ive been getting this feeling that i want to overdose and just live my last few hours as crazy as i can. i want to sneak out and live life for a couple of hours and live those final moments in bliss and with a bang, i want to drink, do drugs, fuck shit up, anything that'll ruin me further. i know i shouldn't feel this way and i don't want to do this but it might get the better of me, any advice?