screaming and shouting 
but no one can hear me
despite all these demons 
I feel so lonely 

or maybe it's that 
no one is listening
who knew that fighting alone
would be so crippling

chasing peace
but i can't run that fast
I'm out of breath
how long can I last? 

is it worth it?
is anything worth it?
how do i know
when it's okay to give up? 

doubting my own existence
it's like my mind is in resistance
to better days
there are no more better days

praying i won't wake up
to the horrors of tomorrow 
why do i look forward
to better days
there are no more better days

begging to go home 
but nowhere feels like home
forever trying to find myself 
im a stranger to everywhere i go

cold to the touch
yet a fiery explosion
I've been told I'm too much
but my love is ambrosia 

am I worth it? 
who dares want me
a lost soul tearing myself apart
have to protect me from me

chasing peace
but i can't run that fast
I'm out of breath
how long can I last? 

is it worth it?
is anything worth it?
how do i know
when it's okay to give up? 

doubting my own existence
it's like my mind is in resistance
to better days
there are no more better days

praying i won't wake up
to the horrors of tomorrow 
why do i look forward
to better days
there are no more better days

if I don't feel it by now
I won't feel it right now
if it's not there by now
I won't get it somehow

if I don't feel it by now
I won't feel it right now
if it's not there by now
I won't get it somehow

doubting my own existence
it's like my mind is in resistance
to better days
there are no more better days

praying i won't wake up
to the horrors of tomorrow 
why do i look forward
to better days
there are no more better days