A lot of family destruction and upheaval, disowning, PCP dropped me suddenly for having too many health issues, up since 4am, stayed on the phone for 5 hours calling in a 30 mile radius, no PCP will see me. My disability was determined, 2 months early, 2 weeks after I got out of a week in the psych ward, they won't tell me on the phone, have to wait for mail. It was determined Friday. I don't know how long mail takes to get from Kentucky to Pennsylvania. I upset my only support at dinner. It's done. The emotions are gone and I can't speak words. I'm exhausted and disillusioned, i am numb and receding. Please let me read helpful suggestions on how to find reality again, please.