Basically, I feel uncomfortable when I'm in a situation where I feel content or comfortable. I get this feeling like something is wrong or perverted or dirty, it just simply uncomfortable. It feel scary and triggering.

It's often, but not always. If it's a moment where I'm feeling comfortable with someone. A time when things should feel so nice and safe and beautiful. 

For an exact example after sleeping with someone, when we lay there afterwards, just with one another. Things feel nice and content and pure. I should feel good and comfortable. But this discomfort or unsettling feeling sets in. It feels like it comes from deep inside, far back in my memory. 

It feels like trauma, but in a way that's so hard to explain