I can’t find the words for some reason. I don’t want to die but I do. Disappear. I wish I could escape. Get out of my head for a while. Go away and maybe never come back. 

The more I think the more I cry and the lower I feel. Sinking deeper and deeper. Darkness is all I see. The surface is too far away. I keep coming to the conclusion that i should cut myself. Or maybe burning myself would feel better. Idk what’s stopping me anymore. Maybe it’ll help