I don't know why I am typing this out but I am honestly done. I've had trust and insecurity issues for a very long time but what really traumatizes me is when the worst voices actually end up being right. I have been out of social media for a week and I thought that atleast one of my friends would be sincere enough to give me a call or ask me how I am doing by knocking me up. Nothing. Not even a single response. I understand now that most people only acquaint themselves with me when I am the one to reach out or when I present myself as a victim to them. I am not really valuable as a friend, I am not someone who would stay in their minds. These past couple of days, I have been thinking about all of them but it seems like they don't miss me as much as I miss them. I'm done with living such a pitiful life. And no, this is not a fucking suicide note because I don't plan to kill myself or anything like that, I am just not giving a shit about anyone anymore. It fucking hurts a lot but its still better than living through a false illusion. I don't really know half the people here and my message is not even intended for anyone here but I just needed to vent this out and I am sorry that I am such a mess. I feel terrible rn. I feel like no one loves me, no one needs/wants me and that my death wouldn't bother anyone either. ( I typed it out to write to this Facebook groupchat that I am added in but I've decided not to. I am feeling extremely overwhelmed and I have no one to tell all these to..)