Since childhood I’ve always been alone. My parents neglected me and I was often alone. Even at school nobody truly liked me, I was excluded and faced some racesim as well (I’m a black girl btw) Due to this I became a people pleaser and trying to change myself to become someone people might like but it never worked. People just treated me shitty and I always blamed myself. Like if people didn’t like me since birth, their must be something wrong with me. But now I’m 16 and I truly never experienced the teenager life, going out, boys, having fun and even having my first kiss. I feel like I’m frozen in time while everyone evolves, try new things, experience but I’m always the same. I feel like I’m going to be alone forever and that scares me. I don’t wanna the same person every day for the rest of my life. I don’t know what to do honestly