Hello, first, I have not been officially diagnosed with BPD, and my psychiatrist refuses to disclose any diagnosis he might have to me. I have however suffered from psychosis 2 years ago ( was hospitalized  because of it) and paranoia hasn't completely left since. I have been prescribed various antipsychotics since and atm take Seroquel. I also experience frequent ( social) anxiety and episodes of unexplainable anger. Also a lot of other symptoms which really make me think I might have BPD, but thats not the issue here, I'm asking this because recently, with my therapist, which I see since August once every 2 weeks, I have the feeling our talks are "empty", we discuss this and that and some coping strategies for anxiety, but what I would really like to talk about is my self-harm and the daily thoughts about suicide I have. I just can't bring myself to talk about it, wouldn't really know where to even begin and I can't imagine a "normal" transition in our talks from what I would like in my job and life, to "btw I think about killing myself almost every day and I also like to burn myself when I'm stressed"... This might not be the right place for this but I guessed there might be people on here who maybe had the same issues in therapy? Thank you for any answers!