I’m tired of trying - and no, I’m not talking about life. I’m talking about people. Yes - Fucking people. Too many things are going through me right now. I can’t tell whether I’m depressed, frustrated, or just plain pissed off. What is it about me that makes me so unlikable? I mean I tried being nice - seems that gets me no where. I try and I fail - tried and failed, tried and failed. They say the only time it’s a true failure is when you stop trying - well I guess I better do that. Better than trying and failing another 4 billion times. Now you’re probably thinking “What the fuck pissed this crazy bitch off?” Again, people. But not any random bunch of people. No...People I’m close to - which is why I HATE getting close to people! Every time I get close to someone or I actually start to give a shit, something fucks it up. It’s like my life was planned to be a worm-headed sack of dog shit. I don’t understand. Literally, my boyfriend has an ulcer and what do I do? Spend all night and day taking care of him, just for him to turn around and not listen to me when I say, “Hey, no acidic foods or spicy foods.” Then, I message his sister, because yknow, I want to have a good relationship with her. But I get left on read after a simple “yeah” twice! Like I’m sick and tired of trying. I’ve done nothing but be nice and wait patiently. I’ve tried so hard just to make a good impression and I can’t even get his dads approval. His whole family is this way. Never giving anyone a chance. But they’re quick to let a girl (who was cheating on him) stay without any issues or problems - and this girl didn’t even bother talking to them. Or maybe it’s a big fucking lie. Maybe she was the highlight of everything, idfk. All I know is I’m tired of this shit. I’m tired of trying. Why should I even bother going over for Christmas when I’m just going to feel left out of everything. 