...but it's impossible. constant pain for the past 2 days, constant crying and deadness and physical discomfort. i can't self soothe because i don't have 'self compassion' and don't relate to myself or have a cohesive narrative (past 'me' feels like a totally different person). i have flashbacks and memories and overwhelming emotions/clinginess unbalanced by anything else.

she made me write down 10 good things about myself but i don't believe it and it feels fake. i don't feel like i can deal with the feelings. but i'm scared to disappoint her by telling her it's not working.