I go to school at a predominatly white school. Im black. I get called slurs every single day. Im nerdy and ugly so no girls even interact with me or want to date me. I have no real friends, sure i hang out with 1 person at school right? Well i dont do anything with them outside of it and i have like 2 classes with them both of which 1 being everyday and the other being every other day. I go home and rot while guess what everyone else is doing? Having fun and not typing some reddit post at home. That same person who i hang out with at school goes and does things for fun with other people whilst i sit at home doing next to nothing. Everyday at school i genuinely feel like im a waste of life or something. Everyday at this shitty fucking school i repeat the same fucking cycle as the last day. My eyes hurt everyday from looking at a screen 24/7. You could say "Oh dont stare at a screen all day" Or "Dont stare at a screen after school if you have to stare at a screen at school" Well i have nothing to do after school other than stare at some stupid fucking screen because nobody likes me enough to hang out with me. Look ive been trying to do youtube right? Been my dream for 8 fucking years and i finally try it out, i think i have something going for me and everything flops. I get no views, no comments no nothing. Theres this girl im talking to and im trying to be myself trying to be nice but she only thinks of me as a friend and tells me how boys try to be her friend, end up liking her and ruining the relationship. Im tired of this fucking shit every single day i deal with something like this if not more.