Maybe I have seasonal depression? This is how every year has unfolded for the last 4 years. 

January-March: goal setting, optimism, undergoing almost obsessive self improvement, over the top daily hygiene and self care routines
April-August: extreme changes in physical appearance (all positive), high on life, securing new streams of revenue, gaining assets, being social and outgoing
September-December: recluse/hermit behavior, low self confidence, neglect loosing jobs and assets, thoughts of suicide, changes in physical appearance (all negative)

This pattern was brought to my attention after seeing a financial advisor for the first time. He said,

“Your bank statements seem to reflect a trend..”
 
I grew up in a household where mental health is completely swept under the rug. Crazy how it took seeking help for finances (something they forced me to do), for these issues to come to light. My mom interrupts the financial advisor to say,

“We didn’t come here to talk about winter-time-blues, I’m paying you to…”

I’ve always been really into self help, but I don’t think it works out. I prided myself on being able to bring myself out of these periods of depression but I always go back.