I'm a 28 year old man and I had hypochondria for over a decade and a fear of death for just as long. I spent a lot of time coming up with ways in an attempt to overcome this, I had always failed. For years I continued to sink to the bottom of a bottomless ocean gasping for air without any hope. Until recently..

My first thought was, I need to share what I did but I didn't know where. I hope here is good enough. I wrote in notes whilst I was doing it and added a few things after.

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I was reading a blog on death and how to overcome the haunting prospect of my inevitable end. I came across an interesting sentence, that my brilliant ADHD mind moulded into its own in seconds. It suggests that your story ends when you die, my brain had the brilliant idea to write a continuation of my story. (*WHAT HAPPENS NEXT* - It can be anything you wish!) My life after death. I know this sounds indeed mad, but my hypochondria is worsening and it's truly exhausting. Also, just writing what I would like/believe to happen would keep my overactive mind occupied in a healthier way. 

Death. -Not how, but your experience. Most people who speak of how they died tell a story of peace becoming them.

Panic like a storm starts in my stomach as the icy hands of death grip me tightly. The terror spreads throughout every cell as my eye close. I hear the people around me, but with a hint of distortion. For a while this goes on. Eventually, the chatter fades to silence. I  feel overcome with peace. Then nothing. 

New Awakenings.
They say when one door closes, another opens.. To this day I've had no need to add to this yet, but when my mind wonders I just create beautiful worlds I open my eyes to and watch them come to life in my head. Then I get on with my day. It avoids all panic and I've started to relate the idea of death to wonder and peace.

* I don't think I've ever truly thought about what's next, seriously. I'm having trouble, but I also believe I'm finding comfort in doing so. I wonder if religion works for those that believe because they simply get a story of after. Maybe a story for what's next rids many of us of that fear of the unknown. 
Really think about this and what you would like to experience. You don't have to be a person anymore. This is your story, your peace. Be anything, do anything. Go on an adventure, see loved ones! For god's sake, go out and see a universe of your creation. 
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I no longer spiral or beleive I'm dying. I'm sure when my time comes I'll be terrified, but just as much as anyone else. Pains are now just pains, and death is just the second part of my story. 

I hope this brings you just as much peace as it's brought me these past few weeks and I hope it continues to do so.

Ian