ever since my break up over a month ago its like ive been spiraling. or floating. drifting along. letting things happen to me. making wrong choices. my cat has also been constantly knocking over full cups of liquid. and last night after my shower it happened again. and it was just my breaking point. i began having either an anxiety attack or something my emotions were everywhere and i relapsed. i was five months clean. i just feel like a fuck up. today i am super exhausted and i feel like a failure and that im never gonna get rid of this habit ive had since middle school. :(