Just a terrible day. Stress, difficult telephone calls with ex about coparenting schedule of teenage kids  who want to change stuff but ex is so rigid, I've been crying all day, , its just so difficult, life, just living, always angry or sad, not being understood, misunderstood, panick, anxiety, why do I still bother? Now my partner just walked in after work but I m just to tired and down after so much panick and crying I dont even know I want to share stuff with him,like it is not possible to find words , wanna cry or just numb watch tv, till deep into the night 🥺🥺🥺 and when on monday at my shrinks office: " just fine, blahblah" and not telling him how fucked up I feel about myself