i was solely on ssri’s (nearly every kind) for several years and spent many years in and out of hospital emergency rooms.. doctors were always hesitant to diagnose me with anything other than chronic depression, until after a number of years being in the ER, I spent almost half a year inpatient at a psychiatric ward. after being watched consistently i was finally diagnosed and felt relief, because i always knew i had been experiencing ‘more’ than ‘just’ depression and anxiety. i’m finally on a cocktail of medications and now partake in outpatient therapy / dbt and have found some stability but i still have my moments. but god i have come quite a way since. 

kind of interested in knowing the medications people are on, if comfortable with sharing. i just find it so wild that it took so long to figure out what worked and sometimes wonder why. 

daily: 25mg lexapro, 75mg pregabalin, 1.5mg clonazepam, 108mg concerta, 40mg valium, 600mg seroquel, another 75mg pregabalin 

anyways. not sure how this sub works and honestly just feel a bit like rambling but still am censoring myself. 

my relationships with others (platonic and romantic) have improved a lot with medication and therapy. 

did any of you ever think you had bpd or bipolar before being diagnosed and what was your experience like?