hi i’m a 17NB and i feel like i can’t really trust anyone i’m my life. I’m scared to talk to anyone about my problems because i don’t feel safe or secure with anyone and i’m terrified of my own family. they haven’t done anything to me i just don’t feel safe around them. i’ve been avoiding talking to my friends and gf because i just feel like they all secretly want me dead so they can dance on my grave and that they’ll all be happy when i’m gone. they don’t really enjoy being around me because i don’t like gaming and i haven’t watched half of the movies and shows they have so i’m always out of the loop somehow. last week i quit therapy and i’m not on any medication because i didn’t find therapy helpful and i don’t trust what i was being given (sertrailine/zoloft) and i don’t want to go on any other things because i don’t trust them. but i dont feel like i can tell my doctor without being judged and i find it really humiliating that i’ve worked for years to make proper relationships in my life and in such a short space of time (middle to end of October ) i’ve let them all crumble to pieces.