for a very long time now, one of my only forms of coping has been to post rants on a spam account with not many followers, or on forums like this one. now.. i feel self conscious and embarrassed. i don’t want people to assume that i’m making bpd my “only personality trait” just because i rant about what i go through.. i know many people already do think this about me. especially now with the topic going mainstream on tiktok, i don’t want people to bunch me in with the people who fake or self diagnose themselves. this isn’t something i’d wish my worst enemy to live through, i don’t like being this way, but sometimes just venting out into an open space alleviates the pain. but now i feel judged and i don’t feel safe anymore.