“I need you”

“You’re so important to me”

“I miss you”

Those are the words that hurt the most, because every single one of them are fucking lies. You dont need me, you just like having me around until someone better comes along. I’m not important to you, I’m only important when I’m helping you move, or when you need physical help, or when no one else is around. You don’t miss me, you only miss having someone around, if you missed me you’d call or text or ask to see me. 

I don’t mind being alone, loneliness i can abide. What i can’t handle is when people lie to me and, momentarily, let me think i matter. I don’t matter. I’m a passerby in your life. I’m a fuckin backup quarterback, there when you need me then as soon as someone better comes along, you kick me to the curb. 

Stop with the lies, stop acting like I’m important, and most of all… stop letting me believe that i matter to you. We both know i dont, so dont say that I do