nothing seems interesting enough to live for. every day feels unbearable because it’s full of the same shit. I think about all of the time that I have in the world and I wonder what the fuck I’m supposed to do with it to keep me occupied. there’s so many hours in the day. what am I supposed to do? work, read a book, clean up, play a video game, watch a movie, play the piano, go on a drive? none of these things are compelling to me. I always think, how long can I live life without becoming extremely bored of it? and recently I’m at that point. being alive feels like an office job where you try to look busy because the boss is nearby. you’d think big things would be the solution. to plan for something, to look forward to something, like getting a degree, starting my own family, establishing a career. these things don’t give me a reason to want to see the future either. I don’t care about them. I don’t care about going to a good concert or seeing a good movie. it’s all too repetitive. I don’t care about traveling the world. even if I did it would be the same thing just somewhere different. this is what we’re supposed to do with our lives? there’s nothing to look forward to. being alive feels like trying to meet the word count on an essay. it seems like the purpose of life is to just fill the time. but I don’t want to. I’ve dealt with depression for almost a decade now and I know all too well what it’s like to lose interest in the things you love. this isn’t like that. I’ve lost interest in EVERYTHING. what should I do? I’m only in my early 20s, I know I shouldn’t feel this burnt out, bored, and ready to give up already. literally any advice would help. thank you guys