How do people here deal with the aftermath or fallout of a public nervous breakdown on social media or with a popular SO/FP? Any tips for regaining your sense of self-worth or putting yourself out there again after getting treatment or coming out of a dark period? I have a lot of residual shame and anxiety from my public meltdowns prior to my first hospitalization, and recently I've relapsed in a big way. I don't have social media, so being cancelled or something like that doesn't really scare me - it's more like I'm afraid I will start building a career or relationship and then have it fall apart because of old news circling back on me. I know to some degree I will have to bear my various crosses until I'm in the grave, but I'm wondering if anyone can offer advice on how to do so more efficiently/with less anxiety. 

Trying to make sure that when I'm ready to call myself recovered and get out there again, it doesn't take several years of false starts and missed opportunities. How can I become more efficient at this?