So I have been dealing with a lot of anxiety since February, and it has made it almost impossible to go out in public for me. It's not even because of the pandemic, just ever since this past February I have experienced a lot of different anxiety, one of the most annoying has been feeling anxious and panicked every time I'm in a public place. Going to a store, a mall, a restaurant, all of them made me feel like I was being watched, with everyone's eyes on me. I would feel restricted like I was trapped. Restaurants were the worst, I always felt exposed and like everyone was judging me. I would get nauseous and lose my appetite as soon as I sat down. I also have emetophobia so its even harder for me to eat a lot of the time. 

But yesterday, I went with my family to a restaurant and I was not only able to eat, I had a good time and was able to feel relaxed. I felt nervous at first but I slowly used the tools I've been given by my boyfriend and therapist to deal with the anxiety, and it finally worked, after all of these months of trying.  

I finally did it, I wasn't scared to go out, I wasn't scared to eat, and I didn't feel exhausted (mentally or physically) afterwards. Its such a little thing but shows me that I am actually making progress.

This is basically a self-congratulatory post, but thank you all for (metaphorically) listening.