So my body is currently on the cycle of getting 2-5 hours of sleep. It’s starting to get where in the morning/afternoon. I use stimulant drugs to feel awake and alive, then after 7pm I binge drink to try to make myself sleep. Then I lay in bed awake until day break barely able to slip into a light sleep. 

Before I had a huge list of unfortunate circumstances this year that kinda accelerated my BPD to the point I had to seek professional help, I slept perfectly. Anytime. Anywhere. Now I got diagnosed then fired for attendance so I lost health care and can’t afford a therapist. 

I guess I’m asking, does anyone else struggle with falling asleep? I can get so tired and so worn down and exhausted but still can’t sleep until 3-8am