My life is good compared to others i have alot of friends a gf a family even tho it isn’t in one piece , we may be in debt but it isn’t affecting us much the problem is even tho i have all of these i still can’t be at peace i still struggle to make simple tasks like bath eat or study , sometimes I look back when i was an energetic kid and cry  maybe being called a failure constantly by my family changed me . Even getting up from bed is a heavy task for me I don’t know what I should do with my life i am still young 19 years old yet i feel like i ve lived a life time . I don’t know why i am writing this but here i am .