My parents have never been sympathetic at all with my mental health not even when i was at my youngest. When i was 12 my parents screamed at me and grounded me for cutting myself. When ever im crying or show any bit of emotion they will antagonise me saying whats that noise or try to upset me more in a way. Ive told them that i want to kill myself yet it has not changed their behaviour anyway they act like they dont believe me. I feel like i have wasted my teen years being depressed for 6 years and its horrible that my parents havent helped me but i still love them and some how put this past me sometimes yet every morning i wake up crying about this. But i just cant understand how they can act this way to me. When im older i feel like i am going to be more angry about this for maturity reasons but i dont want to live miserably anymore and i cant seem to move past this. Ive told them how i feel about it and they have nothing to say. I have tried the 2 counselling charites but none of them have got back to me and the nhs have told me there’s nothing more they can do. I honnestly dont know what i want to do and it hurts to much to talk to my friends about it and i dont want to put the burden on them. I really need some advice.
Thanks to anyone who helps