 In school i can't really focus,i rather study at home, when alone. I can reread a sentence a hundred times but i won't remember it if i don't write it down and then i need to repeat it but it's so fucking hard for some reason? I start hitting my knee repeatedly or stim back and forth and it's so hard for me to focus i need a whole day to just start studying. Once i do i can learn a lesson well but when teachers ask me i get nervous and forget the order, names, and stuff. I also stutter, fidget with my hands or shake and always but "uhh" between sentences but it helps me when i tense my neck or flap my hands a bit (my cousin finds it funny lol). Even though i know it so i always get a B cause im not "confident enough" or some bs like that. Sometimes i don't understand questions teachers ask me so i have to ask them to explain them better even though they are basic questions. This started a year ago but i have trouble keeping eye contact it's so scary to me. People keep thinking im not interested in them when im not talking to them cause of that, and cause i don't smile at all, then they say im too serious or something. I also move my hands a lot when i talk which *a certain person* makes fun of. My *native language* teacher needs to read my assignments out cause i have trouble to, it's a bit embarrassing tbh. Is this just anxiety or
I can't study history but then if im watching tv there's WW2 i could sit and listen the whole day.