Whenever I find a hobby or a thing I like my anxiety ruins it.

It's always "what if I can't do it anymore?"

Then I start obsessively searching for solutions in Google. If I like  a online video game I think "what if the game shuts down?" Then I start researching the game's income but ultimately no one can predict the future so I just abandon the game.

This has been going on for years and now it has ruined the one thing that I thought I could never lose which is reading.

Few weeks ago I read a double negative sentence which I couldn't process on my 1st try so I started searching about double negative sentences and now I reread every sentence that contains a negation ( not even a double negative) until it feels like I have understood even though I know what it means. I have read the words don't, doesn't etc., so many times that they've lost all meaning. If I don't stop to analyze the sentence I get a intense anxiety that I will never be able to understand it.

Reading was the last thing I had and it makes me so sad I am not able to do it. Is there any way of getting back into reading without getting anxious?