Today I'm numb and I don't know if that's okay. I'm so tired. Haven't slept in something like 20 hours. And even tho I want to sleep I can't let myself. So I'm just laying in bed, staring at my phone without even doing anything. I hate this. I wish my feelings were back. Even tho I hate them too. I hate everything, at least in theory. I don't even feel enough to hate right now. I'm even to lazy to apply any of the CW to this post, which is why I can't even mention what I want to do right now. I'm tired. Maybe I really should sleep. I don't know anymore. The world is so grey I hate it