I don’t really have a true point in posting this I guess but to let things out. Today I had to leave work AGAIN after leaving last week and a couple weeks before that because I had another panic attack. I was put on medicine two years ago that was working really well but just recently within the last couple months I could feel me slipping deeper into my anxiety. I’ve had the worst panic attacks I’ve ever had in my life and it’s been a cluster of them lately. I feel bad about leaving work because I feel they really don’t understand that I cannot control how my brain is firing. It really just goes straight to feeling completely doomed for almost no reasoning, like over someone simply ignoring me or little things that shouldn’t really trigger such a reaction out of me.  In two weeks I have my first therapy appointment and my doctor has upped my medicine and has given me something for when I do have panic attacks. However, the anxiousness inside me is still so concerned about having to leave work, even though that’s what I know I had to do for ME. I wish I could shake not caring too much because I know the company I work for doesn’t really care for me as a person. I don’t know I’m just feeling defeated right now.