We broke up three weeks ago. He dumped me on the same day I tried to kill myself. To be fair, he’d been caring for me for years as my mental health was steadily declining (bipolar II and BPD) and there’s only so much a man can take, but the timing just wasn’t great. I suppose I was in the best place for it to happen, though - I was safe in the hospital, so I couldn’t do something rash, which is exactly what I wanted to do.

I’m just so angry and heartbroken. I feel like he abandoned me in my time of need, even though I know logically he was just taking care of himself. We were together for nine years, and I’m mad because he acts like we were nothing, but I *know* that realistically he’s probably coping as well as a neurotypical person knows how, and to me it seems that he doesn’t care because I overreact so strongly to everything. I get so fucking emotional.

Is this normal for people like us? How do I make it stop? Every time I text him in a fit of anger or sadness, I regret it instantaneously but I can’t seem to stop. I just want to get better and move on. Is that possible? I’m a grown ass adult. I don’t want to be throwing tantrums like a little kid.