it's currently 7am and im going to bed after staying up the whole night.

I just got back a grade for a intro programming class. got zero out of 100 for both tests. and plagiarism.

I know it is my fault. but fuck me if i aint dejected. i procrastinated 10 weeks of lessons and then copy pasted some random code online while changing some stuff. 

i have 3 finals in 10 days. am so terribly monstrously fucked. first one is in 48 hours.

shit sleep cycle. brain so useless. constant fantasies about a better life.

hate it here. i dont wanna end it because 1) im too weak 2) i want to enjoy life

fuck my parents for not solving their problems. fuck me for losing my talent for studying. fuck this world. 

just so tired of everything. GPA already dogshit. no friends. dont stay in dorms. no money.

good night. or should i say good morning haha. that was lame as fuck. whatever.