My ex who also has BPD wrote me yesterday that he was certain he didn't want to go on anymore and we shouldn't see each other. Even though lately he had been feeling really close to me. I feel bad that I couldn't do what he needed, he said we fought too much, and I felt like every time I tried to say what was on my mind, he would minimize and counter whatever I was saying. Like provoking a fight. Then if I complained, he would say that he didn't feel like he could be himself. Two people with BPD is like a circle jerk of who can't hear the other person enough. He's said he was convinced he had to end things before, I can't remember how many times these last two years, but this time I just felt hopeless. I said if he wanted that to happen, we should not be able to easily reach each other, and after we said what we needed, I would just block him everywhere for at least a few months. At this point I feel like if we can get over each other that would be a good thing even though we have both felt a very special connection to each other. Sigh.