In a nutshell I feel like a mistake. My parents got an arranged marriage, and it has only led to misery for me. My dad neglected to take care of my mom when they first met and let his sister and parents walk all over my mom (basically my mom was a slave to my paternal aunt and grandparents) leading to my mom developing severe anxiety for ~5 years and hypothyroid issues. During those 5 years in which my mom was going through hell, she gave birth to me, and I honestly feel like that’s part of the reason I’m gay. Anyways, my mom healed from her anxiety circa 2008, but then got it again very recently because HER side of her family shunned her because of some stupid fallouts in which my mom again developed hypothyroid issues. So basically, I literally feel like a mistake. My parents are only together because they had children, and one of them is a closeted gay guy going through hell. (No, my parents would not accept my sexuality. Yes, I have tried approaching the subject with them before). My mom is all alone, because neither her own side of the family or my dad’s side of the family care for her. My mom deserves so much better and idk what to do. God, I wish I was just born into a normal family with loving parents and a straight sexuality. But here I am, literally a product of a marriage that wasn’t meant to be. I am entering college this fall, so my fingers are crossed that things will be better for me but idek. How do I cope with this household, how do I cope with being closeted. My heart just aches. For me and my mom. Help.