i finally decided to take an online depression test this week to see if i was actually depressed because i thought it was normal to feel sad,empty and hopeless in daily basis. 

about an year ago i talked to my friends about how sad i was and maybe i was diagnosed with depression but all my friends were laughing and they didn’t believe me because i seemed okay in real life. they told me that depression is so much more than just being sad.

this week, i took 3different tests and it felt like the questions described my life. all of them turned out really bad and told me that i needed professional help lol. i was surprised because i always thought i was just “sad” and it wasn’t a big deal when i was actually diagnosed with depression since middle school and i didn’t even realize it.

people tend to perceive people with depression to show their sense of isolation even when surrounded by people but i think it really depends because im really energetic and loud when im around people but once im alone, i completely change. 

so yeah… no one knows what you’re going through but you^_^