few months ago, prior to my high-school graduation, I suddenly got train wrecked with some inexplicable emotions that hadn't ever occurred to me before, and I can patently confirm that at this rate, it has really reached it utmost peak, and I can literally feel its power. I don't know exactly what it is, but its literally affecting my whole life as a whole. I started to lose my ability to speak and express my thoughts and feelings freely and articulately, moreover, it has deteriorated my overall academic performance even though i'm not overwhelmed with a lot of tasks to fulfill. I sometimes cry by myself knowing that I'm helpless and I can't defeat those emotions even with the help of certain stimulants. It's been months and I really miss the sense of happiness and my smiles are not producing dopamine to my body, so much so that I really wish to reverse to my old self where he was happier and much more cheerful. I really don't know what is happening to me it's honestly a mystery, or is it really what's been called as depression, because i'm in a very dark place that's filled with negative and sad energy whose source is not by anyone else, but by my stupid persistent brain that can't leave me at peace.