Lately I have been feeling really stressed mentally which is fueling how depressed and hopeless I feel.

Just for a short backstory, I don't have a lot of work experience under my belt as for the past several years I have been taking care of my father, who passed away last September, who was very sick with cancer during the last couple of years of his life, no chemo or anything just self treatments he bought off of Amazon, and he had a heart attack in 2013 that nearly killed him then but he survived that. For the last couple of years my grandmother and I took care of him as best we could and despite that he got cancer and ultimately his sickness took him from us. Over the next couple of months we both do our best to get his affairs in order and I applied for and got hired for the first real job I ever had in years at Staples towards the end of September, which was not enough money and just ultimately made me more depressed and hopeless while working there. As we were getting my father's affairs in order, my grandmother got sick as well with cancer of her own and within a couple of months was gradually moved into a home to be cared for where she stayed for only a few days before she ultimately passed as well in January, which I never properly said goodbye and told her I would visit as soon as I could as during all of this going on I had to make moving preparations and had to move at the end of January out of the house the three of us were staying in.

I know I might be missing and sparse on some details but didn't want it to be too long but basically I am at the point where I need to make money for myself but I am currently stressed out severely and already depressed and sad from working at Staples as it brings me nothing but pain and suffering both physically and mentally with low pay, so I put in my two-weeks just to get out of there with no real plan and now all I feel is that death seems like a better alternative than feeling hopeless, depressed, and stressed out nearly all the time.