Hey all,

Long story made short. Break up 3 years ago. Immediately after developed anxiety. Became Lonely AF, constantly going between several unsuccessful relationships, working a job I despise, living with people that infuriate me, used weed edibles (1st time user).

Basically, a bunch of environmental aspects brought me down. Weed edibles helped... and then didn't. Especially for anxiety disorders. I'd find myself anxious, OCD, and constantly fixated on "issues". All of this happening during COVID.

Depression became worse July 2021. Hated my environment, wanted to move, get a new job, get new friends, get a girlfriend, etc. I was alone and very unhappy. Then I went into the ER for a panic attack I mistook as a heart attack. That made me fixate my anxiety, on my health.

Since, I've gone from: cancer fear, heart issues, thyroid issues, schizophrenia fear, neurological degeneration fear, dementia fear (I'm 26), ALS fear, etc. Several blood tests, several specialists, several support systems. Diagnosed with Health Anxiety OCD.

After I got the results that my heart was normal this year. I came utterly, completely, chemically depressed. The whole nine yards, one thing that happened as well was insomnia. A innate, chemical, type of insomnia. Which has only been exacerbating all of my mental health issues.

My doctors want me to begin antidepressants. But I keep feeling new symptoms each day.

**These days my symptoms are: waking up feeling** ***head sick***\*\*, feeling sick, fearing that I'm dying of an undiagnosed illness, belief that my issues are not related to anxiety or depression, stomach pains, nausea, tremors, coordination issues, bumbling hands, etc\*\*But I'm as sharp as tick. Still hanging out with friends. I do take supplements to help me get through the day.

I just wanted to hear your thoughts. Does anyone else deal with feeling tremendously sick, like their head is sick, or their brain is mush. Feeling that you're dying, decaying, rotting, etc.

Thank you all. Hope you have a wonderful day.