Feel like I gotta mention I have comorbid bipolar and (not full on but they're there) psychosis issues that I'm on antipsychotics for, I might be 'explosive' but I'm not an aggressive person at all, but yea I'm going through hell in life and I'll have my 'moments' at home. I feel so fucking ashamed of talking about this alone.. but yea earlier I had the police show up because one of my neighbors was worried about my mental health, I just had another rage episode over nothing (just running out of lighters lol) and one of my neighbors showed up at my apartment door cuz I was screaming things and broke something. Afterwards I went to his door to apologize again even tho he wasn't mad, explained some stuff and that he could ring my door any time I'm being loud but yeah I feel SO ashamed. Anyone else dealt with this? I'm not a hellish neighbor but there's times where this kinda stuff happens and idk what to fucking do beyond using more drugs. Just knowing I'm THAT kinda neighbor that you read abt makes me feel horrible