whenever i feel the circle closing in (i.e. feeling like shit is about to fall apart or spiral out of control again) i have the urge to make a new person and be them instead. i go on a shopping spree for new clothes, cut my own hair and pierce myself, and usually that goes with dropping everything and everyone 

is this a BPD thing?

on another note, has anyone had any sucess with medications? DBT doesnt do enough for me and im sick of being like this. i tried zoloft but it made me really sick