I think i've reached a point of realization that this is the last straw, i've tried so hard to do things good but life sits at me back in the face.. i have a beautiful son and twins on the way but me and my lady get into so many fights and this last one may have really done it for me, sometimes, well majority of the time i think about tragic things happening to me and i pray nothing will but right now i think this is it and just coming to this reddit seems so corny to me but it feels good to journal how i'm feeling despite it making me cry so much, i haven't explained a lot into detail about the situation but if only some knew they would understand. i hope my kids will be ok and not have to experience what a step father is cause maybe it would leave me to insanity. i hope whatever is next down the road right now will be okay but my thoughts are like a prison and im trapped inside letting it eat me alive. its killing me but maybe if it does i wont be so sad about it, everyone has their own battles but some may not be won in the end.