I've been so miserable for the last month or 2 months or 3 months I don't know when i started crying. People at work have noticed, my family has noticed, and yet nobody wants to have a real conversation, I don't even know if I want to open up, no that's a lie I do want to, I want to tell them I'm suicidal and how that everytime I drive I always am tempted to just drive as fast as I can into a brick wall, I want someone to listen to me, I'm so fucking sad I know I'm a bad person but why do I deserve this