Ive been in a loving relationship with my girlfriend for 4 years. I know I havent been perfect, no one can, and I admit i made mistakes, terrible mistakes. 

I genuinely love her and really want to live with her. Shes the one, I just feel it. But just last night she told me Im just not doing enough, and maybe shes right. I need to work on myself more. 

But then she said there's another guy. I never thought she had what it takes to even think about another guy. She said shed rather breakup than to continue forcing herself to love me while liking someone else.

 We're gonna meet up in 2 days to personally talk about it but honestly i dont like where this is going.

Ive had suicidal thoughts before and she was the only reason that kept me going. My perspective on life might just change in 2 days.