Hey there, made a throwaway because people know my normal account.

Long story short I have this “friend” who used to be my closest friend. We’ve been like brothers since we met in college. As we got older we bickered a lot, and had a major falling out about 8mo ago. We made up and were kind of just friends that can be around eachother since we have mutual friends, but not close anymore, which is fine.

Well we saw eachother for a trip with our group a few weeks back, and we bickered on the trip a lot. I know I’m at fault for my side, but he doesn’t believe he does anything wrong. Mainly we were bickering about politics, which I swore to not speak with him because we disagree. But there was drinking and talking.

Regardless, after I attempted to apologize and be cool. He instead of accepting or apologizing in return turned the conversation to my entire personality and basically dug hard into me as a person. He made up shit about me that’s not true as well.

It was out of the blue, and real hurtful, but it is what it is. I just kind of blew it off. Until I find out he’s talking shit to my close friends in the city I live in. Now these friends are avoiding me, not talking to me. I have no idea what he said, and how bad he made me look.

As an almost 30yo adult I don’t want to deal with this. But man this is really getting to me.

I’m having anxiety about these other friends so bad.