One moment I’ll be fine, I can keep it at bay and even fake a laugh or two at times. But then any small thing can come and I feel either extremely angry, extremely sad or extremely jealous. There’s no exact trigger, it just happens.

I don’t see a way out, I ruined my life years ago. I’ve dug a hole so big. No matter how many times I’ve reached out nothing happens. So why even bother? I haven’t seen my friends in years, I’m lonely.

I just want someone to be here with me.