I was just recently diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder. Has anyone had experiences where they try to escape their partner, either thinking it, talking about it, or actually going as far as packing a bag and leaving for a while? This has happened several times over the past few months. I’ll regret doing it afterwards and then a week or 2 will go by and I’ll think about doing it again.

This idea of escape will often times go beyond abandoning my partner, and can extend to changing my living situation, or ideas of moving to completely new places altogether, like a different city, state, or country. It’s so hard for me to discern if my feelings of wanting to be apart mean that I don’t love him because BP2 is messing with my emotions or if I genuinely don’t feel in love anymore.

I’ll have an emotional supportive partner who is aware of the fact that I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder, but this back and forth has caused a lot of emotional pain and distance in our relationship.