I m 18 and I live with my mom, grandparents, brother (17) and I have many animals in an apartament. Mom bought me all the animals to make me feel better but I can t take care of them proprely and my brither doesn't help as much as he said he would. He has depression too. We can t afford terapy for any of us. I want to kill myself because everyday there is a fight and my mom is overwhelmed. She calls me selfish, self centered, tells me I don t even love my animals and that I only care about myself. I feel like she doesn't like me. Like as a person. I tried telling my grandma and she shut me off. My grandpa and I aren't close but we used to be when I was little. Everything was better back then. I was comforted when I was crying, now they are annoyed because I do it everyday. I feel like a parasite and I don't think I can be loved. I'm scared I'm gonna live like this forever and I don't want to. I think I'd do everyone a favor if I'd off myself but I don't have enough courage yet. Idk what to do.