My boyfriend broke up with me because of my BPD. I begged him to stay and two days later we got into it again. “You know I’m unhappy , and I no longer want to be here LET ME GO LET ME GO. I feel like you’re holding me hostage”... it took everything in me but I said “okay you can go” my heart fees empty.(this was last night) we had a dinner plans tonight and I agreed to still go . My grandma is doing pretty bad right now and he knows I’m vulnerable. He wants to forget what happened last night but i genuinely can’t. If my BPD is what’s pushing him away it’s only a certain amount of time before I have another episode. He says he’s just scared but last night was horrible he kept yelling even after I kept asking him to stop. Idk what to do. I begged him to stay and he still wanted to leave . Now I let him go and he wants to come back ... It’s tearing me apart .