Hi, I'm new to the sub.

Haven't officially been diagnosed with BPD but I have been told I have BPD traits and am currently working towards a diagnosis (whether it's of BPD or something else).

Today I found out about what it's like to have a FP and I feel like such a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. So much makes sense now.

My FP is someone that I was only really close to for a month or 2, but that was 8 years ago and despite not really having a relationship anymore, they are the person I immediately think of when I'm in crisis. I wouldnt even consider us friends, yet I have this obsession with them. They are the person I would drop everything for. The person that can do no wrong. The person that I'm always thinking of, despite having not seen them in person for years.

And as amazing as it feels to have this discovery, this realisation, I dont know what to do now...