Since my diagnosis about a year or so ago I've made a lot of progress - holding myself accountable to prevent my ed from resurfacing, stopped self harming, reduced my ptsd symptoms, stopped drinking alcohol like it was water, and generally can cope woth my emotions a little better (still not great but hey, progrss is progress).
But even so, I feel almost apprehensive to keep putting in effort and the idea of being somewhat mentally normal freaks me out? Maybe part of me just doesnt feel like my traumas and struggles were ever validated because ive kept everything to myself? And that if I move on it will feel as if it never happened in a way, yet ive struggled and fought so hard for my entire life yet no one knows? But I also dont want anyone to know? 😅 Sorry if this makes 0 sense, I just wanna see what other people experience