Was feeling better. Husband took the hint and read the articles I’d sent him about bids for affection. Made an effort, so I made an effort to be affectionate. Calculated our bills and found we’ve almost covered rent. Have a plan for this week. My cold is almost over. And then I decide to get a wild hair up my ass and look through his phone. 

I see him taking credit for things I’ve done to get money or bills covered when speaking to his mom. 

I see him planning for his sister to come here to visit from Texas the week I’m supposed to be delivering our son when I’ve told him I did not want anyone around for the first 2 weeks at least. 

I hurt my own damn feelings. I shouldn’t have looked. Why did I do that? Can’t even be mad. I should’ve minded my own business. I didn’t even have a reason. I checked his phone to see how much he has in his account so I could figure how much more we needed for rent and curiosity for the better of me. Just in a silly goofy mood and hurt my own damn feelings 🤦🏻‍♀️ now I’m mad and upset and I can’t sleep. Trying not to let the mood swings take over because it’s my own damn fault.