oh I’m spiraling deep

Contacted my ex and had a panic attack and a screaming fight (on his side, not mine) my neighbors prob hate me and think I’m insane, let’s not forget this was my abusive ex and a relationship I cannot let go as he’s been my FP for 7 years 

Broke up with the guy I was seeing because I told him I didn’t like pet names after he called me beautiful/gorgeous as a noun and he had some attitude so next course of action is to blow up  and block him right? 

That same guy liked my best friends photo of her tits just to spite me

Half my tooth on a root canal tooth fell off whilst eating a fucking French fry (thanks, eating disorder!)

Haven’t eaten now in almost 24 hours and do not intend to because I’m too scared

Spending money like I’m Jeff bezos himself 

About to write a strongly worded email to my possible new therapist for not fucking responding to me yesterday after I filled out the new patient forms so I didn’t get fucking scheduled and he doesn’t seem to understand I need help. RIGHT. NOW.


Fucking FUCK FUCK FUCK

HELP.