I broke up with my ex, about 4 or 5 months ago. We wasn't emotionally connected anymore, and he shows depressive symptom. He said we'll remain friends because he know he is my FP, but I got angry and said no I don't want any form of contact with him. 

But then we still keep in contact with me crying every couple weeks, begging him to answer my call. The break up made me feel emptier than ever, because my life was pretty stagnant (which I hate) except now I don't even have my anymore. Everything just seem worse. 

Somewhere in August, he has becoming more distance  and not wanting to reply to me anymore. Saying he don't think I'll move on if he keep reply me. Which I guess is true, but I miss him more as a friend rather than a lover. He was a big part of my life, and losing that connection just devastated me. 

I have now realize that we really couldn't be in relationship at our current mental state. And I've said that at him, but he never reply. It hurt me. Then I feel guilty, because he clearly has his own struggles. 

I honestly just feel lost. I want to stay friend with my FP/ex but he's too depressed&amp;scared I can't move on.