I'm 24 now. The last two years were waay different from the rest of my life. When I started adulthood I was so stressed out about what I was gonna do for a career. I just never went to college because it doesn't make sense to me. It's just too complicated and I don't want my life to be complicated.

I thought maybe I could break into a web design career by learning technical things like database managers and so on. I just don't care enough though. I'm working long hours at a job and I can afford a studio apartment. It works for me I don't really care about anything anymore.

I think this is what I want. The only other thing I care about is finding someone that loves me. That's all I can focus on and I'm just so complicated that it might not be feesible to hold a relationship. I have to be single right now. I just can't do it. I can't do anything right now. I need to work. Work work work. Think about nothing else because when I think about anything else it's gonna hurt.