
Trigger Warning - talks of the big C plus doctors. Please be respectful and do not comment anything catastrophic as it’s not helpful and will further freak me out. 

*I am on a mood stabilizer and on a wait list for a new therapist - I just had a full blood work up last week, and in August I had a full work up including chest CT, head CT, chest X-ray, EKG, ECG, and full blood work up then as well. All came back normal.
I just had a Pap with a breast exam in September and all came back normal. My Mother does not carry the BRCA gene but my grandmother had BC.*


I feel a bruise like sensation on my breast two days ago and I don’t see a bruise on my breast, there is no lump, no nipple inverted or discharge from the nipple, no rash etc. Just this bruised feeling in one spot and the rest of my breast feels weird. I don’t remember hurting my breast in any way either to cause a bruise. My shoulder top and shoulder blade are hurting so I’m convinced I have BC and it’s spreading around. 

I just finished my cycle a few days ago and the tenderness went away from that - and then this bruise feeling came up. 

I had my GYN appointment today and she said she didn’t feel anything and everything looked normal but said for my peace of mind, she will put an ultrasound in, but she didn’t think it was anything bad. 
I have my ultrasound on Friday and I’m really worried and upset. 
Anyone else go through this, or can offer some ideas to stop ruminating? All the typical ones that work for me are not getting my mind off of it. 
My thoughts are really mean to me right now. 😞😞