I feel like my therapy isn't working and I'm not sure what to do. I'm in a three day a week DBT program and also see an IT, but neither feels like the right fit.

DBT I like for the skills, but the group environment is honestly very distressing for me to be in (I have empathy and care that everybody gets better, but although it feels mean to say, some of them are very volatile, and I find myself starting to get the flight of fight feeling). Add to that, my group facilitator is leaving and being replaced by a student facilitator who suuuuuuuuuucks (it's like watching somebody bomb doing open mic therapy... For three hours). 

And lately it just feels like my individual therapist is just trying to be my pal. And if I ever try to bring up something from my past that's distressing me, he just throws out some cliche or a "You know, when I was..." story that goes nowhere, then he tries to redirect me to something positive like whatever I'm working on creatively. It honestly feels like being treated like a dog.

That said, I just want to get better. These things don't feel like the right fit, but also I don't want to get in the way of myself.

The reason I have BPD is because my Mom has BPD, and I don't want to be like her. I want to take responsibility for my trauma and heal, and make sure my trauma doesn't spread to the people I love.

That said, with the therapy I have going now, I feel like I'm not healing my trauma. Just pushing it all away.

I don't know. I guess I just need to vent. I feel like a tube of tooth paste that's been run over.