Hey! I’m not a very anxious person usually, but I had two big episodes of anxiety during the last ten years of my life. The first one was after a breakup, and the second one happened when I rented an apartment I really hated. I felt bad in the apartment and completely lost. I could not eat, I was nervous 24/7 etc. Then, after one month, I resigned from the apartment, and moved abroad to where my boyfriend is from.

When I was having anxiety, I temporarily stayed at my dad’s house to feel more comfortable and have company. Now, after one year of living abroad, I feel like I should visit my
Hometown/my dad, but I feel so stressed about it (I associate the place with feeling horrible), and I dont know
what to do about it. I need to visit my parents at one point... I feel really guilty. 
An important thing to mention is that I basically lived anxiety-free since I moved away from my hometown. 


What’s important to know is that my home in general doesnt make me feel good, my dad is pretty emotional and everytime I am there I feel almost like he’s observing me, my moods, etc. I dont feel comfortable there. Ps my parents are divorced, but I cant stay at my mums place when I visit, because her apartment is too small.