I have GAD and social anxiety in particular. I am an immigrant and thus, despite having a family of my own feel lonely in society. 

All my attempts to be more social are just a vicious cycle of being awkward (my fight mode kicks in and people rarely even understand that I am in that mode, because of the stupid wide smile I have) and then overthinking everything that I said that was stupid, awkward and so on. 

I have a special fear that being anxious and worrying about how I look, what I say, people would perceive me as a narcissistic person.. 

Or when I feel low and want some kind word and post a picture where I think I look good (I feel so bad, like I almost confirmed this to myself)..