I finally, FINALLY, am able to go no contact with my mother. Finally. 

I've been trying for years, but she was in charge of some of my benefits money and wouldn't call to get it changed to my bank. I couldn't do that, other than cancel the claim and reclaim I couldn't do anything. And I couldn't cancel and do it again because I'd be losing out on money I rely on. 

TODAY SHE DID IT. A confirmation letter is being sent out to my home. I'm so excited, I can finally take a step forward. 

She's been so ignorant of my mental health, and any time id call her upset she would tell me I need meds for my depression. I have bpd ffs and I don't need meds (for various reasons, I don't want them and I don't actually need them) IM SO HAPPY I CAN CUT HER OFF.

Terrified of the down that'll inevitably follow, but for now? I'm riding this BPD high.

My Psychologist thinks this is an amazing step forward in my therapy. I'm finally standing up for myself and my boundaries.