Me and my fiance have had some tumultuous times in our relationship, most recently its her being oddly reminiscent about an ex she claims to hate. For the last couple weeks she has found a way to loop him into what feels like every conversation. NOW it gets juicy, she told me the other night she wants to go for a road trip to visit her friends where we used to live and spend the night. She's also very recently become super attached to her phone, always closing a bunch of apps when I enter a room or taking it with her to shower,get a drink etc etc. I can't being this up to her because it will cause a fight and she knows how to really fuck me up mentally when we argue so I avoid it at all costs. I'm not sure if this is me overthinking things and being a controlling tool (If that's the case I'd love to know so I can stop worrying) or if I actually have something to worry about here. She also thinks I don't have BPD and says I fake all my symptoms. I dunno. This is just a rough time for me I guess. I can't handle being alone and I can't seem to manage any problem properly. Is it all me?

On the lighter side of things my youngest son has started calling me "hulk" or "batman" instead of dad. So that's kinda neat.