
Basically, I’ve known him for 3 years, he used to be really good friends with my cousin. We’ve interacted a few times (he’s 3 years older than me so different generations), but I know since my cousin first told him about me that he found me really cool and interesting. Back then I couldn’t say I had a crush on him but I definitely found him interesting and wanted to talk to him(some day), but I was younger and shy so it happened later. 

Now 3 years later, even a year ago, he keeps stalking me on social media, watching my stories. I usually don’t check who watches them, unless its that time of the week/month/year when I’m overly obsessed with someone and I constantly check to see if they watch my stories, it’s mind wracking. So of course that his sort of validation made me like him even more. So I watched his back (we don’t follow each other), and he obviously saw because then he liked my recent pic, which instantly made me feel euphoric. So... a day later I got really drunk and I really wanted to talk to him so I sent him as a joke a pic i found on ig, he answered and then that was the end. 

2 Days later when I was drunk (again) he replied to my insta story which was something funny, and after that we started having this dumb funny convo for like an hour because after that I passed out and he prolly went to sleep aswell. 

And since then, for 5 days I literally have been constantly thinking about him, making up sooo many scenarios with him and I in my head, idealizing the idea of him. It has literally come to the point when it’s actually affecting my day to day life, if I post something I keep checking continuously to see if he saw the story, like that’s the only thing I do. If I wanna do something else like watch a movie or read a book I can’t even focus and I keep thinking about him. I truly like this guy and I want to hang out with him, but I don’t even know if he’s interested and I’m afraid to bother him with any more texts because otherwise if he wanted to start another convo, he would’ve done it right? like he did before. It’s an unhealthy obsession and I’m aware of it and I have to get rid of it.