You filled all the void I have in me. All my focus and attention went to you. And now you’ve left me without a care at all. I meant nothing to you while you meant the world to me. 

I wasn’t the one for you. Good enough. Funny enough. Hot enough. Etc. You said you wanted to be alone but all I hear is that you don’t want to be with me. 

I have no idea how to escape myself without you. I’m left to be by myself. It’s scary. I don’t like myself. I hate myself. I’m mean to myself. I want to become good enough. Be independent. Take good care of myself. Be functional. But all that effort I put in to myself will be in attempt to get you to want me again. I wish I didn’t need you like that. 

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to have a fullfilling romantic relationship. I just don’t have what it takes. It’s like a piece of me is missing and I don’t know where to find it. I try to find it in others but I can’t. 

I just wish I was normal so badly. And I wish I knew what normal was. So that I will be desirable. Not like me.