I always seem to split on the same people for the same reasons. With my two best friends, I always notice little things they say or do that make me feel shit, things that seem like digs at me or just make me feel completely inferior to them. It was building up for a while but one event a week ago made me decide that I'm sick of trying to deal with them and that I need to stick up for myself and cut them off so I did. One of them got really pissed off and I messaged her back, sort of trying to pick a fight just so I could tell her all that's on my mind and tell her I'm sick of her thinking she's better than me. This happens a lot. And then I'm back to being sad that I'm lonely and I get scared I'll have nobody so I say or do whatever I need to get back to being friends with them. I apologise and pretend I didn't really mean it even though I know everything will come back around again soon enough. I don't want this to happen this time around. I'm so sick of having to deal with being put down by myself and at home with my family, let alone having to be put down by people who are supposed to be my friends. But she owes me money, like $100-$150ish since August/September last year. I was lenient because of her situation at the time that lasted for a few months but I've messaged her a few times asking for it and she says she'll sort it out but she never has. I'm in two minds. I really need the money but don't know how to go about it and that's one of the things holding me back from cutting her off completely, as bad as it sounds. I guess I'm looking for advice on how to get the money back and how to approach cutting her off? One of my best friends thinks I should and my family does too and I'm always going to be conflicted but I think I need to do it. Basically any advice would be appreciated. Sometimes I feel so fucking confident when it comes to this and I feel like being an absolute bitch to her because I know I have the right to be but as soon as that fades, I feel like I don't know what to say or do and I can't hold my ground. Thank you all xx