I had an early period. Literally a week early. I googled it and found an article which lists this as one of the symptoms of cervical cancer.

And that was it. As soon as I read the C word, my irrational mind just took over. This dread washed over me and my body felt heavy like I couldn’t move other than my fingers furiously scrolling through cancer websites. 

My life flashed before me, the bad news from the doctor, the chemo, what if that doesn’t work? How will my boyfriend and family cope? What happens next?

I was sick with worry. Luckily a small flash of rationality entered my brain and calmed me down. Perhaps it is just what it is, an early period. But I’m exhausted and I’m terrified that next time there might not be a rational thought and then what?

Anxiety is awful and so much more than what they pretend it is in films.