I've been so lost lately. I thought I was finally establishing some sense of self-identify, but the illusion shatters so quickly.

Lately, everyone's been trying to control me. Everyone thinks they're entitled to me and entitled to control me and tell me what to do. Everyone is trying to dictate my feelings, my actions, or making up bullshit about me to make me look bad to force my hand. 

Even my boyfriend was trying to do it. I had to take a break from our relationship because I realized I didn't know who I was without him. I miss him so much.

No one wants to recognize my individuality, so I've lost it. Everyone's trying to decide who I am for me, and I don't know who I am anymore.

Sorry if this doesn't make sense...