first off: this was on friday, not today, i was on my period, and i’m diagnosed with both anxiety and ibs 

so i had my aqa paper 1 chemistry gcse on friday at 9am, exam started and everything was fine, i’d shit before the exam bc of anxiety shits at home and even went at school just in case (i literally never do that but i was rly stressed bc i need to do well in chemistry) 

exam started and after like 50 minutes ( out of 1h 15) i feel this sudden urge to poo really badly, like diarrhea. i was clenching and then had one of those farts that literally u can’t hold in. period shits combined with anxiety shits and ibs is a really bad combo. a few more farts and then suddenly farted and it felt rly warm/wet, i moved in my seat and then realised that it wasn’t the fart, but that i’d just fully shat myself during my fucking gcse. of course i panicked and tried to act natural, but i still desperately had to poo and also had diarrhea literally covering my ass, underwear and the inside of my skirt.

sat there for the remaining 25 minutes of the exam worrying over whether i ask to go and risk it running down my legs out of my skirt, or sit there and try to hide what happened. I chose to sit there, which yes ik is disgusting but I couldn’t face walking past 300 people in my year with shit streaming down my legs.

I was on the farthest row to the right, at the back corner. The door was at the front left corner. The exam ended and luckily my row was last to be let out as we were the furthest away from the door. I awkwardly waited in my seat until most ppl had walked off and whispered to the invigilator at the back to say i’d had “a period accident” and needed to wait here till everyone had gone bc i was embarrassed. 

Everyone left and she walked me out the fire exit door at the back and made sure i was okay bc i literally had a panic attack bc i was so stressed about it. She walked me to the disabled toilets and left me to clean up and stuff, even brought me some spare underwear and uniform that the school must of had for things like this.

My schools exam officer applied for me to have special consideration for extra marks bc of distress bc ibs/anxiety and was rlly nice to me saying accidents happen it’s okay, and somehow no one found out id shat myself during a gcse exam.