**- What does an episode feel like when it’s ramping up for you?
- Are you aware even while it’s beginning to happen?
- And what are the triggers? 
- Do you avoid said triggers then?**

I feel like I’ve come down from an episode (the prolonged presence of somebody triggered me).

I don’t know how else I could have managed it. I’m disappointed in myself for even having a trigger as silly as an in-law. It’s like advanced level self-compassion, affirmations, self-esteem, etc. 
it’s very hard for me.