I told her that I don't want fuck all to do with her. I don't want her presents, the food she cooks me, the fucking texts she sends me in the day. I just want her to fuck off.

I told her I'm waiting for her and dad to die so I can do myself in without the guilt, so if she would just clear off that's half the problem solved. 

She only expressed concern at how I didn't buy a certain gift for someone when I said I would.

What the fuck is going on. Why am I like this? For fuck sake. My poor fucking mum.