I don't know how much further I can go with this. I feel like anything and everything no matter its actual seriousness or threat level is going to ruin my life or even indirectly kill me. It's constant anguish that has been more and more regularly bordering on physical pain. I don't see any way out of this and every day I feel as though the future is more and more impossible to reach with every little thing that comes along. I'm fucking scared, and tired, and god knows what else.