I landed my dream job, but it’s so much more stressful than I imagined. It may have triggered my hypo, feeling super elated and treating myself to thousands of new clothes to reward myself. That part isn’t too bad, but I’m still contemplating buying $600 pants that would be a great staple in my wardrobe. I was constantly picking fights with my boyfriend, but I’m not trusting him nor our couples therapist that they know better or that I should take their advice.

I realized today that I’m going into a depression from the workload. I was so exhausted during the work week, overthinking every interaction and falling behind every assignment. I don’t want to gain a negative reputation as the young, new girl! I also couldn’t bring myself to do anything around the house today— it took forever to even bring myself to attend my close friend’s birthday party. I finally admitted defeat to my boyfriend and It felt relieving. He seemed to get it, like that explained the constant fighting. It’s very frustrating.

I wanted to use Concerta again but I’m not sure my psych would let me. It does make me feel very productive, but they’ll probably just adjust my Wellbutrin and/or Lamictal dosages. I’ve stayed the same dosage for all my medications and that makes me a bit scared.

Does anyone else not know where the line is between regular actions/feelings and hypo? I also hate the thought of increasing my medication and building up a tolerance.