The emotional support I get doesn't feel good enough.  
Friendships don't feel close enough.  
Relationships don't feel close enough.  
Their care doesn't feel sufficient.  
I hate distance, I'd rather leave than have distance.   
I hate that nothing is perfect. I wish it was.  
I wish my fantasies of perfect closeness, love and intimacy were true forever.   


How can I cope with this? I've wanted an ideal relationship ever since I was little. I can't just let it go. It's all I want.