I was arrested when I was experiencing a really bad anger episode. Honestly I could not control myself and I had no idea at the time that I had bpd. Looking back I feel so ashamed and empty. This is not who I am, people used to look at me as I am a good guy now I am a monster. I don’t like what I am currently doing and I find myself crying a lot because I’m just not happy with my life. I don’t even know what’s next and that scares me. I have a mugshot online and everytime I think of the future that image comes up in my mind and pulls me back. I’m scared. I’m crying as I type this. I just feel so empty and so ugly. What happened to me.. Idk I guess I just needed somewhere to type out my pain. Anyway has anyone with bpd been arrested?

Thank you