honestly ever since a kid i struggled with coming up with goals and i would just put bogus ones to complete my assignment and since it was school based it was easier to do. but now i look at my future and see blank i don’t even see a future past 5 minutes later i can’t picture anything. sometimes i feel like i need a big ol break from everything to just rationalize. for reference i’m 16 and it seems like most people my age know what they wanna do and what school they wanna go to. it’s almost as if i can’t picture these things or make plans for them because i don’t think i’ll be alive for them. or that i deserve them. i don’t know what it is. everyday it just feels like it isn’t even me. depersonalization sucks and i think that’s probably what i’m going through. i just needed to vent a little