-Sorry for the clicky baitness- I just wanted opnions-
Well it came down to it. I really didn't think I'd be making this kind of post but woe is me. I'm 18 and "BPD" I found of out what BPD was earlier this year and sorta realised I have these sorts of things going on in me. So i lerked on this subreddit for a bit...Forgot about it and did some drugs and then realised "wait maybe I am bpd" but I wann be a pschlogist i can't pity myself thorugh mediation and self improvement I can fight my way to happnyess "I dont wann be the fucktard who self diginsoes himself" But for the past 3 days I've been home while my familys away @ a beach trip. And I've been drinking,smoking, Adderall. 24/7.  not getting much sleep. Panicing about a greatraltion ship which I love but hate. Fuck. Im a bit ashemed of myself for typing something like this and will probally dealte this in a bit.  

Anyways yeah... So If I talked to a pschlogist and got meds. Would that help. Bc now i feel like I wann be anything but sober. 

Sorry this is probally so pathethic. 