It feels like I’m switching perspectives all the time. I don’t know how I actually feel about anything. It’s like whatever perspective I have at that moment determines how I react but it could be different at other times. I don’t trust myself anymore and sometimes I replay situations over and over and I start to question if it really happened the way I remember or if it was really said like that or if it even happened at all. I am truly scared of being close to anyone and I hesitate/regret every word I say to people. Sometimes I remember my conversations and as I play them repeatedly in my head the story starts to change and I become unclear of exactly what was said or what the intentions were when it was said. I’m constantly doubting myself and questioning my own judgement. To the point where I am seriously suffering in my work performance and relationships. I have no friendships, and no family... I have been diagnosed with BPD and Anxiety and PTSD. I just have never been able to put into words this feeling of switching “perspectives” all the time.. Can anyone else relate?