When I'm having an anxiety/panic attack (which has recently been happening quite a lot to be honest, and lockdown has been making it worse), sometimes I feel like if I stop breathing I could just pass away peacefully. But then I kinda get scared of dying so I start breathing rapidly. I don't know if anyone else feels like that, and I probably didn't describe this in the best way but it happens quite often. With a lot of attacks I feel that I'm in a thin line between life and death, and oddly enough I feel like I'm in some sort of "nirvana".