I have never thought of myself as a person who experiences dissociation. I never even knew how it feels like. But now looking back I think that I experienced this way too much and it is so heartbreaking I don't know why, but I did not know that I suffer THIS much. 

Since yesterday, I experienced this very severe level of depression and emptiness. I do not know what happened, but I just knew that I wasn't even 1% capable of socializing, dealing with everyday-life activities (combing my hair, brushing my teeth, getting out of bed..etc" I just felt like I wasn't "in the moment", like I am not in the physical and mental state. I am not existing or living. I even locked myself in my room and my family didn't even see me for a full day. 

Today I went to college, I was supposed to take 2 classes (I only took one) and when I was in the first class I just felt like I was being hold down, my brain couldn't think or function. I felt like everything in me shut down, my thoughts come off way too fast, I couldn't understand what the professor was saying, I couldn't understand what was being taught and etc. eventually, I came to the realization that I am not in the right state, after the first class finished, I went to the University's counselor and I told her everything, she thankfully sent my professor an email telling her that I couldn't come to the class since I am not feeling well. Keep in mind, this fucking phase or whatever I am experiencing makes me not even being able to think, I can't even dress properly. I was gonna go out of the house without no pants smh. Can someone please tell me did they ever experience this, or not. any tips or positive feedback is appreciated. 