I had found a purpose in life. Had a strong but flexible plan and was working towards my goals. I have had a history of anxiety all my life. I suddenly don't want to do anything, and everything seems absolutely meaningless to me. Me, the trees, humans, sight, being, EVERY SINGLE thing feels meaningless. 

I want to feel nothing anymore. Some say there is an afterlife, but I don't want it. There will be light and the shine will try to penetrate my heart to make me feel something, but I do no want anything anymore, I do not want sadness or happiness. I want death that leads to complete nothingness.