I know it sounds silly, but please hear out my reasons.

(Pardon my English, as it is not my first language.) My parents will never truly understand me, and they will never care about how I feel. Whenever I tell my mother I wanted to die, she would slap me in the face, pull my hair or shout at me (sometimes a bit of a both). When I tell my father about it, he just tells me to shut up or "don't say that". They do not even bother to ask why I feel this way. I have a really terrible family, my father is an abusive, emotionally manipulative prick and my mother is the same, just on the lighter side. My siblins and I aren't very close, and their ideals are not far from my parent's. I don't really have anyone. I have nobody. Suicide can be an option for me, if I didn't grow up to he religious. I don't have friends, and everyone in school dislikes me anyway. I recently fell apart with my online friends, and I left the remaining ones as well. Whenever I talk about something personal, they would always leave me because they "don't know what to say". Or brush me off or say they've gone through worse. All I ever wanted was to be listened to. And all I ever wanted was to be loved and understood. I believe that this cannot happen unless I finally attempt suicide and make them realize. It almost seems like understanding was something I should beg for. Please help me