that is it. want someone to talk to but all my friends are shit and whenever i talk to anyone i end up feeling worse. dont know what to do anymore. thinking about giving up on looking for help, it havent helped for several years. my meds are making me feel even worse. every thing makes me feel sad and shitty. 

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I went out with friends 2 days ago and since then i have a pain in my chest that i dont know what to do with it. i always feel like that after seeing people, i might just give up on friends and going out and just i dont know.. drink myself to sleep till i die. fuck man i dont know. my loneliness is fucking killing me