
I can’t seem to be happy. Everyday I feel like a hand pressing on my chest. Everyday a bad day for me.

Despite my school “emphasis” on inclusion , and that they are “always there to help” and stuff it truly all talk in the end. I experience it first hand today. I do get the fact that I was there last Group but truly the lack of information is real. We barely even tour the school. I once again feel the need to act,dress,look a certain way to even talk to people  .

I need to transfer!!!! And I believe the universe is agreeing with me. Got caught in the rain today trying to find a way back to my hotel(have not move in yet). My phone died, I had to use my laptop I was a mess.

I’m also now realizing how important it is to choose  a school with a aesthetically pleasing  campus and surrounding……

I was been away from NY for about4-6 year. I was born and raise in NYC. I would love to transfer to a university or college there . I know it a lot pricier but I think I will be able to handle life a lot better if I’m in a place that feels like home. If I’m ever upset I can just take the subway and go places. I miss the delis, the 50cent red hot chip+honey cinnamon bun(fav combo), pan fried dumpling, Asian bakery. I miss you NYC.

But I don’t know if I’ll be able to make it till that happen. I don’t think I will be able to get myself to go to eat at any of the dining hall. My schools also too in the suburb. It kinda scary. 

How does a super introvert make friends? I’m the type of person that if you ask for my name ill tell you and get too nervous to ask for yours.