I have a hard time not self destructing, especially when those closest to me make me feel constantly invalidated and walked over. Even now that I’m a mom, it pisses me off more than ever. No matter where I’m at, whether it’s here with my FP/bf (who has narc tendencies, along with his narc mom) or back home with my narc mom n conservative family, there will be narcissism around me. And I will always be invalidated. Therapy would be nice, if we had the money or insurance and what not. Right now I’m currently dissociating, living inside my mind with a whole different scenario and life. I’m digesting reality but it doesn’t bring me happy feelings so I just lock myself away in my head. Trying not to act on my feelings before I self sabotage my life and end up back home like usual. Anyone else understand the feelings I’m describing?