Sorry if this is the wrong flair for my situation, I’m just really confused about this;

I’ve been probably in a really bad spot for just over a year for pretty much no reason. My life is for the most part fine, the financial situation is real bad but I have a mostly supporting family and good friends, I go to university and al that, blah blah blah. I have problems that any other person would have but it is still a normal functioning life that anyone would be able to handle. 

Yet I can’t handle it. Since I started going to university in September of last year, I’ve only been able to bring myself to go to 2 exams, and write up 2 essays, which is not a large fraction at all out of what I should’ve done. I panic like crazy over what I have to do and stress over it yet I still don’t do them, it baffles me 

I talked to a friend about all the other random things going on in my head, I imagine it’s all usual symptoms of this and that, this sub would know all of it so I’m not gonna get into it but you get the idea, she had suffered from depression herself and she suggested for me to get help, yet I don’t believe her

I somehow think that all of this going on in my head is a fake, even though I don’t know why I would be at all. I don’t even know why I’m putting this post up cause nothing that any of you can say can really help me, the mental barrier in my head just blocks everything, I’m honestly dead inside. Still though, I’m in a position where I don’t know what to do with myself or my life at all, and any insight from anyone who had the mental capacity to read this stupid ass rambling post would be appreciated