waking up everyday feels like a chore. i haven’t been to school for days and i overheard my family talking about a social worker taking me away from them. i’ve been pretending i’m sick but i think they are starting to notice i’m not actually sick physically. i took antidepressants for around two year but as of a few weeks ago they started feeling like a chore and i noticed they weren’t working so i stopped taking them. i think i’m going to call my doctor to up my does because i can’t even go to school anymore. i’m behind in a bunch of classes and the worst part is i can’t talk to any eine about this, i don’t want people to pity me and no one i know understands what it’s like to just feel like a burden and not want to even get out of bed on your own birthday. i’m 14 and i just want to end it all. i just want this pain to go away. i want to feel okay again.