They don't. I have no self-respect. I either don't share anything--and nobody notices or I overshare and hope someone--anyone listens to me.  People want me to just get over it.

They ask me, "What will make you happy?" 

I don't know. Nothing makes me feel better. All I feel is this constant nothingness. I'm a disgusting awful human being. 

I've been abused physically, mentally and sexually.  I think. I don't know. Sometimes I feel like my parent's behavior towards me might be justified in some way.

When I was like 5 years old, I think I might've acted like a spoiled brat and my relative told my mother that I'll end up hurting her when she gets older, but that my brother is sweet and nice. He'll always support my parents and never hurt them. But I will. Because of my personality. When I was younger I think I might've been really rude. And I feel like it does have some semblance of truth.

My mother has told me to go kill myself. Everyone around me seems to support her and when I was in middle school I had a lot of attitude and i hurt a lot of people. 

My mother says I hold on to grudges. that I always say bad things and hurt her by bringingg up the past abuse she did and that I can't move on. My father supports her. Says I'm evil. My dad got drunk once and said I destroyed his first marriage. 

I feel like everything I do is destructive.