Proposed to my ex pwBPD after a year and half of breakups/makeups leading up to an engagement. I had just moved out of state because quite frankly I wanted to see if the relationship had some staying power while I got some space. We had talked of marriage before, she had always brought it up in the past and I always kinda dodged it. Something about our relationship and dynamics had always made me a bit uneasy throughout…she was incredibly intelligent and introspective, the degree to which she’d stare in a way that was a little unnerving. Her presence was usually heavy, and if we ever went on trip, even after a couple days I’d feel drained and needed time to myself. I’d almost be a little thrown off or moody actually. In any event, despite all these fortuitous signs, we kept hurtling down this bizarre road of let’s see how far this goes. I loved her, saw how big her heart was, and believed in who she could be. She had been more than forgiving of me when I had made some big mistakes. Literally, the day after I proposed she tells me in tears that she has kids. Okay I’m def upset but we talk it out, and I tell her I wanna make it work. 2 weeks later she called the engagement off. Is it just me or is there something seriously wrong with that? I mean the whole relationship was a mind F leading to (only some) heartache. She always would speak of trust throughout the relationship. Just feeling like what else do I not know. My family thinks I dodged a bullet but I seriously wanted to try with her. Weird feelings about it.