Today my boyfriend leaves for Qatar. I’m in DC. I love him so much and already miss him. I’m feeling jealous of him because he travels so much, whereas I’m afraid of flying, he has an insanely amazing job and i have a good job but nowhere near like his, and he is really good looking and wearing fancy suits and women are always hitting on him and I’m ugly. He’s gone for two weeks, then he comes home for a bit; then he moves out there for a year. We’re going to figure out how to make it work, I’ll probably move with him but I’m constantly terrified once he gets out there he’s going to be like “this is awesome” and forget about me and decide to leave me so he can have more freedom. I’m panicking and so sad. I don’t think he is sad about leaving me or will miss me, i don’t think he will even think about me. I wanted to scream and cry and beg all weekend but i forced myself to just have as much fun with him as possible so i wouldn’t risk pushing him away. I miss him so much