TW: mentions of suicide


Yesterday me and my partner were arguing about some stuff i had said about him, now, i know that was a bad thing to do, but something in my head switched i was screaming, and one of the times i tried to take my phone back i slipped and hit my head on a dresser, that was when things got really bad, i fell to the floor for a few seconds, then i started crying even more and screaming that i was gonna off myself or self harm. i thought we were home alone but turns out his brother was home and he said stuff like «i see what type of person she is» etc. his brother told my partners mom and now i feel like everyone hates me. i really wish i could just be normal and not lash out like this. i ended up sleeping over at my partners place tonight and i’m currently walking home, i feel so bad because i know i have hurt him. 

just a disclaimer; i’m not gonna hurt myself or off myself, those were very empty threats.