i feel so fucking alone and i don't know what to do anymore. i'm so tired of trying to manage. nothing i do is ever enough and i feel so weak. and i can't help but think/feel that everything is so much more difficult for me than everyone else i personally know and i feel like such a piece of shit because of it - because somehow i'm less resilient or less efficient and therefore less worthwhile of a human being than they are - i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me and it seriously feels like i'm dysfunctional... and i miss my exes so fucking much and i just want to be smothered i can't do this anymore