I always feel like I’m going to be judged for stressing out over little things…but here goes nothing. 

I have been extremely sick the past couple of days. I went to the hospital last night and they told me it was an upper respiratory infection, but that they weren’t sure if my negative (rapid) Covid test was 100% accurate. I was recommended to take another test in three days. 

I have barely slept the past two days. Every time I try and lay down I end up drifting off to sleep for about an hour and then I wake up out of my sleep choking for air and coughing hard as hell, like I took a fat dab. It gives me a sharp pain in my chest.

I have severe asthma too which makes it even worse. Usually when I get a cold it turns into something severe which has given me anxiety about sicknesses my entire life. I had to use my nebulizer emergency treatment twice last night and my rescue inhaler eight times in the last 24 hours. The only thing I can do is wait it out, and keep taking over the counter meds like I have been. 

With that being said, I am so fucking scared and anxious about the breathing problems I’ve been having. I know that I am overreacting, but I can’t help it. Sicknesses give me such bad anxiety. Does anybody have any tips/suggestions for sickness anxiety? Is there anything thats good for a distraction, that will pass the time? Coping strategies? Anything helps. Thank you…