I’ve been trying to address my depression for practically my whole life. I’ve tried countless medications - most made things worse. I’ve done so many kind of talk therapy. I’m experimented with micro dosing mushrooms, LSD, and ketamine. I journal, exercise, meditate, play with my cats, I try to list things I’m grateful for. But none of these things make any noticeable difference in my mood. I cry almost all of the time now and I can barely function. I don’t have it in me to fight the healthcare system for some other treatment. I see my GP this week. I want to ask her to just prescribe something that just makes me not want to kill myself all the time. I’m not looking for a cure as I don’t believe there is one for me. I just want whatever meds will make me feel the least. I don’t care about getting addicted or taking benzodiazepines long term. I just want something that shuts off my feelings because my only alternative is killing myself. Has anyone else felt like this? Has anyone brought up this kind of plan with your doctor?