I told her I won't be seeing her today after she admitted she was in the wrong. I know I should of accepted her apology and moved on but I wanted to be spiteful and shun her away for the day because she was more excited for my birthday than I was I knew it would hurt her. I know these things yet I still will follow through with not seeing her. I'm a piece of shit. I dont deserve her. I don't deserve a place on this earth.