I (18M) have struggled with anxiety and panic attacks basically all my life. One of the main side effects of my anxiety is nausea, and I have a horrible fear of vomiting. I tend to ramble so please bear with me!

I'm currently on 125mg of Zoloft and have relied a whole lot on Zofran tablets to ward off any nausea, since thinking I'm going to vomit will send me into a spiraling panic attack.

These mostly happen at night, I'll just randomly feel ill and start worrying. A lot of the time I'm able to calm myself down and don't have to do anything else (mostly with distractions) but sometimes I just can't.

I've developed a fear of eating because I'm afraid I'll get food poisoning. Most of the time I'll eat a bagel in the morning (I have an ADHD medication that I have to eat before taking) and just drink water all day, maybe eating a small salad.

I've been diagnosed with IBS-C but I've had it under control (aka, I'm not constipated) since fall or so. It really comes in waves, before summer 2020 I hadn't had any symptoms (or nausea related panic attacks) since mid 2017, and before that, probably 2014.

If I wake up in the middle of the night, I'm terrified that I woke up because I'm sick. I've been prescribed Trazodone to help with sleep, but I really don't like to use it. I'm at risk of substance addiction, so I try my best to avoid anything that might cause it. 

I also rarely take Promethazine Hydrochloride, which works as a double whammy: makes my stomach relax and makes me fall asleep. 

I also have this fear of repeating scenarios that led to me getting sick in the past. When I was a kid I didn't like to wear jeans or tennis shoes because I got sick in them once, for example.

Sometimes (maybe twice a month?) I smoke weed (legal here) to be able to sleep early if my schedule got messed up. That always knocks me right out and I rarely dream or wake up. However, I'm afraid of the possible addiction &amp; side effects, and don't want to end up using it daily.

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Is there any sort of help for me? Medications, pressure points, possible explanations for whatever the hell went wrong with my body?

I'm also showing this whole post to my doctor &amp; therapist, since writing things down helps a ton. 

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TLDR; I'm sick (haha) and tired of the endless loop of nausea causing anxiety causing nausea. I currently rely on a couple medications to help me manage, but it's not able to help as much as I need. I just want to function.