Growing up I never really felt like I fit in. I felt so out of place. I finally got some friends at like 17 but didn't know who I was. I had a nasty break up and decided to start my life over. I met a bunch of people online and they are some of my best friends. But I only see them twice a year.

Last year I made huge progress in life. And I actually started to have a purpose and social life. I slowly became more confident. And 2020 was seeming to be a good year for me.

Then lockdown happened. I went into panic. The lonely isolated person I was, she was gonna come back.

But actually this past 2 weeks I've realised. I'm loved and wanted. I've recieved texts from friends most days. We say how much we miss each other. We're making plans for when this is over. I've spent my days gaming with a guy I was texting before all this happened. My family are home and safe as they can be. I miss everyone so much but I want to keep making memories and lockdown is part of that.

This is honeslty the first time I've not felt like a burden to anyone. People enjoy my good and annoying traits. I have friends. I have a family. I'm content even when I'm away from them all because I know one day we will see each other again and it will be the best day ever. We will never take those hugs for granted again.