i’ve only ever been able to keep jobs for like.. 6-8 months and it because i always end up feeling like everyone hates me because i can’t do anything right. i was doing so good then my memory just stopped working. i forget so many things and i move so slow. my head is starting to get mean again and i do not know what to do about it. i take my meds everyday so why am i so out of funk. when my head gets like this it’s all i can think about. about how this thinking always comes back and even when i start to feel good again it will always end. i’m exhausted mentally and it’s starting to get to the point where it physically hurts too. idk if i’m experiencing a mixed episode or rapid cycling because i’m just all over the place.