So I’ve been dealing with depression since I was 13/14, I’m now 21. I think things are getting worse for me though, like lately I’ve been putting important things off(finding a job, getting into school, taking care of things) in favor of living in some sort of world I created… like when I’m there I’m happy because I feel accepted and I don’t have to constantly put on a front. Recently I’ve been trying to make friends, but like most of the people were just perverts and one guy called me immature because I hide my pain through jokes and I’m uncomfortable with talk of sex. I don’t really see any reasons to keep going through with this existence if I’m only going to feel miserable and get treated like shit. Like I want to live but I don’t see a point if I can’t contribute or talk to people, I want to find a partner but people are normally just off put by me and I don’t even feel like I deserve love anymore. I’m tired of always being in pain and being constantly confused