So I can really use some advice if anyone is willing to offer it! I have bipolar one, last summer I experienced drug-induced psychosis and have had pretty intense episodes before. My dad also has bipolar 1 and never has taken medication. Growing up I never understood my father but I loved him very much. His fits of anger mixed with drug use cost for a very violent house and now that I have the same diagnosis as him I feel like I really do get him, but it scares me because my worst fear was always becoming my father and during my episodes I feel like I have. I know a lot of this can get fixed with medication and therapy I just can’t bring myself to go on medication and I don’t know why. Sorry if this is everywhere and doesn’t make too much sense or you don’t know how to give advice on this genuinely just curious.