hey everybody,

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Last year my serious anxiety/depression (that i got for like almost 7-8 years now, im 20 btw) almost killed me. My girlfriend, best friend and parents helped me and i did go to psy emergency. Its been more than 6 month that i got a treatment and things are a bit better but it's still a deep pain everyday. 

The thing that annoy me the most is that this situation is affecting everybody around me including mostly my girlfriend (she totally understand my situation and help me a lot but still).

Im pretty much always confused about my feelings toward her, stressed, anxious about this relationship (that is really healthy and good for me but somehow anxiety is "falsing it"). But sometimes i can relax and be natural and stuff, when that is happening everything is fine and i like behing with her. 

In the end i think that most of my problems comes from overthinking, anxiety, stress and depression so i fight everyday to stay with her and try to stay alive so i can have a good time with friends/family.

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For those who are struggling with similar problems here are some advices:

\-avoid drugs and try to relax/meditate

\-sometimes you just need to have a walk around and listen to music

\-don't send long messages and don't take huge decisions while having a panic attack, believe me it will ruin you and your siblings 

\-Fighting that pain everyday is worth the moments of love you will have in the future

\-Life is pain, i believe it's true, but your vision of the world can change everything 

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Im sorry this post was long, but i needed to speak about that 

thanks boys/girls 

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stay safe 

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love