Usually   I'm the upbeat fellow in my friend group. I was the one cheering  everyone up and ensuring the coming of better times. But lately,   particularly the the whole past week I've been on a downward spiral.   Obviously, it started slowly but really ignited with the elephant in the  room of geopolitics and the current conflict, but now it has gone   beyond that. Had 2 close calls with panic attacks last week and the 3rd   one actually hit. Was at my grandparents' celebrating their 40th  anniversary and drinking whiskey when it hit me. Fortunately, they live   in the same house, just on the other side, so I quickly excused myself  and went away terrified. Don't remember it really ending, just waking  up  the next morning. Yesterday, I was way too preoccupied thinking  about  death and mortality and losing loved ones. I hardly slept that  night,  perhaps just 2 or 3 hours.

I've   tried best of my methods to calm myself down, but so far they haven't  removed the problem. Wrote down my fears and doubts. Tidied my room,  made some tea, went for walks. Played computer games and drank vodka   with my friends. I don't know what's wrong. I've had bad weeks before   and like 2 or 3 panic attacks 1.5 years ago but now I'm scared it won't   go away.

My only remedy is the   fact, that I can still function. I still get out and make my bed. I  still shower and brush my teeth. I've done the necessary school work for   now. Apart from yesterday, my sleep has also been doing fine.

Like  a fortnight ago there was nothing wrong with me. Not really prone to  mental struggles. Hence, if you actually bothered reading 'till this   point, all I seek is reassurance. Please tell me that I'm overreacting  and that all will be soon. Needless to say, this feeling is suffocating  and I'd love a quick recovery.