My stomachs herniated, im I’m constant agony everyday, I find it reeeally hard to breathe.

Im supposed to be getting surgery that could make the issue worse.

I don’t enjoy life at all anymore. I’ve been considering suicide.

I’ve stopped my skincare routine, I’ve stopped working hard everyday, I’ve stopped trying to gain weight, Im finding it really hard to exercise anymore, im losing my confidence and self esteem.

I just don’t want to live life anymore. I lie in bed for hours. I feel like exactly like I did back when I had depression. I feel dreadful.

How do I get my motivation back and enjoy life again? This is miserable.