And after being thrown from hospital to hospital where they said they couldn't help I started weekly therapy. It was a cycle of pretending I was fine every week bc she would just send me to hospital if I said I wasn't and they always did nothing at the hospital. They just throw you around like youre not even a human being. Its been a year now and i'm no better. Everyday gets worse. I'm with somebody lovely but still crazy about my ex. The system is crap here and makes me worse and I want to just give up. I'm starting to believe i'll never get better I tried so hard, I even started college/university and I'm not enjoying any of it I just want to die is there a chance it wont ever get better is there a point 