This all started about a year ago, when I started to feel empty. You know, like you feel nothing or feel completely worthless. I started off my school year with no friends and joined at least 3 different activities just to make my parents feel proud. Instead, they sounded a bit annoyed when I told them about it, which made me feel absolutely horrible, like I did something wrong. They even cancelled my martial arts classes because I needed to, and I quote, "straighten up my act and stop being a b\*tch."

I've tried to tell them to get me a therapist or something, but they said that I'm fine and I just need to figure it out myself and eat and exercise, but that does me no good. My dad does have minor depression, but he handles it by himself. He doesn't understand that I am not him and will never be, even though he says he understands. I can't handle the stress that they don't see anything, leading me to isolation, anger, depression, and paranoia. My anxiety and TTM has even come back, and this time, I don't think I can stop.

So, I guess Happy New Year.