So I had a baby, got diagnosed with postpartum depression, on top of the bipolar I’ve been diagnosed with all my life. After months of people begging me to get help, I got a new doctor and started on medication.

First week or so was fine, but now in the past week alone, I made a bunch of insane purchases, completely redid sections of my house, all half finished of course. And now today I’ve quit the job that I love, tried to leave my husband and cut off all my hair. I thought I would get better on medication, everyone always told me it fixes everything.

But then why do I feel more lost and awful than I have ever before? I’m drowning.