After my breakup, I wasn’t myself. I did drugs, slept with people, drank a lot and would put myself in dangerous situations. My ex blocked me. I feel miserable. I feel I lost all my dignity. All my self respect. I was hiding things from him by fear of him degrading me. I eventually came clean but things just got worse. He was toxic and abusive, but I sometimes wonder if I’m saying this to seek comfort and reassurance. I doubt myself a lot. Sometimes I feel I’m just overreacting. I just want to disappear. I’m tired. I have a lot of shame and feel I’ll never be loved properly.