Taking 2mg clonazepam per day (up to 3), propranolol, remeron for sleep. Right now in total fucking crisis mode. I was on an antidepressant (I’ve taken many antidepressants) for about 6 months and I was stable but the sexual side effects made me stop. The clonazepam isn’t  doing shit because I have a tolerance now. Been taking them over a year. This started about a month after I was off my antidepressant completely. Started waking up wanting to puke, feel panicked all day, now the suicidal thoughts are creeping back in. I haven’t felt this way in a long time. The antidepressant I stopped was doing more work than I thought it was but I could not orgasm or maintain an erection during sex and it made me drowsy. But it kept me out of crisis. I know I need to get back on an SSRI but my sex life will be non existent. I have a lot a stake to lose if I go off the deep end. I’ve already hospitalized myself before and that made it worse. What’s the solution, more fucking pills? I’m sick of all these drugs.