I literally feel nothing, the things I enjoy are very few and the feeling lasts for seconds, when I feel something it’s anxiety, fear or anger. I mean I can’t complain because I don’t feel bad, and that’s why I feel link I should shut up. I mean I have periods of “bad mood” that can lasts months, days or hours, and I self harm or think of suicide all the time, some other moments for NO REASON I’m in a better mood, and I want to do something.

I feel “I” don’t ever exist. The concept of me doesn’t exist. I’m lost, I should start trying to find a job but I don’t have a motivation to do so. Money? For what? I care about nothing and nobody, I feel nothing.