 I have always been a very empathetic and emotional person. Until lately I have been dealing with some constant dissociation and I usually don't even know what is going on in my life. I no longer can have relationships or romantic interactions at all. When I am on a date with even the most perfect person I feel nothing but disgust. The idea of being with people who I've always been attracted to makes me feel nothing. I can't really feel emotions towards other people in general anymore. I am so used to hearing people screaming, crying, breaking down in front of me, threatening suicide, and going into detail about harming themselves that I just don't care anymore. There is nothing anyone could tell me about themselves that would cause concern. When people come to me with their issues I pretend to care but sometimes I almost want to laugh at how ridiculous they sound. I sometimes just ignore people when they really need me because I don't want to deal with the inconvenience of not knowing what to say. I don't think that I even like other human beings anymore. It makes me sad but I can't  bring myself to truly care about even this. All I ever really wanted was love but now I don't even know what I want. I just want to feel real again.