you realize your spouse has suddenly made their Instagram public and their ex boyfriend (who is newly single) is now liking their photos out of nowhere. It may seem like nothing huge but it’s just enough to put my suspicions up and make me start to split even though I don’t know what’s going on for sure. (I plan to ask before I get too upset and paranoid but I gotta think thru what I wanna say first). I can’t help but fear losing my spouse to him somehow. (Please suggest coping methods I could try to get the intrusive thoughts and images out of my head if you have any)

I don’t usually share/vent, especially being a guy. I’m most insecure about my relationships and myself and I am really embarrassed admitting this stuff because I know my fear of abandonment makes me prone to being toxic. I want to do better and be better. I’m trying but I don’t have anywhere or anyone to go to for support.

It probably doesn’t help that I don’t have really any friends anymore (after moving far away and also bc I have a hard time connecting with people who don’t feel emotions on the same level as me (intensely)). I feel alone a lot of the time and finding this out tonight just makes me feel even more alone in the world. (If anyone wants to be friends please message me (I’m 23M and married with 2 cats)). 

Just having a hard time tonight and needed to get this out. Thanks if you read this.