I (20F) think that I have repressed memories of sexual abuse from my childhood, but I'm not sure that I have??? I have this feeling that there's something deeper going on with me, but I don't really remember any particular event that could've been traumatic for me. I have always had problems with my sexuality. Sex feels like a foreign thing to me...even though I've experienced it in different ways. Sometimes I feel like I'm suffocating just from kissing and I always get jumpy when foreplay is initiated. It's something that I've had issues with since I first started becoming sexual. 

I'm in a loving relationship for almost 2 years now, and things just seem to be getting more difficult for me. It makes me feel terrible. I'm embarrassed that I don't have much of a libido and that I'm not sharing a healthy sexual relationship with my partner. It is unfair to him and I do not want him to take it personally, because I really don't think it has anything to do with him individually. 

Have any of you experienced repressed memories? How did you remember? 