When I love, I love so so so much. I give anything and everything to make people happy. I have BPD. No matter how much I give, I feel like I don’t deserve anything because, at the end of the day, I have BPD. I give everything to someone and the second they show even the slightest hint of the bare minimum effort, I praise them and tell myself that’s enough. I get treated like shit and I let people treat me like shit because I feel like that’s all I deserve. 

I’m a burden to everybody. Even the people that say they love me, would be better off if I wasn’t in their lives. I’m so desperate to be loved. I want it so bad. Even the people that say they love me just don’t care. At the end of the day, they’d be fine if they never saw me again.