So recently I fucked up, got my first tattoo, didn't realize all the implications of getting one, I feel stupid and regret it and I'm ashamed of myself for making such poor choices, this tattoo is funny but in really bad taste and there's no way I'm carrying this around for the rest of my life. It's really like I thought it was temporary but it's really not, just my biggest brain fart ever. At least I'm having a reality check and a good life lesson thanks to it but it's also a burden.

I took the decision that I will get it removed with laser when I get the money (best case scenario, I have it in 6 months), I feel pretty anxious about 1) telling my mom about both the tatto and the regrets/removal 2) telling my friends about the regrets/removal. 

My problem is that I took this decision of getting it removed like a couple weeks ago, and I'm still having this intrusive anxious thoughts running in my head. It's annoying me a lot because the situation will not evolve for weeks, I've  already covered the subject in my head and this thoughts don't lead me nowhere, they're just making me feel dreadful and that's the only thing they do. But I can't manage to make them stop, I'm constantly thinking about it for weeks and I've had troubles enjoying anything since then.

PS : don't be as stupid as me, think your tattoos through, and ask yourself if you'll still want them in 5/10/15 years.