In a few weeks I will be a legal man but I hardly feel like a man. I’ve spent my whole life scared. As a young child I used to always have nightmares and couldn’t sleep alone til I was 13 or 14. I was bullied relentlessly all through out elementary school and eventually started becoming scared of people. All my friends are talking to girls and having sex, meanwhile I’ve talked to only one girl since middle school who has no feelings for me anymore. I spent my prom in the bathroom drenched in sweat. Every guy and girl my age is driving everywhere but I’m still scared to go on the highway, and probably won’t ever drive again after getting into a fender bender a few days ago. Whenever I’m at any social event or party (the few I’ve been invited too), I always overdue the alcohol because it’s the only way I can normally function. 

I really don’t think I’m cutout for this life :/