I try so hard just to pay attention for such a short amount of little time just to watch a movie or or to read a book or anything that has some sort of cognitive skill of focusing, paying attention, comprehension, understanding anything I feel like a vegetable I can barely do anything and it's taking all of my power just to even write this or to follow along in writing this. I can't even, when I watch a movie it's so hard to follow along what's going on in it I don't even know what the concept is or even what is happening in it. I feel so lost and confused I can't handle not being able to use my brain anymore and I'm tired of feeling like there's cigarettes being burned out all over the whole thing.