I just want to share a little succes i had last week. 
I am dating an amazing guy, we are both head over heels which feels amazing! I have BPD myself, but pretty high functioning. In the past i was a complete mess and gave boyfriends an extreme hard time. Blaming they where cheating, stalking them, make fights about tiny things. 

Last week i was with my new crush at a zoo. I saw a pretty girl, which was looking at my guy. And he looked back, well, their eyes crossed. All of thesudden i got this huge feeling of anger. I wanted to ignore him for the rest of the day, go home and not talk to him anymore. I felt awfull and ugly. 

I didnt want to make te same mistake i did in the past, so instead of going fullblown BPD on him i decided to take some deep breaths, kept saying to myself “its the BPD talking” and i felt the flood of anger slip away. 

Maybe not a huge step for some of you but a giant leap for me! 