You told me once you browsed this thread often to try to understand my disorder, to understand what it meant and what I was going through. You have no idea how much that touched me at the time, for someone to try to know me in that way. So tell me now, now that you understand that every spare thought I have is tied up in the fear that everyone will leave me, why did you still leave? You of all people know what it's like to be left behind, even for a normal person. For someone like me that pain is magnified tens upon tens of times. And you knew that. I hate you. I hate you for knowing exactly what this would do to me and not even giving it a second thought.