He's not abusive, he's not mean, but every time I try to break up with him, he says "no."  He says I'll be worse off, that it won't benefit either of us. He thinks I'm sabotaging the relationship because I'm depressed and that I'll regret it in a few weeks. But I don't want to date him. I don't think I'm in a healthy place right now and my BPD doesn't mix well with romantic relationships. I'm overemotional and venty and sad and I don't like myself enough to date anyone. I realize that "flight" is a coping mechanism that stems from my trauma, but I'm allowed to run away if I don't feel comfortable. I don't want to stick through it. He loves me. We've been dating for only a little over a month and I'm eighteen. I just want to disappear.