Hey guys!
This is my first time writing here and the reason is that I can’t help but wonder if I’m the only one who’s this jealous. Right now I’m so mad at my fp for spending time with their friends. I seriously started hating those people my fp’s hanging out with just because they stopped texting me and fp focuses all the attention on their friends. Most of the time my fp tells me that they want to be with me as much as they can and stuff like that and even though I don’t take it seriously much I still feel hurt that right know they aren’t here for me. I know I’m irrational and I need to stop this jealousy but I can’t seem to stop??? Like I’m so mad I feel like my fp is slowly abandoning me and I should just keep my distance from now on and stop talking to them... I get really depressed when I feel like I’m not important to someone and I just want to punch the wall or something...  I’m afraid I’m going to leash out and yell at my fp for things that I shouldn’t. I’m still trying to stop myself but I’m 99% sure that I’ll have hard time sleeping tonight and I’ll text them after 3 hours of trying to fall asleep to finally vent about the issue and say things that I shouldn’t. 
Oh god this post is not making sense at all, but I just wanted to ask if there’s anything I can do to stop this? I feel terrible for wanting to do bad things to all those people when they’re not doing anything wrong... (Thanks for reading this far by the way; normally I’d discuss this with my therapist but she’s not here during summer)