Exactly one year ago my life fell apart due to my own stupidity and selfishness. That’s the shittiest part…there is actually no one to blame other than myself. I was headed back from a funeral out of state and tried to hang myself in the airport bathroom. 
For a year now, every single day I have regretted not being able to do it. Every day has been agony. Absolutely nothing has changed for the better, other than that I made a stupid promise not to try again. Now I just feel impossibly stuck living this life that I don’t want, but everyone else does. I think it’s more out of pity. 
I had everything. A loving home, family, boyfriend. And I messed it all up. Today is hard.