Through my DBT dairy cards I was able to see a pattern of negative behavior around my period or hormonal shifts like forgetting my BCP and then could separate which behaviors could be addressed with DBT skills and which were actually PMDD and needed a different solution. I have judged myself so harshly for these symptoms for so long and that judgment just turned to confusion when I found myself responding well to DBT on most days and then completely reverting to square one at seemingly random times, especially with rage, which is my scariest target behavior. It's still frustrating and I feel like shit today, but to have answers and feel in charge of myself means I am going to be okay as soon as my hormones regulate and I am on a new pill (and start skipping my sugar pills, which i resisted at first but now I am taking seriously). I want to share this progress and also that DBT is taking up a lot of my extra money right now. I just cancelled a snowboard trip (don't feel too bad, it's one of three or four this season) so I could pay for group. And honestly, even though it feels like a sacrifice, it already feels like one of the best investments I've made in myself and I'm only four months in. Even on days i feel like shit and scared, like today, I am able to stay hopeful because of DBT.