I didn't know where else to post this i'm trying so hard to keep it together and failing. Just broke a tv and my hands are numb from hitting things and myself. My friend/fp just texted me that they've been dating someone for a week now and I'm completely lost. I know they were afraid to tell me I think they knew I would freak out and now I'm having to call out the rest of the day because I can barely breathe. I can't lose this connection but the thought of having to pretend I'm ok with it because we're friends is filling me with idk everything I hate. I just want to be done with them I want to forget everything fuck this fuck it I just want to turn my brain off fuck