hopefully this makes sense. I think A LOT a lot... it never ends. my inner monologue is a conversation within conversation about a conversation I'm having in the back of my mind with myself and it keeps spinning like a tornado. picking up bits and pieces, discarding the rest, finding it again and so on. through all of this, I still can't focus on anything around me, in front of me, mental notes. I can't focus on any of it. I'm really driving myself crazy. I love the interests I currently have but there's just no drive or will to sit and acknowledge any of it. I can't gather information, I can't form a thought process around things I actually want to sit and learn about or activities I want to do. It's frustrating. does anyone else understand what I'm saying? I feel chaotic. ugh