Title says it. I frequently wake up feeling pretty good and ready to tackle the day. I feel very mindful in the morning. But without fail, every single day I go to bed absolutely dreading living an additional day like this, let alone thousands more. It’s not always the same thing that switches my mood. I thought for a while that it was maybe because I was on the wrong career path, but upon further reflection I realized it’s always been like this. No matter what job, and even when I was in school before. Plus this even happens on my days off. Even if I manage to make it through a whole day without absolutely spiraling because of perceived rejection from a coworker or friend, or some other trigger, once 10pm hits my thoughts uncontrollably spiral into such a dark space. Almost all of my self harm, suicidal ideation, and dissociation happens at night. What can I do to ease this pain? Do y’all experience this as well?