 Mine started when I booked a flight to move across the world because I didn't know what to do with my life one day, and the impulsive stupid decisions just haven't stopped. I broke up with my long term partner for no reason whatsoever a week later and had a new boyfriend within two days that lasted for a week and then a new one, the years have gone on like that with a new partner each month and more ridiculous directionless but life changing decisions but it feels like it just came out of nowhere. I was so happy before. I'm sick of hurting people and being like this. 

I finally got a dr to diagnose me with BPD (I am extremely self aware of it so ironically other drs said I couldn't have it) and awaiting a psychiatrist appointment next week. The dr gave me sleeping pills though which terrify me because I have had the worst depression week and I have no idea what my next stupid impulse thought will be.  