I posted about this the other day in other subs but idk why I didn't think to put it here. 

My mom used to tell me that I made her want to kill herself. When I was like fucking 6 or something. There were several times she said this. Once she even said so in such vivid detail that I really thought she was about to do it right then and there (we kept guns in the house growing up.) That fucking terrified me, to say the least, and I always worried from then on that if I fucked up too badly she would just off herself to get away from me. 

We have a better relationship now. She has apologized for a lot of the fucked up things she did. She was traumatized herself and truly didn't understand how a lot of it was damaging. 

But this? How do you tell a little kid that they make you want to kill yourself and not realize it's hurtful? 

No wonder I want to kms at every slight inconvenience. She taught me that's the answer.