So I've tried hydroxyzine in the past with little to no effect. I would take one 50 mg pill and feel nothing. 


Recently, my anxiety has been really bad. I tried Lexapro and it made me feel even worse. Diarrhea, nausea, increased anxiety. So I was taken off that and put on buspar. 


The buspar made me irritated, mean, my anxiety was like 9/10. Waking up with a racing heart rate (129 bpm) felt hungover and sick... It was awful. It also killed my appetite, which I have bad IBS and struggle to eat to begin with.


My doctor mentioned trying hydroxyzine again because I'm now on different medications than I was. But we opted for buspar instead. 


Well after trying the buspar for a couple days and feeling worse, last night I decided to try some hydroxyzine that I had left over from earlier this year. Let me tell you, I felt so so much better after about 30 minutes. I felt calm. I ended up taking 100 mg (the rx is written to take 1-2 capsules at bedtime for insomnia, and one capsule twice a day for anxiety) so a total of 200 mg daily if needed. 


I woke up today feeling amazing. It was the first day I woke up without any anxiety. I was able to get right out of bed and get things done. I was able to drink coffee without a spike in anxiety. My appetite is back and I just feel incredible. I plan on seeing my doctor next week to let her know I want to go back on hydroxyzine for anxiety. 


I think it didn't work before because I was only taking one pill at a time.  Or maybe because I wasn't on this specific combo of medications. But taking the two pills lat night really made a huge difference. I feel like a functional human again. 


For anyone curious, my current cocktail consists of zyprexa, xanax ER, and now hydroxyzine. I can't take SSRI'S because I have a history of serotonin syndrome from them. They also make me deathly ill. 


Here's to hoping this is my answer! Hope you all are doing well!