i felt like i needed to be held in the psych ward for at least a few hours to stop me from doing risky things.  I need the deterrent effect of being confined and losing from freedom for some time.  i rly dont want to be admitted but just held for observation for awhile, so I'd have to be careful not to say the S word.  Not sure how i feel about it now i'm gonna go back to bed for a few hours if possible.