I'm not expecting a magic fix. I've been under the care of doctors and psychiatrists since I was 3 years old, I'm now 23 years old. 

It feels like every avenue has been explored, pretty much almost every single different type of medication, therapy type and my mental health is getting worse as I get older. As if the older I get, the more severe it gets. 

It's exhausting and it's getting too much. It feels like I won't ever improve or find something that actually helps. Honestly, I just want to die. 