a little over a month ago i downlaoded one of those self-care tracker apps. its called daily bean and i just mark all the things ive done in a day. i did good for a while, fell back into depression, but ive been doing a lot better again. ive been more productive and i dont feel like im forcing it. school is ending so it may be why i feel better, but i honestly think putting myself first has helped a lot. i dont have friends, which is a work in progress, but im at the point where i dont mind as much. sure friends r amazing, but ive learned to truly embrace spending time alone and improving myself. the person i am rn is someone i would have never thought ide ever be a month ago.