I (30F) have suffered with depression and anxiety for all of my adult life but have been able to manage it well, I've been on anti depressants since I was 19 but have managed to reduce them a lot. Last year I moved out and bought my first flat. Its about 30 minutes away from my closest family member and friends. I love my flat but I'm struggling to afford all the bills that come with it. I've been having to dip into my savings to pay for things even though I work 6 days a week. I have bills pilling up that I don't know how to pay and I don't know what to do. 

I've worked in my current job for just over 4 years and really enjoy it. However I was recently passed over for promotion and it really sucks because the person who got it is nowhere near as qualified as me (I'm not being big headed, everyone at work was shocked when they found out I didn't get the job). I needed that job so I could continue to afford to survive whereas the person who got it lives at home with her parents who do everything for her. It's frustrating because I basically do the job at the moment but I'm not being paid to do it. Do I stop doing the extra work and only work my contracted hours or do I keep doing extra and not even having anyone notice?

My romantic life sucks, I was dating someone in August but that finished because he has issues with his mental health. It's hard because it was the first time in years I felt confident enough to get emotionally involved with someone and to get rejected was really hard. 

Last night for the first time in almost 5 years I self harmed and I'm really struggling not to do it again. I don't feel like I have any close friends who I can talk to about it because they are all happy shiny people who haven't had issues like this before. I don't know what to do and feel like I'm falling apart. When I'm at work I can present a positive face to everyone and no one knows that I'm broken inside but when I'm home alone I really struggle.