Let me start this post by saying that I tried posting about this before and was met with comments like "just don't do bad things" and "don't blame bpd, that's a you problem." I take responsibility for my actions and feel terrible about them. I don't need any more help hating myself. That being said, does anybody do this? When I dissociate, I feel like nothing's real so why not just give into my bad impulses and intrusive thoughts, nothing matters anyway. But then when I snap back to reality I'm horrified and have usually ruined some part of my life. I feel like I make the bad decisions purposely because they're bad for me and some part of me wants to ruin my life. How do you keep from dissociating? What are ways that you've found help with fighting impulses? Is this even relatable?