I feel like my mood swings and lack of, I don’t know how to express it, real masculine emotional stability(?) make me incapable of making any woman feel safe and protected around me. I loved a woman one moment and then resented her the next, for no real reason at all. My sex drive is and has been completely in the dumps for some time now. It hurts to say it but I’m pretty sure my FP and now ex is better off without me because of how emotionally manipulative I was all the time and how I could provide nothing real for her. All I have are my looks (others compliment me all the time but then half the time I look in the mirror I hate myself, seeing the ugliest reflection in the world), a decent sense of style and some charisma/fake personality because I don’t even know who I am. I reject so many kind women because of my inability to let go of old attachments and vanity. I don’t even know what I’m expecting out of anything. I’m stuck in a limbo of melancholy and instant gratification. I’m a failure.