I am in the second round of interviews of a job I want so badly. The second round includes a writing sample. Extra points for getting it in quickly, so I got anxious and took 4 mg of Xanax and then smoked half a cigarette and had three beers had a friend read it and then I submitted it. I was feeling great. Anyway, I woke up hysterical at 3 am. Called my friend. She talked me down and said it was definitely a “B” and not my best but time is important and it was fine. I can’t stop crying and panicking and thinking of how stupid I am and how I shouldn’t have taken all these drugs and I don’t know how to stop. I’m currently in a very toxic work environment so really need to get out more than ever. Tips for managing this?