I honestly cannot fathom a normal relationship with a normal person.I believe I have some sort of stockholm syndrome with narcissists(my parents were both narcs).On the upside when the narcissist feels"trapped" and leaves for a few months you know she/he will be back at your doorstep begging to be taken back in(because a borderline is the perfect supply)Also fortunately once you realize this you can curve the narcs behavioral problems by not giving into their traps.