Honestly one of you lurkers may have cured your depression. Being 23 years old only and have smoked here and there. I'm honestly only think drugs + entertainment is the cope. Like smoking weed and playing video games. 
Something out there that I need to be more open minded to try. It's so hard to cope knowing I have to exist again and again I wish life would just make sense. I can't stomach this part but I know why people are religious because of how I felt during my schizophrenic outbreaks. I thought I was talking to Jesus in my head and believed it with my lungs. 
So is it drugs and video games ? I need to know I'm doing research and people are saying weed and video games is the best combo honestly I'm not gonna read any more depressing threads here that just make my life worse. Fuck this I'm extremely jealous of old people who got finally got to the finish line.