I'm in a severe decline in the past year. I no longer let people into my life, I'm depressed beyond repair, and I've taken back to drugs and alcohol to just keep myself together. I have not been sober in months. There's something deep in me that I need to take care of because I'm already forcing the people in my life out. No friends, limited contact with family and I'm currently struggling to even smile. I think I'm done and I'm very scared.