I’m too much of a coward to hurt myself or do something worse, also I don’t want to cause trouble for people that I care about. But I still don’t want to deal with anything really, so I wish I just had the option to not get up from bed and don’t get any consequences of just staying there until I no longer feel shitty. Also if I just stopped existing or died in my sleep I wouldn’t be mad. But I guess I’m not suicidal, so I guess that’s something positive