I’ve always been anxious. But my back is against the wall now. Growing up I wanted to be the light of the world. I used to tell myself “give yourself to the world” and I’ve done my best. working full time in one of my favorite fields while also an apprentice in a corresponding field. While also going to the gym regularly. I’m also the guy in my family everyone calls to “get shit done” but if they could only see how close to the anxiety edge I am. Physically and mentally I appear to have my shit together. But I don’t, not at all. Weed doesn’t help it only fuels the paranoia that time is running out and makes me feel guilty because everyone knows how strong I appear to be but if I show weakness to those who depend on me everything could crumble. I take care of a lot of people in different ways (physically, emotionally, financially) i seem to be able to help everyone except myself. Anyone else feel/felt like this how do you indigo yourself from this mental hole?