Ever feel like, even though you have friends and family, you have nothing to be awake for, so you can never wait for sleep to just sweep you off your feet. Ever feel like sleep is the next best thing. As much as sometimes you feel like you have no purpose being alive, not being alive puts all the pain and suffering that you feel inside onto the people that do actually care about you, regardless of how much you push them away. so sleep is just the next best thing. You are breathing, so no one else is suffering, but you don’t have to be awake to watch pointless time go by. 