Throwaway because I don't want this to be traced back to me. My husband (M37) and I (F30) moved to a new country in the end of last year for his studies. He dove into his education and new life here and he has adjusted very well. As for me, I quit my job and followed him without a real plan, which I regret immensely now. I've never been so isolated, scared, lost, and depressed in my life. It's hard some days to even shower and do basic chores. The thought of going outside or exercise is so draining. When I start looking for jobs I get so overwhelmed and negative. I limit contact with my family and friends because I don't want to show how depressed I am and worry them. I feel I have no purpose and these days, I just look forward to sleeping and dread waking up because sleep is an escape from all the thinking. I'm eating through my savings and we're not in an English speaking country. So I'm not sure therapy is an option.  I feel stuck and hopeless. My husband tries his best to be supportive but I feel I can't disclose just how close I am to committing suicide. I love him but I hate feeling like this and sometimes I just want to die. I have to do something ASAP. I just don't even know where to begin.