I am diagnosed with depression and have been since I was about 18, but I believe I was suffering from it even before then. Memories from before I think I developed it is hazy, but strange. I feel like I was a lot more focused back then. Now it's harder to concentrate, and sometimes I just feel altogether numb, like I am waaaay too calm and monotone. It's a weird feeling and I have never really been able to find a term for it, I was wondering if it counts under dissociation? Because I feel like I can almost describe it as being in control of myself from somewhere else that isn't myself, if that makes sense. I wouldn't describe it as an out of body experience though. Just like a weird... detachment, I guess?  


Was wondering if anyone could provide insight, or if other people have experienced a similar "feeling".