Hello to whomever runs into this, I'm 21 years old and im from Arizona. I was diagnosed with major depression a year ago along with anxiety PTSD, and disassociation. I've struggled with things since I was a child and my body had given up in 2020 which probably topped off all the "this is the worst day of my life" moments in my life and I'm sure others as due to the pandemic and other life situations. I don't have a stable support system at all, it tends to be like those Rollercoasters at six flags. I have time periods where I feel really ill from my disorders and it can last up to 3 weeks, I only recently since December had began to take showers again, I was so depressed it was hard to keep up with hygiene and self care in general. The shower use to be my happy and safe place, god the amount of times I was yelled at for spending too much time in there when all I could find was peace and comfort in it. Now it's become the most hardest and most annoying chore for me. I hope someone can relate and im sure there is. At this very moment I feel so lost, alone, suffocated, confused. I know it's my anxiety making me feel this way and my depression. Although my body is physically telling me that I'm going to be having thoughts soon again and I feel so lost and I am coming here to just idk im trying this out to see if there's someone out there idk who I could relate to? I feel so silly for feeling these things but I just feel so hopeless to the point I just feel like my life is about to end. And if you read my whole annoyance I appreciate it immensely, i'll end my rando encounter here :)