It’s been going on for a month, I just happened to move out for the first time and now all I can think about in my spare time is killing myself. I have been diagnosed with anxiety and MDD and it’s been worse. But I can’t get that picture out of my head. It feels like I’m being pressed downwards with a weight I just can’t seem to get off me. I don’t think I’ll kill myself. But I’m not sure if I can keep myself as safe as I would like.