since summer has started i’ve been doing alright. But once i hit a low the suicidal and murderous thoughts enter my head. I feel stupid, miserable and antisocial. I know i have a few things going for me Loving family, a job, boyfriend but i’m completely lost at school it’s my 3rd year i don’t know what to do.  I feel stupid and so lost and to top it off im super antisocial and so messed up everyone can see the insecurity on my face everyone can tell i space off and don’t know what’s going on half the time. My main reasons for staying are my family( most importantly my sister) and my dog. I just can’t ik this is probably riddled with spelling mistakes and everything. I already know i’m a fuck up in every way