I'll admit part of it is likely because my dads been in a band my whole life and my house was pretty much filled with nonstop music 24/7 growing up, but I am like thoroughly addicted to music and it makes up my whole identity. I have 20+ playlists on spotify dedicated to everything from intense depression to cheering up friends to specific ex-girlfriends. I have headphones on literally all the time and my library so massive you could probably give me a specific thing that happened to you today and I could give you a song with lyrics that tell the story(well I'd try really hard anyway).   


I think that BPD plays a roll in that. I think that I need a song or a sound to..to..embody and externalize what I'm going through. Am I excited? It'll be something powerhouse electropop loud like CHVRCHES or Purity Ring, am I angry? Maybe Taking Back Sunday, My Chemical Romance. Do I hate myself? NIN, Everclear something self-loathing. Am I in a state of extreme chill? LOfi Beats Websterx, Travis Thompson etc etc  


I don't even stick to one genre - 

Angry at your Dad ? Cat Stevens - Father and son, Good Charlotte - My old man.

Dealing with Death? Beatles - Let it Be,  Hotelier - Your Deep Rest, Frightened Rabbit - Death Dream.

Think you're human garbage? Have Mercy - Talk about your hair, Everlear Overwhelming, EL-P - the overly dramatic truth 

Sex Addict? Kevin Drew - Good Sex, The 1975 - Sex, Daughter - Candles

Psychotically happy? Junior Senior - Don't stop, Young fathers - Only God knows, Scanners - Low Life La Riots Remix  


I could do this all day, Rock, Indie, rap, pop, country, obscure french mash-ups, whatever.  


Is anyone else like this, unreasonably obsessed 24/7 with music? Like do you have songs and playlists for every mood to the point where you think you might have a problem?