I’m 22 years old and I don’t have anyone close to me, no one I can talk with about my things, no one that really cares. I’m not perfect but I cared about the people in my life but somehow everyone ends up leaving, I might be flawed. Friends, family and others just seem not to care about me, like they get tired of me, even my therapists cannot seem to stand me, I absolutely don’t know what’s wrong, if someone was honest with me and told me what am I doing wrong that everyone ends up abandoning me, I would try to change it, but it’s always the same. I feel like this now and I wonder how it’ll be when I’m older (if I get to an older age). I’m genuinely scared, is it even a point on being alone on this life? I’m honestly so tired and just want to feel genuine love. 
+ I’m suspicious that I might be autistic, which is even harder to communicate with people and form bonds.