Hi,

For a while, I'm been a lurker on the subreddit but never posted/commented anything. 

I'm not even sure where to start but I really am just typing this to get my thoughts out. Starting a year ago in about...June/July I got a sharp pain in my head which I think triggered me into a panic attack (vertigo, lightheaded, feel numb). Every since that day I've struggle with health related anxiety like always thinking I'm having a stroke or heart attack. It's been a long road of ups and downs. At one point I thought I might just be losing my mind. I started going to therapy which has been...interesting. 

Through all of this I felt very alone and didn't really like talking to people about it because it made me feel like I was losing it. I've had many EKG's and doctors visits that left me even more annoyed with anxiety. My left shoulder/arm has been feeling strange/disconnected for most of the year. I think it took me a while to accept I really did have anxiety. I feel like I've lost myself and have been trying to rebuild. Some of which has been great and others not so much. 

Over the summer it seemed like the anxiety chilled out a little but as of the last couple weeks it's been picking up again. I went to urgent care today because the left side of my body has been feeling strange. The only way I can describe it is weak/numb/disconnect but even then it's hard to explain. I don't feel like I did earlier which is good but I have a follow tomorrow with a primary doc. I'm suppose to be getting an MRI. Hopefully that will relieve some stress.

I didn't want to make this post long so hopefully it's not that bad. lately I've been dealing with a lot and I just wanted to get it out. 

Thanks for listening!