I was traumatised by a toxic relationship back then and my ex cheated on me with his old ex (because he was his only true love). He really hurted me and it happened before my end exams. I almost failed and then I went depressed and wanted to disappear. I wallowed in a depression for 5 months. Then I met him at my uni and I dissociated so hard that I almost died. Then I just stopped going to the classes, failed the first year and I went back home.

I was on some dates with people but after each of them I ghosted them because I felt repulsed by them. They were mostly clingy and not my type. HOWEVER I feel attraction only when I am drunk (so I ended with a few hook ups but I ghosted them when I had a chance obv)

I also hate meeting new people. I tried to come out of my shell and become more extroverted towards everyone. But it felt... shallow? There is a huge drinking culture in my country so basically meeting new people is connected with alcohol. After few months I was just sick with that and I isolated myself from these people. 

Anybody here with similar issues? :(