I’m in my late 20s and my Father died a couple months ago. He had been struggling for a long time, but he was my best friend in life. Someone I knew cared for me more than anyone else. I have been depressed / suicidal in the past, but now I’m not feeling suicidal. But a weird feeling I’m not scared of death. I don’t know if I ever was, but now I almost look forward in a weird way. Not that I want it anytime soon. But when it happens I get to see my dad again. Just never felt this exact way before.