I'm like super prideful that I can make my own medication adjustment my psychiatrist "trust" me with massive amounts of my drugs and I dole them out as I see fit and I basically just check in with him to tell him what I'm doing and get refills...well these past few weeks about a month I've slipped back into the psychosis episode about one day a week and it's just like why did I not adjust my antidepressants down?! What a fucking moron I am! So now here I am full on manic doing stupid shit taking stupid risks for really no good reason other than the pursit of happiness and I just want to cry! What a fucking idiot I am! Wake up genius! First psychosis episode adjust your fucking meds and you wouldn't be here doing this right now! Hyper aware is what you need to become to manage this shit show! Ugh what the fuck y'all!?