Lately I’ve been struggling with sexual assault and I still live with my abuser but I can’t leave. At night I tend to think about what happened and sometimes it overwhelms me to where I have a panic attack. Before and afterwards I am extremely paranoid thinking he is going to go through my door at any second. And then I just attack myself thinking I am making up the abuse but in reality i think I am maybe in disbelief. I really don’t know... The more i start piecing things together and realizing that there is a small chance the abuse can happen again i get terrified and can’t sleep. I haven’t slept right in 3 days. I am so exhausted. I need to work on things and am even considering speaking out but what if I’m wrong?

Anyways, any advice is really appreciated thank you