Tried to pick a flair that made the most sense, so I guess this is a small victory? A victory into understand why I am the way I am. 

I was thinking about how I met some potential roommates and I word vomited way too much information about myself, like not stuff you would tell people when you first meet them. And I don’t even mean to say everything, it’s almost like an out of body experience when I meet new people that I want to befriend. 

And then it hit me. I don’t like the gradual-friendship-over-time thing. I just want to jump to the part where we’re best friends, so to try and “skip” that, my subconscious says “okay time to spill everything about yourself immediately”. And there’s the difficulty making genuine connections with people. 

Since I’ve figured this out about myself, I just wanna say a nice “fuck you” to bpd. I’m reclaiming myself from you.