Well this week has been the roughest week of my life. My girlfriend of 3+ years and I separated, and it was basically my fault. I have had horrible anxiety for years and I have built a really bad addiction to marijuana over the years as well. Exactly a week ago was finally the breaking point, I said some really bad things and hid my relapse and that was finally the end. My anxiety has been though the roof and I have been extremely sad. I feel as though the weed mixed with my bad anxiety caused our relationship to fall apart, and it really sucks. She says we will probably not talk again for a long time but is rooting for me to get better but it really hurts, I would talk to her all day everyday and now I don’t really have anyone to talk to besides my mom, it’s been extremely hard.

I found this subreddit a few days ago because I couldn’t find a good way to cope with my lost relationship and the anxiety and sadness that followed it. Well, there have been a number of posts here that I have read and I realize that I am not alone, and it’s been comforting to me. I’m happy to say that I have not smoked weed in 5 days and tomorrow I will begin therapy to try and help my anxiety and addiction. I’m finally starting to get the drive to get out of bed and so some schoolwork and not just be sad all day. It’s been extremely hard and I know it is going to take time before things are somewhat normal again, but fuck man it’s been really hard.

Thank you everyone on this subreddit for being so helpful, not just for me, but for thousands of other people who are going through some sort of struggle. You guys helped me solidify that I need help and it helped make me feel less alone. For everyone out there who is struggling, there is help, no matter what, hang in there.

Thanks again, I hope to be back to normal soon.