Hey everyone, I’m 25F. So, I have been a chubby kid half of my life but I kinda became a lil more fat(not obese) since a relationship happened and then he cheated on me resulting in a binge eating disorder. I have always felt comfortable in my own body and I still am. But here’s what’s eating me inside. So, my parents and my sister are amazing. They always provide and get me everything I want and they never said no to anything I wanna do. But when it comes to weight, they always go to such extremes to make me feel bad about myself that they shout at me for not tryna loose the weight. They make jokes about my weight constantly throughout the day which causes me to lose my self esteem. I told them a lot of times that it bothers me. They just say “we just say it for fun, don’t take it seriously” and “we tell you the truth cuz we love you. None of the outsiders care enough to tell you the truth”. They are kinda reputed in our community. So they care about how people gonna judge if their daughter is fat and how she won’t find someone who’ll marry her or actually love her for her. I have had so many major depressive episodes in the past few years that I sometimes had days where I didn’t get out of my bed for like a whole day. I have had relationships in the past but I was always so insecure about how I used to look even tho the person had no problem with how I look. The insecurity is so deeply rooted right now I feel helpless. I feel maybe I don’t deserve any happiness and people who say they like me really don’t like me…