Finally went on a semi-date. First time in 2 years. Felt great. First time I wasnt drunk, and still extremely enjoyed myself. She was great. 

Background: we "dated" in middle school. Had a one time thing when we both were done with school (we went to separate highschools). I was the "bad kid". She was the "good girl". Have a lot to relate (expectations and all). But I'm pretty sure I messed it up by giving up too much of my issues...

She made a couple comments about a possible FWB. And I kinda have a fwb. But it still made me a little jealous (because I kinda always liked her) jealous... And she stalked my social media. Made a few comments about that. She also made a few comments about my appearance (lack of hair, despite it being 7 years since I last saw her. She also asked my "first impression" of her. But at the end she wanted to kiss me...? 

Overall, weird but lovely. But after (next day) she didnt text me much (probably with a fwb). Which is fine. She didnt anyway (before meeting up) and I tried to keep my distance. But idk. Now I feel really crappy. Like shes gonna ghost me because she didnt text me back despite looking at my stories.. what if she thought I was ugly or too much drama or hassle. Idk..all I know is I wasn't meeting her expectations...

This is why I don't go on damn dates...