I try to say things to myself like “whatever happens, let it happen” or “take a chance” but it doesn’t help. It feels as if being vulnerable to someone is just setting yourself up to get hurt. It has definitely had an effect on previous relationships after the first week or so.

I believe it stems from the belief that I’m a boring person. When I’m not around others, I feel as though can’t entertain someone on my own. I get scared, then constantly try to do things to make them smile or interested. I know people do this regularly with people they love, but this is more fear than a more positive motivation.