So having BPD and being hypersexual and being in a relationship has brought up new issues that are stupid that I obsess over!
So my boyfriend is an artist and he’s super talented and when we first start hanging out he was showing me one sketchbook and there was a naked girls body there he drew
And fast forward to today I randomly thought about that since 10 months ago when I saw it. It made me start to cry and I got super embarrassed bc it feels so silly to be upset over. He drew that over 2 yrs ago and he’s dating ME! Not whoever that was but ME. Like so embarrassed. 
Like I feel the reason I’m so upset is bc my insecurities start coming out. Like my bday was last week and he drew a wonderful photo of me, my dog, him and his dog. we’re all wearing KISS (one of my fav bands makeup) and he’s literally eating me out in the photo. But here I am upset because he drew another girl naked. Like I just want to be his muse I guess? But I feel my body is too ugly for it. Like I don’t feel like I have a sexy body. I’m 5’7ish and weigh 155 pounds and I’m not skinny but I’m not fat either but I feel like my body is so ugly why would he ever want to draw me?


I just want to know if anybody has any tips on dealing with jealously and how to help me get over this situation? I’m tired of being insecure about his past when i literally slept around with more ppl then him. Like I slept with countless ppl even some famous ppl! Like you would think he would be the one crying honestly not me lol