not sure if this subreddit is applicable but i have past experiences with depression and anxiety but i see a therapist and have been doing much better for a few months

but today is unlike anything ive ever experienced before, i have no idea what's going on

last night i had an extremely vivid nightmare about something bad happening to my cat and when i woke up i hallucinated that i was in my bedroom at a home i moved out of a few months ago, and for a moment in time i thought the past few months had been a dream, which terrified me because i wouldn't have my cat if that was the case. it was only a few seconds before my surroundings went back to normal and i felt the presence of my cat next to me. i went back to sleep and had more vivid dreams, not nightmares tho

but as ive gone throughout my day, everything is has been so off

i keep forgetting what day or time it is, have been unable to focus on anything all day, forgot to eat meals

when i talk to people today i feel like there is more to their words than the surface, i don't know how to explain, it all just feels so off, like everyone is hiding something from me 

im so paranoid  that something terrible is going to happen soon, i just feel it, everything is so wrong but i can't pinpoint what is wrong 

ive spent many parts of today pondering my traumas for some reason and i feel like ive become the villain, like ive done a terrible thing 

ive been hearing sounds all day, a hammer sound for 6 or 7 hours straight, vacuums, voices saying things that don't make any sense, but i wrote it off as just the background noise of being in an apartment complex, but it was for such a long time and eventually i heard a few sounds that just did not make sense to me

i don't know what is wrong with me and i don't even know if this post is comprehensible , anyone have any clue as to what the hell is happening and when it will be normal again , im doubting everything that's going on