My ex told me on our first phone call, he said he understood if it was a deal breaker and it wasn't. He's medicated and has both therapist and psych. Took him years to become the person I met and fell in love with.

 After 5 months of pure love together, he started having an episode, I was insecure about how he was communicating with me and put pressure on him to validate me. I think it pushed him too far and he ultimately ended it. 

He gave a couple reasons why it had to end, I forgive him and I understand now why we both need to work on our mental health. But he failed to communicate he had been thinking about this, the issues we could've talked about and worked on together. 

So yeah I'm here, heartbroken, blindsided and looking for answers. Am I all to blame or does his disorder have something to do with it and we just need time apart to heal?