nothing in my life is working. I am slowly losing everything. i am tired, unloved, unwanted and just overrall filled with emotions that i cannot even explain. i am 25 and i think it can only go lower from here. 

why would God let me suffer my whole life? am i doing the wrong thing? was i not meant to be here? 

last night i had a dream that made me realize that i actually have to go. a voice said “you need to die, for your depressio” . maybe i really have to go.