Okay, so I don't know about any of you, but I have pretty severe mom issues that turned into an obsessive state of perfectionism. She never thought anything I did was good enough or if I did do something it was mediocre at best. 

I try to be my best in everything from cleaning, drawing, education (college grades), etc. It makes me feel like I am doing something someone can be proud of. 

At the moment I'm not feeling too good about myself since I'm 19, don't have a liscense (been driving every chance I get), and don't have a job (can't get one without car or liscence). This semester I can't even attend school because of money issues. My fiancé and I currently live in his parents basement (for more context). I also smoke weed to help with my episodes as they can go on for 2 or 3 hours and his parents know this (I don't smoke in or around the house EVER). 

Well, his mom keeps hounding me to do better. "You need to get a license", "You need to get a job", "You do nothing all day", "By the time I was your age, his dad and I were married, owned a house, we both had 2 jobs, AND I was going to school", "I don't want you dependent on a chemical to live". 

I hate how nobody can see that I'm trying my best. I've come so far and every comment she adds makes me feel like I'm not good enough. I come from a very poor family (and they are well off) so I had a really rocky start in life so it's not surprising I couldn't afford to get my license at 16 (in my area if you couldn't afford it at 16, you had to wait until you're 18). It's surprising that I can even go to a university. 

It just kills me when she says that because I thought I was doing so well. 