I hate the job I work at so much, but I'm too anxious to go to an interview for a different company. I'm looking for every excuse not to go: maybe it's a different day, I applied for the wrong position, the company is horrible, SOMETHING. But I have no reason not to go, so I'm just sitting here crying because I can't deal with the anxiety attacks that I know will come. I'm not even scared of the interview! I know I could get the job! But my chest hurts and my hands are shaking, and I know it will get so much worse the closer I get. I'm going to hyperventilate and my legs will tremble and I will feel like I'm going to die for sure. I don't know what I'm going to do. My current job makes me want to die, but I feel like I'm going to die when I try to get a different one. I can't stop crying, but crying feels a lot better than panicking.