I got this job a few months back and was something I had been wanting to do for years. Now 4 months later I just give up and don't even have the energy to care. 

They never called me to come in since my last shift almost a month ago and I don't want to call them either, out of anxiety or just plain disinterest, I don't know which one.

People around me keep asking about my work and I just dodge the question since I'm already feeling like the failure of my entire social circle and the perfect example of "how not to live successfully".