my grammar might be all over the place i apologize for that. i am from the Philippines i am only 15 years old. when i was 6-7 years old my cousin used to sexually harass me everytime i come to play. i used to think that it was just normal and friends do it everytime now i can't stop thinking how disgusting i am for having that kind of thing happen to me when i was just a kid i keep thinking of it every night i dont know how to get it off my mind. im struggling with my grades right now and my own mother told me that she wouldn't give a single shit even if i kill myself and that i should just run away. im just so disappointed at myself everyday i just want all of this to end. i just want to dissapear. i keep procrastinating i dont want to eat anymore am i overreacting everything?