basically what the title says. i am officially diagnosed w both bpd and adhd. the thing is, the bpd i’ve suspected and kind of just accepted for several years so that wasn’t a surprise to hear. the adhd, however, was a huge punch to the gut. i always thought how i function and think was just...normal and i was just stupid and lazy, but a whole new world has opened up to me now. 

i’ve been researching some of the lesser known symptoms of adhd, and they...seem to be similar to a lot of bpd symptoms. and i’m wondering if i even have bpd/had it in the first place, or if the undiagnosed adhd just got SO bad, that’s what it looks like now. 

hell maybe i didn’t have bpd, but because my adhd went undiagnosed and untreated for so long, i do now. bpd tends to be a developed thing from abuse and whatnot from the research i’ve done and like, yeah, i tick all those boxes.  

i guess it’s always gonna be one of those ‘what if’s’ for me, and i’ll never really know the answer either way. but it’s interesting to think about. and god i hope one day more thought is put into the differences in how amab (assigned male at birth) kids and afab (assigned female at birth) kids present adhd, so maybe afab kids like myself don’t get left in the dust to let it fester and get worse until adulthood.