i have the almost romantic desire to rot, like a zombie.

ok so i’m autistic, it might just be a hyper fixation.
and i do have depression and anxiety (i suspect my depression is actually bipolar disorder but we won’t talk about that) 
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so basically i have an undying almost romantic desire to rot like a zombie, it sounds strange i know
but i just think it would be really lovely.
like teeth exposed through my cheek, one eyeball missing.
what does this mean? do i have serious issues? should i talk to my therapist?