Ever since I was hospitalized due to medical malpractice in May, every waking moment I have is spent worrying about my next panic attack or if I am going crazy. I’m on medication and it barely helps, I feel as if I can’t do anything I used to do. I just do the bare minimum now (work, go places with my girlfriend) and I feel no happiness anymore. The anxiety and depression is too much for me to keep going on like this. My fears are so irrational that anybody I talk to says they are stupid and that makes me feel so much worse. All I do is worry about are things I can’t control like how big the universe is or death. I can’t live the rest of my life like this. Being gone would be better than dealing with this constant fear every second of my life. I don’t want to die but God I need to get better. Is there any hope with this level of anxiety or am I just a lost cause?