So I currently live with my ex boyfriend until our lease is up at the end of July. We’ve both moved on and have new partners but I’ve made it very clear I do not wish to meet his new girlfriend at this time. This isn’t because I’m jealous or have any lingering feelings. Honestly, I’m doing terrible at this point in my life and I’m just way too anxious to go into a new situation like that. I have severe social anxiety as well so that doesn’t help. Also, I’ve been physically sick with an unknown illness for quite some time and just look ill. I don’t want anyone to see me. I haven’t hung out with my friends in months and I don’t even text them. I’m just doing bad. I’m not in the right headspace to meet anyone. I don’t know when or if I’m going to be able to meet her. When he has her over I just stay in my room and this is truly no big deal to me. But today, he was taking me to the grocery store and got a txt from her saying she was at the same Walmart. I immediately told him that was a hard no and I absolutely could not do it. This immediately frustrates him and I can tell he’s upset with me. I’m already shaking and having intense anxiety at the thought and he says in a very annoyed tone, do you want me to take you to another Walmart? And I agree and hop in the car. We start driving and he proceeds to say “you do know you’re gonna have to meet her at some point, right?” And this really upset me and I tried explaining to him that like, yo, I’m depressed and sick and anxious and I’ll meet people on my own time. I’ve told him this before. I shouldn’t have to explain it to him again. Also, I don’t have to meet her at all, right? Like i literally don’t have to do anything that IM not comfortable with, right? He just seemed even more frustrated and asked why I was able to see our good friend who called 2 weeks ago begging for help bc she went through a breakup but I’m not able to meet his gf. Like??? First of all we LIVED with this friend for a year like I’m decently comfortable around this person, secondly they were asking for help, and lastly, if they asked me to actually hang out just in general it would give me an insane amount of anxiety. Explaining it just made him quiet. I started crying in the car and I know he could hear me but he didn’t say anything. We pulled up and I went inside and got my groceries and came back and he seemed less mad. I was still pretty upset and he could tell bc when we got to the first stop light he asked if I was good. I said no, and I must’ve sounded really upset, because he snarled and said  “i’m sorry for asking”. This hurt even more bc like duh I’m gonna sound upset but I’ve never yelled at him and yeah maybe my reaction is too much but I still feel like he shouldn’t have said that to me? It just made me feel like a monster. I already feel like a bad person for being the way I am and now I feel like I’m literally poison. I probably didn’t act the way I should’ve and I’m not trying to make up excuses but fuck, I’m unmedicated, sick, and severely mentally ill. I just need some patience. If you read this, thank you, and please let me know what you think. I honestly don’t feel like I can interact with him at all right now. I just feel horrible.