Hey guys, I wanted to see if anyone else struggles with this. 

I believe this is a form of performance anxiety. I’m only really content when I’m home and no one expects anything from me. But if I’m expected to be somewhere and people are counting on me or I can’t escape.. I realllly struggle. 

For example, at a wedding when all I do is sit, I’m like “where can I escape to if I need to throw up or pass out???” 

Or even if someone ELSE is giving a speech I’m like “what if I need to leave the room now I’m trapped here and can’t leave without making a scene” and then the other symptoms come flying, like nausea. 

I try to pray through it, take nausea meds, meditate/deep breathe. Right now my main coping mechanism (self harm trigger) is aggressive pinching as the pain distracts and helps. 

Can anyone relate? Does anything help? It’s exhausting being so anxious and my body is tired.