im just tired as we all are. the wingman friend, the uglier one to make others look pretty. I mean having a cleft comes with its fair share of lonliness and worthlesness. my sister is dead, and im just supposed to be over it six years later. I dont want to be here. Im tired of just existing out of guilt because im not letting my parents lose another daughter. So here i am, not a sexual option for anyone, helping people fall in love, while i sit in my room sulking and i dont even have anyone to hang out with since my best friend used to be two doors down from my room is gone and left me just an office where her bed used to be.

Im so tired im so so tired and i think im just worthless, a background character. a dumbass girl with a deformed lip sobbing in her room everyday, self pitying, while people around you are starting to grow passed this self loathing stage in life, but nope im just the same old, narcissistic jealous friend whos always been the mediator, the therapist, i mean even my fucking mom goes to me instead of therapy.

sorry im fine just idk i just sobbed and now i feel empty again so empty, i just want to be happy