I'm 22 M. Last year I lost my father since then I'm feeling something weird with my mental health. Now I'm the only family earner in the house. Even I'm high BP patient. I keep thinking about my mom that who's gonna take care of her if I'm gone some day. Whenever my boss yell at me I feel very insecure about my job that he's gonna fire me for my small mistake and how I'm gonna find new job in this pendemic. Even the smallest things in life make me insecure and lead my thoughts to future that what gonna happen if I do this or that. When I think about my dad or any memory connect to him on daily basis I feel like I'm getting out of breath. And my health issue is bigger than that I just can't share here sorry.

With all this burden on my head I don't know what to do it feels like someone has put something very heavy weight on my chest and it's hard to breathe sometimes. It's hard to sleep sometimes.

I don't have many trustworthy people to share with so I'm sharing here. I don't know if this is anxiety or not I just don't know.