I have PTSD from childhood abuse. Most nights, when I try to fall asleep, my mind starts cycling through memories like a slide show. These are NOT memories from my childhood but are either abusive relationships I had as adult, times I was embarrassed, situations I regretted. Once these start they are very hard to stop. My brain will jump from memory to memory like every 30 seconds. These are not flashbacks in that I black out, it's more that I'm watching these like a movie (but feeling the feelings again). I notice when I'm already very anxious they are much worse. When I'm more calm, I might have just a few. But it happens every single night. I'm just so exhausted and it contributes to my insomnia.

Is this something you all experience? Any tips on how I can cope? I do therapy, I've done EMDR (which was so helpful, but can't do that during pandemic because I need to be in-person) and I use thought stopping as much as I can.