when i was growing up my parents battled with drug addiction and chose drugs over me and my siblings. i never had the chance to eat because all of my parents money would go to drugs so i would be eating barely anything every week but just enough to keep my body going. this went on for 2-3 years. since i never got the nutrients i needed as a kid and me having a high metabolism, im super skinny and really underweight. im a freshman in highschool now and have been bullied basically all my life at school for me being so skinny and so small. i dont know how to stand up for myself or how to just “not listen to them” like people tell me to do because all it does is just hurt me. i even have a girlfriend that i love a lot and it seems like she cant even help me anymore. i dont know what to do and i just feel like im slowly losing control of myself. i dont have a will to live anymore, but im too scared to end it because i dont know what will happen next