So I'm 38 years old. I've fucked up every relationship and job I've ever had. All my friends and people I know have careers, houses, kids and are living healthy normal lives. I am self diagnosed, mostly due to being broke as fuck and not being able to afford therapy or meds.

So I was wondering if there's a point to getting better at this age or if I should just end it. Even if I do get better I'll never be able to get a house, have kids or anything that I hoped for when I was younger. I'll be spending the rest of my life just picking up the pieces of a life I destroyed.