So I (39M) have been feeling crap like I want to die (including an attempt on Friday) for weeks and it was only getting worse. I have decided to go to a private hospital for an inpatient stay. This will be my 3rd inpatient stay in the last 12mths. I just lost my job, I am hanging out with my ex-wife (which is painful as she has moved on, but she is still my FP).

But this morning I woke up and now I feel good (better than I have felt in months). I am so embarrassed that I have booked an admission to the hospital, my ex told our 5yo son who I had promised I wouldn't go back to hospital (he lost it).

I feel like a weight is off my shoulders about work, I need to start looking for a job. My ex-wife currently isn't seeing anyone. I am having fun with my son, it feels less like work. I have cleaned my house. This is all just today. I feel good and I can do it.

I feel like a fraud, what do I do?