So I'm kinda new to reddit, and don't even know if this is the right subreddit, but I need to rant a little and I don't know who to tell this.

I'm 22 and already feel like my life is over, like nothing good can come from this world anymore, but at the same time I feel like I'm missing a lot. I feel really unmotivated, can't find joy in anything I used to love anymore, and I miss the feeling of being excited about something. 

I can't focus on anything, I used to love to read and write and every time I try to do that I just stare at the page for minutes and minutes confused and not being able to concentrate. My mind is all over the place and I try to tell it to do something but I just can't. It's so hard to get out of bed, to brush my teeth, to do chores and all of the things I have to do. Sometimes I just think I'm lazy, at least that's what majority of people around me tell me, that if I exercise, go out, eat healthy and socialize everything will go away. But it's not that easy. It's really hard for me even to write this and put everything that's on my mind here. I have terrible grades at uni, I constantly forget things, sometimes my mind is like blurry and it's hard for me to comprehend things. 

I'm just tired of living in constant anxiety, in constant fear, I want relief. Sometimes I have an outburst of excitement to do something but it literally lasts for minutes. Lately I'm also isolating myself, I've always been a socially anxious person, it's really hard for me being around people and I really don't want to see anyone right now, it's really tiring to have to pretend everything is ok, and even the people I love I don't want to see. I'm not interested. It takes me a lot of energy even responding a text. 

I feel drained. I either sleep too much or not sleep at all, and I prefer the first cause at least when I sleep I don't think.