I have been struggling with procrastinating and not getting distracted and poor time magagement my whole life ever since I had take home math assignments in elementary school and I’d do them as late as possible. 
I could manage that cause there WAS a quick deadline. Ever since I started online college I’ve been really struggling with late work. But I’ve managed 3 semesters with as bs and a couple cs. It is my last semester till I graduate and I’ve fallen more behind than I’ve ever been before. We went on a 5 day vacation and I was behind before that even. 

Just the thought of starting makes me incredibly anxious that I feel like I’m going to throw up and I only have one month left. I’m so far behind I don’t think I can get everything done. I’ve lost all my motivation and the worst part is it’s all my fault cause I don’t have a job I could have been working on it but I never know where to start and it feels like an impossible mountain of stuff to climb. So I just keep putting it off because it seems like the only way I can cope. When I start working I get overwhelmed and end up on something not helpful towards getting my homework done to avoid the stress. 

I feel hopeless, and I hate myself for being unmotivated. I wake up every morning with my heart pounding out of my chest anxious about school. I don’t know what to do I feel like a failure in life and I wasn’t really sure where to ask because no one in my real life either believes I’m struggling or wants to talk about it. My mom definitely thinks I’m lazy and don’t care but I really do care I just can’t do it. 

Any advice would be helpful I really need it