I just really needed to vent about this issue I'm dealing with in this reddit community because I know that people in here know and understand how uncontrollable and uncomfortable dealing with mental illness can be at times and I don't really want to be judged right now. 

Okay so, it started a few weeks ago and it is just getting worse and I don't have any control over how to stop or slow it down. My anger has always been a big problem for me because I am not in control when I am raging. I actually am afraid of myself when I am so unstable. I hate the fire feeling in my blood and I say things out of anger that I know is wrong but I can't stop... it hurts me so bad to hurt my family because I can't stop feeling this way.

Lately I've been so angry about ABSOLUTELY everything and I will start to feel the rage coming just from thinking about what is happening that is irritating me. I'm afraid that this rage won't go away anytime soon and I don't want to feel this way anymore and I'm afraid that I will hurt someone or myself in this process. 

I was diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder because of this anger issue mostly. I feel like another side of me tries to take over my body and the real me can't stop the other me from breaking out and causing mental pain like nothing else. 

Thanks for listening and letting me vent. If anyone else can relate and has some advice on how to deal better.... please please let me know. Thx