I truly do believe I’m capable of overcoming a lot of my struggles.. I’ve dealt with a lot but I can’t seem to get over loneliness and the lack of affection. It feels like a physical need, but it’s stronger than anything else. I’ve gotten over some addictions and they weren’t nearly as bad as getting over not having someone. 

When I’m in a period of my life where I do have someone, I feel this bliss that nothing else has ever come close too. It feels like what I needed my whole life. but thats out of my control and that shit never works out for me. 

But I feel like no one will ever take this seriously. It’s a silly thing to be upset about, I get that. Of course theres other shit thats going on but this is what ive care about most my whole life. It annoys me that this had to be my predicament because it’s damn embarrassing. I get why people wouldn’t take it seriously. I just need someone to hear my words because I feel powerless right now. 

Honestly I just want a solution that doesnt exist. I want as many people to hear me until someone figures something out. and i know that wont happen but if i dont try im gonna feel worse. srsly fuck this tho man im tired of feeling everything