It’s my second to last semester and I’m taking 18 hours so I can graduate this summer 
I’m taking the required math class for the 4th time. I couldn’t access my homework for the first two weeks. I’ve done half of the first assignment. There’s 10 more and I have 2 tests Monday and 2 papers due next week
I’m applying for grad schools 
I’ve gained 15-20 pounds since last semester due to not having time to exercise, binge drinking and revolving between being too depressed to eat and eating like shit when I do
I got raped for the third time last semester. I’ve been having nightmares every night 
It’s been overcast here for 3 months and will be for another 2. The weather makes my mood and energy so much worse 
I don’t know what to do. Even if I work as much as I possibly can I’m still always behind. Still fat, hated for my mental illness and stuck with all these bad memories. I don’t even know what it’s like to be happy for long periods of time. Everything is just stress and depression 
