I used to have long, serious, exclusive relationships, where I was madly head over heels with the person. But my obsessive tendencies and abandonment issues flared up like crazy every time they left or didn’t respond for a long time so I spent long nights crying or starting fights. It was so, so painful, each and every time. I was broken and dependent.

Then, something inside me clicked. I realized that to combat the loneliness, all I need is to date multiple people. (Just to clarify, none of these relationships are specified to be exclusive ofc, and all parties are aware). They’re all extremely intense and romantic, not just sexual. If one person doesn’t reply or has a bad day, I just talk more to the other three. This also prevents them having to deal with my crazy.


In the long term, it’s probably extremely unhealthy, but it’s the only way for me to prevent an extreme depressive episode or a mental breakdown. I have to take care of me first. Until I figure out how to mitigate my symptoms, I will stick to being a serial dater to keep the loneliness at bay.