This is mostly just a venting/support post. I’m just sharing because I don’t have many people in my life I want to talk about this with.

I’ve been on and off meds for a number of years. Usually multiple at a time. In the past few years, the knowledge that I have to be on medication to function at a normal level has felt degrading af.
 
I was on Zoloft, Buspar, and Lithium as of June. I stopped taking them when I got my wisdom teeth taken out because I scheduled the appointment for when I was out of school. The surgery/anesthesia messed with my sleep schedule and therefore my medication schedule. Also every time I get the chance to quit meds to see if I’m better I try it. It usually doesn’t go well. 

I started going to a group therapy program about a month ago. I was put on Seroquel this week, which I’ve been on before. I took my first dose tonight. 

I’m not loving the feeling of helplessness and defeat, but I am glad I’ll probably notice a less stressful headspace soon.