honestly have a really hard time in my personal life with my bpd. I feel like nobody understands and then I gaslight myself into telling myself I’m too dramatic , but that’s literally my entire mental illness . Is being dramatic , I try up vent and explain it to my friends but I don’t think they understand the depth of the emotional roller coaster I ride daily . I just wish I almost knew someone else in my life that struggles with it bc it is so hard to fully understand unless you struggle with it also . I just get so exhausted and it feels so lonely to know that genuinely nobody I talk to could understand what this feels like. I just get so tired and I don’t event talk about it anymore bc I’m just repeating myself and I suck it up. How do y’all deal with this, I try so hard. I have put months of work at inpatient facilities outpatient facilities, therapy , psychiatrists , it just feels defeating time know there is no cure and no matter how much better I get this place of emptiness and pain will always find me again, I just have to let it and wait for it to pass. I don’t feel in control and it’s hard.