It’s been 2 months since we lost him. I feel like i have woken up to a nightmare or some twisted alternate reality. 
Nothing makes sense for me anymore. i try to keep my regular life going with work, gym, social life but i’m miserable all the time. Everything seems pointless now that he’s gone. we were not close but he was my brother and friend.

i can’t fall asleep most nights. now that the shock has settled I’m just depressed. i don’t have the energy to keep up my regular every day life so i just lay in bed all day. I miss that contentment i had before he passed away.