Today I had a very bad depressive mood and i decided to cut myself but I didn’t try enough and it just left a couple welts. I’ve never done this before only had thoughts but I guess I’m just scared now that I’ll start to be more comfortable. I always said I was too scared to self harm or kill myself but I’m scared I’m starting to not be anymore. I really just don’t want to feel this way when it gets really bad. Usually i think I can manage pretty well. :/