i recently got diagnosed with schizophrenia spectrum disorder from one of the university psychiatrists and my treatment plan was basically 3 types of medicine to help with my hallucinations and delusions but i don’t think they’re working anymore.

i live in a triple dorm with two other people, and the set up is basically one small room with three beds and a bathroom, so there’s no privacy. my roommates are SUPER sweet and respectful, I should add. while this was okay at first, it’s seriously starting to take a toll on my mental health and it’s making my condition worse. im sleeping all of the time again, avoiding all contact with my roommates, and ive even passively thought about killing my roommates and hiding their bodies just so i can have time to myself. obviously it’s a thought that i fight, but sometimes i scare myself when i think that way.

i have another appointment with the psychiatrist tomorrow but idk what to tell her without getting in trouble. if anything this will be what causes me to drop out and go back home. i didn’t think having roommates would be this hard.