My FP is a very close friend that I am secretly in love with. Due to the fact that I used to date his current best friend, it’s somewhat complicated. 

We spend a lot of time watching shows together and we were watching one show in particular where there was a red-haired woman and he mentioned that red hair is the most beautiful. He also mentioned that light eyes are his preference. 

My hair is not red. It’s black, so I can’t even dye it red without bleaching the shit out of it first. And my eyes are brown. I’m embarrassed to admit this but I was SO upset when he mentioned this. I have spent a long time wondering if he feels the same way about me but knowing that his ideal woman is someone I could never be is just so painful to deal with. I feel so rejected and wondered if anyone has any advice for coping with this. 

I did split on him after he told me this but didn’t let him know why. I’ve since unblocked him etc. because I don’t want this to get in the way of our friendship. I’m the one who can’t handle rejection and he shouldn’t have to suffer for it. It’s just so difficult thinking about him desiring women who I could never hope to look like.