I feel so alone I don’t have any friends and only see a few family members. I have a daughter and I’m glad I get to be around her everyday. For some reason that doesn’t stop the crushing feeling of loneliness that I have. I also live with my mom and my daughter is an infant.

I take antidepressants but idk if they’re working or I’ve just been in the up phase of my depression. Today I felt like downing the whole bottle so I won’t have to continue to wake up everyday feeling this way. I’m doing this to myself because I keep reaching out to my ex and trying to see him. 

We co parent and he comes over to see our daughter. He left because I made him unhappy with my accusations and he didn’t want to be responsible for my happiness anymore. I try to talk to him like how we were before but he doesn’t respond the same way. I know I should move on but I just miss what we had together before I ruined everything.

I don’t have any friends either I tried making some but I have trouble keep them around. I stop responding or never say anything sometimes so the connection gets lost. Then our personalities may be incompatible as well so that’s why it doesn’t work out.