Was diagnosed with BP 2 back in 2017, medicated up until I lost my health insurance due to Covid and I was out of work. I have had full coverage insurance since July 21 but haven’t attempted to see a doctor again. I feel as if I was in guilt, self medicating in the worst ways possible, and didn’t want my family to know I actually needed it. I have put on an act, it’s tiring and I always have felt guilty in every family situation coming home to think about it in bed. My insomnia is terrible but when I’m low it’s the opposite I’m so tired of feeling the way I do. I’m done putting on a facade to family and friends. The first step was communication with family and it’s done. 2022 is going to be hopefully the best year of my life