I keep trying to post in all different places just to try and feel not so alone. I’ve had anxiety my whole life and been paranoid about different things like one time I saw someone had a seizure and my grandma told me the warning signs as did someone with epilepsy and I went years thinking I was going to have one. My recent fixation in the past couple years is that i’m going to have a stroke, I think it started when my great grandma died of one. I do this thing where if I am made aware of symptoms i’ll automatically think that’s happening to me. I always check my face because I think it’s “numb” but the fear has gotten worse. 

In feb I was prescribed and extended release version of an anxiety med I had taken previously. By the second day I woke up extremely shaky with muscle spasms. My hands started get tingly and all at once I got severe burning and tingling from the bottom on my head on the right side that travelled through the right side of my body and went to the er. Since then I have been an absolute mess. I have panic attacks daily and an intense fear of going out in public because of this fear of stroke. I have convinced myself it’s going to happen and always have this gut feeling but not sure if it’s just anxiety.

Yesterday I was walking and my mind blanked and then all of a sudden I was on the ground and had slipped on something. I don’t remember falling but fell hard enough to get a bruise and now i’m even more paranoid it was a mini stroke or something. Does anyone else deal with this crazy thought? Idk what to do anymore.