After my breakdown, hospitalisation and diagnosis last year I took a year off from university. Previously I had been working full-time in a demanding job as well as completing my degree, a short internship and a short professional development course, all to make up for a late start to my career. I was struggling to juggle it all and obviously it didn't end well, now I am no longer working (at the advice of an independent psychiatrist review requested by my employer) and I am starting to study again, part-time. 

I feel like studying should be easier now without all the previous distractions but I'm still struggling. I find it hard to concentrate, I have zero motivation, I procrastinate and lie about how much work I've done, then I feel guilty to the point where I feel sick to my stomach, which leads me to feel frustrated and then I lash out, only to feel guilty again, and then procrastinate. Again. I feel like my brain is running slow, if that makes sense? Like everything I read takes longer to sink in, longer to understand. I feel like I can't remember things like I used to, or solve problems. I keep thinking 'how did I complete the last three and a half years of uni?' now I don't even know where to start. I am on some pretty heavy meds but I honestly think I just don't have the confidence anymore to make it through the next year and a half of study. 

Does anyone else struggle like this?