I feel like such an ass for all this hate I am feeling right now. But I need to let it out. 

A friend of mine recently learnt he had cancer, a rare and low chances of survival kind of cancer. it's a huge thing, he is suffering a lot and I know this. Tonight in a chat group with about 10 people, where he also is in, another friend shared an article and asked us our opinion. I presented both sides of the argument which kind of made me play the devil's advocate. But it was a super nuanced view, i seear i did not go in the extremes. (it was an article about covid.)

He got triggered by it. Straight up lashed out at me and told me I was being selfish and that people who had part of the view i presented could go fuck themselves. His argument was based on his own single situation, i just wanted to tell him that his view was very selfish since it was based on his current situation. BUT I DIDN'T. i just said "i'm sorry if i said anything hurtful to you but i was just trying to bring a nuanced view."

I know he is being emotional right now and he has all the rights to be an emotional mess but damn, I hate that now I want to straight up block him for lashing out at me for trying to present an opinion. I was LITERALLY just being objective trying to see both sides. Fuck that. (But I know i have the advantage of being able to be rational on the matter where he, on the other hand, is in a very difficult situation that makes him sensitive.)

I work so hard to not lash out at people constantly, which i never even do anymore, that when i get lashed out at I want to fucking punch them in the face. 

I feel like an asshole because i don't even feel like i care about him anymore. 

Why are we like this? I can straight up get out all the facts that make this urge to hate him unreasonable. Yet, emotionally, idgaf anymore about him. All my empathy = gone. Over this one little tiny argument.

No wonder why I can't keep friends.