You're going to wake up depressed regardless of if the world is going well. In my case. My life is lie and I hate myself. 

I'm not doing great. I try to seem nice and energetic but I'm so ugly that everyone just wants to ignore me. I wish that I could assume q better role in my family's life.

Besides me in my immediate family my mother is the only other person who has a constant job. So I usually plan and set up Christmas. I spent wayyy to much money I'm still in school barely graduated but my parents to are getting older and I need to take care of them. Idfk. I managed to get a 4.0 this semester but I pretty much have been flanking every other semester and have to take another semester to take another year to graduate. 

My work is really hard but pays okay. I think I make 20-23 dollars per hour. If I work a lot I can make a good salary but it would require 75 hours per week. Idk I just feel really out of it. Most of my immediate family doesn't really like me but puts up with me. The thing is isk like this Christmas was really weird I just feel super awkward talking to them I was so depressed today but I tried to be nice to family give them gifts make them cookies and pray I can feel normal by tomorrow.

I just want a real job where I can get some sort of respect but anyway yeah rant over. Sorry for being a whiny bitch I just prefer to vent into the void.