I am a 19 y/o female and a couple months ago I was diagnosed with BPD and I finally felt like I was getting somewhere. Throughout my life I have struggled with depression, anxiety, paranoia, insomnia, personal and professional relationships, and creating healthy boundaries with others. I have made a lot of risky decisions, especially since approaching/turning 18 and having more freedom and less structure. Some of these risks include using dating apps since 13, trespassing on property, running from police, dating a 35 y/o male at 17 which lead to sexual assault, and drinking enough to be a borderline alcoholic. Other risks since the relationship ended include impulse spending, speeding, multiple car accidents ( all of which were my fault, and one that totaled my car), quitting jobs with no reason or back up plan, self harm, overdoses of medications, contemplating suicide, and most recently cheating on very loving and supportive boyfriend. 

Most of these events (if not all) I have known were wrong at the time, but that didn’t stop me. I have tried to research BPD and get tips on how to prevent these situations, as well as work with my therapist and psychiatrist. Unfortunately I haven’t gotten as much support and information on it as I hoped I would by now, and I want to change. My family and friends are looking for ways to help, and support me when and where I need it. I’m hoping to get some advice from others who have experience with BPD. 

I’m open to questions and will be active when I can, thank you!