how the hell do people make friends so easily? i dont get it, i try socializing, trying to get into things other people are interested in, i try to include myself, but everything just seems to fail and i get shoved or pushed out verbally, i have this one friend who i feel really close to, but as they develop a friend group of a decent chunk of people, i just get forgotten and left in the dust...thats how this has always been, i cant get a good time with friends who will be outgoing and willing to be with me either physically or virtually, or wanting to be, the only thing i get is people thatakee happy when im there but then dont give 2 shits about me when i leave.. i just dont wanna fucking be lonely....it hurts....