I'm not good enough.
"Everyone think they're not good enough." They respond "But it's not true. Artists are never satisfied with their arts and we are your worst critic."
But that's not the same. I have meet people who think they're not good enough and there really different from me. I am not good enough.
You compliment their newest drawing and they keep saying it's ugly. I never had any compliment. I was always struggling in our differents art classes. I was getting bad grades. I was the only one with no commissions from family. I was the one the jury told to give up when they would encourage everyone else. I was the one who was told my fears were true.
I'm not good enough.
Sometimes, I find my old classmates, from four years ago, on social media and I realize how far behind I am.
Sometimes, I think about my old classmates and ask myself if they all thought about it. If they all talked about it. About how behind I was.
I'm not good enough. And I will probably never be.