My mother has been so sick the last few years. She has rheumatoid arthritis, fibromyalgia, lupus, epilepsy, and more. She has days where she can't function normally. She just lies down resting and tries to cope with the intense pain and migraines. We had a movie night tonight and shared some laughs watching planes, trains, and automobiles. After the movie finished, she hugged me and thanked me for sharing time with her. I just left for a night drive after she went to bed. I cried and cried and cried. I'm so scared. My mom is my best friend. I can't imagine losing her. I already lost my father to suicide 10 years ago. I have bipolar along with severe depression, and some days the thought of losing her just consumes me. Over the years, I've tried hard not to think about losing her too much, but it's difficult sometimes. I'm a mess (can't hold a job, antisocial, unhealthy), and she is there for me to talk to about anything. If she passed, I feel like I'd lose my mind and just end it.