asking for advice, please dont be nasty.

been w/ my SO for a long time. about a yr ago i admitted to cheating, it went on for a few years. ashamed of myself, depressed, and embarrassed. its been a full year since telling SO and weve been to couples and individual therapy for months. SO forgives me and is ready to move on. after admitting to cheating a year ago, i still have ongoing anxiety, and even panic attacks. 

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im so ashamed of what ive done and a year later, the panic attacks have stopped but i still have anxiety randomly. i have been told in therapy to forgive myself and move on from this. why wont my anxiety stop? before all this happened, i never had anxiety..but with this bombshell in our lives i now deal with it on a regular basis. i even have intrusive anxiety driven thoughts now. i was never this person.

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if anyones cheated and admitted to it, did you also get anxiety after? or, have you dealt with anxiety and how long did it take to pass, or how did you learn to cope? sometimes i wonder if ill ever feel right again.

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again, just looking for advice regarding anxiety or this topic. i obviously have a great deal of remorse and guilt related to cheating, so no need to brow beat me over it. redditors can be nasty but i am looking for sincere advice.