I remember before on free days from work I would take medications to make me drowsy, smoke as much weed as I could and try my best to just sleep all day, to silence the destructive thought patterns, a very depressive routine. I now wake up and get things done, I don't always want to go out but I have made my home a sanctuary and not a depressive zone. I've made an arts and craft corner, i've found mindful podcasts, I blast happy uplifting songs through the walls and I don't waste my days anymore, I will always get out of bed - even on the days I'm wishing I was dead.

Keep busy and keep progressing.