I’ve been feeling so empty and unimportant for 
months, maybe even a year. While it hasn’t gotten better per se, I’ve learned to deal with it and it just make me sad and empty inside. I think one of the worst things to ever happen to me recently was the fact that my only parent who I had growing up decided to move away to another country and forget about me, start a whole new family there and tell me that I’m old enough to understand. I’ve always had abandonment issues from my mother leaving me as a child and now that my dad, the person I felt most protected and cared for by, has left me too makes me want to kms. It just fucking sucks. Ofc I have great days and there’s so much to life and I do have a life worth living but I genuinely just feel like shit. I’ve been an independent kid for as long as I could remember but it’s all just coming down on me all at once and I wish that SOMEONE in this world would truly love me and care for me the way I truly love and care for other people. I just feel so forgotten about and I wish I was someone’s first choice or that I was slightly important to someone.