I'm losing faith in myself. I feel like for every two steps forward, I take five steps back. It makes me feel like I'll never get better from this. Everytime I think I'm getting better at coping I probe myself wrong. I feel like I'm going to be crippled by this forever and it makes me more and more suicidal and less and less see the point in being alive. 

Please tell me it's going to be okay. I can't keep living like this. I don't want to keep hurting like this.