My mind is not normal or atleast so I think 

This could be best explained with the help of an example.

For eg :- If I don't see my stuff(like water bottle,pencil,phones,shoes)/if my stuff is out of sight for more than 5 mins.I panic,my mind is like "you have lost it,how will you apologize,it was expensive dumbass,you should die,you are a failure." My panic is not visible,nor felt by anyone around me, however on the inside my heart starts beating fast and I get a feeling of sadness and failure.

And then when I find my stuff,my mind is like "huh okay".This is happening since Jan 2021

Is still normal? Is this anxiety? Has anyone felt it? Any advice?