I’m 18 and have has self harm problems for about 6 months now. I have not been diagnosed with anything although I have been to the hospital and take meds for suicidal thoughts. But when I was younger like elementary school I wanted  to get hurt like break a leg I even tried a little to break my leg but not like anything serious. I think it was for attention even though I had a lot of friends then. One time though in like 4th grade I cut my finger with a knife on purpose. I’m think I wanted attention and sympathy. I didn’t hurt myself on purpose again till I was 18 and in elementary school I wasn’t depressed or anything. So I guess I’m wondering if this behavior I had in elementary school carry’s over to the problem I have now and is there an explanation. Thanks and sorry if this the wrong sub.