Like you hit such a low in your depression or anxiety you literally become numb to everyone and everything? I had an absolute meltdown today at work, and the fact nobody asked to help me or ask if I was ok, despite my very visible struggles (such as crying, shaking, hyperventilating, and slicing my thumb open twice) only infuriated me. It simply reinforced what I've already always known: nobody gives a shit about me.

I came home as soon as my work was done, and I've literally been laying in my bed, under the covers, unmoving, for almost 8 hours. Sometimes I feel nothing, then all of a sudden a rush of tears comes streaming down my face. I'm inconsolable until I get too tired to fight. The tears subside and then I just lay here, almost catatonic. Not thinking. Not feeling. Simply existing.