BE WARNED READING THIS.

I said goodbye to my unborn baby today. Its been a hard rollercoaster. 
I wish i showed my ex that we noth needed each other at this time but i shut him out completely. 
Im totally alone and i know he is too and i hope hes doing okay.

Not to also mention having the worse PTSD nightmares about m*lestati*n etc and i wake up in syper cold sweets and crying. 
Im really not coping with my ptsd side of things

I wish i could hold him again. But its for the best. Im over hurting people