I have an amazing best friend and I know that shell help me no matter what but I feel like these dark thoughts keep on coming back and I feel like I have a limit to how many times I seek help to others and dont wanna reach the point where it burdens them. I just feel like sometimes when I open up, I regret it. And I hate that feeling. So, because of all this, I try to deal with things on my own and just push people away. 

Right now, I feel like I just wanna cry and breakdown but I have to pick myself up to face this year. 

I do have a therapist, but he steers conversations to stuff that isnt even important and affecting me that much.

I really like this subreddits support group so I post my feelings here &gt;&lt; To whomever's reading, I hope you have a great day! 