It feels like there is this detached palpable psychological system that is hidden behind an amnestic wall and it just absorbs information about people that I like and dissapears  then I later see them appear as pieces of personality that are triggered or activated in certain social situations.  


This is one of the most annoying parts, I just cant control this. And it is really the only thing stopping me from socialising as much as I used to ( or at all really these days). Its just so weird to be a different person around someone youve just met every time you see them.