I have a small group of 3 friends they've all been friends since kindergarten and I entered my last semester of high school so this friend-ship is about 6 years old. I considered them to be pretty much the only friends I've ever had. I really loved all of them but the last few years have been hell to me. 

I have BPD and they all have a general anxiety diagnose. So I tend to vent to them obviously they're my friends but everytime I'm having a bad day or just need someone to acknowledge me I always get this reply "oh yea I feel like that too I'll just start talking about my problems instead" and I'm stuck feeling like they actually don't care. I'll also jump into conversation sometimes and it just stops as soon as I'm there. My snaps go unread for hours if not days with no reply. I've been just stewing in my rage about this for years and I feel like I'm going to explode. 

I actually got married a few months ago and one of them was my maid of honor and she told me to my face that I looked like "the lights was on but nobody was home". I was  dissociated the entire day and it breaks my heart because it was the one day I wanted a clear memory of. It felt like a stab to the back when she told me that and now guess who's getting married? Her and I'm in her wedding. I have so much rage towards her that I've really considered not showing up.

I understand that they have lives and are not supposed to baby sit me or be my mom but I've picked them up so many times and answered calls and listened to them cry on the phone about a boy while I was manic and trying to hold myself together. I understand anxiety sucks I have it and I have at least a whole years worth of being their therapist under my belt. I'm not saying that their disorder isn't valid but I just need someone to say hey dude chill sometimes and send me a meme, say anything back. They could reply back with "fuck you" and it would feel like a hug to me.

I'm just so ready for this wedding to be over with so they'll forget about me. 

Am I wrong? Am I the problem?