Fighting with my agoraphobia 1.5 year. Today i had a total mental breakdown over my upcoming job interview which is in 2 days. I'm not a native english speaker and i struggle a little, and job interviews were always highly anxious to me, but now that this job is not even in my mother language kills me. But its the only remote job I've found all these months that im looking for a job. I'm a burden to my already poor family. Also yesterday i went to the cinema with a friend of mine and some of his friends i met for the first time, which was something too much for me and wanted to cancel til last minute but i made it and i had such a good time. I spent 2 hours talking to one of my friend's friends, and we had so good chemistry. It felt like i knew him forever and I thought i made a new friend. Since agoraphobia hit me i have no one. So i exchanged social media with him and idk why i thought he was gonna text me because he mentioned too that we have amazing chemistry and we could talk for hours, but he did not. I know it sounds SO stupid and childish but it made me so sad that he didnt text me because i had such a great time meeting him and i almost forgot about my agoraphobia because of him and our talks. Anyway. I just wanted to rant because i have no one i can talk to. Peace.