I so fucking tired of it all. I can't even take myself serious enough to formulate a sentence explaining how bad I feel. I just want someone who understands me. Someone who gets how I feel. Someone I can have a breakdown next to without them belittling me. I have nowhere safe I can go to. Noone I know allows me to feel bad. They expect me to keep up a facade to show off "mY fUnNY sELf". It's tiring needing to switch from facade to facade between nearly every person I know. 
It's the only way I know of interacting with other people. I just wish that I could relax for one day in my life.