Hi guys, 

I know you should not ask for a diagnoses at all on this subreddit - but I did go to several psychiatrists who kept diagnosing me with generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) and major depressive disorder. I did accept these diagnoses and had one-on-one therapy several times and CBT, but I'm still dealing with a lot of issues that I simply cannot understand. 

My question is: can you have BPD without showing it? 

I'm wondering about this because I identify with everything on this subreddit, but I keep everything in and don't lash out at others - as I know they'll hate it. However, there have been times where I have, and I completely regretted it afterwards and apologized (even when the person was wrong.) In addition, everything small thing keeps bothering me and I don't know why. For example, this girl told me a few months ago that I was "clumsy" because I dropped her makeup palette and it still makes me feel horrible. She even invited me to go out, and I declined because I felt like she was attacking me by calling me that. When I told my therapist about this, she told me that I was just insecure and needed to boost my confidence.