Every time I make friends, everything is great until a switch in my brain turns on and I have to immediately get rid of everyone in my life. Nothing wrong ever happens between me and my friends but whenever my brain decides to want to completely be alone and start fresh, I have to do it because if I don't, i'll just be more and more miserable. And then when I'm enjoying this "new" life of mine, I start to get lonely and lonelier until I can't handle it anymore that I have to go make friends again. So I do. Everything is great for a couple weeks/months and then... the switch happens and I need to get rid of everyone. Same with my relationship. Can anyone else relate? I read a lot about fear of abandonment but that's not me cuz I'm the one abandoning people so it makes me feel alone.