21 F
I’ve always been a last minute person with deadlines but always managed to pull the work off and still get good grades. However, in the third (out of four) year of my uni degree I am reaching the point where I have no drive to watch the lectures in my bedroom. I am a whole semester behind because I have been keeping myself busy in other ways. The most frustrating part is that now I’m sat here unable to fall asleep with all of my deadlines looming, and truly not knowing if I can get everything done. I completely self sabotage and cause more anxiety for myself. 

On the other hand I have been dealing with some health issues which have induced significant health anxiety in my life, this has caused me to join the university year 2 months late, and generally distract me from focusing the entire time. 
Before my health problems I could always make the deadlines in time but this extra fear I now carry as tipped me over the edge 

Please tell me that there are other people with this self sabotaging trait. I always find myself too afraid to talk to people about it because I feel like people find it pathetic and a plea for sympathy. :((