i’m in an extreme dissociative state. i feel like there is a barrier between me and the world. it feels fuzzy and muffled. i’ve been extremely impulsive and self-destructive, using credit cards too much and just not caring what happens to me. ive wanted to do drugs, like psychedelics, but i know it will be bad for me. i’ve had bad mood swings recently. i have quiet bpd, so i tend to have fits of rage to my self, but i have been trying sooo hard not to lash out at my bf or friends for minor inconveniences. im very hypersensitive. taking things out of proportion. my psychiatrist is going to put me on anti-psychotics soon. im not sure how to cope with my impulsive, self-destructive, and dissociative behavior. i don’t have any active su*cide plans, but i also don’t care what happens to me. what would be helpful to deal with this episode? any advice would be appreciated ;^;