This mix is something I struggle with. I feel chronically empty and depressed. I feel nothing half the time, then intense anger, fear, and hatred the other half. I depersonalize a lot. I feel like I’m not real, idk who that is in the mirror and idk how my mind can physically control my body.  I feel like the more I vent/cry for help to my boyfriend, the less seriously I’m taken. It’s seen as normal for me to cry and be sad, so it’s not taken with any concern. I feel like nobody cares