i've already emailed my school guidance councilor about asking for help but at this moment, i dont feel as bad. thoughts like what if i was only faking it or what if im not really that deserving of help keep popping up. i do feel like shit most of the time but i dont know if thats worth asking for help since i feel better-ish right now. do i feel better right now  because i'm relieved that i can ask for help? do i feel better because i was faking the anxiety?