yesterday me and my girlfriend were riding in the car together and we got in a little dispute. she was acting a little weird and quiet so i got scared and took that as she hates me and doesn’t wanna be with me, i know thats not true but its so hard to convince myself in the moment. anyways i made a little joke and she got kinda offended by it (it was a joke abt her not paying me back some money, i dont actually rlly care) but she got upset and i kind of lost it with my anger and i yelled at her and told her to calm the fuck down and stop being so annoying. that really hurt her and she started crying. it hurt so much to see her cry. i hate knowing that i was the reason she cried so hard and i hurt her that bad. im so sick of feeling so angry and its so hard to control. we sorted it out in the matter of like 20 mins but i still feel literally so horrible. i cant stop thinking about how hurt she was and how it was all my fault. i feel like i dont deserve her. i dont know hows shes put up with me for over a year. ive never ever made her upset like this and it just hurts so fucking much. i hate myself for this