I was forced to move states almost 2 years ago. I met a guy, and instantly started dating him. All of his friends slowly became mine. We dated for about a year and a half. On January first of 2022 though, everything kind of crashed down. My friend committed suicide, my other friend attempted to commit suicide, I lost my job and my boyfriend on the same day. I’ve lost almost all of my friends. I got punched in the face by a guy at a bar. I can’t go to college right now because of academic suspension. All of this has happened in the span of 3 months. I’m lost. I’m lost and alone and I don’t know what to do. All I want to do is die, honestly. I’m to the point where I will make everyone else suffer if I end it, but if I don’t end it then I will suffer. I don’t want to try. I don’t want to put the effort in just so everything can crash down at my feet again.