My so called husband thinks I can just be fixed by sex or by just stopping. I been suffering with depression for atleast 20 Years. I remember being 8 years old and dreaming of jumping out of a moving car to get killed by an oncoming car. I thought this was normal until recently. It's a unfilled more roommate style marriage. I been in a bad depression state for over a week and last night he just told me to stop and he can fix me with sex. I said no and he just told me to shut up. So I listened and he just thinks I am magically healed. Instead I cry alone and try to fake happy around him. How can I let him know and actually him listen to me when I say I am not better?