I'm suffering a bit at the moment, my mental health is in the pits due to not being at work thanks to COVID, which has worked as an amazing distraction from my own head for years now, but this has also led to me not really being able to be as creative as I usually would be on a day-to-day basis (I absolutely hate everything remotely creative I've done recently, and am getting major impostor syndrome about my art, convincing myself I'm not actually a good artist and that my peers are laughing at me behind my back)

 I also get cluster headaches which are really painful and the only pain relief I found that works is sleep and codeine (but I'm not allowed any more codeine as it's addictive.)  
As well as an issue with TMJ which I've recently discovered may potentially affect my life forever.

As a result I'm sat, bored and overthinking constantly. And then the itch of wanting to self harm starts. I've already posted before about my tendency to pick at my face until there are open sores, which I have now recognized as a form of self harm. But after an incident last night that should have meant nothing, I now can't get the idea of a previous method of self harm out of my head.  
And then it just hit me that I have no idea how to be kind to myself and lack energy to take care of myself properly constantly. Even in my own head I am constantly putting myself down, I can never take a compliment because I feel as though it's a lie or said out of pity.  


 People have suggested a proper skincare routine and as much as I want to take care of myself I physically cannot bring myself to do it.   
How have you guys managed to over come the itch? What distractions do you use? How can I get myself into a routine of taking care of myself?