I (24 F)  met this guy 5 years ago on a study abroad program. We became friends instantly and i have basically spoken to him every day since - mostly via face time (sometimes two hours at a time) as we live in different cities but often visit each other. I have never liked him as more than a friend and would always kept him in that ‘friend zone.’ I also have never seen him as a FP (bit i dont know if that is now changing…) A year ago he lost a ton of weight - he basically looks like a new person. Long story short, The first person who showed interest in him became his partner in less than 2 weeks (he hadnt had any sexual encounters before this). He also was moving to another city for grad school and they decided to do  long distance. I told him that it was a silly idea since he barely knew her and they were suddenly going to do a ldr (also, he had never been in a relationship before). Nonetheless, he has continued this long distance relationship for the past 2/3 months. I have started to have conflicted feelings. 1) i feel abandoned - i have always had him to myself and suddenly there is someone else in the picture 2) do i actually like him as more than a friend and this is a way of my feelings showing themselves? I hate that i feel jealous and he doesnt deserve that - i do want him to be happy but its so hard now that someone else has taken most of his attention. I now feel like a nuisance when i speak to him and often think he is only remaining a friend to be kind. I feel like the best thing to do would be to put a lot of distance between us and then eventually, stop being friends. its just too hard for me and it hurts. And most of all, he deserves to be happy and i dont want to be selfish. I know i will end up making his life hard because of my insecurities and abandonment issues. Any input is greatly appreciated.