So, I posted earlier about how I wanted to ask a girl out. 

Pretty damn terrifying to be honest. My anxiety had really calmed down these last few months and it came back so fucking hard when It was time to actually do it. 

I thought I was going to have a panic attack. 


But I told myself : « Dude, if you don’t do it, you’re gonna hate yourself so much. » 

So I pushed through and asked. 

And, holy shit, it was... awkward. 

I said : « hey ! So... uh... I was thinking, would you like to go out with me sometime ? » 

She said : « sure, why not ? » 

Cue a horrible silence. 

she says : « yeah, so you kinda made this an awkward moment. » (I don’t know how to phrase this better, English isn’t my first language, but you get it)

We both laughed. 

And she could tell I was dying inside. 

So I said : « yep, I’m sorry, I’m terrible at this. I never ask girls out. And to be honest, I kinda want to die right now. » But, while it was true, I said it in a humoristic tone. 

She laughed and said : « yeah, I don’t think there’s a cool way to do it. I’d like to hang out with you. We get along well. Plus, most guys I know don’t ask me, they just come to my apartment » 

So, that last part was weird. But, I think she was trying to tell me I’m good guy ? 

Anyway, I think it went well. Funny thing is, I was kinda hoping to have a better understanding of how she felt about me. A friend ? more ? 

But, that’s not how life works. 

The takeaway is, I’m so fucking happy to have done it. I’m so stressed out right now and exhausted but I had the balls to do it. 

Anyway, sorry for the long post.

I would love to hear your opinions.

P.S : I read the encouraging comments some of you guys left on my previous post before doing it. It was I life saver. I love you guys, we’ll manage our anxiety one day I’m sure of it.

Peace !