yesterday i had a biggest nervous breakdown while working and lost 2 hours of my shift just histerically crying. i literally couldnt stop crying and couldnt compose myself over a totally minor thing which was asking someone for help for something work related. i am really falling deeper and deeper its horrible. i think if i dont do something about this im going to kill myself. the mental health services are not good in my country but i dont know what other options there are. i think i need meds because it becoming unbearable and i need them to literaly survive this period. im scared they are going to be horrible to me like they were when i was a child when i went to a psychiatrist. i dont know i dont know if i should reach out or what. please someone help me.