My mom (and siblings) is leaving for a vacation in another country next week so I’ll be at home with all the medicine and cleaning supplies and whatever else I can find for a whole ten days and there is no way I won’t have a single impulse to do something, and now there will be nothing to stop me because everyone will be gone and she hates me now anyways because I’ve been hiding in my room all day slamming doors and throwing things around so she hates me for doing this and not talking rob or seeing her at allo the day before she leaves and my kitten hates me and won’t even come near me at all today (which is what started today being awful)  and those were the only two reasons I had left not to do it and they hate me so why the fuck shouldn’t I?