This might sound a little weird or a lot more. But I’ve been in this funk for about 4 years now. My brain is completely wired differently now and I only think negative when I try to think positive it last for about 40 mins. I don’t feel like normal self like I feel like theirs layers on top of me waiting to peel. When I want to cry ball my eyes out like I physically can’t only a little comes out. It feels like my brain is messing with me like it won’t allow me to feel normal. Idk if any of this makes sense. I’m not happy cause I can’t feel happy my brain doesn’t think or work the way it used too. I don’t get sleepy anymore or restful sleep. I feel like I’m living in a robot but it’s not me. It’s like a bubble is waiting to burst but it won’t come. Like I’m not allowed to be normal it’s the most frustrating thing ever because I feel like I’m gonna be stuck like this forever cause I can’t convince my brain to go back to normal. Please help me I don’t wanna live like this anymore. I feel like I’m just existing😭 I’m on Wellbutrin right now. But I don’t know if that’s what I need. Is this a chemically imbalance? Does anyone else feel this way?