i was diagnosed a couple weeks ago and told over and over again that it’s a “good thing” that i know what’s going on now. it’s not. it’s fucking not. i have an incurable, broken personality and it’s not going to change. i’m never going to have a healthy relationship, i’m always going to care more than i should and it destroys me. a month of intensive, every day group therapy (dbt  included) with absolutely no fucking progress or change!! got admitted to the program after a near attempt. i actually was delusional enough a few days ago to think things were gonna be okay, that i was getting better. i’m not. i want out. i want to be dead. i’m sick of this.