I got so scared that he was going to see the overly attached side of me, and OCD was all in it. So I told him I think it’s best we distance. I tried to give him the option, and he said that he didn’t want to but he would if that was what I wanted, and I thought I was protecting him.

Long story short, he later on got upset and we talked it out. I finally told him *everything*, like, *everything*. I was terrified. He still refused to leave.

I had two other friends who I was also trying to push away, and they were being told by my best friend what was happening.

I have a LOT of perceptions I have to fix. I still am so worried of abandonment and rejection and I try to do it before it happens to me… but I have a support group that’s determined to travel this road with me. It’s stupid. But I’m appreciative.