I am a female with quiet BPD. I have been in a relationship for almost two years now, and can I just say how beyond frustrating it is to deal with my BPD. I find that I can hide my BPD from everyone except my partner, since he makes me feel the most vulnerable. I feel like I can never fully trust my bf. He is the most sweetest, nicest person, and I feel that I am constantly splitting on him, painting him a bad person, when I get uncontrollable intrusive thoughts that stem from my fear of abandonment. Im exhausted from the rollercoaster of emotions I go through in a day. It feels like when I am a part from him it gets worse. I go to therapy but I feel as if it isn't helping. I also try to meditate, exercise, focus on my work but it doesn't take away from the hopelessness I feel on a daily basis.  I read a few reddit forums about people in relationships with a partner who has BPD, and saw postings like "get out while you can" and "If they have BPD, run the other way." Seeing those posts made me feel really upset, I constantly think about my relationship not working out because of my BPD. Wondering if anyone feels the same. :(