Yup, that's the question. So I'm a 21 year old queer type person with a really high sex drive and BPD. I find myself desperately pining for a romantic relationship, but only ending up with people who just want me for sex. Somehow this situation led me to starting a sexual relationship with my best friend of 7 years. The sex is really nice, I'm not even gonna lie, and I would very much like to keep doing that with them, at least until I get vax'ed and can be a proper slut again. But lately I've felt myself developing the same shitty BPD abandonment issues with them that are normally associated with romantic relationships, but I have no desire to be in a romantic relationship with them.

So I guess the real question is...

how fucked am I?