i told my partner that his gran had said to me "if i had known your diagnoses beforehand you wouldn't have been able to stay here because of the kids" which crushed me, she told me she spoke to the dr i had been seeing for a little while and for some reason she shared my medical records with the gran. wtf. Anyway, partner has gone upstairs to talk to his gran but im feeling so anxious because she told me if theres any troubles between her and her grandson they'll be more trouble. (this leads me to believe that i will be kicked out)  
i don't have any family or friends where i live as i left everything behind in WA to be with my partner in QLD.  We were evicted from our apartment due to not being able to afford rent any longer, luckily my partner had family where we are and his gran offered for us to stay there until we get back on our feet.   


rn, i just want to die in a hole  
sorry for grammar, mistakes, etc - idc