 hi everyone i am a 21 year old boy lately i feel really just sad angry and full of hate now i feel like no one could save me ,    
I hate everyone and everything, I want to be honest, I think they are all stupid and ignorant and no one can be able to understand me , i'm so lonely that i have a vacuum in my stomach a few times, lately i'm starting to fantasize a lot about committing some killing , I have a strong perverse desire to ruin and make people suffer, the families of the victims and cause as much pain as possible , the only reason why I don't decide to do this is because I don't want to hurt my family, and because I still have high expectations for the future ,   
but I feel that if I don't succeed I don't want to settle for a mediocre life and I could really do something like this, save this post maybe one day it will become famous who knows ;)