I'm pleased and feel like I made a breakthrough 

Usually I would of messaged my boyfriend just so he replies so I feel valid i guess in his life 

Today I made myself wait until he messaged me or I had something I wanted yo say rather then just habit to feek like he still remembers im here? Odd I know 

Then a song came on the radio at work, its a sill song about peaches and I messaged him some of the lyrics and I feel happy that it was something random and spontaneous rather then needy feelings

Update; nevermind didn't last long, mood has crashed