I’m 17 and I’ve recently realized that I have a lot of personal problems. I suppose I’m writing this because I need to rant or I’m looking for answers. Also, there’s no one else I could really talk to. I cant talk to my parents because they’re constantly upset. I cant talk to my girlfriend about my issues because I’m terrified it’ll ruin our relationship if I’m always down or appear to be heavily flawed. I cant talk to my siblings or friends because none of them would care to listen. I cant talk to a professional because my parents won’t allow me to see one. I am also very nervous when it comes to talking to people. I’ll overthink and stress out before I can even approach or call. I feel absolutely alone because of this. I’ve taken a step back recently and looked at myself, arguably one of my worst decisions. I’ve realized I have social anxiety and that’s partly why I’m so anti-social. I also have just about every symptom of adhd known to man. Lately I’ve lost every motivation in life. I cant do schoolwork, I can’t apply for jobs, I can’t look for a new car (mine broke and was sold), I can’t maintain good hygiene, and I can’t focus on anything in life that will help me. Doing these kinds of tasks take so much mental power and I feel like my efforts will be in vane most of the time. So I can’t do anything. I hate the person I am, I hate what I’m doing with my life, I hate my life in general, however I have no motivation to make a change. All I want to do is sleep.