Iv always considered myself either a depressed or angry person, so has everyone around me. I recently noticed that I have had thoughts/images pop up in my mind of me dying or killing myself… I know I don’t actually want to, in fact I’m scared to die- more specifically the process of death- but death itself does sound rather peaceful in terms of everything around me now…

..is this normal?   

I don’t necessarily want to seek therapy because the last few times I tried it either cost to much or the therapist was just outright weird. Is this normal too? 

Thanks