It’s actually extremely difficult for me to stay monogamous even if I’m with a great partner. Everytime I’ve gotten into relationships i always meet new guys I end up idealising despite being in a good loving relationship. I know people will suggest polyamory etc but I don’t even like the idea of that either. 

I believe attention seeking and validation is probably a massive issue for me because I just love attention and j can never get enough. How do I rectify this issue because I’m indirectly ruining my relationships. 

Just to clarify I’ve not cheated although I came close to emotional cheating but noticed it was crossing a line and stopped it.