These couple days have been really hard to cope. I can't focus on anything, i can't even distract myself with things I enjoy doing, It feels like everything is a chore and I don't feel like doing anything. I'm not really depressed, i'm normal, just can't do anything.
Besides feeling like this, i'm anxious 24/7. I'm always heavy sighing and feeling like i'm stressed and tired and my head can't stop thinking. I think - I'll do this thing.. and then my brain is like... No we don't really wanna do that.. and it goes for every thing I think about doing to distract myself from the thoughts in my head (mostly intrusives). 
So I end up wasting the entire day just listening to music and picking my phone every minute because I'm bored and anxious and it's almost automatic... And this been going for weeks... I feel so guilty for not doing anything. I can't maintain a routine and I feel like shit for being so useless but even If I try do something, anything I can't keep for much long and I keep checking the clock to see how much time has passed and how much time I have to "fill" until i can finally take my meds and sleep.
Honestly, i think I have to just force myself to do anything. I tried studying today and I read 50 pages until my brain was like "I can't do this shit anymore" but that was It... I know slow progress is still progress but It feels like i'm in a limbo where i'm barely existing and it's already too much but at the same time feels like i'm in my "comfort zone" (eventhough i feel completely discomfortable) of not doing anything but It sucks... I'm really tired...