I have high functioning anxiety, I get my kicks from books like ‘How to get a grip’.

Every time you have a panic attack it’s not outwardly exposed. Entirely internal screaming but you are still holding a conversation, your mind racing to remind you this is just an illusion. You can’t look weak right now, have an early night instead. 

The office has been kept open because the new hired trainees can’t work from home and they want to be fair. Everyone asks how you ‘feel’ about it. I feel safer at home. They don’t want your honest answer, they want your business answer. To be agreeable. Keep reminding yourself this isn’t about you and your needs. This is business. You need this job. For now. 

All the ranting you listen to from the Type A personalities out for themselves becomes a white noise. What are they saying? No clue. Tuned out five minutes ago. Their anger and emotion is so passionate and largely ego based. Don’t become that and remember your boundaries. It brings you down.

It’s ok if you don’t sleep a night, don’t get stressed if it’s only one hour and you have so much to do. Resolve yourself that you will sleep you just need to eat something and take your day at pace. Sleep will come.

Epictetus said ‘No man is free who is not a master of himself’

Stay mellow.