I'm smart, I'm educated in a lot of different things. I went to school for HR, completed it, never pursued it as a career.  I got my nail tech license, I'm good at doing my own nails, I get compliments all the time. I never started doing other peoples nails. I've worked for an ecommerce company, so I know how to make money online with POD, but I never tried it on my own, even though I had someone successful at it there to help me if I wanted it. I have now learned about bookkeeping since I took accounting in HR. I made my own website, working on blog posts, and social media. I dont have any clients though, and I'm honestly scared to try and convince people to hire me. I'm trying to find a new job at the same time, in one of the worst times possible.  My confidence is shot.

I feel like a complete failure at everything. I make it to a certain point and dont try any further. I know I'm capable of great things but I'm so messed up.

I know it's common for BPD to not really have an identity and try different careers. How do you cope with the self-doubt and get over that last hurdle?