I wanted kids, one day in the future, I'm not a bad person as long as I'm not too close to anyone. But how on earth could I have a child like this? I'd screw them up knowing that I'm screwed up, not like my dad who just happened to become schizophrenic.

I feel like starting a family knowing I have this illness will just spread the disease, yet I fear being alone so much.

I'll probably just settle for a cat and a dog. It's so much easier to love something that can't tell you how awful you are..

