I hate myself and I have a hunch that people hate me more than I do! Cause this feeling has crushed me from the day I fell ill (I was 5 at the time) and my past trauma is also eating me up. Plus the threat to lose the people I've in my circle. Felt that girls of my friends circle are ghosting me, people seemed to care less about me. Even in the dark times, everyone seems to be losing all hopes on me. I have a plan: get a job, buy a car, commit *******!