I have a manic psychotic episode for 2 years then crashed in a depression the past 2.5 years. The jury is still out I've had episodes in the past but not really any crashes the entire time I've smoked medical marijuana for other issues. So there is a chance this can be drug induced. I was diagnosed years ago, no meds helped and I finally came "out if it", after 2 years. My cognition has taken a severe hit. Went through a ton more medication this time around with the same issues.

So bad, I can't remember the movie I'm currently attempting to watch. When I speak, I mess up my words quite often and I'm just a space case.

I spoke to my therapist today and he made a valid point. There are people with traumatic brain injuries and even individuals that lose parts of their brain and make a full recovery. So how is the bipolar brain (or whatever this is getting a full medical evaluation soon) any different?

Has anyone been in my shoes? I can't even drive because of focus issues and if this is permanent I don't see any hope. 

My psychiatrist took me off everything except my anxiety med since nothing seems to help anyway. 

Any imput would be appreciated, I'm totally void of emotion and this is no way to live.