I was raised constantly told I am an asshole, a heartless cold person, “how could I raise a person like you?”, “do you treat your friends like this, how to do have friends?”, being called mean and names by the person who made me. 

I can’t think about who I am without cringing, I can’t look at myself without being repulsed and I can’t think about who I truly am without thinking I am a cold heartless mean person. 

I hate everything about myself so fucking much I can’t live with it.