I'm really just really sad still. It was weeks ago, and this has never happened to me before.

We talked throughout the day. We met up and hooked up. We talked to eachother the most on snapchat.

One day I invited him to a pro wrestling match for fun. He declined because he had work, but then told me to send him pictures.

And that was it. He never ever opened up a message again, never responded. I even found his phone number and tried to text him to no avail.

I know he's on snapchat, I see his snap score rise. I deleted him and tried to delete his number but I can't seem to get passed it

But here's the thing: part of me wants to be "crazy." I want to confront him at his work. I want to make him respond to me.

I know it's crazy and I know I shouldn't do it, but I also know he used me for attention. He clearly didn't care about me, he just wanted someone to talk to. And he used me for it.

I've never had this happen to me before. I'm not sure if it's triggering because I have bipolar or if it's just how being human is.

I'm just so hurt, but I should have known to might not have worked out.

On the upside, before being on medication this would have sent me spiraling like crazy. Probably suicidal too. I'm sure this will pass, but in the meantime I don't understand why someone would just disappear