I recently developed this fear and it is ruining my life. I started on accutane last September, and it caused reddening of my skin amongst many other effects and this girl continually pointed it out in class every week in front of everyone. 

Fast forward to December time, I noticed it really was affecting me, when it was never an issue before. The worst thing is, I can be speaking to a family member, or at a checkout in the shop and just think ‘how awkward if I turned red’ then it will happen. 

It’s worst with family than strangers as I care about how they view me. I’ve always been close to my family but now I dread seeing them on FaceTime, where I constantly look at myself, or in person where I’m shining a light on my face in a mirror beforehand. I went to meet family the other day, popped an antihistamine and 7 propranolol, then some calm drops, felt fine till I got outside then had to walk around for an hour plucking up the courage to see them because my face instantly turned red. I know it’s the preplanning how they’re gonna perceive me that makes it worse, then 10 mins in im fine but that first 10 mins is killer and each and everytime even when it goes good I can’t get over going red. 

It’s taking over, I’ve tried CBT it did not work at allll. And I’m on Sertraline and propranolol which is not working as well as I’d like. 

Anyone had the same and willing to share how they overcame it?! Pleaseee.