I’m 36 year old guy. Been living alone since 2010. I got my dog also 2010 and we’ve been our best friends since. 

My dog has something with his kidneys and liver. I’m afraid he’s not gonna see summer. I’m having great anxiety because of that. I’m going to be alone, just by myself. 

Last week when I heard the news I slept only few hours per night. Last night I slept 6 hours. 

I just get anxiety thinking about time when my dog is gone. I also watch him closely now and monitor his movements so that I can see when his health start deteriorate. 

I have few friends. Friends live about 100-200 miles away and family 90 miles away. I have two good friends but not in the same town. 

My home town I have literally no one to talk to or to be with. 

I’m scared of my mental health. What if I break down when I have euthanise my dog? Have any of you ever felt like this. Is this normal anticipated grieving or what? I shouldn’t have any mental health problems which I’m aware of. 

I have job and work friends there. I just haven’t lost any meaningless person before in my adult time. It feels weird and sometimes too much to handle.