So I’m a senior in college and my anxiety was absolutely off the charts this past fall. I ended up having my worst semester ever and actually failed a class. Its not that I dont care about school, but I have ADD, OCD, Anxiety, and depression so it gets pretty tough at times. 

The thing is, my parents know I struggle with mental illness, but when it comes to grades, they expect perfection. Now, I’m very fortunate that they pay for my college so I understand their frustration when I dont pass a class, but they dont seem to realize that ignoring me and acting like I’m a failure doesnt help me at all. I’m going into my final semester with a heavy course load and I need to be in a good headspace to turn things around before graduation, but they make it so hard to do that. 

They have never really encouraged me or told me they believe in me, they’ve only ever gotten mad when I dont get As and Bs. I swear I’m a good, caring, and intelligent person, but none of that seems to matter to them if my GPA isnt high. Looking back, this kind of parenting seems to be exactly why I have self-worth issues and why I’m so critical of everything I do. 

Anyways, guess I just wanted to get that off my chest. I’m really hoping for a good semester and I’m doing what I can to get myself in a good headspace (relaxing, started zoloft, etc..), but the pressure and anger coming from my parents make it feel impossible:/