I still feel pathetic and like shit all the time but school and those around me just enhances the hate I have for myself. It reminds me of how lonely I really am, how much of a dumb student and procrastinator I am. School has made me feel so worthless even before high school. Graduating is the only thing I look forward to, I'm barely halfway through 11th grade so I still have around 14 months of high school left.