I could spend all my time with my FP but lately he seems to be angry and exploding (because I always want to be together). I understand I am in the wrong and somehow always get my way and get him to stay with me (after reading more about BPD I understand this is wrong and I’m trying to work on it hence this post.) 

Today he lost it and said things that really, really hurt my feelings... he let it all out. About how I’m controlling and all he wants is a night out with his friends etc. He has every right to do so, what doesn’t help is the fact I don’t like his friend (the type to cheat on their girlfriends). 

Today he said, I’m going whether you want me to or not. He invitees me to come; and I rejected as I was extremely hurt from what he said earlier. 

I’m just wondering what I can do to not feel anxious and have obsessive thinking about him being out in a club without me.... 

Any tips? How can I fall asleep without worrying about this?