hi i’m currently 6 months sober and i’m really questioning the point, like my relationships, finding work, cooking, eating, comprbid mental illnesses, and waking life is basically just suffering at this point bc of bpd. it all just feels so empty and pointless, bc i’m doing all the “right” things, and have been told i’m “successful” in therapy and treatment, and life still sucks and is painful. all my symptoms are worse and i’m super careless and suicidal lately, it would be so much easier to just od or use at this point. i’m just so fucking tired, the only time i’ve gone out in the past three days was to fuck a stranger and a quick store run and the rest of the time was spent sleeping or doing nothing. the only reason i’m staying sober is basically bc i’m in a sober living and even that buffer is weakening. sorry for the word vomit i just needed to vent.