So I'm still in love with my ex who i suspect has borderline and npd and I feel so high when i talk to her idk if it's just love bombing but i just want her to be my whole world idk if she reciprocates those feelings or if I care even I get an emotional rush when she responds to me positively. Despite some of her hurtful flaws I just GET her and why she does what she does and I'm head over heels for her right now. I hope this isn't just the idealization rose tinted glasses phase we were together for over a year and things did get bad between us but man do I miss when things were good when we would laugh and hold each other and go on little dates. Am I just being blind or is this real love its so hard to tell with this disorder.