I just need an understanding of what’s happening. Let me just say, I deal with severe depression and schizophrenia on a daily basis, so I tend to hear voices here and there. Friday my family took a trip to visit more family in another state, and things were great, but for some reason I couldn’t bring myself to take my medication. Like something was keeping me from doing it and I couldn’t understand it. Last night I couldn’t sleep and was really sad over my life choices and decisions Ive made, when a voice that sounded exactly like mine talked me into possibly committing suicide , telling me how my misery was my own fault and it made me break down crying. Today on the plane ride back home (I live in Missouri and was visiting family in NJ, where I’m originally from) I had no memory of the flight because I was internally going back and forth with this new voice that sounded like me. When we stepped off, my Step mom pulled me to the side and I admitted that I hadn’t taken my medicine since Friday, to which she of course showed concern. I was already shaking and trembling from the back and forth mental argument I had on the plane, but I suddenly felt my body stop shaking, turned to my step mom, and flat out said “If I want her (referring to myself) to stop taking the meds, then I will.” I was aware of what was said, but my voice sounded more harsh and malicious. When she became more worried, I almost laughed in her face but managed to stop it and felt like I took control again. Her and my Dad think I may have DID, or multi personality disorder, which both my mom and her sisters have been diagnosed with, but I always thought you weren’t aware of when the other personality takes over. I was aware of what was said, how it was said, and knew I would never talk like that. I think it’s something else but I can’t explain what it was. Would really like some help if possible.