I started to got severe depression the last 2 years (a combination of all the covid earthquake in my professional life and to have moved to a new place right before that). I got a lot of help from friends and psychologist, I’m glad I am here tell you the story. But the last month something just clicked again, I guess the loneliness despite being with my partner and the super summer that it is difficult to enjoy by myself. Some days ago my partner went on holidays with a friend and idk why but that hit me super hard, specially today. All the negative thoughts, the feeling of not having achieve anything worth the last years, of becoming a liability for other and just that somehow I’m struggling so much with whatever I used to be good at. So outside there is this massive heat wave, I’m by myself not daring to do anything because I feel like I have a stone in my back while all my close friend and partner seems like they are having the greatest time of their lives. I am afraid of the night ahead, but I am confident things will get better.