it’s been close to 10 months since we broke up but met when we were 11 and have known each other for 12 years now dating on and off and she was always the only one i ever felt this deep love for. i’m great at managing my symptoms other than in relationships sometimes and it was definitely mostly me who caused her to want to break up. i sabotaged the relationship and i regret it everyday. everything else now in my life is going exactly how i want it to but i don’t have her so it doesn’t even feel worth it. i don’t feel like i can open up ever again with someone the way i did with her. i’ve thought about her everyday since we met. will this feeling ever go away?