I have this constant need to get reassurance from people in my life right away or I completely obsess over what they think of me. Like I cannot even do my job because my brain is completely consumed with the obsessive anxiety. It keeps me from functioning. And then I feel compelled to do things to basically force that reassurance so I can think about literally anything else and it can get a bit dramatic.

I broke up with my boyfriend and realized it was a huge mistake. Now I have told him this and he says he's open to getting back together but he needs time to decide. The logical part of my brain says of course, take all the time you need, I'll be here. But emotionally, oh my god, I don't know what to do. Every second of every day all I can think about is whether he will want to get back together with me and it is so painful. How does anyone cope with an unknown like that??

I also have this problem with smaller things like waiting for a text back from someone or feedback at work, it's all consuming until I get that answer.

I feel like my whole life is going to fall apart because all I can think about is him and whether he will give me another chance. It's so frustrating. Distracting myself feels almost impossible. Is this a BPD thing or is this just bad anxiety? lol help