So, I'm a diesel mechanic I re-injured my back, (L3-L4, L4-L5 pressing the sciatic nerve)  Injury is legitimate.  


Basically they tried PT, Pills, injections and refuse to do surgery I'm assuming because it would require fusing the disc which is a lifetime of excruciating pain.  They did offer to do a back stimulator which required a pysch eval......  


Basically I've been in and out of therapy's and psychiatrist off and on my whole life.  The Dr. made it a requirement that I go to psychotherapy before they do anything.  No place local to will accept work comp,   and I cannot find anyone who will accept me as a patient (don't really blame them, i drain the life out of everyone I meet).  


I have no clue what to do, I'm not made of money and I cant simply find a new doctor (Work comp, lawyers ect...)   I've been thinking about lying and saying the pain pills work just so I can be done with this.  My stress level is through the roof and I cannot really trust my own thoughts.  I've snapped on the poor nurse who has to deal with me and I feel really bad.  I've worked so hard to control myself for the past 12 years and everything has been undone in 8 months.    


P.S. not looking for sympathy just need a clear head.