About a year and a half ago I went through a pretty rough breakup snd I’d say that’s where the bulk of my anxiety started. Since then I’ve more or less lost all of my friends or have pushed people away for the good of myself. Which I am ok with. But when some of the only real friends I still talk to tend to ignore me or only text back when I text them it makes me feel like I’m trying too hard in those relationships. Like some days are awesome and some days they make me feel like shit. Im crying myself to sleep because all I wanted tonight was to have someone who I’ve been talking to for a bit and has helped me through a lot of stuff there but she pretty much left me on read the whole day. I would do anything just to have someone text me before I wake up telling me good morning and that they hope I slept good and to have a good day. I don’t know what to do anymore I would just love real friends but living in a small town doesn’t do much in that department. Thank you to whoever read through this little rant it does mean a lot to me.