The last couple weeks I've been battling with myself trying to figure out if it's my BPD driving people away, or if guys are actually stupid. I've been kind of promiscuous lately, I'm 22. I want to be exclusive with someone, and I am willing to be serious about someone, but I'm single. That technically gives me the freedom to talk to other people if I want. I can throw myself at these guys, emotionally, and sexually, and nothing gives. Not that I am heart broken about it or anything, but it just worries me if I should change some of my behaviour sooner than later and if it's the BPD that's telling me that it's completely fine to be promiscuous while I'm single. Which it should be, because it's my body.

Long story short whenever one person finds out I'm hanging out with another guy, they get CRAZY jealous and freak out and virtually ignore me. I just don't get it. I didn't sign up for a relationship, I'm not married. Is it me or is it them? I just don't know.