I've been watching his videos just after he stopped making them, there were about 40 videos total, and each one racked up about a million viewers each. His name is Mark Davis and he works as a jailer. He was quite popular and very funny. I fell in love with him (as in, I wanted him as a friend or something). He has a small subreddit dedicated to him and his videos and I tried commenting on it but I don't think he looks at his own subreddit because he never commented on it.

A while ago I mentioned that I loved him a lot, I ended up getting chat messages from a user with a picture of him as his avatar, and the username was his name. The message was an well known opening catchphrase that he used in one of his videos. I felt too shy to reply to whoever it was, and went to bed. When I logged back into Reddit it had me logged out and I forgot my login. I tried to manually search for that username that messaged me, but I couldn't find it no matter what I searched. I'm not sure if I could've dreamed that he messaged me and my memory is getting mixed up. I have dreams about him a lot, where we meet up and talk about life.

I just feel really comforted by him.. whenever I'm having a bad day or feeling sick, I watch videos with him in it and I feel relaxed and happy. When I'm feeling depressed or hopeless I think ''what would he do, in this situation?'' and that helped me. I wish I had him as a friend or something, because he seemed like he didn't have many close friends. . I just hope he's okay and something didn't happen. It makes me really upset that his fanbase is now limited to what seems like only a few people and everyone's just... moved on from him. I keep thinking of him every day. Like ''It's dinner time, I wonder what he's having for dinner..'' or ''maybe he'll be sleeping right now'' etc etc..

When I go to the store there's this faint hope that by chance, I'll happen to run into him.. I wish that'd happen.