I just can’t even tell anymore how I feel, I genuinely want to die every day just because I don’t find happiness in life and I feel like I ruin it all. But at the same time I don’t have the crippling depression where I can’t move anymore. I feel less depressed yet I really don’t want to be alive and I don’t understand my emotions. I’m trying to push away my family and friends because genuinely I don’t deserve any of them, but does it make me sad or depressed? No I just feel like this is how it is and is no longer tied to my depression