 I keep getting these insane urges to just up and use a belt to hang myself, no notice, no premeditation, nothing. Just one moment I’m there and the next I’m a fucking corpse. 

I don’t know If my family would really care that much, but if they did… I feel so bitter towards them I wouldn’t mind if they got to share in the pain I constantly feel for even a fraction of a moment.

This isn’t an alert that I’m going to attempt. I’m just putting it out there.