i wanna preface this that the ex died, he told me it was really casual. they were barely dating and it wasnt for long. he told me about it because i was moving recently and i found some things of my ex fiance’s in the process. i immediately felt my bpd kill me inside and sometimes i think about it and it keeps me up at night. i dont really know how to cope with it. i want to tell him to get rid of it but that feels so wrong. if it was like,  a shirt or something i would feel less weird. but its not. 

idk what to do. idk how to feel any better about it. idk if i ever will. im trying really hard not to just randomly freak out on him about it every few days or say something, i just want to be over it.