Hi folks. Just got into a relationship, and well, she warned me. She said she was full of red flags. I figured I had my own, and that we’d make it all work out. And stuff like that. 

She’s got depression borderline personality disorder. A fucked up childhood, combined with a fucked up time in school, has led to her being all kinds of fucked up. She’s always so anxious. I try to comfort her and all, but it feels like too much, a lot of the time. She’s deathly afraid of a lot of things: swallowing the tiniest of pills, people’s opinions of her, strangers breaking in out of nowhere to murder her, applying for a job, wherever her dog is when she’s not around. She always jokes about killing herself, and whenever I try to tell her to stop, she says it’s how she copes. I don’t argue further after that. I just end up feeling defeated and hopeless. I end up dreading the next suicidal/self-depreciating comment she makes.

She always wants to be on the phone. And though I don’t mind her company, I can’t help but feel drained.

I don’t know how to this. I’m afraid of telling her because I feel like I’ll just end up triggering her. 

They say you take a piece of whoever you make love with wherever you go. But I don’t know. She knows how to make me incredibly happy. But she also knows how to make me incredibly sad. The self depreciation really eats away at me. I try to love myself, and sometimes it kinda works! But it’s harder now. I feel hollow here and there.

I don’t know. Can I make it work? Or am I just going to end up broken too?