TW - suicidal thoughts 

I'm seeing an awesome psychiatrist and am on meds but I spend most of my time extremely depressed. It's so bad I've never been able to hold a job down longer than six months, the monotony and depressing outlook on having to work so hard just to live making me suicidal. I genuinely start thinking about how to end my life because work makes me that sad. Not to mention how exhausted (emotionally and physically) it makes me feel, that I get bullied by my boss and mistreated by co workers wherever I go. It's so bad for my self image, but when you're as quiet as I am, people always take advantage. I only work 24 hours a week.

I do ok for a while when I'm not working, but then the days start going fast and I become extremely depressed. I start thinking too much and start to lose my sanity. I just can't win. 

Any advice on what I can do? I'm at a serious loss.