i have a daughter and lost my dad and 2 uncles within two years. i never went to therapy after the deaths or even for ppd. i had major health anxiety and would go to the hospital basically every other week. about 3 months ago got this scary feeling that i wouldn’t make it till my birthday. i had moment in between where i thought i wouldn’t make it to other events but i obviously did. these thoughts caused me to get help and i was diagnosed with bipolar 1 and ptsd. but now my birthday is in 12 days and it feels so close but so far because of my anxiety. and i just need to ease my mind- so can anyone relate? i struggle so bad- i know it’s most likely just anxiety but does anyone think this is intuition? everytime i look at my daughter i feel guilt that if anything happened to me she would be without me. please tell me someone has felt this way and survived or could this be “a sign”