im at a point where i completely dont identify with myself anymore. this feels like someone elses body, i already changed my name on the internet and asked my friends to call me by a different name.

I've been feeling disconnected from myself since may 2020. but these past weeks, it's been getting worse. I really don't feel like ME.


im currently waiting to get a spot at a traumatherapist and i have no idea how to help myself or how to make this feeling go away.


and i get so frustrated. i try to draw it out but it's always the same drawing. me mixing into my surroundings.

pls help