I've heard a lot of stories about people who died in very brutal painful ways and just knowing I could be one of them is fucking terrifying. Knowing that there is a sick fuck lurking in this world that would love to sever my limbs with me being completely concious is a terrible thought to have.

It kinda makes me want to stop existing, I wouldn't kill myself, but I don't enjoy being on a planet with a bunch of sadists who want to see my suffering that much either.

I feel never safe, I feel like someone is gonna kidnap me and set me onto a torture chamber. I don't want to live, but I wouldn't kill myself either. I just hope I'll die of old age, by a gunshot, or in my sleep.

I just hope to spend the rest of my life in a bunker with years worth of supplies where nobody can lay a finger on me. I'll be in peace, all alone. You can have my phone, wallet, and keys, just don't make me suffer.


Man I'm shaking while typing this...