I honestly am at the point where I never want to get close with anyone again. I never want to make new friends because the only person I can trust is myself. I’m so tired of getting into these friendships where I get really close and tell them everything and I guess it’s not fair bc I become emotionally dependent on them but I can’t help it. When someone shows me they care I literally just gravitate towards it and then I put all of myself into the friendship. But then they always get bored of me and betray me. Someone that I thought would never leave me has stopped talking to me and is close with other people it literally breaks my heart I will never be the same. I feel like I can’t cope normally it feels like a personal attack against me. All I wanna do is scream and cry and just tell her how much she hurt me. I will never be the same after this I am so broken. I hate myself because it’s probably my fault and it’s too much pressure being friends with me. Holy shit like I’m so embarrassed I can’t believe I ever admitted I was close to them I actually just want to end it all I hate myself so much. Idk if anyone knows how to cope with this but sorry if you read this I didn’t know where else to go.