I don’t know how else to say it. I can feel love for other people in my life, but no matter what even though I know it’s illogical sometimes, I don’t believe anyone loves me. I don’t feel the love anyone says they have for me. I always think they’re lying or it’s just going to be temporary. It’s a combination of my BPD and past relationships/friendships that’s giving me this problem. I want to be able to believe it when my boyfriend says he loves me. I want to feel his love for me without sitting there always thinking otherwise in the back of my mind. It makes me feel so bad because he could do everything for me and I just still would be skeptical and preparing myself for the worst. But I love him though. It just sucks. I don’t know if anyone else feels this way.