I was diagnosed like around 8 months ago and I was prescribed with Ativan for my tremors but for a short period of like I guess 2-3 months. I didn’t develop an addiction because I’m much of a “I really don’t want to depend on medication” type of person. I did become peaceful for like 2 months even though I still dissociate a lot but I did not have suicidal ideations or wanting to cut. After the 2 months, I couldn’t see a shrink because of the pandemic and I really went on full BPD mode, I live with family members that gave me trauma and I had to wait for like 5 months until I could start another session with the shrink. I did have suicidal ideations two weeks ago, but I feel I could cope a bit maybe because of talking to friends but I know it’s bound to come back and my tremors are scaring me. I could also feel a seizure that I’m trying to contain. I’m definitely going to ask for ultram for horrible headaches. My sleeping schedule has been getting better from the past weeks. I’m sorry if this is unrelated but I used to have Bell’s Palsy and I think I’m relapsing which makes me so happy I can’t wait to add my prescriptions. I don’t understand why I can’t do dbts well, my shrinks have been asking me to do them but most of the time I’m at the heat of the moment and I just become destructive and cry afterwards. Well I think that’s it. Thanks in advance.

TL;DR Horrible tremors and a potential seizure, need Ativan but is scared of getting addicted. Needs Ultram to bear extreme headaches. Bell’s Palsy might relapse and hard to control. Thought it might be cured but it came back after 8 months returning back to the shrink.