Minus the “lol”. I just finished my first semester of college and I have a boyfriend who loves me deeply. You’d probably think, “how are you sad then?” Well… I have a family back at home and I feel like I just constantly disappoint my mother. I used to do bad things but i’ve completed changed after I went to a hospital and became clean of everything. I even progressed and got the honor roll in high school as well as scholarships for college. It’s like anything I do (and I mean anything) she’s never going to be satisfied with me. She still isn’t satisfied with me. I never understand what I’m doing wrong. She showed so much love when I was a kid but now it feels so plastic, so fake. She’s been bipolar since I was a kid. She’s doesnt get medication or help because she doesn’t believe in mental health disorders. However, she never acts this way towards my brother (who is 3 years younger than me) I will never understand what I ever did to her. It just feels like she doesn’t want me in her life anymore. I tried talking to her but it’s just neglect after neglect. I have people who love me. I just want my mother’s acceptance, appreciation, and love. Idk why it’s difficult lol. Thanks for reading all this.