Hey guys, 

This is one of the problems that arise from my BPD that I consider the most embarrassing: I feel totally rejected by knowing that my boyfriend watches porn despite us living together. We've fought over it a lot in the last year, mostly because there seems to be no way for me to feel not totally nuts that is short of him stopping all together. There have been a couple times where I knew he was watching it and gone nuts, but there have been a lot more times where I am just being jealous and paranoid when he's not.  

I have no problem with porn, I make no moral judgments about it. I just get this overwhelming sense of "he doesn't think I'm good enough/attractive enough if he's resorting to porn." I know that's not based in reality, and it's frustrating to feel these feelings come up even though I have come to understand our relationship is stable and healthy and that — at least logically — I know he does not see me as inadequate. My paranoia continues to be disruptive, though I no longer give in to making him hear about it.

Wondering if anyone else with BPD struggles with their partner watching porn. Is this common, or am I really off the deep end with this one?