It’s been 3 weeks since things ended abruptly with someone I thought really cared for me and wanted to be with me ‘officially’ and since my diagnosis my parents and those around me think I shouldn’t date, which I understand because I’ve never actually taken a dating break, usually I bounce from one person to the next. But I feel so empty, I find myself replaying the memories every single day and it’s so painful. It was only a month long but I miss the affection so much, I miss feeling wanted and cared for and when I don’t have it I feel so lost like nothing is worth living for. When I have someone to fixate on it changes everything, I make a routine based on them and I sort of miss that. I worry so much that my diagnosis means I’ll never find a partner who wants to stay