Hello lads

I'm 26(M), and i want to ask you to give me some advises if it not take to long from your time. 2 weeks agos it was ly last suicide attempt by overdose,sad enough it fails like many more,just pass out and weaking up next day coughing blood. My life was bad since i was 8 years old, evry day i was bullied, hopping with highschool it will stop,but it was worse. With all of this happening to me, i never been talking to anyone,right now im not having 1 friend at least, evryday i lay on bed lissening to music, go to my job,and the cycle  continues. 2 years ago i started college,to get some motivation,but it didn't last for long,cuz my social skills are equal to 0, so right now im thinking about quitting cuz i cant do it anymore. What i want to ask is for the ppl who overwhelmed this feelings, how you make it?