Well, I’m completely new to Reddit and have no idea what I’m doing but it’s a last ditch effort to see if anyone has had similar experience or tips on how to overcome this. 

Recently I’ve gotten into an online relationship with a close friend, i was absolutely ecstatic and still am! Only problem is ever since the night we established a romantic relationship I feel as if I’ve been in a non stop panic attack. Ive had a history of anxiety and have light meds for it; but this is something completely new and it’s terrifying me. I cant hold down food and dry heave whenever I see a notification from them, my chest is so tight it feels hard to breathe. I even went to the ER due to how bad this was. At first I thought it was because we weren’t as affectionate as we used to be as friends but it’s returned back to normal yet my anxiety hasn’t.

I feel so happy to be in a relationship and shes done nothing wrong. We’ve talked normally it’s all going so smoothly; but I feel like I have that choking fear that I let someone in/opened myself to be vulnerable and my body in response has gone into fight or flight and won’t stop. Even when I try to sit down and rationalize, it comes right back an hour later. To be honest I’ve never been in a relationship before (f/21) so it’s all so new to me and I don’t want to screw anything up but I can’t get past this sinking feeling of anxiety. Even when we’re talking or not talking it never ceases to leave, that feeling of wanting to throw up or cry. 

Has anyone else had an issue like this? Is there a way to overcome it? I of course have an appointment with a professional Monday but I just need a way to cope through the weekend. I feel so sick and guilty cause I love and adore her but feel like I’m starting this relationship terribly with all this anxiety. I feel alone in this and the physical affect this is having on my body is near unbearable. I don’t understand why I feel this way when the relationship is going so smoothly.