The last 8 months of my life I've been broken. When I was 16 I met a girl who was everything to me. For 6 years we hardly fought we had a very healthy sex life and we were both pushing each other to do big things. The relationship felt perfect... I was about to be able to support us both with a new job so she could finally leave her McDonald's job and not have to work anymore... I thought things were really looking up but she left me... why? I don't get it I really don't. No fight. Nothing she just... Met another kid at work. Still in high school, and I tell myself it's not my fault but I don't believe it and now 7 months later I can't get over it. Someone cared about me held onto me at night, laughed with me, everything I had just. Gone. I have days where I feel like I'm over it like I really genuinely don't care anymore but they never last. I sit in the shower with water so hot it burns and I just stare at the wall until the water goes cold. I had a convenient excuse to see people alot when I met her because we had school together. Now I'm just alone. I don't work in a social environment and I live alone now... I just. I can't help but think there's nothing left for me here