I have high functioning BPD, this is a blessing and a curse. I’m still able to work, study and get things done effectively. I also lean towards being a workaholic because I hate being alone with my thoughts. I get along very well with coworkers and employers. The problem with this is to the naked eye I really appear to be ‘okay’.However, people around me become mortified when I have a “BPD episode” and attribute my meltdowns to me being a selfish , emotionally immature person rather than me actually having a diagnosed disorder. I’ve had ex’s tell me that there’s nothing ACTUALLY wrong with me and that I’m ‘a bit crazy’but can hide it well. I’ve even had close friends ‘forget’ I have this disorder and are left speechless when I bring up my suicidal ideations. Idk, I feel like I’m a very empathetic and compassionate person who tries to be there for others, but when I try to explain my inner emotional turmoil I just get told I’m overly sensitive and moody and that there’s nothing actually wrong with me because we all get like that from time to time.