Most people say it's not my fault, and it's just the way the job is, but I can't help but feel like my current chronic anxiety is karma for all the undue anxiety I likely inflicted on people years back.

I had difficulty looking for a job when I graduated. Since my parents lost their jobs that time, I took a job at a credit collection agency. It was one of the better paying jobs during that time. As anyone can guess, the whole point of credit collection is to put pressure on people to pay their debts, be it for something as silly as a debt for an iPhone or a $100,000 hospital bill. It involves sending people a horrifying amout of notices and at times we even bring people to court.

Deep inside I know it's just part of a job, but sometimes I can't help but feel like this chronic anxiety I have is just karma for whatever I have done in the past. Maybe I could have handled it in a better way, maybe I could have been softer on the people. I know for a fact that many have had restless nights because of our work. I know many, who are already without any money, took additional loans from friends or relatives just to pay off the debt.

Whoever you are, I would like to apologize for any undue stress I may have caused you. I too am now in the same situation and I can't believe how chronic anxiety can destroy your life without a single drop of blood. I am very sorry for it and I hope we can all recover from this.