I feel like I don’t know how to word this question. I feel like I logically love everything about my partner. He’s so thoughtful &amp; sweet &amp; even reads up on how to help me throughout my episodes! I know I have a love for him. We have all the same interests and goals in life.

But I catch myself constantly in this altered state of reality of feeling far away and hopeless. Like it’s my brain playing tricks on me and I have to convince myself nonstop that he’s trying and he doesn’t even misstep. It’s not insecurities, it’s just this genuine feeling of detachment maybe to protect myself or satisfy the part of me that feels like because I struggle with BPD, I just feel deep down that I’m not like anyone else

Idk.  I hate these looming moods that make me feel superior to everyone else around me. Anyone else understand that?