very panicky and frozen under my covers atm, for context, i’m a freshman in college (19f- took a gap year that didn’t go so well mentally) and i am falling behind in one of my classes basically due to being sick and missing a week- and then self sabotaging by having none of the past 2 weeks of work done !!! yay!! kind of blaming adhd and the anxiety i get when trying to do work, but also blaming myself. I need a good grade in this class, and my professor sent me a concerned email asking specifically how much work i have done and my plan to finish it all. I replied with apologies and said i was working with the center for accommodations at my college but she noted that i was being vague and basically called me out for letting things pile up and not having work done that should’ve been done weeks ago. I panicked and left my dorm (which is a nightmare, 2 roommates in a very small space. i’m on the waitlist for housing accommodations for some other reasons- but also for my anxiety but so far a space hasn’t opened up) i stood out in the freezing cold so my roommates wouldn’t hear me and just called my mom crying (it’s 2am) and told her everything, i feel bad about calling because now she’s thinking about flying up a day earlier than she was going to in order to help me focus in her hotel room. I wish she didn’t have to worry about stuff like that. but for now i have to worry about what to tell my professor, seeing her in person soon, and how i’m gonna get through the rest of the year. I need some sort of solution but i’m also just feeling so guilty and down on myself because i still don’t know how to just get it all done. anyways. that’s my rant. I’m just so frustrated and can’t sleep because i’m so anxious right now.