for some reason, i spend a lot of my time analysing my behaviour, feelings, and symptoms often to the point where i convince myself that perhaps i’ve been fine this entire time, i’ve just been lying to myself or making it up for attention. maybe i’m not actually mentally ill and instead i’m just a bit of a shitty person who can’t control their emotions. it becomes a huge rabbit hole and in a weird way it’s a big weight off my shoulders when my family/friends can identify my habits/traits as being bpd themselves. if someone close to me i’ve ever spoken to me ever points something out as being related to my bpd, it definitely makes me feel better and sometimes even secure. i hope this made sense.