hi there, i j wanted to come on here and tell you guys what’s been happening for the past year. about two years ago i had gone to a psychologist since i was always worried about my health, safety, and random things in general that would make me have a panic attack. i was diagnosed with generalized anxiety.. however, i noticed that i had been doing many questionable ?? things?? some weird routine and shit i’ve been doing. this is weird but when i would worry about something i would pick my skin since it would kinda help me calm down and it would help me settle down. i barely do it now which is good but before i would do it everyday. anyways, it all started when i was a HUGE hypochondriac. whenever i had any thoughts about.. i don’t even want to say it bc i’ll end up doing my ritual but it’s a word. whenever i think or heard thay word i will knock on wood. i’ll knock on wood several times and i will say a quick ritual idk and i’ll do it until i’m satisfied. i’ll do it until i feel that i’m good. anyways, i’ve been doing it since and my family thinks i’m weird since they always see me knocking on wood and whispering weird shit. another thing is checking the doors and stove. i would check it and then i would come back bc there would be a voice in my mind saying that it’s not locked/ turned off, so i would go back and STARE at the door or whatever for 2 mins. i would do this about several times as well. this happens a lot when i’m home alone and i’m about to shower. i HATE showering home alone but i work at a hospital and i want to wash the germs away. anyways, i would look at the door i locked and i would make my way to shower and again that voice.. i come back and i stare at the door and whisper some ritual and i would take MANY pictures of it. once i’m in the shower, once i hear that voice or think about any bad thoughts i will stop bc leave my shower to do the same ritual again. anyways here’s a few more weird shit i’ve been doing 

checking oven and locked doors multiple times 

checking my alarm a lot of times before i can sleep

checking the time a lot and checking an object in case it moves even tho it’s RIGHT in front of me??

hearing a certain phrase or word causing me to say a prayer or repeat a sentence or else i’ll get bad thoughts 

knocking on wood + stretching my hand a certain way while saying the rituals 

peeing before i sleep so bladder is empty and if i don’t sleep then i have to pee again so my bladder isn’t full 

before sleeping i blink a certain times before i can sleep

trying to remember what happened to re assure myself (past)

wearing flip clips in the shower bc i dont want my feet to touch + not touching the toilet seat even if it’s in my own home 

idk if i should seek help, i mean it’s not that serious… but still, i find it frustrating and difficult since i look and sound stupid doing these stupid rituals