Hey everyone, I really didn’t even know what to put as the title so please forgive me. To put a long story short, I have massive problems seeing myself in a good way. First off, I had an ex that was abusive towards me ,cheated nonstop and would pretty much bully me. She would send other guys nudes,have s3x with other people, accuse me of cheating when I never did such. She would also put me down due to my personality and just my overall style I guess. I gave her my all and she treated me like trash. Over the years since then I’ve found myself in this endless loop of telling myself that it’s true, that I am indeed trash and I’ve really just let myself go. Even though I have some times where I know it’s not true, it’s still very very hard to get out of the loop. I find myself thinking about how I’m unattractive, how I’m useless and how I’ll never find anyone to love. Because of this, I’ve put on a lot of weight and I really want to get that dealt with as well. The endless anxiety and depression it’s caused me is horrible. I was never like this until she came around and manipulated me and hurt me over and over again. There’s a ton more I could talk about here but I guess I’ll leave it at that. Is there anyway possible to help get me out of this endless loop? I really would appreciate the help. I’ve never ever vented about this on here and it’s hard to even begin doing so. If this is the wrong place for this type of post, I am sorry, I just don’t know where to post stuff like this.