This has been one of the worst years of my life but STRICTLY mentally. Probably the most I’ve suffered yet in my 24 years of life. I’ve had to get help again (and I still am currently). But the one thing I’ve found that kinda bugs me a lot is the fact that I’m doing VERY WELL?

Situationally... I am taking care of myself for once! I’m meditating, exercising, drinking my water, quit drinking alcohol, setting boundaries, working on my talents and majorly improving, loving the job I work at, taking myself out on dates, seeing a guy but not even worrying about it working out or not, I’m about to go back to college for a certificate, my cost of living is about to go down, I’m budgeting and saving lots of money, bought a new laptop.... okay I’m listing too much now but you get the point. I’m GUCCI rn. I don’t have anything to complain about. 

However, to my brain there is a completely different story. I have no idea why my brain just cannot recognize how well I’m doing. I’m even on medication again (yes it has helped me a lot but I’m still struggling). It’s frustrating because no matter what I do, my mind still goes haywire majority of any given week. I do have some pretty good days tho (like today for example). I’m just so annoyed, I’m so grateful for everything I have an I SHOULD be very happy and content yet my brain always has something to say otherwise...

Who else feels this way?