I'm A 17 Year Old Guy Who always had a goal in my life which is to find the person with whom I see myself spending all my life.
But I Had Multiple Toxic Relationships.

An Ex Constantly Wanted Me To Share My Screen With Her And Film Myself 24/24.

Another One Was Depressed, Just Like Me, And Asked Me For Help Before She Sent Me Get Fucked,  Which Worked For A Long Time Because Of My Naivety.
She Was Saying That I Had Cheated On Her, I Honestly Have No Memory Of Having Done It, So Currently, I Don't Even Know If I Cheated On Her Or Not By Dint Of Hearing HerBulllshit Repeating Again And Again In My Head.
Both Of Which Separated Me From My Friends By Manipulating And Blackmailing Me.

And Some Other Relationships That Didn't End Well.

Anyway, All That To Say That I Am Really Traumatized By These Relationships Which Have Been Very Difficult For Me, And That Now It Is More Than Difficult For Me To Succeed In Attaching Myself To Someone. I Feel Meaningless Without This Quest That Gives Meaning To My Life And Without All These Emotions That Once Crossed Me To Make Me Happy...