This is probably my first post properly on any page I'm not good with words but after reading all of these posts on here I'm starting to grasp that I'm not the only 1 and that other people also feel like this I have borderline personality disorder but only diagnosed recently but I'm really struggling to understand it, and I would like to just end it all not because I'm sad and that my life is shit but just because I don't want to spend my life working for people enjoying the small things in life I just want it all to finish now so all this pain and stress is gone because I didn't ask to be brought into this world and I feel horrible but after every time I have attempted to finish it my family just make me feel like that it's my fault and that if I d accomplish it how would they feel but they don't know what goes on in my head I just feel alone in this world and I'm just very sad btw I'm a 19 year old male and also struggle to make friends because I get attached very quick but anyway I'll stop talking rubbish now lol, like I said I'm not good with words but if anyone could read this and realate and understand then I'd fell alot better because at the end of the day I just want a friend, KD x