One of my MASSIVE triggers is having to find out about things myself or people keeping something/secrets from me and making me feel invisible, not included, disrespected.

Last night I was hanging out upstairs having a great time playing board games with my husband. My brother in law who lives with us told my husband his male friend was coming over and they were hanging out downstairs, I didn’t mind or notice until I asked my husband if he can go downstairs and bring me something to drink really quick, he went downstairs  and was down there for about 5 minutes , he also left our door open so I can now hear who’s downstairs. 

I heard a women’s voice. A women having a great time downstairs with my people.

I walked out of the room to confirm what I heard and I walk out to see this half naked stripper looking girl in a bra and high heels, greeting my husband in MY home. 

My husband made the awful mistake of greeting her back and “welcomed” her.

He was polite and I understand My husband did nothing wrong and she was my brother in laws friends friend but I couldn’t help it. I was NOT warned about this and my husband allowed it and felt highly offended / left out and INSTANTLY blacked out and switched into FUCKING UNCONTROLLABLE RAGE. 

At first I tried talking to my husband and his answer just kept being “it’s not my fault who my brother brings” even though I’ve asked him for months that I want us to live alone, (His brother is a narcissistic and he’s always doing stuff to trigger me and has a great time trying to ruin our relationship. 

I’m only 5’1, 110lb but I flipped the fucking house inside the fuck out , I think I have a broken knuckle because my hand hurts SO bad I can’t even text. 

Rage started at 7pm ended at 3am , woke up and it’s here creeping up again. any advice of what I can do???