Sorry for bad english 

I'm turning 17 after 2 months. 
It's 2 am here 
I'm still thinking what's wrong with myself 

So the things that I experience can contradict with each other . 
The main problem I'm facing rn is that I can't ride . 
I mean i have fear of driving in traffic . 
And I don't have fear of getting into an accident 
But Idk what trigger the thoughts and
I don't want to get out of my home 
And be near my community . 

I don't like to get out of the home like if I get out to my community (during day ) I think someone is looking at me or I get anxious idk how to decribe that feeling 
But when I get out with someone  I'm fine 

When I get out a little far from my community I still get anxious (during day ) but not as the previous case 

When I get out of my city I don't get that anxious 

Well it may sound like social anxiety. 
 But I can also do something that a socially anxious person can't like i can talk to random stranger 
. Yeah, and most of the social anxiety symptoms match with me too . 


I have some symptoms of extreme social anxiety as well as i can perform some activities which a socially anxious person will fear to 
. 
Like i think i can prank someone if I'm given a task to do so
. 
And another things 
I used to roam around the gate for 20 mins and perform how to act outside while going outside and used to prefer night time mostly 6 months ago 
But now i don't roam for 20 mins to go outside tho 
I'm improving ig 


Yes i do fear public speaking as most of the human
. I can open up my self to those whom I trust. 
I only want talk to those whom I feel safe with and whom i find interesting 
I do think I'm an extrovert . But i used to think i was an introvert till 4 days ago . 

I do like partying, travelling and even going out of my home 
But all I want is a true companion ig who never cheats or is always with me no matter what 



I used to be insecure of my body hair and my old face 2 months ago 
But now I'm fine when I visited a psychiatric . 

The psychiatric said that I had prodomal stage of psychosis  and also magical thinking ocd. But he diagnosed me with only half of the symptoms that I opened up with him. 

I have a lot of things that I feel . 
Which may be too long to mention here . 
What do you think i may have just by reading these