So ive been doing really well for the past 6 months. After battlung depression and an eating disorder as well as BPD for years, i started feeling good. But the last few weeks i havent been able to eat. Its not that i dont want to eat. Im hungry ALL THE TIME. But as soon as the food is in front of me all i want to do is throw up. Last time i dealt with an eating disorder i didnt want to eat. Now i do, but if i try to eat it just comes back up.
Everyone who knows be is getting really worried, thinking my eating disorder is back. Its not. I just feel too nauseas all the time. I dont know how to explain that this isnt what it seems.
Im seeing my doctor next week, but i really needed to vent.
Sorry for the ramble, thanks for listening. I appreciate it