Not someone, specifically someone I thought was my best friend until 6th grade. She essentially became a bully and painted me as the bad guy when our friendship faded away after I moved schools. I have never been able to be let go and be embrace being happy and I think I can trace it back to this relationship when she denied my reality and my right to be angry. 

We were to young to understand gaslighting so I don’t think that’s what she did but it felt similar. She could not comprehend that she was treating me badly or that maybe she was in the wrong when I tried to tell her how she was effecting me. She was the first person to do this to me. Also this was all long before my mental health issues so it def wasn’t me I swear! 

I now see her posting on socials about toxic people and being really happy about who she is and for some reason it pisses me off. Not that I don’t want her to be happy but that I know she still sees herself as better than me when she is the one who screwed me over. Every time I think of her I can feel the life  drain out of me. I have never been able to close this wound. 

I don’t have a therapist right now so I’m asking this community. Should I reach out and just say that she hurt me but that I forgive her or some shit like that?