 I have watched a movie with my partner. He is always negative about watching a movie of my choice and complained before I tried finding something he could accept. The first thing he did when he promised me to not complain more was to complain about the genre. "Not that genre, everything but x" and then the movie started with me basically telling him to cut it off cause all he's done since I said we could hang out and watch a movie, was to be rude and negative and selfish. 


 After the movie I still felt very dissapointed and hurt for his behavior. I tried telling him. He just defended his ego. And gaslighted me for still being upset. It lead no where. 


I stormed off to the bedroom. Threw his cover and pillow away to mark that I need a space that's completely mine. To be able calming down.

 He came in going "I thought maybe this is a moment when I should come to you to show you how sorry I am?" and stood at the door waiting for me to confirm. I just responded with rejection. 

Telling my adult partner what he should do when his partner and him have had a conflict. It's very twisted. When I am hurt I want him to be independent and 
and do what a partner does and be empathic and comfort me. But he can't. He has no clue what to actually do. Or how it's done unless I describe it like a map to him. And right at that moment I was so frustrated and just wanted him to SEE me. SEE my hurt. Understand it, it's so lonely when he's just a question mark. 
 
I told him his intelligence is too low for me to handle atm. And I meant it objectively since he really struggle to sense anything but basics like sadness or anger. He said I was passive agressive which I probably also was. He then left the room. 

I have since written poetry about leaving him. The freedom of having my own space far far far away from him. I have written about whether or not this is normal fights in a relationship etc etc. 

I'm not even sure what I need or look for with this post but my head is a fog and my body screams "ESCAPE!" and I blocked his accounts everywhere and just want space. Does anyone understand what I'm doing and why? Is it normal when you have traumas? What should I do next? If I get calm and "normal mood" in a while, should I just focus forward with him or should this conflict be a signal that something is really wrong? Am I going insane?