Hi everyone,

I was diagnosed with BPD in my early twenties, I have been to treatment twice specifically for this. 

I am now 31 years old living in a sober living. My parents financially support me, I do not have many close friends, and I spend a lot of my time in isolation or day dreaming about drinking or drugs to escape my reality.

I have very low-functioning BPD, meaning it is extremely difficult for me to successfully hold a job (longest run was a couple of months before I burnt out). Now I have body aches and pains that are daily.

I am not trying to sound like a victim or like I don’t try. I try every single day. I cry often and have had multiple suicide attempts.

If anyone else relates, do you have any hope left? What keeps you going? Anything would help and I appreciate each and every one of you fighting the good fight.