Hey guys, i've been suffering from TERRIBLE anxiety and i'm just looking for some support or help. 

I'm 33, male and have always been a healthy person. Back in Nov 2020, I got covid. moderate symptoms. 2 days fever, stuffy nose, scratchy throat, 101 fever for two days, and a 3 week long cough. Before covid, I hadnt been seen or even had a cold in cover 14 years. I do suffer from seasonal allergies and sinus issues as everyone in my immediate family does (thanks mom) 

Well I recovered from covid after my 14 days plus and additional 7 days for the cough to clear up. Everything was fine. Then earlier this year at the end of January I started getting heart palpitations. It absolute SCARED TF out of me. I searched online for causes and most of was as long as there wasnt anything accompanying it, they were most likely harmless. No shortness of breath chest pain. But occasionally my heart would race after climbing stairs. Would feeling like it was about to beat out of my chest. One night when driving home, I had a muscle spasm in the center of my chest and it triggered a panic attack that  convinced me that I was having a heart attack. BP was 179/96, heart rate was 120+, hyperventilating. Rushed myself to an URGENT CARE, and they did an ekg and everything showed fine.

I scheduled a doc appt to have bloodwork and they did another EKG. It again came back fine. Referred me to a cardiologist and they did a longer EKG and it again came back fine. Bloodwork also came back fine.    

As these months have gone by ive had various aches and pains that I never had before. Stiff neck, stiff traps, my ribs have "knots" in various places that feel like small pebbles that you can feel move. They cause me pain. My shoulder blades also get them. 

A month ago I started getting these aches behind my eyes. That lasted only a few seconds. Triggered another episode where I was convinced I had a brain aneurysm (my mothers father died of one). About two weeks ago, I started getting these rapid quick stabbing pains behind my eyes. They only last for a a second then go away. Ive also been getting an ache on the sides of my head above my ears that feel like im wearing a stocking cap thats too tight. 

This week the front of my left shoulder has started hurting, which has sent me down a spiral again because Im still having the heart palpitations and left arm pain is associated with heart issues. 

Ive never suffered from anxiety. But now just seeing death on TV triggers me. Im HYPER aware of how fragile life is and how sudden it can end. Now EVERY time I feel something in my body in ruins my entire mood. Like from a normal happy person to concerned my next palpitation will kill me. 

-TLDR-

- 100% Healthy before Nov 2020 moderate covid infection
- Heart palpitations started Jan 2021
-Various aches and pains since: stiff neck, lower neck, upper trap pain, "knots" thats can be felt under the skin in various places including sides of ribs, lower ribs, pecs, and shoulder blades
-ache behind eyes started a month ago, followed by quick stabbing pain behind eyes that goes away quickly
- left front shoulder started a week ago

This has left with crippling anxiety. Afraid every day I wake it make be my last. That Ill never see my 9 year old son grow up  Vivid dreams of my death and seeing the pain it causes my loved ones. Triggers that cause panic attacks and ashamed to say, crying spells. I again went to the doc and she prescribed me Xanax as needed. I have an appt me to see the cardiologist on Sept 10, where they will do a stress test and echo. But the anxiety has me thinking every moment, what if don't make it til Sept 10th. What if I waited too long??? Please, someone who has dealt with this, tell me how to manage, on point me into some resources that can help me.