Basically I don’t know, and I don’t care. I don’t feel like hurting myself or otherwise extreme in any way, I’m in one of those “feel nothing” stages and I don’t know.
I’m just tired but I sleep too much and my house is dirty and I’ve gained weight and I want to exercise but whenever I go to bed with a plan for the next day, I wake up and just fucking HATE that I woke up. I don’t want to be dead I just don’t feel capable of catching up to where I want to be and where I know I can be. I want to borrow a less fatigued body for a bit.