I am so tired of hating every single thing about myself it’s fucking exhausting and I can’t stop I’ve fucking tried. it’s literally been years since I haven’t wanted to get hit by a fucking car I’m so tired if it.Literally I wish I could be someone else so I could beat myself to death I can’t punch myself hard enough to find relief anymore. it’s getting harder and harder to stop myself from doing something impulsive. I don’t want to want to die. But I do and it’s all I can about. For a while I’ve had the mindset that if I just don’t eat enough eventually I’ll die and it won’t really be my fault. But I’m starting to care less about how I leave the ones around me. And I’m just tired of feeling  this fucking way it never fucking stops and it probably never will.