Sorry for vent but just feel like 2021 has been extremely emotionally tough for me and 2022 I am now battling suicidal thoughts. I left a 6 year emotionally and borderline physically abusive relationship in 2021 and suffered months long lockdown and social isolation with online university. This coupled with the breakdown of a 10 year friendship with my best friend who has cut off all communications with me and does not want to be my best friend anymore because I did not tell her the reason why my ex refused to meet her for six years for fear of hurting her feelings (but still a bad move i know) and now I feel so alone and emotionally broken. I have like 2 other friends being an introvert but none of them check up on me so It feels like nobody cares. Just all of this happening in the span of one year is a huge adjustment for me and I am struggling to adjust emotionally. 

Thank you anyone for reading.