I've not officially been diagnosed with BPD, but I strongly believe I have it and that's why I'm asking for advice from you.

I struggle with bipolar disorder, but whenever I'm stable, I get rapid fluctuations in mood that usually last a couple of hours. I start getting serious fears of abandonment, and depression comes in brief, but intense waves.

I tend to hide myself away from people (because I tend to think people hate me or think they don't want to be my friend) and I've inadvertently pushed a lot of people away, so I actually don't have friends anymore. I'm pretty lonely and have no real way of making friends either. Basically... I'm 24, I live in a small town, I don't do any sports/activities, I can't drink alcohol because of my meds, and I'm asexual. I spend most of my days behind my laptop (yeah I'm lame) and playing video games. That's it.

It's bad that I don't have friends because I start getting fears that I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life. These fears eat me up inside.

What can I do to alleviate some of these fears? They come and go... I don't have them everyday, but they come up at least once a week.