I broke up with my boyfriend two sundays ago and we’ve been talking still, some of my stuff is still at his place. It’s been rough. I have ptsd/anxiety/depression and we’re going to try couples therapy. I don’t know if we can get it back. I’m pretty broken but feel kinda ok with my decision but am convinced I’ll die alone. I put on the intake form I’m having suicidal thoughts and although I see a therapist and psychiatrist I’m concerned this new couples therapist is going to try to lock me up. 

I fucked up invoicing at work (I’m not sure how many, as far as I know only 2 were brought up-today and I’ve been doing it for a while). The owner is mad at me I’m scared to do it anymore my anxiety almost made me throw up all day. 

I don’t want to live anymore. I’m miserable I hate everything it’s terrible I want to die.