I used to not be like this. I used to never care about anything. Now I’m always worried I’m gonna die. It started with swollen lymph nodes on the back of my neck and getting folliculitis all over my body. Then I got ringworm somehow and it spread to other parts of my body. At first I was terrified of lymphoma. Than it because leukemia. It’s not lymphoma because my lymph nodes were benign on an ultrasound and it isn’t leukemia because my blood work has been normal for the past few bloodworks I’ve had done. I don’t know why but I still worry even though I have proof I’m ok. I have Crohn’s disease so that could be what is causing my skin problems. I’m sick of feeling this way. I’m 18. I had a long talk with my parents and told them about my suicidal thoughts and they finally made me a doctors appointment to get me on antidepressants/anxiety meds. I always feel out of it and in pain in some way. I’m just sick of it all.