Is it normal to think suicidal thoughts everyday even if its as simple as "I wish I was dead"? What about thoughts about hurting myself. Any chance I get I always see everything that could hurt me. For example the kitchen knives, I always just think like I could just cut myself and bleed out. Or when I'm driving, what if I just ran into a pole.

These thoughts never leave me even if somedays I'm not actually suicidal. Why am I so broken?