So I had the biggest crash today. I lost several friendships and 3 of the most important people in my life just walked out. 

At first I felt so angry with them for leaving, then i got so sad cause I always drive people away, and I had this coming all along. I was just tricking myself into thinking they would stick with me. I got so sad i overdosed on pills, without thinking and realizing what I was doing. So when I realized I purged. And puked everything back up. I literally just wanted to die, and have no reason to live.

But now I feel empty. Literally no emotions what so ever, how do I get them back (the emotions)? And if I get them back will I be normal? Or will I feel every horrible feeling of everyone walking out?

I'm recently diagnosed (2 months, starting DBT in May cause of waiting list), and not too familiar with the disorder. Is this common? Can anyone share their experience?