"Get better" is what they say, but you never truly can.

You will forever be who you were at your lowest point. Get better and have a positive outlook now? doens't matter; you will forever be the suicidal loser who's better off dead.

"You have to build it back up" they won't let me. Imagine investing hours into yourself to be told "no, we will never allow you to be seen as anything but you were". Why even bother? If you're not gonna like me for being this way, at least I should be that way.

It's all pointless. Those who say they're happy for you in reality are laughing behind your back.

It's pointless. All of it