This is a throwaway, because I dont want this linked to other accounts


Context: I have a "thing" about feet. Something that reddit absolutely hates. I have a foot fetish. I'm extremely self conscious about this, and very paranoid about it. I catch myself glancing every once and a while, and I feel extremely guilty about it. I have no one else to tell this to, because it's kind of private and I dont want friends to know about this problem. Even posting this on reddit freaks me out a bit, but I need some support here.


So, I was in class today, and, while working on a project and listening to music, this girl next to me was talking to her friend. As I got back to my chair, I overhear her say, "Hey kid, you're freaking me out". Then she turns over to her friend, and says this. Girl 1 - "I think he has a foot fetish." Girl 2 - "Oh definitely." 

I almost passed out in my chair. Because I was listening to music, I could've misheard something, but I dont think I did. I felt super shaken up and just sick after I heard that. Like, I actually wanted to disappear right then and there. I feel disgusting. Like, I made someone uncomfortable, and now I feel horrible. I was doing extremely well with talking to people and my social anxiety was low, but now I'm at a point where I'm considering skipping that class tomorrow, and even thinking about going to that class is making me sick. 


I just want to curl up into a ball and cry. I always try to be comforting and welcoming of other people, but I'm afraid that I will lose the respect of others I have over this. This sounds fucking ridiculous I know. They probably already forgot about it, but I cant get it out of my head and now I just feel physically and mentally drained of all energy. I wish I could just be normal at this point. I've never wanted to be normal and blend in this much ever before. I just need some support.