ever since my dad died I've had anxiety, then I lost my best friend I spent the most time with 1 year ago and seems to have got worse.

I feel like these things have made me want to do more in life and live life to the fullest but I can't stop overthinking and worrying and having bad anxiety no matter what I do, it's like I always need someone to tell me dude shut up your overthinking it will be ok, every day.

why can't I just tell myself that? most of the things I overthink about aren't the end of the world even if they seem it to me and most of the time there is nothing I can do to fix it right now

tried meditation but can't focus for more than 1 minute without the voices crowding my head

tried medication but the side effects made me feel awful

its taking so much engery and life out of me I barely sleep and eat and its affecting my work. I need to change before its too late