Backstory, I have a chronic illness that resulted in a ton of fevers where I shake so violently I tense my muscles till they hurt, and I can hardly move or talk. It's terrifying. First time it happened we went to the ER because we through I was having a seizure. I have kept that unpleasant symptom, and still shake violently if I have any fever at all. Also, these fever shakes are attached to a shit load of unpleasant memories of nights alone in bed not being able to fucking move. 

So tonight, I had a fever and started shaking violently on the toilet. I grabbed my computer, and slowly DMed my friend who also has a jacked up sleep schedule and asked her to send me memes. Any memes. Anything she could find. Before the anxiety attack started. She was a second too late, because by the second meme I slipped into another fucking world, replaying all the unpleasant memories in the front screen of my mind projector. 

Once I was able to pull myself out and calm down, my legs where numb, she had sent 20+ messages, both memes and asking if I was alright, and I felt awful. I finished what I needed to do, got up, and messaged her one word. "Fine" 

She also has anxiety, and we know that if we say fine in a situation like that, we probably are not fine. 

I go offline, tell my mom, she gives me Tylenol, Benadryl, and tells me I don't have to go to school tomorrow (score) and told me to go to bed and wait it out. 

I get back on Discord and I tell my friend what's happening, and this is what she fucking says: 

"Her- "Are you sure your ok? Do you want to talk about it?" 

Me- "Maybe tomorrow."

Her- "Do you want me to give the teachers your hw? You can copy my answers if your not done." 

I started crying right then and there, it was too fucking sweet. 

Me- "No thank you. I'll email it in tomorrow afternoon once I finish it." 

Her- "Ok, if your sure... Try and get a little sleep for me :&gt;"

Me- "Will do. Thank you so much for understanding." 

Her- "No problem. I'm here when/if you want to talk :) Free therapy ;&gt;" 

Me- "Thank you so so much. Gn ;&gt;"

Her- "Gn :)"

I fucking sobbed. Not even my best friend I've know all my life and love to bits tells me this sort of thing. (She understands, but like me, she doesn't know  how to handle emotional situations very well) Now I'm crying, still shaking, but at least I'm happy. 

Have a good day/night everyone, and I hope you have/find a person like this :)