Being BPD i destroy every relationship i have, right? I had been seeing this guy for about 5 months, we were never official because i don't want to make any commitment. He's nice and is the only person that's ever held me while i cried. Problem is he's nice and being female naturally go for the douchebags. I gave him a fair chance but find myself being cold, which isn't like me. I ended it because i saw no future and it wouldn't be fair to him. But now i find myself thinking, i have all this spare time now; when was the last time i was depressed? It's been several weeks and i don't know if I've gotten better, he's helped or I've just been too busy to be down. The BPD me wants to take him back..what do you think?