I don’t know if its just my paranoid thoughts acting up or just because i miss him a little but I’m doubting my relationship. 

I hate therapy and I refuse to go but I could use a therapist to talk to right now because I feel like I can’t explain this to my friends.

I waited months and months to finally be in a relationship with him and it has been a few months and we’re in love. He is the person who loves me just a LITTLE more than I love him, but I know I do and the thought of not being with him makes me feel like puking. Recently nothing has changed besides we haven’t seen eachother a TON lately, but I keep just not feeling good and not feeling as into him and I hope this is just a small thing because I can’t take losing him because I really love him, I would be so upset and sad and alone all the time without him. I’m just getting a little bored and maybe restless.....

He is great, and being with him is helping me heal from past trauma but sometimes my mind just starts splitting thinking I don’t really want to be in this, and I can’t tell how I really feel.

All advice is welcome, please help me try to figure this out.