I can't stand living with myself sometimes.  I just want a day where I don't have to think of anything and just go with the flow.  I've been fretting about the weather for months, since I really hate the cold and sit and time how long my furnace runs and how long between each run.  I just can't enjoy life.  I've finally decided to go to a doctor for help and no one will get back to me to schedule an appointment.  Just so demoralizing.