I'm also scared of how I cry, it's so unnoticeable that it'll take a mental breakdown down my facial expression to change, I don't even my noise other than sniffing and heavy breathing. I can stop crying in a matter of a second, this is so fucked up, I've been taught to repress my emotions so much that I can't even cry properly, I even cover my mouth with my hand to make sure I don't slip up. What the fuck did I do to deserve this. I can't even cry properly because of my childhood