Its always been hard for me to understand the world. With ADHD and probably anxiety, still have to get checked out for it, its never been an easy place to figure out. I started doing better, I became more self aware and less self conscious, I started understanding people better and conversations became a fun thing to do. But all of the sudden, I just lost it. Im confused all the time, I feel spaced out from the world and myself, people are acting weird, talking to me is like talking to a child because my brain feels like it’s moving so slow and it takes me so long to process things and articulate sentences. I’m scared something else is different with me, the normal problems that I have figured out are still here, but there’s a new problem. Its freaking me out and ive been trying to calm myself down and just think about if ive been doing anything differently. But everytime i feel like its getting better, its even worse the next day when i wake up. I just want to feel real, atleast for a second.