Well the story is about a cat. A rather abnormal one. I'm from India. My neighborhood is full of cats and many do come and rest in our yard when it's hot outside. My mom feeds two of these cats. They are domesticated ( not feral or violent) but they don't live inside any particular house. They roam around and eat what people throw at them. But my mother has bowls for those cats, she doesn't feed them our leftovers. She cooks fish for them separately. She also has a large bowl for water for all the birds, squirrels and cats. 

But there's this one cat and she is very odd, she is always licking herself with globs of saliva sticking to her furs in patches. She is smelly, dirty and always injured or with a disease. Also, she is always covered in black mud from the drain. But till now, I couldn't stop my mother from feeding her. I have told her many times not to go near that animal, but she doesn't listen- always saying" it's wrong not to feed a helpless being. I'm not touching her, only giving her food from a distance" 

Now see I don't need another lecture on OCD. I mean there's a tiny possibility that  she can be a potential host of the  rabies virus ( because unlike other cats, she is most likely to be attacked by a feral or a wild animal - although there's none except some squirrels and fruit eating 'BATS'! )

BUT even if it's not, she might be bearing many bad germs and other diseases that are equally harmful
Example- Salmonella, anthrax, tetanus, diphtheria and many more. 

** This stupid cat is not ours, my mom just feeds it. We tried hard to keep her inside our home. Make her a house cat ... But she would have clawed out of the house during heat season , if she could. At a point, we just stopped trying. But I need her to stop coming to our doorstep for food. 

** In our country, unlike the developed ones, we don't bother to take a roadside cat to the vet. Poeple are not aware enough. So a veterinarian is out of the option.

Can anyone help me with my situation. Part of it, i feel is inside my head. What if that fuckin cat turns rabid and bites us. 
Or even worse, what if we get the virus without the bite.

Any counseling would do. 
And please tell me, it's my head.. i would so love to be wrong. 

I am having anxiety attacks. I'm always irritable and angry. Today was a special day for us, i cooked us lunch but ended up being in an ugly quarrel with my parents, because they didn't listen to my instructions of not to feed the cat. 

I want to be normal again.