Please bear with me, I have no place to go. My first session with psychiatrist finished in 20 minutes. Although I've done check up every year, he insisted on sending me to check on PCOS and thyroid with another doctor in the hospital to make sure that my symptoms are truly mental. Anyway, I got Desirel 50mg and Zolpidem 10mg for the sleeplessness, also Frisium 5mg to help me calm down with work. My suffering started since I got a promotion to a new position that require upper level of English, but my English isn't that good, team just selected me from my other skills. I got extremely anxious every time I have to speak English and the thought of disappointing everyone is killing me. I wanted to quit but with it's so hard to find a new job after the pandemic, especially in the third world country I'm living in.