Hi. I’ve chosen to remain anonymous because honestly I’m still struggling with multiple Ed symptoms (mainly binge purge cycles and alcohol abuse which have been going on pretty much ever since school). I was always an overweight teenager growing up. I shared a high school with Eugenia cooney. I knew she was ill herself because other than the obvious physical symptoms (she fainted multiple times in class) she used to berate and lecture people about weight loss tips. Which brings me to the darker side of her personality which the uwu kawaii facade she puts on social media doesn’t cover…

She was infamous in school for giving unsolicited comments about people’s appearance. She has claimed about being bullied in school and, though I cannot corroborate this, and never ever saw her get bullied as she was what you would call a popular kid back then when social hierarchies were rampant in schools (they might still be idek)… I can’t deny that she may have gotten bullied either, as I didn’t spend every day and every lesson with her. But in context, she was popular, and widely accepted; actually, she did much of the bullying, mainly through backhand comments and body shaming 

One day, one of her close friends brought a set of scales into school. I was that typical chubby loner trying to fit in and mistakenly I did weight myself. Eugenia looked me straight in the face when she saw the number, and told me that she would rather be dead than be that weight. That comment destroyed me. Many others also hurt, such as the unsolicited tips she gave during lunch about cutting food into tiny pieces, and chewing over fifty times per mouthful, and that oh so cringe quote that “nothing tastes as good as skinny feels”. 

She even encouraged people to chew and spit to lose weight. Looking back this repulses me but at the time it was just accepted, even welcomed, because she was the cool thin kid everyone wanted to be like, and her weight loss tips were treated like gospel. 

Yes, Eugenia was one of those kids. She knew what was wrong with her, and she still does. The innocent naivety she shows in regards to her weight, illness, and problematic misuse of her platform, I can only guess must just be all an act, because she was always very self aware and conscious of what she did. even now, I often see her like and share tweets on her main Twitter from enablers and proudly pro Ana accounts. Perhaps people just don’t want to believe that an individual could be that sick and corrupt. 

I’m posting this now because she’s recently been trying to play victim to distract everyone from the predatory behaviour and pro anorexia fetishes she allows on both her discord, social media, and stream chats. I think it’s so fricking unfair that she is able to manipulate other mentally ill followers and Ed sufferers to the extent where they are making videos demanding people to apologise to Eugenia cooney

Because where the hell is the apology that she owes me. And everyone else she bullied, triggered, and mocked. 

Everyone is so quick to say be kind, but she has never been kind. She has always taken advantage of people, and exploited her followers, fans and platform to the detriment of others. Even when people have expressed that she has had a significant impact on beginning their Ed’s and body dysmorphia, she has never taken accountability, and JA always claimed victim hood. This sickens me, because I know what she really is like. 

It angers me so much that people treat her like a child who doesn’t know any better, when she is a grown woman nearing the age of 30, who has allowed and tolerated paedophilia, fetishes, and grooming on her discord and has actively triggered fans. And yes she knows what she’s doing. I’m done with people conveniently forgetting this and believing her attempts to play victim. She’s not a blameless child. She knows what she is doing. She’s always known. And I feel helpless because people are rallying around someone that literally traumatised me and so many others.

I’ve even tried to reach out to her before, explaining who I am and asking her why she said what she said to me. She never replied, but has blocked me on Twitter, Instagram, and YouTube. And may I add I never used any malicious or accusatory language. I only ever just wanted an explanation as to why she was so comfortable scarring me and shaming me, yet cannot take any criticism herself. It doesn’t seem fair. It really doesn’t seem fair to me. 

I have only ever been what you would call a “lurker” on her streams and media space, as I’d never know where to even begin if i were to confront her. But I decided I had to begin somewhere. And this is my somewhere. My truth. My trauma, that was inflicted on me by Eugenia cooney. 

She demands people apologise to her for the bullying, which I don’t even condone may I add… but what about all the people she body shamed, triggered, and bullied during her life? Because I know I wasn’t the only one. If anyone from our school is watching, please reach out to me. Because o feel so lonely right now even though I shouldn’t. Because she did this to a lot of people.

Don’t be fooled by the victim act. Eugenia cooney is a bully herself. And she is proudly pro Ana. She knows what she is doing. Please stay safe from the dangerous and triggering space which is any of her social media