I can’t deal with it anymore. Since I can remember I have this feeling of anxiety and uncomfortableness. I wake up and I have to hope I don’t feel too bad. And today I was outside with my family and saw how everybody socialises easily and I have to deal with that shit every time. That frustrates me so much. I feel paralysed , can’t talk, feel like Iam in prison with my brain. I feel hopeless. Most people can normal live and I have to fight my brain to live kinda normal. Why ??? Iam so sad. Fuck this all.