My dad’s unemployed due to injuries and we’ve been renting for the past several years. Money’s always been tight, resulting in having to go without basic necessities such as food. I’ve now had to quit my course and get a job because my dad is financially dependent on me and I don’t have the luxury of studying anymore. We’ve been evicted and are now facing homelessness. My grandfather agreed to pay $3000 for the bond and moving costs of the next place, but has now revoked this offer despite us saying we’d pay him back (like we always have). To note, he’s very well off financially. Our family no longer wants to even speak to us let alone help us, and my dad is now threatening suicide. He hates me because of how useless I’ve been… I love my dad and don’t want to lose him. I’ve already destroyed my chances of having a decent future… we can’t stay with family.. i feel everything is ending. I wanted to enjoy my teenage years but it’s been a struggle just to survive. I’m so so jealous of my friends who have financial stability. Life has just been getting worse and worse each day. I cop so much yelling from my dad, who probably wishes I wasn’t born. Like he actually thinks I’m some bad omen that just makes everything worse. I don’t see the point in living anymore. I’m severely depressed and anxious. I have multiple chronic disabilities that affect me tremendously. It hurts to even move, and my chronic pain just continues to get worse. I’m scared of dying but living is much worse. The only thing that’s stopped me from committing is the guilt of leaving the people I care about and being an even greater burden. Every day, i hope i get into some sort of accident just so my death is justified.