Like the title says, I constantly feel as though I’m a burden to my friends. All including online ones. For instance, when I message them I am always so worried that they’re just messaging me back or at all because I’ve messaged and they feel bad or out of convenience. I’d like to believe that it’s not true but somehow I always come back to this point. I’m a friendly person and I’ve lost a lot of friends due to being way too forgiving to all the wrong people, before cracking and hurting everyone around me. Maybe this is a defence mechanism so that I don’t get hurt or hurt anyone else, but I truly just think these thoughts hurt me anyway. It’s really frustrating because I’d love to truly be able to talk to someone and be friends with someone without assuming they want nothing to do with me. I get so anxious mulling over the idea that I’m annoying people. Just kinda sucks I guess. If anyone has advice on how to deal with this, let me know but if not, I hope you have a good day :)
If you understand this at all, I’m sorry cause it sucks.