So. I’m 23. Right now i’m 100% convinced i have cancer in my stomach somewhere and that i am dying and have less than months or weeks to live. I have put everything on hold. Won’t even do my school work. This is what’s on my mind 24/7. I look at people living their lives, eating ice cream, laughing and doing simple things and wishing i could be that happy and careless. 

But i am convinced i am actually dying and i’m not even planning the future at all. I’m even thinking of ending it so i don’t have to experience the pain of dying :( The doctor diagnosed me with gastritis by feeling my stomach. My stomach makes lots of weird nosises after i eat, and i have pain there sometimes. I’m literally 100% sure i’m dying. Shortness of breath, pain in cheeks, one leg pain. My brain says it has spread.


I don’t know what else to do. I’m just crying. I feel defeated and done. I don’t feel like i’m living.