I know whatever don’t self diagnose but I know myself best and there’s literally no way I don’t have bpd. I’ve suspected this for years now,  it’s only getting worse I literally feel like am continually ruining my whole life. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety at a very young age but I never did well in therapy as I was quiet growing up but I do currently take antidepressants. I’m turning 23 this year and my current love life is a disaster, I don’t really have close friends because I push everyone away and a lot of my relationships with my family is strained too. All I’ve ever wanted is to love and be loved and somehow I still screw it up with absolutely everyone. Now how do I go from that and having every single symptom of bpd I’ve came across to getting actually diagnosed and feeling like everyone will just further hate me due to so much stigma that I also see online. I feel like I’ve met my soulmate and I’m scared they will run if I do get a diagnosis because like I said my love life is already a disaster at my hands due to major splitting, abandonment issues, jealousy, etc. I just need support idk i haven’t been single since I was 12 and I’m terrified of being alone yet I fuck it up with everyone still