I see no future for the world, for human races, for animals, for plants, I see impending doom, wars, unemployment, exploitation. Relationships are transactional to me, friendships are also transitory. People are mostly egoistic and what not. And I truly believe in everything I've said here

Yet somehow I laugh and smile a lot, I dance to the music, stopped caring about destruction of the world. It's like I am so random I can't focus on the impending doom. I have no idea if I have some kind of depression or not. It is puzzling me. I'm about 35 years olds.

Anyone in the same situation?