I didn't get along with people growing up and I was treated badly often.  I had very low self esteem and always felt left out,  rejected and judged. I failed to become educated, I failed to gain life experience,  and I failed to launch until very late in my 20s.

I didn't get along with my family so I moved away to escape their verbal abuse.  But the damage is already done. I always have the express of voices of people judging me in my head. I am not good enough to do the things I once wanted to do. I gave up on things I used to be interested in,  I hide the music I listen to,  and I don't try new things because I'm tired of being put down. 

Compared to others my age who are much more well adjusted,  experienced,  outgoing and well developed,  I am a lowly and inferior waste of a man.  Others are doing much better than me in every sense and I am too far behind to ever catch up.

Now I live in a small apartment alone,  I don't speak to anyone,  I have my groceries delivered,  and I rarely leave my room. People have treated me poorly,  I have made horrible and irredeemably bad choices,  and my life is pathetic. I am a loser who hasn't got any desire to live a life like this. The world is a horrible place,  I'm a piece of shit and I wish I had never been born