I used to enjoy life a lot more. But in the past maybe 4 years, my dad passed, then my older brother passed, then my mom got diagnosed with dementia and has been going a lot worse the past year. The only person I have left is my younger brother and now he’s leaving for 3 years and I probably won’t see him. I think about me but also my mom, she might not be able to speak to us but I’m certain she recognizes us and she gets way happier when she sees us. She probably doesn’t have 3 years left. What’s gonna happen? He will never see her again? Will he fly back home for the funeral? It’s just too much right now. I know I can’t make him stay and he shouldn’t put his life on hold because of our mom. But the selfish part of me wishes I didn’t have to do the rest of the way on my own.