I started therapy for the first time in years a couple months ago because I’ve felt like I’ve been falling apart. I work two jobs and go to school full time and I feel like I’m never relaxed, even when I make time to do so. I’ve gained so much weight from stress eating. I cry once a day for a week straight sometimes. I feel like I’m neglecting everyone and everything all at once because I feel so stressed out and exhausted that I can’t put my full effort into anything, I’m just trying to accomplish the bare minimum. 

I hate telling people that I’m struggling or that I can’t do something, it makes me feel like shit. But I’m to the point where I need to tell someone and just look like a failure, I don’t care. I’m just so sad and nervous all the time. I hate myself more every day. 

Anyway...that was a rant. My sister was talking to me the other day and mentioned how it sucks that we don’t have health insurance. I was like.. what? And she said that our dad (who I don’t talk to) got a new job a few weeks ago and because of that he has a break in his health coverage. No one told me. My therapy office hasn’t mentioned it, but I’m so scared that I haven’t been covered this whole time and will have to pay out of a pocket. I also have to stop services. 

This just feels like too much. I was actually trying to feel better and see a professional. And that all failed. I just don’t know what to do anymore.