I'm probably gonna go back to the mental hospital. I can't take it anymore, I told my ex-GF that she had raped me and she said it was too much to bear and she took her own life, but not before texting me to say she was doing it and that she still loves me, so that I could have the pleasure of waking up to a text saying bye I love you. Fuck's sake, how am I supposed to live knowing someone killed themselves for me.