Let me start this with saying that I believe that I have bpd or at least quiet bpd. I have always been a very self aware person and I definitely have known that what i had is more than a general anxiety disorder that i was previously diagnosed with a few months back. I recently turned 18 if that matters at all. I'm going to talk to my psychiatrist about all of this. The reason I'm asking for your help is that I cannot wait. I just need to know if anyone has experienced this before. Whenever my closest friend talks to other people or doesn't give me attention i get very upset and I resort to cutting myself on the wrist where it's visible. I feel like I'm doing this to get their attention and I can now see that i feel like I'm crazy. Before this I would just draw on my hand or take out my anger on my friend verbally or mainly just write on a copybook a song or something. But recently this developed into cutting and I just feel insane. I have apparently always self harmed since i was a kid but never new until now that i previously had done it. I always scratched and bit at my hand. Even right now i feel like clawing at my face. This worries me because I'm not sure if i want to do this on my face to get their attention or if I'm just trying to get out these intense feelings or maybe both. Just I have no idea what is wrong with me.