Im trying so hard. Im participating in groups, taking my meds, being honest about my feelings. I just feel so empty and sick. My mind is so dark. When I get out I just want to end it. It’s so hard to be positive. I have no light left in my body. Nothing makes me happy or excites me. I still want to die with every fiber of my being. If there’s a God I will do anything for him to relieve some of this pain.