Every time I have an episode I always want to send a long paragraph to my FP or just talk to somebody about it but if I do end up venting to them I am overwhelmed by a sense of regret and embarrassment and inevitably shut down to the point I can’t even open the messages they send me wether it be supportive or not. I will leave it for a while and I’ll forget I was even sad so I can’t properly express how I feel. Does anybody else have experience in this and could maybe give advice on dealing with this?