You read the title. explanation speed run: 
My girlfriend and i finally parted ways and i’m trying to take this alone route and work on myself just like those wise goblins tell ya to do. Unfortunately I still find myself driving during the night and slowly finding the urge to crash my car in a cocaine or meth rage. Nothing feels like it’ll get better and just when i start to figure out my identity my brain just always blocks my hopeless with pessimism. God, i don’t believe i him. my friends are doing so well and i’m here :).