Life is moving so fast.. i'm not doing what i need to do.. i feel so sad and unmotivated. I feel lazy. AaAAAAAA i know i have a lot of time but.. i've set myself back i think. I'm doing poorly in school, and i didnt apply to any colleges.. i didnt do anything that would make me do well academically. I just dont know what i want to do with my life.. becuz i've been focusing on how i would end my life when i get older but not really on what i should actually do with my life.. BRRRUEHRIDHISNXJDJISBFIEHISBFISI i hate this. I could actually live a nice life if i choose to ya know.. i just.. need help. I feel so frustrated.. i should rlly tell my therapist this ahahaha