I feel like I have this constant weight on my shoulders. This constant reminder that I am sad and unworthy of anything. Nothing is worth the effort. If I had no responsibilities I would just lay in bed all day. No one in my life helps me. No one gives me the time of day. No one seems to care. I can’t even talk to my boyfriend without him just brushing me off and treating me like I’m a burden. I feel like I have no more self respect. I don’t have the energy anymore to demand respect. I’m just tired of everything going on in my life. Life has become so bland and monochromatic. I’m so tired of feeling hurt and crying all the time. I just want to get out of this. I want to stop feeling like this. I hate where I am right now and I don’t know how I’m going to get through it anymore.