It's a really bad habit, but I can't stop it. I do it with all my Things (deliberate capital): feminism, bisexuality - basically all the big parts of my identity that I know people shit on.

I'll just stumble across something that mentions people are angry about one of my Things, I'll go and follow the link, and sit there reading and feeling worse and worse. It happens particularly with BPD because at least with feminism, I know I am actually fighting to improve everybody's lives, and my bisexuality doesn't hurt anyone. With BPD, there's always the devil in my ear telling me that I *am* abusive, I *am* manipulative, and so on. Not to mention, most people don't know about the illness, and of the ones that do, most seem to be devoted to spreading negative stereotypes about it.

Is this related to having BPD itself, or is it just me and my overwhelming sense of curiosity? I don't know. It's just very difficult to catch. Sorry this is kind of a rambly post, I was reading a load of negative stuff just now, as it happens, and it's thrown my head out of whack. I'm feeling pretty insecure and I've got nothing here to deal with it.