I’ve been doing a lot of self-reflection of late and am realizing that my mother was definitely suffering from BPD for my entire life. I think I was “borderline borderline” for most of my young adult life, but I wouldn’t fit the DSM definition. 

That said, my mood swings were unruly and right before my period I would feel waves of self-doubt and self-loathing, sometimes resulting in fits of anger/inappropriate outbursts, entire days spent crying, or suicide attempts. Every single month from age 15-27. 

At 27, because of severe debilitating dysmenorrhea, I asked to have my uterus removed. I wasn’t meant to go on birth control due to a blood disorder and risk of stroke, but considering the surgical alternative, my doctor prescribed me the following:

LoLoestrin FE 24, taken every day, continuously, with no break for a period (no sugar pills)

Since this time, now years ago, I have not had an emotional swing. My hormones are balanced, and it has given me mental clarity enough to work on DBT skills and hone my emotional regulation. At this point I feel nearly free of BPD symptoms. 

Just wanted to share in case this course of treatment could help someone else and prevent a lost life in the future. 

Stay safe!