Every time I reach a level of extreme stress and emotional pain, I lose the will to fight. When all my efforts fall flat, and the problems start to pile up, it’s hard for me to motivate myself. Soon after, a deafening self hatred surrounds me and the only solution I can think of is suicide. I feel weak for feeling so much pain, and it makes it worse. I just need some advice to make it though this nightmare. I don’t want to die, but it’s all I think about