I'm pretty sure I'm hypomanic, or at least getting there. I noticed something was off on Tuesday when I walked into school and was dismayed at the prospect of eating breakfast. For several weeks all the way until last Monday I'd been struggling a bit with binge eating. I'd also gotten about 5hrs of sleep the night before, and that night I got 3hrs.

I slept for longer last night and felt pretty normal this morning, until somewhere around midday when my thoughts started picking up again. I've also been talking a more avidly than usual, but it's more like sporadic bursts of ranting and not a constant stream of words/ideas.

Part of me misses feeling manic, but a much larger part of me is terrified. I just had an episode 4 months ago, I became extremely delirious and paranoid from the lack of sleep and dropped out of school. This is my last chance to graduate and I don't want to fuck it up. I usually have more time between episodes, and the meds are supposed help.

It's more than likely that this is just a hypomanic episode, it's pretty normal for me to have less severe mood swings in between episodes. But I'm sacred that it's not. I don't know what to do.