Hello everyone I am sorta new to reddit so please be kind. I am a 19(M) ever since I was 15 I've started working at jobs I am 19 now and haven't missed a single day of work, I grew up without a father and never had a hometown since i always moved. I was homeschooled and made ZERO interactions with kids my age nor did I ever make any friends, so my social skills are very very poor. I have never had a girlfriend, true friends, or a good family. 

The past 2 years I've fallen into some kind of anxiety/depression hole and it has been draining the sh*t out of me, I work a full time job 5 days a week and on the weekends I have another job JUST to support myself and my family, I have no health insurance so I am not 100% sure if I have depression or not but I am scared it's already happened just very mild as of now. I do tend to think about sui*ide every once in a while when I have a really bad breakdown.

I stress everyday, my hair falls out all the time, I have absolutely ZERO friends, I feel like nobody cares about me and that makes me feel hopeless, and the past week I haven't felt hungry at all, I used to eat a lot but now i can barely eat a small slice of pizza, absolutely nothing motivates me to do anything anymore and nothing makes me feel happy. I am starting to think that this is it and there is no hope, I am not really looking for advice on here because I already know what EVERYONE is going to say so it honestly doesn't make a difference, I want to hear yalls stories to see if anyone has the same feeling I do.

P.s  Sorry if I'm all over the place with my story it's hard for me to focus sometimes