So basically my right hand man was stabbed to death right infront of me and I saw the blade pull his intestines out has I cowardly watched and made a shitty attempt at stopping it anyways after that(it was in 2020) I just want to kill and stab that’s all the voices say they make fun of me for not doing enough to save him aswell and everyday I pray and wish I can kill him his friends and his family becuase 16 years is not enough he deserves to be raped and then left in solitary confinement for his whole life. Anyways sorry for the negativity has anyone been through similar trauma? Any war vets here been though anything similar? (I’m not a war vet btw I chose the wrong path and was involved in gangs)