I'm 26, I have no job and no desire to find one, so that means I have no money, no social life, I have a girlfriend and I don't feel anything towards her, no desire to have sex either...I can also see she's getting fed up with my laziness, depression or whatever so that "relationship" will fail 

I'm a total failure and everyone knows it.. I can feel people watching me with pity, even my former friends and family members.. Can't even go to the store because of it

I used to be a failure with style.. Like a bum you would say because I used to take drugs, drink and play in a band and I fucked that up too

Only thing I was a little bit interested in was playing guitar which I can't anymore because I don't have any creativity or motivation.. I hate the guitar now

Now there's a little bit of hope for me rising from the ashes (getting a job won't redeem my reputation, I think.. I just don't see it as a way out of my shit life because I've tried it and nothing has changed), Me and my soon not to be girlfriend were planning on opening a restaurant or a Caffè together.. That's the only hope which gets me up in the morning but I still don't do anything about it because I'm extremely pessimistic and not really interested in running this kind of business.. Also there's lack of money....

So yeah, I'm a total outcast, failure and I don't see any way out of it
Also, skip me with that therapy, meds BS because I've tried it and it's worse than it's even been