I’ve been clean for 2 years, and I stopped going to therapy and taking meds last year. I was fine, I was doing okay, all of a sudden this week i started having the worst thoughts, contemplating taking my life again. I haven’t felt this bad in at least a year. I’m more annoyed than anything because I have no idea what could’ve caused this or why it’s coming back, it’s starting to seriously have an impact on my life.