So these days I have been trying really hard to focus and study. I spend quite a lot of time daydreaming. When i sit to study or just finish any projects,I begin to keep thinking things, regret things and sometimes even not doing anything. For example, it's been three days that i am having a hard time studying. Everything is just so distracting. I thought my phone is distraction for me but turns out that is not really the case. I can just spend / waste time sitting by myself with books in my hand but just not studying. So today I just sat to study and could not even complete 3 pages in almost 1.30 hrs. I cried . A lottttt because i regret being where i am now. I know it cant be helped to go back but i just cannot like this. Feels like all of the decisions i made are leaving me in this state.  It takes a lotttt of time for me to finish projects and i mostly end up not finishing it. 

Also, very important to mention that my brain feels so numb and cloudy these days. I feel like there's anxiety filled in the back of my brain. I just cannot explain clearly. But it's all of a mess and everything entangles when i begin to figure things out, especially regarding studies. 

Please help me. What is this that I'm experiencing? I am in so much pain and others already expect a lot from me and i just don't know how to do it.