So most mornings I tend to have huge panic attack over what to do first in the morning. It’s not too bad going to work but on the weekends it’s awful. Normal people tend to get up and have a tea or coffee. I just sit there panicking over how I should write some music but I’m a shit musician or write some code for an app but I’m a shit coder. I usually end up stuck in a loop doing none of these things until it all gets too much and I start to panic. I end up burning off all my energy panicking and being miserable and exhausted, so I just smoke weed instead, I guess it helps abit to calm down but overall it just makes me more miserable, because I’m trying to quit. If I think about not smoking i the mornings and doing something productive that causes me to panic too. I’m on 25mg of quetiapine but I think all it does is make me sleepy in the mornings. I just want this to stop so I can actually achieve something in life because right now I feel like I’m totally wasting my life and will achieve nothing.