I never really felt particularly close to my parents growing up, my father was a functional alcoholic, mostly absent through work, and I legitimately feared my mother because of her anger issues and cruel criticisms. Don’t get me wrong, I grew up in privileged circumstances in an upper-middle class household, and was always supported financially. But the concept of emotional support was always foreign to me. Now in my early 20s, after a suicide attempt and extensive psychiatric help, it feels like they want to forget the past, and offer the emotional support that I never had. But I just can’t bring myself to open up to them. I appreciate their effort but I don’t feel anything towards them. I see them more as my guardians than my parents and it leaves me feeling shitty that they are here trying to change and asking for love that I can’t give them. It’s so conflicting, they’re trying to provide the support that I never had but I just don’t want it anymore. It makes me entirely uncomfortable to talk to them about anything emotionally, and it repels me to even be touched my them. I just feel guilty and like a leach when I’m not able to compensate them with any emotional connection even though they’ve provided for me so much throughout my life . DAE feel this way ?