We’re going through some big changes at work and shit and my coworkers and I don’t really care for it. Well I’m never one to really start drama, unless it’s something serious, but I should just keep my mouth shut and will probably do so from now on so nobody can get mad at me anymore. 

So there’s a new procedure that we have to do before we can go and that is double checking the cleaning logs in our departments with our managers. One of my coworkers, who is a department lead, was upset (and so was I) because we both thought it meant overriding the lead and having the managers check to see if our area is cleaned and that everything is filled out. As it turns out it’s not the case, the managers are just seeing if the logs are filled out for something beyond us. 

Well I was a little confused so I thought I’d ask about it and mention my coworker because she’s a little confused about it too. I didn’t have any bad intentions, I was just saying “hey we’re both confused, I’ll mention my coworker as an example because what is this?” And plus, this was one of our coworkers that got promoted to manager so we could trust her and it wasn’t anything bad. But my coworker got mad at me before I could fully explain the situation. 

Now I feel like shit because yeah I probably shouldn’t have mentioned her to my manager. I tend to do that a lot, where I mention other people as well as me. Sometimes it’s ok because there’s no real bad intention behind it. I get why I shouldn’t in most cases but again, I was just curious if it affects department leads or something. 

I obviously apologized but my coworker just shut me out for the rest of the night. I’m a very sensitive person so of course ever since then I’ve been crying because I can’t hold back my tears. Luckily I was able to work with my head down but unfortunately I had to work with another person. Nobody seemed to notice, and I still talked every now and then, but when something like a conflict happens, I immediately shut down and get so emotional. 

I’m sorry that I mentioned my coworker’s issue like it was mine, or that I mentioned her in general. I’m just gonna try and not say shit. Just stay to myself and be quiet. I always ruin everything with my big mouth.