i have generalized anxiety, but it is worst when it comes to my loved ones, especially my boyfriend. everyday it feels like i’m holding my breath until he makes it home safe. i always picture scenarios of him dying and then i feel as if i jinxed myself and made that situation true just by thinking about it.

everytime he has a far drive for work or anything i always get this visceral feeling that something horrible is gonna happen and that “this time it’s different. something bad will actually happen this time”. right now he’s on a hunting trip and i obsessively check his location to make sure he’s moving forward and not in a car accident on the freeway. it looks like he hasn’t moved and i’m currently losing my shit. i know i’m crazy and irrational. but how do i make this stop??

anyone have similar struggles??