For starters..hi hope your day is going well. 
   Thing have been going pretty rough in my opinion, I recently (1 year ago) finally moved out of my Nparents house and got my own apartment and found a job relatively  close to my place.

 Everything was going well- my job was paying good, I was able to walk to work, I was always onto of my bills, life was good. Until now ish?

(This part I will probably go into more detail on a different sub reddit) I got laid off from this my job four days before I had to move out of my apartment. 

I was in shambles I had to job hunt while moving my things out AND find a new place to live. I didn't want to move back in with my parents- especially when I've hit rock bottom.

About maybe 2 months I've been job hunting and I found a job...but it didn't last long. I was a manager  roll it was great but my depression kicked in as soon as I got my check... I asked my job why it was so short and they told me "you'll get manager pay when we think your ready" after I've done the managers duties for a week...alone. there would be days where I wouldn't get out till 12-1am even when I was scheduled 4 to 10. Or 4 to 11. And I would sometimes miss the bus getting home. 

My co-workers realized I needed to go get help so they (the other manager and co-workers) told me to go on leave. As I was trying to go onto leave and was willing to go seek help (maybe some medication  or inpatient) I get a voice-mail saying I'm fired.. 

So some good news I guess is I have another job in place (amazon. I know..it's rough but the money you know..?) But my start date is in 2 weeks. I'm currently just living on savings as I wait. But the job hunt is still active- just so I can have SOMETHING to do and I get money while I wait. Seems reasonable.

But I havnt found anything yet. I've been waiting for call backs and I've been calling everywhere and trying to see if it's at least somewhat decent money and no luck so far. 

I live with roommates, and I feel just AWFUL because they have to deal with my failure. I feel like a constant burden because I just can't seem to do anything right. I just isolate myself in my room job hunting or keeping my eye out for my current job. 

I recently got back in touch with therapy and I'm on medication (big step because I havnt been in therapy or on pills for about 4-5 years now) I've been trying to keep myself as busy as possible it's been a bit hard due to overthinking constantly. But I don't want to give up.

After being laid off my depression and anxiety  have escalated greatly and I constantly blame myself for all the crap that's happened to me with this job. But I guess the weird part is instead of after getting laid off to focus on my mental health I just forced my pain down and got another job (one I got fired from) but that weight obviously luggaged with me. 

I do apologize  if this is the wrong sub, or all over the place or just too long. It took a lot of courage to post on here about what's been going on. Reddit can be a bit intimidating when it comes to these things. Just needed to say something..?