yesterday was just a terrible night. The day went fine but by the time I was done at the gym I broke down. My s.o was supposed to get some stuff for us for the past two nights and he didnt, which wasnt his fault. But every time I want to do something I have to throw a tantrum just for it to happen where as other people get the o.k. without saying "oh I'll I have to think about it". Anyways the arguing between me and my s.o got so bad that I self harmed. I self harmed because he pretty much called me a coke head without calling me one, and that I barely touch the stuff so I felt really hurt. I dont drink, I dont do anything, I just wanted a night of fun. So that lead to self harm. 
I was just put on anti depressants and I think that may be causing these because before I was taking them I was a bit happier and wasn't this low. 

Either way I'm really embarrassed, and really dont want to tell my s.o. but I have to.