I think this is common for many us anxiety sufferers, but I will try to explain briefly how it works for me.

I've realised that most of my physical stress and panic sympoms arise in situations where I cannot easily leave. I mean this both physically (airplane, elevator) or 'socially' (theater, being out with friends, etc).

Now especially the latter one is interesting. Of course I can just leave the theater, the doors aren't locked. It's just that you will look stupid to people you don't know. And maybe your friends / family that are there with you might think it's a weird move of you to leave.

That's it. There is nothing else and I know this. But my subconscious mind, apparently, thinks otherwise. It throws symptoms at me like I'm in a terrible, dangerous situation. And leaving is no option, or either will cause terrible consequenses. That's how it feels at least.

But I know it's not true. And I genuinly (at least consciously) don't care what strangers might think of me! And my friends will probably understand. And if not, then fuck them. Really, I don't care. But I cannot convince my body that nothing is wrong.

What is going on here? And how can I align with or even convince my subconsiousness of my consious understanding of the situation?

Today I went to my parents and I am fucking nervous. The whole time. For what?? They are my parents. It's my old home. They love me nomatter what. I can leave at any time. Why I am anxious and nervous? And whatever I think or come up with, it doesn't work. I tell myself these very things and yet my body is anxious and stays like that until I leave. My own home isn't even 'safer'than my parents home...

How to stop this cycle? How to convince yourself that you are safe and that there is nothing wrong?