Hello. 

I've been resuming therapy appointments to deal with some depression and anxiety I've been experiencing and she's talked to me about maybe going on some mood regulating drugs. The BPD interplay is how my attachment was structured as a child (it was insecure attachment-- my mom has BPD) and I show residual communication symptoms of it too, but I've not been evaluated. When I get down, it's sudden, and it lasts. I can't get out of it. I end up laying on the couch like a wilted flower for hours. This could happen at any point, based on something my boyfriend says to me, or if my best friend doesn't text me back in a few hours, or following an angry outburst at my kid for not picking up his toys (if I've asked like ten times). I just wilt and shut down.

I was hoping some of you out there could have an explanation for why this happens and tips on getting back up. The reason I'm not asking this in a depression sub is because my therapist stressed the importance of mood regulators over antidepressants because what I'm dealing with doesn't present as depression to her. 

Does this happen to you, too?