You guys are (somewhat unfortunately, if you can call it that) one of the few people i relate to regarding symptoms. Like, I'm trying to save up for plastic surgery. Everything i want to get done will cost me a minimum of 10k. So I'll sum up the previous days spanning from Monday until today.

It was such a shit couple of days that i got prescribed anti-psychotics today, and ironically i am now **paranoid** that the man who prescribed them is lying and it's just sedatives to transport me to some closed facility.

To sum it all up, i started my 2nd job this Tuesday and i could barely function. If this gets any worse I might have to get on disability, which i don't even apply for right now because I'm in some care of some psychiatric help organisation.

How am i going to save up for the plastic surgery? Like i just want to have ***one*** thing for myself. Like to make matters worse I'm trans and the time it takes to get into one of those clinics is 3+ years. Just  ***one*** thing to go right for me like god.

How would i go about saving up on disability?