i have really bad attachment and abandonment issues and i somehow always end up self sabotaging relationships and pushing ppl away


it’s not their fault i just overthink to the point that i’m convinced they hate me and that they enjoy being around other people more then they enjoy being with me and that they’ll abandon me for those other people and i’ll be alone again. 


The people that ended up abandoning me were the same people that said they wouldn’t so now i abandon people before they can abandon me, i end up hurting myself and them. i unfortunately have a history of those close to me leaving me


whenever my friends are friends with someone else i get scared that they’ll realize they don’t need me anymore and leave. especially when them and their friends seem close. one thing that makes it so much worse is being in a group w/ said people and everyone pretty much acts like i’m not there and doesn’t interact with me but does with everyone else in the group