I have never before posted on reddit. But I think I need some advice. I am not depressed. I am happy, I have a good life...and that scares me. I am scared because I am in such a good place, something bad might happen. I am scared of everything. 
I am terribly scared something could happen to my son and I have this thought that I couldn't live without him, that my life would be over if somethong happened to him. I read everything I could during my pregnancy, but no one warned me about this absolutely immense love i feel. I see a news article or an amber alert on fb or a video or even something bad on reddit and i immediately think 'what if it was my son?' and this anxiety gets me and my mind just goes on and on and I try to force myself to stop thinking about these horrible things. And it's not just about my son...if it's just the 2 of us, without my husband, stuff like 'what if someone breaks in the house?' go through my mind. What if someone rapes me? I can't even think about someone hurting my son...and all this anxiety is draining me. There are so many examples, from car crashes or what if i die? I want to see my son growing up, i don't want that pain for him; I just don't want to think about even more now, genuinely my heart aches in moments like this. It's only when i am alone, i am usually on reddit to keep my mind busy. But if i don't have my phone, my mind immediatly goes crazy. And i don't know what to do. I will probably try therapy soon, but...does anyone know how i can stop the stupid thoughts? I have been trying to understand how this happend. We had a car crash when i was 7 weeks pregnant, my husband's fault. It's like I realised that 'anything can happen to me as well'. I don't believe in God, so I don't feel protected, things just happen, people suddenly die, when you expect less, people, children, get ill...and i am just so scared of ever losing my son or my husband. My adoptive mum's son died at 17 and I have seen her become a shell of a woman. How do I go back to normal? I keep saying that I want a boring, drama-free life. And i want to be my careless self again. Any advice please? Apologies for the long post :(