I think that it might possibly be me related to worrying that now that other people might have BPD I won't be as special as I am now and then I'll be replaced since there'll be no need for me when other people have it. It's something that makes me feel very ashamed and guilty but I can't control it or understand it much. Anytime one of my friends talks about them possibly having BPD or saying they might have it it makes me irrationally angry and upset. I also wonder if it's maybe like me feeling they haven't struggled with it as much as I have so therefore they don't have it and don't understand it.  


I'm not quite sure if anyone else will have experienced this or not because once again now that I write this it sounds absolutely nuts. I just want to know if I'm genuinely likely insane or other people feel this way because it's happened to me a week ago when someone had said it and sent me into a breakdown and rage where people had to comfort me because someone said they think they had BPD and got all the facts wrong and I was just really out of control lol. It's just happened today again with one of the people I'm close to saying they think they have BPD and I feel absolutely disgusted with myself.