Hello! 

I didn’t have the material means until now to go see a therapist and get an official diagnosis. I present 90% of the traits of bpd. I always knew something was up with me and I couldn’t put my finger on it until I realised I experience things differently from others, after years of lost relationships, emptiness and confusion regarding my own self due to abuse and abandonment in my early years. I realised I’ve been showing traits as early as 7, wheres the abandonment happened at 5.

I really want to go to a therapist and get a proper diagnosis. I’m in a really happy and healthy new relationship now and I don’t want my splitting and my fits to ruin this again so I decided to start treatment because I want to be better. The only thing is that I don’t know who I should talk to about this. A psychiatrist? A psychologist? 

I really want to get on the proper road to heal old wounds and learn to control myself better for me and for the people around me. Any advice?