I got my first job at a subway. It got it purely because of reference. I'm so proud myself that I came this far. I had severe social anxiety disorder since high school. I'm 19 rn. I have moved to new country alone. It has been 4 months since my arrival. I could have gotten job earlier but it took me a lot of time to adapt to the environment. I never used to order by myself in my home country or even used to go out much. Pandemic never helped my anxiety too.

I recently got out a relationship so it has been adding a lot to my anxiety rn. Even though my relationship was 2 weeks only, I was the one who called it off all because of my anxiety and insecurities. The relationship and the breakup really ruined my progress with anxiety. I've been thinking alot because of it. I can't even go to my friend's house because my ex lives there. I started to hate myself a lot after calling off our relationship. This is not helping with anxiety for my upcoming  first day of my job. 

Any positive thoughts and words of encouragements are really appreciated. I'm really scared for my first day.