This never happened until i (17 F)was 12 when my boyfriend would yell at me or make me feel unloved. (we broke up already) but the feeling that he made me feel, never left.

Me and my best friend got into an argument today (i should note most of my self love and happiness comes from other people) but when we argued i felt really sad and all of a sudden my heart felt like it was being stabbed or squeezed and it made my whole body feel extremely cold to where being in a full blanket wasnt enough warmth. I had to breathe warmness on my arms to be less cold. and the feeling of sadness i had was so unbearable i wanted to die by my own means. like at this point its not even sadness its someting more strong. and i wont stop feeling like shit until he cares about me again.