Hey guys. I wanted to ask you guys a question and would like to get advice or any of your guys’ experience. So basically, I had a really rough senior year of high school last year. My teachers really broke my self-esteem to a level I cannot explain. I am someone who would study every single day and sleep for maximum 3 hours on the weekdays to make sure I could get that 100% on the test or assignment. My grades is the only thing I am good at. Thankfully, I managed to get high grades, however, it came at the cost of my mental health and I have absolutely no confidence in myself to go to university and manage to get the same kinds of grades. I have never felt so unsatisfied with myself. I am at a state where I feel like going to university next year will put me through absolute agony. Like I have to mentally prepare myself for 4 years of being completely miserable. I had to complete courses in 23 days, exam day, then next day, move on to the next course during my senior year. It was extremely stressful and I feel slightly traumatized. When I took my physics class, that was when I sincerely felt like I wanted to disappear. I feel like at the same time, everyone has moved on and that it was not so hard for everyone else as it was for me. So yeah, I feel quite pathetic as well, especially knowing that people go through things that are way worse and I am here struggling over this. I have no idea who I am. What I like and dislike. To be honest, I feel like this gap year is flying by and I have not gotten the chance to figure anything out still. I don’t know what to do. I just want to feel better already. I don’t want to feel numb anymore. Everyone I know is really trying to push me to go to university next year but I still don’t feel like I am ready to get beaten down anymore or not get the best grades possible. I don’t know if this will ever go away tho. Also, I don’t want to waste anymore time as well and disappoint my family. Cuz when I am in university, that is it, I won’t be able to leave if things get rough. It’s a hard choice for me to make and I am not sure if it is best to commit right now. I am not sure what I should do. Any advice?