ok so before I start let me just preface this by saying I have quiet bpd so it takes A LOT for me to actually tell people when im upset etc. 

ive been speaking to this guy for 2 months on instagram, and we have tried to meet up multiple times but it just never seems to work out for us.. the first month we were still in lockdown so we would call often, watch movies online together, spoke daily. the first time I told him I was upset he wrote an entire paragraph reassuring my anxieties. since then I believed that this was possibly a safe person for me to share things with, unfortunately I think I was wrong.  from the beginning I was very suspicious of love bombing because it was so much but in a way that FELT GOOD. I outright asked him; are you lovebombing me? and he said no I don't even know what that is etc I just really like you. blah blah. on the phone he is lovely, he's lovely 75% of the time.

we have had many altercations where its mainly been "miscommunication" and I am usually the one who gets blamed for jumping to conclusions. he didn't reply to me for 3 days directly after a short, blunt, upsetting conversation in which I explained how horrible I was feeling. not in detail, not attention seeking. purely expressing my feelings. due to my dismissive childhood etc that is a HUGE trigger. if I feel I can trust you enough to SHARE my feelings with you, and then u just dismiss me or reply with some bullshit like "that sucks" "why" "damn" PRETEND TO CARE AT LEAST.

here are some screenshots, first few I was asking him why he ignored me for 3 days and the rest are from today. he was being blunt today. replies were just "okay" "why" "oh" "do u want to talk about it" like those don't sound like they are coming from someone who CARES. AND THEN HE SWITCHED IT ON ME SAYING IM BEING WEIRD?? he makes me feel like im crazy sometimes. honestly im losing feelings or splitting I don't know but im getting SO fed up. I am so angry but I have not shown one ounce of anger towards him.   

[https://imgur.com/a/N2XLnJ7](https://imgur.com/a/N2XLnJ7)

anyway just let me know what u guys think, lol. (he left me on read on that last text I sent about miscommunication etc) still waiting on a response .