3 days ago I got abandoned in the most painful way. Just today I regained a little hope.

I did what I would usually do with my fp but with another person and it showed me I can enjoy my time even without her. On top of that a friend finally spoke in our group after he was absent for a year due to busy work and mental health issues. I told him about BPD and what I'm going through and he didn't deny I'm suffering more than him and he didn't doubt that I'm telling the truth, which made me feel validated.

But despite that I still find it hard to motivate myself to do anything (tho it's better than the previous 2 days) and I can't stop feeling the overwhelming pain.

I can't make myself hate her because I know it was both of us that made mistakes. And I really miss her, but I can't get her back, unless she decides to return (blocked all my accounts and doesn't respond).

So I would like to know what I can do to get over it faster and to move on.