as a result of my behavioral changes, i split my friend group in two and now everyone hates each other. i got groomed and sexually assaulted by someone i would never even consider talking to if i was in my right mind. the whole time i was being groomed, my friends were all telling me how stupid i was and that i was being groomed. i obviously didnt listen and i instead turned it around on them for never wanting me to be happy. i was especially rude to my best friend at the time and i abruptly ended our 4 year friendship. after that, all of my other friends picked sides and i went from having a group of 10 friends to just one and my current girlfriend. i quit my job in hopes of finding one that payed better, but my high crashed very soon after and i was back to depression and had zero motivation whatsoever. going from being untouchable by the gods to my normal depressed self was really painful to watch, as i was unaware of what i was actually doing while i was hypomanic, as i was sure that nothing had any repercussions. i wish i wouldve just listened to them.