I can't seem to handle the pain probably, I've been taking pills sun up and sun down to sleep. I am an only child with no one. I want to end it all because I thought this person was my everything, until I wasn't their everything ( like always). Sex and everything wasn't going to make them stay. I hate being crazy. I hate me. I don't know how to survive like this, 23 and it seems like I actually can't see a long future for myself.

Please somebody help me