I’ve been on anti depressants since July 2021 and they’re ‘working’ in that I don’t feel suicidal anymore and just feel numb. I still have times where I feel quite low but feel like I need a creative way to express those feelings or just something to use as an outlet, as I have a hard time acknowledging my negative feelings and often just bury them and be in denial. I thought maybe finding a hobby would help. I want to learn something new but I’m finding it hard to think of things that wouldn’t make me feel overwhelmed by the commitment of learning something complex. 

Does anyone have any ideas?! I’ve thought of painting or learning to play an instrument but these kind of hobbies prove to be fairly expensive… 

I read a lot of books to use for escapism but I feel like I need an activity where I can be proactive. 

Thank you in advance for any suggestions!