Hi friends,

I've been feeling like this for a few weeks and I just now realized that it's a typical part of BPD, and I wanted to see if anyone could relate...Lately, from like sun up to sun down my brain just replays every embarrassing or cringe worthy thing I've ever done in my life. Within minutes of leaving any interaction I'm already panicking about something stupid I did or said. Tonight I was at a meeting and a speaker asked the question "Tell us a story from when you were little and why it was important" and I told this dumb story about when I was a kid and he was apparently asking for an answer like little red riding hood or the giving tree, and I just felt SO ASHAMED. I'd offered up this like silly vulnerable part of myself and it wasn't right. I just hate myself and when I tell or show people who I am I become so humiliated. Does anyone have any advice? My brain is telling me that everyone at the meeting is sitting at home thinking about how stupid I am...Did I just make a common mistake or am I really just stupid? Why is this happening???