I just want to pet him one last time. I can't take this pain. He was there this morning. And now he is gone. He rubbed his face on my leg this morning. And now he is gone. He was the only good thing that happened to me. I can't take this anymore. I've never cried like this before. I want to hug him. No one in my life loved me as much as he did. We were there for each other. And now I'm alone. All alone. I can't sleep. Whenever i close my eyes I see him. I hope he is ok. All of our memories are just coming back to bite me.