I scroll through this subreddit fairly often, but I’ve never posted anything before, so this is a first for me. I’m a 23 year old guy that’s been having a rough couple of years. I’ve always struggled with bouts of depression and negative thoughts since I was a teenager, but the last 2 years or so have been the darkest so far. Along with depression I’ve also developed anxiety and started to have panic attacks pretty constantly, the pandemic has been especially rough as I lost 5 family members over the span of about a year, and didn’t get to say goodbye to any of them really. The place I live had strict regulations during the pandemic so funerals either didn’t happen, or were very brief. I also lost touch with many of my friends and developed an issue where I struggle to communicate with people, even if they reach out to me. I’ve never felt so lost and lonely in my life, and I guess this is my attempt at venting or just speaking out into the void? I thank anybody that took the time to read this, and I hope that you find hope in whatever struggle you’re personally facing.