I need to rant for a sec. So I was recently diagnosed and I’ve known for a long time I was dealing with something stronger than depression and anxiety. Yesterday I forgot my meds and couldn’t go home to get them due to not being able to use my car (that’s another story). I got pretty angry about something very small and started blindly hitting a card board box I didn’t realize was open. It had a fender inside and after hitting it several times I cut my finger open. Bled EVERYWHERE and when my coworkers asked I had no other answer to give except: “I was angry and….”. I wish I could just swallow my anger the way I do alcohol and move on. BPD has so much control over me that I can’t tell if I’m an angry person naturally or if it’s the disorder.