(Some background, 
{I’m 22, I’m a mom to a little boy, I have no friends or close family except my mother and my brother who is schizophrenic and I have a very supportive partner but I’m not happy with him because I feel like I’m ruining his life...

I feel like I’m a horrible person, like I’m so fucked up in the head... I feel so ashamed of who I am and I feel worthless. A few years back I wanted to do so much in my life and little by little my anxiety and depression pretty much made it all impossible for me.. I feel stupid because there are people out there who have much more worse health conditions or other really crippling health conditions and they still manage to get through it but I’m really at the point where I just want to give up. And I feel fucked up about wanting to give up because I have a little boy who needs me but my anxiety has gotten to the point I can’t function as a normal human being, I’ve been given medications I’ve been in therapy since basically the age of 10 (I’m 22) and it’s done nothing.... I feel hopeless I’ve feel like I’ve reached the point where I’ve tried everything.... I’m in a relationship that I’ve tried to throw away multiple times because I feel like such a burden, I live off of the government and it’s something that I didn’t want to rely on forever because I wanted more for my self I wanted so much more and I feel so worthless I’m so tired of waking up like this every morning I’m so tired of not knowing how to express my self to people I’m so tired of feeling like I have to run away from something when I’m doing the things I want to do it’s to the point that I’ve convinced my self that I am lazy that I rather sleep my life away then actually do anything with it. The thoughts they never seem to stop and they are always so negative I’m constantly judging my self it’s fucking hell I feel weak and tired all the time mentally drained lost confused how can one continue to live like this......