My boyfriend and I have been together almost a year and a half now. Things are great and he’s probably one of the better boyfriends I’ve had in terms of being patient with me, making me feel good, and being loyal. 

However, things have been getting serious lately and that scares me. I used to never feel insecure about him and he’s never done anything that’s made me really jealous and he’s really good at diffusing my moods. 

Since things have been getting serious and it scares me, I’ve noticed I’ve started trying to pick fights. Usually about really small things or insecurities that just exist in my head. I know it’s self sabotaging the relationship, but I feel like I can’t help it. I’m just afraid things will end and I guess I just want less hurt. 

I love my boyfriend and I want to trust him. I just want a good relationship without bpd ruining it