So here I am on the verge of crying and considering self-harm, accepting the fact that I failed a subject, even though I have a strong feeling my professor just randomly gave the class whatever our final grade will be on a whim and I am one of those students who was unfortunate to be given a failing grade. My friend was given a passing a grade but she was always absent to the point that she is eligible for the professor to drop her from the class and had no recitation whatsoever, on the other hand, I am the one who was attending the class diligently and had a recitation. My suspicion got stronger when I heard that a very smart classmate of mine got a failing grade too, and I believe she already raised her concern to the faculty for recomputation. 

It felt like a slap to my face for trying my best to pass that subject but still failed. I don't have the courage to raise my concern because of my social anxiety, one of the reasons why I hate myself. But who knows, maybe I am wrong with my suspicion and I really deserved a failing grade. So I concede the fact that I will have to repeat that subject.