Since I had a real genuine relationship with someone I truly loved/love.

Tonight I broke down and texted her this. 

“Just wanted to say I don’t think anyone on earth has missed someone as much as I’ve missed you. 

I’ve been completely sober for so long. Just been doing therapy and meds now for months with no one to push or motivate me but myself. Putting my head down at work and working my butt off.

Been single since our breakup and can’t even see myself ever being with anyone else nor do I long for it. 

Some nights are just so hard and tonight has been one of them. I want it all back and just for you to see who I am today and to know you are safe and happy. 

Love you so much I’m sorry for messaging you.”



It didn’t even deliver.