Me and my boyfriend normally meet on a certain day of the week to meet and just hang out, but the day we are meeting he was saying how he is playing a game with his friends on his console too. And instantly my mood dropped and I feel so shitty as if he's just abandoning me and leaving me alone to play with his friends. 
I hate over thinking like this because its so selfish and it makes me feel like a terrible partner. I can't help but think he doesn't deserve going through this bullshit (he knows about my bpd)