Every time I try to make friends with someone I always lose them. I feel like nobody can deal with my BPD. I just want to find a friend who can understand me, who won't take advantage of me. 

I have met some people who have so much in common with me, who seem nice and caring, but after a little while they see what someone with BPD is like and they just leave. I feel like I will never have a lasting friendship.

I've been going through so much especially today and I have nobody to talk to. It feels so lonely and empty. I see people here who talk about having gf and bf and fp and I just don't understand how they do it. I feel like I must be a monster if even people who go through what I do manage to find anyone and I can't. 