I have bipolar type 2. When my depression is at its worst I experience psychosis and I'm fully aware when I'm going through it and when it's happening. I'm on meds and under a mental health team. But I'm afraid I'm going to end up with psychosis again. I'm utterly depressed that I have no will power to get the help I need or even tell my person supports. My personal supports are tired of the ongoing depression and hypomania that I think they've given up. I'm completely alone dealing with everything in my life even with trying to find a job and trying to pay off the debt I owe. I've asked people for some help but they aren't interested. I'm constantly sick from the medication I take and the fatigue makes me not do anything about it. I'm soo very tired. Tired of everything. Tired of everything having to be a battle 24/7. Even though there's hope I'm actually believing in the whole there's actually no hope whatsoever out of this hell. I'm just soo tired in body, mind and soul.