i always talk with my FP in my head, i imagine what they could say and basically idealize them in a wicked, warped way. i imagine us passing moments together, laughing and bonding, then i see them in person and i get absolutely stunned from the clashing of my imagined relationship and the actual one. i expect attention and cuddles and i get almost nothing if we are wjth other friends. i have to say we do cuddle a lot when it's just us and i would love to do it more often.