I feel like I won't be able to find an actual healthy relationship with anyone, that isn't hollow or limited to certain things that you will or won't talk about. I've been studying myself, psychology, philosophy, seduction, but something always seems to go wrong. I don't understand why I feel so alone. I surround myself with acquaintances but I can barely find a true friend, let alone any type of romantic relationship anymore. I don't know what to think or do. 