Sometimes i wonder what if i started drugs again sometimes i wonder what the world would be like without me. I have mental breakdowns at random times because I overthink at the wrong times. I know I have to stay strong for my girlfriend but sometimes life gets to hard and its hard to open up to her because I'm scared. I get scared shes gonna leave me get scared shes gonna find someone better I overthink little things. I have had enough with the world but I cant leave jIust wish this pain could end it hurts me so much....