I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder with regular depressive episodes and some maniac episodes. However, there are still problems that I have grown very concerned about because I don’t know exactly what disorder these symptoms lie under:
1. I am unable to clearly recall traumatic past events. I miss a lot of details. I only remember what those are but not entirely how everything went. 
2. I tend to feel detached from the feelings associated with those events. It’s like I’m looking at someone’s life or story rather than myself actually going through them. And I am unable to react properly when I recall them. 
3. At times it’s hard for me to tell apart if some events (ordinary ones) actually happened or they were in my dreams. I have to think long and hard sometimes to make sure that the information and ‘memory’ are correct, rather than them existing in my dreams. This is not extreme or anything but it still occurs. 
4. I, at times, tend to have a relatively obscure perception of time. Of course I know what time it is but it feels like I’m just floating by, things can feel unreal sometimes. Sometimes it’s as if I’m living a dream rather than real life. 
5. Although I know it’s not my fault, I still subconsciously blame myself for bad things that happened to me. Some of the time I find myself actually believing it. 
6. I feel extremely avoidant (almost repellent) to even the smallest tasks in my life. This has majorly affected me because I can’t seem to get anything done.