I'm so scared. Birthdays are supposed to be happy. I'm dreading it so so much. I'm such a failure. Fking hell I'm so fking old and good for nothing idiot moron. I'm such a loser. I did nothing this year. Nothing. 

I mean I tried but I just can't conctrate. Absolutely idiotic brain. Feel like it's so useless to even try. I do well for 2 weeks then fking back to square one. Same story for one whole year. Holy fuck just going to end myself. Jesus 24. 24 fking hell. I got like no career, no good relationships. Honestly ugly as shit. Fking hell .