Honestly for no good reason my anxiety had flared up in the past year. One of the biggest things are the intrusive thoughts. I’ve been in a relationship for about more than a year now and right now I’m in my senior year of high school. I know what everyone says that high school relationships don’t last and so on and so forth. But I really do think this is the one. We’ve been best friends for three years previously. I’m constantly worrying about whether my relationship is going to end. Whether I’ll have to go through the heartbreak. It’s like I’m going to the heartbreak constantly every day. I’m honestly scared and I don’t want it to end. But now further more I have intrusive thoughts about college. He’s going to college I’m taking a gap year to travel. I keep having intrusive thoughts that tell me what if the distance makes ones of us cheat. Worst of all whenever I’m planning my trips I randomly get a what if u kissed someone on that trip. I know I would never cheat on anyone. Especially him but it’s becoming hard to trust myself while I’m having intrusive thoughts as such. I just need reassurance that I’m not going crazy. That I’m not a bad person and these are just random thoughts. Doesn’t mean it’s gonna happen. And I’ll really take any advice on how to deal with this better.