I also hate being awake LOL. At night I just feel so peaceful and capable. I also feel like I have all the freedom in the world to fuck up my life however I want to. I can survive off uppers downers caffeine and weed. I can choose to paint till 2 am even though I can’t paint for shit. I never wanna go to sleep. I never can go to sleep without Xanax which I’m not even prescribed. My friend that I buy from of going out of town fml. Only problem is that I know sleep depreciation is only gonna make all my problems worse. I also am so insecure lately about not being funny, so I feel like treating my body like shit while make me a little delirious and therefore, funnier🤞Sorry just wanted to rant.