i make so many dumb little mistakes that i can’t take back. this happens for all of my illnesses but my biggest problem right now is ADHD because i just started a new job and i already did something stupid because i thought my shift was 30 minutes early because that’s what my manager said by mistake. 

but i can’t use that as an excuse because my schedule said the right time but since i can never remember anything i thought “oh i must have been wrong” and immediately forgot all about the normal time because of my terrible memory. i wanted to ask and confirm but i was anxious to be bothering her again so i didn’t. 

i can’t remember anything or pay attention ever so it’s hard going through job training as i forget things right after they teach me, and i keep forgetting over and over. but i can’t help it because i can’t pay attention due to ADHD and i get so so anxious. but i can’t give excuses. it’s so frustrating :(