My boyfriend broke up with me two days ago. We had been together nearly 2 years, lived together and he was my best friend and the love of my life. He broke up with me due to too many arguments and being unable to control myself.
I've barely been able to get out of bed since, I wake up and immediately start crying. I think about him every second of every day and all I want to do is talk to him but I know he needs space.  I worry that I'm gonna spiral and go to a really bad place while at the same time just not caring what happens to me.

Borderline has ruined so much of my life but this is honestly one of the worst. Cause god I love him so much, and I know he loves me too and we've both said all we want is to be with each other. But we can't. The borderline is poison and its slowly killing me.

If anyone has any advice to how to get through this, it would be greatly appreciated