I feel like I’m starting to move on from an FP relationship which ended recently and I’m terrified. When I’m not attached, I’m devoid of emotion and feel a crippling emptiness where I’m essentially a shell of a person. I’d rather be in pain than feel nothing. I thought it was different with him; I thought my feelings were actually real this time and he really did mean something, but now I’m starting to recognise that familiar indifference towards FPs when I’m over them.  

Maybe FPs are the only way we can feel something other than emptiness.