I remember all the shit I fucked up in my life. The one that weighs on me the most is the one I just fucked up. I had a girl that loved me, a girl I was so deeply in love with yet I still lied to her… I still disrespected her and her wishes and needs. She left because I begged for one last chance and told her she could leave if I brought the breakup up again.. or was pushy about us getting together. I know now her minds probably set. Her ex seems amazing compared to me. I’m just a liar who hurt someone he loved. I’ll never hear her laugh, her voice, about her day… when she would say I love you and tell me all the amazing qualities I had… now I’m just someone who hurt her and I feel so guilty I feel so much dread and pain. I wish I could say I’m sorry, I wish I could get a chance to make things right, but my word means nothing anymore to you. Just wish I never woke up. I’m a fuck up and I just broke you when I wanted to make you the happiest girl