More and more as I examine myself, I begin to realize just how awful a person I have become:

1. I am judgemental of others always looking to consider myself as superior.
2. I am full of revengeful thoughts and vindictive behaviour.
3. I am always jumping to conclusions and making assumptions which are almost always wrong.
4. I am always inside my head and self-obsessed thus failing to see other people's struggles and viewpoints. 
5. I have become patronizing and condescending. 

I intensely dislike myself. But at 34, feel hopeless that I can change my ways. It feels impossible.