We've been together for over a year and he is my first long term relationship.  He didn't respond to my messages after a fight. It was a whole work day. He was gone for more than 3 hours after the time he usually gets home from work. I blew up his phone while he was gone. "I was drinking at work," he said. He called me nuts. I want to die. He probably was drinking at work. I'm crazy. Please talk to me.