I rarely do things because I want to and I enjoy it. Even if I signed up for a class I’m interested in myself, I end up dread going there right before. I imagine all the bad things that can possibly happen and I lose all my energy. The only thing that drives me to do it is the fear of other people’s judgement and self criticism. Even after I did the thing, it only feels like an obligation fulfilled. I don’t feel much joy from it. I might be high functioning but I feel miserable.

Would like to know if anyone feels the same way and how to tackle that. Thank you!