I'm a 30 year old male and for years I've suspected I have BPD. I also have ADD, and the hyperfocus I get at times has led me to dive deep into anything involving BPD and I'd bet my life savings that it's exactly what I have. Learning more about it has helped, but I feel like it's hurt me more than anything. I know way too much about myself and I still can't control it. For years I've been wanting to seek some help, but I literally have no idea where to start. I have great health insurance insurance, so that's not the issue. I just don't know exactly who I'm supposed to see and what I'm supposed to say. The idea of accidentally going to the wrong person for the wrong thing makes me so anxious.