I need to rant or I'm going to go fucking insane, my head is racing and I can't stop I'm going to be so ashamed but I don't care right now I need to stop feeling like this I HAVE TO SLEEP. God I just can't help but feel like something bad is hoping to happen, something bad ALWAYS HAPPENS AND IM TOO SENSITIVE TO HANDLE IT. I want scream, I want to jump out of my own skin and claw my eyes out. Why do I feel like this? I thought that by 3 weeks, the prozac would have been helping but today took such a horrible turn
 
My mind is spinning. If anyone out here is listening, please tell me what helps for you if you've ever gotten this kind of response to medication. I feel like I'm going insane, im questioning everyone and everything around me and I just want to sleep. Everything has been sending me over the edge today and it's pushing people away from me. I feel worthless, I feel like a baby, I feel selfish and like im a bad person and something bad happens to bad people like me. I'm spinning out. I feel like SOMETHING has to give, kind of like a dam building up and exploding with water. 

Why is this happening. I feel absolutely insane right now. This feeling is akin to panicking because of nicotine withdrawals. I feel so unsettled and fucking terrified of what's going to happen even though I fought so fucking hard to finally get off my ass, get a job, and move out. Its all happening, so why do I want to scream so badly?? Right now I'm questioning my friends, my parents, my partner, everything around me. As horrible as this all fucking sounds I know by tomorrow I'll be fine and too ashamed to look my partner in the eye. I need to pick myself up and let myself rest. But I'm going insane. My mind is making so many horrible conclusions that keep converging on themselves and I can't fucking stop, I can barely hear myself and it's like I'm not controlling my own thoughts. Why is this happening make it stop make it stop make it stop make it stop make it stop I just want to sleep please why is this happening please just make it stop everything hurts 

my head hurts so much I am literally begging myself to let me rest but it's like there's an invisible, noiseless ringing in my ears telling me horrible twisted visions of the future that all lead back to me being a spineless, worthless worm that deserves to be put in the ground with the rest of them. I feel horrible 

They all don't give a single fuck about me. They're all pretending. They fucking hate me. They're doing everything because they're obligated to. I'm a fucking chore to be around that sucks the fucking life out of everything and i don't deserve to be happy. I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless. They're all fucking laughing at me and they think I don't know. I hate myself so fucking much I can barely stand it. They hate me too. They're fucking tired of me. If I wasn't a stupid idiot with no direction in life, maybe they'd all really love me. But they don't. I'm freaking the fuck out right now I want to disappear into another world and never return. They don't love me, none of them ever really loved me. Not once. I hate myself I want to die I don't know what to do please help me why are the meds doing this to me. Everyone is fucking pretending. Everyone is fucking pretending. They're all fucking lying to me and I've known all along. What if I'm right. What if they all turn their backs against me and I'm left alone. Alone with that noiseless fucking ringing.