I want to be an animator really badly, I enjoy the animating so much, hell I'm even currently in Uni racking up debt as we speak.

And my parents have poured so much money into my future, to the point that I'm privileged enough to not even need a part time job.

But I just can't handle this shit anymore, every day it feels like there something new, first I keep getting this pop up warning of a MSG Display that I can't find in my files and the Internet has full on said there's no fix and now my storage is filled up for no reason and I can barley work.

I know I can get it fixed eventually, I even have an IT guy who's gonna look at it, but this shit feels like its happening every day, something breaks, something doesn't work and there's no explanation, Its less the technology and more I just can't handle the whiplash of ok to stressed.

Then time piles up and I just feel useless because I can't fix it and it stresses me out since I then worry about my future when I won't have all these people to help me and I'm on my own.

For the record I'm not cutting because my computer doesn't work, I just feel like I'm wasting my parents money and being alone in my uni house and that fucking computer is just always the last straw.

It's not that I have a bad relationship with my roommates, but every time I talk to them they just seem so distant and uninterested, I guess its since they're all childhood friends which often makes feel like the odd one out.

I just want things to go ok, I don't even want things to go right anymore, just alright enough that I can animate and be a little miserable instead of always having to fix a problem when another one will occur and be fucking depressed.