I feel like I only matter when I can feel that my bf or my therapist care for me. My bf is away for work at the moment and my therapist is about to go on holiday, and I feel so lonely. I feel like nothing I do matters now. I just want to sleep until I can see one of them. 

I can't even reach out to my therapist because she wants me to not email her as much as I have been. My bf is busy with work and only has time to chat before bed. My housemates are doing stuff but they don't usually seem to notice when I spend all day in bed.