I’m living in a foreign country I have a boyfriend of 2 years, we have our problems but he’s the only thing I have here as I’m not very social and I just don’t like to meet new people, Since 5-7 months ago I found myself feeling like I don’t wanna get up of my bed, I don’t wanna go out, I don’t wanna talk with people- not even my family- I spend my days watching the same movies and series, over and over again, I’ve watched modern family 5 times- its the only thing that makes me laugh, I used to dance a lot in my room, but now i have 5-10 minutes in the day where I feel like dancing, I don’t want to cook, I don’t even want to take a shower sometimes… things that made me happy before don’t make me feel a thing now days, I’m not sure if I’m depressed… mostly every day I think about how would it be if I just die, not only suicidal thoughts but what if a car hit me and I die or stuff like that and since 1 month ago when I’m super stressed my mind just go blank like it’s nothing there and I’m not able to talk or think, is like I’m lost… I found a solution not that good, when I do little cuts in my legs the stress and panic it’s gone…