ive made a dumb mistake. two months ago i got with my current boyfriend and i dont think ive ever been as in love with someone as i am with him. hes everything ive ever wanted in a partner and so much more. he makes me so happy. everything was perfect with him. stupidly, around one month in i ran out of my meds and just forgot completely abt them. i know this is stupid and dangerous and im kicking my own ass over it constantly but i was so caught up in the high of this love plus currently not being on my adhd meds (this is on purpose and under supervision of my therapist) that i just completely forgot about this. now the consequences are hitting me full force. all of a sudden i feel like i need to break up with him. i only see flaws that im projecting onto him from my previous relationship. im constantly making him into someone hes not in my head and my brain is screaming to run far far away from him cause im getting attached. nothing feels right anymore, thinking about him makes me feel sick to my stomach when just a week ago he made me the happiest person in the world. i keep having panic attacks. i keep having these horrible thoughts of a future without him, of having to find a new partner, of having to let go of him, of him finding someone new. im in therapy and back on meds but its only been a few days and im not feeling better yet. the logical part of me knows this is my anxiety disorder but this feels so real and final. i feel like i fucked up beyond repair. i just wanna go back to how happy i was with him. im so scared i wont ever feel the love i felt for him again and that ill have to break up with him. i just need someone to tell me itll be okay. this is all in my head and ill be able to be happy with him again. id especially appreciate it if someone whos had the same experience were to help me out. im really wondering if this is an anxiety thing or if i really need to leave him.