Like... everyone seams to agree that finding the right therapist is no easy task.

I'm already depressed and have 0 motivation or energy, I can't be fucked with research and development on the right therapist?!

I used to enjoy shopping ffs and I don't even have the energy for online shopping now, how can I "shop around" for a therapist?!

Psychiatrists only throw pills at you and the others aren't even real doctors anyway...

Also, I "self medicate" with alcohol and nobody ever heard that when I say it...
As far as I know, mixing pills with alcohol is not a good idea.

I can't and don't want to take any pills, my bipolar mother took all kinds of pills her entire life and it only got from bad to worse.

I really do feel hopeless and helpless, I really feel like nobody can help me.

Is this normal, (of course not), has anyone else felt that, "figured it out", moved on from that???