I believe on my head my FP and I were right people wrong time. He now lives in NY while im in VA. He is only able to visit once or twice a year which he always sees me when he does.

However I just can't go a day without thinking about him. Its been 2 years of me still grieving that he can't be with me. In his head he believes it will never work and we can never be together whereas I fought for 1 year to get him to come around.

I still work. Do school. My kids, I do life but it always feels like that piece is missing. That piece always longs for him. I even hVe a new guy im talking to who treats me so well, and I have feelings for him. But in the back of my head my FP still has a piece of my heart ill never get back.

I've come to terms that he won't ever change his mind. He told me 3 years he couldn't be in a relationship that would be fair to me. Which I get with his job but I just love him so much distance and his business doesn't matter to me.

How do I just get through life and stay happy with it? Why has it been so long and it still hurts?