I was hospitalized by my family Friday night through Saturday morning and I’ve just felt so numb since then. I hated every second of it, they had someone babysitting me the whole time, I asked for some water and when the lady brought me a bottle of water she asked if we were going to have issues with the lid. Like what? But as much as I hated it, I wish I was back there. I felt like I could just exist and no one expected anything from me. I could just curl up in those small ass chairs and sleep or stare at the wall and no one thought twice about it. I didn’t have to worry about work or disappointing anybody, it felt like I could finally just breathe.