...the most ironic thing about life is that life itself is easy, the difficult part is to surrender and let go. 

I am closer to death than life and I think more and more about my end, but I am also permanently checking myself about what keeps me alive. I think the 2 most prominent things which keep me alive is my curiosity for truth and wisdom, I view life as a ticket to a circus/show and I wanna see how it will end.