I’m just in a really bad place right now. I’m no longer coping effectively, I’ve been turned down by 8 therapists, and it’s all just taking a toll. I lost my favorite person in November of last year and used that as means for changing my mentality and working on myself and I thought I got over them. I felt confident I had gotten over them, but one day, out of nowhere,I’m missing them and thinking about them 24/7 even though we haven’t talked in months. That’s taking a toll on me as well and I’m just at a loss. I’m on meds, I’m reading a DBT guideline and exercise book, and I’m doing everything I can to get better but nothing solves the fundamental issue of me. I just need some help and love and I don’t know how to ask for that from anyone in my life, nor is there anyone who is currently in my life that I would want that help and love from. The person I want that help and love from is gone from my life and never coming back and I don’t know what to do.