So I'm 17. Literally very little friends. No social life. No intimate relationships. Just the most boring teenage life ever.
I'm going out tonight to the pub w 2 friends. My friends are both autistic. Some inherent people were meant to go but can't so I provs will enjoy tonight alot less. I'm only going out tonight so I don't feel guilty firchaving wasted my weekend. 
I just feel so shit about how sad and boring my life seems. I see teens my age talk about drugs their doing and how crazy and wasted they get. And even just having super close friends u hang w casually. I dint do any of that. I would love to change it but I'm a very anxious person. I'm very awkward and weird. 
So anyways yh I feel like crying because I'm so petty about my lack of social life. I don't even enjoy socializing that much. I think I haveca limit and after a while I'm drained. My sister...2 years younger than me. She has many guy friends( I have 0 literally) . She has many groups of friends( I have very little). She's chatty and loud( I'm boring as fuck). 
So yh just feeling pretty shitty coz aome her friends are at the house, and she wants to go out tonight so she said bring a friends yo stay w u and I haven't got anyone I want. I'm just fycking weird. I don't like getting super close w people for some reasons. Getting all emotional makes me awkward and uncomftablr.
I dwfo know no one is gonna read this but I'm venting coz I feel like my brain is gonna exploid. 
I work. And I actually enjoy work, only because it fills my week. This weekend in working 2 days, so I have an excuse as to try I've done nothing.
Im I'm coming off as super depressed. I'm not. I just feel really dhitty. That's why I have no Instagram so see people out. Am I introverted? Idk. I say I am but that might just be an excuse. 
Um Breckinridge tonight. I'm gonna hate it. I have to get bus all dressed up by myself. 
I freks out with friends ejdne all the time. Ugh what's wrong with me