Even when I’m with my partners (I’m in a poly relationship) I can’t help but feel empty and alone and honestly left out at times. I just want to be loved but I feel so unloveable. I was told a few weeks ago by one of my partners that I’m controlling and manipulative and that I make him want to kill himself and he apologized and said he didn’t mean it was just upset but I still wonder constantly if that’s his true feelings. I love so deeply but it feels like no one ever loves me the same.