I’m really struggling alone. I’ve been to so many psychiatrists for anxiety depression, ADHD, ocd but I’ve never been diagnosed with bpd even though I’m certain I have it and it’s been ruining my life. Last psychiatrist I saw I unloaded every symptom my whole life story and he was like ya you just have anxiety. I’m so depressed it’s ruining my relationship. I can’t hold it together and I’ve lost all my friends. I’m so lonely now and I can’t keep a job. I just want to be better but I feel like I’m becoming a darker person every day. Maybe it’s not bpd but I took an online questionnaire from a pretty reliable website (psych central) and my result was that I’m at risk of severe bpd. I have severe outbursts and cannot hold in my emotions or reactions. I try to break up with my boyfriend every other day. Please don’t hate me for that I am a very good girlfriend otherwise and make sure he thrives in his life and career but any small issue makes me want to detach. I am all alone now to fix myself and I’ve tried so hard to get help