I love my parents, we have a complex relationship but them + my dog is my whole world. My friends have all moved away for university. My anxiety trigger has always been my parents seeing me as a failure. Which I am and I don’t blame them for it, im 20 and have no idea what im realistically doing with my life. I just don’t want my parents to hate me. At this point in time, they’re not even saying mean things to me but just telling me about other kids accomplishments (not in a malicious way, just as conversation) and it triggers a panic attack for me. I want to be around my parents because im also severely depressed and happy moments with my family are the best but I don’t know how to anymore. My heart feels like it’s going to fall out. I just want them to hug me and tell me they love me unconditionally. It would calm me down and maybe make me stop crying for some time. Any parents here? Do you love your kids unconditionally because I just don’t think it exists for a person like me.