As I mentioned before I lost my favorite person and things were hard, but now they’re even harder. Some days are better than others, but I can’t get my favorite person out of my head. Like even today for instance, I reactivated my FB and their face was literally the first thing I saw in the “people you may know“ section. It was nice to see it and see a pic of them smiling and happy with their kids, but then I remembered how he said my emotional roller coaster disturbed his peace. I just wanted to be his peace like he was mine 😭. I hate BPD. I have all this love and love immensely, but I can’t keep my shit together. If I could rewind the hands of time and slap a myself before stupid shit left my mouth.