I have BPD.  I have suffered all my life because self-love and self-forgiveness are mysteries to me.  I'm on meds (no help).  I've been taking DBT for almost 1 year.

Is it all worth this?  If I dislike people and have a really tough time finding my identity, why suffer with this?  There's no cure and it's a constant battle throughout life.

I would rather have all my limbs amputated and have a zest for life and a hopeful attitude as opposed to my perfect figure and my rotten mind.

I've heard the cliches -- oh life is so worth it, blah blah.  Really people?  I'm running out of fuel.  BPD is terrible to have and has really messed with all factors in my life.  