\[English isn't my first language\]

One of the worst parts of depression for me is the fact that I just don't feel anything at all. 

Today I found out that I got into my dream university. I had been working my ass off, I had been looking forward to this all year and yet when I got the news I just felt nothing. The other day I finally managed to leave my house to go for a short bike ride around my town, I was listening to my favourite songs, the weather was nice and guess what: I just felt even worse.

No matter how hard I try to make myself feel better I always end up failing. Either I can't bring myself to actually get up and do stuff or I don't get any satisfaction when I manage to, it's so frustrating.