I went out to the bars with my brother in law. Haven’t been out in…fuck idk how long. I had a really good night and I met a few random people. It completely changed my day…it was incredible how nice and easy it was to talk and relate to these people. I even got their numbers! I’m laying in bed crying because my depression has really got me in a bad place mentally. I know when I wake up I’m going to feel different and I don’t want that to happen. I just want to be free from this :( I didn’t have any insecurities about my body, or girls, or any conversations. I didn’t remember my relationship trauma or even think about how much of a NEET I currently am. I had FUN. I have no idea what direction I’m going in life but I want to get this off my chest because I’ve been feeling horrible lately and all I can do is lay in bed for days. Im just so grateful that I finally felt a shred of happiness tonight and I feel like posting because no one in my personal life even remotely understands where I’m at. I lurk often and read most all posts, hang in everyone I know this bullshit is not easy and I am not here to brag.