any tips on how to deal with this?  


Im stuck in a loop of wishing i had a friend like me and then feeling like im the worst friend in the world and a total burden. 

  
Cant even watch tv without weeping when someone feels abandoned.

Found out a friend of my boyfriend has some REALLY problematic rightwing views and all i could think of is "wow i feel so bad for him because sth really terrible must have happened to him in his life to make him feel so much hatred", any other day i would be like "be gone, racist" and poof, out of my life forever and feel terrible that i know someone with such fucked up views.

im sick of feeling so completely alone, like no one knows me, and whats worse is i dont even know myself.