I'm just wondering. For example, I KNOW my husband is not perfect and has flaws. However, I love him despite his flaws, and feel like as a result he becomes "perfect to me." Physically, I'd describe him on par with a Greek God. 10/10. Newsflash: he is not a Greek God.

However, when I learned that he does not reciprocate those same emotions, for example hinting that I'm not quite a 10/10, nor does he perceive me to be 10/10, I had an emotional breakdown triggered by fear of (eventual) abandonment. I began to split and devalue him. 

Here I'm stuck. I'm trying to decipher if my "blind love" is actually idealisation, or if I just love differently than him. I can't tell if that's normal to feel like the one you love is imperfectly perfect, or idealisation, a symptom of BPD.

Perspectives welcome!

Disclaimer: I have not been officially diagnosed, and