Hello, so it’s very early in the morning where I am and I’m currently still awake and totally freaking out. 

It’s been rough for me recently, and I’ve had a cry already today. I’ve been thinking about the rest of my life (big question) and what to do and my manager who works WAY too hard and never gets any time off turned out to be working tomorrow even though she shouldn’t 

To which I said that she should be taking time off, which she never does and if she always brings herself into work when people are sick then that’s more of a failing of the business than anything else. No one is on holiday, if one person is sick then it shouldn’t make a difference. She needs a break!

But that went down like a lead balloon, and now I’m worried that she’s going to be angry at me. Which she might be, but all I want is that she gets some bloody time off- so she can rest! It’s not like the rest of us can’t handle the work.

And it stresses me out massively. And it makes me not want any of the responsibility that I’ve got on me at work. I work as her second in command, and I just don’t want to do it any more.before you say that might be why she’s coming in, it’s not, I’m pretty good at my job and one of the best on the team. 

But I feel like I’m not doing a good job because she is always coming into work. I don’t like the people I work with, I don’t get paid enough, I don’t get overtime, and I don’t want to do it any more. I am never going to do the job she is going to do because I’m never making that commitment. She gets texts 24/7 7 days a week. Even if she takes time off! Plus when she comes in for emergencies. 

The business fucked itself because we have crap members on the team and they’re never told to step up.

And I know that it’s all just a weird way that my anxiety is coming out because of bigger problems. But I’m so stressed and unhappy and I can’t sleep! 


If you’ve read all this will you tell me I’m not mad? That it’s going to be okay and my boss isn’t super pissed at me for saying she needs time off and that it’s the business at fault if the work is too much?