It makes me suicidal that he still keeps in touch with his other ex that he left me for. He is way more happier without me and it makes me wanna die. I hate myself every day and I want him so much in my life. Nobody understands the pain that I endure every single day of my shitty life. He hates me now and blocked me everywhere so I can't even contact him at all. All my dreams are now fucking ruined and I want to die so much.