This was actually not that serious compared to others but for me it's a big dea. Ever since I studied I never resulted to cheating I'm always avarage and I never gave that much effort in getting higher grades. Now I'm in college and it feels like I'm losing my self last semester I had an almost failed subject but I still have no grades in that subject meaning I can't avail my scholarship. A simple quiz I panicked and caught cheating kinda cuz I checked the spelling I am guilty that I got caught really and it dawned on me that now what really matters are my grades not my learning I don't know if I should still continue my course it felt like I'm losing my self. I am being over acting but this just won't go away maybe I became a goody good shoes without knowing it and now I felt depressed for a minor thing the most annoying thing is that I only checked my spelling wtf is wrong with my brain.