It's a bitter pill to swallow, when you realize that despite all the optimistic promises you hear, at the end of the day they cannot make the depression go away. They can help you change your behavior. They can make it so you are an effective drone at the office. They can make it so you can be an effective partner who pops out kids. They can make it so that you are not so unpleasant to deal with. But they cannot make the soul crushing emptiness go away. They cannot make you feel like a human being again. They cannot make the misery stop. They can only make you shut up and learn to live with it. They don't care how you feel. It doesnt matter to them how you feel. Just that you do your work and pay up. 

I will always be miserable, and I dont think I want to learn to live with it.