Title basically says it all. About a month ago, I entered a new romantic relationship, and it's been going really well even though we can't see each other because of social distancing (we were close friends and clearly romantically interested in another for a while before we started dating). And with the beginning of the relationship, all of my symptoms have either faded or disappeared. It's been a full month since I last cut, which is the longest I've gone without cutting in about two year (normally I'd SH about 3-4 times a week), the intrusive thoughts have gone down, and my suicidal ideation is nonexistent (meanwhile, my last attempt was at the end of February). For the first time in a while, I just feel ... fine. The temptation to all this stuff isn't even really there anymore.

It makes me feel like it's all done for good. Like after four years of cutting and six years of depression and two pretty crazy hypomanic episodes, it's all just over. I feel like I've grown to the point where I have a much more stable idea of my own identity. I recognize my flaws, but I don't *hate* myself for them, whereas previously they made me feel like I didn't deserve to exist.

It feels really good, even if deep down I know it isn't real. In my last relationship, all of this stuff also happened for the first six months, before it came back even worse than before.

Anyone else have symptoms just disappear like this for long periods of time? Idk, some part of me makes me hope that maybe if I just marry this girl, my symptoms will be gone forever.