  So I’m a sophomore in high school and I didn’t date for a couple years . I knew I’ll get into a toxic relationship again not that I was wishing it but it usually just happens naturally , they act like they rlly wanna date but then always distant them selves a few days after dating or weeks  , usually have trouble showing affection or ignoring my love . Luckily I never kissed or did anything physical , I feel that would’ve made me more emotionally  attached to the person . Well ugh I got dumped 😂. Myself worth is  quite  low . Why can’t anyone love me . Family aren’t affectionate and show it through buying me stuff or caring for me things I need but that’d be it . I catch myself just feeling so detached from the world .. like everyone around me doesn’t exist and I’m just spaced out not existing it feels , such a weird but nice feeling it somehow happens and I’d do that for hrs . I jus wanna feel loved but now  it’s just more emptiness and sadness . Then I have intrusive thoughts more wanting to just walk out of class feeling anger randomly . Idk but recently just .. it brought back so many bad memories from my past relationships Im slipping in school now . Luckily nothing drastic but still I’ll get that done since that’s the 1 thing that’s more important to me lol. Anyway . I just feel alone .