My laziness cost me my job. My laziness cost me my girlfriend. I don’t have an excuse. I just can’t be bothered to put in effort. I knew the day would come when my laziness would bite me in the ass would come. And it finally came. And now I have nowhere to go but down. 

It’s over.  I don’t want to die but I don’t know where else to go. I don’t want to hurt my family. I can’t do this to them. But I don’t know what to do. I’m scared.