I don't drink, nor do I do hardcore street drugs buut, I abuse my own prescriptions. In particular, Gabapentin. 

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Originally my mother would "sell" me hers, or give them to me to do chores around the house eventually leading to a tolerance build up. I truly believe they help my social anxieties in the best way I've experienced with any drugs prescribed or not. So I decided to try out my own prescription under the guise that they worked for my mother and I thought they could help me too (Which is true, but also because I enjoy taking them). I started off on a small dose and was careful to explain that I am gaining a tolerance rather quickly and proceeded to increase my dosage regularly. However, I am still ahead of the curve as far as the dosage that I am prescribed, and the dosage I actually take. 

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I feel as I just started out treatment, it's important to explain that I take more than prescribed of my own medication but I'm terrified of losing them altogether (Which is what an addict would say amirite?). But where is that faint line between helping and full-blown addiction? Do I like the way it makes me feel because it helps or because I'm addicted to it? 