As the title says I'm tired , I'm a bad friend and a bad person my mom hates me ,I also hate everyone around me ,I feel those intense emotion's and my friends never listen to me the way I do and try to help them , I recently started relapsing again but at the same time I'm improving myself , it's like a quiet battle with urself while on the outside you look fine ,my therapist doesn't reach back and nobody considers me in a bad state because I look fine.