My ex and i recently broke up. I thought he was the love of my life. We were planning a life together and we lived together for a year and a half. But because of my depression and COVID our relationship struggled so we broke up. Since then I’ve had a rough time but I’ve come to the realization that he wasn’t a perfect boyfriend either. He never knew how to deal with my mental health and he’s very passive aggressive which drove me nuts. Yet I’m having trouble believing in a life without him. I still think about us ending up together and everything being happy and it causes my emotions to fluctuate and i can’t stop it. Help