This is the lowest I've been in a while. I want comfort and affection so bad but I just don't how how to feel ok asking for it. I feel like I've just been completely emptied. Everything hurts, even things there's no reason to hurt for. 

I just want someone to hold me so bad. I feel so low I don't even want to self harm or drink or do drugs. I just want someone to hold all the pieces together but I don't know how to ask or explain.

I feel so alone. Like even the people physically close to me are literally drifting miles away from me. 

I hate this. I just want to be normal.