I don't understand why assisted death is so difficult to have like if I want to end my life and you don't wanna help me do it then I'll do it myself ? And It will be worst? Yeah sure patients needs to be sure of themselves but if people actually listened they will understand that a lot of times people really want it? 

I wanna die since I can walk and it's not even a joke. Everytime I wanna share it with someone or get help to do it they always like oh no your family will be sad but whether I die or not, my mental state is already hurting my loved ones a lot. 

I just can't live like that anymore and I know that my death will hurt some people. Don't make me feel more anxious about that. It's not selfish I could suffer from cancer too and asked for euthanasia. I don't understand why people consider mental health that different and less important than physical health. Everyone just care about it when the person in question hurt themselves physically and It's just dumb because of course they will hurt themselves if it's the only time people give a shit about them.

And no, I don't want the pain to stop and bla bla bla I just want to die. I hate this world too. Don't assume anything. When I search for help it's just for killing myself.

 it's always like "talk to someone" 
I got that type of help the half of my life, It didn't work and I don't want it anymore since years.  Now I want to die with the idea that I'll finally be in peace and I think it's okay.