I feel so deeply hurted today, I woke up really sad, I heard some screaming  from my family, I was upset, and sad, and had thoughts of ending my life, I did not have breakfast, I did not take any meds, I just woke up and watched videos until very last minute, but after all of that, I got up, got dressed, (I should have showered) I brushed my hair and teeth, put my shoes on, and walked out the door, with tears in my face, and now I'm at work, pretending everything is ok.
I could've told my boss that I'm not feeling well, and stayed home, but I didn't,  I regret that,  but now I'm here.