Long post. 

For those with Anxiety, 

19 F, India, writing this because had a self realization of myself being responsible for what I am today. All the way from childhood trauma to extreme trust issues with orthodox parents, I guess I could've have chosen to be a nice person and not a selfish bitch to everyone who tried to correct me. I was academically excellent but had no friends and never learnt relationship management, thought everyone who was nice to me was in love, leading to failure in relationships. Bullying by classmates, sexual abuse from school mates, suicide attempts had become a common part of my life. People made fun of my mental instability as being a psycho/mad/attention seeker. As I entered adulthood, things got even worse. Things I wasn't ready for, things I had never seen or expected. But faced some of them, ran away from some of them. The ones I ran away from, brought up more issues. But eventually time faded and everything was falling in place. Suicide attempts still took place, people cracked suicide jokes over me, asked me to die and later denied of saying so when I really attempted. And everyone believed them because I lied a lot. Because I thought lying is better than disappointing people. 

In this whole journey, I always avoided to accept the fact that something was mentally wrong with me. When the first psychologist told me that I have ADHD and general anxiety, I thought it was temporary. As time passed, I was doing well when certain turn of events took place which gave a panic attack for the first time. I mistook it for fever and chills. I thought it was due to cold. The next day I felt shortness of breath and pressure on chest. It went long for the whole day. I let it go and wake up next day with more fatigue and same symptoms. Talked to a therapist and they told me that my anxiety is manifesting on me physically(also called chronic anxiety). Which means, these symptoms of being brain dead, shortness of breath and chest pain take a chunk of my health every time. My mental capacity reduces because of it and may affect my personal life and relationships even more. I wish I had paid more attention to my mental health and taken an action before things had got worse. I believe there's still time so I'll try my best before I turn into a crazy psychopath with nobody around me. 

I'd suggest the same to everyone who's having mild-general anxiety. Please don't get yourself in a situation that may scar you for life. If you do, please get help and focus on your health.