my boyfriend and i broke up and i'm so suicidal. he still talks to me and calls me babe and tells me he loves me and wants to kiss and hold me but when i ask "are we still together?" he says no. i want to die i dont know what to do or how to deal with this. im so confused and i feel lonely because if i tell him im sad he'll be angry and im scared. i want to die i don't want us to not be together.