 Hello [r/bpd](https://www.reddit.com/r/bpd/) I have a question regarding my bpd friend. He died about 6 months ago and Im still greaving the lost as he was also my ex but he wanted to be friends(even though we fought). He was on the more quiet side.We went into his google docs and we just found his vent journal, It said That I cared for him and his parents did but didn't know how to open up and in later entry's he said he hated me. but then he also says he was gonna give letters to people he cared for and I was one of them? we fought and on the last day we made up saying he cared for me as a person and didn't know why he liked me. and he said we would do dbt together (as I was also bpd). very confused at the moment and would like some insight