My first half of high school exams got over, and I didn't do good!! this really worries me since getting good grades is important in my country or else no admission in a good university and if no admission in good university then no employment!!

I thought of just getting over this stuff once my exams get over, but idts I am able to, since everything I liked to do doesn't seem to interest me even stuff like YouTube and Instagram aren't fun. also the situation gets worse! My parents have high expectations from me in terms of grades, and they always compare me with my friends, relatives, cousins which makes me feel worthless!! They always say that "if you score bad then what are we going to say to our relatives?" and "if you don't work in a office environment it will be really embarrassing" and "do a very respectable job" and "jobs that will secure your future"

My parents don't even look at anything else that I am good at, if I say I'm good at this! then they will say "are they going to ask you this during admission?" only thing that really matters to them is admission!!

Since they have high expectations, I try my best to study! even though I try, I am unable to reach their expectations!! Also studies seem to get harder everyday!! and due to this stress I don't even want to study!!

Also they are the one deciding what am I supposed to study, I cant even choose what I want to do in life!! since in the past 5 years, there has been a huge explosion of tech companies in my country so everybody is doing something related to the tech industry and not what they like. And my parents are saying the same!! also most universities don't even have any other degree course other than "computer science engineering"!!

also my parents think that if I become a software engineer I will earn heck lot of money and will work 9-5 and work in a office environment, but they forgot that these degrees also teach engineering which may force you to work in factory environments as well!!

also if I want go into some creative field, they are very against it!! photographer, filmmaker, YouTube, entrepreneur are all a non existent options!!

due to all this I want to run away from them asap and do whatever I like!! 

all of this scares me and I feel like I am worth nothing and I don't know what to do in my life next!!

I've started making backup plans and backup plans for those backup plans!!

 I really need some help!!