I think life is sending me signs at the moment. I don’t know if I’m just feeling some type of way and this my reaction. 

I just cannot do this anymore. I can’t feel this sad anymore. I’ve asked for help and it’s not happened and because i’ve been in a good period and now i’m in an episode it’s ‘you can get out of it’ and ‘you’ll be fine’ 

my ex made me promise not to kill myself last night and i regret making that promise. i had a feeling i should’ve got out the car but I didn’t. I’m a fool. 

I’m gonna write some letters out and explain what’s going on in my head so they have an idea.