over three years ago i was dumped by my partner of 4 years in a very sudden fashion and the entire situation was world-shattering to me. it still haunts me to this day, and gives me reoccuring bouts of sadness and paranoia. then, in february of this year, my ‘best friend’ left me to rekindle with my ex, and i crumbled all over again.

i shy to call these scenarios trauma, but the emotional pain and distress i endure every day makes me wonder differently. i can’t go a day without thinking about it, as badly as i try. it truly haunts me.

if its not trauma, what is it? how can i better describe it? thank you in advance.