After my life has become extremely unbearable and irrevocably sad and pointless I decided ill give it a year before i end my life completely. Im doing everything i can to feel better (doing well at work and school, taking meds, forcing myself to socialize, etc..) but its been about 5 months and im still feeling hopeless. Not sure if anything is going to change in my head, heart, and soul. Im not crying everyday just most days. I have adventures planned for the summer and if those cant get me outta this i know nothing ever will. Not sure what im looking for here just thought id share. My sis knows my plan and feel like she gets it. Im trying so freaking hard guys. Its been rough. 