 I really wish I had a girl, someone to call my boo or some other stupid name like that, someone I can hold and snuggle with. I want someone who will laugh at my dumbass jokes, or at least pretend to laugh at them. I want a person who I can comfort and protect whenever she's feeling down and be that special little someone to brighten up her day.

I don't think any girl would really want me anyway. I'm not just saying that to be self-deprecating. I used to be fairly attractive when I was about 13 or 14. I even had a couple of ladies who were into me. I would have asked them out if I had the courage to. Now I feel like a mess. The negligence to properly shower, acne that came with puberty, and the lack of a consistent workout routine have caused me to look kinda ugly.

If nothing else I still have my height. I'd say I'm pretty tall and masculine. But I feel like I'm not taking full advantage of it. I've tried going to the gym but my depression has caused me to lose a lot of my motivation. So it's hard to keep a consistent schedule.

I just wish I had someone. I feel like I'd make a great boyfriend. I know a lot of guys kinda suck. Trying to think of crappy pickup and whatnot. But I would make her feel special like she's a human being and someone who matters.