Today I had this realisation that I had fear of disappointing my dad since I was a kid. He has always been very strict to everyone around him especially his family, bursts out on us if there was any little inconvenience or if he told us to do something and if it's little different that how he imagined then he'd go crazy and scold us.

Every little things used to annoy him. So naturally I tried to make sure whatever I'm doing is exactly what he wants(can't believe I'm 26 yrs old now and I just realised this part that actually I was trying to please him and this was the reason I became kinda of people pleaser).

I didn't want anyone else to feel bad and make sure everyone is happy with me and around me. This has really fucked up my life. I mean I do try to make other feel good but at my own expense of happiness but there is another savage part of me where I absolutely don't give a fuck and put people in their place which I did a few times with my dad.

Anyways, the thing is I'm trying to understand if this is the correct analogy? Or am I misinterpreting my relationship with my father vs how it affects my life and there is some other issue with me?