I’m trying to keep up with my life, the few relationships I have left and school, my only responsibility. But this is getting harder everyday. I can no longer do anything without feeling exhausted and completely drained out. I use to be able to at least do my homework, sometimes I had the energy to do the things I like and care for others. 
Now I don’t even bother trying to smile. I cannot do it anymore. I look like a living dead and I fall asleep everywhere. 
I have met people who have suffered too much, who carry so much trauma and pain but are still able to share a smile, to pretend to be happy and even to care for others. 
I haven’t suffered. I have loving parents, I have a home, I have access to food of great quality, to education and even to hobbies. Still, I have the audacity of not being able to stand without my head hurting, without feeling the urge to cry or to hide. 
I don’t deserve all this and I wish with all my heart that I could give away my life to someone that would actually enjoy it and value it.