I’ve been depressed my whole life but recently I moved to a new city for the first time and I’m very alone. I moved for college, Im 20 and just have no idea what to do with my life. I had friends planning to move with me but they all fell through. I moved for a girl I loved very much who left me almost immediately. I’ve spent 8 months here trying to keep myself together but I go in phases of taking care of nothing in my life to the point where I’m starving to taking care of everything for a week and pushing myself to much that I collapse. Then I don’t shower or eat for like a week. It’s feels impossible to do anything without people or “my person”. I can’t stop smoking weed to cope with the loneliness making me more unproductive. If anyone can be a friend or has any resources for me I would appreciate it very much :).