Twenty years ago I was sexually abused and since then I've suffered with nonstop depression and anxiety of other people, which I guess in turn ruined my personality too. I recently lost my insurance and my therapy, and due to the progress I made in therapy, I now feel way more than I used to and it honestly makes me feel worse. I was never too interested in sexuality until recently, but I think being a virgin and having never kissed someone is really starting to eat at me now. I feel like the abuse made me watch as my life went by feeling absolutely nothing and getting nowhere in life and now I'm almost thirty and have had nothing and likely never will.