There seems to be a universal belief that connections with others (romantically, friendships, etc) is a good thing. It seems like most believe these connections are even necessary to have a happy and healthy life. I feel like this can’t possibly be true for me. Isn’t it possible that some people just aren’t going to do well with connections?

I have tried *so* many times and *so* many ways to find connection. This always ends up with me investing tons of time, effort, and emotional work into the relationship that turns extremely one sided. No one is ever there for me when I need it. My siblings won’t speak to me because I dare show an emotion that’s not happy. My “friends” only respond or talk to me when need to talk about their problems. My parents blame me for being too sensitive and also too aloof. My partners have always ended up cheating on me. How many more times do I need to go down this path? It seems to stupid and foolish at this point, but my therapists insist that I need connections. Why? So I can get shit on more? So I can be abandoned and ignored when I need help? It’s so stupid. If it was anything other than “connections” common sense would say “don’t do that anymore.”