I find myself in these situations where the anger boils so badly, that I say things I will regret after saying them. I blow up, and either abuse myself, or some object in the room. I find myself always wanting attention, and blow up when I don't feel I'm getting enough. I find myself getting irritated by everything, and always end up ranting everyday. I either am always this way now and days, or depressed and suicidal. I find myself not in control of my mind. I think about past events that make me hate myself, and have thoughts about abusing myself that I cannot control. I always feel out of control, and everyone gets upset with me when I'm like this. They yell at me, and say extremely hurtful things, that make it worse. I try telling them how my mind is killing me, and pushing everyone away, but no one, absolutely no one, seems to understand. Do any of you? How do you control your mind? 