So ever since I became unemployed, I've been anxious as all hell. It comes from me not knowing what next month will bring, me living on the poverty line and me being without a job. 

I have been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and my God, is it kicking me in the gonats lately.  Sometimes I get so anxious that I cease to function. It's like this bubble that grows inside my brain and I can't collect my thoughts or communicate with someone. I just feel that bubble growing. Often it affects my mood and I end up crying for hours at night. 

Yet the only time where I feel like I can moderately relax and ease my thoughts is when I'm sleeping or eating. I can't help but to fear the worst and constantly worry. 

So today, I have a talk with the jobcenter and they are holding my future in their hands. They are currently wondering if I'm even healthy enough to work full time. And there's another thread continues to add to my anxiety. 

Well, shoot.