I don't think I'm alone in this situation, but I do hear a lot about therapy, but do you guys actually have money to afford therapy fees?  
I'd like to get better but I can't have a decent job and failed school many times because of bpd, MDD, GAD etc. which led to many suicide attempts and I don't really have my parents support. One can't help, the other one thinks of bpd as something that can be cured in a month, but actually I've been struggling with it for 8 YEARS. 
Now it has been a year I'm on meds but it doesn't stop the never ending cycle of "they're liars" "I hate you,  please don't go" and each time I find a healthy way to get better it doesn't stop the impulsiveness and when I contain it, it gets stronger to the point I start to break stuffs, then break stuffs that are pissing me off and actually make me feel lonely such as a family member being on the phone all the time, I'd impulsively throw it on the floor and have a fight.  It doesn't seem to get better.  

Any advices?