For a lot of my life I've felt kinda empty and lonely, and only recently discovered that I want/need constant validation and reassurance from others to fill that void. When you find someone who you really care about, all you want is for them to like you, everything is about them and you'll do anything for them because you might genuinely care about them, but also because you want them to like and give you that validation. I want someone to take care of me. I want someone to tell me they like me, to hold me, to tell me that it's okay. So when I had that for a brief moment and then lost it, the hole inside me, that void, got so much bigger and so much more noticeable. Their love filled that void but by pulling it out so forcefully, it made the void even bigger. The void is so big. I feel so empty. I feel like nothing without that love, that reassurance, that care, that validation.