i’m in my second attempt with university in the last 3 years and i’ve managed to succeed in majority of subjects in the last year however I have two remaining units to complete till I graduate. I’m about to commence the new semester and i just feel so nervous and doubtful of myself. I hate it. 
I take one look at something (an assignment) and i just instinctively know i can’t do it. I just give up and i don’t feel motivated to push through. I always have to somehow redeem myself even when i put in  effort. 

I also feel scared to submit things in uni. I don’t ever plagiarise but i have this fear that i’d be caught out one day or accused and my efforts would go to shit. I suffered extreme depression 2 yrs ago when I had no job and was not studying, and I am so traumatised that my life will revert back to that. 

I really do imagine how my life would be without these intrusive thoughts, i wish i could encourage myself to try my best and not be so negative. I don’t exactly have support anymore as my psychologist cares more about her income and job rather than actually helping people in need. I’m so scared about being at the loneliest point again and i just want to succeed with something...

any advice would be greatly appreciated