I've been diagnosed with BPD few months ago, and once I've learnt about it, it kind of explained a lot of my thoughts, behaviours and actions, but one I don't see mentioned very often is the one mentioned in the title. I don't know if I have FP, I sometimes do and than I have an life crisis and question that relationship amd person and that feeling is gone for awhile and then once everything's fine again I'm obsessed with them. It's always with the same person, my partner. But what about random attraction you get while meeting someone new? The other week I met a guy and I just kind of felt that sexual tension, but I don't think it's mutual, I like to think it is but then my low self esteem doesn't let me believe that I'm likeable. Few days ago I started hanging out with a girl I met at the fitness class and I again had that random rush. It happens about 3 times a week, depending on how much I hang out with new people. I kind of like that feeling, but at the same time it makes me very uncomfortable because I'm in a relationship with a really nice person and I just feel so guilty thinking of someone else while we make love or even on random occasions throughout the day. It's like I'm suddenly crushing on everyone that engages in giving me attention and are physically attractive to me. I would never cheat on my boyfriend but that thoughts are always in the back of my mind. Is this normal for BPD or it's just part of my character?

p.s. idk if its important, but because of history with EDs I was quite asexual for most of my teen years, and now when that's getting under control my hormones are all over the place