I went to take a physiological test because my mental health been getting worse. I feel absolutely worthless, I seriously think sometimes I would be better off dead. I have a habit of mentally self-harming as well as cutting.

 My life is horrible and small jobs like putting my clothes on the line feel so much harder. Somedays I don't feel like I have the energy to do anything even though I've eaten, drunk enough water, slept for the recommended time I still feel tired. I often don't sleep well and get up like 5 times at night. I cry myself to sleep more often than not. 

My whole life has been effected for a long time. Everything is effected. I have turned pessimistic and negative and people do notice. Therapy does help a bit but not too much yet(just started a few months ago tho)

I try to work on my hobbies and it takes my mind of it for a while but feeling of the deep pit of emptiness and despair always returns. My therapist says I may have to go on drugs as well if therapy doesn't go that well. 

I don't know if I'll ever be content with my life, I just want someone to relate to me and give me advice. Thank you.