Even the word itself seems ruthless, just the way it looks written down and how it sounds. Gutteral word, I have to say. It means literally to feel severe mental or physical pain or suffering. It's that thorn in your side that never leaves or something in your teeth that won't come out. Whether biological or mental, it seems that frustration is a big factor that causes it. The feeling of being unfulfilled or failing at something you would really like to achieve. Anguish is a manifestation of anger, hate, contempt and anxiety. Leading a person to no answer to solve their problem, no comfort is found alongside it. Avoid it as much as you can and try not to act to hastily whenever going through it, anguished acts will often be regretted. It's pain beyond words, it's an echo no one else hears but you, it's love unwanted, pain unrelieved, dreams that never come true. All the anguish felt in my lifetime led to a deep encounter with depression and certainly has impacted my life greatly in a bad way. I have taken many things for granted and that caused me anguish, I have said things to people I shouldn't have, I did certain things in my life that alotted to much anguish. I believe that it alone managed to cause great change in my outlook on life. From being optmistic to pessimistic and even starting truly wanting to not ever have existed. I'd caution people in their teenage years not to take anything in their life for granted, friends, family, study, opportunities to explore life through anyone else's eyes.

Life can be a very happy experience with some major lows, but if lived correctly with some very memorable highs. Pursue that if you can, don't let anyone tell you you can't do something and watch out for ideologies, even your own, they are not friends of yours. Your mind will get tainted with misconceptions about the world. If you heed this advice to avoid anguish and pain, please, also try to understand how the world works, people, feelings, minds, atoms, computers or anything that you love. Try to understand how they came to be and how it is that you can see yourself through that.
Don't be like me! Never take opportunities for granted, fuck it if you only have one pair of shoes and crooked teeth, trust kind human beings and open your eyes to the universe. I did the opposite and truly believe things would've panned out for me if I had followed even only some of the advice I'm giving. Say yes! But stay on the ball and really avoid drugs until you're 24+ or never really do them. I'd recommend Psylocibin, I believe it can really help humanity, it brought some comfort in my life, especially when dealing with the fact I'll cease to exist one day. But anything else will most likely ruin your life, weed was enough to ruin mine. Stay safe and don't let the powers that be smash you to the ground. Use your big homo sapiens brain and fight back.

I know I won't be remembered like Sir Francis Bacon or Augustus of Rome. But, hopefully this message will be like a Pech Merle cave, I was here.

- Lucas