Really I know myself I am not.

But last week till now I question myself what happened in my life that led to this result.

I experienced low self esteem for when I was young and became obvious more and more I grew up but I was like that's fine no problem....could I blame my parents for not taking action on me knowing that Low self esteem have bad consequences or did they trust me to grow up confident with age idk.

I thought life was great for me but really I was too naive to know my deadly flaws that have put me where I am now.....feeling hated by society always needs others approval .....but most case scenario that made like this is because I didn't find myself in anything I saw people were better in alot of stuff I was in shock .....I always say dumb dumb stuff and make careless mistakes....did I not learn from life am I that dumb or what is my problem I can't grasp really the essence of all of this also being low on knowledge and street smart.

Feels like being lost and 24 years of age well wasted.

Maybe I have ADD but idk if this is an excuse cuz I see people on Reddit have it but they don't have what I have....they just struggle with chores and forgetting stuff but I don't think it goes as much as my low self-esteem.

I am not bad, maybe I woke up on life too late and I just need time to identify the cause of this all.

I sleep all day in severe depression and anxiety and I can't get it out of my head what I've done with my life, social anxiety is killing me and the only thing I found myself on is have smart EQ WHICH not a main topic for any of the jobs out there.