Its the middle of the night where I am, and I've just woken up to a bad dream. Before that, the whole evening I was having issues with my chest racing and feeling uncomfortable.

Just so sick and tired of it now. I've never had my heart checked out, and wonder if this would calm the anxiety if I did, but my doctor is never going to allow it. Just tell me to go up more on my medication.

I am having counseling as well and trying really hard to do the homework and do everything he tells me. I'm just frustrated with all three physical issues it brings.

Just so fed up with it now after so many years.

Anyway, if you read this, thanks for sticking around. Just needed to vent while I sit here after drinking milk and eating a cookie to try and calm down. Sometimes feel so lonely.