I thought i was everything in the entire DSM including schizo but Now I think I have My Answer. I’m currently fucking bawling my eyes out on the inside reading this entire subreddit realizing I’ve been cycling through FPs my whole life. I have like 3 right now. I have a life partner on the “side.” I hate myself. I don’t want to live with this anymore.I fall in love with everyone. I’m not okay. I can’t even physically cry because I’m inebriated. 

I just read a XXXXL post about what it’s like to be an FP. I’ve never wanted to un-alive more than right now. I need help. I’m on antipsychotics. They don’t help. They only dull me. Help. Help. Help. 

Am i schizo? Help?  I need someone to relate or nonrelate to feel sane. I know I am Not Sane though. I am literally in a state of psychosis. It’s on and off through life. I need help. I need answers. Doctors won’t listen long enough to hear it all. I can’t do this anymore. Help. Help. Help. Help.