I’ve broken &amp; strained some good friendships in a certain environment in the past year, I left that space for a month or so, but recently went back to maybe meet new ppl but I found out that because of what I’ve broke or drained there, I was super scared and paranoid that if I reached out to the new ppl that I was ok w, that I might break/strained those relationships again.

So my recent schools of thoughts are either not-totally reclusing myself: get a new phone and remain in contact w some close ppl, aside from my family. Or just commit suicide, cos I definitely can’t see a different path in the future.

My way of doing things and how I am is different, and how those friendships were broken/strained was because of my differences. And I can’t keep being me and keep forming &amp; breaking new friendships….

What should I do?