I'm 21 weeks pregnant and I think I'm suffering with depression, again. I do have a history of depression and anxiety. But even in the second trimester I still get so sad I want to off myself. Not currently suicidal btw. I feel so alone, I can't go to my family, I don't have friends, I don't want to stress out my partner either. I stress myself our more because I know mothers hormones can affect the baby thus "feeling" mothers emotions. Part of me thinks I should've gotten an abortion when I had the chance. But I really am so happy to have a baby. I hope my doubts go away soon. I feel guilty about it.