How do you experience paranoid ideation? I find that I tend to have this alternative narrative in my head all the time but it gets louder when I'm over tired or stressed, for example, imagine everytime you talk to you friends, there's a quiet voice in your head telling you that they're having sex with your partner (boyfriend or girlfriend depending who you are) and it dissects everything they say and tries to tie it together into this big conspiracy where your friend is secretly laughing with your partner about how they're both fooling you and having sex behind your back. It's always there but on 10% volume, then under stress or lack of sleep the volume increases until you start withdrawing from people to "fight back" against their efforts to fool you, or you still interact but you hold back emotions and thoughts because you want to let them know it doesn't get to you. But LOGICALLY, you know its all ridiculous and you never tell anyone it's going on. A handful of times you bring it up once the volume is 100% and then play it off as a one time result of stress and lack of sleep, but this background voice has been there for over a year saying the same things. Anyone else relate to this or am I crazy?