It’s been a rough two years for me. I feel very alone and numb. I don’t think I have much left in me anymore. Im depressed living at my mothers was trying to heal and get better but it seems this environment is making it worst. My mother has no idea how to deal with my mental health. She sees I’m down and somehow her first thought is to berate me and make me feel worse like my mind isn’t doing that for me already. I don’t see a future anymore. I don’t want to die but I don’t want to live this way anymore. I feel alone. I have friends and I have a therapist I see for one hour a week. But I can’t burden my friends anymore. My therapist can only do so much with one hour a week. I don’t know what to do anymore. On top of that I’m dealing with bad heartbreak and the person who knew my pain added more pain to my life. Anyways I think this is the end. I don’t see a solution but to just leave this earth.