About me- I just recently realized that I have bpd. At first I felt devastated to admit that I have a mental illness, although I've suspected it for quite some time. Then came a feeling of relief because I felt like I could finally figure out what's wrong with me and could get more specialized help for myself. After doing quite a bit of research about bpd, I’m back to feeling discouraged. There’s just a lot of depressing things written about bpd out there, whether they’re true or not. Now I'm scared to tell anyone what I've realized about myself. I just recently started seeing a new therapist, and I want to tell her that I have bpd. I'm really worried that she will have stigmas about it like so many therapists do. I'm worried that I'm going to freak her out and scare her off. Everything I've told her so far about myself and my life clearly adds up to bpd, but I'm still scared that she won't believe me. I'm worried that she'll be upset with me for diagnosing myself. Perhaps all of this is completely irrational, which it likely is since most of my fears tend to be irrational, but it's making me question whether I should even bring it up or just keep getting help for the symptoms. Since the last time I've seen her, my fits of rage and paranoia have been especially bad. It's what caused me to start looking further into my life-long behavior problems in the first place. It might be the perfect time to tell my therapist since I've been having such a hard time, but I don't know how to get the words out. 

If anyone has advice on how to go about telling my therapist or can share with me how they told their therapist I would be greatly appreciative.