As soon as everyone is grown up, built their own families and careers, I’ll disappear.

They’re the only thing keeping me here now because I don’t want to negatively affect my siblings who are all still young and struggling.

But with time they will grow up, and we will naturally be more distant. And then I can slip away. If I could do it now in a way that was like I never existed, I would. But there’s no way for me to do that, so I’ll wait.