This is a weird one. Starting with the first guy I was in love with you came across this phenomenon. I acted like him. He would speak a certain way and I spoke like that too. To this day in fact. I thought it was the most amazing thing in the world back then but today it's just annoying. Guy number 2 was vegan so I was too. Today I am a vegetarian and went back to eating fish but I had a really hard time. My partner now, the love of my life, we are almost three years together. He does not pay attention to brushing his teeth. So neither do I. I hate this. Sometimes it really hurts me physically in the bones this need to brush my teeth. Every time I become aware of it I get angry. I'm mad at him. Angry at myself.

I saw a picture of us from 3 years ago and my teeth were white and perfect there and it was so important to me and still is so important the hygiene of my teeth. But every time I say something about it, he gets upset and he does not understand that I have an annoying mechanism of imitating him.

I'm really trying to sort out my schedule and behavior that is mine and only mine but I just do not succeed. I go to bed when he goes to bed - eat when he eats. I brush my teeth when he brushes also that it is completely contrary to what I want.

I'm really, really trying to get out of it because it just makes me just angry and resentful towards him and it's not fair but I also can not get rid of this behavior of mine.