I can’t help but find myself stuck in a crippling state of depression that I can’t escape. My mind is like mush and I can’t remember or recall anything and every day feels like one big, long and boring day. I don’t want to feel like this anymore but I’m also worried about who I will be without the sadness and emptiness as it’s all I can now remember being/feeling. I feel like I’ll feel like this forever especially after seeing how the world actually is; painfully mundane and depressing. Even the “good” things are short lived and to be quite frank underwhelming. I find reality so plain and in a way cringe. Is this the result of becoming too aware of how reality truly is? Idk but I’m really fed up with myself. I can’t and don’t want to do anything but sleep bc for me the world is too much and not for me.