So to be clear I just wanted to leave today and I bought a bottle of gaz and lock the bathroom door, I took 4 xanax to go to sleep. Everything was working and the last thing I remember was a text message I was sending to my therapist to explain to her she helped me a lot but I just wanted to go, I didn't send the message and 5-6 hours later I just woke up in bed like nothing happened and I am seriously freaked out what the fuck happened