I came home from school, my teacher gave me one more day to finish my assignment and i already missed a deadline for another assignment for idk 4 days or something. I cried a lot, thought about suicide, throwing myself out of my balcony. Thought about cutting myself. I considered that maybe writing to one of my friends would make me calmer but then i remembered that none of them really care about me. And i came here to rant. Im sorry if ranting is not allowed. Im still sitting on my bed. Idk how i will make it. Its currently 10 pm. I hate highschool.

Im really tired of smiling when im at school and i dont feel anything when i listen to music anymore. Maybe i am actually really hopeless. 

If im gonna die at the end and there is no one that loves me whats the point of living.