I've felt actually good and happy. Today was a really good day and I couldn't even fully appreciate it cause I let one thing my best friend said upset me. It's been hours and I've been holding back tears this entire time. I feel so stupid. It wasn't even anything that should've hurt my feelings or normally would have. I don't know what's wrong with me I was okay. I just feel like all of that happiness was in vain. Like no matter what now I'm gonna feel this pain and this loneliness. Like I'm actually wondering what the point is anymore 