Sorry if this post doesn't belong but I really need to vent. 

I've been struggling a lot with anxiety around certain tasks (esp phone calls) and feel like I've spiralled out of control over the past year. I currently have everything I'm supposed to get done on my mind constantly and I am so tired and disappointed in myself. But somehow thinking about it all day long just makes me ignore the tasks even more :( Or I wait for a day where I'd feel energetic enough to get things done, but that day doesn't come.

I moved to another state (in Germany) in April and because of lockdown I wasn't able to register with the tax offices properly at that moment. (I'm a freelancer). But instead of picking it up in May I decided to ignore it and hope it would figure itself out or maybe the tax office would notice my mistake and contact me automatically... (ugh I feel so dumb about it). But yeah...I still "didn't get around to it" and now they've deactivated my tax number and I'm scared I'm in trouble for basically working unregistered for 9 months (I did continue to pay taxes to the old office...-\_-\* not sure if that counts for anything...)

I'm still trying to muster up the courage to get things sorted, but now it's Friday so I have to wait until after the weekend (again). I'm scared and frustrated. How does one ever break this cycle?