Everyone has all these sayings that show life as inevitably gloomy. The idea is when we are young, we push for change and do not believe these things will come true. Then we get older, give in, and just accept "reality". I have lives my entire life checking on people, giving them 100%, loving them at every turn, but basically becoming expendable to them. Some say that's just life. You only have yourself. Some say that you are just choosing the wrong people. No matter what it is, I am at those crossroads now. Do I keep believing in people or do I accept that I can be the man I want to be, and no one gives a fuck about it? That who I am, even if it's someone I am proud of, is not relevant to anyone? I am just tired.