just so tired of never knowing how I actually feel lmao... like I feel guilty for lying to ppl all the time but some days im like damn can u really blame yourself because you split/change your mind every 5 fucking seconds so what is the truth? it's miserable because its so bad I don't even know how I actually feel about things! it goes from pleasant and nice to panicky and anxious, back and forth, all day every day. sick of it!!!!