I was recently diagnosed and don’t know how to talk to people around me when I’m struggling. I feel like if I say I’m in an episode then I’m making excuses for my behavior. Literally no one has told me this or made me feel like a burden, so I guess it’s my own stigma.
I’m on Lamictal and Prozac and working on dialing that in, but I just had a manic episode and was so productive and I loved it, but I ended up breaking down afterward because I wish I didn’t have to be having symptoms to be productive.
I’ve also been shopping around for therapists but the last two I went to left a pretty bad taste in my mouth. One pretty much told me I could simply think myself out of an episode and made me feel like my diagnosis wasn’t valid. It felt awful, especially considering I’ve been told I had depression for 10 years and my psychiatrist was the first person to listen to me and say “maybe that’s not right” instead of just agreeing with previous doctors and refilling my medication.
I just really needed to vent to people who may relate…