When I was 17 I went to prison, my dad, grandma and brother died. My mom abandoned me and my brothers when I was 4, she’s in prison now I have no relationship with her. 2 of my brothers passed away one from suicide and the other from a drug OD. I have no family, no cousins, no aunts or uncles no siblings nothing. I do have a beautiful daughter and a son on the way but I’m still lonely and it breaks my heart. I truly I wanna be dead, my kids will grow up not knowing my family cuz their all dead…I’m losing myself more and more everyday and nobody sees it. I want the pain to go away no more heartbreak please..