there are weeks where I binge, i'm "happy" in a way, +3000 calories, no regrets, but I hide in baggy clothes and stay inside, others where I fall into a great depression  and eating feels like a "chore" I eat almost nothing and drop over 10 pounds in a week. then the times where i'm a full blown bulimic, times where I eat seemingly normal and try to adopt a "fitspo" lifestyle (fails very fast) either way it's completely unstable, but my body image is still the same (that i feel fat and ugly) but my ideal body changes from super skinny to super toned and muscly to curvy etc. anyway life is ass. what's yours like?  