She was the reason I got diagnosed. She was hot and cold with me once she found out I have some stuff going on that made me not always happy and pleasant. She has lots of guy friends and we are not technically dating. I tried to commit suicide after she blocked my number. She found out, ans stepped up...she fed my cat while I was hospitalized, talked to me everyday, even loaned me $2,000 to pay bills while I was unable to work...I just got a psychic reading last night that said she has other relationships she is hiding from me, but that she cares for me the most. She is apparently unable to commit to one because of past wounds, but I don't know if any of that is true or not. I am deeply spiritual but maybe I was told that so I could step up to the plate and master my emotions. I have been trying. I really don't want to be bitter towards her, and vice versa. I know no matter what we do really love each other, even if she doesn't really know what true love feels like due to her wounds and general emotional unavailability. Idk, my first therapy session is today and I'm very optimistic about my treatment. She is being very supportive, i don't want to lose that. Maybe we should just be friends? Is it bad to let us continue our romance with all the question marks? Do I continue, but just be guarded and independent, and know that she has other stuff going on with other people and she doesn't know how to or want to tell me? I bet most of you will say to give her the axe. But, without her this past week and a half, I would be in a really bad place. She has helped me a lot, i don't want to throw out the baby with the bathwater ... Help! Lol