Hi everyone.. i was just wondering is it possible to have some sort of "attacks" of bpd. 
I know there are highs and lows, but it was really silent for a long time, i was in peace with myself, trying to get by, focusing on my career and relationship. A few days ago i started having these brutal nightmares; all about death, misery, hell, loneliness, all my loved ones being killed or becoming crazy; mainly me trying to survive in a really disturbing environment filled with people i cant trust (usually in a post apocalyptic scene). In the daytime i get that horrible feeling of emptiness and loneliness, like nothing in this world would make me feel anything positive, even though i generally enjoy my job and have a really fulfilling relationship. I've arranged an appointment with my doctor but until that day some info (and some relief) would be great since im having a hard time keeping myself away from suicidal thoughts.