Yesterday my doctor told me that he wanted to do an inkblot rest on me later this year. Out of curiosity I went and read a bit about it. But then all of a sudden I started to doubt whether or not I was trying to fake schizophrenia. I got diagnosed a few months ago, so I technically have a schizophrenia diagnosis, but sometimes I wonder if I actually have it.
I read that someone trying to fake schizophrenia would choose bizarre responses to the inkblots and I think some of my interpretations are very different from the normal results. But now I have no idea if I'm trying to make them bizarre on purpose. In one of them I do see the panther that everyone sees but the whole picture makes much more sense as a set of organs. I suppose that the correct reply then would be to say organs rather than panther?

This is all very confusing, I wish I hadn't googled it. I'm not sure what to do now when I show up for the test in a few months.