TW: illness (physical and mental), paranoia, mention of psych ward, and therapy. 

So, to start I’ll give a quick one over of me. I’m 18F, soon to be 19, I currently have been diagnosed such PTSD, depression, anxiety, ADHD, and physical health problems. The problem I have is I always see symptoms for syndromes/diseases (mental and physical) and stuff and I’m terrified I have them. But I don’t know if I’m being paranoid or if I actually am dealing with stuff?????? Like is this normal? I’m so scared. I’m not afraid of germs, but my heart races a tonnn when I stand up and I think it’s POTs but I saw one dr and they didn’t think anything was wrong with my heart. But I also have symptoms for autism but I’m afraid to get tested because I asked my mom and she got angry. But as I stated above, I have ADHD, and some of the symptoms overlap. So I don’t know if it’s paranoia or do I have a reason to worry. I also think my PTSD is C-PTSD. I never knew that was a thing until I saw someone mention it, and I fit the symptoms for that perfectly like a damn puzzle piece. I’m in between therapist and see a new one on September 18, 8 days after my birthday. And I don’t know when I should bring these worries up. Since it will be the first time I see them. I was just hospitalized in a psych ward for 3 days after talking to a social worker in Intensive Out-Patient. So I’m all over the place. Sorry if that didn’t make much sense. Any advice?.... 

TLDR: I have mental illness already diagnosed and physical illnesses too, but I also see symptoms for other illnesses and think I have them but don’t know if it’s paranoia?