Told my social worker and my psychiatrist that my suicidal thoughts during my depressive episodes are getting really bad and happening right now, and told them that I attempted a week ago and now have made a new plan, and was thinking about acting on it, and all they said to me was mhhhh interesting and left it at that. They told me to call the Crisis number if it got any worse but I know that if I'm really feeling shit I'm not gonna call them and I told them that and they didn't give two shits, 

thinking about going inpatient but I can't unless they let me, my countries health system is so fucked up, like if you call the crisis team they just send the police around to get you and then you normally either go to hospital and they have to wait with you or you go to the police cells for a bit.

I'm over it.