So he came up to me told me to leave him alone, told him to leave and stop talking to me then. (was just waiting for some friends in a corridore). He then slaps me with full force runs away and yells at me that he'll do it again if I dont stop. 1-2 min later he comes back and then hits me again, a teachers gets called and then he kicks and punches me again. He then just says how he's going to beat me up again in front of the teacher lol. Then I had a chat with my principal and says the school will sue him. (we are 19, 18 respectively). Now they want me to come in early tomorrow to talk about what happened. I just want to fucking lie in my bed and hopefully stop existing.

Anyway after what happened the friends I was waiting for cought up to me and then we sat together. The whole thing after was just so fucking fake and I cannot believe that one of them got more respect for me(known her for like 3 weeks). Didn't I kinda deserve it? I know nobody should attack someone, but like I suck. I hate myself so much for what stupid fucking decisions I've made now, but I woulnd't change anything. I love how I got a bit more respect I guess but at the same time is getting into a fight the only thing she likes about me now? (Not romantic obv) Idk. THen talked to some other guys in my class and one of them really thought I deserved it and he wouldve done the same. Noone talked to me after school even when I tried to get a little bit of contact and now I truly just want to die. 

I have been praying a couple of times a week to get that guy to feel better and that our conflict would resolve somehow and now this? Is there even a God and if so why does he want me to suffer like this? I feel nothing but pain, fysical and emotionall, anxiety and just utter hopelessness. I DO NOT want to go to that meeting tomorrow. Any advice for what to do?

The reason he's mad is really long and confusing. I've only been waving and saying hi to him when we passed, which is why he threatened me.