I haven’t dated in years cause I choose not to. I’ve had opportunities but always turned them down because anytime I get interested in anyone, which is so rare these days, I’m let down. If they’re taking hours to text me back or if I’m ever left on read or if this or that I automatically assume they have lost interest or find me weird etc. I then get down about myself and wonder what’s wrong with me and why am I not normal etc. So I then just back off and don’t talk to them anymore even if they end up texting me. 

Then the next day I’m back to not caring about whoever. It’s weird. And if I got in a relationship with someone I’m sure it would just make my anxiety crazy cause I’d be thinking in the back of my head this is too good to be true if it’s someone treating me good or what if they’re cheating or will cheat or what if they don’t like this about me or that. It’s never ending thinking/worrying. So I have a wall up and don’t want to even try dating anymore. 

I also have anxiety about my body too, I’m not skinny like a model or anything, I guess you can say I have a “mom bod”. But I look skinny with clothes on. So that’s another issue why I avoid dating or meeting people. And anxiety depression make me wanna just sit at home or lay around a lot of days or have mood swings and panic attacks on/off. Who wants to deal with all of that? 

I had a bad relationship a few years back and he use to get annoyed when he I got anxiety attacks and was a abuisve relationship all around. But I’m healed from it. I just don’t see myself dating ever again cause of my anxiety, depression issues. Also have health anxiety so I’m like always not feeling good or something. No one would want to deal with that. 

Anyone feel like this too?