I was recently admitted to a psychiatric hospital for a very short period of time after an unsuccessful suicide attempt. I was diagnosed with bpd at 18 but then with bipolar at 19. Pretty sure I don't have bpd.

One doctor who I never spoke to wrote in my journal that I didn't mean to die I just wanted to harm myself and that it was reasonable to have me stay admitted because I had a "serious personality disorder with risk of impulse actions". He said I had been "observed by passers-by with what seems to be the intention to jump".

Kind of feels like he's really just saying I did it for attention and it was on impulse because I had bpd. Or just with any diagnosis I'm sick of everyone always assuming why I'm doing x or assuming how I feel or how I am.