So I'm diagnosed with GAD and on medication (Pregabalin) and it worked miracles while I was at home for four weeks on paid health leave (sorry I'm Polish so don't rely know how it's called) but my contract ended so they fired me and i found new job.

Today was a second day at my new job and it's easy and it's the first time I'm in charge of people and being some kind of manager so I'm super hyped but while coming back from work I had this enormous urge to commit suicide and thinking bout how it would be made me incredibly calm.

Till i realized how incredibly sick this urge was and then I freaked out. I'm home alone and took lorafen to calm down, my wife won't be home for a few hours and she's mad at me anyway so I thought sharing it with you might help.