Hi everyone. I'm new to reddit and just discovered this area. I was diagnosed with BPD a year ago after a long long roller coaster ride of emotions and actions. I am fortunate enough that at this moment I am doing well (after hard realizations, embarrassment and commitment to catch myself on poor reactions), *however* I am engaging in one of my oldest longstanding self-harm behaviours: over shopping. I have done this most of my life,  mostly fluttering from one new "collection" to another (books, dvd sets, scrapbook materials, hallmark ornaments, perfume...lately it is makeup). It is very difficult to resist the impulse to shop.  Very. Obviously it can be done as I have had quieter moments where I don't shop as much (usually while in a depression). I want to stop as I have more then enough of everything I need, have a modest income and have a 3rd child on the way so won't even have time to use or organize this stuff. I get panicky when i put it all physically in front of me. It creates anxiety because I see how out of hand it is. I don't go to counseling at the moment, as DBT therapists are difficult to locate here. I am very much interested in tips or even self help books/programs that help ease this. It is a shopping addiction I guess one might say, but I call it a self harm behaviour because it is longstanding but the least outright harmful of my behaviours historically. It seems I am always acting impulsively,  even during "good" times in my life. I get bored easily and don't have many interpersonal relationships that are true and worthwhile.  I suspect I am compensating for the discontent at not being able to trust people and my attitude towards life (indifferent most times-depressed others). I guess I'm hoping to get recommendations of books or programs that can help with this. It seems to be impulsiveness, coupled with obsessive and avoidance behaviours all coupled with time that has reinforced these negative behaviours. Can anyone relate?? 
Thanks for reading if you made it this far :) 