When I’m going through certain episodes my anger absolutely overtakes every other emotion and reigns supreme. When I’m feeling suicidal I’ll be very sad at first then it shifts into pure rage against everything and simultaneously nothing in particular. I hate the world and everything in it, everyone annoyed tf out of me (my parents), I have 0 patience, I’m extremely irritable, I just want to die, and if I had access to a gun while I’m upset like this I feel like I very well might shoot myself or someone else. A part of me knows that I’m acting insane but when I’m in the moment I hardly care. 

I don’t know if I have anger issues, I don’t think so, or if this is a symptom of depression in some people. I’m worried that when I’m on my own I’m going to do something seriously insane and dramatic, and probably cause harm to myself and maybe others because it feels so uncontrollable. Does anyone else deal with this?