I've carried it for awhile and have been in counseling for about a year and a half.. We only addressed depression like 4 months ago because there was so much OTHER crap going on. 

I took a test. Scored high, which I knew.. I've suspected it forever. Something is just OFF. ANYWAY, 

What does your depression manifest like? For me... It's this open pit beneath my diaphragm and it doesn't go away. This yawning hole that I have to carry. Sometimes it's louder than others... But I feel it and am aware of it so viscerally. And then it creeps up behind my eyeballs and I feel like I'm only looking out of my body.. I'm not really in it. 

Dunno if this is against the rules, I did read over them... I'm just wondering what it feels like to you all?