I struggle a lot with low effort syndrome ( because of school teachers gaslighting me into thinking that really difficult and skilled things that require a lot of ability/experience should be easy for "someone like me") and learned self helplessness ( from growing up poor, trying to overcome LES, and then failing because i was too poor to get the help I needed) and it makes learning anything new impossible. Its not even fun to learn anything new anymore because I know that I'll just fail completely and not ever want to try at anything ever again, even if the skill I need is completely necessary.

 This issue has been following me my whole life and bow its becoming embarassingly obvious that Im way farther behind than I should be in terms of applicable knowledge and aquired skillset. I still panic whenever I need to perform any math operations with numbers with decimals or equations that need precise, accurate answers, so much so that it causes anxiety attacks on the spot.


And to add on top of that, it REALLY doesnt help that I live, work, and breathe around really judgemental and apathetic people who criticize me about how deficient I am and my weaknessness every time I try to overcome them. This obviously leads to very low self esteem, which is all the more detrimental to the process of trying to learn new skills.

Does anyone have any way for me to atleast overcome my instinct to just give up in the face of opposition when trying to learn something new? I appreciate any responses.