Im 22, never got over this deep desire, I want to shoplift , I want to just beat some random person walking on the street up, I want to travel to some random city on a bus with nothing and sleep in a bank and just see what happens .  really sociopathic terrible shit, I never had that in my adolescence because I lacked any sort of ability to develop an identity beyond what my autistic social skills could allow me to, just a collection of greasy toxic internet cultures, i didn't leave my house from 16 to 18 . I'm  self aware enough to realize that I can't act like this , but deep down I'm just some edgy teenager or some shit, it's sad , I genuinely believe I'm stuck at 16 emotionally , I feel so empty , I don't want to grow up to be a 40 year old teenager , I really hope I can die before 30 Because at least it's somewhat more acceptable to be like this than past 40 or so 

I'm not even a fucking person