
I'm 32 year old guy, a graduate of education and teaching with honors (with a bachelor's degree in education and a professional teaching certificate), in the past I coordinated areas, taught, mentored, etc.

But a personal cr that happened near graduation made me freeze for quite a while:

Depression and anxiety that developed in me, other chronic physical medical problems that I am learning to contain and live with (not serious problems at the level of disability, but a nuisance), becoming a close relative of a person in need of nursing care, lack of financial support - comes from a dysfunctional family Socio-economic is low and generally lacks a supportive and understanding environment (on the social side a large part of this is my fault, my gathering inside kept many friends away - before that I was a person with a rich social life).

And so it turns out that I did not work for about 3 years after graduating (I graduated at the end of 2017 and only in the summer of 2020 I officially started working for a nursing company as a part-time caregiver - in addition it fills my employment box in my resume for now).

My question is this:

Should I now turn to any channel of full-time employment just to make a living and get the cart of my life out of the mud, reach a state of financial independence, rent an apartment, save a little and continue to develop: jobs that will not contribute to improving my resume or advance me to a stable career. Which do not require special training, continuing to work as a nurse, cashier, factory, writers, supervisor of public transport, standard jobs, hotels) - initial work that will serve as a tool for me to build self-confidence, return to society and then move on to the next part. In this program the thought is to work in these jobs for about a year full time. And at the same time volunteer for something that will enrich my resume.

Or it would be better for me to rise above myself now, raise my anxiety and doubts and turn to a channel of work that requires education or academic training, say work in training, teaching and working with youth / and other jobs that will enrich my resume and be a lever for professional development.

I am currently still in a state of doubt about my abilities, to conduct myself in complex and binding social situations, low self-esteem and "existential anxiety", so it seems to me that choosing a professional academic path is farther from me at this time than choosing a minimum wage but less stressful job.

But I have a fear that I will get stuck in the unprofessional path and not be a self-fulfilling due to my anxieties. Afraid that if I ease myself now it will be the last nail in the coffin.

I also now live with my mother and her husband on a sofa and need to rent an apartment for myself for my peace of mind sooner than later - so the most accessible is simple jobs (because it is easiest to get to them quickly). I'm really lost. Because I do not have the luxury of continuing to shuffle in place - I come from a lower class family with no ability to continue to support me Thanks32-year-old man in existential anxiety : unemployment and return to employment