Everything seems so burden and tired. I’ve been trying to just look at life as positively as I can but recently been just very tired from everything. A lot of thing that I’m dealing with that I can’t explain to everyone. Psychiatrist appointment feels out of reach at this point with my insurance and everything. Feel like this feeling of fatigue consume 3/4th of my brain. I’ve always missed the old version of me back in middle school where I just shot basketball around or run up a hill if I feel lonely. I should be grateful for what I have but mentally, I feel like I’m just alone out there. Alone not in the idea that I don’t have a support system but the feeling of alone, because inside me I’m alone. Inside me, I feel like I can have all the support in the world but I don’t have that support for myself. I’m just tired of my friends asking “are you okay?”, “you good?”. In this world I’m lost, in my mind I’m lost.