I feel the weight of so many bad decisions bearing down on me
It's tiring, exhausting to keep living like this
But I can't change, I just can't
I've tried doctors... I've tried friends...
Nothing works
Nothing works
Maybe I was just born broken
I crave attention but then feel like I'm unworthy of it and push everyone away
Every friend I've ever had is far away now, some are gone forever
Everybody around me is going somewhere
And I'm still stuck in a loop
If I could change I swear I would
But I live my life watching myself from behind my own back
Watching myself make bad decisions and feeling like not even I have the capability of changing them
I'm my most hated character in my own movie
This sucks...
I'm so alone...
But I don't feel like I deserve anyone around me...
Maybe I should just...
You know...