I have done nothing with my life. Nothing special has occurred in my life. I have no drivers license, no friends, no relationships. Nothing. Time is ticking and ticking and I'm doing nothing. I've had so many near death experiences yet none of them has sobered me up. I wake up every morning with no intent of existing. I take the happy pills like my doctor told me to. I've quit taking the happy pills because it's not helping me. I sometimes wish I wasn't born. I've considered killing myself over 100 times. Maybe tomorrow will be the last straw.