hey everyone ,
my FP (M21) which i’ve just married and been with for 5 years has ADHD and depression.
I (F21) have bpd, and as you know … i’m idealizing my FP and putting him a divine lvl.
Anyways, I started therapy for the first time and i’m hoping to have my bpd under complete control and stabilization.
So to get to the point… Idk if I have unrealistic expectations of my FP. So here’s the big deal: he isn’t sexually satisfied with me anymore. Might be due to his ADHD or something, but yeah, he basically don’t compliment me anymore, don’t engage in sexual activities anymore but he says he wants to have sex with other women cause it got repetitive and boring with just one person. Me and my FP are each other’s only bodies in our entire lives. 
Idk what to think of that. I mean, you know it obviously breaks my heart but on the other hand he says that i have unrealistic expectations of him because of my BPD for not accepting this type of behavior.
Now I do not mind him being abstinent or masturbating, however, him wanting other women but not his own is really making me have nightmares and breakdowns. However, he said that it’s his nature and it will never change and he refuses to attempt changing it. He gets extremely angry whenever i bring it up or when i cry about it.

Note: I was okay with playing along with any fantasies that he has. But just talking about it to him makes it want it more and more in real life , and he isn’t interested in me sexually anymore so.
And his sexual frustrations result in an overall bad mood, no attention or closure or intimacy or touch.