I think the mania is coming back. I’ve only experienced one full blown manic episode so far  (recently diagnosed bipolar 1) which ofc turned to depression.. but I’m starting to feel the mania come back. It feels good kinda, after being in such a hopeless sad state for so long, but I’m kinda scared. I honestly rlly fucked my life up last time I was manic. I’m currently trying to get treatment but until then I will remain unmedicated. My question is- how can I stay in control and not let the mania run me? Any tips on keeping myself afloat and not being self destructive ?