Overall we get along really well, he’s always been understanding/caring, he respects all of my boundaries, and he just always wants the best for me always. I want the same for him. We’ve known each other for roughly 3 years now, including this year we went no contact, and still only want to be with each other. 

Within the 2 years we were together I broke up with him twice bc I’d find myself relying on only him and refused to let that lead to me resenting him. This past year of only relying on myself to just feel better has been really eye opening for me. I’ve grown an emotional independence I’ve never had before. Sure it’s still far from perfect but still something to be proud of idk maybe i’m being too enthusiastic. 

To shorten this up he recently got in touch with me and after a few months of talking we wants to run it back and make it work this time. He knows I’m still on the fence and isn’t pressuring me or anything I’m just torn up I don’t want to hurt him again. I’m trying not to make any impulsive decisions. I’m trying to make the right decision for myself. I don’t want anyone to make the decision for me at this point I just wanna freeze time so i don’t have to. idk yes obviously i want to be with him again but the what if’s tear me apart