I’m convinced that I’ve become retarded and that there’s nothing that I can do about it. Ok there might be a cure but I need something that’ll work NOW. I’m too old to barely begin getting my life together. I’ve wasted so much of my life already that that alone makes me even more depressed. I don’t know how I can make it emotionally if I were to waste another year. I should be doing great things right now like the rest of my old classmates. Instead I’m a lousy, good for nothing, bum, that has nothing to show for all of this time since I’ve graduated. I don’t have any pride, only shame. Shame, shame, shame. There’s way too many inhibitors that keep me from being happy. All of which are too complex to solve within a short period of time, and I can’t wait any longer. I want to be happy NOW. I wish I had better taken care of myself and started therapy sooner. I would’ve been fixed by now. This post is pointless but I’ll share it anyways. I’ll probably delete it later.