I'm still an adolescent, but up to now I have had a terrible past. I've lost so many I've suffered alot which makes me the person I am today. I'm proud of that person😀 but.. It's been 6 months (and basically all my life) that I don't feel good in my own skin. I can and than suddenly I can't anymore. My father agrees with me there are too many situations that happened to me that were out of my control. I've fallen into drugs to heal the pain (4 years), for the past 2 weeks I stopped. Suddenly. I though this would help me heal but it didn't although I am a totally different person off the drugs it did help me in a way but the pain keeps on coming back.. My father suggests I should go see a therapist and have medication which I obviously am not ready to do. My mother is an unassumed bi-polar. And I think I might just be like her because I don't know what do to anymore there's a whole god damn roller coaster in my head I feel good than I don't.. I can't explain it I'm seeking advice because one day I'll be so down that I'll end it because I don't feel at ease with myself even though I have a decent life even though I'm able and have proved that I can succeed. I need input any thoughts or ideas?