I can only remember tiny little pieces. 
I don't even know if these things I remember are really that bad. I don't know what to compare them to. I'm not sure what other 'normal' people grew up with.

- I remember very minimal things about neglect 
-I remember smacking 
- I remember not being treated for health conditions
-i remember feeling like I was not the favourite child 
-i remember making my own food 

There's other things of course but I can't list them all.  Remembering and recognising these things as not normal has been super difficult for me. I never even knew they weren't normal. I say normal but I can't think of another word to use.

Is it a good thing I cant remember much or should I try to dig up my past for better understanding of what I'm feeling today? What should I be remembering from my past? Are snippets a normal thing? I'm just worried there might be something more terrible that happened that I'm not remembering. I can only remember select few and I feel like they might balance out with the good things that happened. But do they or am I fooling myself. I just don't have anything good to compare it to. Also some horrible things happened to me with one particular ex bf. I'm not sure if that comes into play with my diagnosis or if I'm just attracted to people like that because of my diagnosis.