it makes me feel like shit i would never hurt a child like that and my brain is making me think im literally equal to a pedo cause i looked at the kids and i feel so sick and i fucking hate myself and feel so disgusted i cant handle this i know reassurance is bad and that i have posted about this before but the pain is so bad i feel so evil, the love i get from people feels undeserved because those action make me feel like im hiding the fact im a horrible person.