Hey guys, I suffer from anxiety quite severely in different aspects of my life.

My biggest anxiety ridden issue is workplace anxiety. I have two jobs. My first job I love, there isn’t really any anxiety there besides a tiny little bit of social anxiety which I can deal with but my second job is causing me severe anxiety to the point I am becoming physically ill from it. 

How the hell do I over come this? This second job isn’t for me at all. I’ve had years experience in this second job I have and thought I would get back into the industry but it has been the biggest mistake of my life so far because I think to myself.. I applied for this job, I thought I wanted this job and now I fucking hate it? 

I am trying to look for other work like a whole other career change but damn it’s hard and so out of my comfort zone doing so but I think it will be good for me! Anyways, in the mean time I will obviously have to continue to work this second job and having this anxiety is absolutely killing me and making me suicidal. 

Any advice on how to deal with this/ these feelings? I am desperately struggling and crying as I write this lmfao