To make a really long story short, symptoms first started appearing when I was around eleven or twelve. They hit a peak when I was about 15 or 16, and then I sort of had a handle on things until college.

My freshman and sophomore years of college were horrible. I felt alone and isolated, drank really heavily, and basically shut down.

In the six years since, I've been doing pretty mediocre. I have a handle on some parts of my mental illness, but I substitute alcohol for casual sex and other ways of degrading myself.

The past week or so has been really difficult. I've moved to a new place and don't know anyone, and am back feeling incredibly isolated and alone again. 

I'm making this thread asking for someone to talk to. I know it isn't worth much, but I feel like I could start slipping into really dark places if I don't talk to someone kind soon.