I have been on a high obsessing about something. (I do this with people sometimes, but mostly with ideas for saving the world and self-improvement plans.) I could tell I was obsessing, but when I am in it it is extremely hard to stop. I don't want to stop. Why would I when it feels so good and it is making everything better?

Now I am starting to feel burned out. I feel like I have been making an idiot of myself. I want to run away from the whole thing. I feel totally embarrassed by it. I realize that I have let it take over my life and that all the other parts of my life have just faded into the background. 

I'm trying to remind myself that I have a disorder and it is not my fault. I know that this is just another extreme. The answer isn't to just totally drop the thing I have been obsessing about, but to engage with it in a more balanced way. But now it is hard to keep going with it. What is the point if it is not going to be this amazing answer to all my (and everyone else's) problems? It is not longer the perfect solution and a perfect me. It is just plain old crappy me and one more imperfect thing amongst others in my life. 