My girlfriend of four years dumped me last night. I feel like a part of my body has been torn off.  
I've been dealing with depression for the past seven to eight years, she was the only one I had. I was happy when she was with me. I have major attachment and abandonment issues, the only times I felt okay was with her.   
Just as I was crawling out of a deep space this happens. I really don't know what to do.  
I really don't know if I want to live. The only reason I kept on keeping on the past years was her and the pills, now that she's gone I'm really not sure if the pills will be enough.