I’m on the verge of relapsing again. I need to feel something other than sadness. I’ve had such a great day so why can’t the feeling last for once? Why did I see one post and start crying? I’m at my lowest, I see no way out. In a month I’ll be dead. My notes are ready. I have a plan. One last chance to get better. I’m so exhausted. I’m loosing my mind. Someone help. Please i can’t take it anymore. So much to hide and so many lies. The guilt eats me alive everyday. I am not a person I’m a problem.