Hello Internet friends! I’ve been someone who has struggled with anxiety for as long as I can remember, I honestly can’t remember life without it. It really peaked back a few years ago when my life did a 360 out of no where and I had a pretty bad medical crisis and almost died after being perfectly healthy my whole life. Needless to say it scared the living daylights out of me and I feel like I’m in a constant state of impending doom. 

That situation has passed, but does anyone else feel like they’re just waiting for the next big crisis to happen? I no longer wait for the happy moments just the scary ones. I just started college into a career I love but I can’t enjoy it because I’m too busy trying to convince myself that my normal tiredness from getting up at 5am is actually a new illness sprouting. It’s so debilitating that it makes me hate the life I actually deep down want to enjoy.

I’ve just texted my therapist, waiting on her message back. Anyone have any advice or is going through the same thing? My anxiety has become an everyday thing and I the physical symptoms are truly the worst. I won’t even be anxious but I’m still feeling sick or lightheaded. It’s a vicious cycle and I’ve lost all control of my brain.