Basically, on Friday I failed a test and got extremely vulnerable. I looked for help and wanted my boyfriend to tell me everything was going to be okay and he did, but he was in a bad mood because of shit that went on that day in his house. We fought and I felt like I needed to be with him, but he needed space, which I don't know why I'm fucking unable to give him. I'm very dependant on him these days and I am TERRIFIED that it will bore him out. 

We went to the movie theatre and I had a panic attack, I needed his love and he did help me, he went with me to a public bathroom and were in a stall, with me bawling my eyes out and he was holding me. We then came to my house and he stayed with me until I calmed down. He's an amazing boyfriend. 

I feel like he's different these days, I've been a little bit over the top with telling him I love him a lot every 15 minutes or so and I hate it. I need him to say he loves me too and I find myself unable to give him space these days. He stopped being cute with me and I am losing my mind, I know I'm to blame because of how clingy I've been these days but I don't know how to fix it. 

One week ago I was just fine and now I'm a crying mop on the floor every fucking day. I'm being hurt and I'm hurting him. The more I look for love, the more bored he gets of it and I need more and more and I'm starting to really hate myself for it. 