I'm a perfectionist at heart and I beat myself up very badly if I don't do stuff (including social interaction) perfectly. This is because I for some reason love the idea of people flirting with me, but when they do I get extremely uncomfortable (partially because I have a partner and we are committed and I love him). But still, I love the attention of others. And I wrote flirting but it's more like.... loving attention from others? Like praise and sometimes flirting. I don't know what I do that is so deserving of attention but I still feel like it. Like something inside me gets extremely proud when others are jealous of me. 

For instance this Saturday I was at a party with my boyfriend and my ex love interest (it was kind of mutual in some ways) was there with his new girlfriend. 
Naturally I felt a little awkward when this woman was bonding with my boyfriend and like smoking weed with him without asking me to join, but at the same time I liked the feeling of my boyfriend being kind of bothered by this other dude.

I would never want anyone to be jealous to the point of being hurt, but like... keep them on their toes.