Hello everyone! I've been mulling something over in my head for a while and I [22F] wanted to see if some of you had an opinion or anything to consider regarding this.
I've wanted to be a mother for as long as I can remember. I just always knew it was what I was going to do, but since I've been diagnosed with bpd and come to learn more about it I'm not so sure. I've heard mothers with bpd can have a high tendency to abuse their children and that scares me. Though I'm doing much better now, I have been emotionally abusive in the past and my biggest fear is that I'd end up hurting my children somehow. I don't know if I want to risk hurting any potential children to fulfill my wish to have them. I've been going through rigorous therapy and medication modification. I'm actually proud of how far I've come, but I can't know what will happen in the future. 
Are there any mothers with bpd or children of parents with bpd that'd be willing to give me some insight?

Thank you everyone! 