What i want from a romantic relationship is simply not healthy nor attainable.

I want us to be obsessed with each other, to want to spend every minute together. To be willing to do anything for one another. To be willing to die for each other. To not need anybody else. To promise never to leave each other. Basically i want unconditional &amp; obsessive love.

That's always been my idea of love since i was a little kid. My fantasies have always revolved around some stranger swooping in and we disappear together. Us against the world typa thing. I guess because i want someone to "save" me from my life (my life isn't even bad, i mean more from my chronic sense of emptiness &amp; purposelessness).

Anywaysssssss uhhhhhh no matter what i tell myself logically about what a healthy relationship looks like, that is what i think i will always long for so intensely. Idk what to do about it :/