I kind of made BPD my identity even before I knew I had it. I was always the girl who used drugs, partied, had anger issues, didn’t give a fuck what people thought, wasn’t afraid to rage and yell. I was proud of being a “rebel” and not giving a shit about school. in my head I was a skins uk character and everyone was just living in my episode. how do I stop viewing myself like that? I’m scared of change I don’t know another way to be but a hot mess.