He’s long gone and at this point it’s really not about him as we haven’t had any contact in nearly 4 months. He meant a lot to me. I’m so tired of hurting over him. I’m starting to feel suicidal because despite doing everything right and focusing on myself and no contact I’m still obsessing over him. And I can’t keep living this way. Who wants to feel this way about someone? Especially someone who clearly hates me. I’ve done everything right to get over him I took all the stupid advice and I still miss him. I hate this. And yes I’m in therapy on a weekly basis to heal my abandonment issues and I’m getting fed up and hopeless.