I'm not sure if this is allowed, but I've never told anybody this before and I can't comfortably unless it's towards people I don't know. My mother and I got into an altercation today, but it's a long story. She comes into my room and says, "Thanks for hurting my feelings". I can't help but respond with "Thanks for all the unresolved trauma". Growing up as a teenager, she administered drugs like heroin, cocaine, etc. you name it. She's always chosen men in her life over me. I tell her that they make me uncomfortable, they make my mental health worse, but she always brushes it off. I was a teenager addicted to hard drugs, all from the hands of my mother. I was a teenager in between the fights she had with my stepdads. She acts like she's a perfect mother because she pays the bills. My father doesn't believe in my mental illness. He thinks I'm just spoiled. I'm stuck, I don't know what to do. I'm at a loss for words and I've just now had a breakdown. Not looking for replies, likes, or sympathy. I just need to write these feelings down.