Hi, I’m high school kid and I have been diagnosed with anxiety disorder since I was five. Approximately 10 years. 

I don’t really know if people know that I have anxiety disorder. My mom and dad are the only ones I really know that they know. Perhaps they told the church peoples that I had it when diagnosed. I think the school staff knows because it’s probably on my health record. 

But for the people that don’t know, I feel like I’m pressuring myself to hide it. But it’s visible because I noticed my hands shake whenever I pick up items in front of people. And I always have to be fidgeting with something. I just don’t want people to think I need special treatment because of my disorder. 

And I feel like I’m pressuring myself to do a sport or two. Because I literally do nothing except get on my iPad, paint and shop. I know that a lot of people I hear drop some of their sports because high school gets busy. I just think doing a sport would be fun maybe but I feel like I’m making myself think to hard about it. And it’s seems such a simple question. I feel like I’m too late. My step sister did archery and baseball. Then cheer and gymnastics. And I don’t think she does any sport now. And I’ve wasted lots of free time that I had that I could’ve done sports. I did basketball , horse riding class and dance and quit after 6 months. I don’t want to do a team sport because I don’t want to let my teammates down if I decide to quit early. Like I did ballet just 5 weeks into practice. I let the team down. And I don’t know if I could continue the sport in college because of the career I plan on doing. 

I’m thinking about doing tennis or karate. That way if I miss a lesson I don’t think it’d effect the entire class. I’d just miss extra tennis practice and a few karate moves. I could maybe make up for the lost practice time somehow. Just my assumptions don’t quote me on this. And I wouldn’t miss a karate tournament because I have been told that you can’t do competitions until after a year. And I don’t know how tennis competitions work.

I don’t know I just feel like I’m pressuring myself. Just me not really anyone else irl. 







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Visible symptoms