This doesnt really have a point, its mostly just a mix of me asking for some advice.
The mood swings are growing worse by the day. Im good rn, but idk if thats just because of a shit ton of caffeine i had. And i have no idea when its gonna get bad again. The evening before yesterday I was desperately sewerslidal, i only didnt attempt because of a friend who supervised me till like 2 hours ago. Im afraid im gonna do something stupid next time im down, i dont wanna die (right now, in these situations i do. Thats the thing that scares me). Idk what to do. I dont wanna hurt the people around me. Im a little desperate rn, idk if anyone reads this, but if you did, please help me. Or maybe even just talk to me, that sometimes makes me feel a little less alone. Im sorry i have to clog this sub up, im sure you guys have bigger things to worry about. Please dont think im a faker, idk if i have it or not, thats true, but even if i dont, you guys may still have an idea of how to help me, because im really bad rn. Again, so so sorry.