i just went through a break up last weekend and up until i would say wednesday night/thursday i was in deep deep distress and mental dark hole. the week prior i had already felt rly rly mentally bad so the break up just made it 100x worse. i was shaking and crying and just very very very distressed and overwhelmed. now i feel almost none of that. i started taking effexor this week with hydroxyzine for my anxiety and in regards to the break up i know factually we are broken up but in my head something isn’t clicking. i will be waiting for things that we used to do or almost instinctively work them into my schedule until i realize i can’t do that stuff anymore. i feel like it’s not real and that i’m going to wake up at some point or we are just taking a break. i have depersonalization and dissociation problems so mayb that’s it but i just don’t know what to do about this or if anyone has experienced it i just feel very very alone and scared of myself. also context : we ended things on good terms so it wasn’t like they cheated on me or anything we are both in love i think my depersonalization was getting to me though and i can barely do anything without it overwhelming me plus they are dealing w other personal stuff.