I hurt someone really really bad. I was toxic and manipulative, guilt tripping her, gaslighting.. and she knew it. Left me in the dust and hasn’t talked to me since. I understand and i’m trying to move on. I don’t even miss her and would not want to date her again. i’ve realized lots of things but i still carry a lot around knowing that o hurt someone who loved me and who i loved at one point. Will i ever forgive myself?