I could have been unhealthy unhealthy but he didn’t seem like a bad person. It’s allowed as 16 is the AOC here but he was still a lazy person, when we “split” it was when he told me he wasn’t into guys anymore and he said he expected me to know that because he told me about a guy he rejected at his work. 

He was cute, respectful and really good to talk to. Idk if I feel guilty for wasting his time, I feel like I was what pushed him off the edge for him to say he wasn’t into guys anymore. Every time I think of it I just want to 13th Reason myself a bit. The age gap was something in the way, we stopped talking months ago after he deleted me on snap because I snapped at him i hate myself. I remember when we were on call and he noticed I was upset because I was very suicidal at the time, he slightly interrupted me and I told him to shut up, I was extremely emotional and depressed at the time, but he understood and listened to me, I felt safe.  We hung out a few times and it was nice to hang out with him, even just calling him was so nice. And now I have no one, i sometimes feel guilty for wasting peoples time, now I have no friends. 

Even worse was that he was my FP.