Sorry if this sounds hectic and mental but I just gotta vent. 

It’s been 12 days since I messaged her and haven’t gotten a response, and my anxiety is so damn high because of it. I’m noticing higher SI, I want to cry so badly. I’ve been trying to wait for her to reach out because she said she would always get back to me and check on me, but I don’t know if it’s worth it at this point. I also don’t know what I’ll say at this point. 

I think maybe she’s busy, but I also assume I don’t matter to her, that I’m not worthy of a response, that I’m unimportant, that she doesn’t love me anymore or something else terrible. It doesn’t matter what logic follows because my emotions are in control. I just feel awful. 😢