I hate that every time I don’t get a text back from someone my first response is to check their social media and see if they’re online. 

I hate that every time my best friend says he’s too busy to play a game with me, I have to check all of his gaming accounts to see if he’s online. Even if he goes invisible I can still see his play activity on his profile, which makes me even more insecure because I feel like he’s hiding from me. 

It’s such an invasion of privacy, and it makes feel like a stalker but I can’t help myself. It’s like I have to constantly feed my insecurities and trust issues. And then I end up getting upset about things I shouldn’t know and can’t talk about.

Life would just be so much easier for me if I never knew what other people were doing.