I think I'd be able to deal if we had a huge falling out, but because she just just ghosted me I can't deal with it. I really need to know what I did wrong or what her problem is.

I broke my 3 week self-isolation away from everyone else (online, of course), because I thought it would "do me good" to talk to people, but I regret it instantly because I keep doubting that they actually want to talk to me and that everyone will get bored of me. I've posted a ton of pics on insta and fb so that people will like them, but I'm checking every 5 mins to see how many likes I have and those that don't have enough likes I worry that they're crap and I should remove them. 

I'm such a fucking mess. I knew talking to people was a huge mistake. It felt good at first, but now I remember I'm actually dead inside.