I feel like I’m completely losing my mind with this situation. 

I am diagnosed with bipolar, borderline, general anxiety, PTSD, ADHD, and as a kid I was diagnosed with a few learning disabilities i don’t remember. 

I am currently applying for disability in the US. I think I have enough work credits for SSDI, but I’ve been keeping my bank account at 2k or less in case I’m only eligible for SSI.

My bills are more than 2k a month so I escort and hide the cash

Money keeps disappearing with no explanation. Yesterday I made $650 during a 4 hour session. I counted the money and placed it in my wallet which I zippered and put in my purse. I went to sleep with the purse next to my bed. Today the money is gone. I don’t see how it is physically possible for anyone to have taken it. This keeps happening. I feel like I must be completely losing my mind and doing something with the money and then not remembering what I did? There’s not big gaps in my memory though or purchases I can’t account for, but I can’t think of any other explanation? I’m completely questioning my sanity at this point am I even seeing clients or having hours long delusions? This probably isn’t the case because I just text the client from last night and he responded so I probably did see him? 1,150 has disappeared in 2 weeks i don’t have enough money to cover my bills now and it’s pushing me to suicidal thoughts