I, for a very long time, refused to accept I could fall into this disease or so called depression. Now, having this sinking feeling, the one where you heart gets heavy and your eyes start to water everyday, when you no longer enjoy the things you did once and just try to sleep through the thick of it. I have family but they don’t understand what I’m feeling and refuse to accept their so called shinning star of a son can have such feelings. I want to get better but I don’t know if the price is worth what’s on the other side because even making myself do simple self care tasks takes a lot out of me mentally