I had the diagnosis in november that year. I had a psychologist before that but when I had the diagnosis she thought that they would give me another therapist, so she didn't took a new appointment with me. In fact I'm in a 1 year waiting list for a clinic but I hoped I could still have a therapist while I wait. 
I called her back when I started to feel like really really bad in in the end of january and she told me it was too bad and to call the hospital. The hospital gave me a short crisis therapist for 5 weeks and then I'm all alone again since march. 

The hospital really helped me but now I started to feel awful again. The clinic still haven't called me. I feel like shit and I don't have no one anymore even if that's my fault. I know they want me to wait for the clinic and maybe I'm impatient but they just really leave me alone and like yeah good luck lol. But they have a crisis line and I called them when I had a panic attack so I'm grateful for that. I'm grateful for the short-term therapist I had. I tried to call them back and asked for another appointment so I can talk to someone because I keep going down again but they didn't call me back. I guess I have to wait lol I'm fucked. 

Idk I just needed to vent and I feel like I'm harassing the people that have to help me because I always call old therapists I had when I go down. But all I'm asking is help and I'm alone most of the time. And I know I'm not sick enough to get immediate help. I just have to wait.