So long story short, 5 weeks ago I was living my ex. We had our own apartment, I had a good job and I was the happiest I've been in my entire life. We very suddenly broke up and I had to leave my job and move back half way across the country to live with my parents. I lost not only her but my entire friend group from that area. Now I just spend all day at my parents house with nothing to do. I've been struggling to find a job, I'm quickly running out of money and I cant afford to see a therapist right now. I'm losing motivation to keep filling out resumes everyday. I've been drinking way more than I normally do every night and not getting a lot of sleep, especially since I keep having dreams about my ex so I always end up feeling super depressed when I wake up. During the day I cant stop thinking about her. Some days are better than others if I can distract myself but today and yesterday have been incredibly rough for me. I just want to be happy again.