"Merry Christmas,

Sorry if this took too long.I needed some time to come to terms with what I've inflicted.

I've never had to write an apology before,not more than the standard  "I'm sorry",so bear with me.

What I did was extremely selfish and wrong on my part.I realize no amount of sorrys will ever fix it.

I'm sorry for projecting my own feelings,decisions,fears and wrongs on you,for centering our whole relationship around me and my problems.I've learned to lean and use you for both emotional and financial support,to battle my own loneliness.I tried to drag you into my own depression and felt threatened and envious by your happiness and successes and attempted to justify my refusal to better myself and my situation with you.

You did nothing but support me,trying your darnest to help me live a comfortable and fulfilling life,I'm just too comfortable in my own misery to move on.I'm sorry I brought you to exhaustion in your attempt to help.I'm sorry I never let it work.I'm sorry I attempted to ruin your happiness in attempt to bring you down to myself.

I've been nothing but manipulative,selfish,stubborn and abusive  throughout this entire relationship.I never tried to look through your own or anyone's more positive perspective and judged the world and your actions by my own negative views.

I apologize for any harm I've caused,and hope you moved on from it without any long term damage.I apologize for the pressure and abuse I've inflicted upon you.

Congratulations on the pregnancy,happy holidays and hope you have a great time with your family.

Sincerest apologies,Berserk"