**I had an idea where I would choose all the song lyrics I know that resonate with the way I feel and write them in a private document, as I find what I feel on a daily basis are things I can't describe or fully understand.**

**Two songs that really speak to me and bring me to tears each time I listen are** ***"California"*** **by Grimes and** ***"Mirrorball"*** **by Taylor Swift, and specifically these lyrics:**

***From California:***

"The things they see in me, I cannot see myself  
When you get bored of me, I'll be back on the shelf"

\[...\]

California  
You only like me when you think I'm looking sad  
California  
I didn't think you'd end up treating me so bad.

\[...\]

Come Monday it's a dream

Broken my own heart again  
Chasing something beautiful  
Oh, but I don't understand what they say  
Cause I get carried away  
Commodifying all the pain.

***From Mirrorball:***

I want you to know  
I'm a mirrorball  
I'll show you every version of yourself tonight  
\[...\]  
And when I break it's in a million pieces  
\[...\]  
I know they said the end is near  
But I'm still on my tallest tiptoes  
Spinning in my highest heels, love  
Shining just for you  
\[...\]

I'm still on that tightrope  
I'm still trying everything to get you laughing at me  
I'm still a believer but I don't know why  
All I do is try, try, try  
I'm still on that trapeze  
I'm still trying everything  
To keep you looking at me