I haven't spoken to my wife for over a month. Though she nags at me daily and tells me I'm a lazy ass who's not doing anything. 

I lost my job 2 months ago and I've been lying to everyone while working some side hustle with food deliveries until my bike broke down after a minor accident(Falling asleep at the stop light). The damage was light but it has problems starting up now. I missed a couple of orders and gave up after. I've been down for 2 weeks now without any income. 

My bills have piled up for 2 months and finally our telco terminated our mobile phones and that's when she finally decided to ask me what my plans are. I felt like shit and burst out at her after 5mins of her nagging. She finally asked for a divorce. 

We've been married for almost 11 years. I've paid the bills since day 1. We are both working and she keeps her salary for herself. She does pamper the kids with anything they want too. My income was 100% for the family. 

I'm at my lowest point right now. I'm still here just for the sake of the kids. I love them all and I really can't find a way to bring myself back up. 

How I wish I could fall asleep and waking up to 2019 again.