I lost a kid. No amount of therapy has helped and taking medication is off the table. That is the biggest yet just the surface of my issues. I literally have no support, everyone says they're sorry or cares but nobody has been there for me to lean on. Trying to talk out my problems hasn't helped. I lost interest in everything and feel dead inside. I dont eat, get little sleep, and as a veteran feel like I need to tough it out. Yet when I try to get help the toughing it out turns into my mind telling me I'm fine or dont need help or i get severe anxiety and panic and dont get help. It's a vicious cycle of suffering.