Some days (or weeks, or months) I struggle with self reflection and knowing what I'm really wanting, feeling or needing. It's difficult to describe, because I self reflect quite a bit. It's just I...self invalidate? Ignore my own true feelings and then wonder why I feel depressed later? 

Does anyone else struggle with this?

It's as if I can't be truly honest with myself sometimes, like I'm my own worst enemy instead of a kind friend. I'll say something to my SO that I've kept in for months, then wonder "why did I not discuss this with him earlier? Why did I not acknowledge this to myself sooner?"

Maybe I'm avoiding so I don't have to go down the path of reprimanding myself for even feeling things. As far as therapy, I've noticed a gentler more compassionate approach and internal dialogue helps tremendously. It's just, if I don't do it every day, I'll fall back into the old ways. And that means being too hard on myself, and others too (even though I hide it well). 











