Like I get really attached to people who I love deeply, so I always close myself off so I'm not as sad when they leave. Sometimes I cut to feel something, but it's never deep. More like a scratch. I was bored one day so I shat on a plate and molded it into chocolate and took pics for social media. I'm currently trying to collect my friend's blood to put in my blood vault too, they are agreeing to it but I'm shelling out tons of money for it tbh. I'm extremely afraid of rejection which is what my social anxiety stems from too. Also I used to threaten to self harm a lot if I was upset/mad, though I haven't done that in a while since I don't get myself into situations like that. Also I almost got married and divorced for fun once, I just wanted to have an ex-wife but my fiance found a boyfriend and left me. I pee in bottles when I don't feel like walking to the toilet. Very rarely do I ever brush my teeth, starting to though. I was also diagnosed with OCD since I have strong OCD tendencies that I'm trying to overcome. I feel like I love people way more than they love me, so I try to distance myself as to avoid heartbreak. Is this really BPD though?? I was diagnosed by a psychiatrist but maybe I'm just weird and awkward? Thanks for reading btw