  I just made account so I don't know how whole reddit thing works. I don't even know how many years I've been living with depression. I've talked about it with friend or two but they can't help, they don't understand. It has gotten worse and I would just like to speak with someone, for someone to understand how much of struggle everything is. I am doing nursing program and I  am scared of working. The worst thing is that I would like to be normal, to be better, to be like others. I don't know if I am doing this right or making sense.