my fp left me and cut off contact a little over a month ago but we are in the same sport so i still have to see him every single day. we still share friends. i think about him literally every single day and only want to better myself so he’ll take me back. my friends keep telling me that he’s said he doesn’t care we aren’t friends anymore and it makes me feel like i’ve been stabbed in the heart. yesterday i had a bad impulsive outburst and told him he ruined my life. i feel like im never going to get over him especially when i see him every week, whispering and laughing with people who are supposed to also be my friends. i cut myself off from all of them. i feel so alone.