We had plans with my friends to go away for the weekend. Now he has to work Saturday and Sunday out of nowhere and can’t come, and him telling me this made me split completely for the first time in a while. I know he doesn’t want to work but I can’t help being mad at him for not being able to come anymore. I feel like he ruined my entire weekend already and I don’t even want to go anymore even though it’s to hang out with MY friends. I’m also paranoid he just didn’t want to go and is lying about working. I’m paranoid he’s going to cheat on my while I’m gone. I’m having bad thoughts about cheating on him this weekend just to get back at him for not coming. I’m absolutely spiraling. He was apologetic about not being able to come anymore but I don’t believe him. I know if I go this weekend I’m just going to be obsessing over what he’s doing and where he is and every little thing. But I can’t not go. How can I stop myself and get myself out of this downward spiral.