My life feels like a big lie now and that I may not have been seeing things for how they really were for most of my life. 

It's kinda abstract and hard to exactly explain since some of it's very situational, but some of it is thinking that a group of people might/are going to go after me or hate me for being/acting a certain way (often times for little reason at all). Also there's this thing that ocassionally happens that after saying something to someone (usually on social media) I wrongly perceive their reaction as them being really mad or upset at me and that other people who see it feel the same way and that they might go after me.

It branches out to me being distrustful of other people (especially girls) that I don't know very well (or at all) because I feel that almost all of them are two faced or fake who they actually are, that they don't actually like me for some reason (even though they barely know me at all and wouldn't have a solid reason to think that). 

I'm on max dose of my AP and I don't want to start a new one, and I'm afraid that if I talk about it to my psychiatrist he's going to misinterpret it and tell me that all of this is normal even though it clearly isn't

Sorry if this sounds weird my brain is fried from thinking too much about this, I can't think correctly right now at all and my head feels weird