my birthday is in a few days and i dont know why but im always so anxious because of it. i planed to go out and have some sushi with my two best friends. and on the one hand i am really grateful, because i have them in my life and because i can spend my birthday with them and just have a chill day. but on the other hand i really just want to do nothing but i know i will also have anxiety when i would do nothing because… its my birthday i have to do something! i wish i could just see it as another day in my life but i dont know, i feel sick thinking about it.