Just another one of those moments where im like yep, this is it, this is me.  (Still waiting for official diagnosis, mom has it, i show all the signs) i was scrolling through Instagram and i saw a post posted by @understandingbpd, the main title said "People with BPD have the tendency to believe they're a terrible person or something is wrong with them", one of the slides said "Pete Walker refers to this self-hate and self-disgust in those with CPTSD from childhood (either through neglect or abuse) as an inner critic berating us for not being perfect enough to be able to gain the safety, attention and love from the caregivers that we want."    I just made a post here a few days ago where i asked if i was the only one who felt like bpd was pretty much your brain wired to be perfect but by default you cant be perfect so your brain punishes you for not being perfect.   Moments like these are what led me to seek out a psychiatrist, things made TO MUCH sense😅
I want to clarify my question, i logically know why we shouldn't self diagnose, as in come to the conclusion ourself and continue living that way without ever getting a professional opinion. I actually used to think thats what you were supposed to do, figure out what you were feeling, tell them, and then they point you where to go next, but i read somewhere on here that you should come to them and tell them your symptoms and let them diagnose you rather than telling them "i think i have ___" because then they'll disregard you. But im 99% positive i have it and like i said so does my mom, it can get passed down and along with my own struggles 😅🤷🏻‍♀️ i feel like theats something they should know