idk, I guess I just need to vent

I just... always feel embarrassed. When I'm around strangers, I'm embarrassed about my appearance and mannerisms. When I'm with my friends, I'm embarrassed about not being interesting, funny, or smart enough. At work, I'm embarrassed about not working as fast as others, or making mistakes or looking stupid

I'm just so tired of constantly being embarrassed and ashamed of my very own existence

I'm posting this here because I'm pretty sure it's because of my social anxiety and because none of my friends or family know my reddit account, and I just needed to vent about this, honestly. Maybe some of you can relate, idk