Therapy has been helping me realize how much I hurt people with my acting out and instability, especially my old friends. I decided to send my old FPs letters of apology for how I used them. I don’t know if I’ll hear back, but the important thing is that I’m aware of what I did and I’m genuinely sorry. And maybe it’ll be easier for all of us now to move on from the times when I was undiagnosed and untreated. I did accidentally panic and blow half my paycheck to try and calm down after I sent them but hey, baby steps.