I think i have been depressed for a long time now, maybe all my life. I used to cope with just immersing myself with videogames or media. This year, I decided to try and improve myself because if i dont ill prob end up killing myself in the next year or 2. I have also been trying to date because of my intense lonliness (never been in a relationship) but this has been the biggest mental damage. The cycle of getting excited about a date and thinking it went well to just getting ghosted or rejected is starting to wear me down. This has been making me more lethargic i guess, i havent been able to cope with just games and media anymore. Im trying to do other things like gym and excercise but i just have no energy to do anything, idk i feel so alone. I definitely need new hobbies to distract myself but i cant seem to find anything. Dunno what i want to hear but im just venting cus i just got ghosted from someone i thought i had a real connection with. If u read this thanks i guess lol