i always feel so hurt whenever my best friend posts their girlfriend. i know I do *not* like them in that way, but it always sucks to be reminded that i will never be their favorite. we went out just yesterday to get lunch and hung out, and they told me they loved me and I'm their best friend; everything they always do. but as soon as they're out of my sight and aren't constantly telling me as such, I think they don't love me anymore. they post their gf ? I must be nobody to them. they hang out with other friends ? they're replacing me, obviously.

but one word from them, and I feel like everything is fine with the world. I hate being so dependent on what they do and say.