I’ve just moved to a new area and need to find a new psychiatrist. I had some bad luck in my teens with therapists, and it took me a while to find a psychiatrist that I truly trusted and felt wanted the best for me. She diagnosed me with BPD, anxiety, and depression, and then I moved. I get so much anxiety about talking to a new doctor because I don’t want to go through feeling like I’m not being listened to again, or feeling like it’s all fake. I also want medication, but feel uncertain how to approach that topic without it sounding like I’m seeking. But I don’t want to wait to bring up needing meds because I feel like I definitely need some ASAP for my depression at least. I’ve been on Lexapro and Prozac before, both of which did absolutely nothing for me except intense suicidal thoughts on Prozac. Any advice? I feel like my anxiety over it will prevent me from going until I spiral and attempt again.