Hi, my names Samuel. 

I’ve had major depressive disorder for as long as I can remember and have always been “different” than others growing up, apparently it’s because i also have generalized anxiety disorder, and what I assume to be borderline personality disorder (unsure of this last one).

I experience a few unsettling symptoms that I find very difficult to cope with, I’m looking for advice on these and maybe some reassurance that I’m not alone in it

*feelings of losing your mind

*feelings of a loss of empathy

*nighttime panic attacks that last for hours 

*fear of attachment and losing the people you keep around

*no real sense of self

*no real care for the people around me except not in a sociopathic way but a “I know I love you, but I just can’t feel anything sometimes”

Any advice?