After battling with depression for a very long time I've finally decided to muster up the courage to seek professional help. I reached out to my GP, she didn't answer the phone. I called like 10 times and sent several emails over several days. Again, no answers. After a while I decided to try to look for a psychiatrist on my own. I found 2 open time slots in fucking AUGUST for a psychiatrist. I can't wait 5 god damn months. So I checked private clinics. Their wait times were way shorter, but a single 45 minute visit costs 150€. I can't afford that. 

The public health system is a fucking joke. People keep telling me to look for professional help and that depression doesn't get better on it's own but when I tried doing that I got rejected.