So my life is actually pretty great right now. I'm engaged with a wonderful man, I'm in a job I like. I have real friends. But yet I don't think I can ever be happy. This weekend I cried a lot. Eventhough it was so amazing being with my partner. I'm just not mentally stable and this pulls me down so much. And it will always be like this. I can have everything I want, but will never be completely happy