Every second, every minute and every day is excruciating. I keep asking myself how I got here? When did being alive become so unbearable. I used to have hope for so long but I don’t care anymore. I don’t care for things to work out, or for anything to get better. I don’t have it in me anymore. I only want my heart to stop beating at this point. I’ve waited so long for happiness and joy that I don’t want it anymore. Today feels like death.