I don’t know what to say or how to live. I’m 28 and for as long as I can remember have always struggled to live like everyone else. I’ve always felt fake like I’m just pretending that once people see the real me they will run away. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. It’s gotten worse the older i get.  I have weeks where I don’t shower but I still do my routines, go to work, hangout with people occasionally, visit friends and family etc. No one will say I’m not ok . But I don’t feel ok. I’ve been hiding myself all these years that I feel lost. I don’t know which one I am. I feel empty most days.  It’s been worse these few months. I started talking to someone that I felt love for but it wasn’t gonna work out due to many reasons. Idk if that’s why I’m posting this. I’ve had moments of depression before but I bounce back and I know I will bounce back to pretending I’m ok till the next one, I’m also just tired in general. I feel like I shouldn’t have a reason to feel empty and depressed cuz there are people whose situations are far far worse than mine but I do sadly. I don’t know what I’m looking for by posting this. Yes, I’ve thought about therapy but I feel I don’t really have any problems that they will help me with and I would just be wasting their time and my money. I guess I just want to post on here just for the sake of it… thanks for reading of you did.