update from me and my sister. 

so recently, I've been opening up my issues with my mental health to her. so we're on better (?) terms (compared to before)...

I hope that maybe when I look back, I will have no regrets.
I'm trying to get closer to her ... 


hoping we'll be able to understand or at least me to understand her better.


I am not a good older sister but at least I wanna try. HAHA tho I don't even look like I'm trying.

people or her may think that I ain't doing much but really, I can barely handle myself and it's really a struggle for me to like find that energy to squeeze others. 


I'm so tired. 

I thought I was doing well but now, I feel like breaking sown again.

I really wish I can at least make it up to my mom. I wish to see her happy, with all her heart. 

well all of my love ones. 


my life isn't as bad à you think it is. 
My mental health IS JUST TORTURE.