I've never been diagnosed, pls don't come for me, my dad won't let me get diagnosed or get help cuz mental health and illnesses are 'fake and selfish' but I really think I must have depression or some sort of mental disorder. That I'm insane and my dad is right. I've struggled with feeling worthless, empty, being disconnected, self harm, hating myself, always excepting the worse and a constant fear of everything basicly. My mood swings are exhausting and I hate it. I go from being really happy about something to wanting to jump in front of a car. My highs and lows can shift within mins and I'm so tired of it. My head is in overdrive all the time. That or complete emptiness. It's been going on for about 2 years. I started to self harm at the start of this year tho. I've stopped and I'm trying to stay strong, with the help of my boyfriend who has gone through tuff times himself, I've not cut or done any type of self harm in the last 2 months. My dad found out about the self harm and still he pretends everything is fine. I don't know why I'm sharing this but yea...