(Raised hand over here)

It gets so bad. Something will set me off and suddenly I'm fueled by adrenaline and all logic halts and I feel like I have to hurt people who hurt me. During those times it's like the rational part of me is held hostage and forced to watch me meltdown and try to half-wittedly put people I'm angry at in their place.

On the inside I'm thinking "I need to stop. Someone PLEASE take this keyboard away from me." 

It feels good to act out and scream at people in real life and online, then there's a crash. Then there's depression and a whole lot of crying and ruined reputations. Deep regret and self hatred.

:(