I really REALLY wanna message my old best friend who literally never cared about me and completely cut me off everywhere when I was just worried about her. She was drinking a lot and I just told her I was worried and she cut me off everywhere. Blocked me on everything. She was not good to me ever but god I loved her. And when she did that to me my other mutual friend with her (her new BFF who was a lot nicer to me) told me that “oh that’s just how she is haha. You know.” And just like ???? That’s it???? So I unfollowed and removed her everywhere. I’ve been thinking about it for the past month and it INFURIATES ME. I HATE IT. She has one of my accs that aren’t blocked bc I never followed her but I just want to scream and yell. Why didn’t you ever fucking care about me??????? You just treated me like shit and never felt bad?????? When all I did was care about you?????? I just want fucking answers and it fucking HURTS. And for other people to just be like “oh yep that’s how she is haha” like what the FUCK. 

And I know this is bad thinking but I don’t care I just want to do it so bad. Maybe I will stop thinking about it if I just did that. I just want to cry and scream and yell at her.