Below is just me venting, but does anyone else feel much better when they are single or have just gotten out of a relationship? Less anxious, and depressed? 

Me and my bf of 2.5 years broke up 2 weeks ago.

I was really struggling with my own self in the last couple months, I would come home and scream and cry and hit myself after work, and he thought it was about our relationship, when it was actually because I feel like I fucked everything up at work and needed to punish myself. I would try to tell him but he didnt understand. 

I was also in the hospital twice because things were so bad and I just wanted to die. 

I just wanted him to hold me and tell me everything was okay but he actually left me for good, he hasn’t said one word to me in 2 weeks. We have an apartment together and I have been paying for everything myself because he has completely ghosted me. I am sure we are done now, after dealing with me for so long, I would be done with me too. 

I started therapy a week before the break up, and he was so happy that I was getting help. I didnt think he would just completely ghost me like this for 2 weeks, because he knows that I have abandonment trauma.:( 

I felt myself completely split and I fucking hate him for ghosting me. I deleted all our pics online, blocked him, and I packed all of his stuff up in our apartment, removed any trace of him. 

I started hanging out with some friends to distract myself from everything , and I ended up going on a 1.5 week bender. And I never drink. 

But I’ve honestly had the best 2 weeks of my life since he left. I have made so many friends and I am having so much fun. I rarely feel anxious or depressed (I was crying and screaming daily before). I feel so confident, and happy. 

I am seeing other people now and downloaded tinder (I can feel myself starting to attach to one of them😒) and I have been somewhat distracting myself with that. I made some girl friends and have been hanging out with them daily, and have been going outside a lot. (I literally had no friends and would lay in bed all day before the break up). 

I am also seeing a therapist that is a trauma survivor himself, and he really understood me and made me feel sane. He is helping a lot.
I am also taking a month off work and I found a room to rent, because I cannot afford to live in this apartment by myself. Things are looking up. I feel so much better.