I got into an argument with someone earlier this weekend. It was a little intense and uncomfortable but by most measures we moved past it -- made up, continued to hang out, had a good time. But the next day I just felt god-awful. I'd already been in a shitty self-loathing mood all week, which I had handled decently well on my own, but I found myself then walking on eggshells around this person, apologizing a ton, offering to give them space, being really self-deprecating, just generally making things a big deal. In retrospect it was a little absurd. I don't even think he was actually upset at me. Now I feel mostly okay but still a little on edge. I'm just so used to my BPD leading to disastrous consequences for my relationships (platonic and romantic) that when it comes out I immediately panic. 

Can anyone else here relate? Just want to commiserate / hear how you deal with it. 