I am absolutely so sick of this shit bro, its an everyday fucking battle. ever since starting college in Ireland me and my sister and my horrible fucking mother have all been arguing none stop. I literally can not take it.  


I am going to lose it, I really feel like I am going to kill myself, lol the only thing thats stopping me is my 50k followers on nsfw twitter and I know how stupid that sounds... I got into an ANOTHER argument with my sister because I was insecure because she said I have a really fat nose (im literally known for how thin and pointy my nose is) so I was just like, you're just trying to put me down and for what, ive done nothing but be so good to you.   


I mention my bpd in the argument that I get really upset and I need to talk things out like immediately otherwise ill just be overthinking about it non-stop and she's like giving me the meanest and bitchiest stare known to man. and then I say ''what?'' and she's like ''what?!'' and im like why are you being so mean? and she's like ''you just said I had a fat nose'' when I just said so does she when she insulted me?! and completely just made me so upset, so then I like. started crying because it was really upsetting that she was arguing with me like this - she starts laughing. I then get up, and leave her room.  


go into my room and sob for a few hours and then guess what? LOL me and my boyfriend argue over discord because of course how toxic and abusive my house hold is (my mother is abusive AS FUQ) that I naturally feel unloved. and he's trying to comfort me but I cant get it out of my head that his parents secretly hate me or dislike me. I know I am being so irrational and now I just snapped at him, because he explained how he's very aware of how mentally unstable I am at the moment at my home life and that I want to move out... god I cant deal with everything, its all to much.  


I really REALLY need to move out and get out of this home life or I will always be toxic and unhealthy towards everyone. please give me some advice on being so fucking sensitive.   
like some dbt skills or how you distract yourself. please.