What’s the point of opening up to anybody at all? Every time I tell anybody anything about how I feel, I regret it because now they are concerned for me. They think about me more. All I want is to be ignored and forgotten but I let that slip and it has the opposite affect. I realize that I’m lucky to have people care about me but all I want is to be left alone. I am content with my intentional downward spiral. Come to think of it, I actually regret typing this out and hope nobody replies. Wtf am I doing.