Hey r/depression,

You know, I tried to fight my anger. Got into religion, completed my degree from a 4 year, changed my mindset. I won’t lie that was great to do, and I was proud of myself. But student debt and starting a business later my life is difficult.

Living in the same apartment for 8 years with my mom and dad trying to make income that can support us. Found out got some mental issues like adhd and autism. Couldn’t find a job for a year in my field. Finally got a sales job only commission and I have no money. The gas rates and the cost of my prescription alone is high. 

I had 2 unsuccessful suicide attempts when I was in high school but I’m starting to think suicide would rid my family of the financial burdens and leave a happier life. My family does not respect me regardless of the efforts I have done and my bad luck. I’m really getting ready to just hang myself in a park. They said it gets better but two COVID’s, inflation and an incoming student loan payback is making me rethink my life. It was worthless regardless of how kind, supportive and sweet I was to my partners or family. I know I’m snowballing here but I’m really starting to want a solution to endless struggles.

I know life is unfair and there it is fair for everyone. I’m not trying to complain either, maybe just be heard out.

TLDR: feeling suicidal after hard work and financial failings.