Hi reddit! so, I (20NB) and my boyfriend (19) have been together for a few months now and we even moved in together! I’m quite happy and our future together looks really bright! He is patient with me and easily navigates my mood shifts. He can pull me out of a depressive episode so easily and ever since I met him, my disorder has felt more manageable than ever! Don’t get me wrong, I have my days. Days where getting out of bed seems impossible and I just cry nonstop. But I know he’s always there to help me through it. Whether I want space, reassurance, or just to be held. 
That being said though, I have noticed that when he isn’t around, I seem to slip. The depressive episodes are suddenly hard to manage. I am currently out of state watching my parents dogs, and as much as I wanted him to come with me, he had just started a new job and we have cats that need to be taken care of. It’s only the first night and I feel miserable. I can’t sleep because he’s not next to me. I feel like I’m suffocating without him. I can recognize that this is unhealthy behavior. I should be able to be apart from him without it feeling like the end of the world. But basically since we started dating, I spent every night next to him in bed. I just don’t know how to cope with it. I have tried distracting myself with things I enjoy but it feels horrible.
I know I need to get this under control, considering how watching my parents dogs is only for the week (and he was going to drive here to spend the weekend with me). Especially since next month I am going on a trip out of country for almost two weeks for a theater festival I’m performing in. Any advice?