im sort of self destructive, im an emotional roller coaster, and i cant do it anymore.
Im having the worst day, I just need to rant.
The day started okay, I was up waiting for my package, my mood was sort of ok i guess, The plan for today was group counseling, i was looking forward to that, but was kind of nervous because of my anxiety, I barely leave the house, so it was sort of challenging, i was getting ready,  stressing hella lot. the plan was to Get picked up by my therapist, but my therapist descided last minute that i needed to take the bus, wich is so challenging to me, i got so angry, started to argue with him on Messages, since he did not understand that the  group counseling  was allready hard enough for me, then he choose to put exstra stress on top of me, by forcing me to take the bus , like meeting up for group counseling wasn’t hard enough.. he only did that to push me, but when i Get pushed too hard i quit, i just wanted to scream and cry.
I just felt so overwhelmed, so angry, so stressed out, so worthless, so helpless.. 
then i descided to quit therapy, so i sent him an message and told him it was his fault, and im not going to therapy anymore.