first of all i don’t actually have a diagnosis but for majority of my life have felt terrible about myself. some times it’s worse some times it’s better. but today i’ve just come to the realization that although i’m an extrovert im just an unlikeable person. i’ve kept to myself for a couple years because i’m socially awkward and now that I actually want to be social I’ve realized i’m an outcast even in my own group of friends. nobody wants to hangout with just me alone, which sucks because we’re a small group and sometimes the others don’t want to go out for a drink or something. i don’t even feel confident enough to talk to them about my feelings because i’m usually a depressed guy and i know that these feelings will just pass eventually. i don’t have a therapist right now cause I can’t afford it until i start working again so i’ll have to wait about a month until i can talk to someone. i just spend my days playing video games and doing anything i can to make myself happy. i workout but that only makes me happy for that period of time because as soon as i’m done i still just go home and sit. i’m tired of sitting at home all day but i’m too scared to even socialize with new people. i just don’t know how to fix myself socially or make myself feel better permanently