I (M/30) can't sleep lately. I'm too anxious. I've been stretching my BA in psychology since 2017, but I'm going to finish it next year. This year I'm doing a year-long research seminar for high grading students that's supposed to give me a really good recommendation for my MA, but the demands are just too damn high. I don't have any free time, at all. Every moment goes to that. I've deserted my hobbies, decided to avoid dating (even though I want to) because I don't feel like I'm available, I've even almost completely stopped working, which put me into an ocean of debt - and even then, I don't have time for anything other than conducting and writing that research.

I feel lost and burnt out. I'm exhausted and I need a break, and I can't have it. I keep telling myself that it's going to end soon, that's it's only going to get easier after that, but I don't have any reserves left in me.

The anxiety is getting stronger, and I can't sleep, I feel like I'm choking. I'm so tired and I'm just laying in bed, eyes wide awake. Can't relax. Can't even meditate. Can't talk about anything else. Just consumed by this hellish research. 

I need some air.