I'm in college right now and its fully online since my country still has covid restrictions. I feel depressed right now not because it's online, but because back in senior high I really thought that was it that I was gonna die, but no I didn't, the pills I took didn't work, and I didn't have the courage to stab myself with that knife. Now I have no plan, no I'm stuck in a course I didn't want, and whats funny is that it's a hard course (IT), I hate computers and coding and stuff, but this was my last choice, all the other college applications I fucked up. It was even easy to get into this college and yet they still say it's a prestigious school. I just saw my peers in this class and its a lot of people from different walks of life, but they all do have one thing in common, they're all determined and they all wanted the course. I should have OD'd or bled out, I don't even know what I'll do after college, I just made it harder for myself.