I spent years of my life in my last relationship unstable and miserable and going through episode after episode. I separated from my ex and have been single for a year, which has been the most stable I’ve been in my life. Very very few episodes, very little noticiable day-to-day symptoms. It’s been fantastic 

I got involved with a coworker, nothing even close to official, and I feel like I’m dying. We went on only four dates and hooked up twice and it feels like my whole body is caving in on itself because I need to break things off with her. I just don’t think I’m ever meant to date or be with someone. I will never be able to have a normal relationship with a person like everyone else does. 

I’m just tired of this disease in my brain ugh. The only blessing is that I’m pretty happy on my own without a fp