After dark episode last week (see previous post), I've decided to turn my life around in a positive manner in order to overcome this beast of a disorder.


So far:

*I've decided to open up to people about what has been going on with my life. I realized that keeping everything bottled in brought me in a vicious cycle of feeling like a burden to everyone. 

*I've also decided to quit drinking altogether and staying away from drugs (cheers to being 1 week sober)

*Also got back into the habit of going to the gym everyday. 

*Been trying to eat healthier and drink tea as much as I can to prevent myself from drinking alcohol

*I've tried to also change my perspective on life and writing things down. I now have an evergrowing list called the "If I didn't survive, I Would've Missed: " It's full of little and big events that I really enjoyed throughout time after the attempt that I could've missed. 

Overall, I know it's an uphill battle but I've never felt so optimistic about this before. When I figure out my insurance situation, I plan on doing therapy again. I really look forward to seeing the world in a brand new form. If anyone has any suggestions, I seriously would be more than happy to hear!