my fp and i broke up today because this disorder is ruining me. he knows about my BPD and God bless him he has dealt w it so well but these past few days he has been fed up and i can see it. i could see him slowly starting to get tired of me, my mood swings, my switches etc. and today he just had enough and took me to my parents house and i have to get all of my stuff from his place tmw. i’m so upset i knew this disorder would ruin this relationship but i didn’t want to believe it. today while we were fighting he tried SO SO SO many times to end it. he said come on let’s go get food let’s go back in the house and i just couldn’t stop. my pride or disorder or wtv wouldn’t let me stop and i kept fighting w him and kept saying i wanted to be done with him when i knew i didn’t idk why i constantly push him away but he was like fine and drove me to my parents. and i know he is fr done this time bc normally when i go back home to my parents house we text and he’s like i’m gonna come back and get you tonight because we have this thing where we can’t sleep w out each other but today he didn’t do that he went out w his friends and said if you want to come back you can wait til tmw when i get out of work and i’ll get you but only if you stop playing childish ass mind games i can’t deal w your mood swings anymore so if you’re gonna continue to act like this then don’t bother. so i said fine and said we can be done bc i don’t wanna promise to be better when ik i probably can’t. i’ve promised it before and look where we are a year and 6 months later still dealing w the bs. so i just let him go. and i am so sad. if there’s any skills or coping mechanisms that you guys use pls lmk i need anything so i won’t ruin a future relationship/friendship.