I'm out of town and having a really hard time. I'm barely okay when I'm at home and in control of my surroundings but now I'm hours from home for days and I'm panicking. I want to be at home. When I get anxious/paranoid I usually take a hot shower but now it will be weird explaining to my family why I'm in the shower multiple times a day. I know I'm not mentally well but I'm really trying to make it through the next few days. I don't have a choice. I feel like I'm going to have a freak out or breakdown like the last time I went on a trip. I just don't know what to do.