It's all my fault. My family is struggling and suffering because of me. My dad drive's every day to school and I stay in the car for 20 minutes because I can't face my problems. Every day he is late on job.
My therapist gives me advice and I can't do the breathing exercise or any other thing. Everyone at school is trying to help me but I try to hide away. I've lost 30% of school time now. I can't take the dog outside because I'm too scared to die. I've lost the majority of my friends. All I feel is fear and sadness. Probably more sadness than fear at this point. And is all my fault.
My life is perfect so why do I have this shit? I have a family that loves me, school loves me, friends loved me, I had good grades, I'm heathy, don't have any financial or family problem. Why I'm like this? I'm just a stupid little shit that has everything but isn't enough? Why I'm ruining life of other people? Why the fuck... Know people who don't have a family or have immense economic stuggle. Why the fuck im like this.
Now I'm just angry and sad