Just kidding 😅 I’m in a good mood right now and just pondering how I’ve done sooooo much work on myself and am proud but I will never not succumb or have the thoughts come up. Sitting here contemplating messaging my ex (still my fp) that I broke up with 2 years ago because he is my fp. The past several days have been very trying because I’m currently unmedicated and pmsing but I have done great at knowing that I’m about to have an episode/outburst/unnecessary comment on/to someone. Just wondering if there will ever be a day medicated or not that won’t be tiring from controlling myself because of this shit 🙃