every so often, i get randomly overly anxious and angry about a situation i was in 2-3 years ago. In that same year I very seriously considered my first attempt, and my whole recollection of the year 2019 is extremely haunting and makes me feel sick. I’m yet to see my psychologist about what it is, but it’s recurring and i have just had the thoughts within that year overcome me again. I stopped myself from doing harm and wrote in a book my thoughts, i feel ... strange but i cannot allow this to continue. Any advice or tips how to combat this would be greatly appreciated. I cannot actually cry but i am so overrun with emotions