I’ve been going through the worst depressive episode in my life. Worse than I felt the first few times I’ve tried to kill myself. I hurt my friends feelings, it was my fault entirely I was stupid and incredibly insensitive. I have nothing I want to do, there is nothing that makes me happy. I’ve been thinking about killing myself again and I honestly I don’t see any reason not to do it besides making my close one’s feel bad, but really with time they’ll get over it and continue on with their lives. I’ll become nothing more than a sad story to tell other people. I don’t care about anything, I can’t care, everything I like just seems stupid and meaningless, even the sadness I feel as I write this just feels pointless. I just want it to be quick I don’t know. This post will also disappear with time. Not much to worry about.