23F Anxiety attacks have become a new normal for me these last few weeks due to an incredible fear that I am pregnant. My mind cannot stop hyper focusing on my stomach and just racing into a state of fear when my thoughts are allowed to roam. 

There’s a rational side of my brain that does say the likelihood of pregnancy is extremely low considering my friend and I used a condom, I was 7 days on BC, I’ve had my period in the months since, and I had a negative test a few weeks after. 

But since browsing through various Reddit subs, hearing stories of cryptic pregnancies, and rereading lists pregnancy symptoms, I have developed a paralyzing fear that completely overtakes my brain. 

Why haven’t I just taken a second test? I’m scared. And when I go out I’m almost always with my parents since I don’t drive. I have thought about just quickly buying the test then taking it in the store bathroom but I am so scared it’ll be suspicious to my folks and if it’s positive.... 

I know this isn’t healthy in the least. Venting here helps alleviate the thoughts for a while but I just wanted to share how crippling this fear is for me. I know some of this is irrational but I am just... scared.