I’ve never been diagnosed with anything, but I feel nervous about a lot of things all the time, almost uncontrollably. I usually am able to get to a point in the day where I’m feeling somewhat okay, but recently something silly has been bothering me, but I really don’t know where else to post this. After finally being able to get myself a ps5, and anxiously fearing it was going to be broken or stolen by FedEx for a few days, I received it and it is so awesome. But I have a huge concern that drives me crazy. I don’t know how much of anyone reading this is a geek like me, but I’m concerned about the fact that the SSD (internal storage) is integrated into the motherboard, unable to be replaced upon failure, and all SSDs have a set amount of Information that they can write before they die, a set lifespan if you will. I’m a super nerd about game preservation, and this bothers me like hell. I probably won’t be able to use this as a “retro” console in, lets say, 10-20 years when the storage dies, due to the fact it will no longer be able to function, which sets me off from playing it at all. It drives me crazy how this piece of game history may just be lost forever. I’ve had it for 4 days and I’ve barely touched it, and seeing it sit there with all the cool stuff to be able to do on it makes me feel depressed. I wish to just play away and not worry or be assured in the future of this hardware. This is a really fucking silly post, but I’ve been thinking nonstop about it and it’s affecting my mood to an unhealthy extent. It’s ridiculous, but I’m pretty ridiculous. My heartbeat just hammers when I turn it on out of fear it will just not ever work again.