So when I was younger I used to be quite the homophobic, transphobic, and racist individual and said some things that reflected that back then that I knew had to have driven people away. I was raised by my dad and grandmother in South Mississippi who I learned it from plus the conservative Christian ideology. Both of them would regularly use slurs around me yet at the same time tell me don’t say it. I can remember my dad telling me that bisexuals were worse than gays because they would f*ck guys and then spread the diseases to the women and that if he ever found out I was gay or bisexual he would kill me (jokes on him I’m pansexual and he ain’t gonna do nothing.). Anyways I still hate myself for being that way and driving people away but I didn’t know any better and was a product of my environment. I just wish I could I could tell everyone I’m sorry and that I’m nothing like I used to be.