Hiya my sweeties,

I have been doing so great lately but today... Fuck today. I hate my work, it's like all my healthy coping mechanisms gtfo when I'm at work. I'm starting a new job that I LOVE soon and I can't wait and I should be happy but I just can't today. I'm overstimulated, I hate myself, I hate how I look, I hate everything I do, I hate what I write, I hate everything I just want to scream... I feel like everyone hates me and fuck they're right to. I posted a picture on freecompliments and deleted it after not getting any comments which made me feel even worse. I posted some of my poetry on a few poetry subreddits and deleted most of them because no response. I feel like everything and everyone hates me. I feel like even non-sentient things hate me and try everything to make my life a living hell.

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sorry for the negative energy this is a stupid vent, I'm proud of myself for not texting/telling my partner and friends super toxic shit anymore like I used to do like 2 years ago, but still.... I just want someone to hold me and tell me everything will be okay... I wish i could see my girlfriend but they're like a 1000km away from me until next year,,,,,