And obviously, I created issues with someone I love (i.e you don't care, you don't give me enough time and I feel like hurting myself). I know I shouldn't drink, I want to not drink anymore, but it's so hard to avoid! I can't do social situations sober so I feel like if I don't drink, I'll never go to parties or hang out with groups of people anymore. I've already reduced it a lot, but when I drink, I overdo it and tend to do or say things I'll hate myself for for a few days after. 

To those who got sober, how did you go about it? Just "waking up and being over it" doesn't seem like it's about to happen anytime soon for me, as it has for other substances so I'm a bit desperate for tips or something!