I have severe depression, have been taking treatment but I still don't feel good, now I am on point that I am scared to continue life, I just stay alone in my room, haven't gone anywhere since Pandemic, all I do is sleeping, my doctor tells me I am getting better but I just can't feel it, all session feel so alien to me, its my second doctor and I feel it's internal, I am not smary career wise and how the financial situation will turn out just scare me, I have no future, I am lazy I am worst, I am not well educated either, people mock me saying, first they make face then say oh, that's what you studied, sorry but...I don't think it has any future for you, I am practically a school pass out, it's already been 5 years since I passed. I am losing my brain but don't have guts to end it seeing my mom but I can't taste food anymore, I don't feel hungry,just sleep or surfing internet mindlessly, all I did over the years was surf net. God has been cruel to my family, I am 22 and done with life. The one person I loved also have left me, we were to marry but Pandemic changed everything. Please some painless method or what to do. I live in community even dying ppl speculate weird reasons for it and shame even the dead. Please someone tell me what to do.