I found out I was pregnant around March, and on 04/18/2022 it was confirmed at Variety Care. I am currently 7w pregnant, but I had been off my meds for two months. It’s extremely difficult to even feel the urge of getting out of bed. I lost my job at walmart two weeks after finding out, and it was the worst stressor in my life. I think I tried numbing my emotions, so that I wouldn’t worry, I’ve applied at jobs and I’ve gotten call backs but they’re all so inconvenient. I have one tomorrow but I don’t think I have all the resources to make it go well. I moved out two-four weeks before finding out on my own, with my boyfriend who is the father of my child, he’s 19, I’m 18. He’s been the one paying while I’ve laid in bed practically glued here because I can’t get up. I want to constantly kill myself, I’ve tried pushing him away, I know sometimes he can’t stand me and I don’t know what to do. I don’t even think I will make it til the next day. I don’t always eat because refuse to get up, but then I will throw up and force myself to swallow something. Will it get any better?