I’m not really sure what’s wrong with me but sometimes everything and everyone seems so dull and just too much. My family think I’m depressed and that I’m a bit bipolar as that something a few people in our family have but I just don’t know it feels like I’m attention seeking and I’m just feeling this way to be “quirky”. And tbh I’m just so done I want to die or hurt myself or something but I just can’t bring myself to do it. I hate waking up doing the same cycle everyday I’m so bored of it and I when I explain it to councillors (I apparently I’m a waiting list to get a therapist but I’m not sure it’s been 3 yrs) I feel like they just don’t get it and suggest stuff like “ well have you ever looked at it from your friends perspective” or tell me to go out and get involved in stuff(I live in a shitty area in Newcastle and petrol is too pricey to go far away and do something) 

I am so close to just giving up 

What do I do?