I’m so done with everything in my life I would rather be in jail, I’ve tried to get help from kaiser and they just charged me $3000 for one day of me starting at a clock counting the seconds. I just feel really stuck with no where to go and there’s so many people around me but I feel so alone so I just want to actually be alone. I’m only 18 and I know this is temporary and my family loves me and would be crushed so I can’t do anything about it but I’m just so tiered.