I’ve been bipolar all my life. Bipolar ruined my first real relationship with a girl in my teen years because I had a manic episode and peeled out of her parents house almost hitting her dog being a little punk. 

That was one of my first episodes I remember. I don’t abuse anyone/ anything when I have manic episodes I normally just do things like raise my voice, show my ass ,or embarrass myself. My current girlfriend of 8 months is now scared that I may be violent in the future because the other day I read a text on her phone that sounded bad but really wasn’t and it started a fight. Keep in mind this is the first time I have had an episode around her. I told her she should leave and to get out and when she started leaving that quickly turned into let’s talk about it and she said she was uncomfortable and going to go home and we could talk about it later. I raised my voice which made her uncomfortable but that’s something I’ve always done when manic.( working on it) I ended up slamming the door to my house after walking her to her car for dramatic exit and she also did not like that. She broke up with me and said she’s scared that I will be unable to control my anger and hit her one day. 

I would never hurt someone on purpose so how do you deal with this? Is there anyway to show someone without bipolar you aren’t a ticking time bomb? And yes I am medicated. I missed my pill, didn’t sleep , and had an episode.