I say mean  things when I split. I do mean things when I split. I am a MEAN PERSON when I split! But obviously, they are never my intentions. Sure at the time, I feel like it is the right thing to do and say... but at the end of the day, I weaken my relationships little by little. I was recently called abusive by my boyfriend. I am not an abuser. I am a nice person, I just have my moments. I always always take responsibility for my actions and I always apologize. But being called abusive shoves me down into a deep and dark pit. I can’t help but think “maybe I am an abuser.”