I'm just so fucking tired of it. I go to therapy, I take my meds, I've done fuck knows how many worksheets and learned 399393927483 coping mechanisms and took up hobbies and exercise, I did everything """""right""""" ???

and my head still feels like explosions. It's just a tiresome cycle. I dont even fool myself anymore. 

I cant trust anything or anyone, I cant even trust myself.

Damn dudes I'm just tired. Who am I doing this for? Myself?????,, bro I hate that bitch lmao.