For someone who abandoned me and got close to the closest person I had. Now they’re resolved in their feelings. I’d be healed if I traveled and fell in love all over again. You got a chance to heal. My heart is still crushed. My ex and I cuddle but it’s not the same and it never will. He’s no longer monogamous and my fear of never being good enough yet again magnified. And Her?  she never even wanted to ask me why she legit just abandoned me got with my ex and now I’m stuck loving two people still and feeling like disposable trash. He’s not warm like he once was. It’s just not very affectionate. My life feels loveless.