At the age of 14 I developed my anxiety after my brother committed suicide and fast forward a year and its fucking worse I was in a very dark place for a few months but I was given medicine to help me cope with the anxiety and it kind of works I have friends I talk to and communicate with but it still doesn't feel enough I occasionally feel depressed and I have PTSD about my brother and just as I'm getting my life back on track I just lost my old neighbor/ 1st cousin today and my anxiety Is flaring up pretty bad I just want to feel happy again