My life feels very weird right now. I feel like things are distorted. I take medication though. I'm feeling very out of it.

I'm not interested in life. I am though at the same time but I just feel like I'm always lost and confused. I fell asleep in the shower and I forgot I was in the shower. I had a hot shower. They make me feel better. I have glitches too where I cant remember words. 

I sleep a lot but also not enough. I sleep through the day and stay awake late at night.

I used to have paranoia or so my psychiatrist said. It comes and goes. I have tons of spiritual experiences too. They make me feel more lost sometimes. I love them. They are ecstasy. But they leave. I can communicate with Angels but only sometimes. When I'm having those experiences I feel like people know and can sense that I am glowing. But with this comes extreme guilt. I'm plagued by guilt. I feel like I'm sinning a lot. 

I'm feeling very emotional lately. I struggle with my emotions. They can be very intense. I'm just in a very weird place right now and I cant even comprehend certain things.