She was never formally diagnosed with BPD, at least not to my knowledge, but after extensive research and consultation with a counselor, I am 99% sure this is what she suffered from. 

She was an amazing person and I loved her with every fiber of my being. I ended the relationship because I couldn't handle her problems. I never stopped loving her but she started dating a new guy. I learned this weekend that she killed herself. I am feeling the worst pain I have ever felt. I am devastated and so is everyone she ever came in contact with.

I'm making this post to remind you all, how important you are to somebody. Even people that you may have been close with but are not anymore, you are so unbelievably important. You don't deserve what you deal with on a daily basis, but you deserve happiness and you are strong enough to make it through this life and die as you should. Old, having lived a good long life, surrounded by your friends and family. Not alone in your room. 

I love you all, please endure.