I know this is very prominent with eating disorders, but why does absolutely everything mental health related feel so competitive? Like, for example I'm currently harming, its a coping mechanism for me and im not in a "recovery" process simply because for now I have no other outlet or way of helping myself, can't even get therapy because a psychiatrist appointment is in 5 months for me, youd think this is already so bad, but then I look at other people's self harm scars and you know what? I feel both indirectly invalidated and I also feel like need to hurt myself more in order to be more "accepting" of my issue. Same goes for some other things like the fact I'm not currently diagnosed with anything, or have any medication I can take, and people that have common sense know that it doesn't mean that I dont have issues or depression or anything of that sort but others will use it as a way of making you feel like a manipulative, self diagnosing piece of shit, and then you just feel like you need to "do more" in order to be accepted? I once saw a girl on social media who I know was taken to a hospital because of her suicide attempt, and to me that was a "look, people are over here almost committing, getting admitted to hospitals, getting therapy and you? You're rotting in your room because you're lazy and have no life, you are not depressed". Why is this a thing?? Its so annoying and wrong..