I used to be this amazing mom who had all the energy in the world. 
Now I have trouble cleaning, the damn fruit fly army in my apartment had a commander for gods sake.
I have no energy to even get ready or wash my hair anymore. 
I miss me. 
I miss being a good mom. 
I used to cook at home gourmet meals, make sure all the laundry was done, make sure the fridge and pantry was organized. Weekly disinfect my kiddos toys. Then I left my ex and now I struggle to even brush my teeth. 
It’s not fair for my daughter.
She’s out with my ex on a dinner / ice cream date and when she’s with me it’s stuck in the apartment with mom who can’t even get up for work. 

I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel so fucking numb.