I was recently diagnosed with bipolar 1, my dr wanted to put me on mood stabilizers and taper off my wellbutrin as it’s been heightening my mania quite a bit. I convinced myself I should stay on the antidepressant instead and don’t need mood stabilizers at all because if the depression is being treated what could go wrong right? I was seriously wondering how no one else had figured out this genius idea yet. After being euphoric for quite awhile I’ve now been thrown into a dysphoric mixed episode, lots of switching between irritable to sad to angry and I am extremely suicidal while still having all the energy to actually carry it out. I’ve been pacing around the house and trying not to hurt myself for the majority of the day. Definitely having a lot of regrets about my previously genius idea. I now have to wait for my dr to put the order in for the prescription and in the meantime I’m trying to keep myself from being hospitalized, I have too much going on in my life for that right now but if circumstances were different I would probably already be on my way there. Any advice on how to make it through this would be greatly appreciated, I know it’ll be over eventually but I would like to stop feeling like I want to crawl out of my own skin