I'm currently on 8 different meds and spending a lot of my parents money on 3 sessions of therapy per week and it just doesn't work. It doesn't seem to improve. 
I feel so empty and hollow all the time.

I want to kill myself all the time. I agreed to try a treatment and been trying it for months but it just doesn't work and I'm just getting more and more tired of this life. I am on suicide watch forever, can't leave home, can't do anything, my home basically changed to become a psych ward (where I've spent some time) and I can't stand it anymore.

I just want to die already.I feel there's no help for someone like me :(