My relationship with both of my parents is terrible it feels like walking on shards of glass with both of them like the littlest thing will set them off and I never developed any attachment to them because of it. I get terrible depression with them when I am in close contact that instantly clears up the second I’m around other people. My dad tends to talk down on me like I never have the intelligence to make a decision on my own and my mom is notoriously unstable she took me out spending the whole paycheck binge shopping as a child and took half my dads money and property and ran away. They both feel like thin ice to walk on that’s covered in tacs. I get a instant mood boost the longer I go without contact with them but I find it nearly impossible as they did not allow me to get my drivers license at 16 stunting me from ever getting a job and I live in the most car dependent suburb in modern America. Everyone thinks I’m a bright a bubbly person but that goes away the longer I am in contact and only comes back when I abstain from contacting them for long periods of time. People see the depressed me a lot so it is hard to make friends especially if the depressed me is the one reaching out to to them for contact and the happy me is perfectly content with not talking to anyone. What do I do? I am 18 now and get into collage the next fall semester with a dorm. I get anxious around my parents and forget it’s going to clear up. My mind just gets stressed at this point like it’s dying for a breath of fresh air away from my parents. Content me knows it will clear up but stressed me is filled with self doubt and anxiety that it’s actually me then it all clears up when I go to a friends house or smile and talk to a stranger.