I thought I was doing well with my ED symptoms. I thought I could eat normally. I thought breakfast was helping. Things were gonna be fine there.

But I'm feeling really rejected by my boyfriend. He doesn't make me feel sexy. So I guess I have to drop *more* weight. See if that makes him say something. Maybe I can get his attention if I'm actually attractive. Maybe he'll think I'm hot. Maybe he'll tell me one goddamn nice thing about my body. Because right now he clearly doesn't care that I need validation about my appearance. 

Am I really so out of line that I want my partner to say nice things about me? Reddit seems to think I'm clingy and needy and bitchy for wanting my boyfriend to tell me he finds me attractive. I tell him every single day multiple times. He says I boost his ego immensely. I make him feel so good about himself. Why can't he even do a fraction of the same for me.

Because nobody gives a shit about my needs. Nobody cares that sometimes I need a little extra. I give and give and give and everything still goes to shit. And I'm starting to lose my mask. It's all going to get worse. I don't have the energy to throw myself into my therapy. I don't have any energy anymore.