For contexts sake, I have Bipolar Disorder Type 1 and I gained roughly 80 pounds from Lithium Carbonate and other drugs over the past few years.

Yesterday, I was running to a doctors appointment (I had to park far away), and I tripped and knocked myself out on the stairs and got a concussion.

I was fine (or thought I was). Anyway, this is where I get stupid and why I am now crying and basically I hate myself (No surprise) Anyway called my hook up asked for cuddles and he said no because I was "asking for too much". 

Now I just hate myself and my brain for hurting and for not being normal and for being fat and for me working to loose the weight but only loosing 2.2 pounds this week whereas he's a body builder Marine who does porn on the side and has an open marriage. No one wants to marry me and at the rate I'm going, no one will.