I only have one FP, and I'm seriously and hopelessly addicted to them... the problem is they're extremely and incredible cold and distant and it's destroying me mentally. 


I basically never get to talk to them, and when I do get the chance, it's nothing but one or two word messages and I desperately hang on to the few minutes of conversation we have. Barely anything I say ever has an impact on her and most of the time it just feels like she's trying to brush me off and stop talking to me as soon as possible. Most of the time it doesn't even feel like she reads what I send her. She's constantly busy and just has absolutely no time for me, even if we've been close for years now..


She streams a lot, and it gets a lot worse because I get to see her talking with people and having fun with others or in VRChat talking to others and there's really nothing I can do... how do you talk to someone daily and yet never really interact with them...


My mental health and BPD has been spiraling downward, I feel like I'm going through a withdrawal while I'm watching everyone get around get high right in front of me. I honestly have no idea what to do... and I'm running out of time and strength...