Hi,
I spent the last weeks doing reckless stuff like just skipping school or investing in risky stuff. Then my meds ran out and I couldn't bother to get a refill. I started getting more and more irritable until I started weed, which triggered a psychotic episode. I knew immediately something wasn't right but I didn't know if I should go to the hospital or not. Time was skipping and moving back and forth. Sounds were coming all sorts of directions and some were annoyingly loud. I heard voices that just added comments to what I was thinking. Apparently when I got to the hospital, I tried talking to the doctors and nurses but instead I was just thinking so they kept looking at me when I was trying to talk but I didn't realize I wasn't saying anything.

After all of that I was released that day, which is weird because I don't know if I was thinking right at that time. I am still in shocked by what I did and I really don't know if I can trust myself in making any decisions anymore. I am going to see my psychiatrist tomorrow