I feel pretty empty and alone. And it really fucking sucks. I feel so angry and confused. 

Almost all of the times I’m dissociating or depersonalizing. Something doesn’t even have to trigger my trauma it just happens. I often fall into rapid cycles daily of feeling fine but then hitting a depressive episode. My girlfriend pointed out after I get angry I tend to dissociate or depersonalize and I didn’t even realize that. She’s right about that though now that she mentions it.

It’s really hard for me to function at this point in time. I don’t even feel sane or remotely human anymore. I’m 18 years old and having the worst time of my life. I feel like I can’t do it anymore. 

I just don’t know what to do anymore, you know?