I used to get terrible panic attacks a couple of years back, I suffered for 4-5 months before the Covid thing Happened. I used to feel good about myself for last 1 and a half years but for the last one Month I'm missing that feeling. I have been feeling way more lonely nowadays and I cry my heart out when I can't hold it in. I have been judging myself a lot recently and I think I need to stop. Like I judge myself on how I look, how I talk, how's my social status etc. And it makes me feel bad everytime. 

I'm trying hard to change some of the things I don't like about myself, but I don't like the feeling of judging myself on every damn thing. I'm craving Affection so much now for the last couple of weeks. I'm 20 and have been single for my whole life and I'm really craving some strong Feminine And Romantic Feeling in the life for some time now. I just got a Panic Attack Craving this. 

I'm working towards a change in my life though and I really hope that I'm gonna be better in next one year.