23F. It started when I got out the Army in October of last year. I got out on a medical retirement for depression/PTSD and as soon as I left that building for the last time, I lost every friend I had made in the past 4 years. People in the military always say they will stay in touch after you get out but no one ever does. It just doesn’t work out. The friends I still have from the army are all either leaving or already gone. I have been unemployed since I got out with the effort in studying for my IT certifications. (Too depressed to even study)

My wife works full time during the day and teaches dance at night so I hardly even see her. So to combat the loneliness, I usually turn to a friend from the Army that lives across the street. I’m over her and her husbands house almost every night(not tonight) just watching tv and movies. They are great but, even though they always say yes if I ask to come over, I feel I crowd them. On the nights they say I can’t come over, for whatever reason, my brain just tells me that they are tired of me. Soon they will be getting stationed in Texas and my LAST friend and my ONE weapon against the loneliness will be gone again.
I never used to be like this. I never used to be THIS.