I've become unbearable to be friends with.. I'm always angry, and drunk or high. Nothing to talk about but negative things. I am not as good a listener as I once was, and have trouble taking any interest in the hardships of others.. I can care, so much less..

I have no motivation left. I had so many aspirations, I had hobbies I looked forward to, I had dreams. But it's not really there no more..

I used to enjoy exchanging, thoughts and interests, but people were always challenging me to be some type of expert. I'm tired of having my passions challenged in nearly every conversation they come up in.. 

I feel like such an idiot and an asshole.. Making all these "I" statements, everything is about me.. It's ridiculous, embarrassing, and selfish.

I broke when it got hard, I'm not recovering well, and I want to kill myself.