I’m someone who has been cheated on a lot. I don’t know if that caused my bpd or made or worse? 

But now, the only thing I worry and obsess over is cheating. My bpd is less anger based and more so sad and depression based it’s rare I get angry. Well a girl did something to my boyfriend. She touched his face and it triggered the fuck out of me. I know that seems stupid. It wasn’t even romantic, obviously a joking kind of move. And the whole day I basically kept bugging if he was cheating and it’s awful. And I regret doing it. 

I feel like I was doing so well the last few months. But then I feel like this set me back. My partner is very sweet and loving, but of course it gets to him too. And he said sometimes it’s a lot for him to bear. And now I’m crying and a mess. I don’t wanna be like. The guilt of being like this hurts so bad. I feel so hopeless. Him and I have been together for a long time and I should trust him by now. He understand that my trust takes a LOT to earn, but I know it’s hard for him too. 

If anyone here is dating someone with BPD is there anything or tips you’d like to give for me or partner. I’d really appreciate it.