I'm getting the notion from the universe that maybe i should just die. I got bit by a dog earlier today and kinda tiny bit hoping i'll die of rabies soon. haha jk but not really also really panicked. I've been having the worst year ever. My literal heart and emotional heart is not built for this. Ugh

Where I live i'd never be able to afford the vaccination so instead i'm going to have to take out some kinda money from my already hurting bank account and take a flight.

I feel sick and weepy. Just why? I expect old age to be the bees knees should I make it to old age, because this has to be for something. I can't take these hits i've been getting and being kicked while down. LIKE WHAT THE HELL IS THIS LIFE?

*Where is my mind?*