I’m 100% disabled diagnosed after the military with major depression. My friends all stopped contacting me my wife left and took my son(not yet 2) I haven’t left my house in 2 years other than to go see my I love my wife and miss her terribly but she shows clearly she wants no romantic relationship with me.My view of the world has gone cold and I’m developing a strong hatred to all people. Suicidal thoughts on repeat 24/7 I have no interest in taking that route by any means but everyday the thoughts get more vivid and intense and it is exhausting. I’ve been on over 10 different anti depressants and i refuse to be sucked in those anymore. I’m about to be 32 and I don’t know how many years I can continue to live this way.