We had a big fight. I was screaming at him. He had gone upstairs. I was yelling at the bottom. He can running down. He first choked me  then he shoved me down then he told me he'd stab me in front of our children. Then he ran out.

I got up and tried to get me and my 3 year old out of the house before he came back inside. I wasnt fast enough. He came and put his arms behind me and hugged me as I cried. Then I left. 

This was last week. We've gone on with the silence and ignoring each other. Today I expressed my discontent for the fact that he didn't help pick up the kitchen, and he silently got angry and stormed off. 

Hes never apologized for what happened last week. I did. I said it was my fault. Because he can't handle being yelled at. But he could still apologize. 

No, I can't leave. I have no where to go. We have kids together. But I just feel really suicidal now. Thanks for listening.