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I am not "officially" diagnosed with BPD, but its been suspected before and seems to align pretty well with my mental health issues. Though that being said, I have been doing incredibly well for awhile now, I'd be described as extremely high functioning.

That was until....about a month-ish ago?

I started birth control. And I knew that it could lead to worse depression. But thats all I read, just depression.

But I have been acting CRAZY..manic, up down. Doing things I wouldn't have done a month ago (feeling inclined to do sketchy, impulsive hurtful things)  being paranoid and jealous, being kinda mean too which is unusual and even at my worst, I was always the quiet inward BPD type, not really mean or aggressive.  I dunno, I just have turned into a psycho. It reminds me of years ago when my "possible BPD"  was uncontrolled and I wasn't in therapy.

Pretty sure I mostly cared the new dude Im talking to off for one- and my friends that have known me awhile have made comments that I seem off.  But I am even more concerned about nipping this in the butt before it progresses. I think Im going to stop the birth control to see if anything improves...But I am super curious as to if anyone else on hormones of any sort?

Maybe people who are already unstable as is cant afford to add a layer of artificial hormones on top of it?