How do you hold down a job with this illness? I used to have a good full time job and was popular with lots of friends then i had a breakdown. Fell out with all my colleagues and had to quit the job because I was so ill and harming/suicidal and making attempts. Then I got a part time bar job  but then my mental health dipped again. I rang in sick alot taking overdoses and jumped out a window etc. I quit that job then got a new job part time cleaning holiday lodges. And I'm sat on my bed rang in sick feel like just giving up with working. Struggling with dark thought and severe depression. Also just got a new job as a carer (I haven't started yet) but already feel like giving up with it too. Can't even care for myself nevermind anyone else. Such a failure!