I’m not sure if it’s a BPD thing or because of my personal association with being in bed and how I feel there, but I find the thought of sleeping in bed difficult and instead choose to sleep on the sofa, usually about half the nights of the week. When i’ve been drinking I find sleeping in bed fine, but when i’m sober the sofa feels more safe. I think I associate bed with all the dark times i’ve spent in there, on my worst days lying in bed not able to leave. I also think I going to bed stops my disassociation and  when i snap out of that disassociation it makes me think of everything that’s happened that day, that week, that month, every past trauma, scared about future and think of every possible scenario- I get an intense fear of lying in bed trapped with my thoughts. When I sleep on the sofa I have the TV there to distract me and I fall asleep with a show on in the background that i’ve seen before so I don’t listen to the storyline. In bed i play netflix on my phone, but it isn’t the same. Anyone else like this?