for example, my lava lamp has all these smaller specs in it and on the inside of the glass making it look dirty.   my hair keeps itching the back of my neck, and curly hair is notoriously difficult to manage because i want to run my hands through it but that ruins the curls.  and hair keeps falling out (hopefully just the natural amount of hair loss).  my mom reminding me in a stern voice to do something that i didnt do properly enough.  letting too many browser tabs build up without cleaning them out.  my bed not being perfectly made.  


things like that, if i dont acknowledge them when they first bother me, and let them go somehow, then those feelings seem to snowball on each other, and i end up being irritated without really knowing why.   its so f\*\*\*ing hard to be relaxed and comfortable when im so easily put off.    idk if its also OCD or something but i drive myself off the wall.   hell, i think i have this phobia, i think its achimophobia or something, where im afraid of corners. i cant even feel comfortable looking at hte corners of a table without worrying/wanting to hit my foot on it.