So a while ago (maybe 9 months) I smoked dmt for the first time, it rocked my world, like obliterated what I thought reality was, not necessarily in a good way, the trip wasn't unpleasant it was just very intense and mind bending, its probably worth noting i was a bit drunk at the time and it was a stupid fucking spontaneous decision to smoke it after a mate pulled some out at the end of a night. I have a history of bad anxiety and panic attacks and you could say as im discovering dissociation too, I've done mushrooms and lsd a few times each before so it wasn't like I went in without any psychedelic experience, I started smoking weed and drinking and doing drugs from 14 onwards, I always had a fiendish gravitation towards "getting high", whatever the substance, it was never enough.. until I could literally feel in the damage it was doing and still carry on. In that aspect I feel like I've done my fair share of self sabotage and harm. But back to the dmt, I feel like it opened my eyes(mind) up to reality too much.. or, it feels like I'm now hyper aware of my existence and this thing that I'm in, this thing we call life and I'm a thing in a body and there's all the stuff around me and stuff happening and it moving and people and the sky and etc etc etc...it doesn't make any fucking sense. My perspective being alive was never this intense before. I know I not crazy, the funny thing is, this doesn't feel like I'm crazy at all. It feels like for the first time I'm actually, objectively looking at life for what it is. Like I used to have all these cool insights about existence, "oh were actually floating on a rock in space right now"... yno, stuff like that, and I used to love it, it felt like I was opening my mind in a closed minded society. But now it just feels like my mind ticked over one too many openings and everything is just this strange mush of existence. I want to go back, I want to close my eyes to this feeling/ perspective.

Has anyone else experienced this? 

I really appreciate any replys!

Edit: worth noting too I've recently been to hospital after having a seriously fucking tough panic episode that wouldn't cease, I was there diagnosed with Depersonalization/derealization and they want to put me on an anti psychotic for it. I've just reluctantly starting taking sertraline for my anxiety after my whole life of never wanting to take prescription meds.