i feel like i can never give a solid answer on anything because of how rapidly my feelings change. If someone asks me how i’m doing i could say “things are getting so much better, i’m trying really hard!!” and the next day i can’t even get out of bed and i just feel like a liar. or i’ll vent to a friend about how awful i feel and i’ll feel fine later and just think “wow what a fucking attention whore.” i’ll reflect on things i did not so long ago and absolutely hate myself for it, even though at the moment i felt completely fine with it. i just generally don’t trust myself and i hate it.