so i moved into this apartment last year in april. since then i had problems with the electricity and had to have a lot of stuff replaced and had an ant plague in summer because of ants that lived in my walls. i thought that was the worst of it but a few months back i moved my bed from the wall and everything was full with mold. a month ago someone finally looked at it and it was the wall against my bathtub, the entire wall was wet, pipes were leaking and the heating was faulty. so now a week ago the bathtub was removed and they put up machines to dry the area, replacing pipes. there was also 3 days in which i had no heating at all and was freezing. the entire flooring in my bedroom was removed and the wallpaper too because it was all wet. i’m currently sleeping on my mattress in the living room where i found mold on a different wall now (which is a problem for future me)

since i moved here it has been very important to me that everything is clean. saturday’s are cleaning days - i spend 2-3 hours cleaning the apartment and the feeling after can only be described as peace. i also have ocd and cleanliness is a huge part of it. but today was terrible and when i was done i just broke down crying. i cleaned everything i could but my bedroom is still completely empty, stuff from my bedroom is all over the apartment because i have no space and there is still a huge hole where my bathtub is supposed to be. i can’t even take a nice shower, i have to wash myself at the sink in my kitchen. and my kitchen doesn’t even have any heating so it’s cold. 

im just very exhausted and angry.