Been told I'm toxic by my boyfriend....who in his own words treats me like a cunt. He has pushed me a lot recently and IV lost my cool. IV not be violent or aggressive or nasty just wanting to talk etc. 
But to him I'm toxic and manipulative. 
Apparently I bitches about him to some random people in the pub and he takes their word on it
Kept threatening to leave me and did tonight, said he needs a break from me for a bit. 

So he admits he hasn't treated me right so why am I being labelled as toxic. His probation worker and mother have both said I'm toxic for having BPD. Yet he also admits I'm the best girl he has ever been with. 

I fucking hate this fucked up bulshit in my head.