i (f, 21) am really struggling with the realization that i have bpd. i was misdiagnosed as bipolar for two years before even hearing about bpd, only because my therapist said he “hated borderlines” &amp; wouldn’t diagnose me. i’ve been to a few other therapists who have started a bpd diagnosis, but i keep rejecting the idea so i stop going to therapy all together. 

i struggle with age regression, which i think is my biggest problem. half the time, i’m 100% normal &amp; everything is fine. but when i start to get upset, frustrated, angry, or any sort of negative emotion, i go CRAZY. i throw literal tantrums &amp; sob uncontrollably, i feel scared &amp; needy, &amp; i often times can’t form sentences correctly because i’m so worked up. i feel like i’m on fire when i get emotional. i act irrationally &amp; it’s embarrassing when i finally snap out of it look back on how i acted. i feel like i’m driving my girlfriend crazy &amp; stressing her out with my constant switching emotions. 

does anyone else experience this? how does it affect your romantic relationships? how do you deal with the strong emotions in a healthier way?