The last year I've been feeling anxiety more than usual and I also have started to feel ashamed at certain events or meetings. I can start to blush In the middle of a conversation for no fucking reason. What is this? And why have I started feeling like this? It's really annoying and it's making my life extremely difficult. 

I was offered a job recently and I refused because I was afraid of constantly blushing in front of customers. Like c'mon who the fuck refuses a job in the middle of a crisis? 

This is not me, something is happening and I dont know what. It's summer here and nice weather but I dont want to go out, or I WANT but I CANT because I get butterflies in my stomach at the thought of going out. It's the same feeling when you anticipate danger. Im fully aware theres no danger outside but my body just wont comply with my thoughts.

I need help