We have been dating for 7.5 months. Last Tuesday, he went on a trip without me. He spent the first few days with his parents, and then went off on his own. He gets back tomorrow.
This whole situation has triggered my fear of abandonment in an extreme way. My belief is that someone who is so okay with being alone doesn't really *need* a relationship, and will therefore find it easy to drop me. I get that my desire for intimacy and closeness can be at the extreme end of the spectrum... but I can't tell whether it's a valid desire to be with someone who wouldn't want to take a vacation if he couldn't do it without me. He says he misses me, wishes I were there, but if he really felt that way, why would he go in the first place? I have always feared that I won't find someone to be with who loves me as much as I need to be loved, who makes me feel secure and never gives me doubt. This guy has been caring, generous, and nice, BUT (so many buts) I still feel like there is a lot lacking. I know 7 months isn't terribly long, but I feel more like an accessory to his life, rather than an integral part of it. Am I getting too attached too quickly? On the other hand, how do I prevent myself from wasting my time with someone who won't meet my needs even as we get more involved?

I don't know how valid my feelings are, and all I want to do is act out - be angry with him, tell him he makes me feel bad, or just leave him. I am not letting myself act on those, but I still have this intense anger and resentment and can't make myself respond to his texts. 