I’m tired of being put on antipsychotics and mood stabilizers. I have bipolar II and usually stay in the depression zone. It gets really really bad. 

I’ve had major chronic depression and anxiety for so many years, but I developed bipolar in 2019 after some trauma. My hypomania isn’t a big concern to me anymore. My episodes aren’t too long, and they usually are triggered by events that spring on strong and overwhelming emotions. They can really suck, but it’s preferable to my depression. 

I’m sick of all these medications either knocking me out or making me more depressed or robotic. I’m sick of the catch 22’s that come with medications that actually help. 

I just miss what it felt like taking Zoloft for the first time. These bipolar meds aren’t helping my depression. Stacking bipolar meds with antidepressants doesn’t work for me either. 

Why are psychiatrists so fixated on fixing mania and hypomania even for patients who have bigger problems to worry about? Please listen to me for once.