I was doing great these past few weeks. But yesterday I had a mental breakdown. I had panic attacks the whole day and even after grounding and everything, it kept coming back. I spent the entire night crying and today I just couldn't go to work. I feel like a mess now. Especially after I saw how it affected my loved ones, I feel so guilty and I wish I didn't have to be like this. I get upset over the smallest things that shouldn't matter. I get upset when I don't feel loved by people that matter to me. But when they try to care for me, I feel like they're pretending. I really hate the way I feel. It's like I know they're all petty things and probably untrue, but I get overwhelmed regardless, no matter how hard I try to follow my therapist's advice. I was so much better at this, I thought I had actually changed. I have no idea what I did wrong, everything seems so difficult now. I'm so angry with myself. 