So I've always thoguht that I was pretty emotionally healthy, seeing as I can 'forget' negative emotions but lately, it's starting to feel like something is wrong with the way I processed my emotions because, compared to people around me who seemed to hold onto it, I just forget them. 

I started to realize lately that when I feel angry, I can somehow suddenly forget about the emotion. And that the events that led up to me being angry almost doesn't exist. Logically, I know it exists but it feels unreal and it feels like a dream and/or an imagination. 

From there I started realizing more stuff about myself, like when I feel stressed or sad, I start "zoning out" and then I feel like everything around me is unreal, that I'm just dreaming even though again, logically I know that I'm in reality. When I'm at my lowest, it feels like, there's this box inside that's shaking and it's all the negative emotions I've stored over the years just trying to get out. 

There has been periods where this 'dream-like' feeling stayed for days or even weeks or months. For months, it's not 24/7 where I feel like I'm in this 'bubble' or dream, it's more of like in 1 day, I feel that either multiple times or the feeling lasts for more than 5 hours. 

The only thing that has been keeping me grounded is keeping myself busy, but even then sometimes even when I'm busy and doing work, it's not really me that's doing work. It's 'dream me' that's studying, talking to people and stuff. There's often this disconnect with me and 'dream me' even though logically I know we are one person. 

Recently, I caught myself feeling like I'm in a dream again, and my thoughts were that if 'dream me' killed myself right now, I might wake up from this dream. That, or I might enter another dream. 


I also sometimes feel like there's a disconnect when I'm socialising, it's like a 'dream-me' mixed with 'another me' which isn't 'real me', that's laughing and talking to people. 'real me' is just trapped inside. Feels unreal. 

Not sure if its any relevant, but I remember feeling this a lot when I was much younger, up until I was 12/13. Now it's been happening again for the past 2 years. 

Yesterday I verbalized all this to my sister and she told me that wasn't normal, so I'm not sure anymore. I've always just seen it as normal. 

Is this normal?