This guy I had a fling with last summer that ended up telling me how I was just a lay to him as he dumped me kept coming around my social circles. It always put a huge pit in my stomach and made me shiver when I saw him. Every time I confronted him, he'd ignore me but continue to make a big show of making friends with all of my friends. Sick guy. 

So I checked out what he was doing. Turns out the dude was bragging about all these girls he was "fucking and dumping" and even posting their names and pictures as he talked about them. 

I got tired of everything and sent the girls my story along with the stuff he was saying about them. I took screenshots of him making jokes about how "virgins should be raped" (I think this was directed towards me as I lost my virginity to rape.) And screenshots of some of the threats he's given me and sent them to moderators and his employer. 

The girls laughed. Right off the bat, they said he was hot but he weirded them out and they weren't even interested. 

The moderators of the community didn't like him in the first place and the sick behavior didn't make them think twice about getting rid of him. My friends that he's been talking to also said they always thought he was an idiot. I don't know about the employer but honestly I hope they let him stay. 

Because I realize now. He told me that no one likes me because no one likes him. He told me that I'm disgusting because he feels that way about himself. He told me that I have no life because he has no life.

Revenge? Revenge isn't the word. I ripped the mask off so that I could see reality. Here I was sitting and believing that I was the worst person in the world and he was some evil mastermind that is fooling everyone I love into thinking he's hot shit. 

Now, my job is to not feel guilty for what I did. I have such an issue with beating myself up for every single thing. It may not have been the *right* thing to do but it's over now. And I've learned a lot. 

We can trick ourselves into believing some pretty crazy stuff, especially if someone we love says it to us. I don't know all the answers but I am still young and I have hope that all of us can grow stronger and become happy. I know we can. It's just a matter of making mistakes and letting the mistakes teach us. 