first time taking the test as a junior and i got a 1430 and i feel like a failure even though it should be a good score. my parents have conditioned me to think that i’m a failure for getting that, they keep telling me they expected higher, and all my friends who scored my goal score are saying i didn’t do bad. why are they lying to me? i know it’s really not bad but i just cant believe that it’s good because i don’t even know what to believe if i’m not told what to think or do?? i do everything for my parents and i just cant live for myself because i don’t know how!!!!!! i know people are going to say this is such a bratty perfectionist perspective but i don’t know how else to live. i’ve lived my whole life never being good enough for my family or myself all my friends are pitying me now. my mom keeps saying i didn’t take prep seriously even though i relapsed and i cried over everytime i didnt do « well » on PRACTICE tests. when will it be enough????????? and why aren’t i improving????? why does it feel like a sin to take the test more than one time??? why do i feel like it’s the only way to live??? help please!!!!! why do i feel so trapped!?