From one moment feeling extremely happy and in love to one hour later: "wait this is not right, it's a toxic relationship". From feeling happy and secure to unhappy and insecure, From planning a photo album together to thinking about a way of telling him that this is not working well, that I am too hurt and that I don't want it. To actually visualizing it happening and going trough that scenario. What do I actually feel, what is the truth? How to cope with these changes that happen with 1,2 hours? What do I actually want and what do I actually feel about this relationship? I have no idea which one is really true. It makes me feel a little bit insane and consider the fact that for me, there might not be the one truth. What if the truth doesn't exist. How to cope with such a life? 