Long time lurker, first time poster (under a throwaway).

I've decided that I need to friend-breakup with my FP today. She and I were inseparable for a year (2016), and then I told her how I felt about her and she got distant in 2017, including a month where we didn't speak and she found herself a boyfriend.

They are getting serious, and I just know it's going to get harder and harder for me as she's getting closer to him, so I'm going to walk away to hopefully save myself some anguish. But I am absolutely devastated that it has come to this. 

She once told me that my emotions make her "physically ill" , so it'll probably be for the best. She'll get to form a closer relationship with her boyfriend without having to worry about me pining over her.

I feel like I'm ripping my heart out, and my chest is tight and aching.