For the past couple months I've been doing/saying really impulsive things. Especially at work. I work in retail so its very exhausting having to keep up a happy smily persona all day. No matter what I do I can't seem to relax and reset myself to not be tired of this. I end up having an RBF the whole time and as soon as some old man tells me to smile or when a customer does some dumbass shit I lose it. (in my head of course.) I stay mad for HOURS and the only thing that ever puts me in a good mood is interacting with my FP (who happens to be my boss. Ik. fml)
I've had my job for two years, I'm pretty proud of it. It just recently started getting like this. Im worried I'm going to get myself fired for doing and saying the things I have been. I've confessed to my fp about my major crush on him,obsessed over him very openly, called my coworker an asshole multiple times very loudly without even realizing it, told customers that my place of employment was a shit show (even though I like working there so idk why I said that) cried about MULTIPLE things around pretty much every corner of the store, built a box fort and hid in it for a whole hour, shut down ALL the pumps at the gas station (I don't even remember doing that. I just remember all the pumps were suddenly shutting off) fucking WRECKED a display with a pallet jack. (Completely on accident I promise)
I'm very surprised I have not been fired yet. Ive came close but it had nothing to do with any of that stuff (shocker).