I’m not sure what to do anymore I’m 22f and feel like an utter failure. Everything I do in my life holds no meaning to anyone no one asks about me, If I don’t initiate conversations then no one will for me. My “friends” know I’m going through stuff but never ask and when they do they make a joke about “they are also depressed” but in the way where they aren’t but are just saying it to say it. My friends make comments about how I always dress in the same clothes but I do it because I have anxiety about my body and hate it. I don’t know what I have done in my life to be disrespected everyday by people around me, or not. I cry every day, I write down my feelings non my note app and didn’t even notice how long it had gotten because is started to write like twice a day. No one understands or wants to understand. I feel like no one will ever love me or currently loves me.