So I have been diagnosed with bipolar 1 and adhd. 

I’m (27f) have achieved a lot of things in life such as a successful bodybuilding career, modeling career, social media, pageantry, and  have traveled to more countries that I’ve could ask and live an overall a pretty good life.

However, typically I have spent the last 10 years competing in so many different fields and I am able to feel alive with deadlines and motivated to get the job done, to be the best, and have really gone hard to achieve those goals even if it costed me my health.

Prior to competing I was in high school and had the same tunnel vision with music and band competitions.

When I have a competitive goal my focus is unmatched and Inhuman. Why can’t I have that drive and motivation with goals for myself non competing?

Nevertheless, now i feel unmotivated without and extreme goal. I’ve never been able to finish school, nor certificates because I’d always put to much on my plate and move a thousand miles an hour. 

My house is a mess, I can’t focus to clean it, I don’t have a job because I have lived off sponsorship contracts the past ten years, I have a brilliant idea and costumers to start coaching but I do not have time management skills or organization nor do motivation. Usually I have coaches to do so when I competed but now I have no one.

I have achieved a lot things and I should be happy but I lack direction and can’t wake up early.

How do you deal with finding motivation? Or entering a new chapter of your life that is slower than what you’re used to. How do you get things started and finished and organized?

Should I get a therapist ? If so what kind?