I just am taking things on my time and being aware of my limits, I don't let people put me down anymore and I'm genuinely better and this is going for months. I'm eating better, I'm doing exercises, I'm not always procrastinating all the time and everything.

I'm loving myself. I stopped being so cruel and toxic to myself and I'm extremely self aware of the impact I cause on others.

I'm getting so much better that I started to cook again (I stopped because I was extremely depressive and just didn't had strength to do it anymore), I just know how I think and accepted my feelings, I still have episodes but I let myself have them because it's okay, you know? I have a mental disorder and that's okay, I'm doing my best and that's okay.

I just can't describe it, it doesn't feel like a high before a low, I'm feeling like this even when I have episodes. I'm actually getting better. I finally want to live again and this time I want to live to myself and only myself. My suicidal idealization is basically gone. I can't believe that recovery is possible.

I'm sharing this because I feel like there's too much negativity and I want people to know that they can get better even if they have a mental disorder. All opinions are okay,  even if don't agree with me of think I'm on a high state right now.