I guess this is my BPD acting out. 

Since like 2-3 months idk, I was in this group therapy and I hated it. During my last appointment with the psychiatrist I told her that I felt like it too much for me to continue and she agreed. Now I have monthly appointment with her. 

But like... Now I kinda regret, I feel like i'm abandoning yet another things. I feel like I can't even do therapy right. 