I used to be able to manage my depression, keep it mostly hidden from my friends, in my experience, revealing it only ever causes problem, even for the people who care about you. My friends knew about it, and I'd talk about it, but they never knew how bad it really was because like I said, when people find that out it only ever causes problems. Lately its been bubbling up more and more to the surface, I just can't pretend anymore. I can tell its starting to affect my friends, which is causing this awful cycle of resentment where I'm mad because they're mad at me because I am in desperate need of support and I'm starting to become too much for them. I don't blame them, it just hurts.