My current relationship status is single but I'm talking to this dude. We started talking in March and in March I didn't know I had bpd. I was rushing into talking to this dude because he was first person to DM me and wanting a relationship. At the time, this was all I was asking for cause I wanted to lose my virginity and do all the other sexual stuff my friends where doing that I couldn't relate to but now that I had a big bpd breakdown and those rushed thoughts where out of my bpd craziness, I don't really like the guy. He's hyper sexual and  I honestly don't think about sex that much and I would rather give a person kisses on their forehead than on their privates.I've told her countless times that I'm not be in relationship and he's ok with that but we still text and do sexual stuff ( which I think kinda messes up with my bpd emotions ). I've also been discovering my sexuality and opening my love to everyone regardless of gender. All I want is someone that I truly love to spend time with me and get to do all the fun things that my friends are doing with their bf/gf. I really just want someone to take me out of my loneliness