TW: thoughts of suicide. i’m terrified of being injured. who isn’t? the worry has become an obsession, though. killing myself to avoid other pain keeps coming to mind. i wish i could carry a cyanide pill with me to use in case i am ever stuck in a horrifying situation, such as torture. currently, my biggest worry is being burnt. what if i survive a car accident but am trapped in the wreck, then my car sets on fire and i burn to death? i could barely handle a lidocaine shot in my toe, i can’t imagine how bad being in a fire would feel. i feel so bad for everyone who has suffered extreme pain.