I've let my social anxiety take control and now it controls me. It's more than social anxiety at this point, I don't know what to call it. Everybody seems to think it's not that bad, but it's so much worse than they think. I don't even feel safe in my apartment. I hear someone knock at my door and I feel a sense of paralyzing fear. I can't bring myself to move and it feels like my heart is in my throat. This is why I'm afraid to go into public, let alone leave my house. I've wanted to get prescriptions for this but ironically I need to go see a psychiatrist. I don't know what to do at this point and it feels like my life is ruined