i wanna kill myself.. why did i ever born? why did i even born? why am i even alive for? i didn't ask to be born. i didn't want to be born. i do not want to live. i hate living. this life sucks. wish i have better life or no life at all. i'm at my worst and my family is also being the worst as possible for current state of me. if they knew they'd have so much problem why did they have so much kids. 3 kids why not just 1, they should have known. if they are to fight like that why did they even married in the first place..

this family current situation and current state me is the worst that can happen to me and i'm wishing to just disappear or just die.