I am so tired of living like this. Of living with myself. I feel everything and nothing all at once, and it's always so severe and constant. It never ends and it never lessens. I'm tired of the extreme mood swings that change within a split moment. I'm tired of having no identity and never knowing who I am. I am tired of never having any answers to all my questions. I am tired of therapy. I am tired of living in constant fear and paranoia and never being able to trust a single soul. I am tired of constantly hurting the people I love. I am tired of never being able to vocalize and properly express the things I truly feel. But most importantly I'm just so tired of the person that I am. I keep trying, and I try so hard, but nothing I do helps. I just can't seem to change. I can't control my emotions and my feelings and it's consuming me. I am lost and in a constant struggle to find myself, but the deeper I search the further I get from the surface without any hope of ever being able to come up for air again. I just want my pain to end.