I’ve (F20) been depressed since I was 7 years old. It’s always a hard battle, episodes here and there feeling like I can’t do shit right all of that. But lately… I just can’t do life anymore I’m on all these meds and my psychiatrist is trying his best to help keep me grounded but nothings working. I have no one to talk to because my family barely started accepting my depression but have neglected the whole thing in my early teen years. I didn’t start getting serious help until I was like 15 or 16. It’s a long hard battle and I just don’t think I can do it anymore tbh. Like I’m fine in life, I have a good relationship with my wife, some family members but I’m just so fucking sad all the time. I get high (by smoking) I try not to abuse my anti anxiety meds (Xanax) but I’m still so fucking sad everyday lmfao. I can be having the best time of my life but I’m just so fucking sad, and I’m scared I’ll be like this forever. Sorry for the rant I just needed to get this off my chest. I want it to end. I need it to end.