My SO suffers from BPD,
We've been together for nearly 2 years and I try to be understanding of her emotions, but last night she'd been drinking at an Xmas party, her friend got really sick so I took her home and left my SO to enjoy her party.
When she got back home I noticed that some things of mine were missing and voiced my concern that maybe someone had taken them when we had friends over, I didn't accuse her of anything but she started getting manic and angry. She had been drinking quite a lot and began screaming at me about things that didn't even happen over the weekend, she brought up a bunch of issues we have in our relationship that we'd already resolved and then punched me in the face a bunch of times.
I tried to keep my cool and calm her down, Trying to explain that there had been miscommunication, that we were talking about different things but I couldn't calm her down, she kept getting more and more manic, the things she was saying were all jumbled up and nonsensical, and she was getting more violent,
I don't know what to do? How can I handle these episodes? She wouldn't listen to anything I said and then got stuck in a vicious cycle of self loathing and refused to believe that I still love her
I'm scared she's going to hurt herself soon, I want her to get help but she refuses to believe anything will work, other than CBT, but we can't really afford the sessions. She hasn't been working the last 12 months and our debt is slowly growing
How can I help her try and find the love for herself that I have for her
I don't want her to get "better" I want her to feel safe and comfortable in her own skin
How can I help get her through her episodes and make her smile again?