I really wish I had a friend...not in a good place right now. I'm spiraling down, catastrophizing. I really wish I had someone who cares about me to hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay because right now I feel like no matter what I do nothing is ever going to get better. I work so hard to try to make my life better but I can't win. Everything turns to shit. I don't belong anywhere. People hate me. I'm so scared I'm going to end up homeless. I have no control over making my life better. I just want to not be in pain anymore. I'm so tired and lonely all the time with no one to talk to about my problems. I have to deal with all of my problems alone.