This is something that I guess most of us go through but for me it’s just really really really bad. I pushed this guy, my former best friend away after doing some really awful stuff by text and he blocked me everywhere. For an entire year I’ve been creating fake accounts to try to get him to talk to me again, I’m so scared of the consequences but I keep doing it. He’s already threatened a few months ago to get a restraining order if I don’t stop trying to contact him but I still do. There’s a part of me that can’t let go of the non-existent hope that we’ll be friends again, and it takes a hold of me every few weeks. With regard to him, I feel no control, with everyone else, I’m so much better, my life is normal for the most part. How can I stop, how do I leave him alone and move on with my life?