I had an interview for a job that be promotion at my current work. I was interviewed by a team of people I know and have worked closely with for 7 years. I've made great strides with my BPD and have been "in remission" for a long time. But this interview has thrown me for a loop. I've been obsessing over every response I gave, thinking and rethinking about how they sucked and it's obvious I blew the interview. Worrying that my interviewers knew I was blowing smoke up their ass and that they all know I'm a big, fat fraud. How they only interviewed me as a courtesy and they'll probably hire another candidate, and then I'll have to deal with the shame of everyone at my work knowing I wasn't good enough for this position. That I should just quit tomorrow because once they start digging into my real work ethic they'll know I spend too much time on Reddit and Facebook at work and fire me anyway.

I haven't felt like this in years and it is NOT a pleasant feeling.