My ex was my fp like I was in fucjing LOVE (still am) but Yknow I bpd’d on her I was just a wreck when I was with her, I’d dump her and beg for her to come back constantly and the last time I’m trying to stick with it but fuck if it isn’t hard.  She saw my ig story today and I damn near threw up.  As much as I want her back in my life I know I can never do that to her again.  It just makes me feel so hopeless.