I am only now, after ages of knowing I have this DX, understanding how some of the diagnostic criteria FEELS. Like, sure, everyone knows fear of abandonment is a big one, but I don’t relate bc I’ve never worried my dad would disappear - or whatever - but I do constantly ask my husband if he still likes me. I’m afraid my therapist will fire me if I do X behavior. Never connected those dots. I never, for the life of me, understood what the chronic emptiness meant (experiential wise ) until the replies to my post yesterday. 

I have a great rapport with my therapist, but we never label things in relation to a diagnosis (I have several comorbidities) and man, this sort of personal context makes me feel less insane or “just me”-ish. 