All I asked was that when the untrue crazy thoughts build up in my head let me just speak them, you don't have to even listen, they just need to be said so they go away and Im fine. But because she doesn't operate like that I must be lying and it's not true. She is my favorite person in the world and im gonna lose her completely; I'm dying inside and there's nothing left man. I'm so heartbroken and she couldn't give less of a shit. I hooe she sees this and knows how much I love her and to be someone's favorite person.  It's not just a title with BPD ; she doesn't realize how much it took out of me when. We started dating her lying and cheating and whatnot; but God damn was she worth it. Now I'm having a hard because I have no but her and I know it's a lot but I thought she was up to it. Im so sorry I love you so much pass forgive me Mya