While I spent the last two months at a hospital I got diagnosed with BPD. I got kicked out after falling back to taking drugs.  (little sidenote- english is my second language, so it's a little hard for me to articulate)

Eversince I got diagnosed I feel so lost and so helpless. When I went to the hospital to get help, i was kind of hoping it was "just" a depressive phase. Finding out i'm supposedly BPD, makes me scared, because it feels like BPD is going to be there forever, I'm always going to be/feel weird. I was hoping it would go away, like a mild depression. But it seems it's more than that, and it's going to be with me till I die. And I dont feel like I've got the strength to handle feeling this way for so many years to come.

The sad thing is, I got the diagnosis when I got kicked out of the hospital, and now I am on my own, without professional help to help me cope with this situation. So now I'm here to ask how do you guys cope with the diagnosis, did you take it seriously and how did you cope with being diagnosed as borderline?

This probably gets asked a lot, I'm sorry if I fucked up with the rules a little bit.
I'm very happy about any help and advice you can give me.
