I've been trying hard to break away from my FP for months, but every time I see her, I get crazy attached. A few months back, we openly discussed defining health boundaries between us, as she is in a relationship and wanted to maintain a platonic friendship.

For the past week before the meet up with my FP, I was constantly plotting in my mind how things would pan out and what I would say as we planning to attend an even together.

I don't know understand why or what made me think it was ok, but for the whole weekend I got extremely touchy with her. Eg. Touching her thighs, hands, convincing her to sleep in the same bed as me etc. We had clearly defien9and agreed on that this is sought of behaviour is not ok and cannot cross that line. Unfortunately, I did it without thinking for one moment throughout the whole weekend to what I was doing was a breach of trust, respect and downright disgusting behaviour.

I am deeply ashamed of my actions and can't fathom the hurt that I caused. We were certainly on the upwards path to our friendship flourishing after this weekend, but silly me did what I did. I have decided to completely back off from all my friends as I'm too ashamed to tell anyone and just want hang back and focus on myself. I suppose that's one way of getting rid of an FP