I have been having thoughts about killing myself recently and I'm questioning myself on if i should admit myself to hospital to protect myself but it is crazy how every day is slowly turning into a blur. How I wake up in the morning, it feel all the same.. just another day in my life. There is nothing more important to me than being free. I dream for that day when I become a feather and float away. I always wanted to float away from everything I am feeling. This barrage of emotions and emptiness is almost too much for me to bear. I want this to end. 