This is the same energy as a “we need to talk” text but worst! 
And then I have to wait a whole week just to talk to my doctor.. 
It’s to discuss the holter monitor tests. So everything to do with my heart.. great. 
Sometimes I regret going to the doctor. I originally called just to tell them when I checked my blood pressure, it showed a heart rate of 150s. I get anxiety attacks when having my blood pressure checked so that’s probably why.. 
But then I had to go on a 3 day heart monitor and wait weeks to hear back and now wait another week to hear what my doctor needs to say. 

This is making me feel worst!! 
I feel fine. What if they tell me I’m not fine?! That I need to go through so much more tests and medication, etc… then I just drive myself sick through stress and anxiety when I just felt fine before all of this. 
When I feel my heart rate at home with my pulse and doing the math, it’s at a normal rate. 

I just hate dealing with this stuff sometimes. I always feel like bad news will come from doctors. :( 

I feel like what’s worst on my health is the anxiety and stress itself.. 

Now I get to have a full week of panic until I hear what she wants to talk about. Gosh I hate my feelings.