Hi! So I had a nasty reaction to some antibiotics two weeks ago and when I woke up last Monday morning, I started going into anaphylactic shock. I’ve been experiencing reactions like these since i was 12 (delayed ones) so I knew what to do and went to the ER. Got treated and went back to my hometown for the week to rest and recuperate. I came back to campus this Monday and I’m starting fall behind on my work. This would be fine but I realized that if I took that extra dose of antibiotics like I was supposed to, I would’ve died last Sunday night/Monday morning. Like my face was already swollen when I woke up and within minute my throat was tightening. I think it’s really shaken me up. It doesn’t help that last week I had my period (my depression and mania worsens during that time period) and I started having flashbacks to really traumatic periods of my life. Now that I back in my dorm and trying to do my work, I feel numb and like I can’t concentrate. My professors have been understanding except one (he told me to check the calendar next time as he puts all of the assignments there and to plan better ahead of time) and I feel like if I take anymore time to recover, that professor might think I’m making up excuses. Hell, even I feel like I’m making up excuses. I’m not really sure what to do. Between feeling like I’m drowning in indescribable sadness and sobbing one second and feeling like I want to take the train in the city and get into something dangerous, I feel lost. Any suggestions?