I’m a burden. I have misophonia, anxiety and probably depression at this point. Misophonia is the worst. In simplistic terms it’s when specific and repetitive noises and/or movement cause me to feel overwhelmingly enraged, anxious and just overall uncomfortable. Personally, my mom is the one who sets me off, every little thing she does triggers me. I can’t be in the same room as her and car rides are the fucking worst. My situation is honestly indescribable. I just can’t find the right words to describe how fucking awful everyday life for me is. I’m only 15, I’ve had this since I was 8 and it only gets worse (this year has been the worst yet for me). I never have a good day when it comes to misophonia. It’s this never ending dreadful anticipation for a trigger. It’s all so predictable. I used to have a good relationship with my mom but now she acts cold toward me when I try to make an effort to spend time with her despite all this. I just feel like I’ll regret not spending time with those I love whilst I have the chance, so I force myself to. I don’t even know how I’m going to make it through school, university. It’s getting to a point where I can’t handle being around my friends or be in class. Exams are 100x harder for me. Sorry this was a mess. I just needed to get this out somewhere, somehow. I’ve tried therapy, but the psychologist told me she couldn’t help. I’m going to be going to a choice appointment soon maybe that will do some good.