I’m currently at my Starbucks shift for training. All I can think about is the potential that was wasted in these last 5 years. My heart and brain ache so much, I literally feel like crying 24/7. My mom wants me to go on anti-depression and/or anti-anxiety medication as she is tired of hearing me cry almost everyday. I can’t stand the fact that I was so dumb to realize I had the world in my hands, I had the opportunity to better myself and make new friends. Honestly, I don’t want to live anymore, I can’t handle this pain.