So, my bestfriend, is the only person i truly 1000% love and is the only person who i can be fully vulnerable with. Based on the posts here, i assume that i can consider them my FP? I get jealous sometimes when they hang out with other people who seem to insert themselves into my FP's life as if i'm not their soulmate (my FP and I call each other soulmates). My FP is married and for their wedding, one of our other friends were shocked that they weren't asked to be my FP's righthand man and i was so offended because... *i'm* their best friend, no duh it would be me.

Recently, my FP and their S/O rekindled friendship with their S/O's high school friend who is also married and they had this little double date and joked about living in a house together and adopting cats together and i was so jealous lol. On top of that, my FP and i had not seen each other in a week due to both of us needing to recuperate bc we both suffer from exhausting mental illnesses. So, i guess, not seeing my FP, not talking to my FP as regularly, and then seeing on instagram that someone else gets to hang out with them and talk about moving in together and sharing a house together stung a little.

Sometimes, i wished i could find a significant other too so i wouldnt feel left out in a lot of the double dates my friends and FP wants to have.

thanks for listening to me vent