Im 26 years old and on going assessment for BPD and ADHD. 

My mum also has mental health issues and takes to alcohol as a release; then she tries to talk to me about my mental health (mostly to say I have Munchausen syndrome, and that I'm a hypochondriac). 

If it's not already enough that my brain literally feels like a zoetrope constantly; I've got to deal with her problems too because my brother can't deal with emotions, and my older sister lives 5 hours away. 

Even when I'm home alone, I'm constantly on edge in case someone comes home early - that and I can't trust what mood I'll be in when they do come home (they're probably thinking the same thing though).

But then, when mum does come home, I want to know what she's doing, where she's going. This is stemming from abandonment when I was 14 (left in the house suddenly over night with my older brother and she was frolicking with a new partner for 3 years). 

I have never lived alone, but I feel that being in my own space is exactly what I need to get stable and independent. 

Am I the only one feeling this?