I hate having BPD.

It makes me feel horrible about existing and it also pushes everyone away.

It’s hard to have balance and nuance. I feel like a little kid who doesn’t know when too much is too much and too little is too little.

I oftentimes find myself confused and questioning if I’m truly being dramatic or not.

I don’t want to be a bad person. I don’t want to be an overwhelming burden.

I don’t want to be jealous and insecure.

I want to be healthy and normal. But I feel like I don’t even know what that looks like.

I want to love without suffocating and crucifying my partner. But I also want to be understood and respected.

I don’t want to jump to conclusions and assume someone doesn’t love me because they did something that made me sad.

I don’t know when it’s appropriate to be sad or not. 

I don’t know how to be a normal person.