
I’m 32M, recently diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder and Borderline personality disorder. I finally decided to seek treatment after being kicked out of a business I started that grew into a multi million dollar business within a year, due to breach of Fiduciary duty. There have been so many times where I’ve felt I had everything, and was unstoppable. I have opened 4 businesses in the past decade all of them started well, and then I either got bored or mismanaged the money. I have had to sell basically every possession I own, to just pay the bills that I let go overboard due to the money I was making. Not only that, but I can’t maintain a relationship for the life of me. I become overwhelming to everyone around me and everyone says I’m too intense. I have been prescribed lamictal, and just started taking it yesterday but unsure of what the side affects I’ll experience are. Im frustrated with myself because deep down I knew something was wrong but chose to ignore it. I lost a girl who I love because I don’t know how to express myself in a way that doesn’t come across as a psycho. I have just sat here thinking about my life and the same cycle that had played out. Achieving great success and then losing it all so damn quick. I’ve pushed everyone I know away. Im starting to finally come out of the depression that lasted for almost two months, and I just laid in bed, and did nothing while bills piled up and everyone continued to live their life. Im in a financial bind that isn’t going to stop getting deeper. I have been door dashing to just keep money on me, but it’s annoying going from running all revenue generating for a business I started, where I had to be sharp and use my brain everyday and make very tough decisions, which I was rather good at, to dropping food off on people’s porches. Where do I find support groups? To be honest I’m tired of being alone and tired of feeling like no one understands me. I want to get better so bad, and not have this happen again. I have been constantly reading on my diagnosis to learn as much as possible. I’m hoping this group and reading others stories helps ease my brain a little. Sorry foI the rant I just don’t have anyone to really talk to that would get it.