He just makes me so happy and I’m crying tears of joy rn from him. Just the amount of dedication he has put into our relationship, all this bullshit from me he needs to put up with, all the ways he understands why I act how I act, and how he never blames me for a single thing that I do. 

Honestly. He does so much research on bpd, especially how it affects relationships and like just some ways he can help me calm down the symptoms bpd has along with it. 

For example I have this constant need to talk to him 24/7 and he knows it’s because of my fear of abandonment where if he leaves it feels like he’s leaving forever. We talked basically all day today besides for an hour at lunch and he brought up how he wanted to go to bed since he had to be up early tmrw. I said “I don’t want u to go to bed” and without me even needing to explain why he goes off onto a tangent about how much he loves me and how he’s never going to leave me. He eventually talked me into the idea of him going to bed like 5-10 minutes after and we said our good nights. In his goodnight he literally said and I quote “if you feeling down I want you to try and put all feelings aside and think about it rationally for a moment, I don’t know if it’ll help but we got time to try everything.” (I’m not currently in therapy rn or have I ever been yet, but he’s looked up a lot of ways some people with bpd have helped their symptoms and so ig he’s really trying to help me out with one technique and if it doesn’t work we’ll move onto another one)

Like I couldn’t ask for a better boyfriend. He just understands better than I believe anyone else could. He doesn’t ever hold stuff against me and to the best of my knowledge if I say something harmful, or try to push him away he does his best to not let it affect him as he knows I don’t mean it. 

And since he has ADHD (I’m sure most of you guys know of a lot of the overlapping symptoms between ADHD and BPD) he just gets me more than anyone I’ve met ever has. It’s like the way I am doesn’t seem as atypical when I’m around him. He truly makes me feel at home. And I know I make him feel the same way because of how much he reassures me without me asking him to.

I could honestly give so many more examples of how amazing he is, but I doubt anyone’s even reading to this point. I just wanted to post about him and maybe look back to it when I feel I’m about to split or something idk.