Might sound like a stupid question but I’m just wondering because I only know one people irl that get as angry as I use to 

Others I know irl get angry too but not as but not as angry as me 

My dad gets really angry and throws things and hits things, says disgusting things and is threatening and Ive been the same 

I’m much better now, with the help of meditation, DBT, exercise ect but I ruined a really good relationship with my girlfriend because she couldn’t handle my outbursts anymore (I was in therapy for the whole of our relationship) 

I still feel very guilty and bridges have been burnt and it’s my fault but I’m just sat here thinking about my past and wondering if people do get as angry I as I use to or am I just an absolute freak?