Rats are my favorite pet. My elderly lady, Lilo, lost her cagemate and I have been looking for a cage upgrade when I adopt her some new friends. I ordered online with Chewy but it activated a fraud notification. I got it cleared up with a phone call, which I hate. I waited 2 days. I made another phone call, and they cancelled it.

I hate ordering from the other stores that have it available, so it stressed me out, but I cancelled the order since it didn't appear to be moving. I order from another store. 10 minutes later I get a notification that my order already shipped from Chewy, but they could turn it around. I DON'T WANT THEM TO TURN IT AROUND. I wanted to order from them in the first place.

It all combined into a panic attack that had me struggling to stay conscious, screaming, shaking, and gagging with no ability to address the situation. Every time I try to do something about it, my hands lock up or slam into a nearby object, hurting me and causing more panic, as I have anxiety-induced functional movement disorder.

This has happened at work before, and is the reason I left/lost both of my past jobs, but applying for disability assistance has been close to impossible because I am perfectly capable of the actual tasks. I go from high functioning to low-no functioning in only a few minutes, and it takes me hours to days to recover.

Everything just feels hopeless.