My bf lied to me about an important topic he says he will be better but... i keep telling him to delete his girl friends because they are making me jealous... he told he love one of them (as friends) he makes me feel love addicted, he is playing videogames as we are speaking and he said he would call but he didnt. I just dont want him in my life i think he doesnt love me but i camt stand being alone i hate it i feel so bored and boring i could die! What is wrong with me i dont even like him or love him anymore. We went from me learning about him lying to me to him saying i am suffocating him and i am too much he says he is losing my mind with me. And he talks to me angrily when i get mad. I cant believe he doesnt love me i am driving myself nuts. I feel like i want wamt want more more more. And he wont give it to me. I feel addicted. Im afraid of loneliness. What do i do? This morning i had suicidal thoughts, its just too much. And i said i wouldnt forgive him but somehow he made it out that its my fault. 

I dont want to be clingy anymore. I feeo stuck. I dont think he loves me. He is not sweet with me. He lied to me... twice......! It broke my trust i feel broken. He says he cannot stand me anymore. But he doesnt want to break up with me. He lied to me so he should do all tge relationship work, not me. He knows i am disordered and he says i should change when i told him i cant that easily. I am triggered. He just seems like a constant liar. What do i do?????? I dont want to suffer i want to forget him and have friends but its hard. I cant be on my own. 