Hi everyone,

I just found this community, and thought I'd say hello. I've battled anxiety all my life, but over the past few years I have felt it getting worse and worse, probably due to growing responsibilities in work and in life. I did have a significant personal loss about 6 years ago that has played its role as well. Everything piles up and feels completely overwhelming, and I feel like my brain never shuts off and I can never just relax, even when it's perfectly acceptable to do so.

Anxiety controls my life, and it can't continue on like this. I know that I could be a lot happier if I confront it and take control back. One of the reasons I've finally felt the courage to get some help is that it's impacting my husband because when feels helpless when my anxiety gets super high. We want to have kids soon, and I recognize that my anxiety needs to be more under control beforehand.

I made an appointment with a therapist. It's a good first step. Although it sucks having anxiety about showing up and talking about my anxiety, I'm hopeful. I've been prescribed Citalopram 20mg in the past from a PCP, but I was never consistent about taking it and it ran out, so I figure now is a good time to get in and talk with someone for real and hopefully start figuring out some solutions that work for me.