My bf came back to my life in 2019 after he broke up with me in 2018. Two days ago he broke it off. 

I wish “getting help” for this disorder is a lot easier but I didn’t even try to get help. I just focus myself on being paranoid about every little thing he did. 

Look back on our texts I was clearly clearly verbally abusive towards him. Almost everyday and always switching to loving him to hating him within mins. 

I hope I find the right therapist soon. I really do not want to be this person in a relationship.