I just had to do a 30-minute timed essay for my English class. I read through the thing it was on, which took my hours to read and annotate btw, and felt like I was ready. One of the few things I've always been proud of is how I can put my thoughts into words and write them well. This was not the case.

I had a constant anxiety attack the whole time. It doesn't help that I have hand tremors, which are worse when I'm this anxious, and made mistakes the whole time. If it was handwritten, I wouldn't have been able to get more than a few sentences over the entire time. I feel so disappointed in myself because it's at about 10% of my usual writing level. It has none of the skills that I've worked so hard to build. I was in tears most of the time because I knew how poorly it was coming out, but I couldn't force myself to come up with anything. My mind was constantly blanking and it felt like I was trapped.

Any suggestions if people have struggled with this in the past? I do fine when I'm not under a time constraint.