Im 18 and the only reason I still have motivation is because of my parents. I've always hated school so college is not for me so im starting to realize that the rest of my life might just be working a mid job all day just to get high as fuck and then repeat. they've done everything they could to make me happy my entire life and still continue to. I love living but sometimes i just get so into my own head. I know i have alot of things to look foward to but im not interested in romance or just being a member of everyday society and i think after my parents pass away, I wont have anything to drive me anymore.