It seems whenever I’m really stressed, sleep deprived, and suicidal I will suddenly switch to a sort of euphoric melancholy. My whole body goes numb, my fingers get cold, and I feel like I’m floating. Nothing seems to matter and I accept my life could end in suicide or it could be amazing and it doesn’t matter either way and I just feel content. I feel almost euphoric for no reason.. but at the same time it’s melancholic because there’s still a layer of sadness behind it.