Cant talk.
Cant form normal sentences in a normal speed noe, to do books like this it takes a long time.
In my mind is just seconds of ideas and they vanish a second after like why?
Cant even paint really bc my emotions i used for impulsive "art" r empty and when i do it rhere is no joy
my delusional way of feeling and the paranoia could be the reason but i also almost killed myself 2 months ago with an od like could it be braindamage?
Tbh when i was forced to take care of my demented family member and his parkinson wife, already in this state, it was so horrible to see how their brain turned on them 
Thinking this makes me feel like a d|ck head bc what if it was a just a symptom and i make their horrible experience seem less 
Idk man, whoever this reads
I dont feel like i cant make it 
(So much shit/stuff happens at the moment around me and i am molding man )
Im trash.