Hi, I am from Israel. I have bad OCD. 

There have been so goddamn many rockets and terror attacks in the last few days, including rockets that killed  a few civillians and a whole bunch of fighting, riots, anger and hate. Fires been lit up and specifically civillian aread are targets now for rockets. Even jerusalem was bombed and went up in flames in several hot spots.

I am so fucking terrified of being lynched and murdered. I dont want to leave my house but I have a final soon and Ill have to eventually. I go to a religious school so I wear religious identifying clothes and so I could be a target. Last time shit got this bad buses were exploding, month long terror waves of daily murder were going on, where even my brothers friend was murdered brutally in the street and just by chance a massive mass shotting was halted that would have been the end of hundreds of lives. I dont wanna die i dont wanna die i dont wanna die because of some shit politics.

And my fucking school people say that by continueing to function normally they rebel so they honor being killed this way as a fucking sacrifice. I dont want to sacrifice myself because my goverment is shitty.

Fucking help, Im going crazy, i dont want to be killed. And the worst part is sometimes the terror attacks are carried out in school shootings and my school also doesnt have proper bomb shelters. 


Help, please. I dont know what to do. I dont want to be here. Theres nothing I can do. 

My room is a bomb shelter and I havent left it in a couple days. Im too scared of leaving. My OCD was always danger related and I have locking compulsions, and finally I started working toward fixing it and now this shit happens. Ive relapsed and locked my house on 3 locks one metal extra door and in my bomb shelter room and I want to leave but I am terrified.
What should I do???