I'm looking to get into a DBT group when I can, but for now I have the official Linehan worksheets. Should I just try to go through them? I've found them confusing and kind of hard to focus on, but I also have untreated ADHD. I tried that green workbook that's popular but I found it triggering particularly with how it talked about SH and sex. Any other recs or should I just pick worksheets in the manual and try to go through them? 

And as for the self hate (wouldn't be a /r/BPD post from me without it), how the fuck do you not decide you're horrible and isolate from everyone when you see posts about how evil and abusive mentally ill and/or BPD people are every damn day