I’ve had to sell my house. An excruciatingly painful heart breaking decision I had to make. I remember when we bought this house. I pictured us growing old in this house. I pictured us raising children in this house. I pictured us having more than two years of memories in this house. This house was dream worthy perfect for me. And a terrible situation my husband and I ended up in forced us to sell our house and flee. One week today I move out. One more week. Our mortgage fell through on our new house, I don’t know where we are going to go. And now it’s really hitting me. As I sit here and type this, in the room  I’m in right now, on week today I won’t be here. Someone else will be here. When I lay in my bed tonight, one week today I don’t know where my bed will be. We have each other, we have our cats and our dogs. But it’s hitting me so deeply right now knowing the house I planned on spending forever in will no longer be mine in one week. In one week a new family will be making memories while mine are packed in boxes. One week today I don’t know where I will be sleeping. I appreciate deeply that even though we don’t know where we will end up we have each other and our pet kids, but this is starting to make me feel sick. I didn’t have a choice, I had to sell my house and flee the town I live in so someone stops harassing me, stops driving past my house, stops making me too afraid to leave my house. It just breaks my heart to know the house I fell deeply in love with, the house that was supposed to be filled with a lifetime of memories is almost gone. I will never come back here. I will never be in this room again. I’m scared, tired, stressed, exhausted, and most of all I just need a break I have taken blow after blow for a few months now and they just keep coming. All I want to do it give up, I keep going I try my hardest to keep it all together for my family. I don’t want to exist anymore but I know my family needs me, and I need someone to cut me flipping break. Sorry for the long rant, I feel like I’m falling apart and needed to get this off my chest.