I don't know how much longer I can do this every week is the same but every week my anxiety gets worse. i have had anxiety for years but it got better and now it's worse than its even been. Every morning as soon as I wake up mu anxiety is there I can't sleep in anymore because of the constant feeling of anxiety. Before as soon as I got out of bed it would go away but now it won't.

I hate it I can't even start a conversation because of it and when I do it goes nowhere. Everyone always says your not alone but what if you are because I am.i have zero friends I act like I don't care but I do. It hurts seeing everyone around me have someone to talk to when I have nobody. Now when I'm in class I sit with my headphones on talking to nobody because of my anxiety. My week is always the same I go to college some days when I come home I sit on my phone or spend it on my xbox that's all I can do because what else have I got? Now in class it's getting harder to sit with my headphones on without having to leave tk stand in the bathroom. Last week I only went in for a day and every second I could feel the anxiety getting worse. 

It feels like I'm not really living like the days are passing by when I don't want them too the weekend went by do fast and now I have to do it all again but it gets worst every time. I'm only 16 I should have friends to hang out with after college but i don't all I do is sit in my room in my own world until I have to sleep.

Tomorrow is Monday I don't know if I can do it.