It's so bad that I look at the parents guide for movies before we watch them to make sure there's no nudity, and if there is a have a full fledged breakdown and threaten to hurt myself. We've been together 2 and a half years, and he told me he doesn't watch porn at all. One time he admitted to watching it about a year ago when we got into a fight, now every time we fight I get super paranoid and jealous to the point of tears thinking he'll do it again. Ive had him show me how browsing history many times but it still isn't enough because he could just hide it. This is something that tears me apart everyday. And Im sure he thinks I don't trust him, I do, I just get really bad thoughts. I feel so fucking manipulative, I know I am. Sorry if this post is all over the place, I just needed to get it out. 