Ok so around this time last year my friend and I started to have stupid little fights and overtime they gradually grew worse. By summer we had completely stopped talking which was a little bit strange because we had been incredibly close for the past 6 years or so and spent every minute of FaceTime with each other or just texting and then to suddenly not have that I realised how dependant I had become to that constant contact. As someone who suffers from depression it was always nice to have him there to talk to me. Over that summer I kind of was angry as it was a mutual “friend breakup” and neither of us actually seemed to care at the time but then as I grew to realise how much I relied on him (even reaching out to him) he didn’t seem to care and he was very happy with us never speaking again. So for a while instead of being sad about it I was mad because he wasn’t upset. It took a while but then in September I had some really hard stuff happen and I would normally turn to him while I was having a hard day but he wasn’t there and that’s when I finally began to realise how upset I was without him. If anyone else has ever been in a similar situation please let me know and I’d love to talk to you about it. Sorry if I rambled a little bit.