Hello all. I don’t exactly know how to explain this because I’ve never in my 19 years of existence experienced this type of feeling towards anyone before, but I live in a group home style place for homeless youth, and some of the kids here who used to be my friends are really starting to piss me off, to the point where I feel overwhelming irritation and anger and the desire to just beat the crap out of them. There was an incident last night where everyone started screaming and cussing each other out because another kid was having a seizure and I felt this anger than I’ve never felt before build up in me because I just wanted everyone to shut up.

I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder a while ago, and the first thing the mental health professional here told me about when I explained the situation to her was something called “BPD rage.” I don’t know what it is or what to do about it, but I know that after what happened last night, I could possibly cause the girls physical harm in the future if I don’t remove myself from the group home for a little while. I have an appointment coming up this month to get my medications, but until then I’m very concerned about having another outburst.

I’ve been wanting to go to the hospital for a while now, but I don’t know what to tell them. I don’t want to tell them I feel like hurting someone because then they’ll arrest me. I need to manager this anger someone but I have nowhere else to go but the hospital. What should I do?