Hey everyone. 

I am recovering from months of severe anxiety and panic attacks. Honestly lately I feel so much better and far less anxious! Nevertheless I was supposed to go at a dear friend's party 2 hours away and I couldn't make myself decide to leave. Normally before the anxiety/panic I didn't mind taking the car, I regularly drove to my parents 2 hours away, never been a problem. Even during the attacks I have never stopped driving, but I haven't driven that long for a while. This time I got in the car, everything ready, and I just started crying. I just drove back home and now I'm sitting in the parking lot. I feel a little like a failure, I could use a little sympathetic pat.