I've had bad anxiety for most of my life, and the symptoms have affected me quite a lot. For example, I can't even do things such as paint my nails because of my shaky hands. I can't enter or exit a room without extensively thinking about how to act while I do so. I get heart palpitations regularly which don't help my paranoia about getting ill/injured. 

A few weeks ago I was sitting with my flatmates and started having a weird feeling in my chest and arm as well as severe shaking which seemed like a heart attack, so I called an ambulance. Turns out it was my anxiety manifesting psychically, which is fun. 

I understand I need to talk to someone professional about this but even thinking about doing that makes me spiral a bit. Interacting with new people is very hard for me... It was especially bad a few months ago when I had just started university and I'm only just starting to gain control over my thoughts regarding being alone in a new situation. 

The almost-trip to the hospital kind of gave me a sign I should do something but as I said before it's just so hard to work myself up to doing it.

I feel like this is never gonna go away and it makes me kinda sad. I don't wanna be stuck with shakiness and constant delicacy for my entire life.... 

Idk :/