I'm 22yo and the woman I'm going on a date with is around the same age. We've been trying to go on a date for 2-ish years now but it never happened because of my mental health. Recently, I felt ready to date and asked her out, but in retrospect I still don't feel ready. I am panicking so much at the moment.

I can't cancel on her, I've done that too many times already. I'm so nervous, from childhood since now there's so many traumatizing things that happened. I *just* started therapy for complex trauma, and I'm scared because my whole life is huge gaps, and some things that aren't gaps (things I like to do, see, read, listen to) I can't talk about, because it triggers traumatizing events for me.

I have no clue what to talk about, I have no clue if I'll just sit there in silence due to being depressed. Pleaseee give me tips