I have been suffering for a long time, and I am beginning to lose my grip on reality. I am being thrown from doctor to psychiatrist and back, with no end in sight. I am not allowed anti-depressants due to SH and previous attempts. I need some way to cope, my partner is on the brink of leaving me and I am on the verge of losing my most recent employment. I have tried everything in my power and do not know how else to deal with this. I want to at least say I’ve given it my all, so please can anyone offer some advice for myself or my partner? I don’t want to lose what I’ve got currently.