From my partner... my partner... the person I thought to share this vulnerability first and foremost. I know I'm fighting my own battles here and I honestly am trying to recover, I am lost in passive suicidality from time to time and the first statement you tell me is: "I have nothing to do with that." " you're dealing with that by yourself." Thing is... I know these - I know I fight my own battles here. I opened that up to you not to have you take responsibility of my illness. I opened that up so you would know where I'm coming from and how I'm actually putting effort to fight it. But thanks for affirming that I am indeed alone in this.