She didn't text me at all. Not once. Looked at what I was posting and didn't even bother. Only slid up on one of my stories because I said I missed her. She hates me. She hates me so much. And it's because I was so mean to her. I have how my mood is dictated by her. How if she doesn't talk to me I want to rip my hair out and just end it all. I just miss her so much. But she doesn't want anything to do with me. I'm so easily replaceable it's almost laughable. She doesn't need or want me anymore and it's my fault. 

And if I express my feelings it's just guilt tripping. I don't know what's real and what isn't anymore. I don't know if what time feeling is okay or is real or valid. I don't know if I'm real.