no one understand what’s going on in my head and i don’t think anyone understands the severity of just everything everyday i can’t deal anymore everyone keeps leaving everything keeps disappearing no one understands how serious i’m being they just think i’m being dramatic no i feel like i am decaying away slowly and each day is harder and soon will just end i have nothing i can not rely on a single person i’m breaking i don’t know what to do and i can’t see my psychiatrist and i don’t have a therapist and i just don’t know what to fucking do everything is so fucking hard and exhausting why can’t someone just care one fucking time 

if u have any ideas on what i should do please help i’m not sure where to go from here