Just typing this out I can feel my heart rate go up. I find masks to be Incredibly painful in terms of triggering anxiety. (Deep breath.) For me having my breath restricted is a HUGE trigger. Especially if it goes longer than an hour. 

I have to fly to see family for Xmas and I need a mask that has the lightest touch, restricts the least amount of air and one I can barely feel on my face. 

Look I know this is going to be Upsetting to some of you. I am fully vaxxed. I will get that 3rd shot the second I can. I just really need some relief here. I am really careful to not put anyone at risk. Also me with a light mask is going to be far less of a danger than that one asshole on my plane that’s never gonna put his mask on unless someone asks over and over. And he’s probably not vaxxed at all any way. 

my other option is to self medicate if the anxiety crosses a line. I’ve got 4 months clean and I’m doing so good. I really don’t want to go down that path. I’m doing my breathing exercises and in therapy. Im taking my meds. I’m trying here! Please don’t judge me. I really need your approval 😂