Texting someone non-stop is really my only source of happiness and distraction. I hate my life so much and obviously can't keep shit in person. But over text I feel safer and able to be more vulnerable I guess.  And I notice that I have to always be texting someone.  If I'm not... like if no one replies to me fast I feel so awful and suicidal.  Like I can't handle not texting constantly with someone.....anyone really who validates me and replies back fast haha