I was mid-panic attack in the work bathroom and emailed HR and told them I'd been struggling with my anxiety and needed help. They responded by saying that my work had been struggling since before now, and attached a long but vague list of ways I'd messed up in the past. Now I feel like I screwed up by reaching out for help, like I'm setting myself up to be fired, and I never even got the accomodations I need. I spent all weekend throwing up and nervous about going back in to work today. I don't know what to do.