If anyone sees this before tmo pls help. So I’m gonna sound really selfish and spoiled saying this but I can’t help it and I need advice. So long story short I am typing this on my friends old shitty iPad bc I got my phone taken away last week for doing drugs LOL. They said they would never give it back and it is driving me insane!!! I’ve already had multiple meltdowns bc of it this week which included screaming and crying and saying really really hurtful things to my parents but I just couldn’t control it. My birthday is tomorrow and I told them I don’t want any gifts just my phone back. Usually I get what I want out of them if I beg for it but I honestly just don’t know this time so I feel like I’m not gonna get anything for my birthday and I’m not gonna be able to really do anything with my friends or anything bc of this damn virus. Ik people have worse shit going on in their lives and this is stupid but I needed to get it out. I literally have no future or will to live so I kinda made a suicide pact w myself. Like if I don’t get my phon back tmo I’m gonna try to od on my meds ahahah I don’t think it’ll actually kill me but it’ll make a statement. I told them I was gonna start cutting during one of my meltdowns and they didn’t even check in on me to see if I was okay. Ahhh that was a lot of words I’m sorry lol I just don’t know how to react tmo if shit doesn’t go my way and how to move foward. If anyone has any positive words to say to me rn I could sure use it bc I am very scared for tmo. Ty and happy Aries season!!!