i always have these times where i really think about myself in middle school and i get really fuckign sad, i was bullied and treated like shit but i never really admitted to it and was always in denial about it, i never really defended myself or stood up for myself and i was really quiet and it makes me want to slit my throat, like i wish i just stood up for myself and defended myself and wasn’t such a coward like i can’t stop thinking about it and it really fucks up my mood and i always feel so shitty about everything. like it’s in the past and i can’t do anything about it but i can’t help but move on and it’s constantly in the back of my mind. it literally makes my blood boil, for some reason i have anger issues and when i get treated shitty for no reason especially when i’m really quiet and shy IT MAKES ME SO FUCKING ANGRY. like why do u feel the need to pick on someone who’s so introverted and clearly not very social LIKE FUCK YOU FUCK THEM ALL AND FUCK EVERY PERSON WHO EVER TREATED ME LIKE FUCKING SHIT IN MIDDLE SCHOOL/ELEMANTRY SCHOOL I HOPE THEY FUCKING BURN ESPICALLY THIS ONE KID NAMED HE MADE MY LIFE LITERAL TORTURE AND THE WORST PART WAS THAT HE WAS IN EVERY ONE OF MY CLASSES. FUCK HIM AND I WILL ALWAYS WISH NOTHING BUT THE WORST ON HIM