I cannot handle being disappointed, which is pretty unfortunate considering life is full of disappointment. Like if I expect something or really want something and it doesn't work out I just inwardly self destruct. I feel like it goes back to black and white thinking of "if this one thing doesn't happen it will ruin everything and nothing will be ok"
This makes me feel like such a brat and I know it seems that if I don't get my way then I throw a tantrum. I feel a lot of shame over this but I really don't know how to stop from imploding and feeling a sense of doom