4:15 am: Brain turns on: "you should be doing this" "you should've done that" "why did you do this 20 years ago"  
5:30: Get out of bed. Retch.  
6:30: Go back to bed. Don't fall asleep.  
7:30: Take Klonopin.  
7:45: Have anxiety about calling in sick.  
8:05: Have anxiety about filling out work calendar correctly.  
8:30: Coffee. 

I tried to focus on breathing/meditate but my brain busts in and I can't focus. I'm seeing a therapist but it works in theory and not in practice, especially not in the middle of the night.