does anybody else get really angry when they ruminate? i can't help these feelings of wanting revenge of getting back at people. I play it up in my mind like a fantasy and its driving me insane. I want to hurt them like they hurt me. and it kills me that all these people who did me wrong get to live a happy and carefree life, I think that's where the source of all this negative energy and hatred comes from. they get to be happy while im here ruminating !!! it's killing me inside

it's been two and a half months since my last "fp" left and i avoided feeling anything about it til a month in.. then it hit me. but now, instead of being sad, i'm just angry. i've been angry for a month straight. i listen to music about revenge, i plot in my mind, i feel sick w myself. i hate that im letting him have power over me like this. he doesn't care anymore so why do i?? and it's not only him that causes this anger, its anyone who has done me wrong.

how do you guys cope when you get like this? bc rn all i wanna do is throw a hissyfit