I’m not looking for advice. Jst wanted to vent. 

I do get angry at my FP when he’s gone for such a long time. I dnt need his constant attention. 

But after 10 hours on delivered  I jst start to panic. Sometimes I worry that he might have died and I’ll never hear from him again. Sometimes I scare myself and think OH SHIT IS TODAY THE DAY HE LEAVES. 

I wish me and him could talk more. But. Ig even if that DID happen. I still would want more anyways. 

I’m trying to take his distance as a positive. 

While yes I do miss him a lot. At least this way we won’t get bored on convo. I do think talking to someone 2 much n all day isn’t a good idea. 

It’s probs not healthy for any relationship rlly. But idk. I still can’t help but wish for more communication.