i feel so empty, and feel like the world just moves around me. it feels like the world could live it's live without me and no one would care. i can't fill myself with anything, not happiness, not sadness, not pain, nothing. it just feels like this feeling nothingness has welled up inside of me, and that i don't matter. not to myself, my parents, my siblings, no one. i feel like i fail my parents each and every day. i don't want to die, but nothing would matter of i did. is there anything i can do to even try to feel