How do you feel about having kids and if you did, what’s it like? 

My therapist asked me if I would like to have kids in the future and I said that yes but no. I listed a whole bunch of things that I’m not sure I want to deal with but now reflecting back on it, I realized that it all came down to control. Im terrified that they would end up with BPD because of me or that they’d end up messed up because me. I also have so much anxiety/paranoia already, I’m not sure if I can handle worrying about my child for the rest of their life. Lastly, issued like SIDS or miscarriages. I’d like to have kids but I’m literally terrified. And it’s not like I really have time to think about it. Biologically female people have a biological clock for their reproductive systems. And being a 24y/o latina cis woman, i can’t tell if I want kids for myself or if it’s because it’s what’s expected of me.