Most of my life has been nothing but pain and suffering. I have had the things I appreciate and find to make me happy taken away from me. I have had so-called friends betray me. I tend to unintentionally push people away from me. I have witnessed pain on others involving me. It is always me. This is a world where I am to pay penance for a sin that I cannot remember committing. Nothing for me has any meaning anymore. People's support are just tiny droplets filling this giant void in my body. I wish there was a way to restart life and go a different direction with the knowledge of the mistakes I have made now. It feels like I have already sold my soul to the Devil and now paying the price. I have already used my one wish for something trivial and now must pay the price. I do not want to suffer anymore. I want to be happy and successful like many others I see before me.