I’m constantly dissociating. Go between deep depression and not wanting to get out of bed to feeling like I can do anything. I feel empty yet I feel so many things at once. My thoughts inside my head are angry and fast and change a lot and I don’t feel like myself anymore. I feel like I’m losing my mind and I’m told it’s anxiety but I don’t feel panicked or worried. None of that’s there. Im just getting worse. I’m being treated for PTSD and depression and anxiety, and over the years I’m just getting worse and worse. It’s like I’m different people, like one part of me is a nice generous person, but then there’s another part of me that is so angry and hateful and furious and going between these two sides of me is exhausting. I honestly can’t stop thinking about just running away and starting a new life, or just having tons of casual sex or just not go to my job at all. Just something to feel like I’m ok. I’m just confused. What do I do?