this shit has been going on forever. i’ve been hospitalized in acute and strategic multiple times and now my parents are calling for residential. rightfully so, i’m terrible. but i know it is not the environment or the correct treatment i need and i can’t bear with being parted from my boyfriend. everything is more of a family issue and i’m getting the butt end of it. i’ve been contemplating seriously for weeks, months, my whole life. this is really it. i cant survive it there. those places are so horrible for me. i’d do anything else. i’d rather die in the woods from exposure. i’m considering hiding running away most likely KILLING MYSELF. please help.