Hey guys, squizo bi polar here, been battling since my 17s, just put this here for some context, and for the reader to understand that I'm not either being ironic or desonest with my post.

Under anonymous, I would like to share, part of my journey, since my other outlets are not possible to reach.

I won't circle around, right now as I'm writing I'm battling a severe depression, with negative symptoms. It's getting better and writing here, and get some feedback would be awesome.

So, I was wondering how to start this post, without tldr. Depression is a quick sickness, that it's part of us or our family and friends, it's my bi polar trigger. I'm not asking for direct help, and I'm not made of iron, but I want to share and read this again when I feel better, I wont make light of my diagnosis, but I think I have success in the healing process, first step is the trigger! Oh I'm feeling like shit, second comes the emotional turmoil, that can get dangerous, after that it's a process of self work. I got this yesterday, and now after a exercise session with my buddy, getting active. I'm realizing what's going on, and take the messures to tone it down.

It's a hard process to swallow, as you feel so numb, but grarificating to beat. Part of this, is included in my passion to write, and how much the heals me.

To be honest, 3 years ago I would be on my SOS pill or trying some harm. But I have my tools, exercise to keep the brain active, taking my 6 pills morning medication, and working my thought process. It's a coping mechanism that works differently in each one of us. 

I'm trying college after quitting in my crisis, I've lost over 32kg,and seen a great Psico analyst 2 times a month. 

I'm in a phase of my life, with a lot of doors open, that kind of light, helps me keep moving, and beating the odds. 

This is semi rambling, but some reply would be so gratificating to me. Thanks for reading, if you feel ill, share your thought with me. It's part of my healing process, and helps me get out of this little roadblock. 

Love you all ❤️