this is semi-sad and isn’t any day changing, infected week sad- just a small realization, sadness passed, im okay 

My partner said “your bpd is something in your brain” they are correct, and I know this. i know my bpd isnt curable just manageable, but it rlly hurt, the fact that it wont just go away and I have to take care of it and put it in check like a unruly pet

there is just so much mental pain from this disorder, im more sad that, its apart of my brain and being told this reminded me that its my BRAIN- it felt so permanent and fixed and uncontrollable… whatever ugh EWWW feelings, ill get therapy and fix it :/