Today was my first day as a front desk agent at a hotel. My last job was also at a hotel and I quit after 2 months. The job before that, 4 months. I feel like I'm a complete failure and thinking that in 2 weeks I'll be alone in my shift makes me so anxious that I almost had a breakdown at work. And as soon I got home, I cried. I cried a lot, had a full-on breakdown.

I'm 24 years old and I've dropped out of uni 4 times. I can't work or study without having a major crisis which makes me give up. The problem is, I can't give up. My bf alone can't afford paying the bills. So this extra pressure makes me even more anxious.

I'm so sorry for posting this, I just needed to put my feelings into words. 