Yesterday at work I did the most stupid and mean thing I’ve ever done. Idk how bad it actually is, but the way I’m feeling tells me that it’s freakin bad. My co worker shouted across the store (while customers where there, mind you) to my other co worker about how much money she had in the bank and how much she owes on her MasterCard. Me, being the fucking idiot I am, wrote the numbers on a piece of paper to tell my friend later. I knew it was wrong as I was writing it. I told myself to stop, but I didn’t. I have no idea why I couldn’t stop. 
Now, I have no idea where my note is. I’m panicking in the coffee room, about to start my next shift. I have a feeling I’m about to be fired today. My anxiety is through the roof, I honestly contemplated suicide this morning to get out of this situation, that’s how much of a coward I am. 
I’ve been having a bad gut feeling for a while and something bad always happens when I do. This could be it, I just might lose my job today.

Sorry about this post, it’s more of a rant I guess.