I hate myself I always had and when I was young I was a little bit big and mum wanted me to loose weight and she said I’m overweight and big girl etc for a few months of this ironically made me eat comfort food.. mum done things my sister done things I’ve done things good/bad but anyways I have a strong anger that suits with depression other days stronger then others my sister hit her foot on a vacuum cleaner.. my fault I put it near the door.. did I care for her!? Nah I was angry that I made this happen and that after botching about how my son doesn’t eat his food like I’m so fucking sad how shitty of a person I am I’m a fat sad ass with a beautiful boy who is very hard at times I get unwanted/wanted help and I’m forever saying thankyou to a point when I’m moody got help me like my family things I’m fucked up uselesss never ending ball of sadness well now I’m over 100 kgs and hate my life like I want my mum to care so much that she just gives up and stuck with me like how shitty is that