Why is it so hard to find someone that doesn't mind if you struggle sometimes? I thought I had someone who actually cared, only to find out that any issue I had was just a burden to their existence. 

It just feels as though I'm not allowed to experience or feel the emotions I have, like I'm supposed to fake a smile and pretend that everything's alright when on the inside I feel as though my mind is racing. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a burden to people, tired of opening up to people who cast me aside when it becomes too much. Am I allowed to just cry and not have others label me as weak or undeserving? 

I'm just so tired of finding people who care then having them treat me like a stranger when I actually share some of my problems.