So i don't know whether or not it's like bulimia or something but, 

i like to barely eat anything, and then afterward vomit it out. I get really angry with myself when i eat more than i think i should eat which tends to be more than one small bowl of rice with whatever food goes with it. i don't eat after 7 and when i do, i make sure to vomit whatever i eat. 

i've felt like vomiting out my food many times when i feel like i've eaten to much but it's only now that i'm pursuing it. i used to binge eat a lot but then i started to slowly not binge eat but i still hate the amount of food that is on my plate every time i have to eat. i feel like when i vomit out my food, i feel a lot better since it feels like im getting closer to my goals, it tastes sweet almost.

i'm starting to look at food as a chore. i'm currently 64.5 kg 162 cm. i'm trying to get to 55kg or even better 50kg. i do my best to excersize and things like that but i've been stuck at 65 for so long. i lost about 5kg but i need to get into the 50's.