Long story short, someone finally called me out on my manipulative behavior. I didn’t realize that’s how u was being, but now I know and I’m disgusted at myself considering I’ve been abused and manipulated before and knowing how awful it made me feel I hate the fact that I’ve made someone else feel the same way. I’m drafting an apology to the friend who called me out. They didn’t deserve to be treated that way. I need an outside perspective to help me make sure everything sounds okay. 

“ I’m sorry I said those awful manipulative things. I didn’t know in the moment that I was being manipulative but looking back at it I can see that how I acted was coercive and unfair. I didn’t consider how it would affect everyone watching and I wish I could take it all back. I don’t want to be that kind of person.

Thank you for calling me out. It’s not what I wanted to hear but it’s what I needed to hear.

If there’s anything I can do to fix things between us please let me know, even if you want me to leave you alone, just let me know. “

Please be brutally honest. I don’t care how much it hurts, I want to do this the right way.