I keep fixating on worst case scenarios constantly. Until I feel they are actually going to happen to me. I am so anxious. I made a friend recently and a few days ago I forgot to reply to her. I get really distracted. When I went back online the next day I realised I hadn't replied. I said sorry immediately and she has left me on read (which I deserve I know) it's just I really didn't do it to be rude. I can see it from her perspective because she thought why hasn't she replied to me? What I have done wrong? She is in her right to feel like that.

Now I am thinking all sorts, that class is going to be awkward for us now because she has cut me off. Or she's going to get me kicked out, and say horrible things about me. I'm terrified and I don't know why. Maybe because people have been bad to me before.  I don't want to look crazy and bombard them with messages so I am going to leave them alone, and if they want to to reach out that's up to them. I don't want to be toxic.