Hi everyone. This is my first post so bare with me. I haven’t seen or spoken to my ex in over a year but since then she’s been the only thing on my mind. Everyday she pops into my head and it feels like I can never get her out. No matter what I do I just get so angry at her for leaving. Even after a year of no communication it feels like she left me in a hole I can never get out of. I get so upset each and every day and I can’t handle it anymore. The only thing I look forward to is sleeping cause at least then I can’t think about her. I was wondering if anyone has any advice on how to cope with this sorta thing. 

Also I’m sorry if this post is hard to follow I’m just so in my head right now it’s hard to write this. This is the first big step other than talking to professional I’ve taken into dealing with this, a post online might not seem big but seeing these words written down just destroys me and it’s hard for me to do. I appreciate any replies. Thank you so much if you even read down to this point.