I've been working a night shift for over a year and every single time a shift takes me away from my partner I feel void as if there's nothing I can do to improve my mental health when I'm away from them. It's been taking a toll on me and now recently I've been over analyzing every situation whether it be them slightly changing tones when I ask if I've upset them, running out the door without turning around to say goodbye or cancelling our plans to do stuff with their friends. I've been over thinking every single instance and I feel like I can't bring it up without offending them to a degree. There have been so many instances of me just imagining that there's a way to hurt myself bc maybe then I won't feel the pain that I've been going through with overthinking every single little thing. I'm just venting and I know people have it worse than I do but I can't help it anymore I feel like I have no one to talk to bc I'm never being reassured without hearing the annoyance in their voice. It's too much for me to handle now and I don't know what to do anymore