When you feel like your ex took everything that was good about you, and destroyed it. You're just so empty and frustrated you yelled at the cat she left you with that she wanted because he knocked something over and you're just crying by yourself, freezing, thinking about how you would've graduated college this semester if this person didn't emotionally wreck you and your grades plummeted from a 3.8 GPA. Now you're just stuck in the same dead end job you've always had (that is now cutting hours because of covid), in a broken home literally falling apart around you with a leaking roof, no insulation, and shitty plumbing you can't escape because you're poor.

You supported her through college and earning her degree, never expected her to have a job or contribute financially because she was studying so hard and did it!! But when it came to you, you were accused of only wanting them for the money when you were trying to succeed at college the same way she did. Now they're gone because it's never going to be the loving relationship you want and you ended it because you're sick of fighting. Your parents give you a "God has a plan" but wont help even though their biggest problem recently was whether they should get a new Camaro or a new Mustang.

All you really want to do is return to the same memory-less void you were in before you were born because atleast then you wouldn't have to struggle anymore, and you're so tired of struggling.