Drugs are my only coping mechanism.


They stop me switching from perpetuation of the following mechanism: 

state of deep irritation to the other person --&gt; feeling guilty about thinking this --&gt; trying to make up for it in an ephemeral way --&gt; confusing myself and the person involved --&gt; making myself anxious because of this all happening --&gt; breaking down internally --&gt; only being able to withstand talking about these problems --&gt; being irritated at myself --&gt; projection this onto the person --&gt; cycle continues.

Drugs aren't working anymore. Im scared.