I (f17) am flying out to Europe today and I’m honestly scared shitless. I know I’ll hopefully enjoy it once I get there but that still doesn’t help the fact that I’m absolutely PETRIFIED. I haven’t been able to get a good nights sleep since Monday (today is Thursday) and I keep waking up throughout the night about 3 or 4 times. I have no appetite because I’m so nervous and sick about going. I need to eat but I honestly can’t.

In addition, it’s a school trip and I’ll be gone for 12 days. My parents won’t be there but my friend and her mom will which does make me feel a little better. Still petrified about it because my own parents won’t be there. I really don’t like being away from home for so long and that probably scares me the most.

This reason is kinda dumb but I’ll also miss my boyfriend deeply. We’ll be in different time zones and lately, I’ve been having him call me a lot more recently which I feel bad about. He genuinely makes me feel a little better when I’m talking to him and I’m having him do it every chance he has. He told me he doesn’t mind and I don’t bother him and loves spending time with me so at least there’s that. I still feel really bothered that I won’t be able to call him most of the time while I’m there. He also has classes and stuff throughout the day so we probably won’t be able to talk that much. Besides, when he’s just waking up, it’ll be around 2 pm or something for me most likely. I know I’ll be distracted once I go over there but this thought just scares me a little. 

Is there still anyway I can help my anxiety for this? I know I’ll be fine once I actually get there and off of the plane but I’m still scared now. I honestly can’t wait until the trip is over with so I can get back to my family and to my boyfriend. I hope it does go by fast.