Wemt to doctor, talked to him and went through some tests and whatnot and he said it is highly likely im bipolar. which makes sense and wish i would've been diagnosed in the first 19 years of my life instead of finding out by chance of "hey this medication has never worked and i feel bad for weeks at a time please help i dont know how much longer i can last"

So haha im in the family now guys wooo!!!! 

Also got referred to psychologist woohoo