 

tired of being ignored among my peers

tired of being walked over by the ones I love

tired of caring for those who don't

tired of the fault always being mine when I did nothing wrong

tired of not being cared for by those closest to me

tired of feeling alone but surrounded

tired of feeling unwanted

tired of being stuck in my mind when it's the only place safe enough to exist

tired of never being at peace

tired of not knowing how I feel

tired of not knowing if what I do feel is real or what I tell myself to feel

tired of having to solve others problems with a smile

tired of being shunned for things I cannot change

tired of being mistreated for being born to a parent who never wanted me and to a parent who tries so hard they can't see their not helping

tired of being alive

tired of having to live

tired of waking up to another day of being me

tired of me

I'm so so tired of me