My mom started drinking a lot tonight but it's pretty typical and it makes my anxiety spike because i dont want to deal with her being drunk and i try to ignore it. It's an every night thing and it drives me fucking insane and i have spring break right now so i try and go out every night to avoid it but tonight i was stuck inside dealing with her and ive been shaking and crying since like 6 pm. 

I cant deal with her drinking anymore and home doesnt feel like home at night and i just want to fucking scream my ass off at her and take all of her wine bottles and smash them on the ground and tell her to go fuck herself 

I just wish i had a different family sometimes