Unlike many of my fellow bp comrades, I have spent over a decade to no avail trying new meds. (So damn glad they work for a lot of you tho) I am on meds but i think it could be a hell of a lot better.

This past two years now I have flown between mania, hypo, and depressive episodes and with seemingly no down time or “normalcy”.

Right now i believe im in hypomania and even though things could be worse, i am sick of experiencing symptoms nonstop i want a break. 

Does anyone have any advice or support? I am just so tired. I am about to turn 28 and have never felt worse. :(