Does anyone else experience this range of emotions in a single day. I was super anxious about going to a uni sports club practice and felt sick simply having to ask someone for a lift so I wouldn’t be stranded at the practice which runs late and it gets dark. After I finally built up the courage to message the person, they took ages to reply and I felt like there was no point in going anymore. Despite being incredibly anxious, I was still wanting to go and felt proud of myself for making the commitment. Now I just feel like a total idiot because the sports practice ( one of the first since the re-opening of the club) was unexpectedly cancelled and I was only vaguely informed later on. Something about getting all worked up, both anxious and excited, getting all dressed up and mentally preparing myself to see potentially new people ( I’m very introverted but just went through a week of being very down in the dumps and staying in my room for hours only leaving to do basic things and not wanting my roommates to see me for fear of judgement) is so sad and makes me feel like I’m worthless and can’t do anything properly ( can’t drive myself there even though I’m 20 and my boyfriend recently moved back home so he’s not here for me anymore) and no one wants me around( no one bothered to check in on me). Earlier I embarrassed myself in front of my roommate after a contact lens fluid incident ( the hydrogen peroxide was unneutralised and gave me a scare burning my eye and it still hurts, my ego too!) I feel like such a fool and just want to crawl away and hide.