I have zero friends. Every time someone tries to get closer to me my brain instantly just goes off the charts with paranoia. I just feel like they only want to hurt me and that’s the only reason they’re talking to me. I always end up ghosting/avoiding the person because I just get so scared. I’m just tired of this. I want to have friends and a social life but my stupid delusions about it won’t stop. I’ve essentially black sheeped myself in my family as well. I only talk to close relatives everyone else ignites the same “danger” sensor in my brain. I just wanted to vent and get this off my chest. Thanks to anyone who read.