I turned 21 about a month ago and I took on about 5 classes. It was too much for me, I was so unorganized and unhappy with my life. I thought school and making the most money was for me but it’s not. I’m okay with living at the “bare minimum” because I just want happiness. I hate this work til u die thing. It’s so fucking depressing and it makes me want to die. So therefore I’m trying to find something I love. Something involving environmentalism, writing, or something I can be motivated and creative with. It sucks so bad because people who are truly creative artistically in this world can’t get as far in life as they want to be. I feel like I let my republican family down as my dad called me a hippie “beach bum” that doesn’t care about money or anything in regards financially but that’s only because I don’t want to connect with society or the evil money connects to. I fucking hate this world and I want to find love within myself and people around me but it’s so hard