I had my meds upped by 50mg (so now I’m on 150mg sertraline) 

I feel like dog shit. My BPD symptoms are coming back with a fucking vengeance, like my BPD is fucking pissed off at me for putting it away for 6 months. 

I want to give up everything I’ve worked hard for these past months, I wanna cry and rip shit apart. I wanna shout at people for absolutely no reason and I have a short fucking fuse. 

I can’t decide what I want, so I’m being really impulsive. I can’t decide if I like people or not so I’m splitting.

I know I gotta just push through it, which I will, I know I will. 

It’s really put it into perspective how unwell my BPD made me before meds and CBT. It’s so god damn exhausting, I have no idea how I lived with it for so long. 

So yeah.. that’s all. I’ll be fine soon enough and I can continue my life again being a normal productive person but right now, wow..... yeah...... fuck.