So I have an issue. I have no hobby. I wish I was good at sports but turns out I suck really bad (I get laughed at when I play). Same goes for video games. I tried learning guitar which I thought I was interested in but after 3 years I couldn’t even manage a single song. In frustration I gave up. I can’t even try singing, my voice sucks so bad that even my own family can’t stand it. I tried so many things in life…and at the end I end up discovering that I suck at everything so badly that I end up getting laughed at by friends and everyone else. Sometimes I feel like my brain doesn’t really function at all, even though I went thru college and have 2 engineering degrees. I am not even good at studies. I am barely clinging on and passing. There is absolutely nothing particular that I enjoy doing at all. And I mean I tried it all. Everything requires some basic skills and no matter how hard I try I end up not getting good or enjoying anything at all. What is actually wrong with me? Why can’t I be normal like others? Every time I get asked about my hobby I go completely blank. When I was a kid I used to say ‘sleeping’. Now I can’t even do that, because I even hate that now. 

Here are the list of things I tried but did not enjoy as much as I should have and am bad at doing even tho I practised for several months: driving; exercising; poker; skateboarding; socialising; storytelling; designing; coding; cooking; photography; music; dancing; painting; woodworking ; video gaming; board gaming; fishing; karate; reading; learning new language; soccer; fucking; collecting; amusement parks; eating; researching; magic; etc..

I have spent so much time in my life trying to be good at things like normal ppl but now I feel like everything was a waste of time in the end. 

If there is a hobby that is easy and does not require skills, which will also make me happy doing, or i need to try..…please let me know in the comments. Thanks.

And before you write about me going to a psychiatrist, everyone I talked with told me that its all in my head and I don’t need to go for therapy. But if you still think I do need therapy please add some reasons why you think so. 


I’ll just reveal three things about me…
1. Immigrant, staying in America 
2. Male
3. In my 30s
4. Asian
5. Working in a Lab 20 hrs a week and also pursuing graduate studies.