Everything i do or say is always wrong. Everyone looks at me with disgust and anger. 
 I used to be filled with rage and anger but i just don't have any emotions left , even if someone hits me or insult me, i don't even try to take care of my self anymore. 
I tried and searched any ways to get out of this , it worked  for few times but it was until my mother told me that she hates me and wish she hadn't birthed me and she doesn't even look at me anymore she just hits me to my head throws thing at me.  It was because she was sick of my existence and Depression. I was hanging on only threat that was my mom  i loved her everything because my dad just yells me me every single day and my sisters bully me . But now there is nothing i could rely on ,, i tried to kill my self but my sister stopped me and my whole my while family beated me until they broke my  arm. Never had a friend or socialized. I used to cry my self to sleep but i can't even cry or sleep or eat , i just stare at the ceiling fantasizing about how i would kill my self or world without me , even food i used to enjoy is just plain and i'm  never hungry , even if i'm pale and skin and bones or my body telling me to eat i just can't, . At least i used to enjoy daydreaming that i was one of my favorite movie characters and feel somethings but i just can't  remember how to feel ,it just empty in my head . My heart feels like its under a very heavy pressure my lungs can't breath fully. I just wish to sleep in my dreams forever without ever waking up