I have recently had a relapse in my BPD symptoms.

One of the areas I struggle with is social media. I find that it causes me extreme anxiety and mood swings when the response (or lack thereof) is not what I wanted on my posts. Usually I share music and art, and occasionally I'll voice my opinion or relay an anecdote.

I used to not care what anyone thought of my music / art posts, but now when I don't get any response or the number of responses I want I feel severely depressed and suicidal. I know it is irrational, but I can't  help feeling this way.

I like social media because it helps me stay in touch with friends. (I emigrated a couple of years ago.) If it weren't for that I would have deactivated my account.

Does anybody else struggle with this?