Um I need help I don't know what to do I've been smoking weed all day but I'm not high anymore and I was watching a YouTube video about living in a simulation which made this all get really bad. I already experience dissociation on a regular basis but now I genuinely do not feel like myself or my life is real. I can feel the separation between my brain and body. I can feel the separation of myself and my thoughts. I can feel my soul inside of me and I can feel the difference. I probably sound crazy but I feel it so strongly and I don't know what to do. I also think I have something called visual snow syndrome but right now it's worse than usual and when I look at anything, all that I can see is grain. I feel like I'm living inside of a staticky TV. I feel no connection to anything. I've always lacked a connection with human beings as a whole and now I lack one with my own self. I feel like I could do anything and that it just wouldn't matter. I feel so free but so trapped at the same time. My life has consequences but they wouldn't be real if I could just figure out how to break out. I've already lived this same life thousands of times it's just repeating. 


How can I make things feel real and how can I really truly believe that I'm real? How can I believe that anything convincing me that things are real isn't just trying to brainwash me?