I have been depressed for years now due to a very fucked up home life could be a lifetime movie. I’m just starting to lose my mind from it. I have no self worth. I’m a 23yo 6’3 good looking, well built, former D1 athlete, self taught musician, coach, teacher, with nice long hair. Yet nothing ever goes my way. I get a scholarship I get career ending injury the first month I’m there. My dad has a secret baby with my gym teacher while I’m in that class and names it my name. I’ve never had a gf, girls just string me a long. My moms side of family use me for favors 3 times a week and I drop all I do for them. I am a teacher and coach and a damn good one. Everyone that’s met me says I’m the best they’ve seen at both at such a young age but no one appreciates it. I think I’m a fat fucking loser. Look at my pics on profile I have a 6pack with 10% bf. I got recruited by every Ivy League school for sports. Why do I let everyone use me. Im so nice and give so much but never get anything in return. Is it because I’m just wired differently. Are humans just shitty. Am I the bright light or am I the fucking outlying problem. I feel everyday I suck yet I pour my heart out. Why why me. I get shit on everyday by something new. Why. Why why. I self isolated/self loathed myself into a Gregor Mendah cacoon of depressed Energy. I just wanna move away from everyone.