I feel like I need to clarify this before anything else. I have not had a diagnosis of BPD, however I am currently being assessed as I have presented nearly all of the symptoms and my doctor has referred me to my area’s first response team and I have a proper in depth assessment next week with a psychiatrist. (I’m extremely nervous about this if I’m honest). However, I do currently have a diagnosis of PTSD, anxiety and severe depression (such fun). Since I’ve clarified this, I shall move on to my question. 

I have recently been looking back at what I remember from my childhood and teenage years, which honestly I don’t remember that much as I have quite bad memory (I am 20, 21 next month so I’m still quite young and just recently left my teenage years). From this I have had thoughts that I may have misinterpreted my feelings towards people throughout my life as crushes/romantic interests when in reality they could have really just been my FP and I just had intense platonic feelings towards them. 

Has anyone else ever had this? Where they mistake a FP for something romantic when in reality they are just your FP and you didn’t realise until later in your life. I didn’t really know that BPD was a thing until a few years ago so I wouldn’t have known back then that it could’ve just been they were my FP anyway. But I’m curious to know if this does/can happen and if it’s a common or known thing to happen. 

(I’m not sure if Input is the correct post flair to put on this, if it’s not then I’m sorry about that!)