I'm just alone. I don't know why but I feel the need for a significant other. Not for sex or anything. But someone who just gets me. Someone who understands everything fucked up about me. Or everything wrong about me. I feel like I'm just on this never ending cycle. I wake up, go to school, come home, play games, and sleep. With eating and going to the bathroom in between those. That's everyday of my life. I feel nothing. There's nothing to look forward too. Life seems dull and boring. Like everything goes away at some point so why have anything. I know I gotta push and try to be the best version of myself no matter what, but God damn. I'm fucking numb. No happy, no sad, no angry. It's just like everytime something like that happens where an emotion of that nature is needed, it's just a command of laughing, getting mad. But I don't actually feel that emotion. I listen to sad music to try and feel sad for the simple need of emotions. I feel like nothing. I feel like life is just the same thing over and over