BP2, BPD, ADHD, PTSD.

I feel like I can't escape myself lately. It's ruining me and my marriage. I'm 27 and I feel like I'm doomed by my own illness. I have a good day but all I can think is it will just be all shit in a couple days. I just wish it wasn't a never ending cycle. I just want normality... Maybe that's too much to ask for. I don't have friends because I can't maintain friendships. Just need some word of encouragement.