I got hired to do janitorial work again. I didn’t want to keep doing Janitorial work and while I get to wear a mask, the mask policy isn’t mandated and I don’t like that I have to potentially risk my life for 12 stupid dollars an hour. Janitorial work is not something ‘below me’ I just really want to change my career paths. I’m 25 and have accomplished nothing, no post secondary, not able to live on my own, no money. If I go on tinder to find someone to talk to I feel predatory if I talk to the 18 year olds despite probably being closer to the mental capacity of an 18 or 19 year old but if I try to talk to people my age I feel like a lame as well, I feel stupid and worthless no matter who I talk to. I am really tempted to just quit my new job entirely and try something else but I live with family and they will kick me out and I’ll be homeless and if I died of covid they’d just pretend to the public they cared when they didn’t and said as much. People expect males to have some sort of power or something but we are just the same and I don’t know what to do. I may have covid already, I don’t know, but I have fatty liver, HPV which I’ve had since at least 2015 due to being lied to by a woman I trusted, and am paranoid of cancer related to HPV or my severe GERD and just want to survive into old age. I am not stupid, I just do not understand math beyond maybe a fifth grade level and do not really understand Science. My English grades were poor too but realistically I probably sit on the line between regular and gifted English capabilities. I don’t know what to do, I feel like if I were female there would be people there for me, and yes that is the fault of men I understand but I feel like because I am male I am expected to be the person who has it all figured out and I know nothing. I don’t even know how to fix my education. I feel like a complete failure and am scared to leave my house but have to because if I don’t I’m going to get kicked out even sooner.