I hate these impulsive actions that this disorder makes us do. I've managed over the years to get the majority of them under control. Not perfect, but they are in the manageable territory.

However, when it comes to work, I have little to no impulse control when it comes to calling off work. My job is desperate for workers and when I'm there, they say they love me, and I work hard. 

It just seems that once a week, I can't go to work. I get a thought in my head, and some kind of excuse, then I sit there and argue with myself for a long time, and try to convince myself to go to work. 

Like today. I had Monday off work for a holiday, worked Tuesday, called out yesterday, and again today. I'm not I'll, not do I really need a mental health day. It just that I had this impulse and I gave it to it. 

If anyone has ideas on how to help me get out of this brain trap please let me know.