Hi!
I'd never expected to post anything on the web but here I am, I'm just venting, so I'm sorry to bother anyone of you. 

For the context, I have been diagnosed with BPD and I'm currently on a DPT program. For this reason every once in a while I'm doing therapy together with my parents because it's obvious that my mother has a deep impact on how I feel. 

Yesterday it was one of those days where my therapist asked to do a family meeting, and I only went with my mother because my father couldn't. During the meeting my therapist explained what were the behaviors that my parents have that make me have self-destructive behaviors. Fast forward to dinner, we were talking about it with my dad, since he wasn't there. While explaineing things my mother had the brilliant idea to do exactly what my therapist told her not to. It's been 5 months now that we keep talking about the same issues, but she keeps doing this shit over and over again, and she doesn't want to understand how it affects me. After what she told me I was really having a panic attack, and while I was there she kept shouting at me about how that was all my fault. And even when I tried to take the medicine that my psychiatrist prescribed me she tried to stop me, because to her I cannot "drug" myself with those pills. All this made me relapse pretty bad, obviously. The problem is that she is still expecting me  to stay productive and all, which I obviously just can't. 
The problem is that I don't know what to do. I just want to run away or at least do something that would make me feel better (even if for the others is self-destructive) but I can't do it at home, because there is my little brother in the house, which is really small, and I cannot even take the train somewhere else, because it would take me 30 Min by car and I don't have a car (Tuscany problems, it sucks, I know). In addition, I cannot go some place else on my own, I cannot afford it (Italy is quite poor, especially for young people). I really don't know what to do. Is there anybody that maybe experienced something like this and maybe has some advice? 

Ps. Sorry if my English isn't clear but I'm Italian