I lost my FP after a pretty horrible meltdown at the end of October. Though in many ways I realize the relationship was one sided with me doing most of the work I miss them so much it hurts. When we last spoke he said I’d run away from him just like I did everyone else and I did. I’m angry he’s right and I’m angry he didn’t even try to fight for me. I want to reach out but I’m afraid he’ll want nothing to do with me. Or it’s a horrible decision for my mental health. I don’t know what to do and my symptoms are paralyzingly me. I don’t have a doctors appointment till next week. Any advice or experience to tide me over?