I learn something new every day. Sadly the things I learn the most is what not to talk about. Dont let anyone know I'm feeling sick. Dont let any one know something is bothering me. Dont say anything about my feelings, physically or emotionally. To keep everything to myself. This seems to be the only place I can talk freely. I'm back to my stomach being messed up every day. It causes me to vomit daily yet I should still go to work. The person I love is married to another woman and says she'll leave her. How stupid could I be, to think anyone would want to be with me and just me. I'm ready to completely give up on love and friendship. Find a way to be on my own. I'm so tired all the time I just want to sleep.