It feels weird to talk positively about myself, but I did it and am so proud. 

Long story short: 
I became depressed at 14-15, messed up high school, and spent most of my twenties in a depression haze without any goals or interests; dead-end job. At 26 I realised I'd never beat this shit on my own, got an appointment to an amazing private clinic - there I found out I also have GAD (generalized anxiety disorder), found a med combo and dosage that worked, and spent the following years recovering, and most importantly, I was finally capable to study all the courses I needed (via municipality adult education). 


Life is actually amazing, for once. The dead-end job pays pretty well for what it is, and has made me able to buy an apartment and everything in it. Quite a lot of savings at this point. The university is basically walking distance from where I live. I'm in Sweden, so the tuition is "free" i.e. tax funded. The university loans have basically no interest rate here either and we have many decades to pay it back. Excellent circumstances IMO. 

My life's been the same dull/point less for so many years, and this is something ENTIRELY NEW. I couldn't be more excited and motivated.