i know this probably isn’t that serious, but i’ve uninstalled and reinstalled this app so many times for the exact same reason and none of my friends are here to listen to me ramble on about it so this is all i got.

so someone please tell me this isn’t just me, but whenever you make a post and people are confused about it or even mildly roast it or you, you start panicking and immediately delete it because you get goosebumps and cold sweat and your body feels like a million little pins are stabbing into it, and you dwell on those few comments all day and you keep looking at your inbox over and over because for some reason you cant hide things in your inbox so those comments are just there as a constant reminder of how stupid you are and how no one wants you here and how you can’t even use an app like reddit, probably the most easy app to meet like-minded people and have a quick laugh, right because you overthink everything and crawl yourself into a little hole because you’re scared of words on your phone.

it’s so frustrating and i just can’t get over it despite how little it is and now i’m scared to post on that subreddit again because “oh they’re gonna notice you and they’re gonna laugh at you because of that stupid post you made never post again unless you wanna embarrass yourself” and it’s not even like the post was bad or problematic, people just didn’t get the joke but even a comment like “username checks out” made me break out in a sweat and delete the post and then panic even more when the comments wouldn’t leave my inbox

i hate how much people’s opinions affect me because no matter how little the wave is, my anxiety makes it feel like a tsunami

(sorry for any mistakes)