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I have been seeing therapists since I was a child, first for a adhd and now for social anxiety, depression and suicidal thoughts and attempts. I have seen 5 different therapists and tried different types of therapy but I feel like nothing really works. At first I thought it was because I was a child or teen and therefore would see the result later in life, but no. I stopped seeing my very first therapist when I changed schools and my parents never thought to about continuing the therapy. Around 12 years old, I saw a psychologist but stopped after 1.5 years because I felt like she wasn't helping me or meeting my expectations (I already did a suicidal attempt and I wanted help to handel it). Then I wanted to see another one but he didn't take me seriously and kept telling me that it was normal for a teenager to want to kill himself. So I stopped and tried another therapy. But again, I felt like my problems were being minimized and I was not being given any solutions. So I stopped everything and told myself that I would wait until I'll be 18 to finally be taken seriously. As if miraculously, being an adult was going to give more credit to my problems. I waited and struggled in my corner. When I was finally 18, I got in touch with someone who had been recommended to me, but all she did was judging me during the session. By this time I had already lost faith in therapy and could only rely on my meds. Now that I was legally an adult, my doctor agreed to put me on antidepressants. She knew some of my history, so she agreed, but only if I went back to therapy with someone she could help me find. She is lovely, I love her very much. So we found a first therapist who, after a few time, referred me someonelse. So I start again.

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I already had no confidence in the help of a psybut I obviously accepted to keep my meds and I had a little glimmer of hope to finally get the help I was hoping for. But nothing. It's been 6 months now and I'm tired of venting my life to professionals who don't give me any keys or solutions to help me. All I do is talk and talk, repeat and repeat the same things which leads to nothing. I just talk things we already talked about and I gain nohting from it. I know there is no magic recipe for mental problems, so what? I'm doomed to stay like this? I can't figure out if I've misunderstood the profession of psychology but just talking doesn't help. Do I except unattainable results? I don't understand why it works for others but not for me? I am not reluctant to talk about my life, I give them information about my life but they do not do anything with it. They listen to it and leave me in my shit. I don't care that they listen to me, I just want help, answer. Something that would help me live a little bit normally. Am I too naive?

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I can't stop my therapy, otherwise I wouldn't have access to my medication. It don't really work on me, I asked several times to increase the dose but my doctor wanted to wait for more results with the therapy before doing anything. I know that therapy takes time to work, but I can't wait any longer. I don't wan to wait any longer and keep living with hallucinations, numb emotions and a brain that only thinks about death. My thoughts torture me every day, I don't sleep or have nightmares. Even sleep is no longer an escape. I am lost and exhausted.

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So please tell me what am I doing worng ?