Since the pandemic, I’ve been having intense levels of anxiety and continuously hyper fixate on the past. Today I cannot stop thinking about high school (I graduated in 2016). I just keep thinking about how I was rude to classmates and teachers, and had very few good friends throughout the 4 years. I’ve definitely improved since then, but I can’t help but feel like I’m a lost cause because of how shitty I was back them. Then I spiral and convince myself I’m a total fuck up now. This cycle has been happening frequently for me and I’ve lost a lot of sleep over it.  I’ve tried reaching out to friends on the topic, but they don’t quite seem to understand. 

Has anyone been having similar issues? 

Any tips on how to live in the moment better ? I’ve been trying journaling these thoughts and it helps a little but it’s only a matter of time till I fall back into this cycle :/