Hey all.  

I just found this subreddit because I don't understand whats happening to me. Just for a little vague context, ive had a stroke before years ago, and am now 10 years later, feeling like something broke. Ive felt anxiety in moments before, but this is a different kind of monster. 

I dont have much sensation on my side after my stroke, which was rough at first but Ive gotten used to it. I had a moment a few days ago, feeling dizzy and it triggered something in me. A panic that hasnt left me since.  

Since then (4 days ago) Ive been feeling absolutely out of control. There is a 24/7 knot in my stomach and a lump in my throat. I feel like I cant get a deep breath. I dont want to eat. Like every thing I do feels like a huge deal. Just to get up in the morning my body says no, lay down, cry, lose it. I force myself to get up and get moving but the feeling stays with me all day, it goes up and down but never leaves me. Its affecting my life terribly and it feels like itll never go away. My stroke symptoms are triggering me, i feel my normal loss of sensation but now it feels like the end of the world every time I notice. Every feeling I have is heightened and they all feel scary.

Im forcing myself to eat, and I know im okay deep down, but these last 4 days its felt like 10 years. It feels like my brain just went down a different path and it wants me to be scared and freaking out every moment.  

Relatable? normal? hope? advice?