I'm in a funk. 
I'm lonely.

I sometimes feel empty and invisible if I'm not around people..
I'm not making good use of my time when I'm by myself. A lot of online chat and little if anything in person. 
Any in person contact I do have never feels like enough..
Not enough social contact sometimes puts me into this mode where I feel almost child-like.. I definitely feel needy.
I have friends, it's just like none of them have been around.
I rarely if ever go out on Saturday nights lately.

One thing I notice is that I tend to fill my time up with thinking about other people. Like "why hasn't this person contacted me?"
"Why didn't this person wish me a happy birthday?"

It seems I can't focus on the present very much. When I am focused on the present I still feel this deep loneliness..

It's like if I don't work I get no social contact.

Fuck it's exhausting...

