 Hi guys... I've been feeling extremely high and low for the past couple of days. I just started dating again after 2 years and I met someone I really like. I mean, REALLY like. Rationally, I understand that putting expectations into something new is dumb and dangerous. He has told me that he likes me alot but because his idea of a relationship is outside the realm of what I have experienced (historically toxic NPDs), it makes me overanalyze things that eventually plummets high or low. Like if he says he likes me, my brain is like MARRY HIM NOW. And if he says he cant see me this week, my brain is like HE HATES YOU AND IS USING YOU. This is a ME problem. He is a great person and super realistic, I feel like my idealism and mood swings are going to ruin a good thing before it even starts. I have an intense fear of abandonment and I've been in therapy for it but I still have these brackets of time where my emotions are absolutely out of control. I have had anxiety all day and I can't stop crying (over nothing). I want to stress that this is not his fault nor is he doing/saying anything outside the realm of normalcy; this is probably what its like when you're getting to know someone. I can't get myself to slow down and to pace it because I have truly never experienced that.

Can you guys please leave me your favorite tips and tricks to manage your emotion? I've been writing, walking, working, distracting myself, and finally smoking weed when nothing else works :( I just really dont want to fuck up a good thing.