I will never be the same I took drugs into my brain. I said I'd never do that. These are medications the doctor gave me to try but I should have been cautious. I think dying is scary, it's becoming nothingness. It's sad and a waste. But living like this is a waste. Dying is horrible. I wish there was life after death but there isn't. It's nothingness. This is why you look after brain and don't mess it up with drugs so you are still the same person you always were. No one will care after death of course but what a horrible waste of life. Life is such a beautiful thing. I never got the chance to really live it. I wish I could. But there are lots of people who die young. Where do they go? Are they nothing?