I’m not saying that I do bad things, I’m just saying that I don’t see many redeeming qualities about myself.

Normally, things are alright. I don’t really think much of myself, and I even sometimes think I’m a good person. Other times, such as today, reality dawns on me and tells me everything wrong about who I am.

I just feel that there isn’t much worthwhile about me as a person. Sure, I get decent grades, I got accepted into college, and can be friendly when talking to people, but none of that matters. I practically never talk to anyone, so being friendly doesn’t do much. I practically never think before I act, and never really look at my surroundings either. Being decent at math doesn’t matter if I never stop to think “hey, maybe I should turn off that light that was CLEARLY left on by mistake.” I notice that I’m quite lazy too. When school was still going, I would constantly put off schoolwork and just do my own thing instead. My grades were still decent, but they would have been so much better had I actually taken time to work on projects in class. I’ve waited way too long to be able to get a job and work on getting my drivers license, going for months without doing anything about it (despite constantly being reminded of it). I make plenty of dumb mistakes that typical people rarely ever make, and it just makes me feel completely worthless since they’re mistakes that I wouldn’t be making if I weren’t a less-than-average person. Every time I think of myself as overworked or mistreated, I notice how much my dad works, which basically tells me that things are much worse for him and that I have it easy.

Overall, I just feel like a useless, annoying person to be around. I would sometimes even say that I’m undeserving of love an affection. I know y’all are going to tell me that I’m overreacting, and there there are still positive things about me, and that’s fine. This is who I am, and how I truly see myself. 

TL/DR: A summary of the overwhelming negative aspects of who I am.