I am in highschool right now and everything feels like it is crashing down. I recently moved across the country to a new school and it is extremely difficult to make new friends. I talk to everyone and am friendly and I dont generally think I am a shy person but I have heard that that is how I am perceived by other people at my school. As a result of little social life, I turned more to academics. I have always been into academics and took on the heaviest load this year because I feel this innate pressure to get into one of the top universities - I have no idea why. Although the load from the school year is barley bearable. I have no time to do anything. I am trying to improve my health recently but my body won’t let me go to the gym because it forces me to get home and start studying as soon as I get home. Apart from dinner, my homework takes until about 11:00 PM. I want to have a social life and be able to take better care of myself but the awful pressure or sinking feeling prevents me from dropping or going to any lower class. My grades are already slipping even though this is the hardest I have ever worked academically in my life. I study for hours and hours and hours only to get around 75’s on my math exams. I have tried multiple tutors and nothing helps. There are several people in my math class who are able to get the concepts flawlessly while I am stuck putting in double or triple the amount of hours they are and still scoring below them. I also have horrible test anxiety that makes me very physically ill. I have started sleeping more and more and always feeling tired I have started feeling like I want to sleep forever. I just feel like I am making my life miserable right now and am still going to get denied by my top choices and I feel like I will look back on this point in my life and think that it was not worth it. In the past I have been ranked at the top of my class but now I feel like everyone is doing better than me. So now, I feel like not only am I missing out on a social life, I have no time for hobbies, I am not succeeding in academics I am not able to work toward any of my personal goals so my life feels completely pointless. I just work and work and then fail. I’ve even started to think that I may not be here in a years time. If this is how I am feeling in highschool, how am I going to make it through higher education? It makes me think I am going to fail there too so I have become burned out. I am losing motivation and because of it my anxiety is becoming worse which makes me feel constantly sick and I just want it all to end.