i (17f) recently found out i have bpd and although this has been very helpful to know about myself i have also felt exhausted and lost.

people can do the smallest thing like speak in a different tone and it will change my mood durastically for the entire day. i can go from feeling happy, and safe to planning my own su1cide in the space of minutes, and it is honestly just draining me. 

whats worse is the isolation that comes with having bpd. people who i thought would be supportive have just treated me like an animal, like i'm less then human after hearing about my struggles.

its so difficult having no perception of self (i also have dpdr). i don't really know who i am.  i also have a constantly shifting and unstable view of my relationships with others.

idk. i just have no stability at the moment and it's draining me. idk why im making this post, i guess im just hoping im not alone in feeling like this.