i feel as if everything I do is on impulse. Like recently I reconnected with an old friend of mine after basically 2 years of no contact - it was great and I was happy for about 3 days . Now I’m feeling sad and questioning myself and feeling so trapped because I don’t wanna just up and leave again. I feel like I’m stuck and i even cried about this earlier I just feel  wrong. I don’t want to hurt her she’s a really good person I just don’t understand why I feel like I can’t stay .