So i've only been formally diagnosed with ADHD (about two months ago). I'm taking 40mg Vyvanse daily. I also struggle with severe anxiety. So bad to the point of dropping out of school, never leaving my room, cut off all of my friends, not eating, sleeping, panic attacks daily, and shaking. I'm pretty sure i have an eating disorder. Before the meds i wouldn't eat food for days at a time and then binge on everything in sight once I started to feel hungry. I think i also might have also given myself depression by isolating myself. 

Because I dropped out in the middle of the year, i had to start my sophomore year over again online and i'm ridiculously behind. The meds have soothed my anxiety and depression slightly and somehow i started caring more about my health. But once my mom found out how badly I was doing in school, she screamed and told me that the meds aren't helping and im just lazy. The meds have helped but I just cant stay motivated to do anything. I can focus better on them if I force myself, but its just so hard. For the past couple weeks shes been constantly yelling at me over my school and wont let me see my cousin and sister. Ive been so depressed and trying not to revert back to cutting. Its the only thing that helped me with my panic attacks but I decided to quit cold turkey four months ago.

Finally, after years shes willing to let me see an actual psychologist instead of a life coach, because the life coach told her that I needed one. She preaches about how therapists make people "victims". I wish I could talk to someone about how bad its gotten but I just feel so embarrassed about it. I don't even really know why i'm posting this here, just figured someone might be able to give me some pointers.