I would really like some advice on this topic so I have very low self esteem and even though I’ve never really been the most confident person it took a nose dive a couple weeks ago after a bad day at work I went home and started cutting myself along my chest and shoulder region it wasn’t a suicidal gesture at the time it was more of a way for punishing myself for my failings but ever since then i have noticed significant changes in my personality I am more apathetic towards other people my sense of humor is much more sadistic now as I laugh when I see people get hurt and I have thoughts of harming myself and others I am pushing away friends and family members and I feel isolated I am only 16 and I know it is not normal for a person of any age to think things like this and I would really like some advice on this