Social anxiety and ADHD have slowly turned me into a shell of a person. I dropped out of high school in the 10th grade, and since then have slowly become more and more depressed. At first I was at least able to care about video games to distract myself, but now nothing excites me. The depression itself has caused me to develop brain fog and have difficulty speaking, which has affected my self-confidence. English feels like a second language.

Recently, things have gotten much worse. I just turned 28 and can't stop thinking about how much of a failure I am. Negative thoughts constantly loop in my head and make me sink lower and lower. I get anxiety attacks thinking of my brother or sister coming to visit me and not knowing how to interact with them. I don't understand how I can feel so numb and tired, while experiencing so much mental anguish.

I feel so alone. I have nobody to go to. When I'm lying in bed at night and crying I sometimes hold my pillow and imagine it's another person. I never imagined I would end up like this.