I also have a 13 almost 14 year old and was so happy to be where I was at in my life. I started dating my now boyfriend and ended up pregnant after being told I wouldn’t be able to have any more kids. He didn’t have any other kids and he didn’t think he would have any so he was so happy. For the first two months of her life I stayed at my parents and he stayed at his while we looked for a new house. He would come over once a week but other than that I was on my own. I’m a stay at home mom this time around and I really thought I’d love it. My daughter still wakes up 4-5 times a night. I wake up with her Everytime because her dad can sleep through anything. She won’t sleep passed 6:30 am and only takes one 1 hr nap a day. Her dad works 12 hr days so everyday it’s just me and my baby until 7 pm besides for every other week when my other daughter is with me. I feel so alone and I just miss my old life. I resent my boyfriend for being able to sleep, go to work, talk with other adults, take peaceful showers, peaceful trips to the store.. seriously it seems like I resent him for everything he does. I thought this time around everything would just be different because I’m older and my daughters dad acted like it was exactly what he always wanted. My expectations were to high and now I feel like I’ll never find happiness again. As much as I need time to myself since I haven’t had any and haven’t been away from my baby in 6 months the thought literally makes me feel sick. I couldn’t even go talk to a therapist if it was requested because I have no one to help. I’ve tried talking to my mom and sister but they literally ignore it until I’m talking about something else.