He’s no longer here with us. I feel so overwhelmed and have been turning to drinking to ease the pain I’m feeling. I know he’s no longer in pain. I want to believe he’s in a better place but what if he was scared. He couldn’t move or talk in the end I don’t know if he could hear me. It’s late and everyone else is asleep I can’t sleep I have spent the last 2 weeks in the hospital. I can’t sleep. I already struggled with depression I just got broken up with by my bf of almost 3 years. There is so much pain. I don’t know how or if I can’t handle it. I  want to be strong for my family but I feel like I’m falling apart. I mostly need some support I guess even if it’s from absolute strangers. F