I guess there's more to say, but I think most people will get the gist of it. I spent decades of my life with support and love that some people can only dream of. Suffering two mental breakdowns, getting medication, therapy, institutionalization, even ECT. All so I can end up getting fired from my last job after three days, end up being my partner's maid, and to stop interacting with most of my friends and doing almost all of my hobbies. 

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I don't mind being there for my partner or doing virtually all the domestic work. Really, I don't; helping other people has always come easier for me than doing things for myself. But now the rest of my life is unfulfilling. I used to have standards, dreams, goals, and now I just... don't. 

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I tell them and others I'm tired of being a loser, and they disagree. I shut up afterwards to avoid fighting with them, and doing so makes me feel more isolated. I have a therapy appointment with a new therapist this week, but don't have any faith that it'll help. My medication is really the only thing keeping me functional at this point.

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I'm tired of being a loser and people arguing with me and don't know what to do. That's about it. Thanks for listening to me.