I’ve been getting a bit better at dealing with it, but honestly, today is an off day for me. Sometimes I think about self harming and I even get intrusive thoughts. I know I’m not gonna do it, but it’s hard because sometimes it feels like I’m alone. I try to go out with my friends but they always bail last minute. I have a boyfriend, who’s a best friend to me and I cant help but to feel jealous how he has an amazing friend group that goes out and has fun, meanwhile I’m stuck in my room waiting till he gets back. I don’t blame him, if I had friends like that then I’ll be going out too. Making friends is easy, it’s just keeping them around thats hard. Currently I’m not in college, for personal reasons, so I’m at a stand still. I hate that I cant skip to the part where in my life where I don’t have any problems, but I don’t know what to do. I just hate feeling like this.