I’m currently in a 6 month relationship with someone I’m incredibly in love with. However, I’m finding myself being incredibly unhappy at the moment. I suffer from BPD (mostly abandonment related) &amp; I’m kind of running out of ideas on how to fix myself. Recently (about a month ago) my boyfriend had to leave college &amp; go back home 5 hours away. I won’t see him until August. Everyday it seems I’m in pain, wanting to cry, &amp; experiencing excessive paranoia. I worry just about everyday that he’s going to cheat on me. I’ve went to the extent of checking his private twitter page, looking at Tinder in his area, checking his Facebook looking for “proof” that he’s being unfaithful. Of course, I found no concrete evidence. It’s getting to the point I feel rather uncomfortable talking to him. I’m quiet most of the time, not sure what to say because I overthink things he says or things I say. I’m just worried I’m going to mess up &amp; inevitably lose him. 

Also just an FYI, I do go to therapy &amp; take medication. My therapist isn’t qualified for CBT but is trying out workbooks with me.