Too many problems i can deal with such as my visa has been expired for a long time so my bank account will be closing soon, my health problems has been untreated for a long time now, my depression is kept getting worse. I can’t go back to my country because I can’t be anywhere near my mom cause we are like fire and water, i don’t talked to my dad for a long time now after learning he took all of my insurance money . Also i pretty sure that my depression was cause by my parents since i was younger. So yeah i don’t know maybe it’s time to end it? Lately i have been dreaming about my death like i dreamt of the day I’ll die March 28th or how i dreamt of my mom go to pick my gravestone and how much i like it. So maybe in 1 month something may change or i’ll be less miserable.