Last time i wrote here, was a snipe of my first manic episode

Looking back at the two weeks periode, wauw - i think it was the first time i really feeled alive on some sort of way


Now we are here - been depressed for the last two weeks or so

Got right back into my old habit of isolation and weed smoking (my excuse is i will be in bed anyways, why not smoke a little weed - only thing is - it makes it worse) 

I feel so fucking alone, no job atm (quit in my manic episode, cus “i made it” lol

I have been doing this for years now - spending most of my time alone.. “high” on weed

Hope is still here, i know i will get out of the rut, smoked my last weed today and will keep a distance to it, for a while now 

I just wish i can meet some new people to hang with, but it so got damn fucking hard, when u reached mid 20’s (any advice would be wonderful) 

I will try, for now on - to try and reach out to the people i know, what do i have to lose

I have always wished there was a place, like when i was younger - a place u just could come, and hang with people 

Here to old habits, fuck u 

Cheers