I feel immensely guilty whenever  people are nice to me, especially if not asked of them. I feel like a abusive monster who doesn't deserve anything but scorn and punishment I feel like a sinful monster of a "person" I feel so awful I feel like I don't deserve it and I don't want them wasting there time on me please help I feel I deserve everything terrible and I truly don't deserve help of any kind, please help me I'm awful!!