I’ve had a really rough couple of days where my patience has been tested until I broke down in a public setting. My situation at home hasn’t been helping at all which is an understatement. It actually contributes to many of my triggers. It’s been going downhill since Thursday, I tried to calm down on Friday but it got worse and now I’ve been extremely angry on Saturday and Sunday as well. It’s not going down at all. I try to do the regular stuff like walking my dog, chores around the house and what not. But I feel the rage bubbling inside and I don’t know when it’s going to burst. 

I have an important test scheduled for tomorrow which I feel like I’m going to fail because of these circumstances. 

Context: I take antidepressants and took two Seresta to calm down but I didn’t feel any effects. 

I just want to rage tbh. I know it’s bad but I’m so disappointed in people that are close to me and I feel that they don’t take me seriously unless I throw a temper tantrum which reminds them of my mental condition (their words, not mine, I wish it was different and I could just communicate when I don’t feel comfortable). 

How can I let go of rage that’s already at 99% in a healthy way?