I'm not doing well at this new job. Big surprise. I'm a medical assistant. Who knows if I still will be next week. Sometimes I'm just so confused as to why working is so difficult for me? This new job, I don't really know... anything. Like I pretty much know what's expected of me. I just don't understand how others can do like 13 appointments a day, plus all the rx refills, and calls, and medical records requests, and doing medications and referrals and discharge and the doctor wants to stay on time. I feel like I'm failing. As I always do, when I have a full time job. And I've already broken down and cried in the office like at least 3 times. In a month.

Does anyone else have like problems holding a job? Or doing a job, even?

Plus, with work making me feel this way, I go down the rabbit hole. Okay, I can't do the job of a medical assistant? How in the hell will I ever be able to work as a nurse? Am I doomed to work jobs that will never sustain me? I'm still not at a living wage, I'm living with my mom at 28. What the hell do I do, and what the hell am I even doing going forward? I don't even WANT to go forward. Why am I just doomed to this life of suffering and depression that will never get better?

Sorry guys, I'm just so upset right now. The rabbit hole is taking me to a very bad place (as you can probably tell).

Also, I don't have friends. The only person who cares about me is my mom. I wish she didn't because then I could just go. I don't have hobbies. All I do is school. And now I'm wondering if that's even what I should be doing, or if there's a purpose in doing if I can't even do well as a medical assistant.