I've always looked up to people who have great quick thinking skills, creativity, and also just great minds in general. I've been regarded as smart by my teachers and such. However, this has led to a fear of me losing those skills, as well as setting far too high standards for myself at times. For example I recently read the Edgar Allan Poe Poem "A Valentine," and at the bottom of it, basically it said that if you take the letter that corresponds with the line number, and repeat that formula to the end, you would learn the name of the woman Poe wrote it for. I tried to do it in my head and I couldn't do that, I did it on paper and I couldn't do that either because I kept forgetting what number I was on. I know these are high standards but the anxiety is still there, not to mention I'm not entirely sure how to train my mind in such ways. I don't like the idea of losing what little intelligence I may have, nor the idea of not being able to improve it. It scares me.