Everything hurts so bad. I have no hope for my future. Every time I think it’s getting better something happens and it sends me into a horrible episode. I end up being an asshole to everyone and losing people. I’m so tired of myself. I honestly want to end it all. No one cares and I’m so angry to the world I’ve tried everything and nothing works. I can’t get a job so I can’t afford proper therapy. I hate my entire existence. I wish I was never born.