I really feel like I’m going insane… I don’t know what to do. My anxiety and DPDR have gotten so bad the past couple of weeks, the brain fog is killing me and my obsessive thoughts have spiraled. I have two main obsessions and that feed into my anxiety. 

One, is I’m worried I’m pregnant, even though I did not have sex. And I keep looking up my symptoms and they all say they might be signs of early pregnancy which is so scary and I can’t talk to anybody about it.

Two, I will either die in my sleep or wake up with sleep paralysis. This has caused me to stay up till 3 in the morning and getting only 4-5 hours of unsatisfying sleep. I am so fatigued. I am tired mentally and physically.

My DPDR has gotten horrible… everyday feels like a fuzzy dream. I feel like I’m on drugs. I hate it.

I’ve also been mean and clingy to people I love and I’m terrified they hate me and will leave me. I cry over everything and tell myself I will change but I never do. I feel so lost and I don’t know how to ask for help from anyone.