Hello friends, I (23F) have a story/question:

Before I was diagnosed with bipolar and medicated for the symptoms that began when I was about 20, I formed an unhealthy relationship with weed and alcohol. I wouldn't say it was an addiction or problem of that nature, I just realize now that the way I viewed them at that time was as a method of self-medication rather than leisure or fun. I had periods where I was using both daily (but never at the same time) in order to make myself feel better when I didn't yet have access other resources (i.e. psych meds, therapy, etc.). 

Fast forward from then to when I got linked with a psychiatrist and started taking meds that helped me. I decided to be completely sober for a while as I did not want anything to interfere with my progress or bring me back to that time where I saw substances as a coping mechanism. I was sober for about a year by my own choice and made immense personal progress in terms of managing my disorder and living life to the fullest. 

Now, within the past month and change, I've decided that I'm doing super well (have been for a while) and no longer view substances as a coping mechanism. I have my meds, my psychiatrist, my therapist, and a great support system overall. I feel very happy and like I am in a great place. This has resulted in me making a decision to drink or smoke every once in a while solely for pleasure or fun. 

I just missed the social and relaxation aspects of getting a buzz off of a drink or smoke. Like I said, no longer viewing it as a coping mechanism, totally different perspective now. Not necessary, just a source of enjoyment from time to time. I'm talking one drink every once in a while on the weekends, or a few hits here and there. Never planning to go crazy, do it daily, or go overboard on the occasions that I do engage. 

I've done both a few times since I made the decision for myself and have not had any negative effects. In fact, I don't feel the anxiety that I used to get as a side effect of drinking or smoking, and feel that I'm able to enjoy the experience more than I had in the past. Just for the record I do not mix them, it's either one or the other, and like I said it's all in moderation. 

I take Lithium, Seroquel, and Prozac. I know that no doctor is going to recommend these activities outright, but I plan on speaking to mine to let him know that I am now allowing myself the occasional/moderate enjoyment of them and have not experienced anything negative from this "once in a while" sort of mindset. 

Just wondering if anyone else has experience with this kind of use, and if you take any of the same meds as me. How has it affected you?