So a few years ago in high school (I was 17 or maybe 18), my mom made me see a therapist because I was very emotionally unstable, mostly depression and anxiety. I don’t really remember my therapist discussing borderline personality disorder with me or anything about a diagnosis but later my mom told me she had talked about the disorder with her and my therapist thought I had it. (I also remember my mom buying a book “walking on egg shells” about living with someone that has bpd).

I’ve always brushed off the diagnosis though..I was sick of being dragged to countless therapists and psychiatrists &amp; I didn’t like this one. So I am 23 now though and I’m doing a lot worse. I don’t want to self diagnosis...I don’t know if it’s technically self diagnosing...but I do think she was right about me having Bpd. All the symptoms are exactly what I’ve been going through and struggling with for a very long time. 

I currently see a psychiatrist, but I haven’t mentioned anything about Bpd or how bad my mental health has been (past or present) and I really don’t want to. I take antidepressants, but I just don’t want a diagnosis from my current psychiatrist to affect any other medication I’m prescribed. I don’t know what to do..I don’t know what kind of help I need and I’m kinda scared to go back to therapy. Should I just not worry about an official diagnosis or...

I’m sorry if none of this made sense, but I am just struggling a lot and would appreciate any advice:)