So I'm a 2nd year university student. Throughout high school, my ability to presentations became worse and worse (seemingly out of nowhere). Then junior year, I had a huge panic attack in front of like 30 people giving a presentation. Then COVID hit, and here I am not having given a presentation in many years.

I had to give one the other day in a class, and I just walked out; literally just took my stuff and left. I felt like I was going to have a panic attack, and then today I just skipped class, because I physically could not walk into the classroom. The professor talked with the department, and there's nothing they can do.

I'm tired of my parents telling me it's going to be okay and all these "tips" that are supposed to help me—there's not enough breathing exercises in the world that can get me through these panic attacks. Right now, I don't even have insurance until October, so I can't even see anyone. If I drop this class, it's gonna screw up my transcript. And so many other classes have required presentations. To graduate I need to do a presentation!

I just feel backed up against a wall with no way out. I spend more of my day stressed and anxious than happy. I don't know what to do anymore. I keep thinking about if I'm happy that I was born into this world, and my answer has become a resounding "no." Idk if that's bad to think but whatever.