How can someone have such an empty life for so many years. No friends, no family, no girls, no social skills. Im not sure something good has happened to me in the last &gt;5 years other than getting a cool dog. I am doing ok economically, thats the only positive I can think of. Every day im stressed, anxious, somedays with really bad panic attacks. I have tried going out and making new friends but im just a shy guy and cant think of anything to say when Im around people.

Im not looking for any motivation, attention or whatever, just wanted to express myself. And dont worry im not suicidal, but I have had this thought for so long: if there is a god his goal is for me to kill myself, but fuck that Im not a pussy. And fuck all fake people everywhere.