I went through a on again/off again breakup for the last 2 months and now that we are not speaking I feel like I'm waking up from a nightmare. 
I got crazy obsessive, angry. Said some things I wish I wouldn't have. Reacted in ways I wish I wouldn't have. I knew I was spiraling during it but I couldn't stop. 

Now we are not talking and I'm *starting* to feel normal. It all seems like a bad dream. Was that me doing all that? Did I really lose that much control? Now I feel like myself again and there's just so much...wreckage...the last two months. 

I can justify how he made me act certain ways but that's a cop out..my reactions and actions towards him were my choice (though it hardly felt like it) ...and I'm not exactly happy about how I behaved. 

This is crazy. I have never felt like this...

Thanks for reading guys...