I don't know if I should post this or not, mainly because I'm not diagnosed *yet.* I was in the process, and my psychiatrist (7 years seeing her) heavily suspected bipolar disorder. She retired a few weeks ago, and now I'm waiting for a new psychiatrist to be assigned to me... which is going to take some time (I'm from Spain btw). **BUT**, the mood swings and all that comes with them are still there. If this post is inappropriate, I'll delete in no time.

I think I'm entering a manic/ hypomanic episode. 

Two weeks ago I was literally cripple with depression, unable to do anything and having *unaliving thoughts* (?). Now I feel better, I'm starting to do stuff, and the *unaliving thoughts* have "magically" disappear. Also, I'm starting to feel that I don't need much sleep (6 hours) although I still need to sleep and still feel tired at the end of the day.

I've been on 400 mg of lithium/ a day for the last year, and it's def not enough for my manic/ hypomanic episode, and def it's useless with the depressive episodes. 

I think I kinda know my cycles &gt;!(depressive episodes from November to January/February; then a manic/hypomanic episode on April to May-June; summer it's a mess and idk if I feel neutral or other thing)!&lt;and this feels like the begging of a manic/ hypomanic episode.

I don't know what should I do. I do a lot of stupid sh\*t that I later deeply regret when I'm in a manic/ hypomanic episode. I feel like I'm heading straight into a waterfall that goes upwards.