I’m 26 and have gotten panic attacks since I was a kid, but over the past few years it’s turned into almost nonstop around the clock anxiety with no trigger. It’s torturing me and has gotten to the point where I can’t work, I can’t function, I usually can’t go outside, and I can’t even drive my car. I’m confined to my bed shaking and struggling to breathe every day. I had to apply for disability.

I feel like I’m going to lose my sanity from this nonstop torture. I take anxiety medications but they only help a little. I’ve been suffering every day with this for so long that I wanna die, but I’m too scared to die. I can’t keep living like this and wish I would just die in my sleep. I’ve never met someone with anxiety as bad as this. Not even my father who recently committed suicide, one of the biggest reasons being his overwhelming anxiety (he wrote this is his suicide note). It feels like it’ll never get better. I’m not gonna make it if it keeps going on like this. I can’t take it anymore.