I’m so sad. I have been sad for a while. It feels like my life is falling into shambles. My husband separated from the military in May of last year. We moved back to our hometown and things have just been horrible since we came back here. I work in a law firm, but I’m treated terribly there by my superiors and treated like I’m stupid. My dad keeps pushing me to stay there and making me feel like shit for wanting to find something different. The pay is terrible and I have gotten extremely behind on bills. To the point I am having to find a second job, which is going to cause me to not be able to finish school, but no one wants to hire me because I don’t have a flexible schedule. My husband has been out of work the entire time we’ve been home, and really doesn’t want to get a job. Everything he has started, he has given up on. However, when we have money issues, he blames it on me for not making the money to take care of things. We have had issues in the past, but we have been fantastic in our marriage until last night. He got drunk and decided he wanted a divorce. He was talking horribly to me and then just broke down crying saying he needs to start over without me because he has nothing left to give me and he wants to move back in with his parents. He only says he wants a divorce when he is slaughtered drunk, but he never tells me directly. It’s always when something sets him off and I leave the area that he starts telling all of his friends he wants a divorce. But once he’s sober, his whole tune changes and he decides he doesn’t want a divorce. (For context, what set him off last night was that I wasn’t feeling well and asked him to take me home, but he wanted to keep drinking and didn’t want to leave. This was at around 3 In the morning.) He never talks to me about anything. Nothing that he’s going through, he doesn’t open up at all. He won’t talk about our marital issues, refused marriage counseling, won’t see anyone for his own mental health (PTSD, depression &amp; anxiety). I’m concerned about him, because he told me he wanted to kill himself last night. I suffer from severe anxiety and panic disorder, as well as clinical depression, and it makes all of this so much harder. I feel so lost and stuck. I’m not sure what to do from here. I guess I’m just looking for advice or looking to vent. I’m just so sad and so tired of feeling this way. I’m trying my best and nothing seems to be working out in my favor.