I figure I would make it official 

I feel with this mentality I will never be able to heal

That I am truly impossible 

I told this to my therapist yesterday (we do phone therapy now due to corona) and I told her my fears

I told her that because of my victim mentality that I would never heal and that I can't ever be happy 

She opened to up to me and told me that her mom was a narc. And that, she spent so much time getting angry and wanting to change her, and regretted many thing she was robbed of but....that she has come to accept her mom. It hurts, as in accepting her mom she had tp accept that she will never change, but not accepting her would have kept her in a place of pain 

I found it interesting she opened up to me and thanked her for it