Sometimes I think I’m losing my mind. I try to write it out: how I’m feeling inside/my thoughts, what actually happened and then see if the events merit my reaction or if my reaction has been exacerbated by my anxiety.


Currently, I think my partner doesn’t love me. He says he loves me but I don’t believe him. He doesn’t even try to make me feel better. He leaves when I need him. But am I unloading too much onto him? I’m over here trying to resolve my feelings towards our relationship and impending break up and he wants time apart to think. Here I am breaking down and he’s 6 hours away and can’t stay on the phone. Makes me hate myself to even be in this situation. I must be unloveable. 

Rationally: I’m tired and have no energy to love myself. I need to break up but I’m a coward