TW: Mentions of panic attacks, miscarriage.

My boyfriend of 5 years and I want to start a family soon-ish. We’re still a few years out but we’re currently planning and putting together budgets for it. Well something that came up for me while laying in bed overthinking (you know how it is), is that I get panic attacks frequently. I get panic attacks at least every 3-4 days, often more. I’m working on it with therapy but it’s a slow process. 

So I decided to look up how panic attacks affect a pregnancy and it’s not good. Panic attacks and high anxiety can cause miscarriage or cause severe issues with the developing baby because of restricted blood flow. Blood flow is reduced to the baby when the mother is high in anxiety or having a panic attack. This whole thing scares me.

I’m working on my issues, and I still have a few years before this happens, but it’s a very real concern that I have. If I’m not able to get my panic attacks under control, I may not be able to have children (or at least healthy children).

Im not sure how I’m supposed to be okay with that, if it is the case. This is something my boyfriend and I want so badly, and the possibility of it not happening because of my disabilities is very painful.

Not really sure what to make of this. Comforting words, insight, advice?