I really don't want to sound awful and seem like I self-diagnosed, but I'm sure I have BPD.  It's starting to ruin me and my partner, which makes me sick to my stomach.  I had an awful episode yesterday and RAN to the GP to get registered (moved to a new area fairly recent) because I need to go somewhere and get help.  I need meds, I need to talk to somebody...I need to feel somewhat normal even if it won't 100% go away.  But I'm just so scared of how crap the NHS can be.  I don't want to be told "oh you're depressed"...NO BRO IT RUNS DEEPER AND NO ONE CAN SEE IT.   Not even my partner.  I'm literally crying out for help and people don't want to hear me.

So...UK people, I beg you to walk me through the process.  I'm slowly losing my sanity.