hey i haven’t really posted here lately but i just need to get all this off my chest.

my fp came back to me and were acting like best friends again and now my only life purpose is to make sure he’s okay and that he loves me and just everything revolves around him again, i thought i was getting better but turns out i just didn’t have a new fp yet and was still obsessed with him :/ i hate being like this i can’t feel love normally and i am so obsessive i hate living like this, i just want to healthily love someone and be healthy i hate this so fucking much i want to be normal i want to be better i hate it.