Hi all!

I’m posting because I’m in dire need of some reassurance and could use some support. I have severe health anxiety and up until last Thursday (other than the occasional anxiety attack), I was managing okay with no meds etc... On Thursday at 3am I woke up with a little bit of arm numbness. Most people would’ve attributed it to sleeping incorrectly but I looked up the symptoms of stroke, which set off the “perfect storm” of weekend events. I immediately panicked, thinking I was taking a stroke and my heart started pounding out of my chest, my legs were shaking so badly it looked like I was having a seizure, and then I got so nauseous I made myself throw up. All of this lasted around 45 minutes-hour before I finally fell back to sleep. I woke up Friday morning feeling off due to the previous nights events and started hyper fixating on the ark numbness which had not totally subsided. I then became worried about MS all day and could not eat, or concentrate on anything. Around 4pm I took a bath and looked down at my toes, convincing myself they looked purple due to lack of oxygen, because you know..at this point why not? And took another anxiety attack right there in the tub. I laid down and could not stop shaking and making myself throw up. From that point on, all night on Friday, I was up EVERY TWO HOURS forcing myself to gag from the extreme anxiety. At one point, I had myself convinced it was COVID and panicked even more. My doctor called me in a script for Kolonipin to help immediately, I took it and the edge came right off but I’m trying to avoid taking them unless it’s absolutely necessary. He’s recommending therapy and I have to wait for the call. 

Anyway, since then, I have felt physically off with periods of “okayness,” followed by periods of extreme edginess and fatigue, which has me convinced I have cancer, although I was physically perfect until last weekend. Has anything similar ever happened to any of you? My fiancé and mother are getting pretty sick of me at this point and I could use someone to talk to.