Well... I know no one will read and as there's so much posts almost identical to this one i kinda don't have much hope that anyone would care anyway but, i just want to write about it anyway...

I have had depression for so long that i just don't remember anymore, and then the suicidal thoughts started about 6 years ago, after a quite traumatic event that a bully made to me... I know there's a lot of people that suffered worse and still pretty good but... i just cant hold this fuck for so long

I've always had problems making friends and my depression didn't help either and... even when i try to befriend someone they just ignore me or, as happened once, i'm always the "third friend" of a trio, the one that need to remember the other two of it's own existence, the one that is always forgotten, the one that no one cares about

I guess that's kinda the point, no one cares about me, no one will cry my death, no one will come to my funeral... as well no one cared to help me, they just keeps repeating "No, it will be better, just hold a bit more", like, oh my god why i didn't thought about that before thanks for the fucking life changing advice...

Well, i'm planning to end this shit next year anyways... no one will care anyways. I'll give up of this game, alone, sad, hopping this fucking pain to just end.

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Sorry for such a vent post but i just needed to write this and, if for some reason you are reading so far well... thanks for stopping by