I was hospitalized earlier this year for severe self-harm and prolonged dissociation. After being there a few days, I was diagnosed with borderline... which I had seen coming, as a therapist I once had at sixteen told my mother I displayed ‘borderline-like behaviors’. I was formally diagnosed after turning eighteen. 

When I told my psych what the doctors at the hospital said, they brushed it off, saying it was just a flair-up of my depression, which I was diagnosed with at twelve. 

My mother and father both say that I just have depression, even though the hospital psych sat down with my father and walked him through my diagnosis. 

Not only has this made me completely shut off talking about mental health issues with them, but I’ve stopped saying I was diagnosed with bpd when I go to new therapists, such as the two I went to at my university’s counseling center. I just say I have depression... and idk. 

I’m going to a new psych next week... my old one just kept upping my meds, even though it made everything worse. So, new guy. Should I tell him I’ve been diagnosed with bpd, or should I just keep my mouth shut and let him diagnose me himself and put me on some more meds? And has anyone else had an experience like this, or am I bullshitting myself?

Idk anymore man. Sorry for the long post, haha. 