like how can one thing like this make it feel like my day has already been turned, i feel so much rage and sadness and emptiness at the same time? 

i keep telling myself to chill, people have their own lives and don’t owe u a response just bc you sent a meme. using this as an example)

i mean i’m trying to make the situation not a big deal, right? the way we should question it so it isn’t actually the big of a deal our minds feel over it.

But i feel achey already, so sad and worthless because of it, i wish i never had a favorite person in the first place because i need to face my damage and accept being alone on my own and not depend or attach to someone because it simply has emotionally exhausted me