Hey all. I just wanted to share my own personal experience of having BPD.

- My emotions are felt intensely. I’m highly sensitive, especially to criticism (even if constructive and well meaning). I feel things deeply, and take things personally.

- I’ve dealt with suicidal ideation for a long, long time; since childhood.

- Splitting: seeing things in black and white, good or bad, all or nothing. It is hard for me to see the positives alongside the negatives.

- Self sabotaging: in relationships, in work, in my own personal development.

- I am extremely critical of myself. It is hard for me to take a compliment without dismissing it.

- Trust. I have an incredibly difficult time trusting others. I always have my guard up.

- Self doubt. I’d rather never try at all, than to be vulnerable and try something and possibly fail (or even worse actually succeed).

- Substance abuse. I’ve struggled for years with drugs and alcohol.

I hope that my sharing this here can help someone else in some way, at least to know that you are not alone.