&lt;b&gt;Backstory.&lt;/b&gt;

Back in august, I had a trigger with a ptsd rape issue I never addressed 15 yes ago.. I completely split in my head and cut off my feelings with my fiance. Met someone who became my favorite person. 

When they decided to stop talking to me 6 weeks later... I full on went, what I thought, hypomanic.  I was so hypersexual, talking to like 30 guys, taking naked pics, cheating on my fiance who I felt broken up with but he didn't know my feelings changed at all. Cheated on him. 

Now we're working things out and my therapist and psychiatrist think it was all ptsd triggered. I had a hard time regulating my emotions, from happy to blank, sudden rages. 


&lt;b&gt;TLTR&lt;/b&gt;
 I'm on abilify now for about a week and today I suddenly spent 100 dollars on easter toys and stuff for my son. Aka crap toys. 
I want to jump up and down and laugh.. I'm skipping around my house and playing around with my cats... 
I don't hate it but also I feel out of control? 
I told my fiance to keep a look out bc I don't know where it could take me. And I may lose clarity eventually.