Over the past few days, I felt as if I was going through depersonizaltion. Maybe? That's what I wonder. You see, I'm quitting my addiction to p0rn and going through insomnia. 

I looked through a website to see what DP is, and out of all their checklist, I can only check a few. I do feel somewhat numb, but I can feel emotion (heck, I feel even more confident!!!) like happiness, sadness, scared, anxiety, love, and pain. I can't explain the feeling of this anxiety (?) other than numbness. I don't sound like a robot, and I can control what I say. My memory serves me well, but it's this numbness that I call DP.

Whenever stimulated, I can feel myself as a whole again for a few minutes. Running, cold showers, and sneezing hard?! 

I told my therapist about it and she only said "interesting... let's see what the doctor says", because I was told to be evaluated for bipolar disorder. (Which I will take). So, I don't know if this weird sensation is called DP.

Would this be DP?! I should just wait until I talk to my therapist again...

I have tried doing mindfulness, meditating, and trying my best to sleep as much as I can (though it's poor sleep, yet improving slowly).. maybe I should just accept these new feelings? I don't know.