Everyone knows the basic struggle of being young and not knowing what you want as a career, but this feels so different. Not only do i not know what i want as a career, it’s constantly switching. I’ll pick up these hobbies i want to stick to and gradually make it become my career, but i never stick to them for more than a month, sometimes shorter. I’m always asking myself who i am, what are my morals, what do i want for myself and what do i want to do with my life. I can never get a grasp of who I am, it feels very confusing. Sometimes i’ll look in the mirror and just ask myself who i am hoping that it will help bring me back to reality and truly think about who i am. Does anyone have any advice at all of being able to find yourself while living with BPD?
All my friends/family just say “you’re abbie(my name) you’re amazing!” But i just don’t even know who Abbie is anymore. I’m constantly changing and feeling empty and lost when i can’t figure it out.