Apologies in advance for an incoherent/rant post. 

I’m sitting at my university lobby after speaking to an advisor about my now directionless path. I was originally in a Bachelor of Education/teacher’s program until December 2017. I did all the work, met all the requirements, spent all that time &amp; money... To be honest, I never really wanted to teach, but at least I’d graduate with something, right?? Would’ve finished by spring 2018. Finally had a “breakdown” in December 2017, during the actual teaching co-op. Mind you, things had been slowly getting worse since ~2013/2014. Fast forward to now: I’m stuck with no options other than a useless 3-year degree in social sciences because my credits don’t fit anywhere else, unless my loser self wastes even MORE time &amp; money in school (at this point I just want to get the FUCK out, already been here 5 years). 

So now I just feel... Empty. Lost. Dreadful. A complete failure. A complete waste of potential. I spent so much time in that stupid teaching program, and now that I’m out, I don’t even know who the fuck I am. I don’t know what my skills are. I don’t know what I want for my future. Actually, I don’t think I ever knew these things even before I started university.

I’m turning 24 for fuck sake. My failures &amp; confusion have never been so clear. Who even was I all this time?? Why/how did I let myself get to this point?? Why didn’t I leave university earlier when I sensed that something was wrong?? Oh god. I let my parents &amp; family down. They gave me all the resources to succeed but I failed because I’m a confused loser who still doesn’t know who the fuck she is. I feel like a teenager who never discovered herself, except I’m 24 with no more time left. My heart fucking bleeds. This is all my fault. I could have been so much more in this life... 
