I am so depressed in life in general and I’ve struggled in my new, first time job the last 5 months and it’s just getting worse. My team is very nice and idk I have apparently been supposed to be tracking the ordering of stuff and today we kind of realized I haven’t been doing so well because the first round of stuff was kind of a mess and was late and now we are having a meeting about it tomorrow to go through everything I might of missed and to see how I’ve been tracking stuff. I’m definitely not going to get fired at all because of how the company is struggling with turnover and the other major projects I’m a part of but I don’t even care if I did because I live with my parents while I search for apartments and am financially saving a lot anyways. Plus I’ve wanted to quit before I became good friends with some of my coworkers. I just feel I’m finally gonna be outted as a fraud for not having been tracking as I was supposed to and will be talked tough to or disciplined and will be a complete failure. It’s literally the panic of making mistakes and being called out for them. I hate myself so much. I kind of would rather die than go in tomorrow. Not like actually die just end the pain. Ugh.