Gonna keep this short bc it’s 1 AM and I need sleep. But anyways...

Basically, one of my best friends (and ex girlfriend) stopped all communications about a year and a half ago. She’s amazing, an awesome friend and she’s even getting married soon, I’m so happy for her, and knowing her past, it’s amazing what she has accomplished. 

She stopped talking with me because I was being extremely toxic. I had this fear and jealousy of anyone else taking her away from me, so I did many stupid things to keep other people away from her. Idk if any of you guys ever act this way, but I was being extremely manipulative and shitty and I regret everything I’ve ever done to her. She didn’t deserve what I had done. 

Fast forward to 3 hours ago. She just got a new pc, and ended up joining a group chat that consisted of myself and another friend that we both knew. We played games for hours and just talked like we used to. It was great.

Here’s where I need advice. I don’t have romantic feelings for her anymore, and I only see her as a friend. But I honestly don’t know if it would be healthy for either of us if I keep talking with her. She used to be one of my triggers, but she also used to be my best friend. 

Thanks, sorry for typing for so long, my mind is just kind of racing right now.