I'm a transexual. In psychological therapy since 14yo, went through 12 operations to have the body I always wanted. At 22, I had a hormonal treatment which triggered me toxic psychosis whenever I smoked pot. Now I'm 27, have a Theater degree, am a fully grown man, fully functional sexually although I have a hard time putting it inside the girl, have a family who loves me and even a few friends. But it's all so superficial. My psichosis drove me to alienate a lot of people from my life. Today is my mother's birthday and I hear my aunts saying things like they have to impose to their children that they spend at least a week of summer vacation with them otherwise 'it's so easy' to not see them the entire summer. Another one was worried because my cousin went to a wedding got so wasted he didn't even remembered what he had done with the girl. Also they all have awesome jobs and friends and life. And I'm the black sheep who is always under parents wings, lost a hand in one of the psychosis, can't drink or smoke because of the psychosis, can't have normal relationships, is faulty in having  a LIFE. HOW I WISH I WAS SOMEONE WHO WOULD WORRY MY MOTHER BECAUSE OF HOW EASY AND NORMAL I WAS FOR ME TO GET LAID, AND HAVE FUN, AND VACATIONS WITH FRIENDS, AND FRIENDS PER SE, AND FUN, AND BEING HAPPY. GOD. F***ING. DAMN. IT. Can you top my misery? Kudos if you can, because Jesus Christ what haven't you been through if you can.