Like I know that the best option is to give the person space. I know that's what I need to do. And I'm doing better, I'm not constantly thinking and worrying about them, I'm not freaking out about the endless possibilities of what they might be doing. I'm just kind of normal and while I'm still sort of shaken up about the event that lead to us taking a break, I can tell I've calmed down a great deal.

I know what I did wrong to upset them. I know what I should have done to calm down. I know that I was being selfish in how I tried to calm myself. I just look at everything and I recognize what I did. I want to tell them so badly about how I've settled down and the ways I can make sure it doesn't happen again. I want to say what methods there are to help myself control my thoughts and most of all, I want to prove that I'll be myself and not my illness. But they want space and I have to give them it. I just hope that's proof enough that I'm getting better.