basically what the title says. of course they’re going to die one day, but i’m 19 and just started my freshman year of college and still very much need them around. i have their locations on and i swear i check theirs more than they check mine, and i feel like i’m annoying them so much because some days i’ll just randomly text/facetime them just to see if they’re okay. my cousins lost their dad a little over a year ago and i have seen how they have recovered and overall they seem okay. i know that so many people have lost parents at a young age (or whatever age really) and it’s horrific but life goes on, i just dont know what i would do. i feel like the more i think about it the more i’m putting it into the universe (i know that sounds crazy). i think being on the internet and specifically tiktok has been this so much worse because i’m constantly seeing people my age or younger posting about their parents’ death and i just constantly have this feeling that one or both of them could die at any moment. 

it’s become obsessive at this point and i’m exhausted.