Why?! Why do I have to be like this. Something always happens. Everyone I love gets tired of me.

I'm always unbearable. I'm always "just fucked up" or "unstable." I go from being loved and being told I'm amazing and sweet and caring to being told I'm basically a monster...in less than 12 hours...

All I want is a little compassion or understanding... I don't want to be written off as crazy or fucked up every time I get upset..

I feel like everyone would just be better off without me. The only thing that loves me and doesn't hold anything against me or judge me is my dog, and he's getting old and is going to die.

12 hours ago I had a perfect life and now my boyfriend is telling me he can love me but can't be around me..? I feel like toxic waste. I need to be kept away from anything and everything or else it's a disaster..

I feel so alone and isolated and misunderstood and I just need a hug and to be told that's everything is going to be okay..