 So I had my first consultation with a psychiatrist earlier today. It wasn't the most ideal first consult since I suddenly didn't have a private area to use for the teleconsult. I had to look for an empty coffee shop to do my consult there. It was a bit awkward at first but still a lot better than having to do the consult with my roommate being in the same room. Although I feel like I wasn't able to share enough with my psych. She said that the symptoms I listed were symptoms of anxiety (although she can't give a diagnosis yet) which is why she wants me to start taking meds along with therapy. She gave me the option to do therapy only and I stated my preference for that, but she said that it would be difficult to do therapy when I'm still experiencing symptoms of anxiety.

After buying my meds, I'm suddenly feeling like my anxiety is not severe enough to need medications. I know it's crazy to waste money like this but I don't want to take my meds because I'm also afraid that I might depend on it too much. I also just quit my job so I'm afraid I won't be able to afford it once I start depending on it. I'm thinking to just keep the ones I bought in case of emergencies but I plan to ask my psych to continue with talk therapy only. Is that okay? I'm also thinking I might've made a mistake by going to a psychiatrist first, and not a psychologist.