I'm just venting as I've joined a company for a while now, with the excitement of doing most of what I can and giving it all in a short period then leave to look out for something better, I shot myself in the foot and got stuck for way longer.  


Unfortunately, while I was there, my mind was full of many things I wanted to do and in addition to tight work I got burned out heavily. Not to mention the critiques I hear in my back from my coworkers about my performance dropping out that got into my mind and is almost making me depressed and willing not to wake up tomorrow just to avoid having to go to work.  


I know people might say gave up, and it's what I've done, yet I'm still stuck until they find a replacement which could be at any moment and surely if they find one then they owe me nothing until the agreed on notice of my resignation.

My health has completely drained out, making small talk especially with those who nag at me feels so tiresome that lately I just get back home tired and not at all motivated to work on anything else.  


My mistake is that even though I knew I didn't belong there, I still pushed myself to gain as much as in experience from them, yet failed miserably both at networking and on learning, as my friend when I have always mentioned my willingness to join a company that as he knows me very well, he told for sure that I'm already good at learning and they won't teach me anything.  


I just want to leave or to fired today! I can't take it longer and I feel all my hard work to reach that position is being looked at as being not worthy of it.