I’ve been in therapy for years and I’ve done so much research into my own condition.  But everything I’ve learned and practiced can’t make my pain go away. I have all the dbt skills in my tool box and I utilize them on a daily basis. I’m also on medication, since I study pharmacology and I know how the medication I’m taking is supposed to work or not work. I’ve developed a comprehensive treatment plan with my psychiatrist but so far everything we’ve tried failed to deliver satisfying results. When I’m in an episode the only thing dbt does for me is keeping me from doing dumb shit but it doesn’t ease the pain. I’ve communicated this with ppl in my life and my therapist but none of them have anything to offer that I haven’t tried already. It’s so dumb that the only thing that can make my pain go away is my fp’s hug. I really need someone to tell me what I’m doing wrong bc so far I’ve done everything I was supposed to do and my condition just keeps getting worse.