Hi all just wondering if anyone else does this while dissociating?

I know it's happening when I don't recognize my hands and then everything is smaller or I'm bigger? I don't recognize anything but I know it's my house, kind of like a dream where you know it's someone/something but it looks different. I feel nothing emotionally and don't feel any pain other than hot and cold. I have no feeling towards my family, I say the right things but if I think about the dieing I just feel meh everyone dies sometime.


Here's where it gets weird.... I get incredibly attached to an object and it becomes the most important thing in my life. Usually it's a leaf or twig or sometimes it's a bug. Last time it was a piece of fluff. I watch it or touch it for hours and I love it so much. If I leave the house I start panicking that someone will touch it or move it (I hide it under my bed) This usually lasts about 24 hours until I snap out of it.


I can't bring myself to tell my partner that I love a piece of fluff more than him, he's incredibly supportive and I usually tell him what's going on.


Does anyone else do this or know if it's a Bipolar thing?