I'm 20M, was born autistic and suffer from depression. I have no social skills therefore my social and romantic lives don't exist. It's driving me crazy. I crave a normal life so badly. I think about my miserable future all the time. I'm sure I'll die alone and I absolutely hate it. I feel like I'm in prison, I want to have a healthy social life but I can't due to my mental disorders. I'm a very boring, shy, socially awkward person and people ghost me very quickly. I can't function normally now. I can't study for my exams because I'm constantly thinking about how sad my life is and will be. I gave up my hobbies because I'm constantly scared of being alone forever. Nothing makes me happy now. I'm sick and tired of being autistic for 20 years. I've never been wanted, loved or even liked. I have suicidal thoughts all the time. My life does not make any sense.