how do i go about seeking help? i’ve tried in the past but nothing ever comes of it and i usually feel worse after the fact. i loathe who i am and i hate feeling how i do all the time but help just seems so inaccessible. i find myself super envious of those who have therapists and other support they can turn to when they need it when i have nothing and no one. it feels like the scope of my problems are just too much for most places (eg counselling) to handle and i just don’t know what to do anymore. i’m so tired