(Sorry, English is not my first language so the grammar might be off or sentences may be hard to read.) I’m panicking a little right now. Last year I had a blog and I ended up deleting it because of certain reasons, but I made very good friends there and I kept missing them, I couldn’t stop thinking about them it was as if metal strings were pulling me towards them and no matter how much my friends tried to stop me, I kept trying to find reasons behind why I should go back to that blog and talk to them again. This seemed like such an overreaction to something that may seem so small to others, but that blog really helped me cope with some bad things. And at the time I deleted it, my life was in a very bad state and losing support I used to have only worsened it. I eventually ended up creating another blog, but I know it’s not right to talk to those people anymore. Barely any of them missed me, I was forgotten. When I realised I’d been “replaced” I felt so bad. I will eventually have to delete it too. I don’t like it there anymore. Maybe I’m an attention seeker or a very self centred person but I don’t know who I am anymore.

I feel like a disappointment to my parents, my grades are falling too. Those people there really helped me realise I have reasons why I should love myself. But now, I have to live in the real world. How scary. I don’t know what this is called or if this is just obsession/addiction but, it’s causing me a lot of trouble and I didn’t know which subrreddit to post this in and people here just seemed very nice...

What should I do? Stay with them or delete the blog and move on with life?