Do any of you know how to deal with the feeling that everyone is just tolerating you? Like when I try to talk to my coworkers, they don't respond, and they don't try to talk to me almost ever. They share snacks with each other, and whisper about things, and when people come over from another section of the office, it's NEVER to speak to me. Today, someone came over and and one on the girls if she wanted a milkshake, and then came back with stuff for everyone but me and the new girl.

I'm TRYING so hard to just get along. I don't argue with anyone, I don't say anything even mildly rude seeming, I don't trauma dump or even bring about negative vibes. It's like I'm climbing an icy hill with these people. Even the new girl goes to the others before me to ask for help.

I'm never able to make or keep friends because no one wants to try other than me, and if I'm the only one trying, then it's just awkward and I seem desperate or like I'm faking it.

Am I just giving off dumb bitch vibes? Like what is wrong with me? It's been like this my WHOLE life. Not even my FAMILY wants to keep in touch or communicate with me unless I initiate. I'm willing to carry on a debate on reddit for so long because at least they're willing to talk to me.

I've tried making online friends but they almost always leave after a week or two.

I'm just at an end.