idk where to begin, but I had been stable for quite awhile off my meds. I disowned myself from my toxic family, ended stressful friendships, and things were going well. I plan on moving in Spring, but like idk man. I have a 3 yr old nephew who suffers from the same emotional abuse/neglect I did growing up, and I can't stand it. To the detriment of my health, I leave my room and stand up for him and try to ease his pain, but this toxic ex-family of mine is something else. I get my life threatened by my angry, aggressive ex-brother, my narcissistic ex-mother is the root of the problem around here, and it feels like there's no end in sight.

I tried to get back on my meds recently in an attempt to prevent things from getting drastic since chaos week (the week my nephew is over) is starting soon, but I messed up and one of them caused mania to develop. I'm really at a loss rn. If I can't keep myself stable, things might fall apart in the worst ways imaginable.