I’m a treasurer to school government organization and I fucked up the budgeting so bad I lost almost $600USD to god knows what. They will now barely have any money for next year. Now I’m in a state of despair, I thought of every single way to kill myself and my self worth plummeted. I never wanted to end my life so badly. I’ve been punching my wall and breaking the skin on my knuckles, crying non stop. My partner works in the same organization and is also pissed off at me. I keep imagining he will leave me even though it’s highly unlikely. I’m so scared of losing him because I would probably end it at that point. I’m so broken and trying my best to fix the situation but I can’t do anything. I’m so lost, I want to end it all. My anxiety has spiraled and I can’t stop it anymore. I want to die.