My last post here was regarding how I had a "real meltdown" this weekend. I'm still resting from it and trying to collect my thoughts and feelings about it, but it got me thinking about some things.

I seem to have two different kinds of anxiety. One is the kind I'm battling on a day-to-day basis. It's the kind where I can say to myself "Wow, I have such anxiety at the moment. I feel very bad and upset, and I'm really struggling". I note this kind of anxiety down on my weekly DBT cards to my therapist(s) and I bring it up in both individual and group sessions. It's a common theme. When I talk about these instances, I can usually trace back to the trigger fairly easily. It's very "Well I had a stressful day and I hadn't eaten properly and was sleep deprived so I guess that's what caused it".

*However*, then there's this other kind of anxiety, the kind I experienced this weekend. When this type of anxiety occurs, it's like an out-of-body experience. I completely lose my sense of self and sanity. My perception of reality gets super twisted and I basically feel like I am not in the real world. When this happens, I can't focus or control my feelings/actions. It's a very intense and uncontrolable sort of fear that sets in.

So my question, as the title suggests, is if anybody else has experienced this kind of distinction? Because the thing is for me, that when I have this more "low key anxiety", I feel like "Yes, this is truly what anxiety feels like". But when the other type then happens(which is very rare in comparison), I'm like "No, *this* is 'real' anxiety! The other type is just regular feelings!".

So I was wondering if anybody else has felt like that? Like when you're hit with that "other" anxiety, you're like "Bah, *now* I remember what *real* anxiety is!". And also, if anybody has been able to realise the trigger behind that kind of "super anxiety", as opposed to realising the triggers behind more "everyday anxiety"?