I'm on Olanzapine 10 mg per night and Lamotrigine 400 mg per morning. So... I had mania episodes back in the day (last in march of the past year with delusions, really f... up) and a lot of depressed episode, I mean.. all my days are depression, now but some days are MDD instead being in this medication. So not mania but still depressed, just having not much MDD episodes with suicidal thoughts. I'm not active, I've started collage now in march and I'm like "I'm going to drop collage", not for being lazy, I'm fucked up mentally, 0 energy for study, ride my skate, hang out with friends, being not able to have a big conversation, just tired all the time. I'm thinking about spend some money in energetic drinks but when I drink this cans I can't sleep and I start with hypomania again. I'm between a blade and the wall for tell in a way, idk, It makes me worried