I had originally planned to go to a small college where I went a few years ago. I’ve been texting guy who I met there on and off since then. I had such a huge crush on him but he rejected me before. 

I decided last minute not to return because my mental and physical health are pretty bad right now. But he just texted me asking if I moved in yet!!! Meaning he wanted to actually see me!!!! Now I regret not going and I’m just thinking of what could’ve been and all of the missed opportunities. :( Now we will never be friends or anything more and he’ll meet other people and date other girls and I’ll be alone forever. I know my thinking is irrational but I’m so upset.