Just a little rant. 

Acting has always been my passion and I always will be. Ever since I was a little kid. This is my first year in drama class, because none of my elementary or middle school‘s had a drama program. It’s like I’ve been waiting for this my whole life and I look forward to going to class every day. On the weekends I get so excited to find out what project are gonna do next. But lately I can’t even get out of bed to get to class.

I have to do a scene tomorrow. I was supposed to do it today but I skipped class because I couldn’t get out of bed. I was so excited for this scene and I was really proud of myself for writing it and coming up with it. I was also really proud of myself for the amount of effort that I put into it and I was so excited. 

My character is a super stereotypical gross 6th grader nerd. I even made a fake braces! I printed out a bunch of pictures of Justin Bieber that I was going to pin up on some cork boards for my “room decor” on set. I even found a bunch of my old cringy pink decorations to make everything seem super realistic and I just put so much effort into it but now I don’t even wanna do it.

I have to wear a skirt for my costume so I guess I’m gonna try to shave my legs tonight so that way I don’t have to overwhelm myself with more things to do in the morning. And I’m going to try to pack my bag tonight so I can just get up and go. But  even just thinking of that seems like too much effort. Such simple tasks, waking up, shaving my legs, making sure I have all my props and costumes. But it seems next to impossible honestly.