I have extremely heightend emotions lately and I don't know why. But everything makes me want to yell at him and push him away. 


I haven't yet, but I strongly feel like it. He said he was helping a housemate with something and said he would be right back, 3 hours later his still not talking. So I went to sleep. He didn't even message me in the morning before work. I wanted to yell and scream at him. But I didn't. He said he can't talk while his boss is there. Only talked once quickly today. Then when he finished work, he said he was tired and wanted to sleep and then told me his worried about his friend and said they need to console his friend due to him having possible hearing loss in one ear. I've gonna through alot too like strokes as of recent etc, and he doesn't seem to care. He seems to care more about his friend. Or atleast I feel he cares more about his friend. 


I don't know why I'm like this .. but I'm so mad at him and the world in general. For the last two weeks I want every to feel emotional pain and to leave me alone. Because I feel that's what they want. I'm mad at everyone and I can't help feeling overwhelmed. I can't help all the things I'm feeling in general. 


Someone help...