I met a guy who was bpd and we have been chatting for quite a while online. He told me that he was diagnosed with BPD but he said that he doesn't think he has it but I clearly saw that he has it. And he also said that he doesn't want to go on therapy because he will get only some meds but it won't fix his life problem.
He also had a terrible time last year, he had his wrists scared from the cuts that he made and he was forced to stay in a psihiatry hospital.
He said to me that things are way more ok now.

When we met and it finally happened we both got super attached by each other, he was telling me things like I matter a lot to him and that he would want to protect me for the rest of his life and then the first fight we had happened still online after I gave him validation when he didn't ask for. At that time he told me that the convertation is concluded, he did not block me back there he just set his phone to flight mode. The next morning was like "wtf are you doing?". I also went desperate, I called him 50 times and I did not even realised that and he told me after I was begging for an apology that he doesn't know if he wants to be with me anymore. While he called me he said that everything is okay and I bursted in tears back then because I also had a rough week with my family. Just to mention he had a lot to study that day and a rough time for him. I opened up everything about him, and he told me that it mattered so much to him that I did that.
He was becoming very affective again to me, especially the day before I pissed him up again.

That day I was making a joke about short people. He is not even short and he started burning after I told him that joke and told me that one more time that I will make fun about his insecurities and he will block me again, and he went again from ignoring me. This time I send him 27 messages and he still didnt want to respond. When he finished his work he just answered "27 messages *laughing emoji*" and "I had a rough week I am not reading any single of this for now, maybe tommorow". And I asked for forgiveness and he told me that "if you keep making fun about my insecurities and keep making such big mistakes and expect me to be okay about it then we cant be togheter anymore, my romantic interess in you is 0 at this point."

I felt dissapointed that I tried to show him how much I was caring about him and then I felt that the words tha he told me didnt matter. And again I wrote him again, saying that he was a wonderful person and that I tried everything in my power to make him feel good, that I never intend to make him feel bad in any way and that I would do anything for him, but if he keeps being selfish and so triggered about really small things then this is why people will leave him eventually. I was so heart broken back then and then he told me that I am blocked forever and try not to contact him ever again. I said that I did not try to be mean at all, just that I felt heart broken and his last message was "I dont take advices from dumb kids ))"

Later I realised that he clearly had BPD but I still keep at him and the fact that he did that to me may have broke my heart but I still do like him, and want him back. I realised that its not his fault for being like that and I want him to be good. I want to help him with all my power.

Now I wonder, if I give him enough time will he ever want to have contact back with me? I can still contact him if I want to but I want to I want to give him time and I dont want him to ignore my messages. I want to help him so much and I still care about him.