I recently turned 28. College graduate, girlfriend, recently moved to our own house. I have been stricken with a deep dark depressive cloud over my head since early 2020, but have struggled with depression since middle school. My personality has changed drastically the past two years. I am more negative about the world and my lot in life. I have bounced around dead end job to dead end job. Even when I have financial successes and accomplish big goals like moving out I still feel nothing. I am trying to find fulfilment in anything but nothing comes. I've spent my whole life following other people's advice and now I've found out it's not what's for me but it's too late. People ask what I'm passionate about, do what you love, the problem is  even I don't know what I love. The prospect of living like this for another 40 years is daunting and overwhelming.