I have a nice job, I have several hobbies, I frequently explore the city on my own, I started going to the gym a few months ago and there’s already a lot of progress. I’ve finally reached a point in my life where I ‘check all the boxes’ but it still just doesn’t fucking matter. 

I’ll never actually have any friends if I can’t hold a non-professional conversation with someone for longer than 2 fucking minutes. It feels like every time I meet someone my age with a shared interest they’re excited to get to know me and then immediately realize “oh, this guy isn’t actually a human being.” 

If I can’t even hold a 1 on 1 conversation with my roommate who I’ve literally lived with for 3 years how am I supposed to ever make any friends? It’s even worse trying to be friends with women, or even just trying to fucking exist around them without making them uncomfortable.

Idk man it’s all just pointless…