Rant alert: 

I know this is a bit “passé “ or whatever but where I live Covid is still a very real threat that I ( and many others) struggle with on a daily basis. I’m freaking out internally almost all day. Everyone in my workplace seems to have the attitude of “ if I get Covid at this point it’s an act of god”. I’m new at this particular job and I don’t wanna push my luck with my new manager but I wanna work from home or something. Not that the anxiety would suddenly fade but I’d have more amo to argue with it. I cried to my partner about it last night (more like sobbed) and he said that my work is taking all the precautions and that we’re vaccinated and all that. But I’m still worried to give it to others. He says the clients make a conscious decision to come see me in person but that also didn’t help. I know my fear is irrational but it’s there and it’s messing with my mood big time. I moved to a new city and I have no psychiatrist and no therapist. I haven’t been this exposed since my first manic episode. I’m trying to “power through it” but I know from experience that tends to make things worse for me... I’m the only breadwinner for the family and I can’t quit my job and hide from Covid forever. The world keeps spinning and my body is stuck in March 2020... I need to take care of myself ASAP or imma loose it. All my self care dropped. I’m drinking again. I’m gaining so much weight. I’m a mess and not the hot kind. Thank you for reading my pointless rant!