i’ve been lost ever since you left. i knew i was the problem, why didn’t i change sooner? i caused you pain &amp; suffering thru mental abuse, i never wished to cause you pain, but as i used all the rage &amp; resentment i carried towards my parents, i took it out on you. the only person that wanted to see me achieve &amp; be great, the person that was always there for me when i was alone, needed money, needed a ride, needed anything, you always made sure if i couldn’t get it that you’ll try to figure a way for me. i hate myself every day for allowing myself to continue causing you pain. i hate that i let you get away. i had plans for us, i wanted us to be married, a house, a kid. i didn’t wanna look for anyone else, because i had my person, you. why didn’t i try fixing myself before you left. why couldn’t i see it till now. every night i think of you. every morning i think of you. you’re in my dreams, it’s the only time i get to see you now. 

i’ll resent myself every day of my life for letting you go. 
i miss you, please come back.