I feel like I'm always trying to be better, and I can actively see myself growing. Yet I still get told that I am the problem and how I don't understand things. Even that I'm too mentally ill to have a relationship... But I've gotten so much better in the past 3 years and even the last couple months... Why isn't it enough? Why am I always the problem? I know my communication is a little messed up but I've tried so hard to fix it... I thought I wasn't doing it anymore or even just not as much... But apparently I am... I feel hopeless...