this has been happening for months, where i’m just stuck in this never ending cycle of anxiety. it’s so painful. and tiring. i’m so tired. i don’t know how i can keep going on with my day to day life. everything is so hard, and even when my loved ones say that they understand i know they don’t. they ask me why i can’t do this or go to this thing and it hurts even more because i want to, i just spend every waking moment trying to lessen this massive fear and panic and dread that builds up in my chest every. single. day. i feel like a little timer gets set every morning when i wake up, and slowly throughout the day the anxiety builds up more and more until i break down at the end of the day. im so mad, why does everything have to be so hard for me? why does no one understand? all i want to do is to function and help out my family and enjoy life, but i’m so so trapped in this misery time bomb of a brain. i never get a break. sometimes all i want is a hug, and for someone to tell me it’s okay and they see how hard i’m trying. but i never get that. how am i supposed to get through this??