I've been having anxiety/panic attacks for almost a decade now and I'm at a point in my life where I just want to give up. Now, I know giving up won't help but  I'm tired-- my mind literally hurts. Sometimes I go to my room just to cry in silence and let my anger out. I wait for that "8th" day when my panic starts to kick in and I can't go living my life as a regular being without worrying about "what if it happens tomorrow?". Sometimes I want to have a panic attack just so the rest of the week I spend calmly. But once the 8th day begins, the fear kicks in again. Sometimes nothing happens, but, then I fear "what about tomorrow?". This has been going on for a while, but, this year-- this year I had my breaking point. I'm a struggling filmmaker desperately trying to get into the industry and for that, I have decided to shoot some shorts and concept films. Because of this, I now have a chance to visit NYC and I was happy until I had a panic attack and I'm scared for my life now. Making movies is something I want to do and I couldn't without worrying about feeling nauseatic, lightheaded, depressed, and ultimately embarrassed. Making Films is something I love and I couldn't do it-- hell couldn't even go to the theatres anymore without having a panic attack. All this made me just want to give up on life...  


P.S I went to a therapist and also took medications. Nothing major happened.