For years I knew something is different about me...I would always take mental health tests, read a lot of articles but nothing would really fit my symptoms.
 I spoke to a therapist bc I thought I had bipolar personality disorder, but she quickly dismissed that. I didn t know this disorder existed until today and it hit me like a bus..I have it. I m devastated..I really hoped it was just a bad period in my life, but I ve been in this bad mood for 4 years now. I m seeing a psychiatrist in 2 days and I m really scared that he ll dismiss my diagnosis (even though I know this is what I have) bc I m not from US, in my country things are not that advanced.