So my story is pretty much like everyone else, I was diagnosed with depression when I was around 13 and I’m now 19 so 6 years living with it now, so basically at first it wasn’t too bad my depression but up until say 2019 is when it turned really ugly.. I’m almost 19 stone now from putting on so much weight and I completely hate my body and myself for getting so bad. I don’t leave my room much, I comfort eat all the time, rarely drink water, very unhygienic etc… but anyway during lockdown it just went from bad to worse and in 2021 I just had to ask for help, i knew I needed it when I was getting no sleep for days at a time, mind you I’ve always struggled with sleep but never as bad as that, so I went to my GP and I got an emergency appointment with a professional in the hospital, I say emergency it took over 9 months to actually get the appointment but anyway they gave me these anti depressants that help with sleep and depression. I can say for sleep they are a game changer for me I haven’t struggled wit sleep ina long while and they actually made me depression bareable for a while but this is were I come to Reddit for help. All my friends are moving on to college, work , courses etc cause they just finished school but this has made me realize that have I really gotten better? I’m still doing the same things just I feel a bit better now I guess but recently I’ve gotten really bad again.. I want to move forward in life but I just feel so stuck like I want to get a job and stuff but idk if it’s laziness or what but I just can’t push myself to do it.. I feel so guilty that I’m just wasting my life and I just don’t know what to do I don’t really talk about anything with people but if anyone wants to give me an opinion or advice I’d really appreciate it