They creep into your mind as you slowly rise from a deep slumber. A deep slumber that only meds can get me, but the feelings of dread know the working of my mind and know ways around the meds. Those thoughts get in my head before I even wake. No one should wake up to this anguish, labored breathe, and thoughts of impending doom.

Do I have some coffee and try to wait this out or, like many days, just go straight to the meds.

Anxiolytics in the day, anti-depressives at night, numerous other meds throughout the day.

I'm tired.