She doesn't deserve this. She was taken advantage of repeatedly. Grew up in a low income household where her parents couldn't afford to be there for her. Treated like a piece of meat by so many men. Disregarded by friends. Taken advantage of again. She tries her hardest for me, and I try my hardest for her, too...

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But I don't deserve this either. I've been abused. I've lost so much of who I am and what I want to be. Her emotions trap me into a little box and make me want to scream. I want to give her the love that I know she needs and deserves but she makes it more and more difficult for me to do so every single day.

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How could I possibly look her in the eyes and tell her the same thing so many others have told her before? That I am bringing her biggest fear to life, making her watch the same movie on repeat? How am I supposed to fall asleep at night if I let her go? And get out of bed the next morning?

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How could He create people that would do this to her? ^(Can I watch them die, slowly?) WHAT DID SHE DO TO DESERVE THIS? WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS?