title, basically. 

i still have my ex-FP on my private instagram (for reasons that are beyond me) but he only follows me on there with an account he barely uses. the other day he “accidentally” viewed my story and i ended up messaging him to ask why he did that. he apologized and told me he was gonna delete the account, but then we ended up having a full conversation and added each other back on snapchat.

my god, i feel like a fucking idiot rn. this has happened multiple times in the past and i keep getting myself into it even though i KNOW that i shouldn’t. i was going to just let it go but i ended up caving :/

i think the worst thing about this is the fact that he’s my ex boyfriend and we broke up THREE YEARS AGO but for some reason we do this every few months. it’s like a never ending cycle, we start talking, he does something that upsets me, and then i split on him. every single time. even while he dates other girls. wtf. i feel like such a piece of shit for even entertaining him. i know i should block him but i can’t bring myself to. fml