Im 22f. Gonna be starting my senior year of college next month even though it's a big fucking waste of time. I need to rant because I cant talk to anyone else about it anymore.

I cant seem to do anything right. I am so hopelessly stupid that it's embarassing. Im in the easiest major (psychology). I cant find a single internship opportunity, though I'm volunteering at a DV shelter as a hotline advocate. Im basically gonna be fucked after college. The most I'll probably be able to do is work in retail. Everyone else is having no issues and my stupid ass has been rejected for almost every single one I applied for. I dont know how other people do it. Even when I touch up my resume or talk to other people about how they found their positions, I cant seem to crack the damn code. I'm probably gonna end up working at tj maxx for fucking ever unless I end it. But I also lack ambition. I could easily get my associates in medical imaging or something of the sort but will I ? No. I wont explain more, but I am not ambitious. It's embarassing. A lot of it is linked to me being so comically stupid that I dont know how to do anything.

But then I think what the fuck is the point ? Why would I want to live like that ? My main goal used to be to make enough $$ to travel, but that seems so boring now. I dont want marriage or children, they both sound like a fucking humiliating prison. I havent been romantically interested in anyone since I was 16. You'd think being in a college with 5k people would change that, but nope. High school me would be gutted. Whenever someone hits on me or tries to touch me or expresses interest in me I feel like I'm being suffocated. Doesnt help im bisexual with a huge preference for women. 

Somehow all the friends I make turn out to be absolutely God awful people. How do I constantly attract humongous asshole losers? I used to love concerts, but now they drag. I cant even enjoy my life because there doesnt seem to be a point or a goal or anything to look forward to. I'm supposed to be seeing pitbull next week, but atp it's just a waste of money.

How am I even supposed to deal when everything seems so worthless and boring?