Hi guys, so I exhibit symptoms of bpd and have ocd (still in the bpd diagnosis steps w/ DBT therapy) basically this guy from Bumble who I’ve known for about 7 months has become my favorite person. We are very close and he is aware of my mental issues. The thing is. I have a fear of SA-ing him because of my OCD. like for example. I feel like I’m pushing his boundaries all the time and he is drunk a lot and so I always feel like I’m flirting with him and it makes me want to push him away when he’s drunk but I just crave all the attention I can get from him. I’ve never done anything physical when he was under the influence but I just fear my actions are flirty because I love how he reacts to what I’m saying or like I get butterflies etc. I also fear a little that he might be drunk and I don’t know. I can’t tell if this is like overreacting with this but idk I just feel like I’m flirting with him and I can never control this feeling when I’m talking to him and i don’t know what to do. Like I just feel so creepy interacting with him when he’s drunk but I just love being around him. I feel so flirty with him and I hate it.