I don't know whether to feel relieved that I finally figured out what has made have this rollercoaster of emotions and irrational decisions or worried about my future. I'm starting my medication and I've been in therapy for awhile but it's just hard to come to terms with. I mean it took me years to realize the emotional abuse/neglect my parents did to me and then this just more emphasizes it. I just don't know how to feel about it all.