I used to really like her, but on Friday she really upset me. She made me feel like I was a bad person and told me that she didn’t feel anything for me, which I take to mean that she doesn’t give a shit about me. I have been crying since Friday because of her comments and she has made me feel extremely self conscious and I’ve had a lot of suicidal thoughts. 

She has also put me on Clonazepam, which makes me feel like shit. She put me on Lamotrigine before, which sent me insane. I don’t think she really realised how bad the effects were. 

I want to send her an email to tell her this and to ask her whether she thinks that it’s worth me staying with her. It takes an hour each way for me to see her and I don’t know if it’s worth it.