I have gone through a lot yet through nothing at the same time nothing feels right nothing feels wrong, it just is there and hurts me later. I feel suicidal yet I don’t at least i know i wont do it for now, i self harm myself for no reason then i regret it later it’s all a quiet war inside my head. 

(I am not diagnosed and I DON’T consider myself mentally ill I really really really hope I am not and this is just some phase)