Hi everybody, I’ve posted before that I have a huge fear of my boyfriend dying. After he schedule a knee surgery back in April, I convinced myself something bad will happen during the surgery or after, and then that developed into me worrying about  everything that could go wrong with him,  even before the surgery. Making him get useless tests, calling him nonstop, not listening to songs because I’m convinced he will die if I do…but now it’s just this “feeling” I have that he will die..his surgery is in a months and it got postponed so much that I just have this feeling that’s always there. The thoughts are hurt so automatic now that I don’t even make plans for the future because I automatically think he’s just not gonna be there. I spend so much time on the widows subreddit to prepare and compare situations. And if I read about a Lobe story on there that sounds like mine I panic. Is this just me knowing he’s going to die soon? Or anxiety? Please help me in at my last straw