Looking for tips on how to control this, I think it's caused from anxiety. I keep this like running mental checklist of how people treat me vs. others. I have this constant feeling that there are double standards in response to things I do versus things other people do whether it be socially, at work, etc. It makes me so frustrated and causes me to start overthinking. Things like "what don't they like about me?", "what is it about me that gets the short stick?", or "why me?" etc. 

An example (hypothetical) of what I'm talking about: I am late to a meeting- everyone gives me shit or makes a joke. Joe is late to a meeting, no one makes a peep. Someone holds a door open for someone they smile and say thank you. I hold a door open for someone, straight face- no words. 

It really makes me sad and feel inadequate and I spend way too much time thinking about it when it gets triggered- completely ruins my mood. It definitely happens so much that I notice. I'm average looking, in good shape, not really socially awkward- pretty normal so I'm not sure if I'm more keen to noticing or if it's some vibe I give off. It's almost like a desperate search for validation in my mind