I'm diagnosed BPD. My husband asked for a one week break today. He wants me to think about my dramatic behavior. He says I rarely respect him and what he wants. Which is true I guess. I treat him like shit. I split, I say awful things when I'm upset. He says I don't know what it's like to be the one receiving the shit I throw.           

So I split on him. I blocked him everywhere and I don't know what to do. I keep hinting that I want a divorce. He tries to help me but I feel like I'm being molded into someone I can't be. Nicer, feeling less hate, less splitting.          

I so sick of being told I'm this and that. Too angry. Too mean. How does he think I'm feeling knowing my own husband wants a one week break from me?