope. Im healing and lucid a bit more these days but idk how to cope with what being so sick did to me and made me act like… I was SO sick and had no control for so long and lost everything. I keep telling myself I literally couldnt of done things differently or been better which is true but idk how to live with anything