I’m with my friends having some drinks and we decided to do a pregnancy test roulette.. I told my baby daddy the news, and he’s been so supportive. He told me I can do what I want and he’ll support me. I know I won’t be able to take care of a baby on my own. I can hardly keep myself alive, let alone a baby. I also wouldn’t want to put the baby daddy through that.. he is supposed to be going to uni and having his own life, but I couldn’t do that to him. I wouldn’t want to keep him from going though with his dreams. We aren’t together and we can’t be… but in a perfect world I would love to have a family. In reality that wouldn’t be possible. Im suicidal and I’m not even in a relationship with the baby daddy. 

I feel so lost. If I didn’t have bpd I would be able to be the best mum ever.. :(