Attempted to end it twice and I only regret not following through its strange i have the whole 3 time luck thing wich doesn't scare me just make me look forward to it im constantly planning the way I'm going to go out percentages of success rates setting multiple step involved 
I've done so much therapy over the years been hospitalised 6 time within 1 and half years and the only benfit I've gotten out of therapy is picking up were im fucked up my faults my distortions meds also don't work tried so many diffrent ones i also had tms done did fuck all  my question is what next do i rush my plans or continue fighting but for how much longer I can go on is the biggest question

Shit if I could be put in a coma for some years I'd love that and hopefully come out with no memories 

Back story 

Physical abused 
Mentally abused 
Sexually abused 
And whole load of other shit life's fun isn't it 

Vent done