I’ve seen a lot of the stuff about side effects and I’m aware of those and would look out for them. However, what’s it like emotionally? I want to be stabilized but at the same time I’m so terrified of that. My ups and downs are all I know and I’m worried it’ll just dull me out.
I just want dbt but sadly my area and financial situation make it hard for me. I’m just torn because I want to get better, but at the same time, I’m terrified of getting rid of the things that ail me. They’re honestly all I have of myself. I already feel empty snd I’m afraid if I lose my bpd symptoms, I’ll lose the only things that have been consistently me.
I know this sounds awful and like I don’t want help. Maybe that’s the truth of the matter but I’m so scared.