I am so sick of it all. Sick of always hurting those I love. I hate that my self esteem is so fragile and the tiniest thing throws me off. I am u able to be as successful as I want to be with my job, my friendships, my relationship or even for myself. 

I feel like I ruin everything. I’ve been spending many years journalling looking for techniques to challenge my thoughts and it’s honestly just so hard. I feel like BPD is winning. It’s taking over my mind and I am weak and cannot fight. 

I know this phase will pass but im tired of constantly ranting to my best friend who is sick of hearing the same dilemmas over and over again. 

I can’t wait for this phase to be over. If anyone can share any success stories or positive comments I’d really appreciate it! 

Bless you all.