I think the biggest thing we all struggle with is our emotions. I have had consistent episodes for the past two weeks. I get that he’s tired and I told him if it ever gets to be to much for his mental health it would be okay if he left. Last night he broke up with me because “Reddit story’s say that you guys don’t get better right away and that it’s going to take years until you actually learn to control your emotions and BPD.” That broke me. I got diagnosed 5 months ago, and I broke up with him because I knew it was going to be hard and he told me he didn’t care and that he was going to be here. I begged him to stay last night. I dont know how to be without him and the thing is I know he regrets getting back with me. He says he loves me but that it’s just to much for him . I get that and I know I’m being selfish but I guess I just don’t know how to cope with being alone. I know many of you have probably gone through the same. How do I cope? What can I do! I feel overwhelmed, mad, sad, I’m seconds away from a panic attack. I hate being this way. We’ve been together three years.