i’m not diagnosed but i’ve read a lot about this disorder and i see so many things i can relate to. honestly i’m embarrassed to ask things or even talk about it because i feel if i’m not diagnosed then it might not be real and then i’m invalidating people who actually have it. anyway, i always find myself having my bf do things to prove to me that he cares and if he doesn’t do it how i want him to i’m extremely distraught. for example, if we fight before bed i lay on the ground and hope he will come down and lay there with me until i feel better and then carry me to the bed or something. however, almost every time he will just complain and tell me to stop doing this and just come up to bed with him. i don’t know how to explain to him that i physically feel like i can’t get up unless he comes down to me and i get so sad that he doesn’t understand and gets mad at me for it. i end up telling him he doesn’t care about me or love me anymore because he didn’t prove it to me. i hate making him feel like he has to constantly be proving himself to me because i know how that feels, but in my head it seems like the bare minimum and i get so upset that he isn’t willing to do that for me. it also makes all of our fights worse because he just gets annoyed and angry about everything and i feel like a burden to him which is one of the worst feelings for me.