Always want to be able to hang out with friends and have fun, but when it come to actually doing them I freak out the whole time leading up to, and then am extremely anxious the whole time. 
For exams today I was supposed to meet some friends at a beachfront apartment and I drove am hour and a half there, and then freaked out when I got there, made up an excuse, and drove an hour and a half back home. And now all I feel is regret for not going because I so desperately want to be able to do things like this but I just can't bring myself to do them. anyone else?