So here's the deal: I just got into an awesome coding program in St. Louis (which is 2 hours from where I live). I'm going to have to commute once a week, which isn't a super big deal. What is a big deal is that I have fucked up school so much that this is pretty much my last opportunity to establish my career. The program doesn't start until July 12th, but I'm already obsessing over all of the ways in which I am going to ruin this. And it's hard for me to say, "look, you can do this." because historically I just destroy everything in my path, including myself. How do you all manage impulsivity? This seems to be a core issue for me. It doesn't matter how logical a decision can be; it's all based on my feelings and I just do shit. How do you commit to something? Has this gotten better with age for any of you? Any advice?