Im baffled that at age 23(f), I still get the overwhelming sensation of disappointment when things go wrong… like falling down the rabbit hole into my nest of depression when my life is inconvenienced or doesn’t line up with what I want or need. I’m disappointed that my life has to be so negative as a result of constant disappointment feelings… I thought by now I’d be desensitized to it! Iv been disappointed my entire life with my family, living arrangements, “friendships”, personal growth, plans, social settings, events/parties, I mean god, even food. It’s an overtaking sensation… does anyone have a glimpse into a resolve, approach, day in the life, anyyyything about this emotional response? It’s the reason Iv Been suicidal in the past, and as im aging I still lose my ability to stop intrusive thoughts the second I feel disappointed.