Hey, this is my first post (sorry for the bad english) and i just wanted to share with you this feeling that i often have and see if anyone else has the same thing. I'm actually not diagnosed (yet) with BPD but i'm seeing a therapist and a doc and they considered it (i had some other illness and it's still not clear which symptoms are caused by each desease but it will pretty likely happen). Anyways i'm not asking for any kind of diagnosis, just to make it clear.
Basically i have this thing for which as soon as i get a little close to someone that person becomes like an open book to my eyes. I feel like i can tell their exact feelings just from how they act, the words they say and the look in their eyes. Then i go with the flow, make them feel comfortable and always succeed in getting closer and closer. Its stupid but i think i had most of my sexual partners only thanks to this ability, because i don't consider myself to be a very charming person but still i realize i'm doing pretty good on that side, much more than i would expect by someone like me. I don't know how it happens, its like i can take some of their emotions and give back some of mine, so they start behaving as i want them to (sorry its really hard to put it into words). It usually happens while being alone with them, getting closer and making a lot of eye contact, maybe hugging them in a particular way or so. Not bragging about it (im anonymous anyways), but all of them always said i am really good at it, not even sex itself but just turning people on. This the field in which it's mainly usefull but i use this "ability" for basically everything, friends, school, even playing cards games etc. Does some of you have the same? Does it happen for real or its just my brain makin it up because i have a really low social self esteem and i interact with people better than i think it'd be possible?
