Most people that I call friend truly don’t know or understand me. I’ve had so many bad experiences trying to open up to someone and try connect on a different level. Seems like the “normals” can’t handle the darkness inside me and it hurts to feel alone. But then I think about trying to be apart of a community of people going they similar mental struggles. Is that the best way to go? What I really want is a best friend. But I also don’t want to create an enabling relationship with someone to where we go down the rabbit hole even further with each other. I don’t know what to do anymore.