Never when I was younger would I think I'd spend my 30s in isolation crying myself to sleep every night

I moved just before lockdown from a really expensive city to a cheaper city. Thought I would make new friends and maybe find a partner finally. Put down some roots

I just want to die after all this quarantine time. I'm so lonely. I don't see any solution. Moving is expensive and stressful and my mental health is so fragile. I feel so trapped in this painful isolation.

I try... But it never makes a difference. Anyone I try to be friends with doesn't care that much because they spend 99% of their time with their spouse anyway so they're not lonely. I spend 99% of my time alone and I am dying mentally.