I’m not sure if anyone else has felt this way, I feel really alone in this to be completely honest.

I have this constant sense of dread in everyday life when I think about the 90s or early 2000s.

It is really hard to describe, and I’ve yet to find anyone who’s quite understood what I mean.

For example: I was doing dishes and the song Move Along by the All American Rejects came on. I instantly felt a pit in my stomach. I started thinking about summers with my friends as a kid. Getting Burger King, playing video games, jumping on the trampoline, etc. I immediately went down a rabbit hole on ebay trying to find random stuff that gave me that high feeling of nostalgia. Like those scratch and sniff Rugrat Movie stickers. Or Old PS1 &amp; 2 games. Or even just early 2010 stuff like iHomes &amp; iPods.

I get this feeling of missing my childhood so heavily, it’s like I want to make it a reality. Any kind of song, show, Tik Tok, etc. that reminds me of being a kid or reminds me of just the 90s era makes me go crazy.

It makes me cry sometimes I miss it so much. I even have dreams about buying a plasma TV and a big leather couch to play video games on all day. I just miss it.

(This has also affected my every day life. I have started spending copious amounts of money on childhood products I owned or wanted to own from 20 years ago. I have started playing video games all day long, and eating a lot of unhealthy kids food like Happy Meals or the frozen ones from the store)