I feel as if if things are going well it makes me panic. I feel as if something NEEDS to be going wrong at all times. I feel out of place if everything’s going right, like if it’s right for too long my anxiety and mood is awful. 

My counsellor says it’s because of my upbringing and such, and we’re working on it. It just seems so awful. 

I pick fights with my family, friends, and especially my boyfriend. He sees this and states to me that I’m just trying to pick a fight, which I am and I just get more angry. Then I feel awful afterward. 

How do you’s deal with this? How do you not let it control your life and relationships?

Yes I am diagnosed with BPD after 5 miserable years of misdiagnosis 