Sorry I am venting yet again. Just go off the phone with my mother and things starts to feel so stressful again. 
My estranged family when my parents separated when I was in high school my mother took me in with her as I’m the youngest. My brother is in college supported. This post is going to be long and trigger warning.

When I’m taken I thought it’s for the better as I’m being bullied at school.
Things didn’t worked well in this high school either being new isn’t cool, I still remember how terribly anxious I was but so hungry I had to eat my food in the toilet. 
I didn’t have friends and when I finally did, my mom took me away again and send me to another school. Not her fault we’re just so fucking poor.
My mom works so many hours but money is not spent well, and I now know it’s because she is sending it all off to my adult brother and he’s mismanaging all the money. 
Now my siblings think that I have all the responsibilities to take care of my mom just because I’m single.
I didn’t choose to be single it’s just that I have mental illness and it’ll be unfair to be with someone like me.
I didn’t want to think I want to have kids. 
Because of the separations caused me, and the poor life I’ve lived in teenager life, I didn’t have a big foundation mentally that I’m still suffering with self image and depression and anxiety and poor social skills I never grow up, I have the mind of a 15 years old immature since I didn’t have any friends! 
But when I finally achieved to be on my own with help of some organization, I am able to get into a dorm and then later moved to my apartment.
It’s my my fucking fault that I’m single and that my siblings think I hoard all my mothers money that I’m a spoiled brat when I’m with her!
I was severely depressed and it’s true for years I’ve been living with my parents house! Guess what not a single fucking dime my parents give me since I take student loans to pay my own bills and food, the food I eat they cook Is what I have. 
Yes my stepfather loves me so he bought me food and clothes. Other than that my mother never gives me any money.
My siblings think that I’m such a brat that I should take care of my elderly mother.
I didn’t think my sister will backstab me the way bullies do to me. 
I can never trust anyone on this planet not even my own sister.
She told my brother that I’m selfish because I didn’t want to take my mom in my apartment.
I didn’t want to because I’m trying to change decades of lifeless with her. In my teenager years all I remember was just us arguing, yelling fighting I remember this one splitting headache as if I’m going to die because how angry I was. My anger issue just stems from her raising me like a 12 years old. I love my mom no doubt but the way she treats me is not the way I should be raised.
She comes home from work using me as her therapist. A 14 years old I felt helpfless and where depression started to the point I didn’t want to go to school and can’t concentrate on homework and being a child but instead finding ways to make a living.
Most of my clothes came from Salvation Army. I’d get one pair of pants for school and I’d only spent 2 years in school past that since I dropped no more daily allowance. So I’d sit at home in my computer or read books.
My siblings thinks badly of me that I’m so selfish.
Like I said it’s a shared responsibility my mom choose to live with them and I choose to have a life of my own. 
Just because I’m childless and unmarried doesn’t mean I can’t have my own life!
I’m finishing school and want to earn a better living not sticking to working on 15 hours shift all years of my life.
Being a student and full time work is so hard.
If my mom lives with me I don’t have a fucking mental strength to deal with anything I’ll just probably go lie in train tracks and wait for the train to take me.
On top of this stress at work, co worker is being so toxic and spreading lies about me with everyone just because she’s popular and she hates me.
It’s not my fucking fault she is missing work all the time just cuz she have to take care of her child.
To make herself feel better she is bullying me and telling lies to manager so she can cover her ass not get fired for absenteeism.
I’m just so fucking tired.