I really really hate when things make me angry. Anger is the hardest thing to control, especially when it really gets to you. 
When I’m angry I usually end up having to make some choices. For example my choices with a situation I’m in today is A) I talk to a friend about something that triggered me 
B) I numb myself so much to a point where I just “get over it” and forget it until it all builds up and I act out bc resentment 

And no matter which choice has more pros than cons I am always more attracted to the option that I know will end in ruining a relationship. Because if I lose that, then fuck them, right? That’s their loss? Then I don’t have to deal with it and I can live in denial????

Ugh idk man