

Hi there. I am a young man from Norway suffering from both PTSD and an autoimmune condition. I have gotten the autoimmune condition somewhat in check by switching to an all meat diet the last years (sounds crazy, I know) but it works.

I had COVID last summer, wich left me in terrible shape all winter. For long periods I could only stay at home, mostly on the couch. Weeks turned into months, and after serveral failed attempts at keeping my life on track- I caved in. Depression hit hard, and as always with it’s partner in crime- Anxiety. Theres been about two years since I stopped Escitalopram (Lexapro) due to lack of motivation, loss of libido and no more lust for life. I don’t want to go back on an SSRI again, as I am in a relationship now, and as an artist I find it really killed my creativity.

I tried Mirtazapine, since I also sleep too little, and have lost weight while sick. But that gave me severe acute akathesia! And i could not stop moving, and was shaking uncontrollably while feeling very tense and stressed out. Tried Moclobemide, and I loved the feeling it gave, BUT it raised my overall anxiety, and made me feel very tense. I had such high hopes for Moclobemide.

Last time I was at the doctors he perscribed me Trintellix (Vortioxetine) and I have spent my days since then reading up on the pros and cons of this medication. Seems like some people love it, while others almost damn it to hell. I have been having severe brain fog since COVID, and have also felt empty, and just plain boring as a result of that. Reading about Trintellix and it’s supposed cognitive benifits really exites me. But I am still too afraid to take it. Why? Good fucking question. Guess I don’t feel like I can afford losing more of myself. Or going crazy as a consequense of feeling «out of it». I was put on antipsychotics once because of misdiagnosis, and that really fucked me over sideways. So, ever since then I have been scared to take any medications. 

If people could weigh in on this, and their experience with this medication- I would be really greatful. Good and bad, no sugar coating. Thank you.