I've been a regular smoker before schizophrenia. Around the time of diagnosis my ciagrette use wemt way up. I smoke self rolls without filters as i find prerolls really disgusting. I have tried quitting multiple times, but everytime i try i feel like a rock. I have 0 spontaneity, whenever someone asks or talks to me i cant seem to think of anything else to say except "ok". I have a lot of odd thoughts. Stuff like normal conversation between other people being secret code for talking(usually making fun) of me. In general when i dont smoke i feel horible, 10 times less conscious, like a rock. But running through a 30gram pack of tobacco in 3-4 days is extremelly damaging both to my wallet and my health. Any advice of similar experiences?