I feel like I could achieve everything a man would ever want.

But because of depression, low self esteem, anhedonia, apathy, and a belief that God hates me and doesn't want me to succeed... I feel stuck. I feel frozen. I just can't make any progress. I dont even know how to explain it. No matter how much hurt and pain I am in, I will never get the desire to change my circumstances ... 

Does anyone else feel this way ?