I might sound a little entitled but this is how I feel.  I feel this is all pointless. I feel working day in day out losing more sleep than is healthy to get a paycheck that barely pays a bill or gets me the bare minimum to live is pointless. I dont see why everyone is so fixated on a fictional number that the value is dictated by someone "in power". I dont agree with any of this. I want to go live in the woods away from this. I want to build my own little house away from society but as far as I know it is not allowed. Unless you "own" the land. Which woukd require me to partake in all this to accumulate said fictional number. I dont want a job but thats not me being lazy. I just dont see the point. I want to live off my own skills my own ability to grow or hunt food. I want to be left alone and not have to offer my soul to do so. My feeling of sorrow grows everyday I have to get up and peel the skin off my back to get a handful of change which doesnt buy anything more than a few bags of groceries. I know I have friends and family and I appreciate them I really do. I just dont feel I fit into this life that has been given. I just dont see the point to any of this.