Hey, i have cyclothymia also can be seen as ‘mild bipolar’

Am i even allowed to post on here? I dont know.. the cyclothymia subreddit has the smallest amount of people on there and i was wondering if i can be on here too?

I feel so lost, i feel suicidal and tired and i dont know what im doing with my life. I cant hold down a job because i keep getting suicidal or sometimes i think im above my job and dont need one because im so ‘powerful’. So ive lost two jobs, barely any education, i feel alone so destroyed mentally and ive been taken off my olanzapine in the morning so i cant just sleep all day and pretend everythings ok. Im so depressed. And im so anxious. I have no friends. Im seriously giving up. 

I only found out i was diagnosed last thursday after my second attempt in 4 months, but i have no one who underdtans me. Im struggling so much i dont know if i can go on