They don't get it. I'm trying so hard. SO hard. I try to be positive with every bits of energy that is left in me but i have the side of the magnet that attracts the worst things and they always come crashing into me eventually no matter how good things are at the moment. I try to appreciate the minute moments of happiness, the small things in life but it only takes a second and it's all gone again. this existence is so sad and i truly believe we are in hell because for every position you get your own unique type of suffering, it doesn't even matter how good you have it there will always be something off with it, always something to be upset about. and yeah, see the positive side of things, there's people having it worse than you, i know, but i can't ignore when i get a hole punched through my stomach from all the bad things that happen to me. i won't go into detail, but trust me if you knew you'd be floored too