I just feel no one really gives a rat's bottom about me and would drop me at the drop of a pin. I am not happy here in Canada and the way everyone just allows the stress to build up on me and care only about themselves. People say they care but if I were to tell them what really goes on my mind, or ask them for the "unrealistic" assistance I need. They would not be there for me. Nobody is going to get me outta this rut. I feel like moving to the Caribbean or something and am going to plan it when I get home tonight and for the upcoming weeks. 

My family doctor doesn't care about me, I'm still on a waiting list for psych. I'm on meds that I don't even think are doing me well, and Im sick off trying new meds just get new shitty side effects. I can't afford private therapy, nor do I feel like it would help much considering I've been in therapy for 8 years. DBT a few months. But to be honest, it's all been building up to this. I'm done. This is too much. I want to wean of my meds because I wouldn't be able to obtain them abroad, and there are plenty of remote jobs abroad, so I just want to move. Anyone thinking of doing this as well?