i don’t want to disappoint them, it scares me and hurts me more to think that i would end up hurting them but i wanna be free, i wanna do what i want.. 
im not afraid of them, i can leave whenever i want but i know they wont be okay, i dont wanna do that to them..
I feel like for so long i’ve been choosing them over myself but now i just can’t take it anymore 
My desires will break them and the unity of my sweet family.. idk whats wrong w me &amp; idk what to do…