Hello,

I am 13 and I have GAD, Social anxiety, OCD and panic disorder. I know how people like me feel. The first time I experienced a panic attack was probably the worst day/week of my life. I am really not lucky because my panic attack affect really more my mental then my psychical state. When it go to the worst I feel intense nostalgia, sadness and hopeless. After my firsts panic attack which was really intense I decided to go see an doctor with my mother, even if when I was talking with him I was not stress relief I have been able to chill a little bit after that. 2 weeks laters things have gone better, I got prescribed Prozac and it have make a little effect after these 2 weeks. Today I have forgot to take my Prozac this morning, I was feeling really not good but at 11am I have remember of taking it. After 1 hour I also taked 2 tylenol. At this moment even if the stress is there for sure, I don't feel hopeless. I am able to do what I want on my computer, watching a serie, working on my projects, ect... I know that GAD will probably last for long but I have hope, I have hope cause I feel good right now. When the heavy anxiety kick in and I do a panic attack all this feelings of hope / kind of chill goes away and I feel hopeless again. But more days pass, more this feeling of chill / hope last. Some days ago it was only before sleeping, today it's at 1 pm and I hope that it will last longer. Sometimes this feeling goes away for no reasons, and I do panics attack that last for the whole day. If I have 1 advices to the ones who read this, it's to see someone. See an doctor, talk to someone or talk to your parents about it. I know that this is hard but you have to do it. If I would not talked to anyone I would probably not be there today. Whatever your age you deserve help. At first probably like somes of you I was feeling even more anxious about telling to my mom my feelings, but when I done it it was kind of relieving. I hope that this message will maybe help somes of you to get help. Usually people have 1 anxiety disorder which is already really hard to handle, for me even if I have 4 of them I still be strong. Right now I feel good, I feel like I can beat it but I know that when I will do another panic attack I will for sure lose all of that feelings. That the reasons why anxiety is really bad, it make you lose hope, it make you lose everything for some peoples. But believe me whatever how you feel it will get better. When I am in a panic attack even if someone told me that everything will be better I just can't chill and I wait the next day to feel better. But I can tell you by what I am living that you will definitely feel better one day or another. I still having alot of panic attack but these tylenol and prozac help me feel better. Some peoples are scared of medications but you shouldn't. Some medications can be highly addictive but for alot of them it will help you going through the more hard moments. The next time I will talk to my psychologist I am going to ask for anti-anxiety. They are highly addictive and that the reasons why just like you I am scared. But I also know that it will maybe help me when the anxiety goes to the highest point. If you get medication like anti-anxiety please be careful with it. Tho if you take anti-depressant be strong, the first weeks you will feel nothing but the side effects (derealization, depersonalization, more anxiety maybe). But just after that 2/3 weeks you will feel better. This is definitely worth it. If you don't feel better after these weeks be strong and ask your doctor advises he will maybe tell you to stay with it more time or give you another one. I know that anxiety can be really hard to live. If you have derealization I want you to know that this is just an symptom of anxiety. When the anxiety will go away cause it will, you will not get derealization again. I personally decided to stop school by doing school at home (in reality there is no tasks to done where I am so I do not do anything). It make me able to chill, recover and do the things I like. Even if that feel good to do the things I like when i'm not doing an panic attack, going outside is important. When I go outside I do not feel good at all even when I come back home I have to wait 2 hours minimum to feel "good" again. But I feel like these times of being outside helped me feel good again. Even if it have been taking time it has helped for sure. I do not want anyone there to feel forced to go out or do the things that don't make you feel good when you do it. If I have an advices is to get out sometimes, not the whole day, not everydays if you can't but just sometimes. Go to the market to take something or get a walk sometimes. You need to do the things you like too, at first when I was the things I like, I was not feeling good, even if it was something that I liked to do. But it's totaly normal. The body and brain need to adjust to the changements but if you still doing what you like you will feel good again with the time. If you like watching movie or serie, do it, if you like videos games, play them, if you like working on youtube or something like that, do it. I can promise you 1 things, it will get better. So please if you feel hopeless right now keep fighting and the more important, get help the soon as possible. 

  
Good luck to everyone who have anxiety, depression, derealization or depersonnalization. I know it can be really hard but you have to be strong even in the hardest moments like I try to do.

I know that everyone who read that will feel better one day or another. We will fight this anxiety, we will beat it. Even if we do it by accepting it, it stay an battle. A really hard battle that is really hard to handle. But everything will finally be good, you will not deal all of your life with anxiety, you will not deal all of your life with derealization or depersonalization. Stay strong we are with you. Have a great day, great year and the more important, a great life mates.