Being alone at night is not uncommon for me. I've done it countless times for years now but every night I keep myself awake preparing for the worst-case scenario.

I don't even know why, nothing bad has ever happened to me while being home alone or anything, one of my neighbours had her house broken into, nobody was hurt but a few things were stolen, and that shook me up a little. But other than that I shouldn't have a reason to worry. I live on a really busy main road, which eases my anxiety throughout the day because if anyone tried to do anything, people would see. But at night the road becomes completely quiet, with no cars at all. My house used to be a store so I have shutters that are made of metal and are pretty much impossible to break through, without alerting my neighbours at least, so I'm not worried about the front door, it's just the windows and back door that I find myself checking every 2 seconds. I have 4 cats and a dog... so unusual noises in my house are usually explainable but I still find myself having panic attacks over them. There are times where I've gone almost 48 hours without sleep because of anxiety. there are no medications available for me because of my health conditions, therapy didn't work. this has been happening for years now and I'm running out of options.