Hello gorgeous anxious people. 

So my anxiety and panic attacks first began in London where I studied. When covid hit so did my anxiety and I went back to my home country. I stayed there for a year and I’ve improved quite a lot. However, in 9 days I will be traveling to London to visit my bf, and it terrifies me. Just thinking about London or even seeing it in movies makes me either dissociate or panic. I really do want to visit him. My anxiety disorder had stopped me from doing so many things lately and I want to be the person I used to be again. He also lives with another couple, who I really want to meet but it also means I have to mask my anxiety a lot. I don’t like other ppl seeing that side of me. I don’t know how to not be scared if this experience, it should be something good something exciting but my brain won’t let me enjoy it. Any advice?