I'm going camping/canoeing this weekend and I want to be excited about it but I just can't make myself. I feel terrified about it. It's going to be hot, I'm fair skinned, and there will be physical labor that I haven't done in months. I'll be with my boyfriend and 2 close friends who are very understanding and patient with me. I'm over prepared in that I have a lot of sun screen and protective clothing for my body. But I really don't want to go and I'm just terrified that something bad is going to happen to me. :(

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I fuckin' hate this feeling. My boyfriend is sooo excited about it because he's such an outdoorsy man so it's hard for me to talk about it with him too much because I don't want to be a buzzkill... I am so dreading this and I want so badly to be excited about it.