Always have been. Thought I was a victim for a long time. Sometimes I am due to BPD, a victim. But mostly, I can’t make the smart, rational and sound decisions. I can’t control it like I thought. I’ve isolate myself from my friends and family. I can’t be trusted. What now?

I’ve done theraphy and drugs, meh. Just keeps getting worse. Almost 40 at this point. Might as well embrace it. 

I am the villain.