Trying to figure out what I can do about it. Been a problem on and off for like 15 years.

Seems to go away completely when I am in a relationship or at least interested in someone all though then the problem becomes a difficulty in connecting with that person emotionally or intimately , but life itself seems to become fun again.

Outside of that I’m just completely bored with life . Video games help me cope but are more of a distraction than truly fun