Hi,

I need to be validated. To be made to feel as if I matter even when I make you upset. To feel wanted even when times are tough. I didn’t tell you enough but I always thought you were smarter than me, and I know I was wrong for trying to have you mind read, but I just wanted to feel as if I was needed, for something with you. 
I, can be childish, but I just want to make you happy. I want to make you laugh. I did that wrong and moved into territory that became annoying but it was not my intent. I didn’t feel as if I had much to offer, but if I could make you smile, then I could feel useful. That just turned into frustration, and that was not my intent, but it happened. 
I would like to find a new way to effectively communicate with you. I want to non judgmentally hear what you need from me, and be able to provide what I can, and have you do the same if possible. I’m willing to do that because I want to be with you.
In the past I wasn’t receptive, and fullable to comprehend what I was doing. Now I’m spending more time trying to accept that I did wrong, while still realizing that it does not have to be the end. I want to be the realistic and receptive person that you deserve. 
You’re an amazing person. I’m a good person as well. I’m not making empty, vapid statements when I say I miss you, and would like to make things better than they were before. It’s alright if you need time to think about things, it’s your right. Please just consider the idea. Have a good night and day.
Bless it be.