Are we just living to die with hope?
"Be hopefull"
for what exatcly? 
what can get better?
i am just waiting to die
what i can do about my mind what?
yeah i can take pills but they dont fix anything maybe she is then quiter but she is here with me every day 
she is killing me
but she is not only problem 
she is just one in a sea full of problems
i cant do nothing 
when im feeling good im not
im just hope that i am only struggling in this world
no one deserves this pain
nothing can get me back on track 
its just no day free i cant fight 24/7
why is my only wish to be free
how is that normal wish?
how i can be normal with this
for what i am here?
to have hope?
everyone tells me it will get better but it will not
its sad but its true
who deserves to struggle everyday?
what i did to this world
what i need to do to get better?
i cant accept a lot of stuff going on
i cant accept that i am wasting time fighting with me
i cant accept this illness
not because its chronic or dont have cure because she cant kill me but she can take everything from me
and i can only fight her with hope
i dont know what to do
im lost in my world with no end