I'm completely done trying now. There's no point. The only advice I got was "don't give up". I hate this. I wish I was normal. That's too much to ask for. I'm done with trying to get better if it's going to take me until I'm 40 to start to cope. I think the universe wants me to kms because let's be real, this is getting worse not better. I'm gonna stay single for the rest of my life because I don't have a model body like every other pwBPD so I'm fucked. I wish there was actual hope in getting treatment but there isn't. I'm gonna have to stay like this forever because nothing will fucking work. I'm gonna kill myself soon