Ive had a good job since November, my own apartment, an amazing SO, and my puppy. But it all feels like. Feels like I'm watching a TV show from my own head. It's all too good to be true and I've been fighting the need to ruin it before it all implodes anyways. I'm already starting to call of work more, libido is gone and I don't even feel like I'm here. I'm just waiting for this life I've built to come crashing down like it always does.