I am working so hard to work on communicating better with my boyfriend and not take out my emotions due to triggers or the fact I have horrible control over my emotions. I have said nasty things to him during fights and he is starting to think I don't love him because he would never talk to me like this. Idk what to do, currently panicking &amp; trying to not fuck up this relationship. I am beyond lost, as I do not know how to make up for all I've done. Help. 