my boyfriend has been living with me for a few years now on and off but he became homeless last year so my family and i took him in. before that i lived at my grandparents across the country. i was always used to being alone having my own time and space and i enjoyed it. currently i am struggling with the fact that i have to share my space, clean up after him, just always be by his side 24/7. he doesn’t even do anything to make me upset it’s just the fact that i can’t be alone. i’m getting a job soon but that’s completely different since i’m really not alone. i just want to be able to sit in my room by myself, i feel guilty for thinking this way because i love him. he is very attached to me, i’m his favourite person so he doesn’t really understand when i tell him “ hey i just want be be alone right now” and then he just says he won’t talk to me. i just want to scream an react irrationally but i know it’s wrong. i wish there was a way around how i feel and me being able to have my own space. my explosive behaviour happens every single day and i later on have to apologize for how i reacted, it’s just so unbelievably shitty because i don’t want to treat someone like this especially my boyfriend.