I appreciate it might sound a little desperate to be so forthright about needing encouragement, but I’m in so much pain following my breakup 1 month ago and recently reached out to my ex partner which has instigated a bit of an emotional setback this past few days.

I’m looking for hope wherever I can get it, and tomorrow is a big step towards building a better relationship with myself. I found somebody that has experience with BPD and relationships and I hope in time these feelings of guilt, shame and the obsessive thinking about my ex will subside. In the meantime, I’ve been reading, going to the gym and reconnecting with old friends. I still feel very much like each day I’m treading water until the next, but I am really hoping I am starting to turn a corner - I simply cannot continue to feel this way.

I’ve no animosity towards my ex whatsoever, quite the opposite - I understand that my ongoing mental health difficulties were making the relationship unsustainable. Hopefully this appointment can start facilitating the process of moving on and letting her go. Any words of encouragement and/or positivity would be much appreciated. I’m tired of getting the shit kicked out of me by my own head all day, everyday.

Thanks for reading folks xxx