Tomorrow, on may 4th it will be a year since I last tried to kill myself. I still remember crying at the ER after I failed to overdose and yet, I've lived another year. It's still pretty bad, but I never thought I'll live to being 19. 

Also, tomorrow I have my matura exams, which are basically polish equivalent of SATs. I've never imagined living that long. 

Take care guys and wish me luck 

; Susan