I found out this morning that my therapist was killed over the weekend. She was biking and was hit by a truck from behind when that fucker drifted into the bike lane stuck and killed her... then DROVE AWAY!!! (Perp still not found as of this post) I am angry. I am devasted. And I can't help but feel selfish about what I'm going to do without her. I have been seeing her for the last five years for my medication management. She was the only therapist in my town that didn't give up on me. She listened to me and let me make decisions regarding my medications with her guidance. My town doesn't have the greatest mental health options. I do CBT with a therapist online, but he doesn't do medication management. I am scared. I am bipolar 2 with rapid cycling. I could always count on her to be available when I felt unstable and to work with me to find the right cocktail to help in the moment. I don't want to have to start over with someone new.  Advice is welcome. I just don't know what is going to happen.