This year has just been really rough on me and I'm having a really hard time trying to cope and feel better. My mom, passed away in January of this year. She raised me by herself, and losing her was just hard. She had copd for about 8yrs and it just finally got the better of her. Then my gf of 4yrs just broke up with me 2 months ago, and I feel like I'm just spiraling. She helped me through so much, including the death of my mom, only to leave me later the same year. I moved out of the apartment we had lived at for 3yrs to stay with some friends who have an extra room.I also had to leave behind our two cats that I only get to see every so often now, and missing them just sucks. I think the worst currently is just seeing her live her life and be so happy already without me, while I'm still struggling to get outta bed everyday. At this point I just don't know what to do, I just feel so hopeless and lonely. My friends have done their best to be here for me, but I miss my mom and my partner/best friend so much. I really want to be happier, I just don't know how to get myself there and I'm starting to just feel like it might be impossible for me.

Anyway, thanks for reading this rant, I really appreciate it.