I have been going to work since the second week of October. I have been working on and off from home since before the pandemic, but working from home since February 2020 gave me anxiety that made it hard to get back to a routine. 

Last Tuesday work sent out an email for an event in a busy part of the city. I didn't want to go since I was unsure my nerves would be able to handle it. I don't feel ready to interact with people. This morning I got an email confirming that I am going tonight. Seems they are doing a headcount for people that said yes. I contacted the supervisor who told me that since I don't drink they said I could go and help out by coordinating transportation. They have vans set up to drive people back to the office as well as the train station. 

I don't want to be around so many people and outside in 40 ° F for 4 hours. I wanna do a no show. It's a non mandatory work event. I feel like if I go they will just pressure me to do it again. I still have the email with my no rsvp.