So, after roughly 20 years of living with depression, I finally have a doctor who is starting to help me. 

I think my depression goes back to my late teens, maybe even longer after a traumatic childhood. I started self-medicating with weed and alcohol, from the age of around 14 and then harder drugs in my late teens. It wasn't until after an attempted suicide when I was 25 that I was first given medication with was 30mg of Citalopram which stopped me feel more sociable and more extroverted, however, I still had bouts of depression along the way with other side effects like constant sweating and paranoia, but never suicidal bad unless I forgot to take it. 

I was eventually referred to the NHS mental health team, who, under the advice of a psychiatrist advised me to take 30mg Duloxetine which didn't help much, so I was then given 60mg. At first, I thought it was helping, but the side effects started making life unbearable - I couldn't control my bladder and my paranoia was getting worse also the constant sweating which went on for months. 

My GP then advised me to lower my dose to 30mg Duloxetine again and to told to take Venlafaxine 37.5mg at the same time which caused me to go off the rails with slurred speech and being unable to move properly - pretty much like Ozzy Osborne, so I was told to go back to 30mg Duloxetine and wait to hear from the mental health team. 

I am now being referred to an NHS Psychiatrist and being told that they may start me on Quetiapine...

The great thing is that I am finally getting the support I need and will get to see a psychiatrist who may be able to figure out what the fuck is wrong with me!

Sorry this is so long, I just wanted to share my journey and hope some of you can relate?