My life is not hard I'm a straight white middle class guy with a job that pays well, I don't hate it all of the time, most of my colleagues are pretty sound people, I wrote off my car bought an upgrade within a month and still had £2k left after that I mostly just do whatever I want irregardless of costs and I just straight up don't really put much effort into anything but yet I just kinda glide upwards through life passing my GCSEs with ease getting A*AA at college then going on to get a 2:1 honours degree in accounting and finance all without really having to put much effort in but even after all of this all I can think about most of the time is stopping taking my medication in the hopes I'll finally be sad enough to kill myself and I don't want to be happy or anything like that I genuinely just don't want to be alive.