I was originally supposed to be placed into a DBT program that lasts for 13 weeks. It includes 2 sessions each week. I have been on the waiting list since March and have been nervous about the intensity of the program. 


Now when I've just finally come to terms with it, I'm being told that I'm placed into a different program. Its just one weekly session for 6 weeks. The help I was supposed to get has now been cut down to a quarter. 


I can't help but feel that people are once again dismissing my problems. My mother said they probably realised I'm not that bad so they put me on a shorter plan. But why am I not bad enough? I've attempted suicide, I have eating disorders, I abuse substances, I self harm, I have PTSD, I'm so far from okay. I know others have it worse than me, but I have never, ever, been validated. I'm quiet borderline so apparently, I don't need help. It's killing me and no one seems to understand how hard it is to live like this. 


If they just gave this 6 week program as my first choice then things would be fine. But instead, one week before the program is to start, they "downgrade" me from 13 weeks into something much much shorter. I feel like I'm being pushed away again. I feel like no one really cares
