I imagine my world as a glass globe spinning slowly on my fingertip. A fragile sphere threatening to topple over and shatter at any moment. Some days my globe is spinning gloriously and effortlessly, and other days it feels like a constant battle just to keep it upright. Lately, my days have resembled more of the latter than the former. Fighting all day to maintain balance is exhausting, infuriating and dehumanizing in a lot of ways. To quote one of my favorite songs, "I keep feeling smaller and smaller". So many times recently I've found myself crying at how agonizing and debilitating this pain is. I just feel so incredibly unstable and I'm scared I'm going to end up killing myself before I ever have the chance to get better and accomplish anything worthwhile. Does anyone else feel this way? Just knowing I'm not so alone would be comforting.  