I unfortunately suffer from depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts. I’ve been suffering from this since the age of 12. I’ve never had any friends throughout my life and whenever I ever talk to people about my feelings, whether it was classmates or coworkers, they would either be supportive at first and then abandon me in the end, or just straight up treat me harshly or ignore me. Other than that, whenever I wanted to make friends, people would tell me to “go away” or “leave me alone.” I feel extremely excluded and isolated. I used to be able to talk to my dad about everything, but he unfortunately died in 2020 due to cancer and kidney failure. Most recently I talked to a co worker about this and he was completely supportive and understanding of me and told me I can talk to him whenever I feel this way, but when I tried to talk today about my feelings and he told me they were uncomfortable and not able to help. This is what got me very upset today and it felt like the last straw. I feel like I’m unimportant in this world and that everyone hates me. I feel like I’m a burden on everyone I come across and everyone’s lives would be better off without me here. I have no place in this world. I absolutely hate living this life. I wish I was loved, cared about, and important.