I’m 14 and I’ve had anxiety for years, but lately it’s getting kind of out of control. i don’t have much friends anymore &amp; my family is always at work so it’s been a habit for awhile now to stay home. this issue mainly started last summer, it “died down” a bit but it’s getting pretty bad again. i literally can’t leave my house w/o having some kind of anxiety. I’m anxious about seeing ppl my age/ppl that I know, being judged, being at the wrong place at the wrong time, being watched -even though I know everyone is absorbed in their own life for the most part-, etc. I’m staring high school now &amp; I’m going to a huge school with people idk which has been making my anxiety worse. I go to therapy but it really hasn’t been helping, and no one wants to prescribe medications because they think CBT is the way to go (despite the fact that I’ve been doing it for over a year) &amp; addiction also runs in my family so they won’t give me any benzodiazepines, not that I would expect them to cause I doubt they would prescribe me that anyway. I’ve taken them once before and it felt great but I took that as a sign not to continue cause I don’t need more problems and I don’t wanna cause problems for anyone else. but I really don’t know anymore what to do and it’s embarrassing to panic in public &amp; start sweating/hyperventilating/etc. i had the worst last year of middle school because of my anxiety and I don’t want this year to be even worse. i also live in a small town now so the chances of seeing someone Ik in public is high which makes it feel impossible to go to restaurants or the market or target etc. 

idk how to stop giving a fuck what other people think/say ab me either 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️