I don’t know how to get myself up and out of this slump.

I just came off of having a fun weekend with one of my old friends. We went to a concert and I felt really confident. I had to drive to drop him off today and on the way back I checked in on my Ex who has been having a tough time too right now. We broke up two weeks ago.


The drive home was an hour, so we had time to talk and catch up. But as soon as I got home I felt a sudden emptiness. Its been hard getting along with my roommates (one of which I’ve known for years). I’ve always struggled with being social, and when we first moved in this year I had a hard time with my depression and focusing on work. It took a toll on me so I wasn’t really socializing with my roommates. I just wanted time to myself. It got bad enough to where they’d start talking bad about me behind my back while I’m still there, which made things worse. Its not been fun, I don’t want to move back home, but I don’t have much motivation or desire to move right now. 

My social awkwardness/anxiety/lack of social skills have made it hard for me to make and keep friends. I just don’t feel the desire to talk even though I enjoy a good conversation. Its made it hard to enjoy the things I want to, to maintain relationships and be the person I dreamed I’d be as at 23. 

I’ve been laying in bed all day since I got home. I’m hungry, yet I don’t want to get out of bed and leave my room. The lights are off, it’s 8pm, and I don’t know what to do. 

I’m losing/lost one of my best friends because of this and I just feel lost. I’m just venting right now to be honest, getting it written down somewhere.