Hiiiiii.
Currently writing on here to see what other people with ADHD and depression/anxiety do when they are having manic episodes. 
What it looks like: binge eating, staying in bed, scrolling for hours, shame &amp; guilt for not being productive. Self hatred, low self esteem are already present but worse with B.E.D and body dysmorphia. 
Increased drinking and weight gain (it’s all a vicious cycle) 
BUT THEN
Boom! Mania sets in: you clean your room, you finally are able to take your RX adderall , you feel great, you have all the answers for your usual glum outlook on life, you make plans with people - you reach out to people you haven’t spoken to in YEARS (like, why?) 
Then just when you think you are going to try and start making some serious changes: 
BOOM
Depression sets in.
You disassociate 
Anxiety kicks in bc you overthink everything. 
Your anxiety and ADHD make it hard to focus on one project. You forget you made plans. People are texting to hang out and your need to please everyone loses to your anxiety. You make up an excuse to NOT hang out or go to the doctors appointment you finally made during your last mania. 
Then boom 
Back to depression.
PLEASE, FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING, does anyone else suffer with all these things and have managed to live a normal life? How do you do it? I feel like an adult who can barely function. 

** I take adderall for my ADHD but sometimes when I’m super down, I skip doses. I recently got on an antidepressant and I haven’t felt a single change. Was diagnosed with BPD at age 26. Used to go to therapy regularly but my therapist left in February right before Covid. Works part time now (bc of covid)** 
Any advice plz