I dream about having a bestfriend and boyfriend. But I just don’t like to hang out with people. Even people where I’m like “I should like this person, why don’t I want to be with them more?” I don’t really feel like fighting for my friendships but I wish I did want to. I mostly hang out with people because I know I should and people my age are doing it, so like after hanging out with someone I feel good about myself not because I had a good time but because I did something normal that people my age do. It’s super weird yes I know.