I'm absolutely worth nothing. I'm tired of everyone saying I matter. If I did I'd actually mean something to somebody in society. Many say how they have no friends or partners, I'm the same way. Nobody likes me or wants to be a friend, and honestly I don't want to be my friend either. I hate myself so damn much it makes me laugh.

I have no dreams or aspirations, no care for literally anything. I don't want to do life but I'm forced to, fuck that. I'm tired of seeing everyone with successful jobs, houses too big for them, fast cars. Even those things now would not make me happy. Life is fucking pointless and dumb.

I'm 23 with no job or money. No care about hygiene or health. Awkward around people when in public. I avoid social situations and interactions. I sleep most the day, drink at night, and repeat. Please don't tell me to stop, its pointless in saying it to me.

I'm just so done being alive. I'm such an idiot why did I write this nonsense once again?