I just got out of the hospital for suicidal ideation about two months ago. I don't think it helped much, just like my two previous hospital visits before. I got my medication upped and things we're okay for awhile I guess. I haven't missed my medication, maybe a day or two, since I left the hospital. They put me on a prososin for nightmares but it didn't work so I stopped taking it. Things have gotten worse despite me staying on my medicine. I can't stop crying over everything, my boyfriend keeps bringing shit up that depresses me. I can't stop overthinking. I am actively suicidal, currently coming up with a plan. I just want to leave