Over the past year, I've been super stressed. I had just entered uni and everything became so different - there was so much freedom to choose what to study on a day-to-day basis, lack of disciplinary actions against students who miss class, lack of reminders.

I know this is a step in the education system to treat us to become more independent adults to prepare us for the workforce, but boy does it do the opposite for me. Not only do I constantly turn up late to class despite noting it down in my calendars, I sometimes miss lessons because I get so caught up with everything else. To top it off, last year was filled with online lessons, and I could never find the motivation to attend lectures, and even if I did, I feel that I wouldnt be able to pay attention at all and fall further behind my peers.

The constant stress of worrying about the next class, the next deadline, and everything I have to do caused me to get breakdowns almost everyday. I feel this has significantly impacted my brain structure because I can actually sense the impact through my day-to-day life.

1. I'm unable to control my emotions nowadays. Everytime someone frustrates me in the slightest way (e.g. my parents nagging) I throw a tantrum and cry in my room (yes I know, childish). Everytime someone rejects me (e.g. I dont get selected for a role), I cry everyday for weeks on end, sometimes even months, despite telling myself that I didn't care and that there are more opportunities in the future.

2. I forget things A LOT. Not just the usual "where did I put my phone" (this would happen EVERY SINGLE TIME I leave my phone), but also when I decide to switch tasks, I almost immediately forget to do it and only realise it after an hour (this is not an exaggeration btw). This always happened to me in the past, but not as severe as what I'm experiencing now.

3. I'm constantly in a daydream state and oblivious to the world around me. When ever someone calls we, I won't notice unless they shout or nudge me. I daydream even during a conversation and forget what the other person had said.

4. I can't can't find the right words to say during conversations, despite being able to write fluently. When ever I want to strike a conversation, I dont know what to say and stumble over my words, so I avoid socialising even though I enjoy talking to people.

This is all I can think of now, I may add some more in the comments when I think of any...

I'm worried that this is gonna affect me for the rest of my life, and it seems to have become worse as I face more stress due to school and the fact that I'm entering adulthood and everyone else is developing way faster than me socially and mentally, but I just don't know how to fix it, or is it even possible to fix :,(