I saw the psychiatrist for a bipolar screening after the pharmacist put me on cautionary antipsychotics for what she said sounded like mania. But my psychiatrist heard about my seeing people and talking to them and talking to the people watching my computer and phone, and how the family I live with is stealing my mail and don’t like me, and she said I might be developing schizophrenia, and if not, at the very least experiencing psychosis.

My main problem I emphasized was my worsening depression, it was very good after my hospitalization years ago but suddenly I’ve been dropping, arguably worse than before, not enjoying anything at all, not talking to friends, not going outside except to work(I still try to but the people outside don’t seem to like me and I told her that), all this. And I have super excited and irritated episodes especially on weekends where I do and buy stuff I shouldn’t and get all pissed off. Also I really like to torture people, or the idea of it, and she said that was unsettling. I just said the fantasy brings me a lot of comfort.

Anyways, I don’t know. She took me off the cautionary antipsychotics(seroquel) and prescribed me a new one which will come in a few days(zyprexa). I don’t want to take them because I think that’s not the problem but my uncle had schizophrenia before he died. She didn’t diagnose me with anything because I’m only 20 and female and she has to rule out psychosis related to depression or whatever. What do you think? Should I ask for certain tests?