i just started a new job last week. everyone is really cool and i like it a lot, i think it will be good for me. i was supposed to work tonight but my anxiety has been really bad all day, literally just shaking and getting sick since this morning but i felt i could tough it out. 

i went and got in my car to leave and my car started acting weird i think bc it needs an oil change but i fully had a panic attack sitting in my car. i called the store and said my car wouldn’t start which isn’t true but my car is running differently. also, the job is 35 mins away. 

they told me to give them a call again later to let them know if i can still come in tonight, but i really just feel like i want to lay in bed the rest of the day. i’m scheduled to work every day the rest of the week. i don’t know why i lied i just panicked and didn’t feel like i could tell them what’s going on especially so close to my shift time (i called at 1:10 supposed to start at 2). 

now im feeling not only anxious but also guilty and wondering how im going to get out of this.