My first real serious girlfriend of 1.5yrs and I just ended things. To be fair we ended on good terms, and we both still love and care for each other, but just aren’t in a place for a relationship right now. 

I just feel very lost. I don’t really have anyone else. Part of me never wants to let anyone ever get that close to me again, just to avoid this pain. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do without her or how to navigate this situation at all really. The thought of her with someone else makes me feel nauseous and dizzy and worthless. 

For context we’re both 18, and I know I’m still young and everything but idk I feel like I’ve been alive too long as it is. I really wouldn’t mind going to sleep and never waking up again. 

I guess I’m just asking for advice on how to get over this. Again I don’t really have anyone else or know how to cope atm.