Hi everyone , this is taking a lot for me to post but I am actively trying to be a better person I was diagnosed with bpd at 20 now I’m 24 , I have been through a lot and I mean a lot the last 4 years. I became a bad person for a while , I was abusive toxic and downright mean. I have calmed down and had the realization recently which I am happy about I know it’s a big step. 
My question is , how have you guys worked towards forgiving yourself for your behaviours ? I am no longer the way I was and actively make the effort to be a better person each day. But I’m stuck with guilt I can’t seem to shake , any help or advice would be greatly appreciate or even if you relate , thank you ❤️