I’ve always had low key anxiety, which maybe I could just say was heightened nervousness. About three years ago I went to the doctor a few times and my heart rate was up every time, I told the doctor it was just a little white coat, but she said something that stuck with me and really started my anxiety. She said, we only get so many heart beats. After talking with my therapist and other medical professionals, that was apparently an idiotic thing for her to say. It freaked me out though, so they did the entire work up. EKG, holder monitor, echocardiogram, etc. everything came back great. 

It has always stuck with me though. I always check my heart rate. I’m skinny, so it’s easy to feel my heartbeat in multiple areas, definitely not helpful in my situation though. This is honestly the only anxiety I have anymore after going through therapy. It’s a lot though. As times, it consumes me. 

I guess I just want to know if anyone else has experienced this, and if so, we’re you able to relieve it? I was recently told to get something to keep my hands occupied, because I’m typically checking it durning down time. So maybe like a fidget spinner or a stress ball. 

Thanks