So last year in December, at around 11pm I was doing okay, and laughing and joking with my family, and I went up to my room, and an hour later I just flipped. I broke down to tears and impulsively took all the antidepressants I had left. I didnt want to do it, but I couldn't stop myself, and it all happened so fast. It was terrifying. I spent a day in hospital after 3 blood tests, 4 or 5 ECGs and a Seizure. I haven't taken any pills since. Not even paracetamol for pain relief. I'm scared to, and just the thought of pills makes me feel ill.

I didn't plan to and have never planned to take my own life, although I've always had thoughts of it nearly every day.

Recently I've felt how I did that night. I'm fine one minute, and the next I'm a completely different person. I'm looking for any advice on what it could be, or how to help it before I impulsively overdose again.

Thank you for reading &lt;3