For those of us who people please, put on a front or hide truths to gain acceptance from others:

We are gaslighting those very people we want to accept us. We give them answers we think they want vs what they actually are. That, my fellow BPDs, is emotionally abusive.

When I realize (or suspect) that I have been gaslit I split and run for the relationship as quickly as I can (assuming I catch on to the gaslighting). Yet I’m expecting those I’m trying to gain acceptance from to be okay with it and undamaged by it? Yep, it’s fucked up. 

I’m doing one of the many things done that caused me to develop BPD to others and that is not okay. 

Insight / perspective is welcome.