They never should have had me. I contribute nothing to society. I am a burden to everyone. I am a burden to my mom and my dad never wanted me. Idk why God made me. He should have made somebody else instead of me. He could have made a doctor or a humanitarian or someone useful, but instead he made me. 

Sure I made a few people laugh, here and there, but I bet if I wasn’t around, they’d move on after a few days. I am a burden to my mom. She has to bust her ass for us. Sacrificing her health, if I was gone, she wouldn’t have to work so hard. “she said if you go, I go” we’d be saving the world less trouble.  My father never wanted me or my brother. If I died, he’d probably laugh. If I died, my bf who never cries, would probably still not cry and just move tf on. Even tho he said He would, but I doubt it.

I wish I never signed up to be an organ donar, cuz then they would get maybe my shitty spider infested brain and a broken heart. I wish I could end it all, but I don’t even have the guts to do it. I’m just a fking pussy. If I had the guts I would. What’s the point of continuing a mundane ass life, pretending to be happy.

If I died, my stuff would be donated to people who actually need it and can do stuff with their lives. If I died, I’d be saving people some fking tax dollars. I contribute nothing to this world except negativity, confusion and wasting the precious space of the earth. If I died, some student can have my financial aid and to make something of themselves. I can go on and on, and idk what I was hoping to achieve with this post...