i’m going through a really rough time right now. my twin brother has recently been going through hits of psychosis due to unknown reasons (though high chance it’s due to stress) and it’s really painful to see him in such a state. i recently got promoted to manager at my job, which is exciting, but it’s really stressful. not to mention the other managers keep making comments about how slow i am even though i’m still training, which is very discouraging. i’m a senior in high school and AP tests are coming up. school is also just difficult in general. so i’m at an all time high level of stress right now.

my boyfriend, who i’ve been with for around 8 months, randomly brought up breaking up since we are going to college in fall.  he’s the most amazing person i’ve ever met. he’s kind, caring, and so respectful of me. i have so much fun with him and i love him and spending time with him. i could go on and on, but to sum it up, he’s makes me so happy and when i’m with him, i actually feel calm. he’s the only thing keeping me going and the only thing that calms me down. i cant imagine losing him. when he brought up breaking up, i just went numb. 

i don’t know what to do without him. i want to kill myself, but my parents are already dealing with my brother and i don’t want to make the pain worse. i don’t know what to do.