How do you guys cope with never being consistently happy? I feel like whenever my life is in a stable position and I feel like eventually I could be happy, something happens and any possibility of not being so depressed and unstable just slips through my fingers. It feels so unfair and defeating. I've been on medication rotating different combinations and dosages of pills since 2020 and nothing ever changes. Even when my life changes- new people, new city, new situation, new opportunities to find happiness, I'm always followed and overshadowed by this sadness and constant anxiety and doubt. I obsess over the past and dread the future and the present moment can never just be happiness. I don't know what the point of being here is if I'm always observing other people going out and living life and getting to be happy but I never ever get to be the one who gets to be happy even if only for one whole day. How do you guys cope with similar feelings? I don't mean to depress anyone or be cynical about this disorder but lately I've been feeling like all of my symptoms will always be the defining thing about me. I just want to feel happy but I don't know if that's ever going to be possible for me.