It's been pretty difficult keeping things together this month. I've tried so hard to regain my passion for life and for the things I used to love to do but every time it just feels like I'm going through the motions.

I love rock climbing and halfway through a route yesterday I just gave up. Dropped and turned in my equipment and cancelled my membership. Just don't feel the love for it like I used to.

Also found just how disappointing most relationships I have with people are. I've tried meeting new people and I always just feel disappointed in how the connections end up developing into. I'm not looking for anything special, just looking for someone that'll reciprocate at the very least.

Fuck all this I'm just so over it