I told my friend that I have BPD and drinking alcoholic worsens my symptoms. He has personally seen me drown in a state of depression and mania while drinking bc of BPD. Another example was NYE when I lost control while being hammered and tried to fight someone(a close friend of mine who gave me shots earlier in the night). I told my friend about this and said that only happens around “strangers”. I mention all of this because despite all of the pain drinking has caused me my friend says I should still do it. He says that he just wants me to have fun but I don’t really know what to do anymore. I really messed up big on NYE and he still is insisting that I drink.