I feel like the passed year I tried my hardest at meeting new people and trying to make new friends. I'm aware there was a pandemic which means it wasn't easy for everyone. College was online for my first year. In second year I was only on campus for 4 weeks. My college is useless when it comes to finding information about clubs and societies so I spent weeks chasing down information on how I could join at least 1. Finally joined one club and everyone ignores you and does their own thing. My birthday is in the next few weeks and was really hoping this year I'd be able to do something nice like go to dinner with new friends from college or have pizza and a movie at my place. I've made no progress and I'm not where I want to be in life. I've literally ruined what were supposed to be the best years of my life. I feel like an outlier and feel like I genuinely shouldn't exist right now.