How do you deal with triggers? My biggest trigger is anything to do with relationships. Songs, movies, TV, Facebook posts, seeing happy couples while I'm out, anything that has to do with people being happy in a relationship. The worst is seeing my friends in relationship, especially female friends. The closer the friend, the harder it is. It triggers my self loathing, I feel ugly, worthless, pathetic, needy, broken, my self fragments and I'm consumed by pain. I wonder "why was I not good enough for them?" I analyze their partner, finding every flaw I have that they don't and annihilating myself over it. It's ruining my relationship with my best friend and it's putting a strain on other close friendships. It keeps me from even trying to be friends with people who are in relationships. How do I cope? Because I just want to leave. I want to run away from anyone and anything involving relationships until I find one. Music is my passion but I can't listen to or play so much music because of this. Should I just expose myself to it to develop a resilience to this pain? Because I avoid so much. I avoid even thinking about it. I just want to move past this. 