I’ve lost my job, lost all my friends, my sisters hate me and every little thing I do jus scares everyone, Im a complete monster, all I want is to jus do the right thing and feel loved. I’m just broken lol. I got kicked out of my sisters apartment and have no where else to go except back with my narcissistic mom, my phone recently broke and have no money to get it fixed my dumbass completed the DBT survey too late and can’t join a DBT group until November and I want help
so fucking bad I just want to learn how to treat ppl right, be able to keep a job  I just want to feel loved but Ik that’s a bad thing but I jus want It so bad. it feels impossible to get help sometimes being a guy with bpd. sorry for the rant I probs sound cringey and stupid, and i know for a fact most in this sub have it a lot worse than I do and I have so much love for all yall, the ridiculousness of how sick of a joke life is for ppl with this disorder there’s gotta be a special place in heaven for ppl with bpd. Like, gawdamnnn I swear the only enjoyment I get these days is watching the blood come out my slit’ wrists. 
Hope I didn’t break any rules in the sub and I really hope I didn’t trigger anyone but just needed that out my system lol.
Love y’all