I’ve been working at my job almost long enough to want to quit (seems to always hit me at the 1 year mark).. I’ve met everyone there is to meet enough for them to pick up on my “nuances” and some have even gotten used to me regularly splitting and/or over sharing personal emotions (like constantly asking if they’re mad/am I going to get fired, crying about my fiancé/finances, hating myself/others) but most don’t know I have bpd.

I’ve gone through a few favorite people, our newest manager has been my latest victim.

I do my best to keep things professional, but I find (a horrible) solace in focusing on asking about other’s personal lives and pretty much annoying them by trying to talk to them all the time. Lately I’ve been giving this manager a hard time about his girlfriend to a point of obvious frustration.. I fcking blurted out that she’s too good for him.

The other day I saw him talking to his manager and both of them sort of watching me/following me around the store as I packed up. I know they have better things to do than focus on me, and whatever he’s said it’s justified as far as hr would be concerned. 

But I’m worried when I go in tomorrow I’ll have to face a meeting and find a way to explain my crazy. Or worse- I’ll spend the next 3 months paranoid.