since the last 2 years i've felt like the worst 2 years mentally, so i barely have gone outside or hang out, so nothing like girlfriend or any love relationship. When i think about it, i fear becoming and old bald antisocial person and makes me not want to go outside, because i felt like i wasted all my happy teen years locked in my room, and the cycle continues.

i think the worst part is that i'm in this cycle conciously, and it get worse with the past of time. i feel i'm alone in this and this may sound a cliche but i dont think anyone near me knows how fucked up this shit is