My ex broke up with me a few weeks back, and and she's tried to hoover back, texting, calling FaceTime and reaching out to my brother. Things seems to have slowed down, but now I'm struggling with coping with what happened. She has BPD traits, but it feels like I'm looking for an answer or closure that I'll never find. No matter what BPD or not we were toxic for one another, but I feel responsible or guilty in a sense. Not sure if what we experienced was love or just lust or a fog. 

How do I move past all these feelings?