After sleeping all week to drown out my thoughts, I finally got up this morning. I took a shower, did the dishes and made myself breakfast. I’m proud of myself for accomplishing those things today. 

I won’t let the negative self talk win, no matter how small of a step I’m proud of myself. I wrote in my journal and brainstormed hobbies I would like to pick back up. Every time I have a bad thought about myself, I’m going to try and reverse it. I have hope and I love myself. I’m grateful for everyone who loves me and sticks around even during the darkest moments. I’m not alone and I’m going to stop isolating myself. 

I realized being depressed has become a comfort zone. It’s hard for me to envision a life where I’m happy healthy and fulfilled because I didn’t think I deserved it. I didn’t love myself. Well I do deserve it and although it’s not my fault, it’s time for me to stop sabotaging good things and start believing in myself. 

I hope everyone here has a good day and remember that no matter how dark things may be right now, it’s not permanent. We’re all deserving of love and peace. Don’t forget to be your own best friend and lover. Treat yourself with kindness and compassion.  We’re all going to be ok.