I am diagnosed with bpd and bipolar. i am not capable of holding down a job at the moment. i can’t leave my house hardly without having a panic attack. 
my problem is my family, like too many families, is suffering from financial hardship. my dad has borderline and he can’t (or won’t) get a job either, so that leaves my moms teachers salary to cover the four of us, and it’s not enough. we can barely keep food in the pantry. 
i know getting disability isn’t easy, and 90% are rejected. i think chances improve with a lawyer, but how am i supposed to afford one when i can’t work? 
what im wondering is if there are any resources on the process of obtaining disability, financial assistance, and finding a lawyer? i’m so hopeless at this point.