I feel so bad and like the worst friend ever. I have stopped talking to my friend for a little over a month. It’s not that I wanted to stop talking just that I was dealing with a lot of mental health issues and family problems  and before that we kinda got into a mini fight. I told her about my mental disorder she seemed cool with it. We made up but like right after I just went MIA because I can’t control my thoughts still/ hearing voices / paranoid delusions and I was scared that I might be mean to her or something so I rather just block people out my life Until I mentally feel better. But I’m worried she might not talk to me also I don’t want to make it all about me because I feel like I did that last time when I was trying to explain what it’s like to have bpd but I was just making sure she fully understood. Does anybody think a month is to long? How should I go about explaining but without making it all about me? Tbh I’m still dealing with the paranoid delusions etc but I just want to let her know I’m not mad Im just not 100% yet.