So as of april 20th 2021, i moved from oregon to arizona and it being my first big move. After some time, like about a month or 2 into our apartment i started hating living here, like everything. The small space, living with my girlfriends dad so we have to keep quiet all the time. My girlfriend works mornings and i was working nights so all i had to do was play video games and sometimes binge drink. Around june-july period i started to really hate it and i realized my life outside of work was nothing. It had its moments where i enjoyed it but i missed my family, friends, old coworkers, and especially my dog. After july i noticed my anxiety was flaring up more and more as the weeks went by. I still continued to binge drink (out of boredom) and it went on till the end of october where my dog died of cancer a week before my birthday. Thats when i noticed i was starting to spiral down. After my birthday weekend i was starting to feel really depressed on my work week and when i got to my last day of the week i had a anxiety attack. Went home and felt so discontent it affected me all weekend. Well when it was time to go back to work i had 2 days of heavy insomnia. From there, anxiety and depression were in full swing to a point where i considered seeing a psychiatrist. I was now fully anxious all the time, episodes of agoraphobia, tiredness etc. So i dont know what triggered this and it felt so bad. Im now on 5mg lexapro for 3 weeks now and i think its starting to help but idk. I still feel spaced out all the time, i cant fathom going back to work for 12 hr shifts at night again. Driving feels scary when you feel so spaced out so i tend not to go anywhere unless i need to. Is this normal? Is my dogs passing a trigger or is this homesickness?