
I just started working again after three years of being off with my kids. I have decided to switch Carrer paths and the mean time I am working at a fast food joint until I go back to college. Problem is ever since I started working again my suicidal thoughts and and anxiety have been through the roof ! Three years ago my mental health was much better then now, on my way hom from work I get suicidal thoughts and intense anxiety flashes. I have been extremely sensitive and constantly on guard. Any tips would be appreciated. It's only been a week and I feel miserable. I don't mean to sound whiney, it's just these intense sensations of suicidal thoughts and anxiety/ insecurity I cannot bear. I don't want to throw in the towel already but I do to know what to do. Maybe the kids and work is to much for me to handle ? Maybe I should do an intensive bpd program before proceeding back to work? Or Ami just making up excuses ?