I feel so fucking stupid when i say literally anything. I feel like i create a word salad and can't exactly pin point what I'm trying to say, i sometimes say shit i think makes sense, when in reality i don't even know why the fuck I'd ever say that. People often get confused by my posts or me talking in general. It's like i can't form coherent sentences. And often times, people misinterpret what I'm trying to say, which is absolutely scary for me. 
I often times miss out on details, it's like i magically forget the things i wanted to say. I beat myself up so much over this. I wish I did better. I feel like my brain has so much shit in it and when I try putting it into words it turns into a soup. 
I can't communicate with people normally, I use random song lyrics or phrases that I think are funny during conversations. Then I get weird looks. It's like an addiction I swear. 
I'll never understand myself. No one will probably.