TW : suicide ; self harm

i’m kinda dating with this guy and rn he’s sleeping, i know he is but every time he’s away from me i get really anxious, i’m shaking and i feel nauseous. 

he always try to help me a lot, like i tried to unalive myself 2 times this summer, i used to self harm a lot and he came to visit me everyday at the mental hospital even when he had 3 jobs at the same time. 
Since i’m out he made me promise to stop self harm, drugs, and alcohol so i did and i’m very proud.
All of this made me being over attached to him, like i love him so much it hurts.

So every time he’s not with me or sleeping i get anxious af