I am 20f I also have severe depression and suicidal thoughts. I have been going thorough something weird for over a year now. Literally nothing feels real and I don’t even know if I’m real or exist. Like I literally feel like everyday I just autopilot through everyday and I don’t have many thoughts. I feel like the entire world is a simulation. I’m starting to get more suicidal everyday because I hate my life and I feel like if I was gone no one would miss me because they’re not even real. I feel like living on earth is a huge waste of time because all I do is suffer I don’t even know what happiness is anymore. I haven’t felt any happy feeling since fall of 2019. I feel like I am brain dead. Does anyone go through something similar or have an idea how I can deal with this or try to come back to reality.