29m, Quiet. 
Lately I've been doing Ok. Ups and downs but generally good. But tonight? Tonight I'm doing bad. I am filled with so much sadness, but cannot explain why and yet it's as if I feel nothing at all. I'm blank, but underneath is a torrent of despair. I recently found out that I may have to stop seeing my therapist due to a job I may get in another city. This therapist has helped me in more ways than I can express. Has literally saved my life, I believe. It won't be for a few months but leaving will not be easy. 

I have been listening to the song: "I am...I said" by Neil Diamond on repeat for the past half hour. Such a good, sad song. "I've got an emptiness deep in side and I've tried but it won't let me go. And I'm not a man who likes to swear but I never cared for the sound of being alone." It was until later that I found out that Neil wrote this while in therapy. It's so perfect.

My wife asks me what's wrong, and I have nothing to say, which makes her upset and so she leaves me alone. I hate being alone. But I hate being with people. I hurt so much in side and if I could actually show emotion I would be crying so hard.

Give the song a listen. 