i’m 19F, with diagnosed adhd, depression, and anxiety. in my last session with my therapist, i was telling her about a panic attack/nervous breakdown/meltdown or whatever it is that i had the night before. i’d told my partner he had to leave me, that im crazy, that i will never get better. and it all felt so real. he didn’t leave, because this had happened before, and 
he knows i’m really struggling rn. when i told her about this, she brought up bpd. ironically enough, i’d talked to my mom about the potential for bpd before, as she and i both believe my biological dad has it, along with adhd. until my diagnosis with that, all those symptoms were just traits i got from him, in my mind. if i do get diagnosed with bpd, i know that’ll make so many things make sense. i’m terrified though. my therapist said it could also be hormonal imbalances, as it was several days before my “period” (i’m on birth control), and i have pmdd. i’m so lost and confused. i don’t know how to feel , bc part of me wants it to be anything but bpd, and the other just wants to know what the fuck is wrong with me. i don’t even know why im posting this. i guess i just need some support.