This guy was my FP for many months and I have never loved him like anyone else in my entire life. i consider him my first real FP. ill spare details but basically i just have bad thoughts whenever he's around and I can't handle myself knowing that he's better off without me. I'm going to remove contact on any platforms that we have and stop seeing him in about two weeks, because I decided that it'll be a step forward for me..the past 3 days i have been relapsing really, really hard over him to the point of just physical and mental exhaustion, constantly really bad desperate thoughts about him and how happy we used to be, really horrible mood swings that translated into low energy...
This is going to be one of the hardest decisions for me this entire year. I need advice on the entire thing, how to cope with it all.