I feel like I dissociate for really long periods of time. Every few weeks or so I'll snap out of it and realise I've dissociated for what feels like a very long time. It feels like I'm doing it more and more. I'm losing days of memory and time. My husband says I'm much calmer than I just to be and I think it's because I'm not really present. Someday's I wonder if I've been dissociating for years, as I don't really know how I got to the point I am in my life right now.