Background: Diagnosed with BDP this year but I believe I’ve had it since high school 

My future seems uncertain. I plan on pursuing a masters that is on route to becoming a therapist. However, I question whether I’m fit to become a therapist. I don’t start DBT until a few more months so I haven’t gotten a handle on my BPD yet. The little “traumas” if I could even call it that has made me someone who finds it difficult to empathize. But I don’t want to wait a few more years before doing a masters because then I’ll get a depressive episode by not aiming for my goals. I’m unsure whether I’m fit to become a therapist, so if I find out it isn’t what I want to be, I’m considering getting a PhD in clinical psychology. But because of my major depressive disorder and BPD, I question whether I can handle this as well. 

To summarize, I feel like I wouldn’t be able to attain my goals because of my MDD and BPD. I am lost as to what I want to become because I either feel unsuited,  unprepared for it, or fearful that I’ll be unabke to manage the stressors that comes with that career. I know I want to work in the mental health field, but I don’t know which route suits me the best... Sorry if I’m rambling. I’m just so lost.