I can't focus, can barely sit still, and physically I feel like I'm going to pass out I'm so dizzy but I also feel just really hot right now. I don't know what to do. There were some events today that triggered some anxiety for me, but like always I react really badly to even small triggers like this and now I feel like I'm losing control. I don't want to talk about the events today, only that at the moment my emotions are completely out of proportion. and everything just spiraled out of control. 

Like at first it was about the thing, then I started thinking about how bad I was feeling, how I can't control my feelings, how my feelings are always hard to manage and just kinda do whatever they want to me. 

Then I started thinknig about how I was diagnosed with bpd and how this is something I'll have to deal with for the rest of my life and that I'll never be normal, that I'll have to fight really hard to even have a chance at a normal life, and obviously that hasn't helped me feel any better

So I don't know, i think I'm just posting this to get it off my chest, but any support from people who understand would be really appreciated right now, plus if anyone talks to me at all that would help because I think I need that right now, I think I could do with some distractions.