So I have two jobs and have recently been more social with my coworkers, who I really enjoy being around, but I can’t help but get the feeling that a few of them are physically attracted to me. Maybe I’m delusional and mistake platonic or playful actions as flirting, because, for one, I can’t imagine anyone actually liking me for me, for how I look, talk, ect (The root of this being I don’t believe I deserve happiness), so any normal friendly thing someone may do could come off to me as flirting. Anyway, I wrote out a short note on my phone about these feelings and thought I would share, so here:

Don’t you just hate it when someone shows interest in you as a person and does like friendly cute things towards you but the years of self hatred and isolation you’ve put on yourself make you think that either A.) this person is being too nice and probably pity me and are trying to include me, B.) are obsessed with getting into my pants and predatory, C.) this is a cruel joke or set up, or D.) they actually like me as a person and want to be my friend. 

Idk, just needed to get this out.