Im just so tired. Im hungover and got drunk last night, acted immature in front of everyone and cried because of my partner. I feel like I have so much people around me but none of them care for me or I care for them. I feel like such a shitty person and I had enough of my bullshit. I don't even know if I have bpd, therapist said bpd could be in question. I hate the fact that I always need a FP in my life to keep me going. Like I constantly need validation from soemone or just someone to think about. I also always get bored of my partners and need alone time after a month. I'm so confused. I don't wanna be myself anymore. I don't wanna be human this is too tiring.