When I was young, my anxiety had been so terrible, that when I would tell my mother my stomach hurt I wasn’t sure how to explain it. I wasn’t sure what anxiety was and I sure didn’t know how to explain that compared to thinking I needed to go to the bathroom. Only to not need to use the restroom once I was there. 

I realized it was anxiety a few years ago when I started having flashbacks of being abused and when my S/O at the time would arouse me, it would affect my emotions terribly. Make me flinch and also have sometimes zero emotions like no interest. Was it because I now was fighting the urges of wanting intercourse/ but fighting the anxiety of my now remembered abuse from my past? 

It was a family member who I know is and has been in jail since 2007, for a terrible terrible crime: but not for molestation. I wonder if sometimes it even happened because why now do I remember? 

I’m in therapy and I am about to start deep psychosis therapy : I hope to find answers. 

I’m also here to ask if anyone also has experienced this stomach issue after realizing abuse or trauma ? How has it affected you?