I have really bad social anxiety.. and Im starting to feel like im weird, awkward and different frim everyone else.. everytime I interact with people I feel like I always make things awkward because im not being myself and I never have anything to say, and it sucks because I have no friends because of my social anxiety. Its sad because I see others with friends and I literally cant make friends because im so awkward :/. It makes me cry. Im always afraid to walk past a crowd, or talk to my bf family. My bf doesn’t understand my anxiety and it sucks, he forces me to do something that makes me uncomfortable and it starts to give me a panic attack because hes throwing me under the bush instead of being gentle and helping me with something I struggle with. Then he complains about how im not confident enough and its a turn off. Ah i hate it here.