I can't do this l, everything I love will never last. I'm about ready to have another mental break down. I can't be alone anymore. Pls help pls. It hurts so bad, I'm shaking on the floor and I just need help please I can't do this it hurts so bad. Why me, why do I even have to be alive, I don't want to go to the mental hospital again,  pls help the medication works but I find that at night, every thing comes at me at once please make it stop or I will attempt suicide again please help. I don't want to die, I want to be loved.