A while back my partner and I had our first real fight in a while. I begged him to stay so we could talk it through but instead he went to stay with his sister for a few days, which was fine, everyone deals with things in their own way and he is allowed to ask for space to think. When he came back though he said the only way we would last is if we had an open relationship. I told him I would think about it but in the end I came to the conclusion that I couldn’t do that. I told him as much and said that I would rather him break it off now if he thought that he really couldn’t be in a monogamous relationship. Instead he said he wished he had never said that and he would much rather stay with me because I’m more important than some passing desires he has at times.


The thing is that ever since I’ve felt like I’m slowly falling into a pit. I’ve lost the desire to pretty much do anything, I feel like he doesn’t want me anymore no matter how many times he swears he does and I relapsed with some of my self harm for the first time in 10 years. I can’t tell if I’m chemically depressed or if my gut feeling that my relationship is slowly ending is right and it’s what is causing it. Im worried that it is just my brain making me feel this way and I’m the one destroying the relationship by acting like I don’t trust his words. We have been together for 8 years and for almost all of that we have been perfectly fine and I always felt love coming from him but now I don’t feel it and I don’t know if it’s my depression making it seem this way or if it really is him falling out of love with me .