I know I’m smart - at least book smart because all my college papers so far have had amazing feedback, and 4.0. I know I can figure anything out when I put my mind to it. I’ve gotten myself out of dangerous situations, I’ve navigated my way through life this far… but I feel like a fraud, and I just signed up for 15 credit hours, which I’m extremely anxious about because I still doubt myself. I feel like I’m in way over my head and that I’m gonna fail and I’m not gonna understand the courses and I’m going to ruin the trajectory of my whole life and I won’t succeed or be the person I’m meant to be because I’m lazy and hate to focus and I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. 
I just want a good career and to buy a house and provide for myself , but god I am so scared that I won’t ever succeed. I feel it in my chest and I’m going to jump off a bridge but I can’t because my toddler needs me .