I feel like I have no one I can confide. I feel like things won’t change. Even when it seems to be getting good nothing is actually happening. I’ve never been able to retain any type of relationship. I’m chasing my tail. I can’t talk to anyone because I always get a bullshit cliche response. I have all of these “friends” that don’t actually give a fuck about what I’m going through. I’ve never been in a romantic relationship. I’m 24 years old stuck in a cycle. I feel like I have no one. If I really wanted to kill myself I am sure it would’ve been done by now, but as the days go by the idea doesn’t seem that bad. I don’t want to talk to anyone because I know they don’t care. The only thing I do enjoy isn’t even fun anymore/doesn’t feel like it used to feel. I just want to go far away and never look back.