My ex was giving me shit yesterday for absolutely no reason, so I just blocked him and left him to it. Unsurprisingly, he then managed to contact me and started harping on about being suicidal and saying that he loves me, but is struggling. It's all emotional manipulation - he says all this stuff on the regular and we're practically together, yet he refuses to commit again.

Anyway, the conversation culminated in me stupidly insisting that I was going to take him to A&amp;E today (4 hour round trip for me) and get him seen to cause his care coordinator has recently left and hasn't been replaced. The conversation ended with him saying "because you're insane and you hate being alone", when I said "why would I stick around if you weren't worth fighting for?", which I've ignored since cause - hey - fuck you. 

Before all this, I'd planned a nice day of Christmas tree shopping and a night of putting up the tree with music and nibbles and mulled wine, with my flatmate. 

Unless he messages me saying he really wants me to go with him and we're actually going to be proactive about getting him in proper treatment, I'm going with the nice day with flatmate plan and not contacting him. 

Everything in my life is falling together but he's the glaring anomaly that I can't kick. Left a date really early last night cause I couldn't stop thinking about him. I need relationship rehab. 
