I’ve recently entered a new chapter of my life and I’ve been able to do lots of reflecting on my past. Old Snapchat memories and my own  memories show me how I used to be and to be quite honest its really cringe worthy and painful to think I used to be like that. It’s painful because the past few years was when I was meeting a lot of new people and I used to be pretty nasty back then. I don’t really talk to those people anymore so it hurts knowing their only impression of me was those times. 

Atop of my behavior I really didn’t take care of my looks either. I know, superficial but still.

It seems like I’ve only just now become conscious of my appearance/behavior and realizing I’m a real person in peoples lives. 

Anyways it’s just giving me a lot of anxiety knowing I can’t change the past i guess all I can do is move forward and do better.