my 2 best friends live together in an apartment about 35 minutes from my home. we always talked about living together in fantasy, but i was suppose to go away for college, and they planned to room with another friend of ours. but i never went away, and now everyone lives together and i’m by myself. and i can’t drive so i never see them unless they can get me/come see me, which is never often. and i miss out on everything. and they’re always together like we all used to be, but now it’s me watching their moments live out while i have no moments. i stayed with them for a while over the summer and the whole time they just complained about me being there and how crowded and messy it was  , and how much better it will be when i’m gone. i never felt welcomed there. so now i feel alone with my only friends. and i feel alone all the time, and it breaks my heart to think about it