I know this is so superficial but it bothers me so fucking much and I’ve just been holding it in because I don’t want to sound shallow. I used to be really pretty, but had no confidence and would dress really bland and stay home most of the time. During the pandemic I got so sick of being stuck at home and since I didn’t have to go into the office I started buying a bunch of really amazing clothes and dressing how I want (goth).  Now that things have opened up more I’ve been going out way more with more confidence, but I can’t stop thinking about how I don’t look as good as I used to and it’s only going to keep going downhill from here. I wish I had started being myself sooner. I don’t want to age. I hate this so much. I don’t want my body and face to slowly break down. Ugh. I don’t know if I can ever accept this. I know there’s more to life than looks, but I can’t help mourning my youth and the past in general.