TW: cancer, death, burn out.


Hi everyone!

This is my first time here, the idea came to my mind only a few minutes ago.

I barely talk about my anxiety with my friends and family. They're all amazing and would definitely be there for me. But no one knows what I'm going through, and I'm afraid I'd end up to be seen as the one who's always complaining.

However, I think I need some advices today, to share experiences with people who know what I'm going through. So here I am.


Here's a little of background:

I'm suffering of anxiety for 2 years or so. As far as I know, I've never been the kind to be H24 stressed before. Just... Normally kind of stressed?

To make things really, reallyyyy short, my story is about professional burn out, my mom's disease (cancer) with... let's say a lot of plot twists, until her condition got worse and passed away when I was by her side. Add to it a pandemic worldwide situation.

I was already suffering of panick attacks and was under xanax when my mom was still with us. Because of burn out.

After she died, I was in deny for a few months. I was doing ok. Until I started to have panic attacks again, the irrational thought that every little thing I'd feel in my body was the meaning of something bad. Like a headache? It only can be a brain tumor. See what I mean?

Dark thoughts too. I immediately made an appointment with my doctor and have been under antidepressant since then to deal with those temporary dark thoughts and lingering anxiety.

It's been a great help!

Aside from medication, I started hypnotherapy sessions. I almost had around 15-20 sessions, at my request. These really helped me too to try to recover from burn out and being in mourning.

I was already doing guided meditation at home, and hypnotherapy gave me the keys to how to talk to my "inner self" and I manage to erased most of my constant fear of having every health issues existing. You have no idea how much of a relief it was.

So yeah, I'm doing better, I have no doubt about this.

However, it's still a rollercoaster. I think I'm finally myself again and then I'll feel anxiety again and feel bad, with no motivation.

I learned to be tolerant and gentle about myself and to not getting upset for feeling this way (just frustrated of the situation at the most). I understand and accept it takes time.

But I still do have questions for people who suffered/are suffering of anxiety because of some bad events in their life.

Does it ever go away one day? Or will it always be here until the rest of my life, somewhere in the corner of my mind? That may sound stupid. But I do not know anyone around me who ever suffered of it.

Also, do you have any trick? What helped you overcome anxiety? Or at least make it smaller.

Thanks to anyone who would've read this and share their experience.

I wish you all a lovely day ❤️