one time i was in my brothers room with him and my cousins and my mom smelled a really bad odor and assumed it was me, she brought me to the bathroom and got so mad at me, screaming, pulling my hair and threatened to hit my head against the glass of the shower. i cried every night since then wondering what was wrong with me. in asian culture, emotional abuse is normal and i guess i just took it in. i was 12 and already depressed because of my moms words, everyday she would just use really harsh words to me and my brother, i would cry myself to sleep every night wondering why i wasn't enough for my mom. every time i get in trouble, my mom would spank me and again use really harsh words, the worst beating i ever got was when i was around 15 or 16, got in trouble with something in school and got a really bad beating, i still have those pictures of my hip being bruised, i only ever told my one friend, she hugged me tightly when i got to school, and it was the only comfort i needed, my hips and leg were bruised, wasnt that bad just the size of 2 fingers. i'm 18 now and my mom stopped beating me, because i'm old and i've been doing really well in school. still trying to overcome depression, sometimes i would cry with no reason. sometime i would cry because my mom would experience some slight inconvenience and just say something to me that would make me cry in my room. i hate that i get affected with my moms words at times even if it isn't that deep i hate when people scream or raise their voice at me. i get anxiety all the time and i don't know what to do about it.