I’ve had anxiety all my life. I would not speak to strangers or family friends and it was cute. When I was little. I’ve been told my whole life I’m shy but I’m actually terrified almost all the time. I have this feeling in the back of my head all the time telling me something’s wrong, something’s not right, you need to leave, you need to escape, find a way out now. Things like that until I can’t even go to work or I’m at work and I make myself sick to my stomach and crying. It’s this darkness that follows me everywhere and makes me never be content with myself or my life. It’s crippling sometimes. Literally calling into work for over a week and then quitting. Even lighting makes me uncomfortable. Sunlight and bright lights make my anxiety so much worse and those feelings and thoughts get worse and more intense. Louder. I just wonder if anyone struggles the same way and how you make it through those times. I sometimes wonder if I’m in between an anxiety attack constantly and it’s so draining. I want to feel okay. I don’t want to be held back by this. It’s only been 21 years and I realize I have to live with it forever. I’m suffering everyday because of it