Yesterday in the shower i went from dancing and singing to “no scrubs” by tlc and then full blown anxiety attack in the shower so i’m just kind of all over the place lately. my eye has been kind of twitching since yesterday too bc of the stressful weekend i had (my parents and in-laws came to visit on the same days and met for the first time so yeah lol). i’m currently trying to do my best to recover from that lol. i feel like i’m going kind of insane though. i have existential crises every day and it’s getting to be a lot. i smoke weed but i’m starting to fully understand why anybody would do harder drugs than this every day. i’m just trying to stay afloat enough until i can afford to pay for therapy. i feel like i’m killing myself bc i make myself sick w anxiety and mood swings every day. i’ve regressed a lot during the pandemic i guess