I feel terrible all the time and I have.no real reason to. I feel so empty and I’m always trying to latch on to things like friends, drugs, sh to keep going but nothing ever makes me feel fulfilled. Whenever I’m with friends I can’t even enjoy it because I just focus on not saying anything wrong and end up being really quiet. I have this monologue of self hatred in my head all the time and it’s literally ruined my life. I have periods where I just can’t leave my room and I know I’m missing out on so much because of it but it feels like I can’t overcome it.