So, my friend Mo and I have recently started recording our philosophical thoughts, with plans on turning them into podcast like episodes. Our conversation got to me talking about being bipolar in the last one, and while the content was lost and will have to be re-recorded I was as enlightened by talking to him about what was normal as he was with talking to me about my auditory hallucinations.

So it got me thinking, what do we think is normal? When inflicted with a disease that basically sets our own brains against us, what does a '*normal*' life look like? If you can remember a time before having bipolar (not just before diagnosis but before actually having it) how was that? I don't think I've ever not had it, but here's a few things based on how other people live:

Normal people can just do and learn whatever they want to, all it takes is the simple application of their attention. They don't have to fight themselves to get any kind of productivity or have to fight themselves to stop working at the end of the day.

Normal people aren't constantly nagged by the desire to simply destroy everything, starting with themselves. When things are going well they don't get that niggling little feeling in the back of their head that drives stupid decisions and results in buying a black BMW sports car because it look cute.

Just two of my observations.