Note: i dont drink/smoke/cbd/drugs etc etc; only have 1 or 2 friends, wife included; no personal social network; military job; limited people skills; family history of mental illnesses; planner but not ocd (i think); my mind always races with patterns, projects, potential future conversations; (someone recently compared me to Sheldon from big bang theory, if that helps)

30 and i have no idea what im doing with my life; 8 years in the military just signed for a few more. I used to have some bad habits that kept this all in check... slowly got rid of those and now the anxiety has come with a vengeance. 2019-20 was great for me oddly, this has all hit within the last 2 months with a fast downhill slide. hit hard two weeks ago that i finally gave and went to the Doc and he suggested medication. Not fond of the medication idea... but at this point im game....maybe...because councilors are so backed up and he doesn't want to lose ground.... no I'm not suicidal, i do know exactly where that door is from family history. 

....im new to positive help...so...how do i do this?