Recently I am feeling very guilty for being underprivileged. I feel very bad for myself when I can't afford something and others just enjoy privilege. I have read few things on internet and now I believe This is the reality of life ...Even if I will do my best.... I will not be able to make it too far. Definitely not what I dreamt in childhood. And everyone doesn't get what is desired. Also, fake motivation lines on internet don't work for me. It is just wordplay with feelings for temporary feel-good. I became too negative in everything...I just compare myself with others and I find myself at bottom. Reading about meaninglessness of life and philosophy of Albert Camus made me feel even worse and I complain everything -everyone around me. Now I feel I don’t belong to the surrounding every time. This thing is just dragging me down...even I can't focus on anything and feel like not doing anything and just overthinking. Is there any temporary solution to this? Positivity videos and entertainment didn't work out. It took lot of courage while writing this post...pls help.