I'm one of those people who doesn't go to the doctor. I'm not asking for medical advice here, just if anyone else finds routine office visits hellish and how they have managed it. 

Has anyone had success communicating the extent of severe medical anxiety to their GP? When I've tried with previous doctors, I've never had good results - from "oh don't worry, we're all nice here," to "well, you don't look nervous." One of the last times I went I had a panic attack in the office, so they ended up testing my heart because my heart rate was so high - I was fine, but the test itself made me panic worse, so I ended up sobbing and hyperventilating while trying to explain to the confused nurse that this is just what happens when you start attaching wires to me. 

Like, if they want to do certain routine tests, I want to refuse, because I'd rather take the small chance that something is wrong with me and they'll miss it instead of the certainty that I will have to do the test. I'm expecting that doctors aren't going to be okay with that, generally, but the other option is that I keep not going in at all. 

Honestly the more that I write this the more I think that there's no point in me going in anyway because I won't want them to do anything, but I think if I start going in I might be able to get more comfortable. I don't know.