I started a fight in public at dinner with my boyfriend last night. I don’t even remember why but I did. I went full shark eyes, unrelenting until he was finally fed up enough to leave me at the restaurant. His phone died and I couldn’t get ahold of him for 5 hours so I fucking lost it. 

I beat myself senseless. I threw things. I ordered a bunch of food on his card to try to get his attention. Over nothing.

I feel like a fucking child. I can’t control how I act when I feel abandoned. I’m sitting here with a black eye right now waiting for him to come over  and I feel so defeated. Idk... I needed to say something to someone who gets it 