My mom died of covid last year. She was my bestfriend, I dont have anyone to talk to at home aside from my 6 yr old son. My husband works abroad and I don't have a lot of friends to confide with. I am having issues with my MIL and its affecting my relationship with my husband, feels miserable too and we're almost going into a break up. I have been unemployed since 2019 and I feel like im a failure. I feel like all my decisions in life was bad. Idk i just want to die and escape all that im feeling. Wish I could just do it.