Warning: gross things like vomit and illness are talked about.  
 
I'm having combined depression/anxiety around COVID. My anxiety usually spikes around things that have happened- like if I hadn't gotten sick for 2 weeks and coughed until I threw up ( and I'm boosted) I wouldn't be so anxious around work super spreaders, mask optional doctors offices, etc. ( theres also work- children coughing blood, kids so ill the parent was scared for their life) There's no seeming reason for my lack of immunity- my immune system just says " nope we're being sick for weeks now". I take vitamins, I try to exercise, but I fear I'll be sick for a month each year or worse when they give up worse  and we won't even have the pills to give anybody. 

People say I shouldn't care but I do.