hey guys! before i met my boyfriend i was on an FP cycle trying to fill the void my original FP left after he ghosted me. i talking to about 4-5 guys and they all ended up ghosting me or telling me they don’t want a relationship, which of course triggered me a lot. 

now, i’ve been in a stable relationship with my boyfriend (who is not an FP) for about 8 months. recently, i’ve been thinking about two of my past FPs constantly and i’m craving the chaos that came with the cycle i was on. i feel like i want to break up with my boyfriend and start on the cycle again even though i know that won’t be good for me; craving this chaos is absolutely consuming me and is having significant effects of my mood.

has anyone else here experienced this?