School has always been super hard for me, but for some reason my depression just went apeshit and I'm honestly thinking about dropping out, simply because I cant do it anymore. I've had a pretty good streak of either shoving it down and forcing myself to do whatever it is, or it just not really affecting me that much, but since the start of this year it's been hell. I'm failing almost every class not because my work is bad, but simply because I can't bring myself to do it. I want to want to do it, but I don't want to do it, if that makes any sense. I know I can do it, because on the rare times I actually turn in work on time I get really good grades, but for whatever reason I just can't do it. I'm so sick and tired of wanting to do the work, and wanting to get good grades but not being able to simply because I have no motivation. And I have no clue how to fix this. My psychiatrist will either give me medication for ADHD or Depression, but not both. Which sucks because I can either be kind of sort of motivated enough to do the work, but can't do it anyways because I can't focus. Or I can focus, but only on depression because nothing is helping me with depression. Plus, no matter what I try stuff only kind of works instead of actually working, so I can only barely focus or barely feel kind of happy, but nothing more then that. I feel so lost, I just want to be able to get my fucking work done so I can graduate and get the job I want.