I'll be honest, my house is absolutely filthy. It's a positive feedback loop that just keeps getting worse and worse. More trash around means less spoons to get rid of it.

I can sit and do nothing all day, but be thinking "I should clean today" for every second of it. I even have the good trash bags, the gloves, the vicks, and a shovel. Why can't I just do it?

I see random obstacles stopping me, but even knowing they're realistically minor they're mentally insurmountable. What if the neighbors notice that I'm taking a ton of trash out? Why can't I just walk down the stairs and to the dumpster? Why is laying in bed all day simultaneously the only thing I can do, but also the last thing I want to do?