i genuinely don't know if this is a bpd thing, but is anyone else just very competetive with having things wrong? i'll elaborate a bit more, like if someone is telling me and venting without asking me and they tell me a problem when theres nothing currently really bothering me i start to feel really violent towards this person and get really angry as if they are belittling me, and i block or ignore them. i don't even know why because its not like they know that it angers me. but i hate how i just feel like i have to retort with a problem worse than theirs even if it's made up. it's almost like i want to be unstable and i want them to know that i am worse than them, which in my opinion doesnt even really make sense?? i can't even control it either and i wish i could cause i've let this issue affect my fp multiple times and it makes me completely spiral. i don't even know if this is a bpd thing or me just being narcissistic. am i the only one who thinks like this or am i just genuinely manipulative