I go to school and am boring, I come home with family and I’m boring. Anxiety cause me to be completely isolated. I’m not even comfortable with family. I have absolutely no one I can be myself around. I don’t even know “myself.” Anxiety has stripped any personality I may have had. I’m dull. A shell of a person. I don’t have the willpower to act as if I have personality because I don’t even know my personality. I’ve always had anxiety but it’s become increasingly worse, to the point where I feel like it’s worse than my depression. That’s saying something because I’m pretty depressed most of the time. I feel like I’m unwelcome in any situation, even if people are trying to be friendly with me. “They only feel bad for you. “You’re uncool and care too much about everything so they think you’re lame.” I’m too awkward to even answer a simple question. I want to die. I can’t fucking deal with this shit anymore. I see everyone else having fun with their friends, but I can’t have any. I have a good day and feel like they like me, but the next day I’m crying Because I feel like they don’t actually like me. I can’t connect at all. A lot of people with anxiety say they have a couple friends and family they can be normal around, but I don’t even have that. I’ve never talked to someone about my feelings. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I can’t do anything about it. I feel like I’ve lost myself and it scares tf out of me.