I recently lost my fp. They didn’t want to continue being in a relationship with me because they said my emotions and insecurities were too much for them. They never left me tho. They didn’t block me or anything. 

Since then I thought the problem was that I leaned on too much on my fp and that I have to find new friends. Now I have friends I can talk to nicely, but everyone tires me out. I don’t feel I can trust anyone and I simply don’t have the energy to invest in them. 

I feel like I never want to be in a relationship again and like I don’t trust anyone and wish to be alone. The only person whom I really want and could talk any given time is my fp. But I get insecure that they don’t want me and that they’re not really interested in me.