i (18F) genuinely don’t know anymore. i don’t have a diagnosis for depression but for so many years even when i was a child, i have felt like this. i have this intense feeling of existential dread. people don’t believe me when i tell them that if i could sleep constantly then i WOULD. i don’t have desire for literally anything. i don’t see a future for myself because i just don’t want one but not even in some sad way but i just don’t have energy to spend the rest of my life working or doing anything. i’m so tired. i just want to sleep or eat and watch TV forever. i don’t want to talk to people or see people or for people to see me. there’s no way this is normal😭. i’m “only” 18 and people tell me i have so much to live for but i just cant see my life going anywhere and i haven’t seen a future for myself since 7 years ago. i didn’t even think i would be alive past 16. idk what to do with myself. i want to get better but i don’t even have the energy to start getting better. everyone just thinks i’m lazy and maybe i am tbh… idk anymore. does anyone else feel like this? is this what depression is? my family doesn’t rly believe in depression and invalidate and shut down the subject any time it is brought up