 I'm having a really bad time with it. I hate getting tagged in photos on facebook, I just got tagged in one and had to delete my account. 
 Half of the time I think I'm genuinely extremely gorgeous and then the other half I'm devastated. 


I genuinely don't know how other people see me because most of the time I feel like I'm considered very good looking but then I think that can't be true because of weight issues and my face, it's very confusing and distressing for me. In my childhood I was always called ugly, and then I had a lot of attention as a young teenager, put on weight, lost it, went on to do fashion modelling then glamour modelling, put on weight again, shaved head, looked horrible, got treated differently - no one would have guessed i used to be a model, lost it, got breast augmentation, started lifting, looked really good for a while, put some on, lost it, looked good again, and currently have extra weight again and a dodgy haircut and I dont know what I even look like. At least I'm lifting and eating well, but I am still worried about depressive binge eating :( All i want is to look good again so I don't have to worry about it. 