I don’t stalk or stan or anything of the like, but after finding a celebrity crush  has a partner I get heartbroken and jealous. You won’t see me on Instagram or twitter bashing their current partner. It’s super dumb. I know the odds of meeting Ville Valo is super slim to nonexistent, the chances of him wanting me the way I want him are even lower. I don’t know if it’s out of boredom because I’m not actively seeking sex or relationships while I’m recovering from BPD. I’ve been like this since I was 11 (I’m 22 now), but I hate it so much, I’m just setting myself up for depression. First it was Joey Fatone and now after getting into HIM it’s Ville.

It’s almost like finding your crush on high school dating someone else and not you. That age regression hits me hard. I just want to listen to the music without getting too attached or at least crush but not be crushed. 

Like the dude is a sex god lemme hit, damn. I guess it makes HIM songs extra sad/deep for me lmao. If his girl makes him happy truly I’m happy for them.