hi everyone! i’m having a hard time right now. i am in a happy, healthy, and also new, relationship. i really love my partner, and they’ve treated me better than anyone i’ve dated before. things were going swimmingly; they understand my mental illness, and are awesome about me having to ask for reassurance, talk about things that neurotypical people don’t usually need to talk about, and are okay with me being clingier than most. 
i saw them once or twice a week, every week, which was going super well. they live 45 min away, so it was the most we could fit with our schedules. now, with corona, i haven’t seen them in 25 days. i am simply not built for long distance relationships. i thrive off of physical touch and physical affirmations. like others with bpd, texting can be weird and i often misread tone. so, i have been splitting (they don’t know what splitting is yet because it hasn’t ever happened until now), getting super paranoid, needing more reassurance than ever before, and feeling super clingy and needy, way more than i usually am.
i really love them a lot. they’ve been mostly good with my needs during all of this, but i honestly feel like a super shitty girlfriend for having so many problems arise when they’re struggling with their own mental state, too, and there’s a whole pandemic going on outside. 
the fact that i might not be able to see them for another month has me spiraling into a deep depression. they’re definitely my FP (i’m trying to work on that), and all of this is so extremely hard. sometimes i feel like i should dump them to spare them the pain, but my rational side knows how stupid and counterintuitive that is. plus, i really can see us together happily for a looong time, so i don’t wanna throw this away.

anyone else going through this? advice? can anyone relate? i am DYING over here bro.