I don't want to study anymore or work. Im currently a uni student, I really have no drive for it anymore. I don't want a job either - human interaction scares me sometimes, I can't be productive. I want to live under a rock and not deal with anything. I have to go back to my shared student accommodation on Monday and in dreading it. I'd rather off myself. I don't want to live in this world. The only reason I was born was so that my parents could use me as their toy to fuel their narcisssm and to mentally torture me. I feel so lost in the adult world. But everyone thinks im ok because I laugh alot at stupid things. 

If I could just have my music, sleep and explore nature and stuff that would be great. I don't care about material items and I don't drink or go out. So tired