whenever i look back and reflect on the reasons why im so sad all the time i realize that im becoming so miserable for no reason at all. I think about how easy my life is compared to others, im not going through anything extreme rn yet i have major depressive episodes, constantly self harm and think about ending my own life everyday. I feel so pathetic, putting myself through all of this over the stupidest most minuscule of problems, but i cant help it. The smallest things can throw my entire week off. I hate myself for being this way.