For abit of context, I'm 23, smoke a lot of weed, I spend my time on my playstation or walking my dog, literally that.

So this year's been abit shit for me, lost my girlfriend, crashed my car, now I'm in debt.

Past few weeks I've not worked as I've been in pain, which is fair enough, but the more time I have off the more I get to dreaming about what I want from life, I feel hopeless 24/7, I've been depressed now for quite some time, pills don't help only the devil's canngae.

I do roofing as a job and now it's coming into winter (UK) , work tends to drop off due to the weather which means I don't take home as much as I'd like, but I'm in the point in my life now where I want to save money, I want to start streaming, I wanna travel alone. But everytime I get a glimmer of hope I'm just reminded that everything's worthless, life's pointless, no one bothers with me and what's the point, I'm only here so no one gets upset about my death.