Im in constant fear of hurting other people's feelings, i always feel too much and i try to not externalize so i won't over react to things i should act in a normal intensity, i just keep inside the amount of emotions im feeling and try to dose the safe amount to show, the rest stays inside me and i have to deal with it. The problem is how tiring this is, at the end of the day im mentally exhausted, stressed and anxious, i won't externalize for other people because i know i would be over reacting, i know (thankfully most of the time) when im having a exaggerated reaction so i control it, but that doesn't cancel what i feel, i still suffer inside and i end my day exhausted, today was one of these days, i feel like shit and im tired of feeling everything the double it should feel, no one in my family really understands how hard it is inside my head and i only feel worse because i don't know how to explain them why im like this and how bad it is in some moments where i look ok on the outside but im dying inside