 I guess I’m just jealous of how well her life is going and how easily she can make friends. I’m not doing so hot right now and I’m sort of detaching myself from her because of it.

It all started on her birthday. She and her husband have this sort of rule where they won’t tell me about any plans they have with their other friends as to not make me jealous. And just to clarify, I NEVER *not once* asked them to do that. Never ever. I mean, why even be my friend if you feel the need to do that? That’s really weird and exhausting. I get that they’re trying not to trigger me, but them telling me that they do ALL that...well, it triggers me! Lol.

Anyways, I told them to stop doing that because it’s weird. So they stopped...or so I thought.
It wasn’t until her birthday when I was trying to make plans with her when I noticed that she did it again. She told me that she wanted to go to the lake for her birthday and I really wanted to make that happen for her. She was being very vague about a certain day for some reason and I was like...okay we’ll play it by ear then. It turns out she went to the lake with her other friends that day and didn’t tell me. It just felt weird to me that she wouldn’t tell me that she already made plans to go, you know? 

Our friendship has been weird lately and I notice that I’m getting jealous and haven’t really had any healthy thoughts about the relationship lately anyways. 

I think detaching myself is the best course of action at this point. I’ve already told her how much I struggle with friendships because of this disorder and I feel like she’s getting tired of me. Say what you want about 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘣𝘪𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴, but I don’t think we should settle for friends who make us feel like we’re annoying...or feel like they have to hide things from us!!!