Sunday starting my therapy. 

Today was a bust with the psychiatrist as he told me to be mindful and have plan. issue is I cannot commit to any plan! I've been trying for years to have a plan/schedule or as he say do something I enjoy, but I can't keep the cycle because I'll either get bored after once or twice or just give up. It hit today how hard it'll will be to change and make a progress! damn! 

But I also found that my mother and best friend are with me on this. having a support system might actually help but I need to do it on my own. 

Hope I commit to this therapy.