Since 2015, i've been taking xanax 1mg x3 a day due to bad ptsd, anxiety, and panic attacks. I went to my last psych appointment and everything seemed fine. I go to pick up my meds and I only received 15 xanax. I called and she made an excuse about insurance then decided just to throw me on a 30 day supply of clonidine. I am really struggling. It would be different if we talked about getting me off of it and gradually weaning me down but just straight up taking it away is lethal. I've been trying so hard to hold it together but i'm a mess. My anxiety and these withdrawals are off the chain. From the moment I wake up to when I eventually fall asleep (I have terrible insomnia and xanax would also help me sleep). The clonidine has some what helped with when I wake up but it does not last through out the day. I tried calling and explaining it but she doesn't care. You cannot just do this to someone. The correct way is weaning down slowly with xanax or kpins. I'm calling again tomorrow to see if there's anything they can do. I've also been smoking medicinally at night to help me sleep and eat; when i'm feeling ahhh i'm not hungry and rarely eat. Does anyone have any advice on how to approach this?  
The summer makes things worse due to living on a lake around a bunch of people and constant fireworks. Also, the government just took away my disability and I have to find a job after three years; my anxiety is just at its breaking point. .-. 

I also have bipolar, ptsd, depression, and insomnia on top of all of this. 

I've been on lamictal for bipolar and honestly I don't really feel much of a difference but i'm terrified to keep changing out my meds. I wish these issues didn't exist and I could just feel like a "normal" person. .-.  
Sorry for the rant. The struggle is real. .-.