So I found out that this person that I had a mini-infatuation (not FP-level) with may be seeing someone and I got really mad and kind of backslid on my progress on the ED and SH front.  But I really don’t know this person at all except for my little daydreamed version so I feel like the biggest clown on the planet.  Now every time I see him I get angry and feel ashamed.  He literally acknowledged my existence like twice but here I am starving myself and downing ephedrine like I’m a 90s bodybuilder.