I swear something is seriously wrong with me. There was a car parade for a kids birthday a couple houses down and I just started uncontrollably crying. I don't know the kid, I don't know these people and I don't even know why I'm crying. It was sweet of people to do, but I feel like my emotional reaction was completely inappropriate.

I also cry when I'm mad, uncomfortable, frustrated...but I don't laugh or feel happy feelings when warranted.

Is it just me? It was like an automatic trigger and I couldn't stop it because I didn't even know it was going to happen.

I feel like I'm an emotional mess and I will never not be.