My anxiety has been getting worse the closer to the holidays it’s getting. I don’t even celebrate the holidays. My triggers have been increasing to the most innocuous things. Now the doorbell is setting it off, work meetings, phone calls. 
The worst thing right now is that an organization/ friend group sent me a vague message concerning I don’t know what, when I tried to find out what’s going on I was stonewalled or outright ignored by people who I think are friends for 3 days. The ones who deigned to talk to me have told me “you’ll find out Tuesday “. I’ve had a panic attack already and the stupid feeling of impending doom is non stop.