I’m someone who loves talking to other people and listening. Like my pre-med friends always joked about how I would 100% pursue psychiatry if I became a doctor. 

I could listen to people for 8 hours at a time with no problem. I loved it and I was good at it. 

Lately, I’ve been cycling into pretty severe depressions, and when I have I didn’t want to talk to anyone at all. I thought it was just depression, but I’ve cycled back into normal/hypomanic and I swear, I still dread talking to my friends and family.

It’s more than not wanting to, but feeling sick to my stomach at the thought of having to listen to them catch me up on their lives. Like I genuinely don’t want to have to listen, and I know deep down I care about my friends and our relationships. 

I don’t know what to do.