I've been battling depression the last fourteen years of my life. I've always been able to cope with/tolerate it until recently. I have a wife and daughter and I'm thirty four years old. I fear that my mental health is starting to affect them and don't know how to fix it. My family barely makes ends meet as it is, and trying to add a therapist bill on top of that would crumble us. I'm too scared to talk to anyone else about it. I used to not drink, now I'm drinking a pint of vodka every two days. I used to not smoke, now I smoke a pack a day. I used to not get high, now I eat 3 edible gummies everyday. I feel like my mental health is pushing me towards a drug habit that I don't want. I just want advice, kind words, or positive criticism.