i feel like as borderlines were constantly behind everyone else. im a very creative person but i feel like every aesthetic decision i make is always wrong. i cant decorate my own room. i cant choose my own tastes. and everyone elses choices always seem so much more competent. the reason i need an fp is to validate my decisions in the creative arena.

one thing i also realized is that other ppl always know how they feel and can identify when theres a problem with how they feel. or how theyre just able to decide they need to do things for their own health and just do them. its absolutely incredible to me how mature other ppl r and how immature i am