I did something that hurt multiple people, I don’t feel ready to forgive myself but they’re seeming like they’re  wanting to. I feel like I don’t want to lose them but I don’t deserve them. I feel like I end up just feeling like I need to remove myself and not give them the option. I’ve had a string of bad luck and bad decisions and I can’t take anymore. I feel selfish if I tell them how low I’m feeling when I’m the one that screwed up but I feel like if I’m alone I’m going to probably hurt myself. Just feeling really upset with myself and I don’t know how to deal with it alone but I know I should.