Never realized how lonely the real world. I moved states 6 months ago. It mightve sucked there, but atleast i had my family and friends there. Waking up everyday doing straight fuckery. Now its like am i even alive anymore. Watching the world around me move on and im just stuck in my head.  I was working out and doing shit to get through, but know its like why even get out of bed anymore. The friends I made are all moving on and im just stuck in my room getting fucked up. Its not even pain anymore. Its more like im missing a part of me. Hopefully it goes away. Last time i felt like this was around christmas, but i was able to leave and go visit back home. It felt like it reset my depression meter. Now its filled to the brim and i dont know whats gonna happen it overflows