I keep having really bad days. Like; really bad lately. I fucked up everything and I'm constantly paranoid that one of my closest friends will abandon me because I fucked up a few months back. (I am shit at feelings; so I mistook strong platonic love for romantic feelings). I don't have many to begin with tbh but every day lately is so shit. I'm splitting constantly. My head WILL NOT stop oberthinking every minute little detail. It's getting so bad I'm beginning to get tired from all the thinking. I ddive for a living so uh; that isn't good. 

I just want this to stop; or just to be able to manage. I'm close to breaking. It's not if, but when... My mind is constantly tormenting me... I've been going for walks after work but that's only a temporary fix. 

Any help will be appreciated. Thankyou.