I’ve been on anti-depressants for the past 8 years and have pretty much been through every class of drugs. Nothing seems to work and I really struggle with chronic feelings of emptiness and just generally a low mood. Is it normal that I am constantly in a state where I wish I was dead or wouldn’t wake up? I’ve never attempted to kill myself or come up with a plan that I actively intend on carrying out. But I really do wish I wasn’t alive and kind of find it cathartic thinking of ways to end it. It’s been like this for years now -am I incredibly abnormal?