It’s been 2 years since I have tried so many compounds, and still I am. I don’t have any problem other than anxiety, I just recovered from depression but that can’t count because my mood changes drastically, but I am better than 2 years ago. I think I like my life, and I have a good life. But since I started to consume drugs it’s like a way to not feel empty, or existential. Not having a relationship with someone ever is depressing, and people have left me because of my disorder. I might be a normal person with problems socializing, but I always fail and that puts me in a very difficult mood. Sometimes I even hurt myself. Thankfully not that bad. So, I seek for help with my psychiatrist that took 1 year to know I have BPD. It haven’t worked all the pills. But I find Benzos relaxing. From all the drugs I have taken, I have only done psychodelics once, and I had bad, but refreshing trip. I have tried to deal with myself with drugs and I don’t know where I am going to get.