So I've been learning about bpd and lurking in this subreddit because something about bpd seemed to match my experience. Well I never had an official diagnosis or so I thought. I had some traumatic years and have trouble remembering most of my past. It's more a story I've been told and can recite than a working memory when I think of my life and very often people tell me things I've said done or experienced I have absolutely no clue about.  Today I was talking with my mother about possibly going back to therapy for numerous reasons one being to get a concrete diagnosis.  I said from the research I've done I might have Bpd. ....
Good lord
She slapped the table and smiled in disbelief. 
Huh? 
You got diagnosed by the doctor you had during middle and high school only they couldn't officially  diagnose you that way because you were too young.  They said it's the same way you can't diagnose schizophrenia too young but they still know it when they see it.
Well. Snack me dead I guess my intuition / self awareness were steering me right after all.
The reason it wasn't addressed, I'm 32 now, is because of no continuation of care so every doctor who saw me after had a different opinion and none ever saw me as long or intensively as that doctor did. Also my coping skill of just disassociating away from everything didn't help clear things up either. One observant dr at a
voluntary unit last year diagnosed me probable 
Bpd and got the ball really rolling and I'm so glad to finally have the relief of a diagnosis. Even if it's really my first time second time diagnosis 

So hello everyone with BPD. I'm officially one of you. Please if anyone can share any advice or experiences with their bpd I'd really appreciate it. I've been focusing on just my depression so long and not made progress now I know why but I feel sad I wasted time and am so behind compared to where I could be :(