When I say this I mean the good and the bad. If it’s bad such as I get light headed. I think I’m going to die, which causes the little thoughts to one pouring in and makes it so much worse. 

If I feel too good I start thinking that I must be dying and my brains is releasing dopamine because I’m on the brink of death. 

Anything that isn’t my baseline just causes more anxiety and even my baseline is terrible. I’m so used to be miserable that any little deviation is the end in my mind.