My therapist had me take this exam last week where it helps her see clearer what my thought pattern indicate. She kept saying how clear depression was in the test.

I’ve had moments where I’m so obviously sad and feel depressed but usually I just have an overall pissed off and irritable feeling towards life. Everything makes me mad. People make me mad. I feel like anytime I go anywhere people are hovering like gnats and looking at me and i just want to go home and lay in bed. 

But I think i’m realizing this is high functioning depression. These past couple years i’ve just been so angry at every little thing. I can’t even go to the store anymore because watching how slow people move or how people act sends me into a spiral. (I am not proud of this and I realize this is irrational and I hate it.) I even get mad at objects. I feel like my life is a joke and it’s meant to be hard because of some kind of bad luck I’m destined for or something. I get mad at my shirt getting caught on something, i’ll break down crying over something that wont cooperate at the right time out of anger etc. 

Anytime i go out, i just want to be home. But when I’m home i feel miserable and depressed and restless. If any of you feel this way too, please comment. I just need to feel less alone. &lt;3