I kinda just want to vent. I started therapy since my depression has been getting very severe. On the third session I told my therapist about some traumatic events in my past and was basically told that she can't help me and got referred to another person that deals with more traumatic experiences. I had just begun getting comfortable and now I have to contact someone else and start all over. My suicidal thoughts are evolving from passive to more active. I just want to be better, but getting the right help is always so exhausting. I think I may just give up and deal with things the best I can.