I really want to try to be on some medication again. I always was against it because you hear how terrible big Pharma is, which could be true, but when taken responsibly may make a huge difference. It's difficult for me to make the time, money, and motivation to get to a physical location , I've seen many websites that offer monthly subscriptions for therapy and prescriptions, but looking at reviews they all seem shady. Has anyone tried any of these online phyciatrists?

It also seems to be a lot cheaper online, I don't have insurance and when I looked into my local options, they want me to pay &gt;$700 for the initial appointment.

I've been on both anxiety and depression pills only as a teenager under my parents insurance, but now I'm realizing at age 25 how drastic they could be in my life. I feel as if I need a budget friendly solution asap, because honestly I may take my life any day now. I'm at least trying to do something about it, but I don't know how I could afford it as a part time worker and non college student. 

I'm only reaching out now because I secretly went out with full intention to end my life today. I want to live, but not if I feel like this all time. I was diagnosed in the past with anxiety and depression, so I guess that's the spectrum I'm aiming for. Please help.