At first, I was just a little afraid of something like the recent incident in Texas. Now, I am very afraid of something like the recent incident in Texas. I teach at a school with connections to a supreme court judge. The school was doxxed a little while ago and I can only imagine the ill-intentioned people who poured over the website, including my page. 

I've been treated for anxiety for years, but this is putting me over the top. I've got my door double-locked and I'm even too worked up to take my dog for a walk. I keep thinking something horrible is going to happen to the kids immediately after we reopen and I don't know what will take that feeling away. I'm so afraid that someone might get hurt and I have no idea how I even got here. I'm a teacher, man. I shouldn't worry about anything like this. But I'm sitting in my half-dark house so worried that I'm sobbing. I constantly feel like I'm going to puke and I'm sweating so much that I smell disgusting. What is even going on? How did I get here? How did we, as a species, get here? Why are we hurting kids over stuff that doesn't really matter in the slightest?