I live in a small town, I basically know my high school classmate ever since I was a baby. Now 25, I’m not close with any of these people I know. The closest equivalent of best friend are my degree friends but then again, I don’t bother to maintain friendship with them. But occasionally I do get sad, especially know with the fact my childhood besties and hs besties both got married(not to each other) and I didn’t attend any of it. 
Feel like I lost a lot of opportunity for great memories because I was so afraid of falling out so I cut them out of my life first. I had mobile phone ever since I was 10, so communication was never really an issue tbh. I do however had a narcissist mom who always disapprove my friends, and perhaps I was tired of her comments. 
Anyway, does any of you share the same experience?