Hi guys,

I am a 32yrs old male, I got a health anxiety that started few years back to be specific (not sure if its old bur was covered as I used to smoke Marjuana for few years when I was younger but had quite it long time ago) then when I found I got h pylori(stomach bacteria that affects 50% of world population) which caused me a big stress at time plus migration to another country and changing work (my first job after migration was nothing but a suffer) and getting married all at around the same time, then I had two treatment courses for this bacteria which failed but with changes in diet and time I became okay and althu I did endoscopy to culture it and knew which antiboitcs that works with it (some are resistant) but refused to take them afterwards cz A) I was scared B) Doctors had conflicting opinions about treamtment in case of no ulcers/symptoms becase when I reached this point, it stopped annoying me, then comes the smoking life im suffering from wz my smoker cough which goes away when I quite and althu I tried so many different things to quite, I still get to fail to complete one year mark wzout it but quitting helps my anxiety, then comes my mam overseas who passed away from covid althu she was 60 wz 0 medical history of anything and she was active/healthy and doing sports, I am not sure what is the main reason of my anxiety, I tend to delay things even on stuff that needs follow up, recently its affecting my work as well as I dont feel comfortable enough to change my job even if I am literally getting double pay, I am also was planned for pfizer first of July but delayed it to August cz I thought itd be bad idea while im smoking and Id need to quite first(or be on nicotine patch) but till now didnt even quite and two weeks later if I dont get the vaccine I would be forced to wait for the next available slot around November which is not an easy option as I need to travel for family reasons due to my mother issue and vaccine is a real show stopper, I went to many psychologists with get paper and pen and write down what worries you etc for a while but it didnt help, and I am married with a kid and tons of responsability so I need to control my life and fiz this shit and tried couple of things but not sure why I am stuck, is anyone suffering the same or worse? How did you manage to fix it?