I very occasionally smoke. Maybe once every 2 months or more. 

When I don’t smoke weed, I do feel rather paranoid on a general basis. I feel like my life is part of a TV show/experiment run by aliens. There’s a specific guy who’s name I won’t mention who I think is going to kill me. Sometimes I feel like bugs are crawling on me and I hear voices/see things BUT the medication I’m on has mostly stopped that aspect of it. 

When I smoke weed though, I start hearing/feelings things again. I also feel like I’m actively peeing myself and have to keep checking I’m not. I don’t feel real. Everything I look at starts to look different and scary. I get horrible paranoid and intrusive thoughts, much worse than I normally have. Everything gets stronger and I feel like the aliens are going to abduct me.