i just wish i could see just a clip of some point in the future, just 5 minutes. a clip of me living a life where i’m content and functional and in general doing alright y’know? every day lately it seems like i somehow get worse and worse news and i need to know that i manage to get through all the madness that’s currently going on in my life and that things will get better otherwise what’s the point? why am i here? 

am i making any sense?