So much of my depression and anger seems to come from trying to find happiness.  Every friend I try to make, every girlfriend or date, every new hobby, etc leads to some failure or disappointment. 

This is why I have such an overwhelming urge to give up. I am not successful by any measurable metric and it seems easier to just accept that. 

I've gotten to the point that I now resent the people who try to encourage me. I feel they too should know how misplaced their belief in me is. And every time I give in and make an effort for them I end up disappointing. 

Thank you