No matter if I’m manic or depressed, I’ve been getting drunk way too often lately. Most times I black out. Even when my friends tell me to stop drinking I continue on anyways because even though I know my limit, I just ignore it. Idk if I have like an actual problem or if I’m just going through it. I have a lot going on and maybe I’m unconsciously coping in a very unhealthy way. This just recently started happening. Idk I just feel like a piece of shit. 

Just wanted to let that out somewhere that I wouldn’t be judged :/