When bad things happen to me, I tend to dissociate. I’ll pretend that these feelings don’t exist for a while, and my mind causes me to feel nothing towards the situation. This can last a few hours to a few days. Sometimes it feels like I have my emotions under control when I’m in a dissociate state. 

Then all of a sudden, I snap out of it. I get that heavy, tense feeling in my chest, and I’ll cry and cry and cry. My emotions become uncontrollable. Sometimes I’ll have intense feelings of rage and anger, and just want to lash out or self harm. Then, after a while, I’ll calm down...and dissociate again. I feel like this has been my reaction to everything for a while. Intense periods of emotion then dissociating, and repeat. I do not want to be like this anymore....I’ve tried tons of therapy, meds, etc. The intense periods of emotions and dissociation is starting to get really really uncomfortable. Anyone experience this as well? What do you do keep it under control, is it even possible?