So I have been long distance seeing a person and my BPD makes me worry about the dumbest things. I worry about if she wants other guys when she leaves a heart eye emoji but the guy looks flamboyant gay so why am I worried? I worry about stressing her out because we are both adults and she has her own issues and she’s just trying to do schooling and work and I don’t like projecting my stupid disorder onto her like that. I dislike having bpd immensely. I am very good at keeping it away from her, better than with anybody, sometimes she actually thinks some things are my bpd when actually they’re just how I am. It’s not what you’d think would be worrying me relationship wise that does, it’s the little things like the comments she’ll make, or in a screenshot she sends she’ll have some notifications from somebody else and I start to wonder who that is. It’s little, insignificant, annoying things. I hate that about bpd and sometimes it’s hard to think logically with this. I don’t like bringing her down and she’s sad a lot of the time too so I focus on making her happy, she is a really fantastic person, but she also has been through more than me and I just feel ugly and worthless so much that I also wonder what she could possibly see in me. I don’t know if anyone else feels this way, male.