It's the second darkest moment in my life (the first one was after a lung disease years ago).
I can't find any meaning in the things I do, I don't get the point to get a job just to survive, my degree doesn't interest me anymore, I don't enjoy the everyday life and I don't have a gol in life, since the crippling fear of death.

I'm going to therapy and it's helping but it's not enough, I'm really tired.

So I'm thinking that maybe explore my sexuality could help me understand me better. I'm bi but I've never been with a man cause I was too scared, maybe in this darkest moment could help me in same way.

Has someone been in the same place or felt something similar?