please don't tell me I'm too young, I've heard it way too much already, i'm 14 and I'm way too confused about too many things  I'm just gonna list them as to make it easier to read them

1. school, everyone knows the shit's a fuckin' pressure cooker but besides that, I got dropped from ap classes and I Don't know how to tell my parents for the life of me I've already dissapointed them sooooooooooooooooo much, it's long to emphasize how much I dissapointed them, who's to say this semester will be better than the last?

2. where's my life going? you look all over the place and even the grown up aren't happy with their lives,  am I just gonna be a 40 year old living in my mom's basement? where is all this going? even if by some miracle if I get through highschool, college sounds worse, and whatever comes after sound even worse, why must life suck?

3.i Don't have friends, i'm probably gonna die alone, i'm so ugly that no one will ever look my direction, I hate myself, I'm scared I'll end up doing something stupid,

there's more but three's the magic number and i'mma stop here