FP recently left me she forced herself into my life dug a whole that was never there then filled it with herself and then left leaving that hole empty. Now it's just filled with rage and a desire for revenge. I'll get the revenge soon but I'm having problems controlling the rage. My mom nags me alot and I almost beat her up the other day then on another occasion I put her in a choke hold then I almost beat her up again because she wouldn't give me my razor to shave she keeps it with her so I don't self harm but I'm over hurting myself I just feel like hurting others now especially my FP. Anyway she wasn't giving me the damn razor and I got really mad and I was about to get violent but I checked myself and just ran out of the house and came back like half an hour later. It's a bit better now because my therapist explained everything to my mom but nagging is like second nature for her so she forgets sometimes I don't really care if I hurt her but it's gonna have undesirable consequences if I do hurt her. I'm not like this I was never like this I mean I used to care about inanimate objects I used give my stationery names and feel bad when I dropped the remote coz it might've gotten hurt. My therapist my mom everyone thinks I'm a different person now. Sorry for that rant but how do I keep the expressions of anger and rage under control?