I sound like such a shitty person because of it but I don't even know what to do. Ever since I was 12 (or maybe longer than that, I'm 14 rn), I've wanted to be raped. Like to the point of making up scenarios in my head and stuff before I fell asleep. I don't really know why - I've sent a lot of nudes and other stuff to guys at that age but I don't think anything has really happened to me so I know its shitty. How do I stop?