I had a rough childhood with a very controlling and abusive mother and a bipolar,distant and depressed father . Best combo to start your life I know 

I was mostly verbally abused and given orders to do everything in the house or else I would suffer 

Now, I don't know if it's my BPD or just how this life made me  but I can't stand someone giving me an order , or even something like "do the laundry today " it make me explode with anger and rage and it takes me up to 30 min to cool down the "beastial" part of this anger but I can still be mad 5 hours later 

Do you have advices to , at least calm down a little bit this anger ? I just can't take it anymore 

It's fucking exhausting , do you have