I met someone really nice that likes me and wants to date. I told him last night I am borderline and some (like 3) things I deal with including overwhelming emotions, unstable identity and feelings of emptiness. It was a very surface level conversation as I obviously don’t want to scare him off... We made plans to go out this weekend but he said he didn’t have the funds to do so and instead invited me over and would cook us dinner and we could hang out. I’m not thrilled about these kinds of dates bc my tendency to sleep with a person really soon. I explained this to him tonight and told him I’m reconsidering the idea of coming over bc I know how I am. He was really chill about it but felt like I thought he was pressuring me, which I never did. I just know I am extremely attracted to him and will do whatever I have to to make out with him and more lol So we ended our conversation agreeing we’d sleep on the idea and talk about it tomorrow but now I’m crying bc I think I came off as stupid and inconsistent and clearly incapable of controlling my sexual urges and who tf wants to deal with that?? I wanna text him that I’m sorry I am nearly obsessed with him already and have imagined every possible position we could make love and when he talks to me I think about kissing him. And even though he told me he’s protecting his heart I want him to trust me knowing damn well in the blink of an eye I could make him regret ever meeting me 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 so do I push him away to save myself? Save him? Or do I try to be normal and just wait and see what happens. Omgggg I hate this wtffff