Hey, so I've just been diagnosed with BPD in the last week, but looking back I have noticed these patterns over the past few years. 

I have a friend with BPD who i fantasize about, though I haven't known them for long. They sometimes take days to answer my messages, and I have realised I tend to be clingy. Though if they or anyone else shows any clinginess towards me, I push them away.

Has anyone else done this, or noticed something like this? And how horribly can a friendship or relationship between 2 people with BPD go?