so when i get on an obsessive train of thought and start spiralling i could be stuck on it for hours and let it consume me until i either tire myself out and need a nap or move onto the next crisis but recently it’s like another me shows up who’s balanced and explains why what i’m thinking about isn’t true

so earlier i was like “Oh my god, this is what’s happening! my life is over!” when rational me showed up and was like “Okay stupid, here’s what would have happened if that were true and it didn’t because you’re being crazy and you need to go to bed it’s almost 4am.” and i sort of just talked myself through the issue, thought about logic and facts instead of just stuff that i make up in my head out of anxiety and stress until i realized yeah i’m being crazy lmao time for bed! so that was nice. 

realizing that something i look for in other people is inside of me and gets me through it when i can’t ask for help is great. i can be this person for myself and not need to rely on other’s to coddle me and baby me.

i’m very proud of myself for this!