Do you ever just feel like you cant remember a time where you actually felt truly happy. I always sit around and try to think of a memory or just something that makes me happy and it just falls out of grasp. I can't remember times where I was truly happy, and when i can remember, those times didn't end up working in my favor. Ive had troubles with substance abuse in the past and im just working on creating a better life for myself but it just wont work. Tried medications, diddnt work, tried a whole bunch of shit and nothing works. Ive always been "content" never happy. Nobody answers me anymore, I just feel so alone and I dont know what to do. People tell me to distract myself but it only works for a certain amount of time and then im right back to my chest feeling tight and my head feeling like its going to explode. Its almost as if i can feel the energy being pulled right out of me until im empty..