recently my parents are being too difficult . whatever I do something or don't they start telling me that I'm not doing enough.. I'm being lazy, always with my phone, I don't do house chores, how my mom always works and I'm not helping. well they don't know I'm depressed since 2015 and it's getting worse. and I'm the oldest daughter and everything falls upon me in this household. whenever I try to explain I kinda explode with my wordvomit . then don't understand. then my mom starts crying like I've hurt her, my dad starts talking like how there's no peace in this household because of me. I feel so guilty as always . I just want to sleep