I have been stressed and amped up, a lot going on. Finishing up my last semester for my associates. Also summer is always stressful because of my Section 8 renewal. I believe I mentioned this in a previous post.

This last month was my sister's birthday and my other sister had several soft ball games. I guess I don't well with being there for other people, particularly my family. I show up, it's done, I'm ready to go home. Any way lately I've been isolating because I've been feeling overwhelmed and resentful towards everyone in my life. A lot of that is just my own personal shit and I am aware of that. 

My mother and I had a conversation on the phone and I tried to explain how I've been feeling...'angry and mean' was the way I put it, and I needed to be left alone for a bit. She totally flipped it on me. Not in a bad way, but in one of those ways where I felt like I completely fucked up.

Why can't I just be angry? Or tired? Or just not be okay? 

Anyway, if anyone has anything they would like to say feel free to weigh in. Me personally I just feel like to be alone for a little bit. Let me do my own thing and not feel bad for it. 

Just a stray thought: Everyone preaches about self-care but the moment I try to take it I feel like I get slapped on the wrist. Guess I am just not a family person.