I’ve had issues with depression since I was a teenager and have largely just managed them myself but in January this year I was diagnosed with it and anxiety after I finally sought help as it became really bad over the Christmas period.

My wife, who also has depression, has been super supportive and understanding but I feel that I’ve now become a burden to her.

In my attempts to get better I’ve changed jobs, done a lot of CBT, and been on Sertraline for some time now, but I still don’t feel like I’m getting any better.

As much as I feel the change of job has helped, I’ve taken a £14k paycut to do it and I’m still trying to sort my finances out to cover that loss of income. Where as before I used to pay a lot of household stuff as I earned more than my wife I’m now having to ask her to share a lot more of the bills which I feel guilty about.

I’m tired all the time and struggle to find much of interest to do, and there are things around the house that I know need doing but I’ve just left. I still do the important things like shopping, taking out rubbish, etc, but things like non-urgent repairs I just don’t have the motivation or energy to sort.

Last night when my wife came home from work about 5pm I was half-asleep and ended up sleeping til about 8pm. When I headed downstairs she was clearly unhappy but didn’t want to talk about it and just went up to the spare bed without saying anything. 

I feel like she’s just had enough of me, when I’m not getting better after all this time, and I do feel she’d be better off without me.