TW: self harm and death


Today is the 13th anniversary of my brother’s death. He was shot and killed by someone who was supposed to be his friend. Many years have passed but I feel the pain like it was yesterday. I’ll never forget having to walk into the ER to identify him.  I still have nightmares. 

I’ve been two weeks without self harm but I don’t know if I can make it through this day. I’m depressed and angry. I don’t know how to handle these feelings other than to cut myself. I want to scream!  So frustrated!