I am autistic and have borderline personality disorder, so of course I always feel isolated. My friends know this, yet they make no effort to include me in conversations, shut me out of their circle, and I am also aware they have a group chat that I am not a part of. I’ve never had a best friend and I didn’t talk to anyone outside of my family for a consecutive 93 days. I only see my friends when I go to cross country practice, and even there, it’s like I only fit in because I’m on varsity. I’m so tired of feeling like I’m fucking alone. Thanks to anyone to read this rant; I’ve been turning to writing instead of self harm, however, I have found paper does not have the ability to talk back.