Sometimes I wish I was never born to begin with. I don’t even remember the last time I spoke with my friends, was it 2 years ago? Or maybe around this time last year when my father passed away. I don’t feel like talking with anyone but at the same time I want someone to talk to, it makes me feel crazy.

I won’t kill myself, I don’t even know what I want anymore, I just want to stop feeling all those emotions for a while, in order to pretend that everything might be alright.