I carry a lot of my anxiety in my lower back in the form of becoming tense. One day, my lower back was tense and I didn't even know it. So I turned abruptly while tense and I heard a pop in my back. After that, my lower back hurt. It wasn't that bad a pain, but of course I fixated on it because of my anxiety. My anxiety causes me to worry about my health a lot. My anxious thoughts get to the point where in the end I'm thinking it will get so bad I won't walk. Or that there is something terribly wrong with me physically.

Now, because I've been so nervous and fixated on my lower back I've become even more tense to the point that it hurts. It gets worse at night before I go to sleep. I try to move and then my back is so tense it hurts and cracks. It has progressed to my shoulders and my neck now. 

I have a job in a resturant as part dishwasher, part waiting tables, part bussing tables. This job has been really stressful and I'm afraid I'll lose it due to my anxiety.

This and other things are triggering suicidal thoughts and feelings. (They're just thoughts. I won't kill myself. I don't have a plan.)

I'm really scared. Does anyone else have this problem?