I’ve been with my partner for almost a year now, and for the most part it has been such a positive relationship in my life. He’s caring, considerate, doesn’t engage in my bpd episodes (him engaging makes things worse for me), understands me and doesn’t expect me to be anything else. Honestly, I think he is the person I could spend the rest of my life with. But before this, I was in an abusive 7 year relationship with a man that was essentially grooming me. Sometimes I find myself waiting for the other shoe to drop and it sucks. Like I’m waiting for things to go bad like the previous relationship did, but it has been nothing but positive (for the most part). It makes me feel horrible because he has given me little to think that things will turn into the relationship that gave me ptsd, but I find myself wondering where the toxic aspects of relationships are and being confused by good traits.