Don't do it. Don't do it. Don't give your heart to her again. Don't open yourself to them. She'll destroy you. If not by inaction, distance, or just indifference, she'll get you right where it hurts the most. She'll find someone else, better, stronger, richer, more stable, patient and disciplined. Yet, she doesn't have to do anything at all. This is my fight, my torments, my nightmares and somehow I know that even if it's meant to be, if I don't have that emptiness filled with my own solid base of support, my own pillar of who I am and what I stand for, then I will spiral and my thoughts and feelings become that much worse with the helplessness of her holding my soul in her unknowing hands. I would give everything I have and all that I gain to them. Yet, I can't give up, not when there's a small chance it'll work out. Long odds.. I just need to somehow find myself and find my feet and hope that's enough.