I feel like I was born without motivation, I just don't have it. Not to live, not to do anything really. I can be productive, I provide for myself and my son between mine and my girls income. But I feel like I can't continue for long, it's not circumstantial, I've got a pretty great life, but still I don't want to live it. I'm able to ignore this feeling for some periods of time but I think it's just going to keep ruining things in my life.