Once they start I can’t get them to fucking stop. It’s 6:30 AM here, I’ve been up since 4 and all I can think about is blowing my fucking brains out. 

I got divorced a year ago. Lost my best friend around the same time and dropped out of college because I was too fucking depressed to go and developed a drinking problem. I lost my job two months ago and I’ve gained 40 FUCKING pounds in the past year. I’m in debt. And basically I just hate my fucking life. I feel useless and I just want it all to stop.