Perhaps my most long-term BPD symptom is likely my unstable relationships with friends and I have had these issues since I was a child, yet I still can't seem to get over it. I feel like all my friendships have some sort of "honeymoon phase" where I just love this new friend and am totally happy with our friendship, but eventually after a couple months, it ALWAYS happens - I convince myself that they don't care about me or that I deserve better than them. Over the past few years, it's been specifically triggered by (their) lack of responses. When I text something in my groupchats and gets ignored, I take it irrationally personal and perceive it as they don't care about what I have to say despite me purposely taking the effort and care to reply to every person's messages. I KNOW it's selfish in my mind to be mad that not everyone has to be invested in my boring thoughts but I just can't help the feeling that I'm being "wronged" and want to cut people off because "I deserve better friends." I'm really not sure how to deal with this aspect of BPD yet it's affected my life the most. Does anyone else have similar stories or insight?