I just get these bouts where I just want to bleed or see things bleeding and touch them. There’s something about blood that just feels really nice to me, more specifically seeing blood slowly seep out. Everytime I’ve ever gotten a cut somehow in recent memory I don’t really bandage it. I don’t self harm but I really wish I had the guts to do so. Blood legitimately calms me down and I dont know why. I also like how it tastes. It isn’t like a sexual thing in the slightest but something about bleeding really excites me and when i get a cut I get excited and happy. I try to squeeze every drop of blood out but it eventually stops and that disappoints me. If i could bleed without feeling pain i would cut myself all the time. I don’t like pain, I like blood. I can’t really tell many about this because they’ll think im sick in the head. I just wish there was a way to bleed with no pain.