As if I'm living it, and I have to breath deeply because I'm having difficulty to breath, when something similar happens irl my vision change, I shake, I cannot really move, I know if someone would hurt me I wouldn't be able to fight back even though I know I can fight, but it's like living a dream where everything what you do just doesn't work, you know those dreams where running slows you down, hitting the target makes you hit the wall nothing is smooth. Someone know what that is?  Any advice? Thank you   


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One last thing I just remembered that I've had cases where I was really upset, sad, where people talked to me, but I wasn't able to speak back, even though I tried hard, it's like I have barber wire on my throat...    


This happened often when I was a child thought I didn't have that anymore, someone recently told me something that made so emotional that I couldn't speak back, and tried to control everything and was almost not possible, it's like my vocal cords contracts on itself...