Over lockdown I started binge eating to get through, it was fucking fantastic. I'd just get unbelievably stoned and eat and then suddenly it's tomorrow, I didn't have to deal with anything. But I don't enjoy eating anymore. I don't like food it sucks. And I'm at work and I pig out just to try make myself feel better because I guess that's what I do, and I felt horrible. So I thought 'hey, 23 is as good a year as any to develop an eating disorder' so I tried throwing up in the toilet and literally couldn't get anything up I just gagged. And then I pull back and suddenly the clouds change and I'm just bathed in sunlight, kneeling on the floor of a bathroom and I just couldn't stop thinking of those prayer adds that say 'try praying' and couldn't stop laughing for like 10 minutes. I wanted to share because I think it's really funny but who tf am I telling this story to? So you get it

Anyways, now I feel spewy af and need a smoke, hope you enjoyed xo