Bit of a ramble and vent here so bare with me. 

One of the most frustrating and annoying things for me over the last few years (even if it ebbs and flows) is the feeling of not trusting that my body will not break. 

I used to suffer from very strong health anxiety in my 20s and 30s .. now being 40 I have struggled with nagging small things that most people would consider 'normal' .. reflux, some ibs that comes and goes, should and neck issues from sport, etc etc .. 

Right now, on top of that I'm down with Covid and feel generally shit. But when i think about it I dont really feel SO bad physically .. its 90% mental shit. 

I just feel so untrustworthy of my body .. and I don't think I have any reason to. But it does impact my mental state and my fitness goals etc.. 

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I just HATE feeling sick .. and i feel like over the last few weeks its always something small nagging me .. if not covid its a muscle strain .. if not that I have reflux or gas .. if not that I'll have neck pain... 

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How much of this is just anxiety and me 'listening' to much my body and every little ache ? How do I turn this off or become more POSTIVE about my body ? 

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Ps. i dont have poor body image .. i'm fairly athletic and work out .. sure room for improvement but its not the look of the body im unhappy with. Its all the shit breaking or giving me anxiety even if i should just ignore them or accept them as 'normal' .. 

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rant over