I'm 32 years old and I feel like my life hasn't been moving forward for some time. It's at nighttime when my depression kicks into full throttle and I keep wishing someone was next to me to help vent out whatever it is that's troubling me.

The issue of finding someone to be there, is that most people who have just met me, don't understand what I'm going thorough, or just don't want to deal with the extra baggage.

I try to keep my mind occupied with hobbies or any forms of entertainment, but it's hard to put on a smile every day and try to make everyone happy, when I'm feeling miserable inside. Don't get me wrong, I love to make others feel happy and good about themselves. I just don't know how long I'm going to be in this never-ending loop and I know I need to make some changes, but most days, I can't even gather the energy to be productive.

Sorry for the long post, and thanks in advance for taking the time to read this.