there's a strong chance my best friend has bipolar two, but they took a test and there were strong indicators for bpd too. it made me feel frustrated because if there's at least *one* stable part of my identity, it's having bpd.

but my friend finding out they could have bpd too? it's like - no, that's supposed to be mine. does that make sense? it's like my identity is being taken. please tell me someone understands what i mean, because i'm aware it sounds stupid, i really am.

i can't stand if someone i'm close with gets into the same interest/hobby as me - i get irrationally angry at them, like they're trying to take away my identity when i know that's not the case. it's just that i've found the only way i can have an identity is through my interests - otherwise i have no idea who i am.

so my friend gets attached to the same thing as me and it's like i'm losing who i am. i get so angry and upset that i don't even want to talk to them anymore. i have to take time away to try and calm down but i know i can't talk to my friend about this because i sounds awful. ''hey, you can't have bpd - that's *my* thing, get your own!''

i mean, seriously? lmao