How do you know when you're ready to die? Why doesn't anyone love me? What have I done to deserve a life where no one wants to even hug me or kiss me. A lonely Virgo in a world that doesn't see me. 4 years since my mom died and even my children aren't enough. I used to think they need me but I see they only need God. I'm so ready to leave this life. Noone should be so alone it's crippling. Even around friends and family I feel like a ghost. I don't think I could ever take my own life but I really wish God hurries up. This is an evil world with tons of evil people and it's just not fair to those who want no parts in that evil. So smart I'm stupid. 1 more story of my life. I seen success just like I've seen failure. I've sung in the sun just like I've sung in the rain. I've known the joy just like Ive known  the pain. I've been good and I've been bad. Tomorrow belongs to those who prepare for it today. Where's my death at?