The last three years have been absolute hell. I have been battling addiction, anxiety, OCD, depression. I failed university and struggled to get back on track, I have gone through various mitigating circumstances claims. I have been a bad person to my friends and family, mood swings and angry and isolating myself from everyone else.

I think that I am coming to a better place mentally now, am just so full of regret and so embarrassed about the person I have been. The worst part is that I only realise it when looking back. In the moments that was my norm and I knew no better, I mean, I knew I was an asshole but i would blame it on others and have justifications that warranted it all in my head. But I can't help but see now that most of it was all just delusion. I feel so dumb, not in a self pitying way but in a why the fuck was I like that kinda way...