 I’ve suffered with so much extreme trauma. I have been diagnosed adhd, depression, anxiety, BPD and ptsd professionally at 16. I also had drug abuse (weed) for 2 years (smoked up a bong like 5 times a day, I quit now though because it was impairing me to the Max). The way my brain is damaged now is so bad. I honestly can’t remember anything it’s so fucked up. Like it was bad before ever since I’ve been processing my trauma but now its at a point where I can’t remember anything new. And I’ve been trying to get my life together but it just gets worse tbh. And I’m alright financially right now, been living alone since 16. I work a bit so I can afford my rent and food. N I hate my job. But I just feel like I’m exisiting. Not living n it’s been that way for years now. It’s just so hard to live. I barely take care of myself because I have no energy most of the time. N I dropped out of school too so I’ve been trying to do my year 12 online so I can enter University. But I honestly think I’ll end up dropping out again if it gets too hard. Like I won’t be able to remember shit so how the f am I gonna go uni. I honestly don’t know what to do. I do warehousing right now and there’s literally no future in this. N the only way I can be happy is if I get my life together n my money up I think. Idk 😭. Because I’ve been to psychologists n shit n that didn’t even help me at all. Like I’m just done at this point. Does anyone know any way I could slightly at least try fixing my brain or something. It’s just honestly so depressing feeling dumb all the time. Because I used to actually be smart. N I wanna be rich 😭