I blame my mom for everything for bringing me into this shit world for why I'm so fucked up. Im one of 7 half siblings and an adopted brother so basically 8 siblings yet my mother could not take care of any of them or me. I was put in foster care when I was very young around 2 I don't know how long I was there probably a couple months or so. 


 I did I grow up with my father and step mom but my biological mother died when I was 10 and siblings were raised by my grandmother. I did visit my mother a couple times and my siblings when I was younger I don't remember much but yeah. 



It just makes me so upset why have me or a bunch a children if you can't even take care of them I honestly wish she would of chose aborting me instead. I just think if she would of stopped at 1 or 2 kids I wouldn't have to be here at all idk. I've been told all types of crazy things about her apparently while she was pregnant with me she shot a needle in her arm with heroin or meth and that's probably the reason why I have so many things wrong with me( I'm also on the spectrum) but yeah that's just fucked up and it pisses me off I just think she was selfish af.