Idk why I’m sharing this, but I wanted to get it out. I’m terrified, but I’m doing inpatient. I never have before and I’ve destroyed most of my relationship already, but I can’t stop thinking about older people saying things get better. But I’m not doing *anything* to actually make it happen. Just wasting days away until who knows what. I’m terrified they’re going to turn me into a zombie. I work on semi trucks for a living and if I become dizzy or tired all the time I will be unable to complete my work. My girlfriend has been around since pre-diagnosis, diagnosis and my “bipolar is just who I am” phase. I’m slowly tearing down everything we’ve built and I just want to get better so we can get better. She deserves someone who can take care of her and I can’t be that person without getting help.

Not necessarily fishing I hope, but some words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated.

I hope everyone is safe, healthy and med compliant :):