I find that bad things happen when I get bored. I get this anxiety building up and I start thinking way too much. Everything just feels like too much right now. I mean, i don't really wanna get into stuff but its been, a really hard last month and I've ended up isolated. I leave my house maybe. 3 times a week. Leave my room twice a day. I've done everything I can think of, including hating myself for being too depressed to get a job. Even talking to my S.O is boring. Watching youtube is boring. Writing music is boring. I tried to pick up making Twines again but I get overwhelmed with how much W O R K they take. my computer mouse died and i need to get a new battery but. Thats a 40 minute bus ride, probably. I dont care. I'm Tired. I'm really empty right now and I really dont see any reason for me to keep going? this is hard and I. dont wanna do it anymore if i dont have to.