hi! i have the most important job of my life right now. at a call center. i really, REALLY need this money because its the only thing that can change my bad situation and i can’t get any further my life without it.


but like…. wow am i anxious and wow do i feel bad! it honestly really isn’t that bad, especially for a call center, and i work at home. but my brain is just so bad with this stuff. i feel like my life is ruined, i feel like i won’t be able to spend time with my partner anymore. it makes me upset that i cant seem to keep up with cooking and cleaning on top of everything else. 


during the day when im not at work and the weekends ive been having panic attacks from the idea of going to work. when im actually working and on a call its fine, 100% fine, i’m relaxed and i don’t mind. but any downtime i have where it feels like i’m waiting to clock into work or waiting for a call drives me nuts. i’ve been so anxious its hard to eat/keep down food and i will just randomly start dry heaving sometimes


how do i feel better about working? does anyone have any tips they use to calm themselves down about it?