It appears, knowing more about myself is always knowing more bad news.

A guy said to me, 'find yourself and find like minded people', buddy i am aching to change who i am, why i would i want to embrace everything about me that i causes me pain.

i love myself, but it seems, im like a painting no one buys. And i dont mean that to be dramatic.

I tired to be happy, I tired to look good, cant, i tried to sing well, i tried to write better, i cant i tried to be humorous, i tried to be productive, i tried to be normal, i tried to fit in, i tried to be less cynical, but nothing works.

And believe me i tried with every fiber of my being.