Long story short, this sounds stupid but I left my boyfriend of two years a little over two years ago now and I’m still extremely heartbroken about it. I have everything else I want in life, my dream job, good friends, semi financial security etc but days like today I find it hard to function. I’m convinced he was the love of my life and each day that passes I regret it and hurt more and more. I desperately wish he was still in my life but it isn’t possible and I know he no longer wants me there but it’s such a deep pain I feel like I can’t carry it anymore. I was young and didn’t know what I was doing but I can’t seem to process this and get better. I want to. Badly. I need advice on how to get over this. I’m omitting some details and I don’t even give a shit about using a throwaway account but I don’t know what to do at this point. I know there’s more fish in the sea and shit like that but I don’t want to feel this way so young. I can’t focus on work or seem to cultivate the same depth we had with anyone else as hard as I try. 

What can I do about this? Please, someone who can relate I need advice