It’s 11:31 PM on a Monday and I’m awake alone in my room sobbing, once again… my life continuously gets worse everyday. I recently found out I probably won’t be eligible for military service witch is all I’ve ever wanted to do, not only that but I’m just getting worse everyday, I just keep crying and crying and crying. I’m so pathetic I swear and I just don’t know what to do with myself, I’m only 16 and I don’t see any value in my life. I’m told to kill my self a lot and I think about it daily I’m alone, unattractive, unhealthy hated. It’s become so much that sometime o forget why I’m crying. It’s every night. And I just hate the pitiful look on everyone’s face when they see me. Recently a girl passed me note it school saying I looked cute and it took me about a day to realize she was just making fun of me. I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s so hard to get out of bed in the morning. I just don’t understand why this world has to punish me for existing. Anyways sorry for ranting and I appreciate whoever is reading this, and sorry for not really expanding on why I’m such a mess my mind is just a mess. Im not looking for sympathy of advise I’m just here to… we’ll idk rant?