I feel I am really having some kind of breakdown. Over the past couple of months, my life has really gone to shit. I lost my FP when we ended our relationship in January, which had been coming for months to be honest, but that only makes it more painful. I have been struggling to keep it together, and it seems all my friends have left the scene, so I have had no one to reach out to. Then last week I was sexually assaulted, and since then I have completely broken apart. The one person I told about it told me not to report it because I could ruin the guy's life. But what about my life? I have tried to access help through mental health services but I feel they don't really see how much I'm suffering. Yesterday I saw a psychologist but I was so uncomfortable that I didn't manage to say anything about how I feel. I'm not eating or sleeping well, I can't concentrate on work because I keep reliving the assault in my mind, and I don't have anyone to talk to about it. I want to disappear. Everything seems so futile. I don't know where I'm going with this, I am just hoping that someone will hear my screams into the void.