I’ve been struggling very badly with anxiety over money and debilitating feelings on inadequacy. Every day all I can do is think about how I’m heading towards complete worthlessness because of my career choices and I can’t even get myself to turn to the productive things that used to be my outlet because I feel like I’m not good enough to bother. I feel so scared all the time of myself and my future and the people around me. I’m exhausted and I just want to find my way out and feel confident and engaged and happy to be alive. 

I feel like I’m trying my hardest to articulate these feelings to my therapist (that keeps cancelling appointments), my mom (who has her own problems), and my SO (who is beginning to feel unloved and more like a babysitter than a SO) but nobody is hearing me. Or I don’t feel like they are. Or they are but they’re just not doing anything about it. Not that it’s their responsibility but, I don’t know.

Does someone have any uplifting things to say? I’m really trying very hard to keep myself together.