I have a mental illness - I have had depression and anxiety, and I tend to have really bad days. I used to be suicidal, but I have gone better from then. I can easily break down esp if it's something that triggers me, etc.

Now my SO shared (in one of our get together w friends) that he feels he need to be strong and tank his thoughts and feelings and his concerns bc he's doing it for the people arnd him. It's a concern for me bc I have been honest w my emotions and I usually run to him when Im not okay.

Now I can see that I'm being a burden. I feel bad for this, and I feel like I'm in a situation where I cant be vulnerable w anyone anymore. This isnt abt him - he's really sincere and he helps and supports me as much as he can but I'm just really a burden. 

I'm just reminded that in this universe, the fittest survive, and it's just a shame for someone like me w demons in my head. I'm just a burden.