I tried to be brave a few days ago and ask a friend on a date, he said no (as I kind of expected) I felt sad about it for a few days because being lonely really hurts and being rejected makes me question my worth, which really someone elses opinion on you doesn't define your worth.

But I allowed myself to feel sad and down for those few days, I realised I'm surrounded by love. The guy was completely lovely about it all so there's absolutely no hard feelings. But in the past my BPD would have caused a way worse feeling over something that is pretty minor, so I'm happy with myself for allowing myself to feel sad and climb out of it. I realise I'm actually a cute person with a lot to offer, and it's time to get back into the dating world and find someone that fits into my life with lots of love to give!