It’s been a month now and I’ve been slowly spiraling down. I’ve been streaming an insane amount of episodes on Netflix lately so I know I’m disassociating. I’m slowly breaking up with my boyfriend because I can’t stand the thought of begin intimate with him since I’m a SA victim. It’s gotten so bad that I refused to leave my house today and started getting thoughts of self harm. It’s been so long since the last time. I just want to cry and I want the pain to stop.