Does anyone ever want to die but not because you are suicidal but because you just want everything to stop and you know thats a definitive way it will all stop? I am on edge all the time and I don’t think I’m truly happy. I have no idea who I am and who I’m becoming. I think I’m too self aware to not be able to forgive myself. I don’t think I’m a bad person, but I wonder if in a technical, fated way, I am one. I wonder if I’m meant to never succeed and to be a failure.