i’m starting to get really exhausted dealing with my anxiety. leaving my house is really hard for me but when i do go out with my friend we usually go to the club. it gives me loads of anxiety but i love the drag queens so i deal with it. lately we’ve been hanging out with our new mutual friend and he’s great. he’s also a drag queen and i’ve been wanting to start drag for so long now but i haven’t ever taken it seriously because of my anxiety. he said he would help me get started with drag. i’m absolutely terrified of the idea of performing and i’m so worried that i won’t be good enough. i’m already comparing myself and i know it’s not good to think like that but i can’t help it. he invited me to see him perform a couple nights ago so i went. even though i was really scared to go without my friend coming with me. but i did it and i had fun but i don’t feel like i was fun. in big social situations i usually just shut down and im quiet and it’s hard for me to make conversation. so i usually just stand there like an idiot. one guy even asked me if i was having fun bc it didn’t seem like i was. i just don’t know how to get over this and just be myself. like what if everyone just thinks im boring and lame. i used to just drink so i would be more outgoing but i don’t like the way i feel the next day so im giving that up. im afraid no one will want to hangout with me anymore and it’s a lot of pressure to have a drag mom who is so good, i have to be that good too. does anyone have any tips on how to be more yourself in scary social situations? is this something i should be telling my drag friend? i didn’t want to put too much on him since the friendship is sort of new.