Been drinking a lot lately. Makes my hands and lips numb, throat feels weird. I'm not allergic but every night is the same. Feels like my body is just prepping me for the noose again. Doesn't feel right.

I don't feel anything. I'm tired all the time but can't sleep. I'm awaiting a call to see a psychiatrist but it's already been 3 weeks and idk how much longer I can wait. All my life is wasted waiting for something better but will it ever come?