Feel so irritable and uncomfortable like I just wake up to want the day to end to sleep again. 

I just feel like my body isn’t mine sometimes, like I’m living but not really living?? 

I have lost motivation to do anything. I don’t hardly eat or I eat too much. I sleep more than I live. I’m too anxious to go shops to leave home. 

It’s like I’ve gave myself Stockholm’s syndrome where I can’t feel safe anywhere but alone in my room.  I feel like I’ve made myself a prisoner in my own home. 

I am a drug abuser I’m trying to get clean but majorly being sober makes me feel like I want to die??? Xanax to sleep days away or cocaine to just stay awake. Either way I’m destroying myself with drugs so I can escape my mind.

I feel no emotion no desire nothing to be here. I have nothing. I am to blame for how I chose the path I did. But just had to let my feelings out.