She was my first FP and one of nearly 6 years. I had to walk away eventually, since my joy and love for this girl became too much for me to bare. I’d be obsessed, clingy, and attached, to the point where both our lives were negatively compromised. She never even did anything wrong when I walked away. I just couldn’t bare it anymore. I told her it’d only be a few months so I could recompose myself so we could have a healthy friendship, but 2 months have passed and I feel unhealthily attached still. I don’t want to abandon her but I can’t be attached to her since it ruins my life. I wonder if she ever thinks about the friendship and wonders how I’m doing.