I was pretty oblivious of myself until about a year ago. Since then my I’ve had real anxiety. Growing up people made fun of me for how I walk, how I held my arms up while doing stuff, the way my face looks, doing gymnastics, and how I talk. 
It never bothered me until this year, I know I’m trying to be dramatic. I either make everything a huge deal, or an inside joke so I won’t feel anything. I gained weight because my self worth was destroyed from my hair thinning and now it just feel like I will never be happy again. Like I’m 24, no social life and I look 50. I can’t even return a stupid coat because it’s too big.