I always feel sick no matter what: wake up, sick. go to sleep, sick. do mundane tasks, sick
No matter what I do I feel sick it’s just making me so fucking more depressed. The doctors think it’s anxiety but I know it’s definitely not.
Doesn’t matter if I eat or not I still feel sick, so sleeping forever sound so peaceful for me but the only thing keeping me from going is my family.
Im so lost i can’t deal with this anymore I just can’t cope with this non stop sickness I want a rest from it.
I don’t want to tell my parents how bad it is due to hurting them,I always tell them it a mild sickness feeling but it’s like a rampant wildfire in a drought, nothing can stop it until it has nothing else to burn. 
I hate it so much I want it to stop.