It was suggested to me recently that I might be borderline, and it made a lot of sense until last night when I sat down with a diagnosed BPD from work and now I’m not sure.

I’m 26, my whole life has been deeply affected by my paranoid tendencies, unnecessary bursts of rage and compete inability to get a romantic relationship off the ground.  I threaten suicide to my parents when I fly off my head, become enraged over things that don’t mean anything and just this last christmas I broke down into a crying tantrum (breaking my glasses with my hands in the process) over not being able to eat my dinner.  

However, I have kept a number of friends for years and I have never actually harmed myself like this guy has.  He was hospitalized because he was losing his mind and cutting himself excessively, he’s always very joyful and flamboyant whereas I’m quite reserved.  I’m now raising doubts on something that I felt confident about just yesterday.

But I know I’m not normal, I’m just not.  I’m markedly crazier than everyone around me that I see in the general public, I have never seen anyone act the way I do throughout my entire life and now I’m just confused.  I’m already seeing a psychologist and next session I’m going to straight up ask if she thinks I’m BPD, until then I’m coming here to ask what opinions any of you might have.