I can't tell you the whole plot and stuff. Just know that this is new to me - reciprocation. How do I not mess this up? I still doubt him even though he reassures me every single day. We're both 18 years old, by the way. I've only known him for a few months (freshmen). Also, another barrier is out belief systems. I am agnostic, he's a follower of INC (Philippines). Although we differ in such aspect, his morals and opinions aline with mine. I like the way he thinks and expresses himself. Yeah, that's pretty much it. Thank you. 

ps. when it comes to my fear of abandonment, i do this shitty thing where I leave that person as soon I feel that they're going to leave me (leave them before they get to leave me) though most of the time, it's all in my head

sorry for the grammatical mistakes