I just don't know what to do.
I have people around me that make me laugh for a second, but then the realization kicks in that I won't ever actually see them and in the end I'm going to sit in my home completely alone, slowly losing my hope for any happiness.

I haven't had anyone to hug, hold close or hell even high five for about three years and even the friends online often ignore me or just leave me hanging for other people.

There is so much more going on in my life, but the constant feeling of loneliness and being unable to fix it, is making me want to simply stop existing.