I got over my addiction late last year to cocaine and alcohol without any outside help. I got diagnosed bpd and psychosis and this shitty system offers no support or help unless u can pay $$$$$. Like it I have a serious mental illness I’m gonna have that money fucking stupid. I don’t even care bad things keep happening to me why I shouldn’t do it who is there to help me and what will change? My mental state is only getting worse if if these things give me a bit relief from the pain it’s the only right thing to do . And fuck anyone who wants to judge or tell me to go for a walk or meditate.