I get so tired of pwBPD becomming the "dumping ground" of fault and blame in any interpersonal dynamic because the behaviors are often more *overt* or recognizable to the idiot masses. 

I get tired of pwBPD having to "own up" to their shit and go through deceptions, distortions and delusions with a fine-tooth comb to develop greater self-awareness and heal,  when the less disordered or those  absent diagnosis  get to slither away from personal accountability and keep all their own BS 'in tact' because they are less dysregulated and can *hide* it from the self and others better.  

I get tired of those involved wpwBPD being seen as some kind of angel, savior, healer, or enlightened being (including *some* therapists) because they cast a narrative that their intent is pure and noble, when the fucking truth is that they are just as codependent exploitive and unhealthy it just manifests in more socially acceptable ways.

I get tired of the label being used as a character attack or excuse to invalidate the perception, experience and reactions of pwBPD when it is *well-known* that those with extensive trauma become primary targets and scapegoats for those with less emotional reactivity but greater callousness and calculation. 

I get tired of pwBPD having to *accept* "while the trauma isn't your fault, the responsibility to heal it IS" when those who *choose* to involve themselves in adult relationships wpwBPD get to marinate in their victimology, and clan up with various witch hunts and character assinations, insisting BPD abuse is just so *advanced* and *supervillainous* it *magically* flew past the fucking fully formed, supposedly less- disordered, adult psychic structure... when the trauma which created pwBPD was something incurred in infancy/childhood with little to NO psychic defense and often caused by caregivers a pwBPD had absolutely no choice but to rely on. 

I do understand the **futility** in the pain/blame compeition, it's a very hard pill that anyone with BPD has no choice but to swallow... or suffer more. I see many pwBPD share this understanding.  

**Can those involved wpwBPD say the same?** Where is the 'movement' to increase *that* awareness?