in high school, i was seen by a therapist and diagnosed with anxiety/depression and then I was put on medication for it. I think it was Sertraline? But then I started getting lazy with the medication after a while and stopped cold turkey. Then in college, I felt like my anxiety/depression was getting kind of bad again so I decided to get on it again. It was in 2020 though when I was thinking of joining the army so I wanted to go off my medication for good so I don’t rely on it, and I pretty much stopped it completely again. I haven’t been on it since, and I’ve overall felt okay although I can’t help but think that being on medication would help me out so much. I’ve been struggling with obsessive tendencies that cause anxiety, and thinking about my life situation right now honestly makes me feel a little depressed. I’m scared that if I were to make big changes in my life (like get a full time job after only working part time, getting a significant other, or if something bad happens in my life) I won’t be able to cope. Being on that medication didn’t make me feel like I was on top of the world, but that steady, easy going feeling was good enough for me

I don’t want to keep going on and off these meds, and I don’t want to be reliant on them either. However I’m naturally an anxious person and I’ve come to realize that no matter what I’m most likely always going to be like this. What should I do?