i’m in a new long distance relationship. our work and life situations allow us to be in a phone call for almost the entire day. we are always together and i am always willfully doing whatever he wants. i have been trying so hard to hide my mental illness although i am transparent about it. jealousy, anxiety, clinginess, rage, self harm. i have had slip ups and he told me how uncomfortable my actions made him. now i am constantly giving HIM reassurance and love and money and saying things don’t upset me even when they leave a burning pit in my stomach. maybe this is just how u learn to ignore these things