Hi it's everyone's favorite random that's a metaphorical orgy of bull shit and I'm here to ask, what the fuck am I experiencing?

 To give context ik or believe I suffer from depression anxiety and sometimes when I'm not having a bad day I think I'm faking it... but that's besides the point- as of lately my temper has been extremely short and I seem to have been hyper fixating on shit so much more than before as though they're addictions. In terms of my temper I've always had bad anger management and not in the way u may think, I just always Suppress everything lol and eventually blow up or cope or hate myself... BUT THATS BESIDES THE POINT- lately it's been more of a ticking time bomb even when I'm ok I'm bound to get pissed just by existing and if I interact with people it just gets worse because if it's not my way I go ape shit and I know it's not someone my age should behave and it's not the way the world goes but I can't just Suppress shit like before and act as though it's nothing and I just can't control myself.


I'm sorry if this came off as a vent I don't mean to burden anyone but I'm confused, uncertain, and alone I just want help finding out whether my depression anxiety has evolved once again or if I got a new fucking mental illness. I appreciate everyone who responds to this and spending time reading it thanks and sorry for taking up ur time.