I don’t know what causes this, I don’t think I am perfect, I don’t have an ego really. I honestly think I am very ugly, I have horrible dysmorphia but for some reason I believe every guy (for the most part) is somewhat into me when we interact.. I always feel like they’re flirting or looking too long etc. This might also just be from me expecting the worst of men and then when one is nice, I take it as they like me and want something from me. 

I also sometimes have this idea that I could get any guy I want, no matter if he’s in a relationship, married, etc. Again... I know this sounds very narcissistic but I swear I don’t think any higher of myself and I truly don’t want to think this way because I feel like it’s destructive and I also feel pretty delusional. 

These thoughts are more like a little devil on my shoulder, my clear logical mind disagrees but this devil insists all these things are true.