At the beginning of the summer I started a new barista job and my shifts always start at 6:30am. I didn’t expect this, but ever since I’ve got this job I almost without fail have physically thrown up every morning because of what I believe is anxiety. I know rationally I have nothing to be anxious about at this job, but I feel like I am on the brink of a mental breakdown/ eating disorder. I know this is graphic and I have never struggled with bulimia growing up or even in my teenage years (I am now 20/F) but I will literally force myself to throw up by using my toothbrush to get rid of the physically anxious feeling in the early morning. It’s not even about food in the slightest, it’s the fact that whenever I wake up with major anxiety and throw up I almost always feel better afterwards. I feel really crazy for admitting this because I am legitimately struggling and feel so alone. Any advice would be amazing and if anyone else struggles with this I see you 💗