It's hard to accept but the anti-coping communities, promoting disordered behavior communities, the communities centered around hating people like me/with my traits... It's a waste of time. Hating myself and looking for reasons to hate myself has been a waste of my time. I've wasted years hating myself and none of it has made me make any improvement - only self compassion has. I have to accept I've wasted YEARS hating myself (and looking for "reasons" why I "should")...so I can stop. So I can work towards being kind to myself instead. Yeah, I've wasted years. I didn't have to bully myself 24/7 since I was a tween. Who knew right? I learned my lesson.