Recently I can't stop worrying about my future, I feel really hopeless and alone. 
The main reason I never considered suicide was because I still had faith in a better future but now even that slim hope is slowly but surely disappearing. Just yesterday I found a rant I wrote pretty much 1 year ago and it was heartbreaking seeing how nothing has changed in over a year.
These days I can't shake the thought that if 10 years ago I knew how my life would have unfolded i would have probably killed myself.
So my question is: how do I keep from spiraling down even more? Who tells me that in 2, 3, 10 years things will not get even worse than they are now?