I’m going through a manic episode at the moment, and I feel like he dislikes me. Today at work, my three coworkers and I were bored. There were no customers, so therefore, nothing to do. I’m not very talkative. I talk, but the other three talk more. One of my coworkers said one of us could wipe down the windows. Another coworker (my crush) said he would pull up a random number generator. We all picked numbers one through four. 

When he pressed the button, he told another coworker that he’s close with jokingly to clean the windows. The coworkers said “really?” My crush said no, and seemed really hesitant. It landed on my number. He showed me the number on the website on his phone. My crush asked if I was sure that it was okay if I cleaned the windows. I said it was. As I was leaving, I heard him tell another coworker “I feel bad” 

But why though? We all agreed on the number thing. I’m just paranoid because a friend said that maybe the random generator wasn’t random and he deliberately chose me because he dislikes me. However, we have a good relationship going on. He’s always happy to see me. He and I talk when we can. Sometimes he even flirts with me a little bit. I just don’t know. It kind of got into my head a little bit.