I feel like I’ve been living like this for years now so I forgot that most people don’t live every day with a massive fog in their brain and feeling like they’re looking through a warped glass window at everything. I am so disconnected from every single thing I do, every single person I talk to and literally nothing feels real and it’s starting to really scare me. I just feel so out of touch. Like I’m not experiencing anything fully except for anxiety and pain. like if I’m just watching a show on my computer I just feel like “I’m doing this, but like not actually.” like I cant fully experience it even though its so simple. I don’t know if that makes sense or not. does anyone else feel like this? i’m so tired of feeling so disconnected and far away from everything except for the painful things. 

I just started an outpatient DBT program five days a week last week, and I hope that it helps with this feeling. But I also have so much more going on. OCD, panic disorder, severe anxiety that is just so much for me to handle, CPTSD and a chronic illness. I’m just so overwhelmed with all of this