i dont even know why. well, i do, i'm having another awful ocd obsession and my emetophobia has been crazy. i wake up in the morning with a pit of dread in my stomach and i make my way to school trying to not go into a gagging fit out of anxiety and constantly try to convince myself i am not going to throw up. now with this has been added a constant worry i'm an awful person because of something that happened forever ago and my ocd is trying its damndest to convince me i HAVE to confess my AWFUL THING i did to the person it revolves around (it actually isn't even that bad, really.) and i feel an unending dread, still, but even worse and now in all of my classes and at home!! then when i get home from school i get to dread the next morning!! i get to sit here and fear!! im just so scared im so tired of this i just want a break i hate going to school i hate my emetophobia i hate my ocd i hate everything i feel so alone why does this have to happen why cant anyone just see that something is wrong why cant my mom just fucking take me to a therapist