I've been in a state mental hospital since 2019 following a crime I committed. Just a few hours ago I had a hearing to see if the Judge would allow me to leave the hospital. 

The answer was yes I was initially overcome with immense joy, however since that has worn off I'm actually depressed. There were quite a few people I befriended and have known since we first came into the hospital, not to mention all the staff that I have gotten used to seeing day in and day out for over 2 years. 

I'm not sure how to process all of this. Any advice?