Im really anxious but ive never really been to therapy because of my fear of telling anybody about how i feel (i know this is not a good outlook and i probablly should go to be honest). The past 4 years or ive taken in my near constant anxiety and ive staved it off but the past few months things have felt off. Usually my anxiety always makes me hurt emotionally, mentally and sometimes physically but i just feel different. Idk how to explain it really. Its like something is broken in me. The anxiety is still there but is it like im out of energy to spend on it bothering me. This isnt good right? Everything feels wrong and dull. On top of this I dont trust my memory no matter how positive i am that it is right and feels like ive lost my ability to socialize with people i know (im usually really shy to begin with but even with people i know now its like i leave every conversation feeling like i didnt connect at all and that i came off like an emotionless psychopath to them). Idk whats happening but it cant be good right? Is it normal for my brain to just numb and blur everything in terms of my emotions and social skills? What should i do?