I'm aware of certain things that happen in my brain when it comes to other people. I get crushes very easily. I love fast and I love hard not just sexually friendships too. I am always open about 50% of my life. Well I met this guy online. I fell hard and fast with him. Since my ex I have major trust issues, self esteem issues and I'm BPD to boot. This guys seems amazing. He says the right things 80% of the time. He's gorgeous, he's funny, he pushes me to take action. We have never met but we talk all of our spare time, we watch movies together, we play video games together and uuuhhh other things. I know quite a few ppl who have met their husbands this way so I know it's possible this could be real. He never seems shady or like he's living a secret life. I don't know how to tell if it's real or not. Am I in love or is it another addiction. He's all I think about! I dream of him all dreams I remember. I started dreaming about things I have long give up on in my life. He set this spark off in me. I'm also extremely turned on by him which really freaks me out,as like I said we haven't met, and with a few words OMG my body betrays me. So if this is real how do I get past this sex craze feeling until we get to meet in person? How do I keep my distorted views from ruining this? How do I make sure he wants me and cares when my brain always tells me no one cares no one wants me? How can I not push him away like I always do? Ugh that's a lot of questions >_< thanks for reading.