 I'm diagnosed with Schizophrenia: I've tried to kill me many times in the past in impulsive moments, I buy stuff in impulsive acts, I'm really impulsive for whatever decision I have. Now I'm on Olanzapine 10 mg and Lamotrigine 400 mg, having the same impulsive moments but more or less. I'm in doubt because I'm about a year and 3 months of treatment, but didn't know If I have the right diagnosis, because when I had delusions and hallucinations I was like in a maniac episode (can't sleep, disorder speaking, energy, jumping a little bit, all the crazy stuff of a bipolar but schizophrenic at the same time, oh I had other maniac episodes, I remember, basically when I can't sleep my mania starts). Idk.. If I'm schizophrenic I only got to take Olanzapine but I'm in this both medicaments.  
 Here one maniac episode once: I was flirting with a women (me 20 she 21). She invited me to this party at 3 a.m., I didn't sleep nice. I went there, that was our 2nd date (xd xd). Everything was okay but I drink one can of Monster and that's when the maniac episode started. I've started to speak weird things to her friends and her friends was like o\_o and me Let's party maderfackers &gt;.&lt; and I started to jumping around like an energetic kiddo at the sound of the music and when she come back of the restroom, she had to notice me doing that things.   
 Other moment was when I went to this same place when I turned into 20 and the entry was free because my bday. I only got to participate in the little show for a selected persons in this party, in the bar part, and when they give me the mic I say a lot of weird stuff with a lot of energy and the guy who give me the mic said "I love this guy" but his mates was like o\_o wtf this guy is saying.   
 I've tried to kill myself the past year throwing me to the train tracks. I've done that but there was my brother behind me and he started to scream me and in that moment I didn't realise that situation, I'm a bad brother, I know.  
 So I had maniac episodes and a lot of depression in my life. I had psycho episodes in my life but not at all. I'm like you? Or I'm just a schizophrenic who wants attention? I hate myself and want to die