I really hate ranting but I really need to let this out somewhere. I relapsed to self harm after a couple of weeks staying clean a while ago and I fell back again because my boyfriend finds one way or another to make me feel like shit and it is starting to get to me. I understand it is draining dating a person like me but all I just want is love for who I am.. not my body. He doesn't even know when my birthday is nor my favourite song, not that it matters. I want to forgive him for messing up a while ago but a recent realisation isn't letting me do that. I am seeking professional help by the next day but I don't think I have the guts to tell her about him considering my family is really religious and against dating.