I haven’t been diagnosed and I’m sorry if this comes off as ignorant or even offensive to some people but I could use some serious guidance here! I think that when I first started having a lot of severe mood swings and started to isolate myself I just assumed it was depression and I was fine with that, this was during the pandemic so I wasn’t to stressed as a lot of people where having these issues and if the whole world is isolated, not contacting people just felt like an addition to the whole staying at home thing. A year or so later, now I feel like I live entirely in my head. I can parent myself which is fine, and i feel no need to cause any harm to anyone else but I’m just entirely in my head and sometimes get periods where i hate myself so much, and sometimes I feel in so need of other people that I just isolate myself from them even more. 

I’m not sure that quote articulated what I’m feeling since I’ve been feeling it for a couple of years now so I’ve just kind of gotten used to it. I’m a fully functional member of society a participate socially and have friends, none of who me I feel I can fully talk to about this, and at this point instead of embracing my flaws I feel ready to recognize that it is perhaps just instability, and over-sensitivity to the things around me. So, since I’ve been doing some research on what could be, I was wonderi if anyone recognized symptoms of bpd?