Hi, I'm here to tell my story, sorry if my English is bad.

I have a lot of problems with depression and my parents are toxic in a different way they care about me but so much I got some mediocre grades these days and they got so so mad, why? You may ask
Bc my sister got an award for the best grades of the town (a little town, kinda) So they want me to be a better version of her so they think I'm some kind of a memorize or a educate machine, you can just say: bro just go to a therapist he will do the job, but if I tell them I need a therapist it will make it worse, you may ask why? Bc they are so SO retarded and they don't understand us the modern teens so they literally treat me like a machine, and bc the ppl here are all after money they all want me to work good so I can get money for them.
So I need help _PLEASE_