Just got really depressed and suicidal 4 months ago after I had a failed surgery to correct a birth defect called hypospadias. I feel like I’ll never get the chance to feel normal and experience life like a normal guy.

I’ve been on escitalopram for 2 weeks but I’m still very sad and done with my life. I just hate myself so much and there’s nobody out there who can help me.

What can I do to feel better?