The feedback I tend to get is that I see things in a much more negative and deeper light than the situation calls for.

I see people as attacking or trying to violate me or win something over on me.

I never do mindfulness and as soon as I'm in a slightly intense situation or even a normal one honestly it seems like I see things differently than an average person would see them and my vision is colored in a much more pessimistic light.

I'm not really looking for advice or anything more so just some solidarity.

I start to feel a little crazy sometimes and I get down on myself. I wish I did more DBT but I completely avoided all the time. But I don't trust myself because of my slightly distorted view of reality.

Makes me question if I'm creating tension where there isn't any because of how I see things or of how I'm projecting onto things.

like I'm definitely more aware of my view like when I'm watching a movie or a television show. I noticed how I judged the characters and how situation could be seen as nuanced but I read more into it as negative and selfish or disrespectful or you know....