Why am I like this? I push away those closest to me, like I’m functioning as a person but not, I’ve had a girlfriend for almost a year but she doesn’t know, she wouldn’t understand, and I’m slowly losing my best friends, the guys I’ve grown up with, the guys that know my family, the guys who I love to death, and they’re slowly disappearing from my life, I hate it, I want them to stick around I really do, but I don’t wanna hold them back from achieving there dreams, I mean all of them have there own talent, one’s musically talented(wish I was but turns out I’m tone deaf and no matter how much I practice if that be guitar, vocals, mixing, working on beats ect it’s something that I love to do but ik I’m not good at it, I’ve been doing it since I was a kid and people over pass me all the time) one’s great at building and fixing shit, you could give him a car without an engine and he’d make that shit run, one’s seriously smart and could go places if he stopped hanging around some Addict loser like me, I mean these guys are like family to me and if they wanna hang out I make time but they don’t they see if they have time, I hate feeling like I’m the odd one out, they’d be happier without me, they would, they wouldn’t have to deal with my shit, they wouldn’t have to check up on me or anything, they’d have life easier, fuck man I jus wanted to be somebody who fit in and people liked, but I’m not, I’m fucking not

Anyway I hope you guys have it easier than me even tho this isn’t much at all:)