But even my community mental health team won’t do anything about it. All they do is act like they’ll support me through court when they don’t and yet if they admitted me to hospital I may never have been arrested. They only give me an hour a week meeting, don’t get given coping mechanisms though. I’m seen as wasting time and attention seeking when in reality I’m suffering from trauma and can’t cope or function properly anymore. Not my fault. I don’t deserve this. What do I do now? I can’t get help or keep myself safe all the time so what do I do if I’m very suicidal and at that same time not really wanting help and wanting to be dead? I can’t risk police being involved. Do I go ahead and jump off a bridge after taking a big overdose?