First off, I was a pretty decent pitcher. But, I've always wanted to be perfect. So, I saw that my spin was a little bit off and tried to fix it, but everything went downhill as my mind would not physically let me go of the ball anymore. I've been trying to get this back for almost a year. I would say that pitching did give me lots of stress, but now I'm even more hurt that the thing I loved I cannot physically do anymore. I just wish I'd let my self not worry so much and just get everything back. 

On top of that, I've just been separating myself from my friends. I don't reach out and I'm somehow okay with that. It really does hurt but when things go bad for me I just feel like I don't need any friends. I guess I'm literally destroying my life. I'm just waiting for the day I get over this hump.