I have had (severe) social anxiety since I was a child, or so I think I do. I have had the same symptoms (can't breathe, heart racing, sweating like mad, forgetting how to talk basic dialect, etc.) whenever I am talking in front of a crowd or to new people in general. I am still somewhat like this, however my anxiety symptoms have definitely improved over the past few years but now depression is getting ahold of me. Sometimes, I have thoughts about the world being a better place without me in the picture, but I have never acted upon those thoughts. However, I have noticed I only get these depressive episodes only when I have no one to talk to (most of the time).   


I was referred to psych the first time I told my doctor about this, and it's been a month since I have been there and they're "still deciding", not sure what that means as they decided to send me to therapy on my first appt. Is there anything I can take to get rid of these effects even for a short while? This has affected my life for far too long.