I've been feeling pretty awful recently, was planning to unalive yesterday but talked to a lovely crisis line lady to helped me keep going. So um apparently instead I've decided to just keep spending money. Yesterday I spent £50 on earrings, another £50 on plants and plant pots. Today I spent well over £100 on a trip out, buying plants, food and everything else it seems I could see. Came back and I just bought more stuff for my garden because it seems I want to fill the void in my life with... stuff. I am going on a trip for my birthday with a friend next week and I am worried I am not going to be able to have enough money to eat out etc. cause I am spending it like water. I know it isn't like some people spending £1000's but I am buying a house right now, about to get a mortgage with my partner, I need to have money for the deposit, not spend it on everything in sight. I've spent hundreds in the last week and I need to afford therapy... Anyway this has turned into more of a rant, I don't have credit cards thankfully because I know it would be very dangerous for me. What do people do to try and stop buying everything in sight? This can go on for at least a month when I get going and I really cannot afford to right now!