
I 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 that I need more help. And I probably need to go inpatient because I have a plan and intent to kms. But I don't want to get behind in classes. And I need to plan for stuff after graduating. Which doesn't even fucking make sense because i don't even want to be alive. 

Not even  that I want to die, just to stop existing &amp; feeling this way all the time. But idk what else to do at this point, I'm so tired. I'm so torn between if I should go in and risk the consequences of that or just kms bc I just want it to stop 

Ugh.