So, I have loads and loads of friends online, but the problem is I never know who to talk to, and what to say anymore.

It's like I forgot how to talk and interact with people. Anytime I try my best I end up being unsatisfied with what I say and do anyway. I get sad and express that instead and it just ends up isolating me more and I wish I knew what to do. I wish I knew what to say, who to talk to even. I get so antsy from not doing anything all day and it makes me panic and cry throughout the night.

I can't even think for myself anymore, I never know what to post for myself. It seeps into my other hobbies too like, never knowing what to draw anymore and not being able to stick to a game for more than 15 minutes.

Before you reply please don't suggest I make friends irl, it's just something I can't see myself committing to because of the same problems as above. Plus, I'm going to study abroad in a month anyway.

For now, I just want to know what's going on with me.