I'm so bad lately, that I notice that I need more pills. That's why today I tried to hold out longer before taking the tranquilizer they sent me when I had strong anxiety.

The only thing I have achieved is to be with so much nervous tension that I felt dizzy and almost vomited. And I had to take the pill.

I have to come to reddit because I don't have anyone to talk to about how bad this is.

I need to stop being like this. I need to end everything