Hi guys, new to this page.

I've come to vent and to share my own issues with others that are comfortable enough to share theirs too. 

I have suffered from anxiety and depression for most of my adult life. I have suffered from emotional dissonance for most of this time, not being able to get a grasp on reality or enjoy it. I go through phases of feeling completely numb and angry. 

I just wonder what my purpose is in life. I'm not happy, i'm not sad, I'm just numb. I'm not someone that feels their value comes from their finances, and don't find happiness in money (it's something I've never really had). I work hard, and I am currently in a relationship with someone that loves me, I have a great family and I am currently training to become a teacher. I just find at times I'm not happy. I don't know what I want from this life and I don't know how to find out. I feel lost, and I feel hopeless in this world. I'm not looking for answers, but I am looking for some sort of guidance or to just hear your own opinions and experiences.