I’ve suffered from extreme anxiety/depression my whole life but lately, it’s extra bad.

 I’m sad, beat, struggling, super depressed and cry everyday. Some days like today, just feel like ending it to get my much needed forever sleep. 

I have a small family. Two girls and my girlfriend stays home with them while I work. I work 50 hours a week, bringing home money that barely gets us by.. and when I say barely, I mean BARELY. I’m months being behind in bills. Rent, Electric, gas, trash, car. Every time I seem to pay a bit  off, I’m back at $500 back. Never ending fucking circle. All I want to do is just smile for fucking once. My family can feel how tense everything is as well. I feel like if they had someone else as a provider, they’d be much better off. I feel like a damn fucking failure. I know they say “money doesn’t buy happiness “ but damn. I would love to have more than a overdraft fee in my bank account. I hate to say it, but death feels a whole lot better.