So I think I have a lot of traits of bpd, I'm in therapy but I haven't been doing it long enough to get a diagnosis even if I would qualify for one. 

Basically, I can go though hours, even a few days sometimes where I feel completely normal. 

This doesn't mean that I'm actually stable, like 2 days later I'll have pseudo hallucinations or just get too depressed to hold a conversation randomly, get snappy at people close to me and then sh cause I feel bad about it. But inbetween bpd type behavior, I can act  and feel relatively normal. If something triggers me then I can have ongoing symptoms for weeks at a time, but when everything is good it tends to be kind of on and off. 

I still have anxiety but even that can be pretty on and off. I'll have a week where I'm too scared to leave the house and then go on a night out and make friends with a bunch of random people. 

Basically does anyone else experience this with bpd?
I'm trying to gauge weather I'd actually qualify for a diagnosis before bringing it up with my therapist cause I'm scared of embarrassing myself lol, and i don't know if this just implies it's not that severe. If you don't get why bringing it up is embarrassing to me, just know that everything is embarrassing to me and I'm shit at being vulnerable with people. 

Anyway, any comments, advise, basically anything would be great. Just kinda confused lol. I feel like I'm not bad enough or fucked up enough to get help even though I know I need it even if I'm not severe enough to qualify for a diagnosis. Phat ramble but ye, sorry my head's a bit all over.