Hi guys, I’m posting here because I don’t think anyone I know would understand. To put it shortly, I was in a relationship for a long time. She and I broke up (I broke up with her because she cheated) and it wasn’t on good terms. She wanted to stay in contact but I didn’t, I couldn’t handle being with someone who wasn’t mine anymore, like, it hurt so much. So I stopped replying to her. After that I felt fine, I didn’t feel or go through any pain that came with breakups, I felt completely indifferent. But now, over a year later it’s all just starting to come back to me– triggered by a dream of her (again first time in a year). I was so blinded by my hatred for her that I completely forgot all the love and good emotions I felt with her. I feel like I am just now grieving all this, and I don’t understand why just now? Has anyone else felt like this? I don’t even know why I’m so depressed about this considering all the hurt and pain she put me through. I feel insane hysterically crying like this..