I know we've likely all experienced this before, so read carefully, because this will help you in your struggle with BPD.

I don't really think anybody on this earth is special, we're all the same in the end, really, as people. But BPD victims have the ability to connect so strongly with an idea or person, whether this connection is toxic doesn't really matter; it sparks people's attention, it creates a storm, it moves people...you know the feeling when you're so strongly connected to someone, you can't even call it love or friendship...it's almost like you become them, and they become you, and nothing matters except for this process of intertwinement. It's almost like, you can feel the entire world just from feeling that one person, or that one idea. And it may not last very long; it's usually just a trauma response or a toxic relationship, but it's something that no one else can really do the way we do it. I've been told multiple times by people that I'm 'different' and I never knew what they meant until I was diagnosed and practiced ego observation. I then realized that this 'difference' they speak of is my ability to connect with them in such a way where they pour their entire selves into me, without even knowing. It's almost like, we have this way with people, where they just open up. And they let you open up too. It eventually goes sour because, well, life exists in the grey, not the extreme. An extreme connection isn't sustainable, but please cherish these extreme moments. Even if it's a toxic connection, please just cherish it, because it's the only thing on this earth that is as special as it is unexplainable, as painful as it is euphoric, and as meaningful as it is meaningless. The extreme ends of human connection make it so complicated but so desirable to someone with BPD. This is what makes us insane, but it makes us who we are, and I'm pretty damn proud of it. Sometimes...not all the time. Because it causes people a lot of agony, including ourselves. But whatever - it's all we have in this stupid life. So just hold onto this ability because there are people who notice, and who are attracted to it, even if it's just for a short amount of time before they HATE you. 

I just want our crazy tendencies to seem special and desirable for once. Like this post if you know what I mean. Love you guys.