I've recently realized my friendship with this friend of mine is SEVERELY one sided and I had a bunch of breakdowns because of it for the past few months...
In the last breakdown, she told me 'maybe it's time for both of us to follow our own paths by ourselves' and it made me so sad than what I already was. She didn't mean that we wouldn't be friends anymore.. But for me, it meant the same at the time.

Even now, I don't know the difference. Is this how a healthy friendship is supposed to look like? Because I barely think about her now, barely care for what she's doing now.. Is... This.. How other people feel?

I don't really like it.

Anyways, I still feel so anxious about it. That I've outgrown someone, that I have to follow my own path by myself. Why and how was it so easy for her to accept that?! :/
I feel so fucking anxious.