I fucking hate life and I fucking hate myself. I need to change, I'm aware of it. I'm the only one holding myself back but at the same time, it's so fucking difficult bc of circumstances I'm living and how I am.

It hurts seeing people of my age having the time of their lives with their friends while I spend the days depressed rotting in bed.
I fucking hate this.

How tf did I end up in such a pathetic path!?!!!