I can't grasp this constant underlying feeling of apprehension. I don't feel the typical anxiety symptoms, I don't feel like I'm about to walk into a job interview or like I'm being confronted with an anxiety inducing situation. I just always feel like I've been told some sad and worrying news.

Don't get me wrong, I get the typical symptoms for no reason, usually in the morning before I go to work and anytime my mind isn't occupied but as soon as I have that space to think and be present, that's all it is, that sad and worried feeling.

Something that's even weirder, when you get those short bursts of happiness and optimism that lasts for a couple of seconds once a week or so, like what the hell, where did that come from?