Before you go off on me, just hear me out a little. I have been taking meds for bipolar for about 6 months now, and these 6 months I have not felt the same. I don't know if It's me feeling just normal or me not feeling anything, but I'm so tired of not feeling anything. I have tried many different meds before and the ones I'm on do work, I don't feel suicidal and I'm not a piece of shit on them, but I barely feel anything. Instead of trying meds, I want to slowly get off of them and see If I can try and control my bipolar, when I feel sad I want to try and learn how to push back the bad thoughts and not hide them, instead talk about them and learn how to overcome them. I also just want to feel again, good or bad I dont really care I just want to feel. If nothing works and I end up just becoming super suicidal again then I will take my meds again, but If I could figure out how to manage my bipolar instead of meds I would much rather that than meds.