For the record im not  diagnosed yet but im suspecting i have BPD or something else. I "split" whenever things dont go my way or when someone doesnt answer my messages. I cut people out to the point i have no one left to talk to.  I read that many people with BPD think they are evil. But is it normal to fantasize about it? I often daydream about being a high functioning psychopath/supressing guilt.