idk if this makes any sense as it’s difficult to explain, nor do i know if it’s BPD related but…

whenever i see a photo or video of me as a child, i don’t recognize it as myself. i know it’s me, but i have a hard time intergrading the concept that it isn’t two different people. same goes for everyone else. when my younger brother went through puberty, i started grieving because i felt like someone took him away…and that he was a different person. i felt like i was meeting someone else for the first time, despite knowing it’s him. 

this is also happening as i watch stranger things season 4 — in the season the kids practically look like adults now…and i feel like it’s a whole new character. 

this sounds weird as i type it out so i might delete this but i just want to see if anyone else can relate.