I’ve been cripplingly depressed for a while now. This is probably the worst it’s been. I have no motivation to do class work or homework and as a result my grades are beginning to falter. I can’t keep going on like this. I have high aspirations for the future and its the only thing keeping me alive at this point. But i suffer everyday now. I have no friends and no social activities. I’m starting to lose my mind. When i was washing the dishes the other day i was seeing figures in my peripheral and i felt like something was coming after me and i panicked and got a knife. it was nothing though. 

If i don’t seek help soon i’m going to be dead. Idk how my parents would react since they are conservative and my dad doesn’t believe in things like antidepressants. I’m afraid they’ll send me somewhere. Can anyone tell me how to tell them? Thank you