I finally opened up to my FP (bf), my therapist, my AODA counselor, and my psychiatrist that I’ve relapsed on alcohol several times. I left it at just the alcohol at first with my psych team, but my FP knew more that I didn’t know he knew. When I told him, he understood and listened to what I had to say. Then he said “I want you to be honest with me, and I’ll believe whatever your response is, but did you take a couple of my pills?”. I had no idea he knew. Months ago when he was recovering from surgery, he was prescribed my drug of choice. He didn’t want it and was just gonna throw it away, so I snuck a couple pills. At first, I responded no and then quickly started crying and admitted it. He just hugged me tightly and forgave me. He asked to learn more about BPD from me to support me and everything. I just can’t believe he gave me this response when my family would scream at me about how I have no empathy and how awful I am when I stole substances from them in the past. Now I’m just paranoid, how can he forgive me for doing such an awful thing to him? How did he not leave me? How did he just now decide to be more supportive when I just broke his trust? He’s way too good for a piece of shit like me, he deserves so much better…