Recently a counsellor alluded to me having BPD. I did have this thought once  when I was about 14 years old but the therapist told me that I couldn’t possibly be BPD because she ‘would’ve been able to tell the minute I walked in the room’. Since then, I’ve blamed all of the symptoms I experienced on my autism or bipolar diagnosis or hormones. I have been doing some research lately though and I strongly relate to literally every symptom of BPD and I’ve found out that it’s not uncommon to have it alongside bipolar.

I’m thinking about mentioning this to my mental health team when I finally have one. But I’m really conflicted. Supposing I do have this disorder, it’s on top of my bipolar and autism which are already stigmatised. I’ve heard about how the system is with things like this and it’s not good. What I’m also thinking about is that BPD isn’t really curable and something I’ll have to live with for probably the rest of my life. Is it really worth even getting diagnosed?