Okay, I'm gonna keep it as short as possible I guess.

So, I've started noticing very strange behaviours and thoughts in my head. I've previously been diagnosed with Depression and Social Anxiety, as well as having Disordered Eating, self harm and suicidal tendencies. 

I've started noticing an increase in perfectionism. Things HAVE to be symmetrical, pretty, etc. Otherwise I just can't handle it. An example of this is tonight I was playing a game and nearly had a panic attack because it wouldn't let me make what I was doing symmetrical (and then friends started making it not symmetrical and it made it worse.)

There's also been an increase in almost ritual like things. I've mentioned this elsewhere, but especially in eating. I have to eat things a certain way or it doesn't feel right. As well as that, I've been having issues with lining things up. If I pull out a bunch of Skittles I have to arrange them in colour and then eat them from most frequent to least frequent. If I'm colouring, I can't go out of the lines. If my books are messy in class I nearly start crying and I had a breakdown over having to use two different coloured pens in my therapy diary card 

I've noticed an extreme increase in my anxiety, too. My panic attacks are more frequent, I'm unable to do much all day because I just don't feel well enough. I cry a lot but that's due mostly to ED stuff making me emotionally vulnerable.

I've also, for the last 3 or 4 years, had a big problem with motor tics. They're usually brought on by anxiety but a big trigger for them is movement. I can't move in very fast, small motions or my body goes into a spaz and sets off strings of tics. If my desk/workspace is messy or I'm for other reasons unable to move properly I have a fit and the tics start. Usually they're just very painful head jerks, whole body spasms/shivers or violent limb jerking.

No idea if any of these are relevant to each other but I'm concerned I don't know what to do anymore.