I am very new to reddit, I just made this account so I am not very sure how this works. I just want to say that I have been diagnosed with BPD a year and a half ago. I have been friends with someone, who I really actually love romantically. I told this person and they felt the same way. Today, I noticed their phone ringing. I said “are you going to get that?” This person said “yes but don’t speak she gets jealous.” So that told me that they are dating. I did not know that. Even though we are only friends, I was so hurt and I stormed out of their home. I feel strong feelings of hatred for my friend now. I feel strong feelings of emptiness and hopelessness for relationships. I just would like to know if anyone else feels hopeless for relationships or if they feel feelings of extreme sadness or emptiness after feeling a little bit of jealousy or rejection. Once again, I am not sure how to use Reddit, as I have just created my account. Thank you!!!