I can not handle conflict very well, I immediately start to feel like they hate me, like the world is about to end, and that I will never be happy again. I was in a bad place yesterday and when we fought I told them that I "hate" them, that I want them to: "never contact and talk to me again!". Shortly after, I realized what I had done. and immediately started to tell them that I did not mean it and but the damage is done, our relationship is not the same anymore and I am afraid that it will never be the same now.

They told me today that they need time, time to think, about me visiting them, about me, about us. But I cannot deal with that, this kills me. The feeling that they are reconsidering our relationship right now, it is unbearable to me. I did not mean what I said. It was out of my control! My emotions felt unbearable and I did not know what to do to get out of it. I did about 60 hrs of dbt in the past but I have not been in love like this before. Our relationship has just started a month ago and now it feels like it is about to end.

I really did not want to hurt anyone I just wanted to get out of this terrible situation. My emotions were unbearable I am thinking about suicide. I just need this feelings to stop can someone help me