I feel like I’ve always been lonely like chronic loneliness even when surrounded by ppl something was always missing. Now that I am acc alone it feels so so so much worse. I lost all my friends and haven’t made any since I was 16. Yesterday I found out my best friend of 20 years and her boyfriend said they don’t want to be around me and my boyfriend because we’re too intense. It upset me so much and when I talked to her about it she said that I was too much and that it wasn’t fair on her new boyfriend. Last week I tried to kms and she doesn’t even know. My boyfriend agrees that it’s too much for them and they shldnt have to deal with it. It’s like everything my brain tells me over and over was confirmed. Yes you are too much yes everyone’s done with you. Yes your too hard to deal with yes I shld keep it to myself. Yes ppl see you struggling and yes they don’t care. I feel like my heart is hallow.