
I don’t think I can last any longer, I kept telling myself after I had my accident you’re going to survive until my parents pass away in the future but it’s been almost 7 years since the accident and life’s been getting exponentially worse by the day. I’m dealing with so much physical pain everyday and the drs never have an answer that actually helps. I feel physically Ill every minute of every day, It gets worse and worse by the day. Life is so damn hard if life was even just ok I think I could be content but I’m so god damn miserable I stay in my house all day doing nothing, the only time I really leave is to go to drs appointments and occasionally hang out with friends. But eventually they’ll leave me too, they all have girlfriends and jobs and their own lives they have to live. I really wished I had gotten a chance to feel what it’s like to be loved by someone before I go. but what girl would ever love someone who can’t take care of themself, is constantly in pain, paralyzed from the chest down, can’t have sex or kids, or financially support them. My biggest regret in life was not appreciating my life and the fleeting moments growing up with all my friends in high school it was the last time I was ever happy.