Specifically someone who doesn't know me so I don't feel like I'm burdening the people I love. I've been crying in my car in between classes, crying in the bath, crying when I'm getting in bed, etc. I am just so scared that I'm not gonna be able to get it together and will ruin my life. 

I'm not sure what else to say. If anyone reading this feels the same way right now, just know I'm proud of you for doing what you can because this is so fucking hard :(