I currently feel humiliated for expressing how I felt to someone even though they reacted kind of supportively, I almost wish I never had to speak to them again or see them ever because I know they know how I was feeling and it makes me feel like I don't know like I lost respect? I wish I could run away and hide from them forever because it just lingering in the back of my mind that they know, that I've somehow lost by caring or feeling or something. Maybe I feel like I've lost power in the dynamic and or like that feeling when youre losing at a game and you want to quit because its not fun, maybe I am a sore loser but its like that only like 1000 worse