I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 last year around August. I then had to be hospitalized in December. My manic episodes really aren't that bad but my depressive ones are what get to me. Last night I had my best friend of 5 years block me out of the blue and told my boyfriend to tell me that I must figure it out for myself why she did that. The only thing I can think of is that I don't put enough effort into the friendship when I'm having a depressive episode. I've been on two different medications, haldol which was absolutely awful, I was literally drooling constantly, I would get these spasms in my arms, I was extremely tired and just generally felt like a zombie. The other medication I can't remember the name of didn't help but also made me very tired. I'm scared of going back to the psychiatrist and getting a different prescription, I can't deal with these crazy side effects