
After seeing a disturbing shock site on the internet I have become obsessively traumatized and now I keep having desires to lookup things that I know I don’t want to see but fighting the urge gives me intense anxiety. I keep having thoughts to search up things that I never wanted to see in the past but now part of my brain has a strong desire to see these things. One weird obsession I’m currently having is to lookup “top disturbing websites” just to see what the source website looks like that lists all theses websites. I don’t want to do this because then I will see all the bad websites and have a temptation to look them up as well. I don’t know what to do I have been dealing with this for weeks. It went away last month and came back. Please someone help me I’m so desperate. I just want my life back to normal. My heart has been beating nonstop and I have been feeling exhausted. I don’t even know if this is OCD or not.