Hi there,

So, I'm generally an anxious person since I was kid. I started stuttering when I joined school &amp; felt uncomfortable around bunch of humans around. I just fumbled on some words. More about the stuttering later. 

First let's talk about non-stuttering anxiety.

**Start***
In school &amp; marriages, I feel super anxious while I have to dance. Same for singing. I can't sing in front of others. I just feel so concious of what others think about me. I think, I know the start of this feeling. One day, when I was less than 3, my parents made fun of the wrong lyrics while I was singing different popular songs. My mom said that I never sang after that. Same for dance. When I was 5-6, I started dancing at a religious event, and my mom stopped me as she was embarrassed. And, I never danced again. 


**Social Anxiety:**
Then I developed social anxiety, where I wouldn't talk with anyone except my parents &amp; classmate (after I get comfortable with them). My uncles/aunts/cousins would try to talk with me, and I would reply in 2-5 words sentences, like a robot. My parents would force me to greet them (traditional Namaste), and I would not do that. This went on upto age of 16, then I started to greet sttangers because I started to feel uncomfortable while NOT greeting them &amp; because, people would look at me weirdly.

**Other weird anxieties:**

1) Sometimes, when I pour water on my head while bathing, my stomach will get tight, and I can't breathe properly. Happens only when I think that it will happen. Never happens when I'm thinking about something else. Started happening when I was 11-12.

2): Sometimes, while I'm the passenger on car or bike, I will get the chest/stomach tightening, but more extreme than "water on head",  but same happens here - it doesn't occur when I'm the one driving or I'm thinking something else. Started at the age of 10-11.


**Stuttering:**

As I have written in the start, I didn't really stutter much as a kid. Nobody would notice that I stutter, unless I speak words with hard K, P, M sounds. I would stutter 10 times per day, probably. As it didn't affect my life, I didn't pay any attention to it. I never thought about stuttering, except the moment I stuttered.

This negligible kinda stuttering went on upto the age of 16.5, then I changed schools, and I turned into a mild/severe stutterer, started to stutter on my name, couldn't even say "present", words which I never stuttered on. 

I'm 24 now, and I still can't say my own name, and I just can't talk to others without a stutter. While I'm alone, I never stutter - not even a single word. The moment I record myself, I start to fumble (Not as bad as talking to a person). Since last year, I have even started to stutter in front of my parents, which I never did before.

Now, you can see the patterns that my stuttering isn't really physical. It's psychological like my anxiety (probably social anxiety), but online stuttering community begs to differ. They say that stuttering is indeed physical. I have even reads the accounts of persons, who fixed their stutters. They say the same thing - "One must stop thinking about stuttering, don't care about what others think of you". But how can I do it as a generally anxious person? Even when I hardly stuttered, I still cared about others' judgements for other things. 

I just want to live a normal life.

You can ask more details, I will answer back.