I'm at a stage where everything just sucks. It's been like this for years, I've been doing work on myself, thinking things will get better. But it's just gotten worse and I don't see any way it could get better.

I've done my best to be nice to everyone around me, I'm definitely not perfect, but who the fuck is??

I've cut out the nasty people who were using me for their own gains, the fake ones, the toxic ones. 

  
I'm lonely as fuck, the people I know I used to call friends have betrayed, other ones avoid me, and the ones who are still sticking around aren't really adding any value to my existence. I see them as a waste of my energy.

I don't have any social connection, a support system, if I died tomorrow no one would give two shits. I'll be forgotten in less than a week. My death would be seen as an inconvenience to deal with rather than an actual loss.

I wouldn't feel sorry for anyone who has to deal with my death because what have these people done to prevent it?

You leave someone alone who's clearly struggling and then call them selfish if they end their life because they're surrounded by self-absorbed cunts who can't see past their own nose and like to ignore your existence because they see you as a burden.

Change my mind.