Basically, my psychiatrist said my mom was emotionally abusive, but it's anti-depressants or nothing. I was trying to express to her I have many BPD symptoms and I thought I might even be on the autism spectrum especially with diagnosed ADHD. Apparently, I could not possibly care what other people think of me if I was autistic. So I asked for help with just my emotional regulation symptoms - "you have to be 18 to have BPD". Like I know, but I need help. I am less than 2 months away from being 18, and I already have ADHD. She got pissed off that I didn't want unknown anti-depressants for an unknown issue. 

istg even my normal doctor does the same thing. Seasonal allergies? Just take antihistamines for 3/4ths of the year even though they haven't worked in the past. Debilitating menstrual cramps? Here's one of our two approved birth controls. Oh that one makes your symptoms worse? Try the other one. Your uterine walls are so thin they bleed constantly? We can't help you - find another doctor. 

I'm just so tired of everything. I finally convinced myself to go get help and all I'm met with is opposition. I'm so fucking spiteful over all my emotions being disregard as anxiety that I'm starting to think anxiety isn't even real. All of my stress has a very direct obvious cause, and I'm hoping moving out will get rid of a lot of it.  Sorry this is so jumbled I'm processing a lot rn