I had psychosis around 2 years back after going too deep in vipassana meditation. The psychosis lasted for 2 hours at maximum. It basically felt like I was possessed and started shouting "hoo hoo hoo" like a chimp on my own and threatened to kill my brother and demanded to eat meat( I am a vegetarian). It lasted for around 2 hours during which my uncle performed reiki on me to calm me down. That was the only episode I had but I was admitted to psych ward anyway for 3 and half months. There they suspected me of having schizophrenia. They tried various drugs on me and ended up prescribing olanzapine , benzex plus and pantop at the end. Everything was going fucking alright till the start of the 3rd month. But then I decided to be aware of my breath as meditation. Right when I was watching my breath, my friend cracked a joke and I let out a loud laughter, I felt something snap inside my body and my mouth closed in a weird manner. After that moment I have not been able to feel any emotioms, understand anything I read properly, my mind goes blank in the middle of sentences, I also cannot talk properly due to my mind constantly going blank and I also cannot understand properly what others are saying, especially long sentences. I told my psychiatrist about it and he said I must be suffering from some mental disease, I forgot what he called it. I was absolutely okay before that moment when I fwlt something snap. I have been to neurologist for checking if I have fucked something up inside my body and the tests came out fine, he again told me to go to a psychiatrist. I have had enough of the psychiatrists and the meds they put u through which can fuck up your entire life. I just want my life back. Has anyone else been unable to feel emotions due to antipsychotic drugs? Could it be the case? Or could it be something else entirely. 

I quit the antipsychotic drugs I was being given cold turkey 6 months back to have my feelings back, and things have not improved a bit.

Thank you for reading?