My favorite person cut contact with me almost 5 months ago and I’ve been on a downward spiral ever since. Over the past couple of months I’ve been pushing people away and because more and more reclusive and I pushed away my best friend about a month ago. The only social interaction I get is going to class.

The loneliness kills me but I impose it upon myself because I think I deserve to suffer from whatever this disease is, but I find an odd comfort in knowing I have no one left to hurt. Is/has anyone been in a similar situation? I’ve been considering moving to the other side of the country after graduation and changing my number and erase all my social media so that I can start over and finally be truly alone.