I've had a nightmare trying to access services to get help with my mental health issues. I had eventually (12 month wait) been seen by a psychotherapist but was discharged in December due to too much complex stuff going on in my life and my therapist feeling it was unethical to continue therapy, especially as she was going to have to pass me to a different therapist. I realised that my depression was getting worse so got myself referred again, mentioning to my GP about my concerns that I may have BPD. This was 3 months ago.

I got a call yesterday from psychological therapies. They want me to go to appointment. I think, "great, an assessment" but I got the confirmation letter today and my appointment is with a cognitive behavioural therapist. I've done CBT before. It doesn't really help me. I need a proper assessment for BPD (I've never managed to be fully open with anyone before about how I am) and now I'm worried about how long I'm going to have to wait and frustrated with the fact they want me to go through CBT again, even though I'm not likely to respond to it.