I'm hopelessly in love with this girl I've been seeing for the past 6 months. We decided to stop dating a few months ago cause she had no feelings for me but she was OK with spending time together and sleeping together. She is everything to me. I feel bad when I'm not around her and I have panic attacks every now and then and she's the only one who makes me feel good. 

A couple of hours ago she said she needs space from me because we spend too much time together. I feel like shit. I don't know what to do. I'm already going through a tough time at work and I will lose my job in a couple of months time so her not wanting to see me anymore is just the worst. 

I still have a few morphine pills from when I cracked my ribs. I want to take them all and drink as much wine as I can. Maybe I won't wake up tomorrow.