Not really sure what to tag this under so I guess venting would do.

I was cleaning my room today and found like a whole lot of items (some personal, mostly school) dating back to more 10 years ago. Made me really wonder how different life would have been if I hadn't gotten anxiety in the first place. Would the path I've gone down been different? Would I have done better in school back then?

I found my old diaries and it was a whole of of cringe but there was definitely some surprise when I saw that I was already writing down some pretty negative stuff when I had no concept of what anxiety or the likes were. Also made me thought back to the school days back then and I realised that I still never wanted to relive those days.

But if I hadn't had anxiety I like wouldn't have the level of self awareness that I do now, so there's that. Another more positive thing I guess is that I deactivated my FB account.