I’ve tried everything. Nothing really works. 

Medication? Couldn’t tolerate any antidepressants, made me feel depressed and suicidal when I’m not (I am just anxious). Tried benzodiapines which helped but you can’t take it for prolonged amounts of time. CBD barely helps as well. 

Therapy? I’ve done 7 months in total of CBT, as well as about 7 years on and off of counseling and therapy with 3 different therapists. Only helped a little bit with the more severe thoughts but it didn’t make a real difference. 

Yoga? Nop, I just felt bored. I tried for years, going to classes, etc but I’m just not interested. 

Exercise? I was an athlete for years, now i try to work out at home and go running but it feels very difficult most days. 

Journaling? It feels like a writing a story that goes nowhere. I have tried prompts, guided, free, anything. Not helpful.

Mindfulness? Whether guided or not it is difficult for me. Same with Meditation - i can’t see any change or improvement. I have ADHD and it makes focus difficult. 

Artistic things? My career is already in the arts (actor/model) but I can’t do my main hobby (dance) due to the pandemic (classes are open now but very limited numbers and prices have doubled in my area). I’ve been painting a bit but I’m not that passionate about it.

I just don’t feel like any of the things people say help, help me. I still feel horribly anxious at night; still feel very anxious about how people perceive me, I get health anxiety... etc. 

Is there any hope for me? Anyone else with severe anxiety who hasn’t found help in any of these things? I’m at my wits end.