In grade 9 I got a bf and was in his friend group for a while until I broke up with him, the rest of that school year I was kinda lonely and talked to other lonely ppl.
In grade 10 I quickly made a friend the first day and joined their group, then I cheated on that friend bc we were kinda gay and was ditched by that group around a month before summer.
In grade 11 I was lonely and talked to the people that sat in the stairwell at lunch. Then I got a bf and clung to him as he was my FP,
In grade 11 I made a new friend and joined their group but then I jumped that girl. 
So then I hung out with people my bf sold tree to and it was the worse relationship I’ve had because she had bpd too. 
Now I’m very alone and only talk to one person from highschool that’s 2 years younger than me and this random 13 yr old that talked to me at a boba store and we hang sometimes.
Btw I’m 19 I jus graduated hs in 2020 and I’m taking a gap year bc I’m bad at online school.