I was just wondering if this was a borderline or bipolar thing because I tried to explain to my therapist and she just kept meeting me with more questions. LAAAAAWD SMDH 

OKAY so I have this consistent paranoid thought of one of my friends spying on me through someone. Like I’m talking to a mutual friend and I have this thought that she’s feeding them lines to say to me through them or she’s getting screenshots of my conversations with this mutual friend. I feel like she’s hacked my phone if my phone acts weird I feel like she’s just. Watching me. She was an old confidant..We rarely hung out but I’ve felt very odd vibes around her..But it’s comforting to believe that’s what she’s doing. That she’s keeping tabs on me. I honestly like the feeling of being watched/monitored by her so it’s not a disturbing delusion. Whenever I see a bunch of her model car I’m convinced she’s thinking or speaking about me. I’m kind of OBSESSED with her on a constant basis but we RARELY speak. I’ve had this same attachment with teachers in the past, if I saw something that’s related to them, my mind is convinced we have a special soul connection and can communicate missing each other through the universe and the universe will send signs to me they are thinking of me.

But yeah I don’t know what this is. Anybody know what I’m talking about?