The person that my brain randomly decided to consider my FB is now going on holiday abroad, and I'm already going into panic mode, thinking things like: "who will I talk to every day?", "what will I do with my time?", "will they hate me if I bother them on holiday?", "if they really liked me they would have asked me to come along".

This has pretty much always happened to me, but now that I'm aware of it and have the right tools, I'll start taking some of these thoughts apart and making some sense of them.

It's super annoying that I don't even feel very close to this person emotionally speaking, it's just that they're always there, and my brain is so set on that, that changing things is gonna get me splitting again and UGH!