i’m in a depressive episode again and i hate it. i hate everything. i wish i could just stay one mood instead of feeling fine for weeks and then randomly waking up not wanting to do anything. my family’s been staying at my place this weekend too and it’s been making things even harder. i’ve been forcing myself to wake up, eat, talk, go on walks, do other shit, and it’s too much. i can’t do this anymore. my mom said it’s good that i’m doing that but i’m so tired and i don’t want to talk or eat or do anything i just wanna sleep and never leave my room until i feel better again. my parents keep getting mad at me for being like this too. they’ll ask what’s wrong but then they’ll just say “well what am i supposed to do” and then scream at me for hours. i can’t see my therapist until september and my parents won’t let me go to a different one too. idk what to do anymore