This week my family went out a lot more than usual for obvious reasons. Needless to say, my social battery ran out and I find it hard to be around anyone these past few days. The other day my cousin came over but I was so out of it. I tried my best to entertain him and he helped out with some chores. He was planning to come by for Christmas Day but I woke up feeling like garbage. I was still upset about the day before because my ‘flow’ of doing things was interrupted several times. I read his text over and over “Plan to pass by you guys later” and I panicked. I didn’t want to be around anyone. I was already drained from being around my family. I didn’t even tell my parents that he was planning to come over so they didn’t know anything. I saw opportunity and I took it. I lied to him. I told him that we would be out for the evening on a drive and that he could come over another time. I felt a little guilty. I also lied to my little sister that I couldn’t play with her because I wasn’t well. I closed my bedroom door and I heard her crying and yelling outside that I was a wicked sister who never kept promises. I spent the rest of the day asleep in bed. I’m scared, why did I lie? I don’t want this to continue but it’s so hard for me. I hate this so much