I am seeing a therapist and taking lots of meds. I have a sweet long distance boyfriend and not being able to meet him drives me mad.

I'm 25 but my mom won't let me leave our house because she says I'm too sick for it (depression). Being jailed inside my own home with my crazy mother for more than a half year is driving me insane. I want to leave, to run away, but I can't even leave to find a work, I have no money, nowhere to go, no one to support me, and the only exit I can see is death.

I don't know where to ask for help. I don't want to be put in a psychiatric hospital again, I'd rather die.

This time suicide may be the only option and I can't fail again. I'm going mad and I can feel the insanity growing inside me and it's scary. I want to finish me off before it consumes me and devours me whole.