I'm 27, when I was being born I suffered oxygen deprivation and my mom had to get an emergency c section. I didn't talk until I was 3 years old after therapy, and to this day I still have bad communication issues. I feel "slower" than others when completing tasks and I've noticed my response times are a bit delayed compared to others.

On the flip side, I am completely independent with a decent job, my own apartment, and a nice car that I love. I'm generally praised at work for the effort I put in in I genuinely feel like I do a good job myself. But I'm struggling with basic self care, namely eating and cleaning. I feel like I have to rely on others for the micro issues, even though on a macro level I can handle myself. It's incredibly frustrating because I know what I want but I just can't grasp it.

My parents never gave a shit outside my inability to talk, and no one questioned my weirdness and lack of socializing growing up.

I'm not trying to self diagnose or seeking a diagnosis here, and I know any kind of diagnosis isn't going to do shit, but I wish someone in my life would recognize that I'm actually kinda messed up and at least offer to help me. I refuse to reach out.

I don't even know where I'm going with this. I'm frustrated and alone, and that's all I know.