I had a manic episode last fall which was a week of total euphoria and joy followed by me trying to dismantle my life and end my relationship with my partner a month later. This was the first time I’ve ever been truly manic. So now I’m looking back at my life through the lens of ‘bipolar’. Understanding that I’m not as successful as I could have been or as my peers are, regretting life changing decisions I’ve made, hating everything about everything, etc. This has put me into a pretty deep depression. I just turned 40 and I feel totally fucked for the rest of my life. Wondering if I’ll ever be happy again. Reddit has been a blessing lately and I’ve felt a lot of support. I wonder if anyone else has had this kind of major upset after finding out they’re bipolar and how they got out of it.