I’ve been this way my entire life. Most of it, my therapist says is due to my parents leaving me to live with my grandmother as a very young child. ie: abandonment. But sometimes it feels so much deeper. 

Even when I *know* I’ve done nothing wrong, my mind tells me that people don’t actually like me and they’re just pretending to. Does anyone else feel like this all the time?

It’s like, to me, either I matter to you or I just do not. I’m basically incapable of seeing a gray area. Wtf is wrong with me.