Like, I'm just so fucking lonely. I keep growing to love people and then need to cut them out. Honestly, I only feel sane when my heart is frozen and I just love nothing. What makes this harder is that, as the ugly, awkward, unstable guy, I've never been in a real relationship, I've never been loved, no woman has ever wanted me, making it hard to relate to the people on this sub, many of which post about their SO's. What am I to do? I hate myself and my life and this world so fucking much. This world is just dark and cruel and cold, most people's emotions are so shallow compared to mine they might as well be non-existent, and that destroys me, for I am alone in my tower.