so my boyfriend went camping this week and we both knew that wifi would be a problem. know he is a support system for me helping with my medication, eating, diabetes crap. but this weekend was a way to “prove myself” that i can do it on my own ( his words ). so this weekend yeah i missed him but i’m living. doing me and kinda just chilling. but he is off the walls. ( i’m the one with bpd btw ). so him and i are always talking usually on ft due to him living so far away. but because he was gone this weekend i wanted to ft and talk to other friends. so i was on ft with a friend of mine for maybe 5 hrs in total, and he flipped out. saying i was replacing him and that i don’t care that he’s gone and all of that.  so i had to give a dumbass excuse for having to hang up on ft and cancelled my plans with her to hang out. ( i’ve been in this fucking house all weekend ). i understand him feeling like this, but he was on full out freak out mode. and it’s hard for me to handle because i will repeatedly say the truth and get blocked out. and i’ve been doing good this weekend. 

new subject ig
diabetes -
so i have a device that connects to my phone and tells me what my blood sugar is at the time. now my mother,father, and my bf are able to see the same info as me. but if it’s high or low he feels the need to tell me. when i already took care of it. now i have talked to him about backing tf off but this is just me venting so