Being bipolar has done a lot of damage to my life. I had a full ride to a really prestigious college, but then I became bipolar, lost my scholarship, and now I’m struggling to hold my job. I used to be so smart but now I’m a fucking impulsive idiot. I have messed up my credit. I have done a lot of damage to my body with suicide attempts. I can’t control my emotions. I have embarrassed myself in front of my friends and family, and now they will never look at me the same. I haven’t made any new friends or developed any relationships in the past two years because I am just so unstable. I feel like I am not in charge of my own life. It’s like I have a second person living inside of me who likes to fuck up my life. I wish I wasn’t like this. This is horrible.