2018 was the year i started to develop suicidal ideation, sh, and it was also the time when i struggled with bulimia and restrictive eating. then i got diagnosed with ana and md two years ago. i have never recovered from them until now, even with medication. i don't know what's wrong with me, i've always felt so down without a reason. i stopped taking meds this year because i don't think it helped anymore. stopped attending therapy because i didn't know what to tell my counselor. i obviously have problem but i can't pinpoint the source.