Because of how bpd has affected my last relationships (me splitting and my partners leaving me), I’m terrified to get into a relationship and love fully again. I just shut down and want to isolate myself. 

I’m in a pretty healthy relationship right now and I’m started to get really attached and I’m terrified now of him leaving me. I’m terrified of being with him just because I don’t want what I feel like is inevitable heartbreak. 

He’s living with me for the month of July before his lease starts in August and I’m terrified of when he moves out. I just want him to stay with him and fall asleep next to him every night 

But the fact that I feel this way is terrifying me. I really want this anxiety to go away.