ive gotten SEVERAL texts from pretty much all my friends, but ive gotten to a point in my mental illnesses where i KNOW that i cant engage in conversation or get invested in anything but my fp and special interests. i know its not healthy but i can't help but feel like it's too much effort to try and apologize for ghosting, and THEN reconnect with people that i havent spoken with in months. the notifications have just been stacking up to dramatic levels. what is there even to talk about? how do you other pwBPD converse with anyone BESIDES your fp?