I've got the most wonderful fiancé. I love her with all I know and we're in a newly polyamorous relationship where usually I can contain my jealousy. I've become a little more obsessed lately especially since we've overcome what feels like a new wall of intimacy. That being me actually crying during sex which isn't something I've ever felt enough comfort and emotion to do. Lately when she doesn't wake up and I'm awake on my own I get angry almost. I start feeling like she doesn't want to be awake to spend time with me and I can't understand why.