Normally, health anxiety is when you worry excessively that you have a serious illness.

I'm experiencing the reverse. I am excessively worrying that I **don't** have a serious illness, despite being diagnosed with [myalgic encephalomyelitis](https://www.nih.gov/mecfs/about-mecfs) by a medical doctor.

I can't stop thinking it's all in my head. My post-exertional malaise, cognitive impairment, and exhaustion leave me severely disabled. But I worry it's all my fault that I can't work, or date, or play ice hockey. After all, multiple other doctors have told me it's psychosomatic, and I don't have any objective evidence it's not.

I should be seeing more specialists, who might get me more evidence I'm sick. But I can't bring myself to do it because seeing new doctors feel like Russian roulette.

I'm telling my therapist about this next session. But, uh...what self-help techniques are amenable to this?