It's the worst feeling. To not even have to love someone or be loved.

I'm turning 30 next year.

I've started going gym, improving my life.

But even then. I can't find love.

My ex gf rapist, who also is a pedophile (she was underage) is married, has a kid and has a better paying job.

But me?

No. I have to be alone.

Fuck.

It hurts being alone.

I'm not even that unattractive. Yeah I'm closed off.

But no one? In the 13 years I've been single. Not a single woman.

All this focus on yourself. Love yourself.

It doesn't mean shit. Unless someone else says they love you.

I haven't anyone say they love me. 

That's all I want.

To be wanted.