I'm a horrible person. I'm a bad student; I've plagiarized, not passed any work, incompetent, and genuinely fucking dumb. I want to die. And it's not just the voices in my head talking, I am genuinely a bad person. I ghost friends. I bullied someone in my elementary years and I find myself almost falling back to that person one time in highschool. I apologized to them but jesus fuck why did i do that? My teachers probably think I'm so fucking incompetent. I want to die so bad but its sooo bad to just die without ever doing something good but I just can't. I don't change. I'm just wishing someone shoots me in the head just like I deserve. I want to self-harm but I'm scared of pain. Isn't that ironic?