My boyfriend is working 10 hour work days and will be gone for four days. He didn't text me today and I feel like pushing him away before he can abandon me. I feel abandoned, forgotten, and unloved. I feel like lashing out and hurt. It like what I know is fighting with what I feel. And I know I'm being ridiculous, but what I feel, feels so much stronger.  I could really use support from people who get me and know what I struggle with because they struggle with the same. Any words would be appreciated. It.