Or prolonged trips, or anything like that. It seems absolutely pointless to me to spend sometimes over a grand to do things you could also be doing at home, yet I always get crazy looks from people when I tell them I don't enjoy them and that I think they're a waste of money.


Could this be related to BPD in any way? When on a holiday I just feel on edge every single second, I don't want to leave my room and just count down the days for it to be over, but I can't find a way to explain it to people.


My current GF and I just talked about this and she said it's gonna be a dealbreaker, I don't know what to do. Should I just fake being into it and just mentally torture myself for a few weeks while spending money that I'd love to spend elsewhere? That sounds extremely passive aggresive, but it's Exactly what it feels like to me.