Context: I’ve taken 100mg Zoloft for about 16 months and now I’m currently tapering it off under my psychiatrist supervision, but basically I’m fucking it up lmao.

I should take 100mg tabs 5 days per week and 2 days per week 75mg tabs but I stopped it cold turkey cause I miss feeling bad, having suicidal thoughts and all those stuff, I don’t even know why but I just miss it. Overall I’m feeling kinda well, I’m not depressed anymore but sometimes I’m sad (which I guess it’s normal), I can’t function and all I can do is sleep and I have self harm episodes plus binge eating. I’ve talked about it with my psychiatrist but she proceeded with tapering off the med, idk why but i’ve been somehow triggered by this. I feel like my feelings have been invalidating, I mean things are going kinda well but not that well and I have the urge to relapse into depression (I even don’t know if this is possible).

Has someone ever felt the same?