I'm in medical school. I haven't told anyone here about my diagnosis for obvious reasons (I chalk everything up to being chaotically ADHD and depressed--which I also genuinely am). I was fine when I got here because I had been in therapy for 3 years, but having been here for a year now I can feel my BPD symptoms creeping back. 

The irritability, the mood swings, the reactivity to little things, cynicism, splitting, letting all of my emotions cloud my thoughts. I'm just watching and letting it get out of control kind of hopelessly and it sucks.

My friend the other day was talking about their friend from home that has BPD and described her as absolutely insane and crazy and a difficult time to be around and like I kinda just had to sit there and agree despite knowing that they'd probably be saying the same things about me if they knew. I can feel people's perception of me changing from someone nice and bubbly and chill to someone mean and irritable and not chill and it really just sucks lol.