i have been depressed since i were 13year old,i was sexually harrased when i were 9 yo (i couldnt tell anyone this cause i were a male and if i did ppl will say i make it up),bullied from the age of 10 
rn im 24 and i realy dont see any good things happening in my life in the near future,i live in a country that every 2-3 days there' terror attack,im just too tired,would i be the asshole if i simply put things to my misery,my mom hate me alot and im the failure amng my brothers,my dad used to tell me i look like poop,i was so ugly that my brother used to take fee from my mom to take me to school with him (since i was embrassment to have) my mom told me i look ugly more than one time , the funny thing in junior school i was the bright kid,every teacher was like u will be a doctor or enginner,but now im 24 and fucking depressed,im so tired