So, I just recently came across a post where someone shared their symptoms of what they assumed to be depression. Now I have the exact same symptoms! Like word to word, they matched with my situation rn. But he/she described it way better than I ever could, and I'm not even that good in English, so I'm just sharing his/her experience with you people. Sorry if that's considered wrong. 

 *The Things I feel from time to time are*

* *feeling that nothing matters anymore*
* *my mood might change all of a sudden from happy to sad to feeling guilty for something that happens long ago or not long ago to hopelessness and losing interest in activities that I find fun or exciting.*
* *not wanting to get out of bed because of a feeling of hopelessness.* 
* I feel useless - a fuckin' burden to my family.
* *I sometimes might not eat or eat a lot for the thought of not gaining weight* (this is me all the time)
* *excessive crying* (most nights I cry myself to sleep and crying, to me, seems to be a healthier and less toxic way to vent out, so why not?)
* Staying up till 3 Am cause my brain won't stop thinking. 
* *loss of appetite*
* *repeatedly going over thoughts and traumatic/embarrassing memories.*
* *lack of concentration*
* *I've only thought about suicide a few times not excessive. I just wanna escape from here.*

*and it sucks because sometimes I'm having fun with friends and family and then I get all moody and shit.*  

*Never talked to my parents about this as I'm pretty sure they won't understand.*

*Never reached out to a friend in fear of being judged. Please help.*