i (20F) got cut off/kicked out of a friend group due to me misreading someone and kissing one of my friends. he did kiss me back but i knew we both regretted it and texted him later saying like "i totally misread you, i'm so sorry, etc" because i genuinely felt bad and i also didnt even wanna kiss him, i just thought he wanted to kiss me so i went for it. he agreed it was weird but said we'd be fine he just needed some space for a bit. i have a history of misreading things as flirty or romantic gestures and it has gotten me in messes, to where i fall too fast/hard for people or overidealize them, just because they treat me just with basic kindness. i guess i wanted to have this space be open for people to talk about how they unlearned their own toxic behaviors? or thought patterns? or how they worked through the self-hatred from now knowing that they have done things that were toxic? i'm starting dbt therapy. i'm going to get better. i just wish i fucking knew what to do. like i'm not gonna beg to come back to said friend group (cuz hindsight/therapy has shown me that they weren't really healthy for me), but i want to make a change for my future relationships, platonic or romantic.