I don’t know if this will get deleted but I just need to vent my feelings. I (21f) feel so hopeless in my life. I just moved to a new city an hour away from my family. I started a new job that I absolutely hate but I can’t leave because I have bills. I live pay check to pay check barely making enough to live. My job is mentally and physically draining and the pay is next to nothing. The boss is rude and unappreciative. My coworkers are lovely however and I’ve managed to make a few friends. That is the only positive. I thought moving out of my parents house was the right step for me but I feel so overwhelmed. It’s not just about my job though. My mental health has been absolute garbage lately. I have never felt so depressed in my life. I enrolled in school and started my first course today. It is so hard and the money part doesn’t make it any easier. I am working a physically challenging job full time and doing school full time. I am constantly stressed and I feel like there’s no way out. I talk to my mom about moving home but she doesn’t like that idea. I have searched for a new job for months with a few interviews but no luck. Every job I don’t get makes me feel like even more of a failure. I’m beginning to slack at my job, take sick days which I feel horrible about but everything is so draining. Sometimes I just sit in my living room and cry. Everyday is the same. I don’t know what to do. Any advice would be great or anyone to talk to. I’m trying to stay positive I really am. All I wanna do is sleep all day. I’ve started to get acne because I don’t wash my face anymore. I feel ugly. My boyfriend makes comments about my body which doesn’t help. Sometimes I just want to die. I guess that’s it. I do feel a bit better. If you did read this whole thing I want to thank you for listening.