Used to thing life would get better but it’s getting hard to remain optimistic. I have constantly felt anxious for atleast a year. I’ve had ave panic attacks over nothing, constantly feel drained. I don’t feel stable a lot of the time, where I can just cry for no reason or cause myself to mentally spiral. My girlfriend is here for me but I feel so fucking alone when she’s gone, I just don’t know what to do. I tried to do online medication but I’m so bad at taking medication consistently and doctors won’t prescribe me anything immediately-affective because of drug-abuse concerns.  I was on more medications than I can remember for half of my childhood and have a chronic illness but it’s constantly feeling like nobody is taking my concerns seriously. I’ve had to quit my job because of the anxiety. I hate being self-aware and I hate my mind I just want to feel nothing or something idk