I don't think I can keep on dealing with this.

Relationship with my divorcing parents is failing, my pet dogs are dead, my savings are gradually draining and relationship with my roommates tanked.  
I lost all my friends from university because I stayed a year behind.  
I can't force myself to study for more than a couple hours at best. I just keep failing.

I stopped all exercise in my life and just resort to overeating of junk food to fill some void in my life. This horrible rainy weather isn't helping either.

I get seriously frustrated from the smallest of things, wondering if I should order food today, deciding not to, because prices are just too high, and I have no one to actually go sit down with to have a nice meal.

I lost all interest in my studies, all interest in hobbies.

My parents keep telling me to just push through it, but for what? Even if I do end up finishing this degree, what then? I sure as hell don't want to work. I can't. I feel like a disabled, failure of a person. And even my medication doesn't completely solve the problem.

I just feel like a lazy piece of crap. I want to play my dumb, useless video games and watch the funny internet people and pretend my worries are gone for a couple hours.

There's nothing else for me, not in the present and not in the future.