I don’t know what to do anymore. Today has been a bad mental health : day for me. 
My intrusive thoughts of death are getting worse; when I was leaving my parents and dogs today to go home all I could think was last time I’ll see you and I got so so panicky. I’ve been having panic attack after panic attack since I got home, crying I don’t want to die but suicidal intrusive thoughts are stuck and it just feels like it’s never going to get better so what’s the point trying. I’m so exhausted, 
I have a therapist and she messaged me to say if it gets worse to call a GP and that unsettled me even more to the point I was sick. Can someone please help me make sense of these thoughts.
Had anxiety a while, have PTSD after an attack last January, spent the first 5 months of last year an anxious mess but never suicidal. Hits me most when I’m resting