I’m currently finishing my final semester at uni and I’m becoming a teacher. I only have 4 weeks left and I’m good to go. My supervisor loves me and offered me a casual job for when I finish, but I’m just so tired of life. I feel like I’m lying every time I’m there. I need to act cheerful and happy all the time. It’s so draining. I feel like I’ve felt so much in life that I just don’t want to feel a thing anymore. I also feel like my BPD will get the best of me like it always does and I’ll end up abandoning everything. I just want to live a quiet life. I know this is me self-sabotaging, but I’m just so tired of pretending. I haven’t told my supervisor but she’s all about well-being and self-care. The thing is, telling her won’t change a thing, but it may narrow my chances of landing a permanent position. I’m so conflicted. How does everyone else work with BPD?