I swear to god. I promised to myself I wouldn't do this again. I only ever think a relationship is going well when they want to fuck me 24/7.

I sent him nudes so often in the past. I did it again today. At first I got a positive response and later in the evening an emotionless response bcs he was only playing his video game again.

There comes the load of self hate and doubt. Doubting his feelings. Doubting my self worth.

I'm really just a useless whore with no other qualities than my goddamn tits lmfao.

And it seems like that isn't even worth anything rn too.

I want to die so bad rn I know that I'm spiraling and also don't tell me I am overreacting fuck off. This feels like the end of the world rn even if it isn't.

God I hate my piece of shit boyfriend, why does he always prioritize his stupid fucking game multiple hours a day over me. Fuck him. I want him to choke.