I'm in 10th grade now. And people r asking me what I will take in 11th.

I don't fucking know what the fuck those shit mean.
All my mother fucking cares is to have a hope for my marriage bec If I don't chose science . I will be fucked and I will not get any man bitchs or bitches.

I'm scared of future. It's scary af. I can imagine a future of mine. It's blank. 

After I got to 10th. The pressure increased. I forgot how to study. I'm scared if I will even pass 10th.

I'm scared of life. How tf am I even in 10th grade. 

Even if I try to sit and study. It's so hard for me study. Nothing is going in my mind. 

Absolutely not. I can't remember what my mom said today. I can't remember the youtube video I just watched. I can't remember if I even have tests.

Even if I go and keep a book to remember these tasks. I fucking forget to even write.

My mom is telling me to leave it. I just can't. 

I know I seem like a immature child but thank u for reading this. 

I should've taken my meds today. Fuck myself. Ima kill myself at some point maybe not now. But in few years ig