As the title says, I want to quit. I used to 'have it all'  I had a high paying career that I quit to pursue my dream and start a business, a beautiful and caring girlfriend, my house was paid for and a slick ride. 2 years into this I got diagnosed with cancer, my girlfriend left and I was unable to work. At first I was optimistic, I was the hardest worker I could be and thought cancer cant slow me down I'll kick its ass. Fast forward 2 years and it's totally beating me, I can't focus on my business and am going to lose it, my house and vehicle. I can't afford the meds anymore and am at the point where the only way I can kill the cancer is to kill myself. I have nothing left, I don't know where to turn and just want to eat a bottle of dilauted and drift off forever. What the hell do you guys do to stay positive when life becomes too much? I should mention that I'm bedridden now and unable to exercise or even take a simple walk. I've always hated video games and TV. I've been reading constantly to the point my eyes hurt. Any alternative suggestions would be appreciated.  Thanks in advance.