Every day, I feel like an elastic band. 

Sometimes, I stretch and I feel fine for a while. Maybe even great and motivated. But at some point (notably especially when it gets dark or some minor trigger gets it going), it snaps back. 

I end up back in hopeless depression, feeling empty or numb or like there is a huge weight on my chest. I go back to feeling tired, emotionally drained. I go back to self-loathing, distancing myself from friends, laying in bed.

Ultimately, this is how I fight through every day. It is very very tiring and I am praying every day that it’ll get better.