(I am awaiting appointment for diagnoses)

Context: I’m a 24 year old male from a family with a laundry list of mental illness. My father has bipolar, bpd, and several others. On top of a traumatic childhood from his violence towards my family, I inherited some of it and then some.

I go extended times with insane energy, like constantly drinking energy drinks, I lose my appetite, and my mind won’t stop it just loops full speed over and over and I can’t make it stop. My sex drive skyrockets and I want to just do things that aren’t “right” if that makes sense. I also start to think there’s someone in my head who can hear me and I talk to them primarily in this state. 

Then one day I wake up and I can’t even force myself to form a thought it’s too much work. I start to over eat and gain weight, get suicidal, and then it resets. I’ve struggled to hold a job for the past couple of years and daily life is getting nearly impossible. I need to survive until I get help.

I’m on a list to see a psychiatrist to get an official diagnosis, but from what I gather I definitely have something wrong?