&amp; just recently was finally diagnosed with BPD. I was hoping I could get some advice / coping skills. I started a new job after being laid off due to Covid/medical reasons for nearly 2 years. This job is different then any other I’ve done but a really good job. The issue is I’m in extensive training for the next 2 weeks and am currently on week two, it’s full time, and i am emotionally drained and want to cry every day I’m there. My trainer is totally triggering my BPD , she is very hot and cold and treats EVERYONE in the class like they’re dumb and need too much help. Or she just randomly snaps at little things. She can be really nice, or really rude and you never know what you’re gonna get so after a couple days I’ve retreated completely and don’t speak up or ask questions unless I absolutely have to. But even just being in a small classroom with her all day and being around how she treats others is emotionally draining. THE GOOD NEWS - I will have the opportunity to work from home in 90 days. THE BAD NEWS -I got the courage to ask to have my counseling accommodated with my schedule and they refused, and even implied I wasn’t seeming like I was serious about the job. Oh and did I mention they cc’d the whole management team in my email 😭  so I’m losing my counselor and my couples counselor due to neither one of them working after 5 or weekends. 

I need this job. But I’m worried about my mental health. I just don’t know how to cope in the mean time.