 

Writing this quick but

my girlfriend is going to commit suicide soon. i can't deal with trying to figure out if she's going to be okay or not it's too stressful i want to break up with her soon.

but if i do she will go in a frenzy since she has mental issues and will most likely hurt herself, she has self harmed recently and just today tried to down a bottle of pills but i stopped her she keeps making me promise to make sure i'd look after her mother and dog when she does it, has tried to call out to legal suicide places in switzerland and canada to help with assisted suicide.

just to mention she has adhd and finds it hard to concentrate and possible BPD if she does its quite extreme, has alot of mood swings

i've tried talking to people when she attempted before i called the guards (irish police) they were help then they said next time call an ambulance instead which is plan on doing as well as telling CAHMS and her GP before i break the news. me and her breaking up wouldn't be a reason for suicide.

her parents doesn't help she is polish and they are very strict emotionally and doesn't really understand or believe her. i'm sick of her life being put on my hands. it's stressful and i just want to not worry about her anymore because i'm feeling worse because of it and then if something happens to her i wouldn't be able to live with myself plus i love and care for her and her health.

I have my final state exams soon i just cant focus.

shes abusive mentally and sometimes physically

brings the worst out of me, destroys me mentally

i want her to get help and to not be my "problem" but i do love her its just stressful worrying about her mental health all the time. as i speak she hung up after she was cutting up a razor blade to self harm. she doesn't use suicide as a excuse if i leave she just tells me she wants to and makes subtle hints about how she wants to or will soon and when she has melt downs she leaves the house so i put a tracker on her phone to make sure i know where she is but i don't want to do this anymore.

I live in Ireland, Shes 17, Im 18 \*M\*

She is going therapy and camhs \*child mental health services\* here in ireland all of which are not helping her.

talking to her parents wont help either as her dad isn't there and her mum disregards her issues because of her up bringing.

help me i need a way to be able to make sure she will be okay and not have to hurt myself in this process.

im afriad ill turn out like she is.

if i call an ambulance she wont be able to sit her exams and if she gets out and didnt do her exams which is huge for her she will definitely do something.

help me please. i need someones advice, i had a gps on her but she blocked me at some point and it turned off and now i never know where she is this is horrible.