I miss my old friends and all the good times, but I'm just a pit of darkness most days and I figured it was best if I wasn't around. I also figured they were all tired of me anyway too, I mean they must have been right? They let me live in my car for months without checking on me and whenever I did come around during that time, it just seemed like they were waiting for me to leave. Only one friend tried to help me out of that situation and I stopped talking to them as well, that was almost a year ago at this point. I don't know what to do, I just get so lonely. I've known this friend group since like middle school and I'm 29 now, and I'm not capable of making new friends.