i dont wanna live, i get no pleasure or enjoyment in anything, never had a gf, still a virgin, everything feels meaningless as fuck. dont tell me it gets better, all the professional helps been useless, i cant connect to anyone. its impossible to buy a home, impossible to get a decent job, its impossible to be happy in such a stupid fucked up life, im tired of it. i just wish i was never born, i feel like i live in a different dimension  than most people.