For about 3 years I’ve been off meds for my BPD but also off birth control. So I wanted to start again for obvious reasons but idk if it’s a hormonal thing or like I’m having an episode. But little depression worm is growing….everything feels like the end of the world. I’m splitting on my boyfriend. I’m starting to feel isolated and like none of my coworkers like me because they don’t act as enthusiastic with me as with each. Everything and everyone is making me feel more alone..Typing this out I feel myself spiraling but I just don’t know how to get a grip emotionally…I’m going to therapy today so this is more of a venting session I guess but I just feel so overwhelmed. 

TLDR: I’m overwhelmed feeling like a shaken soda bottle and venting