I consider myself to be very on the nose with my problems. I don't have an explosive personaltiy anymore, I don't have crazy moodswings anymore.

One thing I have been struggling a lot with though is thinking my boyfriend is going to break up with me. We've been together for over 3 months now and it's going well. However sometimes I get incredibly depressed and I think he will leave me, for no rational reason. It's like my brain thinks of any possible thing why he will break up and latches on it.

I feel heartbroken when I go through an episode like this. I do not want to talk to him about it because I am scared it'll scare him off, this is something I want to tackle myself. 

Anybody any experience with this? Of course it's not set in stone that he will stay with me but we both think we're having the best relationship we've ever had. The waiting list for my therapy is at the end of the year so I'm really lost.

Do you have anything that helped for you? A way of thinking that you adapted or learned yourself? I would appreciate any help I can get.