Recently, I’ve been feeling super unstable. I take Zoloft and Adderall and I feel as though it’s been making me manic, or just in a state of being overly hyper and stimulated and I don’t think before I do a lot of things. I also have been drinking way too aggressively to the point I’m sending this guy I like videos of me partying with my friends and texts to get his attention, and we haven’t known each other for that long, only to wake up extremely embarrassed. I definitely need to stop drinking, and I also really want to stop being so hard on myself but I make myself cringe sometimes. I also get in these ruts where I start doing good and one slip up makes me fall right back down, I think I need to be more open with my friends and people I meet that I need to distance myself from this party lifestyle, as I live downtown in a big city, I also want to do better in my job and I found myself today calling in sick and staying in bed because I’m upset with myself, and I’m self aware but I can’t seem to make any changes. Any insight, advice or support would be helpful