**Trigger Warning

This is not some attention getter but I truly am struggling. I’ve been planning to kill myself today for about the past week and a half or so. I’m scared because all the other times I’ve failed and I’ve had to live with the shitty consequences after.

My mom told me to “get the fuck out of my face” tonight so I want to be like, well, your wish is my fucking command. Here you go. Out of your face. FOREVER. I don’t like my mom very much, she is why I am the way I am and I’m struggling to forgive her. I don’t know why I’m posting on here. I guess I just needed to get it out. I’ve really sunk back into my self and haven’t been on here as much recently and I find it helps to know people think the same things as I do.... I do feel so “crazy” or alone.

I really just want it all to end, so badly. I would start a DBT Group tomorrow but I just don’t know what I want to do. I know it’s so fucked up and only you guys will understand.

Thank you so much for listening. 