Okay I'm gonna rant here so please forgive me. I started university. I made 3 friends they are a good bunch. All of them have a bf/gf. I never thought about having a gf (I'm a male) and i do sometimes feel like i should also have someone important but it seems to me such a hassle and my personality is so lame that who would even be interested in me. I'm a boring person. I had hobbies like drawing but now it feels like a chore. i have not drawn anything for a year or so.
I do not have any interest in anything. I don't like sports. I do like manga/anime but it's been 5-6 months since I consumed this type of content. I don't like to do anything and I don't know why i wasn't like this before.
I sometimes look okay and sometimes so hideous I don't even look at myself. I have premature ejaculation and i feel nothing when i orgasm. I've been feeling nothing for quiet long now. The only thing i have the slightest interest is in listening songs/musics. 
What i want is to feel something. Feel loved. I want to love someone. But when I think of doing such things i feel so tired and the thought which comes into my mind every time is that eventually I'm going to die so why even bother.