I am trying to calm myself down to not freak out but I’m so close to freaking out and thinking about that is making me freak out. I let a friend work on organizing my room the other day for 8hrs, I have a lot of stuff and not the best organization but she offered to help I told her it was fine. I had work and typically I’m a watcher because I don’t trust anyone with my stuff as people don’t have the same goals care or concern for things as you do. I let her work on her own anyway. 100% regret it and now I’m less organized than before. Things don’t even make sense but most importantly she threw away things that were important and I had expressed to her they were. It’s too much to list but things like receipts she knows I have a business and if they were stacked neatly why would this be trash. I had to dig in the trash and found those but just the fact why wouldn’t you ask. Throwing away papers with identifiable information that a person would not be privy to, like mail I don’t need but has too much info and needs to be shredded. I just felt that was common sense. But also it wasn’t a trash clean up it was organizing. I’m so frustrated because it doesn’t make sense. As I type this out I’m getting more upset of the reality that I’m missing important things and it’s creating more work for me because I don’t know where things are, she is unsure what she threw away and I already caught things that she claimed she wouldn’t but she for surely did toss. It defeated the whole purpose of her being involved with organizing in the first place. I have to blame myself right now but the kicker is something important that was stored discreetly is not found. I’m angry upset and anxious that I will never find it and I will have to go through these six trash bags to actually get the item because she probably threw that away too. I’m just venting. I don’t know how I am going to get through this night without finding it. I’m insanely worried that I won’t.