Ive seen a pattern over my life where i avoid people and responsibilities as long as i can to the point it people take it as plain disrespect. Till a certain point it was ok because i was young. But as a 30yr man this is becoming a major problem in my life. I already lost a job to those attitudes and have very bad relationships. People call me and I ignore messages even though they see im online. Im very good at convincing people that me not answering emails or calls or delivering work was a mistake or somthing and that i will fix it. Until it happens like 10 more times and people just figure im a fraud. Im at a point where i just flat out think im not able to deliver and my self esteem is wrecked by that.  

Ive though it might be plain immaturity as i was raised pretty much without any responsibility. But i wonder if it might be some illness behind it. I already take adderral but i keep not delivering. It does help my mood though. Any help would be great.