Knowing my boyfriend is out of the bar and not hearing from him for three hours has got me lying in bed, lights off, sobbing hysterically and thinking about suicide.

I hate how dramatic this sounds. I absolutely hate it. But I cannot control it and these are my honest feelings. I don’t know how normal people just don’t care About what other people may or may not be doing.

I obsess constantly over the fact that my significant other could be out there with someone else while I am blinded by the fact. I don’t want to be a victim. But I know I’m making myself a victim by obsessing over it so much, to the point where I would almost rather take my own life than suffer through the possibility of being played. 
 
I just don’t know what to do about it. Advice would very, very much be welcomed. 🖤