Have you ever been so tired of your situation that you can literally do almost anything to try to change your situation?

I been told that I am in the risk of developing schizo-affective disorder a couple of weeks ago by my doctor. Right now, we are trying out different medications to stable my mood and to minimize my psychotic symptoms... And as soon as we're able to do so we're going to put me on ADHD medication since I also have that. 

I am so tired of doing this, and I am tired of not being taken seriously by anyone in my surrounding. My mental illness has caused me to lose most of my social contacts and I spend most of my days with people, whom work to care for me. Everyone I talk to treats me differently since I have a mental illness, and it's not that they are mean but they don't treat me as an equal. 

I feel so incredibly alienated from the society I live in.. That is what I am trying to say. 

I literally could do almost anything (within the boundaries of the law) to change my situation.