So I was diagnosed with major depression and severe anxiety. My father decided to send me to his hometown where I would be cured. He thought I just needed a company and new environment. Because I have been living alone for almost three years. At first I just had severe anxiety which pandemic caused me. But because of the repeated lockdown, I literally couldn’t go outside, and I felt like I was a prisoner. And eventually I got worse and developed major depression.


So fast forward. Now I am at my father's family house. At first it was really hard for me to settle but later I gradually managed to adjust. But then, my aunt started sleeping in my room. I really do not want it. I'm not comfortable. I don't like it when there are other people in my room. I want to be alone. I can deal with people outside but inside my room I want it to be just my own space. Although everything my aunt does is just sleep here, she really doesn’t bother me but I feel like my privacy has been invaded. I'm not really comfortable. I cannot sleep despite taking sleeping pills. I'm hallucinating that there is someone next to me which there is really is because I forgot my aunt also sleeps here as I used to live alone. And now, she changed the set up of my room. That really made me burst into tears. It's frustrating. You know having these disorders, it’s always hard to find to be comfortable. It's hard to adjust.

What really distressing me is that I couldn't tell them. I can't tell them this and that depressed me. I can’t tell them I’m really not well. That my body is suffering. I can’t tell them I don’t like this or that. I don’t want them to offend. I don’t want them to think I’m making an attitude. I don’t want them to get angry. But it’s hard. I'm struggling. It's really frustrating. My body starts to act up again. What to do?


My Aunt does really nothing wrong. I just find it hard to say no. That I don't like do to this etc. It makes me feel bad. It's like I am having a bad attitude. But I'm suffering.