Absolutely am SO OVER BPD. ugh. Why can't I just be normal? Why is it I have these behaviors and tendencies? I feel like I'm ruining such a great relationship but it's not intentional. He is so kind and understanding. I just feel like an asshole. I'm confused a lot of the time. Have a hard time remembering why we started to fight in the first place. Idk. Just sick of it and wish I could have like a week of normalcy. A week where my mind wasn't constantly telling me how shit I am or how fucked up I am. A week where I could just be. Be a good mom, good partner, free from the prison it feels like I'm living in, internally. When I was diagnosed, they told me that there is no medication to help. That the only way of coping was talk therapy. I'm in talk therapy and have been for the majority of my life but I really wish they could give me something for when I feel like I'm going down the borderline spiral. Anyone on medication for bpd? How do you guys manage to live? Every day is a struggle, unless I'm manic and really feelin myself- God complex at that point I think. I either feel like shit about myself oooor the complete opposite 
.. anyway.. that's all and thanks for letting me get this off my chest. 
-S.