I’ve gone through a bad marriage, a divorce, creating a business, moving away from everything I knew even my 9year old son.
To start a new life for myself. I have shared custody of my son and see him every other weekend, so it wasn’t an abandonment thing.
Anyway I have a good job, great girlfriend etc etc…
But I’m numb, since 2009.
I keep having dreams and thoughts of my childhood.
I had an amazing childhood with friends and anything my heart desired we did! 
I’m a 37m.
I just can’t get away from that thought of happiness.
My grandparents, my brother, my parents I can’t see because I’m not vaccinated.
I miss them so much and think back to those times we had.
I wish I could connect with that feeling again.
Hold onto it.
Anything to feel something genuine and sincere…