I m totally done with this life, I m a young man who had big dreams and achieved a lot and yet it's seems like death is calling me, it seems like life doesn't want me anymore, My biggest biggest mistake was trusting people because I was doing very well in life,beacuse I was positive and because I saw the good in people but they saw only the bad in me and tried to break me ( including parents and family) I repeated that mistake twice and that's killing me, I was so stupid to give my life's remote control to others and let them influence me, and now I fucked up!I m down the  zero now and it's so hard to start again, I feel like I m doing the same thing again and again and again and AGAIN,I hate the fact I doubted my self and trusted others, this life doesn't suits me anymore, all this envy and evil is just not for a kind person like me. I tried to be a hard person but I couldn't go against my spirit. I just can't afford this world's negativity. 
That's my last publication and I hope I get reincarnated as a tree .