during episodes, i make really bad decisions. as most of us do. but i am extremely self aware that the feeling will pass within minutes. but i cant control my impulses at all and i’ll get on my phone and text or call my FP and end up embarrassing myself and stressing him out for practically no reason, because once the feelings pass, im fine. but the guilt after has been eating at me so bad. i beat myself up and want to hurt myself after blowing up on my FP, and i don’t know how to stop. im trying to think of ways to somehow lock my phone for 30 mins to an hour to prevent me from giving into my impulses and blowing up my FP’s phone. im sure some of you will be like “idiot just turn your phone off” but that doesn’t work at all, even if i try i end up caving and just turning it back on. i have tried looking at apps to see if i can lock my phone or my apps or something, but it doesn’t seem to be what im looking for. i could depend on giving my phone to a family member and not letting them hand it back until im fine, but sometimes these episodes happen late at night or my family members may not be home to monitor me. i feel like if i somehow removed my phone i could distract myself with something else and try to calm down without giving in to texting the cause and making things worse. 

any ideas?