Everything's going fine and then suddenly BAM. Appetite's gone, no energy to cook, even my favorite things fail to excite me. For absolutely no reason. Nothing's gone wrong recently, but my brain just decides to fuck with me and do its best to ruin things.

I hate having to take mental health days, but here I am, sitting at home and drinking tea instead of doing things I should be doing. Of course I probably could push myself and force myself to go for a run or work out or make some proper food. I've done that before and it backfires almost every time, resulting in me just feeling horrible for a much longer time. But still it feels very selfish to take a few days off and give myself the permission to do nothing. Will the people I've sent messages to believe that I need this? Or do they think I'm just being lazy? Am I just being lazy? I wish there was another way to deal with this that didn't make me feel so useless... Because there WILL be people that don't accept what I'm doing and would prefer me to just tough it out, ignore my discomfort and push through.