At my course i’m finding it to hard to manage my emotions and relationships there. I’ve relapsed multiple times since and been on the brink of suicide. I cannot keep relationships with anyone because my ass will obsess over it so hard i get offended by everything and can’t control outbursts at people and splitting on eveyone. I don’t wanna deal with this forever i’ve lost all my friends, education, most of my family to this illness and i just can’t deal with this stigmatised demon anymore.