I don’t know how to practice “self-love” at all. It’s a completely foreign topic to me. The only thing I’ve done to myself in my whole life is criticize and put myself down. I genuinely feel like I do not deserve anything good. And I can’t get enough of it. It’s my biggest addiction that I cannot fight. I used to hurt myself physically as well, but I don’t do that anymore. I feel sorry for my partner, he has no idea who he’s with and I absolutely do not deserve him. I do not deserve to be happy. I’m just super mentally screwed up, and a total failure at being a human being. Suicide is extremely tempting. If/when he breaks up with me, that’ll be it. I won’t let anyone know, I’ll just disappear. I can’t live with myself man.