When I get depressed, I shop. Even when I'm broke, I'll spend that last $10 on junk because it takes away the depression for a moment. I'm so impulsive. I have no control over myself. I just want things. Things make me happy. I have so many credit cards. The reason I haven't opened up any more for a long time is because my credit score is too low. They're all maxed out. 

I'm dragging myself into debt. I have no one to blame but myself. At least it's not as bad as it used to be.