Hey everyone,
Before i begin, i do not want to attack anyone personally and i rly appreciate if you guys dont attack me for how i feel abt this situation. thanks.


My friend is diagnosed with bpd and i read alot abt the illness since my doc has been suspecting me having it too. So im not completely new to the topic and ik fairly enough.
Ever since i moved with her in our own apartment everything has been going downhill though.

It started first with her constantly talking abt mental illness to my new friends that we didnt know. She shared not only her entire life and problems but mine too ( which i didn't appreciate at all and i told her that). When a small inconvenience happens she talks about suicide or cancels all plans. 
On top of that she struggles with an eating disorder. I tried to help her and be sensitive but she is very very triggering.

Not to mention how often she talks abt the struggles i have with my weight with other ppl. 
I cant tell her to stop, whenever i try to just sit down and tell her that my personal life is not hers to tell, she gets insane. and i mean literally insane, she gets defensive and sad, completely distances herself and gets very backhanded. 

I am a person that is very private with my mental struggles and i do not like to share it. I just cannot understand how she tells complete strangers that she wants to kill herself. i dont see the point in that. (to me its very cringe and seeking for attention but i dont interfere when she talks abt herself bcs its none of my business)

Yesterday is where i draw the line. She drank some vodka and took 6 pain meds. We both knew that thats not a lethal dose. But she acted up and me being completely lost called the ambulance. They brought her to the mental hospital l, obviously nothing happened there bcs she didnt take a lethal dose but they keep her there bcs they want to assure that she doesnt do it again.

Now my thought is, why did she take that? She KNOWS how to kill herself (not that i want her to ofc i would be devastated) but the point is that there were other meds but she just took the pain meds bcs she knew she wouldnt die. 

So basically she put me in a stressful situation and went completely nuts for what? For me and her bf to feel bad? There is literally no way she would have died and the only reason i find for this action is attention seeking yet again.

Im not trying to discredit her mental illness, but i am not a professional i dont know how i can longer deal with this and i cannot move out bcs of my contract. I cant live with someone so unstable bcs i have my own struggles, im not stable myself and im just so desperate bcs i want to distance myself but thats hard given the fact she is my roomate. 

I cant talk to her like a normal adult, bcs she just blocks it off. How can i deal with this any longer?  
I just want to live a normal life and this toxic environment doesnt help at all.