New here! Hi.

I've had anxiety since I was 13 or 14 I am now 22. I have a lot of social anxiety and random anxieties and ptsd. I'm also bipolar 2 and have dealt with insomnia and depression. Well, a few month back I started on a good "cocktail" im on wellbutrin 150mg 2x a day, latuda 40mg and temazepam 15mg. I was feeling stable for the first time that I can remember. I was feeling mostly free of depression,insomnia,anxiety and wasn't having any depressive/hypomanic episodes. It was great.. 

Unfortunately, on the 20th of July I was stung by a wasp for the first time in my life. It was terribly traumatic for me. It felt like I was shot by a bb gun in the ankle (where I was stung) the pain lasted for about an hour or so. And I stayed up for a bit to make sure I was ready incase I had an allergic reaction. Luckily I didn't have an immediate reaction. A couple days after the sting I began to see my redness spreading and a day later I was unable to walk on it. That day I went to urgent care because I thought I was having a delayed reaction. Come to find out it got infected somehow. Which made it even more traumatic for me. Immediately I started to panic about how bad it could get and how I could have my leg amputated if it goes untreated. I ended up starting antibiotics and everything got better within about 10 days. 

But that incident sent me spiraling rapidly. I didn't leave my house unless I absolutely have to like for appointments. I wouldn't even go outside to stand with my dogs while they went to the bathroom when I used to sit outside for hours with them while they played. But that's not all. All my random anxieties intensified. I became paranoid. Someone smashed my mailbox and no one elses in the neighborhood. This made me believe that someone was after me and that was just a warning. I tried to start a job to keep me from thinking about my anxiety and I couldn't go because I was terrified of who might be there and how I could get hurt or stung again if I went outside. 



I felt isolated. Like I had no one to turn to. I tried to talk to my dad and he just said " that's not good" then Immediately got on his phone. I talked to my mom and she was making it about herself. I can't talk to my sister about jt because one of two things will happen she'll try to have a passing match with me to see who's worse off or she'll hold onto this information and use it against me in the future. I can't go to therapy until the 25th of this month. 

I'm struggling. Feeling trapped in the house and feeling isolated Is making me depressed. And my anxiety is worse than it was before I started all my meds. When I do go outside I'm super on edge. Every little thing: sounds, movement and things touching me makes me jumpy. I have a small panic attack everytime I hear, see or feel something. 

Today I made a leap to go out and get McDonald's. I was able to do this but not without extreme anxiety. When walking through the grass in my crocs I felt something in my shoe. I pulled off my shoe because I believed I had a blade of grass in it. To my dismay it was a very small blue tailed sink (it was alive). I threw my shoe a couple feet from me and panicked (I'm not normally scared of sinks) once the sink was put if my shoe I hobbled over to it and still went to the car to get food. When I got home my worst nightmare was waiting for me. Several wasps swarming around my fence gate and when I parked they were swarming my car. I was trapped in the car for 30min when I finally saw an opening I tried to run to the fence gate where I them saw another wasp sitting on the handle. I backed away slowly and went in the front door instead. This was terrifying for me. I had a small panic attack in the car and when I got inside realizing what had just happened. 


I know this all sounds crazy but small things to some people are very traumatic for me and I don't how to control it. 


If you made through all this I'm sorry it was so long. It would be nice if anyone related at all and could let me know how you deal with your anxiety.