There are times where I feel like there is such a thin line between the wrong and the right choice, and I feel like I am watching an empty path for the right choice, and just a flood for the wrong one.

I feel like my eyes are basically screaming, it was as if I had a huge sign with "Please make the right choice" written on it, and yet, people saw this and keep making the wrong choice. People choose to ignore me in real life. People make promises and don't keep it. People online victim-blame me and accuse me. I don't know. I feel like I have thousand swords in my back, and yet people still choose to stick one more in. I don't know how to be more clear. I don't know what to do to convince people to make the right choice. I just feel like people are just evil or cannot be good honestly.

I am disgusted by people honestly. There are millions of times where I expected just a little bit of decency, and they just threw it away. I don't know, it's like expecting people to breathe, and they just hold their breath and die of asphyxia. It is as if, whatever I expect from people, they will always do the bad things. It feels like a joke honestly. Because people are able to be nice to other people, but they will never be nice to me. 

People in real life, even on this subreddit, they have attacked me, and I am honestly hurt. I feel like a martyr. I feel like the black sheep. 

I don't know what I am doing wrong. People told me to give more trust to people. But people keep spitting on the trust that I give to them. I feel like my heart was broken a thousand times, it feels like in a constant tornado, smashing it to the ground, lifting it then shattering it in pieces again.

I don't know. Why humans are so evil to me. I just don't know. People say "you are just delusional". But that's how people make me feel. I need proofs, and not facts. 

Humans are just evil.