As we all know, anxiety can impact friendships.  I'm(30f) quiet and keep to myself in a lot of situations, until comfortable, while my fiance (30m) is easy to befriend. Most of my friends are his friends who I've adopted over the six years. There are indicators they like me, of course; we hang out as a couple most weekends and such with one, and the other is really down to earth, even though she lives farther and I don't see her as much. They FaceTime me when drunk and text me during emergencies for advice and get brunch with me like "real galpals" but I just never accept it, or internalize it as real affection...???

It's hard for me to feel like people like me or think about me. I sometimes like if I asked the two I'm considering to be my 'maids, they'll be put off and think it's weird even though I know it's not true. Most people seem to have life-long bffs who they have planned with since childhood. 

I'm so tired of assuming no one would notice if I wasn't here. Help?