I'm tired of playing a supportive role in everyone's lives.
I am blessed enough to have a lot of friends and I do mean good friends. Im always there for them and I'm sure they would be there for me too but I guess the problem is that I don't reach out I'm the guy that's always fine and I never need any help anywhere. It's exhausting to me though to be the clown, the phycologist, the advisor and everything else for my friends. I know it's 100% my fault that the support is one sided but I feel like it's draining me and at times I feel lonely. Tonight is one of those nights and the only thing that's on my mind is how nobody would really care if I was gone, I guess they would care that they wouldn't have anyone to support them in any way. I know it's selfish to say but I kinda wish someone would push through the many walls I've put through my feelings and what I show on the outside but I guess I'm such a good pretender.