I just got a new job, hooray! My last job was in retail pharmacy, and it was sucking every ounce of good will out of me. I'd trudge home after every shift feeling exhausted and empty, so after almost four years I finally decided to look for other positions.

Well, I found one and it seemed too good to be true.
The company is super ethical, sensitive to divergent social groups, and even provides company subsidised counseling with licensed practitioners.
It had seven weeks of paid training which flew by in about four seconds. I was so happy that I left my old job. It felt like I'd finally found the right workplace for me.
 
Then the actual job started, which is taking phone calls for a government agency.
Aaaaaaand it's horrible. I feel like I'd rather die than go back to work. I'm feeling so frustrated with myself because it seems like nothing is ever good enough for me. I find a job at this incredible company but it's so stressful that I'm considering going back to my old job. 

I hate the way my brain works and I wish I could just die. I've got to go to bed soon so I can get up early to go to work, but I can't turn my brain off. My heart is pounding constantly, I'm constantly on the verge of a panic attack.

When I tell my partner how I'm feeling his only response is that all new jobs are stressful, which is true but.. I don't know if he's right and I'll get used to it, or if this job is really too stressful for me to handle because of the way my brain is wired. Uuuuuuuuuugh

/End rant