I just downloaded the Reddit app and decided to share since this is the only place I can get an honest  viewpoint. I feel depressed. I don’t even know where to start. 

It’s 1am and I’ve spent 2-3 hours scrolling through Instagram comparing, becoming jealous of other women gaining success, stalking my ex lover .. seeing everyone doing their thing and im just doing nothing. Social media is draining my psyche . I am in the entertainment industry and I feel this pressure.. to add to why I feel lost - I got fired bc I was sexually harassed (In the industry) *I respect myself and did not give in. So I’ve been in a bad situation for a year.. trying to freelance, can’t find a job. I got many talents and can’t seem to stick to anything. Anyone who sees my social media or knows my talents would think I got it all together and going on through.. and I don’t I am depressed. I find myself wasting time at night. Im lonely , man I’ve dated were no good either (pretend to be someone there not), I got friends but rather talk on ft. I also got tinnitus - ringing in the ear nonstop.

Im turning 30 next year and I just feel like I’m in this funk. I speak positivity , I know about frequencies &amp; Energies, I started doing yoga and so forth. I feel great some days and motivates but tonight I’m in a low space. 

I find myself up at night in my head, trying to make it in the industry but not doing anything either . It comes and goes I think everyone has let me down and idk how to do it by myself. Even people in the industry who can add me to projects isn’t happening until sometime next year. I just want to disappear , I wish social media didn’t exist sometimes. I feel like by 30 I should be at a certain point on my life making it and I’m just here trying to figure out life after getting harassed at a job I moved down from another state for.