i need help trying to figure out what’s wrong with me. everyday feels like a constant tug of war with my own self, i always have these thoughts that’s mock my own self and constantly attack me and anything that anyone says can set it off. i constantly experience moods in highs or lows that switch rapidly, for example i went to the mall with a couple of friends and was having a great time and got a long with everyone but all of a sudden i just didn’t want to be around everyone and kept constant walking off without saying anything, i even pretended to “get lost” and actively ignored my friends directions so i didn’t have to be with them and when they found me i acted happy but i  just felt dread fill my body and i don’t know why i was like that. my emotions are starting to become a problem, my girlfriend has to get into me about my anger and the more i get irritated or angry i can slowly feel like i’m losing a sense of control and i even lose complete control of my impulses and just do things without thinking about it. i keep telling myself all of this is nothing and i’ll be fine soon but it’s been six months and i still feel like this and it’s getting worse.