I am 19 and a high school drop out.From the age of 6 my dad has tiger parented me with tennis which included spending 4-8+ hours on the tennis courts as well as doing insane amounts of fitness.He wanted me to become a tennis legend because I had “spark “.He was also very abusive.He would beat me if I cried or wouldn’t listen.If I lost he would also punish me severely.One time I lost at nationals because I stopped trying as he was cheering against me on purpose and he ,with the help of my mother ,locked me in the house beat me ,took a construction pole and told me to sprint in the halls for hours and if I stopped or slowed down he’d beat me with it.It lasted 8 hours..my mom wouldn’t step up for me.She stopped a while ago when he tried to beat me w a broom and beat her instead as she was shielding me.I was a child prodigy at the sport ,won nationals 2 times and placed many many times.My dad was verbally and physically abusive to an extreme point where he’d tell me I was better of dead or that he’d kill me if I said something back .He wouldn’t shut up about bringing my past mistakes back up and he’d constantly compare me to others.Every problem in the house was my fault even if it really wasn’t .He also made us do child labour when he was doing house renovations himself part of which was carrying 6500 bricks by hand all night..13 and 8 year old children..He was my nightmare.I started getting withdrawn socially from a young age  due to abuse,but tried to become”normal” in grade 9,eventually, as I grew up more and more I started giving up on my sport at around age 16 as my abusive father gave up on me as I was a “burn out”.Worst mistake of my life.Thats when I started rebelling depression hit,body dysmorphia (I had bulimia from age 14-16)I eventually started getting into drugs and smoked pot every fucking day at least 5 times.And i have never done any of those things before.All I wanted was to feel like I am valid and “normal”.I now live with my bf who I love so much no one really showed me closeness in life like this.He says I have “daddy issues “ which I find ridiculous as he thinks my nightmare and stolen childhood years are a joke for attention.No matter how much I explain it no one gets it.I dropped out of school I don’t have dreams anymore ,I am a textbook failure.