I’ve pretty much given up on the concept of attaining peace. Ik life is just down to perspective but my life sucks. I only turned 18 last month and I pretty much don’t have anyone in my life that appreciates me or shows that they care about me including myself. I attempted to do it when I was 13 and the tie I used broke💀 and I kinda wish it worked back then. I’m planning on doing it on the 2nd of January 2022 this Sunday. It’s pretty much my last week hopefully. And Ik that I’ll probably hurt ppl but I honestly don’t care, no one should be hurt excessively as no one does anything for me at all. I’m not even leaving anyone a note because no one has ever given me closure in my life. Life is just pointless for me atp ppl say “it gets better” but why should I wait for that. Death and pain are the only things certain in life and I’ve convinced myself that im not being selfish because why can’t I make the rescission the unalive myself if im going to die anyways ?