So about 2 months ago, I had to talk my sister (who has bipolar) down from a manic episode. She’s thankfully okay and doing much better, but I’m still in crisis-mode and can’t seem to let go. 

I have GAD which manifests itself as catastrophizing spirals and for the most part, these spirals last about a week or so, tend to be hormonal-driven, and the “rest” periods can last anywhere to a couple weeks to a month. But recently, after the situation with my sister, I’ve been jumping around from one crisis to the next, fixating myself until I break before a new crisis takes over. 

Currently I’m fixating on climate change, and while I’ve always been anxious about it, I could calm myself down and relax. Now though? Uh-uh. Combine that with the current political climate, my financial situation, keeping my cats healthy (they’re perfectly fine btws), general family problems, and other stuff, I’m in constant crisis mode and can’t snap myself out.

I have an appointment to talk about changing up my medication in a couple of days to help me get chemical control. I’ve also been off social media for a couple of days (withdrawal is most likely contributing to my more resent panic attacks) and for the next month I’m not drinking any caffeine or alcohol. I’m also going to try and get out more, read good news (combat the negativity with some positivity), lower my ecological footprint even more, and start donating monthly to climate change charities. 

That said, while venting has made me feel a little better and in more control, I’m still in crisis mode and I all I want to do is just numb myself. Sigh… I’m putting this as “Venting” but def would love some “hugs and support”