My boyfriend of half a year left me, well maybe not exactly “left” but he needs time to think about if he want to continue this relationship.

We both have BPD, I’ve done therapy for quite a long time as well as taking medication that has really helped, he sadly only just go diagnosed and started understanding and seeking help, I don’t want to sound selfish but it WAS because of me, yes he did it himself and I’m proud of that, but it was because of me.

These past 6 months have been amazing, for me and for him, the love we expressed was real and so beautiful. 

I don’t know why and I don’t know how but last night he split and decided he just couldn’t take it anymore, he has NEVER showed me those kinds of signs and we rarely ever are not close to each other, he has told me multiple time he wants to spend the right of his life with me and we even had plans on getting married, he said he’s never been close like that with someone and I believe it.

He decided he needs some time apart to think about trying to recover and if he wants to be with me. I really need some advice on what to do? Will he come back? Should I prepare myself? He looked after me even after we split and we even made love, when I said goodbye to give him space he kissed me and said he loved me, no signs of him not wanting to be with me.

Our BPD is much different so I need your advice, will he come back? I need to know so I can prepare myself the uncertainty isn’t the best feeling.