I am **beyond** terrified to fly. But I want to travel somewhere, I want to live my life :( Last time I flew was 5 years ago before I started having anxiety attacks. I thought starting small, taking a trip thats 2.5 hours away. Hopefully I can then take a trip 4 hours away. 

What has your experience been like? I am thinking about getting a very small prescription for xanax. I have never taken it before and would even break the pill in half. I don't want to have to take it, but I'd like to have it with me. (I'm probably going to have to take it let's be honest). Would this really calm me? What other methods?

Any friendly advice is much appreciated. Thank you.