I posted about this yesterday, but the situation has gotten worse and i feel worse and i should probably elaborate

FP is aware he is my FP, however very much takes advantage of it. He doesnt do much, and was still asleep at 4:30 when he had work at 5. He lives alone, so i called him to wake him up so he wouldnt miss work. This triggered something and absolutely set him off. I told him i was only trying to make sure he got to work on time, and didnt mean anything wrong. Was just trying to care. I told him he should probably try sleeping earlier so he will have more time in the day before work to get things done. (He hasnt gone shopping in weeks) 

This completely flipped him on the edge and shouted at me that 4:30 was an okay time. (Side note, i have a very rough time at home) he told me i deserved that treatment i got at home and that im an awful person for caring for my parents, because i do it because i HAVE to, and not out of choice or love. He told me all these awful things about how i am unemployed (i’m 20, in the middle of a pandemic, and a carer of both parents) and how i never do anything and never amount to anything. All of this because i told him he should wake up earlier. I know sometimes people can keep their feelings bottled up and let it all come out at one time, but i feel so awful about it. Hes just bullying me for nothing

I hung up because i didnt want to hear it, then called back after a few minutes. He told me he was blocking me. When i asked him not to, he said it was fine because he knew id be waiting for him when he wanted me back. I feel so used, but hes right. Im stuck here

He unblocked me at the end of work when i text him panicking about a party he was going to. Almost 200 covid cases here yesterday, and with already very sick parents, i didnt want to risk him going and passing it on to me. I told him if he went, id wait 2 weeks before going to see him again. He vanished all night and only text at 7am to say he “forgot” to text when he got home, and fell straight asleep. He only ever sleeps at 5-6am, so i know this isnt true

I know its paranoid but i think he went to the party and is trying to get me sick. I dont know what to do. I feel so numb and lost and i just want someone to tell me its okay and im not completely in the wrong. Ive always struggled knowing boundaries when talking to people but i just need to know if i was wrong for trying to get him up for work. Sorry