so i have adhd, depression, and anxiety, all diagnosed. however, i have noticed that sometimes i don’t feel like me in a way. i get more agitated and sad than usual, and very intrusive thoughts. when i say intrusive, i mean INTRUSIVE. i have thoughts of harming myself or others. it’s because of many reasons, but the reason now is because somebody had something that i spent quite a bit of money to get but didn’t. i ended up spending hundreds of dollars on a “lookalike” when i was upset over something similar a few months ago, even though it looks nothing like it. this isn’t the only reason i’ve felt like this, though. i’ve felt like this under stress, while in a depressive episode, and sometimes for note reason at all. i feel obsessive, i feel angry, i feel nauseous, all at once. 

i’ve also had the opposite happen, where i get incredibly excitable and happy for whatever reason, to the point where people point out how unusual it is. both of these occur no matter the timing or reason. in fact, i’m with friends right now and feeling agitated and nauseous and upset. it’s weird. i’m not sure if this is a part of my depression or adhd or what, but i’d like to figure out a possible reason. i’ll delete this soon, i just needed to get it out here