I'm constantly at war with myself about this. Really hoping I'm not the only one.

My FP is not my partner, but we are romantically involved. I'm getting all the red flags for abusive behavior. He makes misogynystic comments all the time. He objectifies me, regularly disregarding my wellbeing and safety just to get what he wants. He crosses my boundaries. He scares me.

Nearly every fuckin cell in my body and mind is screaming to get out while I still can....

But he's my FP. 

So, instead of ending things, I listen to my maddening need to continue engaging with him, to continue seeking his validation. I idealize the parts of him that I adore, in spite of his inexcusable behavior. 

Anyone else have a terrible FP?
