I have learned many strategies and techniques for dealing with my mental illness over the years, but I seem to be in a place where nothing is working. It is like being held down by an invisible force, which is hopless to fight against. It's as if all your weapons are useless. Actually, it's as if fighting against it makes it stronger. 

I feel like in these moments all I can do is give it time and wait for the storm to subside. I just put aside all my techniques and strategies and try and hold myself in compassion. I have been here many times before, and have got through, but it's still painful and confusing each time. It makes me feel helpless and completely at the whim of a force greater than my self. Sometimes I like to think that if I work hard and do the right things I will just keep improving, but sometimes it doesn't seem to be like that. Sometimes it seems like time and patience is all that can heal me.