Well, I want an excuse to sober up and go and get the mental health treatment I need. I’m reliant on Kratom, caffeine, and weed to be barely sane. The kratom is starting to show some gross dependence. On the outside my family doesn’t think I should go to treatment but I need desperately. Never tried meth but I figure I’ve saved up enough money to pay bills 8 months in advance. I basically am thinking of getting fucked up on meth cleaning my house and using it as a catalyst to go get mental help. The meth will give me a valid reason to be locked away with therapists for a couple weeks to detox. I’m retarded I know. But I don’t think I have a better idea to show my fam how sick I am.