I feel alone in groups all the time. It's like I let others treat me like crap or low key I feel like no one likes me. I struggle socialising, but even if I do socialise it's like I'm not there. I feel seperate. It's like theyre all familiar w eacohther or idk, theyre all present or something. 

Honestly, I'd rather die if I have to live with that feeling of 'liness for the rest of my life. 

I just wish I had someone who knew me and understood me. 

It's like the world could care less about ur issues, and just expects u to be a clean canvas.