It has been years since I've had a favorite person. It's been lonely at times, but I've been able to maintain relatively healthy relationships by keeping emotional distance. I know I can't ever have a favorite person because I can't handle it.

I didn't mean for it to happen, but my roommate has become my favorite person. There's nothing romantic about it, she's just really been there for me and I feel very close to her even though I know those feelings are dangerous. But I am not her favorite person, and that is killing me. She's spending the next few weeks with her partner and I can't bear it. I know I need to cut all emotional ties with her before this kills me/hurts her. I'm really trying to control these feelings but I can't seem to get them under control. I don't know what to do.