I was recently diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder, I came to this reddit to find out what I should expect now. Even though i was always this way, the realization has been alot. I feel very guilty about my past, all the friends I've lost , all the relationships I've ruined, all the trouble I've gotten into. I can't control it sometimes. How do i go about this? Will It always be hard to keep friends? Are relationship still logical ? How do I learn to stabilize my mood? How do I even know I'm in a manic ?