I need a hobby besides men lol. I get obsessive and crazy whenever I get a crush it’s like the only thing I think about during the day. My thoughts are so intrusive. I wish there was a way I could turn it off and be happy going about my day without constantly thinking about them. I invest so much of my happiness into men so if I get let down, forget it. I become depressed it fucking sucks. The only way I can get over a crush is to delete them from my life and get a new crush. I just want to be normal and date like normal person would. 