I come from a country where there isn’t much emphasis on mental illness. I’m trying to figure out if maybe I should try to get a diagnosis when it’s safe to travel in another country.

I think there might be some signs of mental illness in my family, particularly observing my aunt and cousin. They have very complicated personalities. They both cannot make their own decisions and adopt the personality of whoever is dominating the conversation. For e.g. my aunt can be in a really good mood, but if someone says something negative, she tells a story (which is obviously fake) that fits the convo. My cousin can just randomly start talking to himself in public and walk around doing so, even if he was in the middle of a conversation. He disassociates from the group and starts doing his own thing without warning.

Now moving on to myself, I am currently struggling with depression and I’ve become extremely introverted. I haven’t attended classes in  1 year because I get anxious  in public settings. I cannot take public transportation because the idea of someone touching my skin by accident makes me cringe. I feel like tearing my skin when people I do not know touch me. I have trouble concentrating. My mood changes really quick. Im thinking that I probably have some kind of mental illness. But I’m not sure if maybe I’m just depressed and struggling at the moment because I am after all still trying to grieve both of my parents. I hope this makes sense