my boyfriend started an argument with me and then he just stops responding to me mid argument which is sending me over the edge even more. i’m so hurt and i can’t stop crying.  

i want to kill myself. i can’t stop fantasizing about killing myself. he knows how badly this triggers me when he doesn’t respond, and he does it today while arguing. but he always swears that he doesn’t do things maliciously or vindictively, which i knew wasn’t true. he is literally ignoring me right now knowing how badly that hurts. even after he is the one who started things up.