I still get sad and still have anxiety sometimes. I still get stuck in my head

But life has been so much better. I dont remember staying up late with a brain sounding off alarms. I haven't felt genuinely like I want to disappear since. I'm able to hold patterns and get out of bed without feeling like death.

I'm more confident. I'm happier. I'm less irritable.

And see, I was always worried the meds wouldn't work or maybe that I didn't have bipolar, but I'm about to hit my duolingo streak of 100! I've never had a consistent habit like that EVER besides brushing my teeth.

But now I can go to the gym. I can do homework. Life isn't perfect, but it's liveable. I feel like I can live, not if I can survive.