I've blocked my FP. She got a boyfriend and started ignoring me. I couldn't deal with it. She wouldn't even read my messages. I tried keeping distance, but it didn't work cause I'd fall into a spiral and send a flurry of messages begging for validation. 

We've both always been really open about our mental health, and I've been really transparent with how BPD affects how attached I get. She's always said I could be open about how I felt. I guess she didn't realise what that meant at the time. She called me her life partner, then a few days later said she was falling in love with this guy and she's moving in with him.

I know she didn't intend to hurt me so much. I feel like such shit though. I keep going over what I did wrong, torturing myself trying to figure out how I could fix things. But I doubt she even wants that any more.

I blocked her so I wouldn't have to see that she'd read my messages but wouldn't reply, and so I don't get the urge to send another flurry. I don't want to piss her off any more than I already have. 

I don't want to be like this. This is why I avoid getting close to people. She made me feel safe and I ruined it by thinking she understood.