Hi !

I'm currently doing a CBT for my social anxiety, so I know I am extremely vulnerable to anxiety in general. I have an issue that stops me from studying the second I start and I'm pretty sure it's linked to that.

Let's say I want to learn programmation or a language at my home. I open up an online course, the page loads... And suddenly, I feel like my brains are physically overwhelmed. I'm looking anywhere except at my screen, simple thoughts become hard to form, short term memory becomes terrible, and if I force myself to focus I can't read anything anyway. I'm extremely uneasy and it takes me a long time to calm down.

I had to drop class years ago (I'm 25) and I really want to start college again so I can have a good education. But like that, I'm sure you'll understand that I can't.

Is this what you would call "psychic sideration" ? I know the CBT would be the best option but the one I'm doing is focusing on something else for a long time, so is there something I can do on my own ?

Thanks in advance !