My boyfriend/FP broke up with me on Thursday and I honestly cannot cope with this pain for much longer.

He’s been incredibly supportive of me and my BPD but we had an argument on Thursday because I was triggered by his ex messaging him and it sent me into a really intense spiral. Now he’s decided he’s had enough and wants nothing to do with me.

We had so many plans for our future and he was forever telling me I’m “the one” and how much he loves me. He would always say “we’re a team and can get through anything” and promised me he would never leave me. Now suddenly he won’t speak to me, won’t answer my calls or texts and won’t see me face to face.

I am absolutely heartbroken. I don’t even know why I’m posting this. I’m just so alone right now and finding each day harder and harder to go on.

I start therapy soon and I’m really looking forward to taking steps in recovering or managing my emotions better. I just wish he could see that.

I can’t understand how on Thursday morning I was the love of his life, the girl he wanted to marry one day and by the afternoon he never wants to speak to me again? I feel so rejected. I’m in so much pain emotionally. I want this to end.