I suck at my hobbies. I like to write and play the guitar and have been doing since the last 5 years. Even after 5 years, I am still at a "basic level". No matter how much I practice, I still achieve nothing

I suck at my health. I practice yoga daily and I am at a healthy weight. But I have a genetic condition which has given me asthma (literally makes me choke at times) and extremely weak eyesight. Because of that, I can't really do the "fun" stuff with anyone, because either I get short of breath or I can't see what the fuck is actually going on.

I suck at making friends and having relationships. My only "friends" are my parents and my siblings. No matter how hard I try, I never "find the right connection" with anyone and most of my "friends" only talk to me when they require my assistance in something and not out of "actual friendship". I am a single loser virgin and have never even held a girl's hand ever. But women aside, I can't even make friends with males. 

I suck at my studies. I'm doing my masters degree and throughout my life, I have been an average student and just got bare minimum marks and a shitty college. Even my current college falls into that category. It takes me 3-4 times to understand something (in studies) that others understand at the first go. 

I have read 100s of books, did 100s of courses, watched 100s of "motivational videos", have done 100s of technical courses to improve my studying performance, have attended social skills coaching programs and yet all that has done is wasted my fucking money coz I am still at square one after years of my personal free time investment, which I could have rather spent at my home, playing FUCKING VIDEO GAMES AND binging netflix.

But I am not like that, I am always trying to improve myself and get better. But even after all these years of following this path, I am still an unemployment, useless, virgin with no talent skills and an average mind and intelligence. Meanwhile, seeing my acquaintances rise high kn their personal as well as professional life, seeing them getting married, buying their houses, getting a great job makes me fucking pissed?

WHEN THE FUCK IS MY TURN COMING? ALL THESE YEARS AND IM STILL A LOSER.  

I feel like just giving up and doing nothing at all now.