ed mention --

I really and truly cannot stand how shackled I am to my emotions, or lack thereof. I'm either completely numb, to the point where I dissociate  and lose even more days/weeks/months than I normally do thanks to ADD OR I go through the stages of grief in an hour.

Right now is different. I woke up and got hit with angry jealousy, time passed by and now this seed of a negative emotion has erupted and I'm trapped feeling UPSET until 1) I either get a reaction from someone I like that will work on me or 2) get absolutely plastered. Issue is i cant even drink right now without worrying about extra calories i truly hate this

Really wishing I was normal and not like this :)