So often I’m consumed with my daily struggles of just existing, that I forget to look at some of the positive things that being a borderline person has provided me. For one, I think I’m a very interesting person to others. While my complexity can make forming worthwhile relationships very hard, it also tends to make people interested in me upon meeting. I might come off as super confident and funny, but there is a evident underlying darkness that I think people find interesting. I also tend to get bored very easily, and experiment a lot with my physical appearance, which can intrigue people even more. I frequently change my hair color, style of dress, nail color, piercings, etc. And as a guy, this tends to be perceived as confident and rebellious, when really I think its out of boredom and me not really knowing who I am at my core (but we are focusing on the positives in this post). I also find that I experience a weird paradox when it comes to my abandonment issues. The best way I can explain it is, even though I can be so emotionally distressed by any relationship and fear abandonment so much, I kind of do that to everyone, which almost makes it meaningless in the context of a specific person. Like yes, a specific person can abandon me and destroy my emotional well-being for a period of time, but they wouldn’t be the first or last to do it. I find a bit of strength in the predictability in my emotional issues. Lastly, because I experience the broad spectrum of emotions at such an intensity, and in such short periods of time, I find myself to be very empathetic. I can understand, relate, and even be sympathetic to anyone in almost any situation, because I have either felt exactly how they do, or I can at least understand what it is like to be distressed in general. Feel free to share any positive outlooks you have of yourself that could be related to BPD. The point of this post is how you frame things. What some can call chaotic and toxic, others might call rebellious and passionate.