Made some real poor choices recently and am now in a much worse situation then I was,living and financial wise. 

The stress has naturally made my symptoms much worse. Its hard right now and im using phenibut and ive been abusing amphetamine for the past few days. I kno the stim exacerbates my anxiety and somewhat my delusions but it also allows me to sit and focus for a bit without being distracted by all my worries. Of course the stim is probably THE main reason I havent left my room when I thought I may run into roommates. 

Also, kinda forgot because today I feel way better (in this aspect) but I'm also on somewhT over a week of minor opioid withdrawal that i did a rapid taper of. But that has obviously not helped at all

Just venting because absolutely no one in my life knows to what extent I go to get that temporary relief

 And sometimes it's very far.

Best of luck guys and good vibes, I love this sub