Somebody abused me and I am finding it really hard to cope with. And this is why I am nurturing myself again.

I already had a tiny speck of confidence. Now I am building all that has been destroyed by myself not getting out of relationship.

However, due to past actions feel very negatively towards self. I can also feel positively towards myself but it's a really slow process.

Ruminating negative thoughts about myself have led me to live a miserable life. I am trying to stop but find it very hard, any tips with helping positive voice in head?