My boyfriend ended things last night even though he still loves me because I can't seem to stop yelling and screaming. I feel so helpless because I knew it was a problem and I just kept doing it. What's wrong with me dude? I have handled other symptoms so fucking well but I just can't get a grip on my rage. All he wanted was for me to stop yelling and give him space when he needed it. I wanted this to work so why couldn't have just done that? I feel so terrible fucking christ why did I let my disorder take him away? Why didn't I try harder? He doesn't deserve that. He didn't deserve anything i did to him. I miss him so much and he's not even left yet..