Me and my boyfriend have been breaking up almost everyday because i get triggered very easily over stuff like he didnt call me to say good morning so it must mean he no longer loves me, and stuff like hes choosing to play games with his friends so it means hes choosing them over me. Ik it sounds so unreasonable and childish but i just cant help stop thinking that he’s gonna abandon me soon. After we breakup i cant handle the distance so i would beg for him to take me back and when hes annoyed that i broke up with him in the first place and acts cold to me, i would go completely insane thinking he’s creating distance and he no longer loves me which happens on a daily basis and i am going completely insane.

And i think completely in black and white so one second i feel like hes out there to hurt me and have ulterior motives as to why hes with me and that he has never loved me but then suddenly i would switch to thinking he saved my life i cant live without him. 

Its been really really chaotic and the only coping mechanism i had was self harming, i have been seeing different therapists and on quatiapine but its not helping and I wonder what i could do