Hello,

I'm 27 years old. I live at home with my parents. I made bad financial decisions when I was younger, before I understood any semblance of math behind it. Incurred quite a bit of debt. Just a little background, where I'm at.

Well, today I quit my job of about two years. I've worked alot of different jobs, this one I would say was the best job I've had. I learned alot, I was making about 33k a year and I was really good at what I do. Thing is, job is high stress, dispatching at a plumbing company inside the call center. I hated call center work in the past, but as a dispatcher I thought I had broken out of that phase since I was really just talking to the technicians mostly. Then I realized I was still working as a call center rep, just talking to my coworkers and not the customers as often. I had alot of duties, because I was reliable. But it was just growing depressing and tiring, 4 aclock hits the corner I get 80 people calling me asking all types of questions. My boss, my foreman, the techs, etc. Anxiety.

Bad sleep pattern, couldn't eat due to stress I've become a twig, no fitness. No cardio. No social life. All of this due to the long hours, and the exhaustion. The dread. Today I quit, I emailed my boss and said I resign and I can turn my work phone in tomorrow. And I clocked out. 

Now I'm just feeling like a bad person, leaving them high and dry like that. I've done alot to get us where we were, but I put us in a bad spot with no notice to end my story there. I oubviously feel guilty. I just want to rely on my savings for a month or two and devote all my time to bettering the essential habits I had long neglected. The fitness and everything I mentioned. I'm prescribed xanax and I want to figure out how to get off it. All the vices that got me by in a high stress environment, I just want time and space to seperate myself with these crutches. And improve my well being.

I guess all I'm writing this for, any thoughts would be appreciated. I just feel quite a bit of derealization right now about what I chose to do. Any input or advice, pretty much any type of response would be helpful. 

Thanks for reading