the whole point of me breaking up with him was so i could just die. everytime i tried before i’d think about him and how it would break his heart. 

now that i’ve broken up with him i don’t even want to commit suicide anymore. i hate it i just want him back. i fucking miss him. i thot it was what i wanted but i really want him back in my life. i don’t know what to do. someone please help me some please help