It really seems like most of my relationship with my FP is me running in to "save" her from some kind of drama (that she usually creates in some way) but when Im upset nothing ever seems to be her fault. I feel like it is always about her (and her drama) and she feels that it is always about me (mainly my feelings). We both have BPD. Im struggling in a big way and my mind has fallen in to a very dark place... I told her that, for her own sanity, it is probably best to ignore me until I come back around. Now she IS ignoring me and Im feeling very alone and unloved. Im scared this silence will cause me (or us) to split. 

What do I do? If I reach out again and tell her this Im scared she will consider it manipulation (which it may be and Im just blind to it) but if I dont will I lose her? I cant handle that.

TL;DR: FP with BPD. She thinks it is always about me. I think it is always about me. Ignoring each other. What to do?