Had an absolutely awful time last night and I started having horrible delusions about how my friends actually hate me, are purposefully trying to avoid me, and not telling me about any of it so they can spare my feelings, and I ended up having probably the worst breakdown I've had in years, telling them everything about how and why I felt this way, and I can't tell weather or not I'm supposed to feel better, and now I fear that my paranoia-induced breakdown only gave them even more of a reason to avoid me

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I've never heard of anyone experiencing delusions this bad and deep-seated and having it ONLY be anxiety and nothing else, and this is a relatively new thing for me that only popped up about a year ago.