There is no me. 

Just a bunch of "personalities", thrown together over the years to adapt and get by. Mostly to be left in peace, and to gain some sort of acceptance, and mainly to avoid the opposite.

I'm a mirror. All that you see is a reflection of yourself, and I know self-loathing all too well. 

Abandonment issues have left me constantly worrying about whether people I care about secretly hate me and are about to be out of my life. Can't stab me in the back, if I'm never in range.

It's much easier to be alone. But then I'm just an empty mirror. I like socializing. I like connection.

When I hear people backtalk other people, most of the time I'm thinking "Yep, I've been, done or said something similar at some point". 

It's not that I always want to be liked, or agree with everyone's opinions. Sometimes judgements don't matter, sometimes they lead you to great experiences and sometimes the opposite. hard to explain.

Thanks.