Last night something happened that triggered my anxiety.

I've had three breakdowns so far ( some would say a panic attack) whatever i do to set my mind off what happened my mind keeps driving me to it. 
When i tried to rest and sleep in a desperate way to relax, after cpl short hours i wake up tense and everything comes rushing to me.

I also keep having flashbacks. 
(What happened is actually related to work)
I ate twice after what happened n it was small amounts of food that I was pushed to eat by mom (she isn't aware of what happened)

At the moment  I'm typing this while looking at my food that i couldn't manage to eat. I started feeling drained already but i still can't eat.
Even the smell is making a bit nauseous.
I cried a bit looking at it n read something about the 5rules on google on what to do to prevent an attack.

(to be honest I've never took my mental health seriously until I've had talks with a psy)