I've only been to 3 sessions, one over the phone. Each time they suggested me seeing someone else. This week they straight up asked me why am I here and what I'm looking for, and once again said "hypothetically say we have 3 or 4 more sessions". 
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm living on autopilot. I only have the energy for my job and on my days off i lie in bed all day and pop pain killers till I feel dizzy. I feel so alone. But they think I'm fine because I can function and hold down my job and I can clean myself up to do basic things. The only time I've ever been listened to was when I had IV drips attached to me.