But im still struggling hard. No manic episodes for years just depressive. Now im classified as having “severe mood disorder” frequent ups and downs still occur but the highs no longer match the lows. Hopefully the doctor can switch up my meds but we all know pharmas never treat the root problem, they just help you push it down. 

I have a pretty good support network yet it still feels like im going at this alone and its just me vs the world and im losing. Im trying to remain optimistic but i can no longer see light at the end of the tunnel and its getting real hard to carry on like this everyday. It affects my productivity and motivation like nothing else. 

Im not looking for sympathy but it makes me feel better putting this out there to a community of people who can relate even if no one ends up reading it. Thanks for reading, hope everyones having a good day