
Do you ever have this feeling where you feel like you’re not living in reality, that you exist but you don’t feel like you’re there. People talk to you but you feel like you aren’t real and you sometimes don’t even know yourself. That if you were to fade people won’t even remember you and that life is just pointless and boring. You want to get hopeful but you don’t see a point, you don’t even want to bother and you just let life go on but the fear of growing old and alone scares me too. I look in the mirror and I think to myself who am I and where did the old me go away? I don’t even remember the old me, I don’t even remember a time I was truly happy, life seems like a blur it’s crazy that sometimes I think maybe all the things I experienced weren’t real or more so the times I was a little happy maybe I wasn’t happy and that I’m faking everything in my life.