Ive realised it today when i woke up that in my dreams i really go full force borderline, when i dreamed of sending death treats to my beloved sister because she did something wrong to me. Then (in the drean) also lashing out to my best friend to go fuck herself and cutting the relationship because she didnt invite me to some work event of hers. 

I know this is just a dream but i dream shit like that so often and i have no remorse just like when i lash out IRL (which i obviously regret so much minutes later), and it frightens me that this sits so deep in my psyche and i have to experience these emotional rollercoasters even when i sleep + remember all of it throughout the day.

Sorry i had to vent... anyone else🙁?