I don't know if its my anxiety, adhd, or ocd, but none of my opinions never feel like my own. It feels like someone elses that i've convinced myself to have too.


For example, I love to bake and there are a few books I like to use to bake from. It always starts out where I like it a lot and then eventually it feels like my brain is trying to find a reason to not like it anymore. Whether thats looking for typos or wrong information, I feel myself cinstantly looking for them and questioning everything. Once I find something like that, its like a flip switches and I no longer like those recipes. What was once my "favorite" cookie recipe is no longer any good.

I also feel like I convince myself to like every single thing from a cookbook. I will tell myself I like these recipes before I even try them, and most of the time I do like them. Then when I make a recipe that isn't my absolute favorite I start spiraling and question every other choice I made about what I thought were my "favorite" recipes.

Then I start feeling overwhelmed to the point of an anxiety attack.

Why is it so hard for me to have an opinion without questioning every other choice I've made related to it?