I’m quite a reserved person who only speaks when necessary. I’m not as extroverted as everyone else unless I’m in completely comfortable around a person, then I can talk someone’s ear off.

I’m studying a course in university which involves a lot of practical work. Because of my anxiety, I can become really forgetful since I’m not living in the present moment. Due to this, my group members think I’m stupid. On an few occasions, they’ve made comments to indicate this. Today, for example, I heard one of them whispering to another “I’m helping him because you know what he’s like” talking about me. When I asked what they meant, they started stuttering and clearly never knew how to respond. 

I feel like because they think I’m stupid, it has caused them to treat me with less respect than they do with each other. Sometimes I will make a valid point about something and it’ll just be brushed under the rug like irrelevant because it came from me and not someone else. 

This is just a rant more than anything. I’m tired of living in this narcissistic word.