Long term relationships are a struggle for me because I am constantly moving and changing and developing. Also I am very introverted and talking to more than three to four people at a time is so emotionally draining for me. I always thought that finally being able to sustain a long term (romantic) relationship would mean that I was healthy now. Every time I got into a new relationship I thought "This is the one that is going to last." But I just came to realize that my recovery is not dependent on being in a committed relationship for a certain period of time. It is ok if my relationships, friendships and romantic relationships alike, accompany me for a period of my life. Life is fluid and we all change, grow together and apart. I don't mean to use people for as long as I need them and then leave when I'm done with them. But relationships can be good and healthy and mutually beneficial even if they don't last forever. I'm not gonna end up lonely if I don't find that 'one' person now or ever. I'm gonna be fine and I'm not defined by my relationships.