I’m scared that he will yell at me again and treat me like I’m stupid. I asked my supervisor for help and she was just like I can help you when you’re here, but I am going to encounter this asshole before I’m able to meet with her. 

After he yelled at me I got so anxious and it triggered feelings of inadequacy and some suicidal thoughts (I already had other reasons for my suicidal thoughts but he just made them worse). Just needed to vent. Hopefully I won’t see him again today.