So, I'm taking care of a family member, which is like anxiety on top of anxiety.   And recently they're health has taken a turn for the worst.   So , Doctors, deciphering medical lingo, managing symptoms, being "observant" 24/7, and basically on call for anything exacerbating, or deleterious by way of symptomology, all while trying to keep my head, and manage my own life. 

All that said, I've noticed a definite pattern, with my anxiety, which I'm thinking or wondering, is anxiety and that sense of urgency, like everything has to be done straight away, immediately, and just the overall lack of patience, calmness, and a sense of impending doom, all tied in together?   So if you have anxiety, then you always have that sense of urgency and impending doom?     I think this is different than my social anxiety, which is totally situational, and only directly related to talking to people, new people, or strangers?   . 

I could argue that , "well it is in fact stressful, it is in fact a serious enough situation health wise", but then I noticed that it's really not dissimilar to the way I feel *most of the time.*   Like there is some impending disaster bearing down on me, if I don't manage to finish certain projects, tasks, like the world is just going to implode or explode as the case may be.   I want to run away.   

I don't know what my life would feel like if I didn't feel like this.