Hey, I’m 21 and struggling with my BPD. I receive no help from doctors and I really am starting to give up. I have attempted suicide more times than I can remember and today I feel like I need to push through and commit fully because of how awful my life is. It is and always has been shit. I was born into abuse and I’ve lived through it since, I’m safe from direct abuse now so instead I abuse myself and my body. I guess I’m writing this post as a last shout for help. I just want to know how I can make it through. I have no idea what to do and I’m really close to giving in but no call for help this time. I’m so sad 24/7, I never get a break from these feelings. My medication doesn’t help. I’m on and have tried so many since turning 18, none have ever worked. I feel so lost.