I wake up every day and if I have no messages from anyone, I feel so alone and I feel nobody wants to talk to me, which affects my state of mind for the rest of the day. It's so hard to go from that state of mind to texting people. It gets even worse if nobody messages me throughout the day - I end up feeling lonely to the point where my mind starts going to dark places. IDK why I can't just message people when I'm in this state of mind. I don't mind asking for help, but I don't want someone to talk to me just out of pity. I always feel like everyone's backup friend.

Could really use some advice or words of wisdom if you have any u .u