I've just been in this depressive episode since December. I don't go to school (I do it online) and the rest of my friends do, and they want me to come, but I just can't. They've invited me to parties and I refused. I understand why they're pulling away, I'm not making enough of an effort and friendships are a two-way street. But I feel so terrible about it. I feel like telling them what's going on at this point will just seem like an excuse, you know? They're amazing friends, it's fully my fault but it feels like I'm starting to damage our relationships to the point where they can't be fixed anymore. Has anyone dealt with this? Did anything help?