Hi person reading this! So before i start i don’t want to self diagnose myself, i’m just genuinely curious on if i have been showing signs/symptoms of BPD from people who do have it and get your advice on it before i consider going to my doctor about it, i’ve always felt like this but recently it’s gotten worse, I feel like nothing is real that i’m not real the bed i sleep in isn’t real, and i have attachment issues with literally everything and anyone who is ever nice to me, if i have a friend and they don’t talk to me for a day i’ll just assume they don’t want to be friends anymore and not talk to them again and i’ll feel rlly hurt about it, i sometimes dissociate and engage in hurting myself not going to say specifically what bc triggers, i just feel so not real that i don’t want to do anything at all and it’s stopping me from going to college and when i don’t go i feel bad and guilty it’s awful, i get really irritated sometimes for no reason and usually i’ll lash out at my mum or brother for no reason and then when or if i do realise it i’ll feel rlly bad and confused, if i’m stressed enough ill sometimes forget what i am doing or what i did for the few hours as well. i have a history of being abused, depressed, anxious n suicidal as well.