*hoping this is the right sub for this but if not, please let me know.*

Single American Millennial female here: child free, antinatalist, atheist, early/mid-30s. Extremely depressed after reviewing my retirement plan options. I already suffer from depression and for some reason found my mood plummeted upon reviewing the details of my retirement today. The prospect of waking up every day to go to work has not been motivating to me for some time now, but looking at savings numbers today has made this even worse.

I have finally found a sustainable job that allows me sufficient work-life balance and the ability to take care of my mental and physical health without too much burn-out but I still cannot bear the thought of working 30+ more years... Even if I were to get a higher paying job and to work harder, save more, find an employer who matches my savings rate better, get cheaper health insurance, move to a cheaper cost-of-living-state, and find a smaller abode, I **still** would have a daunting number of years ahead of me that must be worked. All of this seems quite bleak, depressing, and not worth it, especially if during the years worked, life is bland and heavily restricted in attempts to FIRE as soon as possible. 

Convince me not to just give up on budgeting and financial planning altogether. Convince me not to just find someone rich to marry so I don’t have to work I can just focus on my mental health every day. The prospect of being happy in the *now* feels a lot more sustainable than waiting decades to be happy — especially when it’s all but guaranteed that the world will be in shambles by that time.