Over the past few weeks I feel like I’ve been maintaining pretty well. No episodes, no self harm or su*cidal thoughts. I had fleeting thoughts here and there of being sad but quickly snapped out of it (I think the holiday rush &amp; work has kept my mind off things) 

But now I find myself feeling so lonely, even with my family. I still feel empty and my mind still wanders thinking about my ex and missing him. (He was my FP).  This month is the last time I saw him since we broke up and I’m so annoyed I still feel this way. I keep beating myself up thinking when will I stop missing him and move on?! I just hate how obsessive my mind gets. 

Idk holidays are always a little tough on me in general.