I become convinced I’m the most awful human being ever (very narcissistic I know). My family doesn’t really love me. My boyfriend doesn’t love me and I’m convinced he’s cheating on me. I can’t get a grasp on who I really am in the moment cause it’s like I forget who I was before the anxiety attack (sounds weird but that’s how it feels).

The worst part is that I become filled with such deep painful sadness, it feels like someone I love has died. It feels like grief. And I just cry for hours. 

I was better for a while but now they’ve become frequent again. And NOTHING helps. I just have to wait it out and sometimes they last like 8 hours. I just had to vent