I have old pills saved in my drawer from trying different medications and I keep thinking of overdosing on them. I'm not actually suicidal but I can't get the thought out of my head. I'm just very curious of what would happen if I took them all. I've got quetiapine, fluoxetine and venlafaxin. I've heard quetiapine is quite overdose-safe but I wanna see what would happen if I took like a very high dosage... Fluoxetine fucked me up bad so I wonder what would happen if I took a lot of it.
 
I've sent messages to all three of my therapy contacts but I'm assuming they're on vacation because they haven't replied. I rationally know I should call the therapy place and ask for someone who can fill in for my regular contacts but lol fuck that. I don't care what I might do.
I know I'll attempt suicide sooner or later so I actually might try that soon. Mostly just for the experience but if I actually die it's just a bonus. 🤷‍♀️