i am 19 years old and suppose to decide wether to go to college or not soon but too anxious to even tell my parents about my anxiety. 

So a few months ago i noticed myself not wanting to go outside and by that time i already knew i had anxiety but when my parents planned for us to go outside, my stomach immediately sank and started to feel a bit anxious but was getting a hold of myself, and when we finally went out and when we arrived there wasnt much people so it was fine but we then had to eat at a restaurant and thats when i knew it wouldn't end well, but thankfully the restaurant was full, but 30 mins later the place got very crowded all of a sudden and the next thing i knew was my heart rate increasing i was sweating was dizzy but tried to control my self as best i can it felt like an anxiety attack, but there were too many people i couldnt take it, i was in the middle of a crowd but then i saw my mom sitting somewhere and immediately went over to her and sat there but was still anxious and palms very sweaty, and when we finally went somewhere else, oh i forgot to include that the reason it was so crouded was because it was national day and there were fireworks so there were a ton of people, anyways what happened next shocked me, I all of a sudden needed to cry so badly, the emotions ive felt was so heavy i almost couldnt hold back my tears, and the next thing i knew i couldnt see anything from the amount of tears my eyes were filled with but i somehow managed to hold them back but it took a solid 5 mins of endurance which was very hard, after that when the fire works ended we went back to the car and i have never felt so relief, i took off my mask and could finally breathe properly
But when we came back home i went to get ready for bed because i felt so emotionally drained i couldnt even do anything but when i went to bed i started crying so bad and my thoughts were not going away.

I am too scared to get a job, I am too scared to go outside,I am too scared to drive (thinking of not driving anymore), I am too scared to go to college... I just feel like i cant survive.. I feel stuck and alone... I just dont know what to do and this isnt the first time.. 
 Maybe in the future after a few months or years i can make an update