Today is one of those days where just a little annoyance starts to build until I get angrier and angrier and before I know it, I am convincing myself that everyone is trying to fuck with me, that no one respects me, that every little thing I'm angry about it justified.

I know this can't be true. I'm not the center of everything, most people don't care about whether their actions affect me or not. But it gets in my head and just takes over until I'm so mad I don't want anyone near me and I fully believe everything anyone says is an attempt to undermine or hurt me.

It's a lot like a panic attack. It's overwhelming and I have to be alone until it passes. I don't know how to move on past it. I'm sitting here, in my office, trying to breathe and think peaceful thoughts. I feel so tense it's like I've just been in a car accident. Why do my neck and shoulders hurt so much just from thinking?

It helps to remember this will pass eventually. An hour from now I may not feel this at all. I won't be in this hate filled hole and I will be able to relax.

Oh my God, "hate filled hole." I'm already starting to feel better. I write the dumbest things sometimes. It helps to laugh at the things I say when I'm feeling the worst.