It would seem as if everything goes wrong every single day. I feel like I've made it this far to achieve nothing, and I still have a long way to go and I don't see myself achieving anything. I hate myself, I hate my body, I hate how I am, and I hate everything I do and don't. I've lost the inspiration for my hobbies, I gained a lot of weight and I feel disgusted at myself for it, I'm totally alone with nobody to talk to, and I'm extremely burned out and tired.

What's even worse is that every single day I wake up to bad news. Where I live, inflation is **rampant**, and so is corruption. I had my wage lose 20% of its value in a single week, and this week I'll probably lose an extra 20% of it. Going out is rather unsafe nowadays, the other day someone got shot a few blocks away from my house after being mugged, and this sort of shit happens everywhere and all the time now. I can't afford to buy any of the stuff I'd like to buy (and I even earn above average), I never get to do the stuff I'd like to do, and I have a total lack of friends, not even online.

I often just wish I go to sleep and don't wake up again, because I'm really, really tired of everything being so crap, and nothing ever improving. I'm also tired of feeling like I was not made for this world due to all my mental health issues. I just generally hate everything.