I'm sure tons of people are in the same boat as me but man I am repulsed by any physical affection and especially sex. I haven't had sex with my boyfriend in over 4 months and trying to remember the last time I was sober while it happened....probably 2021. I don't even know if I want a fix. I'm disgusten and scared and repulsed but I feel like I'm missing out on so much of my life. Just kinda a vent. Idk.