My girlfriend is one of the most kind and understanding people I know, but she just doesn't understand my depression. Whenever I talk to her about it, she goes on about how she must not be good enough to make me happy and that makes her sad. I've also been extremely depressed lately and suicidal, but I know I can't talk to her about that either. She knows I used to be suicidal and it would break her heart if I told her I still am and it would make her cry, which I can't stand. I'm so desperate and lost and I wish I could talk to her and make her understand but I just don't know how.

Also, does anyone else feel a sense of abandonment whenever someone important in their life doesn't talk to them? Whenever I'm alone I get sad and my thoughts consume and I just end up crying (something I've been doing often as of late). I just wish this would all end. I don't know who I can talk to about this.