She's 21 and lives in another city. My mum has had to rush over there tonight as she's suicidal and needs someone with her urgently. I don't want to write a whole story, but we've been poor all our life, childhood full of trauma and difficulty, we're also immigrants and have struggled to build a community of friends in the new country. I know this is really tearing all my family apart. 

My coping mechanism was always to focus on work, work work so I can financially support us and help us live the experiences we need to have. Help my sister with her uni fee's help her go on holiday somewhere to chill out and relax her mind. Help my single mum, take some time to not worry about bills or debts we have. I just want us to be happy for once.

I've been struggling with depression too, but I've gotten better recently. This has kinda put me into a dark place again. I can't control what happens to others. If it was me I know my limits and how far I would go. I just want life to slow down and stop hitting me so hard while I'm trying to work to change our situation.

I'm 18, nearly 19 but I feel like my childhood has gone to this. Finances, money, debt. That's the only thing that's been on my mind. So much that I work myself to death so that we never have to feel this pain in our future. 

Until then, how can I support her