as long as i can remember, i always had that weird relationship with my weight. i started diets around eight years old because i didn't like my body. and life's roughness and hardness gave me trauma. and trauma makes me stress eat. and with my medicines, i'm always hungry. so i gain weight. so far, i gained like 20 pounds and i can't lose the weight. it's too hard. and it makes me wanna cry for hours.