
I’ve been suicidal for almost a year now and have had depression for 3 years. I’ve had a very strong porn addiction for a long time it started out incident you know just a regular kid starting to experience sexual activities per say for the first time. As time went on the things i once enjoyed a lot weren’t as enjoyable anymore so I started trying out different typa porn. I got into more fetish like stuff like feet, handcuffs etc. as time went on I started getting into some bizzare shit and my addiction to porn was on a whole other level to the point where I needed to Jack off 3 times everyday. My addiction took a dark turn for the worst and has left me suicidal.

Here is a List of the dark things I did sexually that I will never forgive myself for:
- I sniffed my dads underwear and jacked off with them. 
- I took my parents dildos sucked them and put them up my ass.
- I’ve put on my moms cloths and underwear, socks and even sniffed her shoes.
- I’ve jerked off to animal porn horses, dogs etc
- I tried to make a dog lick my dick and asshole (thank god she didn’t)
- I took my brothers girlfriends Sandles and sniffed them and jacked off with them. 
- child porn……
- even myself…..


My addiction has left me suicidal
I’m sorry.