For the past 5 days or so I’ve been feeling off. I haven’t been sleeping much or wanting to sleep much. My boyfriend has asked multiple times if I am ok because I’ve been a little snappy with him and I guess I seem off or something I don’t know. Last week I just felt happy but these last 5 days I feel on edge. I feel irritable. I feel paranoid. I second guess everything I see, do, hear, say, feel or think. Everything feel completely unimportant yet vastly important at the same time. Like, I’ve been more impulsive with my drinking and eating, and a bit with spending. Mostly because nothing feels like it matters because I feel like my life is already on this predetermined path that I’ve manifested for myself and what I do now won’t effect it. But at the same time I’m trying to figure out what it all means and what the message and the point is so every little detail feels so important. I keep seeing people out of the corner of my eye and it scares me every time (especially when I’m driving and got to change lanes and I see someone right where I’m headed to so I think I’m bout to run over someone), but then when I look they’re not there anymore so I just chalked it up to my mind playing tricks on me but then last night I realized it all ties in together and it’s part of the message but I’m just not seeing it yet or understanding it fully. My mind is always going trying to figure out the meaning behind all of this but I can’t make sense of it and I’m frustrated and confused. I almost didn’t come to work this morning because I have too much to do at home and too much to figure out I need to write it all out and see if I am can make sense of it but I don’t have money so I had to work which sucks. I can’t talk to anyone in my life about this because they will just think I’m being dumb but I’m not. I don’t like how I’m feeling so I am considering talking to my doctor but I also don’t think it’s necessary so I don’t really know what to do. Does anyone know?