I was wondering if anybody else does what I do. I been a musician for over half my life. Started on clarinet, but been playing guitar since highschool. I get depressed a lot. I mean literally sitting there, and all of a sudden, it is a fight to justify being alive. Just out of nowhere. I do a few things to try and help, but cranking up youtube on a stereo and turning the guitar amp up, is the best Ive found. My problem is, I feel like it's not as effective anymore. I played a literal 5 hours straight, today. I did about 6 hours yesterday. Only reason Im not playing more, is I live with family again, now. I have literally started bleeding on my fingers, though. Literally. Blood on the fret board that I had to wipe off. But I still feel empty. Like it didnt do anything. I still feel terrible. I've had tons of shit bothering me, but still. Does anybody else know if this is a BPD thing?