My specific brand of anxiety is all about health. I have anxiety about possibly getting a life altering illness or randomly having a stroke or something of that nature. 

I’ve been to therapy about it and did a lot of EMDR. I went to therapy once a week for about 1.5/2 years straight and eventually I stopped having the health anxiety. I felt so good that I stopped going to therapy and haven’t been in about 8 months or so.

But I actually do have one illness that is real. Endometriosis. I take birth control continuously, only active pills daily, no sugar pills. So I haven’t had a period in a long time. Occasionally every like 6 months or more I have to take a break to have a period which causes me debilitating pain which triggers my health anxiety.

So yesterday I was in a lot of pain from this. Which triggered my anxiety so bad I had a panic attack before going to bed and then another one immediately upon waking. As well as just intrusive health anxiety thoughts.

So since a couple days ago when I stopped taking the active pill my brain has been feeling really strange like this pinpoint headaches in very small spots in my brain that only last for a couple of minutes. This is also making me feel like my brain might just shut off like a TV and I’ll die. This is a feeling I had a lot during my peak anxiety in life.

I’m having a hard time deciding if this feeling in my brain is my anxiety, something is actually wrong, or if it’s withdrawal from the hormones in the pills.

TL;DR: I had some pain that triggered my health anxiety. Can’t decide if something is actually wrong with me or I’m just anxious.