I don’t have no one I can talk to I feel so fucking alone 
I know people got there problems so I’m not expecting much 
I can’t even see my mom she’s literally 2hrs away 
and she can’t see me 
I don’t know what I’m doing anymore I don’t think I can hold on any longer I tried for so long to be happy which I honestly think I was happy maybe it was just a front 
and I can’t keep going on knowing when I smile it’s a fake smile 
I’m hurting internally i feel to drained 
I feel like one day I’m going to snap I feel like that day is coming soon
I don’t want to be alive anyway and I just feel like i don’t want people acting dumb founded if I just get sick of it life takes a toll my therapist says talk about your problems who can I go to when everyone I use to know fucked me over I’m sorry I’m cursing I’m just so irritated, hurt and lost