I’m so goddamn done right now. I am getting so fucking pissed (which isn’t normal for me - I’m quiet Borderline, so you guys stoked Mama bear a bit. Haha) I’ve read a couple posts on mental health professional turning you guys away and it just lit that flame within me and made it a bonfire. 

I’m done with how people treat us. How people treat anyone with a mental illness. I am so goddamn done. So many people have had doctors turn them away, say bad shit, hell even I had a goddamn Uber driver who turned out to be a marriage and family therapist go on a rant about “stay away from the borderlines.”

I’m done because we are not all the fucking same. We never have been. Even my twin sister grouped me together with everyone else when I was Dxed for a moment before I called her out on her bullshit. NO ONE IN THIS WORLD IS THE SAME!

I’m sick and tired of having to fight to express myself - sometimes I just want to scream at the world and say “We were fucking abused by assholes like you! Do something about it you goddamn idiots!” (Obviously not everyone is an asshole but those who are trying to quiet us, pause and think about that for a second will you? Why should we be quiet? Because it makes people uncomfortable?) I’m tired of people using my mental illness against me, especially at work, especially if I am getting emotional because guess what motherfuckers? My emotions are also valid!! So are yours!! Never forget that! Sure - I do a lot to reign them in. But they are always valid.

Also - I just want to give everyone here a massive internet hug and say it’s gonna be okay. Fuck everyone that says you can’t change and do better. I believe in you. You are doing great. Be kind to yourself.💜

I also know that little voice probably just popped up and is saying “yeah - but I have done so much bad shit” - yep, so have I. So has everyone else in this motherfucking world. Own it. Embrace it. Forgive yourself and make amends if need be and move foreword. Love yourself you beautiful thing. Always remember that.

I need to go beat the shit out of my drums... but seriously - give yourself a hug from me. Right now. Are you doing it? I can’t see you! Okay - good. 💜💜