I've been feeling rather hypersexual lately. Wanting to feel desired by women (that aren't my SO). Setting up dates on dating apps and ghosting them and even booked a trip out of state to meet up with one. Luckily I came to my senses and canceled the trip which came with a $100 cancel fee.

I don't feel like I'm manic because ultimately I've gained control before I fully lost it. I do plan on talking to my therapist and I take my meds regularly without having missed in 4 months.

I'm just unsure. Are these moral failings my fault or is it part of my brain not being normal? I want to believe that I'm a decent person but this latest rash of stuff really has me wondering where do I have to take responsibility and where does the bipolar come in?