I’m thinking a lot about my BFF moving to Nevada after being my support system since my diagnoses. I tried calling many therapy places the past two weeks but most places rejected me. Tbh I don’t want to do day treatment or therapy, it’s just my mind making me. But my symptoms keep fluctuating. One minute I’m too tired to get out of the car and the next minute I’m too anxious to fall asleep. I feel like this whole applying to therapy thing is some kind of madness and I don’t know how to avoid it. I really just want to get back on my feet and go jogging, keep up with chores, etc. But oftentimes by afternoon I feel like lying in bed and my memory of the entire past 2 weeks seems almost entirely non existent. I’m looking forward to Kawaii Kon this Saturday, though. We are going to a concert and to walk around.  I really want to go since it’ll be one of my last chances to see my friend before she moves to Vegas. Ideally, I want to get life back on track and do some light once a week volunteering or other activity or other structured activity. I’m really not feeling that well atm.