 I'm not sure if I've wanted to kill them or just hurt them, but it feels pretty bad either way. I'm extremely hot-tempered, and it even feels scary for me when I'm the one yelling. (As in, why do I sound like this?) And I don't think I have a genuine reason for being this angry.

And my mom is amazing. Occasionally I get angry at her for being too worried about me. She loses her shit if I haven't taken my meds or if I go to sleep a little late.

My dad and grandparents can be rude to my mother. Sometimes she breaks down and tells me how upset they (my grandparents, not my dad) make her. She doesn't talk back to them to "maintain the peace in this family."

I sometimes feel like I have the best dad, most of the time I want to strangle him. He's condescending and egotistical. Every time my dad and I argue, he actually *says* he's a really good parent. "I'm a good father, am I right or wrong?" I always end up saying, 'yeah.' I don't know to explain this shit.

I've only felt like actually killing them when they've said something somewhat insulting. (definitely not the worst thing they've said)

I don't know where I'm going with this, but any advice is welcome.