Honestly I've been feeling alone for maybe 2 years now, ever since leaving a short, pointless, and toxic relationship in early 2017. And I've found it hard to let go of the attachment I had for that toxic person, and I'm just now, within the past half a year I'd say, moving on. And I've found someone new. It's been hard for me to attach myself to anyone else. But this new person I'm attached to is far better than the previous one. However they do not carry the same feelings for me. At least I don't think so. I've been told by the person about a month ago that they do not feel the same way. Sometimes I get hints that they do though, but I think my mind is just lying to me. I think my mind is so desperate for this person to have feelings for me that it makes me think that they do. But I know that they don't. Because they literally told me. But that isn't the only reason why I feel alone. I lack friendships anyway. I have one friend, to which everyone says "quality not quantity". Well, imagine it's like balancing on tightrope. You mess up once, you fall off and hurt yourself. I mess up once? I lose my only friendship. And then I have nobody. And then I'm truly alone. I watch my words all the time. It's not even necessary for me to do, I'm just so paranoid. I don't want to be alone. But I feel lonely almost everyday.