I recently had an experience wherein I am now led to believe that the person who understood me in a fundamental level is dead and that I will never fulfill my life with them. 

I believe we have multiple “soulmates” in different forms, like my cat for example because there’s such a strong connection and bond and mutual understanding and respect. 

I feel like when I hear this persons pain, through their music, they understand me. I missed out on a soulmate that I may never have even met if he were still alive, but this guy fucking got me and I don’t know how to cope. I feel daily like I am mourning his death. I don’t know how to move on. I feel like the only way to be with him is to not be here anymore.