 My anxiety is off the charts. Nothing is different I just woke up and without fail within two hours I can feel this choking feeling. I am so scared and I don't know why. I stopped work and I don't feel better, but my God I wanted to kill myself I was so worn out physically and mentally. I worry constantly about money and health. I look at my bank balance more than once a day and I'm scared. I watch the news several times a day. I am not doing things to help myself. I drank coffee and I want more. I can feel the caffeine coursing through my body and I just want more. I'm addicted to the coffee and stimulation, but my body and mind are overwhelmed by it. I didn't get up and shower. I just roll from one day into the next. I can't stop thinking about being physically attacked and then publicly humiliated by my previous girlfriend. The attack pops into my head day and night. The trauma wakes me feeling the trauma again. My body hurts. Every day waking up in pain. My mind is spinning and I just don't know what to do. I'm on medications. Rx isn't working. I am afraid to talk about changing anxiety medication. I am taking Xaxax as prescribed, but I don't see any way out. I feel so worn out. My brain is fried. I am so thankful to the doctors who took me out of work. There is so much time in a day I feel so horrible.  I am so anxious I had to delete my post because I used the word everyday instead of every day.  How many would even notice.  I know it's wrong.  Perfectionism is a horrible way to live.