Long story short, changed careers. Became super depressed. But in general realized I have always been depressed and deal with a number of other issues.

Tried therapists twice. Says I need meditation and exercise. They are not bad ideas but I lack any motivation to try any. I also feel l suffer from some symptoms of ADHD. 

All these struggles are standing in the way of me getting better. It’s completely contradicting.

I don’t feel I am being heard correctly. He says I have anxiety and depression and says all I need is meditation and exercise. But there as been times in my life I hade regular exercise and I was still depressed.

Where do I go? I need help. I feel like I am running out of time. Do I try another person? I feel like I need medication or something. Really contemplating smoking weed just to change my mindset. But I can’t because I am transitioning careers and may have drug tests.

I seriously feel like the clock is ticking. If I don’t see progress soon I feel it will be the end for me. I can’t live like this forever. Especially since I am now aware of all my issues. 