So, I thought I’d come here and post this, to hopefully give some anxiety sufferers some hope and reassurance that things can get better and it will. 

My health anxiety started badly about 2 years ago, I’m not sure what set it off, but I remember one day seeing a twitch on my leg, any other time I would have taken zero notice, but for some reason I couldn’t get it out my head, I googled it and from then I was convinced I had ALS, from then on I would cry myself to sleep mosts night because I was so certain I was going to die, nothing could change my mind, I had ALS and nobody could change my mind, but it wasn’t just that from then, it was everything, any weird feeling, mark, anything I notice will send me into a evil spiral of panic attacks, depression, begging for reassurance off people that aren’t qualified to reassure me (mum) ringing ambulances when I had chest pain which led to anxiety attacks, which would make the chest pain worse and make the whole situation 10x more worse. I think I’ve made over 30 phone calls to the ambulance service in a couple of months at the peak of my anxiety. There is so many more things I could say about the whole thing, but it would be way too much for anyone to read and I hate reading long posts so I wouldn’t want to make anyone do it. You’re welcome to skip also.

Skip a year and a bit, I am anxiety free, it took a year + of pain, suicide attempts, lost friends, and pure suffering for me to be free again. But I’m here, alive, and for the most part completely anxiety free (I still have my social anxiety moments) but I think that’s just always been me. How? I stopped drinking a lot, I completely stopped all kinds of drugs (unless prescribed) I spoke to the right people, I found the right medication, speaking to someone that educated and been qualified for years can change your life in a couple of phone calls, she was amazing she is an angel and I will forever be thankful. Without the amazing lady who would call me and talk to me (covid so had to be phone calls) I honestly believe I would have topped myself. Anyone that is suffering right now, you can feel better again, you just have to accept the help, find the right help. I refused help for ages and boy do I regret that. There is hope for each and everyone of you, I’ve never been so happy before in my life , the day you wake up and don’t feel anxious is the day you have won. You will all beat it, in your own time, take it steady, my inbox is open for absolutely anyone that needs some reassurance. I’ve had probably every possible physical symptom anxiety can give you. So if you need reassurance please do message me. Thank you, Joseph.