It's like my mind feels so unstable. There are always literal things flying around, trying to get out of my head and interfering with anything I try to think about. For example, I would be trying to think about a memory but I'll only be able to hold it for a short time before it gets chaotic and unstable and I start feeling like nothing's in control and I feel physical objects strongly flying around in my head, but I don't really see them in my imagination; just feel them. This also prevents me from enjoying things because it's so deeply, painfully infuriating that I feel like I have to make a very great and strenuous effort to get it all under control and stable and clam and peaceful or else I won't be able to properly enjoy things. Can't enjoy good music, can't enjoy hobbies, can't enjoy my favourite season, can't enjoy good movies, can't enjoy beautiful things because it just won't let me. It also prevents from feeling what I'm supposed to feel at a given situation, like I don't feel relieved when I really should be, don't feel comfortable/angry/exctied/etc when I should be. And it makes me so depressed and sad. I can't even sleep easily. Those physical objects are just constantly disturbing and distracting me so much. Is there a name for this condition, when you feel like (but don't always see) physical stuff is uncontrollably flying around in your head? Does anyone else suffer from this or something similar?