half of this is my experience venting about how the psych system is shitty

How do you go about trying to get evaluated for BPD? Some people make it sound so easy but I haven’t had any luck. I know some people don’t want one but it’s very likely I have it or something similar and I feel like a real diagnosis (or at least an eval!) would really help me validate my feelings and better explain to others. Here’s what I’ve tried so far:

A couple years back I was finally put into therapy but my counselor(?) wasn’t qualified for dx. While I was still seeing her I ended up in a weeklong (outpatient) crisis program and they dx me with depression after a few questions but they wouldn’t evaluate me for anything else since I wasn’t interested in meds. 

A few months after that I considered threatening so I could be admitted to inpatient where I hoped they would take me seriously and could finally see a psychiatrist but thankfully I didn’t go through with that idea.

After that I asked my doctor for a psych referral but the wait list was 6-12months (I assumed I would be dead by then, but I’m still alive!). She offered me Prozac instead and tbh it actually helped with my depression some.

I’m stable enough now where I’m no longer in therapy or on meds but a lot of my emotions are definitely not what normal people experience and it bugs me that I still don’t really know what’s wrong with me.