So... My girlfriend is really sensitive to noises. About 2 years ago we started working at home because of the pandemic and life simply became hell. She couldn't stand noises from the neighbors anymore. I can't even write about all we've been through since then, it's too painfull just to remember it all. Everything I've tried to do to help failed and now I just feel hopeless and that life life has no meaning. Aside from my job as an employee at a company now I also work as a freelancer (total 60 hours of work a week) because the only thing I can do to help is saving all the money I can for us to buy a new house somewhere quieter for her, but it will be at least 1 more year doing this to save enough. I can't survive one more year doing this, I'm exhausted.

We don't have any fun moment anymore. We don't go out. We just stay all the time in the apartment working and cleaning stuff. She is isolating herself more and more. She complains constantly everyday about how the day is being hard for her because of the noises and I don't know what to say to her anymore. Some days she has panic attacks. Other days she starts crying. And there are days she starts hitting the walls with a chair to annoy one of the neighbors back. Everything I try to say hurts her even more, so I just stay with my mouth shut and hug her when she allows me to. The only thing she wants to do together to forget about her situation is playing videogames, but I'm so sick of it. Everytime I play with her it feels just like an obligation for me. I feel extreme anger, sadness, and resentment. I just wish we could have our life back because what we are doing now is not living.

I've been on medication until January 2021, but I quit taking it because I just felt numb and felt like life was not real anymore. Also I didn't want to see the doctor only to take the prescription. From July 2021 onwards I've been doing psychoanalysis, but I feel it't so draining and it is making me question myself to the point I don't know who I am and what I sant for anymore.  


I'm suffering so much. I don't even know why I'm writing this here, I don't want any advice or anything.