This was two nights ago. He seemed to understand since I explained it comes from a place of being in a close relationship already. He said he was flattered and *may* have hinted at him thinking also liking me, though I could have misread that, idk. We're still just friends and it eats me up. I'm a trans girl and he's a cis guy. I feel like if I were cis we could be in a relationship already but I never can be in one with him because I'm not sure how he feels about being w me, even if he is fairly open to things.

All this makes me feel worthless. It adds on the the usual hollow feeling and eats me up. I've woken up the past two days wanting to cut because I feel like I'll never experience true love and affection, or at least to the same capacity as someone "normal"