I knew today wasn't going to be good.
Uh, I had a dream, I don't remember what it was. But it really freaked me out because I woke up because my heart was racing so bad. And I couldn't get my heart rate down for a while

And the whole rest of the day I was really restless and couldn't sit still 
Like I had been on edge.
And I don't know, I went to work and messed up a lot more than I usually do and made mistakes and said embarrassing things. And I know no one will probably think about it again after today but I can't help but have those anxious thoughts about how terrible I am and how much my friends aren't going to like me anymore
 
I've been really stressed lately but these last few days I thought my anxiety was calming down and I guess it just all collected into today because it's bad. 
I'm trying to calm down enough to get sleep since I have work tomorrow but I really really can't and I haven't been to stop shaking. Uh, I don't know.