And it's affecting everything in my life right now. I left a job I hated and I like my new one (retail) but my anxiousness makes me paranoid that I'm going to mess something up, which I have a couple times, and having to drive to work makes me panicky. I hate driving in general because I've been in some accidents and my adhd adds to the fear. I just feel stupid. I can't focus on anything, I'm afraid to be out in public and the worst part is that I was doing so well and having to admit to my psychiatrist and anyone else that I'm not feeling well again makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong. I can't tell my bosses that I'm not feeling well because I'm ashamed and worried they won't understand. I have work in a couple of hours and I'm crying and wish I could just call out. I wish I could disappear for a little while to figure myself out but life has to go on and it never stops.