I feel like everything in my life is falling apart at the same time and I don’t know how to cope. 

I’ve struggled with OCD, anxiety, and depression for a long time now, but just in the past year or so the anxiety has reached a point where it’s a struggle just for me to leave the house. Every time I'm away from home I am terrified that either something bad is gonna happen like a car accident or a robbery, or I'm terrified that I'm gonna pass out or throw up in public, which then makes me panic, making me feel sick, which makes the anxiety worse. My home is the only place I can feel completely safe and calm, but I have to move soon. I've lived in the same house for my entire life, and my parents decided that we're moving in a few weeks without even asking how my sister and I feel about it. I know that the move is necessary financially and logistically, but I am still completely devastated about it and nobody seems to care. 

On top of all that, I'm moving into a new college in less than two weeks. I've been doing online class since the pandemic started, and I already know that being there in person is going to be a huge anxiety inducer for me. Going to school also means leaving my girlfriend. She's been living with my family on and off since the pandemic started and the thought of going from living together to only seeing her on school breaks physically hurts. We are both huge support systems for each other and being so far apart is going to hurt so bad. 

Additionally, I got my housing assignment last week and I've been assigned a double dorm room with one bathroom for the whole floor and no kitchen in the building. This is not even close to the housing I requested in my application, and I know that I will be absolutely miserable in this situation. Because of my OCD, having other people in my space is a huge anxiety inducer for me. Needing to share a tiny dorm room with a stranger and a bathroom with so many people AND needing to wash my dishes in a communal bathroom due to the lack of kitchen is going to make me panic every single day. I've been trying all week to get the housing assignment changed but the only guidance anybody has had for me is to submit a form saying I have a documented disability "for consideration." Due to circumstances outside of my control, I have been unable to receive a formal diagnosis of OCD or anxiety, so I have nothing to submit for a housing accommodation. I was planning on using the school's counseling services to get diagnosed, but I guess that's just too little too late. I've been trying to find a way to get a documented diagnosis online, but it doesn't seem to exist in the time frame and price range I need it. I looked into off-campus apartments and got completely attached to the idea, but even the cheapest ones are just not financially possible for me. The thought of being so miserable and anxious at school and not even being able to return to my home because we're moving is so fucking brutal I don't know how to function.

So tl;dr: My entire life and sense of security is about to implode in a couple weeks and I don't know how to survive it.