Ive been struggling for years now, and i just can't seem to get help.
I finaly found a psychotherapist near me but i just don't have the courage to call them.

I'm pretty sure that I'm not neurotypical, i struggle with a lot of basic things and don't know how to function like other people, i also struggle with anxiety and on top of that i have to keep this a secret from my parents because they are against me seeing a therapist, so I'm on my alone. 

I know that the simple answer is to "just do it" but it's really not that simple. I need advice on how to force myself to get an appointment.