So in high school I did alot of stimulants (mdma and vyvanse) and then something happened like a switch flipped.

Now I'm anhedonic
Apathetic
And I have cognitive issues(processing , thinking through, decisionmaking).
And some ocd/irrational and intrusive thoughts

I can't hardly stick to a job or school. And I constantly screw things up yet I feel not much. 

I just don't want to get involved with medication if if doesn't treat this side of depression. Because obviously if can be a very hard and long process. 
But if it's likely to help I'll try it.


What do you think. Is medication worth it? Or is it only going to partially help my issues