So I’ve been dating my boyfriend now for about 6 months and he’s honestly the perfect guy for me. I’ve never been in love and never have had a serious relationship so this is the first. Anyway, he’s been dealing with my constant antics and mood swings(and other impulsive decisions I’ve made that haven’t made him very proud) but yet he’s still by my side. Well recently we both agreed that I stop smoking since it’s had an effect on my mental health and our relationship. About a week has passed by and I’m literally still smoking. It’s hard for me to stop and I’ve lied to him saying that I still haven’t smoked. I have such a heavy self conscious so I feel terrible for not telling the truth but I just don’t want to be a disappointment to him yet again. And I’m afraid that if I tell him he will leave me or something and I don’t think I can handle that. So do I tell him the truth or just finally stop smoking so I don’t have to keep lying to him and myself?

This may seem like a small issue but it goes much deeper than this. This is just the overall picture