I am so tired of being strong . Tired of trying and trying again . I feel like nothing is getting better . Like I am falling deeper and deeper inside a deep tunnel that I can’t see any form of light . I am exhausted of people patting my back for how “ strong “ I seem to take hits . I am not strong , I just do what I gotta go to survive .I don’t have anywhere to talk or want so I decided to just write whatever here . I don’t know what to do  I just want to rest . I can’t do this anymore .