I feel so frustrated. I feel like I want to scream until my voice gives out. I want to get in my car and keep driving until I run out of gas. I want to run until I pass out. I want to be held until my pain melts away. I want someone to care. I want someone to see me. I want to slice my arms open. I want to sob so hard I can't breathe. I want to cut all my hair off. I want to dance until my feet bleed. I want to get drunk. I want to sleep for eternity. But I don't do any of those things. I sit in silence. Staring at nothing. I feel like this is hell and I'm already dead