Ever since the beginning of high school, I’ve been very ill. I’ve hated myself, I’ve abused narcotics, I’ve self harmed and I’ve been suicidal (I also attempted it once but never again). The one thing that’s kept me from trying again is my friends. I love hanging out with them and joking around with them. But we’re all going to different colleges and I’m going to be all alone with nobody to talk to. The only people keeping me here are going to be gone and I don’t know what I’m going to do.