I am just so simply dead . Cutting doesn’t cut it anymore 
Crying isn’t crying it’s pure agonising horror 
I knew I couldn’t do it . I’ve told everyone I can’t do it 
I know myself and I know what I can and can’t Handel 
And I can’t do it . I knew it I have tried I can’t 
It’s just that simple 
Why do people say suicide is selfish 
You know what is selfish? Forcing someone and guilt tripping someone to stay around for your benefit 
What about what I feel what about how I have never been anything more than just existing . I can’t do it. I need it to stop. It’s just as simple as that . And that’s not selfish . There is nothing I can do to fix it and I have never meant anything to anyone