How do you cope with having no friends, or having friends who message so little it feels like they're not there. How do you cope with constantly excusing the left on read and ignored messages? How do you get past the upset at sending messages checking in on them when no one does the same for you? How do you cope with hanging on every second for someone to make plans with you when you see them doing things with others? How do you still keep hoping that someone will ask to meet up when no one has for months? How can you not feel abandoned, alone, like no one wants you and no one cares? How can you not feel like you're the problem like there's something wrong with you? How can you keep going when you just feel empty, isolated, unable to fill the hole left by people with meaningless tasks or hobbies? How can you get out of bed when you know full well the world keeps turning whether you move at all or not? How can I keep caring so much and hanging on the words of people I'm not worth a second thought to? How can I stop myself doing something stupid trying to fill the enormous void I have in my life from no social life, no love life, no affection or intimacy? How can I keep living with these horrible intense emotions and fears? 

Am I ever going to feel complete or will I always be alone