Hi there
So I'm a 17 y/o female with 3/60 (20/400) eyesight in one eye (legally blind) and fully blind in the other. It's been the root cause of my anxiety for years and on/off depression. 
Lately, it seems all I'm doing is crying. I can't read something? I cry. My laptop isn't working and I can't access things? I cry. It's so infuriating because the lizard part of my brain is saying "give up". 

I also know that I refuse any type of help until I blow up and in the process make a fool of myself. 

I have a meeting to discuss next steps for maths because I'm struggling with print in class on Monday (tomorrow) and I *know* I'm going to cry. 

The only way the teachers found out was because I asked to go on a walk and blew up into tears. Bell went and I went home. Napped for 14 hours and felt shittier than before because I acted like a bitch to my teacher and never said WHAT the issue was. My reaction lately isn't going numb it's crying even though my vision has been like this for ALL MY LIFE. It's like bam - *fuck you*. 

I'm so tired of the waterworks. I'm tired of my eyesight. I'm tired of not being able to do things. I'm tired of the depression that seems to be in a package deal with this shit. Anyway. I don't even know. I just needed to rant. 

Where do I go from here