I keep overthinking it’s my fault my ex ended things with me. I was suffering with performance anxiety and it affected her. I still think it’s my fault, I was trying so hard everyday and I was seeing a councillor, doctors many times, blood tests, came off my anti depressants which was the cause and it got in my head. She didn’t want to speak to the councillor when I asked if she wanted too. She lost confidence and so did I. She hated herself and didn’t want to have sex with me. It’s been 4 months since the breakup now I’m a lot better, everything is but I’m still thinking what if. She fell out of love with me last month and she was horrible to me the last month of being together. She said after the breakup she wasn’t part of the problem and it was mine which really hurt. We communicated but not at best of times because I would get down or angry in the relationship. The more time we spoke about it, it would make it worse, pressure on me. I know she was struggling. I was trying and I wouldn’t of walked away. She’s asked once after the breakup how I’ve been, we even had sex. She went cold and used me because she had new mates here in Liverpool (she only had me and moved into a new flat with her new mates in august). When she “realised” how she felt but couldn’t tell me her feelings changed or that she or I changed to my face. She said she cared about my feelings so she couldn’t tell me. No I was breaking down in front of you and you couldn’t say anything else to save your own guilt