So I’ve been a month sober and if I was going to funeral I would definitely taken a few shots before. Long story short I’ve been doing a lot of things sober and have had a lot of progress. Today I went to a funeral my grandmothers uncle passed and wanted to do the right thing and go . I ended up going for 15 minutes I said hi to all my family members and I was dying inside . I left right after without saying bye to anyone and I’ve been beating myself up I just did a little meditation and it helped am I a bad person?