I’m just about to graduate from high-school. I’ve failed almost all my classes this year and have barely shown up. I don’t do my schoolwork I don’t talk to people. I have no hobbies. Im diagnosed depressed but i’ve yet to find any help. I constantly make excuses to myself but now that these deadlines are closing in i’ve given up completely. I have no desire to continue in life and look forward to nothing. I hate being around people and i hate being alone with my thoughts. It’s nearly impossible for me to get up and do anything. I’ve tried to kill myself but I called 911 to help me. I know i don’t want to continue on with life, but in my deepest moments theres something holding me back. I hate it, i can’t find energy to do anything including killing myself. I don’t provide anything to anyone I’m just a big nuisance. I’m an emotional mess but i show no emotion to anyone. I’m so confused with life. It just seems people use growing up as an excuse to keep on living.