
[20 years old, was diagnosed w bpd earlier this year, am currently in therapy]
So basically i recently cut of two people, both who i was very close with for over a year. We met online and immediately hit it off, it was almost like we all connected on a mental and emotional level. 
we would all meet up rather frequently, text every single day and spend hours upon hours in a voice chat just talking about stuff. It was really fun. Both of these ppl were rly kind to me and i really felt appreciated . At some point i even lied about being in love with one of them, just to make sure that they still care about me. I loved both of these people so much and even was considering on becoming roommates w one of them. 
And then one day i woke up, send a half-assed text about how i dont want to talk with them anymore into the groupchat, left the said chat, blocked both of them and deleted their numbers. Both of them found ways to reach out to me, one offered me to talk about what happened and the other one was just making sure that i was okay.  i ended up blocking them on every social media site i know. 
And its so weird because i was almost emotionally dependent on staying in touch with them for such a long time, just to randomly wake up one day and decide that i never want to see either of them ever again. Is that a bpd thing? I suppose i was just being an asshole but it felt like a switch flipped inside me. Like i just suddenly stopped caring. And it was not like splitting because splitting usually triggers really hostile and aggressive behaviour + thoughts (atleast in my case) here i just randomly stopped caring about them. And it all happened so suddenly, like two days before the incident i met up w both of them and then we also spend like three hours in a voice chat afterwards. And it so weird because i dont miss them, like at all, i am not sad or angry. Its almost like they never entered my life in the first place 
... but i am also so confused. Has anyone experienced something similar?