idk ever since i got my diagnosis in late 2016 (which explained why i reacted to certain things the way i do), i have worked so hard to not be toxic in any sense but last night i kind of had a thought that maybe i am actually more toxic than i realise and i really do not want to be, i'm not sure if it's just the paranoia lmao but i love the person i am with and i love my relationship and if i ever found that i was hurting this person in any way i don't know how i would genuinely deal with it???? i don't think i could take being alive really ): and now reading that seems manipulative in a way?? i dont know

i just want to know basically if anybody has any experience with overcoming toxic behaviours and how you manage jealousies or upsets? i want to improve myself really lol but idk how to do it