The number one reason I'm severely depressed is the fact that I can never get a foothold in life. I'm like this powerful rocket on the launch pad that never takes off. Rockets have phenomenal thrust potential, but they need a team of people to actually allow it to  succeed at what it was built for. I need friends. I need family. I need people to actually work "with" me. I'm 53 years old and have yet to find a foothold to allow me to ascend the mountain for success. I've worked so hard. I've worked countless hours. I've dedicated my heart and soul to excellence. I even started my own company a few years ago, but a company cannot simply run itself. You need clients, investors and people that actually believe in what you're doing in order for that to reach its fully potential. I have all this stored up, explosive thrust...yet, no way to get any of it off the launch pad. I can have all the desire, integrity, energy, die-hard spirit and tenacity....however, I can't do it alone. In a world of untapped potential, I feel absolutely isolated and alone. I'm incredibly intelligent and resourceful, yet....I'm still broke financially and can't ever find a way to get a leg up. It takes more then one person to succeed. I can't continue to give 1,000% while this world turns a cold shoulder to me and gives nothing in return. It doesn't and can't work that way. So...yeah, I'm depressed and teetering on the edge of a mental breakdown because life isn't working "with" me. It's constantly working against me and to my ultimate demise.