I think that there is a weird thing going on. It is bad. People are weird. They dont like me. The weird thing is that I cannot tell all the time and then I realize later. I cant maintain friendships. But my intuition always tells me when it's going sideways. I think that people then want to leave me because they realize that I might leave them. They want to win. It's happened to me a lot. People just leave me. They think it's ok. Sometimes they come back and then get evasive when I start bringing up how they hurt me.

People think I'm intimidating too. I dont understand why. Like people dont seem to like talking to me. For example they seem uncomfortable. People think I'm upset with them a lot. They will ask me if I am. They also think I'm weird. Friends have told me I'm too much for them to handle. They dont want to deal with me. They just always leave me when I'm feeling my worst.