I am finding more &amp; more that whenever I post something neutral or vaguely positive, perhaps  a musing on BPD or how I’ve overcome something, it gets little to no attention. Even negative attention (see my last posts comments 👀)

Posts that seem to get attention are ones that are from “loud” borderlines who are currently in the deep throws; Favourite Person problems, fighting with partners, lashing out, abusing (consciously or not) partners... 

Am I too blunt? Opinionated? *Are borderlines more susceptible to taking things as an attack on them personally?* 

Whenever I post here I’m looking for intelligent discussion but I rarely get it. I think I’m doomed to never be able to get along with other borderlines, and I know I would **not** get along with my 14-19 year old self. I want to take it as a sign I’m doing much better than most people suffering BPD but that just makes me feel anxious that I’m being big-headed, delusional or both. I feel so strongly about lots of things that BPD people seem to think are aggressive attacks on them when it’s simply behaviour I can’t understand. I rarely want to speak my mind anymore, &amp; don’t at all really in public (haven’t been out due to social anxiety in a *long* time). 

Maybe other (turbulent) borderlines just scare me too because I’m scared I could become/be perceived as *that*.