I don't know what to do. I am constantly taken advantage of, yet when I do nice things, people are ungrateful and mean. When I finally say no, I'm treated like a bitch and end up feeling guilty.

The people who do this to me are family. I just want to be loved and respected and I try and try. When it's not returned I get hurt. It's like people expect kindness from me, without anything in return and when I refuse they have no use for me anymore. 

For the last few months I've been working on saying no, to the point where I have nobody now. My brother doesn't ask, he commands and now he refuses to talk to me since I won't let him use my car "for 3 days."

I just feel guilty saying no, but I know deep down that I did nothing wrong, yet I feel awful. I just hate feeling guilty all of the time and I hate feeling unloved too. I just wish I could afford to live on my own and stop talking to anyone. Being numb is so much better that this constant war with myself.