Sometimes I wake up after a hard day of physical examination to look for cancer (skin cancer in particular) and check hard-to-reach places because they pose a greater danger to me...

 Within a year, we had about 4 x-rays and 1 brain ct scan

 It was enough to bring me back into a spiral of fear of cancer, but I consulted many doctors about what its harms are and the reaction was reassuring...

 In any case .  When I wake up, I feel like my mind goes like this:

 He thinks about the worst-case scenario I've seen the night before (a bone mass that doesn't hurt, I've had several x-rays I think, and a congenital pigmentary nevus my mother said she saw when she was born (and I said it was melanoma))

 He searches for places where I may suffer from cancer even though I know that I suffer from something (such as the liver, pancreas and kidneys (my father suffers from polycystic kidney disease)

 This way I sweat from anxiety (and because of this sweat I suspect I have leukemia or lymphoma)

 This curse had a positive side in that I read about cancers and read many medical books, and a bad side was that I had a medical student syndrome...