I am truly tired. Tired of feeling lonely and discouraged. Tired of being sad. I lost my mom in June. The only response from my dad was, "Sorry to hear." I was laid off from my job a month later. Since July, haven't been able to find a job. Multiple rejections after interviews, or just at the application stage. My SO is busy all the time to where I don't see her but maybe once every two or three weeks, if that often. She's taking a birthday trip that I sadly just can't afford to join her on, out of the country. I don't have any friends in my city, and have developed a chronic pain that has been with me for months. I don't have the strength to keep making the effort, at this point. At least it feels that way. I'm just so tired.