Okay, I am struggling a lot.  I recently got discharged from the mental hospital. 

 I tried to kill myself by drinking alcohol  and it didnt work. Instead I had a panic attack and was taken to the ER/ mental hospital. I was held for three days. I had 17 panic attacks in 5 days. even when I was heavily drugged up.  I don't know what's wrong with me . I think I'm going to die. I am scared to go back because I don't want them to put me back in there.