after everything I’ve been through lately I feel like my disappearance or death wouldn’t matter to those closest even when they claim to love me , as I grow older and older I realize how much action genuinely speaks of those around you .. I use to cut and my bf who currently just decided to leave me for a married woman use to tell me he’d leave if I cut or became to depressed and here I am feeling and fighting the urge to go numb just a little to release the pain .. how can I cut without anyone noticing I’m an adult now so I guess it would be embarrassing right ?