I’ve felt lonely all my life because I found it extremely hard to make friends and socialize, but I was always able to stay “ok” just by enjoying my own company and my hobbies.  But now, I’ve slipped into this depressed and hopeless state where I’m on the verge of tears all the time and always feel like throwing up.  I miss my old life because while it wasn’t great, it wasn’t this HELL that I’m in now.  I have no idea what to do and sleep is my only escape.