I have anxiety and depression. I have recently moved cross country (US) cause I wanted to be with my bf and cause I hated where I lived and wanted to move to the other coast for a long time. We dated in person 6 months before that. 

The move didn’t go smoothly at all (have asthma attacks in an apt we leased so had to crash at my aunt’s twice removed etc.), and I ended up in one of the worst depressions ever. My bf wasn’t really supportive but made it worse. He didn’t know how to support me and was in a difficult situation himself. However, it still doesn’t justify him fighting with me and stuff. He promise he’d do better, and he did already take some steps. 

A month has passed since, and I have gotten into a more stable situation now.  He helped me move. However, I still can’t get over the fights we had a month ago, and how he wasn’t supportive. I don’t feel like the steps he’s taken are enough, and overall I don’t feel like this relationship will ever work. 

However, I am afraid to break up. I get suicidal. I don’t have family or friends in this country, and my own life is a complete utter mess. I asked my parents to come but my parents... well... I know they won’t. My very best friend is in Australia.

Overall, I am not sure if I should just stay in an unsatisfactory relationship knowing that it’s doomed at least until my best friends come back, or my parent (they won’t but I never lose hopes), or maybe I get more stable or at least until I see a psychiatrist. I’m just afraid that my mental health won’t survive the break-up.