Quick background: I work in a competitive freelance industry. (This is relevant, I promise). So my psychologist pointed out I’m experienced with rejection and with grit, because I keep sending out my CV and I get maybe 10% response and less success. 

Which I think is why I struggle with goal setting. She asked me for some small goals to achieve while I change antidepressants and I just had none. I’ve got no big goals either. I think the big goals thing is because I want to be at the top of my role in my industry, but I’ve been trying for 10 years and I can’t get my foot in the door. So I’m dejected by the constant small failure. 

But the small goals thing is odd. I know the things I should want to have (a family, owning a house, being less lonely) and I think I want it, but I just can’t seem to make even small goals. I go through the motions of life - eating, exercising, applying for future jobs, chores… but I’m so used to the last couple of years of pandemic and bushfires and being shrouded in an anxiety cloud that I don’t even know how to set goals anymore. 

Any advice on getting an imagination? Thanks for listening to my blurb.