 Hello everyone I'm an 19 year old male with a perfectly normal bmi (5"9 153lbs or 175cm 70kg). I've never smoked in my life, I've never tried drugs and I don't drink alcohol. No history of cancer or heart issues in my family.

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  So it all begun this July when I woke up with an intense chest pain, I thought I was having a heart attack and my mother slashed me to the ER. I had a blood test, EKG, ultrasound everything was clear. One week later I caught covid, but the symptoms were mild and I was also vaccinated.

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  So in September I took a CBC again in order to get an Accutane treatment for my acne. The CBC came back with high WBC and lymphocytes (10.1 and 48 normals are 4.0-10.0 for WBC and 20-38 for lymphocytes). They told me it might be cause of covid and I should retake the CBC in a month. Meanwhile I begun to get daily intense chest pains, at the upper left part where I can feel my heart. So I got another appointment with a cardiologist. 

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 In October I went to the cardiologist who did an EKG, echo, 48 they told i have very few PVC's but that wasnt something concerning for the docs. So they told me I don't have any heart issues. Now my CBC came back with more elevated wbc and lymphocytes (11 and 48). At the time I had also developed everyday abdominal pains. And lots of gasses, like I have to fart all the time, and the farts last long. Also I feel a fullness to my abdomen and I get spasms or fasciculations? all over my body everyday. I got an abdominal ultrasound which came back normal. My poop also comes back in thin layers which looks nothing like before. 

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 In December I met with an hematologist/oncologist who put me on like 30 tests and everything came back clear except my WBC (which were again elevated at 12.6 this Time and lymphocytes at 47) in September they were 10.1 and in December 12.6 the hematologist told me that I have a reactive lymphocyticosis and it's nothing serious. (before I caught covid in July at the ER my WBC and lympho were perfectly normal). He said I should retake a CBC in 6 months in order to check. 

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I also visited a gastroenterologist who said that I probably have nothing since I'm too young and prescribed me omeprazole for 30 days. It didn't help at all. I also take vit D supplements because I have a deficiency. I also had a poop culture which came back clear. I decided that I should look into my thyroid for the heart etc. So I got a thyroid ultrasound and some labs with bloodwork. Everything came back clear again. Along with some inflammation labs CRP, igm igg, igg which were all negative. the latest tests were conducted in December. 

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 Now it's been like 7 months that I'm living in daily pain, I can feel something like a rapid heartbeat in my abdomen (jerks or twitches), hands back etc, my body is pumping all the time. I think they're called fasciculations, I get them like every 20 minutes and it's so so annoying. I also get the intense chest pains everyday, I feel like my heart is gonna leave me or something. It's really painful and I feel like dying the pain is very intense. My abdomen also hurts everyday. I have so much gas and ramblings, i think it's everywhere in my body and i can't stand it. My belly usually hurts at the upper left part, but the pain is everywhere. I'm also severely bloated.

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 I also got covid again, just a few days before new year, im afraid to take a CBC now, cause I believe that my WBC will have skyrocketed. My symptoms were worse than first time. I had a high fever for 2 days (38.5-39.5C and I still have some cough). I feel that this will really mess my immune system more than it's already messed up. I guess it's already messed up, because my covid symptoms were much worse than in July, even though I had the delta variant in July and now the omicron which is weaker.

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   I asked if I can get a colonscopy but they told me that they're meant for people over the age of 50. And me with no family history I'm not a candidate for it. Plus i have no blood, weight loss etc. Pretty much every test I've taken comes up normal Except my wbc which keep raising every month. I'm so afraid that I have something serious like colon cancer or crohn's. 

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 My quality of life has really deteriorated, I can't study any more( I'm gonna fail my uni finals), I can't do anything. I'm in daily pain. My heart hurts. My acne has dominated my body it's really everywhere (chest, back, butt, face even thighs, we're talking really bad cystic acne here not pimples) and with bad break outs. I can't lie on my bed because my back bleeds because of it. And I still haven't gotten the Accutane because of my blood. I also want to start working out, but the pains are scaring the shit out of me. Thinking that I'm gonna pass on the treadmill or something. The acne has also destroyed my self esteem and it's worse than ever (been battling with it for almost 5 years now). I also get random pains all over my body (Lower back, headaches, arms etc).

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  I really don't wanna die yet but my life is really shitty. Hell I would give everything to feel good again. Tbh I don't know what tests I can take anymore. To shed some light in my case. Should I ask for an MRI? My parents have really got full of me, I've ripped them off by dragging them to so many appointments(I've had more than 15-20 since July) they have to pay. 

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 I can literally feel my left part of my belly pumping right now. I've tried taking laxatives (dulcolax) for 3 days, but my constipation and thin stools turns into diarrhea and more pain. I also get some sharp pains here and there that last a few seconds. I'm so afraid it's cancer (tumor or leukemia) or autoimmune which will make me suffer for life, only the thought of it makes me wanna vomit. I'm only 19 goddammit. I think that covid might have triggered an autoimmune disease or something. I guess my nerve system is really broken right now. 

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 Lastly my mentally healthy has really deteriorated at this point. Symptoms started at 22 of july and today it's the 22th of March. Everything is a lot worse than it was before. I wake up from my sleep with panic attacks. I'm thinking about death all the time.