i don’t know if this is the right subreddit to write this on but i talked to my boyfriend of 6 months about my need for validation and how in the first month of our relationship i had sent out s*x tape to a friend and to another guy. 

it was one of the hardest conversations to have with him and all he did was try his best to support me and communicate to me how he still loved me and was never going to leave him.


i could never ask for a better person in my life and genuinely love him so much. i’m crying writing this post because it hurts me to think that i tried to sabotage my relationship and ruin it from the very start.

he makes me a better person but i hate being such a burden to him. i’ve never been more appreciative to have someone in my life like him.

i know it’s going to cause issues but i wanted to share my progress on being honest with him and how much he means to me.

I talk about everything with him including my intrusive thoughts because i have diagnosed OCD as well.

if anyone wants to share similar experiences, insight, or advice please feel free to, i’m in a very emotional state and need some support. thank you.