Ive been like this since the day i was born... i always had to get revenge. Anything you do to annoy me, i have to do it ×2. Its a horrible habit and im getting better at it. An example of this was when a boy made a line on a drawing of mine. I just felt overwhelmed and crazy so i put an open saftey pin in his hood of his hoodie. After like 5 mins i was able to calm down and think straight so i told him and removed it. I actually have hit my mom, when we had arguements, as i was a bratty pre-teen like 9... i would yell, and she would do it... i would just feel the need to top her and so i hit her. I felt bad but back then i believed that it was what she deserved.

Has anyone experienced this?

I posted this on r/adhd as i have both... but was wondering if it was maybe bpd. I have experienced this as a child tho.