I have stopped invisioning a future bcuz i keep getting the feeling there never will be one. Im trauma bonded and despite knowing it keep getting involved with people who rip my heart apart. My mum doesnt allow me therapy or help and i dont earn. Now im unable to sleep and get so cold all of a sudden. Im facing bowel incontinence its become a forever thing. Is there a medicine i could purchase? Or is there no way out? Please someone help if possible