Been going to all these appointments for months. Been trying to better myself and nothings happening. I go see all these BH guys on base and I just feel like they don’t know how severe it is. Just because I haven’t felt like killing myself in the past 2 weeks doesn’t mean I’m ok. After todays session I think it’s over I’m hopeless I want to just lay it all out and say what’s happening but I’m too embarrassed so I’ll just live with this. To think I was actually feeling normal for once yesterday.