Hi I haven’t been diagnosed with BPD however I feel like a lot of the symptoms relate to me at times when I’m attached to someone I’ll become incredibly suicidal and self harm and find myself in a really depressive mood because I become so emotional and fearful of them leaving. I become incredibly manipulative and try and make them insecure and angry at me because in my head that shows that they love me. 

The reason I haven’t gone to seek help yet it’s because I noticed that I only have the symptoms to that extent when I’m attached to someone and all other times I don’t I don’t find myself attached to anyone necessarily except for my mum who I’m always with anyway so I don’t know if that even correlates with BPD

I don’t worry about my female friends abandoning me or rejecting me it’s literally just people who I get romantically attached to you does anyone know if this could be BPD or is it just me getting hyper motional towards people who I care about? I don’t want to seek help unless it there is a chance that I have BPD or if it’s just my personality. do some people with BPD only experience symptoms when they’re romantically interested or is it all the time?

Thanks