Just a quick summary. 
Dated a girl for two years. Broke up beginning of May. She fucked someone almost instantly after we broke up. 


We haven't had much contact since about mid May.  The other day she dm me on Instagram asking how I'm doing. Of course, I started my rants. Basically, told her I'm not her friend, never was never wanted to be. We started as fuck buddies she convinced me she wanted a relationship. Told her the only way I'm having her in my life is either as a fuck buddy like it started and should have stayed or we're back in a relationship. 


After going back and forth all day. We decide to give it a try, an arrangement of sorts. Think daddy/babygirl kink. We've discussed ground rules and shit. She comes over at midnight and we fuck for 2 hours. She leaves. I check her instagram. Mirror selfie posted hours before we met up, of her in bra and panties, captioned '190 pounds of negativity gone #wishyacould' and tagged I guess her new dick. With other men adoring her and basically talking shit about me. 

Fuck me. What am I getting myself into. She's a horrible person with no morals, standards, or respect for anyone but her own gain. I enjoy fucking her. I don't enjoy her person. Not that I'm slut shaming or anything y'all do you but she's a legitimate slut. Cool explore yourself don't bring other people into your life under the guise of commitment. How do I bury what I thought she was to what she will be in my life and that's just some slut I'll fuck? 


Fuck it. I'm going back to my motherland for two weeks. Disconnecting from all of it. 