I’ve been diagnosed bipolar type 2 for about two/two and a half years now and I still struggle feeling good about myself. I feel like I’m less human, I feel ashamed, I don’t feel at all proud of myself. My family and close friends are the only ones that know and they all say (all the time) how proud they are of me for taking charge of my life and for dealing with my diagnosis so well. I just feel like fraud. Just waiting on another episode, getting so sick that my family and friends get worried and thus impacting their life having to care for me. 

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to just accept that this is what I am. But how do I not hate this part of me?