I feel like it’s sad that I caused so much pain to others just because of my own trauma, tons of other people live through extreme trauma but aren’t toxic to others and don’t take it out on other people like me

So what is my excuse…

Anyways, has anyone on this forum actually recovered/made considerable progress with their BPD? I just saw a bunch of posts about identifying a narcissist on Instagram and a lot of it applied to me (in the past? Idk.. I haven’t made any new relationships since I destroyed my last one..) and I feel hopeless about changing, I’d like to hear about anybody’s recovery or progress stories