i don’t know if this is where i should even be posting this but here we go. on the 8th of this month, my brother was killed. i still don’t know how i’m able to get up out of bed everyday from that. i feel so lost without my brother and i just wish i could hug him one more time. a couple days later, i meet this amazing girl online. we have been talking every single day, all day and i really really like her. only problem is we live in different states, but we planned to fly out to meet each other and take trips, etc. fast forward to this week, she suffered a tragic loss and she needs time alone and to grieve. and i 100% understand seeing as i’m also grieving. it just sucks so bad because i really want to be there for her but i don’t want to overwhelm her by constantly checking on her and texting. it’s like 90% of me is genuinely concerned but the other 10% of me just doesn’t want her to forget about me in the meantime. i know it’s so selfish and i hate myself for feeling this way, i just really like her and she was one of the only things keeping me going in these tough times and now she’s basically gone. i just feel so lonely and more depressed than before.