So for a while now I've been having a sense of doom, I told myself well typical anxiety,but that it tends to happen well that's mainly the problem.

I don't seem to fit at anything at all even how hard I try or how hard I try to put my mind into it, I just always ALWAYS fail,for a couple of months being socially awkward, lack of knowledge, not so good at sports, personality issues.

Every time I give myself hope it just a false hope nothing changes,or like having instant gratification and that's it, after this moment I could think of me conquering the world lol. And like nothing was ever been.

Life demands so much yet I fail at most and people tell me always your kind and good hearted, will fuck it I hate these words like the words are sticked to me.peole begin to ignore me or beginning to lose hope in me.

This sense of doom I try to run from but it feels like it's going to happen no matter what.