I'm watching videos myself in high school 2012-2014 years and I had so much enthusiasm. I definitely was dealing with minor depression but it didn't show on my face. I'm singing to the camera, recording audition tapes and my face had so much energy. I'm 25 and even though I look EXACTLY the same (baby face) there is a world of a difference in my energy and voice. I'm so monotone now and no matter how much I could pretend to be happy or excited or enthusiastic it would come across extremely forced and fake. The last couple years were really rough for me and i'm picking up the pieces &amp; doing better in a lot of ways but I wonder if my youthfulness will ever fully return.