I’ve been listening to this whole thing. The way Amber talks and acts is very reminiscent of the way I acted in my past relationship (not the physical abuse besides one instance where I slapped him. I know, I feel terrible about it).

The description of Johnny trying to walk away and Amber following and wanting to continue the argument is very on point. I would drive him nuts doing that.

He would lie to me about things because in his words, he was afraid of how I would react. And then I’d get even more upset because he lied. It was a horrible cycle. He did things wrong too, but this is about me.

I would self harm, and in the back of my head I wanted him to feel bad and comfort me. Incredibly embarrassing to admit and I never admitted any of this stuff to past therapists. 

I feel like an absolutely horrible person for having anything in common with Amber Heard. I have not been diagnosed yet but I relate to a lot of BPD people. It seems likely that I have it.

And I’m not saying everyone with BPD is a shitty partner like I was. I need help. I don’t want to hurt anyone else. I want to be a good girlfriend.