I (20M) haven’t don’t shit since high school. Depression started at 15 and snowballed into this monstrosity that I am now. Never held a girls hand. Never kissed. No sex. Friends drifted away. I have (diagnosed) severe general anxiety, depression, and OCD. My ocd won’t let me escape. I’m trapped. Every day is the same thing. Same thoughts round and round and round. I’m pathetic. I should be so much more. I never do anything and I’m scared of everything. I would end it but I don’t know where to find heroin or an unregistered gun. My hands are riddled with warts that I’ve tried endlessly to eradicate to no avail. I’m an utter waste. I’m 6’5 and handsome and I’m wasting my youth because my brain won’t fucking work and my skin in disgusting. Someone help me.