I'm a 27 years old woman. I'm at the age and state that the world could be mine, if not for anxiety. But because of my mental health I don't have a career (not even a full-time job), I can't enjoy normal everyday things, and most importantly, I can't have a relationship.

I am so hungry for love, but whenever someone shows me affection (touch, hug, kiss, anything), I start to panic, and I just want to escape. And after I had some time alone to calm down, I start yearning for a touch again. Rinse and repeat.

I've tried more than one therapist, but nothing seemed to help so far. I'm constantly trying to go on dates, but it's always a mess. Those poor guys think that they did something wrong when I storm out of a date, even if I'm completely transparent about my condition. And I just feel even worse after, because I don't want to hurt anybody.

I also feel uncomfortable around men I find attractive, even if they don't even show any affection.

I am so lonely and desperate, I want to feel loved, and I want to enjoy things like a hug or a kiss, or sex without feeling like I'm dying. I want to feel safe in a man's arms. 

This may sound entitled, but i think all people should have the right to feel loved, and I feel like I have been robbed of that right.