I'm not sure what, if anything, has changed, but it seems set in stone now that I am going to end up ending things soon.

Nothing helps. No matter what, I just don't feel anything, except maybe depressed and stressed. I am numb, empty, dead inside. I only get worse and worse and worse, in one way or several.

I can't see what other option there could be. Therapies don't seem to help. Medications don't seem to help. I seem to be literally incapable of enjoying anything. I can't find the energy to do anything, in a self-care sense or in any sense.

Death seems daunting, but life is just unbearable, and it only gets worse.

I know ending things could hurt people, but I just can't bear life. And I'm already a parasite anyway.