I'm just so tired of it all. Got it in winter of '20 because my roommate was an essential worker. Was mostly asymptomatic but my memory has never been quite the same since with pretty bad lingering brain fog. Just got it again last week. No idea how. I hole up in my house almost 100% of the time, and when I do have to leave for work or shopping I wear an N95. It's not fair. I know people who haven't masked in 2 years and haven't even gotten it once. Can't stop coughing and I'm just crippled thinking about my brain fog getting even worse... getting more brain damage... potential lung damage... everything I read says that years will be taken off my lifespan and that I'm fucked. Literally can't find anything reassuring. I can't live in a world like this anymore where this is normal. I'm so scared. What do I even do? Quit my job, stop seeing my friends, become a complete recluse? Or get it again, year after year, despite my best efforts, and ruin myself even more... I just want to give up...