I've dropped out of uni twice and I've been jobless at home doing nothing for over a year while being on several different meds. I'm on pregabalin and propranolol, so my anxiety is okay at the moment but I'm so bored of doing nothing. I sit at home and play competitive video games but I don't want to do it anymore because people online who play games are horrible, so it worsens my mood. 

My doctor is trying to refer me to therapy again (I was referred earlier this year but discharged because I didn't attend). I'm also trying to quit smoking weed but a few days after trying to quit I self harmed again.. not sure what else to say