I have so much crippling anxiety about trying new things. At this point I’m totally stuck in a loop of doing the exact same thing every single day, and I can feel my body and mind deteriorating.

If I’m not immediately perfect at something or I know there’s a chance of not immediately being perfect at something, I very rarely even try. The internal disgust and anger with myself overrides any sort of potential growth and enjoyment I could potentially experience from practicing. I feel so much anxiety now even considering taking on something new, or even something I used to do that I haven’t tried in a long time. I have so many ideal hobbies and have collected so many supplies over time to try new things but I barely even ever pick them up for the first time. I feel like there’s literally no point in creating crap, even if it’s to practice. 

I think a lot of us struggle with this, so I’m not so much asking for advice (I know I just have to force myself to DO THE THING) as just wanting to vent. I feel like a complete loser because I’m just sort of wasting my life and know that the potential inside me is so much greater. I just feel stuck and terrified of failure.