So my relationship with masturbation has been quite distressing mainly because I’m scared of creating bad associations with other things I do. For example if I masturbate during the week, the things I do after or before it will begin to be associated with the masturbation. Like if I bought a game the day before or a movie was releasing on the weekend that was during a week I masturbated, my brain would always remind me “you masturbated the same day/week you played/watched this” Im tired of the stress it’s causing because it dampens my enjoyment of things I used to like. Soon as my brain thinks of a possible association before or after I masturbate it’ll begin to obsess over it, which either prevents me from enjoying the thing that’s associated now or make me suppress my urges to masturbate. Sometimes it feels like my brain is doing mental gymnastics to link things as well, I used to only care if masturbated on the same day as something else but now it can’t be in the same week otherwise I’ll feel terrible about it. I know why this has happened as when I first masturbated what I did after would’ve created these behaviours since I waited till the next week to do anything, now a year later this mindset is still impacting me.
Any advice on how to get over this, because I feel like a lot of things still bothering me would subside if I get over this.

TL DR: my brain creates links between things I do that week and if I masturbate, which I’m tired of.