The love of my life, I miss her so much. I screwed up and let me emotions take over me. I'd do anything to get her back. 

I was already upset about some things not related to her and wanted to speak to her. I approached her with an attitude, something I since realize I did and shouldn't have, to ask her to speak to me. When she came to speak with me, because I had an attitude she was a little in a combative mode. I'm not really sure of the events that followed until I flip over our make shift coffee table in a fit of rage. She told me she was going to call the police. I did not head her warning and instead continued my fit of rage. At one point I did infact push her, not with an intention of hurting her at all, but not the less she indeed did end up hurt as she fell over the couch. Instead of stopping with my rage, like a monster, continued. Not place my hands or any other part of me on her, but verbally. 

We do really well together most of the time, like other couples we do have our argueements. I was originally depressed about 3 different things going on in my life and just want to talk with her about them but instead lost my best friend and soul mate. 

She left me a week ago today and hasn't spoken to me since but to tell me not to talk to her ever again. If that what she wish and will make her happy I'll do it.

I know I screwed up, and I don't know were to go with anyone this. I love her so much that I've been on the worst emotional Rollercoaster of my entire life. Never in my life have I ever been scared of where my head is.

I'll always love you Angel. You'll forever be in my heart to the day I depart.