Hey there!

I just got this HUGE crush on a guy from my taekwondo class for like a month or two and it's really really overwhelming.
It's a first for me I've never had a crush before since I havent seen a human being for like most of my life lol (been homeschooled thru middle and highschool and just got into college) so the intensity of these feelings is enormous.
And it started torturing me when I got his insta, last week.
I always wanna text him and I sent the first text, and earlier today a second one. I don't wanna send more because he'll probably feel like I'm harassing him lol. (and i feel like he hates me and wants to block me blablabla I know you know)
I'm ALWAYS waiting for a text from him, I'm checking my phone every 5min and he's on my mind like 90% of the time.
When I see him during class I'm trying to look at him and be close to him but I'm also trying to hide it because I don't wanna seem weird.
It's horribly exhausting and it makes me feel awful especially since he doesn't seem to care about me.

Any tips?? 😭