I’ve always been very up and down with my fiancé, I would sometimes feel like I loved him and he’s amazing and think we should elope and then other days little things would set me off and make me feel like he isn’t right for me. I have felt this way our entire relationship. We are getting ready to move away from my and his family. We are moving about 1000 km away. We’re currently a semi LDR and have been on and off for a couple years. Every couple weeks he is able to come home for a week. About two months ago I found out about a gambling addiction that he has and he’s 15,000 in debt. He is in counselling for it and it turns out he has really bad anxiety. The last few weeks It feels like I don’t love him. I can’t stop pointing out all these things that he is doing wrong or ways he’s being immature. Even just the tone of his voice and the way he talks about things is bothering me. I just don’t know if this is just my bpd reacting to the distance, moving away, and finding out about the gambling and anxiety or me genuinely growing out of the relationship.