Ive always been the person to take care of others. Growing up, as a teenager, and a young adult. I always take care of others not because I feel obligated to, it’s just natural and it use to make me feel like I have some worth.

Ive always attracted the people who need a little extra TLC. And usually leave me hurt (no surprise)

Fast forward to today, I am now in my 30s, been with my husband almost 9 years, married almost 4.

My love language for others is acts of kindness and I’m sure I created the monster I deal with.

 Without going too much into detail, I’ve become his mother/care giver the last few years. He’s become an alcoholic, although recently cut back once I gave him an ultimatum and now have his pay checks going to my account. (He blue money and drunk and drive constantly) He’s also picked up smoking/vaping again to suffice. May sound controlling but there’s soo much more into the situation.

I have two children 14 and 7, my youngest being his, he’s helped raised my oldest.

Anyway I just have so much going on, my oldest has depression and spent a short stay at a psychiatric hospital (bio dad/abusive ex took a 10 yr hiatus and now wants rights). So between doc visits prescriptions and counseling, and now working nights to be home with her Im exhausted. And now my youngest is showing signs of anxiety and “sad feelings” daily.

On top of all this I have my own anxiety (diagnosed severe as well as PTSD)issues and can’t find time to care for myself. The constant thought comes to mind this week- I’ve been here for my kids, but I feel like I’m ruining them, so I should just give up.

I want to leave and have already told him but it’s a vicious cycle, no where to go and he makes more than me of course so I’d lose our house and my vehicle.


I guess just looking for someone that can relate? I moved outta my home State to be with him so I have no local friends.

Thank you for your time..