DAE sometimes have the urge to do something that could lead to death but maybe just be self harm?
I was in hospital a few days ago because I drank too much alcohol and took drugs and I kind of liked that it, bc it wasn’t boring? I love taking drugs and just knowing that I might die 
That usually happens when I don’t feel good.

Today I did the same thing and I selfharmed and I feel like I just want to go to hospitaly... and also I feel like I just want the pain to end.