(TW SH) I used to drink regularly, it’s become rare/none in the past 6 months or so, I’ve also made big progress in managing my BPD in that time. 

I had just two drinks yesterday and a single glass of wine tonight and I feel fucking insane and miserable. Angry (with reason, but unbearably) and want to cut so so bad. I feel like the way I’d feel mid bender. And coping worse than I have in months, doing/saying shit I feel I’ve outgrown.

I know alcohol is bad for depression and has lasting effects etc. Anyone find they can’t consume any amount at all? I feel like it can’t be this dramatic of an impact? I’m not even drunk but I’m fucked up mentally off very little booze rn.