Hey, so I'm posting here because this is the only place I have access to at the moment where I feel like I can ask about it.

I've had mental health problems most of my life and have another genetic condition that predisposes me to developing schizophrenia, and about 9 years ago I was diagnosed with CPTSD.

My whole life I've had auditory hallucinations, mostly music, but over the past few years it's been voices and even more recently I can clearly make out what they're saying.
I've had visual hallucinations as well, where I've seen animals, things like spiders or bugs crawling on things, that obviously weren't there, and sometimes things like eyes looking at me.

I've had depression my whole life, and I thought maybe that would explain some of the other things, like the shutting down and not speaking to anyone, not feeling emotions, (when my girlfriend was pregnant earlier this year she kept saying she felt like I didn't actually care or was happy about it because of how I acted, same thing when we lost the baby she thought it didn't bother me.) And I've had sociopathic tendencies.

But, recently my genetic condition I mentioned has gotten worse and they've been putting me on all kinds of meds to try and get it under control.
A few weeks ago, they put me on nortriptyline, after a few of those I had an episode where my pain was worse and I couldn't stop crying and felt like I was being hunted.

Ever since then, I haven't felt okay in my own skin and have these episodes where I'm terrified of everything and again feel like I'm being hunted.
I read that nortriptyline can cause latent schizophrenia to become active, and I think that's what happened.

TL:DR

Between being predisposed to it, trauma, and meds that can cause it to become active, evidence supports the idea that I think I'm schizophrenic.

Can anyone tell me anything similar that's happened to them? I feel lost and alone in trying to deal with this and would appreciate any help anyone might be able to offer