I’m 19, almost 20, and very intoxicated atm so take what I say with a grain of salt. I just had what was probably the best night of my life. I was taking shots with my best friend, and playing games with people who I know will be there with me until the end. It was great. I ended up waking up one of my family members with my laughter but it’s okay. Even though they generally condemn any sort of drinking I think that I will be able to find some sort of excuse for my behavior, speaking of my family, should I mention the years of religious and emotional abuse they put me through? The family member I woke up is a prime culprit of doing this and a prime reason as to why I enjoy getting drunk so much. I hate my life and I wish o had been born to a different family that wasn’t  so religiously zealous and strict and defended CSA cases, but whatever, what do I know I fucking only 19years old. I wish I could see a therapist, but my family always just tells me to pray and it will all be better. It never gets better. My issues just get worse. I’m sorry m.