So before we start, HOCD isn't Homophobia, i don't care if a women falls in love with another women nor if a men falls in love with another men, i just think it's beutiful that two being are attracted to one another. 

Nevertheless, im straight, even by writing this i am not in denial, never in my (short) life i have sexual/attraction to another men, i know i am straight due to my experience, my best sexual experience where with women, my best love interest were women and im 100% sure i am not into men, and even though i would have been gay i would have 100% accept it, my family is open and i wouldn't care if i were "dating a tons of  men". 

But.. i think i might suffer from Homesexual OCD, where i get intrusive though about "gay scenarios" that i don't find them arousing, it's so intrusive that i have pysicall reaction ( i cringe ) futhermore i can't socialize with men of my age (which was not an issue before my first reaction) it does trigger a lot of anxiety when im with other male, im just scared.. that i fell in love with them or if im aroused by them. Like mention above i do find the male body unattractive for me, i would do thing to a woman that i wouldn't do to a men (sexually speaking). 

I just fear that i lose my identity, my sexual orientation, im young and it's helpless to know i (sorry for the bad word) can't get a boner while watching arousing straight porn, futhermore it's more scary to know that i haven't met a men that did change my sexuality, i haven't met anyone.. 

So..if you did suffered from this issue before, can you give me some tips to "help" me?