We’ve been together for 3 years. I’m 20, after 2 years I was diagnosed with BPD and Bipolar. I’ve been on meds, in therapy, antipsychotic meds and I’ve pushed everyone away now I’ve lost my own love of my life because of my anger and toxicity. Im so defensive and controlling. I acknowledge it but I just can’t change it. My partner has left me because he can’t handle how much pain I’ve caused him. But he’s giving me a final chance to prove I can do better. This time I know I have to do something drastic. I’m tired of living so miserable and making others miserable. If I can’t change honestly there’s only way out from here.