You aren’t exceptional.

Don’t click away, I don’t mean you aren’t talented or special or wonderful in your own way. I’m simply telling you that you aren’t the exception you think yourself to be.

I want you to think about the bad feelings, all those times you told yourself “I’m worthless”, “I’m disgusting”, “I’m a burden”. Think about the words like that that you have said in your past.

Think about your loved ones, or friends, or an fp, or even someone you think you’d find sympathetic. Imagine them saying that to you. Imagine if you heard those words you’ve said come out of their mouth.

What would you tell them? That it isn’t true, that they have value just by being themselves? That they look lovely today? That they’ve not burdened you to your knowledge?

All of those things, the reasons they say for their judgement of themselves- recognize that those are your reasons too. If they came out of any other human’s mouth, you’d call bullshit. But because you think that of yourself, you think it’s okay.

You make an exception to deny yourself humanity. You consider yourself exempt from decent treatment.

I’m not saying to overcompensate by getting big headed and calling yourself the best, but realize that that forgiveness you’re willing to offer others is just as valid for yourself.

I’m not saying it’s easy either. Forgiving yourself and reminding yourself of your humanity will take practice. But remember one thing if you must.

You are not exceptional, in that you aren’t the exception to love, forgiveness, and decency. And if you can give that to others, you have the potential to do the same for yourself. 

You got this- the despair and fear is strong, but you’re still kicking. Kick it in the balls and scream from the top of your lungs that you deserve to love yourself.

And take your time. &lt;3

Sincerely, a fellow Borderline trying to share what I’ve learned.