Been single for almost a year now. I was actually planning on proposing, but that’s just not in the cards I guess. Anyways, the famous quote is always like “It’s better to have loved and lost, than to have not loved at all” and I’m thinking that’s some bullshit. I spend every night alone, contemplating suicide with no one to fucking talk to. When she was around, even if I was having a shitty day, at least she was around. Each night I used to go to bed warm, at least a little fucking happy, but now I just stare at the walls until I fall asleep against my will. How the fuck is this the better of the two options? At this point I’d rather have never fuckin loved