I’m tired of the little bit of motivation I get were I think hey let’s go take a shower or maybe go to the gym and then while I’m doing it or right before I just get this overwhelming feeling of depression and think fuck that what’s the point I hate feeling good then it being taken from me so fast then I’m reminded I will never be happy truly and do everyone a favor and kill myself I’m just so damn tried I can’t do this anymore and I know I say it a lot but damnit how did I make it this far I wish I could go back in time to when I was 12 and tell that kid to take those pills that it will never get better so fucking take them