Let me share a short story 
I was a borderline and suicidal
So I started an intensive therapy and medications 
Psychotherapy 2 sessions per week and medications 
Started by cipralex 20mg, then lamor 400mg and seroquil 400mg XR then added lithium and ended up with fluanxol, depakin, aripal and solix
And now depression gone away ( still have sadness and grief) and suicidal behavior gone and borderline symptoms disappeared 
Like never existed before 
I just want to say
There is a way
Just fight no matter how far you are depressed there is a way go sale help you will find support 
You are not alone
Thank you all for listening 💙🖤