I find that nothing is enjoyable for me. I spend all my time in my room playing video games and listening to music. I used to enjoy playing video games, now i just do it to kill time. I used to get shivers from good music, now it’s only good for background noise. I just moved schools and don’t have any friends but have a good friend group online. I’m fine with not having friends at school cuz i spend a lot of time thinking and not having irl friends doesn’t bother me.

I’m just kinda strolling through life and the only time i really feel anything is when i’m stressed or worried about the future. I’m at the age where im supposed to be deciding what college to go to but i don’t think i wanna go to college. So i gotta decide on a career but i don’t enjoy anything so i don’t know what i want to do.

Me and my parents are also completely different personalities so they don’t
understand me. I’m introverted and their extroverted. I find things that they do to be nice annoying. For example my dad eases me how my day was every single day and it annoys me cuz the answer is the same every day. “Fine”. He also is constantly making noises (like vrooming while playing forza) to be funny and it gets on my nerves but if i say i don’t want to have a conversation about my day or i want them to stop making sounds, i’m rude or disrespectful. I argue with them regularly and they don’t make it easy to want to be around them. they then use me not being around them as fuel for future arguments. 

Idk if i’m just lazy, tired, burnt out or actually depressed but i’m not getting a whole lotta enjoyment out of life. Sorry for the kinda scattered thoughts, just kinda curious about outside views.