I’m stressed and nervous and scared and so overwhelmed I feel like crying most days. I’ve slipped back into self-loathing and lashing out behaviors. I can’t talk to a psychiatrist (because I had one through my university) and I can’t get a therapist (because im not staying in the country for very long). I don’t want to talk to any of my friends at all because all they are to me right now are draining. I barely want to talk to my family, and when I do, I always feel like im on the edge of exploding.

I just want to stay in my room and never leave. I just want to be able to cry in peace and try to distract and distance myself from the whole world.

I know I shouldn’t do this but I honestly don’t know how to cope better. I just want a reset button to change my life. I know this is more of a rant but any suggestions on how to get out of this would be nice. I just need the comfort of knowing that others have gotten out of it.