I'm so so so tired of being like this. Im exhausted of never being able to know who I am and what I truly feel and my thoughts because there is no constancy. I just read someone's hate rant to me, because a few months ago they told me they liked me and I genuinely felt like I fell in love with them and wanted to spend the rest of my life with them, just to split a week later and want to never see them again. They said they're glad I'm out of their life. They were tired of the fact that I can change so quickly from something so extreme to the opposite. How do they think I feel, when I'm supposed to have to deal with this for the rest of my life. There's no way to fix it, I literally don't know my own feelings or my own self. I can't 'trust my gut' because it doesn't exist in me, or if it does it seems so certain yet changes so so extremely and so unexpectedly. I don't want to have to live with myself anymore.