i don’t know if this is the right sub for this but i feel really lost i guess. i’ve been having thoughts how i don’t really want to be alive anymore or i just wish i was never born, and i usually go visit my family everyday but i haven’t seen them in two weeks and i feel like a piece of shit because of it and i would feel guilty going to visit after not showing up for so long. i just generally feel so hopeless i would want to go to therapy but i’m only 16 so i can’t pay for it myself and i hear it’s expensive so i feel like if i asked my parents and actually ended up going i would just feel worse since i feel as though they waste too much money on me. what should i do