I'm kinda disappointed in the whole FP thing. I think that I put her on imaginary pedestal and my moods were driven on how she communicates with me or how is is her mood.

I feel like I can't be that close to anybody as her, but honestly, lately I'm feeling that we won't last forever, because she's making many excuses to avoid my company. I don't care about sweet words or facebook paragraphs, I just want a real hug and talk. And we weren't together for kinda long time. And we live kinda near..

I never liked someone as her. We were here for each other, she understood me and made me feel loved.

But lately I just know that it's going to the end. I feel like I expected it and it's kinda chill, but of course I can't even explain how it's breaking me. I never valued anybody that much. I never had another FP and I don't want to break it at all. But it probably would be better and it takes two to keep a friendship.. 