I always told myself that i would do my best in school to get a lot of scholarships so I could pay for college. Now i sit graduated with only 1 scholarship. I can helo but worry on how Ill pay for college and it makes me think that maybe if I didnt fuck up my life, I would be better off. And on that line, I can't helo but feel that everyone arounds looks at me like I'm this big fuck up and that Ill just continue to disappoint them. I don't know what to do anymore and I'm scared that I'll always be this fuck up.