I was on Facebook and saw a animated video about a rat in a modern city where happiness can be bought everywhere. You are encouraged to consume. They take what you have and make you work for pennies to pay for the happiness. It makes me think about friends from support group. At first I thought they would like to be treated to lunch but I find they spend more on food than me. They eat out whenever one has a birthday and they’re always eating. I feel like the mentally ill are encouraged to eat to feed the system. I sometimes wonder what price they have to pay for the life they’re allowed to live on earth, and whether they are damned... I have delusions that many people are enslaved to the system but most times, people with schizophrenia have it the worst. Their suffering is thousands of times worse than for the average person. Most people are able to develop empathy from this. It’s not human suffering, they are trained by case managers and staff to obey grueling demands in the deepest levels of Hell. The system is ruthless, sadistic, and is conditioned to get worse with time. Every time they look back on 5 years ago and feel it is Heaven compared to where they are now. I share friendship and a diagnoses with the mentally ill, but I haven’t done any Hell stuff and it sounds selfish but I don’t want to. However some people say you can enter the spirit realm in your dreams. In China especially, the drive for progress has turned cities into systems designed to keep people obedient. I didn’t know just how much people are suffering and I have to accept that it is real, it is horrifying, and it is tragic. People often turn to any comfort they can find like religion, hope, good memories, etc. I have not been able to witness any of it.