When I was 17, I attempted to end my life. And technically I was successful. I remember feeling extremely, probably the lowest I had ever been. I felt ignored by everyone. My mom (who committed suicide in front of me) had only been gone for a few years but I was still haunted. Even today I am. Got my heart broken by someone I thought loved me. I was so alone. So on that day after school, I knew this was it. I wasn't afraid. I was the calmest I had ever been. I headed home. Grabbed a beer from the fridge. Grabbed a knife. Went upstairs into the bathroom. Grabbed all of my medication, and downed over 100+ (not really sure but it was alot) pills. Multiple medications. Took the knife and sliced my arms and neck a few times. The overdose kicked in quick. Started losing feeling, felt weak, and fading in and out. I fell to the bathroom floor. I don't remember much after that but I felt a peace that I had never felt. Apparently I called my dad after and said "I'm sorry". He said he knew something was wrong. He came home with my sister, he was picking her up from a babysitter after leaving work. He found me and called an ambulance. My heart rate flat lined in the ambulance. I guess the paramedic beat my chest until I came back. When I got to the hospital it was too late to use charcoal.I was put in a self induced coma due to how extreme it was. I was on a heart monitor, feeding tube, and a breathing tube. Strapped down because of the violent seizures I was having. I was in a coma for awhile. Doctors said it'd be a 50/50 chance I die or survive (possibly in a coma for long time). My family was terrified and hurt broken. Even took pictures with me cause they weren't sure I'd come back. I still remember when I woke up, my grandpa had left doritos by my bed during a visit. Those were the best damn doritos I ever had. I had amnesia and didn't remember a thing at the time. I died and came back. Defied all odds. I'm now a father to 3 beautiful children and I have the best wife ever. Although I still struggle I'm stronger more now than ever before. I'm grateful for my life. I'm grateful for the paramedics and the nurses and the doctors. I'm grateful my dad found me. Otherwise I wouldn't be here. I'm sharing in hopes that I can prove that life gets better and you can do anything you put your mind too. Live your life to the fullest, you never know when it might be over.