I have absolutely no joy in my life. There is not a single thing in this world (besides family and some friends) that excites me, motivates me, or energizes me to the point where I feel like life is worth living. I feel so much negativity and hate and anxiety all the time, and it seems like everything I do is just an attempt to distract myself and pass the time. I know I'm basically just screaming into the void, but I truly cannot take it anymore. I probably dug this hole for myself, and I accept that, but I have no clue how to get myself out. I just wish there was one thing that I could be excited to do on a daily basis or one thing that I felt mildly passionate about or one thing that gave me a semblance of direction in my life. I am so tired of hating everything about my entire existence.