I was playing clarinet and it all was easy and I was fine but now I’m doing saxophone I’m just really bad. I’ve played for hours and can’t get it and me and this other girl are the only saxophone players. Because of this not only do I have to suck in front of everyone, my teacher calls on me extra because she has only two choices, and when I get home I can’t practice well because i get stressed that I’m bad and  so I can’t breath and cry so I can’t even play, it’s a whole thing. While they’re getting ahead I’m only falling behind. When I do have the courage the loud noises just plummet my confidence and that kills me. I just have to keep practicing but it’s so hard. I also can’t get independent help because that would involve a tutor and I’m not doing that. It’s torture but I don’t want to give up even if I’d like it more.