i can speak to close friends and my therapist and be honest and open with them but i genuinely feel sick whenever someone in my family tries to have a deep conversation with me about how i feel or how they feel. i feel smothered immediately and shut down and get annoyed when they keep going on about it. i know it’s not normal but the thought of talking about my feelings with my family just feels so wrong. they think i’m shutting them out but i have absolutely nothing to say to them and i’ve always felt this way discussing personal matters with them. they’ve always been closer to each other and i’ve always felt like the odd one out and i honestly think i’d feel better if they weren’t even aware of my mental health struggles because now they know i just feel suffocated.