Tonight has been the roughest night in a minute. Which isn't saying much when most of them are bad. My ex messaged me today. Nothing to personal; just if she had gotten any mail, but she said she hoped I was doing well.  I just replied with yep even though what i want to say is that I'm tired. Tired of waking up and going about my mundane life and laying in bed and hoping I don't have to wake up and telling myself I can make that happen but can't cause my family. But i didn't. I just said yep cause i don't want to burden her in her new life. It has just opened up a lot of old scars that were just starting to heal, and I'm not doing so hot. Doesn't help that next month will be 1 year since she gave the ring back and left. Que sad music and booze.