TW TALK OF CANCER AND DYING 

 
I can’t keep living like this ! I really can’t  I’m so tired of the same pattern  I go from thinking I have the C word or something else  then it goes away for a few days then as soon as I start planning happy things  the awful thoughts come back   I feel every little thing that goes on with my body. If I get itchy I think skin cancer  if I have a headache I think it’s a serious brain issue. If I sleep to to much I think I’m dying  everything is so extreme with me. And no one knows how bad o want to feel normal to feel happy and care free   I’m crying as I type this  I just want to be the Courtney I use to be before all of this  but I sit and hide my pain