I constantly place myself under the pressure of needing to accomplish big things and become successful. I tell myself that I cannot be truly happy unless I can truly consider myself "successful" - except I don't have a clue of what success means to me. 

Anytime I have time to relax, I get into a mood and tell myself that I am lazy and will not amount to anything. Once I get up to do something, I just remind myself that I suck at everything I am doing and will never be "good enough". 

I work a normal job and have 3 different freelance gigs on the side. I feel like I can't turn my brain off and just feel the need to constantly be working or I will be a failure to everyone.

 This leads to a lot of sleepless nights either sitting at my computer desk or laying in bed not able to fall asleep due to thousands of ideas running through my head.