I have had such a hard time putting my depression into words lately to my loved ones. The only word that even comes close to explaining this feeling is suffocating. I’m just so sad, it feels like I’m in this pit and I see so much light at the top and I know there’s hope up there but I just can’t reach it. I have a beautiful family, we just bought a house, we’re all healthy and whole. But I have this gut wrenching life sucking feeling that I am not even half the person that I want to be, and because I can’t live up to that standard, I’m hurting the people around me too. This version of me is so far from what I’ve ever wanted, even though I have everything I could want.