I don't know why. I don't why I keep getting worse no matter what I do. Every day I just fall into a deeper hole than before, I am tired of living honestly but I wonder if my future will be any better. I feel worried that I'm just going to lose my friends and if that happens I'll just be alone. I'm constantly scared and my mind just keeps piling up with worser and worser thoughts. I just want to be happy for once but I get happy for what 5 minutes before feeling at my worst again? I'm just sad and I don't know why. I'm empty.