I'm not sure if I have BPD but I might do.

I'm wondering how it feels for yous who have been diagnosed with BPD when you're in between splitting with someone and your mind is struggling to decide which perception of reality is the bad one?

Like if you thought the person was bad but then they sort of do something that's good and bad with plausible deniability so you're unsure if they're good or bad now. That confusion in your mind can't decide so you're in between splitting. Can anyone relate to this too?