They put me on the waiting list for DBT and it finally felt like i might get the help i needed so badly as medication just makes me feel empty and dysfunctional. 

Boom coronavirus happens and i haven't seen a medical professional in months and i feel so hopeless as i wanted to return to college more confidently and with support and it just isn't there. I'm honestly terrified. 

I'm scared because i dont know how well I'm going to cope with it all aswell as trying to maintain the friendships I have because I know if i end up losing everyone i probably won't be able to pull myself together.