Is there anything that gets you out of it when it hits? Is there anything that makes it lighter? Is there any way to avoid having it happen?

For me, it’s like I don’t feel like a person inside - excruciatingly empty. And I’m so bored and apathetic it’s painful. And I feel hopeless and helpless and full of despair. Nothing seems to help. I’m just desperate to die all day every day until it passes.

My understanding is it can be reduced in severity and frequency if you can start to find a stable sense of self and build a life that feels meaningful and rewarding.

But I have zero intellectual interests, no hobbies, don’t get much from trying to engage socially or with my senses (food, nature, music, etc). Because of a lack of positive emotions, I don’t have any drive or sense of purpose or goals. Life doesn’t hold much in the way of meaningful moments.

It seems I’m pretty much neutral or in hell. 

Anyone been like this and overcome it? If so, how? I’m 11 years into therapy, including six months of DBT.