Because it’s not a dramatic episode. It’s not a “crying every day” or sleeping for hours episode. It’s just…nothing. And I’m over it. 

I was fine like, two weeks ago. Everything in my life was exactly the same as it is now. But god, I have no motivation. I go to work and I know I have shit to do but I just mindlessly scroll. I know it’ll pile up but I can’t find a reason to care. Barely have an appetite. I’m just doing the bare minimum. 

I think I’m just overwhelmed with the world and my brain is just shutting down. Times are scary right now and the weight of it is suffocating. So I just disassociate I guess? 

But I hate it. Because I know once I get out of this episode, I’ll have to pick up all the pieces.