hi, i feel myself dissociating. i feel so dumb because ITS SO FUCKING SMALL, its always something so small with them. i hate how much i feel for them? i feel myself slipping back into codependent thought patterns, im so glad they took a break from me ha. i wish i had more self control when i took a break from them a few months back, though. it was only 2-3 days n i already gave up. we havent had a full on convo in like a week n a half. BUT BUT, thats not what my head feels like its going to explode about.. we decided to make these pages on ig basically catfishing as zilla and sosmula, pretending to be different people. now that i think about it, we havent even been posting on the accounts really but its just the fact that they decided to change their whole page today w/o mentioning it to me. I FEEL SO FUCKING STUPIF for feeling how i felt a few seconds ago, about something so small and insignificant :))).