I'm so SO fed up of waking each day and having nothing to do, I have no idea what job I should be doing and I don't even manage to get clothes on. 

I have moved home due to my mental health and I'm not even useful at home. I don't cook, I don't add to conversation. I feel totally useless all the time. 

Lately I have gotten up at lunchtime, eaten and gotten back into bed. I feel like shit all the time. There's nothing of interest around me. I think maybe it's time I get out of this comfort zone but I'm not even feeling comfy here. I'm crawling in my own skin. 

I have no sense of fulfilment or achievement. I'm a shadow of my former self and I'm absolutely clueless as to how to relaunch myself. 

It's so frustrating to be so useless feeling all the time. I barely talk. I feel I have lost my place in the world and I don't know where to turn. 

I went to medical team and it's directed back at me as I seem unwilling to fix myself. I'm so severely depressed and have really had enough of feeling like a worthless piece of shit all the time. I don't know what the solutions are. I don't want to be here anymore. I'm making no memories. I have no life. 

I'm so fed up of everything being nothing. I don't know where to start. I have lost hope in myself. Another day has passed and it meant nothing. This just goes on and on, fuck that! I want this change to happen but it's like I don't know how to keep going when everyday is just nothingness.