Ok so at my school there is this girl who I don't know and never talked, just goes to my school and is really nice. She is really pretty, dress elegant, walk confidence, look and act highly confidence, and I admire her. I'm also kinda jealous of her beauty and her hijab since she is so pretty and I wish I could wear one although i'm not muslim. I am a girl who has lack self-confidence and had in the past other situations like this before. Whenever I see her or walk pass her, my body freezes as well as my mind, my body tumbles/shakes with panic attack. Whenever this girl sees me, she notices my behaviour around her and probably thinks i'm strange. Now I had put myself in her shoes and pretend that I was her and she was me, and that she is human too and that were all equal, that still didn't help and I had worse panic attacks the more I think about her.

It doesn't stop there.

So through insta, I somehow found her account which was public and clicked on it. Now we've all probably done this before of looking through people's insta accounts and that's what I did. Something horrible happened while I was on her profile... I went through some of her highlights and accidently came across one that was on her story, which means she could see I view it. Somehow although she doesn't know me, just that weird girl who is scared of her, she end up blocking me!!!! bc because she thinks i'm a creep bc in her situation that would be so creepy. Right now i'm even more scared of her and I no longer see her anymore since she's gone.

Right now guys I need a advice on how to stop being afraid of people who are confident and better then I am and obsessing over people. I also need help on psychology analyzing this situation so I can better understand myself. btw please do not judge me, if you are, feel free to leave.