I would. This thought crosses my mind more than id like to admit. I passively want to die. I want to die, but I have no plan. I have no plan because I know I can’t die. But the thought of how nice my car would look wrapped around a tree, or telephone pole, or the bottom of the lake likes to creep into my mind. But I have responsibilities. I have a cat, nieces, nephews, little siblings, a baby, debt to pay, a boyfriend, friends and family, etc. So I will continue just going through the motions with a “smile”.