Does anyone else feel way better when they're just by themselves? No boyfriend, no relationships.

Sometimes I wonder if all of this is worth sacrifying myself, if I should just stop trying so hard becoming someone I'm not and start traveling the world solo (again).

I read a book once (unfortunately I can't remember the name) and it said that BPD is the only personality disorder that doesn't show when you're in a room by yourself.

What are your thoughts about this?

Ps: UGH. What a lonely life this bpd can cause, it really sucks so much.