I love my boyfriend. We're both teenagers (16&amp;18) and I'm diagnosed BPD. I really, really love him and he is a fucking saint. He puts up with all my shit and understands what I go through and he comforts me and he's funny, sweet, caring, attentive, etc. Just, sometimes I feel nothing. Sometimes he says he loves me and I know that if it were another day I could have butterflies in my stomach and start squealing but sometimes I just feel nothing towards him. I want to give him the love and affection he deserves but times like these I find it so incredibly difficult to lie about it. How can I tell him I love him when I don't feel anything towards him except shame at my own lack of emotions? I want to get treatment and be better so he doesn't have to put up with me snapping at him or trying to convince him to break up with me because of how I say I am bad for him. His home life doesn't seem to be the greatest and I know he struggles with some depression, and I just wish I could be happy and lovey and giggly for him all the time, instead of flip-flopping all around on him. Does anyone here have a long term relationship, anyone else make it work and how did they do it?