I’m in a certain kind of way at the moment and I’m not managing my anxiety at all, shaking uncontrollably everyday, constant sense of fear and doom. Everything feels wrong, my surroundings are scaring me and don’t seem real. I feel uncomfortable in my body and feel like crawling out of my own skin, it is the most distressing thing. A constant flurry of disturbing intrusive thoughts and sensations, on top of having to cope with a chronic health condition too. My nervous system feels absolutely fried, noises terrify me, everything feels weird to touch and I get painfully overstimulated by most visual stimuli. 

I’m starting to think that I need to admit myself and get heavily medicated or something but I’m absolutely terrified of turning into the stereotypical ‘zombie’. On the other hand, I’ve been in this state perpetually for the last 3 months and I’m trying to weigh up which one is worse, constant fear or numbness. 

Does anybody have any experience? I don’t know what to do.