So I had a video conversation with a French psychiatrist. I spoke English with him since I‘m still learning French. 

I told him that I feel totally numb, rarely feel sad or happy, that I often have weird body sensations and I am fucking tired two hours after getting out of bed.

He asked me for my level of sadness on a scale of 1-10 and I told him 3 because I don‘t really feel sad (what is sad even supposed to mean? I didn’t even feel sad when my grandpa died).

Pretty much that was his reason why he thought I don‘t have depression or maybe only a very light one. The whole call lasted 15 minutes. I must admit that the doctor was really nice but I don‘t know how competent he was. 

Is it normal to use sadness as a reason for not having depression? I thought it was a normal symptom of depression to rather feel nothing at all than being sad all the time?