It's really depressing to think that if I was ever in a moment where I just really needed to talk to someone, I have nobody to call. I mean, I have people in my life, but no one who would directly pick up the phone for me. This has happened many times before actually. Something happens, I'm freaking out, and I call every 'close' person on my contact list, only for no one to answer. Sometimes it takes hours for some of them to call back, sometimes they don't even acknowledge I called, sometimes I'll get a text asking why I called. And then you sit there and think and think about how you have no one who actually gives a shit about you in your life. And then I think "poor me" and how I'm pathetic, and I know I could never say anything to these people about it because then it would just be a sob story, or attention seeking. Make sense?