(tw: very brief mention of ab*se)

just as the title thingy says, i get get triggered by things i haven't gone through. when I hear about sexual abuse of any kind i dissociate and lock up with fear. i sometimes get nightmares because of it and it makes it difficult to sleep. i also can't even enjoy horror games or movies because of it since halfway through, j have to take a 15-30 minute break to calm down. also, if I hear about physical abuse the same thing happens.  while i have gone through emotional abuse as a kid/teen, and I'm debating whether I have gone through sexual abuse when I was younger (sounds dumb but I'm also dumb) i feel bad for getting triggered to things i haven't experienced. i haven't gone through what other victims have and i feel bad for feeling bad for them or getting hurt for them. i understand that I'm an empathetic person but i feel like what is happening is dumb. i was wondering if others also experience this? and if you have gone through abuse like this, are you uncomfortable knowing that i get triggered? also, do you have any tips on how to not get as triggered? this sounds so dumb so I'm sorry but I've been thinking about it for awhile.