\*NOTE: The thing(s) I italic means that they will be soon erased because I get paranoid so just keep that in mind when responding if you do  


i have a long distance friend that i've known for years, we're so close to one another but i just feel used at this point. she recently got a boyfriend, shit hit the fan and it seemed to be that they broke up. serious stuff happened, she is okay. throughout every situation, i've always helped her. i've always cared for here. everything. only now today she confessed after I MYSELF had to bring it up she got back together with him, *i actually found out when i logged onto her account to help her with something and i saw that they were messaging on there :)))i* had the biggest hunch because she wasnt texting me about stuff anymore, one day she's feeling down an depressed and i help her and then it's like the next day nothing from her.  


i'm so bothered, even actually upset for the first time that i actually want to cry. i don't understand. no wonder she hasn't been texting me lmfao, she got back together so she doesn't need her best friend anymore until shit happens again. i do so much,  i really fucking do. am i overreacting? i just want to run. fuck you for keeping that from me. fuck YOU for not listening to me. fuck YOU for coming to me and then just fucking ghosting once you get back together.  


FUCK YOU FOR USING ME WHEN YOU'RE IN A SHIT HOLE WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND AND THEN ONLY COMING BACK WHEN STUFF HAPPENS AGAIN.  


i want to split so fucking badly  


i cant handle this i really cant  


it's so obvious now that when we're texting today it just seems fucking useless, i feel like there's no point.  


at one point a month or two ago i wanted to end the friendship because it felt like that again but with her "friends" and coworkers that she recently made. we both cried a ton when i was talking about it because we were just reflecting on our friendship and whatnot and how we're each others sisters practically  


please tell me if i'm overreacting i dont even know if i should bring it up to her, i know i should just probably distance myself but i'd rather just cut the chord so she can feel the pain if she even does, i want to make an impact so she will know she fucked up, i don't want to drift away and her feeling fine about it.