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HI all, recently turned 35 and have nothing to show for it. I've never been in a relationship and I've for the most part never worked. I just graduated college in December so I'm looking for my first real job but everything is just so scary. I've had ocd since a child and GAD since my 20s. To make thing worse, I've recently semi lost my confidant who was my rock so now I lack anyone to talk to about about things and the world seems so much harder without her.  
 

I really miss her and I'm struggling to operate without her. I'm currently sitting here sweating from anxiety. I really want to do something with my life but I'm so scared that I'll fail and be stuck here in this place. I'm afraid I'll never met anyone like her again as we've been super close for 5 years now. I'm afraid this will be a reoccurring thing in my life where I'll break at adversity. I want to be better, I want to feel good, I want to not be scared of the future. Any advice would be helpful, thanks