I was abused throughout my childhood and up to the present day.  My family is full of undiagnosed personality disorders.  

My past counselor has told me I’m very close to a diagnosis of PTSD and I’ve experienced complex trauma.  I think it’s more than that after looking at the symptoms of BPD.  Im not looking for a diagnosis, just some reassurance.  How do you live with this?  I can’t take any medication and I don’t have any access to therapy.  What can I do to try to make myself more bearable for the people I interact with?  How do you learn emotional regulation and how to manage or even start interpersonal relationships?