I’ve been back on Wellbutrin 200mg for about 6 weeks now. I had a panic attack yesterday and I’m having an anxiety hangover, so frightened I’ll have another today. I’m sober 8 years and the panic attack scared me so much I couldn’t trust myself to go into the kitchen because I was afraid I’d drink my boyfriends alcohol just to make it stop. I wanted to smash my head on the ground. I know it will pass, but in the moment I want to die. We’re trying for a baby and I’m terrified of having a baby and having panic attacks that I’ll just throw the baby on the floor or something. I start therapy tomorrow but I feel like what is she going to possible say that will help. I already meditate, do wim hof breathing, exercise and do AA meetings every day and it still is there lingering all the time. I’m constantly  on the verge of tears and beat myself up because I have nothing to be so anxious or depressed about! I’m not suicidal, but I just don’t like being alive lately 😣