I am very often extremely disappointed in myself for not being able to feel gratitude towards things unless I think deeply on them. It makes me feel selfish and unappreciative most times.

But something I have noticed is that with small things, like a favorite song, movie, show, book, food, place, etc. I am able to experience emotions towards these things that feel un-shareable to even the closest people in my life. I feel that no matter how hard I try to convey the emotions I feel towards these things they will never get through and I will never be able to share it with anyone. It feels as if I experience emotions towards these things differently than others (even if they like them).

I have of course learned to love the fact that I can enjoy these things alone in my own way but ofc my drive to find someone who understands my emotions is nagging but I don’t let it control me. 

Does anyone else feel this way?