Really depressed. Had a destructive manic episode over the last several months. Spouse finally paid attention to my mental health because of infidelity during the mania (among other delusions). Feeling extreme guilt. Begged him to hospitalize me prior to the manic episode but he refused because of the cost. Depressed to find out in family therapy that he noticed delusional symptoms almost a year before and ignored them. Saw a therapist for several months prior to the manic episode who dismissed me when I asked for a bipolar screening. Other psychiatrists before also dismissed me asking about Bipolar and gave me anti-depressants and stimulants for ADHD which made it all worse. Mom has always ignored me, including telling me to my face that I was lying about a suicide attempt I made in high-school (she literally walked in on it but pretends it didn't happen). Told my friends about the Bipolar diagnosis, one laughed, and one asked if I was sure I was Bipolar and suggested I was being gaslit. (retriggered Mania). 

Feeling like my life has been totally derailed, largely because my pleads for help went ignored for a long time leading up to the diagnosis. Is this a common experience? Feeling dismissed by people you thought you could trust to help you.