So I discovered that I was bipolar after I missed my suicide attempt also don’t ask me to call for help I’m in Africa after this attempt things became strange Not abt the fact that I was on many meds but the fact that I realized that i don’t really control my emotions I punched my cousin for no real reason but i really love him it’s my bro sometimes I really feel like the world would be fine without me but also I have those others I mean my family they’re gonna be so sad if I just go like that , and also I wish to be strong enough me and all of you to stay alive hoping all is gonna be fine soon. I’m a little spiritualist so I on all I was looking on I saw that reincarnation come the most all heard some about Nde never had one though but i think if I go now my problems will follow me in my next life anyway I’m calm now but my best médecine is alcohol.