I can't control my emotions. I'm crying all the time. I don't want to worry anyone or bother them. But I don't know what to do. My therapist is away for a few weeks and I can't confide in the covering ones.I can't function right now. If I went to the behavioral health center would they admit me? I just want to be able to go to work. That's it. I'll take bare minimum.

 I don't live with my SO, but she isn't there for me. She has her own issues. And that is triggering me even more. I have no one to talk to. And I'm so sad and lonely. I just want someone to hug me. And love me for who I am. And just be there for me. It hurts so much to have someone that just can't be that.

 And I found something out today about my SO. I don't know if she's cheating on me, but she lied to me. And I don't know why. I was going to drop something off at her parent's house. She lives with them until she pays off her student loans. I texted her that I was dropping them off. She responded about an hour later, as I was almost at her house. Not to. Like a serious "DO NOT drop them off". And when I passed by her car wasn't there. In the early morning. And she is a late sleeper. So I asked her why not, was she not at home? She told me she was and she was not feeling well. I didn't respond other than to say ok or let her know I knew she lied. But why else would she lie if she wasn't cheating? Can anyone else offer advice. Am I paranoid or overthinking? I don't even know what to say to her. I don't know what to do.