From ages 13-18 I smoked weed every day several times a day I never once took a break I was also in a relationship untill I was 17 ever since I quit weed I'm always involved with someone it's like I can't be alone which is funny because I hate being around people at the same time but I'm starting to realize I feel like I need to be involved with someone to feel less empty I was so proud of myself for quitting weed but now that I've come to the realization I use relationships to fill the void instead I feel even shitter not saying I don't like people for who they are because I do but the year I was single smoking weed it was different that was what filled the void when I'm alone with the emptiness I get extremely suicidal and now that I've been using relationships to fill the hole I realize I've let a lot of people treat me like absolute shit because of it I'm on a waiting list for dbt therapy does anyone have any advice for feeling less empty? Would going back to smoking be a less harmful way to cope? Does anyone else deal with this?