I went to a psychotherapist for the first time in years last week, and she basically just wanted to get to know me and asked about what I had been going through lately. But she called today to tell me that she will no longer be able to provide me treatment because my issues "extend beyond her area of expertise."  I have had bad experiences with therapy in the past, I've even been kicked out of a therapy group and a dual diagnosis rehab. This is totally crushing for me.  The woman has a phd and is a professor at the local university, I'm not sure how she can't handle a little bpd. It all seems pretty fucking hopeless right now. I've been clean for almost 2 months, but I'm not sure how much longer that's going to last. 