I was in the car last night just talking with my mom and I was saying how it's not super difficult to make friends it's just hard to find someone who likes you back just as much. She was just like "That's BPD for ya" and it kinda made me start thinking because I kinda thought I was "over" my bpd. But, I realized just how obsessed I am with one of my online friends. (I only have online friends atm because I have been out of school for several years for mental health) Anyways, I just think it kinda sucks that I'm not actually "over it." Also, is it normal to ghost your favorite person? I did it in the past before because I thought it would hurt less if I left first. And recently with my current favorite person I didn't talk to them at all for 2 days. Sometimes I just start to feel really bad about myself and that I'm annoying so I just don't say anything at all. It just really sucks because I like them so much and I know they will never feel the same way I do.