i send myself spiraling whenever i think about how terrible of a person i used to be in the past

after being groomed and experiencing trauma in my early years of high school i found myself making extremely questionable decisions and my perception of love and relationships was FUCKED

i have a bad reputation of being a hoe and bitch and many people don’t like me

although i’m still clumsy when it comes to dating i believe that as a person i’ve truly tried to become a better person and right my wrongdoings as soon as possible and after thinking about why i did what i did and why i shouldn’t have done it

i make conscious decisions every day to not hurt another person

any advice on how to overcome my past mistakes? and how to deal with knowing that many people don’t like me?