Hey yall I need some advice .
Have a few labels the drs gave me 
Scyphoaffective  , bipolar,  manic depressive suicidal ideation. 
And about 2 months ago the people that live in my head convinced  us to stop taking my meds again we ok I think for a few weeks but now I can't shut them out and they have gotten  cominding with both  audio  and visual . I'm not even sure what to call it because it's so real.
And unfortunately  once I can't control them any more I harm my self being doing it sence I was 8 years old and Friday I did it again. And it seams to get worse eveytime. So the after affect are bad enough I won't be able to hid the scares this time . And least for today I don't want to die but I'm really scared I might hurt myself really bad next time.