It’s been almost a month since my last suicide attempt.
Since then my self harm has gotten way worse, I haven’t been able to complete a full day of school without leaving early/ just skipping the day all together. And my suicidal thoughts have gotten way worse. 
But my dad thinks I’m fine now cos I haven’t done anything in a month. And I keep telling him he can’t leave me alone and he keeps saying “I dont think you’re gonna attempt again - I don’t think you wanted to die - I think it was just a cry for help”. And everyone keeps telling me my attempt wasn’t actually me being suicidal but instead just a cry for help. 
CAMHS also haven’t contacted me in almost two weeks even though they were supposed to - to discuss me going on medication.
I feel so invalidated in my struggle. I don’t know how much longer I can go before I attempt again. I already have plans to do it this weekend but I’m trying to hold off.