I've been having a hard time lately and can't get to sleep without crying myself to it. Heavy sobs makes my heart tight and I find it difficult to breathe. I sometimes go outside of my room crying telling my mother that my chest hurt (which is true) but I can't tell them that it happens whenever I have breakdowns, that everything hurts, that all of me aches, and that life is slowly being in dark tones lately. I can't tell them. I am not comfortable telling them. I don't know what I am even doing. I feel lost like totally lost.