I’m at the point in my life where I wish I could just drive in my car and one second later it just goes black. When I go to sleep at night I hope I never wake up. I try to make myself feel something by trying to make friends but it never works. I’m so goddamn sad and alone. 

I don’t even know why I am writing this because no one really cares in the end. I guess I just need to vent to someone that really cares. What do I do. Should I finally give up or is there an actual reason to live?