For the better part of a year, my depression and anxiety was improving drastically, partially because of a new job but I also had a good therapist. In the past several months, my mental health has gradually taken a turn for the worse. Not only did my therapist leave for another opportunity, but I've also been feeling unmotivated, and not as energetic as I used to be. 

I've also been attending a lot of social events that were pushed back because of covid that has completely drained any kind of social skills and I can't take it anymore. Instead of fully enjoying the events and the company I'm with, I just want it to be over. When I attempt to explain how I'm feeling, I feel like nothing is working or helping. And last week, I came dangerously close to harming myself for the first time in years. 

And when it comes to work, the culture is changing (not for the better) and feel like I'm going to be fired at any time because I've been messing up and not getting with the program even though I'm ok at what I do. 

I'm in a deeper funk than usual and nothing I do to improve my mood is helping. Not even exercise.