Hi guys, this is my first post here. I am 23F and my FP is 23M. We have been friends since high school so for about 5 years. I'm a recent college grad and he is still in college. I am completely obsessed with him. We text everyday and when I don't hear from him I feel like I'm going to lose it. He happens to be a good person and has put up with me all these years, the longest any friend has. But we have had our share of bad arguments and me accusing him of stuff. So there have been times that I stopped talking to him because I was so hurt or because I was hoping he would get in contact with me which would show he really cared. In Dec 2019 we stopped talking again and by February 2020 he messaged me. I was so happy! So I decided this time I wasn't going to mess this up. So now its May and we've already had like 10 fights. But everytime I apologize he says he forgives me. But what is it about a FP that makes me feel like my brain is frying? When I don't have a FP or when we aren't talking I feel almost normal. I am fine with everyone else but he seems to push all my buttons. I love him to death but he says something that triggers me almost every day. DAE feel this way? If so what can do about it?