I just sat with myself with no distractions and all the loneliness flooded in. I never really had many friends and made none outside of school. No one reaches out to me and no one really wants to get to know me(not that I know who I am), I wish I could say it’s because I’m an asshole or am annoying. But I’m just nothing, boring, nothing to really offer a conversation. I want out of this, I go to work get home and sulk, my psychiatrist only helps because he is paid to listen and I really need that. I’m done with my coping mechanisms I’m done with my parents telling me it will get better, it’s mostly my fault I don’t try enough. Maybe I’m just unlikable, I wish I held value to myself but I really need just someone to see something in me. Sorry this is just a rant and I need to suck it up.