when I go to school, I'm the funny kid, the one everyone loves but when I'm at home I just feel dead. I have a wonderful bf who helps me through everything but I feel like he will get sick of me and bored of me. I don't really have a mom so I live with my dad, and I'm second best. my sister has always been the favorite. I also feel kinda like I'm shaking all the time from anxiety and like I'm going to start cutting again. idk if my friends will get sick of me being sad all the time, idk if I'm depressed but I've felt like this for so long, it's tiring