I seem to live in 2 states. I am either overwhelmed with rage that makes me think of awful things (these thoughts have manifested a few times and thank god I somehow found a way out of trouble), or I’m not. There is no in between. When something frustrates me whether it be a mild inconvenience or a genuine problem I go from being fine to yelling, sometimes even throwing/hitting things. In the worst cases I can even become delusional and can’t seem to speak comprehensively. It scares my family a lot when this happens, especially my girlfriend and I’m terrified that one day she just won’t want to deal with it anymore. Have any of you experienced this and if so, what did you do that I can do to improve my life in this aspect?