So I'm a 20 year old male undergrad student whos a psych major. I have some childhood trauma, I was always raised to be a "good kid" and I followed all the rules growing up. I never felt like I could truly be myself due to that. 

I noticed around age 11 and 12 that I would get extremely angry for a few seconds, I woukd scream or throw something, then I would be perfectly fine. To this day, I can get REALLY angry and scream when I'm pissed, and it'll be iver something that doesnt really matter. Its like a temper tantrum. Given, my other qualities are quite mature for my age, but my anger can be so overwhelming.

I never had true knowledge and wisdom abiut myself growing up. I didnt have true empathy either. I woukd always assume someone elses opinion was right bevause I knew myself so little, and I realize that now. I didnt back then.

I would hit myself in the head to self harm. I would have unsafe sex, do drugs (smoke weed) and drink alcohol to cope. 

I know how dangerous self diagnosing can be, due to a massive placebo effect that is possible. Given, I'm studying to become a psychodynamic psychotherapist, and ive grown so much since these issues have had a grip over my life. I get angry and I feel like a ton of emotions are hittinf me at once nowadays, but it's been awhike since these kther issues have affected me. I spent this past year just GROWING constantly. It was self therapy where I was the patient and the analyst. 

I dont know if I do or dont have BPD, but I want to know. Should I go to my local psychologist? It would almost be a relief if I had it. Whatre your thoughts? What do you think of the symptoms ive experienced?