As the title says. 

I don’t know how to stop hating myself for having BPD. for every time I have symptoms. For every time I just want to be normal and I can’t. The splitting. The inability to function without an FP, the times when I feel like I’m on an emotional rollercoaster with no brakes. I hate it. I hate that I can’t function. I know I can try to get better but knowing it’ll always be there? That it will never just go away? It’s almost unbearable at times