Im fucked.
Due the pandemic I wasn’t able to make my graduation in the 10th grade (Germany has 2 main graduation)
So Im obligated to go to school for 2 years to make my second graduation.
And thats where the problem starts.
I got a big trauma from my last 10 years in school.
I got bullied for everything.
I had no friends, no money for premium clothes, I was fat, Im an asperger autist, im atheist and so on.
So I leaved my old school with depression, but I finally found real friends who liked and cared for me.
My life started to become good.
Than after the summer holidays I went to school again.
I immediately got scared from students who took hard drugs and doing crimes like car theft.
I got depressive over the time and I went crazy.
I acted weird I acted like a child just to hide my suffering from depression.
I ruined my friendships.
The people who liked me barely talk to me.
I feel unable to live.
I hope my life will get better soon.

Hope someone can give me advice.