tw self harm
this is going to be such a process tomorrow

broke my longest clean streak for months now
have to take care of the cuts 
gotta go to work so bandages it is b
explain to boyfriend and he’s gonna be upsetti spaghetti with me
then he’s gonna worry more and more
what if he relapsed
also lol my birthday is in 2 days so it’s a gift to myself
it has been a while since i cut and now i realize how much i missed it
mango time? addicting. rewarding. trustworthy. ol’ reliable.  
tired. mental illness rant. bpd gettin the best of me tonight