  The ultimate realization, when you come to the end of the long wandering road and realize that you do not fit in anywhere or with anyone. 
  I’ve reached this point where I’m surrounded by souls that are all a part of a community of their alignment and partake in things that bring a sense of brotherhood or kindred ideology. 
  Then besides me, I’m sure there are some of you who understand this feeling of just complete selflessness. The feeling of being an automaton almost and realizing that there is no one particular host that you can hold onto or become a part of. 
  I tried joining the military, got rejected. I tried joining foreign militaries, go rejected. I tried joining other communities both religious and even simple friend circles, again just rejection. I cannot understand or comprehend why there are outliers like us. 
  I have faith that something will fall into place, whether it’s a lie I tell myself to keep my head up or not. It just simply is what it is.