(tw for self harm, abuse, suicide) ok so im from england and ive had a few appointments with camhs. they thought i had GAD and OCD at first which i kinda agreed with but now theyre just... ruling everything back to autism. theres proof of me being abused but they still think that im self harming because of autism. like i told them that i self harm because i enjoy the pain and want to see blood, and i felt like i deserved it, and they just said that it was because i was autistic and it was a sensory thing. i tried telling them i dont think thats the only thing that could be wrong with me but they didnt really pay much attention to it. they took ages to do my 'care plan' or whatever and i feel kind of neglected by them. its getting super frustrating because im showing clear signs of anxiety, paranoia and depression (low mood as they call it) but they just keep saying all of its autism. i think i really need medication or something because i dont know how long i can go without committi g suicide now. i dont know what to do. they said i wasnt depressed even though i had attempted suicide in the past and severy self harm regularly and have spoken of my really bad self esteem and self hatred. my parents dont care and wont bother to get me paid or specialised help or something like that. please tell me what i can do :(