That was scary in itself but deep down my inner self kept telling me to stop being so dramatic. That I shouldn’t be taking up time and tests.  

Then when I admitted being scared my husband said ‘if it’s positive treat it like terminal and that way you can write down all the stuff you say about when you’re dead’ when I reacted badly he said how ironic it was I have suicidal thoughts most of my adult life but now I’m scared in case I die of something like this because it would be out of my control!??!

I think that’s probably true but he didn’t have to say it out loud to me right?
Also sorry I’m in no way making less of how serious the virus is so apologies if triggering or is not allowed on here (quite new to this group)