Title says it all, I don’t think burnt out is correct term to cover what I’m feeling. I live with my elderly parents who both need care. Dad recently had heart bypass surgery (he’s changed a lot after the surgery not just physically, but mentally as well). Mother recently was diagnosed with breast cancer, and has been going through chemo treatments. We own a family business and I’ve had to immediately jump in and take a leading position. 

All while I’m dealing with my own demons and depression. I like to fantasize about getting shot or hit by a car, but I know that’s crazy talk. I just don’t have anything to look forward to anymore, nor do I care. I don’t even know what I’m trying to get at here. I just wanted to vent to anyone, I really just don’t give a fuck anymore. This is my life