I haven't spoken to my fp for about 6 months because honestly he's a pos to me. But I've thought about him constantly and I often still get depressed thinking I'll never speak to him again. I woke up crying this morning because I had a really vivid dream that I killed myself because he wouldn't speak to me. I wouldn't ever really do this but I am so tired of feeling like this. It's been six months no contact at all and it hasn't been a healthy any kind of relationship for years.

Needed to vent somewhere. I would say I hope yall can relate but honestly I hope no one ever feels like this 😭 any advice on what to do would be appreciated