Here's a quick explanation (I hope, I begin writing and I lose sense of time):

She was my classmate. A lovely girl with high grades and a good sense of humor. One day she told me she was having troubles with her boyfriend and began spending more time with me, which she soon turned into romantic time because she wanted cuddles, then kisses, then sex. I wanted neither, but she was my best friend at the time I couldn't really say no. Later I would go on to learn that she was using me like a wet paper towel for emotional, sexual and entertainment reasons. And right after being used, I was disposed of.

After I exploded for causes unrelated (although she had something to do in all this) she began distancing herself away from me with bad excuses, and at the same time doing things that she may or may not be aware that were hurtful but god damn were they intented to hurt. Thing is, I'm a firm supporter of the "Eye for an eye" exchange. And since I'm a psychotic bastard manipulator, I had quite the arsenal at my disposal. However, I still liked this girl, so I gave her a chance for reconcilliation.

A chance that she flunked with more excuses and enough drama to rival my own. So I stopped pulling my punches. I made her remember how she was Midas's fecal-cursed cousin because all she touched turned to shit. I told her that I'm a loyal friend as much as a sadistic bastard, and that she could pick if she wanted me to be her friend. She chose. So did I.

And now I'm feeling refreshed. No more will I care about this woman's troubles. No more will I care about our non-existant friendship, or the sexual tension that happened between us. And to top it off, I just plucked one of the causes that make me go berserk/depressed right from the roots! Woot!

I think I'm losing my mind, with all the devil-may-care attitude and not giving a fuck about anything, but damn if I'm not enjoying it. This condition is a double-edged sword and for the first time I'm not the one getting stabbed. Next stop is my ignorant macho father and all his bullshit.