so the tldr is my lifes randomly decided to come together all at once, i have a great partner, a job thats perfect for me and not stressful, ive been sober for months for the first time in my life, i have a friggin 401k and a cute cat and also i myself look good to me. but about a week out of every month i just feel nothing, nothing seems to matter and nothing feels worth doing. sure it used to be a lot worse the week would be just me crying and shaking alone in bed, trying to avoid bad ideas, and numb is better than that for sure. but will it always be this way? i dont think i can be a mom when im like this and thats legit the only goal i have left in life. is it ethical to have kids when ur basically afk 1/4 of the time?