I feel like nobody cares. Not family not friends. Until it's too late and even then it's like a minimum of worry too make themselves feel better - not enough to actually want to help.

"I'm depressed and need to talk" - no response.

"I'm so sad I'm going to cut myself" - "have fun" or "F"

"I'm going to kill myself" - "oh no, how sad, how can I help but with the least amount of work and/or just call a hotline" or usually just "F"

Has society devolved in to "like this post to help" or "pay F to pay respects" instead of actually looking out for each other?  
Am I just an asshole for wanting attention before I feel like I need to kill myself because I can't take the loneliness anymore? For wanting to not be the one to message first? For wanting to be heard and understood and feel like I matter?

I feel like it's in my nature to try to help anyone I meet and while I don't expect anything in return it still hurts to be ignored when I need help myself.