i’ve always let my BPD rage ruin relationships and i did that with my best friend last week.

usually im too bitter, angry and embarrassed to reach out and make amends. but i did it today. scariest thing i’ve ever done.

and he forgave me! i could cry, i’m so happy right now… probably a BPD high. but my god i just need to soak in the happiness for a bit. i’m so full of joy right now. 

this is the first time i tried to fix things instead of burning the bridge and running away. here’s to more breaking of bad habits in the future.