Hi friends, I just need to get this off my chest.

I've always been really anxious about money. I don't know why. Growing up, my family has never had major money problems. My parents are really good with saving, and they've passed that trait onto me. Maybe they passed on too much because I get so anxious with "big" (big in my context) purchase decisions. It's ranged from large Lego sets I would buy with my allowance when I was a kid to a leather jacket to my first apartment. I feel so much anxiety about making the wrong choice that it paralyzes me to make a choice at all.

The current worry which probably sounds so stupid is buying a recurve bow. With all parts, arrows, gear, target etc., it's about $500. I've been in and out of archery clubs in school for years, so I know it's fun, though I'm not good at all. I also *know* I can afford one, but trying to min-max life is stressful.

I doubt myself constantly. Maybe I'm not *really* into archery. Maybe I'm not talented enough for it. Maybe I'll get bored of it quickly. Maybe I don't deserve it. Maybe I'm just using it as to make myself look better. When you add "maybe I'm buying the wrong bow" to the picture, it just makes it much worse. I want to enjoy life while I can and do the things I like, but this anxiety around purchases just makes me feel awful.

Thanks for listening.