i live with my two friends, one moved out last week (end of college year) and the other spends a lot of time at her boyfriends. i find myself alone a lot because they would be the only people i see really (covid and had a major depressive episode from Dec to March and got cut off by almost everyone). every time i’m alone it’s like my brain gets excited to do something rlly destructive like commit. I’ve been attempt free for almost a year now (nearly broke it last month but thank god i called a helpline) and my therapist says i’m getting much better so it doesn’t make much sense. It doesn’t upset me as much anymore cos I usually just watch movies or play video games to distract but once i go to bed my mind is racing with thoughts of it. can anyone help me out here?