I had a horrible day. I rarely post of Reddit and this is my first post here, but I’m just feeling so awful and helpless and hopeless and tmw is valentine’s day and I ruined everything. We were fine in the end but I feel horrible about myself and I been having suicidal ideation. I’m not even sure what I’m looking for, maybe just not feeling so alone in this and that it would never get better and that its better for people in my life if I just take my maddness and disappear, leave them alone