I have had (self diagnosed but everything fits) anxiety since I was 13 years old. I've always had so much energy, I talked A LOT and I said a lot of things that come from my imagination, I have very strong feelings and sometimes I go numb. All of that seemed normal for a child but of course I grew up and all of that just got worse. I get leg and finger pains if I don't move, my feet shake until I get tired, sometimes I have the urge to touch everything and everyone, I can't stop thinking about stupid things but it goes to an extreme where I get tired of thinking and I can't stop so I try to sleep or calm down but can't. When it comes to feelings I always feel as if everything was against me even if I know its not, I get super mad and cry or I get so happy and excited I act as a child, all my feelings are always so strong and this makes me tired and I end up being numb for days. I experienced anxiety attacks, they always end up in self harm (I don't eat, I hit myself, pull my hair until it hurts, and things that I know are going to damage me. I used to cut but not anymore). I am really trying to get better by myself, I always thought it wasn't that much of a deal and I can control it but obviously I cant.

which specialist should I go to? Is there medication? Is something I can do? I want to know everything about people who's been treated professionally :)


Note: I don't plan on buying medicine by myself, I just want to know everything about it before I do anything.