Like the title says, I get fixated on a problem and become anxious from said problem and said fixation. This time however, has to do with manga. 

Yes I know it sounds silly but I’m really having a panic attack over this. I have been reading manga for 6 years now and I was fine up until last year. I had to give up reading fanfiction for reasons I’m not going to dwell into because that’s another long story. I couldn’t eat, sleep, or do anything for 2-ish because I gave up fanfiction. I only “got over it” because school started, which distracted me.

However that experience kind of gave me ptsd. I developed anxiety and ocd because of it and it reflected on other aspects of my life, including my hobbies and friends and family. 

Now back to manga. I would read a little over the school year but I tended to ignore it because I didn’t want a repeat of what happened with fanfiction. It’s currently summer break and I have been putting off reading until a few days ago. I just finished a manga and for some reason, I had a panic attack over it. I guess I felt sad it ended because I was really into the story and I loved the main characters. But then, I started getting all these thoughts. 
I.E: “what if I can’t stop reading”, “what if I became overly anxious again”, “what if I can never read manga again because of anxiety”, etc etc. I also became really anxious when I thought about the male lead. He’s exactly my type and is very good looking. I started having thoughts like “what if I fall in love with him”, “what if I’m already in love with him”, “what if I can’t stop thinking about him”. Thinking about him kind of makes my heart ache, I don’t know why. I don’t want to get attached to characters like this but I also don’t want to stop reading manga.

I just don’t know what to do. Anxiety is taking over so many parts of my life. Like I said before, I had been reading manga for a long time now because this anxiety only started after my fanfiction fiasco.