I just realized something. 

I think the days I get to zen out. And do stuff for myself. I’m usually feeling decent. But days like today when I’m endlessly borrrreeddd. I fill it with talking to ppl. 

First. I’ll see if anyone can chill. If that fails. I turn to txting my friends. 

I’ll switch between apps endlessly. I’ll even go as far as to Initiate convos with ppl I dnt honestly care for? 

I’ll do this. And when no one is replying. I spiral. And I get so sad. And I’m jst frozen on my phone hoping for literally anyone to respond. 

But then I realize. I’ve jst been sitting on my phone for 2 plus hours. When I could have spent that time instead. Idk. Doing something for myself????? 

Idk. I’m starting to realize a lot of things about myself lately.