It's nothing major like death in my family or any other event. My head and life seem out of order lately and I can't find much meaning in anything again. I cried on my way home yesterday, thinking how easier it'd be if I wasn't here (not suicidal, though). Had a few more breakdowns and my boyfriend doesn't seem to take me seriously. It's so easy to tell a friend something nice during her intensive study period to support her, but I'm not getting anything of that sort. And a few words go a long way. 

I guess I just hope someone might say something nice to me here. I feel really bad. For the first time in months, I had to take one of my sleeping pills to stop waking up during the night. Now I'm down *and* sleepy. Did get a few hours of rest, though, so that's a plus.