Hello I guess I should explain a lil before I post I’m 21 now my dad died when I was 5 at the age of 23 I couldn’t grieve as I thought it’s what girls do anyway let’s carry on to 15 I met a girl that mad my life worth living again I thought she understood me but I guess not she miscarried and 3 years later I split with her now I know it was the worse decision I could of mad as I’m deptagain im on antidepressants but they don’t help as I’m so addicted to alcohol I just don’t think I want to live anymore any quick methods would be appreciated