Not only control them but understand and express them (appropriately). I hate the extremeness of it. And I am usually seen as a calm and quite and gentle person and I hate getting angry, so I don't I get quiet and bottle it up until I get pushed too far and just lose it. I hate wondering when my next freak out will be, what'll set me off this time, what'll I do. Only a few people have seen the really angry emotional me and that's mainly my parents, who usually are the ones dealing w said breakouts. My psychiatrist even said I'm am angry person, I just don't know how to be angry. Except I feel like I don't know how to express any of my emotions of voice how I'm feeling. It's really exhausting and I just feel the next breakdown coming up. It seems like one little thing will go wrong and I'll lose it. I honestly need any support or help I can get. Does anyone else have this, and how do you deal?