It’s the third year of high school for lazy autistic me and I’m just overwhelmed by schoolwork and homework. I get lectured and scolded by my parents several times a week because of how incompetent and untrustworthy I am to them. I’m not even safe during breaks like thanksgiving break because of all the family gatherings and stuff where I’m supposed to behave well but I fail miserably because I simply wasn’t well behaved enough. Neither my parents nor siblings share any interests with me and that’s why I don’t like being around them and they lecture me for being antisocial when in reality my friends don’t respond to my messages often. I was hoping that winter break would be different but nope, we went on a family trip to Florida for a family reunion and I didn’t have much fun there despite going to Disney world, my parents always scolded be for being ill-behaved even though no one else thought I was behaving terribly. That trip took up 10 days of the break and even after we got back things still weren’t very pretty, my parents forced me to watch movies with the family and stay with them during dinner. Before the break I barely got to play on my switch because my parents wouldn’t let me have it during school weekdays so I barely got any chances to play with friends and even then my friend would rarely answer. And get this, I was expected to do school exams during break which literally invalidates it entirely. What I’m trying to say is that even during school breaks I just don’t get enough time to relax. It’s so unfair, I’ve lost motivation for school and even while relaxing my parents continue to interrupt me EVERY SINGLE FUCKING EVENING. I don’t think my depression will ever go away. So I just want to ask if anyone can relate.