I made a promise to myself to see how things would improve in the future, but they have only gotten worse. I'm 19 years old and I don't know what else to do. Tonight, I'm going to hang myself. I've written about it, told my family about it, and so on. I'm just really done. I can't seem to look at myself and feel useful because I'm so lonely and just existing for its own sake. Loneliness is eating me up. I believe there is nothing in this world for me. It seems as if there is nothing in store for me in the future. I truly don't want to survive this time; it would be better for me to die. I see sometimes everyone lead happy lives and live their lives. I despise who I am and don't ever want to live again. Whoever reads this, thank you for being in my life. Additionally, I've been feeling very suicidal lately since I can't stand being completely alone any longer. I seldom ever even manage to create complete sentences when I do get the chance to speak to someone. disregard a  girl. Stutter, f*cking stutter. Even when I have something in mind, I have a hard time actually saying it. Who on earth would be patient enough to hear me out? How could I possibly attract someone even if I tried to talk to them? I can't even communicate with them clearly. Nor am I worth anyone’s time.

You morons who keep saying I’m posting I can post what I want and I’m dying tonight.