I'm 23 and I forget what it feels like to be happy. I have a good family who loves me and an adorable 2 year old I barely know due to all my issues. Due to depression, it's incredibly hard to survive. I've had 3 suicide attempts in the past year or so, and things don't seem to be looking up. I've tried various medications, including mood stabilizers and SSRIs but nothing works. I've been in therapy since 17, and gone through numerous stints in mental hospitals. I also have a substance abuse problem (currently in treatment) and have had some considerable lengths of sobriety but I feel no better being sober. Sometimes I feel even worse. Getting high is the only thing that *temporarily* distracts me from the pain of existence. 
I wish love was enough.
For anyone who reads this, thank you. I just needed to rant and stop feeling alone for a few minutes.