Sometimes I go through depressive episodes, and I haven't been able to get medication or therapy because of the cost. My boyfriend has been so helpful through all of them, he's there for me no matter what in so many ways. I love him with all of my heart and I've never been able to he so open and comfortable with a person before! 

But sometimes I feel lonely. It's not that he ignores me or anything, and he gives me plenty of attention while both letting us live out our individual lives. It's just something that happens with anyone I'm with. It's not personal, I love my friends and family very much but I feel that way sometimes. And I feel very guilty because of it. I do enjoy their company, but sometimes I just feel that way. 

Anyways, one day we're at his house (I've been staying with him to get out of an abusive situation until we can get enough money to move out) and I start feeling that emptiness. I start feeling lonely even though he's there and he's with me. He can tell when something is off, we talked and he was there for me ofc but when I told him that sometimes I just get lonely even when he's there, I could tell it hurt him. We talked about it more later and I apologized, that was about a month ago and it stopped bothering him once he understood that I didn't mean it to be against him. 

I'm not sure how to word it without hurting him. I hate to think that I hurt him. I want to talk about it because it might help both of us, but I don't know what to say. Help?