Ever since I've accepted the fact that I have BPD I have really noticed some things that I had sort of blown off as just having an "off day" or whatever...but today I noticed that after I had gotten upset/frustrated with my FP that not only was I putting up an emotional block toward them because i didnt want to fully surrender to them ... i also noticed that their physical touch did not feel the same. The kisses werent the same. The hugs weren't the same. I felt very numb to their touch. 
Has anyone else ever felt like this or had this happen? I am more than a little freaked out that my sense of touch may possibly be affected by the physical symptoms that manifest from BPD.
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My sense of smell changes a lot, too. I am so weirded out by the fact that my actual senses are being affected by something.