Hello, let me introduce myself by saying I have been diagnosed with emetiphobia (fear of vomiting) social anxiety/panic disorder/agoraphobia/blahblahblah 

I recently moved to Colorado and have been trying weed for my anxiety but the problem is, I have no tolerance because I’m from a state where it’s illegal so it makes me nauseous which causes even MORE anxiety. It feels like I’m screwed either way. I’m not on daily medication yet (I have an appointment on April 1st just to establish primary care) I am prescribed Ativan for emergencies but even that does next to nothing. The only time I’m not panicking is when I’m asleep, and I can barely fall asleep. I maybe get 3 to 4 hours a night, sometimes less. I can barely eat because I’m scared of throwing up. In my mind that is the worst thing that could happen to me.
Does anyone have any advice or recommendations? I’m getting desperate and I don’t think I can live like this much longer.