 I just realized how weak I am. I just realized if someone did something to me I might not have it in me to stand up for myself. I just realized if I had a girlfriend and she was being sexually harassed or assaulted I'd be too scared or just not have it in me to try to defend her, I might be too scared or embarrassed. I just realized that if I was walking and someone stole my wallet out of my pocket I'd probably not run after because I don't have it in me or because I'd be embarrassed. I just realized if I walked in on myself getting cheated on I don't know what I'd do, I feel like I would just stand there, like a f\*cking b\*itch. Like I'd freeze. In the past, I would've said something like I'd beat the dude up or something but now, I feel so weak and powerless. I am scared, could this be OCD? Probably not, it's not reoccurring or anything like HOCD. But I could change, right? Through therapy? I want to know I can stand up for myself and protect those I want to, god I feel like a b\*tch. In the past if I imagined situations like these in my head I would react in a more strong way, with more emotion and anger, now I question what I'd do. Could this be depression? I don't think I'm depressed.