I think I've realized again how lonely and different my life is.Ive never had a best friend, I've never really texted anybody much never been in a group chat for long and the one time I was barely there

I've never dated, I'm fat, always going back to the same old habits and so tired.I wish I had just one person pushing me and telling me to go for a run or to start exercising 

I feel so behind on everything because I have no one to talk to and I've never had anywhere to go.If just one person was there really fucking there for me that I really talked about real shit with, that would be a good time.

But nobody, just a lower and a stereotypical one who loves anime and games.Theres nothing good about me and as always I go back ti my shitty shell and pretend everything is OK

Just wanted to let it out there, funny how the small things can just make you realize your stance in life.