I took 20 mg of adderall and my dissociation still won’t go away. I feel absolutely nothing but detachment. Also have a heightened awareness of my body aches at the same time feel like I can’t swallow anything right and  moving around like a different person. Can’t stop zoning out blurry eyes walking around and stopping to stare at nothing. A part of me is worried I could have a heart attack but I think that’s just my anxiety. My dissociation brain doesn’t really care that much about that. I’m 22F and I have have bpd. disassociating is very common for me. Usually some addy or alcohol will get me in touch with some level of reality With getting good sleep and a healthy diet I’m confused why it’s so intense rn.