am i the only person with bpd, who struggles more to give love than anything else ? 
i feel like i have lost all my love to those who were shitty people and now i’ve found THE ONE and everything could be so perfect but now i’m out of emotions and love. i feel like i’m not existing anymore. everything broke me so much that i have become someone who can’t be broken anymore because nothing touches me anymore. 
i’m hurting my BF so much with this (and he is so nice and caring). 
i’ve lost all my empathy. i don’t think about other people’s needs anymore and even if i try it’s the hardest thing ever to think about other people.
i am the opposite of myself now. i feel so cold