I am over 25 years old, pissed away most opportunities life threw at me, lagging way behind my peers. I've traumatised people that loved me (but also got hurt along the way as well, not trying to idealise them), lost the woman I called the love of my life because I was abusive towards her (after trying to reconcile with her after caughting her lying and 'cheating' on me at the start of our relationship - a big no no with BPD), made suicidal threats, cried myself to sleep every night over the course of the last 5 months - so I went to a therapist and I got my diagnosis today - borderline personality /w narcissistic features!

I just wanted to say hello, and that I suspected that I was a borderline for a long time and I've been a lurker on this reddit. Some success stories made me tear up and motivated me a lot. I just wanted to say that we all got this.

And after looking back at my trauma-filled life the biggest takeaway for me is that I never want to make a person hurt ever again. That sucks and that's the main goal, even when my emotions lead me to think otherwise. I want to live a life filled with wholesomeness, authenticity, empathy and love. Thank you