Well it was always like this but in the last 6 months it has overtaken me. I just dissociate all the fucking time and think about my favourite person which happens to be my boyfriend. I just left real life and all the responsibilities that come with it. Currently living in a delusion created in my head repeating those 3 thoughts that I have about us hugging each other (just comforting and validating my emotions through these fantasies about my bf). 
I do not live anymore, am totally passive, brain on autopilot, demotivated, can't start or do anything that has real importance.

Is there a way to break this cycle from hell?