This little rage vent contains swearing and un-alive concern for friend (which wasn't real don't worry), please be careful if you don't like those things. No one has to read it, I'll be fine even without acknowledgment.

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(my therapist told me to write my feelings down when I feel them too much so this is from my notes)

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I am so mad right now, I am actually fuming. My friend suddenly got out of a group chat, at first I thought it was by accident so I added him back, he said that he doesn't want to be a burden on us anymore and left once again. We started messaging him privately, trying to figure out what's going on, because this is quite a concerning message to say to someone when they know you are depressed and struggling with many things.

THEY IGNORED EACH MESSAGE, WE TRIED TO CAL, THE PHONE CALLS WERE IGNORED, WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO THINK AT THIS MOMENT.

I didn't want to take a step too far but I did think it's very important to reach out to someone with some kind of authority, so I called my cop friend, she was sleeping but I assumed it was too worrying to ignore so she called the family of the said friend, they were mad because they are a bunch of bitches and it was the night but we were worried for our said friend. The cop friend said she talked to him and he sounded either very depressed or sleepy. We are still very worried so we planned on going to his house the day after, to check up on him. In the morning of that day I did some thinking and I thought that it would be too much for me, as I am, also, depressed and very struggling, so I decided not to go. The cop friend was still going and I asked her to send a message from me that if the said friend is having trouble, they shouldn't be afraid of talking to me.

Cop friend came back and said they are doing fine and that they just didn't want to be in the group chat anymore because we are always complaining or whatever and the said friend is also complaining and they feel bad about how they can't help anyone in the group (which I strongly sense it's a lie to make them seem nicer, they just wanted us to fuck off because we were annoying them, just say it bitch, say it to our face. You wasted 2 hours of our life trying to reach out to you because we were WORRIED for you. I had a sleepless night hoping you were doing ok and you just did that because you didn't want to confront that you don't like us, honestly, go fuck yourself). My cop friend also added that the said friend told her that "we were being too dramatic". Go fuck yourself, with all of my heart, I know you are struggling, but at least say something, anything, you can't drop this worry bomb and fuck off and act like you're already dead.

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This actually made me lock up even more. Now I feel EVEN WORSE for trying to put out my feelings out there and try to reach out to friends so I could maybe, just maybe, get some human fucking support, but no, I'm just a burden on them. I really don't feel like talking about myself anymore with anyone.

Fuck me, and fuck you, said friend, fuck everyone.

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If you have reached this far you either love drama or not doing well, are you ok hun?