Just wondering if anyone has any sort of experience with feeling “shut off” during a depressive state of bpd. When my mood swings go south, so does my interest in my relationship. It absolutely breaks my heart, as my FP is the most genuine and caring in the world. I know that I’m madly in love when my mood swings upward again, but in the down low, it’s so hard to stay rational and keep on going. 

I’ve made up my mind to not make any decisions during intense mood swings, but I feel like I’ve been so low for so long that I’m losing touch with the person I am in the “normal”