So I started back in antidepressants and they have helped my mood a lot. I'm no where near as volatile as before and am just generally happier. I got a new job as well and will be starting soon as long as everything goes through on time.

But at the same time my best friend won't talk to me anymore. I don't know what's going on but they just are shutting me out and don't seem to want anything to do with me. 

It's been hard cause their the only person in my life rights now that I have left to talk too about stuff. The last few months have been a constant downward spiral and I've lost all of my friends and family as a result, except for my best friend. And now I don't even have them. 

It feels like once one thing starts getting better I end up losing something else. It feels like it's a zero sum game. Anything good always gets leveled out by something bad.