This may sound silly but as much as I /love/ reading, I haven’t been able to in so long. The last time I finished a book was two years ago, and it took me a year and a half to finish it. Before that... the last time I had finished a book was in 2015. 

I’ve always just thought it was a me problem, like I was too lazy or something. But! I’ve been on escitalopram for 2 months now, at 10mg for about 2 weeks now, and I’m almost 200 pages into a new book! 

It hit me that the whole reason why I haven’t been able to read is because my mind races when I sit and do nothing and I always worry that I /could/ be doing something more important. I was never able to concentrate on just enjoying things 

But now I can!! And I’m so so happy about it! I’ve lived with severe anxiety all my life and now that I’m finally on meds I’m realizing that things I thought was just part of my personality really weren’t, and it’s making me so happy! I finally feel like me!