Hey everyone, so long story short i found out my boyfriend is actually still friends with his ex. I got upset over this and didn't know why at first. He showed me the text messages between them and they were very normal. Happened maybe once or month. Just asking a question or to say happy birthday. He blocked her because he thought i was upset about it and told me that there's no reason to talk to her because he's moved on and is very happy with me. I assured him i didn't want to do that because i would never take away a friendship from him but he said that he was perfectly fine with it. I understand to most that would be more than enough to just move on from the situation and be happy. Not me with my anxiety though. Since i ended up seeing a photo of her i started immediately comparing myself to her because i guess i realized how insecure i was. Then i started playing out situations in my head like him unblocking her and talking to her or her reaching out to him another way and talking to her but hiding it from me. I have no reason at all to think that would happen considering when i noticed they were friends and confronted him about it he explained everything to me and even let me see the messages.

Its been two weeks and i can barely eat anything because i just keep having this feeling about him leaving me for her or him not being over her (even though he told me he is completely over her).I have been off anxiety medication for almost a year because i thought i was fine but this has sent me into a weird anxiety hole ive never been in.

Im sorry i understand this isn't a relationship advice community, but i guess what im trying to ask is has anyone else ever felt this way and knows some way to make it better? Im so happy with this guy and it has been the most healthiest relationship ive ever been in, so i don't want anything to ruin it like my major insecurities and anxiety.