Im depressed with passive suicidal thoughts with a dash of self harming, I have some sort of undiagnosed depression/anxiety and every day I feel more and more isolated from everything and everyone. Everyone in life around me seems to be going forward with life and seem truly happy but why me. Why am I the one whose a loser with these stupid thoughts. Im striving for a career but I really feel like im losing this battle. Ive already passed the numb stage and now I feel like if I go I go. I really really feel like im unimportant and like im truly not ok. Ive had my fair share of childhood trauma but I should not be depressed right, I still have a family with food and a house but im not 'there.' Im the black sheep of my family and that's helped me feel more isolated. Ive hinted to my friends/family that im definitely not ok but they've brushed it off. im not ok.