Hi

So I just had a problem with a weed experience while I was in Amsterdam.

I'm not a weed user and only have tried it 1-2 times before and it always have resulted in negative effects in my behaviour. This time, after 5 years of not smoking pot, I tried it again to see if the effects would result into different outcomes. The result was that I got into a psychotic horrifying trip that to this day has been the worst day of my life. I actually thought I was stucked on a infinite loop of suffering &amp; that I  was stucked in hell while my friends were trying to calm me down but they couldn't.

Anyways this trip was a very traumatic experience for myself, but interestingly I coped with the trauma in a good way while I was on the trip. I traveled for another month in Europe and never resulted into panic attacks of any kind. Last week, I returned home from my trip and resulted into my first ever panic attack which raised by heart and revived the emotions that I felt when I was high. Since I've never have had a panic attack I thought I was actually stucked in the same moment as amsterdam and thought that the experience was real. A truly horrifying experience.  Since my first panic attack, I've resulted into another 3 episodes but now I was more informed about my situation with anxiety, since I have several familiy members that also have had panic attacks in the past, so the other 2 episodes I was able to calm down more.

Before using marijuana, I was not emotionally balanced so I strongly believe that this behaviour triggered a strong effect in my subconsious that fucked up with my mind. Now with this panic attack, I've never in my whole life felt more emotionally vulnerable, I have stopped drinking and smoking since a hangover triggered the first panic attack and I believe my mind is causing a connection with hangovers and the marijuana episode, since when I smoked marijuana in Amsterdam I was very hangover. Also the second episode of the panic attack, I had a very similar emotion that I had in the episode.

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My question for you guys is... Do you guys believe that I'm suffering from PTSD from my marijuana trip? Have any of you have had a similar experience? How did you cope with your first panic attacks? How did you manage yourself mentally after a traumatic experience?

It has been a very difficult month for me, so I would appreciate the help. Also, I already seek for professional help I just need your advice in the subject and how would you deal with it. I'm currently working in my physical and obviously mental health. I'm avoiding drinking and trying to control negative emotions.