So as you can see in the title, I'm addicted to a game; but it's not a normal addiction, and I'm here to talk to you about what I've been through and how this game affects my life...

There is a game called "Cyberpunk 2077", we've all been waiting for this game for about 7-8 years, our expectations were always very high, we were extremely impatient for this game, and finally the game came out; I remember the day the game released, the game was out late for my country, and I couldn't sit still while waiting for the game; I mean I was so impatient, I even cried like for hours just because the game is released; at first, everything was very normal, I liked the game very much, but how can I say, there were days when I didn't play the game, it didn't have much effect at first; but as the game progressed everything changed, now this game affects my emotions, it caused me to have emotional or nervous breakdowns, I couldn't stop playing the game, I was playing at least ten hours a day, at least ten hours; I cry because of the in-game events, I write positive reviews about this game everywhere and share positive things about this game; I can't hold myself, and I'm glad, on the contrary; How can I say, it makes me happy to be attached to this game, but it also affects me a lot, sometimes I accept this "fact" (as it is now) but sometimes my eyes do not see anything; but it is not over yet. About a week ago this situation started to take another dimension, now I started to see the game characters IRL, I hear them talking to me, I see them; I didn't care much at first because I mean, it was like a normal dream but with my eyes open, there was nothing to worry about, but until then, when I looked in the mirror one day, I saw myself as "Johnny Silverhand" (game character), I was about to go crazy, and it started to get frequent now. I often saw them, and when I tried to touch them I felt it, the characters in the game were talking to me, I was talking to them, my name, etc. they knew everything, I was crying for them and what else, and as if that wasn't enough, the songs of the game were enough to make me cry and change my feelings, and after a while, I began to believe that they were real, even now, while one part of me was saying that all of these are nothing but a dream, and the other part of me says they all real; and there is more, talking to my girlfriend about two days ago, morning hours, she started saying things like "Are you okay, how's your leg?" etc., I didn't understand at first, after then when my girlfriend realized that I didn't understand, she said "Read the messages above...", I said "OK." and started reading the messages, and when I read it all I was about to go crazy, it was scary. I don't know how to explain but, I did not write any of those messages.

These were written in the messages:
" I cut my leg."
" I used bandages all over me."

And also, as if that weren't enough, I saw that I was calling my girlfriend "Rogue", another game character; and I saw myself as "Johnny Silverhand", I was spoke like him, as if it was Johnny who spoke, it seemed to have taken over my mind. And the fun fact is, I don't remember any of this, and I didn't cut my legs neither; and I wouldn't have learned if my girlfriend hadn't told me...

At this point, I need to summarize the story for you to understand the subject.

The game begins with the selection of one of three lifepaths for the player character V; Nomad, Streetkid, or Corpo. All three lifepaths involve V starting a new life in Night City with local thug Jackie Welles and having various adventures with a netrunner, T-Bug.

In 2077, local fixer Dexter DeShawn hires V and Welles to steal a biochip known as "the Relic" from Arasaka Corporation. They acquire the Relic, but the plan goes awry when they witness the murder of the megacorp's leader Saburo Arasaka at the hands of his treacherous son Yorinobu. Yorinobu covers up the murder as poisoning and triggers a security sweep in which T-Bug is killed by Arasaka's netrunners. V and Welles escape, but Welles is fatally wounded in the process, and the Relic's protective case is damaged, forcing V to insert the biochip into the cyberware in their head.

DeShawn, furious at the unwanted police attention, shoot V in the head and leaves V for dead in a landfill. Upon awakening, V is haunted by the digital ghost of iconic rock star Johnny Silverhand, believed to have died in 2023 during an attempted thermonuclear attack on Arasaka Tower. V learns from their ripper doc Viktor Vector that DeShawn's bullet triggered resurrection nanotech on the biochip. In a few weeks, Silverhand's memories will irreversibly overwrite V's memories. The biochip cannot be removed, so V must seek out a way to remove Silverhand and survive.

Shortly, "Johnny Silverhand" comes to life again in V's head, sometimes V sees himself as Johnny, sometimes Johnny affects V's decisions, and more...

This is just an example of what I've been through, I see myself as game characters, I talk to them, I feel them, and sometimes they take over my mind.

I don't really know what to say, I guess I don't need to explain more; I hope I haven't missed anywhere; if something new comes to my mind, or something important happens, I'll update this post.

Thank you...

EDIT: I didn't want to say this at first, but I guess I should share it with you; about three days ago, after seeing myself as "Johnny Silverhand", I tried to strangle myself. And the game starts like this too, when V first encounters Johnny, Johnny tries to kill him...