I’ve been self-harm free for a few months now, but I relapsed last night and cut my thighs because my FP was acting like a dick. I begged him to reply back, and he kept ignoring me. He’s  been pretty abusive and manipulative in the past, but I never could leave him. I just blocked him but all I want to do is talk to him ALL THE TIME. I know he’s bad for me, I know he’s been awful AND now he doesn’t even care about me. He’s found someone else and my jealousy is killing me. Why can’t I cut him off like I cut everyone else off? Why can’t I stop loving him so much? It’s like an addiction and if you have any advice on how to hate him/stop caring about him… At least on how not to text him again… Please share, because I’m dying and I need it.