I often have outbursts of anger, slamming doors and all bc I just have to get the angry energy out of my  body, and my partner whom I live with often waits it out gaming with his friends or something. The thing is, in these situations, i often find myself more angry because I realize I couldn't stop myself from lashing out. Mid-outburst I'll stop caring about the thing that initially upset me, and I'll become more angry because I know I shouldn't have had that outburst, which in turn of course, keeps it going for awhile longer... 

I don't want to burn all his energy on me being angry at stupid things like him trying to make breakfast, but using the wrong cereal (aka the one I didn't want that morning), when i know there might be tougher situations in the future.

For a little context, I just got "tested" by psychologists and they say I have more like a Mixed PD, but scored slot on bpd and ocpd. I recognize slot of my behaviour in what I hear is common for both PD's though.

I've found for my part, now knowing that bpd could be a very reasonable cause for my symptoms and bad behaviour/thought patterns, makes it much easier for me to cope with these situations. I now know it's not just me being really bad at acting like the adult I'm supposed to be. I finally know that there could be a very good reason i act more angrily and harshly towards others, and especially family, than any of my peers. And it helps me a lot! 
It might be a short-lived calm though, but i will luckily  get to see a group of therapists for DBT treatments in early spring next year, and i can't wait! :) I'm hoping to get better at dealing with my anger to be a better friend, family member, and girlfriend as well, in the future.

Maybe this could help someone, maybe it's a common way of reacting to one's own anger outbursts, or maybe this could be an interesting read for someone. Another story to the book of many, but knowing we're not alone in having these issues, it at least feels good to me, so I'm giving it my two cents as well!

(First post here, so i may have tagged this kind of wrong, but i hopw you'll go easy on me still ^_^)