I’ve been sick for the past 3 days suffering from an infection that really makes my whole body ache +more. I haven’t really gotten outta bed until today for a family gathering that I was extremely hesitant to go to but my bf insisted I go to get some fresh air. So I went by myself. 

I started to feel pain while being with my family so I decided it was time to leave. When I got home crying, I hear my bf and our roommates laughing in our room and immediately got upset and went back to my car because all I wanted to do was just lay down and relieve my pain :( all emotions took over me and I just kept thinking “my bf knows I’m sick, he knows I was coming home, he knows how much I didn’t wanna go over to my family’s house so why did he think it was a good idea to invite our roommates into our room while I’m on my way home? I’m in pain!!” 

UGH!! I didn’t even tell him I arrived in the house bc I was so mad I just got up and went back to my car for 20 minutes until I finally texted him to let me know when they left the room. So I go in after they leave and Im so furious even though I know I SHOULDNT BE!! My bf greeted me and I just walked passed him and said hi without even looking at him. I was so cold and short with him I’m so ashamed of my behavior because I knew if today was a regular day and I wasn’t sick, I would’ve had NO PROBLEM with them being in the room bc they are my friends too😓My boyfriend has taken care of me every single time I have gotten sick and NEVER COMPLAINS!!! It’s like I know I’m causing damage but I can’t bring myself to physically stop acting this way. I’m so ashamed of acting this way towards him because he doesn’t deserve it.