I lost yet another FP and its tiring going through the talking stages and dealing with goodbyes with boyfriends and friends. Everything also seems so cyclical and as my previous posts I really wanted to work on myself but my fps mom saw all of my past episodes in his phone (she restricts him and spies on him) and he was forced to stop talking to me. Sometimes i wish i was normal because why does this happen. I want to give myself a year to enjoy everything and just be happy for once because i know its short lived then i will kms on my birthday. I dont want to feel sad ever again or say goodbyes anymore