I obsess over a lot of things involving social interaction and relationships, but in this case I'm talking about crushes. I've had only a few really intense crushes, but I'd be super creepy and obsessive about it. I'd think about them all the time, talk about them with my friends constantly, asking whether they liked me or not, and if I felt they didn't (because they don't pay attention to me every moment we're in the same room because they're normal people), I would spiral really quickly. So I don't want that anymore.

But yesterday I had my first in-person class in a while, and I met someone I had already seen a lot in my online classes. I already had a little crush on them because they're really smart and kind of cute, but then I met them and it was like that Spongebob episode when Squidward said, "Oh no he's hot!!!" They also carry themselves and dress themselves really well, which just made me more infatuated.

We're in the same program, so this person is likely going to share several classes with me at least until the end of this year. I do NOT want a repeat of previous crushes. I don't even want to like them. But I feel like repressing stuff will turn out bad too. And no, I'm not going to approach them. I'm too fucked up for a relationship right now. Any thoughts?