My moods change quick. I can go from happy, to angry, to agitated, to sad within hours. There’s been occasions where I felt nothing but emptiness. I felt like my heart was weighing me down. I’m very anxious, a MAJOR overthinker, afraid of abandonment, have thoughts of getting revenge, and I even ruminate a lot. I also see people as all good or bad. Same with situations. I’m always expecting the worst out of them. I have random thoughts of death or my loved ones dying. 

I feel so lonely. Like a part of me wants to go out and socialize, but at the same time, I’m afraid to because I don’t want to be judged or excluded. I just want to be understood for once in my life and be happy. I already have Asperger’s, but I feel like there’s something else. I experience way more things than this, but there’s too many to list. Sometimes I feel like I’m imagining it all in my head.