I always just feel so alone and like my only supports are my boyfriend and groups like this one.

It feels like nobody really likes me or puts forth effort into maintaining a friendship. They say they're there for me but when you alone and hurting nobody really is and it's frustrating. I wonder if it will always be like this, or if normal people feel the same way.

Is it me? Am I the problem? Or is it actually them and I'm not just imagining it? It's maddening not being able to trust your own judgment, and you can't really trust other people's, either.

If there's one thing I wish I could banish, one feeling that I could forget forever, it would be loneliness. The crippling feeling of alienation, of isolation. Set apart from the rest of the world. It's almost a physical feeling, it hurts my heart and makes me feel sick. I just want to not exist.