It seems more and more recently I just can’t settle. My anxiety about my future and my inability to escape my situation is driving me further and further into a kind of rut. 

I recently left the army and since then all I’ve ever worked are these menial, pointless, no progression dead end jobs that barely support me and my family. I’m back living with my mam at 24 and it’s soul crushing considering last year I had my own flat and a gf. I can’t sleep because I can’t stop worrying about when the next psyche k comes in or if I can pay the food bill this week. All my life I’ve worked hard and given it my all and I’m still no better off from when I was 17. 

I have ambitions and dreams but there’s no physical way to achieve them, only thing I know for sure is that I don’t want to be in these style of jobs, working for agencies and not knowing what’s going to happen. I just don’t know what to do and it scares me, it’s like there’s opportunities but I’m unable to reach them. Sorry if this is rambling or jumbled I’ve just got no one to talk to about how I’m doing.