title says it all. but not only is this unethical but highly inappropriate considering his position in comparison to mine and the age difference ...

i’ve been recovering from my last fp and i honestly don’t know how i even managed. a lot of pent up anger at first, some outburst, repression, the list of maladaptive defence mechanisms goes on and on. but i accepted it a few months ago and have been trying to work with myself.

but now i’m starting to see them come back, from me subconsciously checking to see if his car is still there all the way to feeling an intense urge to spiral when i get an off-putting facial expression or tone.

my fps have always followed a trend of male figures in my (female) life who have provided care and nurture. kinda like a make-you-feel-special way because i never received that from a father. major yikes 

i need some guidance and i’m feeling a bit overwhelmed at the situation. it’s starting to affect my work and tip my mental health off balance. anyone experience anything similar?