Hi everyone. Currently I’m going through a terrible mixed episode. Absolutely going out of my skull, from crying constantly over every little thing, to being full of energy and ideas and talking everyone’s ears off, I don’t even know what’s going on with my right now. 

I have a psychiatrist appointment on Saturday morning, and my family and fiancé are urging me to ask him to take me off meds. They think the meds are doing me more harm than good, mostly because they’re all “the less meds the better” type of people. I don’t particularly want to go up on my meds or take new ones, but I think the ones I’m on usually do a fair job of keeping me stable. If I forget them for a day, I become insanely emotional and irritable.

For the record, I currently take 5mg of Lexapro and 200mg of Lamictal. I was diagnosed with dysthymia and anxiety at 16 (2012 or so) and have been on antidepressants ever since. I was diagnosed schizoaffective in 2017, and they changed my diagnosis to bipolar in May 2021 following a hypomanic episode that lasted a month. 

Just looking for insight into others experiences getting off of medication, whether I should try it, etc - thank you 💕