I have been in a depression for a couple months now, there were times it went better but now I'm just doing terrible. I feel alone and cry myself to sleep for most of the nights. I lost the girl I love to "someone I shouldn't worry about" and it makes me feel like I'm not good enough. I have had suicidal thoughts and harmed myself multiple times. I just can't take it any longer my life is misserable and I have no one. I just want it to come to a end one way or another.