I have enrolled and dropped speech classes every semester due to my horrible anxiety. I thought online would make it easier but I was literally a mess. My whole body was shaking and my voice as well and I was tripping over my words and skipping sections like a maniac. I spoke so fast that I was under the time limit by like 2 minutes. My professor made it even worse. He was like "well everyone but one person made the time limit, I tried to give that person a few seconds to continue but they were done, that will be a huge deduction. I hope you paid attention to their speech and knew what not to do for next time. pace yourself, don't read off cards" etc etc. He literally ripped me apart.

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Like I know I fucked up and it's my fault but those comments were so humiliating and I literally started to cry LOL. When I practiced my speech the week leading up to presenting everything was fine. I reached the time limit and I was calm and collected and I knew what I wanted to say without my flashcards. It's so frustrating and insane how my anxiety literally controls every aspect of my life. I feel like I am falling behind in life :( 

I just wanted to vent about this shitty day and I'm still freaking out about it, so sorry if this doesn't make any sense.