I never usually vent or anything, I always tend to have a smile on my face and hide everything from everyone. I never tell anyone how I'm really feeling because I always end up getting the same responses, and it's not like any of my friends actually understand me. I recently lost my job and have been realizing all my friends are more or less fake, and that I really don't have any support to help push me towards where I'm supposed to be going. My entire family is extremely disappointed in me as all my brothers are becoming very successful and I still haven't done much. But I don't get it, I'm 8+ years younger than them, I don't understand this unnecessary pressure that I receive. I barely have any motivation to actually want to accomplish anything, its not like it all really matters after I pass away. I don't know. I'm just lost trying to fight the right thing to keep me going. Whoever reads this and can feel what I'm feeling, I hope you get through it and have an amazing life. I really don't think I'll make it anywhere.