I've been talking to someone online for over a year now and they've consistently stayed my FP that whole time despite our ups and downs. Tomorrow is my birthday and we had plans to finally meet each other in the first week of May, but for the past week or so we've been having back to back arguments that kept taking large tolls on us, so I decided that now would be a good time to break things off before it got worse so I could at least remember our time together mostly fondly. I didn't want to stay in contact and have the fear of relapsing constantly looming over me. So I blocked them on all social medias I had. I've been crying a lot today and I'll probably be crying a lot for the rest of the week or perhaps even longer seeing as they were my FP. But even though I feel like complete garbage I don't know if I regret the decision I made. After spending so much time in such an intimate relationship it's time for me to spend some time alone and reflect on everything we were and I believe that's what moving on is.