I was so used to just telling her everything it was a no-brainer to just immediately tell her something as important as a mental health diagnosis that was as serious as BPD. I had told her a few months earlier about my OCD and she was extremely supportive, asking me to ask my therapist to recommend her helpful books and things she could do to help me during my rough times. So I didn't expect the reaction I got when I told her I got diagnosed with BPD, her reaction was just really quiet and I could tell that she was processing bc she didn't say much other than just surface level comforts. But about a month after we had a confrontation about it and she admitted to me that she had fallen out of love with me and she was sort of beating around the bush about it but all in all it was because of my BPD diagnosis. She said basically that it made her realize that she can't fix me (big ouch fuck) and that BPD is something that's forever (unlike OCD I guess which can go into remission I guess). There was a tense two weeks or so where she was trying to decide if we should stay together or not and I just couldn't take it so I guess technically I'm the one who pulled the plug on us but I think she was just too shy to say she wanted to breakup. 

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Its been a few months since then and I just... I feel awful... Horrible... Unfixable... I wish I had never told her about my diagnosis, prior to that we were going great, everything was amazing, we were planning on moving in together and eventually getting married and now... All bc of BPD... I really want to start dating again but I know once I tell them (if I tell them) about my BPD they'll just leave too, people only want me bc I seem like a fun project, someone who needs someone to "fix" them and then when they realize I can't be fixed they abandon ship. 

I just wanted to vent, that's all.