In my absolute deepest stages of depression I did not cry. There were no tears and I was more just numb to the world than anything. Nothing was really sad enough to make me break down and I just did not feel like I had time for that. Over the summer I got a bit better. I worked through some of the stuff that was causing me a lot of pain and I did not have that empty feeling anymore. However, I think it is starting to get bad again but this time I can't stop crying everything makes me sad and the more I think about the past and how bad my depression was months ago I get sad too and feel like I did not take the time to grieve when I should have. I just don't understand why I went from being numb to being a mess all the time.