I am in treatment for ocd, anxiety, and trauma and currently I am really struggling to have a night routine or daily routine. It is so hard for me to conceptualize being controlled by times and schedules, and it gives me more anxiety even though (from what my mental health professionals say) it would greatly benefit me. Nighttime has always been hard especially, due to my emetophobia related OCD and trauma and anxiety happening worse at night and more “what if’s”. I get so overwhelmed and having a routine seems to be the perfect opportunity to be hard on myself and give up all together. It actually feels like hell. It makes me feel stuck and depressed, I’m Realy trying my best but this shit is beating me down already . Now I’ve noticed I have been unusually taking naps to avoid tasks I have to do. Not to mention I am so easily distracted. I’m really wondering if anybody can agree or have any advice. I appreciate it and am rooting for everybody out there making change , trying to, or even thinking about it.