16 yo male in hs. everyone thinks im doing great but i cant keep going like this anymore.

I have some friends that i hangout with sometimes but it just doesnt feel real anymore its like im coming just to not feel shity at home, its not even fun anymore.

my friends at school that are "close" arent really close they are just better friends the other people, i dont have anybody to chill with or talk to, i had a good friend last year that made me feel loved and got me to keep going but she doesnt really talk to me anymore after summer break, i guess she didnt see me as a serious friend and kinda forgot about me.

I dont feel loved at all, i cant talk to anybody even though i have "close" friends, its the hardest school year now with a lot of tests i cant fail and ive been bottling up everything since the day i remember myself. 

I cant keep going like that but i cant do anything about it either.

I just want a real friend but i dont think i will ever find one. 
Idk what to do.