Last night was torturous. I went into a full-on psychosis that I couldn't snap myself out of. I was pacing back and forth, crying, screaming, and couldn't form a complete sentence without breaking down. It felt like my head was on fire but I couldn't put it out. My thoughts were racing and I couldn't calm myself. I couldn't sleep so I took sleeping pills (probably more than I should have), poured ice-water over myself to shock my system enough to snap out of it, tried diaphragm breathing, meditation, counting, etc but I couldn't calm myself down enough to complete anything I tried. Whenever I'm like this, I can't really process what people are saying to me or respond appropriately to questions. 

While all of this was happening I got into a fight with a friend who didn't fully understand what was happening to me. That made it much worse.

Nothing helped until I forced myself to sleep. That's usually how it goes, sleep is my only remedy.

