Hey guys, I just left my partner and I's apartment . My partner was up until late last night and I was awoken. They kept asking me if I was going back to sleep and I took it as rejection so I shut down. This morning, they woke up and started crying that they are never able to communicate with me that I hurt their feelings. I understand that logically, but in the moments I shut down when confronted I literally can't speak. I don't try to be difficult I just can't handle the random surges of emotion and don't want to outwardly explode . Today was different because I had been trying different coping mechanisms and feel like such a shitty person all the time because I can't control the bodily reactions I feel so I left. I hate feeling this way and I think I left because I couldn't take the guilt of knowing that I'm hurting my partner as well. They are texting and calling but I don't want to say anything while I'm still frantic,but they are worried. I don't know what to do.