Obviously having BPD isn't something you can control. Otherwise we'd all just flick the switch to being happy and healthy quicker than you could say fp haha. But I find a lot of the time it doesn't really stop me from feeling bad about having potentially developed this disorder. 

*Disclaimer*
*I am not officially diagnosed but I've recognised a lot of the traits within me and I am working up towards finally going to a doctor as soon as I turn 18 in a month or so.*

But something that puts me off is knowing that the majority of PWBPD have suffered from trauma or issues within their childhood, such as neglect. I know I had issues within my childhood and I know sometimes I'm in denial about it. It's just my relationship with my family has improved since then and so I feel bad about how it's something I haven't just gotten over. But again I know it's hard to simply just move past these issues without addressing them. I guess I just feel guilty because I don't feel like my struggles are valid enough to have led me to have developed this warped way of thinking. I suppose it's literally like gaslighting yourself lmao. Has anyone else experienced these same kinda feelings?