It's like my existence is the result of someone playing the sims and creating a character with the worst traits possible.

It's almost comical, I feel like a fucking cartoon character.

No matter how much I practice self-love nothing will ever change the fact that I'm a worthless piece of shit. I hate myself so much I wanna gouge my eyes out, cut myself all over my body with a very large blade, or pull my hair out.

Reddit, I just absolutely fucking suck at everything. I'm ugly, talentless, overly emotional, insecure, paranoid, and selfish. People always say I'm weird. I'm always ostracized from every social setting. I'm a fucking embarrassment of a human being. Feeling like everyone fucking hates me. I'm so fucking disgusting. Can't deal with this fucking pain anymore. I want to scream. I'm tired of existing. 

Of course, my ex is the polar opposite of me. He has everything in life, he's perfect and everyone loves him. I'm so fucking sad, angry, in so much fucking pain. Why the fuck did I deserve this?  
Life isn't fucking fair to me!

Maybe I should do everyone a favor and just kill myself since everyone thinks I'm such a vile piece of shit they would probably be happier