It feels like for the last few years in any situation, you think how it could go good or bad, and it always seems to go bad.   Every decision I make feels like the wrong one lately. It feels like I constantly have bad luck.  No matter how minor the situation is.  

I try my hardest to not dwell on things, but nothing seems to work.. I’m getting more irritable, impatient and just quiet. I feel like I’m in quicksand. The more I fight it, the worse it gets

I’ve tried meds. Therapy.  Weed. Nothing seems to work. I tried new hobbies but I’m truly not interested in doing anything. My whole world just is blurring past me. This whole last year feels like a week. 

There has to be a end in sight that’s not death.  When does this come?