I don’t know if anyone relates to this or it’s a bpd thing but when I say I feel like I have no one I feel it. I see everyone with their friends everyday and it physically kills me that I don’t have that and I just feel like there is something wrong with me. Tw but it’s getting to the point where I don’t know how much longer I can take this because having no one you’re close to or no one you can go to is seriously soul crushing. Everyday I think it will change and that I’ll find those people but it never does. I felt like I somewhat had that in my old friend group in high school but now they want nothing to do with me so that’s not even an option (trust me I’ve tried). Like I physically have no human connection and it’s making me more depressed than ever. I also have social anxiety so there’s always a mental block when trying to talk with new people as well as being shy all my life. But yeah basically bpd is a bitch and I feel lonelier than ever. Hope I’m not alone in this feeling.