I'm more inclined to having guy friends, but this always happens when I have a girl best friend (for context, I'm a girl). We get so close that every aspect of my person, I compare to her. I don't know if this is just a personal struggle for me or if anyone relates. I hate how I've made her a part of most aspects of my life, just to watch her dominate in all of it. Now all my friends like her more, and god sometimes I want to cut her off. Not because I hate her, but how our friendship is fucking me up. Why is it that even though she's struggling mentally, she just happens to not be toxic to the people around her like I am? Why do I have to be so unlikable. 

I guess when you hate everyone, they tend to reciprocate it.