I’m 21 and I’ve been having the toughest time in my entire life. I recently dropped out of college Bc I failed out last semester because I’ve been insanely depressed and have no motivation. But to be honest there’s no way I would have made it this far if it wasn’t for online learning enabling me to cheat. I’m living back at home with my parents. My girlfriend of 2 1/2 years who I was very convinced she was the one broke up with me basically because my depression was too hard on her. I’ve struggled to find a therapist the past 2 months. The only reason I haven’t killed myself yet is because I haven’t found an effective way. If I’m going to attempt it I’m going to succeed. I just don’t know what to do anymore. Every night I spend time searching effective ways to kill myself. I really don’t think this work has too much more to offer me.