Are you living or are you surviving? I’m 27 I have a Wife we have an apartment together she’s happy I’m happy with her she’s not the problem the relationship is solid. 

My depression started on a in my face level at age 25-now 

I’m feeling like shit maybe because I haven’t gotten my credit where I want it maybe because I’m not as stable as I want to be maybe because I want a new job ( I can’t smoke but marijuana keeps me above what I’m feeling in as I write this) 
I’m tired of being tired I want to die but I don’t want to kill myself but I also want to live but I’m stuck and don’t really have the help I want to succeed so I’d prefer to escape 😞 Anyone feeling in between please tell me how you got to a better place within