So I've had a shit last 3 years with anxiety and depression. Shit stuff happened in my life and I just tried to ignore it all and ofc had breakdown. I'm in my final year of school and after being a pretty great student for years I've pretty much given up (naturally during the year that actually matters for my future).
I don't enjoy anything anymore, I stopped talking to so many of my friends and I basically drag through everyday unless I'm high.

The worst part is, I'm trying so hard. I started Lexapro in September, I've been going to therapy pretty regularly,  I go on a walk everyday, I force myself to get up and get changed and I try to journal. But I still end up lying on my side waiting for time to pass or having panic attacks. 

Idk my mock exams start tomorrow and I don't know what to do anymore. The future feels so fuzzy and unreal and I'm so tired and burned out. Does anyone have advice for motivation at or any small things that makes it easier? I can't keep going like this anymore.