this past month has been miserable. i want to believe that life will get better but i can't. i feel so empty, i just want it to end. i can't accomplish anything in life.  
this subreddit is the only place i can talk about my feelings. i can't get a therapist with my insurance. i can't go to any dbt groups. i'm stuck. i don't have the energy anymore. i want the pain to end. why is everything getting worse.  why can't i just end it already