Hey guys, I'm new to not only the group and I really don't know where else to go.

I'm coming off citalopram (slowly with Dr supervision) and my anxiety is the worse it's ever been. I've been on SSRIs since 2008 and was on 20mg citalopram for about 8-10 years of that. I'm finally weaning myself off but it's not easy. I think I'm looking for help or maybe just someone who's been here before. I've gone from 20 to 10 for a several months, and now I'm down to 5mg (10 cut in half as it's the lowest dose). 

My nausea is constant, I now am having gastro issues including abdominal pain and IBS, weight loss, depression, extreme anxiety, and an inability to control my thoughts. It's causing me to be crazy irritable, sensitive, annoyed, scared, and so much more. Recently I found myself having issues hyperventilating, then overcompensating by slowing my breathing too much. This spiraled to the point where that when I start panicking, I reach for my smart watch to get an O² reading. And now I'm obsessed with my breathing...

I've been told that it's easy to confuse withdrawal symptoms with relapse symptoms so I'm concerned that I don't know if it's medication induced or not. You can see the obsessive thoughts and hypochondria setting in as you read this, I'm sure. 

I'm afraid that is already affecting my relationship. Even though she's been a trooper throughout this, it's taking it's toll. It's just really hard to talk to someone that doesn't get it. They can try, and I appreciate that she does, they just don't really know. 

I don't know what I want from this, if I'm asking for help or suggestions, or maybe so someone else reading this doesn't feel alone. Maybe someone can tell me that I'm not alone.