i'm a loser

i barely have any friends and the few i do have always have other close friends so we don't do that much together :/ i basically only have 2 irl friends outside of work

the one i barely ever hang with cause they're always busy with work and we never text cause they aren't really a texter, and the other i used to talk to a lot but they just moved away to do a new job for the whole summer and they have a ton of friends anyways so they get busy a lot 

i have few work friends but i feel like we're only friends cause of work and they aren't friends i can really message 

for the last 2 years the only time i really get out of the house is to go to work or get food and i hate my job so i don't even enjoy it, i have been looking for a new job but haven't had any luck yet

i play video games every single day and feel so empty. i used to love these games and wish i had more time to play them but now i only play them cause i have nothing else to do and no one to hang out with

and i feel so empty and like i have no reason to get up in the morning

i just want friends who i can call up to go for a walk with, friends who i can call to go get a slushie, friends who i can call when something happens etc

i used to have that before the pandemic but we all drifted apart and i guess i never realized how amazing it was to have friends like that until it was gone

i just want to hibernate and never wake up again if life is gonna be like this... so lonely and devoid of reasons to get get up

making friends is harder the older you get so i have no clue how i'll ever make new friends irl i feel so hopeless and utterly alone