i used to feel like my bpd was a death sentence for my love life, because who on earth could tolerate someone like me? a loud borderline with many a histrionic trait? the impulsive destructive borderline with the pettiness of every sorry soul in hell? 
..and then i met my bf by chance when we were teens on tumblr, and we have never broken contact or stopped speaking every single day since then.
hes so so patient and gentle and understanding. even through all my threats and demands of breaking up, even through me being so so so awful to him in the past, even through my absolute rock bottom mental stability and ugliest of myself, he hasnt abandoned me once. throughout all of it he took it and was so patient and gentle no matter how out of hand id get, hes never ever once left me or proposed breaking up or taking a break. no matter how difficult to deal with i was hes never retaliated or been petty back. hes never demeaned me or made me feel scary or evil and i am just.. so so grateful to have him as my life partner. im so thankful that he has never given up on me, i truly never imagined id ever find someone like him. i was so sure hed leave at my worst but every time ive ever told him to dump me without fail he just tells me hw much he loves me no matter how many times he has to say it. my mental health has put us both through hell but through it all he has never even considered us being apart. he makes me feel so genuinely loved, everything he does makes my heart feel so full and warm. i love him so so much, i never as a kid thought id have this but now I’m 23 post dbt and still have the mist amazing partner by my side and im just so so happy. this month is our 6 year anniversery and im so excited for it, every day with him is my new favourite day even when all we do is talk.. my heart is so warm every day now it feels like the sun lives in my chest.. i truly am thankful the universe brought us together, he motivates me to keep getting better and keep working on myself and im proud of myself now because of his support. i feel like i deserve to be alive.
there is someone out there for everyone, even when you have severe bpd like me. i want everyone to feel this warmth too