I know it sounds corny but. My (21f) life has been a shit show for as long as I can remember. I won’t go into too much detail about that here, besides that I have other mental illnesses that make my depression worse. 

I can’t feed myself properly anymore. I can’t get out of bed. If it weren’t for my OCD I probably wouldn’t be taking care of myself in other terms either. I get up for work, I go to work, I come home, shower, lay in bed. Maybe I’ll eat once all day. 

I’m underweight. It’s not good. It hurts. It messes up my hormones. My hair is thinning. My eyes look sunken. My bones stick out. I faint more often. 

I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I want to smash it to pieces every time. I think about just being done every day. I’ve been this sick for years. Nobody ever helped me, even as a kid. I can’t believe I’ve made it this long. 

I want to get better but nothing has worked. I want therapy or medication to work for me. 

There’s more to it than this but it’s all I’ve got right now so I’ll just end with that I don’t know what to do or where to turn anymore