I'm a male in high school and I've recently been diagnosed with bpd. I've never had much friends growing up but as of late I've been the loneliest I've ever been in my life. Around year ago I had a horrible heartbreak and the only way I could make myself feel better over the past year is by validating myself for having sex with a few girls, but now I just feel worse because of it. I used to talk to people at my highschool and try to make friends but when people started to lose interest in me and stopped talking to me I've spiraled into loneliness. I feel like everybody there hates me and despises me but Im not sure because everybody there just ignores me. All I want in life anymore is a friend or just somebody to be there for me. I just want to hang out with somebody after school everyday. I really don't want to be living by the time it's my birthday in July because I'll have nothing to do and no friends to talk to. Please help me im seeking some sort of advice