feeling very numb these past few months but recently i tried saying fuck it and just doing what i want....so i decided to try and join the physics olympiad screening at our school. got a 0/25 HAHAHAHHAA what the fuck and i even tried hard to actually understand the questions. what are the chances ive completely gotten everything wrong. at first i thought it was a mistake because surely i got at least 1 point. but no. wow. HAHAHAHA wow this is depressing. after feeling happy that i actually did something for a long time, this happens.i already thought i was stupid but oh my fucking shit the sheer embarrassment that i felt :) such a huge blow to my already non-existent motivation that im just gonna hysterically laugh about it lmaoo the universe rlly said no.