i’m going back to school on tuesday and i have exams soon. i genuinely do not think i can handle it. it’s not that i’m not trying, because i am, but it takes so much to even get out of bed and classes make me so anxious. it’s just all so exhausting. we’re recommend 15 hours of studying a week outside of lesson time every week and i can barely get through 30 minutes to do homework let alone studying. i know that i haven’t prepared anywhere near enough to do well and i don’t think i can handle another failure at the hands of my depression. it’s so frustrating because i’m trying so hard to get through it and put in the work to get the grades i know i can, i’m trying so fucking hard and i can still barely do anything. it’s so humiliating. how do i lift myself out of this rut?