I’ve been in the military for 8 months and at first things were going ok. However over the past 3-4 months I have been becoming more depressed due to things in my personal life as well as at work. 

For every step forward it seems like life kicks me 1000 steps back. The straw that broke the camels back finally came in the form of my dad potentially having a brain tumor.

I put on a fake smile so that everything seems ok but recently I feel like I have reached a point where I can’t hide how I’m feeling anymore. Some of my friends/coworkers have noticed but I don’t know how to respond. I say I’m fine, but I’m not. I’m drowning on the inside. 

I want help but I feel like if I try to get it, my situation will only be worse. I just want to be happy again…