I have been drained; socially, mentally, physically, you name it. Because of that , more and more , i keep avoiding. Even when I isolate myself sometimes, I feel like it's not a proper isolation because i feel like I'm hiding.

  
I also feel guilty about this, I just got into a relationship with the most understanding and loveable person that I've always had a crush on and we've been talking for months. Now that we're in a relationship, I keep wanting to run away. I also want to run away from my friends, I keep avoiding to play games with them or its so hard for me to go and say hi. Fortunately, I have amazing and supporting friends that are very patient with me. But how much longer am I going to take advantage of their kindness? People grow tired of bad habits.  
I want to fix this. I talked to one of my friends about this. She said that I might be emotionally unavailable for this. That I'm not in a place for a relationship. That isolating myself is not a way to heal either. 

  
She advised me to focus on myself first; to disconnect from social media and actually "isolate" myself in a healthy way. Without feeling guilty. Needing time without worrying about other's people opinion on it. She also told me that she doesn't think Im ready for a relationship, don't get me wrong- shes very supportive of me and my current bf but she's very scared I might be hurt in the process because of my bad habits. I had given it some thoughts and she might be right? I don't know.