
I think i’m depressed. I have little to no motivation to even think. I can do some hygiene stuff but my mind is usually a flurry of random thoughts and nothingness I guess. 

I haven’t been happy in so long. Like actually happy. I’ve had days where i’m happy but man I’m so sad so much. I’m 17 and have a girlfriend and literally everything should be happy but i’m not. Why? What the fuck is keeping me from fucking happiness holy shit what the fuck. God. 

I started crying while i’m writing this. This is a rant so i’m just writing what i’m thinking. The only think keeping me from leaving this world is there’s debates that killing yourself is sending you to hell. I just want to be happy but it takes so much to even think about productivity. 

I know what I have to do but it’s like my mind has to run 100 miles to get there. I get midway through a thought and I lose all motivation and energy to finish it. Someone please talk to me. Please. I need someone. I don’t want to burden anyone with my shit but please God. Please. I know I sound corny but man. I suck.