so I was granted anxiety through genes (yay.) And while I did have to deal with it as a child, it wasn’t as intense as it is now. But the main thing I did and still do deal with is feeling like a burden. this has been intense since the day I was born. I never let anyone buy me things, and if they do it sits of my shoulders for years and I blame myself for being spoiled and feeling like I don’t deserve anything. i never ask my parents for therapy cause i don’t want to waste their hard earned money with my crap. not only do i feel horrible when people waste their money on me, but I don’t feel like I deserve love. at all. so i stay away from friendships and relationships because I would feel to bad to make anyone put up with me. anyone got any ways to fix this..? i know unwinding a damaging trait that’s basically apart of me can take years, but i’m at an all time low and i feel myself slipping into another depressive rut.