Hello r/anxiety 

Lately I've been feeling more and more estranged to my family and work, it's a family business. Due to spending lots of time with my gf. 

Before we met I was with my family all the time, just at home. I fear they're gonna fire me or replace because I'm not around so much anymore. 

Honestly I've always felt it was kinda toxic and 'cult' like. Like if you aren't a part of the family you arent a part of the business. 

I tend to let them order me around and please them, out of fear they might fire or replace me... 

I'm always alert, constantly thinking. Constantly searching for ways to not be around them. 

The reason why im not leaving is because i suffer from severe social anxiety, and the fear of not knowing where i could otherwise get a job.