I gave him his presents like a week ago.  The kitchen is too messy to bake anything without some serious cleaning, same for cooking dinner later.  I can't clean it, I can only stand for 5-10 minutes due to a bad knee.  I've been sleeping a lot lately, I think the depression is coming back.  I need to take a shower and even that seems hard.  Plus I'm resentful since he didn't do anything on my birthday except help get me put in the psych unit that day.  I'm a terrible person.