I got diagnosed in october/november of 2020. I was in a relationship with someone for four years but I think I stayed because he was the only person to “love me”. After that he left me and broke my heart. Now i’m single and on each date that I go, or even when I have sex I can’t seem to have a normal relationship with a guy/girl. I am so jealous when I see couples happy and  I do not know how to get there... What do you talk about with you SO ? What if you are boring and have no passion in life and whatsoever to share with them? How will they accept you? How do you meet them? 

Feeling so lonely right now and it’s suck being single and knowing that alot of friends have a SO that loves them. I know it’s very selfish...