*"And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death." (Revelation 12:11)* 

A few years ago, I was at a really dark point in my life. I was in lot of pain from something traumatic that shattered me to pieces. I desperately clawed to the hope of healing, but kept getting beat down. 

One day, I was just so tired of fighting my mental demons that tormented me, that I decided to make plans to end my life. When I made this decision, God revealed Himself to me through a very special song that started playing. Instead of the other song I had queued up, "Lost" by Red played on my phone. I will never forget it. 

*"I'm reaching helpless I descend...I'm searching for you as you call...I'm bracing, chasing after you..."*

https://youtu.be/vk1M3Esm-S0 

This song has a lot of sentimental value to me, and I even used it as the background of a video I made in my religion class when I was in school. It was like God was tapping me on my shoulder, letting me know He was there and had been watching me through the years. 

Like a stubborn toddler, I still pursued getting the means to end myself. But when I went to buy what I planned on getting, the store was closed for some reason, even though it was during business hours. 

God's faithfulness didn't end there. And though it's been a long journey, He has responded to my prayers, provided for me, and disciplined me as a loving Father should. He revealed Himself to me when I was at the end of myself and had nothing left in me, because my old self had to die for me to become born again. 

**To anyone who's struggling: cling to Jesus like your life depends on it. We aren't meant to suffer alone, and we need His strength. I pray this testimony reaches whoever needs it.** 

God bless ❤ 
John 16:33