I have friends, some really good friends.
But I think everyone has their own problems.
Asking for help from them is the hardest things to me.
I had an online friend to talk to before. But she went too far, starting offer the help I didn't ask for, and those action frightened me.
Feeling betrayed and since then I can't really have some nice pressure releasing chatting with those people that know me.
I tried to make new friends but somehow I found that  once I stepped out of making friends thing, I don't know how to do it anymore. Also I don't know want my possible new friends suffer from my depressed words.
I felt really helpless.
My family showed no support at all. Not because they don't want to but don't know how to.
I am losing my ability to speak up for my really thoughts and sadness....