At the beginning of the relationship my boyfriend showed me photos of a girl and said that I have competition with her because "she's sooo hot" and all that and I can't stop thinking about it and i recently found the girl's Instagram and all I can do is compare myself to this woman and I just don't feel good enough for him and he says he regrets what he says but that doesn't excuse him from saying it in the first place, right? I know everyone makes mistakes but how can you say something like that to your partner? I've been trying so hard to control my emotions for him and try not to act out in jealousy but it feels like he has just taken my self esteem and thrown it in the bin. I wish I could forget but I really can't and I think about it every time I look at myself.
I'll never be the girl he wants.