For most of my life, I wasn't in contact with my mom, her parents (my grandparents) raised me since I was born pretty much, she gave them custody when I was only a few months old, because she knew she wasn't able to take care of me due to the mental issues she was dealing with. She suddenly came back when I was 15 (im 19 now) because she was homeless and had no where to go, my grandparents let her into our home. We got along very well at first, but then things changed. She and my grandma started to get into huge arguments, and since my grandma is basically my main mother figure since I was born, once I heard my mom call her a "bitch", I was done with her. Then me and my mom started getting into arguments too, each of us spewing horrible words at each other. I've been hospitalized 5 times in the past couple years for depression and self harm, and I recently learned that I probably have BPD as well. In the past 4 years me and my mom barely speak to each other, even though we live in the same house. Every once in a while we reconcile and get along again, but it doesn't last long. Then she tells me she loves me and she's sorry for saying such rude things. Have any of you guys been in a similar situation? What would you recommend? It's a huge love hate thing between us. Probably doesn't help that I might have BPD as well