Today is rough, examining my body, googling symptoms for kidney and pancreatic cancer. All types honestly. I convinced myself. I know I should be stronger especially for you, but as of right now. I feel as if I’m dying. Lower back pain, side is aching/cramping. My pee is darker than usual. It’s been like this for a month. Beginning of September took a urinalysis and I had blood in my urine, apparently I had kidney stones with the symptoms I was telling the doctor. A lot of the pain I had from the kidney stones is gone, I just feel as if I have some type of cancer and I can’t stop thinking about it. I feel nauseas I have shortness of breath. I don’t get it..