I'm tired of living in constant fucking torment. I can never talk to anyone, because I have low self-esteem due to the fact that I'm ugly as fucking hell and I have severe social anxiety. Everyone always uses me as a punching bag, the only "friends" I have (which are not a lot) only come up to me when they need something. Other times, they just completely ignore me. I have no friends, everyone hates me, and my existence is a burden to everyone. I have NOBODY to open up these feelings to, so l have to bottle up every last one of them here. I have no motivation to do anything nor to get out of bed, providing that my life is just a empty void of misery and distress. I tried therapy but it doesn't do shit. I tried every hobby there's to try, and still nothing. The only thing that I somewhat enjoy is videogames, and I only use that to pass time. Even different medications don't work. I can't fucking wait until my death. 90% of the "friends" I made in my entire life came out as fake friends. Everyone who got into my life either bullied the shit out of me, abused me verbally and/or physically, or left me. I can never hold a proper conversation without stuttering half the god damn time. Even when I do people always have to correct me, making me feel like a complete dumbass. So yeah, I'm done. I'm gonna kill myself shortly. I can't take it anymore. I fucking hate everyone. I appreciate you if you actually took the time to read this. I'm just really pissed off on how my life is a wrecked hell. Sorry if this sounds stupid, I'm used to getting negative replies anyways.