I can't make a list of everything that's wrong with my life, it's just pretty much everything. I can't even sleep anymore, I'm living in constant despair. Every time something good happens something awful happens shortly after, literally every single fucking time.

On top of this, nobody gives a flying fuck, literally nobody at all, instead of receiving any support from people, I'm mocked or told "it's not that bad", even if they have no fucking idea of what the fuck I'm dealing with.

I can't live anymore like this, I literally can't, this can hardly be called living, and things are only getting worse. I'm on the verge of killing myself and nobody's giving me a fucking hand, and a call to a suicide hotline won't do shit.

And for the love of god, if you're gonna reply, don't come to me with pointless positivism; the last thing I need is feeling any more mocked than what I feel right now.