Lately things have been extra difficult and trying to differentiate logical feeling and bpd/bipolar thinking is hard. I work two jobs and take an online class so I get one day off per week, sometimes two. I spend those days doing things with or for my family so I don’t get to have a rest day. My brain has reached the point that I can’t think besides making work based decisions (not sure if that makes sense). If people ask me anything that includes creative thinking or memory I genuinely cannot come up with an answer. I had my medicine upped because I also have been experiencing depersonalization-derealization. I’ve always experienced this during stress but never knew it wasn’t “normal”. I don’t have anyone to talk to about it either, my best friend is bipolar but it seems as though she can vent to me but when I vent to her she is bored and doesn’t care much. Even right now my thoughts are fuzzy and I feel like I don’t have control of myself. Just wanted to rant and I guess just be able to say these things and not have to watch someone look at me like I’m crazy or not care at all.