Therapys just become more negative for me than anything. It's just a weekly reminder that my life is how it is and it's not going to change. My therapists definitely shit but what difference is a better therapist going to make. They aren't magicians.

All that's happened is that I've come to accept my life is how it is. I'm always going to feel like this. I'll never make any more friends and the close friends I used to have will probably never speak to me again, even though I'd love to keep in touch with them more than anything.

Even my therapist said that "it sounds like I've got nothing left to live for". What else is there to do other than carry on living every day like this