I am unworthy and I am garbage.  I am not worthy and I will never be better.  I am trash and I am incapable of changing. Nothing has changed for the better in the past 10 years.  I have failed in everything I set out to do. 

I am useless and miserable. I hate being alive. I hate positive people who shame me further for the way I feel. I do not want to speak to anyone,  there is only hatred there. I want to stop existing.  I hate the world