I'm tired of trying of seeing my friends destroy themselves over relationships that they'll never have again. I'm tired of watching depression take over the life of the people who have cared for me more than I've ever cared for myself. And I'm tired of finding out family I've known for years are going through an addiction and its killing me when I sit and replay that moment in my head when I found out.

In the end all I can do is sit there and fucking listen. Or not because they can't properly admit their issues because fucking society condemns depression and they can't talk to me without fearing that they'll bother me or make me ghost them. I can't say or do a damn thing anyways because what can you say when people just say that they don't have the motivation to live for themselves anymore. Because anything I can say about that is a hypocritical lie that even I don't believe. Self-centered of me to even think I can even make a difference.

Do I really have to watch as the people I need about suffer and destroy themselves? I just want to see them happy.

"You can't always get what you want"

Fuck you.

I know.