I just feel so fucking done with all this bullshit. I'm in a fucking rage right now and I am trying so fucking hard not to hit something or hurt myself. Why is that the simplest inconveniences or failures on my part cause me to feel such rage towards myself or towards the situation. At this fucking point it feels best that when I feel my rage coming on I need to get the fuck away from everyone because it doesn't seem to matter who the fuck is in front of me if they start trying to talk to me I end up getting really hostile with them and it always leads to an argument. They think I am purposely lashing out at them or being angry with them when in reality I am having a mental breakdown and I am angry indiscriminately. I feel like everyone fucking hates me and how could they not when I snap like a beaten dog when they are only trying to help. I hurt peoples feelings because when they do try to help like I said I always bite when I'm like this and it's like I can't be fucking helped I just have to fucking wait it out and fight it myself in my head because if I speak about it or express it it always comes out with hostility. It seems I get even more fucking angry when the help suggested doesn't help at all or feels like it dismisses my feelings. 