im sorry i have nowhere else to post or no one else to say this to but this was a really really bad birthday. i feel very ignored and usless, i feel guilty and angry, i feel ungrateful and embarassed. im going to be self harming later even though i promised i wouldn't. i really dont like feeling alone, especially considering how everyone tries so hard to reach me. i dont want to do any of the tasks i have to do this weekend. when i get home im going to give it 2 weeks and then im going to seriously try to kill myself. i am done with everything.