For reference, I have quite severe amotivational depression and health anxiety. The first list is what I have tried over the past two-five years, all of which hasn't helped.

* Therapy (CBT, DBT, Psychodynamic, ACT, 20+ therapists)
* Psychiatric Hospitalization (2 months)
* Support Groups (10+)
* Ketmamie (10 IV infusions)
* Psylocibin (2x, made it way worse)
* Acupuncture (many treatments)
* Witchcraft
* Spirituality (religion, prayer, paganism, etc)
* Philosophy
* Trauma &amp; Inner child work, completion process, etc.
* Meditation
* Proven Supplements (vitamins, B12, fish oil, etc)
* Medication (Effexor, Zoloft, Lexapro, Gabapentin, Xanax, Adavan, Wellbutrin, Vyvanse, Adderall, Buspirone etc.) (all had 0 effect except the stimulants)
* Exercise (helps a bit)
* Fasting
* Various diets (keto, paleo, vegan, etc.)
* Digital Detox
* Hypnotherapy

I have tried all the "10 ways to destress" stuff like taking a bath and walking in nature, and every grounding technique I've ever heard. Alcohol is a nice bandaid fix that works if I'm not already flipping out, but I can't do it more than once a week or I get anxious about the health effects. I don't do weed or anything else recreationally, it makes me feel awful, I only do drugs medicinally with a guide or nurse in a legal manner.

HAVE NOT TRIED

* Chinese Medicine
* MDMA/Ecstasy
* DMT
* LSD
* Toad Venom
* Ayahuasca
* Join a cult for the community aspect
* Become a sex slave so I have greater priorities
* ECT - Electroshock therapy
* TMS - Transcrancial Magnetic Stimulation
* Vagus Nerve Stim
* Self Harm
* Herbal supplements
* Integrative Family Systems therapy
* Art therapy

Not super interested in the stuff like alternative medicine and ECT/Vagus because of the invasiveness and health concerns. Also most of that stuff is for depression, which is not my primary concern, it's the healthh anxiety. If I am just depressed, I can force myself to do things once or twice a week, but when anxious I'm almost completely paralyzed with fear. 

Could anyone suggest something else to try? Like really unique stuff I've never heard of? I don't \*want\* to be hopeless, but after so much work, everything I try that fails just sends me into despair. And believe me, I've tried doing nothing too. 

Please don't insult me in the comments and tell me I'm not trying hard enough or expecting an easy fix, that's usually the reaction I get.