I cant stop thinking, like about everything. How I turned out like a complete failure, how I've never accomplished anything, never had a girlfriend, was abused as a kid, how my entire life went down to shit and keeps progressively getting worse.
On the train I'm stuck digging my brain and eating away at my thoughts making me feel worse about myself. 
I lay In bed 2 hours every night starring at the ceiling hating myself not being able to sleep because my head is running a fucking marathon no matter how tired I am.

Every single living second is a burden and i want it to be over so bad. I hate this life, I hate this body and myself and who I am.