I got my first cat almost a year ago from a local shelter. And she’s healthy, happy, and my mom loves her but I love her more. When I’m not home she spends time with meow ma. But I think I might take her back. 

I don’t think, I deserve her. I don’t think I’m suppose to have a pet in this life. I feel like I don’t play with her enough, clean her litter box enough. She doesn’t purr for me anymore or want to come in and lay on me. I have gotten mad at her when she scratches me, or goes potty downstairs or attacks me cause I shut my door sometimes cause I don’t want to be alone in my room some nights. 

It feels like when she does want me, it’s cause I coax her with treats. recently I’ve also realized if she was to get sick I couldn’t afford her medical bill. She is a peach, and I love her so much. 

It was a shot to the heart when we had to put my dog down almost two years ago. But I’m so numb I just can’t do it again. What should I do? I don’t want her to go, but I feel like she deserves more