Just wanted to get a few opinions to see if there is a connection between the two. I am a 24 year old male, and I recognize that boredom is a feeling that pretty much everyone goes through, but I often feel as though it is completely overwhelming. Ever since my first job at age 16 and with being in school, all I can remember is staring at the clock, counting down every single minute, and feeling miserable. It is to the point where it really goes beyond what would be considered normal.

Fast forward to today, the feeling still persists. Everything feels so  utterly tedious that it is excruciating having to sit at work or do even the most simple tasks. I manage to survive, but every night I just lay in bed asking myself if this should be the night I load up my shotgun and do myself in. I'm not particularly good looking or motivated, and so it seems likely that I'll probably be alone for the rest of my life, which I have accepted. It is just overwhelming thinking about the next 50 years of having to work with no real internal purpose or reason for being here. Even when I travel or do something new, I still feel that same intense feeling of boredom and emptiness. It is as if the reward system in my brain is shutoff permanently. I was thinking there might be a connection to these feelings and BPD.