Hey everyone I just felt like sharing with someone who would understand.
I have terrible health anxiety with periodic obsessions: at first phlebitis after breaking my foot, then it was having a rare disease because I compensated with my other foot and had strange pain going on (cured by acupuncture), and now I’m fearing food allergies. 
It’s like every time I’m gonna get a major panic attack, my mouth gets so dry I don’t have saliva anymore and I fear that it’s allergies. All I can do to feel better is throw up and purge myself.
I’m paying hypnotherapists, acupuncture, whatever the fuck exists to feel better. I exercise, I almost quit drinking, I vape CBD. I do it all. But it’s like the monster will never leave me alone. Sometimes I just want to give up on life, I’m in my early thirties. How can I ever raise a family being this insane?
It’s just hard. Thank you for listening.