I don't know why I'm so scared. I wish I could just chill and not worry like other people tell me to. 


I'm 20... not a little kid. But mean people, passive aggressive people, they kinda scare me. My hiring manager is very mean.. people tell me to not let her walk all over me and she'll leave me alone, but I can't be MEAN. 

This is real life... you get stepped on, or you step on others. And I really don't like stepping on people.. 

People really don't understand anxiety... 

So many things have happened at my very new job between me and my hiring manager, she's yelled at me in front of customers while I was working, she threw money at me and told me she would've done better... she has a passive aggressive attitude full of rolling eyes and stomping away, taking things from me and doing what I'm supposed to be doing really fast because I'm too "slow" for her.. 

I know it's my fault.. these are things I should be doing up to her standard, but. I'm just bothered.. 

Some people just, don't understand anxiety, and give me advice such as "you have to not let it bother you" and "it's just a job, not a career" and "chill out". I just, feel like I'm have so much trouble following their advice. 

Thank you for listening ❤