My family found out that my sister had borderline personality disorder when I was in around 8th grade. At that time it was extremely clear something was wrong, however we just found out what it was. The way she acted and all of the fighting stressed me out so much that I failed a class and got bare minimum in all the rest freshman year. I started to have heart palpitations where sometimes out of no where my heart would start beating really fast and then after at most ~2 minutes it would stop just as sudden as it had started. I obviously was freaking out about it and went to see a cardiologist and I told them I didn’t have any symptoms other than the fact that my heart would start racing. They hooked me up and gave me an EKG and asked me other questions and said that everything was all good. Fast forward into the future it happened many more times roughly once every month sometimes more frequently sometimes less, and it gave me so much anxiety not knowing what is happening. I have been going to therapy for many years now and it has helped me deal with other issues but not particularly this one which is the main issue. I even got an echocardiogram which is an ultrasound of my heart and they said it was perfect and nothing was wrong. The doctor said that even though we don’t know exactly what it is that I am not going to die but I am still extremely scared. Where I stand now is that I am not generally anxious and I am starting to go out again, but I get really anxious when I run, listen to loud music, if there is vibrations or bumping i.e. in a car on a dirt road or something, and I can’t get past this. I feel lost and I want to do so much but I am just too anxious about my heart. I really need some insight on what to do!
Thanks :)