I’ve been laying on my floor crying for 30 minutes. I’m redoing my bedroom and I’ve been working really hard on it all week. Taking everything out of my room cleaning my walls Filling in the holes sanding the walls all of that stuff anything you can think of I’ve been working on it for days. And today I finally got to the painting part and I did one tiny part of my wall and then I started crying. It doesn’t even look bad. I’m having some issues with the edges but it’s not that bad. Last night before I fell asleep I could just feel my depression creeping in again. And I woke up this morning feeling all right but clearly I wasn’t as all right as I thought. It’s upsetting because I wanna get it done because my room is my safe space and I want it back to normal with everything in here so I can just be in here. but also I feel like I’m messing it up even so I don’t wanna work on it though it’s not messed up it’s fine. So now I’m just laying on my floor crying as I type this out. I hate my brain!