I just downed a bottle of pills I'm not sure if it's enough to end me but I'll be honest rn  I used to have another account but I just need to to vent rn 

I'm young like very young I'm in middle school
But I've had bad thoughts since about being 7 yrs old 
Recently I have been burning my finger tips but not anymore I've told my friends about it and what I planned to kill myself (od) they thought I was joking but here I am . 

I told myself there's no going back now after buying chips and coffee . My mom's gonna hit me if she finds out I took money and skipped school  . I dont know how this even happened I was a good student but I had suicidal thoughts.and I was quiet and reserved whenever I had to talk I would have mental breakdown or when I had to kick throw etc .

If I could I would never talk to anyone but I feel I can only make friends because I dont wanna seem even more werid then I am but I will miss them ima stay with my dog for now and stop writing so i can have my last moments with him he did save my life once . I was gonna take my life but he wanted to play with his toy so i stayed with him . 

Oh well maybe in my next life I'll be happier goodbye hopefully