my (19f) boyfriends mom always asks me what im going to do in the future. like “are you ever going to go to college” and “in the future you’re not gonna be able to pay rent and expenses with the type of job you have”. it’s just frustrating and honestly it’s just so much that’s frustrating me. sometimes i just think that this whole life thing isn’t for me. i don’t know what im doing with my life and frankly i really don’t care i just want to sleep forever, i hate this so so much. i wish that i was someone that wasn’t diagnosed with this shitty mental illness. people say it gets better and honestly it fucking does not - well atleast for me. im always going to live with the fact that i have MDD and it doesn’t go away you can’t just get rid of this shit. im not even religious and sometimes i just pray to God that i will get thru this and get better.