I keep giving myself deadlines I need to do before dying. First it was finishing uni, then it was finding a job, then it was getting tattoos and so on. I guess that means I keep looking for reasons for living even if they are silly but I continue to find myself in the middle of my depressive episodes where I just don’t want to do anything anymore and would be happy just dying. I’m however scared of re-incarnation and just live life all over again 
- tiny vent