I’m finally in a relationship where i’m happy and i’m completely comfortable with him. He knows about my BPD and Bipolar and he’s also got Bipolar, but i’ve tried to explain my feelings and the way my mind is working, and he seems to just not really understand. I’ve become irrationally angry with him already, even when I could sense it being over the top and unneeded. I know what’s hurtful and what’s not, but I still feel out of control. He asked me why i’m so mean today multiple times and I chose to sleep in a separate room from him tonight because I didn’t want to suffocate him, and now I’m spiraling thinking about everything I’m doing wrong. I want to apologize for everything and be a completely different person so it never happens again, but that’ll never be possible unless I can be cured. I’m tired of always shredding my relationships and causing so much discourse for myself. Is anyone else feeling just not good enough for their SO?