Does anyone else deal with this? I haven’t actually googled the term yet but this is the closest to how I’m feeling.

All my friends (well all three of them) are in another state and whenever I go to the movies or watch the television I’m doing it by myself. Oftentimes I’m watching things that I’d watch with my friends.

Not only do I feel the typical misery and depression that looms over me I’ve realized that I do something weird.

If I’m at the movies and nobody is sitting next to me or if I’m on my couch I’ll hallucinate someone sitting next to me out of the corner of my eye. Just at the very corner. Sometimes I’ll take a double take and kick myself for thinking someone is there. Typically it’s my friend and I see her red hair right out of the corner of my eye.

Sometimes I’ll just stare at the empty space next to me and just wish someone was there. It’s just depressing. I feel terrible and the fact that I think someone is sitting next to me or hallucinate it or convince myself that someone is sitting there.  

I feel terrible.