I’m literally crying writing this, I don’t think anyone will ever love me for me.

I’m not saying this to get pity, I’m saying this from genuine experience. Every relationship I’ve had (3 total) I just felt like the person was with me to fill their own void of loneliness. I’ve never really felt truly loved by a partner, and my last “boyfriend” didn’t even want to make it official. 

We broke up a year ago, I broke it off because I knew he was toxic and was bringing out the worst in me. He always thought I was going to cheat, or that I wanted any person who looked my way. 

For a year, I’ve focused on myself and haven’t tried to chase anyone. Recently, I started talking to a guy I met at work. It was really looking up, until today ( second time we’ve hung out)  he just seemed uninterested halfway through. Like, I was trying my hardest to make conversations, listen to what he was saying and show my personality and who I am. But he just seemed uninterested. 

I don’t know what to do, I feel hopeless and like I will literally never find someone who genuinely wants to be with me for who I am.