i can feel the darkness 
that wild insanity clinging to the edges of my brain
a deep chasm that i must be wary of 
what if i fall into it 
down
down
down
i must keep my distance from the edge 
stay in the light
burning brighter and brighter 
until i fade out 
there is no more oxygen
and i cant breathe
my emotions are smothering me here in the light 
but that chasm is still there, calling to me
the darkness caresses me
tongues of shadow reaching out to soothe me
i lean in to the comfort
oh, how long it has been since i have been held
i hardly notice the chokehold it has on me
until i turn 
and willingly leap off the edge 
the sudden gust of air helps me to breathe again 
and i fall into the darkness with a smile on my face 


i am aware of my irrationality 
but what other choice did i have?