Dear fellow BPD'ers,

A year ago I found out that I have BPD. My therapy is almost over, but I still feel like I struggle a lot. Lately I have been thinking about my future. I have always felt a strong wish to become a mother, but now I don't if I want to. Most of my problems are because of my own mom, who never acknowledged my feelings as a child because there was only room for her feelings. I still feel very depressed and angry at her sometimes because of the pain she put me through when I was just a small child. When I grew up, she just thought that I was "difficult" and this is how I felt for a long long time. I am afraid that, if I have children, I won't be a good mom because of my BPD, and they will end up hating me like I sometimes feel toward my mom. Does anyone experience the same feelings? Are there any BPD'ers here that have children and could they tell me how it is to raise a child while having BPD? I am so scared for my future.