Hi everyone,

I've struggled with this for a long time. Lately I've been fantasising about being free of stimulus and sensation. I was really building up in my head that going to a float pod (sensory deprivation tank) would allow me to 'escape'. 

But when I was in there, my neck hurt. I can not escape my body. Buddhist monks still feel every sensation - muscle pains, discomfort, thirst. The body is never fully  satiated. I realised how much of me just wants to be free of it all. 

If sentience is suffering, how am I meant to accept being alive? How is it okay? Why is the answer for us not to prevent and end sentience? Monks learn to become 'equanimous' with sensations, but I feel it's such an intense practice to achieve that, I don't feel I could learn to fully accept pain.

(Also is this something therapist's can help with, or is it too big picture/spiritual?)

Thank you 😊