I used to be the loudest person at a party. I’d walk around and chat with everyone and by the end of the night, even the people I’d just met became my friends. I wish I could say I’m still the same.. 

I went to a fire with a group of some of my closest friends tonight and could hardly speak with them. I sat in silence, observing everyone, with a racing heart and a thought in my head that no one wanted me there. One of them pulled me aside and asked if I was okay, because I wasn’t my normal self tonight? I kindly explained I’ve developed an anxiety/fear of these things and I was here to push my boundaries. I did stay for over 5 hours and opened up a bit at the end. 

But I’m at home now, with a weight on my chest &amp; a tightness in my throat.. 
- Was I too quiet and reserved?
- Was it that noticeable that I’m not okay? 
- Did I do or say anything embarrassing? 
- Are they talking about me after I’ve left? Negatively or positively? 

I’m proud of myself for going and stepping outside of my comfort zone - but I’m hoping someone in here can relate and share how they cope or manage these situations? 💖