He said our relationship had become toxic. 14 yrs of trying to get him to understand me and 14 yrs of me trying to trust him finally broke us. I don’t think he would ever “get me” and all my moods and all my faults but I feel like such a failure. I let me insecurities drive wedges between us. I didn’t know how to pick myself up for him or our kids. I didn’t realize how much I needed him until now. Life is so dark right now. I feel more broken than before. I always knew I was difficult to love but I thought he would be there regardless. I was wrong.