I mean how do I even find a good one? How do I make an appointment? How do I go there? Is there any help for that? How do I even get a damned safe diagnosis? (I've never been actually diagnosed, I was just told by docs that I very likely have bpd or at least bpd tendencies and I tend to agree after having studied it myself for like half a year now, I really don't want to go into any more detail)