I had a crush on this girl and she liked me, and we had been talking for a while u know couple a weeks. I eventually tell her that my ass is depressed like big time depressed. I told her this after she told me that she had felt depressed during the lockdown and such. Well couple days go by and shes with a couple of friends and they’re sending me videos an calling with me and such. And they sometimes made jokes about holding on and the jokes didn’t specifically say depressed or depression but you know that they were about that. I told her that as a secret, they were making jokes about me wanting to kill myself. My thoughts about here have changed since, and this was about a month ago. But you know they were right I do wanna kill myself. School is getting so hard and everything is just horrible, I think I’m gonna do it this year, I don’t know whiny I started this post about her but I just wanna post about me. I hope someone cares cause is don’t anymore.