Idk what to do I'm currently in a manic episode going on 36 hours awake have work in 6 hours. I can't sleep my mind won't stop. One of my only friends finally got tired of my irritability while manic and stopped talking to me I don't want to say I'm feeling the thoughts of the S solution but I know I won't do it I just want to feel like I matter but I honestly don't girls use me and leave I'm awful at socializing I just don't know I don't want to have Bi-Polar its so unfair everyday is suffering and I suffer alone...