I’m extremely devastated and cannot stop crying right now. I met this guy online a couple weeks ago, not on a dating app or anything but we got really close. He said he was falling for me. I said I felt like saying something I know I didn’t actually feel yet but he wanted me to say it so I finally dropped the L word. I know it was only two weeks but we talked for hours a day on FaceTime. Told him all my fears and he of course said he would never leave my life. I asked him about the distance and he asked if I’d be okay with it and I said I would be. We were intimate on FaceTime a couple times as well. Yesterday I hardly heard from him so I thought something was off. He messaged me last night and said he was busy but then also did say he had been thinking and doesn’t know if we could ever be together. But he ended the message with “I’m going to bed we will talk about it in the morning.” In the morning he messaged me explaining so I called him and he finally answered. He said he was finally being realistic and not just “in the moment” and didn’t think it would work because we live in different countries, have different beliefs, etc. which I knew was BS because if you’re really falling for someone you make it work. He denied that his feelings changed. An hour later into the call, he finally said he doesn’t know if it’s infatuation or if he really has feelings for me and didn’t tell me that because he didn’t want to hurt me. He said he’s not in touch with his emotions and it’s something he’s always struggled with to the point where we watches sad videos to try to feel something. I was crying and he told me to take deep breaths and asked if I was going to be okay. I said no and he said he would check on me tonight. I kept asking what he wanted, at some points he said he didn’t want anything to change and then at others he said it may be best to stop talking so I don’t get hurt more. But then he proposed a break for about a week where he can evaluate how he feels. I told him that’s fine but idk if I will feel the same after that week and he said he understood. Finally I said I’ll let you go and we hung up. Then I noticed he deleted me on Snapchat. So I messaged asking why he lied about the break if he just wanted to get rid of me and he replied saying “I’m not getting rid of you.” But then he stopped replying even though at times I saw his emoji sitting there. I texted him and it didn’t say delivered so I’m guessing he blocked my number too. I told him on snap that I just want to know if this is it instead of believing it’s a break because that’s cruel to not let me know what’s going on. And then he BLOCKED me on snap! I messaged him on Reddit asking for the truth one last time but I’m guessing he will block me on there too. He did mention he has “intimacy issues” so idk if he’s just pushing me away or if he was looking for something fun and saw that I clearly had a one track mind... but the last two weeks he was constantly telling me he missed me, was falling for me, I was so amazing, anyone would be a fool to not want to be with me, etc. I’m just so broken right now. This always happens. Has anything like this ever happened to anyone else?