You mean to tell me… that other human beings… have… and are able to healthily and safely express… emotions and feelings?! 

DAE struggle being on the receiving end of/being the object of other people’s (positive) feelings? 

My s/o is the most amazing person I could have NEVER even imagined I would be so lucky to meet and, get this, have actual feelings for and fall in love with. (Wild. I know.)

But, I’m having a hard time… my s/o needs verbal and physical affection, reassurance, validation, and expressions of love. And I’m falling short, biiiiig time. While I cognitively and logically can understand his needs, and do acknowledge that they are valid and normal, I can’t seem to bypass my emotional BPD block to fulfill them. I think a big part of it is that I personally don’t even care for, let alone need, any of that ^. In fact it makes me incredibly uncomfortable to be shown love, to be treated kindly, to be complimented and taken care of; etc. It feels unnatural, I feel undeserving, and I definitely don’t know how to reciprocate or externalize. 

Any advice on how to reconnect with my very suppressed and seemingly non-existent feelings, and display them to my s/o?