For years I've resorted to self harm when I felt empty. It's super stupid how I got addicted to self harm. My middle school bully had told me to take apart a pencil sharpener and use the blade on myself. She said it felt good. She was right. I wonder how things would be different if I didn't do it or if she had never told me. Before using blades I'd punch myself. I punched myself from about... 5-12.  


I don't want to cut anymore because:  
1. I have work and I don't like wearing long sleeves in the summer  


I'd still do it if it weren't because of that. Family members told me addiction runs in the family so they kind of validated my self harm (since they continue their addictions).  


Anyways. How do you cope with the dissociation and emptiness?