I am not doing so good. My chest hurts so bad I can’t sleep and I have been feeling a strong impending sense of doom for 5 days that’s been messing with my sleep and habits. I have been taking really frequent baths to try and curb it but it’s not helping right now and reactive brain wants to blow up my life so I don’t have to deal with any of the same problems anymore. My problems aren’t even all that bad and I realistically could even quit my job if I wanted - I was planning on quitting in January anyway - but I can’t shake the fear. 

I took half a sleeping pill so hopefully that helps me feel drowsy soon. My physical symptoms are intense and I’m psyching myself out of everything. 

I don’t know what I hope to get out of posting but I’m hoping if I list what I’m afraid of it’ll help me relax:
-I have a sore throat (probably from dry air, I have other “dry air symptoms”) that makes me worry I caught covid
-I found a couple of weird moles that I’m going to call a dermatologist about tomorrow 
-3 packages went missing from my front door this week and I have to talk to my local post office about what to do about it 
-my brother is home from the military and (despite his several cleared covid tests) I am extremely stressed that my fiancé will get sick 
-I have to go to back to work Wednesday and I’m dreading it because I don’t feel like I can work in this state and I hate making mistakes  
-this whole pandemic is extremely stressful in every way 
-I have to get a teeth cleaning and I absolutely am gonna have a cavity or three that needs $$$ to fix
-I’m getting married in March but it’s impossible to plan for without knowing what the virus will be like

Any advice on helping my take my anxiety down a notch? Thanks for reading if you got this far!