I started my medication back up about 2 months ago. I know I needed it back because I could not pull myself out of the dark hole I was mentally in for a year.

But I haven't told my husband. The last time I was on medication, he got upset. And insisted it was in my head and I didn't need anything. So he stopped paying for them. (I wasn't working at the time) He insists that I don't need anything but marijuana. Which, don't get me wrong, it helps with my anxiety and migraines, but not so much my depression.

Now I'm working from home. And able to pay for them myself. I know he'll see it when our end of year insurance packet comes in. But for now, I'm feeling a little better 

The dark hole is still very present. But now at least I'm able to pop my head out. I still struggle on the daily with anxiety and leaving my house, but I'm able to do short grocery trips. And every now and then, I catch myself smiling again because of my kids. 
I know adjustments still need to be done, but this is already an improvement.