For the first time in my life, I don't have a particular external problem: I have no illness and don't have to take care of an ill family member, I am living away from parents and with someone I love, I don't have to study, I don't have to work, there is absolutely no pressure on me to do anything. 
But that's the funny part: I have severe internal issues. I am depressed, I don't want to do anything, I don't enjoy anything, lately I have been struggling to be productive, I feel like there is no obstacle in front of me, but myself. 
I can't even understand myself either. I used to have A LOT of problems and I was truely fucked up, but now all those problems are resolved. I don't have a particular problem, then WHY THE FUCK DO I FEEL LIKE CRAP ALL THE FUCKING TIME?? 
I feel like I don't belong to anywhere. I feel like I'm someone extra, like... If I didn't exist, it would have been better. Living is a burden and I don't have the energy to carry it. 
I feel like shit.