I don’t know what to do with my fp.... she’s so strong shes won’t let ME give up on her because my bpd is getting too much into our relationship??? I literally cannot stop doubting that shell leave me for anothzr friend of hers because she started doing more things with her because of the disorder and i know she doesn’t like me worrying for that because it’s not true and all... but even though i can get super annoying w my insecurity and I know it’s a mental toll for her too to keep reexplaning the same thing 100 times and having me get super sad about my fear of abandonment when she won’t leave me for anyone ever. she keeps telling me i’m the most important but the disorder is getting so much into our relationship sometimes i don’t find the strength to believe her even tho i want to because doing otherwise does make her sad  n angry too. I keep wanting to give up because I feel i make her so sad and. she tells me i don’t. but i cant help it It’s so hard to fight it and to have her involved in this disorder when i love her so much. I just feel like I want to set her free but she doesn’t want me to?!??? what now