I am married and even though I know it’s completely irrational, I can’t help feeling so insecure about my husband’s ex wife. We have been married 5 years but the closer we get.. the more insecure I feel. My mind wants to explode, I want to cry all the time, one minute I love him and the next I hate him etc. It is completely exhausting and it makes me so miserable. It is even more frustrating because we do have a great marriage otherwise but my issues are making it hard to even feel completely comfortable or live happily. 

In my head, I will NEVER be good enough and his ex is a million times better than I’ll ever be. He reassures me but that only helps for a short period before I rebound again. 

I am in therapy and going to a psychiatrist so yes.. I am working on this but omfg.. it is the worst. I don’t wish this on anyone. I never experienced these issues before and it was brought to my attention that my upbringing etc is causing this relationship to constantly trigger me. Who knew.. I thought I was just fucking crazy. I spent so much time feeling terrible and having no one understand what I’m feeling because it’s “hypocritical” to think this way when everyone has a past.. but they don’t understand it is MORE than that.