For most of my life I had what I just assumed were anger issues and issues with how I'd get extremely sad over little things, but I've all but got a full diagnosis for BPD. Like it's all ramped up with everything that's happened in the world and to me in the past 2 years with tons of trauma. I'll go from fine and happy hanging out with friends to catching myself staring off, getting sad and anxious for no reason, or getting so mad that I lash out. I don't mean to let it get a hold of me, but it's like I lose all control with the anger part, and just struggle silently while I'm fighting to not break down when the depressive episodes hit.

Honestly I have no idea how to get friends to understand what is going on. I've tried explaining it, and some of them are better than others trying to help me with it. The others still just think it's all it my head and just excuses