I have been recently diagnosed with BPD and i wanted to know if obsession over random things is a symptom of BPD. It could literally be anything. I find myself always thinking about the future, if i'm real or not, whether i will ever find true happiness. I think about happiness 24/7 that i forget to live my life. I have this obsession with drugs as well. It became an issue when i was 16. I was abusing benzodiazepines and other things, and i used to OD on every drug i see even till now. I abuse lots of substances. I always think about drugs, talk about them, research. My friend was talking about how sad she was meanwhile i was asking her about drugs. I wanted to know it that's normal and if someone else can relate?