Lately I'm feeling it again, this weird indifference. Normally I would be so mad at myself, feeling so lonely and pathetic. Screaming inside that I need to change in every way and cry out of frustration. But I have found some sort of peace in isolation. And it doesn't even bother me so much. It's a comfortable kind of numb.

I don't know if this is good. I'm scared of the possibility of going back to being not ok with my life. Also, I'm starting to question if I aren't making a mistake by keep seeing a therapist? Maybe it would be best to not do anything that would eliminate this indifference? Maybe I'm really better off in this bubble, take pills when it gets worse and just don't ever socialize again.