I worked with my FP and it went South so I tried to keep the friendship going and it ended up in her complaining about me. I have already done something similar after prescribed pregabalin that messed me up so I’m having to resign as I’m already on a final warning and they are investigating. There are also 2 colleagues I thought were friends that have complained about unprofessional conduct and thats investigated, I leaned on them for my depression as they were being kind, one brought chocolates for my birthday and the other came for a walk when he as feeling down, I never asked her she just wanted to make sure I was OK. I’ve not said anything untoward to them, or acted like I did with the FP.

I just can’t lose people and friends and don’t mean any harm but desperately try and repair friendships but end up pushing people away.

This was my dream job and I was good at it, it was a career and I don’t know what to do now. I have a flat/mortgage. Parents said they will pay for it and the money will come out of my inheritance.

I’ve signed up to agencies but there’s a pandemic and getting a job will be hard. I was doing so well and back to square one. My parents are too good to me and I feel I’ve disappointed them, even though they say they love me anyway, my Dad had to go and be sick when I was speaking on the phone and they were so proud of me...so proud of me for doing well in this job and I just feel terrible that I’ve let them down. I just don’t know what to do.