So this year was just a shit year, medically speaking. I found out I have high blood pressure and I'm on medication now. I'm only 27. Started having some eye issues that's all resolved now but still freaked me out. Then my anxiety decided to crank up to 1000 and every day for the past few months I've been thinking I'm gonna have a heart attack. First I thought I was having chest pains, so I went to the ER in March. They did an EKG and ran some bloodwork and my heart is in perfect health they said. I believed them, went home and the pain went away. Then my anxiety started talking to me...what if they were wrong? They might have missed something...let's go check with my actual doctor. Fast forward to now and my doctor has told me the same thing. My vitals are fine, my heart sounds good and my circulation is good. I'm at no risk for a heart attack. I believe him...for a while. Now this week and the last, I've been having arm numbness, and I went back to my doctor last Friday, he ran the tests again, and they all came out fine. He asked me if I wanted him to refer me to a cardiologist for a second opinion, and I said yes because at this point, I have no idea what it's gonna take for my health anxiety to go down. I'm always so scared of having a heart attack because I have so many things I still wanna do and I think about how my folks would react if I did die and it freaks me out even more.


 If you got this far, thanks for listening to my rant. I'm just so tired of feeling like this, the anxiety and all that. I need a nap lol