Not really sure if this belongs here but it ties heavily into depression so I assume so. My dilemma is pretty much that I don’t know myself at all and am a confused and lonely person having replaced legitimate life experiences with video games and the internet. 

The consequence of this is that I have no real personality and no prospects in life. The problem this has created is that being at the very start of adulthood I have no idea what I want to do with my life because I’ve pretty much spent 1/3 of it being depressed in my room and didn’t spend time developing any interests other than music and reading which aren’t exactly unique.

This has left me in a really bad situation that is making the depression worse because I feel heavily pressured to have a plan or be something but I have no idea of what I want to do other than something in the creative field (music,writing etc.). On top of that I worry a lot of the time that I only prefer creative fields because I desire fame or something  as some kind of reaction to feeling isolated and that puts me off even further.

Basically without rambling too much further I feel like I need to start working towards something now but am very confused about what I even do want to do and it is making things feel hopeless.