CW suicide

I'm no longer in contact w any of my family members. Living w housemates who are my friends but since march my episodes got worse and i have been out of it a lot. A week ago, one of my housemates said she was angry at me over something with no basis and she chalked it up to her "being an aries and just wanting to have control" lol. I no longer feel happy and safe in this house over that small disagreement. It may seem small but I've been overthinking a lot of things.

To have your own friend treat you like that feels like crap. I cant even stand up for myself for fear that i get kicked out. It sucked bc i was already planning to kill myself and it felt like she didnt care. I just want to die i wanna get out of here/this life