

I’m a 20M. I used to be a weak man. I wanted to have the perfect life and ignored all of the trauma from my past. I had a weak dead alcoholic father and I took on his energy. I made similar mistakes to him while trying to acquire the “perfect life”. Everything blew up in my face and I’m reflecting. I want to play baseball and legitimately see how far I can go. But I have had a decade of low self esteem. I want to be kind to others but after taking so many Ls, I feel that I’m done. How to accept?