Hello Reddit. 

This past week hasn't been great, but today has been awful. I've been home alone all day, which seems to make things worse. Tomorrow I am moving and it is going to be a lot of driving. I'm just a passenger, but I hate being away from my bed/bathroom because I always have this anxiety that I will get sick and need a place to lay down. 

Thing is, I've traveled quite a few times and been fine. Last year I took multiple plane trips, some lasting like 24 hours total. I also went on a 5 hour train journey, drove 4 hours each way for a job interview in another city. I KNOW I am capable of this. But for today my brain has just been in panic mode. I've felt nauseas, dizzy, my stomach has been a mess and I've literally sat on the toilet like 4 times today even though usually nothing happens. 

Tomorrow morning, I have no choice but to get in the car and go, no matter how I feel. It's going to be a few days before we actually arrive at our "home" for the next month. Honestly, I can't wait for that first night in my bed. 

To add to this, I've recently starting this thing with a girl. She's amazing and she motivates me to improve myself and get back to my pre-anxiety ways, but it's also stressful. I love talking to her, she makes me feel calm, but at the same time when I'm anxious I just push people away and I hate that. 

Rant over. I can't wait for this to be over, I need to relax and get my diet back on track. I've barely eaten this week which only makes things worse and I want to get back into running, because I used to be fit until covid hit...