I've been told alcohol depresses you because it messes with your brain. You're depressed. Take these pills, they're anti-depressants. They'll make you feel better.

Been taken them for slightly more than a year but i don't feel any different (i changed medication 3?4? Times). 

Whenever i have a particularly deep and dark phase, i always fall back on alcohol and indulge my addiction again, and for that moment, for that instance in time, i feel abit better. Numb or better, i dont know, but i feel it.

Why?