I graduated college in 2019 with a degree in animation and a minor in art.  If you couldn’t tell by that, art is basically my life.  I love being creative and even when I’m told what to do, I can be good at it.  However, I wasn’t successful getting a job in that field after college.  Heck, I didn’t even get an internship.  I remember my professors saying this is a common thing and that to get to my career, I have to work hard.  So I ended up working at a resort restaurant, which is my first ever full-time job.  I honestly don’t know where I WANT my life to go or if I’m ready to work in the big city where my field is at.  I’ve always told myself that working on my skills was what I need to focus on, which is difficult as I’m very perfectionist, but I still feel like I NEED to rush it, which never helps.  

I feel like whatever I try to tell myself is taken as an excuse. It doesn’t matter that I don’t feel ready emotionally or mentally.  It doesn’t matter if my parents are telling me what I’m doing now is okay.  It doesn’t matter when everyone tells me I’m still young (24) and have time.  I can’t convince myself that I’M fine and it makes me anxious nearly EVERY DAY.  I think my standards for myself are impossibly high.

Can someone lend their own advice?  I can’t be the only one who is or has dealt with this before, right?