But lol it made me feel amazing even if it was a manic episode, I took it today just to feel like God and so far I feel amazing maybe I should finally do something with my life?

Give me cool ideas because IDK I just want to do things again, I secretly know for a fact wellbutrin is a cure for depression but last time I told doctors they just didn't give a fuck and called me "psychotic" 

Fun fact I'm a trans woman and I'm gonna go to this national centre for trans stuff to see about getting hormones from them but shhh, I actually have been self medicating for months and I don't even need them, maybe I should just sue them if they say I'm too mentally ill I mean let's face it being bipolar and having bpd and anorexia is not reason enough to decline me treatment 

True the medicine so far has made my mood a little more unstable but yeah
Speaking of what if I stop taking my mood stabilisers, already ditched the anti psychotic because I'm scared ill be depressed again for 2 months like I was before I had that episode

Also sorry for long post