My boyfriend and I were playing a video game and almost every time we play, he‘s the best on the team. I’ve been playing this game longer and more often than him but I still am not very good. Anyway, our last game he uses a character I typically use, I’ve done hundreds of games with that character and he’s only done like… 2 before this. He gets MVP again, and I almost never get mvp with that character 

I just got overwhelmed with this feeling like ‘why should I try? No matter what I do I’m never actually good at anything.’ I had such a complete spiral that I ended up deleting the game off my devices and I haven’t recovered since. Like, my depression got to a point from all this where I kinda went into a crisis and my boyfriend and best friend had talk to me together.  

This isn’t the first time this has happened, I taught my boyfriend how to play chess and he beat me in only 6 games and I’ve been playing since I was little. I’ve been working at trying not to attach my self worth to being good at things but clearly I’m failing at that too