I don't really know how to control my overthinking. I don't know how to get myself to calm down and think about a situation that happens to me rationally. I just got out of a relationship a little while ago where I was cheated on. I'm trying to make sure that I don't turn myself bitter and make it worse for myself. I got into a car accident back in September and I had a horrible time with that. It was my first accident ever. I spent over a week trying to find a new car, I thought every thought possible. 

I most often tend to blame myself for things, like my father ending up in prison but I had nothing to do with it. Or my uncle passing away in the hospital and days before I begged my uncle's wife to transfer him to a different hospital. Or my grandmother passing away from a heart attack and no one was there to do CPR and I always thought about how I was never able to really see her. She was always busy taking care of my cousins.

I just really don't know how to cope with this. Especially after this relationship I came out of that lasted for a year. I've been talking to another guy lately, I've known him for a few years. But he hasn't responded to my messages for a couple days and the messages we had prior were fine, I didn't say anything wrong? We never argued or anything and he was talking about hanging out before. I just don't know if he doesn't want to talk anymore or if it's just my brain? But I'm pretty sure it's just me overthinking as I always do.

All comments are much appreciated, Thank you  ♡  ♡ 

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