My dad is a narcissist who controls everyone’s lives and my mom does nothing but enable him and yell at me when I don’t agree with him.

I’ve never had an emotional connection to either of my parents. Telling my dad “I love you” is the most awkward thing. My parents “love” is so conditional. They don’t care if I’m happy. They’ve ruined all my relationships. 

I feel like I look for love everywhere but I’m too scared to open up to anyone because they’ll just leave me. I have no one and I’m so sad and empty. I just want someone to actually care about me for once.