TLDR: when I (and a lot of people with BPD feel bored) it’s absolutely agonizing. What is this terrible feeling???? It’s gotta be a secondary feeling because “boredom” is just boredom but we get so much pain with it :/ :/ :/ I want to work on it but idk what I’m feeling because we all just describe it as “bored!” and google is like “being bored isn’t the worst thing” but I’m like... it is....


My scenario: I stayed over last night with my girlfriend of 2.5 years and it was kind of boring, it’s COVID-19 in our city, we both had headaches, and we’ve been hanging out a lot more than usual lately bc her roommate just had surgery. We’ve been having a lot less sex probably because of world stress, my terrible health, and she’s in transition with moving out of her lowkey homophobic parents. 

I feel like boredom is the utmost worst thing in a relationship. It makes me want to die. Part of me would rather be in an unhealthy relationship than be bored tbh. And part of me would rather be single than bored in my happy healthy relationship.