These last past weeks have been the worst for me in several years when it comes to anxiety and depression. 

I've locked myself home, barely interacting with my family and avoiding going out to meet my friends. I feel I have absolutely nothing to provide to the conversation or their lifes as a friend. I'm so empty, anytime I get asked what I'm up to all I can say is 'same as always' and try to get them to talk about anything else. I don't participate in conversations or give any opinion, I just sit there like a spectator.

It's been a while I posted here. My mental health has been growing exponentially worse the last 2-3 months. I feel like shit and after a year of being clean I don't know when I will harm myself again or even try something worse.

Anyway, if you are reading this, sorry I wasted your time with my pointless problems. Have a nice day.