i have a bad habit of making a close and consistent friend and them becoming a fp, this time around it was someone i’ve been romantically talking to. i know we’re not dating, but he told me about a hookup he had recently and it’s torn me apart. he constantly posts “boyfriend application” jokes, and i feel like all the attention i give him is me being used again. i know he’s not a narcissist like the last fp i had :( but it still really hurts, i should have asked him what he’s looking for long before it got to this point. ive turned down a really good friend who i’ve known since forever recently because i was hoping for a future with this guy and now i can’t even stand to talk to him. he hasn’t been replying to my snaps as much, but will still call me handsome/cute, and it’s really mixed :( i don’t want to even talk to him in fear he’ll just lie to me or i’ll forget about everything and act like nothings ever happened. but i also want to tell him that i don’t think something like this will work if he’s just playing the field. i’m not a casual dater, i feel like i’ve been lying about myself to him too :( idk i’m definitely overthinking with imposter syndrome but my heart been hurting and my only distraction away from my feelings is dissociating at work.