   I actually know how that makes me feel: embarrassed, disappointed and sad. I’m in a very bad moment where I can’t pull out a smile. But I know I can’t ask her to be a constant support to me… like… I don’t want to put that weight on her shoulders. She’s living her best life right now and I understand having someone super gloomy and negative around sticks you a little of that negativity. 
   I feel like from the only ones I can expect this unconditional love is from my family and that I should feel different about my friend .
   The thing is… would I say that if it was her having this bad moment? Would I look over the fact that she was draining me/making me have this bad vibe? I dont know… maybe yes because i know how awful depression feels. Maybe not because i want to feel cheerful and not gloomy.