Anyone else feel the need connecting with friends but find they have little time for social engagements any more with kids and spouses taking up most of their time?

I want to push a bit harder making plans, but don't since I feel I'm being too needy.
Feels like I can't win against my own emotions, either I feel abandoned or I feel I'm being too needy and my mind won't let a middle ground exist.

It's a strange thing growing up and then growing apart.

My cynical mind wants to categorize this as people don't give a shit about me even though I know it's not true. I hate this constant battle which is only against my self. Too much or too little, never just right.

I also notice that whenever someone new shows any genuine interest in me I won't commit to reciprocating even platonic friendships which is really fucked up considering my feelings of loneliness.

Shit... that's a depressing read after writing it...