I hate myself so much. Literally every time a conversation is going well I get so attached that I fucking spam the person a million messages a minute and scare them away. Why do I do this to myself. I always know how it will end. It's not like it EVER ends well, so why do I keep doing it? And how can I make myself stop when I seemingly can't listen to any rational thoughts ever? Ughhhh this is mostly just a rant but any advice would be appreciated, or if you just relate you can say that too.