I finally made the leap to talk to my psychiatrist about my worsening daily anxiety. He prescribed me 10mg generic Celexa (so, Citalopram). The lowest therapeutic dose to gradually introduce it to my body. I also am prescribed 10mg Valium for emergencies, which I rarely take. 

I have tried other daily meds when I was younger (Lexapro, Prozac, Effexor, Zoloft) and those all gave me severe insomnia or nausea so I stopped nearly a month in on each. 

I start graduate school this fall across the country and am super nervous about it. I cancelled a trip with friend because I'm recently terrified of flying. I am sick of the GAD and health anxiety running my life. Recent trip to the doc and full EKG came back fine ( I was worried about my heart) but now I've moved on to "BUT what if its my brain....". You know the drill. 

So, I want to start taking the meds to relieve myself from this hell-scape but I'm scared that it will:

- give me severe side effects, not limited to Serotonin Syndrome (Yes I know how rare this is)

- Make me a zombie (lethargic, confused, apathetic)

- have to be on it the rest of my life, and one missed dose will make me a crazy person. 

How do I stop self-sabotaging and just take the damn meds? When night comes for me to take it (during the height of my anxiety) I convince myself I don't need it and that today "wasn't really that bad". Any personal advice for celexa specifically? Or just training yourself to take everyday meds? I want to ideally be off them for good one day. 

Thank you!