I can't  handle  pressure  and small mistakes.  Like  school pressure.   When I missed the deadline,  I will feel anxious  and will panic  or worst,  suicidal.  Ik it's  shallow.  I have  social anxiety  and I can't  socialized  because  I think everyone  is staring at me and  hate me or like judging my appearance.  
I even think my relatives and  friends  hates me or annoyed  to me that's why I feel shy  talking to them. I feel like they are thinking I'm  a weird  person.  And no , they didn't  do anything  to me.  Ik it's  a power of overthinking but it feels real that I think  it's  real.  But at the same time I feel like they are annoyed at me. 

I can't  go to college  but i need  to.  I fear people because  i can't  talk to them.  I don't  wamt to stutter. 
I can't  handle small  mistakes  forexample when  my teacher told me my grades aren't  complete. I would  panic  and  be anxious  for days.  I feel shy and scared  all the time, like I chose not to talk because  i might use the wrong  title to elders (aunt,  uncle  ,mam, sir).