saw a psychiatrist yesterday, after two years of being "in the system", i feel relieved to know she agrees i am schizoaffective. it feels odd, like a finality of sorts? i got what i wanted, and am starting an appropriate, low dose of abilify. idk how to feel tho, idk where to go from here with myself. i have no issues with my current treatment plan &amp; am in fact looking for a talk therapist. im not looking for advice abt treatment im just hoping to talk about it. i have a lot to look forward to, getting treatment and monitoring of my various conditions, but i feel so... overwhelmed?

'everything happens so much' seems to be what i mean by this. im really hoping to have success with abilify, or to pair it with a companion drug. of course now that i know and accept im ill the unawareness n denial slam into me lol. i still have the ability to acknowledge this as a disordered behavior.

first steps n i feel like im gonna break my ankles /j