I love this little baby with all my heart. She’s very sweet and absolutely adorable. However, I have a really strong fear of change that stems from my obsession with specific eras and memories. So basically, getting a new pet is the end of a really good era. And as much as I love this pet, this past era that was very recently the present, is now the past, and I’m going to miss it. That’s how my brain functions. And the feeling of missing something you can’t have, is really painful, so that’s where the fear of change comes in. I genuinely don’t know how to deal with this. A part of me is really happy to finally have a cat as I’ve always wanted one, and another part of me wishes things were the way it was. I really don’t know what to do or how to cope, so I’m kinda lost.