I wish I could be done. I’m so fucking tired of waiting for a life that doesn’t exist and isn’t going to happen. I feel so fucking empty and alone I can’t leave my bed. Everyone is sick of me and my shit. I would be too. 

I’m just fucking overcome with absolute terror and I don’t know why. I’m so scared of being alive and continuing to move forward. There’s nothing out there for me except more of the same. I don’t know what to do is just screaming in my mind on repeat. Hurting myself barely helps, I can’t cry, I have nothing and no one to say this to. 

I wish I never woke up. Just inconvenience everyone one last time but not have to deal with the emotional pain of it. Everyone is disappointed in me and they’re just going to stay that way. 

I don’t deserve anything I have. I don’t deserve nice things or good things, I haven’t done anything to earn them. I can’t even pay my bills. I don’t deserve the help I get. 

I guess I’m done. Thanks for reading, I hope things get better for you guys.