i was diagnosed Bipolar II/ADHD this last November. I currently take 75 mg Lamictal, 20mg Prozac, 15 mg adderall. I had a hard time accepting my diagnosis and drank way too much (a couple times a week, but 4-5 drinks each time&amp;i’m a lightweight), smoked a ton of weed, and even did lsd. i have MUCH more acceptance now. I could cry with how well my meds are working. I had wake up call after getting so drunk at Disney and don’t remember waiting in line, taking photos or riding Carsland (my favorite ride 😭😂😵‍💫)  
I had been having 1 drink every couple of weeks at this point, but realized although i would have the time of my life while drinking, I would experience low motivation and mild depression afterward, every single time (usually lasting 1-3 days). 

i’ve come to the conclusion that i really need to live a sober life. However, my best friends bachelorette party is coming up in less than a month. is it so terrible if i choose to drink at my friends bachelorette? We’re going on an amazing 5 day trip and i really want to participate in the socialization of drinking. I understand this is me trying to rationalize, but i feel like this is when i should make an exception and allow myself to have fun. especially since i know what my side effects from drinking are, and can create a plan to combat some of my symptoms such as staying with a friend who can encourage me, or creating a very structured schedule? i plan on discussing this option with my psych NP, but just wanted to get some of your opinions. Am i being hard on myself and should i let myself have a little fun? 5/7 of the bridesmaids are my best friends since high school and this seems like one of the best celebrations we’ve had in some time (stupid covid 🙄) Or should i face the music and realize that i shouldn’t be drinking ever, because of my diagnosis. 

appreciate you reading all this and thank you in advance for your kind responses ❤️