I have been medicated and managed a lot of my symptoms for a long time but recently my cat got diagnosed with kidney disease and it’s only a matter of time. I realize only now that I’ve been turning my FP fixation on my cat and while it’s helped me make a little stray’s life a happy one, and while I’m following the vet’s orders and his new diet, I know I am months away from losing him. 
 
For context, he is a super amazing buddy sleeping by my side on the couch right now and he has been the most loving and sweet pet to me and my family for 17 years. I know logically that’s a very old age for a cat but I don’t know how I’m going to go through this without spiraling.