I hate how I can’t function the way I’d prefer when meeting new people. I went to have brunch with my boyfriends brother and his girlfriend. Two very important people in his life I want to impress and become close with. But my anxiety gets so bad and I just sit in silence and I can’t bring up a conversation. I feel like to someone this would be seen as rude but in no means do I want to come off as that. Again I met one of his best friends at a small little party and at one point I had to go outside and talk on the phone with my friend to get away. I’m so scared I’ve ruined how I’m perceived by important people because they’re important  to my boyfriend. And he means the world to me.