The littlest things seem to trigger me, and I get so so worried Imm being rude. I get into a cycle if self sabotage by apologizing constantly and looking for the attention I so desperately want but I shouldn’t have! Others shouldn’t have to know every emotion I’m feeling, every anxiety and pain I feel and yet I just share it with the world! and it scares people, I’m so done with scaring and hurting people with my own emotions. I wanna apologize to them anout being aggresive but I know the response will be “your not??” and then I feel really embarrassed, like I’m putting my emotions on them. It turns to an unitntentional pity party it feels like and I know rationally if they have an issue with me they would tell me. But my past friends didn’t tell me, and my mom didn’t tell me until they blew up at me or they needed me and I feel like everythings my fault and ruin everything by being extra sensitive, bc once I confront its either “yeah I am mad at you” or “you didnt do anything? stop apologizing?” and both ways make me feel bad bc idk how to solve the issue and idk when someones lying or not.