I'm absolutely heart broken beyond belief.
I was walking home and a squirrel ran out in the road then to where i was, i tried to coax it with food but eventually got it to the other side where trees were. 
Kept trying to get it to run into the bushes and was nearly there and then it just bolted into the road and got hit so many god damn times.

I just stood there and screamed... 
All i can just see and hear is it happening again in my head- just feel like its all my fault but all i wanted to do was help it and get it out the road in the first place

I feel so broken and bpd makes this feeling x100000

I wish it was me or i jumped out to shield and save it.