My agoraphobia has only gotten worse lately with almost everything seemingly triggering it, I went christmas "shopping" today and only managed to buy one present despite seeing a bunch of things i could have bought, i was wandering around the first store absolutely panicked, dizzy, overwhelmed. The lights were too bright, my head began to pound with one of the worst headaches ive had. This was only in the first store!!!! I bolted out of the store like some kind of lunatic, now severely nauseous, and my head feeling like its on fire, both inside and on the out. Im dizzy, about to pass out, my legs are not only shaking but also totally cramping up and clenched. I cant see straight and my eyes feel swollen. I decide to try another store, i can only make it one foot inside, im looking at the products but my mind isnt comprehending anything im reading. Then comes the boost of adrenaline, my hearts racing, my heads aching, annnnnd i run out

Finally at the third store, i see something i want, pick it up and immediately go to the cash register, im picking my fingers, stretching my legs constantly, im hot, im sweating through a simple t shirt in fall. Its cold in the store. I buy it, and i must have ran, again like a fucking lunatic. At this point im physically ill, my legs dont feel right, my head is aching so bad i dont even feel like i can drive. 

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Went out to eat on the way back because why not make this day worse, i run out leaving halfway through my meal and just leave too much money on the table (i know i covered the meal and the tip and a LOT extra) threw up outside the car, and then went home.

I know this is anxiety! Ive done every blood test. I am coming off Xanax and dealing with withdrawals but my anxiety has always been like this. Idk what to do at this point. I just keep trying and trying and trying and trying and dont give up but even doing this doesnt help, it really just makes me feel like shit about it. I feel like useless garbage at this point, im going to have to just shop online .  What can i do at this point, even now im mentally exhausted, i dont feel right at all. My legs are totally cramped up, and i can tell im clenching them together if that makes sense? My head feels spacey and numb and i still have a miserable headache. 

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Can anyone share their agoraphobia stories? What has helped you?