Lately being dead sounds perfect. Like I keep fucking up everything. I can’t keep a good job, I can’t get a job in my career I’m stuck in call centers where I’m demeaned, screamed at etc… my current partner and I even though we love each other are rocky and say horrible things to each other out of pain and anger… some of his words really almost pushed me over the edge the last few days… we may have a good life ahead of us… but right now it doesn’t seem like enough… right now I can’t stop hearing his horrible words . Hearing my exes horrible words too… maybe he was right maybe I just should….