 Lately I have more and more bouts of sadness and crying.  I do not want to live.  I'm 22 years old and I feel like I have wasted my life.  I feel that I will achieve nothing.  I do not believe that what will help me.  I don't want to do anything, change anything.  I'm ugly, I'm invisible.  people don't like me. I'm introwert, shy, pessimistic and aware that life will not be happy for them.  People give me hopeless advice like "go freaks to therapy (I don't have money for it"), cut hair, buy clothes.  Clothes do not change my unacceptable character.  Cut hair will not change my ugly, not in the canon, face.  I live hoping that the next day will be the last.