i had my mom schedule me an evaluation a couple months ago due to the mental health symptoms i’ve been experiencing on and off for the past few years. initially i was convinced i was mentally ill (still kind of do) i was most definitely very unhappy but now that it’s so close im second guessing myself on whether or not i really need it. i am still struggling, often questioning whether or not it’s worth it to live but i don’t think it’s bad enough to have a three hour evaluation on it. i don’t know, im still going, im scared that i won’t know how to explain anything or that nothing will change after. this feels very irrational now that im typing all of this out but im just last minute panicking and need to rant