Previous damn near perfect go at it my dumb ass decided to call someone to say goodbye. Mistakes are made in order to learn valuable lessons. I just can’t be here anymore, not like this. My husband hates me and I literally have no one left. I was so used to having to be the strong one in life and now he will never know how much I love him - my world. So yeah, not living in a world without him and my mind is made up. Maybe one day he will stumble across this and perhaps just then know even the slightest amount. He’s an ENTP so maybe he will. 

I’m sorry for being, me.