Today was a weird day...

Because I've realized that I am alone, more than ever...

It's pretty much hard to find out that you were even the scapegoat of your best friend, that he's not even willing to listen to me when he always came to cry when his gf's cheated on him or his narc parents abused him. 

That the smear campaign from your narc relatives it's so intrincated that there's no space left for truth and they use your mental health issues (schizoaffective/ BPD/ low level autism) as a gaslighting tactic and weapon to manipulate people around you and yourself for the sake of their own narrative when actually they abandoned me in a foreign country and had to live a few weeks in the streets and had to stab a junkie to death that tried to assault me during a rough night. 

Unmasked an ex narc friend that tried twice to betray me with two of my exes in the past (both narcs of course, this actual Nex showing me the texts he sent her implying that he wanted to steal her from me, of course, to put me on her side and use as manipulation tactic to earn my trust that also used intermittent reinforcement as a tactic to create a trauma bond) due to the envy that he had me, and tried to act heroic in front of people, friends and relatives that still in contact with him to pretend he is saving me or helping me, who also used to talk shit about me behind my back for having what he can't when in fact he used me during my lowest point and depression to exploit me to rent a place to get one of his victim pregnant so he could baby trap her so he could be coercing her to move with him to her house so he could save money and also try to use my Nex behavior to put me on his side due to her cheating on me and lying. 

Sent to fuck off a narc couple that wanted to play around with me because the Nex girl wanted to use me to cheat on her fiance because he was trying to sexually exploit her through webcam sites so every time they argued she called me telling me that my dick was way bigger than his but he didn't loved him, she was with him because she couldn't afford leaving or renting a place so she was using him for his money. Confronted the guy and he's literally a pussy telling me that she ain't worth it when he clearly was trying to play pimp and trying to act like he's a mastermind when clearly the girl was way more of a baddie than he is. 

And I broke my left hand pinky finger after an accident so... 

Yup, these last days have been a hell of a ride.

P. D:

Got banned permanently from r/narcissisticabuse because for them, no Nperson or group can abuse a BPD...