I’ve had social anxiety for as long as I can remember, but after a traumatic event last November where my now ex-partner physically abused me my anxiety has gone through the roof. It’s at the point where I’ll have 2 days a week where my anxiety is so bad I can’t function. Increased heart rate, nausea, weak legs, no appetite at all, trouble staying asleep, general restlessness and no concentration. Sometimes I can’t even pinpoint what exactly I’m anxious about. Right now it’s almost 5AM and I have to get up at 7 for my internship. I slept for a few hours but I keep waking up. I’m anxious I’ll be tired all day and won’t perform well and now it’ll literally happen because I don’t sleep because of this anxiety.

I’ve realized I really need help so I went to my doctor 2 weeks ago and told her this. Unfortunately mental health facilities are overly crowded in my country so I’m on a 3 month waiting list (which is considered really short here). I just don’t know how many more of these bad days I can take. It’s like a spiral where I’m anxious, I can’t eat or sleep because of it, and it just gets worse and worse.

I just needed a rant, thanks if you’ve made it this far.