Everyday I am struggling! My wife and I are at a final tipping point and I can't let that happen! If I screw up 1 more time and mistrust her it literally means the end of our relationship. So I have started to place notes everywhere around the house to remind me if I ever get a blackout to remind me how much she loves me and how much hell I am making her go through being untrusted. I need to give her space! She needs her privacy! I am at a point of resolve. I can't lose my wife!