 i always go and end up not knowing what too say. so today i got drunk and wrote out the things that came to my head. maybe ill right it down or something before next visit

 

Feel like I don’t belong here. Don’t connect with anything around me. People, university even England. I even want to move to LA just in hopes I can feel like I belong or be happy. Maybe because I’m lonely. Maybe If I wasn’t id feel like I belong. But I dont know who id want to be with, I don’t want to be friends with anyone I know or be with any of the girls. The university is a problem. Its not just uni, I can’t imagine myself in any job pr anything. Nothing feels real.