For abackground, I am 35 and have BPD. I would consider myself to me well functionning, holding downa full time job, owning a flat, and in a loving and understanding relationship.

Recently, with one stressor or another, I have not been well. For the last 2 weeks my mood has been up and down like a prostitue's knickers.

Recently, when I receive a critisism from my partner, it literally feels like a dagger straight through my heart. My mind instantly goes to "I am a piece of shit, I deserve to die". This feeling of guilt and uselessness is so palpable and overwhelming that it is all I can think about.

The worst part of this is that when I get over this wave of emotion, I find that my short term memory has suffered. I honest to goodness forget thing I should know. Like where the damned coffee is (it has been there for 3 months)

Does anyone else have this? Or am I actually as alone as I feel?