every day i wake up it’s the same thing. i can’t even scroll social media or talk to my friends or family without thinking i’m stupid. every time i have a thought or say something i feel good about, my brain immediately tells me i’m wrong and shouldn’t feel good about it. that every time i understand something, i’m not getting it the same way someone smarter would. this all started with my co workers, social anxiety has taken over my entire life. i’ve felt this way since the beginning of june. it’s ruining my life and i need it to stop or i’m gonna kill myself or something. and every thing reminds me of my anxiety. oh, a pleasant memory? oh remember how you were having debilitating anxiety during it? i’m so tired. i think everyones smarter and more eloquent than me. and every time my anxiety goes away i remember it and it call comes back. i miss not feeling doubt and hopelessness all the time. i have nothing to be happy about. i am not okay