I'm scared by how aggressive the comments I've been getting lately.

All you so-called progressives, going on and on about believing the victim and breaking down gender roles - fuck you. You're not different than a Discipline Officer in the military. You always blame me. You're never willing to listen. When I confess to you about my weakness and my triggers, you're not even trying to be considerate.

I never said I was perfect. I never said I was the eternal victim. And I have said I was wrong plenty of times, and I don't regret that. I WAS wrong, and I am trying to improve, and I don't want people to hold off criticism. I must remain open to it so I will learn.

But Jesus, when I open up to you about how hard times are, LISTEN AND BELIEVE. STAY WITH ME. Don't tell me I'm dramatic, that I'm blowing it up out of proportions. I just realized that in my last relationship, I was almost assaulted. That shit fucks you up.

It's like you're not even trying, and I'm getting scared every day. I don't feel like I can trust anyone. They'll just shit on me and treat me like a Problematic Soldier. They keep telling me I don't have to deal with this alone, but I don't see any other options. 

I really, really have no one to turn to. I really have no one who will take a step back, actually listen, and believe me. I don't know how long it'll take till I develop full-blown paranoia. I'm scared for myself.