Putting myself on blast here because I am over this and ready to move on from it. Anytime something serious goes down with my bf, (for example when I got pregnant and currently now we are planning to move in together) I fixate on this horrible fear that he will cheat on me. 

It mostly got worse because when we first met, he told me he wasn’t talking to other girls but I found out he lied when I had a freak out about the cheating worries and went through his phone. He *was* talking to a girl when we met but as soon as he met me he stopped talking to her and never saw her again. He told me he only lied because he was scared that I would think he was promiscuous, because, well he kind of was. But in my head, I just think he lied because he actually was doing it with other girls, or even planning to later and didn’t want me to suspect it. I am SO paranoid about it.

He has assured me over and over he never wants to do this to me, but I cannot move on. I am so fixated on something we already worked out forever ago and is at this point, a me issue.