My life is fun and weird and there have been times where I am the happiest person in the world for little things like hearing a song I like or just having a good time with friends. But when it comes to big goals in life, the ones I dream off, I always seem to have rlly good luck, whatever the goal is I always get it and always achieve it by manifesting and committing to it but each time I do it I’m only noticing one thing. No matter how much you’ve fantasized or dreamed about doing something, being with someone or any goal, It’s always incredibly underwhelming and not how u pictured it. It’s only until after when I look back at my accomplishments that I feel any kind of gratitude. So even after getting A girl that I’m falling jn love with being having a killer band and playing shows often for larger audiences all the things I could ever want I continue to feel nothing but sadness day after day and I can’t seem to even get back any of those little things that used to light me up