I have been dealing with symptoms of schizophrenia for about a Year now. I don’t have a diagnosis at the moment as my Insurance sucks. I have been trying to get into Therapy for a year now, 


Tonight has been the worst episode by far. The Voices. The Figures. The feeling of not really been me. I can’t take it anymore. I WANT TO BE ME AGAIN. I don’t want this to be my new world. I don’t want to be this.


I stood and watched my face disappear in the Mirror while they said the best way would be to end it. How nobody would care.


I know that’s Bullshit. My family loves me. My friends love me. They have been trying to get me help. They have been looking for anyone who would take my Insurance. I have tried to cover the Cast. I really really have.


I don’t even know what triggered it- I have had a great fuckin day. With my grandparents who love me.


This isn’t okay. I can’t handle this anymore. I am really thinking about going to a hospital…I can’t live like this anymore..I am not going to suffer anymore