I’m 21F and I’m just so tired of my life. I can’t even say I’m tired of pretending to be ok because I don’t act ok in the slightest and nobody in my life cares. 

I’m the bread winner of my household (my mother and younger siblings) and I’m exhausted. My mother is physically disabled and also tbh sorta stupid if I’m being honest. I feel like I’m her parent and she literally just lacks common sense. I work at a club to pay all her and my bills because if I don’t she’ll end up on the street. 
 I’m so overwhelmed and exhausted of working long nights , not getting home til 5am and then I still feel broke because all of her bills and medical expenses take most of my money. She isn’t eligible for EBT anymore and just got cut off and now the cost of food to feed my whole family is literally putting me in a deficit. All of my money goes towards keeping a roof over everyone’s head and I’m so tired of it and it feels like nobody cares how overwhelmed I am. I’m in credit debt that I can only pay off a chip at a time because all of my money goes towards my mom and siblings. I can’t even get my impacted wisdom teeth removed because I can’t afford the surgery or afford to miss 1-2 weeks of work because I don’t get PTO. 


If I reach out to my friends all of them are so apathetic and ignorant to the gravity of the situation and just say “let her figure it out , do you man” or some nonchalant “be positive” statement or tell me “just don’t pay her bills anymore” like letting my mom be homeless is a simple solution to my issues.

My boyfriend is the same I can literally tell him I feel drained and exhausted and he just doesn’t get it and is still apathetic to how mentally exhausted I Am

I don’t expect anyone to help me out financially but I feel so isolated knowing not a single person in my life cares that I feel like I’m drowning. I truly feel like k*lling myself because I can’t take it anymore