Like I have no problem what so ever with staying sober when I’m in those depressive episodes, that’s not when I end up turning to drugs? But like it’s when I either come out of that depressive episode and I’m feeling good I’ll turn to getting fucked up or if something else triggers mania then usually I’ll do the same...

I’m basically just wondering if it’s not actually during the big sad people have an issue and if it’s during the rest of the time? :’)