32 going on 33. Married since 2013 with a 7yr old son and 6mo old fraternal twins. Financially secure. House is OK. Life in general SHOULD be good. Starting to take medication for depression after years of refusing and always feeling like I should be able to naturally handle things. Still have days where I don't want to wake up. Go to bed and hope that I don't wake up. Some days are OK. I wouldn't say any day is great or good. I've reached out to my doctor to see if a dosage increase is needed or perhaps an additional medication. 

Always feel worthless. Nothing is ever good enough no matter what I do. Constantly discouraged by little things that go wrong. Nobody is harder on me than I am myself. Can't shake the feeling that I'm in over my head with life, family, work, etc. 

I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. I don't expect to gain anything from this post. Sometimes we just need to let it out somewhere and this is that somewhere I guess.