I (28f) have been mildly stable mood-wise these past couple of months (comparatively speaking — diagnosed just last September) after a transition in medications (and me stopping being a dumbass and actually *taking* my medications) &amp; after some time in therapy, I feel I am slowly getting better, but I still do some stupid, wildly unnecessary, anxiety-inducing, really just can’t stress enough, STUPID shit. For no reason. 

Like I lie about things absolutely *no one needs to lie about*. I told my coworker today that an obese squirrel frantically ran into my living room &amp; that absolutely did not happen. Instead, I was talking with her &amp; found myself hyper-analyzing everything I was saying and feeling like I was being so obviously hypomanic and thought “oh if I blame MY weirdness on some actual weirdness (that isn’t even actual weirdness at all but some elaborate lie), then I’ll have an excuse for acting weird &amp; she won’t think I am!!”

She replied with a forced lol and something about it sounding like a crazy day

…why do I do this. 

I have absolutely no reason or excuse to lie about anything, but *especially* not over some garbage like a squirrel tearing through my living room. 

Why am I like this. Please tell me someone else is like this, but also don’t because I will feel sorry for you lol