I am 19 years old I made a pledge to myself to see how effects would ameliorate in the future, but they've only gotten worse and the same, I do not know what differently to do. Tonight, I am going to hang myself. I have written about it, told my family about it, went therapy and so on. All haven’t helped too much nor do they even care as I seen from it just ignoring or blaming. I am just really done. I can not feel to look at myself and feel useful because I am so lonely and just living being for its own sake. Loneliness is consuming me to know end. I believe there's nothing in this world for me. It seems as if there's nothing in store for me in the future maybe not true but I just see anything now just miserable and alone. I truly do not want to survive this time, it would be better for me to die. 

I see occasionally everyone lead happy lives and live their lives. I despise who I'm and do not ever want to live again. Whoever reads this, thank you for being in my life and commenting. I can not stand being fully alone any longer. I infrequently manage to produce complete Words when I do get the chance to speak to someone. disregard a girl. Stuttering or the fair I’m boring not knowing what to say social anxiety. when I have something on mymind, I've a hard time actually saying it. Who on earth would be patient enough to hear me out? How could I conceivably keep a conversation with someone if I tried to talk to them? I can’t really communicate with them easily. Nor am I worth anyone’s time.