Hi, I'm 21 years old, and struggling with OCD and anxiety. My OCD sometimes gets me to REALLY obsess about certain things. This time what stresses me out is kind of stupid I think, but I can't help it. 

So, I'm single and always been anxious about being left or judge by a partner. 

6 months ago, I met a girl on Bumble. We slept together a few times but didn't develop any feelings so we decided to stay friends and to stop sleeping together. The thing is, without wanting to sound rude, my friend is fat. And I realized that I was ashamed to have slept with her because of her weight. I know it's not something I should be ashamed of but I am. Because I know that SOME people would judge me. Society puts so much pressure on people when it comes to self-image. Still, I'm ashamed of being ashamed of it cause I know I shouldn't be. Anyway...

What worries me is how it is going to affect my future relationship with a gf. I know it's kind of dumb but I'm afraid that my future girlfriend judges me, or sees me differently when I tell her I've been with a fat girl before. I talked about it with my sister and she said that if a girl rejects me because of that, then she's way too superficial and I shouldn't be with that kind of person anyway. But still I'm afraid that maybe even unconsciously, my future gf sees me as a less attractive guy because I've been with a "less attractive girl".  Maybe I should mention that I'm pretty fit and that, ideally, my future gf would be too.

**So my question to you all is** : Am I stressing out for nothing? How do you think the average girl would react to this?

Sometimes I think my friend and I should just keep the fact that we slept together for ourselves. She thought about it too because she doesn't want to create tension or jealousy when one of us gets a gf/bf. Anyway, we agreed that from now on our friendship is purely platonic. So it's not like we want to hide it and continue to sleep together. Maybe it would just be easier not to say it and just continue to be friends. 

At the same time, hiding things kind of stress me out.

Thank you for your help. And please try not to judge me, I know that I'm kind of being superficial myself maybe.