i inevitably will spend all my money, and money i don’t even have until i’m unable to pay my rent or bills. i wish i had someone else taking care of my finances but i have no family (i cut all contact with them a few years ago, they were abusive) and no close friends. to make things worse i impulsive quit jobs so i have no source of income aside from financial aid from school, which i already spent. i feel like i need someone to seize control of my bank account bc i can’t be trusted with my own recovery. it’s like i’m trying to kill the monster inside me but i’m giving it everything it needs to destroy me. how am i expected to recover by myself when i’m my own worst enemy? even after all the therapy i’m only able to acknowledge the problem yet i feel powerless to stop it