Lately, I can’t tell if a thought/decision/action is my own. Or a version that my BPD has created. Especially in complex situations. For example, if something’s not going my way, it’s somewhat easier to understand that if my reaction is angrier, it’s coming from my BPD. 

I find that the more self-aware I become, the more I’m questioning myself. I don’t want to end up blaming BPD for things I may later regret. 

Does that make sense? 
I’m still new in this journey. I was only diagnosed a few months ago so I think there are some things I still need to understand and come to terms with. But right now, this has been on my mind a lot. 

“Is it me? Or is it the BPD?”

Any advice?