I find that when I've been feeling good for a couple of days, I start to get this anxious, restless feeling. I have obsessive thoughts of self-harm, suicide, and a desire to start fights, spend all my money, do drugs, shave my head, and put myself in the hospital.

I've been making big changes in my life trying to recover and become a healthier person but there's this powerful urge to absolutely screw everything up and make myself worse that just won't go away. Anyone else deal with this? What can I do about it?