Just FYI, I'm not asking for medical advice. I have an appointment scheduled with my pdoc already. 

But there's this weird thing that started happening to me lately. My medication used to make me able to exist on a daily basis without feeling miserable all the time. However, I run out of pills a month or so ago and so I lived without medication for a whole week. I felt... normal. I could enjoy things and not get extremely emotional about every single little thing. Then I got back into them as soon as I could... and the shitstorm started. The suicidal thoughts came flooding into my brain, self-hate was rampant and constant. A lot of my eating disorder symptoms intensified enormously. Nothing gave me joy anymore. It felt like a depressive episode had come out of nowhere. 

Until today. Yesterday night, I was so tired I forgot to take my pills. And my day went on without any of the things I described above. I think my medication might not be effective anymore? I don't know what's going on. Have any of you had this happen to you?