How to accept this is it. I have borderline.. that I have cost myself so many things. That I will never be "normal" and that I can't change the past. I'm really struggling today. I keep obsessing over cutting my wrists. It's all I can think about. I just want to be able to let this go. I think if I can learn to accept this then maybe I can try to overcome this. I just kind of feel like "I'm still here" but I don't want this. I don't want life. Is that silly? It's just so exhausting. Someone said they use "who said that when they're being delusional I tried it. It worked for like a say now I'm just like you said it and it's true. Ugh. I'm so tired.