so I’ve gone through a lot of cycles with my fp where I’ve cut them off when I felt that they hated me and wanted to leave me (which was false but now I’m pretty sure they actually do, they’re mad and have been ignoring me)

Ive been feeling the same lately but instead of cutting them off I’ll block our mutual friends that they like more than me because seeing them talk while they’re ignoring me is making me feel like shit and I don’t want to ruin our relationship even more by blocking them again 

I know that’s not normal but I don’t know what else to do and now obviously my friends are asking why I cut them off: what do I tell them? i don’t want to tell anyone about my fp because I feel so embarrassed