Anyone else have this feeling?: I’ve been through a lot in my life, but one thing I’ve always been good at is being calm under pressure. If an emergency happens or I have to homeless for a year, whatever. I take those days or months like a champ. 

When my life starts being normal and I have a job, am making money, etc... I end up having so many panic attacks and constant anxiety. The lack of anxiety in my everyday life gives me more anxiety than I can handle. I always feel like something bad is going to happen if I’m too happy. I read somewhere about cherophobia. The things I’ve been diagnosed with are GAD, panic disorder, ADHD and a learning disability in my short term memory. 

I just can’t go a day without having a freak out unless I actually have to freak out then I’m happy.