I've realised that a lot of the times I get called into the office at work for a talking to is probably due to one person in my department. She's 20 years older than me and being a mum returning to the workplace struggles to treat younger people with respect. This person calls herself my friend but I would never take petty complaints about a friend to management (I internalize and take things out on myself so I'm not saying I'm healthy 🤣)

Obviously the borderline part of me is feeling incredibly hurt and Im struggling to put this issue away. My history is to cut out people who've wronged me, when the reality is that we'll always encounter people daily who don't treat us how we think people should be treated. I work with this person, and she's also my gym buddy (although she's quite reoccupied with thinking I'm fat and makes constant comments so no harm if I gym solo 🤣)

Its very hard for me to reconcile living alongside people who don't treat me well, especially as I struggle with speaking up for myself and internalize comments