I am too emotionally exhausted from being consumed by this for over a year. My ex has moved on and is broken up with his recent gf and probably still loves and hurts over her, not me. I have a boyfriend who I love to death and see a future with severely but I'm not over my ex. Being obsessed with him and his life is destroying me. How can I regain control. I believe my bpd makes it worst. He is my favourite person. 

I have no contact with him so it's mostly social media stalking. It's simple, you just don't look at their stuff. But it's not. I always find myself going back and looking. Just one more time. How can I stop for good. 

The hardest part is knowing that's the last "contact" I have with him. Looking at his stuff means I will not know him anymore. Which I guess I don't already. 