I am with a wonderful wonderful man, he doesn’t know I have BPD. So far throughout our 5 month relationship ive been able to suppress the urge to constantly question him or seek reassurance. He’s kind, he’s understanding. I’ve painted myself to be cool as a cucumber but of course  the mask is starting to slip. He has a very active social life, is at a lot of work functions, has an amazing group of friends and I love that for him, I really do. I just hate it for me. Can anybody help me? Give me some words of advice? A little pep talk? Why can’t I just be full on my own?