I've been fired from pretty much every job I've had. I've been laid off, fired for someone else's mistake, fired for telling the boss "no", told I was only good at showing up on time... Take all that and mix in a constant struggle with depression. The last retail job I had I actually quit because I was having suicidal thoughts. The comforting feeling of not having any more problems if I was gone scared me so I left.

This last time I was let go I figured I'd try and start my own business as an artist. Which is what I've always wanted. It's a lot of work. It's a lot of rejection. It's a lot of pitching and selling yourself.  I've made some money but it hasn't been enough to stay afloat. As we know the price of living keeps going up. I don't have a steady enough stream of customers to keep my bills paid. I have a kid that takes a martial arts class that costs, gas costs, utilities cost, and of course the rent is being raised since taxes were raised.

I'm scared that I don't have the mental strength to work retail again. Finding a decent online job seems impossible.

I hate how frustrating and hard life can be.