Does anyone else struggle every single day to just keep yourself alive? The demons in my head constantly tell me ways to end it. I see a knife "Stab yourself". I see pills "Take them all". It's been like this since I was about 8 years old. I'm struggling so bad right now. I've had so many bad things happen to me, I don't know how to cope. I just keep thinking it'd be so much easier if I just died. I tried to off myself a month ago, or was it two months ago? I can't remember, my memory is crap these days. How do you guys deal with these thoughts. I keep hoping so bad I'm not alone. I want to die so bad right now. I hate that I'm a useless beggar. I'm losing everything in my life that I've cared about. I'm falling apart.