So I'm new to this sub, and the whole idea of BPD. I took an online quiz recently and was scored as having severe BPD. I'm 32. I have abandonment issues that stem from childhood... It seems when I really like someone the relationship turns out toxic. I get extremely jealous, insecure, and can't stop accusing my partners of cheating or planning to leave me, even if there's no reason for me to think that way. I've hurt alot of people, who I think loved me by pushing them away, then when they leave, I feel like it's all my fault. I tell myself I'll try harder next time, but the same thing keeps happening over and over. I never leave relationships though when it's with someone I really like. How common is BPD in men? Does anyone else feel like they can love someone but can't express it due to fear of abandonment, which ends up resulting in abandonment anyway? I'm to the point to where I think it's best I avoid relationships although I've never pictured going through unmarried without kids.