I received my diagnosis two months ago. I am a 24 year old female. There’s no DBT available in our county yet. My father passed away when I was three, my mother became an alcoholic, I spent 11 years in foster care, my eldest sister took her own life, and then I lived in hospital for two years receiving psychiatric support. It’s been 7 years since I was discharged. I have two friends. My ex of six years, who is now seeing someone else who has a child, and one other who has recently had a baby. I love her but I recently had to have an abortion so I find being around them difficult. I struggle with relationships. I regularly become paranoid of what other people think of me. I keep myself to myself but I feel so alone. I seek out false affection from people I don’t know just to feel something. I always run away. I left my recent ex of 10 months almost every other week. I don’t trust people. I’m so insecure, and I don’t know who I am. I’m struggling to know what to do help myself..