person I’ve been in a relationship with for 6 years doesn’t fucking give a shit about me anymore. im not about to ctb over one person but it doesn’t seem like anyone cares anymore. no one ever has. ive just been pretending and lying to myself that all these people give a fuck when in reality these fucking people no matter how deeply I love them and give them love they never cared in the first place. And everything is awful all of the time. I’m so fucking empty and when I’m not it’s the most intense feelings possible. And the whole world is a piece of shit. I can’t fucking cope with anything anymore. I’m so deprived of purpose and I’m too tired to look for it anymore. Nothing gets better no matter what I do no matter how hard I try to better myself and I feel like for the first time I’m actually seeing suicide as a viable option and not just something I fantasize about anymore it’s real now it’s an actual possibility and I can’t deal with anything I can’t even cry right now because I’m in public I can’t dven talk to the one person that claimed she fucking loved me for almost a decade I just want to cut myself af bleed out and fucking die I just want to overdose and bleed and stop breathing that’s all that I think about anymore