Yall I am super self destructive right now. Last few weeks I've been working on my marriage, my degree, working on being less codependent and of course I get the urge to cut myself and go to my "safe house"(other dude that puts up with me but keeps it platonic).

I hate it. I know I can be successful, but whenever I get close to being good or happy I just want to destroy everything.

I'm not cutting myself. I'm self containing this mess fairly well. Only reddit knows about my breakdowns. These lows just hit me pretty hard sometimes.