Probaly just being an absolute piece of white trash garbage who is too much of a coward and piece of shi to go through with it but why live? I wanna die and there's no fixing me I live a life of privilege just being an absolute piece of shit to everyone why should I live I'm pretty sure everyone would be better off without me I'm just an ugly little white bitch how do I end it all in the least painful way possible? I've grown numb to the suicidal parts of me that wanna die but no amount of masking fixes it.