I've got about 670 followers on instagram. I've never bought any followers or any of that crap. A good chunk of those followers are 
friends/mutual friends/random barely know you faces from college that I probably shared a class or two with. And of course there's a chunk of those random ass accounts. My profile's public cause I've got nothing to hide/don't care who sees.

My instagram habits do not align with the norm of capturing the perfect image and editing it a shitton or any of that. I post what I want when I want. And truth be told I'd like to think that the stuff I post would get more likes. I take trips, I've got family in the music industry and so I've gotten to hang out/take pictures with some pretty medium to big artists. I'll post myself backstage at some of these concerts. I like to get creative with my posts and so yeah if I do edit my pics it'll be really obvious but creative. Not like I'm trying to hide a pimple or some shit. 

I'm living my best life and yeah I like to share it, but my pictures only ever get 40-70 likes. And I don't care about likes/fake validation, but it does make me wonder why don't people like them and whether it's because they don't like me or something? I'm a really nice guy and I'm always there for my friends. This is why social media is toxic. If I post a story sure enough 150-200 will view it. And it makes me wonder why is it when you scroll past my pic you don't want to like it. When people see how it's barely gotten any likes but they see how many followers I have then is it perceived in a negative way? Some of best friends, that will comment on my posts, are the ones that have thousands of followers and likes that are through the roof. And truth be told I'm very likeable I'm person. I always make a good first impression with new friends, always lend a helping hand. And my stories are one of a kind. Random people that I barely knew in college will react to my stories telling me how funny they think they are. I honestly have only the best of intentions when I post them. I'll post funny content hoping it puts a smile on a face and I'll post music that I'm vibin hoping someone will vibe to it the same way I do.

This is so stupid I know, and I assure you I'm not that kind of guy but I'm also only human and am just having a moment. Truth be told it's kinda always on mind, just in the back of my head.

Truth be told some of this is coming from an ex of mine. I was with her for a long time and even thought I was gonna marry her til she did me wrong. And she was fully engaged in the toxicity of instagram. She bought so many followers. She would take God only knows how many pics to get the "perfect one." And then she'll sit there for hours on end editing those pictures. We were once at a sorority's charity ball and we were taking pics together and it started off as laughs but then she actually became frustrated with how I was smiling and how she looked. So many pictures at so many different angles....she got frustrated, made a small scene and we left early. And what I'm realizing is she along with several other wannabe insta model girls don't actually have as many if any friends at all for these reasons. But they get likes through the roof for being so fake? 

We broke up and it was only after that when I realized just how toxic these habits are. I remember coming out of grave depression I began to live my life to the fullest and yeah admittedly showed it off on instagram, and I myself don't care to edit pics but I did find myself becoming overly anxious over a slightly, barely blurry pic because I'd think about what she'd think of it when she sees it or if it was her own pic. I post a pic out of love of me and my siblings and afterwards I find myself acting dumb thinking about how blurry it might be??