I took antidepressants for my anxiety and panic disorder for 6 years and stopped taking them 1,5 years ago because they made me feel sick. I had tried 5 different medications. After I stopped taking them my depression got cured. (I developed depression because of my anxiety) Now my anxiety is so severe I can only leave my house once a week and when I do that I’m miserable. There are so many things I’d like to do but I can’t because of my anxiety. I’ve been in therapy since 2015 but they are going to cut me off because they think my anxiety isn’t severe enough. And to be honest, therapy hasn’t helped at all with my anxiety. 
 
My brother has anxiety too and the medication he takes has helped him tremendously and I’m jealous of that. I used to use the same medication and I was very active at that time and even got into a relationship. But, the side effects were too severe and I had to stop using it. 
 
I don’t know what to do. I want to live, Not just be alive. But I don’t miss that buzz feeling in my brain and the odd feeling I had all the time when I used antidepressants. I felt I wasn’t being myself.