Not physically of course, 
but when I get flung into a rage the only thing I can think about is bringing other people down with me and being as mean as possible to them, especially if they’re noticeably or particularly happy. Usually the victims end up being my friends or family too, who I love. 

I hate this about myself. I hate being mean to people but when I’m mad it’s like an altered state of mind, and I revel in the cruelty of my actions. 

Immediately after though I feel an immense guilt, which I should.

Does anyone else get like this?