My life is so fake. My parents think I’m a second year business student but in reality I’m a first year drop-out compulsory subject student. I’ve been lying to my parents the pass 2 years, telling them that I have good grades and my life is great which is not. I don’t want them to feel disappointed which I am very scared of.

I’ve also got a “friend” group of 4. Which we barely meet 
(friend number 1) is a friend that I’ve known for 16 years. However he turns a blind eye to every red flag when a girl is involved with something for e.g His ex told him that she didn’t like his friends, so he cut us off even me. What’s worse is that he actually set my ex up and one of my other best friends up while they were overseas while I was stuck in my home country.

Which leads to my second friend. This guy is the one that slept with my ex and idk how I feel about it. I pretend like I’m always fine however theres this little uncomfortableness whenever I’m with him. I actually found out myself but never brought it up to him until he did. I know he feels bad and guilty for what he has done. But sometimes I feel like I’ve forgiven him to easily. Not that thats a bad thing but I always think to myself. What if he does it again cos I thought so lightly of it.

The third friend is or at-least was my best friend. He was the one who always had my back and we did everything together. However, I found out that he was actually not always on my side when I caught a Conversation with him and this other guy who is with my ex now. The conversation itself is not that bad but that might be me just telling myself that again. He also lies a lot. Like to the point where what ever he says. I just pretend to listen.

My last friend is just dumb. He smokes marajuana everyday at-least 3 times. OncE in the morning, once in the afternoon and once before he goes to bed. Friend number 3 also talks so much shit to him. Where I feel bad but he doesn’t seem to care and just laughs it off. Mind you. That the type of shit friend number 3 say to this guy is like “why are you so fuxxing useless”, “you cant do anything in life” which made me feel very uncomfortable.


Now friend number 1 is living with his girlfriend and we barely meet.

Friend 2 is the one I hangout with most. Most as in once a week.

And friend 3 and 4 are always together.

We don’t get along when we’re altogether because friend 3 and 4 think they’re better then friend 2.

I know this might’ve been boring to read but I would appreciate if someone was willing to tell what they think. Because I have no one left to talk or turn to.

Thank you