I've been together with my boyfriend for almost three months and these months were a lot. I was a pathetic, selfish, passive-aggressiv b*tch in the beginning but he motivated me to grow. I started therapy, read a lot of books, watched videos and tried so hard to become better and learn new behaviours and skills to change.
I did it for us, I wanted our relationship to work out. I wanted to be with him forever, a mindset I never had before. I loved him so much and I was so motivated to keep pushing forward and become a better version of myself.
And suddenly it's all over. He said that right now it's all too much and that he doesn't has the time and energy to put up with me. I'm too exhausting.
It hurts so bad, because I tried so much. I improved a lot and in the end, it didn't worked out.
It kinda feels like that even if I try so hard it will never be enough and I don't understand why he broke up just now. We had a pretty hard time but now things got better and better. It sucks so bad.
I will continue my path in growing though. I did it for us, now I will do it for myself.
I just wished that he had give me a little more time. A little more time to improve.
Maybe it could have worked out, maybe not. I don't know but I know that I was ready to try it and work on it and I wished that he was too.