So I´ve been offered a compromise agreement: my company is offering me money for me to quit my job. The official reason is that they don´t need someone to fill my position anymore and that they cannot offer me a similar position. This is not true since they opened a similar position a few weeks ago. I want to clarify that I will have to spent a big chunk of this compensation money on health insurance and will not be entitled to unemployment money.

Last year march I reported my one and only co-worker for sexual harassment, and the company only offered me to have a confrontation with him and my boss, as if it was just a misunderstanding. I obviously refused an nothing happened to this him. I kept working with this man for months until I was raped 10 months ago (by a friend, not by my colleague), and spent 6 months on a sick leave for PTSD. 

When I came back, our department had been totally re-structured and the then family like work environment had turned into a cold management. My new boss knew about my situation but never offered an kind of support. 

I will obviously accept they proposition to leave because I just cannot stay any longer in a company like this.

I talked about the situation with many friends and some former colleagues who left the company a few months ago, and they all told me that I wasn´t kicked out because of how I work, but because of who I am.

I´ve been thinking about it, and I feel terrible. I am so undesirable that they give me money for me to leave.

My friend keep telling me that it´s a new start and that I just didn´t belong to this shitty company, that I´m too good for them etc, but they just can´t understand how my BPD is making me feel right now.

I just wanted to share this with people who understand me.