im moving tomorrow. to another country. i am not mentally well but quite honestly i dont think i ever will be. 

im getting away from my hometown and my living situation. i am terrified. i know im not ready but im never going to be ready and life is passing me by. i am going to live with my good friend and two ok friends/aquaintances. i am worried about the fights and problems that may arise from there. 

im worried about so much and i just know i am going to have a huge meltdown as soon as i get there. my mental health is rapidly declining and i am doing therapy but we've only seen each other a few times and havent started anything yet really.

if i could i would probably just chicken out of this situation but its too late. everything is set and i am leaving. this is the biggest thing ive ever done in my life and i dont think anyone quite understands how scary it is and how huge it is for me to actually procceed with this.

im really scared and could use some support or advice. i took sleeping pills and i feel tired and numb now but i know my anxiety is going to spike. i hope i feel better once i actually get there.