i’ve been back on the dating apps for a month or so. i’ve been feeling better about myself and honestly been happy with life for once so i felt ok looking for somebody. i’ve only heard back from one person so far, who was my de facto FP for a week but then she said she didn’t see me romantically anymore after we kissed and tried to fuck but i can’t cum for some reason so i ended up crying and she’s been busy so we haven’t talked much. it hurts. i feel like im in my prime right now. im cute. im sweet. im accepting. i do my best to understand. i will make them feel special. everyone tells me so. so how come no one wants me? like im still ok being single because im doing good right now but i WANT hugs. i WANT attention. i WANT to have somebody to be with. it hurts when all these people match with me but then don’t bother to respond back. you clearly liked me enough to match with me but not enough to text back? i KNOW i’m attractive. i KNOW there are people out there for me. i just can’t find them for the life of me. and it’s getting so tiring to keep looking. it’s been tiring all my adult life. but i guess i’ll
keep going…