I found you almost a year ago. I was in the shittiest place mentally, years of different treatments and meds behind me, but none had helped. And finally in my all-consuming despair, I decided to look into this "borderline" -thingie one(1) doctor once mentioned to me as a side note a while back... And I found this reddit.

And then I cried for days straight because first time in my entire life, I saw other people struggling with the exact same symptoms I have! And instead of bashing these symptoms as just being difficult, toxic and childish, there's empathy here and will to survive. First time I learned about different treatments such as DBT and suddenly there's hope for someone like me??

Since then, I fought my way to get myself properly diagnosed and look and behold, I have bpd (among others but bod is the main issue). I applied to local treatment specifically targeted to ppl with bpd and I am now in the queue! 

It wouldn't have happened without yall. Thank you for being here, thank you for sharing your struggles, thank you for fighting with me!