I've realized my go to move when I hit a strong depressive spiral my first response is to delete all the games on my phone and I want to destroy every good thing in my life. Like everything that gives me any modicum of joy I want it gone including any friendships or relationships I have at the time. 

I'm sure a lot of other people feel this but would it be considered a form of self harm? I've always thought I haven't done any self harm because I haven't physically done anything but would these kinds of actions still count?