Every morning I wake up at 4:00 - 5:00am having anxiety and nauseated. I cannot lay in bed, my stomach starts hurting and I go diahreaa at least a couple times. My stomach and intestines are in knots. I'm clinching my jaw and having headaches and neck pain due to muscle tightness. The stomach pain is severe to where I've had endoscopy and colonoscopy. I was diagnosed with celiac disease 2 yrs ago. Gluten free diet made no difference. The strange thing is it gets better as the day goes on unless I'm in a really bad spot. At night I can sleep usually no problem, it's the morning.

I've been to ER so many times and they don't find anything. Usually something stressful kicks off a big episode and can last weeks. I now have health anxiety because I can't believe anxiety can do this but I know in the back of my mind that this is most likely anxiety. I swear I have stomach cancer they just can't find, but when I was on meds I was better.

I'm only on 5mg of lexapro. I was on 150mg of zoloft and got a bit stabilized last year but was still feeling off a bit with headaches so I went off it successfully for a few months. I was feeling good, I stopped going to psych and therapist. That came crashing down after a couple months. Now I'm on the lexapro and now also buspirone also a very low dose.  Was just in the shower crying and feeling like shit. My stomach aches the worst, I don't even have anything to be worried about except this damn feeling I'm gonna die or have some serious illness because my stomach won't stop hurting.

I told my new psych to start low because I have issues with these meds at the beginning. That was 3 months ago. Now I just wish they could give me something more. I need this to go away, I can't function.