It started with a hit in my head, I spiraling down since.

The point is that anything that can modify my pleasure or my positive emotion scared me.

I’m afraid than I will never be the same or I can’t enjoy the emotion or pleasure from a situation.

I will ruminate everyday till I find another trigger. I have ocd btw

The last trigger in date It’s a tiny cut in my nipple areola. And I’m scared of never been able to take pleasure from this zone anymore. I don’t fucking know how to stop thinking about it and how to accept it.

Thanks for reading.