Depression to me is like a thick grey cloud looming over me and the emotional breakdown is like heavy rain and thunder roaring. Then the skies clear and the sun is shining, birds are chirping and everything feels clear. 

In those moments every thing is so blissful, I don't feel happy but I don't feel sad; my productivity is high and life gets better but I ruin it again when the dark clouds fill up the sky again. Those low moments are hindering my ability to move forward in life. Has anyone been able to sustain those blissful moments with antidepressants or a mood stabilizer? What can I do to weather the storm better.