I was recently diagnosed with BPD at 23 and am wondering if anyone has advice on what treatment worked best for them? I was originally diagnosed with Panic disorder/General anxiety very young and have attended some form of group therapy or one on one counseling off and on for the past 15 years. It was a long time before I was told I may have BPD and have been misdiagnosed with ADHD depression, Bipolar before finally landing on BPD. At first it was almost a relief because I have often felt like the symptoms described in the other mental illnesses above never quite fit me and I was painfully shy and unsure about myself making it hard to really express what was going on in private with my Doctors. I have tried most SSRI's and several other various medications with limited success. I still find myself going through the same cycles over and over and I am starting to really doubt if I will recover beyond this. I have improved but the uncontrollable anger, self image/mood that changes at the slightest thing, anxiety, guilt, self hatred etc never really goes away for long and it always feels thin and flimsy. Like any moment I could be right back where I started and it's exhausting at this point. Even on the good days I feel stressed or tired for no real reason, I try to be optimistic about the future but I'm not sure anymore. I fear this is "as good as it gets" so to speak and that thought scares the shit out of me and makes me not want to keep doing this. After being diagnosed I better understand why I overreact to certain things and how BPD affects my relationships/emotions but not much has changed otherwise.  I hate this illness and I genuinely hate my life the way it is now but I feel so powerless to change it further.  Any advice or positivity would be appreciated. Thank you for reading this