A month ago I was all spiritual. Then I told myself that spirituality was evil and against God. Then I became a Christian, then God doesn’t exist anymore. Then I’m pro-choice, then pro-life. 

It’s very difficult for me to write this because I really feel crazy. I’m going to open myself up and really write what I’m going through. Having no stable identity is really f*cking me up mentally. It disturbs my peace and I feel OBSESSED about what I should put my faith in. 

Yes I’ve tried to care less about this, I’ve tried being atheist, I’ve tried EVERYTHING. I sometimes wanna k*ll myself because it’s too confusing and I dissociate A LOT. I feel so detached and sad. This world doesn’t even feel real. I feel too self-aware and my thoughts are going WILD. 

Please I need help and if anyone relates PLEASE tell me. I feel alone going through this.