My heart is absolutely broken and I feel so fucking alone right now. The guy I’m in this complicated thing with for about three months now (I recently finished undergrad and moved away, but he is still living in that city) all of a sudden hasn’t really spoken to me in three days (he sometimes doesn’t text bc he’s in a bad place rn so I’ve learned to understand it and not focus on it). But this is the first time it has ever been longer than a single day. So I texted him just to tell him I hope he’s doing okay and that I’m here to talk and he never responded. An hour later, he puts up a picture of things that are hanging on the wall of my old house in our town where he’s at a party with all of my friends. I just don’t know what to do, I feel so worthless. 

On the bright side though, in this kind of situation, I normally send a billion texts in my fit of anger and tears bitching the guy out and saying things that I know I shouldn’t. But I withheld this time!! I haven’t sent him a single thing after I sent the text checking on him, even though I am absolutely dying to on the inside. I guess I just really like this guy so I really am trying hard to not let my anger get the best of me right now. So I guess.... progress atleast?