Dear Maddie,

I think about our friendship a lot. Whether or not it was a good decision to even get closer to you, it does not matter now. You were a good friend of mine beforehand, but everything seemed to go downhill after I got attached. I began to hate you for stupid reasons. I hated myself more than anything, though. Why did I act that way? Why is this disorder so crippling? It hurt when you left, but I understand why you did. I got jealous of your other friends, I acted impulsively. When you left, I lost a part of myself that I will never get back. 

Thank you for the memories you gave me. You made me realize how big this disorder was. How I needed to treat it. How I needed to take action. I act with kindness as much as possible now, even when I'm angry or depressed. 

It was my fault and I accept that. Thank you.