I'm a uni student. I've been feeling down since early April. And I've been ditching lots of classes since then. This week I went to counseling and was told that I didn't have to take all classes. It helps me a little bit.

But sometimes I skip classes even when I have energy to attend them, just because it's hard to catch up. I feel guilty for that.

I'm going to see a psychiatrist end of this month but I can't stand with this situation anymore.
it's painful to feel depressed but I don't wanna feel ok because it causes a sense of guilt and reminds me of my laziness.