i’ve been diagnosed with general anxiety disorder, used to take lexapro, during the pandemic my clinic closed down and i couldn’t get my medication refilled. Fast Forward after the withdrawals..i thought i was doing fine so never went back to get more. 
However today i had to go to the mall alone and i could feel my anxiety rising i stopped to get cigarettes (i am not a smoker) thinking it would help calm me..it didn’t. 

Anyway, after feeling like everyone was staring or knew i was having an anxiety attack at the mall i left to go home. My bf didn’t know about this and when he asked me to take the dogs out i said i was feeling sick (the anxiety attack drained me and cigs made me feel dizzy)..he thought this was an excuse and called me “lazy” which i take offense to as i often get called this from my family cuz i sleep too much (i honestly have days where i can’t deal with people) after going on and on about me being lazy etc. i snapped and started destroying his property. after we cooled down, we talked and he didn’t know i was struggling this badly after he saw the cigarettes - i guess i want to know if anyone has any advise or has experienced sometime similar…i know i need to go see someone again.