Its been a long while ago, since my demons wanted to come out. But I think they are knocking against the door again. Lately, I feel so deeply unloved. I am a very kind and loving person, never lied, always wanted the best for the people I love... but... the love I want to give. No one wants that. Maybe I am ugly? Hm - well no I don't think I am that ugly. Right now, I have this huge crush on someone who isn't avaible. Since we both started to talk, I felt very connected to him and fell for him very fast. But guess what? Dude don't feel the same for me. I don't know. It makes my heart ache and my demons growl. I am still trying to keep that kind and loving persona upright, but everytime... I get my heart broken over and over again and honestly? It makes me want to puke that kindness out of me and only keep the bad and insane. I don't know what I should do anymore. I want to give them free rein. I know no one loves me and cares for me. So why not turn into this bloodthirsty monster I always was?