I think it's because I had a pretty good life until I hit around 30.  I didnt lose too many people. A lot of things have gone wrong in the last 6 to 7 years and I just keep getting lower and lower.  I was doing ok for a few months but now I think my cat is going to have to be put down.  I cant handle going through another loss and the worrying that accompanies it.  Sorry if I'm not supposed to post this stuff here but I work midnight's and everyone I can talk to has gone to bed.