By all means I’m not seeking for someone to talk to or anything, but I just wanted to get this off my chest. 

I’m a broke 22 yo college student who’s dealing with depression. I’ve been depressed ever since my mothers death eight years ago along with other factors that I’m not going to get too much into.

Every time I try to talk about how I’m struggling with depression (or just anything that I’m having difficulty going through) to my friends or my SO, I feel as if it gets brushed off. There were few times I mentioned how I am struggling with my depression to my SO, and I don’t know if they just forget or they’re really just that uninterested in me, but all they would say is, “I’m surprised you have depression. You’re so cheerful all the time.” and does not give me any words of comfort. Similar thing with my friends, where I’d tell them how I’m not doing too well and I would try and open up but it always just goes back to how they’re having a harder time. I used to try my best to be emotional available for them, but I feel at my limit. I don’t know if I just have high expectations or they’re really just not that emotionally invested in me.