Somehow this always happens to me. Instead of being selfless and happy for someone else for receiving good news I always get bitter and sad and jealous. This time I learned that one of my friends is pregnant. I've always wanted to have a baby for as long as I can remember. For now my financial situation doesn't allow it so I have to wait. But I've always wanted to be the first one of my friends to have a baby. This news just reminded me of the fact that I need to wait a long time to have one of my own because of my situation. Instead of being happy for my friend I feel resentful and sad for my own life. She texted me this morning and I didn't even have the guts to congratulations. I feel like a monster. It's almost like I split on her and all my other friends who congratulated her and I just wanna disappear. How do I handle these feelings?