I attempted to kill myself once, after constantly having suicidal thoughts for more than 2 months, ever since that happened I haven't had any of that and haven't felt down either. Thought that might have been because I dropped out of school and a lot of anxiety went away with it, I am worried that it might jave just been a mood swing. To tell you a bit more about myself, I am not empathetic, like not at all. I tried doing gratitude journaling thinking it might help but I was just writing down things I should be grateful for instead of actually feeling grateful for them. I can't remember the last time I felt happy. I went to psychiatrist once and he said that "I didn't have the expression that depressed people have" which makes me think that I am not depressed even more. He gave me some medicine which didn't really help me with- anything. Maybe I was not being honest and he couldn't evaluate me ( don't know if that's the right word ) well enough. Mental health isn't really discussed that much where I live so there's not much professional help available. I am just worried that I might be worrying or annoying my family for no reason.