I don't know how normal it is. I don't know nothing about this, to tell the true. I don't know how start tell about it. So... I'm 20. And I never had a relationship. Never. Actually, I had something when I'm 14. Something virtual. I think my horrible self-esteem is the guilty. Or... I'm really horrible person. 

Anyway... I have some friends. Few, is true. I'm stay addiction in only person for a long time and this person "satisfact" me. So, my experience with fear for leave is extremaly limitated. I'm lost. I don't know what a want to tell. I don't know why i'm here. What's is my question? I don't know. I really don't. 

... does anybody else in a similar situation? About never had in a relationship? I question my diagnosis because of this. And I'm feel so lonely because of this. I run away from life. Is this make sense? 

I don't know. Sometimes I imagine situations. Sometimes I think I like some friend (i have only one, in the general). I don't know nothing. 