I'm so frustrated how it seems like anything, ANYthing, I try to do to get myself through an "episode" just triggers me further. 

Go for a walk? I see happy couples and get jealous my ex left me. 

Get exercise, like the great and powerful internet says? I just feel I have soon far to go to get in better shape like all the happy people who don't fight emotional battles holding them back CONSTANTLY. Jealous, angry. 

And then, maybe it's depression, but even escape activities solo - like binging on a show or spending time on a game, the characters or storyline gets under my skin. I can relate too well to the characters, or I'm too heartbroken if they die, or, just my character in a game online, the obstacles it faces ingame seem too overwhelming, reminding me of "life".

God, what a nightmare