I’m ready to die. I want to disappear for a weeks until I’m found, lifeless and free. I’m tired of being a human and going thru “life” I’m not close with my family but they love me but I don’t reciprocate due to me never getting over past childhood trauma. This isn’t fair. I want a gun, I want a day away from every single person from my life. No contact just me and the road ahead of me. That sounds so nice. Just to be alone or to be dead. Just me,myself,and I.