I’m just gonna start listing things and I hope someone gives me advice if this is normal or I need mental help. I am a 16 year old male btw






Sometimes I will get these random outbursts of energy where I feel like I need to be doing something sometimes this happens in the morning and sometimes during the middle of the night I have written short stories that I came up with in 5 min or sometimes I make music (literally bought a beat making application impulsively during the night).


It feels like I pick up a new hobby every week and once I get good I drop it or sometimes I can’t get good and I get frustrated and never do it again. Literally the only hobby that has stuck with me is skateboarding




I distance myself from my friend groups then I have to find a new one if they don’t let me back in.



Now let’s get into the stuff I’m really worried about. There was a period in time where I would just lock myself in my room and not talk to anyone because I thought I had cancer and would die. I literally had no proof of this but I was so scared and depressed I just wanted to die in my room. This lasted for months and my grades dropped a lot during this. Then one day my worries just dropped. This happened like two more time a couple months later but not as bad. 



I make a lot of decisions without thinking and sometimes I regret them after. Like in middle school I ran for student government and won but that’s when I realized I just wanted to prove it to myself I didn’t want all that responsibility. This also happened with me buying things like clothes, video games or shoes I don’t need. (With my money btw)


I’m not going to lie I can be really self centered I have dropped friends or done stupid things just to get things I want.

It’s like I can’t hold a relationship with anyone because my ego gets the best of me.


I’ve always been kind of a hot head but my family pointed out I lash out at people for no reason at all. Or sometimes I ask for advice and get mad when someone gives me advice.


Another concerning one: I have had panic attacks where I can’t breath and I pull my hair and throw things and I feel like I’m going to die over dumb things that aren’t even worth mentioning. 




To sum it up it’s like my emotions totally control me and in a matter of weeks I can go from one emotional extreme to another