I used to be a hopeless romantic. After a couple failed and abusive relationships I feel like I’m so jaded that I can’t even relate to songs about feeling something for someone else. I’d like to feel like I’m fit for a relationship again, but 100% of me feels completely broken and unfit to be anyone’s partner. In addition to that I don’t know if want a relationship anymore, which is honestly extremely sad to me. Spending my whole life imagining who I’d end up with and what kind of romance and communication style, etc… we’d have, well it seems like those dreams just aren’t even there anymore. The couple times I’ve tried to date since my last relationship I’ve just ended up being “stressful” to people.

Anyone else desire to have the desire to be in a relationship but it’s just not there? Even if I wanted to, I don’t have any idea how to meet someone and the dating apps are just too much for me