When I first started to see my symptoms increase more than normal I went to my family doctor in my hometown, about 2 hours away from where I live + go to university. During the session I was VERY overwhelmed and answered yes when he asked if I lived in my hometown. He got me a referral for a psychiatrist in my hometown.
I saw a psychiatrist last week who listened to me and figured I'd benefit from DBT. Again, me being miss-want-to-please and overwhelmed said 'yes' to being in my hometown for the summer. I knew it would screw me over and there wasn't anything to fear by saying no but did it anyways.
I meant to call and correct my mistake but have been too nervous too. But my psychiatrist worked fast and today I got a call from the girl in charge of the DBT program. She asked if I could make it to the meetings every Monday and Thursday starting in July. I cant, I know that I cant. And at the time my head was screaming 'say no' but I couldn't and said yes. Now I have a reserved spot in the program and don't know what to do. I can't make it and I don't want to screw them over by reserving a spot I can't make.


I don't know how to explain the situation to my psychiatrists secretary when I call them back and ask for a referral in the place I actually live. Part of me thinks I should come up with an excuse and lie as to why I wont be able to make it. Its made worse by the fact that I KNOW I'm lucky for things to be moving so fast and I've messed it all up. 

TLDR: So, does anybody else have as big of an issue saying 'no' as I do? How can I get over this?