Why the fuck do I do this to myself? I'm really not getting out of here anytime soon. Why did I have to remind myself? 

My head is a mess and it's almost 3 am. There's a ringing in my ears. I don't know what I'm going to do. 

I've been waiting to catch a break ever since I could remember. I'm trying my best but it never seems to be enough. 

I just hope they hear me. I'm hoping there's something bigger.