   I was in a relationship with a woman for about a year and a half. Things were going great, but I was being very clingy and overly attached. She decided to break up with me because she didn't feel that she had the time or attention for a relationship. I understood because I am high maintenance, and she has two children and a full-time job. 

  We tried staying friends over the next couple years, but I've made it incredibly difficult. All I want to do is spend time with her or talk to her. I get irritated when she doesn't make time for me, or when I don't hear from her for a while. Usually, I'm irritated at myself. I think that I did something or said something wrong, and I feel guilty about it. Then I blow up her phone apologizing and trying to fix things, which only makes things work. 

  I had been trying to get over her for a while, and last year I decided that I needed time and space. I'd decided to move a few states away. Before I left, I found out that she was seeing someone new. I spiraled and I called her a liar and manipulative for telling me that she didn't want or couldn't handle a relationship when she was in one now. Then I moved away, and didn't speak to her for six months. 

  It was awful. I was doing everything I could to distract myself and keep myself busy. I made a few friends, but I was hesitant to get too close to anyone. I did great at the sales jobs I was working, but my social anxiety made them very taxing. More than anything, I missed my FP and her kids. I never tried reaching out to her though. 

  I had to move back to help care for a sick family member, and she called me a couple weeks after I'd made it back. We made up, and I stayed the night with her. We kissed for the first time in a couple years, and we made out. We kept hanging out, and it seemed like things were going good. 

  I lost my job about a month ago, and I haven't been having much luck finding a new one. This on top of me living with family again temporarily has been extremely stressful. I haven't been able to hang out with my FP I'm a while, but we've played games and text quite a bit. All the stress combined with the change in her behavior has sent me spiraling again. 

  I keep sending her these overly affectionate texts, or asking to see her when I'm panicking. Then I'm turning around and apologizing profusely. She assures me that everything is okay, but I'm scared I'm pushing her away again. I was calm and cool when I got back, but now I'm just the same way I've always been. I don't want to lose her, but I can't seem to move on from her. It's a cycle of stress, and therapy hasn't been much help.