Took two years out of family and I killed my life. I became suicidal and let someone abuse me and rape me and steal my money for 7 months and kept it secret, because was mentally weak and scared.
Now out, and back with fam, I feel very ashamed like they were here for me all along and I escaped.
Every day I feel intense feelings of self-hate.
Regret, I sometimes want to hurt myself physically and just disappear. 
Help? How to move on? How to be confident again after so many failures?