I've never really talked to anyone about this. I don't really understand it either. Sometimes when I get really upset I'll hit myself (face and legs), bang my head against something, or grab at my face/push at my eyes. I probably started doing this around two years ago, I don't remember it happening any time before that. It doesn't happen often, but it's happened enough that it's a problem. I've bruised myself, very small, underneath my eye from grabbing at my face probably around three times. I think I do it because when I get upset I believe I deserve it. 

I guess I'm finally realizing that this *is* self harm and it's a bigger issue than I originally wanted to believe. I just don't want it to become a bigger problem than it already is, but I'm not sure what to do. I'm really sure why I started doing it in the first place. It's been a bit since it's happened, but I thought about doing it today and I'm finally just done. I want to stop hurting myself for my sake. And I don't want it to become an issue for the people in my life.