I love to cook, paint, playing with dogs (teach them tricks and all that). I've learnt mix martial arts (and i love it), i'm now learning programming languages (java and c++).


I don't claim to be good in any of them. But i've joined some local communities, or online communities. Bcs at that period of time, i genuinely want to be good at it. Only until i got bored, or just feel i'm not good enough and left.


I can't focus on one. I just change major from architecture into IT related major. I fear that i may change again. And even if i have all those hobbies, i still feel empty. Like i'm missing something. And i feel worthless, never good enough.


I wish i can just pick one, care about it, be good at it, and doing it for as long as i live. 