I've never been diagnosed, but I seem to suffer from EDNOS. 

I'll start having low self esteem and feeling really insecure about my body, and start restricting, sometimes purging. I'll weigh myself incessantly, obsess over my weight and food and just generally feel awful.

Then I'll either start posting pictures online, get an influx of men telling me hot I am, or have reckless sex with men who find me attractive. I'll get a certain level of validation, and the symptoms will subside for a few months. I'll eat normal, feel good about my body, rarely weigh myself, etx. Then the cycle repeats.

It makes me feel like I don't have a real eating disorder. If it can just go away like that, I'm obviously not as sick as all the girls on the ED blogs I read.

I recently started feeling like this again, but have a boyfriend right now so I'm not posting pictures or having reckless sex. He hasn't been giving me any validation, but he says he's going to try harder to do it. So hopefully that goes well and I get better again.

I haven't talked to anyone, including my boyfriend, about this. I know I need to bring it up, but I'm downplaying it and feel like a total fraud and that I'm not really sick.

I tend to cycle in a similar way with self harm and emotional love and attention as well.

Anyone relate?