So this is a little bit of asking for advice and a little bit of venting.

We all know about common medications and therapy routes, but what are little things you’ve done in your everyday life that make your days just a little bit brighter?

I’m so tired of feeling low all the time. I just got back from the doctor and he says there’s nothing wrong with me.

I have lost many family members in the last year, and I’m about to lose more. Maybe that’s where the root of my issues are coming from?

It’s just so frustrating. I have everything most people want. Wonderful friends who would do anything for me (One of them even drove two hours to my home and beat on my door until I got out of bed), a successful career, a beautiful waterfront home, a luxury SUV. But still, the fucking chemicals in my brain tell me I’m always alone and sad.  I am so sick of it. To strangers, I appear to have everything together, but I feel like I’m falling apart.

I am writing this from the tub, taking my second bubble bath of the night, with laundry scattered all around me, dirty plates in the sink, trash not taken out, and sheets on my bed that haven’t been changed in weeks. I do just enough laundry to make sure I have clean clothes for the office so no one knows I’m living like this. I left work three hours early today because I had to go home and get in bed.

I’m usually so in control of everything.