In 2018 smoke weed and took some prescription drugs for my anxiety. It's been 4 years and I'm unable to imgaine and have zero sexual thoughts. 

I have money for anyone who can figure this out. Did the weed destroy my imagination or was it the medications. 

I'm currently suicidal sitting in my recliner, numbed out from the world and can't think, no ideas, no imagination, cogintive decline.