I got kicked out of my gap year program, I can't talk to anyone I was friends with for legal reasons. I'm staying with my parents, but they don't let me go anywhere because they think I'll do something impulsive. I have no one to hangout with. I'm so tired of books and Netflix. My parents and I are trying to get me into residential treatment, but for now I just want to be put into a coma. Is there anything I can do to give myself joy, to fill my time all by myself? 