hi, im a 13F. I think i may have borderline, because i  have a lots of the disorder symptoms and im a very sensitive person. 

i go to a therapist btw, but im too afraid to tell her that i think a have it, for the reason that it can be something that i just made up in my head, since  """"normal"""" people doesn't act like this, and she could think im just trying to find something to blame on (and maybe im trying to do this) why i  feel this way. im scared of her judgement, usually  i don't  open myself to anyone often. plus im afraid of getting diagnosed with BPD because maybe this can complicate more my relationships with family and friends (more than it alredy is), or future relantionships. and  if one day i get better i wouldn't know how to act (i usually make a lot of jokes about my mental health ;-; . sometimes i feel like feeling this way is """comfortable""" , due to the fact that i don't feel like i need to improve and it would be better just to accept the way it is.