Me and my husband have been together for about 4 months now. 
Every time we get into an argument I literally feel like I want to die and recently I locked myself into our room and pulled out his gun but I ended up opening the door. I feel like I’m the problem in our relationship always. It’s hard for me to take in anything nice or assuring that he says
Does anyone else trouble with this? Is it only me? How can I fix this? I’ve been going to therapy since I was 12 I’m 20-21 now. What do I do when I feel like this?
He won’t let me catch a break to calm down by the way when we fight he wants to solve it right then otherwise we can’t do anything. Help?