Im really struggling with BPD.
I can’t sustain my self at all.
I was on quetiapine (Seroquel) 150mg for just over a year and i stopped cold turkey a while back.  Because it wasn’t really helping.

The only thing that helps me is smoking weed. 
I know its probably not helping in the long run but it is literally honestly the only thing that helps me and motivates me to even live.

Ive now stopped cold turkey day 2 going into day 3 and its just shit besides the withdrawal im also now just all over the place with my BPD

I literally go from feeling “fine” scrolling reddit or playing xbox and the next minute i feel doomed and suicidal 

What medications are you guys on and do you think it helps?

And what coping mechanisms do you guys use.