I’ve reached the point where I don’t even want to fight anymore. I don’t want to do anything with my life, and I don’t see or want a future for myself. Nothing will change my mind. I’m angry that my family are guilt tripping me into staying alive when I’m in so much pain and don’t want to be here… I feel like they’re the selfish ones. I just want to die and although I know it’s fucked up, sometimes I wish I had a terminal illness so I could die without the guilt/blame that comes with suicide.