I'm diagnosed BPD, I just finished one round of DBT, started a new one but failed out. 

I can't fix things that are going wrong- my pet is going to die within weeks because I can no longer afford his medication, I still can't use my skills well enough to fix anything other than crisis moments, I keep ruining relationships. The only person left is my mum and every time we talk she says I sound depressed but I don't even feel anything other than guilt that I wasted my therapists time and that my pet is going to die. 

I've made a suicide plan, I just need to wait a few days to put it into action, and I know I should call someone or go to hospital but I can't see the point if I've been like this my whole life and even completing a full round of DBT hasn't helped enough. 

I don't know what the point is here, I just don't know who else to turn to now I don't have my therapist anymore.