Man it socks!
Every two or three years I'll wake up at a random night with a panic attack and then it stays like that for quite some time. The last one a few years back was an episode of four or five months.
Now I'm five weeks in again.

I'm trying to use all my tools. I go to bed super early with the kids and sometimes sleep at 8:30pm.
I've managed to wake up at 6am and not at 4am now at least. Or at least falling back asleep at 4am. 

I don't know. I've been in therapy for three years once or twice a week now and really thought I was done for good with this crap.

I feel overwhelmed, anxious, beaten, defeated, burned out. Etc etc...

Some morning thoughts.