I've been in bed for about 5 weeks, I get up to use the bathroom, and occasionally eat or shower, but other than that I'm mostly in bed.
This bed so uncomfortable, I have back problems, laying here ruined me, I'm in pain all the time, I'm hungry, I close the blinds so there's no sunlight. But I can't get up.
I woke up extremely weak a few nights ago, I wondered if it the lack of sunlight so I called a to consult a medical professional, they said "get yourself to urgent care" so I went and they took my money and told me they can't do anything and "got yourself to the ER", so I did, and I waited for 5 hours until finally at 3am I got to see someone who said "I can't help you". I can't be admitted cause I'm not suicidal, I'm not exactly malnourished or fatigued enough to need hospitalization either, I'm waiting on a psychiatrist appointment in a month, that's when I start my therapy but until then I'm on my own. So I crawled back into this shitty bed.
I'm sick of this room, I hate the darkness that I stare into all day everyday. I miss my friends, who all probably hate me cause I didn't return their texts or pick up their calls when I first stopped going out. I went to class one time 2 weeks ago and one of them said "you need to man up, you can't keep mssing class"
I can't help it. I'm scared.