For some background - I haven’t been officially diagnosed with BPD yet however I have spent the better part of the last 6 months doing A LOT of research - looking at diagnostic criteria, listening to peoples accounts of living with bpd, talking to people in person and online and sharing experiences etc and it’s all fitting together. I am on a several month long waiting list for therapy ( thanks nhs ) and hope that will sort something out officially. 

But here’s the problem - in all the research I’ve done, nothing I’ve been through seems bad enough. Yeah sure my parents aren’t great emotionally and can be pretty invalidating but they’re decent parents, they  love me and would do anything for me and want me to be happy more than anything else. And i almost feel guilty feeling this awful when in the grand scheme of things I’ve had it nice. 

One of the main things that’s made sense is that I have adhd and didn’t know until I was 18 and wasn’t diagnosed until 22 and I guess having my whole
Life experience being invalidated growing up could explain things but even so it feels like I’m being dramatic