I have been struggling with depression for years. I'm doing all the right things. I see a counselor, I take medication, I'm very socially connected, I'm happily married and have a lot of friends, and I try to focus on the positives. Yet no matter how hard I try, my depression is still with me. And it hurts.

So I am trying to make something useful out of my depression. I'm hoping I can use it to make myself better for all of the people around me.

I am trying SO hard to understand that if I have this much pain, there must be many other people out there who are hurting as well. Therefore I want to have more compassion for others, be more patient, and be nicer to other people.

And when I'm tired, or frustrated, or angry with other people, I'm trying to use my own depression to motivate me to continue my efforts to be better for those around me.

Perhaps my depression can turn into a good thing. Maybe it can help me be a better person. I'm going to give it a shot.

Wish me luck!

: )