I am always lost. I don’t have any aims in life and I feel I care a lot about other people’s emotions, only to hurt them later. I can never say a no to people whom I like and it has now put me in situations that have gone out of control. I just don’t feel like I fit anywhere. And even when I try to distract myself and have fun alone, I end up feeling lonely. I feel everyone is doing a favour to me by being with me and that I am actually a waste of space. Contemplating suicide, but Can’t face the consequences if it backfires. And the jealousy...oh the jealousy!! And I also feel my FP might hate me forever...Damn BPD is rough!