I have a man in my life who I treasure and I love who I don't want to let go of. We're not official yet but he wants to make me his girlfriend after a few more dates to make sure he's feeling it. I know this is normal and I shouldn't want to rush into a relationship but I want to be with him so badly and the fact he wants to take things slow is making my heart literally ache. But now whenever he tries to treat me as his 'girlfriend' I get so disgusted and I isolate myself from him completely. I can't see him in person, I ignore his texts and calls for many hours and I push him away. Even though he hasn't rejected me, I feel so rejected and a different level of empty inside when I think about how we're not an official couple yet and I overthink to the point where I'm certain he's using me or has a hidden agenda. I'd rather not talk to him ever again if it means him not walking away from our connection first. I pushed the last man I was really into away for this reason, had an argument and then begged for forgiveness because I needed him in my life. But it was too late. I know how it sounds but I just need some advice on how to not feel this way and to be happy about taking things slowly. Thank you.