Hi all, i want to tell my emotions here because i believe that only peoole who can understand me is people who have anxiety as me. 
I (23F) have a long history with anxiety, i have started using antidepressants when i was 19 and i stopped when i was 21 then started again 22. I actually have a good life and i have been somewhat succesfull, i am doing masters in canada and i earned scholarships for it, i have a good gpa, il bilingual etc. It seems like there isnt anything to” be sar for” . 
Since the last year of uni my anxiety started getting crazy because i was applying for masters and needed to take many competitive exams like gre. At the end i was too tired and then i couldnt travel to canada when i get accepted (im not from canada), becasue of the covid; it devastated me because i tried so hard for it and couldnt go.  Anyway then i came here and i started focusing on my mental health more but it made me “unproductive” i still got gpa 4.0/4.5 but after the semester ended i needed to start writinng my thesis but i didnt do anything about my thesis whole summer. Now my family is very upset with me not doing anything and they treat me like i am a failure but mentally i have improved myself and im proud about it. Now their reaction is making me sad tho. Just wanted to share..