I'm 24 I feel like my life is going nowhere. I don't really have any goals in life and I feel lost. I feel so tired of life holding down a job has become a struggle. I wake up and not want to get out of bed. I don't really want to die it's just I wish I never existed. Everyone around me is progressing in life and I feel stuck, I'm not really accomplishing anything in my life because lack of motivation. All I do is go to work and smoke weed whenever I'm bored or lonely. I have no motivation for anything like cleaning, taking care of myself, or going to work. I can't even bring myself to want to go to work today so I just quit I feel like a lazy bum. Now I have no job and will be broke until I find another one. Does any of this sound like depression or am I just lazy and pathetic?  It's like I just need a break from life. I'm not sure if the weed is affecting me motivation wise, I've tried to stop smoking for 5 days and still didn't have any motivation to do anything. I used to be able to hold down a job even when I was smoking. So I can't really say it's affecting my motivation I don't know. I been working jobs for like a two or three months then quitting then end up being broke and then start looking for the next job in the last six months I've gone through about three jobs I just quit the current job I have now and now I have to find another one.I guess I just get tired and bored of the job. I've been losing weight I don't if it's stress depression or something physically wrong going on with my body. I used to be like way chubbier and it used to be hard for me to even lose weight. Now I'm dropping pounds for some reason So I'm kinda worried about that.I've been losing weight for a year and not really gaining much. every now and then I might go a day without eating or just eating once a day or I just eat a bunch of junk like Doritos and ice cream. I don't really pay attention to my eating habits so I can't say they really changed. I think they might of but not sure. I don't really exercise either. But I still feel like I should be putting some weight on. I've decided to go back on my meds to feel better it's been about a week and I still feel the same hopefully i'll feel better the next couple of weeks. I just want to do better with my life. I feel so lonely I want to talk to someone about how I feel but I don't want to come off as whiney or feeling sorry for myself. So now I'll just be stuck inside the house all day watching TV smoking or sleeping until I can get another job.