Hello all!

I am doing a big concern.

So I find it really difficult to tell when I am physically ill and potentially had COVID without knowing it.

History: I was brought up in a house where I was essentially told to ''walk it off' and surrounded by people who made fun of my chronically ill father (calling  him a hypochondriac). 

Recent past: Sometimes my anxiety and emotions do make me feel physically ill and it may be the case that sometimes it's psychosomatic. I also used to suffer with chronic pain (luckily it's fixed), but with that chronic condition, I had to ignore it and continue to work because no one believed me  and I still needed to function. 

Medical advice: The doctor said it didn't sound like COVID and the website said not to get a test. By the time I spoke to the doctor, I had already been ill for over a week. I only see my support bubble and do not go into supermarkets anyway, which I'm thankful for. I am very isolated generally.

Now: I think I may have been unwell, potentially with COVID, but presented with atypical symptoms. It's too late for me to get a test and at the time I had no idea to get one because I just ignored the atypical symptoms (chills, fatigue, muscle pains, headache) because I didn't think I was ill! I only realised I was ill when I had a proper breakdown. I also wasn't sure if the fatigue was from my increased mirtazapine dosage/the muscle aches from working out. I still don't know what it was and I've only really started believing I had a virus at all because my partner has caught it. It could just be another virus, which is what the doctor told me.  

I feel absolutely awful that I may have exposed my support bubble to the virus. Have told him to get a test ASAP as it's not too late for him to know.

Tl;dr Do you find it difficult to know when you're physically ill?  Is that linked with this mental illness?