For the past while my boyfriend has been my rock, he has been there for me through thick and thin. I had major trust issues and a really hard time talking about things or telling the truth before I met him. He's helped me more than anyone ever has but lately I feel that it's putting too much on him and I feel so awful, I cry so often and I hate it so much. I don't want him to leave me I don't think I could cope with losing him again, we've broken up so many times in the past and I just want it to work. I'm planning on not talking to him about personal things anymore but I know I'm just going to explode and ruin things again.

He tells me I need to see someone and I know I should but every single time I have it's never helped me, a big part of it is me not being able to share things with them easily and them not having enough patience to deal with me. I don't know what to do.