anyone else just given up on finding a compatible romantic partner? I feel underlined guilt anytime I get in a relationship because I know I will eventually mess it up and cause my s/o unnecessary turmoil. i know i’m too much but used to have hope someone could put up with my ups and downs. I don’t want to be medicated. but I also don’t want to live my life alone. is it selfish to want love even though I know my illness will be a burden on others?