So I have known for a while that I have BPD. I wasn’t 100% sure but I definitely saw a lot of the symptoms in myself. Turns out I do and also got diagnosed with OCD. 

Idk if I’m alone in feeling this but it’s not even the fact that I have it that’s been overwhelming/bothering me it’s that I *know* I have it now. That is what’s overwhelming me.

Sometimes I’ll be doing things or afterwards and just end up feeling really self aware like “Oh I’m doing this because of my BPD”. Struggling with that feeling. Idk if this makes sense lol