I've been living with my (f19) partner (M20) since I was forced out of my house by my parents a year ago- I was diagnosed with bpd at the start of the year and it was fine.. for about 6-8 months.

now I'm getting triggered every day ( getting called crazy or insane is a trigger as I also am schizophrenic ) and starting arguments, getting annoyed at seemingly small things and have a short temper; and he's making me feel like I'm insane.

I know it's part of my disorders to react this way, but I feel so shameful and like I'm a disappointment to him- that I'm not good enough because every fight turns into me screaming and trying to leave, breaking up with him to only not understand or forget why I am even leaving in the first place.

I feel hopeless, I'm ruining this relationship and I want to stop, any advice?