two men are in love with me, though i don't understand why.  one of them was my fp and we dated for almost two years...but too many mistakes had been made on both sides so i chose to end it.  the new boyfriend is sweet and caring but can also be very manipulative and doesn't know the definition of personal space.  he insists if i block and stop all communication with my previous fp that eventually i'll fall in love with him.  but he doesn't understand that love doesn't work like that, and really why the fuck would he want someone who did make love work like that.  i still love my fp.  i love my new bf too, just in a different way.  my ex wants me back and he even bought me a ring.  but really i'm just a garbage human being and i dont deserve anyone, much less two people.  i cut ties with both of them over the weekend.  i'm sure another person will jump all over me like they did with my last post but i just need reinforcement that i'm shit.