I can't remember the last time my body was tired, I can lift weights and play sports for hours, I even rarely feel sleepy and can't sleep at all for more than a few hours without melatonin.

On the other hand I'm dead inside, my head just wants me to lie alone in the bed all day while my body wants to run all day. I have to force myself to do every little thing in life and it feels like it's only a matter of time before I won't be able to force myself anymore.