Why I have put other feelings first? Why is it always "think how that person would feel or think". Why can't I just live my life? Why can't I put myself first with out people making me feel bad. Why am I  always an after thought. Why is it I have always tried to do the right think yet I never get a "good job".  I see people being congratulated for getting out of jail getting congratulated for being 30 days , 1 year 2 years etc sober ( wich are all great accomplishments) yet I have never been in trouble with the law or addicted to alcohol or drugs, buying I even bring that fact up I'm an asshole. I am not suicidal but when people see I am depressed they say dont do anything stupid think about all the people you would upset and leave behind. Do people realize when they say that they are basicly saying others feelings ga matter more than yours?