So me and my ex broke up 5 months ago. We were together for almost 4 years. I always had a feeling we would be together forever, we were best friends. We told each other we loved each other within like a week of dating. For the most part it was a wonderful relationship but we both had our issues. 

My problem is it’s only gotten worse, I don’t feel like moving on is possible. I only want her, when I think of moving on it literally does not feel like it’s possible. Like it feels like we are almost destined to be together. I don’t know how healthy that is but I can’t really control it. I’m stuck in this state of just thinking about her 24/7, I get so sad because we went from spending every moment together to not talking at all. My brain cannot even comprehend it. 

I have no resentment for her, I blame myself a lot for what went wrong even though I know I shouldn’t. I guess I’m just wondering what to do because no matter how many skills I try, how much meds I’m on or how much my therapist tries to help me cope with it. I can’t help but just want her back more than anything in this world, moving on does not even seem like an option. I have no desire for any other relationship, and this is probably the hardest thing I ever had to deal with. Any help is appreciated, thank you.