i just confessing my feeling to my crush but she rejects me

Im currently college student and im depressed, everyday i go there is just kind of exhausting idk what should i do, everyone   vibe with each other and i just paralyzed with my own thought (suicidal,hopeless and other bad thought)

I decided to find  a girlfriend that could give me sense of meaning why i should go college, but it end up she rejects me ,, i feel like it's amplify 10x my depression

I dont know what should i do now ,,continue,take a break or dropout