I’m in my first healthy long term relationship but I am constantly haunted by the thought of him leaving me. No matter how often and sincerely he reassures me I can’t stop thinking that he’s only with me out of pity or convenience (not that I’m convenient but we live together so a breakup would be super annoying). I feel physically ill and my anxiety is crippling over this. Then I worry that my need for constant reassurance will drive him away. It’s a never ending cycle. This also translates to my friendships but I’m more scared of losing my SO than my friends.