Didn’t work and doesn’t work. I still have the same thinking, values and perceptions but something did creep into my mind.

When I’m soundly asleep, I suddenly felt being watched and will open my eyes. I did this not knowing if it’s a dream neither do I feel it’s supernatural related. But I felt a little horror just like how one felt when being stalked, or got a shocked. 
When I’m soundly asleep, my subconscious took control and whatever I was feeling and dreaming all came from my subconscious (or maybe not, sometimes it’s just random dreaming that everyone does) but this particular instance is not.

I still don’t like that man and I feel that he’s a terrible person. Even if I like Japan but I wouldn’t like him because it’s 2 separate matters in the first place. (Ikr, who will actually associate these things together). I still won’t want to have kids now and the more so not with him. 

Something that has been deeply rooted in my mind causes my long term nightmares or sudden awakening ( I said long term because something similar or different started way long. Last year I guess? I can’t remember.) and that thoughts is that I’m being watched. Not my ghost but by that freak stalking me. So yes, if he thinks that’s love then yes, he is indeed a freak. So that’s what is scary, I’m not being stalked by some gentlemen but by some freak. 

Manipulating whatever I do. Maybe he should ask the doctors how to make someone who think he’s a freak to stop thinking that way.