It's so hard to function daily when my mind is literally telling me to sabotage everything... myself, my relationships 

I'm so tired of this fight, I want to scream and break things, give in to the pain but I can't because of the others around me

I live for other people, not myself and after a failed attempt two months ago... I've given myself more trauma and my fiancée trauma that eats me alive every single moment

I hate this disorder