i'm honestly so over everything at this. Everything in my entire life has me completely exhausted, anxious and depressed. There is literally nothing that makes me happy anymore. Not even my cats unfortunately. At least I know my family loves them and will take good care of them when I'm good.

What hasn't gone wrong, honestly.  Failed  relationship. I've been sleeping with this guys and it turns out he's had a girlfriend this entire time and guess what, I'm also pregnant. Abortion is illegal here so there's absolutely no way to get rid of it unless illegally, which costs thousands that I don't have. Plus this guy has been jerking me around for ages. I literally want nothing to do with him anymore but everytime I try to break it off, it's always no i really do love you or something similar. We wouldn't even be in this fucking situation and reconnected if his asshole sisters didn't reach out in the first place and wanted to hang out.

&amp;#x200B;

I thought they wanted to be friends but nope.. Everytime I reach out I hear nothing back, so what fucking ever.

Plus my one and only best friend in the entire world just left to go live in a different country. She was back for a little bit from January til last week. And all was fine and well. Every time I got anxiety and panic attacks from meetings at work or guy problems,  she was always there.  Her dropping everything to come to me or me in a 20 minute cab ride and I'd feel better. But now she's gone. And I have no one