I know that I need help. The last two years have been the hardest of my life and I’m spiraling.

I have a very hard time with medical professionals because I was injured pretty badly from my ob/gyn making a dumb call that cost me about a decade of pain. Plus, ya know, I’m a naturally paranoid person apparently. So I thought I would get a workbook or two to ease myself into it. But I cannot choose. They either seem too good to be true or like they could do more harm than good. Or maybe I’m just being too picky. 

So I’ll ask y’all. Have you done any of these workbooks on your own? Which did you do and did it help or hurt you? 

I know therapy is my best option. But I have so much anxiety and anger when I think about going that I have to self soothe or I’ll have an anxiety attack. I’m trying my best.