Right now, I'm at a new low and it gets worse every day. I know that I should seek therapy but I haven't had the strength to tell my parents. Even when I just think about talking about it, I almost have a mental breakdown. 
I have no energy left at all. I would hurt myself right now but I don't have the motivation to do anything. 
I feel like the positive things I do aren't important, but the negative things have giant consequences.
For years I have had the attitude that it would not bug me if I would just die right now. 
I haven't slept well in months, feel like a burden, useless, hopeless and sad all the times. I fell like it would be best for everyone if I just died. 
It started 2020 but over the last couple of months it got really bad. 
Has anyone experienced something similar and can help me?