I’m in graduate school for music performance, and it makes me want to kill myself. The school is constantly fucking me over, mismanaging my academic career, and my private studio teacher is gaslighting me. I have no friends, and no career outlook. My instrument sucks, and every time I pick it up, it makes me want to hurt myself because it’s unplayable. The only way to get a new instrument is to win a job, but the only way to win a job is with a new instrument. I hate it. I hate it all so much. It sucks being so alone with such shitty tools that hold you back, and there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it except take out tens of thousands of dollars in loans. I’m already in debt. I can’t take on any more. 

I just want this to end.