Well this issue has just recently arisen in my life and I'd thought I'd ask you guys about it (also this is my first post so there's that). But I have found out that with my BPD follows huge abandonment issues. Let me elaborate.

Last year I dated this boy for a few months, I was hopelessly and deeply in love with this guy, and of course, it came to an end. The reason: his parents didn't like the fact that I had depression and a personality disorder and saw it as a negative influence and took him out of my life. I was heartbroken, truly devastated. I then kept losing friends. They just didn't want to be around me any longer. 

Flash forward to August of last year, the boy comes back saying he loves me and misses me. So we called each other soulmates and I thought I'd get another chance with him.... Well... In November I found out he had been dating someone from July to November, and is still dating him. And I'm sure you can understand I was devastated. Something in me cracked. 

Surprisingly though, we're still friends but that's not the point. I'm at the point where I believe no one cares enough about me, everyone's going to leave, no one truly loves me, I'll never find another love, etc etc. it's gotten so bad to where I start pushing everyone away because I believe they don't care even after they constantly claim they do.

Does anyone else feel this way? Like you just have to push everyone away because you think they're going to leave anyway? I'm trying to fix it... But it's not easy..

