I know this sounds weird... But I think I have a PTSD form of "video game" anxiety. I won't give full context, but someone I cared for treated me like shit in some video games and ever since I've just.. Never been able to game the same? Sounds so odd but it's the best way I can put it.

I've come a long way since it sparked, but I know I can't play certain MMOs without having massive anxiety attacks. The ones I can think of are Call of Duty Warzone, Apex, and R6. I can't even play certain games, like Valorant, because even if I'm surrounded by friends my anxiety will shoot through the roof. 

Usually I have a hysterical crying fit with a bit of trouble breathing, and it usually takes hours to recover from one attack. It's easily sparked if someone in-game manages to verbally abuse me enough to break through my mental barrier, but it also sparks if I just don't do well. 

Am I the only one who has this? Or am I the odd one out?