I don’t even know where to start. I have only been at this job for a month and a half, but I feel sick to my stomach, anxious and scared all the time. I started having severe anxiety during my internship in college and almost quit then, but I thought maybe it was more because of the location I was at and not the actual career path itself so I stuck it out until graduation (and went to therapy). But it’s happening at my new job as well. 
I am starting to realize that it triggers my past trauma/PTSD which I went to therapy for years over. I just don’t know how to work through the anxiety when it’s not just first job nerves, it’s also a trauma response. 

I am trying to think clearly and rationally about it, if I should stick it out, but I just don’t know what to do. If I quit, I will feel like a failure and let down so many people, coworkers and my family. It will be so embarrassing to tell friends as well. 

If anyone has kind words or advice, I’d really appreciate it. It feels heartbreaking to spend so much time and money in school to discover that this career path may be too much for me. I honestly don’t know what to do but something has to change.