Years ago before I got help I used to not really have developed thoughts and base my actions based on the first thoughts that I had. I didn’t really think through things, my thoughts just ran and I had no control of them. It makes me sad thinking about how much emotional thoughts had so much control over my actions. 

Now after getting CBT I can think ahead, really develop my thinking more about things and decide not to do something. The change is so different. But just wanted to know if other people experienced this kind of ... lack of deep thinking. I hope this makes sense to someone