I talk with like 2 people on the phone, I only see one of them once in a while and then the other one is an online friend.
But when I'm not talking w them, there's this silent surrounding me. It kills me. I hate it so much :(

I have a job where people are so nice w me and care about me but... I can't seem to open myself w them and just talk normally :/
This job actually is pretty exhausting mentally... and I get burned out every weekend.

I'm scared things will never change..like, I just wish I could meet one or two people that I fucking love and just enjoy life.. But I can't ever seem to find people that I actually like, that is very rare for me tbh..