I live in Israel. Yeah yeah, I know that a lot of people have something to say about the current situation and criticism about my country, but we are currently at war. Rockets are being fired at us and constant threats of escalting war is giving me debilitating anxiety. I used to be a combat soldier and did not have the same level of anxiety that I have now, knowing that any unexpected attack can happen. I have alerts on my phone for incoming rockets and every alert I recieve, even if it's not in my area, I jump.

It seems that this war might go on for a a few weeks and they might call reserves to go to war, including myself. To say that I'm anxious is an understatement - I'm crippled with anxiety. I had a full blown panic attack the other day, while I was by myself. I'm now staying in my aunt's house, so that we can go into a bomb shelter together. I'm getting judged and laughed at from how anxious I always am comsidering I was a combat soldier. This humiliation and me overthinking about any incoming dangers that I can't control is ruining me. I need help....