I just feel lost. One minute I’m thinking abt all the things I love in life, the next I just want to jmp off the nearest bridge. And I can’t do slf hrm anymore bc it’s too noticeable, and I can’t see a therapist or smth bc my parents would stress the fck out abt me and I don’t need any more of that shit. And it doesn’t help that I have no one to talk to. The only time I talk about this subject with someone is when it’s one of my friends whose struggling and feeling suicidal. And it doesn’t help when those people are two of ur best friends. Sometimes I think it would just be better if I did just off myself, because I would have more meaning in life than I ever did anyways just failing at school. Death doesn’t give life meaning, life gives death meaning. And when that life’s so shit you can’t even talk about any kind of negative emotion or express it unless it’s from your dark room infront of a computer, it gives you a reason. I just need some way to relieve some of this