Sorry in advance if this is too long. I (m27) had my first break down when I was 14. A girl I broke up with accused me of getting her pregnant when nothing ever happened to get to that phase. And then she accused me of raping her. Cops were involved, her dad wanted to kill me, the whole 9 yards. Ever since then I can't handle stressful situations on any level. I've been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, insomnia and major depression. Alot of medicine.

I haven't been able to hold down a job and other won't hire me because of it and other medical problems. Even looking for jobs makes me panic now. I barely leave the house now and have no friends to speak of. I didn't get my license until about year ago because I'm scared something is going to happen while I'm behind the wheel.

I had a gf for 3 years but she cheated and left because of my problems. My confidence and self esteem are non-existent. I've thought about what I call "the big end" countless times but I'm too scared to do anything. People are on me about not bringing any money in.

My medical bills are mounting up since I can't find a job that will work with me. I'm at my wits end. Everyone just tells me to man up and just get over it. I hate to say it but I'm thinking about seeing if I qualify for SS or disability but somehow I feel like that's going on the take or just being lazy. Any advice would be good.