Have any of you done this and has it helped?

I'm in a program right now and it's helping me but the thing I'm trying to understand is this.

Does the paranoia ever fully go away? Mine comes and goes and when it goes I get so hopeful and then when the worm comes crawling back into my brain to not trust anyone and that everyone is out to get me, I get so down.

I've only been diagnosed about 8 months ago and I was doing really well and then something triggered a minor psychosis. Minor meaning it wasn't minor but only lasted about a week. But it totally kicked me on my ass.

For the first time since my diagnosis, I heard myself talking to the voice in my head and telling it to shut the fuck up and that I didn't want anything to do with it. I rolled my eyes back and tilted my head back because it felt like it was coming from the back of my brain. Strangely, I got it to shut the fuck up. But then my hope that I will have a normal life again, really makes me so depressed.

I started taking DBT because I thought it would help with the symptoms and that's not what's happening. What's happening is that I feel better equipped to not react to the paranoia and go off on tangents accusing people of this and that conspiracy and I'm able to control how I follow through. Which right now is that I continually am choosing to ignore my paranoid thoughts and I'm not participating in the demands they have about how I need to find proof and expose people. I did that in psychosis when I didn't know I was in psychosis and before I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. And it had dyer consequences. I will never do that again. Ever.

I thought about John Nash and the movie A Beautiful Mind. That he went off meds, didn't stop hearing or seeing people that weren't real but that he learned how to manage ignoring them. Is that what this will be like for the rest of my life? It's so overwhelming to know that I'm going to have to manage this instead of having medication that completely eradicates it.