i’m not diagnosed with bpd so this feels kinda wrong because i don’t want to invalidate others struggling with it but my sister is diagnosed with it and i’ve been thinking about it for a long time before she had even been diagnosed and i’m just very concerned about it because it’s really ruling and controlling my life and has been for a long time and i’m going to see someone soon to see if i have it 



but i’m literally panicking so hard rn my (what id assume to be) favourite person has gone to sleep when we usually call every night to sleep i’m not angry at him but it’s killing me i don’t know how i’m gonna sleep and i already know i’m going to break down later and pass out from crying so hard but it’s just getting really hard i’m so obsessive over him and one night of non validation just kills me and makes me not able to sleep i feel like such a clingy bitch 
i never blame him for a second tho he literally can’t do wrong in my eyes which in a way is a good thing but whenever i get convinced he despise me when he types a little out of character and i express it to him i feel so evil and insane i feel like i’m dragging him down because he has his own life and own problems but here i am saying ahh waa waaa do u hate me when he fucking says hey instead of like heyyyyyyyyy morning i feel so fucking insane 


how do i get to sleep tho