A is a persona, that does work quickly and efficent, but cant interact with people. thats whats expected of her now: quick work, good grades. she hasnt skipped an assignment. whenever she does something "good", like having a straight A-record, that becomes the expectation of everyone around her. she cant meet those anymore. what good is A if she fails to meet those? she cant talk about anything with anyone. she doesnt even get good feedback anymore. she can be replaced by anyone. no one needs her.

the person behind is nothing. they dont exist. they lay in bed all day looking inside their stupid laptop. theyre useless, annoying even. theyre angry all the time. they envy people having friends who talk about something they like, random shit, have fun. they cant do what they used to love. they remember things from the past. their parents hate them. they cant get over anything even if they shouldnt be bothered as an adult. no doc has ever notice their scars. they cry a lot. theyre weak. they cant find a hobby. theyre afraid of hyperfixating on something too much, so itll ruin their life again. they want to see their cats more, but they cant. they get rejected when asking family if they like them. they lie to everyone to keep As facade up. theyre nothing. they could disappear and no one would miss them. but theyre a pussy that wanted to try before n chicken'd out. they dont have a plan for anything.