I feel that i am only still living because i don't want to hurt friends and family, i know it would destroy my parents. They can't help me though, there is nothing they can do, it has been 16 years of trying. It doesn't feel right to live purely so i don't hurt other people when i am in almost constant pain. I don't know what to do, i don't want to be here but i don't want to hurt people. I see it like euthanasia if another organ was causing this much pain then surely that would be thought about (whether action would be possible or not due to legality issues).

edit; not that it makes too much difference i guess but that made it sound like i am 16, i am 26 i have hated life since i was about 10.

edit; thankyou all so much for you comments btw and apologies if i am being a bit ranty in response.