I can't be happy for people I care about bec I'm too busy comparing myself to them.

My life is shit. It's a fucking turd hole. I'm turning 24, not working, not yet graduated college. I'm broke af, my grades and academic life is a fucking mess, and I'm ugly as shit.

Meanwhile, my beautiful, smart, and kind, and funny friends are in law school or getting into serious relationships or are starting their businesses or are just living their goddamn best lives out in the world.

And me???????

Trash. Fucking trash.

I hate BPD so much because I couldnt take any advice because I'm always splitting. _No, there is no middle ground. Only yes or no, black and white, positive or negative. You either like them or me. Me or none at all. If you like my beautiful friends, then you don't fucking like me at all!!!_

Gdi irdk anymore I'm so mad at myself it really goddamn hurts so much why cant i just be normal why does bpd hurt so much why does everything hurt so much

Yall im so done