I’ve had traumatic relationships w men. Since I was 15 and I’m 18 now. Ive moved on. But the other night I had sex with this guy. He ended up being really creepy and I had to stop him a couple times bc of how uncomfortable I was. Yet he persisted. Kept grabbing me and kissing me. I was only being nice bc he was going to uber me home. He didn’t even end up doing that. He literally used me for sex.
And it’s a shitty feeling. It left me feeling powerless, it reminded me of being 15 and raped. It reminded me of my own passivity. It’s really shitty. And I hate that it’s not something I can fully express. I wanna scream and cry at every man who’s put someone in this position. Bc it’s not something I can forget. 