I have been extremely lonely for as long as I can remember, nobody has ever shown any interest in me in my whole life and it makes me feel like utter shit. I have accomplished nothing and everything I do I fuck up, no matter what it is. I’m failing college I owe money to the student dorm that I am supposed to pay before I leave (which I don’t have). I am an abomination to this world, my mental health has never been worse and I am actually thinking about ending my life. I don’t have anybody I can talk to because I ruined all my friendships and I can’t live with myself anymore. And if that wasn’t enough I am on the verge of alcoholism and in love with a person who rejected me and even though it has been a few months since that happened I still can’t stop thinking about them and imagining scenarios about us being together and them being deeply in love with me. I don’t know how to get myself out of this and I am not sure if I ever will.