Hello everyone, I’m new here. I’m a 16 year old girl but I came here with hopes of getting serious help and advice. So my father had me pretty late, he is currently 67 about to turn 68 next month. I constantly stay up at night crying thinking about what if he was to die, last November He went into a diabetic coma.  I woke up to find him almost dead on the living room floor, his body tempature was at 70 and his sugar level over 1000. This has scared me ever since, he stayed in the hospital for a month, the doctors declared him as a miracle considering he died twice and most of them never seen a case like him. Ever since then almost every night I sob thinking about him dying, our housing situation is there is 2 bedrooms one for me and the other for my sister, he sleeps in the living room. Ever since the incident I’ve been sleeping downstairs with him on the couch just to have the reassurance that he is breathing. I can not sleep over at my friends house as I almost immediately break down thinking I’m going to come back and see my dad  dead. I can’t stop this thought , he is literally my best friend, my only parent, I am almost always around him. Around January I had a checkup and my doctor recommended me to start therapy, I wanted to say yes but I didn’t want to because I wasn’t sure how to tell my dad about it, I don’t know what kind of illlness I have- I believe I could have anxiety, ptsd and depression- but I’m not completely sure because I don’t want to be one of those self diagnosers. If you are reading this, thank you.