I have no motivation to do anything.  It's hard to get out of bed and go to work. I've put all the cleaning and cooking on my husband.  My hygiene is terrible.  You might have seen my post about it the other day.  I'm in charge of me and my husbands finances. I've lost track of our budget.  I have no Idea if we have our rent money. I feel weird. Depressed but empty at the same time. I feel like crying but nothing comes out.  Nothing is bringing me joy. Im supposed to be doing my dbt work book and journaling but I havent been. My therapist was sick last week and cancelled so that made me feel worse. My psychiatrist put me on Lamotrogin but its too early to feel anything.  I feel such despair.  Last week I was having suicidal thoughts and texted 988. They werent all that helpful. I dont know where to turn or what to do.