tw: sh

I'm not officially diagnosed with bpd yet but I relate to almost all symptoms so yeah I'm here.

There's this friend I text with. She sometimes don't text immediately and texts like 15mins later. One time she said she was talking with somebody else, it made me feel awful. I was like why is she not talking with me. I have been feeling quite bad for the past couple of hours. I need to stop getting jealous over little things but I can't control myself. And I think she is kind of a fp (she used to be for sure but then I got over it, yet here I am again).

Anything y'all do to get over things like these? I'm getting so jealous and it fucks me up. I want to cry my eyes out and do self harm (already did, couldn't control).

Lastly how do you stop the urge to sh? I tried looking it up online but it's just straight up bs for me (do something creative damn bro)