Yesterday was really great - I just got over a bad sickness I was in the hospital for, and yesterday was the first day I really did anything besides lay in bed. My grandmother came to visit me for 5 days, and my dad even dropped by for the day (my parents are divorced, but on good terms, so he stayed the night at my mom and step-dad’s) from an 8 hour drive away. My best friend had some stuff to get done in the city we lived in and stopped by my mom’s place too from the other side of the state. We started the day all of us going for lunch, then me and my dad hung out and drank beers on the patio all afternoon, listening to music and hanging out like we used to before he moved. Then my friend arrived and my mom and grandmother came back home... it was just great to be around everyone, hanging out. We swam in the lake, had a BBQ... I honestly didn’t feel depressed at all for once. But the nights over - I’ll see my grandmother tonight and tomorrow her flight leaves, my dad is planning on stopping by Monday after him and his girlfriend return from their visit with her family, but after that brief visit I likely won’t see him for some time. Even though my mom and step dad and their dogs are only an hour away, as soon as my work routine starts back up, I will likely only see them every couple of weeks or so. I just want to go relive yesterday a couple more times, just having all my loved ones around me hanging out. I’m just in a black hole today, as I’m going to be all alone in a couple days, working a job I’m not sure is totally for me, forcing myself to do everything because I’d rather be asleep.