I've been staring at a job application for target for like 5 days now. I want to apply so badly but the phone call they would give me to come in for an interview is making me so nervous I get so frustrated and start crying, then I give up for the day and try again the next. I have no issues with interviews weirdly and I have understandable nerves about the first week on the job, nothing I can't handle though. But the phone call is just ruining my confidence I had when I thought I was ready.

I've been working with a therapist for about 4 months now. I finally feel ready to go back into the real world. Normally I would talk about this with her but she wanted to do practice calls and even the thought of doing that made me cancel appointment this week. I can't tell you why I'm so afraid of the phone but I'm hoping someone has any tips on how to deal with this stupid anxiety quirk. I know one of my fears is not knowing what to say and just falling silent but I feel there's more to this problem of mine.

(I have no trouble talking to a person I'm romantically interested in that I've known for like a day or my mom on the phone. But everyone else, even my dad, I feel so un-damn-comfortable.)

Pleaseee halp lol. I'm a 29 year old with a college degree in honors and I need this very basic stepping stone for a few months so when I start my real career it won't be a huge slap in the face sort of change. :3 And I MUST move out of my parents house already haha.