I wish I could be euthanized. I don't want to be alive and I wish I never was. Great to see people expect something from you like you owe them anything. If someone gets too harsh I will commit suicide, not because I want to, I want to live, but I cannot. I will simply be unable to deal with the emotional damage therefore will commit suicide. Again I wish it wasn't that way, but I know it's coming. I may get lucky, but the day is getting nearer and nearer. And I can live in fairy tails all I want, my brain won't change. Whatever is wrong has been wrong for a very long time and at this point I feel bad about not having commited suicide already.