I was very good about taking my meds. But, recently, I dont care. I no longer see the point. I am unloveable, unwanted, and I feel awful anyway. 

I tried so hard to get better and build my life to be better. Just to have it all crash around me. Happiness ripped away. Abandoned. 

I wanted to reset, but even today I had to rush my cat to the hospital.  I honestly feel like I am not meant to be happy.