so I’m talking to somebody new romantically, and I feel so inferior. I feel like I stick out like a sore thumb and that I am too ugly and I am the dollar store version of what they actually want. they’re just dealing with what they have which is me. I hate this mindset so much and I want to break out of it so badly because I want to feel loved and I want to feel liked. it is so exhausting this mindset I’ve had since I was nine years old that tells me I’m too ugly and fat to have friends or a significant other. I imagine myself from other people’s perspective and I cringe. I feel like people pity me and I can’t do things as good as other people. if I do attempt certain things, people think it’s “good” for what I’m worth. I view myself as a troll in the gremlin. I talk about this every single time in therapy and my therapist repeats it back to me and it always shocks my system that I actually have this belief set that everybody in the world is better than me. I was wondering if anyone had any advice about this and I would say this is my main identifier of having BPD.