the words my mother said to me last year as i exclaimed i didn’t necessarily have a personal desire to go to college and that i feel their money was being wasted. 

i am now a sophomore, inching close to the end of the semester. i haven’t made any friends at my college, which i know doesn’t help, but college is really ruining me. i don’t necessarily want to leave because i know beyond this all-expenses-paid-four-year-vacation is the real world and real jobs, yet, i am absolutely miserable here. 

it makes my heart race when i think about it, the fact that this is supposed to be the best years of my life, and it is so for a lot of people. that this is the peak of existence and it just starts to go downhill after i graduate. 

is there any promise in the world of 9-5’s that follows college? college just feels like one groundhogs day over and over and it’s hard to grasp that i have to do it for two and a half more years.