Exactly what it says on the tin.

This entire mess in my head has ruined my life. I've ruined my credit, ruined almost all of the non-abusive, non-codependent relationships I have, and it's getting to the point where I'm beginning to have trouble functioning at my job, which is one of the few good things I really have left to define myself by.

I also have some pretty bad anxiety in general, but what I've read about seeking help for BPD is making the idea of going to a psychiatrist for diagnosis and help seem absolutely terrifying, like the end of the world. What if they don't believe me? What if they think I'm diagnosis-shopping (though why the hell anyone 'shopping' for a diagnosis would pick BPD, of all things, I don't know)?

So talk to me about how the hell one works through this kind of anxiety. If anyone in the Anchorage, Alaska area is reading this and has specific recommendations for a BPD-friendly doctor that would be great, but I just need some reassurance that seeking the help I *know* I need to recover isn't going to ruin what's left of my life.

**Edit** to remove a paragraph (rereading, it sounded like a roundabout way of asking for a diagnosis) and to add: I'm going to set up an appointment with a psychiatrist tomorrow regardless, because I also need help for the anxiety and compulsive issues I'm dealing with, but I really don't know how to go about asking about something like this once I have that appointment.