I have many anxious inducing things. for example driving, I get mini “panic attacks” and just feel terrible and my family makes it and my feelings a joke. I feel my anxiety is valid. driving statistically is one of the most dangerous things we do daily.

they also made fun of me for wanting to get a fire extinguisher after my pc caught fire. we didn’t have any in our house and after the fire (it wasn’t that bad) I wanted a fire extinguisher both up and down stairs, i know have one in my room. They were a little more understanding in this instance, but still made me seem like i was crazy. 

Finally, i got a fish tank, got a panic attack while setting it up (i wanted an aquarium to help soothe me) and now i want it gone. Water and electricity (for the heater and filter) just make me nervous. told my mom i wanted it gone, she didn’t seem to care that i was anxious as hell, told my sister and she laughed at me. she apologized later but it still hurt. 

in the end i feel like i am a loser who is quick to anxiousness and an over thinker. which i do admit is a problem. but i feel like my reasoning for the first two are valid and why would i keep something (the fish tank) if it will just make me anxious? 

am i crazy?