Back in I think 2009 my friends brother shot himself in a room right next to us. Some days the thought that scene comes by my head. Literally had half his head blown off and his eyes looked puffy like they were gonna blow up. All that blood and hearing my friend screaming just digs at me randomly. What do yall do or think about when some real negative shit crosses your mind? I can usually drink the thought away but tonight that whole scene wont go away from my head. I'm listening to me favorite music in my headphones on full blast but it wont go away.