Idk even when I’m fine, I still have to be asked if I’m upset for some reason. I feel like I just keep doing things wrong. The way I exist is wrong. I feel like I can’t do anything right. 

I can’t be neutral, I have to be cheery and energetic all of the time. Or else people assume I’m mad or upset. I can’t be quiet or shy (I’ve gotten a lot of shit about this growing up and still now) I have to be upbeat and outgoing. I feel like I have to be anyone else other than myself.

I want to be able to just exist. Like just exist as I am. I feel like I can never just be myself without there being an issue…I’m tired of performing my existence to make other people happy. I just want to be able to exist in peace without all of these expectations on how I should be. It just really sucks. 

I’m never going to be enough