Last month, I’ve been dealing with stress and burnout from work that I finally forced myself to consult a psychotherapist, they said I had symptoms of anxiety and depression.. I told my boss and took a one week break. Now, I still get so nervous at work, I’m always anxious when I get I get emails and chats while working and even more when it’s on personal SNS like Facebook Messenger (I even stopped using it because my other supervisor kept asking for updates via messenger even outside of my working hours)..

Yesterday my boss asked me if I’m willing to render overtime today (Saturday) to support another team in our department, I agreed. I’m currently on a WFH setup btw, so when I logged in this morning around 7am, I didn’t see any e-mail endorsement coming from the other team on what tasks are to be done, the other members were also offline so there’s no one to ask. I then sent an email to my boss saying I’ll cancel my OT today since I can’t do anything anyway, and then I went back to sleep after that. When I woke up at around 10am I received a text from my boss saying that a rejection file will be endorsed at lunchtime, I assumed she wants me to log back in and rework the findings, but I didn’t. Also, my sister’s already using my pc for her school work that time and I didn’t want to disturb her on that… and the power got cut off a few hours later anyway because of heavy rains (power came back in the evening)…then this afternoon around 5pm, my boss sent another text asking what time can she call me, I didn’t reply.. I’m now anxious about it, I don’t want to get in a phonecall with anyone at work, I know I should have explained the situation as soon as possible but I’m so nervous. I really don’t like it when they don’t respect personal time but I’m also afraid they’d think of me as someone who’s not flexible or uncooperative 😭 I don’t want to explain the whole situation sounding like I’m making excuses 😭

I can’t even enjoy weekends anymore because I keep thinking about work, and dreading going to work the next week 🥲