First off, I'm not asking to be diagnosed because I'm already pretty sure I have it. (Also I know it's against the rules and you guys prob probably​ were bombarded with people asking before. )

 I meet the criteria of BPD but I'm not always as severe as you folks. (It's still pretty bad. Obsessive love, weird rage outbursts, numbness and boredom, panic disorder and crazy emotions. Oh my.) I relate to you folk here all too well.

I've talked to my therapist about it and explained it to her as to why I feel that way and she says it certainly adds up but she says it's difficult to diagnose. It makes sense that I have all these extra symptoms rather than it just being the plain old depression/anxiety wombo combo. It also appears to manifest in my family because one of my brothers was a drug addict and the other gets upset very quite easily. I've just got to mention this to my psychiatrist now. 

Anyway, back to the point. Is there a version of BPD that isn't AS extreme? Where I don't *constantly* push and pull people and manipulate others around me? I still do it but not to the extent that borderline typically is associated with. It just feels more like my emotions are out of whack and antidepressants never could fix that or the void within me. 
Or that sometimes I get insanely angry or anxious over the small things. Or that I obsess over people who I don't even know. Or that I cry for no reason and in public so I'm forever known as the emotionally unstable one.

Just wondering.