i feel awful because i feel like i have no “reason” to be depressed. people always talk about how they’re depressed because they’re lonely or ugly or broke but i’m none of those things. I shouldn’t be depressed but i am.

i just hate being alive honestly, i never feel happiness or really feel anything unless i’m drunk or high. i don’t wanna work, i don’t wanna play video games, i don’t even wanna leave my bed. i’m going to my girlfriends house on monday but i don’t even wanna do anything. i’ve been faking all my emotions for the past 8 years, i’ve tried going to therapy but it just made things worse so i just don’t know what to do