Basically a woe is me post. 
So ive been going through a bit of a downward spiral. I lost my job in February and my country has been in constant lockdowns since which makes finding another job really hard. I have savings but found out i need to put most of it onto paying my taxes. I attempted some online science courses but quickly find out science very much is not my thing. I sit around all day applying to jobs while my bf works and i feel so insanley depressed. 
I started writing a novel out of boredom and ive become kind of obsessed with it.. like its the one thing i seem to get actual joy from anymore. 
Last night my bf snapped and told me i need to quit the writing because "writers arent happy" and im clearly obsessed. He told me he "1000% does not support the writing" and wants me to continue with the science courses so i can go back to school. I stopped writing and i feel...empty. like literally all i want to do is lie in bed and cry. I have no idea what the hell im supposed to do with my life and i feel hopeless.