20/m, so for a while its been clear to me and some of my friends that im suffering from some sort of dpdr which is just fine and dandy but for the last couple years I've been having these, like, body terrors I guess?i think they could be related, most of the time it's because im focusing on my body's natural processes and all of a sudden it feels like my soul drops out of my body and I feel this almost primal, wordless fear, worse that ive ever felt, spread through my whole being for an instant before leaving me immensely terrified at what just happened. doesn't always have to be about my body, though. sometimes it's just thinking about existence or how my body and brain work. i don't really have much trauma although I did have a lot of death and terrible shit happen over the last year or so, but i have no fucking clue what is happening here and I am stumped. id see a therapist but none of them near me are doing video therapy, I don't really know what to call these except for what I say "second-long existential panic attacks" lol. this shit is destroying my mental state and is making my retail job almost undoable. if anyone has any advice that would be great, not asking for diagnoses or anything but taking advice, ty for reading