Every time a friend would go slightest bit distant, I start thinking only about bad things... 

I don't know how to act without sabotaging my relationships. I start sending a lot of message that contain random nonesense. 

Is there's something I can do so I can at least calm myself ? 

I really hope that my friend doesn't hate me right now because I might have sent like 10 texts, nothing bad, I was just worried that he wasn't feeling well, due to the fact that he was dealing with a lot for the past year or so... And all I really wanted  is to  feel like he's letting me be there for him, but instead I'm looking like some crazy girl who's probably only seeking attention. 

I know he won't hate me because of that. I've done this behavior before. And he knows that whenever he gets distant I started texting him a bunch of texts. I'm just afraid that this behavior will someday get out of hand and I'll end up doing something much worse... 


I really hope that I get better at managing all of this, one day...