19 f here; 
For years I had struggled with drug addiction to cocaine, crack, &amp; opioids. I struggled with about 7 years of self harm. I grew up in a very dark place. I attempted suicide on march 8th 2018. I was in a psychiatric ward from March 10th-May 16th 2018. I moved to a different state on June 7th 2018. I joined job corps a few months later in attempts to obtain my high school diploma, get clean, get a certification in a trade, and to really change my life around. I am currently 127 days CLEAN! I haven’t self harmed since my suicide attempt back in 2018. I’m currently working in a hospital and doing classes to obtain my diploma. And shortly I’m going to be going to college to obtain my degree in nursing. I see the same drugs I’m addicted to on a DAILY. It definitely isn’t no walk in the park to refrain from using but I definitely am trying! I am on Wellbutrin to help with my bpd, depression, ptsd, and anxiety. And it definitely is working. I feel so accomplished. Although it isn’t a lot I feel proud I’m doing well. I just wanted to vent a bit... there is hope and it does get better you just have to keep working at it!