My wife saw I was having an episode and her response was.

"I just don't understand why you're so lazy, and you don't help yourself?" "Get out of bed and just help yourself."

She doesn't understand. I think her life is more about pushing through and not acknowledging these things, whereas I've had a few setbacks that have placed me in this position.

It probably feels strange for her. It feels as if I have bags of cement on my arms trying to get out of bed, and I feel as if there's a lid that can't be opened on the top of my head. 

This must be very foreign to her. How do you even explain these things? The immediate outlook is that you're lazy.