I'm 25 and lately this number has been really weighing on me. 

Not only am I not where I wish I would've been at this age, I have so many regrets of how I "lived" the last 10 years of my life. I've been dealing with social anxiety and depression for so long I didn't get to experience most of the fun stuff that people do in these years. I feel so behind everyone else and I  see people my age getting married or looking for a serious partner and I don't feel like I'm ready for that. 

I wanna have fun. I have never had fun but it's like I just can't for some reason. 

Gonna be 26 in 7 months and the thought of it scares the shit out of me. How is time flying by so fast and I get to enjoy nothing??