i do online school, their doing fall pictures in my area today and i’ve been dreading it for months - i hate taking pictures, i always without fail look awkward in them - but thought it’d be okay because my mom is taking me and she’d be able to help me ease my nerves about it until the morning of finally rolls around and she got called into work so my dad is taking me instead, love him to death but he is just not going to understand why this is so scary for me. 

ive cried twice already thinking about everything, i don’t have any nice shirts, my hair looks flat and ofc my thin spilt ends aren’t helping, i can’t smile with my teeth so i’ve been trying to practice smiling without showing them and it looks gross

aaaand were supposed to be leaving in an hour, i’m hoping i can convince my mom to just wait until spring pictures but i don’t think thats gonna happen probably gonna have to just suck it up but god i hate this so much ToT
sorry for the ramblings i just don’t have anywhere else to share rn