My depression always seems to get worse when daylight savings starts. Every day is getting so hard, I just want to stop eating and starve to death. I hate what I see in the mirror. I know my girlfriend loves me but I feel like she should hate me. Why doesn’t she hate me? I don’t know who could ever love me. I can’t stop thinking that she probably doesn’t even love me. She’s probably just using me. But I know she loves me as much as I love her. So why do I think like this? Why???? She’s never done anything to break my trust. I just hate living it’s so hard to get out and do shit. I want to hang out with my friends but I feel like I don’t have any, even tho I do. Why does my brain just keep lying to me. It’s ruining my life.