idk what to do. nothing makes me excited, all i want to do is sleep and cry. i cant eat it feels like i cant breathe. the thought of another day after day of feeling this way, having this weight on my chest is just unbearable. my intrusive thoughts of harming myself are always there. i live alone with my dog and i dont want to leave him but im just hurting so bad and idk what to do. i dont want to go thru the holidays i dont want to have another birthday i dont want to do anything :( i dont want to be here anymore. what do i do