I saw some women snaps pop up on boyfriends Apple Watch and I’m just down for the count. He lied to me about them several times so I know it’s just .. he’s being shady. 

I keep SHing. I keep going numb. I keep punishing myself for not being good enough. I keep wanting to just be asleep. Unconscious. 

It’s like I simply can’t handle it. 
My chest hurts. 
My whole sense of security we’ve built up is destroyed. 

We had a ddlg dynamic going we have gotten so close through and I feel so fucking bad about that now too.

He keeps apologizing and begging things to be ok and telling me he loves me. But dude why did you do that that? Why are you talking to women on snap then?? 

FUCK!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭