I really hate my life. I just feel lost and feel like I have no purpose anymore. The past few months have been terrible. I’m depressed and struggling badly, I have been fighting with depression for so long and want to give up. My life is a mess. I can’t get a job. Im extremely broke. My dad is an alcoholic and has given up on life. Due to the alcoholism, he has liver failure and had a very bad heart attack last week. I’ve told him so many times to stop drinking and he just won’t do it which is causing him all these illnesses. I don’t think he has many months left. I literally lost my aunt last month. It was traumatizing i watched her past in the hospital. No one was there I was the only one who ever came to visit her. I was really close to her. After burying my aunt, I lost my sister to suicide. I witnessed her suicide. She shot herself in the head. I just buried my sister last a few days ago. 

All theses things occurring back to back has also cause me to do bad in school. I’m on the verge of getting academically dismissed. I try to focus on my studies but it’s just be difficult because of the trauma I’m going through. I feel so tired and overwhelmed I just feel like I can’t do it anymore. I’m extremely depressed and have now no to turn to for support. I just want help ( or something).  I just can’t take all this stress and pain anymore. 


Sorry for any typos