I was diagnosed with anxiety in 2019, but I’ve been struggling with anxiety since 2015. Before I felt like I was in the constant state of fight or flight, my hands would shake uncontrollably (making it nearly impossible to do anything), my heart felt like it was going to beat out of my chest, and I would second guess myself about everything. Since starting college, (summer of 2019) my anxiety just got worse to point where I started to lose weight and sleep. Within 3 months I lost 15 lbs and now I lost 40 lbs. currently, I sleep anywhere from 1-5 hours and no matter I do I can’t calm myself down to sleep. my anxiety went from a constant state of fear to this feeling of numbness. I feel nothing; I just feel empty, alone, and dissatisfied with everything. I can’t even eat without gagging or throwing up, which causes me so much discomfort/pain emotionally. I don’t know if this is anxiety or depression at this point, but I just want to feel something again.