I'm in a long term loving relationship for fucks sake. And it's going great AND I have no outbursts or anything due to great therapy and meds. Nobody would even suspect I have mental health struggles. But there is someone (successful daddy type) that I just obsessively think about CONSTANTLY in a sexual way, it's started creeping into my actual sex life as well. I feel guilty but not guilty enough to stop fantasizing. I do think it's related to sexual childhood trauma but that's no excuse. I want to act on it so bad and I can't even feel remorse. I don't deserve my loving partner when I would cheat at any opportunity.