I can't make good decisions. In every situation, I feel like a fish out of water. My brain just shuts off and I see everyone taking advantage of me. My boss just keeps on giving me extra work. I can't say no to him ,thinking it will upset him and will cause problems for me in the future. My love life is a mess. My gf enforcing conditions on me if I want to merry her. My family members want me to be a responsible adult but i am not prepared for it at all. When ever i show weakness or speak my mind people get agitated or hurt.  I can't even convey my thoughts to them properly.  I want to die really. There is nothing for me in this world. I hate everything about life. I feel stupid and insecure everytime. Why am I like this? I hate myself.