I have no friends anymore. Used to have a great group of friends in highschool but we drifted apart after we graduated. I have never been asked out or even dated anyone. I’m in my 20’s now and that’s pretty pathetic to me. I thought I had a bff but the more I think about our relationship, I think we both were both toxic. I know I have mental health problems and my friend obviously does but doesn’t seem to care. (That’s what I assume since they won’t get actual help for it) Is it normal for a friend to self harm when you try and commit suicide. I tried because I was in a dark dark place and found out a few days later, that my friend self harmed because of me. That truly made me feel like shit. I’m afraid of not being there friend because of that. I did hurt them once because I said something not nice but I was angry and going through something. I let that affect me and make me hate everyone. I apologized and recognized that what I did wasn’t okay. I truly felt bad but my friend didn’t seem to understand how bad it is that they self harmed because I tried to kill myself. I want a friendship where I don’t have to worry about a friend a lot. I just want to hang out and goof off. I can’t with this friend because I don’t know them in person. I just wish to have a true friend that I can just be a friend with. But that’s not gonna happen. I’ll be alone forever. I just want a bff that is my partner and we love each other and grow old together. Is that too much to ask for?