I’m (M37) losing my mind.  I have panic disorder and major depression for 7+ years.  I go to therapy weekly and pdoc for med management.  I started slipping in heavier anxiety and depression in June.

I started therapy since and everything has been going well.  However, this past week, I lost my 12 year old cat to aggressive cancer and literally the next day my 5 year old puppers started having Grand Mal
Seizures.

I plummeted into a real bad space and I’m terrified.  My Wife is sick of my illness and I’m pretty sure has depression herself.  I’m pretty sure she regrets marrying me.  I have an amazing 8 year old son (adopted) we’ve had for almost his entire life.

I’m at my wits end.  I just want to be myself again and for my marriage and dog to be ok.  I haven’t eaten in 48 hours and don’t really care to.  I’m not planning any self harm or suicide but I’d be lying if I didn’t say I wish I could just fall asleep for a couple years.

I don’t know how much more I can handle before I have a full psychotic break.