Hi everybody. Sorry for the text wall, I'm on mobile. My name is Paige and I'm a 26 year old single mom. I'm a former drug addict with 3 years clean. After getting covid in August 2021, I developed panic disorder and its ruining my life. Today I am in bed laying with my daughter for a while, and these feelings of anxiety are just killing me. I feel like everyone who messages me on here are just trying to get sexual with me and I hate it. I just want someone to talk to. I've been in therapy for a little while now, and I dont feel like I'm getting anything out of it. Its more just me venting than getting actual feedback. I'm also on some psychiatric medication - 20mg Paxil, 1mg Risperdal, 300mg Gabapentin 2x a day, and 100mg Seroquel for insomnia. I'm also losing my health insurance on the 30th and am lucky to have medication to cover me until I can get Medicaid, but I'm unable to see a doctor until they approve me (theyre dicking around, I sent the application over 2 months ago.) I just feel like getting covid changed my life for the worst. I never had problems with anxiety before I was hospitalized, and now its sometimes hard to get through the day and be the best mom that I can be. I'm really not sure where to turn. I'm also trying to quit smoking which is bringing my anxiety up more. I'm on patches, but I just feel like I cant do it, and I really want to. Its making me depressed. I've already had a full blown panic attack today. I'm stuck between being jacked up and anxious to feeling completely drained and sedated from the medication. If anyone has any advice for a struggling mom, please send me a message. I dont really have any friends to talk to anyways. It's kinda just me and my daughter. Thank you guys so much and I hope everyone's having a good day!