Recently dx. First drug they give me is Gabapentin 300mg x2 a day. I took it for a month and found it wasn’t helping that much. Switched to Seroquel instead at 25mg and it’s going okay. Doctor said Gabapentin won’t have withdrawals if I don’t go on a high dose but here I am.

No sleep last night. Cold creepy feeling in body. Sound sensitivity(Everything is making me jump) panic attack, irritable. Honestly reminds me of benzo withdrawals. 

I’m really upset at this doctor because I feel she did not fully informed me about this medication and for the first time in my life I actually did really didn’t do much research on it I just took it because I’m sick of trying to play God and now I regret not doing a little bit more research.

I’m going to the gym, therapy, meds, good diet, Maintaining and even schedule and trying to keep my triggers as low as possible but I’m really having a hard time.

I was recently diagnosed a little bit later in life and I feel like everything is crumbling around me. I lost my job two weeks ago and I barely have any money and I’m about to lose my family. 

I just want sleep. I even express to my doctor my concerns with the addiction with his drug in my past but they just dismissed it but yet here we are I should’ve followed my gut and I’m really sorry that this doctor is out there I feel bad for the less informed.

I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow and I’m definitely gonna let him in earful I don’t even wanna look at her anymore.