got diagnosed w bp in 2018 and have gone unmedicated up until last week.  for the past few months i’ve had my worst depressive episode yet. i was in a relationship w a person who was everything i’ve ever wanted but he kinda lost himself trying to save me. i got really shitty and hurt him a lot and caused him to break up with me. the day before it happened i was finally starting to feel better and thought things would be up from there for a bit. found out i was pregnant a few days after the breakup and ended up having a miscarriage a few days later. it’s been one of the hardest weeks of my life and im trying my hardest not to slip back into where i was previously. i really wish i could fix things w him but i don’t think i can. im so tired of the highs and lows and how fast it all switches. every time i feel good i spend the whole time wondering when it’ll all crash again. im so tired of this. i don’t know what to do anymore