Is tragic to try always your best and don't achieve what you want? Isn't comical  to see everyone moving foward while you are stuck in same shithole despite all your efforts?   
It's like some people are born without the possibility of trascending themself despite how much they try there is always fate that toyed with them.  I am one of them and I cannot accept it. I want to break out of my shell, I want to achieve what I want, I want to disgregard everything to become  what I want. However it is tragic I fear to be average but I don't see a future where I am not average  and my mind cannot accept it. I would surely kill myself by 27 if at that point I will be average.