My death anxiety is really bad and idk what to do i wrote a goodbye letter to my parents and my sister i feel like im gonna have a heart attack or some health complication because of my diabetes and idk if im overreacting or not im 14 yo and ion wanna die but i feel like its my fault for neglecting it and im so fucking scared i dont know what to do and everytime i calm down it feels like im accepting the fact im dying and i wanna tell my mom or something but what if its actually nothing. Idk if i even have anxiety or not i just assume and im not diagnosed or anything but this happens at night and i  cant keep living like this or im gonna end up killing myself or cutting myself again because im trying to do everything to distract myself but nothings working. This is all just fucked up and im probably just overreacting.