Its really weird because on one hand I obviously like get horny sometimes and want to have sex. Or sometimes like even when I'm really upset or not in the mood I do it anyway and dont indicate that I'm not up for it because I know the person I'm with wants to do it and I just want to keep them happy. And then afterwards I almost always end up feeling upset and hating myself... Like I always start thinking that my SO only wants to be with me for sex and is just using me and that they wouldn't want to be with me if it weren't for that which just makes me start hating them. But then even after feeling like that I still almost always end up doing it again because y'know, even if they're using me, it still makes them happy. DAE relate to that?