 

Hello everyone!

Today,  I had a thought pop in, more like a fear and for it is really annoying  me, I thought that I would share it with you and hopefully receive some  opinions, because it may affect a lot of you and it would be great if we  could spread this thread, albeit I don't know if such thread already  exists.

So, I've got a really  sweet girlfriend with whom our relationship is perfect in every  dimension. I may be biased but everyone around us says the same thing.  Everything matches. We are soulmates (you feel that kind of thing, and  it is like we've known eachother forever) and best friends and lovers  for each other and we share the same goals in life. We both suffer from  bipolar disorder and there are countless common things in our past. It  is kinda scary because the day she was admitted into the hospital we  instantly got attracted to each other and we fell in love, and she knew  it was real. We both listen to the same music, want to be psychiatrists,  speak the same languages, want to go to the same uni, study the same  thing and we both enjoy the same activites.

How  do I know that she is faithful? She rejected me once despite the fact  that she was in a toxic relationship and hated his boyfriend who used  her all the time. She cried that day all night long and she said that it  was one of the biggest regrets of her life. But regardless, when she  left his ex we became a pair and everything is going really straight.  Everything is great in this relationship including sex lol, and she says  that she wants to stay with me forever and we share basically the same  feelings and desires for a relationship. We both want this to last and  find it extremely fulfilling so there is virtually no reason to cheat.

I  may be projecting the fact that I do get attracted physically to other  females, which I never want to tell her, but I think it is natural and  it is perfectly okay if she feels the same thing, tho she told me that  she feels like no other guy can catch her attention, I just find that  hard to believe.

Now, back on the  topic. She is very impulsive when it comes to depressive and manic  episodes, so I think that if she ever gets hypersexual then all it will  take is a drink and an attractive male and she will fuck him without a  single thought if she feels a strong impulse, which she will most likely  regret for the rest of her life, and tho I love her more than anything  else, I'm not sure that I would be able to stick around after an  incident like this. I don't know, maybe I would keep her but I'm not  sure. And at the same time I don't want to dwell on things that have  never happened, but I am just curious about your opinions.

I must note that she is Bipolar Type I.

Thanks you all for the feedback!