Recently, I had a huge argument with my brother that made me view him in such a different like. Being disappointed is an understatement but feeling betrayed is the best to describe how I feel. He basically described himself &amp; made everyone think that I was that way. He was projecting. He not only was plotting against me for months, but he basically made all of his friends, literally, everyone believe that I was a terrible person who betrayed him. He dragged my name through the dirt &amp; made it seem like I have never been such a kind/loving person. But, he apologized. Not, really. But in his weird way, he did. And I forgave him for the peace of the household. 

But recently, I decided to cut off one of our mutual friends because she also was planning with him to hurt me. I saw that she now had an onlyfans in her bio on Instagram &amp; texted my brother that. He responded and basically told me that she said that it was her friend’s. 

Now, that just gave me confirmation to see if he was still talking to our mutual friend. In his apology, he mentioned how she provoked &amp; lied on me about many things that led up to him snapping on me. I assumed that he would drop her, but he didn’t. I also assumed that she’d drop him because I gave her proof , names, screenshots, and even numbers of third parties to show her that I’m not how my brother was describing me. 

But it didn’t matter. She didn’t reach out to the many girls he was abusing/manipulating. She didn’t... change her view on me. All she did was just run back to him &amp; get manipulated again. 

I have anxiety. I feel like I’m having an anxiety attack. Because I feel like I have to be perfect. I feel like... I can’t say or do anything because it might be twisted and weaponized by him. I’m not getting paid enough to move out. I dont have anyone.  And I thought I could go to therapy but my old therapist’s rates have went high and I can’t afford it. I... I don’t know what to do. I really don’t know what to do. I feel scared... I just feel like I’m stuck and I don’t know what to do. I need to talk to someone but I just don’t know how idk I just don’t know what to do.