There are some rooms in my house that I can't spend time in without thinking about memories that were once made in there.

Or clothes that I can't bring myself to wear anymore because I was once complimented in them or I wore them to an event.

Or music/films that I can't listen to or watch anymore because I listened to/watched them with this one person and we spoke about them often together.

There's a festival my friends are going to this year but I 100% won't be joining them because it's at the same venue as one I went to last year with said person and I'm scared I'll be consumed with horrible thoughts and I won't be able to enjoy it.

I don't enjoy anything anymore because eventually every single thing possible reminds me of this one person who I don't want to be reminded of anymore. The thoughts consume me and fill me with anxiety, I don't know how to stop it.

This was really hard to explain but I'm hoping someone understands what I mean.