Here I am, 4 months after my planned suicide date, I have no one to talk to, I go outside everyday and I work out sometimes but every person I get to know doesn't want to be my friend, I am trying my best but I just don't feel anything anymore, I can't work anymore too.. I am waiting for my army draft which is in less than 3 months, I really hope it's going to change my life, for now I am sinking in my mind and feeling empty.

  
I also managed to get addicted to vape during the past month or two, the buzz I get off it makes me feel stupid and forget my shit so I just sit in my room all day hitting the damn thing.

  
hope everyone is doing well, have a nice day.