I have really bad agoraphobia, paranoia low self esteem, anxiety. Broke. I know I can make it all happen but I think because the wounds are still there from my childhood I really do feel like I cannot suceed. I feel cursed. I feel I always attract the wrong people in my life. How can u be happy when for example Christmas comes or u see people hanging out with their family and rhan u see yourself oh wowww where tf is my own family? Like what how tf can i be happy when I have had both parenrs try to ruin me????