So, BPD is a personality disorder, and modern science  has confirmed that it’s partially genetic.

And for me, if I smoke weed, the guilt is gone. And I feel like a new person, who is good. Who is kind.  I need to be medicated but science doesn’t /hasn’t figured it out. But they also don’t know how to cure cancer. We haven’t evolved enough for people to be trying to cure mental illness.,we are still at physical cures. The brain is so easy to hide. 

That’s the breakthrough. Genetics are a big part in why we are how we are. Nurture just irritates it.

This realization helped me stop hating myself. We have a mental illness that wasn’t even TALKED about til last year.  People like us used to be institutionalized, less than 60 years before

Also, Less than 200 years ago, doctors would drain sick people of their blood. Our version of that today is the brain. Current medication hasn’t quite figured out the cure. We are just now finding medications for outward pain. Inward is next in evolution

I realized this from  therapy twice a week and cbd.

the self hatred comes from the subconscious fear of not being able to change, of being stuck in this hell.

We can change.  We can stop cycling in self destructive circles.

Also if u disagree be gentle.... still have BPD haha