Please don't engage with this post if you don't take covid precautions seriously. Thanks.   


My priority is to not catch covid. I wear a mask everywhere I go in public, but throughout the pandemic my friend group has been my little safe bubble where I trust everyone else is being cautious. Not now.   


I can opt out of hanging out when them as much. But they could get my boyfriend sick, and then it would all be for nothing. And I can't ask my boyfriend to not socialize with them.   


The only solution I can see is asking them to get tested for covid regularly. I see my boyfriend every day, though, so unless these are rapid tests (which are expensive), it's not really worth it.   


I'm just mad. My mental health is worse right now because I already hardly hang out with anyone. It makes me feel betrayed when my friends go to parties knowing covid is still going around and knowing how I feel. I know I can't control them, and I probably can't change their perception of risk levels. I'm just mad and yes anxious that their actions could trickle down and effect me if they get sick.   


One of my friends in the group already got sick, and it was a very close call that he could've gotten my boyfriend and one of my other friends sick, but fortunately I don't think he'd been exposed by the time my boyfriend and the other friend hung out with him. But a couple of friends went to a party immediately after our whole friend group processed situation. It really just made me mad. I feel crazy.   


Idk what I want. Support I guess? I feel like I'm doomed to being alone or sacrificing my health.