I feel stupid, waiting for my boyfriend to reply sometimes all day and night. Everything was going so well, and now  it feels like he is rapidly losing interest in me. All I want is to see him. I don’t have a job as of right now, so the past few days I literally have only left my bed to go to the bathroom really because I’m depressed as hell. Just sitting, waiting usually 5 hours for a single reply or more. When he knows how bad I’m doing and how lonely I am. But I know it’s a lot to put on someone. Ugh. I’m worth more than this, I should be doing something productive and enjoying life even if I’m by myself. But he is the only thing that makes me happy right now. So I keep sitting around. Wishing he would ask to see me.