My life has been a complete failure for the past 46 years. I always make the wrong decision. I always over play my hand over spend my account. After three years of being unemployed earning under 2/3 of what I previously was. My rent increased $300 a month. I just got into a car accident and have to replace my car. I have no money to do so. I feel like giving up and just walking into the abyss. Everyone knows better than me, everyone is smarter than me. Everyone makes better decisions than me. I am the cautionary tale. I am the ones people worn about. I am the person people say to avoid being like. I am a loser. I am moron. I am worthless. I am hopeless. If I could in myself I would. But I’m too chickenshit. I just need to wander into nothing less I’d let you all be. I’m sorry for have wasted your time￼￼￼￼￼.