I’ve lost everyone in my life now and it’s my fault and now I’m just completely alone. I’m miserable every fucking second minute day of my life. I feel this way everyday. I’m completely alone and it hurts. I’m so goddamn miserable that I can’t even stand watching others people’s happiness. When I see people even slightly enjoying themselves, it hurts so much. It makes me want to die. It makes me feel empty. I hate watching other people happy. I fucking hate seeing happy couples. I hate seeing people in love. I hate seeing people loving themselves. I hate seeing other people around me succeeding. I hate seeing people reaching their goals. I hate seeing kids with their whole lives ahead of them. I hate seeing other people living their lives and doing so many things when I don’t even know how or have any desire to live mine whatsoever. I can’t be around anyone anymore because they all just look so happy, or they’re in love, or they’re going somewhere in life. I can’t fucking do anything anymore. Everything hurts. I hate being around people because they constantly remind me of how much I fucking hate being alive and how much I’m not living my life. Anywhere I go, it’s all I can fucking think about. It’s why I like being alone now. I also hate myself for feeling this way towards others. I don’t even know how to talk to others anymore because of how I am now. I don’t even know how I got like this. I don’t even know how to fix it. My head says the only solution is death