Hello everyone. I was diagnosed hypomanic by my therapist a few years back when my health insurance got cut off. I am too poor to afford to pay for treatment out of pocket but work to many hours to qualify for medical or state funded health insurance. 
  I feel like a monster, I wish I could control my outbursts. I look back at what I do instantly with so much shame a resentment at myself. I am ruining my relationship and my partner is running out of hope. It is the only thing in life that matters enough to keep me going. 
  I am here in search for advice or  assistance in dealing with all of this alternatively since I can not afford medically. I would love to hear what works for you, what doesn’t, What you suggest and don’t, anything at all. I thank you all for your time and wish you a good day.