Hey lovely people.


I (F24) think I might have it, haven't been properly diagnosed,  but I have been to therapy for trauma and abandonment issues from childhood. Actually, I know I do have most of the symptoms minus suicidal tendencies/ideations and some other symptoms. 

It's fucking up my romantic relationships and I question everything. I feel the guy (M27) I'm talking to pulling away, because I'm too much. It's just fucking with me. At one point I ghosted him (again, fear of abandonment so I took the initiative... I feel nuts writing this), we started talking again and everything seemed okay... he even says he isn't the best communicator.

LITERALLY ITS JUST WITH ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS, NO OTHER ONES.

Part of me just wants to end it completely with him, because Im so afraid of the rejection and would just rather know now if he's going to leave or not. I hate that he is pulling away and hate how much I think about this. I feel like an unstable nutjob and like I'm smothering him.  I want to stop feeling this way, man.

How did y'all deal with it if it was you or your SO?

Thanks for the understanding and input