18m here and life has been hard recently, i know thats what everyone says but its whatever, me and my girlfriend of nearly 2 years broke up 3 weeks ago and ever since it feels like everything i do is just a coverup to make myself not think about her, i have been going to sleep at 7am or later since i cant sleep unless im so tired that i cant even think about anything when i close my eyes, i have terrible anxiety and terrible overthinking habits paired with horrendous daily cannabis use for the last year which i doubt is helping at all, i think abt everything and anything to do with my ex and other things such as the fact im now in debt as of today, but its whatever its only 2 grand lmfao. i have cut myself multiple times within the last couple weeks and im embarrassed to go out to the kitchen without a hoodie on or something covering my arm because i know how concerned my mum will be if she ever noticed, i have been having suicidal thoughts tonight (which i would never act upon) and thats when i decided giving the reddit thing another try, i have got no one to tells these things to and i have reached out to different subreddits like this one in the past but nothing seemed to do anything so if anyone is reading this please reach-out and talk to me, i would really appreciate having some sort of communication with someone else. thank you.