My mother killed herself last year after a bad fight we had, things weren’t going well up to that point and this was the final straw where I had to say ‘enough’. I cut ties and was an emotional wreck after that, two months later I heard the news and everyone blamed me for what happened. I am so broken now not only from the trauma of our fight, (where I had to be taken in an ambulance for a nervous breakdown) but from everyone immediately blaming me and  jumping to conclusions without bothering to ask what happened between us or try to help. I have panic attacks nearly every night, I feel so alone, I have gained probably 30lbs, sometimes I feel like I might be going insane. I can’t do this.