A little bit of background: I was diagnosed with depression 4 years ago. I went to therapy (the normal, talking kind), got medication. It got worse, so much worse in 2021 that I had to go to a day clinic for 7 weeks last summer. After that, I stopped the medication because I thought I was better. Thought wrong: in January this year I was feeling extremely bad and almost suicidal (again). In March I started to talk to a therapist via video call once a week.

Last week I had my 17th session with my therapist. And she told me that my depression is gone. I’m feeling not depressed right now and must have felt fine for some time. But I only realised when she said to me: “It seems you’re not depressed anymore. This is good!” I was so perplexed. I never thought I’d get this far. I never thought I’d reach this age at all!

It feels kinda surreal and like a dream, I can’t quite grasp it. It’s weird really. I know - because I always had depression in phases and not constantly - that it can come back any time out of the blue. 

But right now, in this moment, I feel good. I’m happy with most of my life choices and I’m proud at how far I’ve come.

So… hang in there, guys. It might be a hard road to walk but working with your depression towards a better future is worth it. I promise.

All the best to you guys! 🖤