Hi all. To cut a long story short, I went through a really bad breakup 5 months ago. This person was very emotionally abusive, manipulative, and in hindsight, not a very good person.

I was very much in love with her and convinced myself that I was going to marry her.

Since the breakup, I've been very proactive with therapy, self healing, journaling, and focusing on myself. I've improved my diet, lost a bunch of weight, put on a bunch of muscle, and for months my mental health seemed to be dramatically improving.

Last week I experienced my first panic attack since the first week of the breakup. I was at the gym, a song came on, anxiety went through the roof and I ran to the bathroom and threw up.

Sunday came along, had work, anxiety started peaking and subsequently on the drive home I absolutely bawled, just like I did 5 months ago.

Progressively since Sunday, there have been panic attacks coming up, and my anxiety increasing more than ever. 

I've managed to book a session in with my psychologist today to talk through this, but I wanted to know of others experiences and what worked best for them?