"You aren't the only one in this situation. I've had people tell me they've already given up at the same age as you are right now. There are plenty like you, just like in a war. "

I'm inclined to believe them, both my common sense and general knowledge points to the fact that I'm not alone, but knowing and feeling are two different things.

My doctor can't violate their doctor-patient confidentiality, I know, but sometimes it makes me wonder, where are you guys? I wish I had known you.

Relating to something when you feel alone is very vital to me, so I'd like for you to drop anything, links, names of films, songs, Ted talks, whatever helped you. 

Wish everyone reading this the best!