I am falling into a depressive episode. I stopped taking my meds and I feel like i am taking all my anger out on everyone else around me to make myself feel better. I’m just a shit person. I do not deserve to live. I’m a raging narcissist, selfish as fuck and have self destructive tendencies. I always destroy everything good in my life. I cant get out of bed, i can’t stop crying. I feel like all my friends and family hate me and are trying to take me down. I don’t know how to live with all that i’ve done. if anyone knew what went on in my mind i’d have to be hospitalized for the rest of my life. I don’t even know who I am, i feel as if don’t have a real personality. My thoughts are slowly killing me and i’m afraid i won’t be able to push myself out this time. Can anyone talk for a while?