Without writing a novel here, my partner has had severe, treatment resistant depression as long as I've known him. Over the past 2 years it has kept getting worse. He struggles with suicidal ideation constantly. Has been hospitalized for attempts in the past.


He's at the point where he at least tells me he has these feelings now (progress). But I am so ill-equipped for these conversations. Witnessing how tortured he is by his own mind is horrifying. I increasingly feel resigned to the fact that he will kill himself to end the pain. I don't know what to do anymore.


I'm not really sure why I'm even posting this. I guess I just hope someone else out there gets how it feels to be completely powerless to help someone in this situation.   I don't want him to give up, but it's not my choice.