I feel a lot of shame. But I feel like I split to protect myself. I feel like I cannot trust that person at all anymore, something in my gut is telling me that but i’m not sure if its logical. I’m heartbroken and going through the stages of heartbreak mentally cause they were my FP but we haven’t even broken up yet. I don’t want to lose him but I split bc I perceived abandonment 
but now I just want to match his energy so I don’t ever love him more than he loves me.