I’ve been depressed for a couple years now and even tho I’m only 14 (m) I struggle to keep going. I’ve got good things in my life - kind of - but I don’t feel happy , I now have nobody to go to other than Reddit and this hasn’t happened for a year I think . I found friends and a gf and those friends left me or rarely responded and my gf and I j broke up and she kept me from committing multiple times. I’ve already tried to commit before and sometimes it didn’t work and sometimes I could. I used to sh regularly and will probably get back into it cuz of me having nobody now. I have abandonment issues which is always helpful as I got shit for being clingy when it’s cuz my mum and bother and sister all left and my dad is away every now and then , me and him are close but he goes away to see family every other weekend or so. I feel like there’s no use for me anymore and that I’d be better off just leaving this world. I’m getting help from professionals but it just doesn’t help. Ig what I rlly want is a friend to talk to lots but it’s unlikely I’d get it from here. Worth a shot ig. Also looking for tips to deal w heart break and tips to not wanna kms