From preschool it has been obvious to my parents, teachers and myself that there's not quite something right with how my brain works. The way I interacted with people and went about my day and how I was doing in school was always different to most of my peers. I had major problems with worrying about things and by the time I got to primary school I was slipping into some mild depressive episodes. 

Despite my many efforts to try get it sorted over the years I have never been able to pin down exactly what it is and how to treat it. I definitely have bad anxiety and depression but I know it goes deeper then that, all the normal fixes for depression and anxiety while they help never sort the problem out and a week later I'm back where I started. Personally my running theory at the moment is that I have bipolar and ADHD as I connect with a big majority of the signs and symptoms however I'm not a medical professional so I can't say for sure either way.

Now on to the title subject matter, I try to talk about these things with my friends and family and it is very, very difficult to bring up as I feel like they think I'm exaggerating or just trying to find an excuse not to do something. I either get discouraged to not seek a diagnosis and just carry on as normal, of course that will eventually kill me/ destroy my life, or I will send a big long message or link a video or website to help explain what I'm going through and why I think I am going through it and get nothing in response other than perhaps a thumbs up. Which really isn't what I'm looking for when I've just poured my heart out to someone that I'm close to, what I'm looking for is maybe a bit of encouragement and support but mostly them reflecting on my behaviour in the past and giving me helpful examples that I can bring up to the doctor to aid in diagnosis as you don't always recognise these things in yourself. And before you say it, yes I have asked them to specifically do that but I basically just get ignored. They'd rather I shut my mouth and go to work pretend as though I don't have these crazy mood swings which severally affect my well being. 

And these are people I wouldn't expect it from, they are generally nice, kind, understanding people but on this they just seem blind. My mum herself said "I've gone through this for years with your dad I'm not doing the same with you." Which means she'll love and support a man who lied to and cheated on her and essentially took a wrecking ball to her life for over 20 years, but won't with me for not even a year (that's how long I've been back home).

I'm not looking for excuses, I'm not looking for sympathy I'm just trying to sort out a problem that has been 24years in the making so I can go on to have a healthy and productive life where I'm not having to rely on the support of others to get through every day life.

Anyway has anyone else experienced this at all and if so any useful tips?