First i just wanted to say thanks to all the people on this subreddit, i discovered it few weeks ago and it really feels good to know they are other people like me. Also i wasnt diagnosed with BPD but i relate a lot about what people says here so sorry if i shouldn't post on this sub. 

Anyway i met this girl online about 4 month from now and she was really interested in me, i know it because she always wanna talk to me even when i rejected her because of my fear of abandonment. We talked a lot every days after that and i finally met her irl for 4 days 3 weeks ago and it was the best time i had in years. But since i got back she doesnt seem to want to talk to me anymore, i always have to begin the conversation and she takes hours and sometimes days to answer. I'm in love with her and thinks about her all the time (literally) im always checking my phone to see if she send me something but she never did.

My mood depends on if she speaks to me or not and i can't take it anymore. I tried to tell her but she havent done anything. I know she also have her own issues (she tried to kill herself lasy year) and i dont want to hurt her. I really dont know what to do and i have 0 experience with girls and people in general and i have nobody to talk about it.

Thank you for reading this (and sorry about my english)