had covid and didnt receive a text or call asking if i was okay. i knew i was bound to blow up at her if i talked to her at all so i decided distancing myself was the best option — unintentionally ghosted her (and subsequently all of my friends) for two weeks, and now shes unfollowed me on every platform. her last message to me was “im so sorry”.  i feel like shit, it is my fault. ive realised probably everything thats gone wrong in our relationship was my fault
i wish i could disappear forever and never existed to save others from the pain i cause them. i dont receive therapy for my condition. can someone guide me on what to do next or how to salvage this i feel like my life is over