Recently I've been seeing a psychiatrist they have mentioned I show signs / suffer from bipolar disorder, in our first visit they asked me about meds. I was on the fence bcuz I wanted to ease into it. Before my next session Ive been tracking my mood, 2 weeks ago I had troubles getting out of bed, the dark thoughts that i try to push just clouded my mind, i lost energy to do anything. I've also been catching myself from making impulsive buys, I know at some point I'm going to wake up and feel like I'm on top of the world. Make pipedream plans, get really energetic and happy while I burn through my cash and ignore my personal live and responsibility.