I've looked at the definition, taken a few tests here and there, read some posts here...and feel like those are just my thoughts and the way I've been seeing the world and myself written down and verbatized.

For so many years now, I've been trying to find an explanation for the reason why I am not what one might consider normal, why I struggle at maintaining relationships, why the mood swings, why all of this confusion happens....

And now, after I've finally gotten a clue, or at least an idea, I just can't do it. I don't know why. I can afford it, I do have the time, it's just one simple phone call and one appointment to make. I just can't go see a therapist. Why? Is it because I Identify too much with my potential personality, because I maybe really lack another?

If you have any experience with this, please tell how you kept yourself from seeking professional help and how you were able to obsiege that obstacle.