I’ve taken 3 different antidepressants over the years and haven’t had the best of luck with them. Zoloft turned me into an overweight zombie. I had a terrible time with Effexor a couple of years ago. Dizziness, sweating, such bad withdrawal I thought I’d never get out of bed. I’m worried because of my previous experiences that I’ll have bad side effects and withdrawal. I’m also worried about weight gain because I’ve had some issues with food in the past. Mostly I’m just not sure I want to start the cycle of trying a bunch of new meds again. My doctor says we just have to try and see what sticks because everyone reacts differently. My therapist does think I need to get on something but isn’t pushing me. I thought therapy and time would help me but it isn’t helping my motivation. Right now I’d be ok with lying around doing absolutely nothing and talking to no one. But the thought of getting on meds again makes me anxious.