Last month I learned always, turn your phone off when drunk, I drunk texted two of the most popular girl's in our college hostel some really dirty banter text (not sexual or abusive, just a joke), that I would almost kill myself if I sent to anyone sober.

She left me on seen, blocked me and spread the word around our college on what a creep I am, I get looks of disgust and shame everywhere I go, every class I attend, I hate this life I'm living, I'm finding it hard to make friend's and my current friend's don't want to associate with me anymore.

I see her almost everyday and she just look's with disgust toward's me, I don't know what to do or what I am doing.

Some time's at night I sit and cry, I wanna kill myself, I don't know how to deal with this, stuff in a hostel where everyone hate's because of a drunk mistake you made.