I know this will sound really stupid, but does cooking make anyone else kind of suicidal? When I cook, all my dishes come out wrong, and I usually end up sobbing as my boyfriend and I eat it. It just never is good enough, or comes out how I want. My self esteem plummets to zero when this happens, and I start comparing myself to women in his life who can cook. Even if he says he likes it, I don't believe him. I feel like I have to cook for him too, and it causes it to be worse. I always feel gross about myself in the store when I buy junk too, like I'm a failure of a woman. I wish I could cook better, and I guess my mind always goes to suicide if my self esteem drops. I hate low self esteem.