You may be awful sometimes but i bet you are a beautiful soul. I've met the most interesting and compassionate people at mental hospitals, groups, and music festivals. People who truly get it. People who society calls "lost" but really have just tapped into a deeper form of human experience. That can be scary as fuck.

As you recover and gain control over your emotions, never forget the insight you have and how powerful and necessary that is. Too many people walk like zombies through life unaware of how they feel and how others feel. They just react to things and don't know why. With BPD, you have a super power .. unfortunately you keep blowing shit up with it but maybe it can be harnessed to do great things. That's what gives me hope. Maybe I can use my broken brain to do something truly unique and make life better...pay back all the pain I've caused people and make something meaningful out of nature's cruel unfairness.

Carry on. And anyone can pm me anytime if you feel broken, disastrous, hopeless...I will listen to you and validate you.