I now realize this is a trend for me. I find someone who likes me, they get like me a lot and then I go way overboard and ruin it. 

i had a FP who I’ve been into for a long time. Turns out she was into me and we started hooking up. She had hesitations and then it abruptly stopped. I try to be OK with it but I’m not no matter how many time she tells me she has strong feelings for me. Somebody doesn’t love me 110% then I’m worthless. What a poor existence

Then of course I try to make it better but only make it worse with constant texts and messages. Trying to win somebody back probably would’ve not ran had I not gone all BPD. 

And now of course the conversations are gone and everything that we had built this great friendship on is ruined. Texts are down to one word answers. It’s super frustrating but not the first time I’ve done this. Why won’t my brain learn?