I know that my bf is a good guy and would never cheat on me or shit like that but i feel like i need to be with him every moment he’s outdoors. Whenever he goes out i go with him, even if i’m really tired. It’s like i NEED to see everything he does, when i go home i get annoyed that he stays out late even if all he does is sitting in a car. I get annoyed by stupid things for examples if he drinks or posts a pic. The worst part is that i don’t wanna be a burden to him and so i keep all inside, i suffer in silence and then after months i explode. We love each other so much, he cares a lot about me and we’ve been together for 5 years but this thing is stressing me and i can’t talk with no one because if i say it to someone who doesn’t understand they would think that i’m just a psycho girlfriend. My closest friend knows about my BPD but she just says that i’m exaggerated because she’s not informed abt it and i don’t wanna justify every ‘strange’ behaviour because of the BPD. And also she doesn’t get it because she says things like ‘it’s not like you have a mental illness’ and when i say that it actually is, she says that it’s not true because in our country mental health is not taken very seriously and also no one knows about BPD. Now, back to my bf, i know my attitude towards him is toxic and that he deserves so much more but i can’t help to feel this strongs emotions whenever he does something. Do you have an advice?