The thought of having sex with someone else other than my ex boyfriend makes me so uncomfortable and sad. He was my first lover and who I lost my virginity to and I can’t imagine being intimate with anyone else but him. It makes me sick. I don’t trust anybody else to accept my body as much as he did. I don’t want anybody else to see me or touch me other than him.

I miss him so much. He was a liar and had a different lifestyle, goals, and social/political views than I did which I hated but the six months we were together was the only time I have been genuinely happy. Now it’s over and I have been depressed for months. 

Despite the fact that we weren’t meant for each other I wish we were together again. I miss all the fun times we had together. 

I’m afraid I’ll never find someone as accepting and loving as him.