I'm a teenager, too young to drive or do much on my own. Throughout the past 3-5 years I've been trying to find help. First I would reach out to strangers online for advice, then it got worse so I talked to my school counselor. She notified my parents that I was having suicidal thoughts, my stepmom was the only person to address it. She set up an appointment with a counselor who wasn't the most professional. We talked, nothing came of it, after a few months we talked again. We only had three appointments which were just me sitting awkwardly while she tried to talk about my problems with public speaking (which was not the main issue). Everyone assumed I was fine after this, I still try to talk to people online but everywhere I try ends in me sobbing or hurting myself. I just want someone to tell me the next step or a way to get my friends and family to take me seriously. I'm not sure how much longer I can keep distracting myself from wanting to die.