I went to therapy for the first time a couple weeks ago. I had major anxiety about going but I forced myself too. I had realized I probably needed to go to therapy a couple years ago but couldn’t bring myself to go. Well I finally did, and I hated it. Everyone told me to keep trying it. That the first session was always the worst. I took this into consideration and decided to give it another try. My session was today. I did not go. I really did try. I was almost ready to go and found myself on the verge of a panic attack. The anxiety was so much worse this time. The first time I went the anxiety was from not knowing what to expect, but I figured it would be good for me. This time I knew what to expect and I didn’t like it. I have too much anxiety for therapy. Even when I’m there I can’t be open about how I’m really feeling because I worry about her judging me and not liking me. Which I know is dumb, but me telling myself that doesn’t help. I don’t know what to do now. I’m tired of being this anxious mess who can’t do anything but I don’t know what else to d