First of all, just to clarify I am not depressed, nor am I suicidal.

I just feel like I am constantly waiting and it's agonising. I wake up, and if it's 6-7am, I feel excited because I know I have a some-what reasonable excuse to go to bed at 7pm. Sometimes I take my meds and some sleepers at 4pm anyway.

I spend all day exhausted and wanting to do things but with absolutely zero drive. I want to learn German, but the audio book bores me after 2 minutes, the app bores me after 2 minutes. I like to write, but on paper my hands are aching and tired straight away, and typing I feel like it's all too serious.

Maybe this is more of a rant than a 'seeking support' post, but honestly, I'm stuck. I just feel like this life is going to be a long one and I'm already bored. 

Sorry if this has brought anyone down,