I’m just having the worst weekend, everything is setting me off and making me angry. I forced myself to get out of bed and thought if I put on makeup and a cute dress, I’d feel better about myself and I don’t. I’m about to go wash my whole face and I want to shave my hair off because it just never looks good. 

Like I can feel myself nose diving into a breakdown and I don’t know how to stop it. I have no good coping skills because nothing works, I can’t find a therapist in my area that is familiar with working with anything but situational depression. Walking outside in the sun will not work for me or any other shallow coping skills.


I’m about to smoke and drink for the rest of the day because those moments of some good brain chemicals is better than nothing. Even if drinking has the bad side effects it’s still good in the moment.