I cannot even write about this. I'm so drained and anxious I cannot work on my thesis. I have a few months left. I used to do everything in time, but I just cannot do shit anymore. I also work but cannot do that anymore either. I just want to lie down and never do anything again. I cannot stand the thought of screwing this up, but I'm too terrified of what's ahead. And terrified of finding out I will never be good at what I do. I feel like there's nothing to look forward to, just more struggles and finding out just how much I suck.