I live in a place where a small forest surrounds us, I love birds and nature so I’d frequently go birdwatching and look at the native plants. It was a place where I felt safe and happy.

I haven’t been there in 2 months because I’m repulsed by it. I tried to take my life 2 months ago in that forest (psychosis convinced me that life was a dream and to wake up I had to kill myself) so now I can hardly even look at it. I want to go back to my safe place, I want to see all the beautiful creatures again. But I can’t, it makes me sick.