I feel like my “fight or flight” instinct is being triggered and it’s making me act out of character. I feel like Im not in control and I cant calm down. I have this dread over going to work tomorrow. 

I feel overwhelmed but I dont think anyone would understand. My employer has been giving me more responsibility and I feel like Im hanging by a thread despite them saying Im doing well. I feel like panicking almost constantly even in my time off.

Im extremely irritable. Im fighting the urge to call myself a stupid fuck delete all this and continue seething inside but I need to do something and this is all I can think of. This anger and rage is so draining I cant relax. 

I feel like whenever i bring up something im having trouble with, people dismiss it saying theyve dealt with the same or worse. I could be interpreting it wrong in this hysteria. I just feel like i cant talk to anyone about this. 

Im thankful im not physically ill but i dont feel mentally healthy and all the stigma surrounding that is so crippling. I work in a field that is very “macho” and being incapacitated by your own mind doesnt have any place here. 

I want to call out of work so badly but im on my own on this project and my timetable got cut two days shorter randomly. 

This feels like some kind of manic episode but instead of delusions of grandeur, it’s just this dread and despair and anger that cycles. I have moments where i feel ok, like i can get my head above water but then something sets me off and i spiral again. All the while i have to keep up this facade that everything is ok. 

I feel like a defective human being and i want to get sent back to the manufacturer for repairs. I just want to quit my job but i need the income. I wish i could just vanish into thin air. 