I can’t hang out with people I can’t have normal conversations with anyone I have trouble with almost everything I rely on my mom I’m stupid to say the least. 

I’m ready to die like Any day I’m about to be 20 and felt this destiny since 16 I feel as if suicide is way easier than trying to fix the hole I dug.  

I don’t have education worth employing maybe a grade 9 education that’s about it. The feeling of dread and knowing your stupid makes me really want to end thing especially watching others my age succeed. 

I really just need someone to confirm that I won’t amount to anything and I’ll always be the suicidal loser in this reality. I just to someone to push me to do it. I feel the drive in me to have a happy life is a scam and death is way easier.